#i don't even remember where i saw this initially lol

[funnyincorrectmcu]

Peter: Anxiety is literally just conspiracy theories about yourself. Tony: ... Tony: Wow, kid. That’s deep.

[pradabambie]

So sorry if I already requested this, I don’t remember lol. But virgin!reader x Rafe where she wants to do it but she’s scared and he talks her through it please 🫶🏽

thank u for requesting bby! hope u like it!

i kinda got carried away but really wanted to try writing smut for the first time!! please be kind lol, i appreciate constructive criticism!

also just wrote this at two am so sorry if there's any spelling errors hehe

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are you sure? the boy asked for the hundredth time.

it's not like he didn't want to. believe me, he did.

ever since he saw you coming out of the country club pool a couple years ago, the droplets of water adorning your perfect body, it was all he could think about when you were near.

he'd always been after you, and every other girl that threw herself at him was meaningless.

at every house party, every bonfire, every dinner your parents hosted and his family attended, his attention was always directed at you.

and he was a gentleman, of course. your parents loved him, after all, he was the kook prince, the pride of the island.

he never took the first step because he was scared to drive you away, to lose you.

you never expected your first time to be with him.

but here you were, sitting on his bed, hands shaking a little and letting him see right through the ballsy attitude you wanted to show.

yes rafe, i'm sure but your eyes said otherwise.

listen, we don't have to do this, we can watch some tv, or i can even drive you to the mall! the boy insisted.

it's not like you two were dating, just good friends. you had come to him hours prior, with a clear request on your mind: you had selected him to take your virginity.

needless to say he was shocked at the petition, but didn't hesitate and agreed as soon as you finished the sentence.

he'd been waiting for this for a long time, but he wanted it to be right.

it's ok, i can handle it, it's just, first time jitters, ya'know?

but rafe wasn't so convinced.

and as soon as he oppened his mouth to try to change your mind again, you kissed him.

it took him by surprise but was quick to soften into it, as he cupped your face with both hands, deepening the kiss.

everybody told you he was a great kisser, and you never thought much of it untill now.

the timid kiss you initiated escalated into a heated make out session in no time, his hands exploring every inch of your body, lifting your white sundress and getting to the waistband of your pink panties.

you almost automatically pushed his hand away, and broke the kiss to look at him through your eyelashes.

may i? i'll make you feel good, i promise

you slowly nodded, taking your hand away and placing it on top of his shoulder, instead.

moving the delicate clothing out of the way, he slided his finger through your already glistening folds, collecting some moisture and tracing soft and slow circles on your clit.

oh baby, already so wet for me he groaned.

a heavenly sound left your mouth, and went straight to his dick, that was starting to strain against his pants.

as his pace fastened, your need to feel more of him was growing.

r-rafey, can you maybe put a finger in?

it was almost too much for him to hear those words come out of your perfect, pouty lips. your voice trembling and breathy due to the stimulation he was giving you.

you want me to stretch you out baby? huh? say it.

he softly pinched and flicked your clit, barely allowing you to get some words out. but you knew what he wanted to hear.

yes, please stretch me out for you, please rafe.

he couldn't believe his eyes. he had the hottest girl in all the island under him, a moaning mess, begging him to touch her.

he slid his first rough finger in, gaining a loud moan from you as he did so.

you were so fucking tight, he couldn't wait to fill you up.

he struggled to fit in a second, but was finally able to get you to relax after he placed a few sloppy wet kisses on your neck, slowly lowering to the top of your boobs, that were spilling out of your dress.

his fingers curled inside you, reaching an undiscovered place and making you feel a kind of pleasure you never felt before.

your pussy squeezing him tightly, he could feel you were close, and suddenly pulls out both fingers, your whinings following at this unexpected loss of contact.

m'kay baby, i need to get inside you now.

[snapscube]

Remember when people were calling you the "long lost McElroy sister"? Do you see the similarity at all, or do you think it's just because you share a similar creative niche (gaming/streaming/comedy) with the McElroy brothers?

Lol, "when" people were doing it.

I still get it to this day, friend, despite my constant protests.

I used to understand, and it was even expected initially if not personally encouraged! There was definitely a period of time where they were my biggest comedic/creative inspirations, and the truth of the matter is that I am a mannerisms sponge. I mimic people around me, and people that inspire me, and whether or not it's more than the average person I have no clue, but I will go through seasons of daily watching a particular personality or creator I'm fond of and/or inspired by and usually come out the other end having picked up certain tendencies VERY quickly, a large portion of those being speech patterns.

There's definitely a segment of my content around 2017/2018 or so where, yeah, you can very much tell I adopted a McElroy-esque speaking pattern directly (like what felt like 70% of other Tumblr users also did lol) and it was both because of how much of their content I was into at the time AND also because at the time I found their output inspiring as someone who was used to more... Loud Gamer forms of comedy, to put it bluntly. So at first I took the comparisons in stride and saw it as a signal of my own growth as an entertainer, and my ability to be funny in a way that wasn't just Loud = Funny.

But the thing you have to know about me, and my time as even a minor public figure, is that this comparison was not the first of its that was constantly levied at me, and it unfortunately was not the last one in the slightest. Some will remember the days in which I was a reasonably renowned "Bill Cipher" impersonator in the Gravity Falls fandom, and the pattern was very similar at the time. I dealt with people CONSTANTLY telling me that, despite all of my attempts to separate myself from the voice work I did as the character, I always sounded Just Like Bill even when I was just using my casual speaking voice. If this sounds familiar to those of you who have only been around since the dubs popped off, it's likely because I also go through the same thing ever since I became known for Sonic impressions.

And then outside of voice work I've had my style of content continue to be compared to the McElroy's body of work and even beyond to the likes of Jerma and other big-name-of-the-era content creators. And I have to once again stress: I am completely self-aware that it is not entirely unfounded. I mean, the most recent one I got was just the other day when on stream someone told me I had a speech pattern similar to Northernlion. And like, I even admitted right then and there.... yeah! That makes sense! I've had NL compilations going into my ears and brain for hours upon hours on end lately. So I don't mean to only complain and say "this makes no sense" with delusions that it's completely baseless. BUT, I guess if I do have to circle around to a point, it would be that, though I can occasionally understand comparisons, I would hope y'all in turn can understand why it might not be an easy thing for someone like me to hear, especially in the way it never really seems to go away? Even if one like Bill Cipher fades out, the whole "SnapCube is just a female version of [insert larger male peer in the content space]" thing is something that cycles along regardless. And I get it, it's human nature to compare and contrast. I do it too! But as someone who is always trying to stand out in what I do and make my own value as an individual known above the cacophony of content saturation, I do implore people to think twice about the language they use when making otherwise favorable comparisons. Recommending my content by saying something like "if you like Jerma/McElroys/NL/etc., then SnapCube gives off similar vibes" makes of a WORLD of a difference compared to "This stream is just something Jerma would do" or "Penny is just a female Griffin McElroy" (both things I have heard almost verbatim, constantly). They approach the same ideas, but one gives me so much more of a chance to like... start off a first impression as My Own Person and not just a derivative Girl Alternative, if that makes sense.

Whoops I talked about this way too much :) Can you tell I think about this a lot LMAO

Anyway here's the obligatory joke response that's been spread before

[thatfandomslut]

Kissing It Better

Janis Imi'ike x Reader

Word Count: 1.1k

Trigger Warnings: r experiences her first panic attack over a failing grade

Request:

Hiya! I was wondering if you could write a Janis x reader! With maybe some hurt/comfort because I’m a sucker for that lol but anything that you’d like to do! You’re an amazing writer and I’m loving allllllll of your mean girls stuff!!!! <3333

Heavily inspired from that one Teen Wolf scene in season three where Lydia kissed Stiles.

Mean Girl Requests are open.

(Y/n)'s heartbeat hammered loudly in her chest, throbbing in her ears as she stared at the paper in front of her. Her vision began to blur when she saw an 'F' in bright red ink. She never earned a grade below an A- until today. Janis put a comforting hand on her knee, but it didn't seem to work as her breathing began to grow irregular at the thought of her parents discovering the grade she received. Her fingers twitched slightly as she stood up slowly, ignoring the eyes that set on her before she escaped the room that seemed to be closing around her.

It felt as though her lungs were going to collapse as she finally made her way to an empty classroom. Her hand flew on her chest as she struggled to breathe. This was going to affect her GPA and her class ranking. Her parents were going to be mad at her. Various thoughts flashed through her mind as she tried to swallow, hoping to help her breathe. She felt lightheaded as she slid down a wall, pulling her knees to her chest. She was startled when Janis made her way into her blurry vision, falling to her knees in front of (Y/n).

"You got to breathe, baby. Look at me, look at me. Let's try to breathe together." Janis tried to walk her through some breathing techniques, but nothing seemed to be working. She cupped her girlfriend's cheeks gently, wiping the tears from her face as she tried to think. She was growing increasingly worried as (Y/n)'s breathing grew more labored. She searched her eyes as she remembered a scene from a show she liked when she was younger. She shook her head before going for it, kissing her in an attempt to distract her. And it was successful as (Y/n) melted against Janis's lips, losing her initial shock. It was their first kiss as a couple and over a panic attack.

When Janis pulled away, (Y/n)'s chest heaved as she caught her breath. She was allowing her eyes to search all around Janis's face. "I learned from this show I used to like… Teen Wolf… I learned that sometimes, kissing it better might be an option. When I kissed you, you held your breath. Just like Stiles did when Lydia kissed him. I was surprised that it worked, but I'm glad it did." Janis explained her actions, her cheeks growing just as warm as the tips of (Y/n)'s ears began to feel.

Janis bit her bottom lip as she watched (Y/n) nod softly. There was a moment of silence as (Y/n)'s breathing returned to normal. "I'm sorry to have ruined our first kiss like that. I just saw that failing grade and I panicked. I could just see the disappointment on my parents' faces, and I somehow felt even more embarrassed with you there. I don't want to disappoint you, either. Then, I started thinking about my GPA and my class ranking… I haven't ever failed a test before." (Y/n) admitted shyly. She hated feeling so vulnerable, but she knew that Janis wasn't judging her.

