#i didnt get the notif sadly oop

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Perfect For Me

Kim Hongjoong x POC!Reader.

Plot: You knew when you started dating Hongjoong that it wasn’t going to be smooth sailing. But a new wave of hate has you feeling like you don’t deserve him. Joong finds out and makes sure to prove that you are perfect for him.

Warnings/Tags: Angst, hate comments, mentions of self harm, self deprecation, Hongjoong being a supportive boyfriend.

NSFW: Soft dom! Hongjoong, unprotected sex(wrap it before you tap it), mirror sex, oral sex (female recieving), body worship, praise kink, slight dirty talk, aftercare.

Words: 2.8k words

A/N: This may be a little self-indulgent, as a black girl myself, I hate how much hate we get. Especially on tiktok and twitter (anime/kpop). So I wanted to write this to bring comfort to myself and others who may feel this way.

Taglist: @mingissoggywaffles @damissub @yungisstar1117 @beomnoi @justforyookihyun @wooyoungsbae @blessednhighlyfavoured @do-you-actually-care @winterciella @soft-teddybear

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Dating Hongjoong had to be the best thing that happened to you. He’s a caring, loving and doting boyfriend. Finding time between his busy schedule just to make time for you, always making sure you felt love. His group members welcomed you with open arms. You had a family here that cared about you and didn’t judge you for the path you chose in life.

But sadly, dating and being friends with idols comes with its fair share of cons. Jealous stans that wanted to be in your spot. No matter how many times you tried to explain that they were just normal people, not gods who needed to be worshipped. It annoyed and saddened you, they hated you because you cared about Hongjoong, and they couldn’t accept that fact. It got so bad that you had to turn off comments and private your twitter from the hurtful remarks that people left.

-Teez4life: They shouldnt be friend with some like her.

-Tiniminionlover: eww...thats who she is? #saveourcaptain

-Ateezyzzz: She’s not even cute! SHe’s just ugly asf

You could feel yourself cringe at the thought of them. You’re been keeping it a secret from Joong since he was so busy and with the comeback here, you allowed yourself to fall into a deep pit, one that you didnt know how to get out of. What made it so bad is that the comments were getting worse as the guys looked very nice in this comeback (deja vu had you on your KNEES, you made a mental note to ‘talk’ to joongie later). You sigh and walks into the common area, tossing your phone onto the couch hearing a soft “ow” come from the couch. You walk up and gave a sheepish grin. “O-oops sorry hwa, forgot you were napping there.” Seonghwa sat up from his resting spot, you phone in his hand.

Seonghwa was the member you were the closest with, not that you weren’t close to the others. Hwa was always around when you hung out with Hongjoong, Hwa became your best friend quickly, always doing his best to give you advice. He was there to help you when you were down, and help you through mini arguments you had with Joong. He was all around great friend and you wouldn’t know what you would do without him.

“You’re fine (n/n), had a rough day?” He asked. You rolled your eyes and gave him a look that basically said ‘Hell yes.” Seonghwa nods and gives you a reassuring smile. “Well go and get some rest. Joong is in the studio So the room is yours.” You nod and head off to the room, leaving your phone with Seonghwa. He knew your password and you trusted him with your phone fully. So Hwa did what he normally did, scroll through twitter. He saw some meme, some pictures you had posted of Hongjoong and the others, and some adorable animals. He was about to exit out of the app when you got a notification that took him to a thread that made his blood boil.

Hongjoong is Bae

@hongjoongs1bias

-10 reasons why this Bitch should leave out leader alone.

The thread had multiple pictures of you. Many with vulgar words written underneath them trying to say that you weren’t good enough for Hongjoong. They went from judging your hairstyles, that ranged from long beautiful braids (that Joong loved to play in and style) to adorable afro puffs that allowed you to place pins and clips to stylize it. Some even making fun of your accent and the way you spoke, both english and korean. The final straws that broke the camels back were the comments about your skin color and previous scars.

-“Maybe if she commits we’ll get a bomb ass album”

-”Joongie wouldn’t even care lol, she’s wasting her time.”

-”Why did he even choose someone as dark and ugly like her, she looks like an animal.”

