#i hope after i move i can figure smth out. i wanna be able to do things with another person. do fun stuff. any stuff.

[tiyoin]

Tiyoin the voices got to me again. I was scrolling tho tik tok and came across a video ,and it reminded me that you mentioned reader doing a sport before attending twst in the singing au. Wanna give a guess what sport I saw??

It was ✨figure skating✨. Just imagine it for a sec. Do I know anything about skating?? No. But the idea of anxiety reader being one is beautiful. Especially since skating isnt a confrontation sports like soccer and, reader doesn't have to be in contact with someone while performing their act.

I see reader starting the sport when they were young. They may have seen it as a way to put themselves out there while doing something they enjoy and find relaxing. They didn't compete in big contests with thousands of people watching (girlie would not make it). They would only get to county or district level of the contest B4 the nerves got to them. Most likely self sabotages at the end so they wouldn't have to seen and judged by so many. Reader does has a few gold medals tho. Yuu has been their personal cheerleader for a few years now. Going to as many contests as he can to just support reader and know they're not alone.

✨Now✨

What if there is a different competition (w/o a overblot hopefully) which a sport is picked randomly. Whether you want it to be a school vs school, dorm vs dorm or maybe grade vs grade you can decide. I think it could work with any of them. Like they pick a few people to represent their side and to complete. The ones that physically compete get prizes (💰) and the others get bragging rights and a 🍕 pizza party or smth like that idk.

Anyways, Yuu is like *puppy eyes* pls reader 👉👈we poor. And reader knows Yuu is only asking cuz they they really need the money and he would never make them do smth that would harm them. Yuus real motive is maybe this will help reader make friends or less be less anxious around their classmates. And he knows Reader is gonna win cuz none of the others skate.

The only ones in NRC that I can see being able to skate to a degree is Rook, Jade or Ortho maybe Epel too. He probably hated it till his grandma said only strong people could skate cuz it's hard. I think his home town is gets snow right? Can't recall rn.

Depending on which VS is picked the outfit and preforment is gonna be a easy choice or the hardest thing in the whole contest. Maybe a duet gets thrown in there. ➖👄👁️

Overall reader is ✨stressed✨ rightfully so. The creeps are recording, admirers admirering, rivals showing up left and right. Reader gonna need a nap after everything that's happened.

Another 3-5 am ask woooo. Sorry if there is any spelling errors. Why do the best ideas always come when I'm tired 😩. I can send u a tik tok I saw that inspired me if u want. Also I don't mean to mention Rook in every ask he just shows up w/o asking. Like my fav is Malleus and I haven't send a single idea with him.

Maybe it's cuz Rooks a Sagittarius and I'm a Gemini. They are sister signs. That's probably why he lives in my head rent free. I hope a good night.

MEL- I NEED TO KISS YOU BRAIN RIGHT NOW!!

especially with the death of YOI: adolescence... a sad day for anime lovers' everywhere (im on desktop so i can't do any emojis </3)

I actually had a really big skating phase. still do and would love to have prof. lessons. i wanted to do it so. badly. my parents said 'no' and that it was too late for me, so i mourn that. believe it or not, i was in soccer and almost did it in college.

but the ice feeling so freeing whenever reader steps onto it. they're not worried about sweating because of ice, and they can move how the want when they want.

reader would 100 PERCENT self sabotage themselves. filling their head with nonsense and because of all those thoughts (especially) 'dont miss this spin, dont miss this spin' only to miss it because they were focusing on whether they would 'miss the spin or not')

but in their home world, reader is phenomenal!! they're amazing! they got scouted by amazing coaches who wanted to tap into their raw potential, who were impressed by reader's hard work and drive... but reader always finds a away to miss things up for themselves.

OH MY GOD AHHH SPORTING COMPETETIONS WERE ALWAYS MY FAVORITE ARCS IN SHOWS

ITS LIKE THEIR OWN MINI OLYMPICS HAHAHA (reader: wdym you guys dont have olympics?)

ofc there's a pre sign up and auditions. reader is thinking and mulling it over. because trying out for the boys team is very different than the girl's team, is co-ed even allowed?? this is an all boys school after all!

(yuu brings crowley to their audition to convince him to give them student-ship so they can compete and WRECK those snot-nosed princes.)

maybe there's a partner skate? and you know that the admirers of reader that can skate and sign. the. fuck. up.

I WANT SKATER JADE!! I WANT IT I WANT IT I WANT IT!! but home boy would probably not be able to skate at the level of reader just because he's og a fish and if he started skating when he turned human then he'd only have a year of experience </3

but lets just say there's a sports thing they have... not club but dedicated for this event... then i can see jade being somewhat on reader's level. but there's still a difference unfortunately

ROOK HUNT SKATED OUT OF THE WOMB!! ortho could professionally skate sine... 5 minutes ago? like c'mon guys get on his level.

though i can see rook rather being an observer. he also called it 'ice dancing' because that's what it is to him. but if rook trying out for this instead of his usual sweep of archery, all to stop some... he doesn't have a word for the level of disgust he'd have if he saw you dancing with a slimy no name.

plus he will be able to experience your growth! not just as a skater but as a person! he can also get closer to you!

vil. vil can! ice dance. he needed to learn it for a film and he's always liked the feeling of being on the ice. which makes pomefiore the contenders for being on the team / being reader's partner during partner categories.

epel would want ot learn hockey but was forced into ice skating by his grandma HAHAH she'd say that he can learn to play hockey after he's mastered the ice or something. it's something he's NOT proud of- but (if this is the point where him and reader are on good terms) then he'll happily play up him being a skating pro.

i can also see vil forcing epel into skating for the school. like wdym ice skating is for girls? get your ass on the ice NOW

SILVER AND LILIA WOULD ALSO BE ICE SKATERS AHHH. but it's a bit dangerous for silver to be on the ice but if it means helping support his friend then he's gung ho about it! just... please keep an eye on him in case he starts falling (he's usually good about that. making it to the sides before he was able to face plant on the ice. but lilia is always present in case of such emergencies (and if the designated watchers arent able to get to him in time))

lilia has dabbled in a bit of everything. so if you see him whip out a quad (with only a little bit of stumbling, as he complains about his bones again) he'll act like it's not hard (it's not- for him)

BUT IF MALLEUS WANTS TO GET INTO THAT ICE SKATING ACTION THEN HE'LL SPEND HOURS AT IT. the prince bale to do things a bit differently than everyone since he's.. ya knw, thee malleus draconia.

crowley ; you can barly even skate! why are you at the try outs!

malleus :... give me a week (and the mofo MEANS IT)

and dw i get random spouts of 'rook hunter-itis too. I DONT MIND YOU BRINGING HIM UP CAUSE I LOVE HIM- AND MALLEUS AHHHH)

[idolshineitai]

goddddddd i need to learn to drive i need to move i need to figure out how to take care of my Fucking finances and how im gonna afford our meds n hormones n other care / basic necessities i need to support everybody rn immediately . i need to be able to navigate the world for myself but im fucking stupid im nona levels of stupid <333

and i cant do any of this without disentangling myself from my current life in a major way. hafta quit my job, stop school (not complaining i hate both), save up and figure out how to get away in the least damaging way possible but shes never Not going to be mad at me about it i think . i don’t know what to do. i don’t know how many more years i have left in me going on like this

but. fuckinf. iunno, if i get my way we only need meals for 2 that ill gladly make. nd you need to drink your fuckinf wawer ok. i know it sucks but it is a requirement of being alive and ill give u anything u want after

like. i’ll work . id work several jobs ! i just hope i can find somewhere that isn’t Totally shit. somewhere close to home. maybe even somewhere with a lax / nonexistent dress code. i’m gonna figure it out for both of them idc about me but . i could do it. they deserve the world n more

i feel like i shld start picking up more shifts . or take commissions or smth. i have an adopts blog that is just barely in progress. if all i get out of life is getting them out of their households itd be worth it theyre so lovely i cherish them so fucking bad i just . want em to be safe n comfortable n mine to look out for

i’ll learn to diy shit. i’ll learn to sew. pick up punk ideals while being a princess dyke. can mend our stuff and make New things and when i’ve got the money i wanna stop at thrift stores and . god i got so attached to the idea of helping it dress exactly how it wants. I want to get you masc clothing youll feel good in. i want us to feel good and be safe . sometimes a family is a scary werebutch with a heart of gold and a Minuscule puppy femme who constantly threatens to start biting and their favorite sillay catboy on earth

[diah-the-demon]

yeah this really feels like we're somewhere on stage talking into a microphone as people pass by and can listen, but yeah agreed, it feels weird when it's not tumblr skljdlsk

ooh I hope you can go there then!! I've had one in my area for a few years that was star wars, star trek and doctor who focused and it was so much fun,, unfortunately with covid coming around it has ended </3 missing it greatly

and oh no D: yeah unfortunately the kids toys break so easily which surprises me ngl,,, you'd expect kids toys to be a bit more sturdy given that kids will play around with it wildly and ksljdslk omg that sounds adorable ngl!! I think I know which masks you mean, I still see kids wearing them every now and then around halloween or carnival

yeah,,, I've gottten a tiny bit better by now (and by that I mean: I will get it but feel bad about it instead of not getting it and feeling sad about that klsjdlsk) I hope you'll eventually get better with it as well! it's so sad how much stuff like this can linger on your brain TT-TT

yeah I think it said 7 more days, so I hope I'll have enough time bcs her shedule changed and now she's at work so I can't ask her TT-TT hopefully it'll last til the weekend when we could order it (if she says yes skldjslk I doubt she wouldn't but still skjdlsk)

okay, yeah, your bookshelf is definitely already cool! But yeah the helmets are going to make it even better, no matter where exactly they will be placed klsdjl

yeah you coudl probably figure it out on your own once you get the basics, even if it is for another set of armor at first! With the basic understanding that should definitely be doable!!

and hmm, I've not build armor yet myself (will have to do so eventually tho,,, I wanna cosplay one of HI3 Himekos battlesuits after all ksjdsl) but it does already sound like a solid idea!! but yeah until you know if it works or not you have an idea at least so that's a good start!

yeah im still not used to it but i think its quite nice to have smth like a constant conversation like this thats lasted almost a full day now jdsljkds, i think its a nice change of pace jdsklkjds

hopefully i can get there when its being held! im not sure when it happens each year but il look that up later and see if i can find dates (hopefully im not gonna be busy when it happens dsjlkkdsj) and awww that sucks, i hope they come back eventually it would suck if it died off forever </3

yeah idk why they were so fragile, they weren't big so i think they were probably childrens sized ones that we had, it doesnt make much sense to expect kids to not hit 2 lightsabers together in a duel like come on

IT WAS! i dont think i have any pictures of it sadly </3 i wouldnt have even had a phone yet probably i think so pictures would probably be on my mums phone

the mask was so cool, it even had a voice changer in it! it was fucking awesome, when you breathed it would replace it with the darth vader breathing sound AND it would even make you sound like vader when you spoke!! idk how something from when i was a kid was able to do something like that but it was awesome. sadly the voice changer in it died a while ago, it still slightly worked but not consistently last time i put it on D:

yeah hopefully we both fully get over it eventually, i probably start to until either her or i move out, but yeah its so weird how it stick in your head so long, i need to refresh my brain so i can get it out lkdsjdjsl

dont want to make you feel like you need to do it sooner but it said 7 days yesterday and also today.. i didnt check how long it was when i bought my stuff (i bought the stuff on the 5th) but it might've been 7 days still.. altho i guess by the weekend it would still be 7 days after that.. hopefully it is still on by the time you talk to her!! (just checked and it might be going on until they completely sell out?? its a clearance sale so maybe? idk id probably do it sooner rather than later just incase tho)

Oh btw when you do place your order they will email you to verify the card (send a picture of the last 4 digits to confirm. It is a little bit sus but ive seen no one say this one is a scam so i dont think it is, plus they cant rlly do much with only the last 4 digits)

thank you!! it will def look so much cooler when i get the helmets in! still need to figure out where i can put the 2 extras apart from ontop of the bookshelf cause too many on there doesnt seem too good idk

yeah that sounds like the plan il do for this, try the basics, might try doing clone trooper armour to begin with if its not harder than mandalorian cause il have captain rex's helmet! imagine a female clone trooper tho that'd be so cool (totally not so i can check out her tits shush jdskls, i mean there was a female clone of jango but she isnt a trooper, and is a child since i dont think she had the accelerated growth the others did? idk not that caught up in that bit of lore)

i think its probably what they are going to say to do, i doubt they would stitch/pin it right to the bodysuit cause that would be a pain to take off (imagine having to go to the toilet after putting it on that would be so annoying to take off skdjdslkj) if it all goes well il share the progress so you can take some tips on building the armour for himeko jlsdkdjs!!

[skullfacedog]

ok I know trying to force myself to remember my repressed memories is bad and all, thinking too much about it is bad, ik, HOWEVER I am desperate to know if they’re real so I did some research last night to try to figure out what daycare I went to as a kid bc I’m angry that I just do not remember anything about my daycare. and I looked thru like, every single daycare in my hometown that I could find online and it’s so frustrating bc I don’t recognize any of them, I feel like I’m just trying to piece together tiny splices of memories that are extremely blurry and distorted and it’s like, well I KNOW for a fact that I went to some daycare or separate preschool thing as a 5 year old before elementary school, I never went to pre-k in a normal elementary school I went to some separate preschool thing instead. but either the place I went to is closed now and I can’t find info on it online or my memory is so shit I can’t recognize it from the pictures I looked at, or it’s visually changed so much in the past 12 years that I just don’t recognize it anymore which is definitely a possibility. there’s 2 in particular that kiiind of seem familiar but I’m not entirely sure. I hate talking to my family unless it’s necessary but I may try to casually ask my mom at some point what the daycare/preschool I went to was because I was just thinking about it or something. but she’s dealing with a lot of medical stuff rn so I don’t wanna casually ask smth like that rn lol.

