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“The Fall of a King” Negan x F!Reader

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Request from @thanossexual : Can you please write Rick x Reader where Y/n is Negan's right hand and she totally takes the crown from his head when he tries to kill Rick's people. Let's say that she is Simon's weakness and that's why he didn't do anything to help Negan. No one did because all of them knew that she was their true leader but she hid in Negan's shadow because no one would listen to a woman. She tells Negan that he can go fck himself and goes with Rick to Alexandria to help them. (Glenn and Abraham live pls)

Word Count: 6015

Warning: Swearing

Song I Wrote To: “You Should See Me In A Crown” by Billie EiIish

Note: Okay, confession time. I didn’t actually make this a Rick x Reader because i sort of didn’t remember too...fuck. But they do talk briefly and the rest is there. and i changed it a bit, but Negan gets taken down. Sorry, if i royally fucked your request, I’ll pay more attention next time....oh god.

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You walked through the corridors of the Sanctuary, your boots soaked in the blood of your fallen fellow Saviors.

As you passed by the other inhabitants of the factory, they bowed their heads toward you. Not quite kneeling, but showing you respect nonetheless. You ignored them as you headed up a dark staircase. You only had one destination in mind and if he was in a meeting then they would have to come back another time.

Arriving at the door to his bedroom, you knocked twice. You heard a muffled “come in” on the other side and you pushed into the room. Negan stood by the windows watching over his kingdom. “Well?” He asked, keeping his back turned.

You walked over to his desk and slammed down a shell casing. Negan looked over his shoulder, raising a single brow. “They’re all dead,” you said simply. The anger that passed over his face was clear and you knew it was only a matter of time before he bashed someone’s head in with Lucille.

As Negan stared at the casing, your thoughts went back to what you had seen at the Satellite Station. Some new group had broken in during the night and slaughtered every one stationed there, slitting their throats in their sleep. The last time you had seen that much fresh blood was after your family had been killed. That was right before Simon had found you and brought you home to the Sanctuary where you’ve been ever since.

“No survivors?” He asked, bracing his hands on his desk.

“None that we could find,” you explain, sitting into your right hip. “Whoever did this, they have a shit ton of firepower.” You watched as he rubbed his hand over his bearded face, trying to stay calm. “There’s something else,” you said.

“Tell me,” Negan said, his gruff voice very low.

“There’s a connection to The Hilltop,” you said.

“How do you know?”

“One of the men who walked the perimeter radioed me and told me that Gregory was having issues controlling his people. Some brothers got greedy or didn’t come through on a delivery. Your men ordered them to bring Gregory’s head to the outpost in exchange for the other brother. Seems like they brought a head, but it wasn’t Gregory’s.”

“Jesus,” Negan said, “so these assholes cut off some dude’s head as a decoy?” You shrugged.

“I bet it was just a Biter they found, but yeah, the whole thing was a ruse.”

“The Hilltop has new allies? Another community?”

“That would be my guess,” you said, nodding. “Some new place with good fighters and a lot of ammo. Our people have been through Hilltop multiple times, if they were hiding an armory like that, we would have found it. Besides, you know Gregory, he’s a coward and he’d be too afraid to lie about having guns. Especially to Simon.”

“Well he’s not much of a coward if he’s havin’ these dicks to his dirty work, is he?”

“Probably not,” you said, collapsing into a chair behind his desk. “I bet it was the same people that blew up the bikes.”

“Would make sense,” he agreed. “Son of a bitch!” He growled as he paced. “I’m gonna kill them, all of them.”

“Let’s not rush into anything, Negan,” you said, carefully. “The last thing we need is more dead Saviors.”

“So, what? You want me to just sit on my ass while these assholes shoot more of my men? Is that what you want, (Y/N)?” Negan said, turning his fury filled eyes on you.

You were unbothered by his demeanor. You knew Negan almost better than anyone. When Simon had brought you to him in the first place, he had tried to intimidate you, but you had grown up with men like him and he never scared you. Negan picked up on your lack of fear pretty quickly and took a liking to you.

He started you out on simple jobs. Mostly running the fence and keeping the workers in line. Though, when someone had tried to attack Frankie, you had taken the man down in only a few moves, breaking the guy’s back. Negan had finished the bastard off, but that single action had promoted you to Savior immediately.

Slowly, you got more and more responsibility and the rest of the men and women began to look to you for leadership whenever Negan wasn’t around. Simon, especially. You were now Negan’s right-hand woman and probably the only one in the factory bold enough to call Negan on his temper and in some cases, his utter bullshit behavior.

“That’s not what I said, Negan,” you said slowly. “But if you go after these people and it turns out that they have more artillery than we know of, we're all screwed. Hell, they could have more RPGs, bigger explosives, more guns, or even more people. They took out nearly every man before the alarm went off. So I don’t know about you, but I wouldn’t want to fuck with them until I had more information.”

“Didn’t realize you were givin’ the orders now,” he said as he approached you. Negan leaned over you, bracing both of his hands on the arms of the chair you sat in. His dark eyes drilling into yours.

“Never said I was,” you told him, not breaking eye contact. “Not everything is as black and white as you think it is, Negan.” He slammed his hands down, trying to intimidate you, but you remained as still as a statue.

“I make the decisions, I decide who dies, (Y/N),” he growled. “Isn’t that why you’re still alive?”

“Don’t!” You yelled, pushing him back. He leaned back from you, letting you get up as he watched you, the anger still present on his face. “Don’t you say that shit to me. This whole ‘intimidation’ bullshit doesn’t work on me. Threats don’t work. I’m not some little girl you can scare, Negan. I’m not one of your wives and I’m definitely not one of your bitches like Dwight who laps at your heels. You asked me to go check out the outpost and advise you on our next move. Well there it is, I advise that we make sure we know who we’re dealing with before we start shooting or in your case, swingin’.”

You were out of breath as you finished your speech. Negan stared down at you, his arms crossed. You could tell he wanted to hit something or even someone, but you also knew that he'd never lay his hands on you. He had tried once before, but after you said no as soon as he tried to kiss you, he had backed off immediately. However, now you weren’t so sure his furniture was going to survive the rest of the day.

“Anything else?” He asked through a rigid jaw.

“I think someone should take out Gregory. We both know he’s an idiot. He’s become a liability,” you explained. Negan was silent for a few moments before taking a few more steps back and gesturing to the door.

“I’ll think about it,” he said. “Get out.” You didn’t have to be told twice. Walking swiftly, you exited the room and headed straight for the nearest staircase, needing to get as much distance between you and the bossman as possible. There was only one person you wanted to talk to right now and you knew right where to find him.

You found Simon in the hall outside of his room.

“Hey, (Y/N),” he greeted with a wave. You didn’t answer him as you pushed past him and into his room. He followed you as you flopped down on his bed with a sigh. “Was it that bad?” you glared at him through narrowed eyes. “That would be a yes.” Simon took a seat in the chair across from you.

“What is the point in him even asking me for help? Every time I give him advice, he ignores everything I say, Simon. I don’t even know the point of it all anymore,” you vented, staring up at his ceiling.

“Careful, girl,” he said, watching the door.

“Oh, calm down, Simon,” you said with a roll of your eyes. “You act like he has superhuman hearing.”

“Some days, I really think he does,” Simon mumbled, kicking his feet up. “Maybe you should just keep your head down for a while?” You sat up on your elbows, staring at him. You and Simon were as close as ever. You knew he had feelings for you, but you never felt that way. However, he was the closest thing to family you had right now and you trusted him with everything you had. The main problem was that he was as loyal to Negan as anyone. He took the phrase “I am Negan” to heart and damn anyone who disagreed with him.

“You’re asking me to lay down like a damn dog?” you asked, your brows raised.

“Only for a little while. You know, just until this whole new group situation is figured out.”

“I’m the one who should be figuring out how to handle all of this! Negan trusts me to handle all the dirty work, but all he seems to care about right now is making some kind of head-bashing spectacle. Fear-mongering only goes so far, Simon,” you explain, falling back onto the bed.

“What are you saying?” he asked, concerned.

“He wants this new world to prosper. He’s saved people and protected children and women and he’s done a lot of good, right?”

“Of course,” Simon agreed.

“Exactly, so why is it that the only way he thinks to get people to work for him or invest in this new world of his is to threaten them with death and or starvation, etc.? Do you not see how wrong that is? Ruling with an iron fist has never worked in the past, I don’t know why he thinks it’ll work now.”

“Because it has?” Simon offered. You scoffed.

“Yeah, for now,” you said, getting to your feet. “Face it, Si, one day shit is gonna hit the fan and people are going to stop being afraid of him.”

“So what do you propose, (Y/N)?”

“Nothing right now,” you said, heading for the door, “but I wouldn’t expect Negan to always be the one in charge around here.”

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After a couple of weeks of nothing, you were getting worried.

Negan had kept you out of meetings when he would meet with Arat, Simon, and Dwight. He had also recalled the outpost leaders and even began sending out scouts. Whenever you would see him walking around the compound, he would simply walk away and grin as his followers fell to their knees before him.

When you had asked Simon about it, he brushed it off as “guy talk” or something completely unrelated to what had happened at the Sat Station. You knew he was lying. Simon was the worst liar you knew and it was becoming blatantly obvious that something was about to happen.

The day came not long after your talk with Simon. You were lounging around in your room, trying to get a few hours of rest before you had to go back on guard duty when a knock came at your door. “It’s open!” you yelled. You looked up from the book you had been flipping through to see Sherry enter your room and quickly close the door behind her. You didn’t know her that well, but she was the only wife you tolerated. Especially knowing why and how she had married Negan.

“Something has happened,” Sherry explained, rushing over to sit down on the bed next to you. She looked almost frantic.

“Sherry, what’s wrong? Are you hurt?” you asked, looking over her quickly, but she was shaking her head.

“No, no, no,” she rambled, “it’s not me, it’s Dwight and Negan, and the others.”

“Okay, calm down,” you said, grabbing her shaking hands. “Start from the beginning. What has happened?” Sherry took a few deep breaths before she spoke.

“Negan ordered Simon and Dwight and bunch of the other outpost leaders to set up roadblocks,” Sherry explained. “The other group, the ones that took out the Sat Station?” you nodded, “They’re on the move and Negan wants to ambush them.”

“They’re on their way here?” you asked, confused, but Sherry was shaking her head.

“No, they’re headed towards Hilltop,” she explained.

“Sherry, how do you know all of this?” you asked. All of this was privileged information. Only the Saviors close to Negan knew specific details about plans. Sherry hiked up her dress and pulled out a radio she had fastened to her thigh.

“Frankie and I took this about a month ago from Fat Joey,” she whispered, “We’ve had it to keep an eye on what’s going on.” You stared at the radio, surprised. The girl had guts, you had to admit. She pressed the radio into your hands.

“There’s something else, isn’t there?” you asked, reading the worried woman’s face.

“Daryl Dixon,” she whispered.

“Is that supposed to mean something to me?” you asked.

“Do you remember when Dwight, Tina, and I escaped?” she asked and you nodded your head. “Well, when we were running, we ran into this man, Daryl, and Dwight tried to rob him. He took his crossbow and then tried to get his motorcycle. Hell, we held him at gunpoint as we escaped through the forest. Eventually, he fought back and stole the bag we were carrying.”

“The one full of insulin,” you nodded, remembering Tina was diabetic.

“Right, well once he realized what we had stolen...he brought it back and tried to help us. He then told us he was from someplace that could take us in. He was relatively clean, had food, weapons…” she said, trailing off, waiting for you to catch up.

“He’s from the other community. The new one?” you realized.

“Yes,” Sherry said. “Daryl helped us when he didn’t know us and he helped me bury Tina. He’s a good man, (Y/N).”

“Why are you telling me this, Sherry?”

“Because before I came here, I heard on the radio that Dwight had taken ‘the archer’ captive. Shot him in the shoulder and took him along with other members of the group. I think we both know what happens next once Negan starts to round up people from a community. Remember what happened at Hilltop and then the story about all those men and boys killed?” You did remember. You weren’t a part of the Saviors when that particular attack had happened, but Simon and Arat had told you the stories. It was one of the reasons that you didn’t follow blindly behind Negan and kept a lot of the Saviors close in your confidence. You knew it was only a matter of time before something similar happened again.

“He’s going to make an example of these new people,” you figured and Sherry nodded.

“Look, I don’t care about the others, but Daryl saved me and he tried to save Tina. He didn’t have to return the medicine to us or offer us a chance to go with him, but he did. I don’t want him to die and I do not want to enter a war with people that were probably just trying to do something good.”

“Sherry, they killed an entire outpost of people,” you reminded her.

“Right because all of the Saviors are saints,” she said and you knew she was thinking of Negan and more importantly her husband who was introduced to the iron once they had been taken back home. “(Y/N), you and I both know he is out of control. Negan is unfit to lead us any longer.”

“I go up against Negan and I die,” you told her, letting go of her hands. Sherry was again shaking her head.

