#honestly not sure i'm any less embarrassing now tbh but ¯\_(・◡・)_/¯

[seekingthestars]

Uhm.. so this is so weird... but I remember your blog from like back in 2010/2011 and I got so excited when I saw your blog pop up and still active. I know so weird but it made me happy and nostalgic??? I'm sorry!

OH MY GOD HI, NO THIS IS NOT WEIRD, DON'T BE SORRY this made my night!!! 🥺🥺🥺💞💞💞💞💞 thank you!!!!! i honestly thought there were only like...two people who would remember my blog from back in its early days HAHA the fact that my little mess of a blog can make someone happy and nostalgic?? i'm truly honored 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭💞💞💞💞💞💞

[faith-forgxtten-land]

Hihihi!

I'm not sure if your requests are open, but the fic I just read was a request and was posted within the last 24 hrs, so I'm gonna take the chance that they are (can you tell I'm autistic yet?😂)

Could I request a slightly nsfw (just a lil spicy) Bay!Raph fic where the Fem! Reader is watching him workout and offhandedly mentions that she wishes she could lift as much as he does?

Her question prompts him to let her lay on the bench and "lift" the weights (obviously he's carrying almost all of the weight). Just a corny little piece that shows our Big Red some love.

Thank you for your time!💜

Spotting | Raphael

requests are open dw!! honestly feel free to send as many requests as you want at any time, if they're not open you'll know because i'll plaster it somewhere obvious. and corny pieces are the best kind <3

since its valentine's day, i kind of went extra corny with a vague valentine's plot... i hope you like it and lemme know what you think! it's only slightly spicy and suggestive because tbh i wasn't sure how far to go.

warnings: suggestive, slight choking? (oops) valentine's day mentions, single people try not cry too much. everyone is 18+!! never proofread

summary: it's valentine's day and for some reason you have nothing better to do than watch raphael lift weights

word count: 1195

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

“Why are you lifting weights on Valentine’s Day?”

“Why are you watching me lift weights on Valentine’s Day?” Raphael retorts quickly and it’s such a good question that you pause.

Well, then. You sniff in mock indignance. “I’ll have you know that I was asked out by 12.5 different people ahead of today, thank you very much.”

You can’t see it, but you can tell he’s smirking. “12.5?”

“I figure Mikey only counts for 0.5 since I’m pretty sure he’d ask every woman he sees if he could.”

Raph snorts and your mouth pulls into a stupidly wide smile knowing you’ve amused him. He’s so relaxed like this, when it’s just the two of you, and your smile turns soft at the thought. There’s no one you’d rather spend the day with – Valentine’s Day or not – and the view isn’t bad either.

Speaking of... you tilt your head. Rivulets of sweat trickle down his green skin and you bite your lip watching the flexing of his muscles. He’s so much bigger than you, you’re pretty sure his bicep is bigger than your head, and he could cover your entire face with his palm – he’d done it just yesterday when you wouldn’t stop pestering him about a romcom you wanted to watch (it’s okay, you knew they were secretly his favourite kind of movie too, he didn’t have to protest so much – even grown turtles should be allowed to indulge in some Richard Gere and Julia Roberts). 

His size had intimidated you at first, had made you hesitant, but now it makes your knees weak and makes your heart accelerate with something entirely different to fear. It’s quiet apart from his breathing and the clang of his weights and you wonder if he can hear the thundering of your pulse.

“You’re staring.”

“Hmm?”

His muscles flex again and you’re quick to press your thighs together. You’re certain it's deliberate at this point. “You’re staring,” he repeats, his voice a little deeper.

You flush as you realise what he’s saying. “Not my fault you can bench press a truck,” you grumble to hide your embarrassment. “I’m jealous.”

The terrapin smirks again and sits up, his eyes bright. “C’mere.”

“Ex-squeeze me?”

It’s Raph’s turn to grumble. “You’ve been hanging around Mikey too much.”

You grin because it's true and walk slowly towards where he’s waiting. Your feet are clearly more sensible and less fuzzy than your brain (you are definitely not still thinking – and staring – at his arms, nope) because they stop just before you can stand between his legs. His eyes run along the curves of your calves and his gaze feels like a dizzying caress as it glides up your torso, lingering on the bare skin around your throat in a hungry way that makes you swallow just to watch him watch the movement. “What’s the plan, Red?” 

Your voice doesn’t feel like your own and you’re kind of impressed by how put-together you sound. It’s not the breathless wheeze you expected, it's low and sultry and suggestive and your eyes flutter as his breath hitches. The two of you have flirted before but this feels different. It’s intimate beyond your typical friendly banter and you have the urge to touch him.

He reaches for you first, pulling you closer and resting his hands on your hips. His hands are huge, and your mouth feels dry as he squeezes a little too hard to be innocent. “Raph...”

He squeezes again at your murmur. “Lie down.” His voice is rough and you shiver. He brushes his fingers across the goosebumps he’s raised, and you let him manoeuvre you with ease.

It probably looks so silly, and you fight the incredulous laughter that bubbles in your chest. The bar above you is ridiculously oversized and heavy and the thought of you lifting it is absurd and your laugh can’t be stopped this time as you look at the green-skinned ninja above you. His lips are twitching as you cackle and your eyes focus on the scar that decorates them, longing to soothe your tongue over it, as you regain your composure. “You good?”

“I’m good,” you reassure him. He’s so fucking cute, you think. You can see his nervousness now even if he tries to play it off and you feel like you’ve just swallowed a bucketful of butterflies. “Are you spotting?”

Raph runs his tongue – you do not shift your hips at how thick it is – across his upper lip, over that scar you want to taste for yourself. He looks torn for a moment, building himself up, and places his heavy hands on the bar above you. “Something like that,” he agrees before instructing you on how to position your hands.

You push up and immediately swear at the impossible weight. Raph snickers and you pout and glare simultaneously. “Don’t be mean.”

“You haven’t seen me be mean, baby.”

Oh. Your glare falters. That’s just not fair and he knows it. He’s grinning now and you curse him in your head. You push again and this time the bar lifts, as light as a feather. His hands are still wrapped around it and you’re not lifting a single thing, but the moment feels heavy. He hasn’t let his eyes drift from yours and you don’t dare look away. It feels intense and intimate and you can admit that your skin is on fire and your pulse is throbbing knowing how easily he’s carrying a weight that you couldn’t budge with all your might.

He guides the bar back down after a moment that could have been seconds or minutes or hours and you release a breath you didn’t realise you were holding. He’s still looking at you as you sit up and he invades your personal space. You have to tilt your head back to maintain eye-contact and you shudder as his palm cups your chin.

He’s so tall and imposing and you have to bite your tongue as his hand trails further down. You let him wrap his fingers around your neck and you rest your hand on top of his in encouragement, unable to stop a needy whine as he heeds your silent request and squeezes gently. His pupils are blown and he’s breathing harder than he had been while working out and you feel smug knowing you’ve caused this reaction. In a blink he’s pushed you back and he’s leaning over you. He smells like sweat and his skin is damp from exertion and it's kind of gross and it really shouldn’t be turning you on, but it is and your legs spread involuntarily.

You expect him to close the gap between your lips as he hovers above you and your eyes that had fluttered shut open again when it’s clear he has no intention of moulding your mouths together. He’s got a soft look in his eyes paired with a devilish smile and it makes your chest burn. You don’t expect the next words out of his mouth.

“Be my Valentine?”

You splutter and he laughs as he finally presses his lips to yours.

[maiverie]

hihi! im kinda young (14 turning 15 in aug!) and i saw that another anon asked for your help on creating a blog .. i kind of need help too 😭😭 do you have any tips on writing? i wanna start a blog but have no experience in writing like AT ALL. except for maybe writing essays for eng or having to create comfort texts for friends because erm therapist friend here☝️

hiiii omg im so sorry for the late reply HAHA but firstly happy early birthday for august!!! plsss I'd be so happy to help! here's my reply to the other post on setting up your blog :>

as for writing tips,,,, um bro honestly idk if I'm the best person to answer ur question but here are some of my personal thoughts!! also comfort friend so real DONT GET BURNT OUT THO 😭

—(long post below)

disclaimer: I am obviously not the best most amazing writer, so these are just my personal thoughts !!! I'm sure there are other users out there with better insights !!!

when I started writing I was like really really really shit like PROPER shit it's actually fucking embarrassing reading back to it 💀 but idk sometimes it's just fun to look back and see all the improvements I've made along the way — for you, it might be that way too. you might feel like it's shit to begin but honestly the more you write, the easier it becomes and naturally you'll improve ! so I think the best mindset to have when you start is to just try, and be okay with the fact that it will obviously not be your best work and you'll just get better and better and better!

here are some writing tips I've previously written - I'll reiterate some of the points there but maybe give it a read and see if it helps?

I think it's easiest to start with one idea and use it as a seed — just let ideas slowly grow from it; keep adding little details and details until it sprouts into a big tree! for example, you can pick a trope that you really like (maybe something you've read before in someone else's fic, or something you've seen in movies/tv shows/books) and then pick a member from whichever group you want to write for (I'm assuming enhypen since you're on my blog) and just write!! for example, you can pick enemies to lovers and then be like hmmm I really want to do jay and enemies to lovers! from there, you can think about the smaller details: why are they enemies (plot)? what do enemies say to each other (dialogue)? where are they when they say these things (setting)?

