#hottest person alive activity

[decayingsweetness]

me when time is a flat circle and whatnot

[ariaste]

listen ok so i made some good jokes yesterday about Lestat having an onlyfans but i am back today with a new essay and this one is entitled

Why The Invention Of Social Media Is Going to Permanently Save Loustat's Fucking Marriage

come on this journey with me.

ok so on one hand we have Louis, who does not like to leave the house except when he absolutely fucking has to and even then he resents it. my man wants to be at home with a book 100% of the time and he's so fucking valid for that. When he leaves the house, bad things happen to him. He has learned this and honestly i can't fault his evidence. it sucks out there. it truly incredibly sucks out there.

the problem is that sometimes he is married to lestat, who starts clawing at the walls if people aren't paying attention to him for 12 consecutive seconds, and being Out Of The House is the best place for him to go foraging for People To Pay Attention To Him. my man once had a rock star career the way that some people get addicted to meth brewed in a trashcan in someone's garage. Louis, through no fault of his own, is simply not capable of filling this psychological need no matter how hard he tries, except he should not even HAVE to try like that, because no one can do it, because Lestat is fucked up and like wasn't hugged enough as a child or something

this imbalance in their relationship is the core source of all their marital problems since day 1: THIS man's idea of a good time is chilling on the sofa in silence and maybe staring contemplatively at the wall for a while, and THIS man starts self-destructing at a truly astonishing rate if no one is making eye contact with him. If you make Louis go outside and socialize with people, he's miserable and sulking and whining about "are we done can we go home". If you make Lestat sit in silence in a chair for five minutes he starts crying and claiming that No One Has Ever Loved Him, Ever, Ever, And No One Understands Him, And He Hates Everyone In This House and He Is Being Actively Neglected And Cruelly Mistreated Right Now And No One Even Bothers To Feel Sorry For Him, This Is BASICALLY Domestic Violence Against Him Personally, If Only Anyone Knew About The Quiet Hidden Tragedies Of An Unhappy Marriage, and then he breaks some furniture and a window and isn't seen again for six weeks and comes back like "you will not believe what just happened, i [checks notes] met Merlin and also a dragon who gave me three wishes, brb i'm going to write another book about it :))))"

all you fucking have to do to fix their problems is to hand Lestat a cellphone and say the words "do you know about social media? you can say whatever shit you want and there's always someone awake in some time zone to talk to you." Suddenly Lestat is now very interested in sitting quietly on the couch, Lounging Alluringly and posting thirst traps on instagram and finally getting emotional fulfillment from all the likes and comments of "omg???? omg this is the hottest man alive". he does not have to leave the house anymore to get his attention meth. His yawning abyss of neediness is being fulfilled by having parasocial relationships with millions of strangers online who all think he's sexy and don't have to experience how fucking awful he is up close. he can flirt pointlessly with 200 people at once which is FINALLY ENOUGH FLIRTATIONS FOR HIM TO SATISFACTORILY JUGGLE

Meanwhile Louis is 3 feet away, vaguely reflecting to himself that HE is feeling all emotionally fulfilled because they're spending this great Quality Time together in perfect silence while he reads his book and Lestat plays on his cellular telephone and only OCCASIONALLY giggles to himself or says "louis which of these photos do you think is sexier, the one with four buttons undone or the one with five buttons undone" Louis is feeling like his Opinion is being Valued, Louis feels like he is being Consulted on Matters that are Important To Lestat. He has opinions about the photographs. It is not that much trouble to be interrupted from staring philosophically at the wall to spend five seconds looking at a photograph and then saying "that one". Finally he is experiencing Cozy Domesticity. he is so horny about it. lestat is surprised and bewildered about the sudden sharp increase in the amount of sex he is now getting but before he can make any vaguely mean comments about it (bc he's confused and vaguely defensive and worried that it's going to stop out of nowhere and he doesn't know any other interpersonal skills for expressing a thought) his phone pings about how he's just broken 5 million followers on instagram and he totally forgets to even mention the sex thing, which means that he continues getting the sex instead of inciting an argument about the sex and going through his 800th divorce from Louis

all their friends are extremely confused when a whole month, and then six months, and then a year goes by without another Loud Divorce happening and no one crashing through their front door like "I HAVE TO SLEEP IN YOUR GUEST COFFIN FOR THE NEXT MONTH, HE IS INTOLERABLE". They are worried. they are concerned. what is going on over there. are they both dead. no, they can't both be dead, Lestat just posted another tiktok of him sucking on his own fingers, which he would not be doing if Louis were dead. there is an ecosystem collapse happening in the groupchat and it's because the main Drama Vectors have been neutralized

[winisayswhat]

FUTURE SPOUSE PAC

[TRAITS OF YOUR FS]

❤️‍🔥Haikyuu version❤️‍🔥

Left to right

PILE 1 -Oikawa

♡Values for open and honest communication , facts are said on face and clearly , no doubts or suspicion involved . They will say what they feel and shall expect the same from you .

♡They're very resilient and adaptable , no matter what life throws at you , they'll fight it using their wisdom and acceptance , they can read their environment well and are very conscious of their environment and observant, even of you don't know them , they know you , that's how effortlessly they'll observe your habits and maybe use against you [in business or job]

♡Is very emotional and empathetic , they will understand people around them really well , and help them accordingly , they are very solution oriented, whatever happens ,externally they'll always radiate calmness even though the engine of their brain is running fast .

♡They are very romantic , their live language is very fancy , fine dine , roses and etc .Also they are very well dressed .They love to groom themselves .

♡ Has strong connect with their intuition .

♡Always has the best post at their work place .

♡Trust their instincts and emotions.

♡ A freaky gentleman in bed .

PILE 2 -Kageyama

♡Someone who has a very mystical and mysterious vibe to them. In a room full of people, they will sit silently at the bar /corner and observe people around them and take mental notes

♡Someone who will bring excitement into your life ,especially if you're a homebody, they'll make you come out of that zone , explore around and go on adventures .

♡Great body proportions , the kind of men who go on hiking shirtless and kids to grandmoms stare at them in awe , and when you look at your man ,they give you an innocent 'what?'look.

♡They have a very good conscious, they will have strong views and outlook regarding world problems, they'll voice out their opinions .They'd join rallies to raise awareness or post about it actively on social media .

♡Someone who shares a deep emotional bond with you , on an emotional level . Very loyal .They love celebrations and will actively participate if it includes their loved ones .

♡Accepts you as who you are , embraces you , they might act weird when they knw you cause they're still trying to process the information , but once they have processed it , they'll embrace you.

♡You'll feel very protected and embraced , probably you have felt misunderstood or not understood at all in your friend circles and in family , and this person heals a part of you that needed acceptance and recognition.

♡Might own pets.

PILE -3 Kuroo

♡Very adventurous and humorous . Random but the dad of the child who is loved by the friends due to their personality.

♡Puts others first, considerate of others emotions than their own emotions .Has lots of love and empathy to offer .

♡Someone who isn't very vocal of their own emotions as they feel it might burden others.The one who pays the bill at a restaurant .

♡Takes care of you like you're his baby , with so much of tenderness .

♡Vocal about love out of all the piles, the one to massage your body during menses , to cuddle you when sad , to look into your eyes , caress and comfort you .

♡Youll always be turned on looking at them , cause they're the hottest man alive for you .

♡Very charismatic, charismatic to a point where you get annoyed and internally are like "He's my man yall ,back off!".

♡The one to caress your waist and hold it tight in public.

[vintagetvstars]

Scott Thompson Vs. Craig Charles

Propaganda

Scott Thompson - (The Kids in the Hall) - Not only is he hot, he's also a queer icon! He's been openly gay since at least the 1980s and his gayness was not only openly acknowledged but actively highlighted in various Kids in the Hall Sketches - on a show that ran in the late 80s and early 90s! Especially notable was his (and one of the show as a whole's) most famous recurring character, Buddy Cole, who was based on an ex of his and was portrayed as feminine and very openly gay and also as incredibly confident, charismatic, and fun - this being a sketch comedy show, the character was a comedic figure, but at the same time he wasn't the butt of the joke, but rather someone who was in control of his scenes (almost always solo monologues) who was the one telling the jokes and getting us to laugh with him and not at him. His work means a lot to me and I hope if nothing else more people will know who he is through this!

Craig Charles - (Red Dwarf (Seasons 1-8), The Governor, Doctors) - Multi-talented Craig is also a DJ, performance poet and presenter, but I'm nominating him primarily for his long-running acting role as protagonist Dave Lister in sci-fi sitcom "Red Dwarf". He's played the role of this cheerful but tough, self-described space bum since 1988 and emotionally anchors the show as he and his small ragtag crew of accidental space adventurers wander deep space three million years into the future and attempt to find Earth. He may be the last human alive but he won't let that get him down. He can and will befriend any sentient life-form, plus his semi-canon homoerotic relationship with his neurotic hologrammatic bunkmate Rimmer adds slashy vibes. Last but not least, they're hilarious.