I also tried doing some research into convicted criminals in my hometown. none of them look familiar and I can’t find any that have been records of working at a school or daycare at all, which is kind of shocking that there are no convicted criminals who worked with kids in my hometown like there’s no way there’s just no pedos who worked with kids in that town?? so all that really tells me is that they were never caught :/ or I guess they could’ve moved and been convicted in another city/state but it seems impossible to find what I’m looking for online. the fact that there are no sex offenders who worked around kids in my hometown kinda makes me doubt my repressed memories more but ik a lot of those people, especially if they’re religious which my hometown is highly religious, get away with it for the rest of their lives. and that makes me so mad. I hope my abuser is dead or living a miserable life and slowly rotting and I really hope he’s not able to hurt anyone else.

another thing I remembered recently is my parents not wanting me to go to a religious summer camp because they previously had an outed pedo at that summer camp (he was in jail and I was 17 at the time so I was mad they still didn’t let me go lmao) and I swear I remember them connecting that situation to another time a pedo was outed after working with kids, seemingly in our hometown but I don’t remember if they said where it was? I’m p sure they just said like “nevermind” and changed the subject but I could be misremembering bc that was 9 years ago and I have absolute shit memory lol (my high school years are blurry as fuck I love trauma brain!!) like idk if I’m just making shit up to fit my narrative or if that rlly happened bc if it did that’s sus af. and I didn’t think much of it at the time so I didn’t take note of it. but whatever, I’ll prob just ask my mom about the daycare so I can get the name and once I have the name of the daycare I can do more research to figure out if they had any sus workers or convicted criminals who previously worked there or any bad reviews, and look at pictures online to see if it triggers any memories. ik I’m not ready to remember the whole thing but I just need enough to know if my feelings are legit or if I’m literally just insane and gaslighting myself into believing I have repressed CSA because I want to be sicker or whatever. I keep thinking like idk I was kinda a normal kid tho there was nothing sus about me... but then I think about how quiet I was, how I was so scared of sexual topics but in private would be utterly fascinated by it, how I was the most obedient child in existence. I literally have paraphilias and traumakinks and I’m like hmmmm maybe I am making it up and never actually experienced csa lol <3

also been wondering lately if I have a system trauma holder who just hasn’t shown themselves bc none of my current headmates are trauma holders. so like @ my trauma holder if you exist ily ty for doing your job and keeping the rest of us safe, shoutout to trauma holders fr. ty for bearing our burden and allowing me to live a SOMEWHAT normal childhood despite having neglectful religious parents and not identifying as human on top of everything else lol.

[another-stark-sub]

“Are you in love with him?” - Tony Stark Imagine

Notes: I wrote and editted this in two hours instead of going over my notes. Was gonna be spicy fluffy but it just turned into fluffy, and one of the lines/paragraphs (smth like that i dont remember how long that segment was) is based on/inspired by a fanfic on ao3 I bookmarked. I think it’s debt-free, but I could be wrong.  Anyway, I hope you enjoy, and I’m so sorry im not on here more oftennnnn

- - -

“Of course I am. He’s Tony Stark.” You sighed, a weight finally lifted off your chest. “Who isn’t in love with him?”

Bruce blinked a few times, the confusion evident on his face. “Then, why don’t you tell him?”

You scoffed. These geniuses think they know everything, but they couldn’t see what was glaringly obvious to you. “He’s Tony Stark.”

The perplexed expression didn’t disappear from your friend’s expression. So, you explained further, “It’s already a privilege, beyond that really, to be talking to you, to any Avenger. To work with any of you is an honor, and to be friends with you” -you laughed- “it shouldn’t even be possible for someone like me.”

“Don’t say that. You’re amazing, too.” 

You tried to find any tick, any clue that he was lying. But Bruce seemed to really believe this. “I know I’m amazing.” You shrugged. “I’m great. I love and I care deeply, and I have a stable job. I have a place for myself, and I take care of myself.” You clicked your tongue. “However, you all, all  you Avengers… Forget out of my league, more like off planet.

“And Tony? He said it himself. Genius, billionaire, playboy, philanthropist. Add superhero, figurehead, public figure, ex-CEO, and savior of the universe. Bruce, I have confidence in myself, but Tony is something else entirely. No one is worthy of him or his affections unless they’re a god or another Avenger.”

It was hard to keep up with the statistical analysis you were trying to run. The literal one on your hologram and the one keeping your view of Tony in check. So, defeated, you sighed and leaned back in your chair. 

Bruce closed his own work and stood across the lab bench. “Weirdly enough, I’m sure none of us Avengers think that way.” After a few taps of his pen against his palm, he added, “Aren’t there fans making posts about you, too? Tony showed me the, uh, Instagram videos.”

You laughed. “Fan edits don’t make an Avenger. Saving the world does.”

He shrugged. “You help us save the world.”

“From inside Avengers Tower on a computer.” You took a deep breath. “Look, Bruce, I appreciate what you’re trying to do. But, I’m not telling him.” You shrugged and brought your statistical analysis back up.

You knew your own worth. You were worthy of an amazing partner and person. Tony Stark, though, was easy beyond that. You had accepted it soon after you realized your own feelings, and while they haven’t dwindled, you knew it was for the best. 

~ - ~

Tony had never resorted to this before. It was never a question of his ability to code. In the past, it was because he didn’t need a program or an AI to do it for him. He could always tell if someone was into him. He knew when Pepper was into him. The moment Rhodey gazed at him back in their MIT days. Every single reporter and heiress and model he slept with, he knew when their thoughts turned sexual or romantic. 

You, though. With you, he couldn’t fucking tell, and he knew it was because of his own feelings. Tony felt intensely for people before. Pepper, Rhodey, that one reporter all those years ago. However, with you, it wasn’t just that fluttery feeling in his gut or the immediate smile he can’t seem to stop when he sees you. It was the comfort he felt when he heard your voice or the softness he could feel in his heart when he saw a picture of you. 

It was like his entire life was full of panic, never resting, never stopping. But when you entered his life with a gentle smile and a quick wit, it felt like he could finally breathe. 

It was addicting. 

“Sir, I have the calculations.”

“Hit me.”

“Speech diagnostics of you and of Ms. (Y/l/n) are similar. Whenever you speak of her, 79.4% is positive and 18.8% is neutral. Ms. (Y/l/n) has  78.9% positive and 17.2% neutral dialogue regarding you. When she speaks of you, her heartrate increases by 4.6%, and similarly, yours increases by 4.1%. When speaking to each other, heartrate initially increases by 7%.”

Tony nodded. “How does this compare to other Avengers? I gush about Banner like a teenager.”

“Well, sir, while you and Ms. (Y/l/n) have high positive dialogue about other Avengers, all of them have at least a 10% decrease compared to each other. And heartrate varies depending on the topic of conversation.”

Tony snapped his fingers. “Am I excluding all non-super friends? Include any agents, co-workers. Pep isn’t an Avenger after all.”

Friday took two seconds and responded. “You and Ms. (Y/l/n) have a significant difference in speech diagnostics when talking about or to each other compared to any other Avenger, co-worker, and friend.”

When Tony remained quiet, Friday added, “Do you want me to repeat the results?”

“You don’t need to, Friday.”

“But you’re not doing anything with the new information. Would you like me to save these findings?”

“Friday,” Tony warned. 

There was silence as the love-wrecked scientist pressed his fist between his brows. Data and cold hard facts said yes, but was it right?

“Sir?”

“Yes, Fri?”

“Would you like me to play examples for you?”

He blinked. “Examples?”

“Yes. Of you and her talking about each other positively.”

It was an invasion of privacy. Tony shouldn’t. 

“Play examples.”

Before his rational mind could tell Friday no. 

“Are you in love with him?”

Tony’s eyes widened. This was too private. It might not even be about him.”Friday-”

“Of course I am.”

“-stop playback.”

“He’s Tony Sta-”

“Playback stopped.”

Tony scrambled. “What? No, wait, go back. Play it.” Screw rational. You knew he was a narcissist. You wouldn’t expect him to hear that and stop. 

“He’s Tony Stark. Who isn’t in love with him?”

“Then, why don’t you tell him?”

“... He’s Tony Stark.”

Tony started to fiddle with something on his desk. “What does that mean?”

Friday answered, “Dr. Banner asked her if she loved you, and she said yes. This means that she’s in love with you.”

Why did he program Friday like this? “I know that. I mean, those two lines. Why does me being Tony Stark stop her from saying something?” Was it the attention? Did you want some sort of normal life away from cameras and international gossip? Maybe it was the Avenging. Having a partner who was always out risking death wasn’t ideal. 

Sure, you could be in love with him. But you couldn’t be with him. 

“Maybe you should ask her.”

There were celebrities who were able to live normal lives. Some paid to have prosthetics for going outside of moved to a remote country to get out of the spotlight. He thrived off attention, but he could give that up. Avenging, he couldn’t give that up, but maybe he could cut back. Take a mission a month instead of one a week. Or maybe take more digital missions. He wasn’t just Iron Man after all. He was a genius, could hack into the Pentagon if he really wanted to. 

“Yeah,” he said. “Maybe I could talk to her.”

~ - ~

The moment you put your bag down on your lab table, Tony said, “You’re gonna be mad.”

You narrowed your brows. “What did you do?” You pressed your palm to your chest. “Oh my god, Peter overwrote my data, didn’t he? Ugh, I know he said he’s great at managing holograms, but really, Tone, you should’ve given him a tutorial before giving him access.” You brought up your holograms to check your data and analysis. 

“That’s not it.” Tony stood next to you as you looked through your files. “I did something that invaded your privacy.”

You tilted your head. Closing the holograms, you took a deep breath and slowly asked, “How?”

Tony flashed an embarrassed grin before sighing. “You’re gonna be shocked, too, so prepare yourself.”

You did not know where this was going at all. What horrible thing could Tony have done? Steeling yourself, you took a deep breath and nodded at him to continue. 

Tony cleared his throat. “Usually, I can tell when someone has feelings for me. People are obvious about it, but you? You aren’t. So, I had Friday do some analysis on our speech patterns. Me, being in love with you, was one of my controls. You and your dialogue regarding me was the main variable. 

“Long story short, I accessed some audio of you and Bruce talking, and you said that you loved me but could never tell me.” He glanced at you. “So that’s why I need to apologize.” 

Your expression didn’t change. No, that wasn’t it. You, at first, looked confused. Now, there was just nothing. No expression. No wrinkled brow in anger of flushed cheeks in embarrassment. Nothing. 

Tony blinked. “You can shout at me now. If you were confused about when to shout at me.”

You licked your lips before taking a deep breath. “Ok, that was a lot.” You pursed your lips then opened it. But, you couldn’t really think of anything to say. You didn’t even know how to feel. “So you know that I” -you pointed at yourself and then at him- “and that I didn’t wanna tell you.” You shook your head. “Wait, do you know why I didn’t want to tell you?”

A broken scoff left Tony’s lips. “Yeah. I’m a mess.”

It was your turn to scoff. “Wait, you’re a mess? That’s why you think I don’t want to tell you?”

“Among other reasons?”

Other reasons? 

You crossed your arms. “Ok, what other reasons?”

Tony looked offended. Still, he listed, “I’m surrounded by cameras, and everyone wants some privacy. Can’t get it if you’re with me. Then, there’s the Iron Man of it all. I went into a wormhole with a nuke. That was also all over the news. Then, there’s the whole daddy issues thing. I’m working on it, but it takes a while-”

He rambled on and on, listing reason after reason, and with each one, you felt tears well up in your eyes. It was a weird mix of heartbreaking, confusing, and enraging. The emotions built up slowly with each word that left his mouth, overwhelming you to the point that you couldn’t even say how it happened. 

But, as Tony paced and talked so horribly about himself, you somehow ended up in front of him with your hands on his cheeks. 

You only realized it when Tony stopped talking and when his breath touched your lips. “What?” he asked. 

You didn’t answer. You kissed him instead. 

It was a hard press of  your lips against his. It was short, and it wasn’t much. 

But by the way Tony gripped the back of your neck and pulled you back for another kiss, you’d think it was his first kiss. You knew it wasn’t. Not just because you knew he had kissed all sorts of people before you, but because he somehow knew how to make you gasp and melt into him. 

While one hand kept you steady, the other trailed down your back and pulled you closer to him. His lips moved fluidly against yours, pushing and pulling, and everytime he moved back, you chased his lips to continue the kiss, because the softness, the passion, the fact it was finally happening, was all too good. You didn’t want it to stop.

Your hands started to move. For someone so rich, his t-shirt was rough when you twisted it between your fingers and pulled it to you. Slowly, you trailed your fingers along the side of his neck. You rubbed your thumb along his pulse point, a reminder that this was indeed real. You were kissing Tony Stark, and- He was pulling away again.

Desperate, you leaned forward, reached around to hold onto his shoulder, and kissed the side of his neck. 

He let out a breathy laugh, and before you could suck on his skin, his stubble scratched your cheek. 

You looked up at him and giggled when his nose bumped into yours. When your giggles turned into a smile, he kissed you again, a soft and short kiss, before leaning his forehead against yours. 

His thumbs rubbed circles into your waist as you lightly scratched the back of his neck. He didn’t say anything. In fact, he seemed busy gazing at you.

“Speechless, Stark?” you teased. 

He laughed. For a few seconds, he just gazed at you, seeming to prove your point. Tony’s hand began to wander, from stroking your cheek to pushing back your hair. “More confused.”

Remembering why you interrupted him, you brought your hands to his cheeks again and held him there so he couldn’t look away from you. “You are amazing, Tony. That’s the reason I didn’t want to tell you.” You shrugged. “You’re too good for me.”

His fidgeting stopped. “Well, that’s not true.”

“Tony, you’re an Avenger.”

“Technically, you are also an Avenger.”

“You’re a genius.”

“Who can’t cook scrambled eggs.”

“You literally saved the universe.”

“After producing weapons of mass destruction for decades.”

You glared at him. 

He glared back. Then, he fought back. “I don’t plan on retiring.”

“Wouldn’t want you to.”

“I have severe PTSD, anxiety, maybe ADHD, all mixed with trauma galore.”

“And I will learn to help you.”

“I couldn’t give you a normal life.”

“I’d rather have you anyway.”

He opened his mouth, but you instead told him, “I’d rather have you than anything. As long as, well, for as long as  you’ll have me.”

He raised his eyebrow. “You sure about that?”

“Positive.”

Tony shook his head with a smile. “Cause, I’d rather have you for, well, how does til you get tired of me sound?”

You laughed. “Won’t happen. But, sure.” You kissed him again.You would’ve kept going, but there was something to settle first.  “By the way, Tony?”

“Yeah?”

“Is Friday recording right now?”

“Friday records everything. It’s in the contract.”

Friday added, “I record everything that happens in the tower.”