Instead, Janis wrapped her arms around (Y/n), kissing her cheek when she pulled her in. (Y/n)'s tense shoulders relaxed in her girlfriend's hold as she closed her arms. They were burning from crying, the same reason her cheeks felt a bit sticky. She rested her forehead on Janis's shoulder as she allowed herself to be comforted by the girl. It was crazy how comfortable Janis made (Y/n) feel just by holding her.

"You don't ever have to feel embarrassed around me. I will never be disappointed in you. Especially not over your grades. You are so smart, and the night before the test, you stayed up helping your grandmother. Maybe, if you explained that to Ms. Norbury, she'd let you retake it." Janis offered a solution. Her solution wasn't bad. They both knew that Ms. Norbury was an amazing and kind teacher. She always wanted what was best for her students. "When you're ready, we'll go back in. I'll walk to her desk with you, if you need me to. I'm here for you, (Y/n)."

Janis's words brought a smile to her face as she inhaled. (Y/n) then pressed her lips onto Janis's again. She had to remind herself not to feel embarrassed over the fact that their kisses tasted like salt due to her crying. She knew not every kiss was going to be like that. For now, she focused on the fact that Janis had just made her feel good again. She knew that Janis was an amazing girlfriend. Though she was impulsive and loud, she was also very reasonable and always helped (Y/n) find a solution for everything. (Y/n) found herself lucky that the girl reciprocating her kiss was her girlfriend.

As they pulled away, (Y/n) gave her a nod that caused Janis to stand up and extend her hand out. (Y/n) took it, following suit as they left the classroom and journeyed back to their previous class. The classroom was now empty except for Ms. Norbury, whose lunchbox was opened. She set her sandwich down as she looked at (Y/n) in worry. "You ran off pretty quick, (Y/n). Is everything okay?" She inquired kindly, gesturing to the desks in front of her so they could sit.

(Y/n) declined the offer as she grabbed her bag from where she left it earlier, gathering her things. "I was actually going to ask you something." (Y/n) said, reapproaching Ms. Norbury. She seemed to know exactly what (Y/n) was going to ask for. "I am so much better than what I did on that test. The night before, I was up all night helping my grandma with something. I was wondering if there was a chance I could retest?" She asked, hope swimming in her eyes.

Ms. Norbury smiled as she looked at (Y/n). "Of course, if you want to swing by after school today or before school tomorrow, the test will be available if you're ready." She said, and (Y/n) grinned, swiftly hugging Ms. Norbury before hugging Janis. The feeling of accomplishment achieved thanks to Janis, who offered the solution she didn't even think about herself.

As they walked out and down the hallway, she proceeded to pull Janis in a hug once more. "Thank you for helping me and kissing it better." She whispered softly as Janis let out a small 'anything for you' that was muffled into her hair.

[nyxxxx-onepieces-dragun]

can i PLZ rq mikey with a (gender neutral please) reader who's like...a sunshine type but they're actually pretty depressed and just trying to make him happy? FRIENDS TO LOVERS PERHAPS?? WHERE HE TAKES THEM OUT ON A DATE TO MAKE THEM ACTUALLY HAPPY AND HE CONFESSES AND SHIT PLZZ

sorry if this is too much, have a nice day and don't forget to drink water!

Omg I actually love this Bc this is a reader I can relate with! ty for being my first request and you too drinks lot of wata!

A/N: this is quite long because I could not stop writing hehe also I was listening to "heaven and back" By chase atlantic and MWAH that song is what helped write this fic but enjoy all my lovelies! ;3

Characters: Mikey x gender neuteral! reader, mentions of other characters (maybe) angst with comfort (I'm rlly bad at giving warnings lol bc I like surprising yall heh)

Hold my hand~

you were sat in your small apartment seated by the window that was littered with falling raindrops, soft thunder ran throughout the skies as you silently drank the warm cup of tea infront of you, the weather matched your mood, you've always felt like this since before you could remember, you don't remember what triggered it but you started falling into this deep abyss of foreign emotions, lost in the darkness you found comfort in until you finally hit rock bottom. That is, until you saw him, walking through the halls of your school with a tall intimidating guy that had a black dragon tattooed on the side of his head, you initially thought he was bad news and no good due to people whispering about how the bleach blonde boy was "the invincible Mikey" and how he ran "..The most dangerous gang in Tokyo" you kept your distance for as long as you could until he one day approached you with a confused look on his puppy face. "Excuse me do you know where Takemitch Hanagaki is?" he asked his head tilted to the side "oh- uhm I don't think anyone by that name goes here- but I can help you look if you'd like" you offered with a smile, something about this boy made you feel something, his aura was inviting and welcoming, and it made you feel something you haven't felt in a long time but you couldn't pin-point what it was "Oh really? that would be nice thank you lady!" he said with a small laugh that made you smile even more, it was child-like and rang through your ears like a soothing melody. Eventually you found this Takemitchi hanagaki with a sweet looking pink haired girl, you were about to take your leave when Mikey grabbed your shoulder to stop you. "Hey don't leave yet! your my friend now and we have to hang out!" he said with a boyish smile and you turned to him with a confused expression, "you want to be my friend?" you asked with a doubtful tone, "Of course! you helped me so now I wanna be friends!" your heart fluttered at his words and you quickly smiled and nodded "Alright then we'll be friends then!" you say and before you knew it he was hugging you in a tight embrace that sent waves of emotion through you. From that point on you've been the best of friends with Mikey, you did everything together from going on rides with him on his motorcycle or going to the convenience store to get him more dorayaki. He was the light in your darkness and you wanted to make him the happiest he could be since he was practically saving you from yourself, you both laughed and smiled whenever you were with each other, but when those days were over and you were left alone in your cold bed staring up at the dark ceiling those wretched thoughts and horrible sadness filled your veins again and you began to overthink 'What if he's just trying to make a fool out of me?' 'If he knows about my real emotions he'll for sure not want to be friends with me anymore' and you swore to yourself to never let Mikey see that dark ugly side of you, even when he was sad or talked about him brother, you always were right there to comfort him, to make him smile as long as he was happy you were happy...right? "Y/N why are you sad?" Mikey asked one day as you both were walking alongside each other the sun was setting painting a beautiful array of pastel colors, you turn to Mikey with a confused expression "..huh?" "you just seem so..sad today" he says looking up at the sky, your heart rate increased you felt your mind racing with thoughts of how this could all go wrong, you started hyperventilating your smile faltering and before you could even say one word he turned to you with a deadpan expression. "Let's go on a date."

OKAY OKAY LISTEN, I have Part 2 coming up and I'll post it bc I MADE THIS TOO DAMN LONG KJSDSKDJNFJSJDK but reposts/reblogs are welcome js credit me!^^ Tags: @nakukuu @z3r0aqxa

[bentosandbox]

Lappy fancam animatic blogging/production notes

now that wolfgirlyaoi is out on global its rambling time about my powerpoint presentation

Concept

Originally I wanted to do an (Tex & Lapp) animatic with the boss theme (broken wall/Signore dei Lupi .mp3) ever since the event dropped but I thought 1) by the time I finished anything someone else would have probably already done it first (lol, lmao even) 2) I remembered the song exists and how much i looped it then while listening to the group's new album drop and thought the lyrics fit Lapp a little too well and also doesn't end abruptly like the boss theme + was shorter so yea

initial stickman storyboard where i put down the lyrics with event dialogue/happenings that i felt would fit nicely together > hastily scribble the images that form in my head

storyboards were basically what i wanted to see (same rule as my comics) lol especially if they weren't shown in the event CGs, eg. there's a CG of the truck crashing into the courtroom so I didn't do that but they didn't mention her physical acting in that scene + the song I used has a bow/salute at that exact part in their live choreo with the very similar line so I wanted to do a homage even though-

-I was like it's going to be such a pain to figure out an economical hand twirl and bow but I have to do this I need to transplant the image in my brain onto the screen because official media did not do a—

Honestly still don't know if its a common phrase and action combo because I was having so much trouble finding external references that wasn't just scrubbing the live video over and over anyway

part of the storyboards were 'recycled' from comic drafts I did (of the chocolate scene because ofc) when the event was running on CN

Originally I wanted to draw Lapp feeding Texas for The Girlyaoi Funny but I wanted to reference the plaque you get which is a Creation of Adam reference right but I also saw people saying it's referencing the scene from Silence of the Lambs lol so...peel the layers to your liking!!

(The chocolate flavour choice was from asking my Columbian friends what the worst chocolate flavour they ever tried which was white coconut)

my sorry attempt at colour keys > final spreadsheet to keep track of progress and paste all the dialogue i put in

Art Direction

A bunch of shots/colour schemes are references to Måneskin's stuff or other media tehepero I'll just put a few here

At first I was going to limit red/blue to tex/lapp respectively but since Omertosa is blue I just did away with that rule and lapp gets to have both (and more!) these two colours have pretty obvious emotional readings I think but also

red = self blue = society Siracusa or: red = yaoi & blue = yuri

for the others:

Purple = Alberto/Saluzzo, its not orange like the fruit he keeps holding because see below; I needed the colour for something else LOL Also the Saluzzos are iirc nobility or whatever and they have purple hints in their clothes so I think it was a good fit anyway

Yellow/Orange = Its supposed to be representing the last word in the story which apparently, yostar went with 'Savagery' which is Correct I guess but (laments again about how nuance is lost in localisation because imo savagery has a more derogatory kind of connotation while I think 蛮荒 in context of the story also has a 'nature/untouched by civilisation' side to it) which is why Texas setting the house on fire was not (entirely) red but orange (and it complements the blues both visually and thematically) and it's yellow at the end when they're frolicking(?) in the wilderness lol

(these colour rules don't apply to the penglog shot and technically a few frames like the shot with shocked penance, the one right after and 'im just lappy' because...i forgor my own rules lol)

The greens/teals were just a reference to the shades in the 3DPV I think

The silhouette/general style was inspired from the 3D teaser thing they had at the beginning of the 3.5 anniversary stream and the card suits that I..forgot to move to the other layers which is why only the green one had them (supposed to be 1 per set 💀)

The clash bit is basically the same as the event CG but with a flipped camera/POV sorry for world's worst screenshot lmao. Couldn't imagine the poses in my head so I ended up posing 3d models in CSP pretty good posing practice

These shots got rendered extra because..they were the first frames I started on and I was still figuring out how much to simplify lol

I also posed the chairs shot for some inexplicable reason…my file was lagging so bad

