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topichoon · 23 days
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Like A Summer Breeze - Lee Heeseung
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genre(s). fluff, smut, crack, and friends to lovers trope
pairing. bestfriend!heeseung x fem!reader
WARNINGS: pet names, reader shares about their insecurities, kissing, public sex (in hot tub), fingering, p in v, oral (f receiving), any more..?
a/n. I felt very in the summer mood ig sooooo I decided to write this! it was so much fun to write as well like i was enjoying it the whole time😭
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The scorching hot sun shines into my room peeking through from the window. This reminds me that it’s the first day of summer break finally. Last year was my freshmen year in college and it was quite hard to adjust since I'm not good with big changes, but overtime I got used to it. Sometimes it makes me sad to think about my old friends from high school since I haven't talked to most of them for a long time, but I honestly can’t wait for what the future will bring me. I'd prefer a healthy relationship, since that's been on the top of my list for years now. I’ve had a few boyfriends in the past, but they never lasted. I try to tell myself that I just haven’t found the right one yet but when I see all of my friends happily with their relationship it makes me doubt if someone will even love for who I am.
Just like my last relationship with Choi Beomgyu, the school's frat boy whose most known to get himself around whenever he can. I should’ve known not to fall for one, but I just couldn’t help myself. Whenever a man gives me the slightest amount of attention after I've been in so many bad relationships it makes me think they actually want me. And not just for all the sexual aspects like they’ve always wanted. Of course, I like doing sexual things with my lover but when that's the only thing they truly want from me that's where I have to draw the line.
One time with my first boyfriend back in my junior year of high school, he wanted me to give it up my virginity to him, and I did because I thought he actually loved me for more than sex. But right after I gave him what he wanted, he got up and left then ghosted me. I hadn't seen him in ages since he suspiciously switched high schools but to my surprise he applied to the same college as I did. And I always see him around campus with another girl wrapped around his finger. I wonder if he changed but to my assumptions and seeing him with a new girl practically every day I wouldn't doubt if he's still the same.
That's why I’m very thankful for my best friend Heeseung, we’ve been best friends since birth basically since our moms were friends' way back when, so we were prone to being friends as well. He’s always there for me when something went wrong and reassuring me that everything going to be okay. Every time one of my relationships had ended, he was always there to comfort me. He’s sort of in the same boat as me when it comes to relationships, but as the male he isn’t the one taking advantage of the girl, it’s the exact opposite.
He hasn’t told me much about his romantic life but when he does, I make sure not to forget it because that's usually a sign that it was bad. One particular relationship with a girl he had last year was terrible. And I’ve never seen him cry so much in his entire life, which made my heart break for him to see how much he cared about her and how she just threw him to the curb.
The girl had been cheating on him their whole entire relationship but never said a word, I guess Heeseung was too oblivious to figure out right away. But I don't blame him because he was so in love and when you're truly in love you have your full trust in your significant other, which is what happened he did trust her with his entire life, but she took that for advantage. Overtime he had grew some suspicions due to her always getting back past 12am and making excuses that it was for "work" or something stupid. But the real way he found out himself was he caught her with a guy in her car late at night when he was looking out his window waiting for her to arrive back from "work". At this point when he saw those two in his car his heart shattered completely, he couldn't believe the girl he thought he was going to marry did this to him.
When he finally opened up to me and told me what happened with his ex-girlfriend, he didn’t tell me what they were doing in the car but from how upset he was I can almost guarantee it was tragic. So, what better option is there to cope than applying for an ice cream shop job on a pier. We both applied a couple weeks ago at the same time by filling out an online application, and we finally heard back a few days ago. We made it a competition to see who would get in because they were only looking for one person at the time. But to our surprise their last employee quit, so the owner reached out to us and said we were in.
Most people would take employees quitting as a negative thing, but we were just excited that we would be doing this job together for the rest of the summer. Same time, same hours, same everything. The dress code on the other hand isn’t even bad, but the owner said that we could wear whatever we wanted to since he doesn’t really care anymore as long as we’re doing our job. So, I’ll probably just settle for a bikini paired with jean shorts on the bottom because I don’t want it to be too revealing since basically all of my swimsuits are not very family friendly and technically the real job is to be serving ice cream not dressing like a prostitute for goodness sakes.
Hee 😼: You ready for our first day on the job 😭
Me: yeah…definetly😐 bro what do i do if someone tries to hit on me??!
Hee 😼: idfk! Just go along with it…? Also did you just brozone me
Me: you’ve been brozoned your whole entire life 🤣
Hee 😼: i’m. Blocking. You.
Me: NO WAIT PLEASE DONT I BEG🙏
Hee 😼: why are you begging you weirdo😟 (do it more often)
Me: okay nvm pls block me now i’m not talking to you anymore🙄
Hee 😼: you know i could never block youuu
Me: stop this lovey dovey stuff NOW my friends just asked me if we were dating.
Hee 😼: you know you wish we were dating😘
Me: ...
Hee 😼: well i’ll be there in 10 see you soon my beautiful girlfriend😜
I roll my eyes and throw my phone onto my bed and put on my pink bikini set and slid my jean shorts on. And then slide on some sandals paired with one of my seashell bracelets that Heeseung got me as a kid on our “10-year bff anniversary” or so he calls it. I always wear it no matter what even when I’m not with him.
I just feel protected whenever I wear it because I know it’s from him. And he always wears my handmade coastal styled necklace I made him everywhere he goes. I finish tying my hair back into a low braid and take a quick check in the mirror before heading to the front door. I take a peek out the front door window and see him parked in the driveway. I exit my house and go into the passenger seat.
“Hey y/nnn!” Heeseung smiles while looking over at me. I take a moment before responding because I was a bit distracted with his choice of outfit. And because he looked good. Like really good.
A white button up polo with all the buttons undone. Finished with his black shorts. He seemed to notice how long I was looking at him, so he decided to speak, “y/n~ my eyes are right here” he points to his eyes with a sly grin plastered on his face.
“Oh whatever..” I playfully roll my eyes in response to him. He laughs before backing out of my driveway. He turns and grabs my seat tightly while backing out, the grip and veins from his hand makes me think some very interesting thoughts.
But I quickly snap out of it once I realize he would think that's probably weird of me but in all honesty, my self respect is long gone just from seeing his hands if I'm going to be honest. “You look really good by the way.” Heeseung says softly, the blush on his face getting redder by the second.
“Thank you hee, you don’t look too bad yourself.” I attempt to say confidently but instead sound shy. But how could I sound confident in myself when this is THE Lee Heeseung after all. Even though we’ve been friends for many years I still get nervous around him because his aura is so damn intimidating.
My friends say it’s because I like him, but I honestly get nervous around every guy. I think it’s normal, but I guess they think otherwise. Although in their defense I did get upset and jealous when he was with another girl, but it’s solemnly because I didn’t want him to get hurt again!
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We arrive at the ice cream shop 1 hour before opening so hopefully we can learn our way around and see how everything works. The shop is pretty spacious and much bigger than I expected it to be. So, I am very thankful that we came here early because if we didn't, I would not know what to do.
“Y/n if I’m going to be completely honest with you, I don’t know how to make ice cream...” Heeseung curls his lips trying to hide his laughter.
“What?! How do you not know how to make ice cream?” I look at him with my jaw dropped and a shocked look on my face totally missing his joke for being serious.
To which he returns a loud laugh and replies, “I was just messing with you! You should’ve seen the look on your face!” He continues laughing while pointing at my still confused face.
I laugh as well while shaking my head in disbelief. I can’t believe I almost thought this idiot didn’t know how to make ice cream. I mean there could be a chance but he’s not that dumb to not know how to scoop ice cream and simply put it into a cone.
We finally get all set up in the shop and get ready while standing in front of the 2 cashier registers, one for me and one for him. “Let’s make it a competition to see who can get more people to come to their register. Okay?” I challenge him with a smirk on my face.
“Game on. I already know I’m going to win.” He pats my head gently before returning back to the register since the customers are already walking inside.
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We had already served a lot of customers and it was close to ending time but just before we were going to start packing up one more girl walked in. She had nice freshly done beach wave curls, along with a skimpy bikini. The more I analyzed her closely she had a way better body than me, she had bigger tits and a big ass.
As she walked in further, I could already tell who she was going to go to. Heeseung. I almost felt jealous. I already knew I wasn’t good enough for him but damn just seeing her hit hard enough. Heeseung got off his phone and looked at her.
I took a deep breath in and out, curling my lips anxiously. As she walked closer, I felt very insecure, I didn’t have big tits or a big ass they are way smaller, and I am just skinny. I mean I have a flat stomach and a good set of abs, but guys don’t seem to like that anymore from what I've seen.
She transfers her gaze away from Heeseung to me surprisingly. She smiled at me brightly and came to my register. I was quite startled to be honest because I wasn’t expecting her to go to mine. I was so sure she was going to go try and hit on Heeseung but I thought wrong.
“Hello! I was wondering if I could have 2 mint ice cream cones, please?” She looks at me softly.
I quickly nod and type it all up into the register getting the total. Heeseung goes to the back and starts scooping up the ice cream.
“Will that be all for you today?” I return her smile and wait for her response.
To which she nods, “yes! My girlfriend and I are on vacation here, so we decided to stop here!” She says cheerily. I nod and grab her card from her swiping it across the side and return it back to her.
Oh my god. I was jealous of someone who was already in a happy relationship. How fucking sick am I; I should’ve known not to be jealous of someone at first glance. But in this case...I was.
Heeseung brings the ice cream cones up to the front and she grabs them from his hands saying a quiet “thank you” and walks out.
When she walks out Heeseung turns and looks at me and walks over “you were jealous weren’t you?” He chuckles while shutting down the registers.
“Why are you asking?” I question him out of curiosity. Quite confused why he would ask this out of the blue. But also, I wanted to know how he knew was it clear on my face that I was?!
“It was pretty obvious y/n,” he laughs quietly in between “but just know you’re beautiful just the way you are ynnie..I would pick you over anybody else if you gave me the chance...” he walks over to my and hugs me from behind.
“And also…I love your body.” He runs his hands up and along the side of my torso. “So, if you ever are insecure about yourself, just know I think you’re fucking hot and anyone who says otherwise is wrong.” He buries his face into my neck while saying this.
“Just so you know if that girl was trying to hit on me or make any moves, I would’ve shut her down right away.” Heeseung’s warm breath hitting my neck causing shivers to get sent down my spine.
"And also...I won~" He pulls away smirking and collects his tips from the tip jar. While I just stand there completely dumbfounded from everything that just happened.
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HEESEUNG’S POV
Ever since I hit puberty, I saw y/n in a completely different way than before. I felt this romantic connection with her, and it never went away no matter how many relationships I got in. And sometimes it feels like she actually wants me, but other times it feels the exact opposite. Like she could honestly care less about me and just ditch me for someone else better than me. It's hard to understand her you know. Which is why I've tried so hard to not have feelings for her because I know it would never work out, we're best friends and she probably just wants to stay that way. Which I'm completely fine with it hurts to think that way but I would never force her into something that she wouldn't want.
I tried at least to prove my feelings for her last night at the ice cream shop by calling her “gorgeous” and “hot”, so if she does supposedly happen to have feelings for me, she would know I feel the same way. But I don’t think she got the memo and she most likely thought I was just being nice to her or something. But I’m willing to do whatever it takes if it means I can have her. Yesterday when I noticed her looking upset when that one girl walked in, I immediately felt bad. I want her to know that I wouldn’t choose any other girl over her.
It will always be her.
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Y/N’S POV
It’s been about 2 months since we started the job and its now August. The last month of summer before we'll have to go back to college and go our separate ways again. Time flew by so fast, and I’m so upset that it’s almost coming to an end.
Sadly, we don’t go to same university, so we won’t be able to see each other as often. But last year we did manage to make it work as we facetimed frequently and hung out about once a month in person. If I’m telling the truth I don’t think that was enough time. But I’m glad to have the summer so we can grow back closer again before we grow apart over the school year just like last year.
Me: hee! do you wanna hangout today?
Hee 😼: yesss where?
Me: I was thinking your house? Because I know you got a hot tub recently 🤭
Hee 😼: dang I should’ve known you didn’t want to go because of me🥲🥲
Me: says who? Maybe I did want to see you as well🤷‍♀️
Hee 😼: knew you did😮‍💨 but so do I 🫣
Me: okay well I’ll be there in 5 does that work for you?
Hee 😼: anything works for me when it comes to you
Me: hmm okay then perf😩 I’ll see you soon
Hee 😼: bye ynnieee
I pull up to his house and get out of my car. Walking up to his door I quickly readjust my bikini as it was all over the place and showing basically everything from the car ride. Partially from being my most revealing bikini I have, but if I want to impress Heeseung that’s the way to go, I guess. And it's the last few weeks of summer so if I want to get his attention I don't have forever before he finds another girl on his campus.
I ring his doorbell and wait patiently but definitely not for long. Before I know it the door is already flung all the way open. Revealing a tall and handsome guy which is Heeseung.
He gestures me inside and shuts the door behind me. I catch him checking me out and it’s blatantly obvious to me. I grab his jaw and move his head up so now he’s looking into my eyes. When I get a clearer look at his face I notice his burning red cheeks. How cute…
He looks down at my lips for a split second then looks back up at my eyes. Licking his lips, his eyes are filled with need and desire. But I’m not going to give him that, yet I’ll make him work for it just like I've had to basically my whole life trying to get him to like me. I let go of his jaw and smile at his disappointed reaction.
“Wanna go in the hot tub now?” I ask him excitedly. Waiting for his answer he interlocks his fingers with mine and nods his head.
“Yeah, let’s go.” He mumbles. He leads me to his newly finished backyard.
We make it to the hot tub and he asks me, “what color lights do you want in the hot tub” he gulps before finishing his sentence “there’s blue, red—“
I cut him off before he can finish saying the colors before I blurt out “red.” He looks at me a little surprised but smirk’s instantly when he gets the memo.
He grabs the light switch cord and changes it to red and turns on the jets. I go to the stairs and slowly walk into the hot tub, getting used to the warm temperature. Heeseung walks behind me very closely.
We both sit on one of the ledges inside the hot tub and I turn to look at him. “Thanks again hee for letting me come over,” I say smiling widely.
“Anytime, I love seeing you as much as I can.” Heeseung fidgets with his fingers nervously. Of course, I notice this, so I decide to scoot a littl closer to him. Maybe he’ll get what I’m implying, I hope.
And to my surprise he does notice, and his cheeks feel like they’re on fire. “You know if you wanted to sit on my lap, you could’ve just asked?” He builds up the courage to ask.
I look at him with a small smirk and get on his lap like he said. His hands almost instantly go on my thighs massaging the inner corners. No man has ever taken their time to touch me like this, they just fucked me raw. But Heeseung…I’m determined to figure out how he fucks.
Our lips connect and move together at a perfect rhythm. It’s almost as if our lips were made for each other. Heeseung continues rubbing my inner thighs making me moan in between kisses. He inserts his tongue in my mouth, roaming all around. He tastes so sweet I’m addicted to his lips at this point. His lips so soft and plush and they work absolute miracles.
His hands working their way dangerously close to my throbbing core. Fuck I am so into this, I know this is wrong and this will ruin our friendship. But I could care less, the way he’s teasing me with his every movement makes me want him even more.
“Do you want this...?” Heeseung asks carefully before going further. I nod quickly but that doesn’t faze him. “Words yn.” He waits for me to actually confirm verbally.
“Yes, I want this so bad hee!” I whine desperately. He wastes no time before removing my bikini bottoms and starts rubbing my clit. Starting at a slow pace then working the speed faster overtime.
He takes one of my tits and wastes no time before taking it all into his mouth. He sucks on it likes it’s his last day on earth. His free hand playing with my other nipple making sure it doesn’t feel left out. He softly bites down on my nipple that’s in his mouth making me whimper in return.
My head drops back into his shoulder from the pleasure. His fingers felt so good, almost too good to be true. Along with his mouth working wonders his tongue licking all over my tit. The way he was doing so much to me at once made my eyes roll back.
He continues these movements before inserting one finger in. The feeling of his finger going inside me makes me go insane. A fleeted moan exits my body as he plunges another finger in.
“Doing so good ynnie…” he says in a dark huskily voice his voice vibrating on my tit. Thrusting his fingers in and out while my moans get louder. His fingers going deeper inside of me at a quick tempo makes my mind wander to how his dick would feel inside me.
“Fuck! I’m s-so close heeseungie..” I cry out my body squirming all over his clothed cock. Heeseung's swim trunks suddenly becoming 3x too tight from how painfully hard he is getting just from hearing these beautiful sounds come out of my mouth and the feeling of my warm walls clenching against his fingers.
“Oh yeah? Come on cum all over my fingers...” he whispers darkly in my ear.
Those words made me cum right away, immediately coating his fingers with my sweet juices. Part of me can’t believe I’m doing this but the other part of me wants to discover more.
He removes his mouth off my tit while placing one last peck on my nipple and says, “did so good f’me fuck, can’t wait to see how good you’ll feel around my cock.” He takes off his swim trunks and grabs my hips.
He lines me up and I slowly sink down onto his cock. His long shaft going further into me and going places no other man could ever reach. I wait for my gummy walls to adjust to his big size and length before I do anything.
“Okay I’m ready.” I breath out giving him the okay to start going.
He wastes no time before gripping tighter onto my hips and making me ride him. I grab onto the sides of the ledge inside the hot tub and grind my body along his lap. This throws him over the edge, and he moans.
