the thing about doctor/river is that the blatant romance is a defense mechanism. it’s playacting it’s how they sketch out the boundaries of their relationship because they can never be sure of how the scales of intimacy are balanced - they love each other, sure, but they are so rarely in a place where they both know enough about each other for mutual trust. so you get these really interesting juxtapositions like how eleven is in full flirty mode for impossible astronaut/day of the moon to the point where it feels like they’re about to make out every time they’re in the same frame but at the same time he dismisses her with “trust you? seriously?” and is shocked when she actually kisses him goodbye. in let’s kill hitler they flirt like hell when she is literally trying to murder him but not at all when they save each others’ lives. in the wedding of river song kovarian complains about them being lovey-dovey in front of her but right after that the doctor attempts to reset the timeline and river has to drag him kicking and screaming into respecting her enough to tell her the truth. in angels take manhattan we get both “just you wait till my husband gets home” (flaunting their relationship to grayle) and “never let him see the damage” (she doesn’t trust him to love her as a flawed, mortal person). they’re out of sync all the time, so sincerity is off the table except when it’s a necessary shortcut to trust that doesn’t exist yet - river whispering his name to him in the library when he doesn’t know her yet, their literal wedding being a tool the doctor uses to convince her to let him “die.”
the thing about “hide the damage” in particular is that river was responding to the doctor’s own fear of seeing the damage. she lied to him because she was trying to give him what he wanted, even if he couldn’t admit it. and it applies both to the broken wrist and to their relationship in general. every time he looks at her all he can see is the pain of her death, and she can see that he’s holding back even if she doesn’t exactly know why. this was always going to be a barrier to true intimacy between them unless they could be linear for long enough to know and see each other as they are, not as they’re going to be or as they were.
that’s why husbands of river song is such a perfect resolution for them. the only way river would ever be honest enough to let him see her insecurities is if she didn’t know who he was, so it had to be twelve and not eleven. and it specifically had to be twelve fresh from losing his memories of clara, so that he’d stop running away from confronting her death and just give them those 24 years together on darillium to really get to know each other, to see the ugliness and the imperfections and stay together anyway. it makes perfect sense that after that they could reach the level of love and trust river has for “her doctor” in the library, in a way that just isn’t possible with a relationship built on whirlwind dates done out of order and nothing else.
The resistance has fallen. Mac and Layla and their friends have been driven out of Los Angeles and are hunted down by Matrix Corp, the corporation now proven to have played a rather antagonistic part in the pandemic that unleashed bloodthirsty zombies upon the world. With no foot to stand on and no safe home to fall back on, the group has to trek back into the wasteland to reunite with some old friends— in hopes to find the stability they need to work on a plan to take Matrix down once and for all.
But strange things are happening in the wastes of the United States. Ghouls are becoming smarter, and stronger— and the sudden appearance of a series of strange and hostile settlements tells the group a new player has entered the game, and they are out for blood.
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hi, I wanted to ask what programs do you use for animations?? :o
Hello! :D I use TVPaint Animation and Toon Boom Harmony - personally I prefer TVPaint because I find it the closest to the traditional 2D animation and it has a Photoshop feel when it comes to brushes and textures. Toon Boom is vector-based, so it's cleaner and you can do a lot more with adjusting the animation without losing the quality, which is a godsend and one of the peeves I have with TVPaint (because adjusting anything in there sends it straight to blurry superhell :'D)
aaand now for something completely different! technically a wip, but i am very slow at AMVs and got impatient haha
original plan was to focus on all of the main four, but it ended up being mainly gon and kurapika because a) 70% of the clips in here are from their respective big fight scenes and b) they're the least hinged of the main cast and somehow it just seemed to fit well
Okay so last Friday after the Arttu Lindeman gig he came to the merch table to chat with people. And I ended up telling him that before the BC ice hall show I hadn't listened to his music, but now he is definitely going to be my most listened to artist for this year 😄 (which is not an exaggeration, it's already so clear that this year I've listened to him way more than any other artist 😅)
He said that earlier last year he had been talking about wanting to do a really big show, but then when the BC ice hall came up he'd been like oh no I should have been more careful what I wished for because surely the audience is just going to laugh me right off the stage 🙈 So he was very happy that he hadn't been booed at, and that he'd even gotten some new fans 😄
Based on my few minute encounter with him, I'm declaring that Arttu Lindeman is such a kind and chill and sweet person, and also gives good hugs 😊
I have pretty decent length playlists for all the major Avatar characters that I'll probably post at some point, EXCEPT for Ozai
on his playlist I have:
Hail To The King by Avenged Sevenfold, a song about tyrannical rulers and how much they suck
and Orphaned At 33 by Jeff Blim, a song from an Aladdin parody musical where Aladdin is a 30-something loser manipulating the much younger princess into sympathizing with him so he can marry into the royal family.
🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨ p.s you don’t have to answer if you don’t wanna!