"Warm Light", a SKZ One-shot
Note: I wrote this after a really bad breakup, I used my name in the tale,but you can replace it with your own if you want. Also, the outfits all resemble Felix's from when he wore the beautiful prince like suit last year.
“Warm Light”
By Nekora
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My heart was broken,
Feeling like my body had ceased to exist,
My limbs, my chest, my head,engulfed in a shadow,
Swallowed up by pain in my soul,
Numb and feeling like i was a phantom,
My heart felt empty and shattered.
Everything around me went black,
I felt my hands reach over to my bedside table,
Picking up a set of headphones as i slid them on my ears,
Turning on a playlist i had saved in my phone,
Slowly falling asleep.
My eyes were heavy,
My thoughts weighing down on me,
Feeling empty inside,
I succumbed into slumber
Not knowing what was about to happen next.
As my mind slipped into an unconscious state,
The music in my headphones changed to a song that meant a lot to me,
“Cover Me’ by Stray Kids.
Suddenly, i dreamt i was in a strange, beautiful garden,
An eden like paradise covered in flowers,
A clear pond in the center of the place with an ornate,
White pagoda in the middle,
a golden bridge connecting it to the grass in front of me.
“Where am i?” i asked.
“I’m scared….where is everyone? I don’t know where i am…”
“Don’t worry. You’re safe here.”
I heard a voice, it sounded like a deep yet comforting whisper in the wind,
Along with seven other voices accompanying the first.
“Is everything ok?”
“Are you alright?”
“Do you need anything? Maybe a hug?”
“Your face, it’s covered in tears…”
“They’ve been crying, but why?”
“Maybe something bad happened?”
“Then, let’s make ourselves known.”
Just like that,
A flash of light came forth,
And eight figures came walking through the bright light,
Each dressed like a prince,
Their clothes in eight different colors,
Like a walking rainbow.
“H-hello?” I ask, scared and confused,
Trembling like a leaf and watching as the light faded behind the eight men.
“Anohangsayo, We are Stray Kids!” All of them said in unison, giving a bow.
But as the man in a beautiful red and black uniform walked up to me, i flinched,
Letting out a squeak of fear.
“Hey, are you alright?” He asked, gently lifting my face to his.
“No…” I hoarsely choked out, holding in more tears.
“What’s your name?”
“Nekora….” My voice was soft, unsure of what to say.
“There’s no need to be scared, I’m Bang Chan, or you can call me Chris if you want. What happened, Nekora?”
“I got my heart shattered…A guy i loved gave up on me, said he couldn’t do it anymore,
I thought i would love him forever…but my heart now feels empty, broken..
Like i shouldn’t exist anymore. Like i should erase everything.”
I felt the tears fall again,
The salty liquid stinging my eyes,
Falling upon my cheeks as it felt like fire,
Coughing and sniffling as i felt Chan’s hand on my back,
Telling me to breathe slow as i looked into his dark brown eyes,
Feeling myself start to breathe normally again.
“Never say that. Erasing yourself from the world….
That won’t fix anything. Heartbreak hurts,yes.
But…things will get better.” He said.
The second man walked up to me, wearing an emerald colored suit that complimented his dark red hair,
A shining silver piercing was under his right eyebrow,
Glimmering in the sunshine.
His face was like looking like a beautiful painting,
With soft, pale skin and calm brown eyes.
“A-And you are?” I said, still shaky in the voice.
“Hyunjn Hwang, but you can simply call me Hyunjn.” He smiled, placing a hand on my shoulder.
“You feel cold…Is this because of your heart?”
I Nodded,
Knowing the breakup made me feel numb inside,
The crying from before stopped all my emotions,
Feeling like a shell of what i once was.
“Your heart…It feels like ice,
It feels like someone took a hammer to it.” Hyunjin said.
“Don’t worry. It may feel like you won’t love again, but it takes time to heal.””
He put his hand where my heart was,
It felt like the pain went away,
Like my heart began to beat once again,
But slow and steady.
The third and fourth men walked up next, dressed in stunning shades
Of orange and pink, one bringing me a blanket,
The other bringing a box of tissues and a glass of water.
The one in Pink had a kind face, mochi like cheeks and strong arms,
The one in orange had a smile like a Quokka, warm and sweet,
Like a freshly made pancake.
They brought me to a nearby bench and sat me down.
“Here. Drink this and wipe those tears. I’m Han and my friend in Pink here is Changbin.” Han smiled as i took the glass and a tissue,
Wiping away the tears from my worn,
Shadowy face.
I felt Changbin wrap the blanket around my body,
As i saw his lips curl into a smile,
I suddenly felt my own lips form a soft smirk,
The shadows beginning to wane from my hands,
Letting out a soft “Thank you.”
“You know, It sucks to have your heart broken.
It feels like someone ripped part of your soul out of your body,
By someone you thought you could trust.” Changbin said.
“But, things get better. You need to breathe,
Take care of yourself, prioritize your own health first.
Listen to what your heart says.” Han said.
The next two walked up, dressed in Yellow and a soft, calming blue.