“You have a lot more people in your corner than you think,” she said, getting up. Sherry walked over to your desk and picked up your sawed-off shotgun. She tossed it to you and you caught it easily. “I know you think the same way as I do, (Y/N), so please, do something. If not for me then for all the innocent people that are forced to work here and fear a monster.”

Sherry’s speech vibrated through your bones and as you stood from the bed, a small smile crept on your face. “Sherry, if this goes wrong and I die, I’ll haunt your ass,” you promised. Seeing that you were on board, she smiled back.

“So, don’t get killed.”

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You set out not long after you and Sherry talked.

Fat Joey was on watch and you barely had to sneak past him to get to a bike. The man was clueless and while you were always allowed to leave the Sanctuary, you didn’t want anyone tipping Negan, Simon, or Dwight off that you had left. Sherry had said she would cover for you as long as she could, buying you as much time as possible. It was official, you really did like that girl.

Strapping your shotgun to your back, you kickstarted the bike and took off towards the main stretch of road Sherry had heard indicated on the radio. Said radio was on your belt along with another pistol and duel blades were in your boots. You were armed for a fight and one that you knew could happen. Fear entered your gut as you rode. While you weren’t exactly afraid of Negan, you knew he had a lot of power. You only hoped that Sherry was right and that you had more supporters than you initially thought.

Stashing the bike just under an overpass, you went on foot. You needed to stay invisible as long as possible. Any kind of tip-off would ruin your plan and considering you only had one, everything needed to be perfect. An hour or so later and you found one of the roadblocks. Simon’s voice was the first one you heard.

Keeping an eye on the Saviors on the perimeter, you snuck through the brush and got within earshot. On the road was Simon along with the main group of men he commanded. Across from your people was a large RV. People stood out in front of it, all armed. Simon was taunting a man that stood at the front of the new group. He was handsome, tall, had a bit of beard, and he looked at Simon as if he were something less than human. You instantly knew that this was the new group.

Getting closer, you looked for anyone that resembled Daryl on either side, but you couldn’t see anyone that fit Sherry’s description. You then knew that “the archer” was indeed Daryl and Negan already had him. You watched the exchange a little longer before the leader of the opposition, ordered everyone back inside the RV and they took off back down the road. Simon then signaled for his men to move out. You snuck away from the edge of the trees, moving deeper into the woods.

You knew how all of this would work. Saviors would continue to corral the group along the road, keeping them from getting to Hilltop. It was a tactic you had helped develop all to insight fear and paranoia. It worked on smaller groups and then Negan would lay down the law, give a speech, and then let them go with the promise Saviors would be taking their stuff. However, none of those previous smaller groups had slaughtered Saviors before. You just knew this was going to get bloody.

You didn’t bother trying to track down the other roadblocks. Instead, you waited by the radio trying to figure out where the final place was going to be. Negan liked large areas that he could use to put on a show. It also needed vantage spots to watch for Biters and needed to provide areas to block in the hostages. A literal nightmare.

You walked through the forest as the sun dipped below the trees, keeping your eyes and ears open. Any time you heard a noise, your mind went to Negan. Your nerves were getting to you and all you could think about was him finding you and making an example of you. You don’t know when he had stopped trusting you, but from your last meeting, it was apparent that he didn’t want to look to you for advice any longer.

It was completely dark by the time you heard where the final spot was. You trekked through the dark woods, keeping light on your feet. You only had to kill a few Dead as you moved through the darkness. You were getting more and more anxious, but you kept a steady hand on your gun. Hearing an engine of a large vehicle, you slipped towards the treeline to see the same RV from before. You couldn’t make out what they were saying from where you were, but soon they began to move. The RV drove off North as a larger group stayed behind. You watched as they placed someone, a woman, on a makeshift stretcher and headed into the woods.

You realized that the RV was a decoy, but you also knew that it wouldn’t work. Negan was too smart. You followed the group through the woods, always staying parallel to them. Whoever was laying on the stretcher was not doing well at all. You figured she was the reason they were going to Hilltop as they had a great doctor, the brother to the one at the Sanctuary. That thought made you a bit sick. These people weren’t going to team up or anything, they just needed to help a sick woman. You tightened your grip on your gun and hurried through the trees.

It didn’t take long for the ambush to happen. You circled back, careful not to come across any of the Saviors that rushed at the group. You watched as a clearing up ahead was instantly illuminated with headlights. The group tried to run, but men were on them in a matter of seconds. They all panicked, clearly underestimating their enemy. Simon appeared next, walking towards the leader. He ordered the man to drop the stretcher that held the sick woman.

One by one, the group complied and set her down. Simon then took their weapons, keeping that sick smile on his face. Sometimes you really worried about your friend. You couldn’t tell if it was all an act or if he truly enjoyed tormenting people. That would be something you would have to figure out and soon.

Simon ordered the entire group to their knees. They were all lined up before the RV that you knew was always going to end up there. A single man knelt by the vehicle. A scared, shivering man that Simon forced over into the line-up. Moving closer, you watched as Arat opened the back of a van, and out came three more people. A young Asian man, a dark-skinned woman, and a man with shaggy hair and blood dripping down his arm. You instantly identified him as Daryl Dixon. Sherry was right, he was definitely someone you would notice.

The Asian man struggled on the ground before his eyes met those of the sick woman. “Maggie?” he gasped and she cried as she looked at him. You looked at her closer and noticed how her hands stayed right on her stomach, almost as if she was protecting herself. It was then that you remembered that the Doctor Carson who lived at Hilltop was an obstetrician. Rage entered your veins as you realized she was pregnant and something was definitely wrong. Your anger only increased when you saw that next to the shivering man was a kid.

The boy had to be around sixteen or seventeen and judging by the way the leader kept glancing at him, you figured he was his son. You thought of your own brother who had died as a teenager as well and your teeth ground together as you watched this boy stare at Simon with pure anger. You knew that this boy had seen some terrible things and you were willing to bet that he wanted to kill every single Savior in that clearing.

It wasn’t long after that Simon announced Negan. You stayed in the shadows as Simon yelled, “Let’s meet the man!” You stared as Negan exited the RV, Lucille on his shoulder, and a grin on his face. Simon stepped back to let the boss have his audience.

“Pissing our pants yet?” Negan said, “Boy, do I have a feeling we’re getting close. Yep, it’s gonna be Pee Pee Pants City here real soon. Which one of you pricks is the leader?” Simon pointed to the man from earlier. Negan approached him, swinging the bat. “Hi, you’re Rick, right? I’m Negan. And I do not appreciate you killing my men. Also, when I sent my people to kill your people for killing my people, you killed more of my people. Not cool. Not cool. You have no idea how not cool that shit is, but I think you’re gonna be up to speed shortly.”

You slowly reloaded your weapon, getting ready. The other leader, Rick, stared up at Negan, sweat blooming on his brow as your boss continued. “Yeah, you are so gonna regret crossing me in a few minutes. Yes, you are. You see, Rick, whatever you do, no matter what, you don’t mess with the new world order. And the new world order is this, and it’s really very simple, so, even if you’re stupid, which you very may well be, you can understand it. You ready? Here goes, pay attention: Give me your shit, or I will kill you.”

You moved.

You stepped out of the trees and fired your gun into the air, shattering the tense and terrifying silence. Saviors all turned their weapons on you as you stepped through the cars. However, once they saw it was you, some lowered them immediately. Negan looked over at you, tilting his head. He let out a slow whistled. “Well, shit!” he bellowed as he looked at you moving closer. “There you are sweetheart! I was wondering when you’d join us.”

“Guess my invitation got lost,” you sneered, stalking towards him. You stopped just on the edge of the line-up, placing yourself between Negan and his hostages.

“Finally here to take me up on that offer I proposed to you all that time ago?” he asked, leering at you. You lifted your gun and cracked open the barrel, letting the shells drop to the ground.

“That is never going to happen, Negan,” you said tossing your empty weapon to Simon who caught it on instinct.

“Well, then what the fuck are you doing here? Because I’m in the middle of the something, (Y/N), and you know how much I hate being interrupted,” he said, leaning back. You ignored him and glanced down at Rick who was looking at you in confusion. You then looked down the line to see Maggie, clearly still in a lot of pain.

“You,” you snapped your fingers at a Savior. “Water.” The man, you think his name was Matthew, tossed you his canteen. You moved past Negan and he stepped out of your way, clearly amused. Slowly, you crouched down before Maggie. She stared at you with wide eyes, her hands still clutching her stomach. You removed the cap of the canteen and made a show taking a long sip of the water to show it wasn’t contaminated before offering her the bottle. “It’s okay,” you whispered, gently. Maggie reached out with a shaking hand and took the water, lifting the bottle to her lips.

You stood then and turned to Negan who was now glaring at you. “What the hell is this, (Y/N)?” he said, pointing Lucille at Maggie. You made a barrier between him and her.

“Don’t you dare point that thing at a pregnant woman, Negan,” you spat, getting your courage back. His brow furrowed as he looked at Maggie and then back at you.

“Again with giving orders, Darlin’!” he yelled, shaking his head. “I thought we shut that shit down!” You shook your head, moving towards him.

“We didn’t do anything, Negan. We haven’t done shit in a while. I used to be your right hand, but you clearly don’t see the need for me anymore. Tell me, Boss, when are you going to use that thing on me?” you asked, pointing at Lucille.

��Oh, I’m thinking about it right now,” he sneered. You rolled your eyes as you began to circle him.

“You know, when I heard about this little gathering, I was hurt that I wasn’t included. I mean, I was the one that invented the whole roadblock thing in the first place, right? And imagine my surprise when I find you doing this,” you gestured to the line-up. “You’re an asshole, Negan, but since when do you torment a sick, pregnant woman and a fucking kid?” you asked, pointing to the boy in the hat. Negan goes to speak, but you shush him, surprising the shit out of him.

“I’m not finished,” you said, smiling at him. You then turned to Rick. “Rick, was it? Look, Rick, I don’t like all this unnecessary drama and the whole ‘I’m the alpha male and you’re my bitch’ scenario. If I had it my way, I would have met with you and you alone and discussed all of this like civilized fucking people. Am I pissed that you and yours murdered a bunch of my people?” you shrugged, “Meh, they weren’t the best company anyways.”

“(Y/N)...” Negan warned, but you just placed your finger against your lips, telling him to shut it.

“Let me ask you something, Rick,” you said, kneeling down to his level. “This is all Gregory’s fault, right? He offered you something, maybe food or medicine, if you took out Negan and his men.”

“Somethin’ like that,” Rick said.

“Well, here’s the thing about that little weasel, he lies. He knew about the other outposts and our main set up. He played you. In fact, I bet he did it just so we would focus on killing you instead of taking more from Hilltop, Kingdom, etc. However, I don’t like being fucked with and Negan really hates it, but unlike the brute behind me, I’m not a total sociopath.”

“Dammit, (Y/N)!” Simon called and you gave him the finger over your shoulder.

“Now! The fun part!” you said, getting to your feet. “Boss!” You called, looking at a very annoyed Negan. “Do you wanna know a secret?”

“If it will get you to shut the fuck up,” Negan said, knocking Lucille against his boots.

“You see, there is a little bit more to a story you’ve been told,” you said as you walked towards Dwight that stood behind Daryl. You clapped the scarred Savior on the shoulder. “Dwighty boy, here, actually knows this one pretty well,” you said, pointing at Daryl. “Daryl was the one who helped Dwight, Tina, and your wife Sherry keep away from our men all those weeks ago,” you explained. “Hell, he even tried to help Daryl and even thought about joining him and Rick at their wonderful community.”

“What?” Dwight said, shoving your hand off. You ruffled his stringy hair and then you noticed the crossbow in his hands. Negan glared at Dwight, his grip tightening on his bat.

“Don’t worry, Dwight, Sherry told me everything,” you explained. “She’s a good one, it’s a shame you couldn’t keep hold of her!” You then kicked out at Dwight’s knee, sending him down. You snatched up the crossbow and weighed it in your hands. “Oh, I like this!” you kept hold of it as you approached Negan. “You are such an idiot, you know that? Look at these people, Negan! They’re just trying to survive and you wanna punish them for it? Like we haven’t killed people? You are not above any other person.” You then raised the bow to line up with his chest. “But shit, maybe you are below me.”

Negan lunged for you and you quickly stepped back, tripping him. Negan fell to the ground and your foot aimed for Lucille. You kicked the infernal bat from his hands. “Get on your knees,” you said, pressing the bow to the back of his head.

“You’re gonna regret this,” he spat.

“No, I don’t think I will, Negan,” you said as he sat on his knees, trying to keep his dignity. “You see, this has been coming for a while. I didn’t know how it would go exactly, but then your wife gave me the idea. Isn’t that adorable? She told me to do something and hell, I was thrilled to do just that. There is a new leader now, buddy, and you aren’t it.”

“Simon!” Negan yelled, but Simon shook his head.

“Sorry, Negan,” Simon said, “I’m not gonna pretend to follow you anymore.” Smugness entered your body. More and more Saviors then began to lower their guns and step forward. Sherry was right after all. Arat came through and pointed her gun at Negan, nodding to you.

