#i didn't get to see him at school today because dentist appointment

[lis4ux]

I am so excited for the next chapter of game of love here's a teaser just because:

The next morning Luke knocks on JJ's door, expecting to have to wake him for the run they had planned. JJ opens it almost immediately, staring at Luke with no expression as his dad takes in the clear black eye on his face.

Luke is startled for a moment. It wasn't often that he lost his cool enough to leave a mark like that. At least not one so visible. And JJ knows it.

"Ready to go jogging through Figure Eight?" JJ asks.

Luke bites his tongue. "Don't get mouthy," he warns, satisfied when he sees JJ flinch at the raised finger pointing at him. Kid liked to act tough, but they both knew who was really in charge.

Still, JJ's sarcasm wasn't wrong. It was bad enough the kid would need to go to school like that, he didn't need any more eyes on him. Not to mention the game they have tonight. Best thing in this situation is to limit that as much as possible.

"I'll call you out for a dentist appointment," Luke says. "Skip the run today."

JJ nods, not making a move to turn his back until his dad does first. It was obvious that Luke was recognizing he crossed a line that would be hard to explain, but that didn't mean he wouldn't cock a fist to a less visible location on his son's body if he felt the urge.

He takes a breath when Luke is around the corner and out of view, closing the door.

[queen-anxiety]

A small three day update 📆

3/1 Wednesday

We are in the process of investigating the big troll for ADHD and the first visit was with a counselor. After talking to her, she didn't think he had enough difficulties to continue doing an investigation. Which in my world is strange because he does have difficulties in school and at home. But we would wait and then see how it will be when he gets older if he finds it harder or easier. After the meeting we went to Leo's Lekland, it is a large indoor playground for kids. The kids thought it was fun and that's the main thing, me all i was thinking about was all the viruses.🦠🥲

4/1 Thursday

Today I was finally going to get my tooth fixed, it was supposed to be anyway. I went there at 10 past 12 as it was said but someone else was in so my appointment was pushed out and I had to rebook the appointment for tomorrow instead. After not being at the dentist, we went to my parents' as I was supposed to help and take care of mom while dad was at work. It actually went well and it was nice to have some quality time with her. Her speech has started to get really slurred so it's getting hard to hear what she's saying and her hallucinations are starting to come back. Some days are more and other days less. 🥺

5/1 Friday

Both me and the big troll were going to the dentist today, but the big troll's visit was cancelled. He's going to put some braces in because he bites crookedly and it's so that his bite will be straight. However, they didn't have his correct rubber band, so it was canceled because of that and I had to cancel mine to because the little troll had gotten sick again. This time an ear infection in only one ear so I had to go and buy pain relief and nasal spray for him. He feels better with pain relief but after a while it hurts again. It's probably a cold again causing it. Let's hope he recovers from this quickly. 👂

[badmouthedmama]

Today totally sucks woke up to the most wonderful dream. I squeeze my pillow so tight. Wishing it was my man, I totally fell back asleep until 6:15, and I'm usually out of bed no later than 445. Out door on my walk by 515.

So, I'm trying to get my a** out the door not really wanting to because of the pain level. And I look at the smallest little crack out my window. And there's the big beautiful moon staring at me. The moon to me is like the ocean to Moana. She calls me!! got my a** out the door.

So another s***** moon picture. It was there beautifully as soon as I grabbed my phone the cloud started rolling and faster than I could take the pictures!

so f****** p***** off went to an emergency dentist appointment yesterday. Thinking possible root canal. But the dentist was confident that he could put a Crown and explained all the stuff to me that I didn't understand, pushing my tooth around, which is causing the pain. Well, he's the expert, so I trust him. Of course. Half my face. Is numb yesterday. It looks like I had a stroke. And by the time it finally wears off. I'm thinking to myself. Hit the wrong f****** tooth, but I'm no expert. So I tell myself, just give it a day. You're still just in a lot of had your mouth spread open Like a w****.... and I don't know I'm trying to come up with something funny there, hasn't come to me

So on my walk. Call the emergency line, again. My face hurts so f****** bad. This is so stupid if you want to wish some f*** up s*** on your worst enemies. Wish them some tooth pain. It's the f****** worst.

So now waiting for the office to call ehen they open.

