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rushthehollow · 10 months

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art of the duel

#roller coasters #cedar point #maverick #intamin #mine*#still one of the most fun seasons i had with the ride. and no its not because i was the TL for the first half. it was because of 2/4 #may 2/4 rest in peace. But 2/6 isnt so bad either. hopefully next years leadership cares about it as much as we did #we were so close to one million :') so damn close. downtime beloathed #(2/4 2/6 are interval numbers. the op manually sends the second train and if you do it right then the photo of the trains like that happens #(it is an art form to master and get comfortable with the ride) (etc)#i could go on forever but i wont here #just know. if you ever thought to yourself at cepo this year #wow! i cant beleive they can do that again!#it was mainly because of me #:')

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mitamicah · 6 months

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Going back memory lane to the ESC postcards for my sticker design for Kä's Allas Sea Pool gig in july :'3

(I did make some few adjustments like adding the earrings and giving the duck a bowlcut xD)

Bonus: my first attempt of a sticker (couldn't find a fitting tagline :'D)

#I miss him :'3 #it was honestly so nice to get to draw him a bit again after so long :'D #(not that I wont love going back to draw the joker out guys here soon but yeah I missed Jere xD)#also I know this probably seems forever away #I felt that now I am already going to order the böle stickers I could at least also have the allas ready #now that's out of the way I can go back to draw actually 'relevant' art #jere pöyhönen #käärijä #frank the flamingo #mine #my own art #käärijä stickers

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nuppu-nuppu · 1 year

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Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again

#pls dont read if you cant handle venting and whining #once again i am here to say that i am the loneliest person alive and i feel like i can’t grasp the basic consept of friendship and do it lol #like idk how to be friends #i feel like i will forever be sad and lonely #and i know everyone will say you can talk to me and i know that but i’ve just been by myself for so long that i don’t remember how to have #actual conversations with people i feel like i am disconnected from reality #i feel like i am an extremely unlikeable person and that’s why i was all alone in highschool and idk i am oversharing on the internet again #because it’s the only place i kind of feel safe doing it #pls take care of yourselves first before comfoting me or anything im sorry i sound very pathetic #how do i start living again #how does one live anyway #im just in my head all the time #this was supposed to be hot girl summer but it’s once again summertime sadness #im so stupid!!!#im so anxious and depressed that i dont know what to do with myself #im so sorry for oversharing i have a therapist dont worry im kind of taking care of myself #but the eternal loneliness just wont let me go #idk how to be a person anymore #i’m just sad #thinking of going to a church and pretend to be a believer so i could have a community again lol

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skunkes · 9 months

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going to be trying to fully organize/clean my room soon (maybe) and why's getting rid of stuff so hawrd like what if i really really want to reread thru books i read in middle school someday

#talkys #YKWIM....#also struggling with everything again #like i could get things that wld make living here easier but all i can think of is how that's succumbing to living here forever #ykwim.... like #in my room there's a desk built into the wall. its too low for me #it doesnt bother me actively but i mentioned it and my mom said we COULD rip it out and get a new desk #but in my brain its like. im not going to live here forever. in my mind i leave here Tomorrow every day #why wld i do that to this house i wont be here forever in.#why would i do that if i didnt think i was going to live here for 10 more years (<- he doesnt know that this is the reality of things)#but i feel this way abt everything #i moved homes a lot #my room has never been decorated whats the point #i like the thot of decorating but will likely be hopping in between apartments for the rest of my life...why bother #putting things up if youll have to take em down...