-” Great she’s suicidal and she’s a darkie ugly asss bitcdh, talk about a two for one deal.”

Seonghwa felt his heart drop, before you had met them all, you had explained that you had an uphill battle with depression, self harm and many other things. It took you a while for you to open up to them about it. So just to see someone blatantly disrespecting you like this would not fly. And for these people to even dare call themselves ating? It made Seonghwa see red, and he knew Hongjoong would be beyond upset.

He pulled out his phone and quickly dialed Hongjoong. He waited for a bit until he answered. “Hello? What’s up Hwa?” Hongjoong asked, he sounded pretty cheerful and Seonghwa took a deep breath before speaking. “I’m going to send you something, and I think (y/n) may need you.” Seonghwa said quickly, placing your phone down. It went silent for a bit before he could hear his friend getting ready and leaving the studio.

“I’m on my way.”

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You laid in Hongjoong’s bed, tears falling from your eyes. It was just too much to deal with. You knew Hongjoong loved you but there was always this lingering thought that, maybe they were right. Maybe he was just waiting for the right moment to dump you. You were darker than most people with you skin complexion, and your eyes were a deep chocolate brown as well. Your hair was dark and coily, you looked different than all the girls you worked along side. You were plumper than the rest, hell you stood out like a sore thumb whenever you went out with the boys. But that didn’t mean you did not deserve love just like anyone else in the world.

“Why..Why me?..” You cry to no one, gripping a pillow and crying loudly into it. Hongjoong always went out of his ways to show his love for you, but recently you felt like you were a burden to him. You felt like you were holding him back and you did not want to be the reason for some Atiny leaving the fandom. You knew how much he and the boys cared about their fans so you didn’t want to come in between that.

You were crying so much and in your head that you didn’t hear Hongjoong come in. He held a bag full of your favorite snacks and drinks, ready to make you feel better, but his heart broke when he saw you crying. He dropped the bags and rushed over placing a hand on your back, scaring you and quickly making you turn over trying to wipe away your tears. Your face was tear stained, eyes bloodshot and red, you give a have heart smile “H-hey Joongie..I didn’t hear you come in..” Hongjoong pulls you into a tight hug pulling you into his arms as if you were going to disappear if he let go.

“Baby...my baby, why didn’t you tell me?” He asked, his voice sounding pained. You lay your head against his chest, listening to Hongjoong struggle to hold back his tears. He pressed you closer into his chest, allowing his tears to finally fall down his cheeks. “I’m here to protect you, to hold you, to be by your side...and I can’t even do that” He chokes out,tiny sobs leaving his body. You wrap you arms around him tighter, trying to calm him down. The both of you sat there on his bed, holding each other, not wanting to let go. Hongjoong leaned back, wiping his eyes with his hoodie sleeve, seriousness painted across his face. “Seonghwa showed me those..osts..” he started and your heart dropped. You didn’t want him to get involved. Not with this, You could handle this.

You quickly tried to scramble together something.

“I-i thought i could handle it Joong,..”

“Baby! We are in this together! I want to know if something, or someone or anything is hurting you!”

He yelled, his hands moving up to cup your cheeks. You could feel more tears start to well up in your eyes, spilling down your cheeks. Hongjoong wipes your tears, sighing before leaning forward to place a soft kiss upon your lips. “Baby, from now on, please tell me if someone is bothering you. I don’t want you to feel alone.” He mumbles. “Nor do I want you to get yourself back to where you were before you met me.” he says, running his hand along your thigh, caressing it gently. “I’m here for you. You’re my starlight, my life.” He says, a slight blush coming across his cheek. “Someone..I could see myself marrying.” he finished before placing another kiss on your lips, this time more passionate and deep, guiding you back onto the bed.

Hongjoong moved down to your neck, placing butterfly kisses down it, you let out a soft giggle “That tickles Joong..” You say, going to move your hands around his neck, only to have him pin them down, interlacing his fingers with yours.