The one in yellow had a cute fox plush in his hands,
While the one in blue brought a small plate with a brownie on it,
They smiled at me, bringing chairs over to sit on in front of me.
“We could see you were stressed, and that’s not good.
Seungmin here brought you a brownie to nibble on, to calm your nerves.
And i brought you a plushie to hold,
Those always help me when i’m sad. I’m Jeongjin,
But everyone calls me I.N.”
“Thank you…” I whispered again.
“I can tell this really hurt you…did you love them?” Seungmin asked.
“I thought i did. He was kind, accepted me, treated me like someone
That deserved to feel human again. I’ve been hurt too much,
And i’m sick of it.”
“Sounds like they never truly loved you. Did they ever tell you they did?”
“No.”
“Then he didn’t deserve you.” I.N said as he handed me the plush,
It’s cute face making my smile widen a little. “If he truly loved you,
He’d have told you, and made you feel like you belonged.”
“He’s right.” Another voice chimed in.
The seventh of the men walked up to me,
Dressed in pale purple with a pin on the lapel in the shape
Of a bunny,
His face reminded me of a calm ocean,
He knelt down and hugged me, tears falling on his shoulder,
Softly hiccuping.
“I’m Lee Know…I heard everything you said to them,
And you didn’t deserve any of what you went through,
Not at all. You should’ve told him all of this…why didn’t you?” He asked,pulling away a little to wipe away my tears.
“Because, i guess i was looking through Rose tinted glasses, not realizing all the red flags. He was more focused on his career, never telling me he loved me, when we made love, it was like sleeping with a man made of cardboard, not full of excitement…It was loveless. It was just…empty. He hardly cuddled me, and he wouldn’t stop bringing up his more successful ex…It made me feel like crap.” I choked out, tears spilling from my eyes once again as i clutched the plush doll close to my chest and wrapped the blanket around my body.
“You didn’t deserve any of that.” Came one final voice.
I looked up, my eyes bloodshot from crying hard, but i took my glasses off,
Wiped my tears away and put them back on, i saw a man with blonde hair that reminded me of sunshine, Brown eyes that gave off a kind aura as i looked at him,dressed in all white with a beautiful diamond brooch on his suit, his right arm hidden by a cloak as he walked towards me, his face looked angelic, with freckles that dotted along his cheeks and the bridge of his nose,
Resembling stars in the night sky….one was even shaped like a heart on his cheek.
“And you are?” I hiccuped.
“I’m Felix. I heard everything you said as well, and…all of us here have went through identical moments in life, finding love and losing it, being in a loveless relationship, having our eyes covered by wool and not realizing the person we’re with isn’t good for us at all…” He said, gently cupping my chin and looked in my eyes, leaning up to plant a soft kiss on my forehead. “You deserve much better in life, someone that’ll actually love you, treat you right, heal your wounded heart, and bring forward the best feelings you’ll ever feel in your life. Someone that accepts every part of you, no matter what.”
I felt the last of my shadows fade away,
As if his kiss helped me calm down, my heart felt warm again,
My chest radiated light, a warm, comforting light,
Like a fireplace that was lit in my soul,
i felt happy again.
“Thank you…all of you.
Chan, I.N, Changbin, Hyunjin, Felix, Seungmin,Lee Know, Han…
Thank you so much…” I choked out, my eyes shut as tears once again fell from my eyes,
But this time,
They were happy tears.
Just then, i felt something in my hands.
I opened my eyes, it was a lightstick,
It had a beautiful silver compass star in the middle, surrounded by a red circle,
Enclosed in a dome,
But i looked around and saw all of them holding an identical lightstick in their hands,
With Chris nodding at me with a smile.
“No matter where you are, what you’re doing, you’ll always have us on your side.” He said.
“We’ll be with you, no matter what.” Hyunjin piped up.
“Whenever you need a hug, or kind words, just picture us in your mind.” Han smiled.
“You’re a part of STAY as well, you know. You make Stray Kids stay, after all.” I.N chuckled.
“When we give the word, raise your lightstick up in the air, ok?” Lee Know said, smirking.
“Don’t worry, We’ll always be with those that bring happiness to others. It’ll all be ok.” Changbin said, his kind eyes sparkling a little.
“Now, are you ready? We want to let you wake up with a smile.” Seungmin said, smiling as well.
“Raise it up now, along with us. One, two, three….” Felix said as they all raised their lightsticks in the air, and once i took a deep breath….
….I did too.
From all of the lightsticks, a shining silver light came from the center,
The sky peppered with stars everywhere, twinkling and glimmering.
I could make out the different patterns in the sky, resembling their SKZOO selves…
I saw Wolf Chan, Bbokari, Dwaekki, FoxI.Ny, Leebit, Jiniret,PuppyM,and finally Hanquokka…they were smiling at me.
Before i woke up, i felt them all walk up to me and wrap their arms around me in a giant hug…
It felt so comforting,
I wanted to cry,
But i couldn’t.
All i could do was smile.
I felt one final kiss on my forehead…
….And my alarm was going off.
I woke up with a smile,
My headphones falling off my head as i whispered…
“Thank you.
My heart will heal soon,
Thanks to you all.”
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