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thechy-fychannel · 2 months

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y'all ever think abt how it was julie having the affair and it is even said multiple times that she was the one who left him, yet wilson was still the one who left their home and moved in with house. like. he couldn't bear to stay in their home alone. he immediately ran to house and stayed on his couch for weeks. suffered through his pranks and his laziness and his manipulation. telling him he wants him gone while sabotaging his attempts to leave. and he only left once he got a girlfriend again.

#chyanne speaks #house md #hilson #hate crimes md #gregory house #james wilson #i think his inability to be alone is such an interesting quality of his that isnt touched on enough #like yes we all haha at his long string of unsuccessful relationships but we dont talk abt it all stemming from his inability to be alone #his first wife leaves him and then he remarried quickly #he cheats on the second wife and remarries quickly #the third wife cheats on him and leaves him and he immediately moves in with house #and then starts dating a patient and immediately moves in with her #but!!! then he moves into the hotel and is alone for like almost a year! and honestly he NEEDED IT #bc GROWTH happened in that year and he meets someone who doesn't fit his M.O. who breaks away from the mold #although he does immediately move in with her too but still. amber was different. she was the step in the right direction #and then she dies.#and then wilson throws himself into the left field. everything needs to change. he's spent so long fearing being alone.#so he tries to leave so he is completely and totally alone without house to fall back on #but house needs him. he needs him too much. they need each other too much.#and he falls back to house again. and he's content that way. he's always the most content when he's with house. always feels the least alone #and then sam comes back into his life and ruins e v e r y t h i n g #he falls right back onto those old patterns. kicks house out and moves her in. and then what happens??? of course??? she leaves him. again.#and then he's alone again and it hurts. he gets a cat that we only hear about twice and then never gets brought up again #but wilson has his kitty. he has house. he's not alone. he can be content.#and then house fucks everything up. he goes to prison. wilson is alone again.#im honestly SHOCKED that wilson didnt remarry in that year they were apart but he was rly trying to change!#he was working on himself and trying to make changed he thought would be good for him #and then house comes back. and house won't LET wilson be alone. he wont leave him alone.#and it's exactly what wilson has been yearning for since the day he drove that car into cuddys house #and in the end. as long as he had house that was all that mattered. as long as he had house he wasn't alone.

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skrunksthatwunk · 8 months

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thinking about how eiji's a pole vaulter and how ash talks about eiji "flying" and how eiji's associated with bird imagery and how eiji's free (unlike ash) and how eiji comes in on a plane and leaves on a plane and how ash cannot fly, ash cannot be free, how nyc is ash's prison, and how ash is the leopard who dies climbing the mountain, unable to live at such elevation, how he was trying to reach the sky and be free but was always stuck to the earth, how he chose to die instead of climbing back down, how he chose to die where he could see the sky and hope and freedom almost like a bird with eiji's letter right in front of him rather than letting everything go wrong and ruin it once again, how eiji's a failed pole vaulter anyway, how a bad fall ruined his career and grounded him (physically and emotionally), how it took flying to america and meeting ash and needing to save him and skip for him to try flying again, how he landed hard and harsh and still the thought of that escape compelled ash to protect eiji at all costs because if he could fly that means something to him, even if he doesn't think he can fly, how eiji is the manifestation of his hope and how when he breaks and asks eiji to stay with him a while he folds himself over his legs and weighs him down and traps him and grounds him, how ash fights like hell to keep eiji alive not because he thinks he can be like him (hopeful, flying, innocent), but because he makes him forget the gravity of his situation, and so he can see eiji fly again. how he wants to see him escape. how eiji is a bird and ash is a wildcat and how ash never once saw eiji as prey. how eiji never saw ash as a predator. how it is eiji's naivete that first endears ash to him, how it is his freedom and flight and removal from darkness and his ability to leave that darkness that really roots eiji in ash's blood as something essential to him keeping on living in this hell of nyc. how it is that distance from the violence and that hope for the future that ash chooses to surround himself in as he dies. how ash dies in a dream because he feels more than anything that he can't fly like eiji, that he can never leave. how his violence is a part of him and will be forever, how it weighs him down. how he wants to enjoy the view from the mountainside rather than looking up from the ground below. as if they can both fly. as if he is with him up there and not grounded. eye-to-eye with what he can't have, seeing eiji's homeland: the sky. how he dies trying to reach the top because he couldn't take retreating and trying again. how ash, tired and tired and tired and convinced it will go on forever if he crawls back down the mountain, chooses to close his life deluged in eiji, in eiji's insistence that they can fly together, in eiji's hope for him and for them, in eiji's beautiful dream. how ash dies without trying to realize that dream. how ash, in dying, destroys it.

