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crazylittlejester · 4 months

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have now reached the point in music listening where i am hyper aware of the background chords and instruments and barely able to focus on the melody and it is no longer an enjoyable experience

#I JUST WANNA FINISH THIS FIC #I FEEL LIKE IM SLOWLY GOING INSANE #<- what listening to coconut mall for two hours straight does to a mf #jes talks #jes rambles

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f4y3w00d5 · 8 months

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YO IVE HEARD THIS SONG BEFORE WHERE THE FUCK HAVE I HEARD IT

ANOTHER PRETTY FUCKING SONG

THAT I RELATE TO AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

#i feel like im slowly going insane

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gaykneecaps · 10 months

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tw vent

#i feel like im slowly going insane #it feels like theres multiple versions of my own personality inside me #i realised my mum is emotionally neglectful #im having fucking terrible mood swings every 2 minutes (im questioning BPD as well so thats fantastic) and im #in the worst depressive episode of my life is it ever going to fucking end #not to mention the heat is giving me extreme sensory issues #and i dont get to see my psychiatrist until fucking january #becuase i see him like once every 5 months #i feel like my only friends hate me even though i know they dont #my fp has another fp that isnt me and i know i should be happy for them but it drives me insane every time i remember they exist #and i cant help but feel like theyre lying every time they tell me they love me #and i feel so attention seeking for thinking that because why the fuck would they lie #and i feel shitty all the time but i have to mask it because if im just sad all the time the only people i have left will leave me #and im completely dissosciated all day #it feels like im drifting more apart from my body every day #the maladaptive daydreams are only getting worse and worse theyre always watching #and im never alone #so i can never unmask #and one of the only people i felt like i could confide in just moved out of our house #and i feel guilty whenever i talk to the other one

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dizzybizz · 8 months

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sleepy gill and gill with the bubbled evil cat

#hi remember when i thought i was in for a really bad bout of hsr fixation. lets see how thats going.. lets just check in and #oh . oh no. oh this was. this wasnt the plan. oh no #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #gill in pjs got to me ok. gill fighting in pjs got to me. the thought of gill sleeping in a barrel of water with pjs on got to me.#wheni tell you this fkn podcast is the only thing ive been thinking abt for the past few days dude what thef uck #theyre all so stupid they get up to so much bs its fkn great i lvoe the three of them so mcuh WHEHhghh >:'O #my art #i keep nearly forgetting that tag help???#ive slowly been getting used to drawing them jsut you wait til i feel good abt the designs n shit ok its gonna be epic or smth #oop s its 1am soon whoopsies ehehee but like ..... the dumbasses... theyre in my head..#there are so many stupid scenes i want to draw 😭😭😭😭😭#im sorry to. my friends. for jsut . yknow. and everyone really #i wasnt ready for this 😭 idk what happened i just started going through eps so quickly all of a sudden and ive gone through like 12 eps in #2-3 days and i feel absolutely insane and i think abt them so much. theyve taken up all my time help

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the-gayest-tree-you-ever-did-see · 6 months

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finally caved and started reading all for the game. two chapters into the foxhole court and what kind of gay fucking shit is this! also did not know there were sports in here

#idk whats going on i thought it was like the raven cycle with magic and shit its called the foxhole court??? no fae???? what the fuck!!!#and i cant understand whats happening with the sports. i didnt get it. i hope i dont need to i just know kevin is top dog of the bad dogs #neil is mid mid except hes got a death wish so they want him carnally???#ill be reading it super slowly bc im busy but i can feel it slowly turning up the heat on my brain cells as i read. they are burning.#ive got naught but ten #and neil's not neil but he is and he has a bag of secrets he's hiding in someone else's closet like okayyyy go off author fuck whats the #authors name.... nora sakavic FUCK I SHOULDVE KNOWN NEVER TO TRUST A WOMAN NAMED NORA #i dont know...i dont know.... but also the only gay neil i know is the one from dead poets society and its hard to separate the two rn #is the rest of the book going to be like this what did i get myself into. am i mentally prepared #bc i wasnt for trc and it FUCKED! ME! UP! im STILL insane #ugh. ugh. anyway. way gayer than expected. also at one point someone asks ''how safe is safe'' and MY DISAPPOINTMENT #when the answer wasnt safe as life? immeasurable. in fact i had to close the book. went to study accounting.#ACCOUNTING. HELLO?? CAN ANYONE HEAR ME IN HERE???#the tree speaks #all for the game #aftg #what are yalls tags?#neil josten #the raven cycle #trc