“Ok.” You could work with that. “I’ll forgive you for the invasion of privacy.”

Tony beamed, and you couldn’t help your own smile when he did. Still, you continued, “On one condition.” Your own smile turned devious. “I want evidence that Star Spangled Banner took my ice cream.”

Tony burst out laughing. He kissed you again, a deep kiss, and when he was done, he mumbled, “God, I love you,” against your lips.

[purecantarella]

The High Never Hurt Anyone

Request : I absolutely loved the Hush scenario with Rosé!!:o Could you maybe do something with Jisoo too? Like imagine them going on tour ans in the middle of the concert she's so hyped up and energetic she just feels like taking y/n somewhere in a dressing room while taking a break from stage. Or it can be an ot4+y/n one, whatever you prefer🥰 in all honesty, I wanted to do an ot4 one for this but talking realistically I wouldn't be able to write that too well as of rn. let's see in a few months HAHAHAHA i still hope you enjoy! i suppose you meant a!jisoo x o!reader since you said smth like rosé's imagine. disclaimer : those under 18 please find a fluffier or angstier fic to read since this is not really something you should delve into.

Jisoo happily trotted off the stage after her solo stage, the adrenaline from their screaming fans still rushing through her veins excitedly. The vocalist found her way to the dressing room for a change of outfit.

She pushed the door open and expected to see her beauty team or at the very least her other two members either getting ready or there to greet her. Instead, she was met with a dimly lit and empty room. Jisoo walked up slowly, while still confused, to the vanity to wipe some of her sweat off.

The door behind her closed slowly and her eyes jotted up, meeting your eye. An excited smile fell onto her lips as she quickly turned to see if it was actually you. There you stood with a shy smile, hands clasped behind your back, slowly walking up to Jisoo's warm figure.

It'd been a few months since you both last saw each other. As much as you wanted to join her for their tour, you had other commitments you needed to tend to first. You'd both become lonely over the extended period of time, more so you, so you decided to surprise your beloved mate.

"You gave quite the performance, jagi..." You said tilting your head to the side, the warm smile you had turning into a teasing smirk. Jisoo beckoned you closer, her lips turning up as well. "I absolutely loved it..." You muttered, wrapping your arms around her neck.

On instinct, her head nuzzled into the side of your neck, taking a deep breath while inhaling your sweet scent. "I missed you so much, jagi..." She whispered softly, opening her eyes to see her mark on your neck before smiling fondly at it. The sweet smell began to fade slowly and was replaced by a familiar savoury scent, which only meant one thing.

Her eyes shot up to meet your blown out eyes as you propped a finger under her chin, making her bite down on her lower lip.

"We have roughly 17 minutes before you have to touch-up be back on stage..." You muttered, stroking your mate's cheek gently. "...and I wanna make up for lost time, alpha." You taunted her. A low growl vibrated from Jisoo's chest.

The vocalist pushed herself forward, roughly meeting your lips for the first time in months. You arms wrapped themselves around Jisoo's neck pulling her closer to yourself. The kiss was raw, rough meeting of the lips, teeth clashing with each other, tongues in a tango of pure lust.

You pulled away with a gasp before Jisoo's lips trailed their way down your neck. She left a trail of pink and red spots before pushing her knee into your wet center. You moaned at the contact before she turned you around, her eyes trained on yours hungrily though the mirror. Her knot began pulsing violently against her stage shorts before it became too much for her.

Instincts weighed over logic as she pulled your pants down along with your underwear. she pushed your semi-bare form on the lit vanity, dark, lust-filled eyes trailing every crevice of your body. Jisoo’s lips press to the shell of your ear, her hand firmly grabbing the flesh of your ass making you groan out. Your eyes are locked on hers as you pant and grind backwards into her erect member.

“I missed my omega.” Her other hand trailed down to her stage shorts, pulling the hard dick out and trailed your sopping wet cunt. “I want to feel every bit of you.” she mumbled, slowly pushing her member in as you cried out at the feeling. Your hand finding her nape, pulling her head closer to yourself. The smirk etched onto her lips growing as she saw you in such a state.

Once she was fully sheathed into your heat, your head fell with a long and throaty moan erupted from your chest. She leaned further forward. Her teeth grazed the skin of your neck, “Eyes up, jagi. i wanna see the desperate look in them while i fuck you dry.” with that her hips moved in a fast beated rhythm.

Your eyes locked onto your alpha's as the mirror in front of you both began to fog up. The alpha began to feel your walls tighten, slowing her thrusts into you. Her fingers trailed up to your chest as she took the skin in her hand making you cry out and release onto her still hard member.

Your body fell onto the vanity from the intensity of your orgasm. Jisoo pulled out slowly, jerking off her still firm member. You took notice of this and turned around. Slipping her hand into your own, you began stroking the vocalist's knot. She gasped at the feeling and fell into the side of your neck, praising you softly between soft groans and gasps.

"Give me your cum, Jagi...give it to me..." You muttered tiredly against her sweat-ridden hair. Jisoo began thrusting into your hand as you pressed your forehead onto hers, looking her in the eye. With a raspy groan, her release painted your bare thighs and some of your shirt.

She panted tiredly, your breathes mixing together. A smile found its way to your lips as you pressed a gentle kiss onto her heart-shaped lips. "I really did miss you, Soo-yah..." You whispered against her lips.

"I know, Jagi...I'm glad your here with me now though." Jisoo whispered back once she caught her breath. "I can't wait to show you off to the staff..." She pecked your lips. "...to the girls..." Another peck on your jaw, you giggled at the idea. "...and to the blinks." Her lips made their way to her mate mark, proudly sitting on your neck.

Your hand met her forehead, wiping away the sweat that began to accumulate there. "Let's get you cleaned up, Jagi...I wanna watch you perform some more." You said excitedly.

"Oh you'll get a performance, alright." She said winking at you playfully to which you rolled your eyes, a blush dusting over your cheeks. "I can't wait."

i'm really sorry for the late post everyone 😞this has been sitting in my drafts for weeks and i hope it held up! i hope you enjoyed everyone! i'll be posting the Itzy first kiss and an imagine i have written down in a few days. thank you for patiently waiting! requests are open and comments on my writing style are always happily accepted! i'll see you all very very soon! 💖 taglist: @labrachrosite

[pearlplusau]

Pearlplusau Chapter 7 - The newest member Part 1 - Found

At the Prime kindergarten in Facet 5-

Before the emergence of gems, there were these Injectors, machines used to insert gem stones along with certain diamond essences and incubated within soil for their nutrition and minerals. Before the gem war, earth gems among the few earth kindergartens, gained their needed resources and energy in creating their individual new quartz gem. The form, the mentality and physicality were being considered during the incubation process. However, the inserted position of a certain gem, faced certain difficulties in emerging along her fellow sisters. That said, the wall of Earth, held the gem tighter, reluctant to let it go, which led this gem to have a much longer incubation period than the usual quartz.

It has been more than a hundred years, the dark and empty kindergarten was still very much deserted, no humans, no gems, no plants, no life in sight, not even a weed.

The empty holes on the walls, shaped and sized of a larger humanoid figure, remains very much intact. All of them were in neat positions, arranged in dozens of lines per wall, with the lowest lines being at least 2 meters away from the ground.

These holes were not always empty, they were the homes of many individuals, hundreds of gems just from one wall.

It was during the start of the colonization period where the newly inserted gems were finally starting to emerge, one minute it was an empty corner of the earth, the next minute, soldiers were popping out of the walls and bustling to their duties.

One by one the quartzes emerged, leaping into the air and floating down like it’s no big deal. “Yep, one second old and imma ready to jump! GERONIMO!” And one by one the gems landed and waited for their fellow comrades before they report to the station.

A batch of amethyst soldiers with various hair styles were standing around their landing area, waiting for the rest to emerge before they move on. Another gem came and greeted the group, “Heyyy fellow quartzes, what are we all up to?”

An amethyst with some spunky hair and a mega thick bang replied, “There’s two more from our unit that haven’t emerged yet, so we’re gonna wait for’em.”

Shhiinngggg-POOF!

Just as the quartz finished her response, the wall they were facing trembled and a pink-ish white glow came to life. The glow immediately dimmed as fast as it was lit, and another amethyst emerged from the section of the wall. She landed on her knees and grunted, “Ughhhh…”

The pink gem approached the newly emerged amethyst, her tone was astonishment and amazed, “Wow! Look at you! *Giggled* Welcome to Earth!”

The amethyst responded to the kind words with, “That is the first, and nicest thing anyone has ever said to me.”

Another purple gem rushed from the reporting area and demanded, “What’s going on here? Our orders were to move out as soon as you emerged!” She sounded like one of them, deep, rashly voice, but it also involved a higher authority in command.

One of the gems in the crowd protested, “Butttt 8XM hasn’t emerged yet!”

“She can catch up to us later! GOGOGO!”

All the purple quartzes rushed to the reporting area, hoping the last quartz would emerge soon and join their sisterhood. But alas, as centuries went by, the unit was never reunited with their last sister, they assumed she was ordered to complete other tasks like certain gems. The assumption turned out to be true, but not the way the quartzes were expecting.

After the war and the retreat of the homeworld gems, the kindergarten were abandoned and deserted as empty husk of walls with hundreds and thousands of holes neatly dotted around. Above the walls, it was all grey, with no creatures surviving the area, nor any plant life sprouted at the lowest point of the husk. That is, until the last gem finally emerged from her long incubation.

Shhiinngggg-POOF!

There was a ruckus coming from the end of the wall. The point of emergence of the small gem was completely distant, isolated, and separated from the other quartze holes above, as if the gem was ostracized from the unit in general.

As the gem tumbled out of the hole, she observed her surroundings, but all she saw was emptiness. This was a place filled with other gems, laughter, sisterhood. But to her, it was a barren of nothingness.

The little purple gem slowly got to her knees and crawled towards the nearest rock for a better view of the valley. She slowly stood her ground, steadied herself, and tried to look as far away as possible, hoping for any signs of life.

But still…

Nothing…

Only the sounds of a distinct little voice, whispering across the valley, it sounded sad, and empty.

“I came out late, and alone. Nobody but my own.”

The gem stood, hoping for someone, anyone, that can guide her away to a place full of friends, joy, and laughter.

Or even other gems…

Anything would be better than this…

The fog was pretty dense at this time of the year. The walls were still towering, blocking any form of sunlight into the kindergarten. Several hundreds of Injectors were still in their positions, some were not as lucky. Overtime, the grips of the injectors claws became rusty and loose, most of them were still where they were left, but some lost their grips and fell into the empty chasm Amethyst called Home.

The gem was climbing on to a boulder sized rock, and as she stood on top, she decided to claim it as her climbing rock as it’s the tallest rock among the rest!

The other rocks still have their own quirks, the closest rock was her sitting rock, which is the perfect rock shape and size for her to be sitting. The other rock however, did not feel right, so the little gem gave it a good kick!

Crack!!

There! Now its two rocks made from one! She let out a satisfying note, and went back to her hole.

Amethsyt was imagining what else in her home needs revamping, until she heard something, something completely different from the sound of rolling stones and dusty air.

Shes never heard anything like that before, it was always just errie echo, but she got used to that, and now, the new sound scares her.

She decided to investigate, she cautiously got out of her hole, tiptoed closer to the sound and hid behind a rock.

When the small gem took a quick peak, she saw a giant pink figure in a white dress and fluffy curls, slowing wandering around the area, kicking the pebbles everywhere, looking rather, depressed, and frustrated.

She heard her mumbling, smth about earth? And life? Amethyst never heard any of the sounds coming from her mouth, but from the looks in her eyes, the pink gem was furious at the giant machines.

Her slow-paced dragging transitioned into angry stomps, in no time, she was standing in front of a broken down injector.

The machine, covered in centuries worth of dust, stood at least 15 times bigger than the pink figure, but it looked no more threatening than the gem itself.

Amethyst tried to observe with all the rocks blocking the target, after merely just one step out of her hiding place, the pink figure turned to a scowl at the giant machine.

Her face lit up as the gem readied her stance, half a second later, she was floating above the giant injector machine. The pink gem cracked her knuckles with a satisfying “Crack” and held her fists tight.

She rocketed down into the machine, slamming herself through its interior, and obviously not hold back, but not using her full strength either.

With a blink of an eye, amethyst went from looking at a standing injector machine, to the machine split in half, to which one half was falling towards her hiding place.

It took her a while to digest, but she was able to quickly react to the danger in front of her before it was too late.

Eeeeep!

Amethyst ran, and just before the remaining of the machine could hit the ground, the gem plopped into her own hole, immediately feeling safe as the smell and space soothed her.

But it wasn’t soothing for long.

Just as the machine fell and crashed, all the dust and sand around got blown away from its impact, and a lot of the dust got into Amethysts hole, making her nose really, really, really itchy.

“A……aahchoo!”

Amethyst immediately covered herself after that sneeze, but alas, the sound of a kitten sneeze went out to the world, especially to anyone nearby.

As the sound of rubble went out, the pink figure spoke, “Hello?”, sounding very surprised and very close. “Is someone there?”

Amethyst continued covering herself, hoping with enough pressure on her face, she would be unseen and unnoticed.

As the dust cleared out, it became clear that the figure was slowly walking towards her direction.

As the footsteps gets louder and louder, Amethyst backed up the wall as far as she could, even hugging the wall didn’t seem to do her any favors. That thing crushed those giant machines! Amethyst herself tried to move the machine for her new spots, but the thing never budged an inch!

The voice outside continued, “Don’t be scared, I’m not going to hurt you or anything! Please come out, I just want to help you if you got hurt!”

For some reason, the more she spoke, the more amethyst became at ease. The purple gem didn’t understand, but the voice somehow soothed her, but it’s also making her do something she doesn’t want to. The last thing she would wanna do is to walk out of her hiding place, but her body moved before her thoughts became clear, as if it was following an instinct from that voice.

The small gem crept out from her hole, but she kept herself in the shadow, just in case the voice was dangerous.

The smoke cleared up, and the figure became clear. It was a very tall, very big, figure in a white dress, and giant fluffy pink curls reaching to the back of her knees. As much darkness there was in the kindergarten, the pink figure looked like she moved with caution, but she was glowing with energy, stepping on each foot with such grace, moving with such kindness, almost making amethyst stick her head out for a better view.

The figure spotted the little gem, yet still she moved with the gentle pace, not making too much noise or else it could scare her away.