I was thinking about my 2nd day on the new J O B today, and I'm actually really freaking excited. It's kind of funny because I've been a waitress for 25 years. People always ask me, especially from high school. You're still there. Yeah, I'm still there. The money is great, and I f****** love it. But now, this new job, going in on only my 2nd day. I don't think I've been more excited to go into work, you find new loves. Maybe it's just your love changes. I don't know. Maybe it's just a general consensus of my whole body finally at peace. I used to have an anxiety pill that I called my crazy pill that I took 3 times a day. And I'll tell you, yesterday I was driving on the freeway. And this double semi truck was next to me. Pouring down rain mist flying up everywhere, a year ago I would br white knuckles *** my life, and yesterday as I was passing, I caught myself in complete peace and calm. And it was actually f****** beautiful. I had to pause and reflect on the fact that I was driving next to a semi truck going 65 miles an hour in the pouring down rain barely able to see and not an ounce of anxiety that is f****** beautiful. Get your mind right and everything starts to change.

*Pause*

gotta call back from the dentist. I know exactly the lady that called, never really been a fan of her. She's not the most pleasant person. She's my age, maybe a little younger, absolutely beautiful, but she's always got a chip on her shoulder. The old me was always rude back. The new me. I just deal with it and try to remind myself She's probably got something going on in her life. That makes her just be an angry bitter woman. So I'm driving and as you should Do you pray for people. So I pray for that bitch to check her attitude

Thank you, Lord for this beautiful day. And thank you for my sobriety. Thank you for the Doctor's appointment. And hopefully the ability to get this f****** toothpain to go away. I pray for my family. I pray for strength to not freak the f*** out on my stupid F****** co-workers this weekend on my last couple days. And I pray for ****** at the dentist office for whatever she is going thru in her life. Please guide me to lead from my heart, guide my words my hands my feet for your will for me. Amen

***** super looooonnnng pause

One hour later (in my sponge Bob show voice)

But really 10 and a half hours 🤦‍♀️😬🤣

BRB

I'll just leave it at this 😁

#TBGLU ✌️🌙

[imaginarypeteel]

Really Kal?

Kal Sharma x reader

Warning: Cussing, spoilers

Word count: 2k

You were waiting for Kal and Dru to reach the school impatiently. You had been sick for some time and were utterly creeped out already. This girl who was walking to school in front of you suddenly froze. She didn't respond when you asked if she's okay and few seconds after, just kept walking forward like nothing. Not to mention Regan was standing and guarding like a hawk.

You raised your brow as you saw Kal riding his bike faster than ever. He did a dramatic brake near you. "Y/n!" he called, smiling.

"Kal, what the hell? Why are you cycling so fast? Actually how are you cycling so fast? And where's Dru?" the boy's face dropped at your last question but he wiped it off quickly.

"Yeah, i wanna know too, where is Dru?"

asked Chloe as she ran over from her place beside Regan.

Once again, the grin that made you want to smile oh so stupidly fell and he clicked his tongue. "i don't know, probably in the library," he replied.

"Try the library!" yelled the ginger to the 'leader.'

You couldn't help but roll your eyes at her action, Kal seemed annoyed as well.

"Anyway, I have been working out. Ya like it?" he grinned like a shit fox, placing his bike away and flexing his arms a bit.

"Yeah, sure, you became Usain Bolt within the few days, i was away. What's going on? Everyone's so weird and haven't even had one class yet."

"Heh, but it is true. I’ll tell you soon. It's nice to see you're okay now Y/n," the Hindi Aussie boy smiled and stepped to your side, awkwardly hugging you.

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"Y/n! You're back! Did you do the dental...thing the school had?" Dru asked as he dashed into the classroom.

"Uh no, my mum didn't allow it, remember? I went to the dentist last week."

Dru's eyes grew wide. "Oh no, listen. Just act like everyone else but get out of here as quickly as possible," the glassed boy rushed out quietly. You slowly nodded, not understanding what he meant but trusting your best friend regardless. He isn't one to make you skip school for no reason. You glanced at his twin who suddenly froze like the girl today and sat in a robot like way. Among others who did the same. By instinct, you mimicked their behaviour and awkwardly lip synched the Mandarin phrase. There was some Chinese boy in front of the classroom who was shifting his eyes around, they widened as his gaze met Dru and yours but he stayed put.

Miss Biggs introduced the Chinese boy before he started asking math questions in Mandarin. You started to sweat a bit, even more so when all of the others answered correctly with perfect pronunciation. What the hell? I thought they all sucked at Mandarin. You thanked Gods of all religions when Dru answered wrongly because now you won't be a complete loser if you're asked.

Luckily you weren’t.

