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it's funny how days after I post a tiktok about issues with fanon and particularly batfamily fanon (as an example) there are suddenly posts on here with "No matter what people on TikTok say, you're still a valid fan if you only like fanon"
Gods, I hope that is some attempted snark at my video just so I can say that if people think I hate fanon just because I criticized a part of it and the behavior of some people who purely enjoy fanon, then they didn't pay attention at all.
I'm also not the only one who's pointed it out that there are someone "woe is me" fanon fans out there who act like there's no possible way to get more into comics.
Or maybe need to ask themselves, "If I hate the medium/source material and have to change everything about it in order to actually like it if I actually like it?" or "Am I willing to give into moral ambiguity and realize I'm not going to get the perfect image in my head?" because these questions are completely normal and people ask them all the time with all media. It's basically just critical thinking.
And I'm sorry, but the attitude of people who try and correct people who have actually interacted with canon content on storylines, characterizations, plots, relationships, etc. when they don't even know how they work, either in the grand scheme of things or just that particular comic. For an example see, Dick threatened to send Tim to Arkham (Fun AU, never actually happened in canon but people will swear on every grave in existence that it did because they don't have any context for Dick, Tim, Dick and Tim's relationship, and what actually happened)
I don't even have to use comics for an example because it works with anything. I have a book about King Arthur; if you've never read that King Arthur book, you can't tell me how it interprets the legends because you've never read that book.
It's really just pathetic to see people try and turn "fandom elitism" from what it actually is into "being expected to actually interact with the canon content on any level is too much because I'm not interested in it, and I don't like people judging me for it."
idk some people just try and turn canon into this big scary awful monster when it's honestly not. Like people telling me that DC's all "dark and edgy" tells me they haven't picked up a single issue or they hear of a bad moment and just assume every single page ever written/drawn is like that when it's not.
It's fine if you only enjoy fanon just like it's fine to only enjoy canon or to enjoy both. But as long as you aren't harassing people or constantly shitting on either side, it's all good.
One last time: If you've read this and think this is fanon hate or I hate fanon/fanfiction, you didn't actually read it. Try again.
This also isn't an argument, try and argue with me, and I will block you.
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petricorah · 1 year
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lee from the tea shop boutta get it (wip) [id in alt]
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leptonyx-constellate · 2 months
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psst systems and plurals of all kinds, if you have fictives from books please say hi. we have, quite literally, only met a single system other than ourselves who had more than one fictive sourced from a book. well over 90% of our fictives (which make up 85% of our known collective of 550+ people) are sourced from books. please
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bitchthefuck1 · 3 months
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you know what, I actually will talk about this because it's bothering me. The issue with focussing so heavily on syd and carmy's potential for a romantic relationship isn't that there's something inherently unintellectual about romance or whatever, it's that a lot of people seem incapable of doing that without immediately flattening the story and ignoring or intentionally misreading any and all nuance for the sake of that romance. Every scene suddenly becomes about how it impacts their relationship, every analysis is done through a romantic lens, every frame or line of dialogue becomes about finding some easter egg or hint that "proves" these people should start dating. Their dynamic is absolutely a fundamental part of this show, but if you can only see it as a will-they-won't-they, you miss so much of what the story is actually trying to say with these two.
There are good versions of this story where their relationship is romantic and there are good versions of this story where it isn't, but as soon as you decide them being together is "the point," you lose the ability to actually judge the story for what it is, not what you want it to be.
