#i dont have bpd just traits lol

[solunstell]

List of bsd headcanons

Dazai:

Has bpd. A lot of his traits remind me of my friends with it

He some kind of trans. Nonbinary. Transfem. Transmasc. Idk he's megender lmao

He's described as appearing very youthful in the first two light novels. I imagine that once the events of the main timeline start picking up though, with all the time stopping or slowing abilities that *dont affect him*, he actually ages faster than the other characters. I draw current dazai with small wrinkles, which also hints at stress and stuff

Also, I imagine current dazai getting tanner as he works in the light, as well as getting more prominent freckles.

Round/doe eyes because that is part of his appearance in my opinion. Seeming unsuspecting and innocent, especially during his mafia days

Bad eyesight in his right eye from being under the bandages for so long. Saw this headcanon and loved it

Similarly, beastzai has bad vision in general

I always call No Longer Human an anti-ability in my head, fun fact

He loves to touch other people. Not a fan of being touched by others unless asked

I draw him with red eyes in color, and usually black eyes in ink (inconsistent artstyle my beloved)

Aroace spectrum

heavy sleeper. Very

Chuuya

FRECKLES and tan from sheep days

He likes to be close to other people more than actually touching. Presence over contact

That shade of eyes that changes colors in the light (but I use a grey base lol)

Also some sort of trans, but in a different way than dazai

Brownish red hair. Not blazing, not just brown

That man is AUTISTIC

One time instinctively kicked a friend with his ability active, expecting them to dodge cuz he's used to dazai easily dodging. They did, but they were SO CLOSE to getting hit. Imagine a confused face like wtf why you try to kick me

Light sleeper, but every now and then sleeps like he just learned how to close his eyes

A lot of his jokes go over people's heads because they expect him to be serious and his voice just doesn't change between serious and not serious

Ranpo

Autism plus adhd ftw

Aroace spectrum

Poe

He/they vibes

Anxiety

Gay af

I can 100% see him being into knitting. Imagine the guide plus ranpo all in matching sweaters

Loves baking. Sooooo bad at it

Lucy

Bi (with a lean towards girlies) she/it

VERY good at baking

But she won't share :(

Atsushi

Anxiety, so much anxiety

Aroace spectrum vibes

Very easily idolizes people and then gets surprised when they actually like being around him

Akutagawa

Aroace spectrum

Autism cuz he is so mecore sometimes

Very trans vibes from me

(I like to imagine him having tourettes cuz I have tourettes and I am Not projecting)

Atsushi (special kitty hearing) and jouno being the only ones who can hear some of his tics. He will be horrified that anyone notices them

Wait no actually I'm gonna incorporate that into my belief system. That's canon now

Mori

Genuinely cares about a lot of his workers, but not all of them

He gives great bonuses for birthdays

He absolutely loves vtubers if bsd were in a modern setting. Rip mori. He'd have also loved vocaloid lmao

Ozaki

Masc energy. Fem energy. Ooh I can see ozaki with any pronouns and identity

Kinda person to accidently either overpack or underpack. Always has painkillers, never has a pen

Ridiculous memory. Incredible gift giver. Would get someone something months or years after overhearing them say they wanted something once

"Whyd you get me a hairdryer?"

"You said you needed one. I saw it and thought of you."

"...that was months ago. I got a hairdryer already."

"..." *takes hairdryer back* "sorry wrong person. I don't have my contacts in my bad"

She has perfect vision

Kunikida

Trans vibes. In any and every direction

Adhd af

Will always conveniently have room in his schedule when Aya wants to go do something and needs someone to go with her. No, he's TOTALLY not frantically writing and erasing things, get your glasses updated

You can usually count on him to continue the bit cuz he won't realize there is a bit occurring

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

not trying to b controversial but its wild how ppl will get diagnosed w bpd then act like its their get out of jail free card to treat everyone liek shit w no repercussions. quite the contrary lol once ur aware of it u gotta start taking responsibility for how u act cus thats the only way to cure it. like it IS cure-able or at least can be made manageable. idk why ppl get diagnozed then decide to make bpd-chan their whole personality yet still expect ppl to stick around... & im saying this from my own experience of getting diagnosed when i was 21. over the years i became very aware of how unhinged i was acting. started resisting my emotional impulses and changing how i behaved. went from having no friends & ruining every relationship within 3 months to having real solid bonds with good people who r still in my life now 5 yrs later. most of whom r also recovering from bpd. i hate those posts that are like "everyone deserves friends🤍no mattr wat" sorry i think that kind of entitlement is deranged like u actually do have to treat ppl w compassion & kindness at the bare minimum or u probly wld benefit much more from doing some solitary work on urself b4 ur ready to be a real friend to anyone. just kno that it is possible to evolve, it wont happen over night but so many ppl i know have grown out of their bpd traits once they hit late 20s. i guess im trying to be encouraging like dont give up & resign urself to stagnating with this disorder.!

[plushipaws]

I don't think im meant to host. Once our system found alastor (and kinda rebuilt him from the three alters he split into) he has been fronting most of the time and it felt natrual. I became his advisor the way other alters are usually mine. A lot of childhood memories are his. Sometimes hosts do just change over time but as soon as he started doing it again it was like. Oh thank god this is how it was meant to be.

I do think I have existed a long time and fronted even as a child but I think it was mostly him and I would advise him from the back seat the way many alters have done to me later. I think I was created for the advisor role and just had to become the host bc Alastor has very strong NPD and BPD traits (so i beleive whole system is NPD and BPD) that I was good at masking and we had to mask it. I think thats why plushi especially is kinda entirely preoccupied with being cute, non threatening, friendly, and not having needs of its own and existing to always be happy. Creature is focused on being a empathetic listener, helpful and solve peoples problems, and holding depression. We always felt like... kind of empty like, something missing, we should have more personality. I think we are smaller fragments and more specific role focused than we thought, oriented to survive abuse situations. We felt missing a person who we should be, and I think that was us subconsciously missing Alastor hosting.