When class ended, you tried to hide between the brothers and managed to slip past teachers long enough to get outside.

"Y/n, Dru, see you," said Jiao as he walked past. Both you and Dru stared after him confusion while Kal pulled you closer to him.

"What does he mean 'see you'. What the fuck is going on?" you grumbled upsetly and rubbed your ear, slightly distancing yourself from the more athletic one of the two.

"We'll explain soon, for now just go to the sewers, you'll be safe there," Dru rushed out as he looked around nervously. You glared at him for his order to go to the sewers but decided to surrender and just trust him.

"Miss Y/n L/n!" called a voice with clearly high authority.

You froze, as did the twins. Though the thing that went unnoticed by you was how Kal slid a bit closer to you protectively. "Yes Miss Biggs?" you smiled crookedly. "Can i help you?"

"You haven't done the dental checkup yet, come with me," she ordered with a sickly sweet smile.

Your eyes widened as you noticed the twins tense a bit. What the hell? "Uh you see, i already had an appointment with my dentist last week," you laughed awkwardly. The ginger woman didn't seem happy with your response.

"Everyone has to do it. Now come to the nurse's office with me, please." Her eyes were a bit slit and you could tell she was getting frustrated.

"Okay, i just need to go to the bathroom first," you excused yourself with a smile.

"You can hold it, the checkup won't be long," she hissed out, stopping you.'

"I'm afraid I can't hold my period. You should know that," you replied politely but anyone could tell you yourself were embarrassed. She can't deny this excuse.

"Fine," spoke the woman as she saw she was defeated.

You hurried to the bathroom, the twins after you. "Y/n!" called Dru when you were almost at the bathroom door. You looked up at him in confusion. "Get rid of your phone as well. Be completely off any radars," you nodded slowly and switched your gaze towards the other brother. Kal smiled at you, a bit sadly you would say.

You entered the bathroom, shutting the door firmly behind yourself. You took a deep breath in before walking to the window in the  bathroom. You opened it and climbed outside, slightly hissing as you landed badly on the grass outside. Regardless you started to walk towards the area you knew a huge opening to the sewers was. The wonders of having a little suspicious friends who can't help but be attracted to smoking at the weirdest places. Those friends not being Kal and Dru. At least you hoped so.

On your way there, you snagged a pair of sweatpants from someone's yard that were out drying. You do not plan on sitting in sewers in that stupid uniform skirt. You bought a hot dog and some snacks from a food truck with cash of course.

You slipped past the metal bars guarding the sewers, cussing when your ass got a bit stuck and you had to squeeze it through. The stench of the sewers was disgusting but you tried to ignore it and find a place you could comfortably change your clothes at. You felt your feet getting stuck behind something before an alarm that almost scared you to death blew across the tunnels. You jumped and then froze, e/c eyes wide. "Holy fuck! I am so gonna kill the dickhead who put this shit here." You stepped over the alarm triggering line and kept walking. The sounds had shut off.

You put a chewie in your mouth since you were getting bored just walking and getting lost in the stinky tunnels. Now that you think of it, you should've left a sign for the boys to find you. You cuss as you turn around to go back a bit and stay closer to the entrance but then, you were grabbed and a bag was put over your head. "OH WHAT THE HELL?! BUGGER OFF DICKHEADS! YOU FUCKEN' SLAGS, LET ME GO!" you yelled, thrashing around but it wasn't much use.

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You glared at the three girls and the guy who were keeping you here. "Can i at least go change out of this skirt to the sweatpants?" you asked upsetly. They exchanged looks with each other before nodding. You stand up and walk to a corner in their little hideout, they too gave you a bit privacy. It was weird to change but you sighed in relief when instead of the skirt, comfortable sweatpants were hugging your lower body. Even if they weren't your own. "Alright. Fine. I'm Y/n, what's your names?" you asked as you sat back down on your former place. They communicated in silence with each other again which made you sigh. "Look, i have no clue what's going either. I'm just here because my two mates told me to come here, so the school wouldn't do this dental thing on me," you explained, rolling your eyes.

Their eyes widened, "Your mates, are their names Dru and Kal perhaps?" asked the girl with more Asian looks.

You narrowed your eyes at her words. "How do you know them? Whats going on anyway?"

"Ah, Y/n, i was hoping you'd find them," said a familiar voice from the mouth of the room or so. "Let me explain but first, here, Kal wanted you to have this," you closed your eyes as a black-and-white hoodie was thrown at your face. Kal's black-and-white hoodie. You took the hoodie to your hands and rose a brow in question. "I'll explain what's going on and you'll understand why he couldn't give it himself." The tan boy sat down beside you ans started explaining. "So..."