“Why hello there.” Rose gently greeted as she approached the gem and her hiding place.

“Hello there.” The small purple gem echoed, standing up and trying to mimic Rose’s actions.

At this point, Rose was…surprised to say the least.

“This is a bit…unexpected.” Rose scratched her hair, “But it’s also not impossible since this place wasn’t visited since the first time I came here. Oh, sorry, I’m rambling, my name is Rose Quartz.” She extended her arm to the small gem for a handshake, “What’s your name?”

The purple gem wasn’t sure what to do with the extended arm, she stared at the arm, and glanced at her own hands. Seemingly putting the pieces together, the purple gem slowly extended her own arm.

But when Rose tried to grasp on the hand for a good introductory shake, that took Amethyst by surprise.

“Eeeeep!” She squeaked while retracting her arm back.

The pink gem tilted her head at the reaction, trying to make sense of the squeaking, little to no vocal response and the horrified handshake.

“Maybe she’s…not fully developed?” She thought to herself while retracting her hand as well.

Rose decided maybe sitting down would allow her to understand from the small gem’s point of view.

Just as Rose kneeled down and folded the back of her dress for a better sitting position, the purple gem followed her every move even though she was very much not in a long dress, just a lot more clumsiness in her sitting position.

When Rose was finally settled in her seating position, she found the small gem sitting down, which was not something she was expecting.

Rose wanted to try some other actions to see if they’re just coincidences or if the gem was intentionally attempting to mimic her every move.

An arm was raised above the head, a smaller arm was raised above the head. The arm slowly pat the top of her own head, same did the small one’s arm. The other arm reached out and gently tapped to her own nose, and the nose of the small gem was touched by her own fingertips. It was as if Rose was facing a mirror, and the purple gem in that “reflection” was following every move.

However, as the movements got more and more complicated for the small gem to follow, she inevitably got confused and tumbled down, making adorable giggling sounds of fun and laughter!

Upon hearing the infectious laughter, Rose was unable to control herself and joined in the laughter, especially since the laughter was echoing all over the empty kindergarten.

After the laughter finally settled down for both of them, the small gem sat right back up and made a huge grin! Possibly telling the giant pink gem that she was finally feeling something she likely hasn’t felt before.

Since the small gem didn’t speak, Rose made a small interpretation that the small gem didn’t know how to talk or possibly even her own name! But judging from her gem colour, shade and cut, she could tell that the purple gem was an Amethyst, similar to all those amethyst soldiers popping all over the place all those centuries ago.

Rose returned the smile and tried again with the names. She pointed to her naval, showing the pink gem while introducing herself once more. “So I’m Rose Quartz, you can just call me Rose.”

The purple gem struggled but was able to slowly repeated her name. “R-rose?”

“Yes! That’s right! And you’re an amethyst! Would you like to be called with that name? Amethyst?”

The small figure pointed to the gem on her chest, “A-amitist?”

“Yeap, you’re getting it!”

The small gem giggled, “Hehehe-Ametist! Ametyst! Amethyst!” and tumbled around the dirt, making her rock hair collection more and more exquisite!

To Amethyst, the movements, the names, the giant lady in front of her, these were something completely new. Still, something about this gem feels soooo familiar, but she couldn’t put her finger on it.

However, even with the sudden appearance and brutal power towards the weird looking machines, she felt safe within her presence. All her gem life, she’s been alone, but never in danger, but also never had the warmth of safety like the feeling she had right now!

The small gem made a brief decision to trust this giant pink gem.

The small gem used her hand to grasp one of Rose’s finger, trying to pull her and show her something nearby.

“Ohhh! Do you have something to show me Amethyst?” Rose kidded with the slight tone of curiosity.

The purple gem led Rose to-

An assorted rock collection.

Amethyst guided Rose to the first rock, it was at the height of the purple gem’s neck, which was almost up to Rose’s knees.

The small gem slowly climbed up the rock, and sat on the said rock.

It took Rose sometime to see it, but she made a pretty accurate guess of what she’s doing. “Oh! Is this your…Sitting rock? The rock where you take a seat?”

Amethyst scooted to the side and pat the little space she made, signifying Rose to join her.

Rose considered the kind offer, but she gently rejected her generosity of sharing the sitting rock. “Oh! Thank you Amethyst! But I don’t think the rock is the right size for me. And I’m very certain that the rock won’t be a good seat for the both of us!”

Amethyst was trying to see the issue of her kind offer, but she didn’t mind the rejection, shrugged off and moved on to the next rock.

The next rock was a lot bigger than the previous one, it was the size of a boulder to be exact.

Amethyst stood at the base of the big rock and immediately climbed up the said rock. As she sat at the top, she became face level with Rose, being able to see more than her long dress.

“Soooo, no wait let me guess! This is yourrrr climbing rock? The rock that you use to climb and see things from far, far away?”

“Far, far away!!” Amethyst echoed while jumping up and down on the rock.

The purple gem leaped down the rock and tried to show Rose more of her rock collection, or even her current family! Where she’s developed relationships with each and every one of these inanimate objects, showcasing just how long she’s been on her own.

Rose became more and more fascinated by the little gem, seeing how different she became without being brainwashed and used as another soldier for war.

But if she wants to ensure her freedom from the horrible shackles of Homeworld, she might need to take some, unfair but necessary precautions.

Just as Amethyst was showcasing her last rock, Rose decided to show HER something. “That was super fun getting to know your rock family! You know, I got something I would like to show too! Would you like to see it!?”

She gave out her hand, waiting for Amethyst to gently put down her rock.

After the first interaction with the hand, she was more comfortable and gripped onto her hand almost immediately! Before they took off, Rose had to stay low in order for her to walk with Amethyst holding her hand.

As they travelled throughout the kindergarten, Rose realized that Amethyst was moving with a lot more cautious within the other sections of the kindergarten, indirectly telling Rose that she’s never been away from her hole or her rock family for a long time.

Either Amethyst didn’t want to lose her way to where shes the most familiar at, or she never step a foot out of her usual area at all.

But the assumptions and theories made Rose even more determined to lead her for a better place, a better environment for her to be a new era of crystal gems.

At last, they made it. Rose led Amethyst to a warp pad, it was the white coloured shiny pedestal on one of the higher grounds, something amethyst herself could never figure out. Not because she doesn’t know how to warp, but because she didn’t know there were other places than the kindergarten.

Amethyst slowly approached the shiny looking warp pad, she concentrated on the edge of the pad, looking very hard to break.

She looked up to Rose on the warp pad, who was giving her encouraging smiles. The purple gem wasn’t sure, but again, something about this giant, fluffy pink gem seemed familiar, as if she was where she belonged.

She slowly joined Rose on the warp pad, still unsure what it’s purpose is for.

Rose started to explain, “Soo, this is a warp pad, we gems use it to travel around the world. The earth might actually feel small once you get used to it but walking for days just to get somewhere is a bit…boring.” Sounding rather embarrassed from a certain incident, Rose proceeded, “The point is, we can use this to travel anywhere on earth with ease. Come on, let me show you our little hideout.”

Amethyst wasn’t sure at first, she echoed and questioned, “our little hideout?” emphasizing on the word.

“Why yes!” Rose responded, “You see, I’m in this group called The Crystal Gems, and I would like to take you in as a new member! Wouldn’t that be so much fun! You’ll meet other gems and make friends instead of staying all alone in this boring, dense, and meaningless place?”

Rose sounded very eager to leave and go literally anywhere than stay one more second of the kindergarten.

But amethyst took note on the last thing she said, “Meaningless place?”

“Hm?” Rose realized what she just said but dismissed it poorly. “Oh that? Don’t mind that, I just meant this *arm spread*, is not a place for a cute little gem like you! Let’s go, shall we?”

Rose concentrated on the next where to go, and as she did, the warp pad glowed with Amethyst doing a quick glance, fascinated by the aura and the moonlight glow. As the warp pad glow brighter and brighter, the magic set its course and made a really loud “Shhiiinnggg~” sound, very much surprising the new gem who was now currently floating, travelling with the giant pink lady into anywhere but the place she called home.

Word count goal for part 1 – 3000 words, achieved. Total words: 3504.

heyyoo, you've reached the end of Part 1, Found, and yes it IS named after the song in the movie! That's what imma going for, naming each parter after a steven universe song (preferrable something fitting). I think it fits pretty well since we're going through Amethyst's backstory, her origin and how she was first found by Rose (As mentioned in the episode "On the run"). We got to how she lived on her own for a while, her first interactions, and echoes/repeats (which were highlighted from the movie). Really love that i got the chance to show you guys my own take on Amethyst's origin! It was pretty fun from the writing perspective!

Again, in case anyone was in awe of the artworks, these pieces are traced from certain episodes of the show, which will be announced as its own post later on.

If you enjoyed reading this chapter, consider giving it a like or even a reblog! If the amount of notes of this post exceeds a certain number, like idk, 50? Then i would consider posting the second part of the chapter earlier than scheduled! Anyways, and as always, thanks for reading and reaching to the end, really appreciate you guys for reading the whole thing, and see you guys maybe in two weeks.

Or sooner?

or in two weeks lol

[cassyapper]

Apart from Jotaro and Kakyoin (unfortunately) what are your other favourite jojo ships? I’d love to know

OHHHH POST YOUVE OPENED A CAN OF FUCKING WORMS LET ME GO OFF

i have a disease that makes me invested in the joestars’ happiness to an absurd level so bc of that a lot of ships i enjoy involve,,,one joestar,,,but there r others i swear let me just start rantingi

jonaeriwagon is soooooo so so cute it involves the most wholesome and purehearted jojo characters and it makes me smile so wide. erina and jonathan r childhood sweethearts and erina helped jonathan back on his feet after he lost EVERYTHING in the first fight against dio at the mansion. jonathan and speedwagon are best FRIENDS OKAY!! SPEEDWAGON LITERALLY CHANGES HIS ENTIRE WALK OF LIFE BECAUSE OF JONATHAN AND THE KINDNESS HE SHOWED HIM. i know erina and speedwagon didn't interact a whole lot in part 1 but like they're BEST. FRIENDS. in part 2, so much so joseph thought something was going on between them. i bring this up bc then it’s proof that this ship is full of ppl who just care for each other so much. they just adore each other and love each other and I'm crying

caejoseq is my FAVVV OKAY they're so stupid and in love. i love love love love imagining caesar and suziq falling in love slowly when he’s first training as lisalisa’s student and like they never do anything about it cause they're both so shy (yes caesar is shy bc these feelings r more genuine romance rather than sexual, unlike his other flings) but it’s obvious enough they both understand to a degree the other knows they like them sjkd;dn cuties. but then JOSEPH BARGES IN with his stupid hamon-breathing mask and his stupid blue-green eyes and his stupid lax personality combined with the moments he takes thing seriously during which is works hard as fuck/smart as fuck. he just completely sweeps them off their feet they had no fuckin warning whatsoever. so after a bunch of messy and intense pining from the both of them they eventually sit down and are like okay. we should do smth about feelings actually. so they Do and it ends with the polycule and I'm (”: smiling so wide they loved each other do u understand

AVPOL!! DO NOT GET ME STARTED OKAY it’s the survivor’s guilt and cherishing and longing for me sis!!!!!! I'm just saying both have pasts (araki said avdol’s backstory was so sad he didn't wanna put it into sdc so that’s where I'm drawing this from) that leave them focused on things other than their direct happiness/their own futures but then they connect and even though they're so fucking different they are SOOO different they're still the same on this level and i think!!! that would be everything for them finally someone who understands...listen I'm ging to go insane do you hear me. avdol loves this stupid fucking Frenchman so much because said stupid fucking Frenchman just cares so much about everything. meanwhile polnareff is in love with this fuckin god of a man who’s patient and kind and funny and a skilled enough fighter it’s stated explicitly in canon “oh avdol’s the one we need to worry about most not jotaro” like fuck polnareff is ENAMOURED WITH HIM!! AND I DONT FUCKING BLAME HIM!! and just dude. when pol thinks avdol came back to life and he starts crying tears of joy and hugs him so tightly and avdol just laughs but hugs him back imfmfjfj help. help. help. help. help. POLNAREFF LITERALLY ASKS HIM OUT ON A DATE THIS IS FUCKIN!!! CANON!!! i cant do this stupid fuckign idiots i love them