#like so much of their dynamic (esp but not exclusively in S3) has been about showing the ways that carmy's trauma and dysfunctional#attitude in the kitchen impacts other people and how even though he cares about syd and wants their partnership to work he keeps self#sabotaging and setting himself and by extension her and the restaurant up to fail and replicating the same toxic environments that#he grew up and trained in and this is very much consistent with his character and a natural continuation of the conflicts they've been#having since S1 but because him being shitty with her runs contrary to them getting together suddenly its 'ruining the story' and#out of character and only happening bc the writers just hate to see this ship winning and like. if you really think that i genuinely don't#know what show you've been watching bc it sure as shit wasn't this one. like it hurts to see him do this because you know#they could do something genuinely great together and that he's ruining a really good thing but this is also the reality of where he is rn#if he was just a good and supporting business partner and not deeply dysfunctional it would be wildly out of character#the problem w S3 wasn't that it 'ruined' their relationship it's that it had no clear focus overemphasized carmy's arc at the expense#of the other leads deprioritized the supporting cast while failing to give them their own arcs gave more screen time to#unecessary and uninteresting new 'comic relief' characters and let conflicts stagnate without resolving them or#letting them evolve over the course of the season.#this isn't exclusive to the bear this is a general trend ive noticed where as soon as the 'shipper' part of people's brains get activated#it's like they lose the ability to read the story any other way and it stops being about what's good for the narrative and starts being#about whether or not these two people kiss and anything that gets in the way of that is bad and anything that brings it closer is good#and it's usually whatever but it's really frustrating when the story ppl are doing that to is this good#it also makes people fundamentally incapable of treating any 'obstacle' to that romance in a way that isn't wildly meanspirited and#gross (esp bc those characters are usually women) which is exhausting. like no claire isn't evil or a 'pick me' or 'bad' for carmy#or a useless addition to the story or whatever other nonsense you guys have decided must be true to feel okay. she's a perfectly normal#character and their relationship is exploring some of the ways that carmy's inability to deal with or actually address his trauma#impacts the various relationships in his life. she doesn't even have to be a monster or a narrative mistake for him and syd to be#'destined' for each other or whatever. this isn't a middle school wattpad fic.#im definitely gonna get killed in the street for this but ive been looking for a good reason to spend less time on here so might as well#the bear#sydcarmy#sydney adamu#carmy berzatto
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i just watched I Saw The Tv Glow and now i am in shambles
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relicsongmel · 4 months
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Today marks the three-year anniversary of the day I lost my mom to breast cancer.
She wasn't perfect—no one is, as a person, or as a mother—but I loved her all the same, and I deeply mourn the fact that our relationship was cut short before it truly had a chance to blossom. I've felt a sense of directionlessness that's only grown in intensity since her passing, but I know in my heart she'd be proud of me and all the growing up I've done since then regardless.
This is the last year I'll be living in the house we shared, but her heart will always be with me wherever I go. Wherever she is now, may she find rest and solace.
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medicinemane · 19 days
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Honestly a lot of the time, it's not even about people having to agree with me, it's about needing to know that they actually heard and listened to what I had to say even if it didn't persuade them
Just... some basic indication that there's enough respect to give a shit about what I said, and also to make sure that they disagree because they actually disagree and not cause they just didn't bother listening
It's all I really ask
#I forgot what this was about part way through writing about it; but then I remembered it's about Ukraine#like I just need to know that you actually understand what's happening there and what people are going through#you want me to care about your thing? show me you have any any any grasp of what's going on in Ukraine#it's uh... it's too many friends where if I'm just honest... this is about them#people I adore but people where... I don't know if they ever even once listen to what I have to say#...though maybe it's better this way... at least if they just ignore me I can say they just don't understand what's going on#that they're just being fed lines by other people or don't care#...if... they... knew the shit Ukrainians go through and still didn't care... would be a lot harder to respect them#would take a certain level of callous to do that and... these are people I care about very much so#...but I don't know; eats at me... you know#...and even on less serious topics... boy I wish you'd ever listen to me#if it weren't for the fact you say you like me... I'd be pretty damn sure you can't fucking stand me and I do nothing but annoy you#...I don't know if you've... ever... listened to anything I've said on any subject#when you do; you usually correct me... even though; brilliant as you are... you're erm... not always right#I don't get it... I don't get you... every word I say seems to be wrong... I'm so stupid and you're so smart#and yet you get real upset when I want to die... so you must actually like me and our communication styles don't match up#thank god you never seem to read my tags... or... much of anything else I say#truthfully I'd follow you anywhere; and you can treat me any way you want#but man I don't think my thoughts or opinions matter to you even a little... I think I just exist to be your rubber duck#...that's how it feels anyway#but all that aside... just wish you'd listen to me on Ukraine cause it actually matters#this post started out about some other people too... and sure... I like them well enough; and they're maddeningly wrong#like sputnik levels or wrong#drives me nuts; like you're not stupid and you're not cruel so why do you act so stupid and cruel?... turn you brain on#but uh... I actually just don't care about them that much#where as you... I could put it into words... but I won't#it's just a shame... like forget any of the stuff about me; it's just you're so kind... wish you'd care about what's going on in Ukraine#...I gotta stop or I'll go on all night; and I'm already too tired#mm tag so i can find things later