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"So what you're saying is that this company that wants to show themselves as child friendly kid helpers is actually enslaving all the kids and making them into robokids with an implant they put into jaws during that dental checkup?" you asked with a disbelieving face.

"I know it sounds crazy but you saw what the others were like today. Have you ever seen Kal learn a word of Mandarin?" That was true, you had never seen Kal learn anything except new ways to piss Dru off.

"Fair, okay, i get it. What will you tell my parents though?" you asked, chewing your lip.

Dru looked at you with sad eyes, "For now, nothing." Fuck.

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You stared at the walkie talkie with teary eyes as you listened to how Kal was speaking with Regan. You looked down sadly. These implants were really changing him. Dru had ranted to you before on how much he had changed ever since he became an Elite. You thought before that it was just the twins getting annoyed of being with each other all the time but now you could see what he was talking about.

"I'm sure he didn't mean it," said Jacob as you leaned your head against Dru's arm sadly.

I want my Kal back. You thought as you closed your eyes and a single tear escaped your eye.

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Kal tongued his cheeks as you once again escaped from interaction with him. The only contact the two of you had done was when he had fallen on you in the tunnels because he was close to losing consciousness. After that, nothing. You had stayed behind to watch over Regan with Kymara and now you were all out and this part of the mission to take GCI was done.

"Y/n," he said firmly. You froze and turned towards him, avoiding eye contact. "Why are you avoiding me?"

You gulped and your eyes met with his chocolate ones for a moment and you were surprised to see the sadness and angst in them. "We heard you, I heard you," you replied quietly.

"What do you mean? What did you hear?" he questioned nervously, hoping and praying that it wasn't what he thought it is.

"With Regan, this Eliteness has gotten to your head, Kal. I mean, you were a dickhead before but you were my dickhead, the one i knew i could trust with my life. The one who traded spots with his brother because he was afraid of something. The one who despite being a jocky like asshole helped others regardless of their status. Now you're just, just..." you pressed our lips in a tight line and turned away. "I'm sorry you're just, I just..." you stopped talking completely and walked ahead without another word, following the rest of the Unlisted. The implanted twin stared after you sadly.

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You and Dru caught Kal as he fell after the device was destroyed, you hissed at the pressure your injured arm was put under. While trying to stop Kal from chasing after his brother, he had roughly pushed you against the stone wall, a sharper point in it tearing an ugly wound on your arm that you had shielded your head with. It was probably infected by now.

"Ow, my head," groaned the boy who was just released from the control of Emma Ainsworth's despicable gadget. He tried to stand up by himself but wobbled right back into your embrace.

"Kal! Relax, you can lean against us. We'll help you. I promise," you said softly. He smiled shakily and rolled his head against your neck, still conscious but weak. His soft yet hot breaths against your skin made you turn a bit red but you ignored it. The two of you helped him outside where Dadi and rest of the Sharmas were waiting for you.

"My little wombats!" she exclaimed and came running over, engulfing the three of you in a tight hug, you squeezed your eyes shut in pain. "Kal, are you okay? What about you Dru? And you Y/n, are you okay?" she gasped as she saw your arm. "Your arm!"

You ran towards the bathroom after you had heard Kal scream like a little girl. "Kal! Are you okay? What happened? Open the door!" you rushed out. The door opened and your friend stood there like he had seen a ghost. He looked at you dead in the eye as he pointed at something with shaky hands. You frowned and slipped into the bathroom, trying to ignore that he had been in the middle of a shower and just had a towel wrapped around his waist. And then you saw the problem. "Really Kal? You have lived in Australia your whole life and you're afraid of a huntsman? Really?" you shook your head. "By the way, this is Bobby, he is our bathroom spider, if you see one at the toilet, then that's Ronald, our toilet spider."

At his Dadi's words, the former Elite rose his head from its place on your shoulder. "What's with your arm?" he croaked out, searching for the source of the problem. His eyes widened as his gaze came across the wound. "Woah, how did that- Did I do that?" the boy asked, guilt washing over his face. You bit your lip and nodded slowly. You felt bad as you saw the few tears starting to make their way down his cheeks. You gently put the hand of your injured arm on the Hindi Aussie's handsome face, "Hey, you weren't in control. It was Emma Ainsworth, okay? You couldn't've been able to control this dog's breakfast okay? I don't blame you, i blame that slagger who was in a serious need of a wristy," you chuckled as did Kal. "We'll talk more but first we both need a checkup.