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gild-and-fire · 5 months

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guilty as sin...I have never felt so seen

#ttpd #taylor swift #guilty as sin #the tortured poets department #ts ttpd #im slowly working my way through the album bc I needed a little treat every day since it came out until may 10. then I go mentally insane #this song feels like guilt pleasure and its so delicious #its giving delulu book girlies. bridgeton. angst. yearning #all my favorite words :)))))

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every-sanji · 6 months

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#one piece #sanji #black leg sanji #everysanji #thriller bark #ch462 #theres been someone whose been slowly reblogging some of my like. really old posts #and doing some absolutely fantastic character analysis in the tags #but oh my god you're reminding me of the cringe captions i used to leave on every post #i did that FOR LIKE. IM PRETTY SURE OVER A YEAR.#IF IT WASNT SO LONG I'D GO BACK AND EDIT ALL OF THEM BUT EUGH #all but one i think the birthday post was funny okay that one was funny and i had to consolidate so much to get it to post on the right day #god. i cant believe this will probably post after the blog anniversary #4 years of every sanji. how do we feel guys #as of queuing this i have uh. 2302 followers and i'll probably have a few more by the time you actually see this #absolutely insane that people still follow this silly gimmick blog i've been running since i was 19 #ik i have said it before but this little project got so big and i dont even particularly care for op anymore #i just keep this blog running for the bit of finding every sanji and watching people be amazed at the really really small ones #that i manage to find in the background. its a special skill you gain by running a blog like this #anyway no more tag rambles i want to try and finish this volume tonight if i can

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shadebloopnik · 3 months

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Actual footage of all my rational thought and carefully thought out comment essay completely burning up in my end when reading the ending of Dancing Over Those Burnt Bridges:

To anyone who hasn't read this series yet, its called Stolen Moments and please read it from the beginning and join this crazy rollercoaster with me bc holy shit its literally so good i love it so much-

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 23 days

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I've been looking for this one au where Len basically becomes a mad scientist and turns his friends into robots one by one for a while now, and I'm beginning to realize that I just read through your blog while half asleep a few months back and mixed together my memories of your flower hivemind and composite au

this is very funny to me. i'm absolutely honored this blog's posts were enough to evil-farming-game an entire vocaloid au into your memories 😂

i can give you this doodle; it's composite au but i'm sure it'd fit very well with this theoretical mad scientist len au lololl

#ask #anonymous #this is ALSO funny to me bc of 'mad scientist' and 'flower hivemind au' in the same paragraph. it reminds me of an old scrapped idea #i had about where tf the flowers even came from in the first place but i ended up never doing anything w/ it #i've been thinking abt composite au though uag i want to do more w/ it... rip the unfinished refs and one google doc thing i have #shaking myself like ITS OKAY IF THE STORY KINDA SUCKS AT FIRST!! YOU NEED TO START SOMEWHERE #cus i mean i wouldve never gotten anywhere w/ Certain Things had i not started with the og shitty versions. which were SHIT #but its wild to think ~7 years later i transmogrified them into the things they are now. wack. makes me wonder what will happen #to stuff im making now later down the line if i go and revisit it. SO CONCLUSION YES BITCH GET OVER YOUR FUCKING ANXIETY #i think my other problem is i'd loveee to reveal it slowly with like art pieces comics etc but i dont got time for that 😔😔#CURSE WITH LITERALLY EVERYTHING I MAKE TBH not just fandom shit but original shit too. i need to get over myself #cause i do know respectfully not everyone has the skill/time/desire to pick apart things for symbolism so a clearer explanation #would prob be more accessible. and easier for ME TOO TO HAVE SHIT IN ONE FUCKING PLACE MAN. actually how i've been taking notes lately #sorry these are some longass fucking tags im talking to myself. just went into a new academic year w a lot of stress #so thinking abt my own crazy stories keeps me sane and makes me feel like i have control over at least SOME aspect of my life #anyways circling back mad scientist len sounds incredible lowkey though lmao. its always the stem lens 😔💔✌️#JK?? but i do joke abt composite au len partly going insane bc he's a biochem major essentially so yeah bitch i fucking get it 😭 no wonder

