#i hate meds

[me--do]

[im-enoch]

Refusing to take meds takes some balls, man

[felizzlemynizzl]

[saphic-god]

got my medication upped and my anxiety and depression is like super agitated plus just got my period this morning. I feel like life would be easier as a man if I did have to go through a horrible spike in my depression and anxiety once a month bc of hormones and I just beat myself up for experiencing these horrible intense symptoms of my mental health issues when my period happens. Adhd in women issues lol (combines with diagnosed cptsd from years of abuse plus sa)

Do any other adhd afbs go through this spike in symptoms during menstruation?

[0sadbitch0]

[alienanomaly]

all the meds of my r a i n b o w ! ! !

abilify 40mg buspar 30mg bid lamotrigine 150mg bid lithium 450mg luvox 150mg bid seroquel 25mg bid

[swampthing07]

I take my meds with water in a sparkly light up cup. If you have to take medication, you may as well take them with class and style.

[hujimran]

i trust no one

[bloidthevampireslayer]

i hate myself :)

[therelatablestudent]

When you end up double dosing because someone was POSITIVE you missed your meds.

No apology is enough

[bolontiku]

Time for meds!

Starts crying cause I hate meds. Some meds need to be taken with food or else my tummy gets screwy and so I'm crying cause now I have to make something to eat with my food. Take meds.

Puppy following very concerned as I cry while waiting for toast to be done. Smack some peanut butter onto my toast cause I'm adventurous like that & grab some water. Head back to put my foot up whilst I eat and give the pup a treat so that I'm not eating alone. Crying continues.

Finally finish my toast and no longer crying, puppy is settled in next to me to co fort me. Everything is okay now.

I hate meds.

[me--do]

[dolly-macabre]

Starting Trazodone tonight 💊

Let's see if it'll help not only my sleep but my mood issues during the day 🙃 🤪

[inkskinned]

at the end of the day it's not that you hate your job - actually, you like working, you like routine, you like feeling like an adult - it's that any time you fuck anything up, you feel like you're fucking dying.

because you could be actually fucking dying. because if one day you wake up and you misunderstood something - you could lose your job, and nobody is hiring, and nobody is paying, and nobody takes people like you, and that job you want hasn't gotten back to you. and what exactly are you going to do without insurance? good luck with those meds. you should have thought of that before being a person.

so it's not just that you forgot to CC someone on an email, it's that if you don't have this job, you can't afford rent. it's not that you misread a comment, it's that if you get fired, you will be in massive amounts of unpayable debt. it's not that you are bad at your job, but here are the stakes as they have been decided for you: be perfect or fucking die. like, literally, die. that is how much safety net you have: none.

it's not burnout, technically. but you literally just had two typos in your work, and you're already picturing the ending. you want to throw up & curl up & make it all go away. it is two typos. if he decides he is mad at you, you lose literally everything.

your mom says that you seem stressed. the thing is that you have never known a job that isn't stressful. welcome to capitalism. there is no other road, only this one. what the fuck is a career. you come here, and we hold your life against the barrel of a gun, and somewhere someone is spinning the chamber and pulling. eventually the bullet will come.

you live in a mugging. your boss owns three cars and has four kids. you worry about having enough to feed your dog. good luck. beg for forgiveness. CC the right people next time and be grateful, kid. somebody has it worse than you. someone, probably, has it worse than you. so what if you can't sleep or eat or focus. your work chat sound literally makes you panic. you had to change the sounds of computer notifications so you'd stop having such an upset stomach.

welcome to the real world! the rat race! the dog eat dog circus!

your doctor studies the results and frowns at you. "it's bad for your heart," she says. "try to reduce your levels of stress."

[e-ski-mo]

TW: thoughts about ending it, SH , bpd.

Sometimes I have this strong desire to stop meds. I try. I really do. And it starts feeling better. I don't have to think about whether I have to take them. I don't have to worry about driving being a little sleepy. Or worry about pills being stuck in my throat . I know it's weird how I still don't know how to take them properly. And then it hits me. Much harder and deeper. Pain in my heart like never before. A dark grey cloud over my head without any reason. Irritable and angry. Uncontrollable thoughts , desires to end it, to SH, watch myself in some sort of physical pain or bleed or wanting to scar. Why. I keep asking why me. Then I realise just like someone who can't do without specs or lenses or without hear aid maybe this is it for me. Really hard accepting it. But it's something I'll have to live with. I feel better with meds. More human. Less delusional. More happy. And it's okay to need some help.

[valiant-shadow]

Haven't posted in a little bit. We had to fix our meds due to terrible nightmares and poor sleep for weeks. The system's latest argument is "where be my tiddies?" Wherein the femme aligned alters are rioting for a post-mastectomy boob job, and the masc alters are like "WAIT A DAMN MINUTE - WE WORKED HARD FOR THIS CHEST" and the nonbinary alters just...have popcorn and/or are taking sides like it's Marvel's Civil War.

I hate having many differing opinions all at once. Oh. And we discovered our FOURTH white haired anime uwu boy last night. So we've been dissociated as fuck because of him/me fronting.

All while sick to our stomach/exhausted because of med upheaval, but at least our BP was 123/83 today???? That's better than it's been in a month.

So yeah. It's been a time.