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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regardless of the "learn how to be alone" dravel, being lonely actually is really bad for your mental health and can be very painful :p

#i've been doing so so bad #and i've had breakdowns frequently this past week #and i dont have friends or family or a partner or even a therapist lmao #so im alone and thus only feeling worse and worse #my mom has been in an unusual bad mood lately so i havent been able to talk to her at all #but today she asked me to go to her to the store bc she wanted me to buy smth #and on the way we watched the snails and she found them cute (she has never appreciated snails before)#and now i instantly feel a bit better and a bit more normal after only 15 min of hanging out with her #it's so easy for ppl who have family or friends or a partner to judge and criticize me #but like.... u have ppl close to u and u know nothing abt what it feels like to be in my position #it's so condescending and lacking of compassion #i dont understand your pov either but at least im not TELLING YOU directly how much i judge you #like ppl judge me so hard for feeling miserable in my loneliness... but it's easy for u to say those things #like u dont feel my despairing loneliness bc u have a fkn partner. u have fkn friends. or a fkn family. easy for u to judge me from up ther #anyway im much better at being alone than most ppl bc im still alive and im enduring the pain every day #other ppl have ppl around them 💀 only others who are all alone can understand how much it hurts #and it wont be fixed by loving yourself or loving to be alone or whatever other bs they use to criticize u ._.#being alone IS harmful to your health. there are studies on it and im not just making that shit up #i AM allowed to feel pain bc i dont have anyone #ugh esp ppl w partners who can receive physical and romantic attention.... when they judge me.....#stfu forever u have no idea how i feel 💀 and u could never know simply by having had a partner at all...#but yeah. it bothers me too bc i NEVER see someone on here and go #damn i hate this sm i gotta let them know by sending them anons or vague post abt them #like i dont get up in their faces and tell them all my judgemental or bitter or hateful thoughts abt them #even this post is only bc other ppl have taken the liberty to without my consent or having asked tell me directly how pathetic i am #how im not allowed to feel alone. how i have a victim mentality so on and so forth #i never tell other ppl things like that. even if i think them (which honestly i rarely do unless they're extremely toxic TO other ppl) i wo #say shit abt it to them.... ??? like why?#when i sometimes see like ppl have friends on here or talk abt their partners i can feel bitter and jealous #bc im surrounded by seeing things i so deeply crave but im not a humanbeing worth of those things

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rosalie-starfall · 30 days

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Remember, this is a Republican/Conservative majority Supreme court that's decided we aren't worthy of loan forgiveness or aid not Biden or Democrats.

#sorry I'm gonna try not to get to political on here but some things are to important not to share #vote #vote blue #vote democrat #Kamala Harris for president #we wont go back #the SAVE program has life changing potential #i actually had hope that i could have a future that is debt free #but the Republican party doesn't want that #they want us to be in debt forever #because it keeps us weak and desperate #give yourself and your loved ones a chance for a bright future #also i wont tolerate any trolls #you don't agree with me?#there's a nifty little block button you can use and you wont have to see my lefty opinions anymore #I promise I wont care if you block me #what a dream to imagine a life without crippling debt #to bad greedy supreme justices don't give a f*ck about the people

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clits-and-clips · 5 months

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Since writing the affirmations and starting manifestation again, I've actually been in a much better headspace. It's crazy how things align, and you end up where you need to be, especially through pain

#txt #have been reading the affirmations every day twice a day sometimes #doing my intentions and manifesting what i wsnt #which is mainly independence #also a good relationship with my ex from here #mainly stuff for me tho #and the full moon on Wednesday which is in scorpio which is his sun sign #will be a big release and maybe i can let go a bit or a lot lol #i need to move on and focus on myself and what i want in life and doing it all on my own #with support obviously but ive never been fully independent and im so ready for the blessings and the open doors #i dont know if ill truly ever be over him but i have to try for my own sanity at this point #i dont want to manifest anything selfish like him coming back to me because it probably wont happen anyway lmao #i hope i dont sound crazy lmao but coming back into my spiritual journey is definitely what i need #connecting with myself and my purpose feels like the only thing i can do rn #have a driving lesson tomorrow but in all honesty i could just go do the test and pass cause ive been driving forever and im good at it #just need to practice certain things but im nearly there! so close i can feel it and see it #anyway i hope i can keep this energy up and continue to head in a positive direction because it feels really good #if i need to cry about him and the loss then i will but im not going to dwell on it too much #i just need to take it as a lesson and let it go :)#cause at the end of the day i really did lead myself here whether it was his choice to end it or not #blah

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hauntedwoman · 5 months

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it's actually so devastating that the first boy i ever loved and who loved me back was struggling with addiction and self harm and depression when we were together and like. it was never going to happen and we were never going to make it, despite my neverending hope that it would.