Headcanon part (kind of)

The childhood flashback scene is probably the part I took the most liberties (headcanon) on since it's not explicitly canon like the rest...the sequence/how I connected the scenes itself to fabricate a timeline of her childhood was kind of inspired by some weibo post musing about how (iirc) texas's sweet tooth maybe came from when she was being fostered at casa Saluzzo and Lapp treating her like a pet essentially and giving her a lot of treats since...you know what happened to her actual pet hehe except maybe texas offered her a stick first and then Lappy just reciprocated endlessly because its one of the few 'acts' she knew that wasn't violence haha yeah this section was basically a stealth doujin sorry

It's mentioned that she was brought up as the ideal Siracusan or whatever and she does the cute doodle in the 3DPV so I thought she probably had the Forced Music Lessons as a kid (The music sheets are Bella Ciao and of course)

The bow choreo was the one thing i really wanted to animate but the music sheet segment (based on that one split second shot above) ended up being my favourite part even though compositing the motion was a mini hell on it's own (ended up compiling a long png to scroll by with the red doodles layered over)

Other things

I will never live down my (self-imposed) shame of misspelling the title (I fixed the title on youtube but its why the ending shot in the upload says ZittE e Buoni instead of ZittI e Buoni) don't rush your fancam in 10 days 😔

I didn't look through the entirety of the EN loc but Idk why they had Lappy say 'Then go.' to Texas when it's supposed to be more like 'Let's go.' as in, 'let's go together' as opposed to 'alright off you go to the greyhall alone' lmfao also her saying goodbye forever padre when addio is right there

I don't think I'm insane enough to do another ppt soon but man this pair really makes the 'imagines a whole music video while listening to music' part of my brain go wheee like first it was Starset's Manifest then Signore de Lupi then this and while working on this one i was thinking how Måneskin's Torna A Casa would be another good track

ok ty for reading #GIRLYAOIREAL

[mrsnancywheeler]

Ok I’m back with the songs 🫡

I can’t remember if anyone else has mentioned this, but finnick/sweet girl are very much giving this is me trying by miss blondie herself

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I've been having a hard time adjusting. I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting” “And my words shoot to kill when I'm mad. I have a lot of regrets about that”

This reminded me a lot about their recent argument at the end of chapter 6, where sweet girl called him a liar and accused him of purposely playing mind games with her :(

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“And it's hard to be at a party when I feel like an open wound. It's hard to be anywhere these days when all I want is you. You're a flashback in a film reel on the one screen in my town”

THIS MIGHT JUST BE FINNICKS ENTIRE INNER MONOLOGUE AFTER THEY BROKE UP #IDK !! OR !! HIS THOUGHTS DURING READER’S GAMES! How he has to keep up appearances and his playboy persona to make sure his sweet girl gets sponsors, but he’s actually feeling so much grief and stress. 

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Another song they remind me of is  Wasteland, Baby! But specifically:

“I’m in love, I'm in love with you. And I love too, that love soon might end. Be known in its aching”

Just reminded me about how they’re meant to go through tragedy :(( 

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BONUS SONGS!

we can't be friends (wait for your love) by Ariana Grande’s SCREAMS young!reader going through the breakup with Finnick :((

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“We can't be friends, but I'd like to just pretend. You cling to your papers and pens, wait until you like me again. Wait for your love”

Just her initial reaction to the breakup and how she still loves him :((

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“I don't like how you paint me, yet I'm still here hanging”

“Me and my truth, we sit in silence. Baby girl, it's just me and you. ‘Cause I don't wanna argue, but I don't wanna bite my tongue, yeah, I think I'd rather die. You got me misunderstood, but at least I look this good” This reminds me of when Finnick was saying all those things he didn’t mean about his sweet girl, and although she’s hurt by it she still loves him (and deep down she knows he doesn’t mean it!)

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And Comfort Crowd by Conan Gray is so them coded like PLEASE mainly about how reader keeps rejecting any comfort because she doesn’t feel like she deserves it + how she was afraid to voice that she wants said comfort during her hijacking

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“Wellin' up in tears as I lay upon your belly. Telling you, ‘I’m fine I don't really need nobody,’ But you say through a sigh that I said that lie already”

Need I say more. 

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“And even if I cry all over your body. You don't really mind. Say you like your shirt soggy.”

This could go for both Finnick and Reader! About how they both feel guilty for receiving comfort from the other person (Finnick bc he wants to give comfort too, and Reader bc she feels like she doesn't deserve it)

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I hope this isn’t too long hehe but these were my #thoughts. I’m a yapper at heart <3 lmk what you think!!

BUT SIDENOTE I SAW HADESTOWN FOR THE FIRST TIME LAST NIGHT W JORDAN FISHER AND !! His performance was fr giving me finnick vibes bc he was really giving that obsessed yearner vibe IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IT LOL but it was so good!!

-🦅

buckle up folks because I love a lot to say 🫡❤️

this is me trying is so them, like very heavily

they're both really at their core such sunshiney people who've been so broken down and used by the world that they've really been dulled. and reader is always quick to bite back, especially when she's scared or frustrated or doesn't want to reveal her emotions, she doesn't have a complete grasp on reality yet, she's scared of being left behind, scared that finnick will die, scared of being alone and frustrated that he broke his promise to her so she lashes out.

110% to both of those, like he's so broken up, aching for her, in pain, blaming himself for everything, but he has to be what's expected of him. some drinks, laughing, flirting, smiling, when all he wants to do his curl up in bed crying as he holds into some remant of hers that he held onto all this time.

in the context of the most recent chapter "I just wanted you to know that this is me trying" is so very much both of them for different reasons

finnick says the things he does and does what he does because he wants to help her get better, to be delicate with her, keep her safe, keep her protected from the dangers of the time and her mental state. he's trying his hardest even if he doesn't always handle it in ways that bode well.

reader is trying to be herself again, she just wants to be treated normally regardless of how that affects her. once she's her she'll be less paranoid, more trusting, she's trying so hard to replicate that so she can get there and feels like he's not letting her. that her attempts are being shut down.

they are the tragic lovers, so in love, so obsessed, and constantly fated for hurt after hurt. all I'm saying is to watch moulin rouge and think of them because it's so finnick and his sweet girl in another life.

LITERALLY THOUGH if she could've she would've followed him around like a lost puppy dog, it would have fed into the narrative about her, but she's so desperately in love that she would have waited so patiently. in a way she did, but if he'd told her he was breaking up with her for other girls she was so young and so already achingly in love with him that she would have kept trailing around waiting for him to come baxk

(side note, finnick is really the love sick puppy, but reader reminds me of a stray cat who picks someone to love, always waits to be fed by them. given a little bit of attention and now will be attached for the long run. I thought googles description was really funny because it's just so her "With time and patience, a stray cat may trust you and want pets consistently. If you have grown close to a stray cat, it may feel upset or distressed if you suddenly leave it." so yeah she's a stray cat who finally got some love before being suddenly stranded again)

ANYWAYS yes, the way he talks about her and paints the portrait of their relationship is so hurtful. she totally cries about it consistently because to her he's perfect, and although she largely wants to believe what he said when they broke up and trust he still loves her, a part of her can't help but feel so stupid for letting herself be lead on by someone who's been said to be a playboy anyway. it makes her so insecure, so much more guarded, but she doesn't hate him, no she could never. she's in love with him. no matter what he says or does she's long placed her roots and won't tear them up.

that's literally the most them interaction to have never ever interacted, some of her tears have welled up, she's choking on pushed down sobs, and insisting that she's okay even though Finnick can read her like a book. he's softly scolding her for lying while she continues to try and insist until she's completely broken down into sobs.

reader could have the roughest day ever and still insist that she's fine, comfort finnick, love on him, hold him, and he spends the time hating that he's enjoying the loving when she's so obviously lying, masking everything. it's such a paradox. meanwhile she feels terrible for aching comfort because of things she does, she wants to suffer, but the lure of giving into finnick's arms is too much sometimes. especially knowing that he loves her so much and so well. she just has to let herself take what she needs even if she hates herself or it later.

ofc this isn't too long pookie, I love hearing y'all's thoughts no matter how long, yap to me endlessly pookie, I'm a yapper too. ❤️

YAY EXCITING I would love to see Jordan Fisher as Orpheus, he's so talented. I'd die, and yes it's just so Finnick 😭💕

[woso-dreamzzz]

hey! long anon here again… w the (as usual) long asks (oops) sorry about this one again, friend!

rereading the earlier bits of injured for fun (masochism) as a result of my nieces spending the weekend with my family. they’re twins and just turned 3… and it made me wonder what bambi was like pre-neglect. my nieces are so small and so excitable and have so much wonder in their eyes (sometimes tho they sit and stare blankly and it seems like they’re in deep thought lol) and it just hurts to think that bambi could be all giggles and excitement the way they are… but she’s been regressed to an apprehensive version of herself.

in the first part of injured bambi’s really cautious and quiet and quite introspective for a young child. bambi in the second part is probably even younger… since it takes place when jenni and alexia are a thing, and it’s cute to see bambi dotes on jenni the way a kid would to their parent (my nieces are constantly in their mom’s lap or sitting with my mom or something.)

it’s cool but sad because my nieces’ dad started working abroad so they’ve been hanging off my dad and brother—my aunt says it’s because they don’t see their dad as much. what do you think it was like for bambi when jenni was out of the picture initially? would we still see this introspective, sort of apprehensive version of bambi had jenni not left and none of this (olga, jaume, neglect) happened? we find out jenni’s been there for the pregnancy and for bambi’s entire life before she left for mexico. she’s young but i keep thinking that she probably lost a bit of herself seeing my nieces be so happy with some “father figure” given they don’t see their dad often anymore.

and then the part where we see bambi begin to realize the lack of attention she’s getting now that she has a younger brother. she’s 4… i think… and holy moly it brings tears to my eyes because ??????????? no kid should ever have to think about whether their parent/s are going to give them attention. especially at that age. so when bambi hides and waits for her mami… yeah. you made me a jenni stan with that one line… even before jenni-ism/the jenni agenda was a REAL thing. and then you cemented it by making bambi rationalize crying silently because alexia yelled at her the last time she expressed her own emotions when alexia was fussing over a crying jaume.

again i was just wondering if there was a large divide or shift in bambi’s personality given the events of neglect taking place in such an important time for development. she’s forced to mature so quickly and at such a young age and that just hurts. trying to mentally prepare myself for this sunday tho!