“Seems like I’m the Savior now,” you said. Simon received Lucille and offered her to you. You tossed the bow to him and took the bat. “Give that back to Mr. Dixon, will you?” Simon nodded and went to give Daryl back his weapon. “Oh, I do love the feel of this!” you said, swinging Lucille around.

“Take your hands off of her, you bitch!” Negan bellowed. You kicked out at his back, sending him to the ground.

“Language!” you yelled with a laugh. You then turned to a worried Dwight. “Oh, Dwight, don’t worry I’m not going to kill you. No, that is something that will happen because of your own stupidity. I give you maybe a year before the Biters get ya. Don’t worry, I’ll make sure Sherry is perfectly fine.” You then noticed a vest on his back and Sherry’s words came back to you. “That vest isn’t yours either, is it? Give Daryl his vest back would ya, Dwight?” The man tore it off and threw it at Daryl who was only watching you. “Y’all are free to go,” you said to Rick and his people. “Get Miss Maggie to Carson.”

“Why?” The boy asked you, claiming your attention.

“What’s your name, kid?” you asked.

“Carl Grimes,” he said.

“Rick your dad?” he nodded, “Well then, Mister Grimes, let me explain something to you,” you said as you rested your foot on Negan’s leg, pressing hard. Arat never moved her gun from his head. “I hate men like this,” you said, pointing Lucille at Negan, “and I am so fucking tired of people trying to rule over the Living while we are always fighting the Dead. Y’all are smart, well-trained,” you looked at Daryl, “incredibly great to look at,” you threw him a wink, “and I never liked the people at the Sat Station anyways. Fuck, I may have done the exact same thing as you did if I was in your position. So, here’s how it goes now. You leave and I don’t take your shit because that stops right now.”

“Looks like the Queen has taken the crown,” Simon said smugly. You smiled at him.

“Negan won’t be seeing daylight for a while, my new friends,” you said to Rick and his people. “There’s been a change in management.”

Around you, all the Saviors began to kneel, bowing their heads to their new leader. Negan swore at you from the ground, but you ignored him. You had always been the true leader and now he was finally seeing it. Kneeling down to his level, you grabbed Negan’s chin. “Tell me,” you said, “are we pissin’ our pants yet?”

TAGS: @thanossexual

#the walking dead imagines #twd imagines #negan imagine #badass reader #reader insert #daryl dixon imagine #maggie rhee #glenn rhee #carl grimes #rick grimes #the walking dead #the walking dead imagine #walkerwords

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yikeswtfmate · 5 years

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(1) New Message from Unknown Number

main masterlist // (1) New Message Masterlist // next part

Summary: Y/N is drunk and can’t remember her ex’s number.

A/N: Hello, it is I, the idiot who writes Social Media AUs when she’s drunk but is too lazy to put them in the proper format and just leaves them to die somewhere on her laptop

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader (Social Media AU - that’s a lie, it’s actually just texts in Word format 🤡)

Warnings: swearing, dumbassery

Unknown Number: Hey asshat so listen

Unknown Number: I kno we hvnt spoken since like

Unknown Number: High school but whateve idc

Unknown Number: U’re an asshle so I dnt even care that its like…

Unknown Number: 3 in the morning nvrmd

Unknown Number: Ive ben dared to txt my hottest ex by these evil witchS so

Unknown Number: Here u go

Unknown Number: At least u had decent abs so congrats on tht jfc

Unknown Number: also u dnt get to complain abt this txt bc like

Unknown Number: u dated me for 6 months on a dare so U KNOW WHat this shuold feel like ya

Unknown Number: Wow dude that sounds like a dick move

Unknown Number: Seriously who the hell dates someone for 6 months on a dare?

Unknown Number: Doesn’t that only happen in movies though?

Unknown Number: hey bitchass dont act like u don’t kno what im talkinG abt

Unknown Number: Oh shit yeah, sorry. I don’t know who this asshole of an ex is but I sure as hell am not him

Unknown Number: Dude sounds like a complete waste of human space

Unknown Number: And I think I wouldn’t get to live it down if my friends would hear I did something that shitty

Unknown Number: Wait lemme ask Sam

Unknown Number: Nah, he says Steve would’ve beaten my ass if I were to do that so there u go

Unknown Number: m sorry who tf are u

Unknown Number: Bucky

Unknown Number: what kind of stupid name is bucky

Unknown Number: Shit man, u’re the one blowing up my phone at 3 in the morning, sending me weird ass messages when I don’t even know u and u dare say my name is stupid???

Unknown Number: Sheit srry

Unknown Number: Is been A long night

Unknown Number: nd week

Unknown Number: Actlly make thAt the whle entire fuckin month

Girl with asshole ex: Srry fr bothering u

Unknown Number: It‘s cool

Girl with asshole ex: Hey the witches ask if ure hot

Bonky: Yeah

Girl with asshole ex: WHAT THE FCK MAN AT LEST BE A LIL BIT HUMBLE SMH

Bonky: U wanted me to lie?

Girl with asshole ex: Fair point

Girl with asshole ex: They wnt a pic

Girl with asshole ex: Pic or it didn’t happen punk

Girl with asshole ex: Tht was nat

Bonky: What kind of party are u at that you can constantly text me?

Girl with asshole ex: Wanda’s place

Girl with asshole ex: Girls night

Girl with asshole ex: Getting hammered on wine BITCH

Girl with asshole ex: Also dnt change the subject

Bonky: I don’t even know your name

Girl with asshole ex: Why would I tell u my name I just want to see a suppsdly hot asssd

Bonky: You know mine and now you want me to send u a pic of me

Bonky: Bit of a disadvantage here babe

Girl with asshole ex: Babe?

Girl with asshole ex: BABE?

Girl with asshole ex: Fine

Girl with asshole ex: BABE if I tell u my name will u send a pic of u so we kno u arnt a 60yr old perv

Bonky: I’ll think about it

Girl with asshole ex: Hey fuck u

Girl with asshole ex: Not fair

Bonky: How do I know you’re not the 60yr old perv?

Girl with asshole ex: Cuz she got big tiddies to prove

Girl with asshole ex: And that was wanda

Girl with asshole ex: So now u know my fridsn

Bonky: Still don’t know your name tho babe

Bonky: Also tell Wanda she shouldn’t give out this type of info to strangers

Girl with asshole ex: ure not a stranger anymore bonky

Girl with asshole ex: ure my babe nao

Bonky: I’m going to let that Bonky slide just bc u’re cute

Bonky: But I’m also going to stop replying until you tell me your name

Girl with asshole ex: U think im cute?

Girl with asshole ex:

Girl with asshole ex: I mean u havnt even seen me but thats fair

Girl with asshole ex: Wand and nat say its true so ill believe u rnt lying to me rn

Girl with asshole ex: But I wanna see if ure cute

Girl with asshole ex: Wait why r u up st 3 in the mrng I mean we re drunk but wht r u doing

Girl with asshole ex: Babe u need to take better care of urself

Girl with asshole ex: Babe

Girl with asshole ex: Babe?

Girl with asshole ex: BABE?

Girl with asshole ex: Ph shit ure actually ignoring me

Girl with asshole ex: I dont like this

Girl with asshole ex: I actually like talking to u

Girl with asshole ex: Pls stop ignoring me

Girl with asshole ex: COME BACK AND LOBE ME

Girl with asshole ex: Babe?

Girl with asshole ex: Fine

Girl with asshole ex: It’s Y/N

Bonky: Now, that wasn’t so hard was it?

Babe: fcuk u

Bonky: I’m up at 3 bc we ordered pizza and decided it’s time to beat Sam’s ass in Mario Kart once and for all

Babe: Nd how’s that going for ya?

Bonky: Bitch has been beating us for the past 3 hours

Bonky: Thor is the only one getting at least close to him now so we’re about to give up

Babe: Wait shit how r u replying so fast if ure playing Mario kart tho

Bonky: I gave up two hours ago

Babe: Quitter

Bonky: Just gotta know which fights to pick babe

Babe: Heads up I might be fallin asleep soon

Bonky: Drink some water before that, maybe get some food in u as well to soak up all the alcohol and have an advil close for tomorrow

Babe: Ok MOM

Bonky: Hey Wanda willingly told me you have “big tiddies” so your friends don’t seem to be doing a good job of taking care of you

Bonky: Might as well let me do it so you don’t die tmrw

Babe: Ohhhh so u careeeee babe im touched

Babe: Kkkkkk Ill talk tu u tmrw ill be dead soon

Babe: Nd I do have big tiddies

Bonky: Good night babe

Babe: What the shit

Bonky: I see you survived

Babe: Barely

Babe: My head might explode soon and I feel like I’ve vomited for an entire lifetime

Babe: TMI sorry

Bonky: I’d like to point out I’m glad I don’t have to decipher your texts anymore and that you can actually spell properly

Babe: Fuck you Buckaroo

Bonky: I would also like to remind you that I have on good authority that you have “big tiddies” so don’t make me use that against you

Babe: I am going to kill Wanda

Babe:Ugh I need coffee

Babe: I’ll talk to you later

Bonky: I’ll be waiting for you babe

Babe: So

Babe: BABE

Bonky: Yes baby?

Babe:

Bonky: Nah, you love it

Babe: Fine

Babe: You still haven’t sent a pic of you though. I might be able to rise Nat and Wanda from the dead if you do

Bonky: What do I get in return?

Babe: The promise that I will keep replying even though you might turn out to be an ugly orc?

Bonky: Not enough

Babe: Fine. I’ll keep talking to you until you want me to stop. Or until I get bored of you

Bonky: Eh, you can do better

Babe: What do you WANT?

Bonky: A pic of you in return

Babe: I’m not sending you nudes, perv

Bonky: If I wanted to see you naked and be a dick about it, I could’ve asked last night, don’t worry

Bonky: But if you’ll know how I look it’s only fair I should know how you look

Babe: That sounds reasonable

Bonky: I’d say it’s a fair exchange

Babe: Fine, you first then

Bonky: If you don’t send me a pic of you afterwards babe I will stop replying, just so you know

Bonky:

Babe: Did you type super hot guy with the most beautiful eyes in the world in Google or something?

Bonky: I’m touched but no. Sam took that photo at a work event

Babe: Bitch do you really expect me to believe this is you? That looks like a guy who just stepped out of a magazine, I highly doubt I would have the luck to text him instead of my ex when drunk

Bonky:

Bonky: Are you always this annoying?

Babe: …

Bonky: What? Do you want me to take a selfie with the fucking newspaper now? I read the news online babe, I’m not getting off of this couch just so I can buy a stupid newspaper to prove it’s me

Babe: Do you have one in a suit?

Bonky: …why am I putting up with this?

Bonky: Hold on

Bonky:

Bonky: It’s been 5 minutes, are you going to reply?

Bonky: You still have to send me a picture of you though, a deal is a deal you know

Bonky: Fine, I warned you

Babe: Shit sorry

Babe: Hi Bucky, this is Natasha

Bonky: Hi Natasha. Is Y/N alright?

Babe: Uhm how should I put this?

Babe: Y/N is crying right now and she can’t reply herself

Bonky: What? What happened? Is she okay?

Babe: Oh yeah

Babe: She’s just crying because (and I’m quoting here) you’re “so beautiful, it’s like all my wet dreams and fantasies have come together. I swear this is some cosmic joke, this is not happening”

Babe: I’m not sure if she’s laughing or crying now

Babe: But she keeps yelling at me that I have to send you the most perfect picture of herself that has ever existed or you will stop talking to her

Babe: I think she started crying again because “I will never live up to that level of perfection, he told me that I have to know which fights to pick”

Babe: Uh yeah so here

Babe: 1 Photo Attached

Bonky: Hey Nat, could you tell Y/N that I would like to talk to her now?

Babe: Sure

Babe: Hey

Bonky: Baby?

Babe: Yeah?

Bonky: You picked the wrong fight if you think “you will never live up to this level of perfection”

Babe: Oh God

Bonky: Stop being an idiot

Bonky: And listen to me

Bonky: I would really like to keep talking to you. Mainly because you’re an idiot who makes me laugh, but it’s also the fact that you are the most gorgeous woman I have ever seen in my entire life

Babe:

#bucky barnes x reader #bucky barnes fanfiction #bucky barnes oneshot #social media au #bucky barnes social media au #bucky barnes au #social media #bucky barnes texts

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assassinscreed-photomode · 4 years

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softish Spoilers for the final final chapter (Hunting Alfred)

😭

long, sorry. also I have an identity crisis at the end. Fuck england

Gods I hate that final final hunting king Aelfred quest, erasing that from my memory in 3 2 1...nope, everyone was just horribly injured, but survived and they all got everything they wanted, and lived full happy lives until the end of their days! Woo fiction!

Seriously, my delicate heart can’t take the whole trope of bringing in all these wonderful fantastic characters only for them to be used as pawns to sacrifice in the final chapters for the emotions.