Trauma caused Alastor him to split into more alters (he still is not a fusion of everyone he was but I think the others are ok being seperate and he likes how he is now) so we couldnt really find him until healing allow him to come together again, and the situation is safe enough I dont need to protect him anymore. We also accept our NPD and BPD and know how to cope with it enough to let him out and allow him to express symptoms in healthy ways.

Im still an active alter and will be around, though the two alters I am (i am a subsystem) switch who is awake more and my personality shifts depending on that, and its not been super plushi lately so it feels weird having this be our main, lol. But plushi will definitely be back, it was a lot of fun being paw and I know paw is still here. Just weird to go from plushi hosting to. There hasnt been a plushi around these parts in 30 days :0

We hope our friends and mutuals will like Alastor too since he will be fronting mostly and we will be around less as we switch to him hosting. He doesn't act quite like me though since I exist basically to hide him so if you don't we understand; he is a lot more openly narcissistic and low empathy which we know not everyone vibes with. (Hes also very openly flirty and kinky which may also put folks off but he understands boundaries and is Normal about them). Though we think we will be a prominent alter and still avalible often, but we don't want to host anymore. We did it for years and we weren't supposed to have to.

Don't worry we aren't going anywhere! We still front often but it used to be like... us usually and then maybe for 3 days tops another alter comes before defaulting to us, and now we may come for three days tops and default to Alastor. And my system members can post and talk online when awake even if not fronting. But Alastor's blog is definitely the most active hub for us rn.

Alastor is @radiostaticsmile

Thanks for reading

[an-unholy-devotion-and-desire]

💘 call me Roman, Fiifi , Afia or Cupid ~ !! 💘

💫 she / he / fae / mink + any 💫 Alter/Part - Co-host of a system !

HOWDY! - im an alter n co-host 4 our system @infin8drip (main blog) - im a cherubim + succubus hybrid but i dont rly claim my more "corrupted" side of the spectrum or wtvr, im jus a zesty rebellious stupid ho LMAO (lightheartedly half jokin). i do have shiftable forms that more "simpler" 4 others in the headspace, typically i look like this :p (warnin, this is the host old art n it's an old ass "selfies" of me in the middle, i will update the this lol also i typically like messin around w/ my hair. )

- (ALL art by this sytem) - tw warnin 4 the n slur up ahead on the 3rd pic (i can reclaim it.)

- i'm an OCtive + Mixoject of multiple sources! ( sources; The other host OC, Cupid, Angels, Cherubim (Media & biblical accurate), Lola Bunny , Minerva Mink) - My system job resume includes: internal self helper, sexual protector, ADHD, BPD, NPD, OCPD, hypersexual symptom holder - i'm mentally (i say 'mentally' bc truely i'm ageless but im an adult) early 30 yr old, in a 25yr old body ✌🏾 how do u do c: - I am nonhuman and may interact with nonhuman/alterhuman posts! i identify as ! : - pangenderfaer - Etherio/Etho/nonhuman boy - pan gaybian, - stemmetwink !(mostly femme) - turigirl ! - i'm wlw, wlm , mlm, nblm , nblw , nblnb !! - i'm partnered x10 /r & /qpr <3 ; by members in our/my system, n' our/my 2 system partners, so pls don't be fuckin weird ! c:

body wise also:

. - parent . - blk/indigenous (afro american geechee + blackfoot cherokee/creek/seminole) . - anemic . - intersex . - transneumasc GNC FTM Maverique Cusper + QueerHet . - IC-DID . - Cluster B / Cluster C . - got zat ✨ AuDHD ✨ . - ✨ OCD Spectrum ✨ . - pullin up w ✨ psychotic + cluster a traits ✨ dancin w/ an ED

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BYF: - I reclaim the slurs/terms: nigga, retard, dyke, bulldyke, fag, sambo - speak in aave / ebonics unintentionally and intentionally. -I am a full time parent along side my partners, part time worker (soon will be attending college), trying to get support my partners/family out of a tough spot, so I'm always busy or stressed in some form. -Unless youre close to me and/or partners, do not call me "sis" or "shawty" even jokingly. that goes for the whole collective :/ THIS BLOG IS 18+ this is a no minor zone 4 my comfortability here! I block ageless blogs n anyone i think is weird or off puttin 4 me. Me n the block button r the realest definition of "bros b4 hoes" frfr

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[a-sip-of-milo]

saw your post about good traits for a therapist to have and that youve found a good one, and i just wanted to say congrats and that ive also found one!

had a therapist for 11 years who i now realize had every red flag ever, but she was nice and my first long term therapist so i didnt realize that at the time. she ghosted me once i got a bpd diagnosis lol.

went through several that were even worse, and now ive finally found a great one!! shes also a trauma survivor and chronically ill like me, which helps a lot. we dont talk about her stuff in my sessions or anything, its just been very briefly mentioned as a way to say like, "i get how this feels and im not gonna judge you."

ive seen her a handful of times now and have just been forming a good therapist-patient relationship and learning to trust her. she asked me what kinds of therapy have helped and what i prefer to do or want to try.

im a system and i asked if i could give her some info about my headmates, since it will obviously come up at some point. she highly encouraged it and said she wants to get to know any of us that wanna participate! im making some like, lil ID card things for each headmate with a drawing and a little blurb about their personality and vibes, and im gonna make em into a slideshow or powerpoint or something!

im sorry for the wall of text, im just excited and wanted to share :)

Don't apologise, this genuinely excited me to hear!! your therapist sounds absolutely wonderful. i'm glad you've finally found one who suits you 💞

unfortunately, therapists like the ones you've mentioned above are far too common. i'm sorry you had to go through so many to find the one you're currently with. i had to do the same. The person I'm currently seeing is my fifth or sixth specialist!