1010382 apologies to u and the readers bc of this long ask. it was just a thought (that definitely spiralled bc i love my nieces and i also love bambi) gonna go make more teeny and pequenita/natalia and princesse HCs bc they bring me a lot less pain than bambi does

Don't apologise! Your long asks make me really excited every time I see them!

Obviously, there's a space on Bambi's masterlist now for the Before so there's definitely going to be some younger Bambi coming at some point but she's always been quite introspective. It's just how she is but she wasn't nearly as apprehensive as she is now. But she was still giggly and happy and super cute pre-neglect.

In part II, Jenni was also only Tia Jenni but she definitely took a maternal role without it being an obvious thing (and it was in the cards for her adopting Bambi as well before the breakup). It was difficult at first when Jenni left because she definitely saw Jenni as a motherly figure. Jenni has been in Bambi's life since before she could remember so there was definitely a hole that she and Alexia had to adapt too.

Bambi realising that Jaume gets all the attention is so heartbreaking. In situations like this, there's mostly two options they can go with. There's the acting out to get attention and then there's the withdrawing themselves which is what Bambi did. She withdrew from everyone and stopped trying to get attention. She decided to wait it out to see if it would get better but it never did until Alba took her. Bambi crying silently was actually heartbreaking to write because she knows that she won't be getting attention and there's a chance that she'll get yelled at again.

There was definitely a shift in Bambi's personality pre and post-neglect. She was always reserved and a little introverted (there's actually studies about how children of mothers who suffered with long-term post-partum depression are more likely to suffer from difficulties of social and cognitive functioning, problems in externalising problems and anxiety disorders) but the neglect definitely makes it worse and it's something that she never fully recovers from.

It's a little heartbreaking to actually confirm but Bambi does suffer from long term effects of her neglect. It's never the really extreme things like failure to thrive (but that was borderline) but it does affect her future personality. She never fully goes back to how she was in the Before.

Bambi's in a very delicate part of her development so she's still able to bounce back to an extent but never fully. It went on for a bit too long combined with the medical trauma that she suffered during the same period so older Bambi does end up with a nervous disposition and she's often stuck in her head a little bit. She's got a habit of overthinking sometimes.

If Bambi never got neglected then her personality probably would have ended up wildly different.

[presidentlokis-hornyhelmet]

Home Is Where You Are

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Pairing: Pavitr Prabhakar x Reader Summary: (From This Ask) Reconnecting: You and Pavitr were childhood besties, yet in-between your friendship, you had to move away. You guys were still in touch as well, but little did Pavitr know you decided to surprise him by finally moving back to your hometown where you and Pavitr used to live. Tags: Childhood Friends, Friends to Lovers

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🎵 🎶 The sight of you lit me up Could not believe my luck Now I know where I need to be Home is where you are 🎵 🎶 Song by Ant Utama A/N: Google says "meri jaan" can be used to refer both your gf/bf and your friends too(?), so if it's not so irl, just assume they're comfy w/ it 😅😅😅 LOL

Pavitr Prabhakar -or Pavi, as you often call him- has been your bff since childhood.

Stuck at the hip, running around doing mischeif and pleading your parents to allow just 5 more minutes playtime.. Oh, those were the days! A chuckle slips your lips when you remember that even as a child, he was proud of his hair.

You remember vividly, back when you guys first met. Pavitr's hair was wild and curly and all over the place, bouncing with his every step. It was physically untamable for him. He was fussing with it and you, having watched him for quite a while, offered to help him keep it in place with a messy pigtail and putting all your hairclips on him. It didn't help much but little Pavitr had been very grateful, a big smile pulled across his face.

That was in kindergarten.

Growing up, you became the closest of friends -and the most chaotic. There was no one in school who hadn't heard of the infamous micheif-makers, the prankster pair. Prank wars 24/7 and very concerning to the school board.  It was even more hectic when they tried to put you guys in different sections to discipline you. You threw a tantrum, he spilled food everywhere as all the other kids joined in; it was sort of a mutiny you guys had started. The headmistress then decided it was best for everyone to not separate you two and let you guys be in the same class thereon on the condition that there will be no more horsing around.

Things finally went back to normal and all was going well.. until your parents got a transfer.

You remember that day, when your parents said you were going to move. Initially, you had been over the moon, not knowing that it meant leaving Pavitr for good. God, you were so naive. But when it finally  dawned on you that this is where your friendship will possibly end, you ran to his house and cried to him. Pavitr shared your sentiment; he loved as much as you loved him and separating you guys just was wrong.

Whenever there's something scary at night or if he hears weird sounds that frighten him, Pavitr used to hide under the bed until it goes away. He suggested you do the same. So there you both were, crouching  under his tiny bed and staying there sharing stories and whatever 11 year olds talk about.

Uncle Bhim did find you soon enough and called your worried parents. A lot of kicking and screaming and yelling 'I don't wanna goooooooo!' while your parents dragged your naughty butt to the new home, practically ripping your hand away from Pav's.

It had been a bit too dramatic, now that you think about it, though a little funny too.

Pav had been crying for a week after you left, just like you, and every night for a month, Uncle Bhim would let him call you and speak. Then school began, and you drifted apart.

______

You stepped out of the airport and raised a finger, calling for a taxi.

It's been 10 years now. A decade since you and Pavi last saw each other in person. Sure, you stay in touch via video calls and social media but nothing beats physical connection.

You've graduated and found a new internship at your dream company that requires you to stay in Mumbattan. What else do you need? To say you were happy would be an understatement.

Dropping your things at your own apartment, you take the cab straight to Maya auntie's as he's still staying here to take care of her. (Hope she still likes pranks!)

The elderly woman is the first to greet you, full of joy, her aged eyes shining with tears of sentiment. "Oh, mera beta!"

You let her wrap you in her embrace and hug you close. Maya auntie shares your tears, giving a moment of respectful silence to Uncle Bhim. It's hard to digest his death when you loved him like your own father.

After pleasantries are exchanged, you're about to ask about him when doubt creeps upon you. Sure, you've talked a lot but.. Does he still feel the same way about you, or is it the version of you in his head? Does he still value your friendship like before? Or were you just a passing cloud? A chapter in his book? Just a childhood memory and nothing more?

But most importantly, has he found someone else more worthy of his time?

Maya auntie, always as perceptive as ever, sees the hesitation in your eyes and encourages you to give him a surprise, assuring you that, of course, nothing is more important to him than your friendship.

With renewed confidence, you walk into Pavitr's room. He isn't there but you hear the water running. Assuming he's taking a bath, you take your time to look around the room.

The sky blue wall is a bit faded but it brings you happy memories. Same big old window from which you used to watch the city. Books, books and more books, some kind of gadget and a- is that spandex!? A Halloween costume, perhaps.

A framed picture is sitting on his desk, of your childhood selves holding hands, your front teeth missing, standing before Pavitr's apartment. It was the first time you had come over. Aww!

The cot is certainly larger than last time and you hide a chuckle when you think if you both can fit under this one.

Actually.... didn't Maya aunty talk about surprise?

Giggling like the mischievous child still inside you, you crawl under the bed. What you expected is to not fit under it, what you didn't expect is a red and blue hand-painted shoe box filled with little trinkets.

The lid is open, so you're not actually intruding on his privacy.. (Right?)

The box is filled with shiny stuff and upon inspecting one, you realise these are the same gifts that you gave Pavitr a decade ago. He.. he still cherishes them? Your heart swells.

A glittery red paper heart catches your eye but you don't remember giving it to him. Sloppy cursive runs in gold glitter:

"I threw my plans all away So that I could hear you say You love me, yes, you want me The sight of you lit me up Could not believe my luck Now I know where I need to be Home is where you are

I miss you meri jaan 💔 "

It takes a moment before you realise it's from him. He'd written it to you before you moved but never actually came around to giving it.

Oh, oh God, Pavitr loves you!

Tears of joy gislten in your eyes. You did have a similar thought once,  but dismissed as soon as it came. You would never believe if someone told you Pav had had feelings for you. And seemingly, still does.

A greeting card falls out, a dried rose attached to it. It was written on last Valentines day:

"A little birdie told me you wished for a Knight in shining armour. Now that I'm here, what are your other two wishes, meri jaan? ;P"

Wet thuds sound and you look up -wincing from the bump to your head- to see Pavitr come out of the bathroom, towel-drying his curly hair and dripping water everywhere.

"Looking swag as always, Pav!", he says, making finger guns to his reflection, flaunting his amazing hair as he runs a hand through his damp curls. And, wow, it's grown longer!

The moment you try to scare him from under the bed, he stiffens and turns around cautiously. Grabbing a cricket bat, he curls his other hand into a mudra. (Is he going to spiritualize you to the death??)

"Who is it? Whoever you are, better come out or else-!"

"Or else, you'll crouch under the bed?"

He drops the cricket bat, frozen in pleasant shock.

You're struck speechless too, lost in his eyes. Wow, Pavitr has.. grown. He's so very handsome, much more than you remember. You gasp softly, mesmerized by his beauty.

"O-Oh my god, N/N?!"

He engulfs you in an embrace, hugging to tight to his chest. His wet cheek rests cool against your warm skin, so close you can smell his shampoo. "Ah, I can't believe it! Meri jaan, is it really you? H-how-?"

"A little birdie told me you wished for a Knight in shining armour. Now that I'm here, what are your other two wishes.. meri jaan?"

It takes him less than a second to realise you'd read his card. "Oh God, you read that!?" He blushes terribly, pressing his face into the crook of your neck as he stumbles over his words. It's cute to see him flustered.

The laughter dies but your smile stays.

"Y/n", his breath is hot in your ear, "may I.."

Your heart beat quickens, stuttering with every stretching moment. Every breath you take is growing heavy.

"Yes..?"

Your noses touch. He's close, so close..

Suddenly, he twirls you around and begins to sing:

"The sight of you lit me up Could not believe my luck Now I know where I need to be Home is where you are!"

Once you recover, you try to hit him in the chest for playing you like that, but he's quicker. You giggle, laughter erupting from your throat as he hugs you from behind, pecking your cheek like he used to do all those years ago as you sing along.

It may be unspoken, but it exists. He's never forgotten, nor have you.