I think it's easier to write the kind of things that you like to read! so if you really like one shots, write a one shot. if you like smaus, write an smau. if you like headcanons, do the same! stick to whatever you've seen before because then it'll feel a little less daunting! personally, I used to read a lot of like stupid little romcoms growing up and so that's just naturally what I kind of write now ^^ you'll notice that everyone has different taste; so you might see someone's writing and be like "wow it's really good!" and people might disagree with you — in saying that, don't try to please everyone and just write whatever u like ^^ you'll attract people who personally gravitate toward your writing !

tbh, fic writing is nowhere near the same calibre of actual book writing so I wouldn't fret too much about designing a really intricate plot with like fully-fleshed characters because nobody really does that anymore (at least not on blr? i think that's more common on wattpad where people have like 20+ chapters ya feel) — I think just write what makes you happy! If it's about your bias + a trope you like then ezz that's all u need to do hdfshsdh

there are people who like to fully plan out fics and there are people that just wing it — I'm sure you'll find your style, but don't feel worried if you can't seem to brainstorm anything! I think it's easier to just start, and then think about that could happen next. maybe you can start a story with dialogue and then just continue on with the conversation !!

when you're writing scenes, think about setting and characters — for example, think about how they feel, how they react to another character’s dialogue, how they physically react to someone's touch, how cold or hot the weather is, where they're standing/sitting and what their surroundings look like, what time it is, etc. etc. obviously don't include everything (especially the irrelevant stuff) but my point is that there are so many different directions you can go!

here are some other tips I can think of:

read your dialogue out loud and think to yourself, "would someone actually say this?" also, make sure only one person speaks per paragraph so it's less confusing

use a thesaurus sparingly — try not to use convoluted language bc I'd say people who read your work are going to be around the same age as you and idk it's just a lil weird if you're using random words that nobody really uses irl

pay attention to your grammar/syntax — make sure some sentences don't run too long and that when you read it out loud, it makes sense!

also spell-check HSDHDS BUT HONESTLY MY FICS ARE RIDDLED W TYPOS LIKE IT DOESNT RLLY MATTER TBH.. SO LONG AS ITS NOT HORRIBLE?? UHH

treat your characters like real people and think about what they say/do and if it's something in or out of character!! in saying that, give them motivations and fears and all the juicy stuff that real humans have — if you care about writing a story that people will remember, then I think it'd be great if you could write memorable characters by fleshing them out and making them lovable or hate-able(?) or relatable.

make sure scenes flow from one to the other — it's the same as you do with your eng essays! you make sure you're not talking about one thing before quickly jumping to the next. I think you can apply the same logic to writing fiction :))

honestly it's hard to give tips because I'm not sure what type of stories you want to write and what direction you're going for, so I'm really sorry if my tips were a little too generalised!! but if I'm gna be like so so so so fr right now, I honestly think writing for enhablr can be easy/simple — my tl;dr is that you should just pick a member + easy trope + make sure you have a mildly interestingly plot and once you add in decent grammar, you'll probably do really great! I don't mean this in a bad way, I just think ff writing doesn't have to be too difficult because most people just want to read about and imagine their bias in situations they'll never be able to see irl (its kinda the whole point of ff)!! I don't think people think much about fics beyond that !! this is all just for fun!!! so I really hope u have fun writing!!! lmk what u end up working on ^^

I hope this helps; idk if it did 😭 but lmk if u need any more clarification 😭💖

[hiruzensux]

concept: Hiruzen giving Enma subtle misinformation about human culture to further his own Horny Agenda™️

(like i'm sure when they first met he already spoke the language and had a decent understanding of the more basic stuff; i don't know how different the culture of wherever it is he lives actually even is to begin with (i haven't given it much thought at all tbh) so it could all be pretty familiar to him... but regardless of how broad the overlap between the two cultures is, if he doesn't have much actual experience in the human realm, then it's totally believable from his end for certain stuff to be slightly or totally different)

this has some EXCELLENT potential re: pranks or practical jokes, but where my mind immediately went with this is misdirections of lustful intent

ex.:

Hiruzen: "ok this next one is called 'french kissing', and it's a human gesture of friendship and mutual respect"

Enma, interrupting him: "i do not respect you"

Hiruzen, internally, trying not to cry: alright yeah i totally deserved that

(Hiruzen maybe has a special advantage in this particular subgenre (claims in the format "[insert sexy activity] is a Normal Friend Thing"), bc if Enma's skeptical, Hiruzen can just be like "no, really! watch, i can prove it — hey Kagami—")

see also: how it's standard protocol amongst humans for comrades-in-arms to sleep spooning ("that's what the 'in-arms' part is from"), or the time-honored human tradition of Underwear Sparring, and of course the Post-Spar Massage

his success is limited though bc Enma just isn't very gullible

however, alternatively... maybe Enma isn't buying (ex.) mutual masturbation as a conventional team-building exercise... but if it happens that he's into it anyway, all he has to do is play along, and then he gets what he wants without having to admit any embarrassing feelings 👍

(honestly though, if he did succeed in a more substantial deception, i think Hiruzen would likely end up feeling too bad to continue with it very long before confessing anyways... so i'm not sure how far this would actually get either of them)

returning to that first example... in that case, if Enma believed him, then when Enma DID finally kiss him (frenchly), it would be an EXTRA meaningful first kiss scenario, since it would mean Hiruzen had finally earned his respect... ohh... that's kind of sweet...

...except Hiruzen would DEFINITELY have to tearfully confess his lie then, in which case Enma would probably be like "oh yeah well. good bc i lied just now too. about respecting you" (the potency of this comeback slightly diminished by the implicit admission that he just wanted to kiss him)

i don't know if Hiruzen ever got to visit Enma's realm, but i hope so, so that Enma gets his turn to use this same mechanic in revenge! idk if he'd go for it or not since it seems less his style... but if he DID, he'd probably be much meaner about it and go straight for that full public humiliation potential that Hiruzen mercifully left mostly alone

[theharrowing]

Oooh, so many interesting questions! 4, 13, 14, 25, 32, 38, 43, 44, 51 please. (oops kind of a lot lol. you can do less if you want!) what does 38 mean huh?? 43, my fav is koya despite being yoongi biased :/ i like sleepy/tired characters. i feel guilty for "betraying" my bias though lol

hello, anon!!! sorry for keeping you waiting, my dear! i am not shy so let's answer all of these hehe.

4. Current Bias?

but also namjoon has been like.........sharing the throne??? so to speak????? i don't know. i just cry over men, that's all i know.

13. Any concert experience? 

yes! thanks to some generous friends, i got to go to PTD LA nights 1, 3 & 4! for 3 & 4, a gaggle of gals slept in my home (i even gave them my bed) so them scoring me a ticket definitely came with the guarantee of somewhere for them to sleep. 🥰🥰🥰 here are two of the first pics i found in my camera roll that looked cute enough to share:

14. Funny moments that always make you laugh?

i answered this questions here too, but after some thought, the first thing that really made me laugh like i was dying was the run bts episode where jungkook made the sweet potatoes that stuck to the plate. he was my bias at the time too, and i was smitten by how fucking cute and silly he was. still makes me laugh all these (2 lol) years later. when jin got hit in the nuts with the air hockey puck. when suga unplugged the tv while jin was playing. they're pure chaos without even trying and i love them very much.

25. Do you read fanfics? If yes can you recommend one? 

i read a lot of fanfics! i just finished reading Stars Lost in the Sea by smiles and WOW THE ANGST i cried so much lmao, like so, so much. really great story. yoonjin, time travel, yearning. it was so good!

32. ______ (member) dream you had?

thinking about this makes me realize that recently jungkook was in a dream, but the plot is completely lost to me, and honestly, i'm a bit sad. i dream about them often. once i had a dream a very naked namjoon was beneath me (i was straddling his waist, p sure i clothes on lmao) and he was saying "show me how you fuck yoongi oppa" and then i woke up and had A LOT OF REGRETS!!!! (and if i put a similar scene in collateral 11 that's my own business.) (also, i'm older than yoongi and wouldn't call him oppa, but...my subconsciousness went for it.) my dreams aren't always sexual, though! sometimes we're just in come chaotic dream world doing chaotic things. but they are sexy occassionally. 😈

38. Your BTS guilty pleasure?

no, i am unabashedly am army lol. although many armys are embarrassing as hell and i steer clear of the drama and don't associate with them lmao. i think a guilty pleasure is something you like despite it not being popular, or despite people thinking it's not a good thing to like? and i don't think bts can even fit into that classification bc their fanbase is fucking huge. and they seem to genuinely be good people. but ig haters will say it's photoshop idk.

43. Favorite BT21 character?

honestly, shooky. I KNOW YOONGI IS MY BIAS but i don't like them bc of that lol i like them bc they're super cute and a vibe. they're a grumpy cookie and like............gosh, big fucking mood. i love them all tho, 10/10 very cute cuties. i dont even really collect plushies and i have 7 shookys lmao. and 1 rj.

44. BTS Merch you own or some you want to own?

i own a fair share. i have most cds, some dvds, some seasons greetings/winter packages. enamel pins, the coveted whale plushie, yoongi's necklace, joon's windchime, tae's enamel pins...a lot of washi tapes lol. the me, myself & i photobooks (thanks to one very generous beta reader.) 🥺

there's nothing i really want right now, tbh. i wasn't a collector before, so it's still kinda weird to me to want material possessions; i have been trying, more recently, to only get things i can wear or actually use bc i am a very broke college student, once again lol. i finally got the recipe book, and i'm really excited to use it!