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dogearedheart · 2 months
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8i've been thinking about the last asks i got today. and i think it's better for me to take a step back from this account. i know the anon didn't mean anything by it, but i still feel like i am being a negative presence on here and weirding people out with who i am is nothing i want. so, i am not deleting or anything. i am just gonna be less present with sharing personal things or leaving tags. I'll probably be more active on my second account where i don't have that many followers :)
#i guess it affected me more than i'd like to#i don't want to make people uncomfortable#and i am sorry if i did that with any of my posts i know they have been overly emotional and maybe a bit insane#it's true that i am trying to deal with losing and finding peace i am not very good at this due to my intense emotions#and my fear of loneliness and losing people. i am also in a very bad depressive episode. i am aware that this isn't an excuse for any#of my behavior. i never had a support system so dealing with all this on my own and getting no therapist who is willing to see you#it's a downer. guilt is eating me alive and my mental condition is the something that has ruined a lot for me but it has never before done#such a terrible job before. recovering from that and dealing with the aftermath of this is exhausting and has taken a toll on my physical#and mental health i know this post doesn't mean anything to most of all and is at best confusing but i guess it's my poor attempt#of avoiding that people will hate me. i don't want to self-pity more than i already did. but i do that all on my own already.#i know that life is so much more difficult than fiction and you can't expect miracles or believe in faith to fix anything#i know there is no cure to who i am. i can only try to navigate it better in the future. it doesn't mean that i can't regret what i did.#that i can't feel guilty about it. i know that won't change anything but i am also trying to get better and i understand if that's not#visible. i just have to believe that one day it will be enough for people to say 'hey. i know you are fucked up.#and you hurt me and you've been a bitch. but we'll work on it. i believe in you.' otherwise i have to believe that this loneliness#is all there is and that i'm gonna die hollow#i don't want much. i just want some patience and peace#i want to believe that i am worthy of love and that i can get a future. and yes. me talking about wanting a wife and this stupid apple pie#life... maybe it's cliche and stupid but i have been alone for years and i am so tired of fighting. is it so bad that i don't want to do#this alone? and that goes for friends as well. i want to cook for people built things and tend to a garden to take care of animals#and to create instead of destroying for once.#i don't know why i am still writing i guess when the dam breaks... again. i am sorry for ever making people uncomfortable or even hurting#them that was never my intention. i promise#so i really hope. whoever is reading this. i hope you are doing alright. i hope you had/have a good day. tell the people you care about#you love them and enjoy the little things. read that book. eat that chocolate or do whatever brings you joy. the world is so difficult to#navigate but you are doing such a great job by just existing. you are making this world a better place with the light you radiate#the last thing I want to do something I never can forgive myself for is hurting people#not only but especially the ones I care about. but beyond that those I barely know too because I care about you guys too#I just don't want that... I want to leave the world better than I found it but I'm having a hard time doing it due to this stupid fucking#brain of mine.
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naydralikessoup · 3 months
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indie game....... save me indie game.........
#wandersong....... it is in my brain........#disco elysium is next on the list.... but there's no way it was so tailored for specifically me??#it seems like a fantastic game that i can't wait to play#but. ......... game#gameing#your dreams can come true.........#if you stay true to yourself and stay kind.........#art isn't useless and in fact is vital to the world we live in...........#i was also thinking about the idea of world peace or a 'utopia'#and how it crops up in all sorts of religions and philosophies#from (the single analysis of it that i've read) daoism to christianity to communism to funny bard game......#the idea of a peaceful world where we can all work together is so common and always so beautiful to me#don't care if it's naive that's not what i'm concerned about#the real question it raises to me is whether it would really have a place for everyone#is anyone born violent?#and even if violence is always learned#what do you do in a world like that if you've already learned it?#is it the first thread to go as the world unravels?#or can it be part of the harmony?#can it always be unlearned? what if you don't want to?#would forcing it not just be more violence?#it's a similar concept to tolerating the intolerant#does a gentle world like that have a place for violence?#maybe not and that's what makes it beautiful#but being so exclusive..... would it really give everyone a home? everyone?#sigh#thinking about audrey and how it's implied that she destroyed herself because she chose violence in what was becoming a peaceful world#chose death over rebirth#could there ever have been a place for her in the new world?#would she ever have wanted one?