[mirroringshards]

Ok so my therapist says i have like most/all of the main identifying factors and symptoms for bpd and ive researched for months about it and im pretty damn sure i have bpd but he (the therapist) told me because im not in the most common age group for getting a diagnosis, hes not going to diagnose me or help me with my symptoms. At this point can i say i have bpd or would i be considered faking it like i dont wanna self diagnose and i am kinda scared i might just be imagining all my symptoms and like theyre not really what im feeling or something so idk.. Like wouldnt i know for sure if i had bpd?? Also do you have any general advice for coping and then also (sorry for so much text) can we maybe be mutuals like follow each other and help each other out idk you dont have to lol i know all of this is a lot and im sorry TvT

no worries no worries!!

yeah alot of people wont diagnose minors lol, even though ive seen alot of minors with bpd. you most likely do have it, its called being medically recognized i believe. therapist knows you have it but cannot diagnose you because of your age or cannot diagnose you in general for any reason. id say its okay for you to say you have bpd, but if youre not comfortable with that "bpd traits" is also a perfectly fine label too.

[pinkisopod]

24 25 🙂

arya youre so fucking real for sending LOL

What is an alternative life path your OC might have gone down? How different would their life be if they'd made those decisions?

now i get to answer for all four of them <3 theres more but the four i posted about lol

sav - would be a farmer in india if his village hadnt been decimated. he would have developed an interest in plants regardless but it would be more tame. dunno if hed be trans still but probably? would not have transitioned tho. probably wouldnt have learned to read but its not absolutely impossible

ode - unlike my other three, she lacks a significant life defining incident. she was born into this street circus and stayed in it and eventually moved upwards enough to accrue power in the mob world. its the 'ideal' trajectory i guess. i think she really lucked out finding sav tho. she probably would have otherwise gotten so attached to someone who would have taken advantage of her and abused her :c

ananke - dont really know for sure what would have happened had he not been trafficked since it literally happened as a goddamn embryo. he doesnt know this but he comes from a black family in the equivalent of liverpool so he would have grown up in a tight knit community. he would have a hard time due to being a little autistic but i think he would have found a somewhat honest life (whatever that means in this world). worked in some kind of store im feeling pawn shop for some reason

rosie - so if she had not been kidnapped and chimera’d, she’d been one miserable princess (not sure if that’s still gonna be her title) forced to marry one of the royals of england. she understands the importance of this and would not have complained publicly but she would be soooo sad :/ she’s my little baby butch lesbian.

What is your favorite thing about your OC?

so a lot of these characters are traits i adore cherrypicked from preexisting characters that have disppointed me LOLLLLLL this amuses me so ill answer in terms of this

sav - tgs jekyll's extreme compartmentalization of his emotions even pre-potion. sav can come off as really cold cause of this but hes more just wary of vulnerability and socially awkward. i love this fucking trait so much man

odetta - UMMMM shes my clasic bpd-coded gal . asuka - eva (monster) - pariston - mariko you know the drill. all time favorite trope probably Lol

ananke - so i make a lot of mean characters but thats cause i just find it so fun to figure out why they are so mean. ananke isnt really mean but he can be nastier than youd expect... and i like that. he's resentful of his circumstances but redirects that anger away from the source of his problems. hes honestly such a nice guy tho generally speaking sorry ananke :( also hes inspired a little by izutsumi, al from fmab, but MOSTLY sans + papyrus from the handplate comic .

rosie - straight up marie antoinette and oscar from rose of versailles combined but in a way that doesnt piss me off so much. shes a little like rapunzel + h+c pariston as well <3 sheltered child with an enormous burden that she only later realizes isnt a good cause at all and certainly not worth destroying her life over. also i just love wings and flying and shes got WINGS and flies

[drifloonz]

💜hai! i'm wispy among other names.

🪀he/they primarily. | am 18 babey !! | pokemon has been my special interest since i was small. im autistic but rlly what pokemon fan isnt /hj.

my requests aren't closed but do understand i dont reply to them that often bc i have executive dysfunction. i do see them and plan to. eventually hopefully, but don't expect anything 100%

Im Really Autistic about Steven. my interpretation is very personal to me. obviously i write headcanons and x readers and he mostly draws from canon or canon implications, but do understand he is very personal to me.

he helped me thru a lot of bad times and i selfship w him etc etc but i am here to give people Food and things to chew on w him ... and sometimes other characters.

character masterlist | im updating this later probably with things like rules or boundaries but basically don't be a freak or a pr/shitter.

canon pokemon characters that arent like idk red/blue/rosa/the protags bc theyre easy to write, etc Are harder for me to write but i can write anything and anyone if i lock in enough.

i write things for pokemon/pokepasta! all headcanons and writing posts where the reader is inserted are gender-neutral by default unless said otherwise.

hello! this is my pokemon/pokepasta ( mainly pokepasta bc im fixated rn ) sideblog where i may write and draw. feel free to send requests ( mainly for writing i do not draw shit for free unless i rlly feel like it but u can still try ig ) . i looove steven strangled red he is my bbygirl. glitchy red as well. the sillies. mostly, the hyplull interps of them. i can and will write things up for them ( imagines, x readers possibly bc i am a little fruity, and gay, among other things! just ask . ) .

this also extends to the other hyplull characters just to a lesser degree . i may read up on it / actually watch the associated game if i get requests 4 the others i know less abt ( eg lost silver ) lol . i may be able to write for the ones i know less abt but it may take me a while cuz' i'll have to read up on them! i know the basic Gists abt most of them tho.

🕯 writing will be under #wispy-writes and art will be under #wispy-doodles . textposts r just wispy chatters as seen From this post. this is mostly for my own future reference lol.