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Additional propaganda below the cut

Scott Thompson:

hot bitch award. used to introduce himself with "im the fag" and created a character with so much personality and presence that he's possibly done as many appearances AS that character as he has just himself - there's too many skits to list and most are too long to attach as propaganda but buddy cole of kith fame you will live forever.

CW: nudity (fully nude, but the important bits are obscured from the camera)

Craig Charles:

[transingthoseformers]

Tarn geting on his infrequently used personal account on The Great Conversation and lurking in Relationship Advice before coming to the conclusion he actually needs to post because there's no previous question that addresses his problem.

Megatron gets a high priority notification that DamasceneSteel is posting. Tarn is using his old personal username! Megatron keeps tabs on his most volitle high comand member's activity infrequent as it is. "Help! I accidentally seduced a jet," is the last thing Megatron expected from the DJD leader so he lurks on his personal acccount(identity known only to Soundwave) and watches the trainwreck unfold in real time.

Tarn's geting notifications of Lucky slagger! Or, Share your Wisdom I beg you! Not to mention, Hoax! Everybody knows jets dont frag grounders ever!

Then User ShootyShoot McBangBang weighs in to dispense his wisdom. No hoax mech. I once when I was a newbuild, I slaged off my CO so bad i got temporary assigned to a grounder unit and let me say you losers on the ground are fragging weird about fragging. All weird and soft and slag when you flirt. I though my temp CO was flirting with me but when I kissed him he punched me for being a weirdo. The loser had no clue even when I explained how to him exactly how he was coming on to me!"

Tarn meanwhile is cross-referencing the database. Misfire might be an incompetent Deceptacon but he's a seeker and he's actually giving an explanation that's sheding light on of what the frag just happened with Pharma.

What would Jet courting look like to the uninitiated? Tarn typed tentitavely and waited for a response.

Hmmmm. It's really hard to describe the subtitles between flirt-threat and threat-threat to grounders but basicaly if it looks like a seeker's trying to kill you and you're still alive or they could kill you at any moment and they chose not to it's pretty likely they're trying to spike you.

Tarn blinked in shock and typed an incomplete response as he processed. Wait would that mean

KaoniteMiner2793 responded at the same time, But Starscream

Misfire cut them both off with STOP! ✋️ 🛑 Speculating on the Air Comander's love life WILL get you slagged! He'll make sure. You could be a Phase Sixer or the slagging DJD and he would find a way! Anyhow onto a shiny new and much safer topic! DamasceneSteel, you said you seduced a jet and I hadn't heard through the gosip network about anyone in the airforce geting it on with a grounder. You bringing the good news of The Cause to the Lost Colonies, or trying to pull a DocKnock?

Pull a DocKnock? Tarn typed brow furrowed under his mask

ShootyShoot McBangBang blythly typed away unaware who he had warned off. You know Knockout the medic and interogator from Velocitron? Pulled a slagging Wrecker over to our side early in the war with his impeccable valve Dom game? Break-something or other? The two of them single-handedly launched the Converted to the Cause porn genre. Its rumored some of the hottest smut in the genra were written by one of the elite trine.

It's been so long I forgot about that recruitment campaign. KaoniteMiner2793 added. It got unpopular when mechs realized they had to kill their lovers if they didn’t join the Cause and didn’t have live capture bounties.

Tarn considered his response. Misfire didn't. Live capture bounties! we had those! When?! 🤯

We still do. Tarn educated absenly before he logged off. Mostly medics and a few others who if they can be made to serve The Cause are more useful alive than dead. Thank you for your help clarifying the situation.

Tarn leaned back in his chair to best consider how to use the situation.

Megatron blinked at his screen stuned. Starscream's ridiculous stunts were courting attempts?!?! It was ridiculous! Preposterous! It made... entirely too much sense actualy. Had he accidentally been engaging in an amorous game of one-upmanship with his subordinate??? What in the Pit?!

Misfire sipped someone else's energy drink and scrolled to a new thread.

This is just great amazing great amazing great

Win Misfire for being our Ultimate The Great Conversation problem solver today

Megatron is Learning Today and he's not quite sure he's ready to think out the consequences

Tarn got what he was looking for, and shall utilize that information accordingly (oh the humanity, that relationship is going to be so fun given the conditions of this au)

Win Knockout and Breakdown for kick-starting a porn genre

The little lore drops make it extra interesting too like the part about live bounties and how for a short period of time porn was 100% used as positive propaganda

[kayadrake123]

Batboys x famous!Reader headcanons

I love reading headcanons and stories on this topic, but unfortunately there aren’t enough out there about it so, I decided to make some! Let me know if you want me to do more or to add more batfam members. Hope you enjoy it!

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Dick Grayson 

You guys are the IT couple. Like bffr. 

You’re pretty private with your relationship, but there are still so many pictures of you guys all over the internet and social media. 

When you guys started dating people didn’t think much of it cause you were pretty good friends before so the amount of time you spent together wasn’t really new to anyone. 

However, this completely changed when a paparazzi photo of you guys making out in a car came out. And some of you guys holding hands, laughing over dinner, etc.

THE INTERNET WENT CRAZY. 

People had been shipping you guys together for so long, and you guys even came out a few times denying the rumours about you guys dating BUT NOW!? Everything just felt right. 

You guys are pretty active on social media, but you love posting TikToks of Dick being…well Dick. 

THIRST TRAPS OF DICK! 

(It’s not really thirst traps cause it’s usually just a random video of him smiling or something but DAMN)

His Instagram is literally your fanpage. LIKE HE LOVES YOU. 

Depending on what your career is, he’d come on your set for a movie, fashion show, come to your basket ball game, football game, etc.

You do receive a few threats here and there because people are crazy and are obsessed with your man, and it is scary, but Dick is always there to reassure you he wouldn’t let anything happen to you and that they’re just jealous. 

He definitely went onto social media to address the haters and they shut up prettyyy quick after that. 

Red carpets with you two are MWAH!

Like you guys kill every photo. 

You guys are perfect for each other. 

Jason Todd 

‘Isn’t Jason Todd dead?!’

That was a very common question people asked after seeing you out and being very cuddly with someone who looked a lot like the hotter and older version of the deceased son of Bruce Wayne. 

It was honestly a mistake, you guys thought you were being slick but paparazzi is everywhere man. 

Bruce ended up helping you guys come up with a reason for Jason now being alive. (Something about him being kidnapped and presumed dead and blah blah blah)

After all that commotion, people shipped you guys HARD. 

Jason comes off as a very intimidating person, and his good looks just intensified his intimidating look. But with you? He looks like the softest person ever. 

There are so many photos of you kissing his nose and lips and him just having the cutest smile on his face. 

He’s also always hugging you in most photos and giving you a big smooch on the top of your head. (It doesn’t matter how tall you are, Jason is taller than you by so much)

He doesn’t have much social media but I’ve seen posts about him having Twitter and posting the most out-of-pocket and hilarious things, and I strongly agree with this. 

He always tweets about you and how beautiful you are and it makes people go feral cause HE’S JUST SO SOFT WITH YOU AWWWW

MORE THIRST TRAPS!! 

Like you post the hottest videos and photos of Jason and everyone is so thankful for it. Like yesssssss

Hates paparazzi. Seriously. But, he endures it on red carpets, especially when he’s with you. 

Like all the photos are just of him smiling at how amazing you look and being such a gentleman. 

Definitely a Blake Lively and Ryan Reynolds type of relationship :)

Everyone believes you guys are definitely gonna get married. 

Tim Drake 

You guys attend so many of the same charity events, and there have always been a few pictures of you guys together, but nothing more than just friendly and business related ones. You’re always invited to Bruce’s galas too. 

Your relationship, like Dick’s, had always just been seen as something friendly and business related. You’re a celebrity and an influential person and he’s the youngest CEO and and influential person too. It’s nothing more. 

UNTIL videos of you guys dancing together at one of Bruce’s galas went viral. SLOW DANCING, AND VERY CLOSE FOR THAT MATTER!

People only confirmed your relationship when a few weeks later a few more videos and photos of you two walking together down the street, your dog’s leash in one hand and Tim’s hand in the other, came out. 

It was an unexpected couple, that’s for sure. But lots of people shipped nonetheless. 

Tim has always been seen in suits and pretty formal clothing, but now due to him being with you and having added attention put onto his life, he’s been seen in more casual and chill clothes and DAMN IT MAKES HIM SOOOO MUCH MORE ATTRACTIVE. 