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"You have two of these things?!" he squeaked out, shuffling further from the arachnid on the mirror. You nodded. "When we get our own place and start living together, you and I are gonna have a talk on this," he said, not realizing what words exactly he had let out of his mouth.

"Oh? You think we're gonna live together?" you smirked, turning your body away from Bobby and towards the handsome bloke with that amazing fluffy hair.

Kal's eyes widened as he realized what he has spoken out and he averted his gaze. "I-I mean uh, I," he stumbled over his words, getting tongue tied and in turn, becoming even more nervous.

"Heh, why not but we'll talk about it after you get some clothes on," you laughed, walking back out. The raven headed boy twisted his face in confusion at your words and looked down before realizing what you meant and hiding himself away.

You were on the couch, trying to choose a movie you could watch. You gave up on the adult and teen account and switched to the kids one. You heard laughing behind you and grumbled. "Ever the mature Y/n, i see." Kal plopped down beside you and 'sneakily' let his arm stretch out behind your shoulders.

"These," you pointed at the TV, "are far more interesting than those 'mature' ones," you argued.

The boy smiled at you quietly, letting you choose anything you want.

Carmen Sandiego

"Le Chevre and El Topo should just kiss already, they're so cute," you squealed as another scene with the two came up.

"Hey Y/n, do you think we would look cute together?" asked your favourite of the two after your words.

You looked up at him, the two of you had cuddled closer during the series binge. The handsome boy had a serious face on as he stared back at you. You smiled and booped his nose, "Of course we would. Do you want to look cute together?" you replied, ignoring how Carmen was beating the fuck out of the A.C.M.E A agents.

Kal grinned cutely. "I do, I really really do."

[hearteyes-for-killmonger]

7. Hello Officer

"Okay Ms. Stevens, you stay here in the car and keep the doors locked while I have a talk with Dr. Stevens."

"Just a talk?" Ivy balked at the thought. "You need to arrest his ass."

"Ms. Stevens.. I will try questioning him but you should know that I can't hold him without any evidence or probable cause and I can't arrest him without a warrant."

Ivy rolled her eyes deeply watching the freckled officer side-step from the car rising like an Amazon to approach the heavy glass door of the dentist's office.

"Well shit," Ivy mumbled as the officer swung it open effortlessly disappearing inside. "She strong. I'll give her that, but she should've called backup. That nigga ain't got em all."

Ivy looked over at her car which was sitting next to the police car before she put her eyes back on the door trying to peer through the darkened glass.

"If something happens to her, she left the keys," Ivy mumbled looking around for any onlookers or walkers. There were none. "I don't think she supposed to do that, but shit, I'm out this bitch with or without her."

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"Oh, hello officer! You're responding to Dr. Stevens' call? I'll go get him now."

Trinity was greeted at the front desk by a spritely looking black girl with black box braids who seemed too ditzy and clumsy to be a criminal mastermind in any sense of the term. Her nameplate said Araya.

"Call? I wasn't aware he called, another officer must be on the way.." Probably Thomas, Trinity thought. "I came because I need to speak with Dr. Stevens if that's alright."

Araya stalled, confused. "Oh... Is it an appointment? I could schedule you."

The twin sister popped up a second later. They seemed to have different personalities though they looked so similar. She had a completely different look in her eye, one that said she might be capable of acting a nut. A look at the nameplate said her name was Draya. Trinity made a mental note to watch her.

"No. I need to ask him a few questions. I'd appreciate if one of you went to go get him."

They were complete airheads in Trinity's mind.

"Oh! Okay, certainly. Draya, go get him," Araya nudged sending her sister back to where she came from. "He should be right out."

Trinity nodded before she looked around the room, picking up magazines and putting them back down. The television was at a low calming hum and all the blue made her feel like she was on the beach.

While she searched for anything strange, her eyes darted around and a feeling told her to pay close attention to Araya.. so she looked subtly from the corner of her eye. Araya was full-on staring with a grin and sitting very still.. unhumanly still.

Trinity stood and walked toward the desk, resting her elbows on it as she peered down at the tiny ditz of a woman. She was the size of a child.

"You're a strange girl. How old are you?"

"Oh.. Me?" She pointed to herself and Trinity wanted to dry up on the spot. Who else was there? "I'm 22. I turn 23 in December."

"How long have you been working here?"

