Something so incredibly fucked up it makes me want to scream about how almost every time Roman recalls some fucked up childhood event EVERYONE around him denies it. I don't recall. That wasn't how it happened. No, you actually liked it.
Growing up in an abusive household where everyone is pitted against each other by the abuser, it means that you can't really talk about the abuse as it happens if you're isolated, and the abuser gets in the ears of everyone and tells their side only, and everyone else thinks you deserve it.
And so you grow up, and you get the courage to talk about it but everyone denies it ever even happened - they don't even fucking remember it, or they do but that you deserved it, you had an attitude problem.
And so you fucking tear your hair out as an adult wondering if any of it was real or if these personality altering things really were somehow imagined. You gotta choose to be delusional to your family or choose to be delusional to yourself. Either way you're alone and you're the only one that will ever understand and have your own back.
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*sweating profusely, hands clammy and shaking, covered in dirt and blood as if risen from the tomb*
kissies.. From. f/o.......
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man fuck deco and laporta wdym gundogan has agreed to leave
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i am doing a speech today in which mps will be watching and i wanna THROW UP
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I want to eat Seaglass also my head hurts from laughing at my own jokes at 11 o’clock at night
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i swear to god james mcavoy walked past the cafe me and carlie were having coffee in this morning but it was such a brief and unexpected moment i felt like i hallucinated it. but i'm so so like 99.9% sure it was him and it so easily could have been. can someone help
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im sorry for vtuber posting i have the yaoi flu. i should be better in the morning.
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life gets the best of even the toughest shawties sometimes
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! 🎉🎉🎉
AAAH THANK YOU SO MUCH! 💖🥳💖
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*rolls around on my dashboard as if it were a meadow of long vibrant grass*
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if staff insists on the mute tumblr live button only muting it for a week they need to change it so that every time someone presses it a random staff member gets an anon saying "kill yourself <3" sent to their inbox
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my cousin. my cool and swag cousin told me to listen to lola amour and UGHGHGH. they were right. they KNEW i would love them ugh. (<- he says all of this in affectionate way)
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