"Now I know where I need to be Home is where you are!"

_____

hope you enjoyed it!

@moraleswithoutmorals I am so sorry for the delay, I think I need some more time for the other prompts (seriously, they're SO GOOD i can't CHOOSE!) and I think of merging a couple prompts, hope that's fine with you 😊

[legoiscrying]

Hey!! As soon as I read Poly I immediately wanted to know your HC on the poly main four...but if you don't ship that then can you tell me your Stenny HC?

Ofccc I don't mind poly M4 I'll do HCs on them! :D

This is probably age-uped to young adults btw

1. They like to give each other presents. But!

- Cartman doesn't like to give physical presents (like, small gifts) bc he doesn't really see anything special in them, and also the greed that he still had from his childhood not always lets him to do so. But he most likely to take his boyfriends somewhere nice, like restaurants, entertainment places, shopping centers and all that stuff.

- Kenny is an entire opposite to Cartman. Even when he grows older and has enough money, he still is struggling with wasting large sums so he's not the type of guy to take Stan, Kyle and Eric somewhere fancy. But he likes to make small gifts, and he's very dedicated to that. He's also very attentive to details: like, if Stan says that he saw a game that he always wanted to play, Kenny'd buy him it. And overall if someone mentions a gift that they really want, Kenny will remember that.

- Of all of them, Stan is the least fan of gifts. Although he's usually not the initiator of gift exchanging, if someone gifts him something, he'd be very responsible at finding something in return. Like, seriously, one time Kyle got him a small present at the mall and said "I don't know, just reminded me of you", and Stan went on a whole research on what he should give Kyle in return. He knows Kyle very well, but still usually doesn't trust his own taste in gifts, so he would definitely ask Cartman and Kenny for advise. Kenny helped to navigate, Cartman helped to choose and...Stan bought what he first thought of anyways.

– Kyle is...Complicated. He's as much greedy as Cartman, but he doesn't really talk about plus he'd grown to overcome it a little better. He genuinely saying sucks at giving presents (like, gifting), but here's the other thing: He usually shares his stuff with his boyfriend to the point where his stuff is not only his. "Yes, Kenny, you can borrow any food you want from my fridge", "Here, take my scarf, Stan", "I don't need that, you can use it, Cartman". That kind of stuff. He sometimes complains that guys take his stuff so often, but it's his way of repaying them and making them happy. But romantic gifts? He sucks two times more. He's the type of guy to bring flowers on a date, even tho they know each other for ten years. Still, he likes enjoys giving presents

2. I do this with every poly ship of mine: In which order the guys got together romantically. Expect it's a bit complicated for them, because they've always been a group lol

Stenny, they're the most fastburn of them all and would realize their feelings relatively early > Stan still has his awful crush on Kyle but haven't told Kenny about it yet > Meanwhile Kyman's relationships are staring to develop > Kenman are hanging out together and something is happening > Stan first talks to Kenny, Kenny says he's okay with Stan having other crushes and that he wasn't surprised it's Kyle > Stan confesses to Kyle, Kyle doesn't reject him, but says he needs time to think > Kyman get together and Stan thinks it's kinda over for him and Kyle > Kenman are still hanging out and things are still happening > Kenman get together and they freak Kyle and Stan out by that /pos > Style have a tough conversation and eventually get together too > atp they already realize that the poly circle has happened, so then Stanman and K2 get together too

[iraprince]

any advice for starting sketches? once i have a coherent foundation it's easier for me to work on the drawing but i struggle SO BAD with actually making my initial sketch something that makes sense. when i try to start the sketch it feels like im just trying to get lucky with something i can actually work on. it's like i cant transfer what i want to see in my head to the actual work and it's insanely frustrating. it's like i can only know what i want to do when it's already there, not when nothing is there. ive been drawing for over 10 years and this is something I've never been able to change no matter how many different ways I've tried to go about this and it's why ive gone everywhere from drawing multiple times a week to not doing it at all for months/years at a time. i never want to try because the process of attempting a new sketch is so frustrating a majority of the time and i wish i could enjoy it or know why i cant get my sketches started. it's fine when i do get lucky, it's just the blank page that torments me

hmmm this is a really good question. it's something i have an easier time with digitally than traditionally, somehow -- like, i can't tell you how many stacks of paper i have sitting around that are full of, like, 20% of a floating head because i keep getting that far on starting something and then deciding i hate it, vs with digital sketches i do still often scrap/give up on sketches very early but somehow there's less friction irt just making a new layer and trying again, over and over pretty quickly. maybe it's that digital feels faster + more ephemeral, vs w traditional i'm faced more confrontationally with the paper i'm "wasting," etc

also i think just like. "what's in my head will not show up on the paper" is just the universal problem forever, it's the tide we're always swimming against and we'll go through waves where it feels more or less true depending on the current development of our technical skill vs our critical eye, but i don't think it ever fully goes away

this is just what's true for me but if it always feels like you're just trying to get lucky, the fastest brute force solution for that is leaning into quantity, imo. draw a LOT, draw FAST, and -- easier said than done, but -- try your best not to CARE if they look bad. even in the shittiest drawing there is often something you can salvage for later. i can't remember where i saw it but i once saw it said that drawing is like a clogged pipe -- there's a bunch of shitty drawings stuck in there and you have to get those all OUT before you can expect the real stuff behind it to start flowing

lower the stakes, in whatever way you can. in my experience, it's not that drawing itself is really that hard or taxing -- it's that the emotional toll of doing drawings and then not being happy with them is hard, it's disappointment and being down on yourself that's hard. if we do our best to strip away all the emotional baggage, that's that part that can actually make art so grueling and difficult to keep up with imo. so try the best u can to just make it, like... not that serious. remind yourself over and over again that there's nothing actually wrong with making drawings you're not satisfied with. it's not doing anything bad to anyone. i literally mumble it to myself sometimes -- when a drawing is coming out shitty or i just can't get where i want to be on an illustration i say to myself "it's okay, that's fine" and try to pump the brakes on the negative thoughts before "ugh, that's not what i wanted" somehow internally transforms into "you SUCK and you're a HACK and there's no point to ANY OF THIS!!!!" lol

in terms of more concrete stuff to try -- one of my fav exercises to loosen up is song sketches. i put a huge playlist (usually like literally all my music, i have it all in a folder on spotify) on shuffle and then draw a bunch of quick sketches only for the duration of each song, and usually trying to match the drawing to whatever the song makes me think of -- so if it's a 2 minute song, i literally only have 2 minutes. if i hit some 7 minute club edit, then great, i have 7 minutes to bang out something slightly more polished. depending on how fast you're used to working, you may find that at first you struggle to get ANYTHING coherent down in 2-3 minutes -- that's OKAY!!! another point of this exercise is to acclimate yourself to making unfinished, incoherent, dogshit drawings without it being a big deal. the point is that if you're limiting yourself this much (in terms of actual drawing time AND in terms of not being able to overthink/plan, you have to hear the start of the song and decide what ur gonna draw IMMEDIATELY), you will end up churning out a lot more drawings without individually agonizing over each one as much, and there WILL be something salvageable in the pile.

i hope some part of this is helpful!!!! good luck!!!

[abbythewritor]

"Specimen" Connor x Venom reader. *3.*

Description: Y/n, a girl who's been alone her whole life, decides to change when an alien from the sky corrupts her body. Learning to cope with the symbiote named Venom, the two figure out a way to help put an end to disgusting humans who pick on the weak. But what happens when a certain Android detective is on her tail as if he was attracted to her all this time?

Warnings: Drama, blood, violence, stuff from the game, you know, the usual from Detroit become human.

Other things:

-I do not own Detroit Become Human; they belong to the owners and creators of the game.

-We will be following both Markus and Connors's story, maybe a little bit of Karas, because the reader is with the deviants, while Connor, you know, does his cop duties, lol.

-Y/n is a human girl who is then corrupted by Venom; if you don't know who Venom is, then I recommend watching the movie about him, then that will sum it up for you.

Enjoy the third chapter, everyone. :) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

?????????? POV

It was cold.....

Wet.......

And I was just in utter pain.

Even though, Androids can't feel pain, my initial core seemed broken, broken by....sorrow?

All of my emotions were on high alert, my mind racing with multiple thoughts and scenes from before.

I remember what happened...but...I don't know where I am exactly.

This place, felt...weird...and cold.

I had never experienced a feeling like this in my life, Nor did I ever express it all my career; all I ever felt was emptiness and blankness, never genuinely knowing my emotions. Today, I was truly more lost than ever before. it is where my genuine emotions began.

Rain was pouring heavingly onto the ground, the mud below me only getting wetter and messier.

I felt weak, broken, and torn apart from my life as I hear the sounds of disaster, the rain, and cries for help.

Where are their other's like me in this situation? Did I get destroyed by something I never had done?

I knew now where I was and how I got here....but...I don't know what I did to deserve to be here.

Carl.....that's the last person I saw...before everything went black.

His body was on the floor, his skin cold as it could ever be. My scanners didn't pick up a heartbeat, but only a heart attack...I wanted to save Carl; he was like a dad to me, but...before I could explain to the Humans what happened, with the situation of Leo...they pointed a Gun at me, then shot a bullet straight to my initial core.

That's right, the Humans were the ones that ended me, brought me here, and blamed me for something I didn't do, they even blamed me for theft and red ice consumption, which was Leo's doing.

I didn't know what else to do; I couldn't get any more lives endangered, and to see Carl on the floor, dying, the assault from the humans, everything that is going on...maybe it was my fault.

The humans blame my kind for everything; we get kicked and spat on, and they even call un-explainable names; the humans can barely look us in the eye without throwing a punch or kneeing our stomach.

We get treated differently than humans treat each other, even though we do everything for them. It's true what Carol has said, the world surely does hate someone who is different, and Now I finally realize, I was the different one. If I keep living like this...keep getting stepped on, spat on, even get thrown or decommissioned for something I never did, then...what is there to life than being trapped? I have to do something...I have to get out of here.

Lifting myself up from the ground, my eyes saw the dump and a little fuzziness. I ran my scanners throughout my body, Notifying me I was missing a leg, a heart component, a hearing component, and an eye.

Trying my best to see, I looked around the area, crawling to see if I could find any parts that weren't damaged yet.

