#i am literally so damn tired

[pardonmydelays]

my job makes me want to kill myself but maybe spending all my money on theatre tickets is the way

[phoenix-before-the-flame]

Family- your just not trying hard enough to find work

The jobs im qualified for- *requires laptop*

Me, with an almost 4 year old samsung tablet- its not that im not tryin, a lot of the jobs require a strong system and the tablet just cant handle it. Plus even the remote jobs are still specified to being based in a certain region, not many are fully open to international-

Family- 'just redesign ads for local companies for free, post then on instagram and hope the companies reach out to you. It's not that hard'

[fatuismooches]

Saw the anon that made the "Dottore had yet to confess before the coma" ask, and I was hit with a brainwave: sometimes, when Dottore especially misses you, he'll lay down on that grand bed, careful of all the tubes and wires, and he'll place a hand over your heart just so he knows you're still there. It's irrational, this fear he has for your... departure. He won't refer to it as death. He refuses, he's conquered death itself, so that means he can do it again. And yet... he still has to curl up beside your body, checking your heartbeat despite the beeping machines and feeling your warm skin beneath his fingertips. It's just a short break. After all, you'd always get upset when he overworked himself. Yes, he tells himself, he's doing this for your sake, not his own.

He doesn't quite believe that.

JUST- HOLY FVK 😭 I'VE BEEN REREADING THIS FOR A WHILE AND FINALLY GOT THE TIME TO RESPOND BUT THIS HURT SO BAD. I don't even know what to say. I'm like. Exploding 💥 . Sigh... just the idea of him working and then getting frustrated, and once again realizing you aren't here to tell him off about overworking... which leads to him thinking about you, and before he knows it, his body is moving towards your room hidden in the depths of the lab. No segment dares to question him when he takes that path, nor do any regular agents bother him. Though the latter does not know where he goes, they know interrupting the Doctor is not a good idea.

The heart is one of the most important things in the human body. It keeps you alive. And a sign of that life is the thump-thump, although your one seems to be slower than normal. But he'll take it... he'll take any sign you give him. Dottore takes his gloves off to feel the soft skin above your heart against his own calloused hands. The rhythmic beats bring some kind of solace to him, as he unconsciously counts how many times he hears it beat in a minute to measure any changes. Though, more recently, he comes to admit the heart isn't merely an organ. It brings you emotion. It brings you love. Love. Dottore wonders how it would feel for you to hold him back. He wonders what you'd think if you saw his scarred body and face unmasked just like how he'd seen yours. He wonders what you'd say after all this time.

Of course, these questions will one day be answered, for you will not pass. Die. Depart. Breathe your last. Whatever one wants to call it. You will not leave this world, he declares it so. It's not a matter of if, simply of when, Dottore tells himself. Though... that doesn't stop the Doctor from checking your room every single day. It doesn't stop him from brushing your hair and tracing the scars on your body. He asks you to wake up but of course, there is no response. He talks to you as if you are awake, but you aren't. He wonders if you could hear him though, wherever your mind may be. He holds you, hoping that your hand will rest over his magically, but he knows not to hope. For the Gods in all of their glory were useless, the only thing he relied on was you and his science. If only his Akademiya self could see him now.

Regardless of everything he always thinks of, he likes how warm your body is. Which is odd, considering your current state, but Dottore doesn't think much of it. A short break runs onto hours of him doing absolutely nothing besides listen to your heart, and take in all of your features he has memorized by now. Eternal sleep, and yet you are still as attractive as you were back then. But this is alright, he justifies it. It'll make up for all the times you yelled and physically dragged him away from his work. See? He's doing this for you. And he's not faking taking breaks like he used to! So please, just wake up so you can see him with your own two eyes.

[queen-scribbles]

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[ganondoodle]

serious question, are there ANY (wired) headsets made today anymore that have seperated plugs for audio and microphone??

usb ones always cause trouble and the only other ones i can find are those with combined audio+mic into one plug, which i dont have the ports on my PC for.............

i tried looking through adapters but the only ones i can find are those that combine seperate ones, id need the reverse (if thats even possible)

(visualization bc i feel like i am losing my sanity trying to explain what i mean, am i stupid? did i halluzinate the two jack/plug thing???? do only cheap garbage ones have this??? is that one of the gaming chair things??? like oh you want a GAMING headset- that means either combined or usb haHA???)

[frumentariae]

vent. sorry i’m honesty hangry and upset

actually i’m still annoyed. has anyone in this damn fandom heard of filtering tags. for shit. they don’t like

also like not to be ‘what about’ but seriously if your biggest problems are fucking shipping wars on tumblr dot com i envy you. truly.

[goldiipond]

the word terrorist has lost pretty much all meaning to me because 90% of the time a white person says that word its used as a shorthand for 'nonwhite people resisting oppression'

[spiderwarden]

If Larian takes away the breakup argument before I even get a chance to explain why it’s IC, because the shits can’t handle bad press, I’m going to be very mad.

Heaven forbid the woman with a lot of emotional issues isn’t sunshine and rainbows like people want, and will snap at your character the moment things aren’t going right because she’s projecting on Dark Urge for so many reasons and already has an unhealthy attachment to them right away and so many other reasons. (And YES it’s in character.)

There is no realistic way that we can know what the writers have in mind. People make fun of being able to kiss her after, but who knows it might be just a couples fight we don’t know. None of us work for Larian on this blasted website or know Emma Gregory. And it’s too early to tell in terms of this because they’re literally FINALLY putting in previously inaccessible scenes and it’s a slow process. We might not even have the full picture yet, we don’t know.

[helielune]

top 10 things to do instead of sleeping

[bonesandthebees]

man I'm glad I decided to read a game of thrones as a way to take notes for how to write rose... I just read about a huge battle with thousands of soldiers and it was so well done... now am I going to write a battle? no fucking way I don't hate myself that much but I know HOW to execute it in a very easy to visualize way and that's what's important

[hotelbitches]

also! if i take a while to reply to things, please be forgiving! i have 23 drafts and 25 asks currently. that's not even mentioning the things i have going on discord, too. i am a sloooooow writer when i'm not fixated on a specific character. and i have other shit going on, too. i may seem like i reply to some things really fast, but that's not the reality for everything i am capable of.

[stevethehairington]

i am SOOOOOO sick of seeing stuff about god damn ****** ***** EVERY FUCKING WHERE!!!!! i have literally every single iteration of her stupid name blocked on every social media and news platform i am on and YET!!!! stuff about her STILL permeates!!!! ii literlaly will get notifications of posts/articles about her and it's like HELLO!!!! i have that shit blocked!!!! i dont want it!!!! ican't fucking escape it!!!! i don't care i don't CARE!!!!!

[castdowns]

the only half way safe space to be a lesbian is online and literally y’all fucking suck too, i am so depressed

[nicnevans]

not gonna put op on blast but a post just crossed my dash that's just. this

and i'm sorry but if your block list is in the hundreds that's not normal and maybe you need to block less and just get comfortable with the fact that other peoples' thoughts and opinions might brush against yours in ways you don't immediately like. talk about it. consider their perspectives. broaden your horizons. if your block list is in the hundreds the only common denominator there is you. there comes a point were curating your space is just an excuse for controlling it and trying to control who can and cannot interact with you and your close friends and that just isn't healthy, and it certainly isn't a healthy way to engage with a fandom space which is by definition a shared one.

[thenwethrowitonthefire]

Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

[sweet-star-cookie]

so i finished the teal mask dlc