I actually ended up skipping through a number of death scenes and similar because I was so desperate to get to the end. I don’t even know for sure how many of the characters died lmao......It really draws you in with those first few chapters, oh look how fun and interesting everyone is, here's a low stakes saga to get you started and then BAM dead dead dead.

I don’t know what it is.

I think because this game is set in my country, one that I have a complicated relationship with. Many of the regions I know and love, places I have not been able to go to or anywhere this year due to covid, I found myself feeling deeply emotional in regard to certain visual and regional aspects of it, and then that high emotional state would transfer onto the characters and story. It mainly manifested in me having deep deep empathy for our Eivor, so much that I felt I was hurting on her behalf. Especially in regards to Sigurd, all those visions, the shit that went down in Norway like girl ARE YOU OK? Someone hug her, please.

There were times I was playing this where I genuinely felt distressed and anxious on behalf of Eivor, mainly in regards to Sigurd’s sudden anger after Suthsexe, but that's a whole other thing. I tried to be perfect around him so he wouldn’t shout at me, which obviously didn’t work. which is literally what I learnt to do as a small child and have been working through now I’m an adult. Did Sigurd fuck with my mental health progress? Omg that’s kinda amazing lol. (though it did work out with him returning to Ravensthorpe with me because I didnt fck his wife and punch him in the face, so lesson.....learnt???)

AC games can be stressful because they chronicle somebody’s whole life from start to finish, and that can feel like a lot of pressure when you are playing through the game and growing very found of the character you are using.

It’s also a bittersweet ending because you know that historically.................y’know with Alfred and the Danes, it’s no fairy tale. Its a shitshow, the danes do not conquer england or leave, they slowly lost more and more land over the century and their culture just blurred in with all the others

That SHIT IS NOT OVER.

England’s history is so so ugly. I’m talking England specifically, not Britain. It’s hideous, truly. There has not been one age in England that hasn't be fraught, fractured and rotting. From when the Romans showed up and started killing off and kicking out the indigenous celtic people, to god damn last week.

Like, as an english person who has roots and ancestors deep in these regions from as far back as my family can tell, who am I meant to be rooting for in this story? Who are me? The Saxons? They shot up from germanic regions a few hundred years before, are they my people? The Vikings? Danes the like invaded and took the land, for...reasons? I suppose? I mean, I did grow up in a town names for a viking raid of the monastery there...?

Should I root for the celtic britons? Don’t get me wrong Rhodri was evil, but is he my people?

By the time england became england, where there any celts still there? All kicked out of killed off by invading forces. Should I be rooting for the Picts from Scotland and the Pagans from the West Country? Indigenous Celts, who stick out and stand out in Valhalla’s England but were once the only people there, do they count as me? Or whatever is left of Roman descendants? Am I all of them? Centuries later the French took over, sort of. It was all mixed together at that point, genetically, culturally.

What does it even mean to be english? It’s like an ancient version of america. We all came from somewhere else, or left. What counts as being from somewhere?

I mean, I kind of knew this history before, but this game has really cemented in me just how fucked up the concept of england is. The last 5 years or so, politically, has made me resent and hate england in many ways. Not britain, england. I couldn’t imagine myself loving it ever again. But I think I do, I think I understand what it is now, more than I did before.

A mish mash of fractured ancient cultures clashing together trying to resemble a country. Its a wound that may never truly heal, but that is what makes it different from its celtic neighbours . NOT BETTER but it just had a different and very ugly start in life. I always joke about needing to move to scotland, to escape. But I know I never will, I’ve always known. I can’t do it. When Ivarr was talking about Ubba in that drinking scene, saying he disagrees with what Ubba is doing and what his goals are but he CAN’T leave him, he’s his brother. Yeah, that’s kind of how I feel about this stupid ancient busted up land.

I just want Eivor to be happy. I’m reminded of an amazing post I saw here on tumbler years ago, it went something like: I feel like a lot of people fail to realise that for some, loving fictional characters is the closest thing they have to loving themselves. Self love, self compassion, it can be so, so hard. So when you see someone else on screen, someone you can relate to, you pour your heart and soul into loving them. You want to protect them and give them all the love you can’t quite convince yourself you deserve. And by doing that, maybe just maybe, they can bring you one step closer to loving yourself.

I feel like I’ve been trampled by a fucking horse. This started out as a joke post about head canons and turned into me delving into my life long relationship with national identity. All I’m going to do in Valhalla now is fish.

Wow, successful therapy session, thanks all

._.

#WHY DO I PLAY ASSASSINS CREED #It just fucking hurts #lol #I never learn #I should have known it was gonna hurt when they kept introducing #such lovely lovely characters #Assassin's Creed #valhalla #eivor #assassins creed #assassins creed valhalla #assassins creed spoilers #valhalla spoilers #female eivor #asscreed

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adhdvane · 3 years

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Talking about GW/U&F Under the Cut because it’s gunna be a long ramble

S here’s my rankings (I want to save these and post them in this entry for myself, I want to better keep track of how much I do so I can keep a log of how much stupid effort I end up putting into this godda.mn event each time to see how my progress goes) Individual:

i’m like both proud and dead (ignore dark team, this was fire favored but final rally zeus is light, so kill him with dark team). i could solo nm 100 just fine, like much better than pervious events, including the last wind gw in June 2020 (which does tell me hey, you’ve improved a lot on your fire team in the past year), it’s just soloing nm 100 took like ~10 minutes and required me paying attention. by day 3 burn out was real (despite there being no 24 hours interlude this year because of server issues delaying prelims, lol let me tell you when i went to check the prelims on my break to find out oops sorry we’re delaying prelims a day bc ppl had issues last night when we started at 3 am your time, rip). nm 95, you see, that i could make a full auto team for and just summon the devil and skill cast a couple of the skills click attack and then full auto, and ignore the game for like 4 to 4:40 minutes. so while i did do some nm 100 runs, i mostly defaulted to nm 95 (on another note i could 1 turn nm 90 with my break/od team bandit tycoon/5* tien/summer bea/5* zeta and so during prelims and round 1 that felt really good). on the one hand it hurts that i ignore my main fire set ups for favor a full auto team (rb/sieg/heles/izmir) but like how else do i survive doing that many godda.mn raids without total burn out (and i mean the only difference is playing relic buster instead of lumberjack so no using my prized ullikummi and swapping tien out for heles bc tien is less full auto friendly bc you don’t want her buff skill activating before her damage. also i mean it was nice to let heles get exp so i got her to lv 100 during the event bc i’d leveled her to 95 prior. she has some good damage nukes, and her additional atk/def down stackable meant coverage when sieg or izmir’s didn’t land properly). besides i still got to use my main fire set up and ullikummi when i did the nm 100 runs (look i love my fire ullikummi + lumberjack i will never shut up about how good it is and how happy i was i went through with it originally for a harp memeing only to discover WOW ITS JUST REALLY GOOD FOR MAINHAND PERIOD EVEN WITHOUT HARP MEMEING GRID). sure running nm 95 was. technically not optimal in terms of time/meat/tokens/honors but it was fckin optimal for my SANITY.

crew (day 4 at top - day 1 at bottom):

first of all slkdfsjk can’t believe i actually stayed above top 30,000. WOW THAT IS DEFINITELY A FIRST. third slkdjgsldf 3 of 4 won, one day i’ll get 4 of 4. tbh surprised i managed to win the last one (THE ONE AT THE TOP) (i was... i was raiding from 3 pm - 4:40 am it was bad... i wanted to hit the 400mil individual mark for the reward bc i was close and like it would suck if i was only a little bit away)... it did feel good to actually win some though, i haven’t had victories in a while because despite the fact every gw i was definitely getting more honors than i had the previous one it was getting harder to solo shit when i’m against crews with multiple ppl participating. (HELL LAST GW, THE WATER BOSSES, WAS THE FIRST TIME I ACTUALLY MANAGED TO GET BACK INTO FCKING MAKING THE SOLO C TIER AFTER SEVERAL GW WHERE IT DIDN’T HAPPEN BECAUSE THERE WAS A BIG LEAP IN HOW MANY HONORS THAT 36,000 CREW HAD AT THE BOTTOM. also like lol at work so i can’t really start doing prelims until i get home bc i decided i wanted sleep in the morning)

other:

:) oh boy a single sunlightstone shard that’s going to sit there forever and never do anything bc how the fck am i ever going to do this 10 times. draw box fcking 50 is what i’m on. it takes 10k to empty. i would need 8k more tokens. i would get 100 tokens per extra zeus run.... im not doing 80 more zeus runs... i’ll .... just have to hit “toke draw 100 times” 21 times to use the rest of the tokens which is annoying. i guess. AND NOW WE COME TO THE REASON WHY I PUT SO MUCH GODDAMN EFFORT INTO THIS GW. gbf is a bastard man that wants me to 5* the rest of the eternals (5 of them) before i can transcend shisu to 140 ( ´•̥̥̥ω•̥̥̥` ) i hate it. so in order to get enough rev weapons to work on my next 5* i needed to 36 box for fif (i have 1 fully uncapped copy of her rev from when i was initially going to have to recruit her normally but then seeds of redemption happened in 2020 and i got her free + 50 five-star fragments, since i already had a fully uncapped copy i thought fine she’ll go next bc less weapons needed and also i have one of every other element 5* so i wanted to do her or song either way. plus maybe if i can 5* her i can actually go do that gilbert quest lol). i WOULD HAVE LOVED TO BOXED NW QUARTZ. I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO HAVE BOXED NW QUARTZ AFTER I 36 BOXED HER. BUT I KNEW IF I DID THAT, I WAS PROBABLY GOING TO INEVITABLE HIT BOX 46 BC OF THE RATE I WAS GOING AND IT WOULD FORCE ME BACK TO REV STAFFS AND I’D END UP WITH EXTRA COPIES WHEN I COULD HAVE BEEN STARTING THE NEXT SET I NEED. so instead of boxing the quartz i wanted after i switch to harps and IT sUCK. also depending on if i get the harp draw from the 2000 token i have left... i might continue zeus farm until i get it bc then at least i’ll have an even uncap on my harps (4 fully uncapped, bc i actually had a 1* harp in stash already.... bc those were FROM RANDOM DROPS I’D GOTTEN FROM GW IN THE PAST)

uhg anyways... this was like one of the first times in like a very long time that i didn’t fully burn out by day 3/4. i pushed through to the end like a godda.mn maniac. even in my early days i often just went lol im done on day 4... last gw i thought i was insane bc i got like ~158mil total honors (and EARTH IS LIKE ARGUABLY MY LEAST DEVELOPED). and this time i got over 400mil :) next one is going to be hell because my wind has be improved to 100% double tia crit and i have a my developed full auto team. oh fcking boy.

#sammy liveblogs about granblue #sammy no #dumb text post #sammy be quiet #stuff i logged for my own record but also i just need to info dump this off my chest somewhere uhg

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hiatus-for-forever · 4 years

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DONT @ ME

or do it idk

THESE WOOJIN VIDS

okokokokokok hear me out

I haven’t been posting my usual content or the content on my blog. MY SCHOOL IS WHACK IN MY COUNTRY OK? And I just kept coming across these and wanted to make a kinda short thingy about it. It’s pretty late and not that big of a news anymore but I felt like I had to get it out of me cuz I feel like some people go too far with hate comments.ii

DISCAIMER: THIS IS BASED ON MY OPINION AND MY ANALYSIS ON STUFF, DON’T COME AT ME IF YOU HAVE AN OPPOSING OPINION JUST TELL ME

Okay, let’s actually start.

First Imma talk about the sexual allegations against him:

I don’t know if they are real or not.

We have no way to tell since the person is anonymous

AND IM NOT SAYING IT IS but there is always at least the smallest chance that it is fake

We have no way of knowing.

It is very likely it is real buT there are some sick people that could be exploiting the fact that he left

I am not targeting this person whatsoever if they are in fact, real, but being anonymous stops anyone from finding them.

Basically, I will not send any hate to anyone because there is no way to tell what is happening

And Woojin was FLOODED with hate

This person knew that they might be as well so I understand that if it was real, to do it at a time that people have a a chance of believing them

AND I could be like, did they go to the police? But they won’t say where their from and the reliability of police varies from each country so I get it.

And the super recent company is also sus

The pictures that people are saying that are fake that 10x Entertainment used to justify this isn’t that sus though. These are kpop idols, they take selfies all the time and they don’t post everything so it could be very plausible.

yeah this was a mess

anyway

Closing statement: Don’t flood anyone hate, the person didn’t drop a name so we don’t even know if it’s Woojin (but the hints tho👀) and don’t immediately believe anything on the internet

also I am not taking sides but all this was so much that happened so fast and anonymous accounts make it so hard to tell if stuff is real or believable

Now Imma talk about the alleged bullying in the group

HERES THE THING

THIS is what I am very opinionated about

What I have observed with my eyes and my mind and no one else (this is my opinion I will not stress this enough)

I see that the members actually like/liked him

Here, I am gonna talk about famous clips that clain Woojin bullied them and some general overall behaviour

Bang Chan, the leader, got along with everyone and I see that he is the one that Woojin looked the most comfortable with and Chan seemed comfortable around him too. I don’t think they had any sus interactions since Chan is the leader and Woojin seems to just be friendly with him.