My tight hole clenching down on his cock tightly that he just can’t get enough of. He bucks his hips up making me whine, “sorry baby you just feel too good...” his noises become more audible as I start bouncing up and down on his long cock.
“F-fuck..I’m going to cum if you keep doing that yn.” His head throws back his hands traveling all around my body. Once he says those words I speed up, his thickness stretching me out, but the pleasure gets rid of all the pain.
“Shit— I'm going to cum yn.. cum with me,” Heeseung grunted while his fingers dig deeper into my skin sure to leave marks the next morning.
“How about me make this a little more exciting,” he pauses building the anticipation “let’s do a countdown...” he growled bringing his face closer to my revealed neck. Placing love bites and hickies all over my collarbone.
“5….” Heeseung’s thrusts becoming rougher and reaching undiscovered spots.
Wet moans release my mouth from the way his tip is hitting all the right places. From the way he is breathing and groaning I can tell this countdown is as hard for him and it is for me. “4...come on you can do this yn” his eyes shut close at the extreme pleasure.
The way I’m clenching so tightly on his cock makes him go feral. He doesn’t know if he can even last 5 seconds because he needs to cum now. “Fuck— 3…” moans and grunts filling the area that the neighbors can for sure hear.
But we could care less the only thing we’re focused on is trying not to cum. Thank goodness his parents weren’t home today because they usually are since Heeseung has to go back to university in a week.
“2.... we're so close just keep holding on baby...” he rasps his voice low and dark.
“1...” the moment this leaves his voice is when I completely come undone onto his cock. Along with his warm seed spreading all over my insides.
Our breaths heavy and clothes gone if anyone looked out their window, they would now what just happen. But thankfully no one did, and we stay like this for a couple more minutes before we start collected our swim pieces.
He helps me tie my bikini top on along with my bottoms so we can look at least good enough to walk back in the house. Before getting his swim trunks back on he places a small kiss on my neck.
"Holy shit...I can't believe we just did that— but that was the best sex I've ever had in my entire life..." he chuckles while tying his swim trunks.
"Yeah, me either...but I do have to agree with you that was fucking amazing." I nod agreeingly watching him adjust his trunks and shake his wet hair.
"Here we should probably go inside so I can clean you up..." He grabs my waist and helps me get out of the hot tub since my legs basically feel just like Jello. That was most definitely the best fuck I've ever and probably ever will experience. And I am more than thankfully I had this opportunity before it was too late.
We walk in the house together to our relief his parents weren't home since they were on a business trip for a month. So, we went into the bathroom and undressed ourselves once again like earlier. I would love to do that again but I'm not quite sure if he can handle it.
He turns on the water and waits for it to get warm enough before we walk in. I immediately spot a ledge inside the shower and sit on it. I lean my head back and close my eyes. It's not long before I feel something wet lapping at my clit. So, I quickly look down and see a needy Heeseung desperately sucking on my clit. I smile and put my hands in his hair tugging slightly to give him a sign that I see him doing this. When he feels me pull on his hair he goes faster. Eating me out like it's his last meal but I am not complaining because this man is pussy drunk at its fullest.
The shower filled with echoes of my moans and whines making Heeseung proud to know he is making me feel this way. He is so determined to make me cum again and from the way he is sucking on my swollen clit and inserting his tongue in my entrance makes me almost positive I will.
"Pussy tastes so fucking good..." he groans while thrusting his tongue in and out of my hole. The vibrations of his voice on my clit makes me let out a wet moan.
"Fuck— f-faster! Heeseungie please..." I grip his hair tighter and start riding his face desperately. Heeseung smirks and tongue fucks me just how I asked for.
"I'm gonna c-cum!!" I whine bucking my hips upwards and slamming my eyes shut tightly.
"C'mon darling...cum on my face." His slurps and words being the only thing I can focus on at the moment. Everything around me feels like it's spinning from how good I feel.
I let out a breath and do as he says. Cumming all over his pretty face with my warm juices. "So good f'me..." he licks around his lips where some of my cum landing. Trying not to waste a single drop because he is so addicted to the taste.
We finished the rest of the shower washing each other's bodies off making sure not to miss any spots. But we ended up going for a round 2 anyways due to him getting hard and horny from washing my body. Later that night he had asked me to be his girlfriend and expressed his feelings he had for me ever since he was a kid, and I of course said yes. At last, we understood our feelings towards each other, and I was almost certain this relationship was going to last.
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Ever since then work has been so much funnier and enjoyable when working together because we both had finally realized our feelings towards each other. We spent more time together outside of work and slept at each other's houses very often. Which was basically every single day, it's as if we were making up for all the lost time we could've spent together if we had expressed our feelings sooner. But in all honesty, we were just so in love that we didn't want to go without one another.
But of course, with every good that happens there is always a bad that follows with it. Summer break ends in a week which would mean we would have to separate for an entire school year. I knew it would be hard, but I was determined to make it work and so was he. I just hoped that it wouldn't be like last year when by the end of the year we barely talked to each other at all. But I have higher hopes this time that it will work out since we are actually official now.
Because I will always love him the first time and the last time. Forever and forever till death do us apart. I know he is the one for me which is why it took me a bit to realize it was him. Lee Heeseung. My one and only love. He has proven so many times this as well, he is such a gentleman and we even told our parents, and they were so happy for us. They had told us they knew this moment would come eventually which made me laugh because I had heard their conversations before about me and Heeseung and this topic was definitely brought up more than once.
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The week had already passed, and it was now time to get back to college. I cried the whole day and Heeseung did as well, it felt as if it were too soon for us to leave each other. I knew it wouldn't be forever but it made it even harder knowing our colleges are very far apart so we couldn't just visit each other in person on a regular daily basis.
The first to go was Heeseung since his college was the farthest away, so he had to get going earlier than I did. It broke my heart seeing him load away his luggage's into the trunk because it made me really remember that we're separating. This whole summer we had grew so close, closer than any summer we've spent together. And to know that we're just going to grow back apart anyways.
I feel a small tear roll down my left cheek, the saltiness of it burning my skin. There was so many emotions I was feeling at once which made me so overwhelmed that I just was numb. What I do know for sure is that no matter how tough it will be to keep this relationship going I won't stop trying to make this relationship work.
He slams the trunk door shut quite loudly making me bite my lip realizing it was because he doesn't want to leave either. And is trying to take out his anger on regular things that have to be shut hard in his attempt to try and disguise it. But instead, I see right through his actions.
He walks over to me with tearfilled eyes and immediately wraps his arms around me hugging me tightly.
"I can't leave you..." He sobs into my neck. It hurts me to see him like this and I wish I could do something about it but I really can't.
"And also...I have something for you yn," he grabs out a necklace and places it in my hand, "don't open it until I'm gone, okay?" he waits for me to answer and I return him a quick nod.
He gives one last tight squeeze and long kiss before he has to leave. While opening the door he turns and waves at me while blowing a kiss. He turns back around and sits down into the seat. His driver slowly backs out of the driveway, and I see the faint outline of Heeseung's hand in the tinted window and I give a small wave back.
Since he is gone, I take out the necklace he gave me and take a further look at it. It's a heart shaped necklace and it has an opening; I open the heart and see a photo of us together from a long time ago.
But I notice something about the photo it's the summer of us when we were kids, but the specific day is when he kissed me. I now remember it all so clearly, the memories of us when we were out swimming in the ocean, and he "accidentally" kissed me.
I went out to deep in the ocean and couldn't swim very well so he had to swim out and rescue me. While bringing me back to shore he pressed a soft and short kiss on my lips he claimed that he "slipped on one of the rocks" but I always knew he was lying. Which I found super cute and adorable of him and it's also how I realized my true feelings and really understood who they were for. And of course it was for Heeseung.
I look next to the photo on my necklace and spot some writing on it. The words say,
To my one true love, who made me realize what love is actually like. I’ve always liked you more than you ever knew. In the end I’ve always wanted it to be. I love you so much yn. It’s you, it’s always been and always will be.
From: Lee Heeseung ♡︎
He went in and out of my life just like a summer breeze.
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eyesthatroll · 11 months
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how many drinks? | luke hughes
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pairing; lh43 x fem!reader
warnings(s); none really, fluff? lowercase intended, not edited. also written in like 15 minutes so kinda bad (might rewrite/re-edit it at a later date idk)
word count; 0.6k (blurb!)
summary; luke approaches reader at wedding reception
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"do you want to dance?" you lift your gaze from the game of candy crush that you were currently enthralled in.
a tall brunette is staring back at you. he looks down at you expectantly, rolling on the heels of his feet. "do i know you?"
the boys cheeks tinge pink, and he runs a hand through his slightly curly hair before speaking again. "n-no, i just, i don't know. you look bored."
his awkwardness brings a smile to your face. you ponder his offer for a moment, the song 'skin' by dijon playing through the speakers.
the dance floor had a few couples on it, the other guests scattered around the room, eating cake or loitering near the bar.
you flip your phone screen side down, and chug the rest of your drink. "sure pretty boy, let's dance."
you lift your hand up, and he take it in his, easily pulling you out of your chair. he leads you to a small corner of the dance floor.
your arms rest on his shoulders, hands crossed behind his neck. his hands finding home on the small of your back.
"i never got your name." you state, the two of you swaying softly.
"luke." he answers sheepishly, seemingly embarrassed that he hadn't already told you his name.
"so, which side are you here for, luke?" you asked, your fingers beginning to absentmindedly play with the hair that coiled at the nape of his neck.
"oh, um, the groom. he's on my team."
you brows raised in confusion. "i didn't know you were a player for the devils, not sure i've seen you on the ice. though, i've only watched maybe a few games so i could be completely wrong"
"i haven't-well not yet, at least. i just signed my contract a few weeks ago." he says.
"that's exciting," you begin. "leaving college, i presume?" you're not sure if your questions are too personal, but luke makes no moves to ward them off.
luke gives you a bittersweet, close lipped smile. "yeah."
"that's got to be hard, leaving your friends?"
he tilts his head, thinking a moment. "i mean, yeah, but i'll still see them. plus, i have jacky, and the rest of team-they've been pretty nice and welcoming."
you nod in understanding. "so jacky, she your girlfriend?"
" oh god no!" luke sputters, his cheeks painted crimson again. "that's my brother-jack. he plays for the devils, too."
your eyes widen, and you kick yourself internally for your assumption. why would he of asked you to dance if he was in a relationship?
" 'm sorry, i shouldn't have assumed." you apologize, shaking your head slightly to yourself.
"no, it's all good! i'm single, by the way."
"professional hockey player gets no bitches?" you tease, feeling more comfortable with him by the moment.
he lets out a breathy laugh, his hands tightening around your waist. "i think i do okay with..the ladies." he trails off.
you mouth an 'okay', and dramatically nod your head.
"just looking for the right girl, i guess." he finishes.
"that's understandable." you agree.
"and you?"
"looking for the right girl?"
you laugh at your own joke.
"no-no, i mean, beautiful girl like yourself must have..suitors."
luke's face contorts into one reminiscent of pain.
you followed suit, cringing at his choice of words. "suitors?"
you laugh at him shamelessly, a big bellied laugh that draws attention to the two of you on the floor, not that either of you noticed, too engrossed in your own world.
luke pulls you closer to him, burying his head in your shoulder. "stop laughing."
mari speaks! again, like mentioned in the preface, wrote this super quickly so not edited/kinda bad but i might re-do it or make a part 2 idk. also, luke’s playing in his first playoff game tmro so make sure to wish babyboy some luck <3
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𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶? | 𝘫.𝘰
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pairing: jenna ortega x fem!reader
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𝘪𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘩- 𝘤𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘮𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘦𝘹𝘵𝘳𝘢 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳
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you were pulled out of your work by the aggressive tone of your phone. rather than feeling annoyance at the distraction, your ears perked up, and you felt excitement slowly flooding your system. drowning you in a pool of anticipation and fear..
it was a special ringtone that removed your blinders. a ringtone you had set for a very special person. the song continued - just the two of us, grover washington - when you finally moved to pick up your phone.
you held the delicate item in your hands, the caller id taunting you.
jenna 💜
of course, you wanted to talk to her, but you hadn't seen her in nearly four months. there was zero possibility you weren't going to say something stupid
it finally hit you the call would soon go to voicemail, pressing the answer key and held the phone by your ear. "hello?" you answered, truthfully unsure if she butt-dialed you or not.
there was shuffling for a moment before a voice spoke back at you. a voice you didn't recognize. "hi, is this y/n? like y/n l/n?" the voice was nasally and chipper but you could sense a bit of unease on the other side of the line.
"shouldn't you know who you're calling? and isn't there caller id?" you were now loaded with questions. some flowing faster than others.
"dude i don't know, the caller id only says ' baby' with some stupid lovey dovey emoji. " the voice spoke quickly and as if you were in the room with them. you could feel their nerves building. "now is this y/n l/n or not?" they reiterated.
"okay chill, and yeah it is. who are you, and why do you have my girlfriend's phone?" you moved to place the phone soundly on your desk by your laptop and steaming cup of hibiscus tea. the call is now on speaker, so you can focus on your work once more.
a relieved sigh could be heard on the other end of the line followed by more quiet shuffling. the small sounds raised your suspicion. until the person spoke again. "i'm her sister. hi nice to talk to you i'm aliyah, i have a kind of big request." the girl you now knew was your girlfriends younger sister spoke rather quickly.
a soft hum reverberated off the back of your throat as you took a long sip of your tea, aliyah took it as a sign to keep talking. "obviously if you can't, i get it, but... okay, so basically i got jenna for secret santa and your girl is like mega broke so i-"
"do you want me to send you money for her gift?" you cut the young girl off with your assumption. the grumble that came from your speaker indicated she did not appreciate that.
"no, i was wondering if you would be her gift. since, like, you haven't seen each other since 'beetlejuice' wrapped, and you haven't met the family yet, and she won't shut up about how much she misses her stupid girlfriend... no offense."
"none taken, when am i flying out?" your reply came naturally as you were now half zoned into your work again.
there was a moment of silence, which you assumed was silent celebration before you heard aliyah again. "i was not expecting this to work, i'll text you my number off her phone to send you the detail, then delete that text kay? she is like hunting for her phone so... gotta go bye!"
the monotone beeps were heard, indicating aliyah had hung up. you sat at your desk in quiet contemplation of what you just agreed to. soon enough you received a text with a phone number.
as you weaved through the bustling airport crowd, your mind raced with a mix of excitement and nervousness. the agreement to be jenna's surprise christmas gift had been made in a split second, and now the reality of the situation was sinking in.
checking the text message from aliyah, you confirmed the details for your journey. the 23rd seemed like the perfect time to fly out, giving you enough time before christmas to make the surprise memorable.
during the flight, your thoughts alternated between imagining the reunion with jenna and contemplating the box-jumping scenario suggested by aliyah. the image of you popping out of a box on christmas day brought a smile to your face, even if you doubted it would truly startle jenna... and it being mildly uncomfortable.
you approached jenna's hometown, the car speeding past street lights and local pedestrians. a mix of anticipation and curiosity about meeting her family took over. you hadn't met them yet, and being the surprise gift added an extra layer of pressure. what if they didn't like you? what if jenna's reaction wasn't as joyous as aliyah hoped?
upon arrival at jenna's family home you avoided every window in sight. being cautious of jenna possibly looking out a window during your unexpected arrival. your phone appeared in your hand, typing a quick message to aliyah as you stood on the side of the road, trying your best not to look awkward.
a large duffle sat before you on the ground, and a messenger bag slung over your shoulder as you anxiously await a response from aliyah.
"y/n!" the voice was just above a whisper. your head snapped around in all directions in search of the source of the voice. but to no avail, you honestly thought you were hearing things and turned your attention back to your phone. "y/n, turn around you digus!" the voice was there again.
you did as told, turning around to look at the ortega family home. and at the side of the house, you assumed the gate to the backyard was cracked open and a face was staring back at you. you couldn't make out much, given the dark of early morning
"aliyah?" you questioned, gathering your things to move closer to her. the face nodded viciously, her hand ushering you to come closer. you followed, maneuvering past the gate into the backyard of the house, trying to be silent.
finally getting an overview look at aliyah as the sun peeked over the mountains ever so gently. "well, nice to, like, officially meet you," the young ortega murmured as she slipped into the house, you in toe.
"yeah, you too," you replied as you followed her through the house, still refraining from making any noise. aliyah led you to a small guest bedroom at the very end of the hall, opening the door for you when you got there.
you stayed in that guest room 24/7. aliyah bringing you three meals a day, trying her best to be discreet about it. until the day finally came. christmas.
jenna's nieces and nephews were running around the house. wrapping paper scattered around the floor, laughter filling the air. the sweet aroma of cookies and soft melodies of christmas jazz made the environment so much more enjoyable.
aliyah snuck away from the family activities to retrieve you from the room you had been living in the past few days. the two of you walking toward the living room, trying not to be seen by jenna or one of the younger kids. knowing they would blab.
the littles were playing with their new toys, but jenna was seated on the couch conversing with her other sister. the young ortega you were following shot her mother a look begging for help. you watched as she nodded, whispering something in her husband's ear.
"jenna! can you help me over here real quick?" you watched your girlfriend's head whip toward the strong voice, agreeing she left to help her father. natalie rushed over to you and aliyah, skillfully going unnoticed.