#and now im never going to love anyone again bc i wont survive it #i almost k*lled myself like three times after we broke up #and then when we got back into contact and i got closure i still ruined it with my overeagerness #and i landed myself in a fucking psych ward #so yea i dont think i can ever try to love anyone else again it's too dangerous and im going to have to be alone for the rest of my life #and im just sitting here bitter and tired bc my sister and my cousin will always choose their boyfriends over me #im always going to be the one left behind and i just need to accept it #while theyre moving in with their boyfriends and growing up and getting to do adult things ill just be stuck living in my moms house foreve #bc i dont think ill ever get better to the point that i could have those things too

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭#so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-]#unrelated

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bleakfortune · 12 days

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lalala la la lal ala la u dont have to read this your decision heed the warning tag

#cw scat #whatever #i like it as a offhanded accessory to neglect fear death impending doom etc. purposely invoking discomfort #not that liking it for the sake of it is bad but. idk. different intentions/focus.#i say all this because im thinking abt 1 my ddays au scenario thing where party gets braindead from like encephalitis or a head injury or w #atever and its just him and kobra and ks distraught obviously and (uncharacteristically! hed gladly old yeller anyone else or even p in any #other situation but hes fucked up here) like half takes care of him sometimes and molests him and theres spells where he spaces out for a #day or so and comes too to the both of them withered away moreso than usual and filthy and. yeah. p dies after a bit and k molests him some #more then kills himself.#its good w ddays because everyone everywheres malnourished and dying and fucked off research chems or we constantly so like. failing bodily #functions arent even gross to them thrers bigger problems to deal w. could go on abt my interpretation of its social culture forever but i #wont. anyways.#and 2 frank getting murderraped by some huge muscley guy and shitting himself in terror and getting made fun of for it. idk. its only #upsetting for the first bit then his heads stomped in to where hes actively dying and cant process anything other than pain #also bonus chronic pain/incontinence frm abuse as a child also mostly care abt frank w this k bye #yeah theres my piece. dont be mean plz and thx #definitely wont b a regular topic either i just Had to type it all out to organize my thoughts #text

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nothing-nothing454545 · 18 days

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no, i dont think im obligated to still small talk an hour into my meet up with a friend group ive been a part of for 2 years, and i dont think im overreacting or showing a lack of loyalty when im unsatisfied with such a conversation. As someone who hates small talk, that friend group isn't for me, and i get nothing from it, and i will choose not to feel like a weirdo (derogatory) or a traitor (..because we didn't promise each other we'd be together forever afaik), for being unsatisfied and leaving. ive shown them affection (that i didnt fully feel) for as long as i could

#switching to small talk bc i dont vibe with them is something my mom suggested #i know they feel the same but even then i think it feels bad to suddenly end it.#probably bc i dont want them to see how bad id treat them if we werent friends. i dont want them to hate me even more #but also i have to come to terms with the fact i will have no friend group if things go this way #because i dont talk to ppl and better ppl wont magically materialise in my dms #or on the lone forest bench i sit on when biking or at the rpg sessions i go to. bc people there are never my type #ppl on the bench are too rich and sporty and ppl on the rpg are too sigma male #im pretty much only hoping ill meet people in college or at art classes irl. or a convention but i didnt even have time to go this year #i should start meeting ppl online but if i dont show my face (online games) it usually doesnt go anywhere #and if i do show my face (tinder) and i mess up (like you do on tinder which is a risky place)#im losing the limited queer people in my city forever. im using up a very finite resource #i could go to meet ppl on tumblr but we will never go to voice call bc its not what you do here #conclusion: what i should do is join more random fandom discords thru tumblr and wait til theyre on call #(<- option A.)#or wait til im in some classes and join a discord with people from my school but not my class #(<- option B.)#however i dont even want to talk to people #fuck people. im tired of people #theres a number of ways i could make friends but i hate everyone i meet and am constantly pissed off and dissatisfied #i may just be aplatonic #its hard to come to terms with

