The Voices: 'What if : I'd Follow You'
A/N:
This is not canon to the previous chapter. Same world (I'm still working on) but this is a what if the canon timeline didn't happen.
The sneak peek I shared with
“If anything happened to you– if you die– I cannot continue living on.” It was a statement. His eyes told her he knew this for a fact. As if he had already lived through it.
- Damian to Raven
DISCLAIMER: DEATH, suicide
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The Voices: 'What if : I'd Follow You'
Raven and Damian have been married for years now. And they were more than happy in each other's arms. Granted, even they have their fair share of difficulties in their relationship.
Damian was happy to be in bed with his wife who laid on his shoulder with her fingers brushing above his beating heart.
Her condition wasn't ideal, but he loved her so dearly.
She glanced up to look at him and feeling her shift against his body he immediately looked down curiously.
He smiled when their eyes met.
"Dami, do you ever think of death?" She asked suddenly and he was taken aback.
His hand that was stroking her elbow stopped as he frowned, "Why are you asking this question?"
She brought her gaze back down, to look at her fingers brushing his sternum, "Just a thought that came to me today."
"Of course I do, it happens." He finally answered her.
"Would you remarry if I die?" She asked back as if asking about his day or the weather.
The question made him hold his breath, if anything, it would have stopped his heart too.
"Why are you saying that?" He asked back, the edge on his voice was undeniable.
Raven had stopped playing with his chest. She did not look up at him. She sighed then repeated her question.
"Would you remarry if I die?"
Her husband held her hand that was already on his chest. He laid her hand flat against his beating heart.
"My heart will stop beating if you die." The answer to the question she seemed to want to know was finally said aloud, in a room that was rather chilly despite being in each other's warm embrace. Despite being fully clothed, under warm thick sheets.
She looked up with a troubled expression, she shook her head. Before she could rebuke verbally, her husband spoke.
"If anything happened to you– if you die– I cannot continue living on." It was a statement. His eyes told her he knew this for a fact. As if he had already lived through it.
She inhaled deeply, "No. I don't want that." She propped her head up a bit with her free hand supporting her weight. As the hand he was already holding shifted in his hold and she squeezed him.
"I want you to remarry." Raven added quietly, even when there were tears in her eyes.
This time it was his turn to lift himself up from the bed. His eyes searching hers. "I will not remarry. I would rather die with you."
He watched his wife's lips quiver at his response and he cupped her face, hoping to calm her. "I can't live without you. I can't continue on. It wouldn't be living, beloved."
"Please, don't say that." Her voice cracked, her tears still gathering in her eyes. "I don't like the thought of you dying."
"I don't like the thought of you dying." He repeated and she pressed her lips.
"But I am not well. It's more likely that I–"
Damian cut her off by pulling her closer to him. "And I can't love anyone else. I can't imagine another woman in my life that isn't you. I love you."
She could see the conversation was upsetting him. She cupped his face with one hand and brushed the corner of his eye.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you." She said, crawling into his lap and hugging him tight.
He hugged her back and buried his face on her shoulder. They stayed like that for a few minutes. Their beating hearts drumming at the same pace, completely in sync.
She pulled away from his embrace, "I want to live a long life with you." She smiled at him. Then leaned her forehead against his, their noses touching.
The couple settled into their bed after their talk and he held her tighter than normal. The talk likely left an impression on him. But knowing she was in his arms calmed him.
As they waited for sleep to take them, they talked about their future together instead of one without the other.
Damian woke up in the middle of the night, not sure when he had fallen asleep amid their conversation. But he could still feel his wife's body pressing against his and it brought a smile on his face.
He wanted to bring her even closer to his face, but when he touched her arm. He felt the chill.
He was instantly awoken from the confusion of just waking up.
It was like there was an alarm in his brain blaring at him.
He sat up bringing her along with him as he glanced down only to see her– his beloved wife–
"No." A shaky breath followed. "No." He brushed her face.
Her blue face. She looked peaceful.
But his heart felt like it was ripped from his chest.
He cradled her. And wept. Muttering for her to wake. Telling her he loves her. Asking her not to leave him.
Damian was a smart man. Smarter than any average man. And he knew, with how cold her body was, that she'd been like that for a while now. He knew that even if he called 911 nothing could be done.