"i hope you know this is not the way i intended on introducing myself," you joked, causing jenna's mother to smile. the two helped to hide you as you approached a large box, covered in wrapping paper standing tall by the tree.
climbing into the box, you met eyes with many of jennas family members. this had to be one of the worst ways to introduce yourself.
you settled into the box, you could feel the anticipation building. jenna's family members exchanged puzzled glances, trying to comprehend the unexpected addition to the festive scene.
the lid of the box was gently closed, leaving you in semi-darkness as you crouched inside, waiting for the perfect moment. you could hear the muffled sounds of the family's christmas chatter, the rustling of wrapping paper, and the occasional laughter from the other room.
suddenly, jenna reappeared in the living room, her eyes searching for aliyah. as she turned to walk back towards the couch, the family collectively held their breaths. aliyah, trying to maintain composure, led jenna towards the towering box.
"hey, jenna, there's one more gift here for you," aliyah said, gesturing towards the large wrapped box. jenna's eyebrows furrowed in confusion, but she played along with a curious smile.
as jenna approached the box, her eyes widened with curiosity. the moment had come, and you could feel the tension build. aliyah counted down silently with her fingers, and on cue, you burst out of the box, arms wide open.
"surprise!" you exclaimed, a mix of excitement and relief washing over you. jenna's reaction was a priceless blend of shock and delight. her eyes widened, and then a burst of laughter escaped her as she rushed forward, enveloping you in a tight hug.
the room erupted into cheers and applause from jenna's family, who had been eagerly awaiting her reaction. aliyah stood there, wearing a triumphant grin, proud of her successful plan.
as jenna pulled away from the hug, she looked at you with tear-filled eyes and a beaming smile. "i can't believe you're here, how did you…?" she began, still processing the unexpected reunion.
you chuckled, "your sister's idea. secret santa got a little creative this year."
jenna's initial shock and joy at your surprise presence evolved into a constant state of elation throughout the christmas festivities. the two of you became inseparable, catching up on the months spent apart and creating new memories with her family.
as the day unfolded, jenna introduced you to each member of her family, proudly proclaiming, "this is y/n, my girlfriend," the warmth and acceptance from her relatives put any lingering nerves at ease. jenna's nieces and nephews, initially curious about the mysterious box and the unexpected guest inside, quickly embraced you as a playmate in their holiday games.
the living room buzzed with laughter, joy, and the clinking of glasses as the family gathered for a festive meal. jenna's mother insisted on seating you next to jenna, and as you shared stories and jokes with the family, it felt like you had been a part of their holiday traditions for years.
throughout the day, jenna kept stealing glances at you, her eyes reflecting sheer happiness. she'd squeeze your hand under the dinner table, sneak a kiss in the midst of the holiday chaos, and exchange knowing smiles that spoke volumes about the special connection you shared.
the evening continued with a round of christmas carols, where jenna's family showcased their singing talents. jenna, ever the enthusiast, pulled you into the impromptu choir, and together you belted out holiday classics. the shared laughter and music filled the room with a contagious joy that made the christmas celebration unforgettable.
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This doesn't have anything to do with anything, but i had a talk with a friend a few days ago, about shonen biasis and the way this shapes our expectations, and mha came up so i remembered how so many people apply those biasis HEAVILY into the manga, to the point that they sound like they're looking for a different story.
And one of those things that it seemed to be MOST talked about is exactly bkdk's relationship.
I have seen many times people from the fandom (sometimes really angrily) point out how in most cases Katsuki seems to basically take up not one, but four roles in Izuku's life and this includes putting him in situations that people associate with the MC's love interest, and it is weird that, despite Izuku "having a girl" for people to make assumptions about, he seems to completely repulse any female character that could be the counter part to Izuku's.
And this made us wonder if Katsuki's placement in those roles and lack of interest was made specifically because the author precisely did not want the actions that both do for each other as romantic but a whole another thing entirely, as a subversion for the these classic tropes, as he did by making the conflict between Ochako and Himiko not a "rivals fighting for the affection of a boy" but something that is connected to the plot of these characters instead.
Oh you bet! I am always down to talk about this, because I think about it a lotttt.
This reminds me, recently I remembered a funny habit I used to have with books I read. Like, back in middle school. I used to start by flipping directly to the last page and reading the final sentence. Usually this did not spoil anything whatsoever, but sure enough, by the time I read through the whole book, that sentence would take on new meaning.
So I started musing about what it would be like if only I could do this with bnha, if everything was already out. It made me feel so nostalgic…
Will the last panel be something grand, or something small? Hopeful or sad? Distant? Intimate? A parting message to the reader? Will it look like almost nothing of consequence to the unknowing eye—yet burst with hard-hitting subtext?
Of course I wonder about all the twists and reveals that might be still ahead of us, but it’s kinda soothing to think about how the whole thing could be put to rest. Because then I realize I’m not worried.
For once, this is not because the story is following so many tropes so predictably that I know exactly, in so many words, how it will end. It’s more like the story is a close friend who I’ve gotten to know well enough that everything they do is so “them” it makes me smirk. I'm often marveling at how Horikoshi has managed to pull all this off. How is it that (at least here in the west) people who aren't really paying attention call it basic and cookie-cutter. Even a Japanese animator called it "classic," and this interview shows such obvious dissonance between Hori and the interviewer, just... wow. But it's so clear that bnha has broken just about every rule in the book at this point, so much so that I struggle to condense it into words. I'm like--*gestures broadly at everything*--why haven't more people picked up on it??
Yet we still get bombarded with people saying "it's a shonen, c'mon, we all know how this will end." Um. No you don't. I KNOW there has to be a bunch of people who are secretly frustrated by Kacchan taking up all the roles and getting all the moments. It's not even in a mysogynistic way, because Kacchan is the most anti-dudebro character imaginable. Bkdk's relationship isn't intended for them and they know it... and you know what, I'm starting to ramble. You've heard all this before. The thing I should really be focusing on in your ask is the part where you mentioned how you and your friend were speculating about bkdk ending up as "a whole other thing entirely" rather than simply romantic.
Well, fuck it, I've been biting my tongue, but now might as well be the time I talk about this. I got into a bit of a disagreement with someone over it once and then I shut up. Because it's very difficult to approach the subject without being lumped in with those people who see bkdk as "brotherly" (ew) or otherwise try to push some "crisis of male friendship" agenda, or at the very least without being accused of enabling people to make excuses against bkdk being canon ad infinitum. So let me be clear that I do NOT want bkdk to have an ambiguous or open ending. I want their complexity and importance to be acknowledged. I want them to use their words. I think we may have created a bit of a false dichotomy there.
I am aromantic, and to suggest romantic relationships are inherently the most important and intimate goes against every fiber of my being. I also reject the idea that cut-and-dry gay representation is more desirable just because it is more easily understood by the masses than aspec representation or representation of relationships "beyond" both romantic and platonic. We recognize how ridiculous it is for people to expect Izu*cha at this point, right? Well, the reason they're so confident anyway isn't just because of heteronormativity. It's also because of amatonormativity, the assumption that romantic attraction trumps all: no matter how much focus bkdk get, Izuku blushed at Ochako, so that automatically makes them more "important." THAT is the notion that I want to challenge most. More than anything, I want bkdk's relationship to be fully acknowledged because they have so much more going for them than just attraction.
You and your friend make an excellent point, that it would be very much in line with Horikoshi's taste and the patterns of his writing so far if he chose to subvert the shonen romance trope not just by giving it to two boys, but also by disregarding its premise entirely. It's unlikely he'd try to stuff them into such a copy-paste ending right at the end.
So maybe they won't get the blushy confession, the obligatory kiss, the wedding, the 2.5 kids and a white picket fence. That's fine, we shouldn't pretend those tired tropes are suddenly revolutionary just because they're gay. But don't be disappointed! Without them, we have more room for things that are actually personally meaningful to bkdk to stand out and receive the nuance they deserve: talking through their feelings openly, building each other up like no one else can, understanding each other like no one else can, smiling at each other, embracing, holding hands, rushing to the other in the hospital, being glued at the hip (or even closer), healing mutual trauma, putting each other first in all things. Maybe we'll also get confirmation on Ochako's side as she moves on from her crush on Izuku. You know what other shonen manga took this exact angle as a way of subverting tropes and presenting genuine complexity? Blue Flag! There are so many ways to do bkdk justice.
Even a kiss isn't out of the question, if the right opportunity comes along. A perfect example of what I'm talking about is Good Omens (major season 2 spoilers) because the kiss between Crowley and Aziraphale was not at all about canonizing them. It was an expression of pain and desperation that just made sense at that particular moment. Neil Gaiman was adamant that if it took that kiss to understand the context of their relationship, you really weren't paying attention. I respect the hell out of that.
Recently I was even daydreaming about bkdk getting something similar to the sort of uh, shall we say tasteful nudity, that togachako got, because of how Izuku appears in the vestige realm.
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Ya know like not in an nsfw way but in like a "this is so deeply intimate and soft that I feel like I'm intruding" kind of way... yeah. Because it represents vulnerability and openness and acceptance of someone as they are. And I don't care if people call that bait. It's not. It's beautiful. It’s honest.
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Explosive Tendencies a slow burn fanfic about the readers developing relationship with Katsuki Bakugo.
Chapter four: You study with Katsuki.
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With the completion of the internships, the end-of-term tests were coming up. You sat at your desk studying but couldn't help but wonder how your classmates were doing.
Everyone had gone into a frenzy in class about meeting up to study and being prepared. Multiple students had planned to go over to Momo's since she was at the top of the class. But since you weren't explicitly invited, you didn't want to show up. You still hadn't really connected too much with your other classmates.
You also overheard Eijiro and Katsuki make plans to study at a diner today. Fuck it I'll show up there, you thought. Katsuki did kind of owe you for fixing his hair anyway. Worst case if they seemed super irritated by it you could play it off as if you were just going to that diner regardless. That seemed a lot easier than randomly showing up at Momo's house considering you hadn't even spoken to her much yet.
You made your way over to the diner and almost as soon as you entered you were greeted with an overly enthusiastic "Hey!" that made you jump.
Eijiro had spotted you right away and waved at you to come over. Katsuki turned around with his usual annoyed expression to see who Eijiro had so openly invited to their table.
"Oh it's you," Katsuki mumbled.
"Hey, how's the studying going?" You asked, making your way over to their table.
"Uh, not so good," Eijiro laughed. "Bakugo's trying his best but I think I'm hopeless. Sit down and join us!" He said, smiling at you.
You reluctantly sat down next to Eijiro feeling a bit anxious. Aside from the times Katuski had snuck into your room, this was the first time you had spent outside of the classroom with any of your classmates.
"I'm kind of surprised you're not at Yaoyorozu's with everyone else," Eijiro stated.
"I wasn't really invited, and I didn't want to just invite myself like everyone else," You replied.
"You had no problem inviting yourself here," Katsuki said, looking up at you from his book.
You felt frozen, guess you didn't pull off pretending to just accidentally come to the same diner.
"Ah don't be so mean Bakugo, maybe they can help me. I know you are at your wits end with me," Eijiro said, laughing.
"Yeah whatever," Katsuki grumbled.
"Now that I think about it, I guess I really haven't seen you hang out with the others much," Eijiro stated curiously.
You're face flushed at his words, was it really that obvious that you hadn't befriended anyone in your class? "I uh.. well..." You stuttered trying to figure out how to answer him.
"Hey dumb ass, are you going to chat their ear off all day or are we going to study?" Katsuki barked at him.
"Right! Let's get back to it then," Eijiro said, focusing back on his book.
The three of you studied for almost the whole day. It surprised you to see how intelligent Katsuki was, his delivery was always harsh though. He'd get frustrated easily when Eijiro couldn't pick up on something right away, but you were able to explain in a calmer manner and that seemed to help.
Although, it did still take Eijiro an extended amount of time to fully understand concepts. With the sun going down you three decided it was time to finish up.
"Wow, ok I feel prepared for the written test now! I'm just worried about the test exercises," Eijiro said.
"It'll be fine shitty hair, you worry too much. You'll both do fine, and I’ll finally be able to show everyone how worthless that nerd Deku is and how much better I am than that Icyhot bastard," Katsuki replied.
You sighed, “Bakugo I already told you- I’m pretty sure everyone knows you would have beat Todoroki regardless of him using both sides or not.”
“Hm?” Eijiro looked at you both curiously. “Told him before? You two have hung out before?” He asked.
Your face flushed at Eijiro’s correct assumption and you weren’t sure how to respond. It seemed a little suspicious to say the truth- that Katsuki had snuck into your room three times now.
“Don’t be so nosy dumb ass,” Katsuki grumbled at him.
“Oh right-! Sorry! Anyway… Maybe the test exercise will be a team exercise and we'll get paired together or something! After today I'd say the three of us make a good team," Eijiro said smiling.
You smiled back at him unsure of how to respond to so much positivity. Katsuki just rolled his eyes at Eijrio.
It was striking how night and day it was between Eijiro's cheery demeanor and Katsuki's quick temper.
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Virgil's Gift: An Analysis on It's Symbolism and Possible Foreshadowing
Obvious spoilers for Thomas' newest Sander Asides video: What Makes the Perfect Gift? Go watch it if you haven't.
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So the yearly Sander Sides Christmas special dropped hours ago. (Yippee!) And there's a surprisingly large amount to be said for it to be a 13 minute long Christmas special. In fact, I'd say it's the most story focused episode since Can Plushies Improve Our Health?, and that was an ad for the Sander Sides plushies. There's just so much to talk about this episode. There's the implications of Janus and Remus being invited to play Secret Santa; the mystery to what Thomas' message was with his gift to Nico; the underlying tension between all the sides that reminds us of the angst we've already seen and how things still aren't completely alright and that the worst is yet to come; and, most notable of all, the question as to WHY THE HELL REMUS WOULD WANT TO F*CK ANDREW JACKSON??
But the most interesting thing to me is Virgil's gift to Logan, his reaction, and how it reflects Logan's current situation.
Virgil gives Logan a newspaper, claiming that it seems like something he would like. Logan however, does not read newspapers and is very disappointed by the gift. Remus and Janus make some comments on how unthoughtful Virgil's gift appears. But at the end of the episode, Logan finds out that the newspaper actually has a secret message and is the first puzzle of an entire scavenger hunt, which excites him a lot.
This is by far my favorite part of the episode. Not only is it heartwarming, it also symbolizes how Logan has been treated as a whole, and may even foreshadow future events in the series.
When Virgil gives Logan the newspaper, Logan is very confused, and asks him why he would give him a newspaper. Virgil replies, "Cuz' you're the Mr. Smarty Pants of the group. You like reading and all that." Logan is still confused though. Yes, he likes to read, but that doesn't mean he will read anything. Roman chimes in with Virgil, reinforcing that they think Logan will like it. Logan says, "Is that all I am to you? The reading guy?..." And Virgil replies, "I don't know man, give it a read! I'm sure it has something you like."
This entire interaction represents how Logan has been ignored and misunderstood throughout the entire series. Virgil gives Logan a newspaper, something he doesn't actually want, because he assumes he will like it since he likes to read in general. He made an assumption on Logan's personality based off things he already knew, something Thomas and all of the other sides have been doing since the beginning. Throughout the entire series, Logan is considered the smart one of the group who always provides information and exposition, and little else is expected of him. In ACCEPTING ANXIETY part one, Thomas assumes that Logan knew what his problem was because he provides, "the explanatory exposition in [the Sander Sides] videos because all the other characters are too zany or relatable." And in Selfishness v. Selflessness, Logan is benched after providing information that supports both Patton and Janus' sides because they assume he has nothing else to offer. Time and time again Logan is reduced to his function and the traits that go along with it, such as liking to read. And why these things about him are true, he is far more complex that who they see him as. But, as Virgil didn't seem to care to get him something he would actually like, they don't seem to care to learn more about Logan...
They do care though. And that's shown through the twist at the end. When Logan discovers that it's a puzzle, Virgil jokes, "And you thought I would just get you a newspaper. Tsk. What do you take me for?" Though it appeared Virgil didn't put much consideration into the gift, and though Logan believed Virgil didn't, he did, because he truly cares about Logan. And throughout the entire series, though they don't always listen to him, Thomas and the sides show that they care about Logan. Patton is always nice to him, Roman, while the most harsh to him, does secretly respect him, and Thomas, as shown in the song, "Incomplete," is not only aware that Logan has feelings and is more than just logic, he wants Logan to accept it as well. He also seems empathetic when Logan is disappointed with his gift. This represents how Logan's insecurities get in the way of him being fully accepted. Logan is convinced that Thomas and the sides will only ever see him as his function, and that they do not care about his other traits. This is one of the reasons he represses his emotions, and is shown by how quickly Logan believes Virgil got him a newspaper simply because he likes to read. Though Logan may not realize it, Thomas and the sides love and accept him fully, and Logan needs to see that.
However, it seems that someone doesn't want him to see that...
And that's where the foreshadowing comes into play.
After the conversation Virgil gives Logan his gift, Janus chimes in, saying, "Wow Logan, looks like Virgil put a lot of thought into that one!" He emphasizes how little consideration Virgil's gift seemed to have. In doing this, he reinforces the idea to Logan that Virgil didn't care enough to give him a gift he would like, even though that's not actually true. And if he his doing this intentionally, he may also be reinforcing the idea that they don't care about him.
And Remus soon after joins in, proposing, "Kinda makes you wanna scream, huh?" This is obviously a callback to Logan's outburst in Working THROUGH Intrusive Thoughts. In that episode, Remus showed great excitement towards his outburst, implying that Remus wanted him to get upset. And now again, he suggests that Logan should get angry about it. It is very clear that Remus is trying to make Logan lash out on purpose.