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pyrriax · 3 months
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ANYWHO goodnight tumblr i'll be back on the art grind tomorrow i think 🙏
#haunted ecosystem#i'll take a burst of creativity in a different form than usual than the burnout slump i've been in for a few months#<- part of why my fandom stuff has taken a smidge of a backseat#dont get me wrong i am still very excited about my fandoms im just having fun off in oc hell (affectionate)#its nice to just be able to create and not really worry about perception. and also i feel Less bad about just throwing ocs into the wringer#((blame the fact i've been REALLY interested in whump recently and i have been. fixated. on one of my characters.))#and ALSO i've been! rekindling my flame for wtds. i've been putting off thinking about it since that fic got.#nothing bad happened? but it was still very devastating that somebody who i considered a friend from that fic just. evaporated.#but i'm gonna finish that fic for him :) even if it takes a year. even if it's the one thing i finish ever. it'll be wtds.#for where its gotten me and the fact its what got me out of my shell and is the reason i trust that my writing is good!#i used to really hate rereading my work. i catch flaws that are obvious to me. but that fic. i just think about how *good* the story is#that story means. a lot to me? as a person? like the main character is not a good person. but people care about him anyway.#and there are so many little things. so many sentiments. so much that is a love letter to people who've done bad but learnt to do better#because. god knows i wasnt a good person even just a few years ago. and maybe i see myself in him a bit.#he came from a place of paranoia and fear and pain. and maybe its a good thing that i've found it difficult to write him recently.#because god. i've been HAPPY. even with the rough moments and bad days. i've been happy. i mean fuck.#my birthday's what. ten days away? god damn man. i'm going to be 18. that's an achievement.#i want to look the kid who thought it was over at half my age and tell him we fucking made it. and there are more years to come.#there's a life ahead. even if it's going to be a bitch. even if it's going to be tough. there's love in your heart and people who care and#you're going to fucking live and you're going to feel better one day. you have people to meet properly and thank and cherish.#because for every day it feel like the world's ending there are a dozen more where the sun shines just the right way through the rain#and you can't help but smile because it's just so god damn beautiful.#and fuck it. you're sick. your hands hurt and your legs don't work right. and it's tough sometimes. but you have people who understand.#you have people who honest to god love you for who you are and appreciate your company. and 18 is the first step.#you've spent half your life unlearning things and you've spent half your life relearning how to be what YOU want to be#and if you're a mediocre artist and passionate writer then you'll be fucking great at that. taking the time to learn when it strikes you.#and maybe this is for me. but its also for anybody reading it too. please god if there's one thing you take from this let it be that#somebody out there cares. *I* care. god i care. even if we've never spoken proper i care about you.#i practically have a list of everybody i see in my inbox. i love seeing familiar names show up. i.#i dont know how to neatly wrap up this tag ramble. but. i am so damn full of love it hurts sometimes. its scary to be happy but thats ok!
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atdutiesend · 6 months
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Guys, I gotta be honest. The 'callout' is the most obvious case of attempted framing I've seen in years. For those of you, like me, that think callout culture can go eat a dick, I apologize for this - unfortunately the XIV community likes their witch hunts.
So, in order:
First, those aren't my blogs. I dislike the twee tumblr naming convention that uses cutesy substutions/repetitions for letters. If you like it, more power to you, but I like camelCase style blog names - (at)dutiesEnd, ohtoriEcho. I've never used them, I tweak a url until I can use actual words. Frankly, I've never even heard of these blogs.