JOSUYASU!!!!!! TWO GUYS BEIGN DUDES WHAT MORE COULD YOU WANT??? like listen we have such a SLEW of wholesome moments between these two the opening to the tonio episode is literally just them going on a date OKUYASU WAS GONNA FEED JOSUKE AND JOSUKE DIDNT EVEN FUCKING QUESTION IT OKAY THAT’S KINDA GAY THAT HAS ROMANTIC FUCKING UNDERTONES!! and them fighting against shigechi idk man i just love their dynamic it’s such a pleasant bro relationship and i love them. but even beyond the wholesome moments when okuyasu fucking dies josuke loses his SHIT!!! DO YOU HEAR ME HE GOES FUCKIGN INSANE!!!!! HE’S SCREAMING AND CRYING AND BEGGING OKUYASU TO WAKE UP AT THE EXPENSE OF HIS LIFE FUCKIGN HAYATO HAD TO SHRIEK AT HIM TO MOVE HIS ASS OUT OF THE WAY OF KIRA’S BOMB LIKE!! listen the recklessness and furiousness of josuke’s tactics after okuyasu “”died”” haunts me. he didn't want to live in a world without him and meanwhile okuyaus LITERALLY TRIUMPHS OVER DEATH BECAUSE HE DOESNT WANT TO LEAVE JOSUKE’S SIDE HELP ME GIRL FJKF;NDJN FUCK. fuck. so yeah i lvoe them

fugionara... any combination of this ship makes me go nuts okay okay. the dynamics in the bucci gang will forever leave me in tatters but THE ONES BETWEEN THESE THREE IN PARTICULAR. FUCK ME UP. it’s the healing it’s the animosity it’s the regret it’s the trying to figure out your own mentally ill self while also the world ur in with these ppl u love so much and I'm going crazy okay okay okay. idk how to quite put my feelings for them in worlds i just have a lot of them and they are fuckin. overhwelming. just narancia for example meant EVERYTHING to fugo as evidence by purple haze feedback (literally every other paragraph is a flashback) and the only time giorno cries in the anime is when narancia dies. meanwhile fugo saved narancia’s life and giorno knew when to take narancia seriously as opposed to a joke. and then THE WHOLE DISCUSSION ABOUT GRIEF FUGO AND GIORNO HAVE IN PURPLE HAZE FEEDBACK? listen something about these three make me go insane and feral

foolymes like okay. okay. I'm shaking like a dog trying not to go overboard on this justification just listen to me. hermes and jolyne first find someone to trust in prison in each other. jolyne cares abt her enough that she first learns how to use stone free’s string-on-a-telephone ability bc she wanted to watch over hermes. hermes loves nd respects jolyne that after she wakes up from getting a stand shes like “hm. wonder where jolyne is” and goes to find her before all that bullshit happened just hey okay LISTEN TO ME!! and then they get foo they save her it’s just like fucking kakyoin they give her another chance and they show her what relationships are supposed to be like (fulfilling) they enjoy her company and make her laugh and she makes them laugh in return ohmy god EVERYTHING FOO FIGHTERS DID WAS FOR JOLYNE AND HERMES DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME!!! the marilyn mansion debt collector arc. the kiss of love and revenge arc. foo fighter’s death. I'm going to eat rocks in an attempt to stop feeling oh my god JOLYNE DIDNT EVEN BELEIVE FOO FIGHTERS WAS DYING AND THEN SHE GOT HYSTERICAL LIKE “BUT WE CAN JUST REMAKE YOU RIGHT WE HAVE YOUR STAND DISC??” SHE DOESNT WANT HER TO GOOO HELP ME HELP ME. I'm in tatters these three girls loved each other so fucking much they just wanted each other safe and they DESERVED to be safe and happy together but araki is fucking evil

jotaweather I KNOW THIS IS A CRACK SHIP I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW DONT FUCKIGN LOOK AT ME JUST HEAR ME OUT. jotaro and weather r both of similar demeanor that is quiet soft-speaking intimidating strong big aura of sadness coming from them. both have powerful stands and both had real fucked up luck in the love department. i also hc both to be autistic so that’d be another similarity. i jus think them settling down together after everything went down in a stone ocean au would be very soft and sweet yknow? they wouldn't even necessarily start it off in a romantic sense but they just take the time to try and heal with each other and eventually it just kinda veers that way. yeah

gyjo for OBVIOUS reasons like are you serious? gyro changed johnny’s fucking lfie from the SECOND they first interact johnny begins to push himself and tries to reach further/go further. and in turn johnny shows gyro you cant always be a wet blanket you need to take a stand this both helps his resolve to save the kid AND helps him to take the measures necessary to get to his goal. like gyro would not have been able to find johnny in the “who shot johnny joestar?” arc if he hadn't gone through, say, the ring roadagain arc with johnny first. listen man their relationship is literally the catalyst for this whole part it’s the driving force i just. they love each other they love each other thank you goodnight I'm emo

yasugap is just so so so so sweet it makes me so happy,,like okay josuk8 literally has a daydream where all that happens is he gives yasuho some candy and she eats it and is like “aw josuke this is so good thanks!” and she smiles at him and that’s IT THAT’S THE DAYDREAM 😭 listen they just love each other so much and i am emo. they literally SAVED EACH OTHER OKAY LIKE yasuho pulls him from the dirt and like she mentioned during the flashback chapter with the hairpin and her dad, it was also the other way around....saving josuke also saved herself and just LISTEN TO ME. THEY LOVE EACH OTHER. it’s a very sweet and healthy relationship and i hope to god araki makes it canon please sir ill bite you

anyway yeah these are the main main ones ? that i ship ship. like you'll get me excited if u mention them. anyway this post has gone on long enough so I'm gonna end it here by saying i really do have a thing where the relationship focuses on healing/helping one or both parties to save/improve themselves

[lesbian-dp]

I Hate You

Natasha Romanoff x Reader

Words: 1,996

Warnings: Angry sex, hate but like the “hate” hate y’know? Argument, strap-on... I think that's it.

Request: heyo!!! i just love the way you write top!reader!!!! can i request like sub!nat x top!reader,,,,maybe like they have never really acknowlegded their attraction towards each other,,,get into an arguement over smth,,,and end up having angry sex,,,maybe??? stay hydrated!!

Summary: I guess you could call this a new addiction.

A/N: I’ve never written angry sex before, but I tried my hardest! Sorry for the long wait, hope you like it! Not proofread. I honestly don't know how good this is.

18+ ONLY.

“You know, you are such a dick sometimes?!”

“No, actually. I didn’t know that,” you replied sarcastically, turning to face the red-head behind you, “Considering you only tell me that, every fucking day!”

“Oh, you think you are so fucking funny!”

“I am ‘so fucking funny’. It’s just that you don't have a sense of humour, so you wouldn’t know.”

Natasha gasped out a hot angry breath. But before she could retaliate, Tony’s voice interrupted your argument.

“Can we just have one day, where you two aren't fighting?” You and Natasha turned your attentions to the man sat in the armchair of the compounds common room, as he spoke. “Just one?”

Natasha huffed, rolling her eyes. Not wanting to fight with the both of you, she walked out of the room, and towards the direction of the bedrooms.

But you weren’t gonna let her get away that easily.

“Oh, so now you don’t wanna talk?” you called after her. Forcing your eyes not to trail down her curvy body.

No! Angry. Angry. You’re angry at her. Do not check her out!

Just as your eyes were trailing down her toned figure -Damnit! Why did she have to wear a tank top, and workout pants so tight, that you could see everything?- your eyes snapped to one of the closed bedroom doors.

“Not again, you guys!”

Sometimes you wanted to thank Steve, for, unknowingly, helping you not get caught checking Natasha out.

“Shut up, Steve!”

And sometimes you did wanted to yell at him, of interrupting your argument with Natasha. Consequently stopping you from checking out Natasha, when you were, oh so close, to focusing on her ass.

“Don’t yell at him!” Natasha turned to face you, pointing in your direction. “You're the reason he’s in there, on bed-rest!”

“It’s not her fault, Natasha. She did what she had to do for the mission!”

“See! Thank you, Steve,” you called through his door. Turning back to Natasha, you continued, “Even Steve agrees with me.”

“He’s too nice, not too!”

You groaned angrily, throwing your hands in the air. Moving to follow a walking Natasha, again.

“Stop following me!” she raged.

“Not gonna happen.” You shook your head, knowing full well that she could not see you. “Not until you tell me why you hate me so much.”

“Just fuck off!”

Natasha tried slamming the door behind herself, but you managed to push through just before she could, closing said door behind yourself.

“I don't think you understand the meaning of ‘fuck off’,” Natasha growled.

“Yeah, I don’t think I do either.”

“What do you want?” she asked slowly, as the anger bubbled within her.

“You know exactly what I want.”

“No,” Natasha clarified, moving further into your space, “I don’t.”

You exhaled hotly, shaking your head, before returning your gaze to the red-head in front of you.

“What is your problem?” you asked, laughing as you continued, “Like seriously! What the fuck is wrong with you?”

“I’d stop talking if I were you.”

“Aww, common, Nat... tell me. What’s with the stick up your ass?”

“I’m warning you,” Natasha growled, hands forming fists by her sides.

But did you heed her warning?

“What? Is it not big enough for you, you fucking size queen?”

No.

No, you did not.

“Y/N...”

“What?” Natasha said nothing, which caused you to laugh. “Cat got your tongue, sweetheart?”

Natasha’s glare, somehow, hardened. And her fists grew whiter, the harder she clenched them. Wanting nothing more than to punch you in the face. Shoulders rising and falling, with the boiling rage within her.

“Aww, the tiny bad assassin. Did I just reveal one of your kinks?”

“I. Hate you,” Natasha whispered angrily, making a smirk form on your lips as she did, “I don’t know what Nick ever saw in you. I told him not to let you on the team. And now, after what you caused to happen to Steve-”

As Natasha was ranting, her words going through one ear and right out the other, you were drawn to her lips. The rage still swirling around inside of you, it flowing straight from Natasha’s mouth and into your very bloodstream.

For some unexplainable reason, you smashed your lips into Natasha’s plump ones. Successfully stopping her ranting.

Natasha’s hands flew up to your shoulders, gripping at the fabric there. Pushing and pulling you, conveying her conflicted feelings to you kissing her.

She was stubborn, always has been and always will be. But there were always ways to get her to let go of her stubbornness. At least for a little while, as you were soon to find out.

Letting out a moan as you bit her lip, Natasha opened her mouth just enough for you to be able to push your tongue into it.

With her arms now wrapped around your neck, Natasha no longer “fought off” her desires. Finally giving in to her deep-seated wants, and kissing you back in earnest.

You gripped her waist tightly, pulling her closer to your body, grinding your hips into Natasha’s. As she continued to pull at your shirt.

“I really hate you,” she mumbled past your lips.

“I hate you, too.”

With a muffled ‘humph’, Natasha’s back connected with the wall. Your hands roamed her lithe body. This was your first, and it may well be your last chance, to do this. So, you were gonna drink it all in while you could.

Natasha pushed you back and right into the side of her dresser, causing everything atop it to shake vigorously. Hands pulling at your shirt, buttons popping undone at the rough tugs.

Your shirt soon flew off to some undisclosed corner of the room. Natasha moving to unzip your pants.

Oh.

She thought she was gonna be the one on control?

How cute.

Natasha stopped, looking up at your evil grin, with wary eyes.

“Y/N...?” Natasha asked cautiously, “What are you-“ she finished her sentence with a yelp. Thanks to you flinging her onto the bed, in the middle of the room. Thank god for super-strength.

Not to say that Natasha was too heavy for you to pick up without it. Just for you to be able to throw her across the room, in mid-air.

“Y/N, what the fuck?!”

“’Y/N, what the fuck?!’” you mimicked sarcastically.

“You are such a child,” Natasha scoffed, moving to get up. But before she could, you were there to stop her. Pushing her back down onto the pillow as you straddled her.

Ignoring her comment, you asked, “Where you planning on going, sweetheart?”

“If I told you, I’d have to kill you,” Natasha smirked, hands coming to rest at the zipper of your pants. Teasingly playing with it.

“Is that so...?”

Natasha hummed, nodding her head in conformation.

“Well, I know for a fact, that you weren’t going to leave.”

“How can you be so sure?” she snarled.

“Because I know how much you’ve wanted this,” you said while crawling down her body, to kneel between her legs. Steadily tugging down her tight jeans, “I know how much you want me.”

“Oh, you are so full of yourself!” Natasha laughed, “You know, you could give Tony a run for his money?”

“C’mon, Natasha. Just admit it.”

“Admit what?”

“That you touch yourself at the thought of me-“ A loud scoff from Natasha. “That your pussy cries for me.” Natasha’s pants now safely on the floor behind you. Your hands slowly pushing her shirt up her body, until it lay bunched under her breasts. “-And the only way you can get it to stop is if you stuff as many fingers up your pussy, as you can. Wishing that they were mine.”

Any reply got caught in the back of Natasha’s throat, the moment your lips met the skin of her taught stomach. Gliding the tip of your tongue over her soft, sweet skin, as you smirked up at her.

Natasha panted, looking down at you, dipping your tongue into her belly button, her hips snapping up into your chest.

“Yeah, you want me there?”

Now hovering above her face, your hand grazing your fingers over her wet core. “oh, you really do. You’re absolutely soaking for me, baby.”

“Fuck you!” Natasha growled.

*Chuckling, you leaned in to whisper in her ear, “Patience, sweetheart. Do you wanna know how else I knew you wouldn’t leave?”

“What I really want, is for you to shut the fuck up!”

“Ohohoh, antsy aren’t we?” you chided, kissing her cheek, “And the answer is: It’s because: This is your room.”

Before Natasha could yell at you again, her shout turned into one that conveyed bliss, all thanks to your fingers pushing past her soaked, barely there, thong. And into her tight wet hole.

You hummed, soaking in Natasha’s gasps and whimpers. Kissing her temple, you whispered, “I knew you wanted me, baby.”

“No,” Natasha gasped, “I think you’re mistaken. See, I-“

Your fingers curled against Natasha’s g-spot, causing her to break away from her sentence with a moan.

“I’m sorry,” you apologised sarcastically, “What were you saying?”

“I fucking hate you,” Natasha groaned.

“And you won't be able to walk by the time I’m done with you.”

***

“Oh, fuck-! Oh, fuck-! Oh, fuck!” Natasha screamed repeatedly.

Her fingers dug into your scalp, griping the hair with a mighty force. Using her other hand to leave crescent moon indents, and scratches all along your back. As you worked your hips into hers, while you nipped at her neck and jaw with your teeth.

You chuckled between each hard thrust. “I knew you were a size queen,” you whispered in her ear. Glancing down at the thick toy strapped to your hips.

“Oh, go fuck your-! JESUS CHRIST!” she howled as you hit a particularly good spot inside of her.

“You know that's not my name, right?”

“For fuck sakes- Could you just shut up?” Natasha grumbled, “I’m trying so hard to ignore the fact that you're here. And you talking, is making that hard to do.”

“Is that right? I’m just that memorable?”

“‘Distracting’, is the better word.”

“I’ll take it.”

Before Natasha could say another word, most likely an insult, you crushed her plump, kiss swollen lips with yours. Whatever insult upon her tongue, turning into a wanton moan.

Suddenly, it was easier to pound into her, and it was all thanks to the influx of dirty wetness inside her core.

“Really?” You say that you hate me,” you mumble against her lips, ploughing her into her mattress harder than before, “But you somehow get wetter when I kiss you. Now, what’s all that about?”

“God, I- Fuck!”

“See, I already told you. That’s not my name.”

“Y/N, just shut up and fuck me!”

Chuckling at Natasha’s outburst, kissing her soft cheek, moving down to bring her earlobe into your mouth, you whispered, “I am fucking you, baby.”

“I don’t think you’re tough enough to fuck me,” Natasha said, “And don’t call me, ‘baby’.”

You laughed again. “Those are some mighty big words, for someone who’s moaning right now... baby.”

Sucking on one of her nipples, Natasha suddenly came with a groan of your name.

“Yeah? Did that feel good, honey?”

“Get the fuck out of my room.”

***

With a smirk, you closed the door to Natasha’s bedroom, three and a half hours later, after milking her for her all. You had left her as she slept, thankful and surprised at the same time, that you were still standing with how exhausted you were.