“Hongjoong! What are you doing!” You squeak out, as Hongjoong moves back up to lean his forehead against yours. “I’m going to make sure you feel loved, I'm going to let you know how much I love you, each and every part of you.” He mumbles. He then moves his hands to fiddle with the bottom of your shirt before looking at you. You give him a small nod allowing him to slowly pull your shirt over your head.

Hongjoong sighed lovingly as he places kisses along your arms, moving up until he reaches your chest agains. He mumbles compliments against your skin until he moved down to take one of your buds into his mouth. He rolls his tongue across it, nibbling on it gently, his eyes flickering up to meet yours. You were letting out soft moans, your face slowly heating up. Hongjoong’s eyes held so many emotions in one, lust, love,want, desire, all wrapped in one just for you. Hongjoong moved from one nipple to the other, making a soft groan as he took it into his mouth, kneading the other bud between his fingers.

“H-hongjoong…” You whimper out, watching as Joong slowly pulled himself away from your breasts with a soft pop. “Hmm? Yes baby?” He hums, laying his head on your chest, waiting for your words. “I-i need you..” You say softly, Making Hongjoong chuckle a bit, moving once again to kiss your plump lips. “Needy aren’t you baby?~” He teased, leaning back to pull down your shorts and panties, laughing a bit at your embarrassed face. “It’s okay (y/n), I’m here, all for you tonight..” He cooed as he slowly spread your legs, getting down on his knees. He pulls you to the end of the bed gently, his face right in front of your wet core.

Hongjoong kissed your inner thighs, trailing down until he reached your region. He did a teasing lick, watching as your body reacted. He smirks before diving in, his tongue exploring your needy cunt. “O-oh fuck joong~” You moaned out, slowly rolling your hips against his mouth. Hongjoong hums in response, raising his thumb to rub your clit teasingly. You gasp, your hands flying to his hair, gripping it tightly as you held his face against your sex. Hongjoong moaned into your cunt, as he moved to sucking and licking your clit earning a sharp cry from you.

“Hongjoong! Baby i-i’m gonna cum!” You whined out. Hongjoong’s eyes looked up at you. They were glossed over with lust and that was enough to send you over the edge, crying out as your orgasm rocks you. Hongjoong his assualt on your sex until he finally oulled away. His face was covered in your slick, he licked his lips with a playful smirk on his face. “You alright baby?” He asked and you nodded quickly. “Joong..please, I really do need you..” You whine out watching as Hongjoong moves to stand up, fumbling with his sweatpants. He dropped them along with his boxes and his hoodie was tossed to the side.

He quickly climbed on top of you, capturing your lips into a deep passionate kiss, soft grunts leaving his body. “God I love you (y/n)..I love you so damned much. He mumbles as he lifts your legs up, aligning himself at your core. “Are you ready?” He asked, earning a slow nod from you. “Mhm..I’m ready Joong..” He chuckles softly before slowly pushing himself into you. Both of you let out soft moans as Hongjoong leaned down to kiss your lips again. Your lips moved in sync as Hongjoong slowly began rolling hips hips. He groans against your lips before moving his head to the crook of your neck “I love everything about you (Y/n).” He starts, placing soft kisses against your neck. “I don’t want anything or anybody but you” He muttered. You moan softly, wrapping your arms around his neck.

His words hit your heart, they were filled with so much love and care, you forgot about all the hate you got and focused on your lover. Hongjoong’s thrust began to pick up, earning louder moans from you. He took his time to make you feel good, so you don’t worry about anything. “I-i love you too,” You managed to get out, moaning at Hongjoong’s harder pace, his grip on your body tightened as if he were to let you go you would be gone for good. “I’m going to marry you. I don’t care what anyone has to say, I don’t want to lose you.” He groans out. Hitting a certain spot that had you seeing stars. “Joong, No what-” “No, I want you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.” He says placing his forehead against yours.