🎠 please please pleaaase send me requests or questions or headcanons in my askbox i wont bite ( i will )

i will sometimes reblog those posts tht r like "send an ask in for the blog owner to answer a specific question" . as long as you link the post ( if its far back ) i Will answer those bc i love those. mostly will reblog writing and character based ones :3

i can and will write nsfw but only for characters that are over 18, obviously . ( mainly steven. and glitchy. and red ( the older version in like alola, obv ). bc im biased for those 3 particularly. steven/glitchy being based on the hyplull mod where They are 18/over. i won't write for nsfw of red or steven in timeperiods where they're implied or canonically underage, like steven before the accident or red during his og journey or on mt silver or w/e ). i'll probably block minors who int with the posts so apologies in advance for that. these will be tagged properly and have the mature content thingy on

i don't like the concept of y/nderes bc they're a demonization and hyperbolization of bpd, which i have, but i like writing possessiveness and other traits that those 'interpretations' have, which is similar but without the hyperbolization and gross fetishization or murder ( usually ) . so just say like. possessive / easily jealous [ character ] instead of y/ndere Please.

ok thank you :] plz have fun.

[ also ofc, prosh/tters, t/rfs, bigots, etc, dni! ]

[pinkopalina]

🧠

me when I hit every trait on the autistic adult women signs article (https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/women-autism-spectrum-disorder/202104/10-key-signs-autism-in-women%3famp) and then I realize maybe my bpd breakdowns are actually autistic meltdowns and that's why I use social checklists when interacting with people and if I don't hit them I think they MUST like me one minute and not the next (I mean I'm still sure I have bpd also but the comorbidity alone) and also eye contact is an extremely difficult challenge for me that I have to force myself to get better at every single day (I can't even look my gf in the eye sometimes) and I have a million jigglypuffs and cute figurines of peach and cadance because I'm obsessive with my interests and why I'm so anxious and depressed and lonely cause the masking is hard and I don't understand why all my effort doesnt change my reaults and then I'm so emotionally dysregulated and that can definitely be an autism thing too and why certain sensory things make me unreasonably angry and disgusted (people kissing [if I'm not doing it lol] and animals licking themselves enrages me to an irrational extent) and also I have to let go of micromanaging and making everyone do something my way cause it's not the right way or how it's supposed to go AND I HAVE NO EXECUTIVE FUNCTION AND THAT GETS MISDIAGNOSED AS ADHD AND I STIM ALL THE TIME AND LIKE!!!!!!!!!!! AND THEN THE WAY I TALK IS VERY CLEAR BECAUSE I USE CERTAIN WORDS BECAUSE MY MESSAGE HAS TO BE LITERAL AND CORRECT AND PEOPLE THINK IM BEING MEAN OR CONDESCENDING BUT I JUST DONT WANT YOU TO MISTAKE WHAT IM SAYING AMD I KNOW ITS ANNOYING BECAUSE IT MEANS I TALK TOO FUCKING MUCH BUT I AM NOT A COOL NEUROTYPICAL WHO JUST KNOWS WHAT TO SAY!!! AND I GET SARCASM AND JOKES I DO I MAKE EM ALL THE TIME BUT IM SO FUCKING GULLIBLE I BELIEVE ALMOST ANYTHING IF SOMEONE TELLS ME ANYTHING!!! AND JUST!!!!

THE MELTDOWNS!!!! THE CONSTANT MELTDOWNS!!!!! THATS IT RIGHT THERE THATS THE SHINY PONYTA THAT CLUED ME IN!!!!

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GET ME A DIAGNOSIS

[elytrafemme]

actually im going 2 rephrase. im not against self diagnosis & im happy if my experiences can help other ppl figure things out & im sure im a hypocrite bc even my BPD thing is like... well u werent given a questionnaire and diagnosed professionally so none of the other stuff that went into this realization both on my and my therapists end matters. so its like im sure ppl think that im faking this too and by God i am scared that IM faking this lol. 

but what i just get. upset by ig is like... i think bc im in the same shoes but like. sometimes u read info abt mental health disorders & the info is online and meant 2 distill the experience down to be easily understood and ppl are like ok! This Applies To Me bc ultimately every disorder at its basis relates to some kind of human experience it just gets amplified thats all the controversy with the dsm5 etc etc

and i know bc i did that! when i was trying to figure out what was wrong w me (and repressing any part of me that thought it was BPD) i looked into disorders and went Oh Shit Thats Me bc i wasnt looking at testimonials or actual diagnostic info or studies yet i was like. well this summarized version (still from a reputable source or primary source. thats important these arent like random ass websites right) makes sense to Me. i did this with bipolar because i knew i had depressive episodes and i kenw i had periodic hypomanic (which i think at this point is below hypomanic but still some sort of psychological manic response, its complicated i can explain if anyone cares etc) so i was like this is probably it! but when i actually figured out ok how does bipolar affect ppls lives how does it manifest across a WIDE sample i was like oh, no. this doesn’t really make sense at all. 

and when u further deconstruct disorders as like... theres so much overlap and sometimes the traits that could be explained by X disorder are better explained by Y disorder bc to an extent these labels are ‘arbitrary’ (not the right word but u get it), you realize like ok. what im worried about IS valid but these arent the explanations. 

this is all to say that i get it and im not upset at ppl for being in different stages of realizing that. 

i think what upsets me is when i try to articulate 2 people like. here’s my experience w/ this right and its like, already so so hard to articulate bc  how do i capture this in a way that doesnt raise alarm but is inherently alarming but without that element of risk it just sounds too abstract? it sounds very much non maladaptive when i try to take out the parts that are really really bad so even trying to explain why i act the way i act is extremely vulnerable. and then bc i cant explain it ppl are like “oh omg i do that too” or they do the far less favored “girl that’s normal” which ppl, actually do say to me.