You wiped your lower lip with your thumb, tasting the remnants of Natasha on your lips, as you made your way back to your own room at the dead of night when your phone buzzed in your pocket.

Ignoring the many, many, many texts from the guys about your previous loud activities, you tapped on the one Natasha had just sent you.

Guess she wasn’t asleep after all.

Natasha: I hate you.

Natasha: Again tomorrow?

[haknew]

anon asked: I HAVE SONG RECS :DDD I tried not to do songs that you would have obviously heard before but a lot of the songs here are still popular but I couldn’t help but add them 😭

AHHHH thank you so so so so much for all the recommendations anon ! your taste is absolutely impeccable !!! i think i vibed with a lot of these maybe we are a bit similar ^~^ and no worries about your picks ! i totally support you and your incredible music taste no need to defend yourself :p ! popular songs can still be good ones ! thank you again and i tried ... to ... get through them all i’m so sorry JHGFDJHGDK you’ll see i get through like ... half and then ran out of energy T^T i’ll probably get back to this list some other time when i have free time and update with thoughts ! thank you for sending so many in ! i found so many new songs to add to my playlist heh thank you lovely ! 

Pop

cherry by rina sawayama - super cute ! i love these kinds of pop songs it’s right up my alley :o ! 

xs by rina sawayama - her voice is so well suited for this style ! i watched the mv and djkfhskgrjf HHH idk she gives me mitski vibes even tho their music is pretty different, you have peaked my interest i’ll definitely look into more of her stuff :o !

comme de garçons by rina sawayama - the bass line T^T !!! the talk-y (?) parts are so good i got chills, it’s like a rave song low key haha :p ! it’s so good ! 

Any song by Rina Sawayama 😭 - yes yes i’ll try to look more into her stuff ! 

Kpop

123 by nct dream - i’m only an honorary guest of ncity but one of my irls ults them ! and dream’s music has always been a bit more my speed :o ! this has more nostalgic kpop vibes to it ! i said this before but i really am more a pop person at heart and this is so good ^~^ 

Up to you by pretty much and nct dream (HAECHANS PART HHHHH) - oooh are you a haechan stan 0v0 i like jaemin tho i admit my knowledge of dream is limited (my fren ults renjun heh) also yes yes consent is very important kids u.u dskjghkdfj YOU’RE RIGHT THO haechan is a singer he SINGS, i love the vocal harmonies ! 

Oasis by crush ft zico - those electric keyboard synths (?) amazing ! this song bops u.u 

Moon by everglow - !!! i actually have heard this a lot before ^~^ i got so excited when i saw this bc it’s so good ! it’s definitely one of my fav everglow songs too i think i overplayed it a lot when it first came out *v* 

Woowoo by dia - i love the ocean wave sounds ! that’s so cool i love how summery it is ! it kind of reminds me of loona too ! ggs are just >>> i love the fun and brighter pop songs so much 🥺

Secret garden by Oh My Girl - i’ve heard a few songs by omg ! and i really like a handful of them, secret garden kinda gives me early gfriend songs vibes too ! it’s so pretty ! i really love when songs utilize strings in their instrumentals too ! it’s a bit slower paced too which is really nice ^~^ 

Page by got7 - YEEEES okie actually maybe unpopular opinion but spinning top is one of my fav got7 albums ! i used to listen to the whole mini on repeat ! i actually used to ult got7 too for a few months heh ^^ BUT YEEES i love page ! got7 always have bangers love them so much 

Nekkoya by produce 48 - AHHHHH ANOTHER SONG I LOVE !!! i’m actually a wizone haha :p so i’ve seen produce 48 ! tho admittedly it probably contributes to my burning h*tred for mn*t and any survival shows ;;;; but i loved the title song so much ! i used to unironically play it on repeat djghskfj

Puzzle moon by gwsn - AHHHH YOUR TASTE !!! i also followed gwsn from debut and puzzle moon is so so so cute ! it’s such a bop too ! they have such fun and catchy songs ! 

Goblin by sulli - ahhh the xylophone chimes ! they make the song sound a bit haunting before the piano comes in ;;;; it really reflects the mv story so well i think ;;; and sulli’s voice is so beautiful ;;;; it’s got that characteristic background vocal harmonies that sm artists usually do and it’s just really beautiful ! 

What are you up to by kang daniel - today on can you tell jess is unfortunately a bg stan daniel’s songs have been so good :,)) i stopped following all the wanna ones closely after a while but ! he always surprises me ! his songs are such vibes u.u 

Best day ever by yeri and nct dream - the TRUMPETS YEEES it’s so upbeat and fun !!! the cheering is so cute i love it ! 

Hair in the air by yeri and nct dream - JAEMINNNNN !!!! I LOVE YERI SO MUCH PLEASE ! i love the vocal harmonies between her and the boys 🥺 it’s so cute T^T ! renjun’s a singer HE SINGS 

119 by nct dream - ah yes this is ncity brand u.u LOL they always have really filled chorus instrumentals and use a lot of vocals to fill up the space which i think is really cool and something i think immediately screams sm artist :0 ! i think renjun’s voice really sells this for me tho HIS VOICE IS AMAZING him and haechan yeees it’s a banger tho :,) 

Save me save you by wjsn - i love wjsn’s music so much ! it sounds so magic and ethereal and totally bops ! their voices are so beautiful too and work together so well and i think this song’s style really suits all the members’ voices so well too ! 

Loonatic by loona - YEEEEES loona are my ult gg ! and oec is probably my fav unit in terms of music ! i have spent many a day playing their whole discography ! haha :3 

Up by izone - MY GIRLS ! yes yes up is so cute ! i love it so much ! the choreo is so cute too ! i love izone please ;;;; 

N/s by stray kids - oh boy okie ;;;; i’m like not a good judge of a lot of hip hop / more rap heavy songs ;;;; bc i was classically trained as a singer in choir ;-; so i’m sorry i do not have much to say about this one ;;;; it slaps tho ! i probably wouldn’t listen to it normally if you hadn’t recommended it tho so ! good to listen to smth outside of my normal preferences  

Sunshine by straykids - OH very very different from the last skz song KJHGKFJHKD yea this is probably more my speed i’m so sorry LOL T-T it’s so good tho :o ! i don’t listen to a lot of skz bc i figured i wouldn’t be able to vibe with them but this one is so good i really like it ! skz and ateez man i’ve been trying to stan for ages but music is a big part of why i stan /stan/ certain groups more seriously and it’s also why i’m only honorary nctzen lol clearly i have been enlightened (literally *looks at my past ult groups* yeaaaa)

Blueprint by stray kids - YEEES IT’S SO UPBEAT ! i love upbeat and brighter songs (i am consistent like this T-T) it’s got summery tropical vibes to it too ! it’s so cute ! 

Question by stray kids - another banger yeeeees ! i vibe with the lyrics too u.u love that 

Any mixtape by stray kids (but I really love 1 and 4) - oooh i still have a lot to get through so i’ll save these for my own time haha ^^ 

I’m your girl by khan

Revolution by Alexa

Secret by wjsn

I wanna be by key and soyeon

Handle it by twice

Teenager by got7 

Take by jus2 (CANNOT RECOMMEND THIS ENOUGH)

Bump bump by woodz

Stylish by loona - this is one of my fav loona b sides yeeees !!!! love them so much ! 

Outta my head by somi

Jpop

showersnow by orbit

show off by orbit

crazy love by orbit

any orbit song ngl 😭

poison girl by nanaka suwa

lost umbrella (I like the tsukishima kei version cause it sounds like lee know :DDD)

Notice by moe shop

Kawaki wo ameku (domestic girlfriend opening)

The day by porno graffiti (my hero academia opening 1)

Odd future by uverworld (my hero academia opening 4)

Again by yui (full metal alchemist brotherhood opening 1)

More English music

Luxury by azalea banks (Ive heard she’s said some terrible things tho 😭 WHY DOES IT SLAP)

Hurricane by Bridget Mendler (I miss this song and ready or not too 😭)

Little dark age by mgmt

I got a couple one direction recs bear with me here 💀

Happily, Magic, AM, 18, Tell Me a Lie, Through The Dark, Wolves, Night Changes, Better Than Words

Hip-hop/rnb

Leaked by lil tjay

Pretty little fears by 6lack and j cole

Water by joe gifted

The London by young thug

Bands by shoreline mafia

Swervin by a boogie wit a hoodie

Father stretch my hands pt 1 by Kanye west

More English music (indila is French)

Northern lights by kennie

I am not a robot by marina

Tourner dans le vide by indila

Parle a ta tete by indila

Greek tragedy by the wombats

Viva la vida by Coldplay (SHHHHH DONT ROAST ME)

La da dee by Cody Simpson (SHH IT MAKES ME HAPPY 😭)

Move your body by loving caliber and anders lystell (this ones good to make u feel like an early 2010’s movie protagonist :D)

Mariposa by Peach tree rascals

Sunflower by post Malone and swae lee (like many songs on here it’s popular but I still wanna put it here cause they make me happy 😭)

I got really carried away sorry I hope you haven’t heard too many of these 😭😭 OKAY BYEEE ❤️

[rosenmarille]

First of all: that One Day bit is quality content. Second of all I read "3.5 for Holly" and am Highly Interested

HI yes! i will explain, however i first have to correct myself. its actually a part 2.5, not 3.5. like i mentioned in the other post, the part is called “heart unbound”, this is about 25 years after battle tendency, when holly is in her early 20s!!

the rest of this im gonna put under the cut

so the setting. joseph (43), suzie, and holly (21) live in new york, smokey is in georgia, lisa lisa (75) is Somewhere in the states, erina and speedwagon have passed away (sad). its 1963! the speedwagon foundation has continued expanding, with joseph and lisa lisa closely involved after speedwagons death. they’ve mostly moved their attention into new territory, but still have all their old research kept. stands aren't a thing yeeet, but its been long enough that the pillarmen have faded into unpleasant memory.

until one night the power at the swf hq goes out for just a moment too long, and santana manages to escape.

joseph and lisa lisa are contacted asap, and they decide to travel down to texas and find him (preferably take him out for good this time). holly, who has grown up hearing about jojo’s wild escapades, really wants to come along. she knows some hamon! she can defend herself! come on!! (yes i said it, holly learned hamon, do you think having lisa lisa for a grandmother would result in anything less?) anyway, joseph and lisa lisa Really don't want her to come since it could be really dangerous and they'd rather not put her in harm’s way.

so holly (rich, unsupervised) books a plane and goes after them.

we skip to texas!! joseph and lisa lisa investigate at hq and the surrounding area and find practically no trace of santana or where he might have gone. when holly arrives, she decides that since she can't look into hq without getting caught, she’ll ask around with locals, and manages to hear rumours about a new sort of cryptid (only appears at night, weird anatomy etc), both cattle and people have been disappearing, but on a very small scale. she looks into similar stories and realizes that santana must be moving south, though what he's planning, she doesn't know. but she will follow!! (and leave breadcrumbs for her family to pick up on this pattern too, she guesses. not so helpless now, huh?)

so this goes for a while, taking her down into mexico, until she is pretty sure that she can triangulate the missing people reports accurately enough to actually Find him. holly isnt stupid, she doesnt think she can win in a battle against a pillarman. what she’s hoping to do is prove herself to joseph and lisa lisa by prepping and helping out enough for them to then take care of the problem. she's an adult now and she doesnt appreciate being treated like a child. (you may say this contradicts how she behaved towards joseph in part 3, but to that i counter: she's in her 40s in that one, and her being an adult is established enough that she knows she can act a lil silli without that being put in question)

but hey!! she does find him!! she decides to stalk him for a bit, see what he does. so she happens to be there when santana attacks a young woman (midnight snack), who pulls a KNIFE instead of running away, so Holly rushes in and deflects an attack with a quick hamon swipe. santana has learned from his previous hamon encounter and instead of sticking around, he decides it isn't worth it and absconds instead (smart). (at this point you might notice this is the first fight of the part. yeah it be like that in this one. call it battle untendency) 

holly and the woman (who later introduces herself as Maria (no last name yet; but named after Maria Maria by Santana (lol)) also get out of dodge and hide out in an alley, where maria decides that she needs to know what the fuck that Thing was, yesterday. magic?? sparkling?? hello??? and hollys like uhh hah yes so. that's an ancient semi immortal vampire creature? and this is sunlight breathing magic, which he's allergic to. yea. and maria is like ................yeah okay i buy it. teach me sunlight breathing magic, i wanna come.

maria side paragraph! she's our oc and we love her. remember that awful scene from the santana arc with all those prisoners and the one kid who doesn't get sacrificed? that's her older brother. he was “let go” but “let go” basically did just mean “free to wander the desert and find civilisation maybe”, so when he did eventually find his way back home, he'd been severely traumatized, plus on death's door. other prisoners had been turned into vampires to test on the pillarman discovery, so the word “vampire” is something he'd have heard and conveyed to his family, who didn’t. really believe him. he also hasn't really recovered from that experience :( then the war happened and maria's dad served in it, and afterwards decided that his other child needed to know how to defend herself, and maria learned how to handle a knife, as well as how to physically fight. their family managed to avoid post war financial problems for the most part, and maria was able to finish her studies! she's a pilot :)  she is, however, harbouring very deep anger and resentment for what happened to her brother, and has not really had a face to direct that anger towards, so it's been on a relatively low burner for the most part, but now there’s talk of vampires and a person she can blame for her family’s trauma.

they exchange notes and she realizes that yeahh, that is pretty much exactly what her brother had told them, so it was true. hah :) yes actually, i would like to learn vampire killing magic please holly. and holly, who didn't really want to bring someone with her, but kind of does believe in accidents not being a thing, decides that yeah, she probably should bring maria along. and sure!! if they have to deal with sanata again, why not teach her hamon!! they share stories and continue to follow the trail while they train together, and become really close friends! jobro time.

we've now reached the first third of the story.

we travel further south!! soon, holly begins to realize......... ohh..... the temple they found santana in.. that's south of here, isn't it? oh huh. what could he want there?? the masks have been destroyed as far as she knows?? she doesn't know enough first hand to know what significance there could be, but the girls prepare for anything. maybe a big weapon the researchers had not been able to identify?? MOre pillarmen, secretly living underneath the temple??? 