She blinked twice, her lip quivering before answering. "Um, since late 2016?"

Trinity did the math. She was 18-19 when she started.

"How much experience did you have? You were just out of high school or in your first year of college. How did you get this job?"

"Dr. Stevens was young too, he gave us a chance!"

As if on cue, the wooden door opened and a young black man stepped through reaching for her hand. He was outlandishly handsome and looked too young to be the dentist, but without hesitation, she grabbed and shook it. He had a gentle grip and humble eyes. He was also 6'2 which was taller than the men she was used to seeing.

"How long have you been a dentist? You look way too young.. like a baby," she squinted watching his eyes widen before his head dropped sheepishly with an awkward grin.

"Uh, I turned 31 in February."

That was a year younger than Trinity. Her eyes widened.

"That would mean you finished school quickly and jumped into your own practice," she spoke with wide eyes. He was highly intelligent afterall. But the motivation wasn't there. Why would someone so young and accomplished.. and incredibly good looking do any of what he was just accused of? It didn't make a lick of sense. He had way too much to lose.

"Um, I'm sorry..," he spoke with a glance to her nameplate, "Officer Howard how can I help you today?" He waved for her to have a seat on the navy leather couch next to the door as he sat across from her.

"Right. Pardon me for not introducing myself first. I need to ask you about an appointment you had today with a young lady by the name of Ivy Stevens."

He nodded tiredly.

"Dr. Stevens.. What can you tell me about the events of what happened?"

"Well," he sighed. "I called the police after she ran out of here so quickly, but it's not often that I have a client sprinting from my office after an appointment. Not unless they have to be back at work. I don't know her situation," he shrugged. "I figured she'd had a long day because you're not supposed to drink before an appointment. Makes it difficult for the blood to clot. But I went on and gave her the anaesthetic anyway... Then she fell into a fitful sleep while I worked around her... She mumbled a bit... I filled her cavities and when she woke up, she looked very strange and that's when she left her keys and her phone here and ran out. I was so confused. That's when I called the police. Unfortunately, I've been advised not to say much because professionally this could look bad for me.. but I needed to say that much."

"You said she looked strange when she woke up. Has that happened before?"

"Noo. This is the first time, that's why I was so worried."

"Hello.. How are you officer? Can I offer you some water," Draya chirped walking in.

"...Coffee."

"Ah ah ah, coffee stains," Araya giggled. We only have water."

Trinity winced. What she really needed was some hard liquor with all these conflicting details. She did smell a mild hint of liquor on Ivy that she'd noted. It could've been some sort of scam on Ivy's part or maybe things went sour with them at some point for whatever reason and Ivy wanted revenge. He looked like he could break hearts. There was more reason set up for Ivy to lie than there was for Dr. Stevens to lie.

"Did you know Ivy before the appointment today?"

"Did she tell you that?... We met once or twice before. I didn't think that had anything to do with this. She didn't seem that angry when I turned her down that time.. I was just so focused on building myself, you know? Shit. I said too much. I can't say anymore. I'm sorry. It's just business. I worked too hard."

"I understand," Trinity nodded looking to the twins who stood idly. "Alright well if you have anything else, let me know. Here's my card."

"Thank you ma'am... Draya, will you please go get the belongings Ms. Stevens left behind?"

"Yep." She came back quickly putting the keys and phone in Trinity's hands while Dr. Stevens looked over the card before sliding it into the pocket of his white coat.

"If you can, please return these keys and this phone to Ms. Stevens... Thank you."

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Ivy watched as the door swung open and Officer Howard exited the office. She didn't look to be in a hurry or frantic. She didn't look to be concerned about much at all. She went to the driver's side and opened the door handing Ivy her phone and her keys.

"I spoke with him. His story is completely different from yours. If you want to pursue this, I suggest you come up with some evidence fast to back your claims immediately because as things stand.. it doesn't seem like your story has much substance. In the meantime, if you still don't feel safe and you want an escort home or somewhere else, I can follow you to make sure you get there safely."

"That's it.. that's all you're gonna do?" Ivy was disgusted and it was all over her face, she knew it. "Just follow me home then," she snapped hopping out to slam the door. "I'm going home to pack a bag and I'm going to my mom's house. Fuck this. I done told you he's a gotdamn stalker."

"Alrighty then. So I'll follow you home," Officer Howard said brushing her off to climb back into the police car.

Ivy growled, frustrated as she put on her seatbelt almost chipping her white polish. "Fuck." She slapped the wheel before taking a deep breath.