Tim has really good style. Seriously. My fashion king. 

Beach photos! You both always look amazing and are playing in the water or volleyball or something. There’s always pics of him picking you up (he may be smaller than some of you but man is STRONG)

So many photos of you guys making out. So many. 

Tim sits through a lot of weird conversations with Bruce because of this. 

TIM SLAYS EVERY RED CARPET. Like you do too, but like I said his style is AMAZING. People love it. 

Cute photos of you smiling at each other on the red carpet. 

You mainly post videos of you scaring Tim and him being super adorable(and attractive) on Tiktok. People love it. 

Hot couple tiktoks. There I said it. 

He lovesss to post videos of you sleeping. He thinks you look so cute. 

Your birthday posts for each other are so fucking cute. 

You guys are pretty much the definition of opposites attract and people love it. 

[celeste444spacey]

So if I want to change my appearance 180 degrees how would that happen? Like a whole new person

i have a few posts on this that could help, here, here and i guess here too.

And these are me speaking from my own experience manifesting it.

A few things you can do is just start being confident. Even if it means faking it. Really just acting like you're the hottest person alive. Get delulu, no need to care how you look right now, you're hot, you're pretty. End of conversation.

Also, every time you go to your mirror just start saying how pretty you are whether or not you are at that particular moment.

Almost in a jokey exaggaratey way lol. Def works imo, slowly made me start actually believe i'm gorgeous and started reflecting in videos and pictures too. I started dressing up prettier and stuff too lol. None of them were much active physical changes made by me, except like a haircut.

This manifestation is a bit tricky purely cause of how "deep rooted" it tends to be. So sometimes u gotta go delulu for this one.

Oh btw: Edit audios, and imagining yourself in those. 11/10 recommend. Makes u feel hot.

[barkhoffman]

3, 7, 10?! spins around and falls over on my face

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've ever seen on tumblr

hm it's gotta be either someone who was like WHY would ANYONE ever ship HOFFSTRAHM (delulu) or that one I alluded to in the last one where someone said that Adam was not a liar lmao like no shade to that person in particular I just found it very funny and very very inaccurate

I'm sure there are objectively more garbage takes because I haven't been in this fandom on tumblr for very long though, I'm confident I'll vagueblog about a worse post when I find one AHAHAHA

7. what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?

I haven't been in the fandom proper long enough to hate any characters for this specific reason but I'll come back to this post to eat my words in a couple months I'm sure

10. worst part of fanon

this is controversial and might get rocks and sticks and tomatoes and sharp objects thrown in my direction but

"Hoffman intended Strahm to trust him and get in the glass coffin omg he's so sad that he didn't!!!"

besties I

I hate to break it to you but

they spend all that time with John training Hoffman on anticipating human nature for a reason

Hoffman 3000% intended Strahm to get panini pressed, he knew from the experience of putting Strahm in his first trap that Strahm was not the type to trust Jigsaw (or much of anyone), he worded Strahm's second tape how he did specifically knowing he wouldn't get to the end and wouldn't do what it said even if he did

like I know the glass coffin is the Titanic door for weird gay people but Hoffman in no way, shape, or form ever intended for Strahm to actually become his apprentice or survive that room I'm SORRY I KNOW WE LIKE TO BE FLUFFY AND DELUSIONAL HERE I JUST WROTE OVER 12K WORDS OF FLUFF FOR THEM BUT IT'S NOT! REALISTIC!!!

and on that note, if you look closely at the end of that scene, Hoffman isn't turning his head away from Strahm's death, he's turning his head under the gap in the walls specifically so that he can keep watching Strahm getting crushed the entire time until the walls are all the way closed, HE WAS SMIRKING BASICALLY THE ENTIRE TIME THE WALLS WERE CLOSING HE WAS SMIRKING

idc what Hoffman's actor said about turning his head away as a gesture of guilt, if Hoffman was that guilty about killing Strahm he would have closed his eyes or started to turn his head the second his coffin was money shot'd by Strahm's blood when Strahm's arm cracked open like a crab leg in the hand of your average Marlyander

my hottest most scorching take on this matter is that there's a better argument he actually wanted Rigg to be his apprentice in the style everyone says he wanted to recruit Strahm, since Rigg was actually made to "see what I see/feel what I feel/save how I save" and put people in traps himself, whereas the entire time Strahm is chasing down Hoffman, Hoffman is actively taking the steps to frame him even before Strahm dies (which lends credence to the idea that Hoffman learned how to anticipate people from John and knew there was no way Strahm was leaving that coffin room alive)

sorry I'll probably be excommunicated from the coffinfandom for this or smth but they hated Jesus for telling the truth too

[choose violence ask game]

[potahun]

NZND Verse Timeline

 A long story about love, hate, murders, and carrying each other’s woks ....

(carrying wok = taking the blame - voluntarily or not. keikaku means plan.)

2012-2014

The whacky shit is later. This part is just an idol romance drama plot:

He Meinan has been a diehard fan of Bai Rap, an amateur (?) rapper, for God knows how long.

At this point in time, Bai Rap is a positive influence. He participates in a music competition and is disqualified. He Meinan cries a river in the audience and is personally noticed and comforted by Bai Rap.

Bai Rap is accepted as a trainee in MG Entertainment. While cheering for him outside the MG building, He Meinan gets scouted too (for his “one-in-4000-years” good looks).

Bai Rap takes He Meinan by the hand, guiding him through their training days

(Season 4, Ep. 4)

Sa Weixiao joins MG Entertainment as trainee because he has nothing to do. His family owned 500+ crayfish restaurants (this, later, is somewhat plot-relevant). He has no money problems, no life goals. 

Sa Weixiao thinks he joined the company because of his talents. His mum actually bought his way in.

Sa Weixiao is very supportive of He Meinan. He Meinan is all about Bai Rap.

(Season 4, Ep. 4)

Late 2014

November 2014: He Meinan is 18, Sa Weixiao is 22, Bai Rap is 21.

Sa Weixiao encounters Wei Yi (NPC), who encourages him to act as a positive influence. She subsequently commits suicide after a misunderstanding. He’s devastated.

Sa Weixiao kills Zhen Cwei (NPC, a co-trainee), because Zhen was indirectly responsible for Wei Yi’s death. Murder method: Drowning.

Bai Rap goes to prison instead of Sa Weixiao (lmao how did he debut, then - no one knows)

The NZND group debuts with 5 members under MG Entertainment in November.

(Season 4, Ep. 4)

2015

More idol romance drama: He Meinan gets into a car accident just after debut and is hospitalized in the US. His twin sister He Meinv takes his place temporarily.

Sa Weixiao falls in love with He Meinv in August.

(Season 1, Ep 3)

2016

Bai Rap tries to kill He Meinan’s pet corgi because he’s jealous of He Meinan’s single room, and buys poison online. In the end, he can’t bring himself to commit doggycide.

(He Meinan is allowed to have a room for himself, because of the dog. Sa Weixiao kindly advises that if Bai Rap wanted a single room, maybe he could  have poisoned his own roommate instead.)

The poison is subsequently used by fellow NZND member Chen Wudao to kill their manager.

Bai Rap’s song (their hottest single) was found to be plagiarised.

Other fellow member, Da Zhuchang (main vocal) is officially alive at this point in time. Has gone through 8 years of plastic surgery and is fed up.

NZND’s contract is found out to be dogshit exploitative.

Sa Weixiao goes to jail instead of Chen Wudao.

NZND’s activities are frozen after the scandal(s).

(Season 1, Ep 3)

Late 2016

NZND has just been disbanded. He Meinan is 19. Bai Rap is 22. Sa Weixiao, 23.

He Meinan’s popularity is on the rise, and he has established HE Beauty fashion brand. However, he is in huge financial difficulties and sells counterfeit goods.

September 2016: Bai Rap struggles to find work, gets a drama script in September, is under such pressure to perform that he gets too immersed and becomes mentally unstable, believing the script to be real.

December 2016: He Meinan lets a person die - the dealer who sold him counterfeit goods - because he was afraid that, if he helped the dealer (who’d been attacked and left bleeding), the truth behind HE Beauty would be exposed and his reputation would be ruined.

Bai Rap blackmails He Meinan for money. Turns out he did it due to his “believing the script was real” thing (He Meinan also had a role in the script, and this was part of the plot). But He Meinan is taken to extremes by this.

December 2016: MG entertainment organises an “ice-breaker” concert, including the return of He Meinan, Sa Weixiao and Bai Rap, and a lot of new artists.

New girlgroup member Zhen Wanmei (NPC) gets murdered on stage. Murder weapon: poison needle.