Based off this, I believe that in future episodes, we will see the dark sides, or Remus at least, try to manipulate Logan into believing that Thomas and the sides don't care about him. In doing this, they'll persuade him into joining their side. Perhaps they'll make him a puppet for the Orange Side, or if Logan is the Orange Side, they will make him embrace it. Of course their plan won't work out though. Because even if the do get Logan to join them for a little, the other sides will show that they care. And perhaps if they do, Logan will finally be able to see that, and he will finally be able to accept himself.
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archivalofsins · 3 months
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Let's talk about Mikoto's first two interrogation questions and why I'm super not interested or surprised by any of his answers. For the record so I don't have to go over all this again here is a post that links to a good chunk of what I've written discussing Mikoto already that I worked on with @apatchworkstar.
At least the big stuff. So, people can look back and see how my logic has developed over time when it comes to him specifically. Because I'm about to throw out some hard to swallow truths.
One being
Just because someone keeps claiming they were "Trying so hard." doesn't mean it's fucking true. Secondly, even if it is true that doesn't excuse or give them the right to murder anyone.
So, let's get libelous real quick and drag this drama kings name through the fucking mud.
Sorry, my liege you're getting a bit carried away~
Okay whoa, whoa- Wait, wait! I thought you liked Mikoto. Shouldn't you be happy people are taking his problems seriously and treating these issues with respect. I mean work abuse like any sort of abuse is bad.
Okay, point created to simply allow me to further elaborate on my own train of thought and where I'm at. Yes, I do care about and like Mikoto as a character. That does not mean I just accept when someone is feeding me bullshit.
Literally we've seen everyone else going to the places or doing the jobs that triggered the incident they were involved in. Mu has been at her school since Milgram started. Yuno has been shown working with her clients since Milgram started.
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Kazui has been shown at the bar since Milgram started. Hell we've even seen Futa at his college.
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Mikoto Kayano has not been shown at work or doing his job since Milgram started. There have only been allusions made to his work. The one image we have in Undercover isn't even confirmed to be his actual fucking office and could be a desk in his home that the chair in his mental space and home goes to. So, what evidence do we have that his job was difficult outside of texts he actively ignored that states he left without notice to go home and attempted to call him back in something he actively decided not to do or even respond to as is his right as a working adult?
We would actually have to make multiple assumptions in order to frame the instance we see there as abusive outside of damn that's an ungodly hour. Yet this man isn't fucking special some people work nights and he's stated he's meant to work nights since the beginning of fucking Milgram. That's a part of the company he decided he wanted to be in, chose to enter, and refused to leave.
Trial one written interrogation question six.
Q.06  What do you hate? Mikoto: working overnight / reptiles / violence
He's worked overnight enough to fucking know he hates it but-
Trial two written interrogation question two.
Q.02 Haven't you considered changing your job? Mikoto: No way; I went through a lot to get into such a big company. Even if it's draining, if I work hard my efforts will pay off.
Something he's had no issue stating from the beginning. From the start of Milgram Mikoto's concern has been I better not get fired because of you and if I do you better take responsibility for it. One of his voice lines from the beginning of this literally being-
Mikoto first voice drama 3:46
"I have my own life, you know? And I just got accepted into the company that I was aiming for… If I get fired, you’ll have to take responsibility for that."
From the beginning, through everything he's done and said Mikoto has shown where his priorities lie. It's not with getting home or seeing his family like the rest of the prisoners. No, his priority has always been getting the hell out of here and back to his job because his life plans have been derailed enough. Because his life wasn't meant to be this way and he has things he needs to do to get the life he believes he's entitled to.
Going to his job regardless of how draining or terrible it looks from an outsider's perspective is and always has been a part of and the biggest part of his life plan. He never trash talks his company for how it treats him despite bringing it up in both his written interrogations.
In fact, it's the exact opposite.
Written interrogation one question eight.
Q.08  What’s the most rewarding part of your current job? Mikoto: I mean, it’s the top advertising agency in the industry?Anyone would be proud to be a part of it. I put a lot of work in just to get here, too.
Even framing it like a question like are you stupid- Do you live under a fucking rock??? Is that it? it's the top advertising agency in the fucking industry.
Are you daft warden-
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What's more important than the status and recognition one implicitly gets from being able to work in a company like that? If this place is in my work history and I manage to go freelance later on, in good standing with this company, do you know how liberating that would be. Do you know how quickly people would have faith in me to do what they were hiring me for with this place as a reference-
I mean.
Q.04  Are you picky when it comes to fashion? Mikoto: Of course I am. Nobody would want to ask for anything from an unfashionable designer, right?
I'm fucking tailor-made for business. I live breath and eat this shit because I fucking need to. Because it's a stepping stone for my dream. You wouldn't want to get in the way of that, right~ Oh, that's unlikable I don't fucking care if there's a corporate ladder I'm going to fucking climb it. Survival of the fittest and all that. Though it's improper to admit that as a working adult, you know? If you can't communicate properly that's bad for business.
You can't, for example, go around being angry all the time even if you want to. You've gotta be able to play ball and take a few punches to get anywhere in this world. How do you expect people to want to work with you otherwise?
20/06/15 Mikoto: Hey, it’s kinda a bother having you be so angry and tense all the time. You should stop trying get everyone to pay attention to you. You’re a uni student, right? You can’t act like that once you start working properly. Futa: Huh!? Shut up. Not like I care what you say. Even though we’re in this shitty situation, you’re just chatting away, it’s stupid. Aren’t you the one who’s acting out of place here? ……also the fact you give everyone nicknames is just gross. Mikoto: *sigh* It’s more stupid to be taking this all so seriously. I mean, it’s definitely just a reality TV program. There’s no way a real prison exists that’s this lax. Also, I don’t give nicknames to everyone. I don’t give them to young kids like Amane, or to the hard-to-approach types like Shidou-san. I mean, I’m not giving you one, right? Futa: ……oi, which group are you trying to say I am?
It doesn't matter if your kindness is genuine or not. As long as you're able to close that gap and make people like you then you can sell them anything. It'll pay off eventually you know. Though it's better to do anything you can to make that eventually sooner rather than later~
20/05/25 Mikoto: ……I’ve really got caught up in some trouble, huh. What even is this place? It’s probably a TV reality show or something. ……but to think someone in this day and age would try to do a project that could land them in so much trouble. Uh…… Mahiru: Ah…… I’m Shina Mahiru! You can just call me Mahiru. And you are……? Mikoto: Kayano Mikoto. I’m fine with just Mikoto too. Ahh, I’m glad there’s someone here who’s easy to talk to…… It’s nice to meet you, Mappy. Mahiru: ………… ……Mappy???
Mikoto trial one written interrogation question nine.
Q.09 Why do you give everyone nicknames? Mikoto: I guess it became a habit when I was at university. Having a nickname for someone that only you call them comes with a lot of advantages, do recommend.
As long as you can sell it with a smile they'll warm up eventually. Yet, being disliked by certain people can be social and career suicide you know~
20/07/08 Yuno: Hey, Mikoto-san. Don’t you get tired being so conscious of others all the time? I mean, you’re free to do what you want though. Mikoto: Eh…… Aha, what are you talking about? I’m not being conscious or anything. It’s normal to make sure to get along with everyone, right? I mean, when you put it like that, aren’t you the same, Yun-chan? You’re always smiling and getting on with everyone too. Yuno: I don’t smile unless I actually want to. But with you, when you’re talking with other people it’s more like you only smile deliberately. So I kept thinking, don’t your cheeks get tired? Ah, is this just what happens when you become a working adult? ……you see people like that sometimes. Mikoto: Haha, you don’t mince your words do you. …….that was never my intention, but now that you mention it, yeah, I guess I do. This might’ve been since I started my job too…… But like- If I was rude to everyone I met, all my efforts would come to nothing, right?
Yuno trial one voice drama 7:59
"Hm, what this? A lecture. Are you a believer in seishinron? I hate them more than anything else, you know?"
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Basically, someone who believes that any problem can be worked through by just putting in a bit more effort.
"If I work hard my efforts will pay off."
Ha, ha- Not everyone has the privilege to smile whenever they feel like it. Some people's entire futures are riding on if the people around them decide to play nice or not and it all rides on them to play nice first- You know? Maybe that is what they call being a working adult. Maybe people like this just don't understand. Is it difficult to comprehend~ Huh, is this hard for you warden?
Well, you were given a pretty cushiony job out of the blue. It must be oddly comfortable for you. Judging others from your position and then sleeping for several months. They even provide you three meals a day while I can barely get a lunch break- Ah, jealous~
Guards, just-
"Come to know me as an honest man."
See me as someone hardworking and family oriented. See me as someone trying to show those he cares about that they can do these things too-
Q.01 Do you have a good relationship with your little sister? Mikoto: Absolutely. I want to show her how her big brother is working hard in the city.
See me as a man that believes in the myth of meritocracy. Someone who believes if they just work hard enough, if I push myself a little more regardless of how I'm treated it'll work out eventually. All of my efforts will be rewarded because they deserve to be. That's how these things should go. So, society should recognize and reward those who do good work consistently.
Not just people they find likable or easy to talk to. My work should be able to speak for itself. So, if I just keep working it'll all come together but I can't do that while being held here. How can I achieve my dreams if I can't even get to work huh? What happens if i get fired while here I have a life to you know-
I've been working so much- I had such a hard time. I've even played along with this silly joke- I've been such a good sport, right? Right? So- why tell me why can't you just be a good sport back? Aren't I entitled to a little bit of leniency? I'm a victim here too, ya know! So, why?
Tell me WHY-
It’s the same anywhere I go! It’s like what’s WRONG isn’t WRONG!/ "Why, why-"
"If only I were never born, if only..."/ "If I was gone, If I had just disappeared..."
20/05/31 Mu: Hey, Mikoto-kun, aren’t you scared of this place……? You can’t think of any reason you ended up here, right……? Mikoto: Ahh, yeah. Of course, it’s not like I’m not scared at all. But just between you and me…… I still haven’t dropped the thought that this could all just be a TV show. I mean, I really haven’t ever murdered anyone. ……and if that is the case, we’re definitely being monitored. For like a prank setup or something. Wouldn’t it be super uncool and embarrassing to get angry or lash and have it shown on prime time? Mu: Is that what you think……? A prank, huh…… I hope that’s all it is…… Mikoto: Ah! If that is the case, then you’ll probably be super popular since you’re so cute, Mucchan! There’s a lot of girls out there who make their big break coming off reality shows like that!
Mikoto trial one written interrogation question 3.
Q.03 Have you ever had a romantic partner? Mikoto: Of course I have. Do I really look like I’d be that unpopular?
"Hey now, I saved you, right? So why in the hell are you crying?"/ "Why won’t you stop hurting me? My heart is all dried up. My sorry spells must be wearing off."
"I can't take it anymore..."/ "Why?"
"Why, why, I’m so sorry."/ " “I’m sorry” won’t reach anyone."
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Just-
"If I am a bad girl don’t hate me."/"Come to know me as an honest man, eat your words, gulp them down."
It must be a tad embarrassing to fall for the same trick twice in the same series.
Hold on. It’s not my fault- You knew it, right?
Guards, you must be working really hard. It's difficult to figure out under so much pressure with so little time. I mean you only had all of trial one and the three months after Double.
"Hurting it, holding it down, it doesn’t change anything, does it- Ahhh!"
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"I was miserable, someone please help me."/ "I was having such a hard time."
"I want to feel “alive”, is it ok if I breathe?"/ "All I did was dream, and that’s what you found GUILTY?"
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“I” will save “me”.
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It's no one fault really~
So, why don't we just all get along for now? Like working adults. No one has to judge anyone here. Let's all just get along!
Mikoto first voice drama 3:10
Milgram tells me that you killed someone. That's enough for me. "Why are you just blindly believing that? There's no getting through to you...!"
Muu's second voice drama 14:56
"Anyway… I think you would do good to forgive me. Then Haruka-kun will be safe too. Ah, actually, couldn’t you just forgive everyone? Then Kotoko-san won’t run amok, and you won’t have to think about all the difficult stuff."
But I guess some of it is my fault. Maybe it’s ok as it is./I'm probably not to blame. It's probably nothing. I'm probably just having a bad dream, I need to wake up soon.
The interesting thing about both Mikoto and Es' behavior is that they both blindly believe in systems that leave them very little to no protection or are actively exploiting them. They both believe their jobs to be their salvation. That if they just keep working it'll all turn out right.
That if they just do their jobs without question everything will work itself out. That the only way out is through. Es all of trial two has rationalized the results of trial one by saying they were just doing their job. Following what they were told. How is that any different from Mikoto. How is that any different from Amane?
Everyone needs something to believe in from day to day. Something that allows them to feel secure in their own position and feel as if they have some control over their lives even if in reality they have very little.
People need beliefs to tell them how to function in systems. Yet those beliefs can end up protecting systems from deserved scrutiny. In a way making people complacent in them or leading to them perpetuating these systems without question. Because when people are trying to keep themselves from going under they don't have time to question the powers that put them in the position to go under to beging with.
When you're drowning everything looks like a lifepreserver even the things that will make a person sink faster. People use the beliefs that they cultivate over the course of their lives to rationalize if the treatment they're receiving is correct or not-
It must be a mistake right?
To tell them if their own response to something was justified or not.
"Eat this! Don’t act like you have no idea! We won’t forgive you! You’re the crazy one! Ban-Ba-Bang!"/"If you’re going to break your vow- Here and now, it’s my turn to tear you apart. So there is no second time, I’ll give back the judgment that you gave to me."
Something that makes them feel like their decisions were the right ones,
"What am I supposed to do now? If you won’t tell me, I can’t be me."/ "Maybe, perhaps... or... could it come true... like- It’s for the sake of true love, who wouldn’t lie for that?"
Something that tells them-
It's not my fault.
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I think a lot of people really don't get the Eddie Dustin dynamic. They think Dustin and Eddie are new best friends, that they are equal, which is not the case. Their dynamic is more mentor-student coded. Eddie said it himself he sees the people in his club as little sheep he saved, he never really was their friend. His world view also shaped Dustin's personality. This kid and his friends saved the world 3 times, they consider themselves heroes and yet by society standards they are seen as nerds and get bullied. Then there comes a dude who they think gets it, so they latch on. Even though he is not that different from popular kids who think they are better than the rest. His harmful opinions influence Dustin (I would argue even Mike) that they suddenly ditch their friend, are mean, failing school even though in Dustin's case he absolutely loves learning and so forth. Eddie brought out the worst of them which contributed to the tensions in s4 between Steve and Dustin (along with Dustin maybe being jealous of Robin tbh I haven't considered that way but it makes sense). You can't compare the Steve and Dustin dynamic with Eddie and Dustin because Steve never saw himself as something better than Dustin, he always treated him as someone equal which is why their bond will always be stronger than the bond Dustin has with Eddie. I really hope for s5 they somewhat touch on this. (Sorry for coming in your inbox like this)
Most people in this fandom don't get Eddie, full stop. They completely buy into the bullshit he spews about conformity and "the man", which isn't helped by the Duffers also leaning into it. Most egregious example being the supposed conclusion to Lucas' s4 arc. It's ridiculous precisely because Eddie does begin to learn that his assumptions/"doctrine" is wrong through his growing admiration for Steve and his bravery.
Eddie's relationship with his friends is absolutely not based on any kind of equality. He is looked to as a leader and not a particularly forgiving one at that. More like a tyrant. It's played for laughs but Mike and Dustin are genuinely anxious about how Eddie will react to not only Lucas not being available for DnD on one particular night, but him being unavailable because of a basketball game. Lucas didn't even want to talk to him himself, probably because Eddie has already shown himself to be unreasonable when it comes to DnD and basketball.
It's not purely Eddie's influence that leads Dustin to his meaner path, but he certainly doesn't help. Dustin has always been a know-it-all and cocky, he has a foul mouth, and he clearly has hard set ideas about other people that he finds very difficult to let go of. I think Eddie's main influence is in the us vs them attitude that Dustin adopts regarding the "popular" kids, but Dustin's overconfidence is definitely also because he has cheated death 3 years in a row. Nobody that was real to Dustin has died and he believes his plans are infallible... until Eddie dies following one of his plans. Yes, Eddie made the stupid decision to run into certain death for no real reason, but it is through Dustin that Eddie is connected to the larger plot. If he had just witnessed Chrissy's death and then hid, then he would have eventually been found by someone else and never directly involved with the Upside Down.
The thing I mentioned about jealousy over Steve and Robin's friendship, I think it's something that gets overlooked Way too much. Dustin was very invested in his idea that Steve and Robin are perfect for each other. We all know why they're not together, but Dustin doesn't. He just sees Steve being best friends with Robin instead of boyfriend and girlfriend like he had expected/predicted and that throws him off. 1. He was not right about something and 2. HE'S supposed to be Steve's best friend. He feels replaced. So, he tries to replace Steve. Not totally, because he can't, but Dustin Literally says to Steve "You're just jealous I have another older male friend". Dustin doesn't have subtlety. He's Trying to make Steve jealous and it is working!
Steve and Dustin's friendship was so fresh and unexpected. They're not supposed to be friends, but they are. Steve watches Star Wars with Dustin, Steve does Dustin's hair. They save each other's lives. Attempting to recreate that brotherhood with Eddie just...doesn't work. They haven't gone through what Steve and Dustin have gone through. Plus, you're right, Steve and Dustin are on a more equal level. There's elements of mentor-student with them, but most importantly they teach each other. Steve isn't leading Dustin down a road of enlightenment, he's just hanging out with his buddy. Eddie doesn't compare.