Lee Know. That clip where he hit Minho is the eye with his elbow was pretty sus. If anyone else did that to him they would apologize, and probably laugh about it. Woojin didn’t do this. He apologized and chuckled about it but not enough for it to be a friendly mistake and even Minho, who was smiling when he got eliminated, wasn’t laughing. There are many factors like if they were tired or not but from what you see and the way it happened was kinda sus and over time Minho and Woojin’s interactions got less and less.

Changbin. This boy just seems scared, ok? I’m not saying he’s scared of Woojin but whenever I see them film together, Changbin avoids getting too close and/or touchy as he is with the other members. Changbin is babie, he is fake maknae, he is cute. And he’s normally clingy with other members and always hugging them, especially his maknaes so for him not even wanting to make physical contact with Woojin is sus.

Hyunjin. Mostly friendly with everyone, even Woojin. He’s soft with everyone in the group and even if he wasn’t the closest with Woojin, they were very friendly with each other. The clip of Woojin chasing Hyunjin and Hyunjin screaming and running IS NOT SUS, I will explain it more later but basically, Hyunjin is a drama queen and if it were anyone else, he would do the same because thAt was the game.

Han Jisung. The more famous clips are of Woojin flicking his forehead. It could be a friendly thing and I belive it is BUT it’s pretty off and I will talk about it later. They sang together and had the normal friendly interactions but there are some clips that show how uncomfortable Han is around him and I will get to the main point of most of that later.

Felix. See look, WooLix was a thing and I wasn’t against it. Felix is nice and cute and sunshine and sweet and got along with everyone. That clip of Woojin wrestilng him and him looking hurt is something I will explain along with what happened with Hyunjin, and I do believe that he was uncomfortable with Woojin sometimes. I would also like to point out that after that

Seungmin. I have no comment because I haven’t seen any famous bullying clips of them

Jeongin. BABIE. All these clips of members protecting him from Woojin. Look, I believe Jeongin and Woojin were super close. Woojin was even ranked number 1 in the Bro Deuce in Weekly Idol. Anyone that says any bit of it was fake, I don’t believe. If it was, Jeongin being the savage maknae, would’ve put him a few rankings down if he didn’t want Woojin to be number 1. Also, the clip of no one picking Woojin as leader of a sub-unit is also sus but Jeongin was the only one to choose him. He probably felt awkward to he hid behind Bang Chan when he changed. I think that Jeongin actually likes Woojin but the other members probably thought he was a bad influence or smth.

Okay, about the Running man thing. This was a game and Woojin played hard. Maybe a little too hard I think. But the point of the game was to take others names from their back so chasing Hyunjin and taking his and Felix’s names are justifiable but as I said he went a little too hard so I don’t think he noticed that he hurt them.

He also is very strong. Everyone has seen it that he’s strong. He likes to reinforce it, maybe a complex or something, but I think he uses his strength when it is unnecessary and ends up hurting other members.

Also from what I see, he’s pretty awkward around them and doesn’t know what to do during interviews. I think that he wasn’t able to connect with them properly for the most part so doing normal friendly things/banter (Forehead flicking, and other games and stuff) are taken too far.

Also everyone who says “IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN OT8 FCK WOOJIN” annoys me. Like, I do NOT think it was a mistake for him to be part of the group. He had real talent and brought really good vocals to songs if yall forgot. And in the survival show he worked so hard for them to debut as 9, so people who think Woojin was bad from the very start are very insensitive. They were a family, and I’m sure that everyone was disappointed if his intentions turned bad.

Even Bang Chan mentions someone who broke a promise (It’s most likely Woojin) and he sounds so sad about it(give him a hug)

Final statement: I think Woojin has done something that affected other members but I don’t think he deserves all the shit since he is getting A LOT of shit

I’m done, this is my opinion, please tell me if you agree and tell me any opposing thoughts. If anyone even sees this lol

#woojin #mY OPINION #kim woojin #stray kids woojin #skz woojin #stray kids

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inessencedevided · 4 years

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The Untamed, episode 15 - watching notes

Here we go!💃🕺💃🕺

Wow, that was a cold open. So the Yao clan was attacked. I don't think there's any major character who's from that clan so far, right?

Clan leader Jiang is such a genuinely decent person, but still, I feel like all the clsn leaders (apart from the wen clan leader obviously) should have st least tried to come up with some kind of strategy. Especially, since it was only a matter of time until the wen clan attacked them

Oh no, please don't tell me that this is is how clan leader Jiang will die :(

Oh God, I'm genuinely tearing up at the image of jiang Cheng and wei Wuxian side by side, being instructed by their father/uncle. Just ugh ... I hate it when brothers turn against each other!

Shiiit, it's the petunia-lady

Wait, is she actually... nice? Is this her begrudging "i lost a sister" moment?

I have the definite feeling that the Jiang clan leader will die now, and I'm genuinely crying now :((

Oh wait, maybe that was a grave oversight of mine, but I never realised that the Wen Cksn needed Wen Qing formedical purposes specifically, since apparently, whatever dark form of cultivation the sect leader is practicing has a negative effect on his health!

It's kind of humanising to see Wen chao actually care for his father

Still a dick though

I miss lwj btw, he hasn't appeared since mid-last episode :(

Nice sneaky time laps! Just indicated by a "they've been away for 10 days"

Shiiiit! No! The wen clan is there 😳

Huh, is this going to be a fight between lady Yu and the ... wen lady whose name I forgot? I mean, I dislike them both, but I'm still intrigued :D

This while scene is just wild. The dialogue is amazing! Exactly the kind of deceptive accusations you would expect from a skilled manipulator.

Also l, it's strange to suddenly root for madam Yu

Okay, I take it back

Don't you fcking dare touch Wei Ying!!!

Jiang Cheng!!! 😭

This is going to be one of those story lines, isn't it? It's just pain from here on

Shitshitshitshit

I couldn't type during half of this because I didn't want to stop the stream but just FCK I know where this is going

He's going to sacrifice his hand right? And it's STILL not going to be enough for this woman. Why do I have a feeling that it has always been like this. Little Wei Wuxian, as a child, getting punished by her and thinking that maybe, it might be enough some day. But no, it isn't. She resents him for his very existence, so nothing he does and no punishment will ever be enough. And so he commits to it. If all she sees him is a nuisance and a troublemaker, than troublemaker he'll be. (Maybe I'm wildly off the mark here, but this thought just punched me in the gut and I needed to share)

"If I can bring peace back, one hand is worthwhile"

What? Supervisory office?

Okay, so madam Yu just values her own skin and prodebefore anything else. That's not a nice characteristic, but ar least its predictable

It's interesting how she still says "we yu clan". Honestly, as much as I don't like her, she's getting more and more fascinating

Hooooly shiiiiit

her maids are something else

"Purple spider"? Now that's a fitting title

Now, that's one fight scene! I'm fascinated! I love that there aren't any swords involved for a change and while, sometimes,slowmotion in fight scenes can be overdone, that's definitely not the case here

Every time Madam Yu talks to wei Wuxian I just want to take him in my arms and hold him forever

Again I couldn't type for a while... I have tears streaming down my face right now

It's just so GODDAMN UNFAIR!

The fact that she can't get over her goddamn hurt ego and see that wwx is just a lost, hurt child without a parent to call his own and that he loves his brother and would never subvert him. How spiteful and bitter can someone be? And I KNOW, this scene showed that she has her reasons and that, in her selfish way, she loves her son, but shit, the way she first cradled Jiang Cheng and then put down Wei Wuxian even further broke my heart in so many ways ... I'm honestly not okay

And I know, i just KNOW that JC's and wwx's falling pit will tear my heart to pieces, now! I already sobbed right now! How will I survive??

Also, all the awards to wwx's and jiang Cheng's actors!!!

.... breath sophie ...

I'm pressing play again

Ahhhrrggg!!!

It's not getting any better 😭😭😭😭

You don't understand, the episode is over and I'm genuinely sobbing!!!

This dysfunctional, (mostly) loving family full of idiots got me HARD!!!

And that goodbye!!! 😭

And just .... again (while clan leader Jiang was gentler than his wife), ALL he had to say to wei Wuxian was "watch out for Cheng and Li"!!! No "don't cry" like with his children. CAN SOMEONE JUST TELL THIS CHILD THAT HE IS LOVED JUST FOR HIMSELF, UNCONDITIONALLY!

Please.

Seriously, get your shit together Lan Zhan!

What is this show doing to me? I'm not okay 😭😭😭

@sweetlittlevampire @fandom-glazed @elenirlachlagos @allhailthedramallama @luckymoony (I'm blaming some of you personally for my suffering, btw!)

#the untamed #the untamed episode 15 #wei wuxian #wwx #lan wangji #lwj #jiang cheng #sophie watches the untamed

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I hate my body but it is because I'm fat, not because I'm trans. I can't even begin to imagine the shit y'all go through with body dysphoria and whatnot. And the danger from phobics...y'all are fucking the strongest people I have ever seen. Ppl are always saying how strong I am for fighting my mental illnesses but damn, trans people are the strongest tbh. Esp ones of color, fuck. Y'all get so much hate idk how you survive. But to all my trans bros and sis, keep fighting you are valid and ily.

im gonna answer this is in two separate parts because I don’t want to just ignore what you said at the start.

i understand the feelings of hating yourself for something you feel like you can’t change, like every time you attempt to start your journey something around you sabotages you. Whether that's being surrounded by unhealthy options or family members that don't support you or even just your own mental health.And I ain’t even talking from a trans perspective, i’m saying this as someone who has successfully lost weight and kept it off. Now of course I don’t know your personal situation, but the way you worded it made it sound like you do want to lose weight. The only thing I found works for me is to just dive balls deep into it straight away. No ‘oh but I ate microwaved kfc chips for breakfast this morning (me lmao)’, or ‘ill start on Monday’. None of that shit, just start. Pairing that with legitimately getting rid of all the stuff around you that you know you will want to eat and also having some form of accountability is the way to go. Set yourself up for success, not failure. And don’t make your goal, ‘i want to be skinny in 6 months’ because that's not going to happen. Set weekly/monthly goals, its amazing to actually meet a goal because its achievable and then you don't want to fck that up so you keep going. I actually lose weight because I went low carb, only allowed myself 20-25g of carbs a day and I ended up stickin to it because I didn’t wanna mess up my streak lmao. But, weight loss talk aside, your body is a wonderful thing that allows you to experience life. Putting yourself down because you aren’t what you think is the ‘ideal body’ or whatever is just cruel to yourself. Would you let someone else put themselves down or would you try to help them? Why should you not treat yourself the same way you would treat others? Learning to accept and enjoy this incredible thing you’ve been given isnt something that happens over night nor is it easy, theres always gonna be some imperfection that you see because you’re human and it’s what we do. At the end of the day, strive for health. Start the journey when you’re ready to, if you take baby steps then one day you’re gonna look back and realize you can’t even see the place you started from anymore.

As for the other stuff you talked about, every collective is strongest as a group so thats why I think it’s so important to stick together. Especially those of us who are lucky enough to be in stable homes, safer countries, ect. We need to be there for and give a voice to those who need it most, like transpeople of colour, like the people who cant come out because of safety, or like the people who cant access medical stuff. And that definitely includes allowing cishet allies in to support us. I see a lot of LGBTQ+ people just immediately write off a cishet person and say they’re ‘not allowed’ to be an ally. how tf are we supposed to grow stronger as a community when we shut everyone else out? Do we expect cishet people to just learn everything from google and then keep their mouths closed when we talk?a thousand voices are louder than a hundred, and those voices should be made up of both LGBTQ+ AND allies. but yes, transpeople do have to be strong for themselves and I am very proud of my community. but not only that, you are very strong for living with mental illness. takes a goddamn warrior to live with that.

anyway, sorry for going off on a tangent, you ever need to talk, my DM’s are open.

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artsyhamsterdraws · 5 years

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My first Artist alley experience

So I did it. I survived! Can I get a wahoo yeehaw boiiiiii

*cough*

Anyway I wanted to write a "lil" thing about it all, like how it went, what I learned and shit like that. So here we go~

The convention I've been going to for a while now (3 times if you count this one) is called Närcon summer, and it's a "bit of everything" convention in Linköping (sweden) that happens every summer, but they also have one in the winter and fall as well, tho I've never been to those. (I want to try and get to Närcon Winter this time if it's possible).

It's pretty big. Apparently this year they got about 12.500 visitors over the weekend, so I got to meet a lot of people!

So, how was it?

Well if I wanna be short and straight to the point, it was amazing. I had so much fun and I can't wait to return!

Long answer? Well this one will go through the whole experience from start to finish. So buckle up kiddos this might get boring.

So for me it started even before the convention opened it's gates. During it I had decided to try and sell sketchbook commissions for 50 sek (like 5 bucks), because (1): It meant I would have something to do and wouldn't just have to sit at my table and stare off into space, and (2): Seemed fun.