51. If BTS were not Idols what job YOU believe they will choose?

hmm, this is a tough question. i could really see namjoon and yoongi as professors of some sort, or as therapists. jungkook would probably be a veterinarian. taehyung would own a very prestigious daycare center. hoseok and jimin would still be in the dance scene, somehow. seokjin would be a retired actor.

i could also see all 7 of them being twitch streamers or youtubers. seokjin and jungkook would play games. namjoon and yoongi would be philosophical. taehyung's channel would be chaotic with no theme. hoseok would model his latest clothing hauls and jimin would be a self-taught makeup artist.

ask me some BTS questions!!!!

[anewbrainjughead]

I’m Scotland anon! We’re flying into Inverness and driving to visit my sister who’s living outside Aberdeen. It would be cool to know a couple good places to go, but also any tips to not embarrass myself as a tourist?? Ty!

Hi! I'm going to be honest, i haven't spent a ton of time up the north end of the country, at least not for a good few years, so i'm afraid i don't have a ton of insight on what places to go around aberdeen, especially if you're looking for nightlife and the like. I know that inverness has a castle and a really cool bookshop called Leakey's and thats about it. I've been to aberdeen exactly 3 times and all i remember about it was that the sea had foam so thick and yellow that it looked like old mattresses and that the seagulls there are massive hulking mutants who run that city through intimidation and stolen chips

I'm not sure whether you're planning on spending most of your time in the city or if you want to see more of the country, but there's some lovely countryside around the north/northeast. Stonehaven is a really nice picturesque seaside town about half an hour from aberdeen. There's a castle/ruins you can take a tour of, and tbh there's few things more scottish than eating ice cream and chips on a beach on a cold day, assuming you're going to be visiting sometime between now and like april lol. If you have the time it's worth checking out some of the islands. Skye is beautiful and one of the closer islands to aberdeen. I think there's a pretty regular ferry from there to the mainland and its less than an hour journey.

(i'm about to go on a food rant sorry) Scotland definitely isn't renowned for its food, but if you are looking to eat 'traditional' scottish food then the best thing to get is fish/seafood. You can get some really good, really fresh stuff in seafood shacks by the beach, but also just in restaurants in any coastal town/city, though i'd make sure to look at locals reviews on google so you don't get ripped off. Scotland is overall pretty good for vegan/vegetarian food too, and we have a lot of really solid indian restaurants and takeaways, which i'd def recommend. Honestly scotland's best culinary offerings are probably curry, ice cream, and whiskey. Also if you find a sweet shop (or more likely a newsagents selling old fashioned sweets) you should try soor plooms, these bright green boiled sweets (or hard candies if you're american).

I really don't think you need to be worrying about embarrassing yourself, i promise you that as long as you have basic human courtesy and aren't super condescending about scottish accents/culture nobody will be bothered by you. I will say that aberdonian accents, and accents around that part of the country are really fucking weird and not very similiar to any of the accents you'd likely have heard on tv, which tend to lean more towards a stereotypical highlands or glaswegian accent, so if you're alarmed by how people talk you aren't going crazy, they just do talk like that. I doubt this will come up, but scottish ppl might get pissy if you mispronounce certain things. Like scottish gaelic is pronounced gah-lick not gay-lick, edinburgh is pronounced edin-bruh, and glasgow is pronounced glaz-go. Also never refer to scotland as being a part of or the same as england, and generally don't refer to scottish people as british. Not everyone will be offended by being considered british, but it's generally a sore spot for people, and the english thing is just plain wrong. Also if you're american and have scottish ancestry its perfectly fine to be excited about being in scotland but if you're too enthusiastic about it people will give you the side eye and think you're obnoxious tbh

sorry i couldn't be more of a help, i actually would have advice about travelling around the middle/south of the country but i'm not sure whether you're planning on travelling down that far and i've already rambled on way too much. If you are thinking of travelling further down the country, especially around edinburgh or glasgow i would be happy to give more salient advice on where to go and what to do. I hope this helped in some way at least :) I really hope you have a good trip nonetheless

[ouyangzizhensdad]

Hey, feel free to ignore this, but I'd love to hear your grievances against Bridgerton? I saw some of the fashion posts you rbed, but I'm especially intrigued by the "fails on all aspects" parts? Thanks!

Hi there,

There is honestly so much that could be said and analysed in finer points but the short version of it is just that it is a bad story wrapped in the glitz of high production value but surprisingly little good technical execution despite all the money shoveled at it. Bridgerton is the type of show where the petty, mean side of me would delight in a detailed and cutthroat list of all of its flaws but for which I do not care enough to be actually invested in hating it. It’s just a thing to be puzzled and petty about: people think Bridgerton is good. Wild.

Now let me first say that I have no inherent problems with anachronistic creative choices, or the idea of a contemporary take on period dramas. After all, all period dramas are inevitably told through a contemporary lens, to different degrees. It’s also not like they were the first big production to do it either: has everyone just forgot about The Great Gatsby? or tumblr’s favourite Hamilton? I honestly think this kind of mixing already has so many cool outcomes when it comes to music (like this, this or this and this), I do believe we could get something really interesting out of creative anachronism in mainstream visual media. I’m also more forgiving with newer forms of experimentation, because sometimes new ideas need to be worked out before they reach their full potential. But the way Bridgerton does it.... so clearly lacks a clear creative vision and dedication to the concept imo that it makes it harder to excuse the ways it fails since the failures seem to originate from that lack of vision and dedication to storytelling. For instance, there is seemingly no logic as to when the diegetic music will be an instrumental cover of a contemporary song or not--which does not even broach the topic of how bad those ‘classical music’ arrangements for modern songs were? Honestly embarrassing how lazy those arrangements were: hire a good composer (or any at all), you cowards. And then the costumes... once again, a lack of internal logic seems to permeate the choices presented in addition to a lack of care in its execution: so many of the dresses are ill-fitted, the characterisation through the outfits were all over the place (like the mom who wore a silhouette that no one else wore and had no basis in any fashion of the era) and so many of the fabrics/jewellery looked the opposite of expensive (kind of looked like a lot of it was polyester and plastic tbh), which is sort of a problem when you are trying to sell the fantasy of "The lives of the rich and famous but make it regency” imo although I suppose a portion of the audience just doesn’t notice lmao. Honestly I find that a lot of ‘costume historians’ who made video essays on Bridgerton were too nice with the show, perhaps in order not to come off as seeming to hate the costumes on the basis of them not being historically accurate, and as a result were way too forgiving imo. And this lack of real creative vision is also something we see in the cinematography and direction which.... seems often confused about the way it wants to make things feel fantastical and ends up dropping the ball on the execution of these meant-to-be extravagant or over-the-top shots.

But, again, the cinematography is just... middling at best, made only worse by the editing which is just plain bad. I guess you’ll have to just take me on my word on this because I am not willing to do an autopsy of all I find off about it, but lord jesus mary and joseph it was painful to watch at certain moments.

Bridgerton is not the first show to do colourblind casting, although I’d say it deserves recognition for fucking it up for no reason at all. Like, sure there are criticisms to be had about how it remains still a very white story that falls into certain tropes wrt darker skin characters or the glaring lack of south asian representation considering what the contemporary UK looks like, etc. but what I’m gesturing at is the totally unnecessary but mind-boggling “royal love solved racism” twist we get in the, what, fourth episode? (Broey Deschannel covered the topic quite well imo) The audience would have accepted that there were no in-world explanation for the colourblind version of the already-made fantastical regency that had them dancing to Ariana Grande songs. The colourblindness, racism-free society would have just been another aspirational aspect. They literally did not need to do this.

Honestly I don’t feel like I need to get into why the story itself is not very good or well-executed since it feels very obvious. I won’t begrudge on principle the show for using well-worn tropes and common-to-the-point-of-farce character archetypes, but I have to object to the way it uses them and in the service of what story. And not to make myself in a plot-hole-ding kind of person-who-has-thoughts-about-media, but this is not a story that holds up well to scrutiny or logic, let’s say. And any type of social or political commentary it tried to include was dumb to the point of farce: the Feminist Character Who Wants to Read not Go Dance was just.... a masterclass in bad, embarrassing writing. I am surprised at how unlikeable and boring the vast majority of the characters were, but perhaps less surprised at how a series that planned on having multiple seasons already sold the twist of Lady Whistleblow’s identity at the end of the first season, for what seemed to be no narrative reason at all. That being said, I have to give credit where it’s due and acknowledge that there is a skill in being able to produce stories that get extremely popular and well-loved.

(Do I need to mention the performances? So many underwhelming or embarrassing performances. It’s hard to tell sometimes whether it’s the actors themselves or the directing that’s the issue, or a mixture of both, but.... oof).

I guess in the end Bridgerton’s biggest transgression is it sits for me in the uncomfortable middle where it is neither trashy or campy fun nor is it an interesting work of fiction. Differently put, it is simply neither good nor fun.