#banana fish spoilers #I'M HAVING A FUCKING MOMENT #mutual reblogged exactly one (1) piece of ash fanart and sent me on A Multiple Hour Long Thing and now im rewatching it lol #yes i am only on episode 2 yes i am still going to write big long analysis posts ANYWAY #whatever hope this makes sense. anyway #banana fish #okumura eiji #ash lynx #asheiji #hhhhh i can't believe i've only watched this twice in like what 5.5 years?? sheesh #anywayyyyyyy i care about them a lot ok. god #and yes i DO kinda have beef with the decision to kill ash off at the end but it really does say so much About his character #that he chose to die in the way that he did even though he's been throwing his life away since episode 1 #dying in peace in comfort in solitude rather than in some chaotic battlefield.... ough...... in the peace eiji alone could give him.....#anywayss i relate to ash a little more than i should so. this one's for us cool guy bottoms up #edit i uh.... i forgot it was a leopard.... in the story..... but whatever it doesn't really affect the symbolic meaning it's just embarras #ing that i forgot >;/

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dangoulains-devotion · 7 months

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this room was built for one chair only,

i'm not empty, i'm just lonely

#arknights #muelsyse #arknights muelsyse #lone trail #my art #<- i am moonlight elegy on twt #anyway WHEW i went out of my comfort zone TWICE here...#i never draw backgrounds (you can tell) and i never draw flowers (you can tell)#but they're meant to be lilies... symbolising loneliness and sadness.... hehehe #i'll be honest i came out of lone trail like eh mumu's alright. not my favourite but i don't dislike her #and then she ends up being the first one i draw from the relevant characters. standing man emoji #i got insp for this while listening to ho'olheyak's theme too btw L O L #also i know there's details missing from her outfit but consider. deciphering and drawing arknights designs is sometimes a ball ache #gorgeous to look at. but don't make me do it or i'll scream and throw up

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blitheringmcgonagall · 9 months

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Canon James Potter on hearing his name is linked to two ships in ao3’s top 20 ships for 2023 (no 8 and no 18):

Canon James Potter on hearing the most popular of the two is him & Sirius’ Deater baby brother Reggie:

#lol I’ve nothing against Jegulus #but I think canon James would be shook 🤣🤣🤣!#he’d be all listen #I had world saving sex #of course I’m mentioned twice in the top 20 list #😏😉😇#*preening* *strutting* *fussing with his hair* *repeatedly throwing and catching a stolen snitch*#WAIT WHAT ????!!#😱😬🧐😳#regulus??? as in Reggie I joined the Deaters at 18 and had a collage of Voldy on my bedroom wall Reggie?!?#*backs slowly out of the room*#*watching Sirius’ face*#*muttering expletives and words such as what the ever living fuck #*how did this happen??*#*more importantly why did this happen?*#*you’ll have to ask him I refuse to incriminate myself*#also *WHAAAAAAAAT?!?!?!?!*#Sirius Black: YOU MEAN TO TELL ME YOU ENDED UP HAVING SEX WITH MY BABY BROTHER???? THE LESS ATTRACTIVE BLACK BROTHER??????!!!!!!!!!!#Reggie? the less good looking bro???#surely to fuck if you were going to fuck one of us it’s have to be me Merlin damn it man!!!!!#the Deaters are the Death Eaters (you had to be there #(involves the scarlet pimpernel)

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sad-emo-dip-dye · 1 year

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I miss the person I was 2 days ago when I was all “haha 55 minutes from Akus perspective is kinda funny” cause now I’m like- did akutagawa remember what it felt like to die? Did he think about it often? Atsushi never saw him so did he even tell anyone that it happened? That he carries the memories of literally burning alive?

#I forget he’s died twice now #it’s the way the ln also said he found comfort in it-that it was a ‘rather beautiful ending’ for someone like him #if you count beast there’s been 3 depictions of Akus death and all variants of them hes found some sort of peace in it asigiri I’m coming 4u #screaming crying throwing up punch me in the face #bsd #bungo stray dogs #sskk #bsd akutagawa #bsd 55 minutes #akutagawa my beloved #bsd spoilers #bsd light novel

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alstroemerian-dragon · 6 months

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chiaki is such a good and interesting character. wish she was in a better game

#personal #do you ever wish danganronpa was better gkdjfjskkfks #literally the only interesting thing that the anime ever did. To Me. was make chiaki a real person #because if you just take the game on its own its basically. she was just a computer program. you cared about a person who wasnt real.#hajime fell in love with a computer isnt that fucked up #but. with the added context of her being a Real Person who Existed. and the reason the program looks like her is that deep down #they all just Wanted Her Back. like that fuckin HURTS DUDE #her death was the last straw it was the final thing. that grief is what drove them all into despair in the end #fuck the brainwashing bullshit. losing chiaki broke them.#like so few of them had anyone in their lives that just. unconditionally cared. without any strings.#but she Did. she loved them all so much. she wanted them all to be so happy. for themselves #and then junko drove them all into their own heads. and then she took chiaki away from them.#no wonder they didnt give a shit about anyone else’s lives. if this is a world that can take something as unconditionally caring and bright #as chiaki nanami and Break Her and Tear Her Apart and Throw Her Away. it doesnt deserve kindness. fuck humanity.#its definitely something they all have to reckon with for a Long time going forward #like. junko haunts the halls of the island’s facilities. but so does chiaki.#not nearly in the same way but shes there all the same #theres definitely a time early on when they finally feel up to talking about her and the other four are discussing who she was before #the Real chiaki yknow #and hajime has to be like. No I Know She Was Different. I Knew Her Too.#and just him having to tell the others that chiaki was basically his only friend when he was in the reserve course #they really have to mourn her twice. fuck dude