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hayaku14 · 9 months

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THIS FUCKING KAISHIN ART BY KDKIIZ IS MAKING ME LOSE MY MIND LIKE HOLY SHITTTTTT I've seen this done with KID's gloves before but never with Shinichi's socks like??!?!$("(#+'+$+' THIS IS SO STUPID SEXY HOT OF THEM WTF#??#?#)$$)($) OHHH I'M DEAD FRFR IM GONE BRO like im not even a feet enioyer but i feel like i won 😳

#kaishin #SCREAM WITH ME PLEASE WTF I CANT BE THE ONLY ONE LOSING IT OVER THIS #OHHH #KID PUSHING SHINICHI ONTO A DESK SLOWLY PULLING DOWN HIS SOCKS LIKE THAT WHAT THE FUUUUCK #Imgonnacry i love kdkiiz art so much #dc prattles #THERE'S JUST SOMETHING ABOUT KAISHIN AND UNDRESSING EACH OTHER THAT MAKES MY BRAIN ROT SO MUCH #IT'S THE SURRENDERING OF THEIR IDENTITY AND VULNERABILTY OF BEING SEEN RAAAAHHHH #i feel like im gonna go insane looking at this art just as i feel insane when i see that one where #shinichi takes off kaito's gloves in the same way #the way undressing for kaishin is not only for sexy times but also for angsty and emotional and hurt and comfort and fluff & JUST EVERYTHING #im gone bro im DEAD

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codecicle · 3 months

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Congratulations on figuring out there are multiple people in your brain btw. I saw a while ago you posting about it being unsure so, YAY YOU FIGURED IT OUT!! LETSGOOOO!!! HELLO CHARLIE AND OTHER CODECICLE ALTERS!!!! YAAAYYYY!!!!!

FIGURED IT OUT!!! It really is crazy I didn't figure it out sooner, but I just assumed I was weird and didn't talk to anybody about it. Made a joke about it after multiple years of hiding it from everyone (and myself) and got told by multiple people "Hey yeah you're not normal go research stop feeling scared" and I did and now I'm friends with the people in my brain 🔥🔥 huge wins all around! LETSGOOO WOOOOOOOO CHEERING YAAAY!! Everyone rattling around up here says hi back!!!

#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍#we have mail :]#actually insane i didnt figure it out earlier.#[guy with a disorder he doesnt know about voice] yeah man idk i feel like my body is being controlled by other people a lot of the time #and i talk to completely real people in my head everyday and others think im entirely insane because of it so i have to hide it #and i have memory issues and feel like going by multiple names #and my personality keeps changing and my likes and wants flip flop around #and im ALWAYS dissociated. wonder what all thats about !#surely not something ive been well aware of for years . SURELY not #IT COULDNT BE!#<- i may be stupid #it didnt help that they could subconsciously mess with me too. i didnt know why i felt scared of people finding out i was multiple #BEFORE i figured it out myself #then i sat down with charlie and had a conversation and quickly figured out ah. its your fault #motherfucker #anyway rambling over #its just really funny to me just how long i lived like this without thinking twice about it #and im really happy to slowly accept it and learn to live in harmony now ^_^

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astranauticus · 6 months

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love that for some reason for my theatre studies class’ final project the two plays they gave us to choose from were, tone-wise, 4th wall breaking shitpost comedy and extremely dark harrowing accounts of world war 2 so like we had rehearsals today and my classmates were up there having a good ol time making jokes about cheating on your wife and then i went up stared the audience dead in the eyes and started delivering a fuckin magnus archives statement