Bai Rap thought he was in love and dating the murder victim, but that too was part of the script. He is very confused.

Meanwhile, everyone involved in this case wants to kill Bai Rap.

This includes HE MEINAN. He Meinan tells Bai Rap he “LOVED BAI RAP SO MUCH THAT HE COULD NOT ACCEPT BEING HURT BY HIM” and that at worst they could “PERISH TOGETHER” (christ)

Turns out Bai Rap was also framed, the murder victim was using his mental instability to pile the blame of a lot of murders onto him.

Murderer is none of the main three NZND members. But He Meinan and Bai Rap are so much

(Season 5, Ep 6)

2021

Sa Weixiao, He Meinan and Bai Rap are now all active in solo. Sa Weixiao and He Meinan are doing very well. Bai Rap is crawling under debts.

Introduction of character Wang Bagua. (play on words on wang ba dan, which means “bastard” and Bagua means “gossip”.) when they discover the corpse of He Meinan’s manager, completely burnt.

He Meinan is found out to have dated said manager in the past

Sa Weixiao is revealed to still love He Meinv, but lost contact with her since she “went abroad to study”. The truth is that He Meinv is severely ill with depression, and hospitalized abroad.

Sa Weixiao disovers his real dad is Jia Tianwang (dead NPC) and the scum of scums. He also discovers a whole flurry of half-brothers and a half-sister: Qiao Anti, Wang Bagua, Ou Jizhe.

The murderer is none of the main three NZND members. Real murder method: Asphyxiation.

(Season 2, Ep 5)

Sometime in 2022, He Meinan also kills a staff member in a drama he was filming, by accidentally running him over in his car.

(Season 3, Ep 5)

2024

Sa Weixiao and He Meinv started dating again and all is well.

July 3rd: He Meinan and He Meinv have a car accident. He Meinv dies. Sa Weixiao is unaware at first.

After losing contact with her, Sa Weixiao is informed that He Meinv could have been kidnapped (she is actually dead). He believes the kidnapper is the Future Murder Victim.

Bai Rap, who is still struggling, tries to debut again. He gets into a deal with the future murder victim, who promised by contract that Bai Rap would win in a rap competition (the contract actually said “win 2nd place” in such small print that Rap fails to read it). Wang Bagua wins the rap competition.

November 2024: He Meinan, Sa Weixiao and Bai Rap organise a reunion NZND concert. This concert was the last wish of He Meinv and was thus very important for both Sa Weixiao and He Meinan.

The future murder victim is murdered in the backstage. He is now a murder victim.

He Meinan discovers his car accident with his sister was caused by the murder victim, who was the brother of the staff He Meinan accidentally killed 2 years ago.

Sa Weixiao is the murderer this time. Murder method: poison needle, shot while hugging his half-brother Wang Bagua (damn)

He Meinan goes to jail instead.

Why does Sa Weixiao murder so much?

(Season 3, Ep 5)

Late 2025

With “age”, Sa Weixiao, He Meinan and Bai Rap are all doing so-so, popularity-wise.

Bai Rap struggles the most. At the lowest point in his life, Sa Weixiao chooses to give him a hand. Bai Rap becomes determined to protect Sa Weixiao.

One of their most fervent NZND fan “Zhen Jinhua” (NPC, future Murder Victim) has turned into their most fervent anti, who wants to kill them.

Sa Weixiao gets into a suspicious car accident. He comes out of it feeling weak, and the subsequent tests reveal he needs a kidney transplant.

Bai Rap gets medical tests to see if he can give Sa Weixiao his kidney, but there was no match. He scribbles “I hate this! Why can’t it be me?” on said medical test.

He Meinan gives the kidney to Sa Weixiao and this sends them to the top of the industry again due to the ship it creates. Sa Weixiao is determined to protect He Meinan for personal feelings.

Sa Weixiao continues to help Bai Rap. Helps erase the nasty rumors on him, and genuinely tries to give him opportunities to show his talents and debut again.

One time, he makes Bai Rap wear his own Little Lobster/Crayfish costume - the only one in the world - so he can rap at an event. The plan was to have Bai Rap reveal his face at the after-party so that people could see he was worthy of a 2nd chance w/o prejudice. However, Bai Rap never shows at the after-party, thus missing the golden chance.

The reason Bai Rap never shows is because he had been too nervous before the performance, drunk too much, threw up in a back alley, and accidentally pushed someone else in a goat costume too hard, killing them by accident, and ran away.

The next day, no murder is announced. Bai Rap is confused because he really thinks he killed someone.

Bai Rap looks online and finds, however, that someone is searching for the “Little Lobster/Crayfish”.

(Season 6, Ep 10)

2026

He Meinan is 29, Sa Weixiao is 33, and Bai Rap 32.

He Meinan and Sa Weixiao are trying to produce a 2nd generation boyband, NBCS, and open a singing show for that purpose. Bai Rap is included as a guest, but doesn’t show up in rehearsals. Sa Weixiao is aggravated by this.

Sa Weixiao, during rehearsals, overhears Zhen Jinhua threatening to expose He Meinan and ruin his reputation with something. Despite not knowing what the thing is, Sa Weixiao becomes determined to kill her to protect He Meinan.

Zhen Jinhua is murdered backstage. Murder method: trick with ice to strangle her when the time is right.

It’s revealed that Sa Weixiao never got a kidney transplant, that he never NEEDED one, and that all the medical records were forged by He Meinan and his doctor cousin. He got sliced on the operation table for nothing. Sa Weixiao has a mental breakdown.

(He Meinan: “ But I said the truth! I told you the kidney you now have is the one that matches you the most!”) 

It’s also revealed that this is what Zhen Jinhua was threatening He Meinan with. He Meinan just wanted to get to the top of the popularity ranks.

Meanwhile, Bai Rap had not attended rehearsals because he had finally traced the IP of the person looking for the Little Lobster/Crayfish back to Zhen Jinhua. During rehearsals, he investigated and discovered that Zhen Jinhua thought the lobster was Sa Weixiao. She was plotting to kill him. To protect Sa Weixiao, Bai Rap resolves to kill her first.

It’s also revealed that the person in the Goat Costume that Bai Rap “killed” was actually a super cyborg owned by Zhen Jinhua. (hence, why no murder was announced in the news. the cyborg was just sent for repairs)

Note that the cyborg is acted by the same man who played Da Zhuchang (fellow NZND member) in season 1. But Da Zhuchang who was believed to have been dead by fire many years ago, is actually alive, did plastic surgery (again) and is now acted by Zhang XinCheng.

Da Zhuchang’s identity is revealed by Zhen Jinhua through the “curves of his perfect calves”. Her discovery that he had faked his death so many years ago is a big part of why she became a murderous anti.

The murderer for Zhen Jinhua was actually He Meinan, who knew his reputation was being threatened. Bai Rap is the one who goes to jail. (again)

(Season 6, Ep 10)

After season 6, neither Sa Beining nor Bai Jingting returned to the show “Who’s the Murderer?”, so the timeline for NZND, the group that spread murder wherever they go, stopped here.

***

Side note: Who’s the Murderer? (or MXDZT) is a Chinese murder mystery show (based on Korean Show Crime Scene, but took a scale and style of its own) where, each episode, the semi-regular cast takes up roles, find a murder, and have to solve the case. One role among the cast is that of the murderer each time, and one is the detective. The rest are suspects. Only the murderer is allowed to lie. The cast unravels the plot through evidence-search and group discussions. Some verses are recurrent across seasons. NZND is one of them.

[spicyjellyace]

how to be confident in 4 steps

Look at me. Look at me and tell me that I'm the hottest person you've ever seen. I'm not, right? Because that's not true. And maybe... I don't suit your standards. Maybe... you don't think I'm the hottest person alive — you don't even think I'm hot. Maybe you think I'm mid, or ugly, even. But do I care that you don't think I'm the hottest person alive?

No, because that opinion does not affect my day-to-day life, but I think that I'm the hottest person alive, and that's all that matters. 

Hi, I'm Gloss, and today I will teach you four steps to becoming delusionally confident. But before I continue, I have to tell you that I do have a script that I will be glancing at, just so I don't go off track and ensure that I hit all the points.

Alright. Let me just adjust the window. Okay. Alright. So anyway, just to give you an overview of how confident I am, I can spin any insult into a compliment. If you tried to insult me, I would only be flattered. Why? Because that means you observed me enough to find my flaws. Either when it comes to my appearance or my personality. Oh you think that I have bad teeth?

That means that you stared at my mouth enough to notice my bad teeth because I have mastered speaking in a way that conceals my bad teeth. I've gotten so good at it that if I point it out to even people that I've known for years, they get surprised. So if you notice that I have bad teeth in a short period of time, you know what that tells me?