Hongjoong’s thrusts sped up as he was drinking in your moans and looks. Your mind couldn't even think straight with how good it felt, it was hard to keep focused on Hongjoong, his eyes were filled with so much emotion, soft grunts and groans leaving his lips. “H-hongjoong..I’m getting close!” “M-me too babygirl, me too. Just let it go” He says leaning down to captur your lips again, drinking up all your moans and sweet noises. “God I want to put a baby in you, make you mine, all swollen with my baby.” He moans into your lips. You gasp at his words allowing joong to slip his tongue in your mouth. Your tongues end up fighting for dominance that Hongjoong easily won. His hips moved faster, snapping into your, hitting the right spot that made you cry out as that familiar knot snaps in you. Babbles continue to fall from your lips as Hongjoong sits up gripping your hips and continued pounding into you. “Please let me fill you up baby please, I don’t think i’ll be able to-”

You cut Hongjoong off with a moan of his name. “G-go ahead, fill me up Joongie..” Hongjoong lets out a deep groan as his hips suddenly still, shooting ropes of cum deep into your cunt. You whine at the overstimulation as Hongjoong shushes you, rubbing your cheek. He slowly pulls out of you, groaning at the sight of his cum seeping out of you. He moves to cuddle up beside you, running his hand down your body.

“That..was amazing” You say softly snuggling into Hongjoong. He hums in response, placing a kiss on your cheek. “I hope you know what I meant what I said” He mumbles “I love you, and I want to build a life a life with you. You mean the world to me.” He says softly grabbing your hand and lacing his hand with yours. You blush and look down at your stomach. “Even the baby? If I have one..” Hongjoong chuckles softly. “Oh especially the baby, I would love a baby to come and visit me on tour, and do cute family stuff together with our child.” He sighs happily. “I juts love the thought of starting life with you.”

You feel tears welling up in your eyes and running down your face, pulling Hongjoong closer to you. “Thank you...Thank You Joongie..” “Don’t thank me (y/n), I should be thanking you for being in my life.” Hongjoong places a kiss on your lips. “I’m happy with you in my life and I wouldn’t want anything else.”

“Now come on, let’s take a nap. Then we can go out and spend time together.”

“But-” “Ah, ah, Just relax” He says playfully tickling you making you giggle.

“Okay, Okay...I love you~” You say booping his nose.

“I love you too darling, you mean everything to me..”

“I’m glad you two lovebirds are done because I was coming to tell you I made food.” Seonghwa said leaning against the doorframe. Hongjoong chuckles as he watches you cover yourself up “We’ll be there soon hwa.” “Alright. Rest well then you two.”

[jei-rifni]

When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! Then, send to your last ten people in your notifs! You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity! 💖

Awe this is sweet, thank you!!

Hmm, lets see, uh-

1. I love travelling/walking places/getting on a car ride/anything involving going somehwere! I could walk for hours on the streets of the city and my family would collapse while im still walking like i just started! Car rides? Watch me stare out the car window for 4 hours straight smiling while listening to songs or pieces. Sadly ive never actually left the country properly (i did but i was like a 1 year old and didn’t remember anything my family and i did there) but i look forward to do so in the future!

2. I love doing activity stuff (literally anything that involves people and moving around)! Going camping? Invite me or else i will fight you (aka beg you to invite me/j) going hiking? YASSS MOUNTAINS/HILLS! Cleaning the gutters of my house? ABSOLUTELY! I LOVE THE WATER GUN! IT MAKES CLEANING SO EASY AND FUN! I especially love when me and my dad make a wood project and we spend days on it! Or if he says we’re gonna paint something or the house. I also love going to these group activity thing at the university where we socialise with others and talk about books and stuff [I love talking to people older than me, weird i know but where im from children my age dont usually talk about books unless its schoolwork or something] making little crafts is also a fun thing to do

3. Reading! Absolutely love books! My shelf may or may not topple at any moment from the weight of the books.

4. Music! I love Kan Gao’s pieces specifically! (Mostly Impostor Factory OST) i love playing piano too! (I can play guitar and ukulele aswell) [my parents promised me if i get on level 5 or 4 piano they’ll let me learn violin, which is a long way to go as im only on 2] i also like composing my own little songs/pieces? Some i actually put effort into and some are just trash with words and it sounds funny but they are fun to do

5. Drawing/art! It is my whole life! I honestly dont know what to do if i didnt draw or paint or do anything artsy! I love it so much and it brings me joy!

(Wow this was rather long im so sorry oops lmao, anyone feel free to join!)