I then decided to try and start selling them before the convention started, so that some people could come and pick them up day 1 if they wanted to. This worked, way better than expected. In the end I had 5 drawings to make before I even got there.

Here also comes the first thing I learned!

If you sell it for cheap, some people will tip you once they see the final result!

Not everyone paid extra, but I had a couple do it and that seriously almost brought tears to my eyes :')

I had reasons for selling them for so little, but I know that it was way too cheap considering the amount of time I put into each of those drawings. I just felt that; since basically no one knows who I am and this is my first time having a table, this would be a good way to get my name and work out there.

I mean, it did work since I sold 13 of them in total? Over 3 days? (I've never drawn that many things in such a short amount of time ever before).

At first I thought I wouldn't be able to sell more commissions once I got there since I already had 5 of them to do (3 of which I managed to finish before I got there). But apparently I can be fast if I need to? Suddenly they were all just...done and I opened up the commissions again!

Here are a couple of them that I remembered to take pics of:

It was a mix of fanart, original things and OC´s! Some of them I actually wanna make digital versions of cause I think they would look cool...

Once I got there I had to face one of my fears...my neighbors... I had no idea what so ever who I would be seated with so I was afraid these upcoming 3 days would be filled with awkward silence and avoiding eyecontact. BUT! And that's a huge but (hehe)! They were great. Literally first second I met them I was like "yeah this is going to be fine".

We had so much fun, and once it got late we would sing Abba songs, and today I feel sorry for the people that had to listen to us... :P

I hope to meet them again next närcon, but the gods probably won't put us as neighbors again. They're probable mad at us for the Abba thing...

Oh and, they're both very talented and y'all should check them out! Here are their instagrams!

Literalpleb Apeachiations

Both had a bunch of fire emblem stuff, and apeachiations had some real pretty steven universe prints I wish I could buy but I don't watch steven universe so :(

Oh and I was given amazing gifts from them!

Then I bought these 2 key..chains...rings...I can't remember the english word....

Anyway I saw the Kirby one and knew I had to get it, and then I was talked into gettin the other one (I love it and wanted it don't get me wrong. It's a joke). I have yet to play the new fire emblem because my pre-order is back home and I'm at my parents place for another couple of weeks so :(

(I bought stuff from other people as well but I'll show that at the end!)

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Setting up the table was fun! I decided to bring my bookmarks and a couple of prints, + like 8 stickers of my hamster logo. I gave 2 of them away tho to my neighbors .

Oh and I put one of my cosplay rifles on the table as well because I decided it would be too much work carrying 2 around. x'D

It started out slow. Most people just stopped by and looked and then moved on. I sold maybe 1 print and 2 bookmarks the first day? I didn't expect much anyway since it was my first time there. Honestly I'm surprised one of my prints even got sold ^^' So I wasn't that put down by the first day...

But then it was Friday, the second day, and things started picking up! I sold out one of my prints! Someone even decided to buy that damn rifle I randomly threw on there, which was amazing. I still can't believe it?

Friday was also the day my friend and I decided to do our cosplay. I missed a couple of hours in the alley because of that, since we had to get back to the hotel and change and all. Tho we did it during the evening so that it would get colder outside and we wouldn't miss THAT much time.

The alley closed around 10pm so we left around 3 to change, got back at 7 and spent those last hours there. Once it closed we also stayed way later at the convention, just walking around and actually looking at things!

Ok back to artist alley!

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The last day I entered the building, and then only went outside once to buy a drink. Other than that I literally sat there a whole day. 10-10. (Don't worry I had a friend with me that came and went with drinks/snacks).

This day was by far the busiest! I had figured out already that most people wait until the last day before they buy a lot, which makes sense since you want to scope out the whole place before deciding on anything. Saturday (the last day) was also probably one of the days most one-day goers chose? I don't have evidence but that's the day I would choose if I only went 1 day at least...

I decided I would have sales on the last day. For example you got a discount if you bought a whole set of bookmarks. The commissions stayed the same price tho since it was already so cheap. ^^'

In the end I sold 45 bookmarks, the rifle, all my stickers, 13 commissions and all prints except for the 2 with the woman laying in flowers :/ My poor Selma (oc). Might put those on my etsy? I still have bookmarks there btw! Even though I sold a lot those did not sell out. xD

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Now, the last day was also the day I bought stuff from others. I decided not to buy anything from the big shops in the other building, and only spent my money on food and artist alley stuff! Gotta support em fellow artists ya know!

I already listed the things I bought from my neighbors, but I went outside of our little hidden away corner too (I did not pay extra for like a good seat heh...).

I had table 74 (in the upper right corner)...so yeah we were very hidden. Considering the bad spot my table did very well!

Anyway, Here's the cool shit I bought!

The artists' Instagrams:

Linn Standal (Cinnapai)

Emma Lupine

Linda Lithén

I also picked up a bunch of business cards from people I couldn't buy from this time...

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So then. What did I learn for next time? Weeeeell...let's make a list I guess!

If you sell commissions for cheap, some people will tip you once they see the final result! (These people are very kind)

The first day is slow. Don't panic!

You always need to bring more business cards than you think. I thought I had enough but nope, they were gone halfway past the second day :/

Next time I'll bring more prints. (Only brought 2 of each, except for the spirited away one. Of that I had 4)

People make cute sounds when they see something they like :'D

Hhhh people are so kind!

Take pictures of your damn commissions!

Bring more drawing paper. (I had to buy a new sketchbook the last day cause I had like...one empty page left)

Leave a sketchbook on the table for people to look through

You're not as bad as you think you are.

People are very kind

Put the commission sign in the middle where it's easy to see it. A lot of people didn't see mine before I moved it.

Putting a sign saying "only one left" on an almost sold out item is good.

Keep track of which prints get the most people to stop. Make note of this and order more of them for next time.

Also take notes whenever someone buys something, so you know how much you sold!

Find something you can hang your prints on so you don't have to lay them on the table. There's not as much space as you think there is.

EAT!!! FFS!!!

Write down your instagram on your business card! (I forgot I had one xD)

Aaaand I think that's that?

Like I said, I had an amazing time and I really hope to do something like this again very soon! Hopefully I'll have time and money to get to Närcon winter. I'll at least try and grab myself a table just in case, and sell it if I can't go in the end. I probably won't cosplay there tho and only focus on artist alley. ^^'

Well, how the fck did you read all this? Impressive. I am impressed. Here's a picture of my cat as a price!

Bye!

#artist alley #my art #cool art #other peoples art #Närcon Sommar #närcon sommar 2019 #näcon #things to remember #long post

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vaguely-concerned · 4 years

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I played Death of the Outsider finally and I have some Feelings about it

and most of them not very positive. nice stuff first tho!

THINGS I LIKED:

- billie is such a good character. still new to her old self and slightly tender from coming out of the protective shell of lies that was meagan foster, full of old scars and doubts and bitterness but trying for something better, something kinder even though she still doesn’t quite understand what she’s walking towards -- the genuine care and tenderness in her voice when she talks to daud or thinks about deidre. I love her.

all that and she effortlessly IS also the queer disabled woc the gamer bros refuse to believe could possibly exist. exquisite.

- the idea of ‘killing’ the outsider is compelling, but it’s the sort of idea that needs a full length game to support it and its implications. cool idea, completely wrong execution.

- saying that: I love that the injustice of the outsider’s creation being righted is only made possible by a long unbroken line of mercy and kindness. daud saved billie from the streets, corvo spared daud, daud saved emily and spared billie after her betrayal, billie tried to save aramis stilton and became entangled in the void, emily spared billie, billie took this job in the first place partly because she loves her dad daud and wants him to find peace. that idea is so beautiful that I wish the rest of the narrative was strong enough to hold it up lol.

there’s also something going on here with other people holding on to the important pieces of you -- that billie is ‘all that is left’ of daud after he’s dead. once he saved a child from true loneliness and gave her a purpose, made her feel seen again, gave her the closest thing she had to a home, and when he’s completely lost himself in the void... that kindness is still alive in billie, and she helps him find his way. again that is really touching and thoughtful and plays wonderfully into the chaos system in these games thematically! too bad about all the stilted dialogue and characterization messes and uh. everything else.

- most of all I love how clear it is that billie and daud love each other. it’s a quiet love that has nothing to prove anymore, it’s survived all the blood and the ugliness and everything they’ve done to each other and to the world, a love with no demands left. it’s not the sort of love you usually see, in all its unsentimentality, but it’s real. when daud tells her he’s proud of her and trusts her no matter what she chooses to do, you feel how much he means it. (making his insistence on trying to make her choice for her all the weirder -- see my long rant of lamentation about his characterization in doto below lol)

there’s something about daud’s undramatic yet complete acceptance of and respect for billie that... I didn’t know I needed this, but it was a nice gift nonetheless haha, thank you. (it’s similar to how good it feels in D2 when you realize corvo just likes emily a lot as a person, even aside from her being his daughter. a good series for father & daughter stories)

- this carries over from D2, but I think the journal/log entries are better written and more insightful than the stuff out in the world.

- it cannot be overstated how much the gameplay loop of these games is just... pure crack cocaine for my brain haha, very few things give me this specific kind of brain tingle. I love the sound of looting and I love the art style and ambiance and I love planning out a strategy after finding all the options and I love never being spotted or killing anyone and I love the puzzle elements they put into exploration sections and I love the feeling of how you move through the environment. it’s one of the few games where I routinely get so into it I end up with a crick in the neck because I’ve been so focused for so long and never noticed I’ve been sitting in a way that makes my entire spine hate me. I needed something to get me through the last few days and it did deliver that, at least. karnaca is pretty enough that I didn’t even mind that most of the levels were recycled from D2 either.

- I’m not quite sure whether I understood this right but there’s a woman standing behind daud in the void -- I wonder if that is actually his mother and he’s been so close this whole time? at first I thought maybe it was jessamine but god no I hope she’s finally at peace after All That Nonsense, she shouldn’t have to hang around there anymore. there’s also a figure near him I could swear was corvo with his mask on, but he’s not dead canonically so that would make very little sense. oh well I’ll take my feels where I can get them even if I have to make them up wholesale

- the bankheist was cool as fuuuuuck, that and the emotional impact of daud dying was sadly the height of this game for me, after that it all went mediocre real quick

- paul nakauchi as shan yun was, as I have said before, a blast. ‘ugh I cannot continue my throat is as raw as a plucked pheasant’ fsdkfhlsadjkhfas

- daud’s funeral is genuinely touching. she gave him the entirety of her old life for a sendoff, battered and worn and dear as they both were. someone hold me

THINGS I H A T E D:

- the stuff they did with daud’s characterization. I am so unreasonably angry over this haha, the more I think about it the more I hate it. I think there are paths you could go with his ACTUAL character to make this work, but this was not it. I’ve said this before, but his most iconic, most defining scene is him surrendering himself to corvo’s judgement without justifying himself or deflecting the blame for any of what he’s done. this isn’t even regression in his character, it’s just.. a different character altogether. they could have gone for the angle that delilah almost managed to end the world b/c daud showed mercy and that’s the reason he’s moved to action, I think that might be a more compelling motivation for him at least. OR have him be more conflicted about how to do things -- violence is still the only tool he knows how to use but it’s not what he wants to or even can be anymore and the conflict troubles him, ‘His hands do violence, but there is a different dream in his heart’. or even use a different character for the ‘kill kill kill’ angle, he didn’t need to be here for this dlc at all.

also, just on a purely practical level... for all his flaws and longstanding moral shortsightedness daud is not a stupid man. why the FCK would he be so sure that killing the outsider will fix anything? if I, dumbass extraordinaire, could within half a minute wonder if maybe something even worse would take the outsider’s place if you removed him... why does that never occur to the Knife of Dunwall tm, a man about Void for like half a century or whatever?? ugh fuck this, I’m having a hard time explaining exactly why it all feels weird and wrong to me, but know that it does and that I Do Not Like It lol. I feel cheated out of something important I thought I had.

- again, this should have been a full game. (I think it is sold as one already, but it just hm isn’t) there’s way too much shit of literal cosmic importance for the game’s universe being picked up here for something this short to cover. save this HUGE idea for a rainy day should you ever want to do another game in the series and do something else with the dlc, honestly.

- god but the outsider is insufferable in this. I don’t know what happened, but by the end I was like ‘*thoughtfully strokes chin* maybe daud has a point billie keep that knife handy’. he’s annoying and boring, which is wild to me because he was always a lot of fun in the other games.

for real tho I don’t know if this is just my atheist-but-still-angry-at-god-somehow??? talking, but daud HAS a point. people are responsible for their own actions, but the outsider didn’t have to do any of what he did either. he could have chosen to be bored through the centuries instead of seeing what people would do if you gave them such ~*morally neutral*~ abilities as y’know summoning a bunch of rats to eat other people. the game wants me to buy the ‘but really this black eyed boy is woobie tho uwu’ so badly and no I’m not buying that give me my refund I want my chaotic neutral bastard back pls. I’d probably be more inclined to want to help him like that. where’s his salt gone, arkane. if you didn’t want him to be edgy why did you make him look like that.