Second, that post isn't about me, if someone was trying to make a callout about me they'd be saying "Tluthal, who also goes by…" While Grim is a pen name I've used [I'm currently phasing it out for muse-mun separation], every blog I've ever made includes "…my main blog, Tluthal…"
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[As of posting, both versions in the version history are from June 2023 and do not include any actual name but 'Grim'. Versions that do were obviously edited in light of this post.]
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Third, I don't talk like that. Those of you who actually follow me and look at it, it's very obvious someone [poorly] pasted one of my old discord nicknames over someone else's posts without changing the associated icon, to the point that it's the first thing people see after looking over that doc.
Fourth, I have no idea who this 'Rosario' person is. I've never heard of them. I also haven't been in a relationship since 2017, I literally live with that person now. While she started going by Rose in late July, she's never been known as 'Rosario'. Also, I'm fucking ace.
Fifth… I'm not gonna lie, it's suspicious as all hell to me that this was "found" almost exactly a week after the following discussion:
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asktotallyhuman · 6 months
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Oh my goodness! I wonder what questions we have to ask to see what happened?
//Well if there's something you wanna know about, you gotta ask about it! Whether or not the character answers, or answers in the RIGHT way...well, maybe there's a way to get one character to "loosen their lips", and maybe there's another character who's already willing to answer. Or, perhaps, the other can tell you how to get the first to talk. Who knows?
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autistic-shaiapouf · 7 months
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Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by
#bc like. i'm getting by just fine. i don't have anything to be reasonably worried about#but also when i was a kid my father would break down my mother's paycheck and basically explain how broke we were#and that May Have Affected Me Somewhat#as well as just. the way you consistently see the advice to just save! don't get takeout! necessities! and i'm not intent on living like#a monk nor am i intent on being on that grindset for financial gain#it's like i don't intrinsically care but i have so many messages given to me about how i need to care a lot and it puts me in a weird spot#i am simultaneously standing still and moving at mach speeds#i mean right now i just need a safety net while in between jobs; after that i need to save up to move out of state bc the uh#political situation and upcoming presidential election don't seem very sustainable for someone like me anymore#they weren't to begin with but i don't wanna stick around to see how bad it's gonna get#but it's like. okay and then what? save for what? going back to school i guess? idk#i feel like i keep asking myself what i'm trying to accomplish and keep trying to force myself to have answers#here and now when i have to be okay with taking things one step at a time instead of having everything here and now#it's simultaneously fine and terrible and i am holding two conflicting yet equal truths#i feel i may have a clearer head once i leave my current job. i'm trying to look but nothing feels appealing given how#burnt out i already feel. i dread going back into my workplace and i fear it's showing to the patients and i don't want that#i want a month off to rediscover who i am as a person outside of getting yelled at in retail and then pick something back up#could be feasible. genuinely could be. i need to sort out the health insurance aspect but. that's lowkey the plan?#to construct a financial safety net and then slam on the breaks for a while; see if i can strike up a deal with the staff about me#coming in for specific tasks bc we already know i'm quick and efficient with the inventory so i do have a little leverage#you know what. this is getting some of it off my chest and i'm starting to feel confident again lmao#i won't be doing weekends starting either next week or the week after so that's a start! i just think i want everything done right now#bc i'm afraid i won't have the chance again but i will. i definitely will#i just need to let myself get to that point; it's just the immense drain from the register work and the Everything that comes with retail#also having to accept that it's okay to leave this; there's not something wrong with me like. ''not being able to handle it'' or w/e#no mindfulness or detachment could've saved me; it was shit and i'm hitting the bricks and that's all there is to it#i've been thinking a lot about it all lately bc it's what's most prominent in my life rn of course#idk. pondering. introspecting. as i am wont to do#anyways if you've read all this you're a real mvp and i am kissing you on the hand#shai speaks
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jankwritten · 2 years
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search for those things you ache to coat your hands in. bring the supple patchouli black pepper tobacco smoke to your face and breathe in a scent you never knew would bring you home.
that lime green bottle atrocity to nature scent that feels like walking through the front door for the first time. apples and spice and cinnamon plugged into the wall so pungent your temples throb.