[lesbian-kyoru]

What is your opinion on kyoru's physical intimacy? I'm seeing two pretty distinct camps at least in the fanfic community: that they took forever to get there (like until they moved to their own place) or that they started out in Shigure's house. And I've also noticed a lot of people infantalising Tohru to the point where she's a completely non-sexual being, even though she ended up married with 3 kids?

ahhh hello! okay great question, and related to something i actually went off about in this post lol.

to reiterate a bit, i don’t really have a problem with kyo and tohru waiting until they move out to start an intimate relationship. like that’s not my personal hc, but i don’t hate that idea and i don’t think it’s Incorrect to hc that they’d wait to move out first (i’ve read some truly lovely fics that use exactly that concept without making a weird big deal out of it, and they use it extremely effectively and in an in-character way). like, i see it, it’s valid! and that’s fine. what i talked about in my earlier post, though, is that i think the hc that they waited FOREVER to start having sex, that they specifically waited until marriage due to shame/embarrassment, or that they like, only have sex to have kids and not because they just want to/”only have sex three times to have three kids” lmao, isn’t the best take—just because i think it stems a lot from toxic purity culture and the thought that kyo and tohru are too cute or pure or wholesome to also want a sexual relationship.

so to answer your question about their physical intimacy: my thoughts on it are shaped a lot by their physicality that we see in canon!! in that, they’re suuuuuper touchy with each other. kyo, in particular, definitely expresses affection primarily through touch—holding hands, headbonks, hugging even though it makes him transform… like kyo is really touch starved lmao. tohru is less forward in initiating touch—i think it just doesn’t come as naturally to her vs other forms of affection—but she’s always receptive when kyo touches her. and that’s before they even start dating—in the last few chapters once they’re in a relationship, they’re again very touchy with each other (with tohru initiating, too). so i think that that would translate very naturally to their sexual relationship. that is, i think they’d be very comfortable with it and that it becomes a big part of how they express their love.

on the one hand, kyo is the more physically expressive of the two, but i think his fear of harming tohru and general self-hatred that he’s still trying to get over post-curse might make him more hesitant to take that step with tohru. he wouldn’t avoid sex like the plague, but rather i think he’d need pretty consistent reassurance from tohru at first that she really wants to, that he’s not hurting her, etc. and then with tohru, she’s less physical than kyo, so i could see her being a bit more unsure of how to get the ball rolling… but also tohru is obviously very determined! and stubborn! so after they start dating and she feels comfortable being more intimate with him (which, like i said, i think happens pretty quickly), i think tohru absolutely wants to take that step, and i don’t think she’s afraid of telling kyo what she wants.

i honestly fall more into the “they had sex while they’re still at shigure’s” camp. i mean… they’ve had rampant sexual tension between them for a solid year… after endless yearning and drama, they finally get to be together… the curse is gone so there’s nothing keeping them apart physically… they’re madly in love and “clingy” with each other… they live under the same roof, across the hall from each other… yeah lmao. given all of that, combined with how tactile they naturally are with each other already, i just don’t see them waiting very long to become more physically intimate. and tbh the reasoning of “oh they’d wait because they wouldn’t want shigure to know” doesn’t really ring true for me because, since when does shigure even go upstairs? and does he usually barge into tohru’s room in the middle of the night? and re: yuki sharing a wall with tohru, i’ll be dead serious. i’m not sure they are thinking far enough ahead to consider yuki being next door. which is terribly unfortunate for yuki alksdflaksj but i don’t think it’s out-of-character for kyo and tohru LMAO. again, i think these things would be an aspect of navigating their sexual relationship, but i don’t think it stops them altogether from having one before they move out.

now wrt people infantilizing tohru, i really don’t like that take (preface again: this isn’t about hc’ing her or kyo as ace or anything along those lines.). not only do i think it’s unfortunate to write tohru as this completely non-sexual being because it’s tied into, again, a woman’s purity being based on whether she has sex or not—i also think it just doesn’t make sense for her character. sure, tohru is an airhead, doesn’t have prior relationship experience, etc., but people seem to forget that not only was her mom in a gang, she was literally a teen mom. tohru was 15/16ish when her mom died—and people really think kyoko never had The Talk with her? hello?? so yes i definitely think tohru knows what sex is LOL, and i think she has pretty normal sexual desires typical of a teenager/young adult. and because she had Excellent Sex Ed, i really don’t think she’d be averse to acting on those feelings once she falls in love with kyo and starts dating him. also, i know we all meme’d on tohru for this but like.... the comment about kyo’s hands getting bigger... like. i’m SORRY but what do people think that MEANS if it’s not tohru thirsting over kyo and his hands ajlksdhlksdh but ANYWAYS....

SO in conclusion, my takes: physical intimacy is definitely big for kyoru, and i don’t think it took them a ton of time before they started exploring that part of their relationship. they had insecurities and hang ups to work through like any other couple, but taking that step was ultimately very natural and comfortable for them! they’re awkward nerds in love and they also have sex and those things don’t contradict each other. :’)) and also uhhhhh if they had three kids they definitely had sex more than three times. like. a lot more than three times LMAO.

[tsukidrama]

Yeah, one of my friends has coronavirus and it seems like there really isn't anything you can do besides stay home and rest. Honestly, I'm glad you're doing that. Pushing yourself, even if its not a lot, isn't good at all. I'm really hoping the symptoms subside soon <3.

About the letters, I'd say the reader will be happy with any communication from Annie. I sure would be. I also wonder how Annie would sign her letters; would she use "sincerely", or "love"? Honestly, she'd probably find the latter too cheesy. Emotions are embarrassing, you know? By the way, if Pieck doesn't keep her promise she isn't gonna be invited over anymore! I mean it, she's cute but she better look out for Annie.

i can take medicine to help the symptoms but it really doesn't do much. my mom and my wife also tested positive, and both of them are doing better. i'm still not doing well. it's less of an outright illness t this and more just... i'm so tired all the time. taking a shower, or cooking a meal, is SO exhausting. i'm not going to work for a while, which will help. considering getting a completely different job tbh...

so far i've just made her sign her name at the end with no formal closing -- no nonsense. i think the one writing flowery love letters is reader in this situation. there are absolutely soft things in the letters but their purpose is mostly just to keep her informed, and to ease reader's anxiety. i don't think Annie is too eloquent when she gets upset, she shuts down instead.

> Oh, I'm really excited for the next chapter! I'm also really happy that it's going to be at least six thousand words! More sad yearning Annie content, which is arguable the best form of Annie content besides "she finally gets to be happy", and this would be a mixture of the two, I think. <

> A work in progress communication is better than none, I can't wait to see how they go about healing together. Also, I'm really excited to hear what songs go with the next chapters and especially when the full playlist drops! <

yeah so about that 👉👈 it's going to be a lot longer probably, i'm at like 9k now. i'll post trnt ch 7 before my bday (about 2 weeks from now) BUT i should actually have a backstory fic posted before then. i'm hoping to have it posted by this weekend but i'm struggling hard with the ending of part 1 😭

this is true! the happiness is going to make up for all the angst. y'all are doing amazing and you're so strong.

> I feel like I should apologize for responding so late, I haven't been feeling well lately. Not a coronavirus kind of unwell, more of just a lack-of-motivation-general-depression type thing. I'm feeling better, I just thought I'd let you know. <

> Have a good weekend, <

> Pink Anon <

girl it's fine, i'm beat too. that's completely understandable and i hope you continue to stay healthy. sorry to hear that you've been down but i'm glad to see you're better. i hope you've been well lately!

[starrysamu]

I FULL ON FEEL LIKE IT'S FATE WHEN IT COMES TO ME SCROLLING THROUGH MY DASH AND COMING ACROSS THE ASK I SEND U LOL but i couldn't reply right away cus i was studying ); but okay!!! ill stop by when i can then uwu AHH i totally understand. i dont know if u have ff that you write just for yourself, like not showing it to anyone or just close friends but in know sometimes i like having something that's just for me ! ⭐️ (1/4)

+ so when i feel pressured on tumblr i just go back to something just for me! it's definitely hard though and i feel like the writings you (or really any writer) share are truly gifts to the world because it's like, you dont //have// to share anything but the fact that you did it's like 🥺🥺 thank u for doing so. but there's always people who are assholes in which i will fight all of them ):< ⭐️(2/4)

+ i really wish i had the update where i have unlimited character asks lol. anyway. ooooo so like in a different fandom i was in a lot of writers would host writing challenges for their milestones where there's a limited amount of spots for maybe writing prompts or AUs or tropes or whatever and people would claim a spot, write it by a certain deadline, and the host would link + reblog their work! it's sorta like a promo aspect for other writers but it's a lil less work than (3/4) ⭐️

+ doing a huge huge event that i've seen in haikyuu? where it's a whole lot more writing for the person doing the celebration. which isn't bad! It's jsut an option and up to you if u ever want to do it :3c i feel like one of these days im gonna accidentally not click anon and reveal myself tho so like LOL,,, embarrassing. also!! idk if you like indie music but I'm a big fan of AJR songs! i can't pick a favorite so you csn't go wrong with any of their songs. drink water and stay healthy! (4/4) ⭐️

I HOPE U SEE THIS ON UR DASH AGAIN THEN!!! i hope ur studying hard but also giving yourself a break too every now and then! don’t burn urself out and rmr to eat and hydrate well :)

and YEAH i do have a few things like that!! i was working on something a little personal but like honestly not even that personal i just thought it’d be fun to write but it’s still ... in progress bc i had to put it on pause grrrr. and tbh i don’t like to reread things i wrote like honestly once i think it’s “ready enough” for me to put out i just post it and hope for the best. there’s maybe only two things of mine that i like to reread and they’re both super short and kinda emo just a lil but .... i like to still read them anyways hehe 

I DON’T HAVE THE UPDATE YET. i need to update it i just like don’t have space on my phone for anything i need to clear out some space ughhhhfhfjhj

OH TEAAA REALLY? that sounds really interesting i feel like every milestone event i’ve seen here is like where people request things from the writer (NOT ME NOT FINISHING MY MILESTONE EVENT ...... WILL I EVER) but that’s a really cool idea and i’m all for reading more stuff too!!! i’m gonna have to think about it if i ever do another event tbh (man i think i’ve only successfully finished one out of three events i’ve hosted which is so so awful of me but we won’t ... talk about that) 

IT WON’T BE EMBARRASSING IF IT HELPS I’LL LET U KNOW THAT I LOOKED AWAY!!! and i like AJR too!!! basic but burn the house down is my favorite song by them i think :3 

stay rested and be sure to take care of yourself!! good luck w ur studies <3 

[allsassnoclass]

hiya hazel! how about 4, 7, 14, 27, 33, 48, 53, 74, & 79 for the fic writer ask game? -megs 💙

@igarbagecannoteven hiya megs! thanks for stopping by!