You were looking at my mouth — for an extended period of time, and that's flattering to me... why? You could have used that time to do something else. But what did you do though? What did you do with that time? You stared at my freaking mouth. You deemed staring at my mouth a worthwhile activity over many other things.

Or if you call me an attention seeker, what am I gonna say?

I agree! And the fact that you pointed that out tells me that I grabbed your attention... therefore, I succeeded! And I'm not just saying this out of my a**. It's genuinely difficult to insult me because I've programmed my brain to flip any insult into a compliment, or better yet, ignore it.

This is a video that my IRLs have been bugging me to make. "Please make a video about confidence! You would help so many people," and I'm like, "Why? There's so many videos out there on charisma and confidence," but I guess there's no harm in adding another perspective to the conversation, right? So let's start. How do you become deliriously confident?

STEP ONE is to shed any and all desire for external validation. And yes... this is the hardest part. It took me years to even get to a point where I was comfortable with even just the idea of disregarding other people's opinions, where it didn't feel like a sin. Now, I've gotten to a point where I genuinely don't care.

A common example is I'll put in AirPods while I'm out on my daily morning walk, and sing along to my heart's content. Maybe even do a little dance. People will stare, sometimes give me weird looks, but do I care? I don't care. Why? Because they don't freaking know me. I don't freaking know them. We don't freaking know each other.

And above all else, their opinion of me isn't gonna affect my future in any way whatsoever. This is just one example out of many, but back to the topic, why is it important to shed all and any desire for external validation? I talked about this to my friend recently, and the reason why it's important is because living life and doing things, even with the slightest hint of a desire for external validation creates a cognitive dissonance in your head.

This will make more sense once we get to step two, but essentially, when you have even just the tiniest desire to gain external validation, and it doesn't matter from who — strangers, someone you're romantically involved with, family, friends — once you have some desire to win external validation, it creates a cognitive dissonance in your self-concept.

"Which one is the person that I am? And which one is the character I develop to win external validation?" Why is this a problem? Because it contradicts step two: developing extreme self-awareness. But before I proceed to step two, let me tell you the HOW of shedding the desire for external validation. This is something that I have successfully taught many friends, and this is something that I have, of course, mastered myself.

Think of it this way: You won't be scared of being judged if you don't judge other people. I'm gonna paint you a scenario so that this makes sense. Growing up, my parents have always been very image-centric, particularly my mom. She would not let us leave the house looking even just the slightest bit unkempt.

We had a separate set of clothes for going out and staying in, and while that's normal, she was almost obsessive about setting the two apart. She always wanted us to look put-together when we left the house, and her reasoning for this was always, "What would other people think?" There lies your problem.

While I will acknowledge that there's absolutely nothing wrong with seeking external validation and fearing rejection, I unfortunately also have to make it clear that dissolving this desire is key to untouchable self-confidence. I understand that the need for validation and the fear of rejection is the reason humans have even gotten this far, and why society has developed drastically.

Back in the day, your actions and existence had an effect on whether you would survive or not, as rejection from the tribe would mean you would have to survive by yourself in dire conditions. Innovations and discoveries such as finding food or discovering fire, wowed the group, won you approval and elevated your social status. This goes on incrementally, until we get to the point where we are today.

That is something that is hardwired in our monkey brain, so I'm not gonna demonize people who wanna conform, seek validation, or fear rejection.

That's not a bad thing, okay? However, unfortunately, if you wanna be untouchable in your level of confidence, you need to get rid of that... and that's why you're here, right?

Okay. Back to the scenario. My mom always wanted us to be perfectly put-together. If we were to be in the presence of other people [from] outside the household, so this doesn't just include times when we would leave the house, but also when people were visiting.

So I would find myself thinking, "Why do other people's perception of me matter that much?" That was something that always plagued me, even before I started this journey, I always wondered, "Why the hell does it matter what other people think?" And then growing up, I started to notice that my mom was extremely judgmental.

I don't say this derogatorily either. It was just her state of being. She would notice and point out the littlest things that I wouldn't even catch, or frankly, give two s**ts about. And I'm not saying that being observant is a bad thing, but what I noticed in her pattern of behavior, and a recurring theme, especially in insecure people or people with low self-esteem, is that... they like to watch other people — not in a curious way, but to find their "flaws".

"Flaws" in quotes here, because a lot of these things in the grand scheme of the universe are really irrelevant. As a result of watching other people so closely in this manner, they develop a fear of being perceived the same way. So if you want to shed the desire for external validation... (verbal drumroll) you must stop thinking that your validation matters to other people, unless it is explicitly asked for.

When you go out in public, stop looking for and reacting to things that you see that are weird TO YOU. The world does not revolve around you, and that's a good thing. If you go out in public and you see someone wearing a shirt with a hole in it or mismatched socks, don't hyperfixate.

Don't give that person the time of day wondering why they're wearing something out of the ordinary, because it doesn't matter. Or if you see someone with weird toes, screw it. Right? Why are YOU staring? Their foot still works, right? What does it have to do with YOU if someone's body, or clothing, or way of self-expression is different from what you deem normal? Stop judging other people.

I have personally become unobservant and indifferent to things that do not concern me, that I won't even notice when people look weird or act weird — someone else has to point it out to me, and even then, usually my response is, "Why does it matter?" Right? If it doesn't affect me and nobody's harmed, nobody needs help, why the hell does it matter?

Why should it take up space in my limited working memory when I could be dedicating that time, energy, and attention to other valuable thoughts and prospects? When you stop letting irrelevant things bother you — and not in an apathetic way, more like indifference... weird shirt, who cares? Imperfect skin, who cares?

Clashing outfit, who freaking cares? Another step that you can take is to start doing things that you don't usually do. For me, remember that scenario I told you about my mom never letting us mix our outside and inside clothing together? It's a small thing, but I started wearing inside clothes outside and vice versa.

I started with baby steps — I would wear my pajamas to the convenience store, and then to the fast food place, and then eventually started doing it at the mall and other places where it would be considered "weird". But then eventually I just realized... clothes are freaking clothes! As long as they do their job, and as long as your bits are covered, no one cares!

Sure, you'll get the occasional double take or even a weird stare, but they won't remember you forever. Okay? They'll probably talk about you to their friends or family or post about seeing someone in pajamas in public as a one-time thing, but that's it.

And if it goes beyond that... that's not your fault! It's not your fault their lives are so uninteresting that they still think about a stranger looking or doing something weird a year, or even just a week after they witnessed it. So I just started wearing pajamas everywhere. Hang out at Starbucks? Show up in pajamas. Sing at the karaoke? Show up in pajamas. Grocery shopping? Show up in pajamas!

Who cares, right? Let's tie that into the main point. Now, because I have shed the desire to seek validation and approval, every action I do or choice that I make is because I WANTED to. When I DO dress up and do my makeup and get glammed, it's no longer because I'm seeking validation, but rather because I FELT like it.

I WANTED to. So there's no longer that cognitive dissonance of "Who is Gloss?" and, "Who is this person I'm trying to project onto the world?" because now, they've merged into one person. The person that I'm trying to present and the person that I am are now one, and that makes my self-concept rock solid. They do not clash, so I don't have an internal struggle.

I don't have to pretend to be someone I'm not, because people know me as how I truly am. There's no longer that cognitive dissonance of "Who the h*ll am I?" Which leads us to... 

STEP NUMBER TWO: self-awareness. There are many ways to define self-awareness, but the most succinct way I can define it is to know yourself down to the nitty gritty.

Know where you suck, and decide whether to accept it or improve on it. There's nothing wrong with having pride in the things that you excel at — your good traits, your good characteristics. There's no harm in that.

I believe it's also important to know what you're good at and be aware of what you bring to the table, because this way you're able to maximize your potential and achieve self-actualization.

BUT! People seem to downplay the advantage of knowing your weaknesses, because when you know your weaknesses, NO ONE CAN HOLD THEM AGAINST YOU.

When you know what you suck at, and have made the executive decision to either accept them as a part of you or work on them, they can't be held against you, because like for example, "Yeah, I can't dance. How does that make me a worse person?" Or, "Yeah, I can't dance, but at least I'm taking classes and I'm doing something about it. What are you doing to improve yourself? Are you even a good dancer? If you are, shouldn't you be helping me improve rather than making fun of me?"

This mindset comes naturally as a result of shedding the desire for validation. Now, I do things to become a better person FOR ME, rather than for the purpose of impressing others or conforming to society. Now, I'm not saying that you should stop at self-awareness and no longer work on yourself. Personally, I'm always trying to be a better person, but I believe it's also important to prioritize what traits to improve on first.