I have zero faith in s5, which I'm barely certain I'll even be watching. The Duffers lean too hard into fan service so they're going to recreate the Justice for Barb storyline but with Dustin and it's going to suck. The Duffers don't think it's a bad thing that Dustin snipes at Steve constantly or puts down his intelligence, because it's meant to be funny. Comic relief yay. The characters on this show are mean to each other, yes, but it's annoying to deal with when we see Steve apologise for going too far when he bites back at Dustin.
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I've considered I've talked too much about Simon and attraction and I need to Shut Up and Move On. Unfortunately, there's actually something I haven't fully talked about yet (alongside shit I have) so here we are.
When Simon says "I never thought I was straight" that is important because it's true. We have been in his head for 3 books at that point, and he hasn't. He doesn't ever think "I'm straight" or anything along those lines, such as "I like girls." He doesn't ever think bout his sexuality at all outside of questions around "gay" and/or "baz-sexual"...
I've found outside perception (as in stuff that's not at all in these books but are present in other experiences and media) coloring interpretation of these books, which is interesting, if frustrating. Stuff that would make one decide "this is what's happening," which makes it harder to catch the thing that contradicts this.
When the idea of being gay pops up in Simon's mind, he wants to resist processing it. "I'm not even remotely ready to consider this" and he isn't. He then thinks something like "I don't think I'm gay, or maybe I am, partly, the part that is demanding the most attention right now" and you gotta remember he's thinking this like... less than 24 hours after the "I'm not even remotely ready" line. I think one might be inclined to read this and say "if he says there's a part of him that's gay, that must mean the other part likes girls" but this is an impulse that should be challenged, because Simon doesn't say that. It's an assumption. I think this might not be considered if one is used to taking things at face value and to more reliable narrators, narrators who are sharing something about themselves that they have figured out. But Simon hasn't figured out anything outside of his feelings for Baz. He hasn't shit figured out yet (including his lack of feelings for Agatha) and he has expressed he's not ready to go there.... so he's sort of negotiating with himself here, not ready to process it but sort of giving in a bit. "Am I gay?... No?... however I realize I want to jump Baz and swallow him whole, surely that's at least partly gay." It's like when he's thinking whether he's jealous of Baz or Agatha. Entertaining the idea that he doesn't feel romantic jealousy with Agatha (he doesn't feel much at all, outside of pressure and guilt and general misery) would have him unpacking shit he's not ready to (he does however act as if he sees her as competition) (doesn't he even say "anyone but him" as in Agatha can go after anyone romantically except Baz while snatching Baz's handkerchief from her hands to keep it to himself? Keeping it in his drawers with his most important possessions and then close by in his pocket?), but he can't deny his feelings for Baz now that he has discovered them either. So he goes "both I guess" and calls it a day. That's also what it all boils down to... he's not ready to unpack any of this, so he chooses not to think about any of it. Which also means he's not reaching answers.
Simon never explicitly paints himself as a girl-liker, not even when one would think he's trying to. I mean, look at this:
"I've always wanted Agatha" -> "Baz is the only person I've ever wanted." Emphasis on ever. It's like he's correcting himself. And when he says "I've wanted Agatha" his example contradicts him. He's imagining himself in her shoes. He wants to be like her. Simon never presents her, the only girl he ever tells himself he "wants," as someone he actually finds desirable. Aspirational, yes, but some of the shit he says about her wouldn't be out of place in the head of a straight girl. (With Baz, it's the opposite, he might frame it like he's jealous of him because Baz is aspirational, but he's finding him desirable).
Simon calls girls beautiful? so does Baz. Cute? gorgeous is more evocative, and Baz says it. "You have seen Agatha" -> he equates the way he can see Agatha is attractive to the way his gay boyfriend can see it, and Baz indeed sees it, because they have eyes, and that doesn't mean it's doing anything for them (other than pressure for Simon. Inanimate objects don't have thoughts or feelings, later Simon admits he didn't either).
When Simon says "I don't think I'm gay," "I don't think I'm gay because I like girls" is the expectation. It's the assumption because it's something seen or experienced elsewhere. But this is not what he thinks or says. Not even when he's imagining Agatha, the person he had a comphet relationship with, does imaginary Agatha say "you're not even gay because you have been with me, you like girls!" What imaginary Agatha says it's "you're not even gay, and Baz is not even alive, and what would the mage say" ... Simon's worries are "the person you have feelings for isn't an acceptable person to have feelings for, therefore those feelings aren't valid, and they wouldn't be accepted anyway. You would be judged, you would be a disappointment." Which is a different problem than "I can't be gay because I like girls. I'm not aware I can't like more than one gender." (what the real Agatha does express reveals that looking back at their relationship, she doesn't believe Simon was ever into her! And, for the record, she doesn't really give a fuck about that, she cares more about her time and her identity and her own feelings or lack of them)
When Simon's offered this option, he's like "hell no, I'm not bi" (knee-jerk reaction) and then he still resists it after giving a valid reason to say he's not bi (dating a girl doesn't make you bi if you were neither in love nor attracted to her, bi is not about who you're dating, but who you can be attracted to, which is an important distinction.)
The only time Simon brings up girls or women to wonder, it's to bring up doubts, and it's not "I haven't figured out yet if I like both girls and Baz" or " I can't like both girls and Baz" but "maybe I don't like them anymore, maybe I never liked them in the first place" and he doesn't think it randomly, but he thinks it the context of a scenario where he feels like he should probably be affected, but he isn't. I mean, switch the order if it makes it easier "I'm not mad about women wanting to show cleavage but do I still like them like that? Did I ever like them like that at all? Or am I a Baz-sexual (only attracted to my boyfriend)?" (the thing that should be sparking a "I'm attracted to women" thought it's instead sparking a "I'm just attracted to my boyfriend" thought. Look at that. When good ol' Rainbow says some variation of "this freaky little guy has not experienced attraction until Baz hit him like a train" that thing makes it to the page. If she had said the opposite I would be openly saying "death of the author and me are old pals" and we are, I said it when I'm like "this make sense like this regardless of intention," but everything I have seen on this matter is like "ah yeah she put that in a, b and c scene." I don't think "baz-sexual" could be any clearer.) For the record, you could be a straight guy and not be a boobs person (Personally can't image being either, and the latter is what makes me think "for the love of god you're not reading that boobs line correctly" like, I can't imagine not being into boobs, but when I read Simon said that while looking at boobs because it's impossible not to, and then literally never noticing them again, he gave me an idea. An inkling if you will.)
Notable that it's obvious as hell to Baz and Agatha that Phippa liked Simon, and Simon never even notices, which I think is indicative of Simon's disinterest. I noticed this with Baz: he's hypervigilant of Simon and potential interest in him and vice-versa and he says "Agatha is the only person he has ever wanted" which is mistaken for reasons already stated, but of course Baz is going to assume Simon is dating for the reasons we all assume dating happens, and he believes in the golden fantasy. Which very likely means Baz has never seen Simon being interested in other girls, and he would've fucking caught it (his own lack of vibe check does not invalidate this, because it applies to himself, not seeing himself as desirable, besides not being interested in people who aren't Simon). Not to be obvious and repetitive but Simon struggles to notice people who are not Baz. He's on the same road! Doesn't notice shit with himself but it's ready to jump, stab and/or scream when the interest it's in Baz.
I try to look and examine my own thoughts and possible biases too, I could be wrong. But this is not me being like "It's not enough that he's into Baz, I must destroy all possibility of him being into other people" this bitch says that! Simon says it. More than once! He fucking invented a sexuality to say it! I think his phrasing (women are beautiful or cute, but men are fit/attractive always, a subconscious thing could be going on) could be leaning into "he's not a girl liker, mayhaps potentially a man liker but he has already met Baz and nobody's seeing the fire of a little match when you're surrounded by a forest fire." But I say that (in a "could be gay/demi" sort of way, not because I want him to label himself but because bringing up labels it's a shortcut to introducing concepts, or else this post would be a book) not him. His thoughts are very comfortable at "Baz-sexual" and [to Baz] "I'm yours" and in not labeling himself outside of that. 
So when I see “Simon likes girls” as a takeaway of shit that’s said in those books, I can’t help but wonder, “Are we engaging this book on its own terms?” because if we are, there would be no certainty in that phrase (he doesn’t even think about sexuality like that ever, not “I like girls” or “I like boys” or anything like that, not outside of “maybe I don’t like anymore or never liked women in the first place,” there is no sureness or positive affirmations outside of his attraction to Baz). If we are, it would stand out that the only times he’s questioning, even if he’s not sure, he always seems to lean on a negative answer (“I still don’t know” in the context of spending a whole scene fighting the notion that he was attracted to the one girl he dated, the girl that it’s recognized as generally desirable by Baz as well, who is portrayed as the prettiest to ever pretty… and he’s fighting it, when it’d be easier and more comfortable not to... except it's not. It's uncomfortable to not fight it. It unsettles him, when Baz voices it. When Baz believes it. Even though he is and has been expected to, when he’s used to want to conform to expectations.)
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What’s interesting is how jimin is taehyungs “soulmate” but Tae never mentions jimin in lives, never really comments on his posts or lives.
Taehyung will mention Jungkook any single chance he gets on posts & live like if he doesn’t he will lose his community.
Jungkook will mention jimin any chance he gets, comments on posts & comments on his lives but rarely Taehyung.
Jimin will rarely mention any of them maybe once in 2-3 lives. Only comments on jks lives, no tae’s. (Only mentioned Tae twice in like 6 lives) (Jungkook once or twice if asked to say he hasn’t seen him/comment about watching his live ect) He mostly talks about suga, Jin, Hobi.
The dynamic is confusing and interesting. It’s like….
Taehyung > Jungkook
Jungkook > Jimin
Jimin > Jin, Suga, Hobi (+ JK)
Jimin hasn’t met up with Taehyung twice now (didn’t wait at the airport, didn’t text or call, randomly posted on weverse instead of just texting Taehyung + didn’t show up to work out with him)
Like is V desperate for JK to appear his best friend but JK seems to only talk about jimin and wanting to hang with him and jimin is mostly spending time with members at hybe & working on stuff. So it’s like what are their dynamics as of now.
I feel like this one is going to be long and wordy and perhaps all over the place. It is what it is. Lol.
Ok, so let's start with your base line @malecsma1a , which to me is wrong when it comes to JM. JM does mention JK. He seeks out comments about him to have a reason to, but also talks about him or listens to his songs or comments on his lives (actively seeking JK out). JM is way more careful than JK, who in an essence doesn't give a flying fuck what people think of him. The only reason JK hasn't done more at this point is because he's respectful of his partners wishes. A partner that at this point in time is not ready to make that move yet. It's their current contracts with the company, it's their looming military service, it's their families, it's the fandom, it's who knows what it is, he's just not ready for that yet.
So JM is cautious and he goes with the easy subjects to talk about, initiating talk about, Jin and Hobi. Suga not so much (unless it was during their promotional period). I'm trying to think when he talked about RM last, and the only thing I can think of is during his Billboard #1 live telling us RM congratulated him. I might be wrong.
Anyway, JM initiates talk about them cause they are easy. Easy subjects, easy connections, just easy. Or, more like safe.
As for JK, ooh he wants to talk about him, he's itching to talk about him. You can see it in this pre-release lives when he seeks out the comments about JK and answers them or he listens to Euphoria and doesn't stop talking about JK. Did you see how happy JM was during his post recording live when JK spammed his comments? It's just that JM needs a reason to be able to talk about JK, cause you know, Jikook are kind of a taboo subject. Brining up JK out of nowhere for JM is a landmine, a ticking bomb, so he's careful. I just wanted to clear that up. If JM doesn't mention JK it's not for lack of wanting to. JK is on his mind just like JM is on JK's.
That's the JM baseline.
Now let's please move on with another baseline statement that you haven't mentioned, one that HAS to be said time and time again.
Not seeing it or hearing it happen, most certainly does not mean it isn't or didn't happen.
That one is lacking in your ask.
It feels like you are making assumptions on relationships based on the very very limited public interaction we are getting from them.
Many a times we hear from the members about messages they have sent each other on their chat group or privately, messages we would have zero knowledge about if not for them telling us about them. How many interactions like that don't they tell us about do you think? I can tell you without any doubt that 99.9% of their interactions with each other are unknown to us. Online and off. And this definitely includes JM and Tae and most obviously JK and JM.
You mention 2 interactions between JM and Tae. The first we wouldn't even know about if not for Tae telling us during his live. The second we wouldn't have know about either if not for JM's cheeky Weverse post and Tae's snappy answer. How many more interactions are there that neither shared with us? We have no way of knowing. As for the airport Weverse interaction, it's obvious that they weren't going to be riding home together, as there were 2 cars waiting for them. So maybe say hi at the airport on the way out or something like that. JM had a skip in his walk, he was excited to get to the car and home (to someone else that was probably just a little more important to him) so he decided not to wait for Tae. Oopsy. These conversations they have on Weverse are for our benefit. They are done for the fans, period. Because again, we all know they have their group chat and each other's phones. Maybe they do it to show all's well between them, because of the buzz about things not being ok, maybe another way of keeping in contact with the fans, Idk.
I digress.
Your bottom line question was about the dynamics. How they have changed? Have they changed?
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Vmin
Idk what is going on, if there is something going on, between JM and Tae.
We know about two times they didn't end up getting together. But we know they were planning to, and at the same time we don't know if there are other times they did meet up.
We can also deduct from those two times that they are obviously on speaking terms.
You are right to say that Tae barely mentions JM. He didn't even congratulate him publicly on his solo album nor his Billboard #1, and that is strange for someone that is his supposed soulmate. But this could be something done in agreement with JM. We just don't know. I do not want to make assumptions about the state of their relationship with near to no information. JK is obviously ok with Tae. And dare I say that I don't think he would be so ok with Tae if Tae did something to badly hurt JM? Because even without seeing them in one frame for months now, JK has made it abundantly clear who his no. 1 priority is, and that's JM.
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Taekook
JK has clearly gotten closer with Tae since their 2020 issues. It's taken some time, and I do think that JM being less available during his preparations for the album and promotions brought them closer still. But when I say close, it's by no means as close as he is with JM. Dare I also say that the kind of closeness is also different. It's a matehood kind of closeness. It's them being those friends that play online video games together, that go out once in a while with friends, for fun, for company. I really don't think there is more to that friendship. Tae is not someone JK finds solace in. The people he would turn to would be first and utmost JM, then perhaps Hobi and Jin. Tae is fun and games. A good distraction when there was no schedule, when he was off quilter, when JM was gone (in a sense, not really, but also not as available to him as he was used to up until not too long ago).
And we have Tae and his ever so often one sided mention of JK (one sided cause like you said, we barely have the same from JK). Is JK the only member he's in touch with? I doubt it. I have 1001 things going through my head right now as to why Tae is doing this. Sadly, none of them are him being genuine. I'm sorry. I love him, but this thing he's been doing, the one that even the best of ours (and I'm not including myself in that group, cause I was seeing it before and not loving it too much) are starting to question his motives about, it feels wrong. And it's not because of him championing his friendship with JK, which good for them, I'm happy they had each other to fall to when everyone else was super busy. It's the timing, it's the way he does it. Maybe if he wasn't so damn obvious about it, maybe if he was more suave, sophisticated in the way he was doing it. But he's not. I think he needs to take a lesson or two from JK, Mr. JM spoiler king and champion fan and supporter.
So, friends yes. Nothing more nothing less. Oh, and did I talk about what the company might be pushing here? No? Maybe I better not at this point. Maybe I better wait and see how things turn out, cause even if this is what the company wants, the big unknown here is just how much JK will comply.
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As for Jikook. Those two are as good as ever. Good as gold. They are doing private right now. Here we come to that ever so important baseline you forgot about: not seeing them doesn't mean they aren't there nor does it mean that they are not happening.
Here's one of the times I've talked about what we aren't seeing and why it means absolutely nothing:
I've talked about this multiple times, but this is the one I found on the run.
Remember back in mid 2022, after they went on a very long break, when there was all the talk about Jikook not interacting on SM, not being seen out together? Remember that? "Jikook have broken up" was all over the place (just like it was a second before JM's album release and JK's "have no mistake I love JM" lives) . Including coming from the usual insecure Jikookers that need the two to prove time and time again they are in a relationship (cause that's how life is isn't it? We have to prove to our surroundings that we are together otherwise we aren't?). Anyway, then we had the Seoul concerts, they were more than fine, LV, omg they were on fire, new tattoos included. Got back from LV and again that roller coaster of them not being seen together not interacting was in a loop. Good thing we had our president of the Jikook fan club to post from Washington showing us them out together. Good thing we had the JITB party BTB to show us the talk about them not interacting in the party were bull crap. Once again, seeing that content should have taught us a lesson - not seeing them initially in the clips and photos leaking from the party (well almost not seeing them, cause we did have that clipet (clip + snippet) of them in the corner JK's hand on JM's waist) doesn't mean they weren't doing their thing. You know, in the dark corner JK embracing JM's hand and all... and there was more. Believe me there was so much more that went on in that party that we haven't seen on tape.
Not seeing it doesn't mean it's not happening.
And before Busan, and then after Busan and before JM's album release, see the pattern?