4. How do you choose which fics to write? vibes. just whatever i'm feeling. sometimes i force myself to do fics that have "due dates" (the prompts, ficmas, unmute, etc) but i'm trying to not do that to myself anymore and right now i'm just slapping down words to whatever i want at the time and not thinking about public perception or my audience or whatever

7. Post a snippet from a wip.

She knows that he can't save her, but she never wanted him to, anyway. He understands her, and that sometimes feels like the same thing.

14. What is your favorite location and position to write in? i am currently sitting in the right corner of the couch in the living room, which is my main place i exist in the house tbh. as such, a lot of writing happens here. however, i also sometimes have a lot of success and fun writing at the table in the breezeway! i'm a little sad that i didn't start doing this until recently because it is getting colder out now

27. What area of writing do you feel strongest in? usually i feel like i have strong plots and worlds and can create them relatively easily. however, i have been struggling with this semi-recently, so... idk? i can write alright dialogue?

33. Is there a specific word count that you hold yourself to/enjoy writing the most? (fun fact, 33 is one of my favorite numbers!) for anything on ao3, my minimum wordcount is 1000. i don't feel satisfied posting anything less than that and honestly am not good at writing stories shorter than that. i take a lot of words usually. however, for askbox prompts my wordcount cap is 750 because i'm not going to push myself to write more if it's not coming.

48. Who is your favorite character to write for?  Has this changed since you’ve started writing for that fandom? mmmm interesting question! out of every character i've ever written, i think right now it's michael. he comes relatively easily to me, which makes things fun.

53. What is the most-used tag on your ao3? Christmas :/ because of ficmas lol

74. Do you have a fic you wish got a bit more love? all of them <3 no that's a lie. let me see. i think i'm going to plug black coffee and sulfur, my demon!calum fic from last halloween. i don't naturally gravitate towards writing concepts like that, but i think i did a pretty good job, and i think a lot more people would enjoy it than have read it so far.

79. Do you have any writing advice you want to share? i know that everyone says this but genuinely STOP caring about other people when you write. do not do that. write because you want to write, not because you want to post something. post because you want to share, for sure (i like sharing things i've created!!! i like sharing things i'm proud of and i like giving people nice things to read!), but write because you want to write, not because you want external validation. write that cringy embarrassing thing that you would only ever post on anon but that you have a lot of exciting inspiration for! write the trope that no one except you cares about! write what you want because you want to write it, not because you're putting some sort of weird internal pressure on yourself.

if you want like. technical advice on writing, then my advice would be to take some time to know your characters. figure out who they are and let them drive the plot, because it will make writing so much easier if you're not forcing them to do things that they would never actually do.

fanfic writing asks

[jooheongif]

it's theory anon,hi!!how are YOU?i'm really good rn thanks:)) thank you for your kindness again,i'm really happy i could somehow help to help you feel even a tiny bit better and hope you're doing well now,too(and it's ok to not rest on your day off but it's also ok to do so if that's what you feel is right for you atm!).about the mf(ilm), i thought the same thing, it felt like a parallel universe type of story!i also really love plotlines about friendship, (again cont.i'll try to be briefer!)

(i’m so sorry i wrote a rly long reply so i’m gonna put this under read more !!)

2. friendship is beautiful and i feel oftentimes underappreciated(but not mx!there they go again being amazing) so i love the concept. personally i like not knowing what exactly the producers were thinking because having my own interpretation of something and seeing other ppl have their own fills me with wonder,like,that's art!so many people think so many different things and no one's wrong i love it!!your thoughts about them appreciating everything they've done so far,you're absolutely right(cont) 3. i hope they are able to bc everything's so hectic for the.i get lost just looking at their official schedule,i don't know how they do it but i also hope they are aware of all these things bc those are all mindblowingly huge accomplishments in my opinion and i just want them to feel like their hard work is worth it,yknow?(is this comprehensible?)and i know they feel pressure because as you said the business is nasty but yea i hope at the end of the day they can feel like (cont.???again 4. everything they've put so much of themselves into is worth it,i love their energy and fierce determination and i just don't want them to lose it but maybe as you said feel less pressured..but then the only way would realistically be to make sure they get awarded in the Real World so we're all doing our best in the system&hating it as you said:/ they just mean so much to so many people i want them to feel that too!i try to contain myself but here i go again! sorry it's so long AND i have more(con 5. also!thank you for your big reply and sharing your thoughts i mostly just agreed with (but you're right so what else can i do),i don't have mbb friends to vent to and fanperson(is there a gender neutral term for fanboy/fangirl?) over mx with and this is really nice and fulfilling(again,if i'm boring you,you can just delete the messages and not reply!) so THANKS!it's great to strive to be a better person but i feel like one(you) should also acknowledge the good things they're already doing(cont?) 6. you showed such pure kindness and really melted someone's(my) heart and that's a Big Deal!djkghddgwe can agree that we both inspired each other :') also please i feel like you're such a wonderful soul and you really deserve every bit of gratitude and appreciation i managed to express(i feel a lot moreprobably) so!yeah!reminder that you're lovely and deserve to be appreciated and i'm also very,very happy you're here!you made my day brighter for the 2nd time now wow!thanks! i hope you and(cont.:() 7. your gorgeous heart are taking good care and enjoying your day/night! and this cb!i really like it i haven't had time to listen to the entire album but jealousy!is a bop honestly it's my type of jam and the choreo is stunning and so are their voices!iwas so skeptical about the lyrics(they could've been like hero or stuck and those made me a bit >:/ honestly) but i really should've known they wouldn't fail me in any way ever!i can't wait to hear the rest of the songs i hope you enjoy them too!bye

hi theory anon, it's nice to hear from u again ! firstly, i am so sorry for the slow reply to this ! but im rly glad to know that u are doing good :-) i'm doing ok too thank u !! how are u ? kfjjfdsjfdf sorry that u had to read my tags but thank u for saying that !! i just feel so guilty when i do nothing bc im absolutely terrified of time passing too quickly ? just the thought of letting a few minutes go to waste is overwhelming ? even though i know it's not rational to think like this but ??? theres just this constant feeling that im running out of time so i try to get rid of it by always doing smth ?? and feel bad when i dont ? idk ?? but anyway im working on it and ill be ok ! sorry..not to be dramatic and tmi and all that kjdfdj istg this blog gives me too much freedom to say...too much :( (hope the internet folks that collect metadata never read the garbage i write bc..yikes they aren't gonna hav the best time) anyway..yea. what a paragraph to start off this reply :( sorry for the honesty and saying so much all the time btw :( not that being honest is necessarily a bad thing but ! idk every time i write smth i suddenly feel extra self conscious and feel like deleting it bc im rly embarrassed and always end up having big regret later when i reread anything ive typed up !! but i just keep writing them anyway bc...idk ?? i'd rly hate it if someone got discouraged from sharing their thoughts/worries/feelings which i think is a rly important human thing :( so  yea im rly embarrassed w anything i write but i'll keep doing it anyway bc i'm all for that kind of stuff and sometimes i know its not easy and it takes someone a lot to share that and its a good thing and i dont ever want anyone to feel discouraged from doing that ! anyway i just felt like i rly needed to say all of this..but pls dont feel obliged to reply to this mess !! anyway back to mx ! you are right :( i also hope mx feel like what they've done is worth smth w/e their definition or standard of that is :( like.. all of the hard work they've put into being mx it certainly means so much to fans but i hope all the hard work they've put into being mx also means smth to them at the end of the day and they are happy w what they're doing and what they've achieved so far :( and yes we'd love mx to always be rewarded in the real world :( though we love them and we want to get them a win, i know that everyone has their commitments, means and different circumstances and we can only do so much :( but even if u think its just a small contribution, everything adds up and counts and i know that all mbb hav contributed in some way in helping them get another win for this cb ! there are some mbb who can't buy albums or streaming passes and things and i hope they don't feel bad for this :( even if all you can do is watch the mv once or twice, even if you could only vote, i hope you know that it all counts and matters !! abt mx's schedule, i get tired just by looking at their weekly one idk how they can even put up w it all ?? after this they'll hav their japanese album and things and then they'll have their concerts and on top of all that apparently [some of them are also studying] ????? they are so hardworking :( HOW do they do it !! just..thinking abt their schedule is overwhelming !!! also pls dont think that you're boring me or anything like that :( im so thankful for any msg i receive and the fact that u actually took the time to type out smth to send to me ?? im so grateful ?? u are never boring !! honestly even if u sent me a stainless steel dishwasher manual w the page length of like..23 bibles, i'd still love u for it and i'd prob read all of it :( btw thank u sm for saying all those kind things !!! receiving kindness for the 3rd time is rly !!!!!!! and once again i've done nothing to deserve it :( i dont even know what i can say to you that will ever be enough to thank u again or to top what u hav already said ! if there was like a...maslows hierarchy of kindness of smth, ur at the very top of that triangle and anything i say will never be as kind as what you have said !! for you, i can agree that we both inspired each other :-) but really thank u so much from the bottom of my heart :( i hope you know how kind and lovely u are too ! if nobody told u this today, i wanted to say that im rly grateful to know u and i'm happy that you're here !! thank u again for being so kind and thoughtful and for making me smile !! :( same, i havent properly listened to the whole album either bc ive just been letting it stream in the background (but i dont count that as a proper listen unless i listen w headphones tbh) ill give it a good listen one day ! also im a repeat 1 kind of garbage person until i feel the need to listen to a new song ?? and rn jealousy to me is a song that gets better w every listen ??? shes too powerful atm :( one day ill listen to another song but today is not that day ! Actually.....I think jealousy is my fav mx song ???? before this cb i didnt hav a fav bc i couldnt pick the song i liked most out of blue moon/blind/fighter/incomparable. i was just gonna base it off the one w the most play count out of those 4 but now i know its jealousy ! what are ur fav mx songs ?? btw i know im always saying that anything mx releases is always a masterpiece no matter what, but in all seriousness its ok if u didn't like smth they released. i don't think it makes u any less of a mbb if u didn't enjoy a certain release or if u only liked one aspect of a thing but not so much the rest of the thing. anyway not to sound so...stale and commonplace but for lack of a better word/sentence, at the end of the day your own reactions and feelings to a piece of art like music...it's all just subjective isnt it ?? not liking that thing doesnt mean that its not a masterpiece or its any less of a masterpiece to someone else either so !! it's ok !! anyway this is rly....ive written a lot and its all over the place and incoherent probably :( i'm sorry !! feel free to reply whenever u feel like it, or no pressure on never replying at all btw ! also feel free to disagree w anything i say ! thank u sm for talking to me abt mx bc ive also got no mbb friends so !!! thank you :( theres so many times where i rly want to start a conversation w someone but im too scared and also i've got no clue abt how to initiate conversation ! and the times when i do manage to...i get stuck on how to keep the conversation going ? but when i figure smth out then im coming for u @ friendship !! i hope u had a good weekend and that you got some rest and that ur doing ok wherever u are !! until next time, take care ❤️❤️❤️