and i dont like this idea of ‘trauma olympics’ or comparison or whatever but i do think to an extent its important to emphasize that like... a lot of symptoms are really intense versions of what a person may everyday experience heres a BPD related example right. everyone has had times where they are irrationally hating a close friend of theirs. ESPEC if that relationship is already complicated . so whenever i talk about splitting ppl are like no no thats normal or Oh yeah i get it.

but splitting isnt “i have a complex dynamic w a person i have heavy emotional investment with therefore sometimes i really hate them” and splitting isnt “me and my friend have this underlying tension and now i kind of want them dead”. splitting for me is like... i would throw away my entire future for someone bc there is no no way that anything they want could be morally wrong. and then in the next moment i am CONVINCED i have to kill them because they are immoral and deserve to be hunted down because they are manipulative and vile and abusive. and its the same person and this could be an ENTIRE fucking stranger, ive done this with ppl ive known for like. a total of an hour. 

so its not like im trying to tell people like no you dont have BPD no you dont split etc. but its hard to say like. you dont get it. bc that makes people want to duouble down right!

but sometimes ppl dont get it. and it sucks bc i feel like im at a place where i HAVE to explain whats going on with me (tho ive resisted telling some ppl thank God) but whenever i do i regret it bc they very clearly do not get it and they’re trying but they like. make jokes about me being “actually a horrible person” or talk about how i need medication and its like. if you listened you would remember why i cant do that but at this point i dont think u listened i think the words went to your ears and you forgot what they all meant at all. 

[cum-villain]

me has a question

how do you assure and confirm a person with bpd that you are not abandoning them. you are just busy and have a lot going on of your own?

i just want them to be secure in the fact that i love them and never in a billion years, for anything, ever even think about leaving them. but idk how.

well, first i'll disclaim that since people with bpd (pwbpd) arent a monolith, what i may say may be absolute garbage advice for you. i'm just saying this from the perspective of a guy with bpd, and everyone experiences it differently. hell, in the dsm-5, diagnosis requires having 5 out of 9 possible symptoms, so two people with bpd can only share one of those traits and still both have bpd. so, yeah.

but with all that aside, i think just plain communication is usually the best thing. just explain you get busy, still love this person, and that it has nothing to do with them, its only your own busy schedule. this can lead to a couple responses: acceptance you're busy, which is ideal, or possible anger or betrayal you didnt make time for them.

in that case, try and reassure the person that you still love them, and maybe make a plan together to see if its possible for you to be less busy in the future. if there is no possible plan, that person will see that you dont have a choice to be busy. if there is a plan, that person will see you're making an effort to be with them. and regardless of whether it works out, the fact that you spent time together to figure out how to make things work is helpful in its own right. of course, i dont know how busy you are or if you have the time to even do that, but if its at all possible to have that time, i highly suggest this.

also, with bpd, even if you're told "hey im busy but still love you" on day one, by day 4 you may start thinking "hey what if that was just a lie so they can spend time doing other things and abandon me." so, try to remind the person you love them daily, even if its just sending a cute cat and hearts meme. may not work depending on the severity of the person's bpd, but getting sent a cute meme thats only barely consoles you is far better then radio silence.

all in all, its about reminding the person that you love them, and trying your best to not leave them alone for too long without a clear reason they can see. bpd is a bitch, so even if the person logically understands how busy you are, emotionally they still may need the other things i mentioned. the main thing is that its really great you're trying to help this person with their bpd, just knowing you're doing your best to help them fight their bpd will probably be helpful.

and, obviously, don't try and talk about big plans when the person is splitting. but im pretty sure thats obvious. just thought i'd say it anyway lol.

[badbrainblurbs]

i think the current look at pds esp as rep by the dsm5 is rather wonky i think icd-11 is better but needs more depth and explanation to an extent but anyways th general consensus seems to be that bpd and schizoid are not comorbid™ and are opposites which is interesting bc bpd n avpd are comorbid n avpd n schizoid are comorbid so like lol? but i meet min. criteria for all but i feel like my the schizoid traits can be explained away by introversion and the avoidant by social anxiety. i feel like I've always preferred being alone and have little interest in forming friends usually nor do i really understand like why or how n why or how others are interested in interactions. I've had flat or blunted affect and dont really display emotions since a kid yet in certain settings depending on comfort level i do or am able to so i think the flat affect is to a certain level masking tho not always and when it's masking i think it cld be linked to the avpd and anxiety bc im scared of being awkward and judged. im fine being alone bc i feel most comfy n don't hv to deal with outside pressure i can just be myself yet the bpd traits kick in where im not sure who that self is so like yh im alone n it feels good but who am i do i even really like being alone idk. when im arnd others sometimes i become painfully aware of my aloneness and ostracization and i wish i cld connect with ppl but i always resort to thinking but no one wld want to interact with me anyways and also u hv nothing to talk abt ur so boring n yk general avpd perceived incompetencies narrative. there's also the bpd fears of ppl leaving but also of becoming attached which is embarrassing and stressful being in tht so involved state of mind caring so much the instability based on the person's interactions with me the splitting im also more of a quiet bpd which i think may link to the shizoid flat effect so the bpd inner turmoil drives me crazy bc no one understands that all of that is going on inside while i try to maintain being normal with the other person. im extremely sensitive since a kid n have rapid short lived mood n emotional changes but again most of that is internal. my most push pull fear of abandonment bpd traits occur when i let someone in ive actually nvr made a friend myself im always been befriend but yh if someone continues to show repeated interest eventually the distrust minimizes enough and they pass the avpd im sure i will be liked requirement n i let them in n soon the bpd attachment patterns kick in. i sometimes also idealise familiar strangers creating a narrative of them in my head sometimes wishing i cld actually speak to them or not but rarely ever doing so and when i hv the idealisation breaks n turns to devaluation bc they are ofc nothing like the months worth of characterization ive made abt them in my head. dissociation is also a problem for me which is schizoid n bpd overlap in particular. once im not in an attachment n in an isolated state with no friends or frequent connections the schizoid mindset dominates so i wonder if it isn't to an extent developed to combat the avpd n bpd longing for connection by putting up a front. the bpd ppl related symptoms also ease since the trigger ppl is missing but if i do have to interact with ppl like in school the avpd traits are strong. just in personal experience i do think they can also coexist unless i am misunderstanding something