that three ounce jar of sugar scrub gone bad in the basket on the lowest shelf of your dresser that aches of tile pressed beneath your shoulder blades and hair dye burning it's way through your scalp.
that blue-capped deodorant designed for men, hidden in your locker, it tastes of fresh cut grass and hard won muscles and finding your name on the lips of a friend you will lose and gain and lose again.
that slice of sickly-sweet cherry coke zinging like putting your head down and sweating on your laptop while a man reads to you about bashing in people's heads with a tube light bulb, to applause.
that crush of frosted animal crackers like a circle of close friends painting polish on borrowed horns. the stench of teenage body odor like an embrace. the bog of oily food like the best nights of your life.
search for those things in which you ache to coat your hands. let them soak.
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novadreii · 17 days
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that time i sold my ex my car so i could get the fuck away from him faster (needed the money, far from home, etc) and he actually tried to short me $100 on it.
#personal#stupid snippets from a life i mostly don't think about anymore#that pop in at 2am#like what was the strat there lmao#did he not think i would count the money then and there?#then he made a big show of playing innocent/clueless like he always did as if i'm stupid#always playing childish games and trying to pull nonsensical power moves#making dumb jokes when we went to the local office to complete the car sale like it was all so funny#like he hadn't just tortured and humiliated me for the last 6 months#the girl who helped us and knew we were exes was stone faced and didn't react to any of it which i appreciated#and gave me a knowing look on the way out#we had a girltelepathy moment of “men”#and yeah if you're reading this because i know you're nosy and keep tabs on me i still don't like you and never will fyi#you're the worst kind of person and i know karma will take good care of you#leave this space alone go bother someone dumber and more desperate than me#i don't just abandon my blog like a coward every time a relationship ends#you need to continually erase your history and construct new personas to reel new victims in with it's really pathetic actually#i'm staying put but make no mistake none of this is for you#i stand behind my whole life and how it made me who i am even the embarrassing and abusive fuckfest that dating you was#leave me alone OR feel free to keep checking in and watch how i flourish in spite of and without you#regret is a heavy burden and you'll be carrying it all your life when what you've lost sinks in#make no mistake you are not the poor misunderstood party i know you like to play victim. i understand and see who you are perfectly now.#you're attracted to strength because you're weak and don't know how to get stronger on your own.#you pick strong assertive women to date and then try to break them down and sap their power cuz you have none#and no sense of self to speak of#didn't work on me you only made me stronger so thanks! and goooood luck lmao
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randum-famdoms · 2 months
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me: this chapter is going to be super fun and lighthearted! no sad thoughts today, no sir!
some demon inside me: this character is going to become so guilt ridden that they dissociate due to being reminded of their past
me: but... why.... you don't have to do this....
some demon inside me: vibes
#when authors say that they have no control WE MEAN IT OKAY#i did not PLAN for over a thousand words of angst it just happened okay?!#we'll see if it survives my beta reader but for now this is what is happening guess#I have noticed that for whatever reason when i don't know how to continue a scene i default to pov character dissociates/has a panic attack#i uh....i don't know what that says about me#probably nothing good#so far ive scrapped like four unplanned panic attack/dissociation scenes in the making of this fic#and theres still SEVERAL left that got published#so yeah i think this is a sign of a problem#dunno what to do about it tho#my beta reader is constantly commenting just Tired#“kat you're projecting your anger over mishima's treatment onto akira again”#“kat akira would not threaten mishima's parents with a knife where did he get the knife”#“kat why is akechi crying panicking over akira being sad hes known him for two days”#“kat. akechi is far too repressed to do that.”#“kat why is akechi admitting to caring about people this early on”#“kat mishima would not stand up for himself like this”#“kat akira would not become a stalker to protect mishima”#“kat the only person you've shown with stalker tendencies so far is akechi and he does not care enough about mishima to do that”#“kat. no.”#she's right tho#grass i know you read my posts and i love you for this <3#still laugh about that time i messaged you like “hey i think im projecting too much of my mishima feelings onto akira in this scene”#and you were like “if even YOU are noticing it then YEAH YOU PROBABLY ARE”#randum thots#some fic i wrote
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