[marias-studyblr]

Hey, i'm not sure why i'm telling you this but im really upset and just need to vent. Today my history teacher pinpointed me infront of the whole class (twice) and, long story short, was very persistent with receiving an answer of some sort which i had no idea about. Everybody was staring at me, some were laughing, i felt my face burning honestly all i wanted to do was to run out of the class. As someone with social anxiety i avoid any form of class speaking anyway, but now i cant stop [1]

[2] replaying the events from earlier today and i just feel shit about myself. Im embarrassed that everyone else probably thinks i lack a lot of intelligence and basic knowledge. It’s hard to think when im asked a specific question infront of everyone,it makes me so nervous and my mind goes blank. To everyone this may seem like i’m overreacting but honestly im so upset and im not sure if its normal to feel this way. I dont know how to get over this feeling it’s horrible. I’m so done with school tbh

Hey! You deserve this rant, please whenever you need, I’m here for you!

So it might not seem like it because I’m pretty open in here, but I do exactly what you described. I was seeing myself in your words.

It used to be way worse in the last years of middle school, and in the first years of high school, it got to the point I didn’t really think for myself and all my interactions were based on what the other person wanted to hear or what I thought they would think of me.

Of course it always backfired, because it’s impossible to please everyone at all times, which left me even more unhappy about myself and lead me to more and more mental and physical problems (nothing too serious!). 

I would constantly overthink about particular situations where I was put on the spot at school and cringed over and over again.

It lead to tricky situations, a rough couple of years while I transitioned through that. A lot of hiding in bathroom stalls. And cringy stuff that only I remember by now.

I took way too seriously what other people talked about me, which gave them power. And those people understood it somehow and used it in the wrong way, which made me feel even worse.

I don’t know why. I have a couple of suspicions from my childhood but nothing that completely justifies why I didn’t know how to stand up for myself like most people did.

Looking back I can see how I was innocent and didn’t really understand how everyone, everyone, the students, the teachers, they also had problems and insecurities in their lives. I thought everyone was always better than me when actually we were all the same even with our differences and I had nothing to worry about.

I’m much better now. I’ve learned how to recognize my self-worth, hold myself as an individual. I’m not afraid to look people in the eye, and most importantly live my life for me and not for others.

But I’m not completely secure though. Just the other day I was thinking about this, trying to figure it out. Nowadays, I think my problems come from the huge respect I have for other people. I do this crazy thing: whenever I’m held responsible to someone I get super committed to doing it in the most perfect way possible because I don’t want to disappoint that person, even if it’s a total stranger. And whenever I feel like I’ve disappointed someone, I feel so bad because I just wanted to do it nicely for them. And I know that’s not a bad thing to do, but it comes to such extremes with me, because I overthink it so much.

For example, last friday I realized I forgot to send an email to the librarian to renew my book before 7pm, and I remembered at 10pm. I sent the email but through the night and the whole weekend I felt horrible about it.

It’s not like the social anxiety that I had before, but it’s still some kind of awkwardness that I don’t want to depend on.

So after this detour, let me get to the point. xD

I think we can both agree that we have to be able to stand up for ourselves and to appear stable even in the most embarrassing of situations, both for self-respect, because you don’t owe anything to anyone, you are allowed to make mistakes and be treated fairly, but also because it’s a good thing to have for your future life, you’ll always need to speak under pressure and you need to stop putting yourself through this anxiety everytime you are.

I also understand this is not something you can simply stop doing because it’s irrational. As soon as the moment starts, you get dragged into it and without noticing it your face looks like a tomato emoji.

However, that doesn’t mean you can’t slowly start making a change in your behavior, including practicing the way you present yourself, your posture, the way you talk, controlling nervous tics, answering while making eye contact with teachers and other people without stuttering.

Body language may seem non-important to you at first glance but it’s ALL that matters in social interactions, and this is what helped me overcome that feeling of pure cringe and embarrassment. I just kept practicing and I still do now. I encourage you to start paying attention to how confident people sit and how you sit, how they talk and how you talk. Truly start studying these things, and this is how I improved, it has made my life so much happier, and the biggest difference in my life quality. Truly.

Now, by NO means I’m saying this is going to solve everything overnight. I’ve improved my anxiety progressively and cringe situations still happen to me, but I find them less damaging over time. To finish up, I’m going to tell you an example of a situation of me practicing:

I’m in class, minding my own business. I pay attention to my posture. I sit with my back straight, hands relaxed, body still. I’m not covering my face or bending down. I pay attention to the class. The teacher asks me a question, I can feel my heart rate immediately going up. I focus first on my breathing (inhale and exhale profoundly) and maintaining my posture and quickly go through those physical checks. Even if I’m blushing, I keep eye contact with the teacher and my voice strong all the way through.

This is harder than it seems if you have social anxiety, but this practice really helped me and got me through so much. I still have a lot to overcome but I’ve gotten so many victories already and I want you to have the same, I know you can.

Here are 2 phenomenal Ted Talks that really helped me learn what I just told you about and I encourage you to watch them from beginning to end:

The surprising secret to speaking with confidence - Caroline Goyder

Your body language may shape who you are - Amy Cuddy

So I know this is already pretty long but I still have some stuff that might help you so I want to give it a try.

Confidence comes from within, so self-reflection is always needed. In order to not go too deep on that right now, because that’s a whole other question in itself, I’m going to give you the one piece of practical advice I always give which is recommending Yoga with Adriene, either doing her yoga videos or her meditation ones, or her challenges. Just to keep that positivity flowing in your veins is so important. And if you don’t have a source in your life, I feel like Adriene could be it.

Goals are really important in being confident too, so keeping a bullet journal, or a journal, a vision board, where you write your feelings, your interests, your dreams, might get you through the bad days and give you confidence when you need it the most. I feel like some days thinking about how grateful I am for my family, my home, myself, etc. really gets me through tough feelings I might be experiencing. 

Always share out loud what you are experiencing with your loved ones, with people you trust. Whenever I have feelings bottling up I force myself to spill them to my loved ones because I know no matter how much it embarrasses me to admit them, it always makes me feel better after they comfort me and make me see something differently, and suddenly the incident sounds a little more beatable.

Last thing I want to touch, and I promise, I promise this is the last thing, is those people in your class making you feel inferior. Don’t you shed a tear for them and I mean it. You are the classy one. You are the strong one. You get to keep your head high and be kind to yourself. If someone isn’t compassionate to you, you don’t owe them anything and you have the right to shut them out of your life. You don’t need to keep thinking about them or talk about them. You just don’t do them. You don’t pay attention to what they’re saying about you… they don’t know you. They. Don’t. Know. You. They don’t matter. That doesn’t mean you get to be rude to them, it just means they’re irrelevant. So. With that being said, I hope you understand you are a beam of light, a fucking rock star and you can get through this, you can overcome this school year, and the next one and the next one.

Find the people in your life who matter, who make you feel good. That’s all that matters. Here’s something interesting I read: “Feel bad for people who have the energy to bring others down. Don’t hate them back, feel for them. They are clearly in pain if that’s where they want to spend their energy.” Like I said they’re irrelevant, but you don’t have to be mean back, don’t get inside their game. Be the classy one and always, always, always focus on yourself, live your life.

I honestly want to keep talking for hours. I hope this was enough for you to kick-start a new way of seeing yourself and starting to become happy with who you are. There are so many obstacles in life but positivity is possible, you just have to keep looking for the things in your life that matter, that make you feel good and don’t give up.

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to answer this for you and I hope the advice reaches you. ♡ ♡ ♡ lots of love!