#asto’s tales #i may have also gone a bit overboard for a rehearsal thats on me #if youre curious look up the spirits play by kuo pao kun it is. it is a Lot #like im not joking some parts of my groupmates scene reads EXACTLY like a tma statement for like. combination slaughter and corruption #its funny cuz id always been under the impression that im not a very good actor #i think the thing is im a lot worse at realism than. whatever this is #like the way i play my character is very. she is very Slowly But Surely Going Insane #i think some of my classmates doing the other play maybe didnt read our play cuz during our rehearsal some of them were just like 😦#feels like thats a running theme about me. i like making people go 😦

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handgiven · 8 months

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three more days until i am free from panic mode. somewhat. so like this for a one-liner because yolo, as the kids used to say ten years ago?

#ooc tbt #kinda feeling bad for some of the drafts i wrote while feeling like this because i dont feel like i write very well with all thats going on #but i also need to write at least a little to keep myself from going insane :')#im slowly getting to all the drafts please know. slowly.

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elegyofthemoon · 10 months

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also did jing yuan not sell well where the heck did his rerun go why are we on blade and kafka's...

#snow plays hsr #I'M JUST ASKING NOT BC I WANT HIM #i was just like 'huh. wAIT A FUCKING SECOND THAT MEANS IL RERUN SOON THEN?#well so much for trying to get any new characters #i mightve tried to get ruan mei bc i think shes pretty (also the bio references got me intrigued)#but sighs #oh this fuckers going to eat all my stellar jades (dan heng)... stop it....#other news: they revealed sunday's voice aND I SWEAR I HAVE HEARD THIS VOICE BEFORE #IT IS PAINING ME THAT I CANNOT TELL WHO IT IS....#moment he spoke i was like 'ohhh.... oh i am so fucked lmao'#i cant tell who.... its bugging me and i'm going to have to put his voice on repeat now to figure it out and slowly go insane by doing so #if anyone has an idea who the va might be...please.#eugh. and now i have to go back and write. and clean. i feel so dead adsjfasljh #nvm i think im just gonna go shower and rest in bed i shouldnt push myself and should get better over the weekend orz

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yukinyaminyato · 1 month

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life is full of questions without answers such as "how can i get over my crush", "how do i stop thinking abt him in the middle of the night", "how to stop feeling like a bad person for having feelings for a friend who'll never like me back", "will i ever be romantically loved" etc.

#slowly going insane at almost 3am #i helped a friend to move out to a new place today. ofc my crush was also there to help.#the whole fucking time when we were carrying furniture and stuff i couldn't stop looking at him and thinking abt how attractive i find him #like we were all sweating and feeling gross and still i was looking at him like 'haha he looks kinda hot ngl' i literally hate myself #🤡🤡🤡🤡#anyways how can i find someone who actually could like me. do i need to download a dating app #i just feel so pathetic that im already 24 and ive never even had my first kiss #honestly at this point i'd just happily kiss any consenting friend to get that over with.#my posts

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toytulini · 1 year

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Me: okay, dear monstera, I gave you a nice new roomy pot, I'm keeping you hydrated and humid, how about a new leaf? maybe? just one? doesnt even need to have the cute little holes if you dont want, I'll take a solid leaf at this point.

My Monstera:

best I can do is a singular insane aerial root. also, I need a new pot again. my dirt roots are coming out the bottom again

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#toy pic post #my plants #plants #monstera #monstera deliciosa #bruh. why are you putting every single ounce of your energy into this one insane root??? where are you GOING????#you only have 5 leaves can you maybe? do another leaf??? if this thing gets any longer im gonna have to cut it. what are you DOING #also why are you ALREADY OUTGROWING THIS POT. I FEEL LIKE I JUST REPOTTED YOU??#argh #ignore the purple passion slowly dying in the seashell. it was an experiment that is. failing.#maybe if the cutting had been stronger to start with? idk #image id in alt text

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