Therefore with what little sense he had, he used the time to talk to her. Ask her. Tell her. Beg her.
He stayed like that, hunched over her body for longer than he'd like to admit. Then something just clicked in his brain.
He lifted his head up and caressed her face. He kissed her cold lips and laid her gently on the bed.
He got up, went to their bathroom and took bottles of medication. Medication that had his wife's name on them.
Damian walked quietly to his bedside table. Placed the medications on top while he opened the drawer, taking out a piece of paper and pen and wrote something down carefully. Once he was done he glanced at his wife.
She looked so peaceful.
He smiled at her.
He placed the pen down, sighed and got his phone out. He typed something and was busy with his phone for a bit. Then placed it on mute. He placed his phone on the table and grabbed the pill bottles.
He looked at his wife again. Then studied the label on her medication.
Maybe it was an allergic reaction to the medication.
He wondered if she knew that she was going to die that evening. Was that why she was asking those questions?
Those painful questions?
But how could she know?
Those things didn't matter. He already told her what he knew to be true.
"I will be with you, my beloved wife." He whispered, opening the bottles and downed every pill inside with no water.
He then settled in bed and brushed her face. He wanted to hold her and he thought about it for a while.
He knew he couldn't sleep if she wasn't in his arms.
With that thought, he carefully gathered her into his arms again. She was still flexible which made him relax as he settled onto the bed and closed his eyes. His thumb caressed her lower back as he always does when they go to sleep.
On the piece of paper he left behind he wrote: Please bury me with her.
Damian's breathing started to shallow down.
He had also left timed text messages to his family.
The first one to call 911. Then the next messages were delayed by a few minutes.
He had one for his father telling him to continue the research under Raven's name and that whatever money he was entitled to would be used as funds for it. He thanked his father and apologized.
He sent one to his eldest brother, though he was an annoying brother, he told the man he'd appreciate it if he could oversee the projects he has, especially the research that was supposed to be for his wife.
He left messages for his other brothers too. Tim was specifically told about his will. The message for Jason seemed to be aimed to piss him off, but there was clear affection between the lines.
And he even sent one for Alfred, giving him a brief summary of what he told his family. He also thanked the older man and emphasized how grateful he was for welcoming his wife despite her condition.
Damian was content. He has made sure that everything was settled.
When the rigor mortis is completed in both their bodies, they would have long been discovered by his family. Raven would not be stuck in this position. Though he wouldn't mind if they were buried like this too.
Either way, knowing that her body would unlikely completely stiffen before they were discovered was what made him finally decide to hold her in his dying moment.
"Just a little bit more…" He mumbled.
It was good they didn't have children. It made this choice easier.
When the text messages arrived to their respective recipients it was too late. People rushed to Damian's mansion, checked every room. Bruce and Dick had checked the bedroom and–
Damian laid there with a smile on his lips and his beloved in his arms. They both looked to be at peace.
FIN.
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"Come on, grandfather !" An 8 year old Telemachus cried as he ran up the road to laertes's hut.
He stopped and waved impatiently for the dawdling old man.
Surely he could go faster than this ?
"I'm coming, boy, slow down" laertes yelled.
Suddenly, the man collapsed.
Telemachus ran down to his side as fast as possible.
Laertes lay on his side.
Telemachus shook him, desperately hoping he was ok.
"Telemachus....." the old man wheezed at last, getting up on his knees.
"Yes?"
"Am I a good actor?" Laertes smiled.
Telemachus mouth hung wide and he pushed laertes's shoulders.
"That was cruel grandfather, you really scared me"
"Ok ok I'm sorry child. I won't do it again"
He patted telemachus cheek.
"Help me up and we'll walk together, hm"
Telemachus huffed, then got up, lended laertes a hand and yanked him up.
He gripped his hand all the way to the orchard outside the hut.
"The apples are ripe, shall we pick some then ? We'll make a nice pie~." laertes asked.
Telemachus nodded.
Laertes went off to fetch the ladders. Telemachus ran inside to grab the baskets.
The picking was easy and the apples looked amazingly juicy. They had managed to collect 3 baskets of them and Laertes chose 5 for their pie. The rest he stored away.