My first task was to replace my legs, so I won't have to crawl the whole time. I crawled and crawled, trying my best to see until I eyed an abandoned leg sitting in the mud. It was perfectly fine when I scanned it, no damage was done, and a sigh of relief came from my mouth. I took the leg into my hands, ripped off one of my bad legs, and then simply put it back on, twisting it until I heard a 'clicking' sound.

It felt nice to get a new one as I looked and wiggled my new toes. Though as fascinating as looking at my feet was, I needed another replacement for the left leg to be able to walk again. So again, I crawled, some legs I came across were incompatible, and others were not even built to be used or in proper condition. But, soon, I came across a body of one of my own, looking at it with slight sorrow; as I looked at its leg, the left one was compatible, Good.

So, I ripped off my left leg and then the new one-off, replacing it with where my old leg used to be.

Suddenly getting a feeling on my left side, I could stand, but once I tried standing, I sometimes stumbled, which was to be expected. Since now I can be able to walk...I need to find a way out of here.

^ NEW OBJECTIVE

^ ESCAPE JUNKYARD

Beginning to walk, I felt off balance as I tried to find my way out of this place of hell for androids.

I still needed to find more parts, an eye, a heart component, and a hearing chip.

Walking for what seemed forever, a hand suddenly grabbed me; as I turned to look, it was a broken, lost android, and his eyes looked at me with despair. "There's a p-p-p-PPPPP-place w-we're whhhhhEEEEEEEEEr'e we can be f-freeeEeeeE! F-FinnnDDDddd Jericoh! Find t-the DEEEEvianTTT s-saaAAAvior."

I was confused, my sensor picking up everything he said. Making sure to save his words in an important file location, I walked past, continuing into the dump; as I had to crawl through a tiny yet tight space, more bodies and hands began to touch me all around.

Struggling to get through at first, I managed to free myself from the crawl space until one of them choked me, and my eyes widened with fear.

"Where are you going?" It asked as I tried to break free from its grasp, but once I did, I flung away, tumbling across the muddy floor.

I stood back up, turning in a direction where I could see a neon sign, which must be where the exit was. Looking at myself to see if I was a little bit ok; my sensors didn't pick up new damaged parts, which meant I could keep going.

"P-Please..." Something called, as I looked down, seeing a desperate android looking up at me. All that was left of him was half of his body, as he couldn't move or crawl anymore.

My eyebrows furrowed at the sight as I kneeled down to him, but I could not speak because of my missing components. "I'm begging you...I can't live like this...p-please just end me..." His request was rash; the more I looked at him, the less I wanted to kill him. I couldn't do that to him, I can't kill anybody, I would never. Standing up, I could hear him whine, calling back for me to not leave him; as much as I wanted to stay with him; I couldn't; I needed to keep going, I need to find a way out. Walking and searching for another couple of minutes, I stumbled upon another android with a right-eye component.

Taking its eye, I shoved it into my eye socket, a slight pain going to my head as my sight tried to adjust quickly. Soon enough, I could see clearly, the fuzziness of my one eye wholly gone, the world becoming much clearer through my View. My body, my mission, the exit...I am almost there; I just need to hear and have a core component...

With a bit more exploring, I soon found the core component I was looking for. The woman who contained it suddenly died and collapsed into my arms as I frowned at the sight; the sound of her voice shutting down caused my heart to feel weak.

Setting her on the ground gently, with full respect, I removed her upper clothing, revealing many scratches, holes, and blue blood from that area.

'She must have been abused before coming here..' I thought, looking away as I imagined what she could have been through, as the thought of many situations they could have done made e sick.

Getting my composure back, I looked back at her chest and took the core out of her chest, feeling some type of emotional pain through my right chest area, I put the core into my chest, and gasped, a pain rising where a human heart should be. I collapsed to my knees, my forehead hitting the ground as deep breaths and slight coughs came out of my mouth.

It was hard, hard to breathe at the moment as I was truly confused about why I was feeling pain or anything of the matter; Androids don't feel pain; maybe it was a shock, or something messing up in my software; I am broken, after all.

Taking a few minutes, I was able to bring myself back together as I slowly sat up, soon going back to my feet.

Like a new Android, I felt better as the last thing I needed was a hearing chip; I was almost to the exit. Exploring the last bit of the Junk Yardin and out, I found a compatible ear chip off another Android. This one was easier to remove than the other components, as the Android was shut down and facing away from me.

I still felt terrible about all the other components I took, as they all suffered great deals before coming here.

But, I needed the components, something in this world has to be done, and the way we Androids are treated is unfair.....humans must be stopped.

Looking at the ear drive, I began to put it into the socket behind my right ear, loud screeches and uncomfortable noises ringing through my ears.

Though, once it was all the way in, my hearing was able to come back as loud sounds from the thunder and rain ran through my ears.

Being able to hear again was a wonderful feeling, as I was now fixed, but at the same time...everything was scary, as the rain and thunder were louder than expected.

It was like a whole new environment down here, this...place acting more like Hell, rather than an android graveyard.

Still feeling weak, I pushed the emotions aside as one final task came into my program.

^ Find an escape route.

Looking around for any exits or safe places to hop onto, all I could do was climb and head to the neon sign above. It could be dangerous; I could get pulled back down here...but...what do I have to lose? I've already lost everything I could ever want...it's time to take any risks at this point.

So, I did that; I began the climb, taking one foot and hand in front of the other, trying to avoid any other hands that were trying to pull me back down.

Repeating the same steps for about ten minutes, my left hand reached the ground, and I used all my strength left to pull myself up, up towards freedom.

Finally, out, I crawled a little bit away from the edge, the rain still pouring onto my body as I took some deep breaths, myself soon sitting up on my knees.

My eyes looked up to the sky, not bothered by the drops of Rain hitting my pupils, as what I just witnessed and gone through, was more than a nightmare, it was hell, and I had just escaped it.

There is no time, now that I am myself again, to just stand around; I need a plan; I need to find the place and person that android was talking about; I need the plan to fight back the humans; I need the plan to be free, and keep freedom with me. Looking down, I noticed a sharp object that could be useful, as I knew just what to do with it.

Grasping it with my hands, I held it up to my burden, the LED, as I dug under it, taking away the circle that ruined my past.

Hearing it plop to the ground satisfied my ears as It notified me that I am no longer a slave or an android; I was someone and worth more than everyone else here.

Standing up, I slowly walked towards a pole with a Jacket on it.

I am very...sorry, everyone you had to witness all of that, witness the sadness and brokenness of my people. When I meet someone new, I give them an introduction, I could have if I wasn't broken and destroyed in that place of hell, but now that I am up, I can introduce myself...hello, it is nice to meet you all. Facing the camera, I blankly looked at you as the rain continued to drip slowly down my skin and broken body.

"My name......Is Markus..."

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'Damn...it's really pouring out there.' You and Venom were home, not at Jericho, but at the home you rented out for yourself. Jericho is nice, but Humans like yourself can't really sleep on hard metal floors or even bug-infested mattresses, so breaking into an old, abandoned house you fixed up yourself was a pretty well-done investment. The storm outside was getting worse, giving luck to you that you were dry and inside as your hands gripped the hot, delicious coffee mug into your hands.

Yourself was sitting on the window seat, your eyes watching every raindrop hit your window, your eyes closing and enjoying the sound.

It was nice to come home from a long day, as the situation with the deviant and Gavin being an asshole made the day even harder and harder. Just when you thought the Meeting with Fowler would have gone smoothly, Gavin just made things worse by being a child and complaining to him about you.

Why? Well, let's just say as you were heading to fowlers office today, Venom slipped a little something into his coffee as you walked past, Gaving seeing you walking passed his desk, and similarly used you as the first suspect.

Of course, you told him off, and you weren't in trouble by any of it, but of course, on a day where everything seems to go to plan, this idiot of a detective fucks it up.

So here you are, home early, enjoying peace and quiet as Venom munched on the chocolate cake you have him.

A book was sat perfectly in front of you, as you just finished reading it, notes from the Novel written in the notebook below.

After taking a sip of the delicious dirty water, you let out a sigh of satisfaction before your phone buzzed.

Grasping your phone, you looked to see a message from North as you opened it.

North: Good Job today Y/n. The police got enough information they need without getting too close to our Tail, be ready for tomorrow, as a new Deviant case has been reported on the news.

Shaking your head with a slight chuckle, you never really understood how North is so good with getting information early like this, as it's impossible to leak into the police's information. But, what she is talking about, you already know, how a Deviant escaped with a little girl, the guy saying it almost 'shot' and 'killed' him. Just by hearing that stupid man's voice, you and Venom knew it was a lie, and he's definitely high on red ice. But you didn't know why the deviant Ran away, especially with the little girl. Venom could sense your confused thoughts as he turned away from his Cake, looking at you. "What is the matter? We since your confused thoughts. Is it about the new case that popped up?" Sighing, you looked down at your coffee. "Yeah....you know..it doesn't bother me that Deviants run away, but with a child...? It almost sounds like it was abducting it." Venom hummed, soon going closer to you. 'Could be for safety reasons, maybe the deviant is Taking her away from the man because he was abusive, or it could be the other way around, a Kidnapping.' Your brows furrowed. "Could be a possibility, like what happened on the rooftop with the other deviant the RK 800 took down, or the man could be abusive too; something is up with that man; you could also tell he was high, right?" 'Who wouldn't? That man looks like a fucked up scarecrow who has overwhelming diabetes; he definitely lied to the police and didn't want them to know anything about the truth."

"Well.." You sat your coffee down, your arms soon hugging your knees as you smiled, your head turning to Venom. "We'll know tomorrow, won't we?" *Knock* *Knock* Freezing in Place, Venom turned to face the door as you looked.