"Police ain't gone do shit," she mumbled pulling herself together. "Gotta handle this my gotdamn self."

Putting her car into reverse, she backed out and then threw it into drive. Officer Howard was right behind her in the review mirror.

"Just useless," Ivy muttered.

@honey-poooh @missshae @raysunshine78 @destinio1 @marvelmaree @honeytoffee @thickemadame @heykillmongerluhme @ghostfacekill-monger @killmongersmistress @soufcakmistress

[pbandjesse]

I forgot to take my outfit for the day photo until after I took my clothes off and put them in the washer machine so enjoy another pajamas outfit of the day. Oh well.

I'm feeling very tired and emotionally and physically. I have a cough like stuck in my chest and I'm wheezing a little bit. I'm very annoyed about it. I very much just want to go to sleep right now though.

Today wasn't a bad day I was just very tired. I didn't sleep well. I had very very active dreams and when I woke up at 9 I was just kind of dead. This one was coming in and I decided to just lay in bed and play on my phone until around 10. I did yoga I got dressed. But I didn't want to really do anything. I didn't want to be a person.

I did make a really good breakfast. Two fried eggs with salsa and cheese. Half of an avocado and sour cream. It was really good.

I got to talk to Tatiana and Maya on the group chat some more. Which I've never been part of a group chat before in my entire life and there's just something really fun about it that I never really got to experience. I never really had a group of girlfriends besides the ones at Moore and this is different. So it's been fun kind of messaging them and getting advice throughout the day from them and be able to give them advice right back. I'm the oldest in the group so I feel like I should be the mom but I don't know if that's the truth. We all have nicknames and it's very fun.

I decided I wanted to walk past the dentist on my way to the bus. And I wanted to get a pack of gum. I was more concerned about the gum. So I packed my bag and headed towards the 7-Eleven. I got some gum and then went up the street. I had walked past this dentist a few times and they have a sign in the window that they're taking new patients. And I figured it was worth it to ask.

So I went in and no one was at the desk so I waited a minute and a hygienist came out and talked to me. And she helped me figure out what to do. There are secretary came back and she made me an appointment for the morning. She actually wanted me to come in today. They both did. But I wanted to go to work and while I was in pain today. The whole side of my face was kind of swollen. Emotionally I needed to wait until tomorrow. But I did it! I made an appointment. And so far it only cost me like $80. I'm not sure what the actual filling is going to cost but we are making progress.

I went and sat at the bus stop. And waited the 15 minutes enjoying the last of the Sun for the day. And I got to school. And talk to Chelsi about the weekend. We got ready for charcoal drawing. I made some examples.

But it was a hard day. We have some issues with kids not paying attention during are Journal time. And so I was annoyed enough that we just didn't go out. We all sat inside and they worked on their journals. I felt bad for the five or six that actually did The Prompt but I was just in too much pain and too tired to put up with them being lazy today. And then there was a whole thing with two of the students who just were not pay attention and just on their phones and a family member called them and we're telling them to just come outside and we kept telling them know you have to go to the office and he was getting angry at us and then he came to the classroom and took them and then came back 10 minutes later with them saying that oh he thought school was over. And we said no they can't come back and he eventually convince Chelsi to let them stay but it was very obnoxious.

And like dinner was fine but like then we get to our time and they couldn't come down and so we had to sit with our heads down for a mum was 15 minutes because we said 5 and then we kept having to restart the five because they kept talking or moving around or doing something. And that was so boring. It was not how I wanted to spend today.

But eventually we got it together. And I was able to do my lesson and they all got to experiment with charcoals and Gum Eraser and that was interesting. It was very messy. But they all made value charts in black and brown and experimented with the medium of it. It was really fun to get to watch them try something new.

We finished up the day and play a game of Simon Says and I gave them each an animal cracker for each piece of charcoal or eraser or chamois cloth or smudge stick that they brought back to me. And that was a pretty effective system. And then it was pick up and it took a little bit longer than normal but that was fine.

James texted me that he needed to just take a walk around the neighborhood but couldn't get himself to go out. So I told him to walk to my bus stop and meet me there and we can walk together. And so we did. I got the Charles Street and he was there. And we walked to the market place and had pasta and I was really tired but it was nice being with him.

We went back home to my place and he collected some of my art to take back to his apartment for the Etsy. And I collected my laundry. We took it downstairs and put it in the machine. We work together to take the kitty litter out. I cleaned it and he took it to the trash. It was really really bad. But it was handled. We made edible cookie dough. And watched videos. It was nice.