The baking was fun though it ended with both of them being covered in flour.
They sat at laertes table and he cut a slice for each of them. Taking a spoon, he carved off a chunk of telemachus' slice and fed him it, with a hand beneath his chin.
"It makes it taste better" he whispered.
Telemachus happily accepted.
Laertes took and fed him another chunk but found he couldn't take the spoon out of telemachus's mouth. The boy was holding the spoon fast between his teeth.
He chuckled.
"This is revenge, isn’t it" laertes sighed.
The boy only smiled. He looked positively dopey with the spoon hanging out of his mouth, Laertes thought.
Laertes pulled on the spoon a little harder and telemachus had to let it go.
"Aww , I really thought I could hold it" Telemachus whined
"Tsk. Tsk. The adult wins again." Laertes smiled cheekily as he tapped telemachus's head with the spoon.
12 years later...
It had been 2 days since the suitor slaughter.
Telemachus had been dying to talk to his grandfather ever since eumaus told him of how laertes had taken his disappearance.
"For many years, poor man, heartsick for his son, he'd always keep an eye on the farm and take his meals with the hired hands whenever he felt the urge to. Now, from the day you sailed to pylos, not a sip or a bite he's touched, they say, not as he did before, and his eyes are shut to all the farmyard labours. Huddled over, groaning in grief and tears, he wasted away- the man's all skin and bones"
Telemachus's heart broke to hear that but he had more important things to focus on.
He only told eumaus to send a slave girl to tell laertes of his arrival. He and odysseus had visited yesterday but he and laertes couldn't have a full conversation since the suitor's families arrived, looking for revenge. Afterwards, odysseus and telemachus had gone home.
So on he walked to laertes's hut.
He found the old man sitting slumped outside his house on a bench.
He kneeled in front of him and gently shook his shoulder.
"Grandfather? It's me, telemachus."
Laertes looked up at him.
"Telemachus?"
"Yes"
Laertes lifted his hand toward telemachus's face
and pinched his cheek, hard.
"AH!"
Laertes finally let go and Telemachus rubbed his cheek
"What was that fo-"
"HOW COULD YOU BOY? how could you leave us like that, scaring us all half to death? You could've drowned or been assassinated and , and-"
Telemachus could only look down in shame, rubbing his bruising cheek, his eyes becoming watery.
A hand clutched the back of his head and tucked his face into Laertes's shoulder.
"And i'm so glad your safe... " he whispered shakily.
Telemachus wrapped his arms around his grandfather. He felt his tears land on his head as laertes kissed his hair.
"I'm sorry grandfather.."
"Shh sh, don't apologise. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have lost my temper"
Telemachus eyed the apples in the orchard.
"Well, you could make it up to me with a pie."
"..alright, child"
Picking the apples and baking the pie went by quickly.
Laertes cut a slice, took a spoon and carved off a chunk.
He lifted it to telemachus's face and...
hesitated.
Telemachus was an adult, 20 years old. He had killed people. He couldn't treat him like a child.
And that hurt. It hurt to know the sweet, little boy he fed pie wasn't there anymore. He sighed. He would just have to get over it. He lowered his spoon and looked away.
Telemachus noticed and smiled
before opening his mouth, giving Laertes this last little mercy. He always was his grandfather's sweet boy.
And he always would be.
Laertes chuckled, slipping the spoon into telemachus's mouth.
Only to find he couldn't take it out.
Telemachus had bitten down on it and now held it between his teeth. He had that dopey, foolish grin again. Laertes tried to pull it out but telemachus's strength had grown in the last 12 years and he held on. Laertes tried again in their little tug-of- war but telemachus just jerked his head aside
and sent the poor man flying to the floor. He looked on, startled.
Laertes grabbed the table edge and hauled himself up. Telemachus finally conceded the spoon before Laertes got thrown again.
Laertes smiled and , for the sake of completion, tapped telemachus's head with the spoon.
At that, telemachus pouted and gave laertes big, watery eyes.
"Grandfather, why do you abuse me so? First you bruise my cheek with your cruel pinch and now you strike my head? What have I done wrong?"
"Your just trying to guilt me into giving you a second slice, aren't you."
"Is it working?"
"...yes"
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