- this is the lamest possible version of the outsider’s backstory lol, it feels like the pearl clutching panic about satanic cults back in the day all over. listen if it’s this easy to make a god the thrill is sort of taken out of it, if these randos did it anyone could. also how the fuck are they just normal-ish people anyway? why do they follow modern fashions? haven’t they been hanging around for thousands of years, haven’t their culture changed in any meaningful way? (I realize these aren’t the same guys as back in the day but it’s just weird) why do they speak a language billie and the player can understand? why did anyone think ‘idk some cultists no one’s ever heard of before with no thematic significance whatsoever’ was the way to go world building wise? they’ve taken all the unknowable eldritchness out of the eldritch horror and we’re all poorer for it now haha

relatedly the last level is... just not very good. you come down from the awesome bank heist and then there’s... whatever the fuck this was.

- while I do like billie finding daud in the void and him remembering her I hate that he goes out still full of self loathing and rage when you talk him into the nonlethal option, that he can’t forgive himself or find any sliver of hope or peace. I wish there had been a few more moments for the two of them to come to peace with themselves before he gave the outsider back his name, some real catharsis. as it is I was annoyed when the outsider ‘woke up’ or whatever b/c it felt like he was stealing attention from what I was actually emotionally invested in and not done with.

they had n o t built up billie’s or my sympathy for the outsider well enough either. again this is something I think they could have done if they’d structured things differently, if they’d been more deliberate in making you understand he was basically a child and letting you dwell on it. because there is a parallell there between him and billie, and billie and daud, but I, how do I put this, did not give a fuck

in short this was really similar to my experience with D2 in that there’s enough good there that it’s all the more painful when it fails to deliver on it again and again, and it ruined things I already liked about this story from the first game (daud’s arc and everything to do with the outsider, mostly). give me some months of denial and hard core headcanon work and I’ll probably be able to live with it

#*shows up to doto years late with enraged takes and starbucks*#dishonored #death of the outsider #meta #I am ranting but it really is because I do love these games and it hurts me when they let themselves down like this lol

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yiqiie · 6 years

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IDOL PRODUCER S2: E3 THOUGHTS

every week, i’ll sit down and watch the newest episode of Idol Producer Season 2 《青春有你》and write down all my thoughts. nothing get’s left out so get ready for a bunch of memes, shit posts and rants as we get through another season of our fave survival show

feel free to send me any questions to my inbox and i’ll answer them asap!

a/n: I AM READY i’ve been so hyped after the previews i’m finally feeling a bit of the excitement i got from last season again

start time: 7:32 am

my wifi has been pretty good lately so i’m praying i won’t have to take all day to watch this ep again

THEY’RE DOING THE CALLS

NO NO NO

wait omfg yaochi’s mum

SHI ZHAN’S MUM HUNG UP ON HIM LMFAO

HIS FACE

zyx you’re a little shit ahahahahaha

also i love your dimple uwu

no one in A class ;;;;

JOLIN I LOVE YOU MY QUEEN

GUAN YUE UWU WHY ARE YOU SO CUTE MY BBY

wait i got too caught up i forgot to write something

but like what he said is true

you’ve got people who are already such all-rounded people compared to people who are maybe only good at singing so it’s gonna be harder for some people than it will be for others

i love jolin so much guys she’s teaching them move by move

i think the mentoring is so much better than last season though

i think they focused way too much on like being strict last time but this time they’re actually doing move by move teaching

it might have something to do with experience tbh

but once again jolin is the cutest human and she’s my number 1 pick lmao

hu chunyang uwu he’s so shy

i love li ronghao teaching though

YES BOY GO I REMEMBER YOUR DEEP VOCALS

the poor thing but look at how hardworking

they’re so nervous though poor babes

XU LONGHAN AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

HE’S SUCH A MEME

so baby pick-a me!

i’M CRYING

ZHANG PD LEGGO

i remember when he was teaching mask and all of the boys were doing zyx neck exercises and it WAS THE FUNNIEST THING

HOW THE FCK IS HE DOING THAT

i’m sorry i’m supposed to be focussed on the trainees but i’m mesmerised by zyx lmfao

dude that is some pretty crazy workout

balance

WHO SAID BALANCE

they’re asking pd hard questions ahahahhahahaha

CALLING THEM ALL REPORTERS AHAHHA

li wenhan teaching uwu what an aesthetic

yaochi’s smile is so adorable

GUAN YUE YOU’RE SO CUTE SHUT UP GET OUT

XU LONGHAN AGAIN AHAHHA

THAT HIGH NOTE BRUH

yao mingming is so cute honestly

oh no baby ;;;

he forgot some of his lines

YEAH BOI GOIGN UP TO B

please tell me they’re going to A

omg

i will cry

pls pls pls i’m begging

YES

YES YES YES I’M SO PROUD OF YOU BABES

i really have to get better at names

wait someone got to A

since when

what who is it???

only 7 people went up from F ;;;

please tell me someone went up to A

F TO B THAT’S AMAZING

no baby don’t cry no no no

oh shit i’m crying

YES BABE

I’M SO PROUD OF YOU

YOU DID IT

okay i’m sobbing i can’t even see my keyboard

[break while i get a tissue box]

LMAO ADDING IN A CHEWING GUM AD

lol the subtitles aren’t matching the sound

LOOK AT THAT VOCAL POWER

now there aren’t subtitles

wait no they’re back

LIAN HUAIWEI MY PRECIOUS BUB

wang jiayi you’re so hardworking i believe in you gorgeous

YOU CAN DO IT

YOU’RE IN B I’M SO PROUD

well we already know wenhan is in A

BUT I’M PROUD OF YOU BUB NONETHELESS

guan yue my number one pick baby

HE ALWAYS MAKES THIS FACE

IT’S FCKING ADORABLE

istg if zyx makes another trainee cry

NO NO NO NOPE

YOU ARE NOT DOING THIS TO ME

oof his vocal power though

LIAN HUAIWEI YOU ARE SUCH A MEME I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

‘hold me i’m going to faint’

i CAN’T BELIEVE THIS BOY

jia yi is holding the fcking yoghurt milk drink and practising

I CANNOT DEAL OMFG

honestly my heart hurts so much for these boys they work so hard

LIN MO DON’T CRY BUB

sorry lin mo crying for his teammates is making cry

wtf jia yi those vocals holy shit

lian huawei is such a meme i can’t believe this boy

GUAN YUE YOU LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL IN PINK

sorry this is turning into a guan yue fangirl rant

back to the topic

damn that’s a lot of people in A

THEY GET MORE MILK AHAHAHAHAHAHAH LMFAO

sorry HE’S SO CUTE

also did jia yi change his hair colour?????

zyx has his proud face on

casper’s ‘YOU GOIN A MAN’

xu fangzhou’s visuals though omg

honestly the improvement over three days is so much obvious this season then last year

you can really see how much they put in and how much they’ve improved

no babes don’t cry no no

‘my killing part is really weak’

SAID WHO

EXCUSE ME SIR

lmfao no one wanting to perform first ahahaha

AHAHAHAHA THAT WAS SO CUTE

LI WENHAN THAT WINK

EXCUSE ME

GO AWAY

guan yue’s smile IS HONESTLY

JIA YI

COME ON DON’T DO THAT

WHY ARE YOU SO ADORABLE

he forgot the moves because he kept smiling AHAHAHA

LIAN HUAIWEI

OMFG AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

i’m saying it again

I REALLY LOVE THEIR NEW UNIFORMS

i’m finally loving the new song

my CUTE BABY BUB

CHEWING GUM ADS

jia yi don’t smile at me like that

you know i can’t handle it

GUAN YUE

MY HEART

GAH

DON’T DO THE PHONE CALLS

DON’T DO IT

[brb getting my tissue box]

okay no one crying so far

we good

YAO CHI’S MUM AHAHAHHAHA

wait someone’s mum is brushing their teeth AHAHA

okay this is just really cute

NO NEED FOR TISSUES

this is hilarious omfg

‘it doesn’t matter if i can see you on weibo or not’

LMFAO THIS IS SO FUNNY

oh guan yue ;;;

i’ve seen people on weibo saying that they don’t want them to show this bit and that people shouldn’t make a big deal out of it so i won’t talk much

oh fuck where are my tissues

no baby don’t cry you’re making them so proud

NOPE

WE ARE NOT DOING THIS

lin mo pretending that there’s a bad signal so his mum doesn’t hear him cry

perhaps my heart is breaking

so is it gonna be this way producer team

you’re gonna make me laugh and now you’re giving me all of this emotional stuff

I CAN SEE THROUGH YOUR SHIT

no li wenhan nope no no no

i can’t even see my screen

[break while i get water]

ooooo group performances!!

what are the songs this time

pls don’t tell me there’s gonna be a PPAP level song

wait like ‘dream’ as in the season one dream???

that was god-tier

NAMANANA YES YES YES YES

no one’s gonna beat zyx though just saying

ooooo we have a ballad!

IT IS SEASON ONE DREAM LMFAO

it isn’t idol producer without some good old voting

who’s number one pick

li wenhan?

i bet it is

LOOK AT THIS BROSHIP

WENHAN YOU GO BABE

pls pick a good song though

LI WENHAN X JIAYI WHAT A BROSHIP

GUAN YUE’S SMILE IS SO ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL

4As LMFAO

AHAHAHHAHA HE WISHED FOR IT AND GOT CHOSEN

LMFAO HIS FACE

he thought he was gonna be able to chose his song

but he’s become li wenhan team’s competitor

no one wants to be chosen anymore because li wenhan AHAHAHHAHAA

wait my wifi cut off how did we get here again

oh wait three As in the other team

now we’re onto the next song

IT’S AN F BABY

WHO’S GONNA BE DANCING NAMANANA

oh the poor baby’s face ;;;;

THIS IS ACTUALLY SO FUNNY

before everyone wanted to be the next on picked

but now no one wants to be picked anymore

HE LITERALLY FELL OVER BECAUSE HE DIDN’T WANT TO BE CHOSEN AHAHAH

wait

what

one team per song can’t perform on stage at all

what the hell

what’s the point of live voting then?????

5 vocals and there are 4 rap parts AHAHHAHAH

i love how there isn’t even competing in their team they just kinda force chunyang to be leader lmfao

LI WENHAN A GORILLA AHAHAHHA I’M CRYING OMG

‘whoever has muscles, let them be centre’ AHAHAHHAHA

THEY’RE ALL CRAZY ISTFG

this is so funny i can’t believe this omg

PREVIEWS LEGGOOOO

wait they’re just kinda spoiling who’s gonna be able to go on stage

not gonna lie though isn’t that kind of unfair?

oooo these groups look really fcking good

he CHANGXI OMFG

wait li wenhan group’s outfits are low-key ugly lmao

they literally just revealed who’s performing ahahaha

honestly this is really unfair to the people who don’t get to perform

finish time: 11:03am

that’s all folks; tune in next week for another episode of mai’s shitposting whilst we suffer through another survival show together!

#idolproducernet #qcyn-net #idol producer #idol producer s2 #qing chun you ni #qcyn #青春有你 #mai shitposts #idol producer s2e3 #series: ip s2 thoughts #text posts

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goldblcd · 6 years

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[ MUSE 6 ] ●● is that BENJAMIN WADSWORTH? no, that’s just MATEO SERRANO, the 16 year old CIS MALE who is an HS SOPHOMORE. some say they’re CALLOUS AND TEMPERAMENTAL, but their family and friends will swear they’re RESILIENT AND INDEPENDENT. when i think of them, i think of bruised knuckles, the faint smell of cigarettes, worn out leather jackets, scars inside and out, distrustful looks, a boy trying to be a man. i wonder if their family know that HE is hiding that HE’S PLANNING TO RUN AWAY AFTER HE SAVES UP SOME MONEY.

rory again! 2/3! getting there. i’m rushing bc i’m meeting my cousin for lunch lol.

tw: mentions of drug abuse, drug overdose, violence, sexual abuse, physical abuse, ptsd.

story time, guys.

so, mateo was born (and raised) in boston to parents that had no business putting a child in the world and that apparently didn’t know how to work a condom. his mother was a junkie who was out of it for most of his childhood, and his dad was an abusive asshole who happened to be part of one of the most violent gangs in the greater boston area. nice.

growing up he was surrounded by violence, and that was ultimately what turned him into an orphan. his mother died of an overdose when he was eleven and his father was murdered by a rival gang when he was twelve. after that, he was put in the foster system, but only a month into his first placement (a group home) he ran away. and every time cps would get their hands on him he’d run away again.

he didn’t have anyone who could trust or anyone he thought had his back, so he learned how to make on his own. and ended up doing not so legal things, especially during the times he was on the streets. stealing is the easiest way to get money in those circumstances shh.

when he was fourteen, one of his father’s old friends (read gang pal) recognized him and asked if he didn’t want to join the gang with all the promises of money and family and people who would look out for him. he knew it was a very very very bad idea, but his options were very few and desperate times call for desperate measures. so, at fourteen he became a prospective member which meant he got to hang around and do whatever the members told him to.