JM and JK they are intimate. We kind of know it, let's not kid anyone. They have been together for years, they are sexually active, they are a long term couple. Yet, we have never seen them even so far as kiss have we? Does that mean they didn't or don't? I don't like talking about this stuff here, cause it's private, it's theirs, and that's why I'm stopping at the very innocent example of kissing, but I'm trying to make a point here. We don't see what they do 99% of the time, and I'd say since the hiatus it's already 99.9% of the time.
And yet, JK in the past few months, since Feb 2023, and even more so since mid March 2023 (his white day live) is telling us everything (in the way that he can at the moment). He's telling us they are still very much ok. He's telling us he knows stuff that we don't, stuff that he wouldn't know if they were not still very close. He's showing us just how much he cares for JM, how much he loves and supports him. He's telling us they are seeing each other, even if we don't know they are.
And JM in one song, in which he included JK, told us (so yes, the song is for us in the essence of him wanting us to know, but the letter is addressed to JK) how deep his feelings are for JK and that they are forever. JK joined him on that one.
They are good.
They are forever.
They both told each other and us that.
Look, I know you miss them. Miss seeing them. Miss seeing their interactions. I do too. So so much. Cause they are just happiness and hope all in one. Seeing their interactions, seeing how much love there is there it's precious and I miss it so much. But I'm not making the mistake, and don't you either, of concluding that not seeing these interactions means they aren't happening. They just aren't showing them to us, in the content that is.
There are a few reasons that come to mind as to why the company is doing this, although sorry but they are just being stupid. The lack of Jikook content at this point is more suspicious than any kind of content they might have had together under official supervision. For two obviously very close people, whatever label you want to attach to them, the lack of official content is screaming "why the fuck aren't they paired together?"
Not to mention the irrevocable fact that they are the two with the most electrifying chemistry. There is a reason that they used to be constantly paired together. They just work.
The company are the ones pushing these units and they have done so since the hiatus. It's Jihope and Yoonmin on the one hand and Taekook on the other.
The rhythm of Korea with BTS was one of the more obvious to see this agenda and the fact that it was JM and Suga chosen to champion Busan, yeah, felt weird to me.
Was there supposed to be chemistry? If there was, I didn't see it.
Side note: Notice how JM is wearing his special necklace in this official content. He doesn't do that. They are styled for these kind of clips. I do think that was a statement. Maybe not one necessarily for us.
In any case, that is one example.
You want another one?
JM's dance practice BTB is another. We wouldn't have seen JK there if not for JM's comment during his live about JK coming to see him practice. That BTB felt rushed and the JK part of it was evidently highly edited. Take what they show us there, less of a minute of JK being there, not even showing us his arrival (which means not showing us JM's reaction to his arrival), and compare it to the edit of Hobi coming to visit JM during the Like Crazy MV shoot. One pairing obviously being highlighted (oh, for months), the other downplayed.
There is more. All in the name of Hybe's end game. Yes, I really don't think this is being done to protect them. And I also don't think this is coming from them. If it was, JK wouldn't have rebelled the way he has against the company. JK's a good boy, he's compliant as a whole, but he is also a non conformist, and has his limits and he is being held back for too long. There are things they want to do and they aren't allowed to, and what we've seen in the past couple of months from them is their form of rebellion. What they are allowing themselves to do at the moment. JK deleting his IG. Make no mistake, that was his big fuck you to the company. His lives, not giving a fuck. Him supporting JM in the way he can being the loudest that he can under the circumstances. JM showing up in JK's comments but not only showing up, openly flirting with him. This was them saying "absolutely nothing has changed between us".
I told you this was going to be unnecessarily long, didn't I?
Well, bottom line is that I don't think the dynamics between JM and JK have changed, they are same old same old.
And to be truthful, I don't think that the dynamics between JK and Tae have changed either. Yes, they are closer in the sense that when JM is away JK is spending more time with Tae (either online or meeting up). They spend more time together but make no mistake, the dynamic is the same as it always was with those two, you could clearly see that in that Feb live when Tae showed up in JK's comments and then they went live on IG.
There are those that don't like me comparing, but I love to compare, cause that's how you know it's different, right?
The silence moments between JK and Tae in that live were outright awkward.
Then take the last time we had Jikook in a live together - JM's birthday back in October 2021, a Jikook masterpiece, lol. Their silences are electrifying.
It's the difference between staying quiet cause you have nothing you really want to or know to say and staying quiet because you want to say everything but are worried it will be too much.
Those dynamics were there before, and they are still there.
Did I forget someone?
Oh yes, Vmin.
Yeah, I have no idea. Those two are keeping us in the dark. Many think there is something weird going on with them. Could be. Could also be that everything is fine and they are just not talking about each other.
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What makes C-137 Rick different in the eyes of Evil Morty? A simple list.
I had this drafted around when the episode came out and I hadn't finished it, sooooo here you go heh:
This is arguably a pretty obvious set of answers, I'm not making any big deep dives here or anything, but I felt curious enough in wanting to see some kind of realized list of how many ways our Rick is different from his counterparts, specifically to the eyes of Evil Morty, that's to say, within the show, what kind of interactions have made Evil Morty slowly chip away in his absolute ideas about our Rick specifically.
Contains content since season 1, but mostly Season 7 due to the amount of interactions.
Bullet point is the actual list, indented is additional, but optional, context I deemed valuable:
C-137 Crying: Obviously the first would be Evil Morty - through Evil Rick - seeing our Rick cry when seeing baby Morty, even if we don't have that explained yet, this genuine care that shocked E-M this much was only reinforced in Season 7 when Rick, just before going to hunt Rick Prime told Morty he "couldn't go", evidently so that he stays safe.
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This is extra reinforced when Evil Morty and Morty Prime join Rick against our big bad, E-M throws an insult right away expecting the reason for Rick's frustration to be "they did something cool and I didn't" (a jump cut), but no, C-137 only says... "You brought Morty???"
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Evil Morty is a Morty registered within the Council's data base, he's been passed around, probably adopted by various Ricks, of whom clearly view that service as a tool to reinforce their detachments. Even if there is a petty and truly emotional reason underneath the existence of such a program, the Morties in those centers only see the very worst of Rick, because that's who they are paired up with, they only see how disposable they are every single time, time and time again.
C-137's respect of Evil Morty: Right away as S7EP5 begins, and E-M joins in with our duo, he's immediately greeted with what I am willing to bet is a different kind of attitude, one of respect. Rick is not dissmisive of Evil Morty, granted he knows his capabilities, however he even compliments Evil Morty on his journey to fucking off, a life style he very much enjoys - supposedly, but still - this is reinforced the moment Evil Morty suggests the modifications to the fracking machine, one which Rick takes notice of an implements right away, no insult attached interestingly enough.
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That respect is also seen after Rick connects the dots with Evil Morty being responsible for hacking his Portal gun, back in Season 5, a detail which most Rick's would've arrogantly shrugged off by underestimating Morty. I am not saying respect can't be earned from other Ricks, after all he was president, but I am focusing the basis of this on Evil Morty's absolutist mindset regarding how Ricks are meant to be.
Teamwork: Although Rick points out the same logic we as the audience and fans did in theories prior to Season 7, regarding the assumption Evil Morty would hate Rick Prime more than our Rick because he's even worse, the actual teamwork simply plays out naturally, first through circumstance, but then by convenience. Nonetheless in each step Rick is once again cooperative with Evil Morty, treating him like an equal in a way that I think we haven't really ever seen before besides Beth, and sorta Summer.
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I feel it's no small detail that E-M's first instinct after grabbing the Portal guns they were quickly tinkering with to escape the box was "don't freak out", the subsequent lack of freaking out also reinforces all of the shit I'm repeating myself on haha, again list of the obvious remember?
And finally the most obvious: C-137's goals are focused on avenging his Wife, as we well know. This singular detail already places him on a different bracket of existence as Rick's aren't meant to care for anyone other that themselves, even if this goal was the reason that fueled Rick's cooperation, signs of respect and more towards Evil Morty, he still did them... That would also technically place the other trapped Ricks, like Nerd Rick or James Bond Rick, as other challengers in Evil Morty's views.
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This is how Evil Morty finally showed a crack in his absolutist views about Ricks.
"You are a little different, Rick..."
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Maybe I can use that someday...
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Homebound - Chapter 12
Pairing: Alhaitham x f! ex scholar reader
Notes: After the events of 3.5 patch. It is after Tighnari and Cyno visit Mondstadt for Windblume. If you want to be tagged in the story, please DM me or let me know in the comments below for the latest chapter!!! I had so much fun writing this chapter BTW. And I am so thankful for the support and love you guys have been showing this fic. I now have 100 followers!!!! *cue party music* I thought this was the best time to release this chapter. I have been receiving so much love for this (and some hate to but well.. we will focus on the positive). Thank you. Don't relax yet though ;) There's still some loose ends that need to be tied. MNDI please.
Trigger warnings: Angst, anxiety, academic expulsion, death, murder, blood, violence, experimentation, prison, toxic relationships, sabotage, smut, panic attack, mental trauma, institutionalization, depression, HEAVY SMUT, overstimulation, jealousy, oral (female receiving), sex without a condom,(will add more as the story proceeds).
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Chapter 12 - Coward
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Al Haitham's POV
As they walked through the desert at the crack of dawn, Al Haitham was walking behind the group, his thoughts preoccupied with the upcoming journey. He glanced over at Kaveh, who seemed to be fascinated with Benben, the unusual primal construct. Al Haitham couldn't blame him; Benben was unlike any other construct he had seen before. Tighnari, on the other hand, acted like a mother hen towards Jeht, making sure she had enough water and rest for the journey.
Al Haitham couldn't help but think about (y/n) and what her plans were after they returned to Sumeru from Aaru village.
Al Haitham took a deep breath and walked up to (y/n), who was walking beside him. "What are your plans after we return to Sumeru?" he asked, trying to sound casual.
(Y/n) looked at him and smiled. "I haven't really thought that far ahead," she admitted. "I suppose I'll just continue with my work at Dragonspine and help out with the other projects I guess."
Al Haitham nodded, trying not to let his disappointment show. He’d just met (y/n) again after months and now it seemed like she’d be leaving Sumeru again soon. "That sounds like a good plan," he said, trying to sound encouraging.
“Thanks, how’s work been for you?” She asks.
“The same old. Can’t complain much.” He shrugs. “I like having limited responsibilities.”
As they continued walking, (y/n) remarked, "You haven't changed much since the last time I saw you."
Al Haitham couldn't help but chuckle. "Externally, perhaps," he replied, "but internally, I've changed quite a bit."
Al Haitham smiled, trying to hide the fact that her words meant more to him than he cared to admit. He may have seemed the same, but internally, his thoughts were preoccupied with her. He found himself distracted by thoughts of (y/n) throughout the day, and his dreamless nights were now plagued with her image.  Although it may appear to an observer that he had not changed, Al Haitham knew that he had transformed internally. His interactions with (y/n) had made him more introspective and had allowed him to see the world from a different perspective. He found himself using his knowledge to try to understand the complexities of human emotion and behavior, and he was constantly challenging his own assumptions and beliefs. He couldn't bring himself to tell her the truth.
Instead, he chose to use more intellectual language to describe his feelings. "My psyche has undergone a significant transformation," he said, "as a result of the myriad of experiences that I have had since our last encounter."
(Y/n) looked at him quizzically. "Care to elaborate?" she asked.
Al Haitham took a deep breath, trying to articulate his thoughts. "I have been reflecting on the nature of existence, the impermanence of all things, and the fragility of life," he began, "and in doing so, I have come to appreciate the value of the present moment and the importance of living life to its fullest potential."
He looked at (y/n) and saw that she was listening intently. “And what was the catalyst that brought this change?” She sounded curious.
You. His mind didn’t hesitate to answer but he couldn’t admit that out loud. His pride wouldn’t allow him to.
"I suppose it was a culmination of various experiences and interactions," he said evasively, "including my travels and interactions with individuals like yourself who have provided me with different perspectives on life."
(Y/n) nodded thoughtfully. "I can see that," she said. "You seem more...aware, I guess."
Al Haitham smiled at the compliment, but his mind couldn't help but dwell on the fact that his awareness had been heightened ever since he met (y/n) again.
“I am glad for you. I guess in some ways the both of us have grown.” She smiles. “And I am sure this change in you is appreciated by Kaveh as well.” She giggles.
“I wouldn’t be too sure about that.” Al Haitham grumbles as he thought about how he punched Kaveh two days ago. He brings it upon himself to change the topic of the conversation. “It's been interesting traveling with Jeht. She’s certainly kept things lively."
(Y/n) nodded in agreement. "Yes, I've enjoyed getting to know her as well. And Benben is quite the character, isn't he?"
"Indeed," Al Haitham said, relieved that the topic had shifted. "I've never seen a primal construct like him before. He seems almost... sentient."
"It's fascinating, isn't it?" (Y/n) said. "I've always been interested in the interactions between constructs and humans. There's still so much we don't know about them."
"I can imagine," Al Haitham said, feeling a sense of admiration for her curiosity and passion for knowledge.
As they continued walking, Al Haitham found himself enjoying the conversation with (y/n). It felt like they had picked up right where they left off, despite the months that had passed since their last meeting.
As they walked further, the landscape around them began to change. The sand became softer, and they could feel a gentle breeze blowing through their hair. They knew they were getting closer to Aaru village. As they approached the village, they saw two figures walking towards them. It was Dehya and Candace, who had come to greet them.
"Welcome, welcome!" Dehya exclaimed, embracing (y/n) warmly. “I am glad to see that you’re unharmed.” She lets go of her. “Next time, if you want to venture into the desert and I completely understand if you’d like to ditch the snooty scholars, you let me know. Got it? I will travel with you.”
“Hey… who are you calling snooty?” Kaveh glares at Dehya.
“Now now, Dehya before you start riling them up, let’s have them rest for a bit shall we?” Candace smiles.
“Fine. But you have to tell me what you’ve been up to.” Dehya grins at (y/n).
Candace led them to a small house where they could rest for a while. "Make yourselves comfortable," she said, gesturing towards a pile of cushions. "We'll bring you some food and drink."
Al Haitham sat down and let out a sigh of relief. The journey had been long, and he was grateful for the chance to rest. He looked around the room and noticed that there were many artifacts and books on the shelves. As they waited for their food, Dehya sat down beside (y/n) and asked her more about their adventures. Al Haitham listened intently, enjoying the stories and feeling a sense of camaraderie with the group. They were all travelers, adventurers, and seekers of knowledge, united by their thirst for the unknown.
(Y/n) then encourages Jeht to tell her story. Al Haitham knew that the young girl had been through a lot but he wasn’t aware of the extent of trauma inflicted on Jeht. As she finishes her piece (y/n) looks at Dehya and Dehya nods.
“Jeht…” Dehya speaks to the girl. “I know it is hard for you to trust people again. But know this, you will always have a place in my crew. You can stay with us for as long as you like and you are free to leave whenever.”
“Or if you’re looking for a change, you can always join us forest watchers.” Tighnari chimes in. “I could always use some extra hands.”
“You can also always stay at Aaru village for as long as you like, Jeht. I am familiar with your father and he has helped the village many times. We could always use someone like you to help protect the village.” Candace smiles softly at her.
Jeht looked conflicted. Al Haitham could clearly see it.
“All of this are great options.” He clears his throats. “But I believe we need to consider Jeht’s wishes as well. She knows what she wants and I believe she can make that choice for herself.”
Everyone nodded in agreement, and Jeht looked grateful for Al Haitham's words. She thanked them all for their kindness and said that she needed some time to think about what she wanted to do. (Y/n) gave her a reassuring smile and told her to take all the time she needed. They all spent some time talking and laughing, sharing stories and enjoying each other's company. It was a much-needed respite from their journey. Al Haitham’s mind flickered back to the scroll’s he had uncovered about the eternal oasis. He thought about all that he had learned and all that he still had to discover. The desert was full of mysteries, and he was eager to uncover them all. But for now, he was content to rest, recharge, and enjoy the company of (y/n).
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It had been a few days since their return from Aaru village, and life in Sumeru city had resumed its usual pace. (Y/n) had checked into a cozy inn, where she spent her days organizing her notes and preparing for her next adventure. She had promised to visit Jeht often, and had already made plans to return to Aaru village in a few days.
Meanwhile, Al Haitham, Cyno, Tighnari, and Kaveh had found themselves at the familiar tavern, sipping on drinks and exchanging stories. As he sat with his companions at the tavern, the topic eventually turned to their personal lives. Tighnari, never one to mince words, asked Al Haitham directly, "So, what's the plan with (y/n)?"
Al Haitham took a moment to gather his thoughts before responding. "I must admit, Tighnari, I have yet to formulate a concrete plan of action. As an intellectual, I understand the importance of honest communication in any relationship, but I fear that broaching the subject of our previous encounter may only serve to complicate things."
Kaveh and Tighnari exchanged a knowing look and groaned in unison. "Al Haitham, you're overthinking this," Kaveh said. "You two clearly have a connection, and avoiding the topic will only create more tension between you. You need to trust in (y/n)'s ability to handle the conversation and be honest with her."
Cyno nods. “I agree with Kaveh. You let your whoremones get the best of you but now you need to be civil and take action. Whoremones, get it? Whore – mones. Because as per Kaveh you’re a whore and it connects with hormones.”
Tighnari groans again. “Please, Cyno. Stop.”
Al Haitham listened to his friends' words carefully, weighing the pros and cons of their advice. He knew that they were right, but his intellectual mind couldn't help but analyze the situation from all angles. As they bantered back and forth, Al Haitham found himself lost in thought, considering whether or not it was even appropriate to bring up the topic with (y/n).