An example for me is I have prioritized the need to build habits because I cannot stick to a routine. So it's what I'm actively working on at the moment. Everything else is in the back seat. I know they're there. But they're not of utmost importance because self-improvement is a process. I cannot become an amazing person overnight.

So being aware of what you suck at is the first step to self-awareness and consequently, self-improvement. This applies to all aspects of your life, physical, mental, emotional, et cetera. For accountability's sake, I will point out my flaws and actual insecurities. For starters, I have bad teeth, right? Like I mentioned earlier, although I'm not exactly insecure of that, I've learned to accept that, and to some extent I feel like it's even part of my charms, but that's a conversation for another day.

Another thing is I procrastinate often, and that is also something I'm working on alongside building habits. Some of my insecurities include my hooded eyelids because I think they drag my face down, and my nose because I wish it was more defined, but I don't ruminate on those things. I don't ruminate on the things that I consider "flaws", because at the end of the day, I know that I'm still a good person, and these so-called flaws do not deplete my worth.

So self-awareness shifts your perspective from seeing your flaws as a bad thing into things that you can either accept or change. 

STEP THREE: Have a personal brand. This is a step I pride myself in because I have taught this to many of my close friends and it has worked... TREMENDOUSLY. One of the friends whom I gave this advice to went from someone who rarely left their home to someone who parties often and meets new people all the time.

Another friend I taught this to told me that they found peace in their daily life because they no longer had to concern themselves with the opinions of others. As you can see, dear viewer, confidence manifests itself in many different ways. People tend to think that extroverts are confident and introverts are shy, but that's not the case.

So Gloss, what the h*ll is a personal brand? Here. Choose a trait, or a set of traits. These have to be non-physical, at least while you are in the process of building your self-confidence. Even just one trait, or if you choose several, the traits have to be related to each other. Pick a trait or a set of traits that you pride yourself in.

If you can't think of one, make one. It can be something you personally notice within yourself or something that other people point out. So for one of my friends, she always got told that she looked expensive, so I told her. "Okay. Maybe you can use that because people already perceive you as that. You just have to lean into it."

This is different from performing for the purpose of validation, because rather, you are playing into a role that has already been assigned to you, and hijack it to your advantage. I told her, "Now you have to see yourself as someone luxurious." She was like, "What do you mean someone luxurious?"

I said, "People think you're expensive. People think you're luxurious, so you're gonna start thinking of yourself as a high-value commodity. No, not an object. Rather, believe and embody that your presence is a luxury."

She said, "How?"

I told her, "Everytime you're around other people, instead of wondering if you're bothering them or wasting their precious time... start believing: 'Because my presence is a luxury, everyone I meet is lucky that they even get to spend time with me.'"

The key to establishing a solid personal brand is to not base your perception of yourself on comparisons. Notice how I never told her to think I'm more *blank* than these people, or I'm the most *blank* person in the room. It's not that! The phrase is, "Being with me is a luxury. Having me around is a privilege."

Does it mean I'm the smartest or hottest person in the room? NO! Rather, it is establishing that your value as a person is immutable regardless of the circumstances you find yourself in. If your confidence stems from comparison, it WILL falter. Sure, it can work, but it's not sustainable.

There will always be someone smarter, someone more good-looking, someone more eloquent. Adversely, there will always be someone less smart, less good-looking, less articulate. This kind of confidence fluctuates and is fragile. You don't want that. You want to be certain that no matter who you're with, your worth stays the same.

So I told this friend, "No matter who you're with, no matter if you are with freaking Angelina Jolie... remember that your presence is a luxury and a privilege — EVEN to people like her. Do not compare yourself to other people. If Anne Hathaway walks into the same room you are in, it doesn't mean you're suddenly less attractive. Now, there's just two gorgeous people in the room."

This is what we call your personal brand.

My personal brand... there's a physical aspect to it. However, I assume if you are watching this, you may be a little insecure. Your self-concept is not solid. Your self-esteem is easily knocked down, so I would recommend for your personal brand to revolve around non-physical traits. That way they're intangible. However, mine works for me as I have mastered the art of confidence.

For me, my personal brand is simple: I'm hot and I'm smart. Pretty straightforward, right? How did I build this brand? 

For the hot aspect, I realized that... hot is a state of mind. Literally — if I'm in pajamas, my hair is messy, I'm sweaty from working out — it doesn't matter. TO ME, I'm always hot. My attractiveness doesn't fluctuate based on how I look. Whether I'm dressed up or down, glammed up or bare-faced. Rather, it's just my state of being. It's me. I'm just hot.

In my eyes, I will always be attractive, and because I have made that my personal brand, YOU CANNOT CHANGE MY MIND. I don't care about other people's opinions regarding that because it's MY personal brand. Think of brands, as in corporate brands. For example, McDonald's. "I'm lovin' it." That's their branding, right?

Anyone from anywhere will recognize it. They probably have it in different languages in different countries, but the central message remains the same. "McDonald's: I'm lovin' it." It doesn't matter if one or five or even a hundred people say they disagree with that slogan and they say they hate McDonald's.

"Oh, I'm not lovin' it. I'm hating it." It doesn't matter to McDonald's! McDonald's doesn't care that you disagree with their branding. They will continue to embody that slogan and present themselves as a store with food that people love. "I'm lovin' it" has, is, and will continue to be a part of their brand. The same applies to you.

So for me, my personal brand is that I'm hot and I'm smart. I already discussed how I established thinking that I'm hot earlier. So now for the smart part, it's just that, growing up I was always told I'm smart, and I'm a fast learner, so similar to my friend's "luxurious" personal brand that I talked about earlier, it's a trait that I simply leaned into.

My personal brand is an example of both picking a trait that society has assigned to you and leaning into it, and choosing a trait that you would like to embody. It doesn't matter how many people disagree and insult me, or how many times I get broken up with... you cannot change my mind. TO ME, I'm hot and I'm smart, and that's that — hence my opening statement.

I could get acne, I could lose my job, I could become dirt poor, my family could disown me, my body could change the way it looks, my physical appearance could change, my theoretical partner could break up with me, all the bad things and worst-case scenarios could happen to me, and I would STILL be hot and smart.

This is something you CANNOT take away from me because that's my personal brand. It is unchanging despite the circumstances I find myself in. 

Finally, STEP FOUR: (we're nearing the end) Realize that it is a process and that it WILL continue to be a process. I'm gonna be realistic here. Am I 100% confident all the time?

Do I just NEVER get insecure? NO! That would be a lie! I have mastered spinning insults into compliments, yes, but do I have moments of weakness? Is there a small chance that... in the right circumstance, insults still get to me sometimes? Maybe. Do I still feel awkward when I sing out loud in public and someone stares at me weirdly? Maybe.

Like I mentioned earlier, when I go on my morning walks, I love singing at the top of my lungs at the highway, while my AirPods blast music into my ears at max volume. Who cares, right? People won't hear me. I'm not harming anyone because people don't live near the highway and there's just so much open space that chances are no one can hear me for miles, but sometimes while I do that, I'll encounter someone and get a double take — not the good kind, which I recognize cuz I'm not stupid — and for a split second, for a split second, I'm like, "Holy s**t, that's weird. They definitely think I'm weird," but then I remind myself, "Does it freaking matter? Do I really need their approval?"

Go back to STEP ONE.

I don't want their validation. I shouldn't freaking care. That's the monkey brain talking. So what if they think I'm weird? I'm having the time of my life. I have an endorphin rush, I'm getting my steps in, I'm not hurting anyone. If anything, THEY'RE the weirdo for not minding their own business. So... even if I get moments like that, I remind myself, "Screw it."

Remember that you are NOT perfect. You will NEVER be perfect. And it is a CONTINUOUS process. Those are the four steps to becoming deliriously, confident and untouchable. 

To recap... 

STEP ONE: Shed all and any desire for external validation. 

STEP TWO: Develop extreme self-awareness. 

STEP THREE: Establish your personal brand. 

STEP FOUR: Acknowledge that it is a continuous process. I hope that this helps you, and if you want me to talk about other subjects, please feel free to drop suggestions in the comments below. If I feel like I have enough experience in the subject and I can give valuable insight, then I will make a video about it.

But if I don't, I will not. I don't wanna participate in conversations I'm not qualified to speak on, and add unnecessary noise to the marketplace of discourse. Alright! I hope you gained something from this. That's it for today. Thank you so much for watching, and I'll see you soon.

[graciliss]

an answer to the OC questions asked by @jayzeroey 🫶🫶

9: favorite food? least favorite? are they a picky eater? do they have any dietary restrictions?