[franeridart]

hi. hello. this is a bit embarrassing but i'm trying to buy my bf a tablet sort of thing so he can draw his arts. he's been wanting one forever but hasn't rly shown me which one he wants. i want to surprise him n buy a good one worth the money n was just curious if you had any suggestions. i've looked into wacom products, but i'm just such a noob to these things n was hoping you can help... i understand if this is silly, you don't have to reply! ur just so amazing, ur opinion is trustworthy 😅☺️

Okay, so, this is just my opinion and since it’s based completely on personal experiences it’s gonna possibly be incredibly different from other people’s opinions, so I just wanna make clear from the start that this is a personal preference and isn’t in any way meant as an absolute truth

Anyway, as far as I’m concerned when you’re just starting out you don’t need anything fancy at all. As an aspiring digital artist your bf might have looked up tablets and cried tears of blood over how much he’d like a cintiq or anything similar, but my very personal opinion is that fancy stuff is gonna be pretty much useless to you and be generally a waste of money? You’re just learning, you don’t need anything more than the basics. My suggestion is that you pick something simple and easy to use - I own this wacom intuos, had it for a long while and I like it a lot, but there’s also less expensive options you can go for too that people seem to like just as much! I’ve lately read on my dash about the Huion H610, they say it doesn’t cost much at all but it’s just as good as the Intuos, that could be a good option for you~

Anon said:  Hey!!! I was wondering if its ok to rb your oc art? I realized a lot less people rb those and i get anxious easily so... also i really don't want to disrespect either! But i always thought of rebloging as a way of saying "i appreciate your art" and i really really (really ) like yours (both the style and itself in general). (I hope you dont mind my bad english ha ha) i hope you don't mind this stupid ask! Im still kind of new to tumblr

It’s 100% okay!!!! *O* Thank you for liking them enough to want to reblog them ;A; !!!!

Anon said:i miss ur bokuroteru so much 😭💕 i love ur art but whenever i see ur header, i just remember ur bokuroteru comic and my heart cries storms for them to be seen again.

Aw anon I’m super happy you like my stuff for those three but as of now inspiration in that department is... super low... and tbh the haikyuu fandom is being incredibly unresponsive and non-vocal about their appreciation of fanworks in this period so even when I do have ideas for that fandom I sort of. Let them go. Or just sketch them out and never finish them.

Like, you know the whole deal about having to draw for yourself and not for others? That’s what I do 100% of the times when I’m starting a drawing, but to draw for myself I don’t exactly need to finish a drawing, you know? Sometimes there’s a scene I wanna see and I sketch it out in a super rough way and as far as my personal desire to see it goes I’m satisfied with that, and everything after that - the cleaning and lining and maybe even coloring - I put the effort in it because I want to share it with people. And the deal with the Hq!! fandom lately is that they don’t share my excitement for it. They either only like it, or don’t comment on it, or comment only to complain about this or that thing. In the worst case posting hq!! only ends up with people asking me to draw something else (ie I feel like drawing Karasuno so I draw it and post it and no one comments/rb/says anything about it but there’s 20 asks in my inbox asking me why I haven’t drawn any bok*ro lately)

When I think about posting stuff for hq lately I automatically compare it to posting stuff for bnha where I could draw a background character that appeared once 120 chapters ago and there’s still gonna be people that go “yes! that character!! I love that character!!! can’t believe there’s actual art for it oh my god!!!!” - that’s... that’s the sort of reaction that makes you wanna share stuff

I dunno, maybe I’m just expecting too much out of the hq fandom. But anyway, sharing for bnha makes me way happier and glad I decided to finish a drawing lately, so I guess that’s what’s happening there.

Anon said:Every time your soft doods art shows up on my dash I have to pause and take a deep breath and just thank god for all the good in the world because I'm blown away every single time

This is s o s w e e t oh my god ;A; thank you so much!!!!

Anon said:Johnny is a fucking angel dammit. Have you read the new DGM already?? I'm in tears. I love this manga so much. The frequency of the releases are killing me... it has such a great story and great characters. It needs more love

I did read it!!!! And yeah the fandom used to be way bigger, but honestly I’m glad it’s just the couple dozens people it is. Like a small town where everyone knows everyone else. No drama, no discourse. Everyone ships what they want and we all pass each other tissues to dry the tears. The only argument that happens regularly is people complaining about the relase schedule and the old fans telling them to let Hoshino live. A good place, this fandom’s a good place.

DGM was my playground for most of my experimenting as far as creating art goes, I really did reach in all directions with it through the years and it helped me shape myself a lot, so I really want it to stay quiet and nice and peaceful, that’s my dream for it haha smaller fandoms have a better chance to keep that freedom

Anon said: Oh man, I live for that Togata x Amajiki interaction

You talking about the color spread cause yes that was adorable!!! ;A;

Anon said:I look a little, and do you still draw Bakugo x Kirishima x Kaminari?

Sure, it’s still my main ship for Kaminari and my main ot3! Just wait for Denki to start being relevant in the manga again, I’ll probably fall headfirst into it all over again haha

Anon said:Your art is so wonderful you're wonderful everything's so wonderful i'm crying omg

SOB no anon you’re wonderful!!!!

Anon said:Due to my brain not wanting to cooperate with me (ever), Bakugou Katsuki is now Batsuki Katsuki in my head.

This is the funniest thing I’ve read today and I’m in t e a r s hahaha

Anon said:Artistic!Mina making pop art and colorful paintings :o what are ur thoughts

HELL YES that’s my main headcanon for Mina, she’s definitely an artsy girl!!! I like the idea of her sharing it with Bakugou t b h

Anon said:I'm still just repeatedly looking at your newest KiriBaku because hot damn.

I’m super glad you liked it!!!!!!! oh my gOD!!!!!!!

Anon said:Heyy please rec Kami comics please! I'm in a Kami art shortage and I currently can't find art as awesome as yours...

I’m so sorry I wish I could help you with this but I don’t know anyone who draws lotsa Kaminari either ;---;

[punkscowardschampions]

Chloé & Buster

Chloé: Are you back yet??? Buster: Yeah. Why? Chloé: Yay! Chloé: We should chill Buster: I could hit up everyone for a group hang maybe Buster: Do you have an empty? Chloé: Oh, no Chloé: My parents are always around 🙄 Chloé: Was hoping you did Buster: Unlucky, like Buster: Someone will Chloé: 'Course Chloé: We can make that work Buster: Ask your girls, I'll hit up the lads Chloé: You know Chloé: we can skip this part now, right? Buster: What are you on about, Chlo? Chloé: You're so sweet playing dumb Chloé: but it so isn't necessary, fyi Buster: I ain't, I just don't know what you think you want to happen here when you know I don't do repeats Chloé: You of all people know there are exceptions to rules Chloé: especially ones that are made to be broken Buster: I ain't breaking none of my rules for you, babe Chloé: Playing hard to get now? Really treating me to every trick in the book 😏 Chloé: We'll see Buster: No we won't Buster: I don't wanna see you Chloé: Rude! Chloé: Why are you being so boring? Buster: Sorry you only like me when I'm para, yeah? Buster: Sure one of the other lads will have fun with you Chloé: Don't be silly Chloé: I like you all the time Chloé: You just need to relax Chloé: Family drove you mad, yeah? Buster: Maybe I do, but not with you Buster: 'Cause yeah, they do, but there's one less of them to worry about now that my sister ain't speaking to me Buster: Cheers for that Chloé: What are you talking about? Chloé: I didn't do anything to her 😂 Buster: We can skip the bullshit too, Chlo Chloé: Can we? Chloé: Honestly, so not here for this, babe Buster: Go then Chloé: Why are you being like this Chloé: all I wanna do is have a good time with you Buster: How do you want me to be? I told you no but you're still trying it Buster: I'm not gonna fuck you. I don't wanna Buster: Let's be real, babe, you're not my type Chloé: Was the other night Buster: Nah Buster: If I'd been into it, you'd know Buster: And you wouldn't have to be in my inbox begging at me either Chloé: Sure, babes Chloé: I know how I remember that night, which is more than you can say Chloé: Your loss if you wanna misremember Buster: Exactly. I don't remember Buster: Ask yourself, with how long we've known each other, it happened that night and only then if I'm so into you Buster: Why wouldn't I have hit you up sooner, like? Buster: You reckon you're so worth the wait, is that it? Chloé: It happened then 'cos I wanted it to Chloé: You think YOU'RE that special? Chloé: Please, darling Buster: Honestly, babe Buster: I am Buster: You know that if I'd wanted it to happen then Buster: Ask your friends, they'll tell you Chloé: 😂 Oh God Chloé: you are funny Buster: Scared to compare notes? I don't blame you Chloé: As if we don't talk amongst ourselves Chloé: what do you think girls do Buster: Well, you might wanna skip that little gossip sesh if you wanna keep misremembering that night yourself Chloé: Ugh, bye Chloé: You're such a bore, call me when you remember how to have a laugh, yeah? Buster: And yet I'm the one you hit up Buster: Doesn't say much for the rest of the lads, does it? Buster: Go on, jog my memory, how much of a laugh did we really have, Chlo? Chloé: You're so confident you're the first? Chloé: Interesting Chloé: You're free to come find out yourself any time Buster: I wanna hear it from you Buster: Find out how deluded you actually are Chloé: Piss off 😂 Chloé: Act so cocky when you just want a review Chloé: Babes, you can have so much more, get a clue Buster: What if I want you to get real Buster: Can you do that? Chloé: What? Chloé: God, so serious Buster: You fucked things up for me, yeah Buster: Do you get that? Chloé: 🙄 Here we go Chloé: Don't blame your imaginary problems on me Chloé: She's sensitive, she'll get over it Buster: Whatever, Chlo Buster: Enough now Chloé: See you at School then Chloé: 👋 Buster: Christ, I hope not Chloé: 😂 Unfortunate Chloé: Get over yourself, McKenna Buster: Get under someone else Buster: Seriously Buster: I'd rather fuck that new girl in your little group with the accent Buster: And that's saying something Chloé: Why don't you then? Chloé: We talk remember Chloé: I know you haven't got with any of them since me Chloé: but keep talking that talk Buster: You lot need to stretch your gossip grapevine if you're trying to keep tabs on me Chloé: I know everyone there is to know, babes Buster: 😂 Buster: You wish, babe Chloé: Who then? Buster: Why the fuck would or should I tell you? Chloé: So secretive Chloé: Always bragging before Chloé: 😂 Chloé: Don't lie babes, that's so tragic Buster: Don't flatter yourself that I am or am gonna confide anything in you Buster: That's worse Chloé: None of your friends know either so Chloé: Unfooled Buster: What 'cause I don't want them to pass her around like they do you Chloé: So it's one girl, is it? Chloé: Scandal! Chloé: Thought you didn't do repeats? Buster: I said I wasn't gonna break my rules for you, babe not that I've never Chloé: Very interesting Buster: I don't know why you're so bothered, Chlo Buster: It makes no difference to me and you and how there isn't a me and you Chloé: Because it's fun, duh! Chloé: I sincerely hope you're not making up a fake girlfriend Chloé: even weirder and sadder than fake conquests, you ALL do that, like Buster: One thing I don't have to dash your hopes about 'cause I ain't Buster: Nobody fake dates, get off Netflix, like Chloé: I will get to the bottom of this Buster: I'm sure you reckon Buster: Focus on passing Latin like, well useful that is Chloé: Oh God, when I thought you couldn't get any worse Chloé: sounding like sir 😴 Buster: If it'll turn you off, I'll keep on channeling him Chloé: 😷 Chloé: Nothing that works on your sister works on me, that's for sure Buster: Shame. If you could go gay that'd really help me out Buster: Kill this convo off for a start Chloé: Don't be disgusting Buster: Don't a homophobe. What year do you reckon it is, like Chloé: 😂 Oh, you're ally of the year now, are you? Chloé: As if you supported her anymore than the rest of us Chloé: Isn't my embarrassment of a sister Buster: Watch yourself Buster: 'Cause that's MY fucking sister you're chatting about Buster: Yeah she is an an embarrassment, but not 'cause she's a lesbian Chloé: Whatever, still was and is Chloé: You didn't want her around either Buster: You have no clue what I want Buster: Haven't ever Chloé: Kid yourself that Chloé: She didn't fit in and you did, end of Chloé: Whatever's wrong with her Buster: Shut up Buster: There's nothing wrong with her Buster: Thank fuck, honestly, that she ain't nothing like you Chloé: 😂 Chloé: Why are you so embarrassed of her then? Buster: 'Cause she's my sister Buster: Can tell you're an only child Chloé: Nah Chloé: You know everyone actually knows where you're from, yeah? Chloé: Like, you're so NOT special and everyone's getting sick of you compensating for it tbh Buster: Fuck off Buster: My parents are richer than yours Buster: Deal with it, babe Chloé: Can't buy class Chloé: or a decent lineage Chloé: I thought you got it but you're as bad as your sister, honestly Chloé: It's really starting to show, like, sort it out babes Buster: Obviously, 'cause your parents ain't bought you any Buster: You should let them know they can buy anything with enough cash, even babies, they don't need to be stuck with you Buster: Still can get that decent heir if they want Chloé: Touched a nerve? Chloé: Diddums Buster: Desperate as you are to touch me, nah Chloé: 😂 Some next level projection there Buster: Whatever you say, babe Chloé: 😘 Buster: 🖕