mostly, it was stealing and selling drugs and getting into fights with rivals gangs and they did give him a place to stay, he had food and he even got into the leaders’ good graces ( too much and in ways that no fifteen-year-old should. this man is not a good guy at all ). but some months later it started a conversation of mateo becoming a full member and that meant probably having to murder someone and that’s when he drew the line because this boy couldn’t do that.

the problem is that once you’re in that circle, getting out is not something you can do. which, nice again. but then enters papa armstrong just at the perfect time. if there’s one thing he learned growing up is that he should always look out for yourself and that’s what he did. mateo sang like a bird as soon as papa armstrong offered him protection. he did not expect that to come in form of opening his house to him, but he’s not complaining.

for the past month 3 months, he has been staying with the armstrongs and trying to keep a very low profile. he’s happy to be out of boston and a little away from the gang, i mean, he doubts they’re going to look for him at some affluent suburb. he does feel bad about being there, though. he knows it’s dangerous for all parts involved and these are the nicest people he has ever met, he doesn’t want to be the reason something bad happens to them.

he’s trying to be the best houseguest he can and not overstep his boundaries. help around the house, stay out of trouble do well at school (this boy dropped out before his freshman year ok, he was supposed to be a junior), but it’s all too different and sometimes it can be a little overwhelming. add to that having to look over his shoulder 24/7, he has a lot on his plate right now.

personality, maybe.

mateo is truly a result of his environment. he is extremely independent, resourceful and resilient. no matter what goes down or what’s thrown at him, he will find a way to survive. he has been fighting for as long as he remembers and he will keep on doing just that.he is very pragmatic, there’s not a lot of complaining. shit happens and all you can do is find a way around it and fix it.

a bit of a cynic, though. the world is a dark place and people are intrinsically bad, that’s what he thinks. has a lot of trouble seeing the good in people or expecting them to do anything out of the goodness of their hearts. everyone always wants something in return.

he doesn’t know how to act when people are just nice to him tbh. the armstrongs??? he can not understand why they’re doing this. he knows papa armstrong is keeping him around because he’s important to the case but the rest of the family?? no idea. it’s not like he deserves to be cared about and for, right?

he is an introvert and likes to keep to himself most times, especially around ashcroft where he feels incredibly out of place. he’s the kid at school that’ll spend lunch by himself with a sketchpad. but he isn’t shy, he just doesn’t like to talk when he doesn’t have anything to say. he absolutely hates small talk, those just leave him without knowing what to do with himself.

he will always stand but for the little guy. if he sees a kid being bullied at school you can bet he will give up the whole lay low/don’t get into trouble and get into a fight. and he will not regret it. his means of conflict resolution are fists. that’s it.

he doesn’t do any drugs other than smoking weed and doesn’t really like getting drunk. he has very bad memories about any mind-altering substances so he’s just not a big fan. he does smoke, though. a lot. mostly when he’s nervous or when there’s someone bothering him.

he still has nightmares about everything he’s seen and lived and i would not be surprised if this boy was eventually diagnosed with ptsd because he has all the symptoms, but don’t expect him to get any help.

he loves to draw. doesn’t show it to anyone, but loves to do it and is actually really good at it. not that he thinks that or that he would believe if anyone told him that.

actually, a softie and just needs a hug or fifty.

wanted connections.

i’m getting some heavy ryan atwood (and some jesse mariano) vibes here so i’d love if someone could give me his own seth cohen and marissa cooper (princess falling in love with the outsider? yes pls).

he’s also gonna need some friends that he will try not to get attached but will fail.

maybe someone super naive and he’s just ‘fck this kid’s gonna get themselves eaten alive’ and just becomes protective over them?

tutors! he has missed a lot of school and is still trying to catch up and not have to be stuck in sophomore year.

#ashcroftintro.

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wonderouslilith · 6 years

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So, during some boredom time, this happened.

Me and @kaos-m decided to make a Hunger Games with our favorite Idol Games (and Dream!ing... Should I count it as an idol game? I don’t know.)

That’s the entire cast for this game feat. Me, Kaos and Mimosa because we had 3 slots left. This shit will be long as hell so, rest of the game under the cut!

So, we started the game, and already during the bloodbath

Shy and Teruma already killed Kaos out of the fight and Ren... Somehow!

YANAGI. THAT WAS BRUTAL. YOU KILLED TWO OF MY FAVES + CAMUS’ SERVANT! HOW DARE YOU!

Yuma saved all of us from a horrible end.

Also Touji killed Senri, but I didn’t saw it until I noticed Senri was missing from the game. So, I didn’t screenshot it but OMG TOUJI WHY.

So first day roll around and I took Otoya and Shinya with me to hunt Yanagi, Rintaro tagged along since Yanagi needs to be stopped and Camus just want to avange Cecil because there is no one who is better servant than him lol

Kaito is probably searching Kureha who is right now having an identity crisis.

Minato still being a fucking precious baby.

Jin, you are fucking rich, why are you stealing from others?! AND WHAT IS GOING ON?! HOW TOUJI ATTACKED SHIGURE AND SURVIVED?!

First night now and Ai already is being a little bitch

I’m laughing by the coincidence that two shorty blondies with tsundere complex who doesn’t like being called cute are having the exact same problem... like... WOW. And Chizuru... Yeah, you should start to question your sanity.

Somehow Mikage joined two cuties to sing cheerfully????

I was laughing imagining Rintaro convincing Tokiya to hold hands with him until I saw that KUREHA IS NOT OKAY! SOMEONE PLEASE HELP THE CHILD!!

L probably confused Yuhi for R?? AND YANAGI YOUR BITCH!!

Am I the only one who doesn’t trust those two talking?

SATSUKI defeated Ranmaru or it was Natsuki himself?! If so, goddamn Ranmaru, how?

YUMA SHOULD TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF

AND NOW ALL THE REDHEADS ARE NOT OKAY!! OTOYA PLEASE NO!!!

So, Second day! Yuhi is not innocent as he looks.

Okay so... I was first surprised that Mama Masato could do this to a depressed baby BUT THEN TOYA KILLS CHIZURU?! LIKE EXCUSE ME WHAT THE FUCK?

I’m just fangirling about the fact Reiji and Ranmaru tagged along fauiwehwafuih and then AI!! NOT YOU!! NATSUKI WOULD NEVER KILL YOU AI!!

Night two started! Toma simply doesn’t like the dreaming cast. That’s it.

Masato is being awaken by the nightmare of having his husband being killed by Teruma while Teruma is passing out of exhaustion.

Yoichi was being a little bitch to the guys and Reiji is starting to go crazy.

Fucking day three. And Masato kills Minato and Takaomi. I’m just like “POOR MINATO! HE WAS JUST SINGING AND PICKING FLOWERS!!! WHY!!” and while that, I would like to say that Yoichi is not pleased with Toya’s decision of stealing his place as the mother of stirRhythm because is the SECOND TIME he fights Toya!

Somehow, Rintaro ran away from Syo (Did you call him cutie?), Rui ran away from me, Otoya is being a cutie and Kureha and Aoi found new parents.

AND I SIMPLY WANT TO KNOW WHO HAD THIS IDEA?!

NIGHT THREE, EVERYTHING WAS DOING WELL! NATSUKI AND SUBARU WERE TOGETHER, AND THEN I LOOK AWAY FOR THREE SECONDS TO TREAT YUUHI AND OTOYA JUST KILLS HIMSELF! OTOYA!! WHY!!! MOMMY LOVED YOU SO MUCH!!!! AAAAAAAAA

Okay so, Rintaro saw a fire and stayed hidden and I was like “Hmm... But there is no fire, Syo didn’t do it... Rintaro are you okay?!”, the fact CAMUS is CHEERFULY singing makes me want to hear this. And Kasuka, is better you do.

So, Masato with explosives is Dangerous??? and AOI ALSO IS STARTING TO GO CRAZY, OH MY GOD NO.

And I wonder how much it took for Kaito to stand up and go away while talking with Yanagi. This is a legit Question.

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. WHAT IS GOING ON.

Also now I know WHICH fire Rintaro saw.

DAY FOUR AND. THIS HAPPENED. LIKE. OKAY. I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS.

WHY KASUKA WOULD KILL YANAGI, AND HOW R STARTED FIGTHING WITH SOMEONE?!

Besides this, nothing much happened

The fact that Shinya is receiving medical supplies makes me laugh because accurate. AND IS THE SECOND TIME SYO IS FAILING, SYO, WHAT THE FCK

Reiji found another baby to take care of and Rintaro convinced Touji somehow that it is a good option to do it.

NATSUKI. NO.

AND KUREHA WHY YOU HAVE EXPLOSIVES!?

WHY ALL THE CUTIES ARE WANTING DEATH?!

TOYA. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU.

Here comes Day 5 and we start on the GODDAMN SURPRISE THAT KASUKA KILLED RANMARU OF ALL PEOPLE. Kureha is stealing from riches which it’s okay.

And take a moment to imagine a 159cm little child with no muscles trying to defeat a 179cm man that even if he has the same amount of muscles as Shy still stronger than him. TOKIYA WHAT HAPPENED?!

Teruma ran away from Shy because he remembered the day he and Shy killed Ren and Kaos and now he is afraid of being killed.

SHIGURE FINALLY SHOWED WHAT HE IS HERE FOR, AND HE KILLED TOYA AND AI... Mikage did too but.... I DUNNO. I STILL FEEL LIKE IT WAS MORE SHIGURE’S DEEDS.

“YOU’RE NOT MY OTOYAN” -- Said Reiji while running away from Atom for some reason.

Rintaro hunting is quite accurate, Aoi and R working together for the day was extra cute, but then, how I defeated Issei in a fight? Like.... I have no strength. What happened Issei?!

So, Night Five rolls Around, but no Deaths occur... HOWEVER, HERE ARE SOME HIGHLITGHTS

Mikage and Shigure are... Doing an alliance... I see... And me and Tsubasa climbing trees to sleep... Great.

Touji wants his quiet life back, Issei is now depressed and so is Atom. MY GOD.

Kureha and Rintaro together looks cute

Yuhi and Toma together *sniff* my ship.

DAY 6!!

REIJI PLEASE DON’T. And Somehow Yuuhi was able to scare Touji.

Twins are finally together. And KASUKA IS IN A RAMPAGE.

NIGHT 6 AND JIN KILLED MASATO. OH MY GOD. AND CUTIE R ASKS CUTIE KAZU TO KILL HIM WHAT IS GOING OOOOON

New game, everytime Reiji begs someone to kill him you take a shot

Day 7.

Kureha and Kaito are finally together, Syo is questioning his Sanity, Toma is done with the game and I think I came back to the times where I didn’t used to like L because Im running away from him.

and Atom does this.

So, Night 7, Day 8 and Night 8 nothing happened.

But Day 9 rolls around and L killed Kaito, and he gained a spot on my heart again and ISSEI!! NOOO!!

Also the amount of people begging to die is intense. (”Everytime Atom begs someone to kill him you take a shot” as well.)

Night 9, Rintaro is feeling competitive and KASUKA FUCKING KILLS TOKIYA.

THIS GAME IS GETTING MORE INTENSE AROUND DAY 10.

LIKE REALLY INTENSE.

IT’S NIGHT 10 AND WHILE RINTARO IS STAYING AWAKE AND I’ WITH YOICHI AND KAZU, AOI AND SHINYA JUST DIED IN A FIGHT WITH TOUJI AND L.

AND EVERYONE THAT REIJI LOVES IS GONE SO HE IS CRYING.

Since Mimosa is finally back to the game at day 11 he tries to attack Shy

AND TSUBASA DECIDED TO SHOW TOMA WHO IS THE BEST CHARACTER WITH SHOUTA AOI’S VOICE. “There is only ONE place for a Shouta Aoi Voiced character and that’s me bitch.”

Yoichi received food and someone thought it would be a good idea give L explosives.

While that Teruma killed someone else.

Arena event, where I thought tons of death could happen, but...

It was just those two.

Yuuhi avanged Kazu and... Shigure??????

Night 11, Yuuhi now is going in a rampage and L beated Atom for killing his brother

And then this happened.

And this.

And Two days with nothing happening passes after so many deaths, when...

Reiji dies at day 14.

Nothing more happened again until...

Yuuhi dies at Night 16 still in his killing rampage.

More two days with nothing happening and Syo falls in a frozen lake while Shy is trying to forget everything and Mimosa for some reason is crying?????

After day 19, an Arena Event happened and Touji is out, there isonly Mimosa Shy and Jin alive.

At day 20 Shy finally kills Jin.

And during the night, MIMOSA, WHO WAS AN EXTRA CHARACTER IN THIS GAME AND WENT TILL THE FINALS, dies.

Makishima Shy is the fucking winner, this bitch is the best Idol.

Thanks for reading this entire shit.

#marginal 4 #mg4 #utapri #uta no prince sama #starry palette #dream!ing #cocktail prince #hunger games simulator #diva things #kaos-m #Self Insert

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