(there are gonna be some scenes that involve lisa lisa and joseph figuring out where they need to go, and maybe also realizing who set that trail, maybe they have smth else going on, who knows) 

holly and maria follow santana and eventually do find the temple, and prepare to stake it out, hopefully hopefully not alerting him to their presence, because that would be.........bad. (tho tbh marias kinda itching to try out vampire begone magic. wouldn't You want to if you suddenly learned how?) neither of them have ever been here so they're honestly pretty floored by the temple interior, the tunnel that leads into the main chamber dark and uninviting, with who knows what hidden dangers are lurking about. 

and then they see him. santana is investigating the place where the pillar had been cut out of the structure, the stone masks crushed and broken, strewn around the floor, running his hands over the broken stone. Then he walks to one of the murals carved into the wall, a large one, similar to the one speedwagon had been investigating, with the 4 faces representing the pillarmen, and he lingers there. dips his head, then walks back to the empty space of the pillar and sits down where it was, crosslegged, and closes his eyes. and then he stays still. what does That mean?? 

the girls decide this is enough, they should fall back and formulate a proper plan, maybe wait for joseph and lisa lisa to catch up. buuuut we can't have that be the end of it, and so something happens, maybe one of them trips? steps on rubble that falls loose? they make a noise. and get noticed. 

change of plans! fight now! except there isn't an attack? they stay still but “i know you're there.” damn it. battle formation, stances ready, they make their way into the chamber, where santana hasn't moved at all. he's still sitting there, but he's looking at them now. holly asks what he's doing here, he asks the same back. she says not to play dumb, hes been killing people this whole time, he has to answer for that! and to that, santana honestly looks a bit confused because. has he? in his defense, he's not human, his prey is humans. pillarboy has to eat.

marias like “well? aren't you going to attack us?” and he's like “not unless you bother me.” and closes his eyes again. the girls aren't sure what to make of this.

santana side paragraph: first of all, this is a santana stan account. name one (1) thing he's done wrong, canonically. woke up in a strange place. captured?? got his bearings, tried to Leave and was accosted! shot some nazis (go king), and finally only snapped when joseph got mad he didn't laugh at his clownery. anyone would get murderous as a result. tried to escape further, ultimately was stopped and detained Again! morally, he's above joseph. 

so they're just standing now. since their earlier encounter where holly used hamon, santana refuses to talk more at first, but holly has the bright idea to get his trust by having maria restrain her and then stand back with her weapon -- a show of putting herself in a helpless position and promise she wont attack. that’s enough for santana to agree to come closer and have a proper conversation.

holly asks again why he's here exactly? what's here? and he tells her that if she Must know, he's waiting. waiting for what, she asks. and maria looks back at the carvings and realizes “oh. there should be 4 of them.” now santana looks mildly uncomfortable, and holly rememebers that “oh fuck, dad killed all of them.” and then “wait they were evil tho??” and then again “wait fuuck, didn't the leader guy say they left this one behind in mexico on purpose? oh man does he Know?” holly finds herself in the position of “not only do i have to tell this guy his friends aren't coming because they're Dead, they also kinda abandoned him.” yikes.

meanwhile maria is kinda pissed that her one chance at revenge might have just been taken from her. she still blames santana for what happened to her brother, and she refuses to let that go. she’s too stubborn and proud for that. and now, especally since holly seems to be focused on creating a bond, it feels like a slap in the face. so she kinda… snaps, ruining their chance at resolving this peacefully and causing santana to run off again. she and holly have a fight. it sucks.

soon after that joseph does find holly and he Does send her home. maria, after explaining her intentions, stays with them. holly is heartbroken :( after shes gone, joseph and lisa lisa make a plan to trap santana, aimed to go off in a few days prep, and during this, maria is starting to realize that that... really isnt the right thing to do... shes now had some time to sit alone with her guilt and regret about how she handled the situation, ssso she gets an idea on how to make up for it...

meanwhile holly is sitting at home and is sad, until suzie drives her somewhere in guise of going to a fancy lunch with smokey (whos in town), but really she drives her to the joestars airpad where her friend marua(!!) is already waiting in front of joseph’s plane, which, turns out, she hijacked in the south and flew all the way up here, and suzie tosses holly a bag with clothes and stuff and tells her to hurry up and get going :3

and hollys all "but what about lunch with mr smokey? :o" and suzie winks at her and says "don't worry, he's waiting for me to tell him everything went well at the restaurant ;)" and then holly gives her a big hug, runs to her friend and hugs Her, and they are off to fly back south to save some lives. on the way, maria apologizes and explains -- how she had harboured this resentment for so long that the sudden target for her blame put in front of her, plus the immediate removal of it were so jarring that she acted impulsively... she knows santana isnt at fault for what happened with her brother... and now she just hopes they make it in time.

as luck would have it, they catch up with joseph and lisa lisa just in time to jump between them and santana (maria accidentally cuts off joseph’s prosthetic hand in the process and freaks the fuck out before realizing it’s fine) and try to talk it out. it’s a tense few minutes, but holly is determined and stubborn, and she manages to get her dad and grandma to see her side of things and santana is saved! they find something for him to eat, giving him the energy to heal his wounds. pillarmen absorbing shit never gets old.

And from there it’s mostly just everything getting settled down and smoothed out. they get back in touch with the swf and tell them the problem is handled. santana turns out to be a relatively peaceful dude when his life isn’t being threatened, and he becomes a good friend with all four of them, but especially holly and maria. they help teach him about the modern world and he decides that he’s going to do some travelling and learn about the history of his culture and other ancient mesoamerican cultures he interacted with in his youth, and he shares the things he learns with the swf so they can get the info about where theyre needed etc.  maria gets hooked up with one of the many therapists we decided work at the swf that has experience with the supernatural things she and her brother have gone through. holly, maria, and santana stay in touch and go on regular trips together. holly receives many post cards.

it’s all really good and happy :) thats heart unbound baybee!! <33

[thisdreamplace]

Hi. My erratic moods, and loss of control over my words and actions, my inability to be calm and collected, and worse, to keep the unhelpful intrusive thoughts IN my head are causing me trouble. (eg just recently someone in my family was going to the hospital for a possibly serious checkup and they joked, as I saw them at the door, "If I die then forgive me". And like, ik it's a joke. But a deep primal part of me, in front of everyone, lost it and as they turned away I heard myself screaming: "If I die, then YOU CAN BE HAPPY" and I just couldn't control it. I did find the pause in between the words and my reaction (Eckhart Tolle), yet I failed to at least restrain myself, from lashing out. Ik it's the 'demons' who think they'll be happy if I die etc. Worse was, my grandma (who doesn't know the extent of my issues) witnessed this. It sucks. I want to cry. Why did I react that way?)

What really is up with me? This has nothing to do with what was said (and I even know that the joke was a self defense mechanism coz my family mmbr was worried themselves about the check up). But the way I shouted that... It was serious. I think I did mean it. It's lame hahah, especially coz I was thinking I was starting to be able to control myself? To assuage the 'darkness' within, and I even believe things are definitely less hopeless thanks to the loa and me influencing reality

Maybe it was just a random thing. Ofc it's impossible to heal overnight, yet I do feel... Ashamed of my reaction (like hello, why couldn't I have stopped myself from saying that out loud at least? I could've just laughed it off and said "yeah okay me too" or smth less intense. They already mock me for my 'tantrums'. Welp, such is life and I've been doing my best to stay alive and normal for many years now)

Any way you can suggest using loa to make myself less... reactive and emotionally nuclear bomb-ish? The funniest thing is I was normal the whole day then this stupid outburst screaming 'woe ie me boohoo' happens. Gah I wanna curse lol

I did start conscious healing some months ago. Maybe I have pent up rage or emotion and I gotta idk journal or smth? I do affirm, I do try to fix my thought patterns (as opposed to never even realising I had a choice before). I'm not saying I'm doing enough. I'm not saying I'm consistent. But I am better than before. Then this happens?! Wdyt?

And another thing, the more I get into loa/beliefs/assumptions etc, and try to restructure my life, I feel wayyy more exposed and vulnerable

You are one of my faves in the loa spectrum btw

Hi!

Honestly, nothing is wrong with you. I think that you're being a little harsh on yourself, that's all. I mean, I get being put off by your outbursts. But weirdly, it's not actually something you need to analyze, although you may want to. I mean, that's how we worked in the past right? We always wanted to analyze the 3D and our behavior. But there's actually nothing to analyze anymore. There's nothing wrong with you, even like this.

I think that when we get into the law especially, and we start making progress, we're completely ashamed of ourselves when it seems like we are suddenly regressing. But actually, like I was saying, we don't have to take it that seriously. It actually doesn't have to mean anything is wrong with us. We can still totally be on the right path. Thing is, things that are living within us will find a way out. And that's all you experienced. Practice letting it pass and returning within yourself, to your inner world where you have been making great strides. It's not always for us to figure out why something happened. Instead, it's up to us to decide what we want to focus on moving forward.

If you feel the need to journal and let it all out, don't stop yourself! Write it out, allow yourself that space to say what you need to say and maybe you will figure something out in the process. Do not be afraid to release what you're feeling, allow it.

On the flip side of that, you can approach these outbursts with more compassion for yourself. I mean, the law really calls for us to come back to unconditional love for ourselves at all times. It's a constant practice. You don't have to feel ashamed anymore. Like I have said before, anything that we do was done perfectly. We think we have all these controls over our actions, because we forget we are ourselves pushed out. Even our freewill ends passed our minds. We only have freewill within. Every action we take in the 3D falls in line with the state we are in. This why we cannot do anything wrong! So don't fall for the 3D illusion, even in regard to yourself. It may be hard and weird to grasp, but allow yourself that space to at least move into some sort of acceptance. It will all click the more you choose to focus on your inner world, and what you can do within. Do not worry about what you can do in the outer world. Because really, you can do nothing.

So how do you tackle this? Well, like usual, get an idea of who you want to be. Don't think about how to get there, really. It's not your job. All you need to know is your end goal. And if you don't know it clearly, intend to for clarity. But after that, all you need to do is choose to embody that version of you everyday. You do this in your mind. You don't need to "act as if" unless you like to. Some days may be easier or harder than others. It doesn't matter if you trip up or totally are out of the state some days. The point is you keep persisting, you keep doing your best to go back to that version of you within in your mind. Without knowing how, that effort truly does add up and gets you exactly where you want to be.

To your final comment, I totally feel this. I have never been more vulnerable than I am now. I mean, the more I learn about the law, it's like the more I wear my heart on my sleeve. There's emotions I could run from before, that I can't run from now. I feel more exposed than ever. Because our fears, despite being our prison, often work as a shield. And the more you come into the law and have to dismantle the illusion of your fears, the more exposed you feel. And it's okay. I just try to remind myself that behind any uncomfortable feelings, I am making my way towards absolute love and freedom. Behind these illusions I built for myself, the more love and freedom can make it's way into my life. And it's comforting to see it that way and it allows me to keep going even when I feel too scared to. I know I am on the right path. Hopefully this helps you feel that way too.

Anyway, thank you for your nice compliment! I hope you are doing well! 💖

[syncogon]

sad only 480p version this time, and delayed. oh well, temptation too strong, and clips on the weibo looked promising, so let’s go

mjy sighhh i guess he’s just dumb not malicious but man

“the truth isn’t important” glasses shing. oh wow that hair swish tho that was like unnecessarily well animated hahaha

iiiii just want jhx to tell off yy!! i think that’d be great, what a faceslap! also wtf is this thing? iron supplements?? a spray? icy-hot? 铁打损伤喷雾?? god i spent like five minutes trying to mouse-trace those characters and i still don’t know if this is supposed to be significant or if it’s just significant that jhx caught yy doing shady shit 

anyway given music / context it seems jhx is annoyed at what yy is doing? so yay friggin finally. “our classes aren’t at nanhua” nice 

“xu-da” vs “xu-ge” hmm. anyway jhx don’t fall for the lies. jhx is like sx, annoying and chuuni but probably isn’t as obnoxiously awful as he first appears... probably.... maybe. 

goddd sucks that the full version of this op is kinda weird, because i LOVE this op so much like holy crap. jiyi bei yingfu huanxing.... 

man now im like stressed about the yf at the airport scene. trailer showed an airport. what’s gonna happennn

this exchange about dd feels so weird like it sounds like ctg is trying to explain they’re not in any pre-relationship or smth but maggie is like “i don’t mind” in a way that makes it sound like she wouldn’t mind if they’re together? what??? but whatever

ok i really enjoy this cr/yf dynamic. like i feel like it’s a bit ooc and yf as portrayed here is maybe too far on the acquiescence but also it’s really funny and sparks joy for me so i’ll buy it. i’m happy to see like established relationship stuff i think bc i generally don’t in the stuff i watch. speaking of which i’m super glad that they didn’t make the awful dumb move of trying to insert like Another wack love triangle drama dynamic thing in this like the fans want yecong and tianmai!!

wowwww it’s so nice how supportive cr is being tho like i love to see it!

handholding!! soft!! nice inversion of the earlier part where cr is bandaging his fingers. but like -

WHY DOES SHE HAVE MARKS/CALLUSES ON HER THUMB AND NOT HER PINKY??? like ok i have not played ukelele but i sure have my own share of stringed instrument finger calluses and you don’t?? press on the string with your thumb???

still, they’re trying, it’s a cute detail, i appreciate it. i liked that one wwgk review i watched yesterday that pointed out s1 was like a coming of age story disguised as a music story, whereas s2 is like a real music story.... 

wait this is incredibly cute wtf. oh my god. 

YF SIGHED/FACEPALMED AT THAT? COME ON!! WTF THAT’S SO RUDE? THAT WAS ACTUALLY LIKE PRETTY GOOD?? AND SHE DID THIS JUST FOR YOU? like maybe not performance ready but bro she’s learned for two days!! also holy shit the strumming animation is really good for smth like this im impressed! that reminds me of the like actually legit violin animation they showed in the trailer yo im so ready 

like i totally understand the frustration (damn, maggie’s face... 3 free performances? really?) but also i feel SO BAD FOR CR HERE this is so awkward oh my godddd at least ctg like tries to apologize to her (and cr’s reaction to this whole thing is also v solid, good for her) but still like damn 

aww ahh man im glad maggie still like! supports encourages cr here! that’s also char dev being able to like get past her own complicated emotions at least for this sort of gesture 

awwww i also like seeing maggie’s coping, the happiness philosophy i always thought that was super interesting. she’s a great char! and i think running is good

animators animate a girl running normally challenge

oh nice you have to walk a bit after sprinting, good

the train track scenes are so pretty wahhh 

does... does the track just end there? what

the ~significance~ of maggie now sharing this piece of her that used to be a yf thing, with ctg 

also excellent bgm - oh omg it’s og soul link remix!!! 