He wondered if she had moved on from their previous encounter and whether bringing it up would only serve to open old wounds. His desire to be honest and forthright warred with his fear of rejection and the possibility of ruining their friendship. In the midst of his internal musings, Cyno's remark brought Al Haitham back to the present. He sighed inwardly, grateful for the lighthearted banter that provided a brief respite from his inner turmoil.
Kaveh spoke up, addressing Al Haitham directly “You’re a pain the ass. I’ll admit to that. You’re annoying and you’re self-absorbed and as I mentioned before even as a funghi I would have more emotional range than you do. But despite all of this, I never took you for a coward.”
“I am not a coward.” Al Haitham disagreed with his roommate. “I am just rational and I am thinking the best possible outcome for two individuals in a situation that presents itself like this.”
Kaveh rolls his eyes. “I know that one of the topics that Haravatat Darshan students learn is linguistics and I also know that like most people from the Akademiya, you know more than twenty languages but what I didn’t know is that you also spoke stupid.”
Tighnari snickers. “Now that is a good joke.”
Cyno just huffs at Tighnari’s remark.
Al Haitham couldn't help but feel frustrated by his friends' lack of understanding of his thought process. While he appreciated their honesty and humor, he knew that their approach was not always the most rational. He took a moment to collect himself before responding to Kaveh's remark.
"Kaveh, I assure you that I am not a coward. I am simply trying to approach this situation with a level head and a consideration for (y/n)'s feelings. I understand that my actions may have hurt her in the past, and I want to ensure that any further discussions are handled with care and respect."
Tighnari raised an eyebrow at Al Haitham's response. "So what's your plan then, genius? Are you just going to sit around and overthink everything until the opportunity passes you by?"
Al Haitham shook his head. "No, of course not. I am simply taking the time to carefully consider my approach. I will speak with (y/n) soon, but I want to make sure that she is in the right headspace and that I approach the conversation with sensitivity and thoughtfulness."
Cyno rolls his eyes. "Alright, alright, we get it. You're the rational one. Just don't wait too long, or else (y/n) might be swooped up someone else while you wait.”
“What do you mean?” Al Haitham furrows his brows.
“You know you’re not the only influential male in her life, right?” Cyno explains. “How do you think (y/n) got so strong and resilient to survive in the desert? Do you think that was Jeht? How did (y/n) survive on her own till she met Jeht?” Cyno smirks as he sees the wheels in Al Haitham’s head spinning. “Have you heard of Diluc Ragvindr?”
“The current head of the Ragvindr clan in Mondstadt, Master of the Dawn Winery and the wealthiest man in Mondstadt.” Tighnari grins as his eyes meet Cyno. “What about him?”
“Well, Lisa told me that instead of working in Dragonspine over the past few months, (y/n) was helping Diluc with a personal project for Dawn Winery… now if we were to connect the dots…..” Cyno muses. “I guess that explains the identity of (y/n)’s teacher.”
Al Haitham considered the information that Cyno had just revealed to him about Diluc Ragvindr and his potential connection to (y/n). As he processed this new information, he couldn't help but feel a twinge of something unfamiliar in his chest. He analyzed his emotions carefully, realizing that it was a combination of surprise, curiosity, and a slight tinge of concern. While he was not prone to jealousy, Al Haitham was a logical thinker and recognized the potential implications of Diluc's involvement in (y/n)'s life. He wondered what their relationship was and how it might affect his own chances with her. However, he refused to let his emotions cloud his judgment and resolved to approach the situation with a level head and a rational perspective. He knew that he needed to gather more information before making any assumptions or jumping to conclusions.
“Well… I should call it a night. I need to work on this new project. Seeing Benben has given me new inspiration.” Kaveh’s eyes sparkle.
“Alright then, let’s head home.” Cyno nods.
As the night drew to a close, the group got up from their table, paying their tab and preparing to head home. Al Haitham found himself feeling a bit annoyed as he ended up paying for Kaveh, but he didn't want to cause any drama and let it slide. As Kaveh and Al Haitham were roommates, they parted ways for the evening with Kaveh heading back to their apartment while Al Haitham decided to take a stroll through the streets of Sumeru.
As he walked, his thoughts turned once again to (y/n). He couldn't help but picture her in his mind, her hair flowing in the wind and her lips curving into a smile. He felt a sense of warmth in his chest as he thought about her, but at the same time, he couldn't help but feel a slight tinge of concern. The new information that Cyno had revealed about Diluc Ragvindr and his potential involvement in (y/n)'s life was weighing on his mind.
Despite his rational nature, Al Haitham couldn't ignore the fact that he felt a sense of competition with Diluc. He wondered what their relationship was and how it might affect his own chances with (y/n). Lost in thought, Al Haitham continued to wander through the streets of Sumeru, trying to make sense of his emotions and the situation at hand. As he turned a corner, he found himself standing in front of the Inn where (y/n) was staying. It was a coincidence, but he couldn't ignore the pull he felt towards her. His curiosity got the better of him, and he couldn't resist the urge to see if she was in her room.
Taking a deep breath, Al Haitham made his way inside the Inn and headed straight for the reception desk. He asked the receptionist for (y/n)'s room number, pretending that he had forgotten it. The receptionist, who seemed to recognize him as a regular at the Inn, quickly handed him a slip of paper with the number on it.
With a pounding heart, Al Haitham made his way up to her room, knocking softly on the door. He hoped that she was in her room and that he wasn't interrupting anything important.
After a few moments, he heard footsteps approaching the door, and his heart skipped a beat. The door opened, and (y/n) appeared in front of him, looking surprised.
"Al Haitham, what a surprise!" (y/n) said, smiling warmly at him. "Is everything okay? Did you need something?"
"Uh, yes, actually. I was in the neighborhood, and I thought I would stop by and say hello," Al Haitham replied, feeling a bit awkward. "I hope I'm not interrupting anything."
"No, no, not at all," (y/n) said, shaking her head. "I was just about to settle in for the night. Would you like to come in and chat for a bit?"
"Sure, that would be great," Al Haitham said, feeling relieved. He stepped into her room, feeling a bit more at ease now that he was in her presence.
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(Y/n)’s POV
"Sure, that would be great," Al Haitham said, as he stepped into your room.
When you heard the door knock, you weren’t expecting to see Al Haitham of all people. Your heart pounded like crazy seeing him in your room. This was the first time the two of you were completely alone after the kiss a few months ago. You weren’t sure if you could keep yourself composed around him.
“I believe you’re preparing to leave for Mondstadt again… is that correct?” Al Haitham takes a seat by the desk as he removes his ear pieces and places it on the table.
“Yes, I am quite behind on my research.” You were embarrassed to admit it. “I was preoccupied with training and building my endurance.”
“Understandable.” He nods. “It is rather too soon for you to leave, no? I was hoping you’d stay in Sumeru for longer.”
 You felt the heat on your cheeks rising as you listened to Al Haitham speak. You weren't sure if it was because of the lingering awkwardness between the two of you or if it was because of the way he was looking at you. His dark eyes were intense and focused, and you couldn't help but feel a little intimidated.
"I...I'm sorry," you stammered, trying to collect your thoughts. "I would love to stay longer in Sumeru, but I don't want to waste any time. I have a lot of research to catch up on, and I don't want to fall behind any further."
Al Haitham nodded, his expression softening a little. "Of course, I understand. You are a diligent researcher and you always put your work first. I admire that about you."
“Plus staying in the Inn isn’t very practical if I am going to stay in Sumeru for long.” You sigh. “It’s easier to shuttle between the two cities while living off a suitcase.”
“Hmm. From what I hear, you haven’t been just living off suitcases in an Inn.” Al Haitham’s voice was low.
“Huh?” You were confused on what he was implying.
“I heard that you’ve been a guest over the past few months at Dawn Winery.” Al Haitham stands up as he walks towards you. “How was that experience?”
You couldn't help but feel a little caught off guard by Al Haitham's sudden change in topic. You were still processing his earlier comment, and now he was asking you about your stay at Dawn Winery.
"It was...nice," you replied cautiously, not sure where he was going with this. "Diluc was very hospitable and the scenery was beautiful."
"I see." Al Haitham's eyes flickered with something that you couldn't quite read. "And did you...enjoy your time there given that you’re on a first name basis with Mondstadt’ s wealthiest?"
You couldn't help but feel a bit uneasy at Al Haitham's probing questions. You didn't want to give him the wrong impression or make things more awkward between the two of you.
"I wouldn't say that I'm on a first-name basis with Diluc," you replied diplomatically. "He was just being kind enough to let me stay at the winery while he helped me.” You stand up now facing Al Haitham. “I don’t understand all these questions. What’s up with the interrogation?”
As Al Haitham steps closer to you, you can feel your heart beating faster in your chest. You're not sure if it's because you're nervous or if it's because you're feeling something more for him than just friendship. When he asks why his questions are bothering you, you step forward and try to compose yourself. "How is any of this your business?" you ask, trying to sound firm and collected.
But as Al Haitham closes the gap between the two of you, you can feel the tension building between you. His eyes lock onto yours, and you can see the desire in them. You can feel the heat of his body and the warmth of his breath on your lips. The scent of sweet wine fills your nostrils, and you find yourself leaning closer to him without even realizing it.
Before you know it, your lips are pressed against his in a deep and passionate kiss. His lips are soft and warm against yours, and you can feel the electricity sparking between the two of you. You wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him closer to you as he deepens the kiss.
The kiss feels like it lasts forever, and when you finally pull away, you're both breathless and flushed. You look up at Al Haitham, and you can see the desire burning in his eyes. "I...I don't know what came over me," you stammer, feeling embarrassed and unsure of yourself.
“Don’t” He whispers breathlessly. “Don’t think about this.”
You weren’t sure if he was talking to you or to himself as his lips descend on yours once again. As Al Haitham's lips meet yours again, you can feel his hands cupping your cheeks, gently pulling you closer to him. His touch sends shivers down your spine as his fingers trail down along the curve of your body to your hips. You can feel the heat emanating from his body, and it's as if there's no space left between the two of you.
His kiss is intense, filled with a hunger that you've never experienced before. Your hands travel up his chest, tangling in his hair as you press your body against his. You can feel his heartbeat pounding against your chest, and it's as if the world around you fades away, leaving only the two of you in this moment.
As you deepen the kiss, you can feel Al Haitham's hands trailing further down your body, pulling you closer to him. You moan softly as his touch sends waves of pleasure through you, and you can feel his lips curve into a smile against yours.
When you finally pull away from the kiss, you're both breathless and flushed. Al Haitham looks at you with a mixture of desire and tenderness, and you can't help but feel drawn to him even more. "I don't know what this means," you whisper, your heart racing in your chest.
"Me neither," he replies, his voice husky with desire. "But I know that I don't want to stop.”
As Al Haitham pulls away from you, you can feel a sense of loss, but before you have a chance to say anything, he pulls you in for another kiss. This time, the passion is even more intense, and you find yourself responding to him eagerly, unable to get enough of his touch and taste.
You feel your head spinning as his hands explore your body, sliding under your shirt and causing goosebumps to erupt on your skin. You can feel his arousal pressing against you, and it only serves to fuel your desire for him even more.
Your hands roam over his body, tracing the contours of his muscles and feeling the heat of his skin against your fingertips. You can feel his hands exploring your curves, his touch sending shivers of pleasure through your body.
As the kiss deepens, you feel as though you're losing yourself in the moment. All you can think about is the feel of his lips against yours, the warmth of his body pressed against yours, and the overwhelming desire that's building inside you.
You can't remember ever feeling so consumed by someone, so lost in the moment, and it's both exhilarating and terrifying at the same time. But as Al Haitham pulls away from you again, his eyes filled with a mix of desire and tenderness, you know that you want more.
"I need you," you whisper, your voice husky with desire as you take off your shirt, hoping he’d take the hint.
As you remove your shirt, Al Haitham's eyes widen slightly, his gaze traveling over your bare skin. You can see the desire in his eyes intensify, and your heart races with anticipation as he reaches out to cup your face with one hand.
His touch is gentle and tender as he leans in to pepper kisses along your neck. You gasp softly as his lips brush against your skin, sending shivers down your spine. His touch is electric, and you can feel the heat of his body against yours as he continues to kiss you.
You close your eyes, lost in the sensation of his lips on your skin, and you can feel your desire building with each passing moment. His touch is so intense, so overwhelming, that you can't help but surrender to him completely.
As he continues to kiss you, you feel your body responding to him eagerly, and you can feel your arousal building with each passing moment. You moan softly, unable to contain the pleasure that he's bringing you, and you can feel his lips curve into a smile against your skin.
As Al Haitham's lips continue to work their way down your neck, you feel his big palms cupping your bare breasts, sending a deep need of being touched shooting through you. Your nipples are hard under his ministrations, and you hold back moans of pleasure as he continues to explore your body with his hands.
You can feel his fingers tracing the curve of your breasts, teasing your nipples with gentle strokes. The sensation is electric, and you can feel the heat of your desire building with each passing moment. You arch your back, pressing your body closer to his. “You react so well.” He whispers.
His touch is so intense, so overwhelming, that you can't help but surrender to him completely. You let out a soft moan as he begins to massage your breasts, his touch sending waves of pleasure through your body. You can feel your arousal building to a fever pitch, and you can't help but crave more of his touch. But as Al Haitham continues to touch you, to explore your body with his hands and lips, you know that you want more. You want him to take you, to claim you completely, and you can feel the heat of your desire burning inside you like a flame.
“Haitham…” You gasp as you feel his tongue brush over your nipple.
“Hmm?” He stops to look at you.
“I want to touch you too.” You tug at his shirt.
Al Haitham smiles at your request, his eyes filled with desire. He quickly removes his shirt, revealing his toned torso, and you run your hands over his chest, feeling the warmth of his skin against your fingertips. You can feel the hardness of his muscles under your touch, and you can sense his desire growing as you explore his body with your hands. You gently push him to your bed, straddling yourself on top of him as you felt his smooth skin that covered his hard muscles.
As you continue to touch him, Al Haitham leans in to kiss you again, his lips hungry and demanding. You can feel the passion building between you, and you know that you both want more. With a sense of urgency, you begin to unbutton his pants, eager to feel him against you.
As you continue to explore Al Haitham's body with your hands, you can feel the heat of your desire growing. You lean in to kiss him, your lips meeting his with a hunger that can't be denied. His tongue meets yours eagerly, and you can feel the passion building between you as your hands continue to roam over his bare skin. You can't get enough of him, and you begin to kiss him everywhere you can, trailing your lips over his collarbone, up his neck, and to his ear. You nibble gently on his earlobe, savoring the way he responds to your touch.
As you continue to kiss him, you can feel his body responding to you eagerly, and you can feel his arousal growing beneath your touch. You reach down to stroke him, feeling his hardness against your fingertips, and you can't help but feel elated with how he responds to your touch.
Al Haitham's hands move to your hips, pulling you closer to him as you continue to explore each other's bodies. You can feel his need for you, and you know that you want him just as much. You straddle him, feeling his arousal pressing against you, and you can feel your own desire building to a fever pitch.
As you moved your hips against Al Haitham's hardness, you could feel the wetness between your legs growing. Even though your cunt was still clothed, the friction of your movements against him was enough to make you feel like you were on fire. You could sense the desire building inside of you, and you knew that you wanted him more than anything.
As you continued to move your hips, you could hear Al Haitham groan with pleasure. He could feel the wetness of your desire against him, and it only fueled his own arousal. You could feel him getting harder against you, and you knew that he wanted you just as badly as you wanted him.
With a sense of urgency, you began to grind your hips against him, savoring the way that his hardness pressed against you. You could feel your own wetness growing, and you knew that you were close to the edge. Al Haitham's hands moved to your ass, pulling you closer to him as you continued to move against him, the heat of your desire building to a fever pitch.
Finally, you couldn't take it anymore. You leaned in to kiss Al Haitham passionately, your body wracked with pleasure as you came against him, your wetness coating his clothed erection. Al Haitham groaned with pleasure, his hands gripping your ass tightly as he felt your wetness against him. You collapsed against him, your body still quivering with pleasure as he held you close.
You feel him lay you against the bed as he kisses you gently, waiting for you to come down from your high. As you lay there, still catching your breath, Al Haitham's kisses trail down your neck and chest, leaving a trail of fire in their wake. His hands move to your pants, slowly unbuttoning them and pulling them down your legs, along with your underwear. You feel exposed and vulnerable under his gaze, but also incredibly aroused. He stares at your nakedness, taking in the sight of your glistening pussy. "You're dripping," he says with a low growl, his eyes dark with desire. His finger brushes against your slick slit as proof.
You moan softly, feeling a surge of desire rush through you. "Please," you whisper, "I need you."
Al Haitham smiles, his fingers trailing down your thighs. "I'm right here," he murmurs.
He leans in to kiss your inner thighs, his lips and tongue leaving wet trails along your skin. You moan softly, your body responding eagerly to his touch. His hands move up your body, his fingers tracing patterns on your skin as he kisses his way towards your center.
Al Haitham's lips and tongue explore every inch of your inner thighs, sending shivers of pleasure through your body. You gasp as his thumb brushes against your sweet spot, your clit, and continues to rub on it with just the right amount of pressure. Your head falls back as you writhe under his touch, moaning his name in ecstasy.