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toastsnaffler · 8 months

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everyone say thank u to my roommate for going to visit her parents this weekend so I can jack it loud and nasty 🙏

#i love her but there are some benefits to having the flat to myself.... love getting to wander around in just my boxers + a tshirt too #things i could do while she was still here if i wasnt a pussy 🙄#jk itd just make her uncomfortable and im too respectful for that #having a lowkey crush on her is an endless comedy to me bc we would be so woefully incompatible romantically #and also sexually.. historically ive only ever stone topped bc ive never been comfortable enough w anyone to let them fuck me #despite very much Not being stone or exclusively a top. and i think shes some form of sex repulsed anyway so like. sits there dead silence #and also shes so in love with her other friends and i showed up late to that party.... ive been feeling kinda guilty lately bc ik-#she misses them a lot and wishes we'd be able to stay roommates w them too. and im a pretty poor replacement for them tbh #and i love spending time with her but whenever i do i feel kinda painfully aware im not them like i could never fill that space #and asking to hang out more with her always feels like im taking away from time she could be talking to them. or even being alone ik she-#likes her own company and i get that a lot too so its chill but ahh.. man #i dont mean this in a bitter or jealous way at all like theyre all such sweet ppl i couldnt ever hold it against them #theyre kind of a 3 headed cerberus type situation and im like. the stray puppy they found on the side of the road #theres nothing they can do differently i was just born to be alienated from other ppl forever until i die. and someday i hope ill-#finally get used to it and accept i wont ever feel like im enough for anyone else or feel like anything else is enough for me #old wounds healed over 5082 times that still hurt to touch but i cant help pressing my fingers into them anyway bc its a familiar pain etc #anyway lost where i was going with this its just been on my mind again recently. i hate to be pitied i hate to feel like im only included-#bc they didnt want me to feel left out i hate feeling like a shoddy secondhand stand-in and its been a lot of that lately #also been a little annoyed bc sometimes it feels like shes trying to micromanage my social life and girl. we're not close enough for that #im sure its well intentioned but im not part of what they have going on i cant compete in that ring so dont try to push me into it..#ahhh. its all ok tho one of the guys is coming to visit next month which will be rly fun but ill try to give them some space too #its good at least im doing this processing now bc group situations can be spike traps of triggers for me sometimes #regardless of how good friends i am w ppl and ive already had a wobble a few weeks ago w how i cope and i dont want it to become a #fully fledged regular issue again bc its so hard to crawl back out of that pit. anyway losing coherence here im gonna stop rambling #and go make myself an early dinner and then back to drawing........#sorry for long tags if ur reading this blows u a kiss but go find a better use of ur time girl!!#.diaries

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beeapocalypse · 11 months

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dont say this enough but i truly appreciate all of you. thank you for every moment shared

#not to sound incredibly out of it and disconnected from humanity as a whole but all of you are a reminder of an existence outside of this #shitty room. that there is something beyond the day in day out nothing im going to wrestle with forever. i dont know how to word this #i know im unresponsive and reticent and withdrawn and thaat any connection made is temporary and shitty and i am sorry foro that. i don t #know how to be a human being. it isnt due to anyone but mysefl and my shitty insignificant fears. i might not respond i might shy away afte #just a few messages but i truly truly appreciate everything. you make me human #^ sorry that sounds strange as fuck and over reliant on people i cant form lasting connections with but i dont know how else to phrase it #and im going to have to say goodbye one day and it is going to hurt but im not close enough to a single person to make it personal ive just #got frayed and split connections things that mightve been but never bloomed because i just couldnt REPLY so it could always be worse. it is #a mercy it wont hurt as bad as it could when i leave because nobody really got to know me beyond a distant possibility #i wish i could but i just cannot handle being friends with anyone. not of anyones fault but my own #i know im being presumptuous and attention seeking and shitty here. im sorry #i could leave right now. i really could. its a thought that dogs after every single action the knowledge of just how fragile life is. death #is less than five minutes away an easy solution right at my fingertips and still i get too fucking scared to grab ahold of it. clinging to #these ephemeral insignificant connections thaat are now naught but usernames on dashboards and passing thoughts when i ought to just leave