Seraphina is a real gourmand and thus the type of person to scoff down whatever food is nearby no matter how trashy it may look. this is somewhat reflective on the fact that she has a severe problem with overindulgence. since she grew up pretty much broke and living on scraps, she often seeks out foods that are exotic and oftentimes very, very expensive, even if just to try and be able to brag about having tried it. her desire to catch new thrills and to experience something novel makes her very open to trying new and weird things (often to a fault).

this doesn't mean she exclusively eats luxury or exotic things, though. in the end of the day she knows what she likes to a tee because of having tried the amount of things she has. Seraphina doesn't have a set favourite, but she notably enjoys foods that are very rich and/or very sweet. her sweet tooth cannot be understated.

there aren't many foods that she particularly hates since she'll eat just about anything. she does have a select few which she likes a bit less than others, though. while she loves buttercream she has a more notable distaste for fondant, and especially marzipan. it's mainly little things, really.

Seamus on the other hand is significantly less self-indulgent with his eating habits. in his eyes, eating is just another need and he listens to his body accordingly.

he doesn't vocalise it due to the way he processes things such as distress but he definitely has an aversion to a whole slew of textures in foods, which given the choice makes him a lot pickier. he strongly dislikes things such as dried fruits, luncheon meats, porridge, etc... he has a main aversion to foods that are either mushy or chewy. unfortunately he is somewhat deranged because he will actively force himself into eating foods he knows he is averse to regardless (and be in agony while doing so). he won't show that he hates it, but subtle things such as a close to electric tension in his hands give it away.

oftentimes he subconsciously turns to nostalgia (and consciously turns to familiarity). his favourite dinners usually are things that his eldest sister used to make, which are meals that primarily contained vegetables, meat scraps, and to literally nobody's surprise: potatoes. he doesn't like trying new foods very much and will avoid it given the chance.

34: how would your character describe themselves? it doesn't have to line up with how they really are.

Seraphina's meticulously and purposefully inflated ego permeates through everything. unsurprisingly, she hyperbolically praises herself when speaking of herself. oftentimes descriptions of herself will go along the lines of "the hottest woman alive" or "god on earth, duh".

she also has a keenness for comparing herself to angels, which is largely tongue in cheek. in part this is due to the name she currently goes by, and the fact that her albinism renders her skin and hair close to white. it heavily plays into the irony of her being an entity more comparable to demons, but also because she sees 'hell', the afterlife she resides in more as heaven if anything since despite her morally bankrupt character she now lives more freely - and dare I say happily - than she ever did when she was alive.

getting Seamus to as much as fully acknowledge himself - moreso his body as his own - is a struggle. describing his own personality also comes to him with great difficulty because of similar issues in perceiving himself. as a result, when it comes to describing himself more generally, Seamus is heavily reliant on what other people say and think about him.

without the consultation of others he uses broad, vague terms and most often isn't kind to himself. the most frequently reoccurring descriptors are things such as "a bad omen", "a presence" or "a stain". these things which he says about himself are not said as a means of self-loathing per say. he sees these descriptions more as something about himself which he has accepted as simple reality.

the way in which he dehumanises himself when describing himself is also apparent, and this inability to consider himself "human" like other people stems from a sense of deep isolation and an inability to relate to others properly.

THANK YOU FOR YOUR QUESTIONS JOEY 🫶

seraphina shaw and seamus wrynn both belong to me (@graciliss)

[holycrushed]

✰     laura harrier,  cis female,  she/hers     ／     introducing  LUNA  TAYLOR,  the  well  known  second  lead  singer  &  songwriter  of  euphoric  chaos  associated  with  honeycomb  talent.  the  THIRTY1  year  old  has  a  reputation  of  being  capricious,  but  those  close  to  them  like  to  argue  that  they’re  zealous.  when  talking  off  record,  they  gave  the  smell  of  cigarette  smoke  lingering  in  the  air,  heeled  boots  clicking  on  the  pavement  and  fingertips stained  with ink;  let’s  hope  hollywood  doesn’t  eat  them  alive.

character inspirations : lucy gray baird ( the ballad of songbirds and snakes ), holly golightly ( breakfast at tiffany’s ), shelby goodkind ( the wilds )

one  — it was the hottest georgia summer on record when luna taylor entered the world, rounding out the taylor family in unbridled fashion. she was her mother’s last wish to have a daughter and welcome addition to the already boisterous family. her father, a well — loved preacher at the church in their small town, had big dreams for his children. they were heavily involved in all church activities and since the second she could talk, luna was a member of the choir. 

two  — her love for music blossomed in the wednesday night choir rehearsals and sunday morning performances, the highlights of her week. it became evident that luna was a natural born performer, with her vying for solos as soon as she was old enough to. she loved the look on people’s faces when she opened her mouth to sing, enjoyed the way their heads bobbed along as she paced along the stage. 

three  — it was hard to question a faith you grew up surrounded by your entire life, but luna never felt much of a connection to christianity. spiritual by nature, she felt more invigorated by the sound of the drum than she did her father’s sermons each week. it was easy for her to blend in with the others, to bow her head down and utter the prayers without much feeling and get by just fine. until it came to her songwriting. she began writing when she was thirteen, but never completed a full song she was actually proud of until she was sixteen. she sat her entire family down in the living room to play it for them, expecting to see the same glow on their features that was always present when she sang. however, that was far from the truth. her song was met with backlash, embarrassment covering her parent’s faces from her more secular lyrics. didn’t she know she could only write about her love for god? 

four  — it became clear that her lyrics could only revolve around her religion, but to luna, it was much more than that. her passion expanded well beyond her so-called feelings towards her faith and her parents’ demands made her feel even more constricted. she was eighteen when she cut ties from the church and ran for the hollywood hills. she quickly ditched her telltale twang and charm all together for the alluring buzz of the boulevard, taking up a waitressing job at the restaurant in one of the big studios. the writing never stopped either, and she was often found hunched over her notebook in the break room or curled up in her bed each night. 

five  — she started sending her songs to various producers in hopes of getting her name out there. strategically, luna hoped that it would be easier to get recognized as a songwriter than a singer, as that seemed to be an impossible feat. eventually, something stuck and she was able to get a meeting with a producer at honeycomb talent. and the rest is history ! 

six  — going to leave her joining the band pretty opened – ended, but she was very opened to the idea and excited about the opportunity ! 

personality  — headstrong, loud and wild, it’s easy to get wrapped up in luna taylor’s storm. she has a bubbly and bright personality, preferring to be the center of attention and the life of the party in any social situation. her passion and laughter is often contagious, which makes her an easy person to befriend. yet away from the surface level, she's a more withdrawn person. she can often be hard to reach and isn't the most reliable friend, thanks to her trust issues. her true nature is often revealed through her lyrics, but she'll be coy even about that. her cards are close to her chest, and she prefers to keep it that way.  

wanted connections: 

— former roommate: this would be someone she first lived with when she moved to la, probably around five – six years ago. luna wouldn’t be the best roomie, as she can be loud and inconsiderate, but she makes up for it with her good cooking and great storytelling !

— basic connections, like friends, enemies, exes, former flames, frenemies, writing partners, etc!

— more tba.

[intonightcity]

tws: death mention

ALEJANDRO SILVA age 41    height 5'10    face Diego Luna shipping: selective

About

Alejandro Silva is a businessman on the surface. In classic suits and a charismatic personality he appears to be like any wealthy man who made his climb on the heels of a family chain in automotive imports. His father was the head of a family owned dealership called The Coast, a throwback to the coast of Mexico where he was born. Alejandro has been head of this organization since his father’s passing. The Coast is a hot commodity in Night City offering the hottest and most sought after luxury vehicles for top buyers. Along with affordable vehicles for everyday people thriving in Night City. They also have a trade in exports/imports with overseas partners. Some of those cars are not exactly legal and the obvious underground market is a thing that he dabbles in the form of marketable street racing. Beneath the reputable business is the underlying criminality of Alejandro Silva’s name and reputation. A man who is seen as not someone to cross in this city. However he is an asset to have on your side if nothing else IF you can manage it. A suave criminal king pin with a penchant for being level head under pressure, Alejandro has a code he stands by. The regular people of the city are those he wants his organization to leave alone. The same cannot be said of his enemies.

Alejandro Roberto Silva

Al, Andro

Nov. 20

Scorpio

He/Him

Male

Bicurious

Dark Brown

Dark Brown Eyes

5'10"

Alejandro is an extrovert with an ease in organization and business ; ENTJ describes his type. He follows a temperament in the category of Phlegmatic, and favors loyalty above all else.