Confused, he turned back to you. "Expecting someone?" Your head shook. "No, I didn’t order anything from Amazon, nor did I give anyone my address back at the station..." Venom hummed again. "Let's check it out; it could be our neighbor, though I must go inside of you for safety measures; it could be someone dangerous." Nodding, you let Venom go back inside your back, hopping up from your seat as you made your way to the door, slowly but cautiously. Getting close enough, you didn't stand fully in the doorway, but your back hit the wall as you looked toward the doors. "Who's there?!"No answer. Confused, you looked around your living room, looking at your windows as you see no shadows or sense no more than one other person here. "I know there's someone here! If you talk, then I can help in some way!!! Are you dangerous?! Did you come to kill me?!" Silence arose again, which weirded you out. Who would knock into your door at freaking 1 am in the morning? Who in the hell is even up at this time anyway? It’s weird, You didn't like it, as you expected the person at the front door to answer you by now, or to burst open to shoot you or to stab you to death. ‘Open the door; if the man jumps you, I'll slice his head off.' Nodding, your hand grasped the handle door in front of you, your arm slowly opening your door as one of your eyes peaked out, looking all over your front porch. Not seeing anything too dangerous, your eyes glanced down, a small gasp soon escaping your mouth as your arm swung the door open, revealing an unpleasant surprise.

A male body, a handsome one at that, was lying flat on your doorstep, his clothes ripped and his body beaten.

His skin was a dark shade, his hair shaved as the cloak covering his head was down, the cloth blowing with the wild storm.

Kneeling down to his level quickly, Venom popped out of your back, soon attaching himself to the male. 'Hmm...this guy's an idiot for being in a storm like this...' "Shut up, Venom, he might not have had anywhere else to go...don't you see how damaged he is?" "Yeah, but I can also see how not human he is; this guy is an android Y/n, you can tell by the blue blood surrounding him' Venom was right; it was an android, as the gashes and wounds along his skin showed metal parts, and also wiring clearly.

The male was clearly passed out, some of his body parts lost and on a hanging point as they were about to fall. You were surprised he wasn't shut down with the amount of blue blood loss, as the liquid covered your entire front porch. "We need to bring him inside, we don’t know how long he has left.

‘His parts and shit are all ducking mixed up, he has two different colored eyes, his legs aren’t even apart of his model, it’s like he is mixed up with different fucking robots.’ Brows furrowing, you gave him a good look, as you wanted to find any clues of who, and what model he is. But, when you were searching every inch of him, your eyes widened again when you saw a Gun shot hole, right where his core should be. “Holy shit..” you muttered, Venom forming a face. “

“What did you find?”

“He got shot, Venom, and the size of the bullet is part of a Glock, which is what The police use on duty….” You explained, ripping off the clothing at the area, as it revealed a more gruesome wound than expected. Venom floated over the wound area, analyzing it more deeply.

“Idiot must have been at the wrong place at the wrong time, if he got shot, how in the hell he was able to make it all the way over here, don’t they take broken androids to the dump?”

Sighing, your head shook. “I don’t know, we won’t know more if we don’t get him inside; I’ll get my toolbox; Venom just bring him to my couch and shut the door, making sure no one is near or watching us.”

“On it.”

Venom formed into his human form, soon lifting Markus up, as both of you headed inside.

Setting him on the couch, you ran upstairs to grab your android repair kit. Your so glad you have prepared this thing early, it surely is needed now and will be needed in future just case something like this ever have happens. He was in brutal Condition, Venom sensing many beatings and bruises all done by humans.

He can tell by the shape, even the crappy accuracy of the bullet wound just barely hitting his component.

Investigating Markus further, he noticed some kick marks, not fresh, probably happened a week ago. Overall, he couldn’t pick up anything else as he sighed, grabbing some pillows from the other couch. Lifting him up slightly, he put a pillow under his head, his hands soon taking the ripped up shirt from his body, tossing it into the trash.

Hearing the hurried footsteps from you, he looked as you went around the couch, the Android kit in your left hand.

Setting it down quickly, you grabbed a bottle of ibuprofen/ sleep medicine, as you handed it to Venom.

“We need to get the bullet out of his chest component, since he is a deviant, he will defiantly feel pain we need this operation to go smoothly and quietly, understood?” Venom nodded. “Noted, but there might be a slight chance we are to late, just remember that brat.”

Forcing Markus’s mouth open, he put the two pills in, pouring some water to make it go down.

After a couple of minutes until the meds kicked in, the procedure was about to begin, as your gloves hand grabbed a Scalpel, putting some sort of cleaner on the part you wanted to cut.

It basically wasn’t easy to get the bullet out, as it was in a very awkward part and position into his component, you worked basically 4 hours trying to fix him, and get the bullet out, as he surprisingly stayed asleep for that long

But, as the morning sun rose through the closed curtains, you successfully got the bullet out, and recently closed the wound.

“Yeah, I know, he’s resting now, the wounds were pretty bad, the bullet was in an awkward position-Mhm; sure, I’ll take him there if he ever wakes up, but he needs to recover, so it won’t be for awhile- like I said his wounds are pretty bad I don’t know when he will recover- you know what ok, I’ll keep you and Simon updated, but if he dies, then there’s no point in getting angry at me for it, bye.” Hanging up the phone, you sighed while Venom crossed his arms. "What did Dick's head want?" "As soon as this model wakes up, Josh wants him at Jericho and only Jericho. But we can't bring him until he recovers because his injuries are terrible; how is he holding up?" Venom sighed. "His Core is steady; we got the bullet out just in time before the tin can shut down; the bastard is a unique model of the robots; never seen multiple of his kind before. Kinda like the Rk800 bastard, we work with now, but he's not a police officer." You hummed with a reply. "Didn't Kamski tell us he made three unique separate androids?" "No, he said five, but we only found two; why is it so important we find all of them, if I can ask? We might not be able to turn all of them into deviancy. Like North requested." Sighing, you ran your hands through your hair. "I know...but...." You looked at him. "We need them on our side if we want freedom for all; you know how harsh we humans can get with abuse to others. I just don't want the world going to even more shit than it already has. Connor will be the hard one to crack, and if we don't be careful, he might shut us down instantly if he finds out too soon." Venom sat next to you on the open spot of the couch, propping his feet up on the newly clean coffee table. "That work is a pain in the ass; his questions annoyed me the instant he talked to you. Kamski, the bastard, knew what he was doing when he made the model more innovative, faster and could accomplish a case in under 2 hours. To think a human can do that is outrageous-" Your phone buzzed, interrupting Venom's sentence as you sighed, taking it right out of your pocket.

//////// 5g ||| 7:51 Am

Hank: Oi, got a case of theft over Camden; it could be an Android.

Sighing, you began to reply.

You: K, be right there; coffee for the grumpy man? 🍵☕

Hank: Haha, very funny, black with two sugars, make it quick or you're off the case, Miss FBI.

Closing your phone, you hopped to your feet. "Come on, we got a case over at Camden." Confused, Venom followed. "Who would want something to do with Piece of shit. It's like a Ghost town." Shrugging, you grabbed your coat as Venom went back into you, quickly changing you into your FBI disguise. "Don't know, but we know when we will get there; also, make the perfect cup of coffee for Hank...."

"We don't wanna get on his bad side even more."

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[period-dramallama]

Becoming Elizabeth: the autopsy

I just realised I never did a review of episode 8. Lol. Lmao even. This isn't an episode review but rather a discussion of the show upon rewatch.

Basically this is a show where the whole is not equal to the sum of its parts.

When I talk about the problems with the writing, I generally mean the narrative choices. The literal writing itself is good. Particularly for Tommy S, because those funny and witty/endearing lines explain his charm and why he is able to win over people and make them think he's a nice guy he's a funny guy he's a lovable rogue he's an adventurer. Tommy S does need to have some charm/charisma in order to be an effective villain. He can't go around being obviously evil.

There are still too many F words, but i was pleasantly surprised that there weren't as many as I remembered. And some F words I couldn't bear to part with: "The fuck is that?" And "what the fuck is wrong with you?!" In episode 5 for example.

I've seen some people say that the quality of the writing dropped in the episodes that aren't Anya Reiss but.... I think the quality of the writing was consistent. The iconic "I wish to take my c***ing bath" was not in an Anya episode, and neither was one of my favourite scenes in the whole show (yes it's the Dudley swordfighting training scene but it's an objectively good scene and not just because it's cute boys in fencing gear).

I initially thought episode 7 was my least favourite episode, but looking back there isn't really a good episode or a bad episode. Every episode has something I like and a bunch of stuff I'd change. If I had to pick 2 favourite episodes I'd pick 1 and 6. But because the problems are with narrative choices they're spread across the series. Even in episode 1, we have Elizabeth "I said at 9 i didn't want to marry so a lot would need to happen to change my mind" Tudor suddenly deciding she wants to marry a man she barely knows because hormones and they had a nice conversation one time. The rot set in quickly.

After the first four episodes I started skipping Mary and Tommy S scenes. I won't say any more on Katherine Parr because I've already said all I have to say on her characterisation. I did do some soul searching because I wondered if my dislike of her was subconscious internalised misogyny, given my affection for morally ambiguous male characters. But no, she really does lack both charm and depth.

So why is Becoming Elizabeth so narratively unsatisfying? Aside from Elizabeth being OOC, I think it's that the story feels like it's going around in circles.

Jane and Elizabeth clash. They make up. Then in episode 7 they fall out again. Mary and Edward fight, make up, fight, make up, fight again. Elizabeth realises Tommy S is dangerous, then she forgets, then she realises again. Mary scolds this character and they don't listen and then this character and they don't listen.

Yes character development isn't linear but it isn't circular either. It GOES somewhere. Setup and payoff are mutually reinforcing. It's fun to watch the setup because you know what's coming as a result of it. Payoff is fun because you saw how we got here. But it isn't satisfying to watch something that you know won't result in anything permanent. I don't feel anything watching Jane be tactless to Elizabeth in episode 1 because I know she'll be even MORE tactless in episode 7. And I don't feel anything seeing Elizabeth reach out the hand of friendship to Jane after the recital fiasco because I know in episode 7 they'll just fall out again. Whereas with Mary and Elizabeth they at least end the series with their relationship in a different place (hell).

And I have every sympathy with the writers because I'm up to my eyeballs at editing and I know what it's like to take historical events and try and make a plot and character arcs out of them. But the letter subplot and the Danish marriage subplot were largely fictional anyway. And they kinda went nowhere.

I understand that the showrunners wanted a complex villain in Tommy S. I get it. My favourite characters in this show are people capable of great love and also great harm. But to humanise him you only really needed that conversation with Elizabeth in episode 1 establishing his uncertainty and confusion, and the excellent "goshawk hatching out of a goose egg" scene with Jane. That establishes that he has the ability to be good he just chooses to be awful. So yes, the show really did give him too much screen time. He's not the main character, Elizabeth is! He should not have screen time comparable with her and her siblings! This wasn't supposed to be the Tommy S show! Nobody asked for that!