As his fingers join in, slowly inserting two fingers inside you, you feel like your body is being consumed by electricity. The pleasure shoots through you like lightning, and you crave more of his touch. Al Haitham's fingers move in and out of you at a tantalizing pace, hitting every spot inside you that drives you wild. As Al Haitham continued to move his fingers inside you, you could feel the pressure building once again. You were so close to the edge, and you knew that you were going to come again. You writhed against his touch, your body desperate for release.Finally, it was too much to bear. You came hard, your body wracked with pleasure as you cried out his name. Al Haitham's fingers continued to move inside you, prolonging your pleasure as you rode out your orgasm.
As you lay there, panting and gasping for breath, you knew that you had never felt anything like this before. Al Haitham had awakened a desire in you that you had never known existed. You see him lick his fingers and smile devilishly. He spreads your legs open blowing softly on your clit. You writhe under his touch, unsure if you want him to stop or to continue. The intensity of his touch and the pleasure coursing through your body is almost too much to handle, but at the same time, you can't get enough. You look down at him with pleading eyes, begging him to continue.
Al Haitham just smirks up at you before diving in between your legs once again. His tongue flicks against your clit, sending jolts of electricity through your body. You moan loudly, your fingers clutching at the sheets beneath you as you try to hold on to your sanity.
Al Haitham's tongue explores every inch of your folds, swirling around your entrance before returning to your clit. His fingers join in on the action, slipping inside you once again as his tongue works its magic. The dual stimulation is almost too much to bear, but you can't help but let yourself go, surrendering to the pleasure.
You feel the pressure building once again, and you know that you're going to come again. Al Haitham senses it too, and he intensifies his touch, his tongue and fingers working in perfect harmony. Your body tenses, and then you come, hard and fast. Your back arches off the bed as you cry out his name.
But Al Haitham doesn't stop. He continues to pleasure you with his tongue, driving you towards yet another orgasm. Your body responds eagerly, the pleasure building once again until you're screaming his name as you come yet again. And yet, he doesn't stop. He continues to push you over the edge, your body wracked with pleasure as you experience another orgasm.
Finally, when you're completely spent, Al Haitham pulls away, a satisfied smile on his face. You're left gasping for breath, your body still tingling with pleasure. You look up at him, and you finally understand that he was being serious when he said he was knowledgeable on the art of giving pleasure.
Al Haitham looks down at you with a smirk, his eyes filled with desire. "You're such a good girl," he nods, his voice low and husky.
You feel a shiver run down your spine at his words, your body still tingling with pleasure. "I don't know if I can handle anymore," you admit, your voice barely above a whisper.
“I know you can… just one more… please.” His eyes sparkle with desire. “One more, (y/n)..”
You nod. “Go easy on me, please…” You pant. “You’re too much.”
But Al Haitham doesn't seem to hear you. Instead, he presses his hard length against your wet folds, teasing you as he strokes the tip of his dick against your clit and down to your opening. You whimper and push your hips against him, but he pins them down, his eyes locked on yours.
"Please," you moan, your body craving his touch.
Al Haitham grins wickedly. "Say it," he commands, his voice thick with desire.
"Please, Al Haitham," you beg, "make me come again."
He doesn't need to be asked twice. With a groan, he spreads you open, his fingers tracing patterns on your skin as he rubs his erection against your clit, sending jolts of pleasure through your body. You writhe under his touch, your body eager for release.
As he finally slips inside you, your body explodes with pleasure once again. Al Haitham praises you with every thrust, calling you a good girl and telling you how much he loves making you come.
Al Haitham thrusts in and out of you, his cock making squelching sounds as you drip down all over him. You try to ask him to slow down, but you've lost all sense of clarity due to the overwhelming pleasure building up inside you. His cock fills you up to the brim, making you feel so full and satisfied. His thrusts become rough and animalistic, driving you towards another mind-blowing orgasm. You feel something coil inside your stomach, aching to be released.
"Oh, Al Haitham," you moan, your voice trembling with desire. "I can't... I can't take it anymore."
But he doesn't listen. Instead, he pounds into you harder and faster, his hands gripping your hips as he takes you to the edge once again. You scream his name as you come undone, breaking under him and the pleasure he's giving you. Your cunt spasms around him, milking him as he releases his hot seed deep inside you with a guttural moan. You both collapse onto the bed, spent and breathless.
Al Haitham pulls out of you and rolls onto his back. You pant, trying to catch your breath still high from the pleasure you just received. You could feel the exhaustion, the euphoria and heat in your body. You feel the weight on your bed shift as Al Haitham gets up and helps himself to the bathroom. You hear the sound of water running from the tap, the steady flow of it providing a calming background noise to your thoughts. You're still trying to process what just happened between you and Al Haitham, your mind consumed with the intensity of the experience.
As you lay there lost in thought, you hear footsteps coming from the bathroom. Al Haitham climbs onto the bed again, and you feel him spread your legs and clean your cunt with a damp cloth. You moan softly at the sensation, your body still sensitive from the intense pleasure it just experienced.
Al Haitham speaks up, his voice breaking the silence. "As much as I would like to go on all night, I don't think you're ready for it yet," he says.
Although it sounded tempting, your body screamed in protest. You nod, still trying to catch your breath. "I don't think I can handle much more," you admit, your voice weak and trembling.
He looks at you with concern, "Are you okay?"
You nod again, "Yes, just exhausted."
After a moment, he clears his throat awkwardly. "I'm sorry," he says, his voice hesitant. "I wanted to avoid it, but then you clenched around me unexpectedly, and I couldn't..."
You can't help but laugh at his words, finding his concern endearing. "It's okay, Al Haitham," you reassure him, your voice still breathless. "I take contraceptive potions to regulate my menstrual cycle regularly, so there's no need to worry."
He nods, relieved, and leans over to switch off the lamps, enveloping you both in the darkness of the room. You feel a sense of relief wash over you as he pulls you up to the headboard of the bed and places a pillow under your head. You feel a blanket being placed over you. Exhausted, you only sigh in contentment. You hear the white haired scholar chuckle. Al Haitham wraps his arm around your waist, pulling you close to his body, and you feel his warmth and comfort. You let yourself sink deeper into the softness of the bed, your body molding into Al Haitham's embrace. You take in the scent of his skin, the warmth of his breath on your neck, and the sound of his heartbeat, all of which were bringing you comfort. It felt like you were in a cocoon, safe and protected from the outside world. You couldn't help but feel grateful for this moment, for the intimacy that the two of you had shared.
As you drift off into a deep sleep, your mind is filled with thoughts and questions about what had just happened, and what would happen next. You knew you had to address this with him in the morning. Would you even find him in the morning? You didn’t know but right now you were too exhausted to think.  But for now, you let yourself sink into the comfort and safety of Al Haitham's embrace, and you drift off into a peaceful sleep.
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m3r1m4r5u333 · 10 months
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Oh my. I've obsessed over the Ana-visits-the-fire-station-scene before but I hadn't even realised how much Eddie really keeps staring at Buck until today when I watched it super slow. I wanted still pictures to really showcase where Eddie is looking and how many times his gaze returns to Buck, but the picture limit makes that impossible.
Anyway, Eddie is absolutely staring and struggles to stop. There was even this one sliding shot where the frame first includes both Buck and Ravi about equally much... But then it's like Eddie's eyes just can't stop drifting more and more on Buck - so the shot that's obviously Eddie's POV just wanders more and more to the left, towards Buck, until Ravi almost disappears from the frame.
Okay, I've skipped the very beginning, Ana arriving (+ Eddie kissing her cheek like Ana's his abuelita or something) and bringing three salads to Eddie.
Buck runs up to them, calls Chris their new chief and lifts him up to hug him. It's a tight, long hug, like they haven't seen in a while and Buck has really missed him. Buck asks Christopher how he is.
Let's focus on Eddie's reactions.
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(Looks like he's thinking: They're so cute together.. Buck is so good with him. 🥰)
Buck asks Chris how he is. Eddie gathers his wits, well kinda, and introduces Chris to Ravi... Eddie also forgets to introduce Ana to Ravi. Pays no attention to Ana.
Chris asks Ravi if he's a firefighter. Ravi tells Chris that he's a probationary firefighter. Chris asks him if he did something wrong. Buck (who was quite ridiculously invested in Ravi's training) quips "constantly!", then smiles. Eddie looks at Buck...
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And finds that hilarious, ducks his head and smiles to himself like he's remembering something....
And then he just keeps grinning like a besotted fool, totally in a world of his own. Ana and Ravi are waiting for Eddie to introduce them to each other, it becomes awkward.
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Finally Ana just goes "I'm Ana!" which startles Eddie out of his daydreams. Eddie's gaze drifts to Buck who is frowning like "wtf Eddie?"
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Eddie quickly looks away.
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... And then Eddie just needs to look again...
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(Right then Ravi assumes that Ana is Eddie's wife and Christopher quips "not yet!" to Ravi's assumption. Ana and Eddie lose their smiles...)
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(My headcanon: No, how could I marry her when I don't love her, I'd be happier with...)
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Oh. Buck.
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Like arranging a cherry on top of the cake Ana then says:
"So... Even in the darkness this place is amazing."
Not that we see her say it because Eddie's attention is once again on Buck, looking back at Eddie, in the dark room...
Eddie, panicking, delegates Ana's fire station tour to Ravi, then Eddie's eyes again seek Buck's and linger on Buck while Eddie mutters that he'll "put these up there" (salads Ana brought),
then Eddie, eyes flitting between Ana and Buck, rambles "I don't want these things to wilt!" and skedaddles.
...
If there's a heterosexual explanation to this all then I can't fucking find it!!
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djljpanda · 7 months
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Hydrogen Anon, I know I'm back rather quickly, but I'm gonna talk about Creme Republic in the Self Aware AU because it's my favourite location in the game.
Some Cookie Odyssey Spoilers--
The Creme Republic would probably first take notice of Gingerbrave and company sometime around Chapter 10, possibly before, seeing as at the start of Cookie Odyssey, it's established they had tabs on the Ancient Heroes. Though the small group of people with access to this information would all be rather confused..
How are a group of young teens with a thief no less, able to go to all these locations and manage this?? So they keep even closer eyes on the group, maybe even sending some cookies to watch them in their travels. This is when they find out about MC, which is seemingly this mysterious sentient being, hiding away, yet advising them every time they get into a fight..
Weird.
I also imagine that if MC ever ends up in Earthbread by some ridiculous circumstance, this would probably be a very, not bad per se.. (there is duskgloom and beast yeast after all). But just not great place to land in. You're in a city with no money, and people are giving you weird looks because you clearly aren't from here and don't know where you're going.
(Going thru some characters) - beware very ooc.
I feel like Clotted Cream would just be completely thrown for a loop, it kind of made sense until he was told that the cookies had never actually heard this figure "speak", MC just guided them into a battle formation and then they'd win. It sounds completely ludicrous. I think that CCC wouldn't suspect MC to be a higher power initially, but would suspect MC, whatever they were, had some level of strategic genius to lead a group that effectively, all while never actually being seen.
Financier and Madeleine don't initially think MC is a celestial or anything, that's jumping the gun a little, in fact when the Council of Heroes happens they find MC a little unnerving, MC has eyes everywhere, nobody can see them, and they never say anything. MC just keeps watching. By the time Ch.2 and 3 roll around they get convinced though. MC literally guided all of them, helping in fighting the masked cookies, as well as defending the republic when DE attacked, when they finally witness MCs bizarre guidance in person they walk away with a really different perception, MC being some kind of celestial isn't completely impossible.
When news of the weird entity reaches the elders, they've all got radically different perceptions of MC, (I won't go thru them all it will take forever) - I think Caviar wouldn't care in the slightest what they were, if they really are some higher power, and so far, mute, they probably won't be telling anyone anytime soon, speculation is fine, but the more important issue is if they're a threat or not, and so far, despite their suspicious demeanor they haven't *really* done anything bad.
Honestly I have no idea where Oyster would stand on this, wherever she stands though, she probably keeps her opinion very secretive, though. Or holds off on making assumptions until they have more information.
I'll do Expresso too, screw it. He subscribes to the belief that you're a cookie with incredibly powerful magic, plain and simple. (I could also see him not caring either, but in this case I imagine curiousity getting the better of him).
Though--out of the lot he finds MC the most unnerving, for exactly that reason. If they are a cookie, why do they never show themselves or speak, even in emergencies??
I hope you liked my *very* out of character rambles about the Creme Republic, use these HC how you want, they aren't very good lmfao.
Hello again Hydrogen, welcome back.
I do believe that CCC are very confused about Mc and want to find some understanding not liking how they know nothing of them.
I think when Mc first landed in Earthbread I felt like everyone at first could see them but for right now so unknown things happen where they are not invisible but only those they chose can see them.
And I think that the Mc can talk but when that unknown thing happened it kind of messed up their way of speaking. Kind of like tinkerbell where all you hear are bells when she speaks or they don't need to say anything but yet they still know what they are saying, or some form of sign language.
Just imagine those cookies shocked and confused when they see Mc leading them to battle. But I think Mc really cares about the main squad as to them they are also confused about this new place.
But I do think after Mc helps out with fighting the masked cookies more about their existence started to be talked about.
I do like your self aware hc better than what I can do, does make me want to write oneshots.
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firelxdykatara · 2 months
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you go on and on about people already hating on the show (which, fair, we haven't seen it yet, although from things being cut to wanting to appeal to got viewers i understand where the sentiment is coming from), but you are doing the same thing on the other end of the spectrum. why are you so hellbent on defending a show you also haven't seen yet? and bryke leaving the project is not really a sign for good things to come, since they also left shyamalan's production
First of all, Bryke leaving was amazing news for the project, and it was the first time that I found myself feeling actual optimism for the live action since it was announced. And secondly, they were very positive about the movie before the waves of criticism hit and they fucked off to throw Shyamalan under the bus about it and pretend it had nothing to do with them. They were Executive Producers on that shitshow and it's amazing to me that they managed to escape with so little accountability, despite the mess they made of the world of Avatar in all subsequent canonical materials (the comics and LoK in particular).
Thirdly, I'm not actually 'doing the same thing', because what I'm doing is pointing out how ridiculous the over-the-top criticisms thus far have been--what I have not been doing is making up my own idea of what the show will contain and reacting to it as if it has already come out and proven me correct.
In fact, I've said multiple times that I don't know if the show will be good, or if it will handle the story beats and character arcs it chose to alter well--I'm just not willing to completely write it off sight-unseen based on some out of context quotes pulled from an interview I didn't read. (In fact, I did read the interview, and I came out of it thinking that the biggest stumbling block to my personal enjoyment of the show may well be just how closely they attempted to stick to the source material. Albert Kim is a lot more reverent of it than I feel it actually deserves. But I'm still feeling optimistic!)
That said, the biggest reason I'm being so doggedly optimistic about the show is that I really want it to be good--at this point, not just to spite Bryke (though that's part of it), but also because there are so many people of color involved in the show now (not just the cast, but the show runners/writers/directors too!) and I want this to ultimately be a feather in all of their caps that could launch them to full and bright careers in the future. (Especially the kids!)
But my optimism is based on hopes for what could be in the future, not assumptions on what will be based on some very vague interview responses, and that's the difference between me and the haters.
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melonteee · 2 months
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sometimes in your vid essays when you briefly diverge into the topic of powerscaling and such I find it hilarious in regards to One Piece specifically because that series is so allergic to that kind of discussion. like as someone who's well-versed in regards to How Powerscaling Works, OP straight up does not give numbers the way other series do and if you go to any powerscaling type wiki/website their OP pages are in fact just born from a million assumptions. One Piece will have a dude say "Im Big Dick McGee" and do one insanely cool thing that has everyone freaking out and powerscalers will be pulling their hair out because *they can't quantify that shit* and have to make a million assumptions as to how strong OP characters really are.
And i feel like Oda has the same mindset because he introduced the doriki system as an actual Power Scale System in water seven and then threw it the hell away mid arc with no reference to it ever again and YET because it's the single point of actual in-series power measuring youll find forums today still using it to make 15 more follow-up assumptions for characters in the current canon. no one can handle the silly goofines of this whole thing and thats not even counting how OP powerlevel discussions become lore discussions too bc how are they going to account for everyone being superhuman due to their planet being far more massive and thus having stronger gravity.
its so hilarious no other shonen could ever resist not introducing a consistent powerscaling system for 2+ decades
EXACTLY DFGHJKDF this is why I've been SAYING you can call One Piece a battle shonen all you want, because there ARE battles in it, but Oda so CLEARLY puts narrative over ANY sort of power system. Every time someone asks Oda any battle relevant question, he always answers with some bullshit JHKFGD like "how far can Luffy stretch?? oh about 20 gum gums" LIKE HHHH he so clearly DOESN'T care to stick to any strict power system. I mean the most recent huge fight was a TOM AND JERRY inspired fight for god's sake, Gear 5 throws any and all power scaling conversations out the window for all we know Gear 5 can do fucking ANYTHING.
I've literally seen One Piece guys and Dragonball guys fighting about whether Gear 5 could beat Goku, and it's like, mother fucker for all we know Gear 5 could just bugs bunny a kamehameha back at him JDFHGKD like we literally do not know the scale of Gear 5. Hell we don't know the scale of MOST characters in One Piece. I was SO confused as to why the term 'admiral level' was a thing cause we've barely seen the admirals...do anything?? Like yeah Akainu can turn into magma and whatever, but what else??? Why is this term even a thing if we haven't even seen the scale of what any of these guys can do JKFGDFGD I will admit I have a much more plot/narrative driven head but I truly cannot understand how One Piece power scalers get any of their arguments or data hhhhhh
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