ENTJ

Phlegmatic

Wrath

Diligence

Water Elemental

Ambitious

Loyal

Merciless

Unforgiving

Connections

Alejandro’s family roots go back to Mexico, of course where his father first branded his idea for The Coast. His family came to America and that is where his ideas took off. Today his father is unfortunately deceased, having suffered a heart attack when Alejandro was around 19 years old. His mother is still alive but not living in Night City. Family is a big deal for him but he has no children currently. He did take a young Ava Mendoza ( @ixonmaiden ) under his wing and has become an older brother to her over the years. His families connections with hers run deep, especially following the murder of her father Henry Mendoza.

Relationships may be a bit complicated. The man has been married twice. His first wife separated from him once she discovered his criminal activity. She realized The Coast was a front and not only filed for divorce but a restraining order against him. This definitely became a tumultuous divorce proceeding. He felt betrayed and  that hurt him quite a lot. Currently he is married to a younger woman, a model for Glam Shell, Giselle Steele. However this is a canon that can be overlooked for potential shipping. Yet that will be selective and plotted if so. He is not closed to shipping though. 

[castielsprostate]

I do not know why I am bothering you with this but HELP ME CASTEIELPROSTATE IT IS THE HOTTEST MY CITY HAS BEEN SINCE 1985 I WANT TO DIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

dose my little blogger have any tips to beat the heat besides suicide

unfortunately this is what climate change does :/ and most of the tips i have are for governments, municipalities, and city halls which are plant trees, plant more wild NATIVE flowers, have free and accessible water fountains and sunscreen dispensers, add more trash cans around the cities, and invest in green technology, green dividends, and green initiatives.

however, yeah that change takes so much time while we all boil alive :/ politicians are toying with our health whilst they sit pretty in an AC fueled room.

to beat the heat before it gets to you, start blinding the windows (you can do this with diy cardboard and aluminium foil! or car sun protectors) the day before, do the same with your car if you know you have to go out that day. in the morning, at 6 or 7am you open two doors to the outside opposite of each other. take a cold shower, and wear BREATHABLE clothing like linen, cotton, or viscose. you can also put up wet laundry outside the windows, or behind ventilators.

CLOSE THE DOORS BEFORE OR AROUND 10am, close the blinds (preferably sunblocking blinds but not everyone has access to these), if you have a sun screen put that down after you close the doors.

after that, stick to low energy activities, if you have an AC turn it on, draw yourself a cold footbath, if you need to go outside for whatever reason PUT. ON. SUNSCREEN. SPF50 (NEVER lower, higher has the same effect as spf50). reapply sunscreen after every 3 hours, wear long sleeves if possible (again cotton linen or viscose), and wear sunglasses and a hat. try to NOT go outside between 13:00 and 16:00 unless you HAVE to. walk in the shade as much as possible and do not go for long hikes

when the temperature outside is cooler than inside, immediately open all doors and windows that you can, open the blinds, take your laundry back inside and if you need it, enjoy another cold shower! change into breathable pj's, use linen or cotton sheets for your bed, if possible sleep with your window open otherwise with a ventilator on (or both!)

repeat the next day if necessary, or possible! even if the day after isn't as hot, be sure to have two doors opposite of each other open for a while so they can air through the entire space. if it rains on the hot day(s), open doors and windows oppositie each other as well.

you can also spray yourself with a bit of water with a plant mister but i find that it gets really humid really quick so i personally try to avoid it! drink your drinks with ice cubes, if you have pets fill some plastic bottles with water and freeze them, put them next to the pets the morning after and switch them out so they always have some cooling, or get them a cooling mat (if they don't destroy that lmao)

sitting on the floor can also greatly cool you down!

[avrahamglattman]

Things to Do in NYC This Spring

Things to Do in NYC This Spring http://avrahamglattman.org/things-to-do-in-nyc-this-spring/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=things-to-do-in-nyc-this-spring New York City is always an exciting destination, but there’s something special about visiting in the spring. With the weather warming up and the trees in Central Park starting to bloom, the city comes alive with energy and color. Here are some of the best things to do in NYC this spring. Visit the Cherry Blossom Festival If you’re lucky enough to be in NYC in late April or early May, don’t miss the Cherry Blossom Festival at the Brooklyn Botanic Garden. This annual event celebrates the beauty of the garden’s many cherry blossom trees, which come into full bloom during this time of year. Visitors can take guided tours, watch cultural performances, and enjoy Japanese food and drink. Take a Stroll in Central Park As the weather warms up, Central Park becomes a hub of activity. Take a leisurely stroll through the park’s many winding paths, stopping to admire the blooming flowers and lush greenery. If you’re feeling more active, rent a bike or take a jog around the park’s many trails. Attend a Rooftop Bar There’s nothing quite like sipping a cocktail while taking in the stunning views of the city skyline. Rooftop bars are a quintessential part of the NYC experience, and there are many to choose from. Some popular options include The Ides at the Wythe Hotel, Westlight at the William Vale, and the Roof at the Park South Hotel. Visit the Brooklyn Flea Market The Brooklyn Flea Market is a must-visit destination for anyone who loves vintage and artisanal goods. Open on weekends throughout the spring and summer, this outdoor market features over 100 vendors selling everything from handmade jewelry to antique furniture. You’re sure to find a unique treasure or two to take home with you. Take a Walk Across the Brooklyn Bridge The Brooklyn Bridge is one of NYC’s most iconic landmarks, and it’s even more stunning in the springtime. Take a leisurely walk across the bridge, enjoying the views of the Manhattan skyline and the East River. Be sure to bring your camera – you’ll want to capture the stunning vistas. Catch a Baseball Game at Yankee Stadium or Citi Field Spring is baseball season, and there’s nothing quite like catching a game in person. Whether you’re a Yankees fan or a Mets fan, both stadiums offer a great experience. Take in the sights, sounds, and smells of the ballpark while cheering on your favorite team. See a Broadway Show No trip to NYC is complete without seeing a Broadway show. Spring is a great time to catch some of the hottest shows of the season, like Hamilton or Dear Evan Hansen. Be sure to book your tickets in advance – shows can sell out quickly. These are just a few of the many things to do in NYC this spring. With so much to see and experience, you’ll want to plan your itinerary carefully to make the most of your visit. Whether you’re a first-time visitor or a seasoned NYC veteran, you’re sure to fall in love with the city all over again in the springtime. The post Things to Do in NYC This Spring first appeared on Avraham Glattman | Fun in NYC.

[burningdarkfire]

jamaica post that has been sitting in my drafts while i underwent trials IRL. we went to an all-inclusive resort for a week and i learned that i am not really built to enjoy all-inclusive resorts lmao

i don’t cook for myself anyway so endless food/buffet is interesting but not a particular relief. the soups at the resort were unexpectedly extremely good and a definite highlight. i am not really a soup person but i briefly became a soup person. i also couldn’t have more than a few free drinks a day because i didn’t want to be drunk while reading. i learned that i love amaretto sours :)

the weather was just too hot for me (30+ degrees and sunny almost every day), but being in the sun was still way better than sitting around in november canadian weather. i love getting shaded beach chairs every day because all the white people flock to the ones in the sun. plus we got about an hour of extra sunshine per day!

the game of keeping track of other the asians at the resort - there were not a lot! i think there were only two other groups. anyway i love being microaggressed on vacation like when our server asks us where we’re from and we say canada and then she’s like but where are you really from and then we’re like oh, china, and then she’s like wow you guys don’t sound chinese! your english is so good :) and we’re like yes thank you. it’s because we’re canadian.

being in the ocean was so nice, though i actually have no idea how i used to swim when i was younger like did i just go into the water blind with my horrible eyesight??overall the entertainment/resort activities seemed decent, my friends seemed to enjoy them and meanwhile the employees respected that i just wanted to sit there and read my books 😎

there definitely are mosquitos by the way. i got eaten alive. mosquitos love me but jellyfish fear me

wifi at the resort was way better than expected, we got signal everywhere. i almost always spent the hottest few hours of the day in the afternoon inside in the room just On My Computer. there was sadly no desk in the room but my god do i love air conditioning. it was obviously very nice not to work (my parents actually asked me if i planned to just work remotely and i guess i could have but like .. why)

i’m thrilled that i got a chance to build a routine while on vacation tbh, the loop of breakfast -> ocean swim -> watch my friends do aquafit -> lunch -> pool -> room -> dinner -> board game -> evening entertainment was perfect

i wonder how different this trip would have been if i did not go with friends i already hang out with multiple times a week. we simply do not have that much to talk about anymore but if i was with different people i would have made way more effort to socialize

we were not given the option to get a room with two beds even though that was listed as an option when we booked the trip. i hate sharing a bed with someone but that is My Problem I Guess

final note: we never properly figured out how much tipping was actually a thing - no one acted like it was weird but i also feel like we never saw anyone else doing it really. and it felt like we got a lot of extra attention once we became known as tippers!