[kaaras-adaar-a]

all evens for the 69 embarrassing questions >u> cause I'm an ass

CONT: (for…. both???? on that last question?????)

69 Embarrassing Questions

// Because this is going to get long… >.> 

2. Who’s you fictional crush/squish?

Rofl mine? I love a lot of fictional characters, including some of your guys muses and my own XDDD So, lots and lots! But Sigourney Weaver is like my celeb crush hahaha. As for Kaaras, he’s got a thing for the Hero of Ferelden and most Hawke’s XD Basically anyone who saved the world in some way :3 

4. Worst insult you’ve ever given?

Both Kaaras and I have been bullied since young ages, so we’ve both been called many, many things. For me, I just don’t give a damn anymore. For Kaaras, racism doesn’t really get to him much anymore, or calling him an ox and a savage. Now it’s things like calling him selfish. Because, rofl…. he’s not. XD 

6. How did you find out about sex?

Primary school, sex books or something me and my friends found. Lol, yeah! XD Nothing interesting. I never had THE TALK thank fuck. For Kaaras, it was all very… later on in life. His mother didn’t tell him much because she wasn’t very comfortable with telling him, and his father was dead by then so… Kaaras learned by talking to others about it, which… was overall awkward and embarrassing. He’s still very ignorant on a lot of things. XD 

8. Worst Phobia?

For me, COCKROACHES DXXXX doifjgodifjgodifjg nope. For Kaaras, moths, but also failing people, losing loved ones, etc. 

10. Ever been arrested?

I have not, Kaaras has been–twice. 

12. Who would you let die if given the chance to save them?

Things like these are never that easy to predict, tbh. Because they are very in the moment, and I doubt anything like this will happen in my boring life, lol. As for Kaaras, he’d always try and save someone unless they were a lost cause. :’D 

14. Something silly you believed as a kid?

EVERYTHING, lol. God, I dunno… Kaaras thought boys had periods, too. XDDD 

Controversial role models?

N/A for me. The Maker, for Kaaras, lol. 

Cringiest thing you’ve shipped?

I’m pretty particular on my ships, and generally only ship them if I feel that they have good chemistry and would WORK as a couple without being obnoxiously abusive. I like to give them backgrounds and fill in blanks and well… yeah, make them work for their relationship, not just put two random people together, lol. I go hard or go home basically. 

What helps you fall asleep?

Kaaras is a lucky bastard who falls asleep like as soon as he hits the pillow -_- Mod is one of those people who can lay in bed for HOURS before he falls asleep. So… Robot Unicorn Attack 2 helps some nights XD Maybe a cuppa tea an hour or so before bed time? 

What’s your age?

I am 26, Kaaras is 29

Honest opinion on religion?

Kaaras is a little more devout than I am, but we both are more agnostic if anything, brought up on heavier religions (I’m Catholic and he’s Andrastian). We’ve both struggled with religion, miserable pasts, etc, so… We both kind of believe that your own beliefs are your own. Look, so long as no one is shoving it down our throats and hurting people over it, then you can believe in whatever you want. Just don’t be an arsehole over it. Overall, though, Kaaras has much more faith than I do. 

How would you describe your smile?

Dorky and stupid… Kaaras’ is also dorky and stupid, but it’s also a sweet, kind loving smile and I adore when he smiles. He has smile lines and I am JEALOUS! My cheeks are all pudge and his are all wicked looking :O 

Ever dropped plans/projects and not said a word?

Kaaras? FUCK NO! Me? I have no idea… *walks away from meme like it was never asked* lol XD No, I’m generally pretty good, but there have been times I’ve worked on art or a fic and just dropped it. 

Personality Type?

I am INTJ, Kaaras is ENFJ 

Would you wear pajama’s in public?

Have done so in the past, and continue to do so, especially on a fast food run XDDD Kaaras has, yes, but he also just wears sleep pants and no shirt, so it’s nothing embarrassing. XD 

Pineapples on pizza????

I dig it. :) Kaaras won’t say no to food XD 

Do you have a dark sense of humour?

HAHAHA fuck yes. If anyone knows me… they know ;) Kaaras is pretty easy to make laugh, so… I guess? In a sense? Probably not so much as me, though. I’m definitely worse and more evil. 

Top or bottom?

Kaaras is a switch during sex. 

Pettiest thing you’ve cried over?

Hmm… probably a lot of dumb shit when I was super depressed. Depression warps everything and makes the smallest things feel like the biggest. As for Kaaras, I’m not sure. Probably a really nice gesture someone did for him

Longest time you’ve cried?

Either when my partner went back to America or during basically my 3+ year long depression >.> Kaaras, definitely when his father died. 

Do you have a fandom OC?

Yeeeesss. *points to Kaaras and family* XDD I have some Transformers ones as well, and a Lion King Hyena. Mass Effect, Aliens... yeah, I have a few haha. 

Have you ever used a base for drawing?

Absolutely! There’s no shame in using ref and bases, so long as you always give credit. I haven’t used a base in YEARS, though. They come in handy for beginners, especially. :) 

Controversial opinion?

Skipping because I have work soon and am not quick enough at typing to get this one XD 

Chest or genitals?

We’re both way more arse men lol. 

Any scars?

Yeah, but nothing significant. Kaaras’ are more significant. Across his nose and bottom lip from the night his dad died. Appendix removal scar, bear teeth on his shoulder and dragon claws on his side. 

url for an old cringy social media account?

Oof... I honestly DON’T know? Once I joined deviantART, I kept night-stalker13 as my main URL’s until I got others, but NS13 and fun-sized-owl are generally my go tos. 

How long does it take you to get up in the morning?

I spend a good 30 mins on my phone before I get up, it helps me wake up, especially on work mornings. Kaaras is up and out of bed pretty damn quick. XD 

Fave eye+hair colour combination?

Natural - blue eyes and blonde hair for me. Dyed, I’ll go for anything, I love brighter colours when dyed. Kaaras likes green eyes and red hair. 

Do you do drugs?

No. And Kaaras is no also. 

Did you go through a “RANDOM XD” phase?

Pls read this meme XDDDDDDD lol. I always use XD because tbh, when peopel don’t use emojis it makes me uncomfortable and they appear less friendly >.>