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meringuejellyfish · 2 years

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people who believe that modern precure is “falling off” are kind of insane i think

#very broad statement because i totally understand what they mean. i feel like a lot of more recent precure series' have been a little #more on the forgettable/mid tier (saying this just purely based on appearances alone. because thats a huge factor for me)#but thats always sort of been the case ... theres eh precure series from every point #kira kira has some of the most delightful designs and one of the strongest casts from any precure series #and i just was looking at a bunch of tropical rouge stuff (i will finish it someday LOL) and my gawd the fight scenes go hard #and the stylization in tropical rouge in my opinion is really lovely. it has sort of that average anime look to it but defines itself with #really fun shapes and expressiveness. i also think the color usage is just really good #wont ever get tired of the rainbow lineups where every cure just gets 1 color basically because its still done in a very appealing way #but i like when cures in a series get more interesting palettes #anyway - theres always more to want from precure. i know id go crazy if i made my own precure series. but theres also so much about precure #thats just so delightful and its quite a shame i think that its crazily popular in japan but was never properly brought over here #and when it was with smile precure (turned into glitter force) it was ... mangled #they also brought over doki doki (still under the glitter force title) and i only ever watched a bit of the dubbed version ... but i think #they might have kept it more intact ? but also havent tried any series after those two ?#i dont know all i remember is draculaura voiced the main girl (cure heart)#anyway my point was something. something something oh yeah i think the only thing id say aside from various things id hypothetically want #from future precure series (the list could go on forever) that i'll say right now is. i wish they went a little crazier with the styles for #each series. of course the style differs from series to series already but i want ...even more stylized ones #of course id be saying this when my second favorite series is heartcatch which has the coolest style and animation ever but oh my god #precure is precure and is basically appealing no matter what but ... also im a guy who just leans towards more interesting styles #i would like to continue star twinkle precure of course and think it is cute for what it is style wise but its also not my favorite #kind of style. this is more nitpicky hyper specific tastes though. im just rambling #most appealing looking precure series' in my personal opinion are futari wa. heartcatch. kira kira a la mode. and tropical rouge

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alexandreakarev · 2 years

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This is a BLOG SET UP tag drop. Wishlist, answered, promos, about blog, permanent starter call, stats are all tags under the cut. This tag set up are different quotes for all the tags in this section.