Gardiner is another problem IMHO. Setting aside the fact he's way too young to be the real Gardiner. He really shouldn't be here. He spent Edward's reign in the Tower. I know he shows up as a result of the fictional plots... so why write those fictional plots to the point you have to bring him in?? Cranmer IS important. You could have had Cranmer pushing Edward to be radical, Ed pushing him to be more lenient, and Daddy Dudley balancing the two. Voila, a dynamic!

And I get that Elizabeth wasn't doing much politically 1550-3 but you could still show her reacting and learning from events around her rather than warping Edward's reign completely out of shape AND making her a side character in her own story.

[pandasan-power]

Zeke is my favourite fictional character. He's just so... fascinating. He's initially presented as weird and mysterious but he turns out to be a giant dork and a huge loser with the most severe daddy issues I've ever seen.

I love him so much. Here's a very long ramble that's kinda sorta a character analysis (it's bad though).

He gives off Reddit mod energy (then again, Eren has Discord mod energy (disclaimer: I love Eren too)), has the sense of humour of a 12 year old, hangs around people who are quite a bit younger than him (granted, his only other option is creepy old military men), has smoked since he was probably like 15 and spends his life "pretending" to be stupid.

And yet he genuinely cares about other people in his own way. He really did just want to make it so that Eldians didn't have to suffer. He assumed that because he had a shit life and was treated terribly (as were his parents), everyone else was in the same boat. It never occured to him that other Eldians were happy, because, like, why would they be?

He's willing to go to the ends of the earth and beyond to fulfill his mission, which he's held on to since he was a teenager. Even though Ksaver did plant the seeds for Zeke, Zeke came up with his plan himself. Ksaver never mentioned anything about reproduction, just that the Founder could be used to alter Eldian biology.

He's devasted when Eren goes "lol jk bro" and betrays him, because he finally found someone he thought he could trust (his first mistake was trusting Eren of all people). He couldn't understand why Eren went against his plan, or what Eren was even trying to accomplish in the first place.

Also, I think it's worth mentioning that Zeke's euthanasia plan undermines everything Ymir Fritz went through. She suffered severely, but I like to imagine that she really did love her daughters to the best of her ability. Zeke saying that Eldians would be better off not existing in the first place and that he's going to get rid of them is telling Ymir Fritz that all her suffering was for absolutely fucking nothing. Whereas Eren wants Eldians to live on, because that way, Ymir can be freed, and she can see that there is beauty in the world (which she did via Mikasa, as badly explained as it was lol).

Zeke never saw that beauty. He was brainwashed and abused and taken advantage of his entire life. By his parents, by Marley (yes, even Ksaver), and, later, by Eren. To him, there was nothing redeeming about the world.

Hence his final line where he talks about what a lovely day it is and how nice/clear the sky is, but that it ultimately is too late to realise that (? I haven't read the chapter in a while, I don't remember the exact wording). That's him acknowledging that he was wrong about the world lacking beauty.

Yes, Ksaver did care for him and did love him, but he did also use Zeke for his own gain. He was projecting his son onto Zeke, as he said so himself in canon, and he was also hoping that Zeke could accomplish what he (Ksaver) wasn't able to. Zeke may not have been as determined to save the Eldians (in his own way) if he hadn't spent time with Ksaver.

Zeke and Eren are fascinating to me, because Eren threw away his humanity in order to save the world/his loved ones, yet was very upset that he had to do so (given his paths convo with Armin), yet Zeke... was stripped of most of his humanity before he had a chance to even embrace it. My personal interpretation is that he never realised he was lacking humanity (which is something Levi kept trying to point out, especially in the forest with reminding Zeke about his Rakago crime) because death and killing were so normalised to him (and to him, his enemies weren't human because they were mostly Eldians and he, as an Eldian, wasn't considered human -- or at least he may have used that as a justification for his actions), and it wasn't until the very end that it hit him.

Lastly, part of why I love the dynamic between Zeke and Levi is that they're two sides of the same coin. They're both admired and feared by people (for different reasons), are traumatised in every possible way, and are similar yet also very different.

When they're interacting, neither of them give a shit about the other's status or powers or whatever. They fight like equals on par with each other and don't hold back. Warchief Zeke? Captain Levi? Nope. They're just Zeke and Levi to each other. (And they'd be friends if they were on the same side, maybe.)

ANYWAY Zeke Yeager is a great character and I love my monkeyman so much. He had such good character development and his backstory is really well done. The "I love you, Zeke" paths scene is my favourite since in all of SnK just for how much that means for both Grisha and Zeke.

[worriedvision]

Omg I loved "his first love"! Can we get another part? Maybe one where all the other forest rangers are like giving nari the side eye knowing he was wrong but they don't wanna pass him off and get fired?

So I'm gonna do this as a set up of sorts lol, gender neutral reader. There's gonna be 2 endings (again wow).

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Everyone heard that argument he had with you. Well, it was mostly him shouting at you. He didn't think too much of it, in fact he still believed that you were only dating him so you could brag about being his. He didn't believe that you were genuinely interested in him.

He waits for you to approach him the next time, at first he's wanting you to apologise to him for taking advantage of how much he wanted to have that feeling of affection. He wasn't one to focus on relationships, and you were always the one who initiated stuff.

You don't approach him, why would you after he showed you a side that terrified you? You didn't dare approach him for anything, work related or not. When you thought of him, you did think of the happy times, but you'd always remember when he glared daggers into your vulnerable soul. The way he refused to believe that you truly loved him, it caught you off guard considering he was usually the most patient man.

The forest rangers notice you don't ask for help even when you needed it, and they'd come along to help you even if you didn't ask them. Tighnari doesn't say anything about it, he thought you were probably too embarrassed to approach him after he called you out.

But then one of the forest rangers that knew both of you decided to be bold.

"Apologise to them." They advise Tighnari. "Seriously, even if you two aren't together anymore, you still need to make things right."

Tighnari crosses his arms, his ears pointing down as he asks them why they thought he was the one to apologise.

"Did you think about what we heard?" The forest ranger decides to keep going. If they didn't say it, nobody would. "I want you to seriously sit and think about what you said in the heat of the moment. I want you to also consider if they would typically do that."

The forest ranger walks away, Tighnari taking a seat in his chair and clasping his hands together as he takes a moment to be objective.

He was the one who shouted at you, he was the one that accused you based on his insecurities, he was the one that scared you. He didn't register the fear in your eyes until now, how silent you fell when he turned to glare at you once more.

Now that he thought about it, you stopped talking to him completely, and it made him feel even more bitter inside. He was thankful the other forest rangers would go to assist you, but not once did you even consider getting him. He knew he was the best candidate for assisting in work related problems, but you didn't approach him. You didn't dare look in his direction.

He thinks back, once again, to when you ran out. That light sniffle that escaped you, and that one gasp that one of the forest rangers let out.

The other forest rangers didn't tell him off because of his position, he realised. The forest rangers almost seemed scared themselves despite not being involved. It was like he saw your fear in them as well, and it was only after the forest ranger ballsy enough to call him out that he was able to sit down and think of his actions.

He stands up, rubbing his eyes, before he starts to look for you.

[sizzlingpatrolfox]

Thank you for talking about mijoo cause I just went down a rabbit hole and it snapped me out of being delulu lol. I can't believe army and shippers really convinced us she was married, and now I'm finding out that was a lie and there was more to the story. Also while going through message boards I found out that allegedly, during the 97 liner scandal, they were at a club trying to hook up with girls in their vip room. Now I just feel silly for ever thinking jungkook could be queer 😅 like this man clearly has a type cause mijoo, nain, and chaewon all give off a similar vibe.

Do you believe the rumor about jimin and daeun? Like I was a bit skeptical, but I find it weird that she tries so hard to connect herself to him. It's giving obsessive ex

I've always thought he could be bi, but to believe that he's like GAY 100% gay is a bit too crazy. And I wonder if part of how hard some people push the gay label on him doesn't have to do with all the rumours.

Yes, the very first thing that came out about Jungkook that night of the club in 2020 was a french girl who said Jungkook had bought drinks for her and her friends at the club. If I recall correctly, she posted about it that same night.

I don't believe about Daeun, no. And there's nothing to really talk about because what I'm supposed to do... analyze a freaking carpet? Then there's the fact that ya'll talk about that woman but it's not even present time stuff, it's all allegedly about the past. I don't really know how to make myself understood, but I'll try.

I was talking about taekook once and said how I don't like going back in time to try and figure out something that happened years ago, and that's the same thing. I just can't be bothered to go back three years (in Jimin's life, we're not even talking about my own life) to try and find clues about it. As 2020, 2021, 2022 was going on, there was nothing I saw that would've led me to believe Jimin was in a relationship with her. In fact, 2020 he literally was spending every single day with Jungkook, it's still unclear if Jimin was spending more time in 911 or in the dorms, but they even slept in the same room with him.

After 2020, there was nothing, absolutely nothing in the following years where I thought Jimin could've been living with someone else. If I didn't see it back then I'm certain that I didn't see it because nothing was going on. So, ya'll are too late, even if it somehow it was true, ya'll are just too late.

If I talk about things that happened years ago it's because I was there, and I lived through it. It's not the same to what people are doing saying "see how Jimin was in a relationship in 2020 and we know it because she posted a photo in 2024?" It's too ridiculous. Next time, try to get the rumours as the relationship is still going and have at least one single photo of them in the same room. Otherwise, I just can't be bothered.

This is literally Jimin's first and only relationship rumour, ever, in 10 years. All of the other members have had the same type of rumours, some of them had several, and none of them turned out true or at least nobody could confirm it. I didn't care about those rumours either because same this same that was never "evidence" for me. Namjoon even laughed about it once, posting on instagram the headline and saying it was fake. I remember there was a dog involved, too.

So, that's pretty much it. I don't believe it because first, that's just not me, I don't think "same this" is proof of anything when there's not even proof that Jimin knows her or has even talked to her, ever. Second, because of who initiated the rumours and the timing, it's always conveniently brought up at very certain times. Lastly, because even if the taekookers detectives are right (because it's literally all them), it's too late. I'm not about to revisit history to try and fit something that I never saw and of which there's not proof enough for me to say that it actually happened.