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bluesey-182 · 1 day

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me, every time i get sick: please please please let this be the one time i just have a cold for a few days

the infection moving into my lungs after two days, every single time: did someone call for bronchitis? I'm gonna be here for at least a month. maybe two :)

#whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy #i had rsv as a child and then after that every single time i got sick it would move into my chest #even when my brother and i got the exact same bug i was sick for twice as long #and it was always so bad that i ended up having to do nebulizer treatments and/or take steroids #and the steroids made me mean as FUCK #and then when i got into my adult years they stopped doing those treatments and just throw cough suppressants at me that don't work #so like clockwork every cold turns into bronchitis after 2 days #i go into the doctor within a week #they give me a cough suppressant that doesn't work #by week 2 or 3 the nonstop coughing has made my chest so tight that every breathe hurts and i cough so hard that im constantly puking #so i end up in the urgent care or e.r where they tell me there's nothing they can do for my cough but have i tried tea with honey?#and this goes on anywhere from one to two months of misery #im gonna miss so much fucking work. godDAMNIT #text post

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smol-tired-binch-blog · 1 year

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Yknow, the fact that Matsushige looks like a knock-off Sohei Dojima probably really didn’t help matters did it

#smol speaks #akira nishikiyama #yes he's getting tagged because I Am Once Again Thinking About Him #specifically I'm trying to write a dumb lil fic and I'm rewatching his downfall to remind myself what his fuckin office looks like #it's here i must be honest: i made a 'smash or pass' style tierlist when i was only like halfway through playing 0 #so i Did Not Recognise Dojima On The List. i honest to god thought it was Matsushige at first glance #i was like 'ah fuck guess he's in 0 too at some point?' and because the tier list had EVERY Yakuza character they were all very small #but also it's just a sea of faces most of which I Don't Recognise. so i think Dojima isn't even on that list gvbhnjkmvfgbhnjkm #he's not even on the I Am Going To Beat You To Death tier cause i didnt know who he was!!!! fuck you Dojima!!!#THAT'S your impact on me i couldnt even RECOGNISE you!!!! fucker!!!! but yeah that is my confession #i should redo that tier list when i play more of these games but i dont think many will end up on the 'would' tiers. theyre all just kinda #...eh. yknow? anyway yeah uhhhhh hey Matsushige what do you mean 'the boss knows what kind of earner [you] are'?#you mean a bitch? a big bastard who throws his weight around and doesnt respect his superiors? and he gave you to Nishiki?#he knew you were like this and gave you to Nishiki? am i hearing that right? is that correct?#god i fucking hate Kazama. Nishiki shoulda shot him twice.

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lesbianraskolnikov · 2 months

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I need to rewatch rock and rule its been a while. Very funny ive gotten at least 50 or more people to watch it either directly or indirectly. I was so crazy for a few years. I still have someones fan extended cut saved. Funny we watched it thinking itd be bad no its one of my favorite movies ever..not the greatest but it literally doesnt matter its fun

#floyd.txt #There are very few movies ive rewatched i like the this.#I usually name Caligari POTP and this as the Ones #But i will throw inu oh in there now. But i have only watched it twice but its such a crazy experience.#I need to get more people to sit down and watch with me but the end makes me tear up a little... gwuhuhu #There are plenty of awesome movies i did love but just never think to rewatch sorry

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megaawkwardhuman · 1 year

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ok but like ed in the newest trailer is how I feel after everything that's happened in the shows I love

#BESTIE LIKE ME FR FR #our flag means death #ofmd #ofmd season 2 #ofmd season 2 spoilers #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #edward teach #blackbeard ofmd #throwing up my thoughts onto tumblr again #anyway I will be entering this season with duffle bags worth of trust issues #NOT BETTING ANY MONEY THAT THIS WILL END WELL #I'VE LEARNED MY LESSON THIS TIME #FOOL ME ONCE? SHAME ON YOU #TWICE? WELL NOW THAT JUST SUCKS #I'M NOT GOING TO BE FOOLED A THIRD TIME #LALALALALALLAALA I CAN'T HEAR YOOOOOOOOOOOU

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stardust-sunset · 10 months

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my favorite thing is when my little brother claims to be sick suddenly my parents go into panic mode and are all “oh well if you don’t wanna go to school that’s fine” and “aw you can go to the nurse if you need” but then whenever i get sick it’s “stop faking, you’re not staying home” even though i’ve been coughing up mouthfuls of phlegm for the last week and i feel like straight up ass and can’t even keep my eyes open