* … ( OOC : ramblings. ) › ❝ she has a mouth like unswept glass. it will CUT you when you least expect it. ❞ * … ( OOC : ooc answered. ) › ❝ you have the words to change a nation and yet? you’ve been BITING your tongue. ❞ * … ( OOC : about the mun. ) › ❝ she has kind of said too much. and you’ve said ENOUGH. promise that she is just another narcissist. ❞ * … ( OOC : original poetry. ) › ❝ prefers her work to be RECOGNISED rather than hidden. either way? she won’t go speechless. ❞ * … ( OOC : self promo. ) › ❝ a little self-promo featured on the dash never really KILLED anyone. has it? ❞ * … ( OOC : promo. ) › ❝ the best people completely DESERVING of all of your love & attention on shining spotlights of their own. ❞ * … ( OOC : musings. ) › ❝ she is brave and STRONG and broken all at once. ❞ * … ( OOC : nsfw. ) › ❝ mascara runnin’ and lipstick smudged. wearing a red wine stained dress with a hint of the DEVIL in her eyes. ❞ * … ( OOC : desires. ) › ❝ took her hours just to do her makeup right. if you’re the reason it gets ruined she’ll be PISSED tonight. ❞ * … ( OOC : wanted plots. ) › ❝ wish I never hung up the phone like I did. WISH you knew that I’d never forget you as long as I live. ❞ * … ( OOC : wishlist. ) › ❝ let a shooting star run across a MIDNIGHT sky. throw a coin into a wishing well. make a wish now. ❞ * … ( OOC : ask meme. ) › ❝ she hates playing MIND games but yet continues pulling and pushing. loving you is a losing game. ❞ * … ( OOC : about blog. ) › ❝ doesn’t start with once upon a time. you know what she’ll introduce the LEGACY with? always and forever. ❞ * … ( OOC : plotting starter call. ) › ❝ handle it? are you kidding? she’s the master of SKILLFULLY planning the next tactical moves. ❞ * … ( OOC : statistics. ) › ❝ you and me got a whole lot of history. so does it ever drive you CRAZY just how fast the night changes? ❞ * … ( OOC : templates. ) › ❝ your lack of proper organisation causes her serious DISTRESS beyond what you could possibly fathom. ❞ * … ( OOC : credits. ) › ❝ the ABSOLUTE best lifesaving content creators. ❞ … ( OOC : all headcanons. ) › ❝ fact is deleted scenes should’ve made canon. would take over CONTROL of her original narrative. ❞ * … ( OOC : all replies. ) › ❝ written in these walls are the STORIES that I can’t explain. leave my heart open but it stays here empty. ❞ * … ( OOC : all answered. ) › ❝ watch out for a furious writer with a vocabulary of sharpened CONVICTION and quills in her arsenal. ❞ * … ( OOC : all edits. ) › ❝ nobody remembers the easy. they REMEMBER the blood, sweat and tears shed on the journey. ❞ * … ( OOC : reblogged. ) › ❝ don’t play the person. play to rig the game of the unfair system. and BREAK through the walls of it. ❞ * … ( OOC : reshared. ) › ❝ she’ll intend to keep these polaroids with her CAPTIONED signature to remember for when she’s grey. ❞ * … ( OOC : psa. ) › ❝ thank you next. in ADVANCE? you’re welcome. ❞ * … ( OOC : verses. ) › ❝ mayhaps in another world things would’ve been DIFFERENT. and I could’ve made you stay. ❞ * … ( OOC : verse drop. ) › ❝ she wants to be your midnights. are we out of the woods yet? tell me where do broken hearts go. ❞ * … ( OOC : queue. ) › ❝ just called to say this is the LAST you’ll be hearing from me. ‘cause now i’ve moved on. ❞

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5-htagonist · 19 days

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okkkk but demon king!dungeon lord!laios wherein Something Something happens and laios not only devours the lion inheriting the kingdom................ but perhaps the lions curse manifests differently too....

#dm #i dont know quite concretely what i would want from this but just like #perhaps the lion curses him with the wish granting ability along with the never having desires fulfilled i.e. no matter how happy he makes #everyone else no matter how Valuable and Needed he is its not ever going to be satisfying #to satisfy everyone else #i think it would be an interesting lens to analyze his feelings of alienation #even if he can be everything for everyone he will always feel nothing to no one #also i think this would manifest more as like #alexithymia tbh i.e. he knows what he wantsand needs and he can get it but it never quite scratches the itch #of course i think this would kind of mirror the whole bodhisattva thing he has going on #acceptance of a permanent middle path and whatnot #but also i think as his biggest desire is Not like enlightenment or whatever but much more material and interpersonal desire....#i dont think enlightenment would be something anywhere near his train of thought esp in my scenario #i think it could be an interesting inversion of his typical avoidant strategy instead throwing spaghetti at the wall #i think his thoughts would go something like:#no matter how much i avoid trying to bother [my loved ones]... they always come back around #i dont know why they come back around when they clearly dont think much of me... so clearly theres something i can do for them that they #know about and wont tell me...#*cue obtuse rubber goose green moose guava juice giant snake birthday cake large fries chocolate shake*#also i think it would be like about laios learning to adapt to his curse of course lots of sad and hilarious scenarios here #i.e. Desperate Friendship Appeals #or Wish Bureaucracy #or political secrets and intrigue if perse its a double life scenario #Where do the king and his cohorts go at night? What lurks under the castle? How do our resources never run dry?#marcille would be his biggest enabler i feel <3 #he and kabru would be like #kismesises kind of... yknow in a watered down way #he and falin.... i dont think theyd have a great relationship #i think laios would feel a lot of shame #and falin of course would be repelled due do laios' desires being unfulfillable and ik hed love for her to stay around forever

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