[hauntedselves]

personal post about questioning NPD traits vs full disorder; behind a cut so you don’t have to read it if you’re only here for info posts

i’ve considered myself to have NPD traits for a while now, but im beginning to wonder if i have full on NPD?

i do this thing i call "selfish selflessness" where i do nice things for people but its so i will be appreciated, i will be the favourite child/friend/etc , i will be the most loving (and therefore the most loved...) -- im doing nice things for others for me, not for them, even though they think its for them (and i let them think that).

i posted that ^ in a NPD discord (shoutout to @.npdsafe & its server), and the reply was that its a Thing for people with low empathy.

out of the NPD criteria...

grandiosity - i was thinking that thing above might fit this? since i see myself as superior to people who don’t do nice things for people...?

fantasies of power/success/ideal love - do revenge fantasies count as power, and imagining your ideal life [of being an unemployed hermit on a small farm lol] as success? does “ideal” have to mean in a “this is what capitalist society sees as ideal” or can it be a personal ideal?

belief of being special/unique - well... yeah... in a “im special/unique because im [insert marginalised identity] and therefore should be treated differently/better” way? like, “i’m The Most Mentally Ill”..

requires admiration - ehh idk... does Needing [interaction with posts / comments on discord / positive or impressed reactions to my comments in conversations & so on] count?

sense of entitlement - see above

exploitative - yeah, but like i said above, it’s a hidden sort of exploitation where others think it benefits them too

lacks empathy - yep. no question there.

envious or believes others are envious of them - hmm no not really. i am envious in terms of like “i wish i was rich so i didnt have to struggle through life” or “i wish i had a caring partner like so-and-so” but i think that’s normal

arrogant - internally, yes, but not outwardly (thanks trauma)

+ fragile self-esteem & need others to boost it (check), but i’m not a perfectionist.

i also resonate with elinor greenberg’s “covert narcissist” NPD subtype, but i think a lot of that could be BPD + trauma. also, the NPD subreddit says that codependency is frequently mistaken for NPD (by codependents and vice versa) and yeah, i have a codependent trauma response (minus the empathy).

the dsm’s differential diagnoses for NPD are HPD & OCPD, which i definitely Do Not have, BPD (which i do have), & ASPD, which i think i have traits of, but i may be confusing it for low empathy + autistic “social norms? dont know her” + NPD traits.

so i’m not sure if i have NPD, or just BPD + autism’s low empathy + trauma... and i mean. i’m literally the least narcissistic person i know. so why do i resonate so much with NPD?

[unstablemotions]

Every psychiatrist suspects something different. Only psychiatric diagnosis in my medical papers so far is bipolar affective disorder, but here's a list of stuff psychiatrists have suspected:

(Sorry dunno how to make a "read more" on moblie hhhggggg so yeah sry for wall of text)

eupd impulsive type

anxiety (unsure if a separate diagnosis)

bpd

adhd

ptsd

stpd

psychotic traits of some sort

"fragmented/split personality" with different overt personality states

Newest one is the plurality one. Current team says i dont have a pd. They never decided if I had adhd tho and I really fucking think I do since my mom has it so in my genes and I struggle with things adhd ppl do but they just decided not to look into it further since my meds increased my already high blood pressure (I have a chronic kidney disease). It's infuriating since I had to drop out of uni due to a bunch of shit, but the inability to structure, manage time, socialise without rsd attacks, remember, concentrate, follow lectures, be patient, ect ect ect definitely were the reasons I had to drop out. Ofc the trauma, mood swings and like... general anxiety made it hard too... oh and dissociation... so much dissociation....

Just a personal rant since I dont have any support lmaoooo at least I have meds for my bipolar and they are very good and yummy mmmmmm we love not being depressed and manic :D

Whatever I'll shut up now lol hope the vibes are tolerable yall

[violentviolette]

hey, i wanted to ask if you know generally how someone with comorbid bpd, npd, and aspd would present their symptoms?

i have a hard time telling if i have aspd along with those 2 or just super promininent aspd traits. and, also, can someone with the 3 disorders still feel affective empathy but only when it comes to certain things in movies or really specific situations irl?

ignore this if it's a loaded question and you don't wanna answer, i understand if it is, lol.

but, yeah, i just want to be able to know my symptoms so i can try to work on it with my therapist the best i can, but i'm having a hard time finding things on aspd. (i'm 19 btw)

sorry again for the long ask, and feel free to delete this if you don't want to answer!

no worries anon ur all good!

I can't say exactly how someone would present, but I'd say its probably most likely that u either just have traits, or don't really have aspd at all

and I dont mean that as u aren't presenting with the symptoms of aspd or meeting criteria, just that if u already fully meet the criteria for bpd and npd than all the aspd is accounting for on its own is probably the lack of emotional empathy

which can happen in both bpd and npd. all trauma fucks with our emotional capacity for empathy, it happens very often in cptsd. and so a lack of empathy, or irregular empathy, or even selective empathy like u described (this is totally possible btw, affective empathy is a learned skill so its something that can always be applied no matter what disorders u may have) is really common for all cluster b disorders even tho for aspd its a defining feature

the difference is usually that the other 3 cluster b disorders can usually regain emotional empathy after a long enough time spent working on recovery, whereas with aspd that part of the brain is permanently stunted and we never regain that capacity