He said he didn't feel too sad anymore but we're all still really torn up about the weekend. He has a meeting tomorrow so we'll see what happens. I'm still trying to figure out the HR number so I can get in contact with someone about it. But he went home around 9 and I went and got my clothes out of the dryer. Now I'm just laying in bed.

I'm going to go to sleep now. I feel very very tired. I hope you all sleep good. Wish me luck at the dentist tomorrow. I plan on going to work but we'll see how much it takes me out. Usually when I go to the dentist and get worked on I sleep for the rest of the day so we'll see what happens. Have a good night

[but-when-i-need-help-blog]

The rant of a mentally ill person.

Sometimes, I need help. I need some one to talk to, to listen, to be there just so I don't feel alone. I have always been there for people, emotionally supporting friends and family and sometimes random people on the bus. But I feel like I have lost my self... Or I never knew who I was. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't handle much of anything, I just got a job, yesterday was my first day. I left early because of a dentist appointment that I didn't even go to, then called and told them that I wasn't going to be in until today. I got up, got dressed and waited for the bus for an hour, it never came, so I went home in tears fearing I was going to be late. My boyfriend, who was in bed at the time, got upset because I was crying, but he woke up and walked with me to get some coffee so I could wait for the next bus. That one came and went, and so did the next 4. Needless to say I never went in, so I lost my job today. I don't know why I just couldn't bring myself to go back out there. He was mad at me, and still is because he is the only one working and paying bills, while I sit at home and get lost in my head. I play games and read sometimes so I don't have to think about reality. I re-watch supernatural almost all day because it makes me feel like less of a fuck up. I have a counselor who I rarely see because I'm always rescheduling appointments even though they are supposed to help me... They don't. I don't even clean my apartment much. But I can't talk to anyone about what goes on in my head because it's the same old song and dance. I'm depressed, my anxiety makes it hard to leave the house, the weird voices I hear in my head make it hard to hear anything outside of it and I can never keep one emotion for too long. Everyone is tired of my excuses. My mom, my dad, my boyfriend, they all get upset because I can't seem to function right. "You're being childish, you need to grow up and get over it, pills won't help, keep going to your appointments and get put on more pills if it's that bad, there is always something wrong with you, why are you crying now?" I can't control my emotions, I can't get excited. The friends I had never understood ether, but I couldn't expect them to just stop there lives to let me rant about the same thing over and over again because they needed help, they needed someone to listen to them and give them advise. I only talk to 1 person other than my boyfriend and parents. My best friend Jamie. We went to school together, 9th and 10th grade. Then I moved again. And now she's married and working and doing so much and I am so proud of everything she's done. But I can't talk to her about what's going on with me because she doesn't understand. I just want all of this to go away. I don't want to be like this. I don't want to sit in the house and panic Everytime the phone rings or someone walks past my door. I just want to be normal, I want to be able to keep a job and go out and do things. I want to make friends. I want so badly to just be okay for once.... I probably lost my boyfriend today. We had been together over 3 years, at first I was doing okay, I was working, but that didn't last long. We went to Vegas and I got so depressed, I didn't even shower as offer as I should have, but he was still out there busting his ass to make sure we were good. Then we left and went to Colorado. He broke up with me for a day because I hadn't found a job after a month, but he came home and we talked and got back together. Then we came home. I started working, then quit then got another job, then quit. I started working at home Depot, it was hard but I actually liked it. Then he left me, right before my birthday, for a girl he went to school with. It broke my heart and for 2 months, I sat in my room, quit working, didn't eat much, slept with 4 different guys, got raped in the woods after meeting up with some one I didn't know on POF. It was my fault, I knew I shouldn't have and my mom even asked me not to, "Please be careful, I don't want anything to happen to you." Is what she said right before I left. But then he came back, told me he was stupid for leaving so on and so forth, so I took him back. For the first month things were great, but then he started telling me that I needed to get my shit together and he was right, but I didn't​. It's been going on for 5 months, I put in an app here and there, get a call but never go to the interview out of fear of rejection and people looking at me. I think today was the last straw for him, and I told him I can't keep him waiting forever... He left 2 hours early for work, didn't say goodbye​, I love you... Just left... I'm not mad, I understand, I'm hard to be around for so long. This type of thing is hard to deal with day to day and I don't expect anyone to be able to handle it, I'm barely doing that myself. I just need some help.