I'd say calling it traits with ur therapist would be totally fine, and exploring different coping strategies from there. but I'd also work on the bpd and npd most prominently because u might find that as u learn to manage and lessen those symptoms and deconstruct those disordered thought patterns that ur aspd symptoms also lessen and it might make it easier to kind of isolate specific feelings and better Id where theyre coming from to figure out what are going to be the lasting issues that stay with u longterm

[transsexualhamlet]

sherlock holmes reactions part 4 (?) ive lost count already but unsurprisingly ive grown even more attached to him

using this as the cover image because i made him a playlist. cause im awful

no legit this is gonna need a read more because it's SO LONG SHIHEWIESHEFSHIEWHF

Had three mental breakdowns this week and realized i do in fact kin sherlock motherfucking holmes. this does not bode well for anything in my life mentally I've diagnosed him with so many things

Oh boy lol you want the list I think hes autistic (undisputed honestly) plus also adhd but on top of that there's the manic depression and uhhh the bpd lmao I dont even think that's it those are just. the obvious ones

But yeah man's a fucking mess and a shit person but in the same way as me so 👍

Some highlights I thought were very funny:

watson: we are in fact going to be waltzing into a place where people are Shooting People you do not have your gun. this is a problem

sherlock: don't worry watson I have my trusty stick!

watson: visible pain

This clearly happens like every day or so with them

but yeah there were some really honestly sweet scenes with them at the apartment and why am i getting soft over the crusty man being gay

have you considered tho. have you considered them

have you considered sherlock, who usually only plays absolute garbage on his violin serenading watson to sleep when he was tired and in pain and watson being so fucking in love with the man and waxing poetic about falling asleep to his music and waking up to see him fallen asleep on the couch next to him and oh my god them

They're just really sweet together for such a completely dysfunctional couple so much of the time lol I just. Sherlock being like.

Sherlock half of the time: watson you're fucking stupid. no i won't take care of my personal needs stfu. watson get a goddamn life. watson shut up. watson no one cares about your goddamn opinion. no i need to disturb you in the middle of the night it's for science. hey watson mind if i manipulate mansplain malewife

Sherlock the other half of the time: HELLO SIR YOU ARE MY FAVORITE MAN TO EVER MAN HELLO MAY I SPEND THE REST OF MY DAYS WITH YOU HELLO I WILL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU WE ARE PERFECT MATCHES I LOVE YOU AND I NEED YOU YOURE SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME PLEASE MARRY ME

They're... they certainly are.

ALSO OH MY GOD.

THIS ONE TIME WHEN SHERLOCK WAS JUST PACING AROUND THE ROOM AT 3 AM GOING "IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE >:(((" AND HUDSON LIKE BARGED IN TO COMPLAIN AND THEN WATSON WAS LIKE DUDE YOU GOTTA STOP DOING THIS AND PROCEEDS TO SAY THE LINE "YOU ARE KNOCKING YOURSELF UP, OLD MAN"

BAHGHSFHGRHEWHEWHIFEW

BRB SOBBING

CALLING HIM AN OLD MAN???? KNOCKING HIMSELF UP?? I DONT KNOW WHATS FUNNIER

The main highlight of this part was I have now gotten to see him have a great time watching his homo homie get married

Its so fucking funny.......

I was prepared for a funny reaction by yuumori sherlock's face when he said it lol but. Damn i was really not prepared tbh

watson: I'm engaged!

sherlock: *pained groaning*

watson: do you... not like her?

sherlock: no she's fine she's great you'll be wonderful together bUT I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE ARE HETEROSEXUAL WATSON DO I HAVE TO MARRY MYSELF THEN WATSON? ARE YOU GOING TO MAKE ME MARRY MYSELF.

watson: yeah... yeah... fair, I feel really bad because you did this whole case and I got a girlfriend out of it and all you got was me leaving you alone fuck man im sorry what are you gonna do without me

sherlock, highly sarcastic: dont worry watson I've always got my handy cocaine! *pulls it out and gets high in front of watson just as he's about to leave*

watson: *in fucking agony*

sherlock: good for you!

I DONT EVEN- THIS SCENE KILLED ME MULTIPLE TIMES OVER WHAT

ITS SO GODDAMN NONCHELANT ABOUT IT SHERLOCK IS JUST LIKE YEAH I WILL IN FACT NOT BE MENTALLY HEALTHY IF YOU ARE NOT WITH ME 24/7 BUT WHATEVER YOU DO YOU /S

I'd like to apologize to watson on sherlock's behalf lmao. man is being a bit too codependent on main

The last thing about sign of four I do need to address is yeah, there's the Horrific Amounts Of Racism in that one and the whiplash hearing it is just ridiculous because they seem to be so knowledgeable in all other areas and fairly... politically correct, taking sherlock's original misogyny as a purposeful character flaw, but then they just mention someone indigenous once and suddenly its all parrotting racist propaganda and just... really awful shit. There's no way I'm gonna speak for the group that just got absolutely hate crimed here but anyone can tell the author just has no clue what he's fucking talking about and it's physically painful.

And I don't know, it's just so bad it seems out of character? Doyle's making these motherfuckers say shit that honestly, Sherlock would know better about. And especially Watson. Come on, you cannot tell me watson is mentally capable of being prejudiced against someone. Please do not make him that way.

I'm not sure how to handle it specifically, or what's the proper way I should handle something like that in a media I otherwise like. Is it ok to say Doyle was clearly a piece of shit on the matter and separate those characters from his bias or is that insensitive?

I don't know, I was Not a fan of it and I'm glad to see they've at least finally shut up about the guy

But anyway yeah, uhhhh onto the short stories because I'm trying to read those before I get to the final problem

Scandal in Bohemia was a fucking ride, first of all, before we even get to Sherlock's girlboss arc we have to discuss how gay the whole situation was and how Doyle's attempt at making them less gay failed spectacularly

Like he's all "ah yes I need to marry off watson and uhhh make sherlock ummmm interact with a woman so they dont look gay" but he does it SO BADLY that it makes them look EVEN GAYER

cause i mean, even the conversation they had about watson getting married back in sign of four was gay af, but how Doyle handled things afterward was in no way straighter.

Cause you know, the man kind of wrote himself into a corner with the fact of Watson narrating these stories. So Watson has to be around to witness them, and to witness Sherlock's own thought process rather privately, so he has to be around sherlock at night, a lot. But trying to come up with a reason for that happening just... it didn't occur to Doyle. He just went. Ah yes this makes sense. And it's Watson just like Sleeping Over At Sherlock's like every other goddamn day and every time his wife leaves town and having them basically still live that cute domestic home life but they have absolutely no excuses for doing it anymore. It's quite funny

Like it was gay already the way they interacted when they officially lived together but it was like, a necessity for them. Now it's not, Watson just comes over because he goddamn wants to, and it's hilarious to me.

LIKE IDK I THINK THEY KIND OF BROKE UP FOR A YEAR OR SO BC OF WATSON GETTING MARRIED AND THEY LIKE DONT HAVE CONTACT WITH ONE ANOTHER BUT ONE DAY WATSON JUST INEXPLICABLY HAS THE URGE TO COME VISIT SHERLOCK ON NO NOTICE AND THEN SUDDENLY THEY ARE TOGETHER NEAR 24/7 AGAIN LIKE BARELY ANYTHING CHANGED AHIEHOEWH

SIT DOWN AND TRY TO TELL ME THOSE ARE NOT HOMOSEXUALS

Watson walks in on no fucking notice after a full year and Sherlock is just. In the middle of some experiment obviously but hes like

Sherlock, carrying around unidenfiable chemical mixtures: W A T S O N you look good you look good! i see you've gained seven pounds!!

watson: uh. thanks??? Hey lol *awkwardly waves* Uh um Wanted to Uhm sEe you

Sherlock: ABOUT gODDAMN TIME AND YES WONDERFUL LOOK LOOK SIT DOWN I HAVE THINGS TO INFODUMP ABOUT

watson: :) ok :) *turns to camera* and we were back to the old days

sherlock: makes a deduction

watson: wowwwwwwwwwwww !! so true bestie !!

sherlock: !!!!!!!!! :))) !!!!! :))) uh fuck im supposed to be smooth Its Elementary Lol

watson: *turns to camera* when i stroke his ego like this and compliment him he blushes like a girl like i just complimented his dress so i do it more because he likes it. this is a homie trait

watson: well i should probably get going! my wife will notice that i am gone my dear buddy bro homie!

sherlock: NO DONT LEAVE IM LOST WITHOUT YOU (pretty much a direct quote lol) your. wife doesn't. get back home until monday. I know this because I am smart and definitely have not been stalking you.

watson: alright :)))))

AND THEN HE FUCKING SLEEPS OVER LMAO FUCKING HOMOS

So yeah they're right back where they were before pretty much and there's a case bc of course there is

And honestly I think this short story specifically was so insane mostly just because of how absolutely fast it all went. Yuumori kind of made me believe the original Irene Adler was more of an important character than she really is? And I think that's. Honestly so funny. Motherfucker shows up for ten pages, girlbosses her way around town, and changes sherlock's entire opinion of the female gender while still keeping him gay?

LIKE NO LOL SHES NOT IN ANY WAY A LOVE INTEREST AND WATSON GOES OUT OF HIS WAY TO SPECIFY THE FACT THAT IN NO WORLD WOULD THEY HAVE BEEN ROMANTICALLY INVOLVED BECAUSE. SHERLOCK. DIDN'T DATE WOMEN.

HE WAS JUST??? SO IMPRESSED AND SHELL SHOCKED BY HER EXISTENCE HE DECIDED IT WAS TIME FOR GIRLBOSS APPRECIATION DAY TODAY AND ALL DAYS HENCEFORTH???

AND THEY HAVE LIKE O N E INTERACTION?? God, the power this woman(?) has. Watson looks at her once like. damb shawty 😳 and she's like "no<3" and he's like FUCK

Like yeah it's pretty much just the king walking up like "help girl the whore is blackmailing me" and sherlock being like "ok lol this will be easy" and then it proceeded to not in fact be easy or even possible

sherlock like... posed as a dead body and tried to get her to give up the location of the photo but she out-acted him and skipped the town the next day after doing the 'good night mr. sherlock holmes' thing with sherlock completely tricked

and she just. sends a letter like "dear sherlock holmes. you're a fucking idiot and i think it's funny that you lost. nice job tho mad respect" and sherlock just SHORT CIRCUITS

the king comes back a bit later like "hey Dude where's my Photo" and sherlock's like oh yeah uhhhhhhhhhhh about that and the king is like HOW COULD IT POSSIBLY HAVE BEEN THAT GODDAMN HARD i would have dated someone more noble if she wasn't so pretty i swear im on a whole different level from her

and then. GIRLBOSSIFIED SHERLOCK HOLMES RESPONDS "from what I have seen of the lady, she seems indeed to be on a very different level from your majesty" ABSEHHESHEFHHFES ROASTED

and the dude just LEAVES

After that I read a few more of the short stories and well the highlights I got from that pretty much were these conversations

Watson: sherlock. honey. have you. eaten anything today

Sherlock: IT DIDNT OCCUR TO ME DEAR WATSON

Watson: ITS FIVE PM

and:

Sherlock: *having one of his Moment Moments at three in the goddamn mornig* GRRRR CRIME ISNT WHAT IT USED TO BE

Watson: MY DEAR SHERCOCK WHAT IS CRIME S U P P O S E D TO BE LIKE ACCORDING TO YOU

Sherlock: no one's original anymore fucking copycats

Watson: so you want the criminals to make things harder for you specifically.

Sherlock, exasperated: yes!

I love them your honor.