“i don’t want you to go” 

MY GOD HE’S FINALLY MAKING A REAL MOVE. and one based in real friendship. GOD FUCKING FINALLY CTG AAAAAA she’s cryyying man this exchange is also pretty cute ngl 

i can’t believe they figured this out a full 4 episodes before the finale 

this is so pretty here wahhhhhh i wanna ss the whole thing in 1080p 

awhhhhhh

they never released pink twilight shanghai!! i want this ver!!! 

aww yayyy open still cheering her on - YF BE NICE TO YOUR GF COME ON

haha this is like reverse of cr tutoring him - WAIT YEAH YF YOU WERE A SHITTY ASS STUDENT COMPARED TO HER BE EXTRA NICE 

also remixed dream i dig it! sounds like new lyrics? 

julliard hahahaha

dong dong goddess

HAHAHA did dd just steal ctg’s fries

ctg: expressing some deep thoughts

me: just watching dd

“forever confident, forever happy” 

wait sooooooo are they a thing now or what did that count as a confession

“and qing’er is finally here” WHAT’S THE TEAAAAA WE STILL DON’T REALLY KNOW

“im a guitarist this is fine” YOU GO DD I LOVE YOU 

BEACH EPISODE BEACH EPISODE BEACH EPISODE 

omg oyzq. you’d think they were trying to extort a confession from him. what the hell is this instrument he said what is a xiao 箫. A WOODEN FLUTE? YOOO THAT’S COOL my god PLEASE let us get some kickass trad/modern fusion music im so ready 

“i trust ouyang” ahhh double char surnames are cool

HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA WHAT THE FUCK

“because i’m about to have surgery on my knee” REALLY? REALLY? IS THIS REALLY HOW YOU’RE GOING TO JUSTIFY ALL THIS? FOLKS I AM LOSING MY SHIT I HAVEN’T LAUGHED OUT LOUD LIKE THIS IN SO LONG

ok this is interesting tho he’s not a dick for the hell of it it’s out of desperation or smth. but like half a year, oh no, what a horror. (i’m fresh out of hb feels ok you shaddap // tho i can also imagine the knife, like in lotus bloom, where they didn’t think szp’s injury was permanent). tho i do also like the “then we’ll be seniors we won’t have time to perform” but also that’s just a reminder that all of these ppl are like frigging 16 year olds and i still cannot take this seriously

i like “i didn’t expect, that i couldn’t give you the confidence to win”. god im so glad this confrontation is happening. man this feels like a wrap up already are they really spending all 3 last episodes on the competition? what’s the story gonna be? 

feel like he’d be less ugly with hairstyle that looked more consistently like this. anyway sucks that both of them are so ugly otherwise there’s some nice sun/moon (+stars?) imagery you can get going here

GROUP CHAT GROUP CHAT GROUP CHAT 

pretty! i wanna save this hq

it’s this bgm!!! godd i just want this track so bad

an empty beach?? in china near shanghai??? 

anyway ahhh it’s the iconic beach shot! i like how the promo ver cuts out dd lmfao

wow nine episodes in and cookie finally gets a character moment??? cookieeeeeeee i missed you

ok i can’t ship them he calls her shifu but also THIS IS SUCH A CUTE FRIENDSHIP calling every day 10 minutes?? wow!! i love dongdong and i love cookie. also this hits different in covid times “no one says that we can’t be friends because of distance” 

oh i guess they are pushing this as a ship. meh.

wahhhhh. need this hq then i have more propic material. 

HE HAS COVID 

ah lang is VIBING oh to be the ah lang of my own life. parasurfing. walking into poles. 

wow this is so modern! the red bag thing! wow i do love this show flexing the modern-ness 

this is the mercedes benz arena im SURE of it ahhhh holy crap this crowd. oh to be in a crowd without mask

IT’S THIS DUDE AGAIN like the trailer spoiled this but if i found out this right here right now i would’ve lost my shit my god hahhaah

im like torn about how i feel about cr’s dress like idk if it fits her well even if it’s pretty

:<

oh im scared i hope this doesn’t become embarrassing 

:0

OMG THEY INCLUDED PENCIL SKETCH OF THAT S1 SCENE. HAHAHA. char growth yayyyyy

ok anyway im happy!! spent like an hour watching this or something lmao but good times!! much better than last ep HAHA yayyy im so glad we’re finally at the comp and lots of these little things have been tied up now im ready for new song drops!!!

[throwing-summers-at-the-walls]

Hello half valid anon here (i like my nickname 😂). I got through all your fics and they were all great. Right now im just reading a lot of poi fanfics and watch fanvids cause i can't accept that the series is over 😂 --- i know what you mean about fics affecting you negatively. I had this with 13rw (the Show and some fics) everything was so dark and hopeless that i had to stop watching it. I also love to seek out fics where someone is hurt so i can feel my pain through the characters (1)

But i try to read only fics with lots of comfort so it kinda feels like i get comforted as well (dont know if that makes sense). If it makes you uncomfortable or if its unhealthy for you to write about this i completely understand and i dont mean to come of as pushing you to write. I just hope whatever you do will be the right decision for you! As for you feeling suicidal im sorry to hear that. Let me know if there is ever anything i can do to help! I wish i could say sth more comforting but Im not super good with words :( i just hope you have people in your life that support you! 💛

maybe root will grow on you too? Or maybe you can skip her scenes and enjoy John, Harold and most importanly Bear! 😂 Yeah Shaw definately looks really good. She is a bit like Reese minus the caring. At first it seems she doesnt care about anything at all but thats not exactly the Case. There was an episode with Shaw and a little girl (3x5) and i really loved it (have you seen that one?).

I really think Shaw would grow on you (especially since in the beginning she does a lot with John) but then again a lot of her later scenes include Root so im not sure. Yes i love that there were never any romantic undertones with her and John!!

yeah the core four were great. I was so sad when Carter died! :(

i guess everyone sees chemistry different, i think Shoot and Rinch post have great chemistry ☺️

as for John being good with people: YES!! he is always so compassionate and such a great listener as well. I especially like him with children. John and the baby were so cute or John with the boy who offered to pay for him. John + Kids was always a great combination and i wished we would have seen it more often. Also regarding children we did we never got to see a John Taylor scene after Carters death? I needed that!

yes John the badass is also amazing! His character has so many different sides and i love him so much!!

i think Grace Harold was really cute but i dont really see a future for them, i mean he lied to her for so long! but then again they really loved each other so idk maybe they work it out. Im also not into John/Harold/Grace but like you said good for the people who like the ship :)

John and Zoe were great! i wish Zoe would have appeared more often!

I have so many things to say about John and the boring therapist but i think i better not say them :D i wish i could just erase their relationship from my mind!

of course he didnt die! i didnt see a dead body so i refuse to believe he is dead! i also just wanted them to be happy. what kind of an ending is it to let the main character die? i refuse to accept this! -- thank you for the rec i will check it out :) while i do like fluff i mostly read h/c (with the focus on the comfort) cause i just want John to get his much needed comfort :D -- i have no idea where season 1 is supposed to be boring. but idc the people can live with their wrong opinions :D

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Hiii !! It is a very valid nickname 😂 That's nice !! Hmu if you want more recs ! Lol same honestly, I can't believe it's been 4 years since the show ended ! I can give you a link to my poi/Rinch fanvids playlist if you're interested 👀

Oh boi 13rw is so cursed, can't believe I watched all of the 1st season 😬 I remember being afraid of the suicide scene making me uncomfortable but it was so cringe, unrealistic and just bad that I wasn't even that uncomfortable, I cringed when she cut her arms but that's it.

Yeah big mood I project a lot on comfort fics as well. For suicide fics, I think it also depends on how the fics adress the subject. It's something that is complicated to write. If I read a suicide fic with no recovery I'm gonna project but feel like shit. But with recovery, I can project into the recovery as well so it's better ! I read a really good ace attorney fic showing Miles recovering after a suicide attempt, it was thoughtful and didn't fall into the pitfalls of magical super fast recovery/love heals everything, and some lines stuck with me, it was really good and comforting. But yeah if it's just a suicide/suicide attempt then I don't think it's good for me (but sometimes I still read it bc I'm a Dumb Bitch).

Dw you didn't come off as pushing 💜 I'll see how I feel about continuing it or not. I have to figure out if writing about suicide is positive or negative for me 🤔 I mean I'm not portraying John's suicidal crisis as a positive thing, and he reaches out to Harold, and considers he might get better so I don't think it's bad for me ? Another problem is that I have a tendency to drop my wips to write a new shiny idea I get, and then I never finish anything gkgkffjfjf I dropped the suicide fic for the body horror fic which I dropped for the time loop fic, and there's also the hanahaki fic I started last year but I haven't touched in months, plus a bunch of random shit floating around OneDrive lmao someone stop me

What helps the most is venting, just getting that shit out is helping y'know. I appreciate your support ♥️ at least it's not as bad as it used to be

I doubt Root will grow on me, catch me watching her scenes at 1.5 speed lmao, also yes you bet I'll enjoy watching them !!

Yes I remember that ep ! Iirc the little girl tells Shaw she has feelings but the volume is lower than in other people or smth along those lines ?

I hope she'll grow on me bc she seems cool. I remember I was a bit afraid of her just becoming a sort of hollow copy of John, like "look we added another badass to the show". Seems to be more than that though ! Also I'm curious about their mayhem twins dynamic. But yeah if she has a lot of scenes with Root idk how much it'll annoy me

I feel like I wouldn't be able to get the Shoot chemistry bc I'm too biased against Root lol

Ikr the crossing hurt me so much. But thinking about it takes me back to my careese days and my first fics lol. I feel like the death of one of the core four + the abandonment of the library really alienated me from the show (did I already say that before ?). And here I'm gonna shamelessly derail from Carter to the library bc boiii do I have a lot of feelings about the library !! And you're here, talking about poi, so you're the perfect subject to throw these feelings at. This post really says what I feel about it (I'll put the link at the end as well if you wanna read it after you're done with this l o n g reply). It was in a way its own character and its forced abandonment/destruction really hit me (fucked me up when they broke that glass board). It says something that it's one of the few things I remember from S3 along with Carter's death and 4C. I loved it a lot, it was a cornerstone of the show. It was a safe place, a home for Harold and John (and Bear !). I love when they're together in there, I love this cracked glass board, this yellow stained glass in the windows !!! (at least I assume it's stained glass ?), these lights, Bear's cushion, the whole cozy/safe/isolated feelings, just absolutely everything. And yeah later they have the subway, idk when it's introduced I don't remember if it's early enough for me to have watched it. And maybe it's nice, I can't judge rn. But it's like trying to give me a new MC after a MCD, make him as nice as you want I'll be clutching the previous MC until I die. Gkfkfkff I went overboard and off topic but I just love the library ok

Ikr I love how he's badass but also gentle and understanding and nice to people ! I love him !!! Yeah wolf and cub is really good, also I love when John smiles to Darren at the end !! I use this moment as my pfp bc I love it so much. He's just so cute ! I wish he smiled more (did we ever hear him laugh in the entirety of the show ?). Baby blue is so great, Harold and him are such a married couple in this ep ! Yeah same more content with John and children would have been nice.

I never thought about how much we needed a John Taylor scene but yes !! We were robbed :((((

Speaking of John being a cool badass. Here's a badass John vid rec it's super good

Yeah they were cute in the past. I think it's good he went back to her bc it gives closure to both of them. But I don't see their relationship working again. She grieved, probably started to move on after all these years and knowing he lied all this time probably won't make her want to go back with him. I've never been in love so what do I know lol, but were I her I probably wouldn't want to go back with him and I'd just be happy knowing he's alive after all.

Same I need more Zoe (also she's hot)

Lmao let's just forget about that weird relationship shall we

Aren't we all the same, firmly believing he's alive and happy out there ! It was foreshadowed since the first ep and it made sense but do I care ? No, fuck that shit John is very much alive

You're welcome ! John needs all the comfort and the love !!! I think I have a preference for fluff bc he gets hurt enough in the show lol

Indeed they can, veryyy far away from us

Sry if this is shit I have like half a functioning braincell today

The post abt home bases I mentioned

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Expectations | 01

Summary: One night out is all you need to get your heart snatched. You can call him a friend, a fuckbuddy or the guy you’re currently seeing. The label doesn’t matter. That’s what you both agreed on and you’re okay with that; until you realised you weren’t.

Genre: College! AU, fluff???  idk sis but soon to be hella fluff n later angst n meybe smutty idk (just letting yall know)

Pairing: Taehyung x Reader

Word Count: 1,334 (hella short srry)

Warnings: none atm apart from swearing~~

A/N: hi bitches im back after 3 years mwahahaaaa. honestly, idk if any of yall even remember me but like this time round i actually wanna properly start writing more (esp cos its gonna help with my HSC) and ill have a lot more time from now on cos im graduating hs soon!!!! this story is lowkey based on smth that happened to me a few months ago but obvs with tweaks here n there. my writing is hella rusty so sorry if it’s dry. its not really a full chapter but i really wanted to release it before i throw it away like always yeet. i promise to release the next one soon~~~. if yall got any feedback, it would be much appreciated TTTT would you like a 3-4 chapter piece? or a slow burn series? lemme knowww cos i havent fully thought about what i wanna do with this story yet. hope yall like the intro thoughjgghg <3 <3

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You’re still not used to it. The loud music blasting into your ear from every corner of the street and the hoards of people that walk past. It’s a Friday night and you wanna let loose this holidays, especially since you just recently turned the legal age. You’re just as excited and nervous as the first time you’ve ever walked into a bar. The nagging thought of the bouncers not letting you in persists at the back of your mind. You present your ID and give them a small smile, all the while fidgeting with your fingers behind you. However, your worries are immediately washed away as they smile back and step aside to let you in. 

You walk in with Jinhee, one of your good friends who invited you out tonight to get you into the clubbing scene. Initially, you agreed in excitement and was looking forward to tonight for the whole week. But now that you’re here, you’re not so hyped anymore, especially now that you realise you have to introduce yourself to Jinhee’s friends. Meeting new people? While you’re sober? Nope, no thanks. 

Regardless, you stick closely behind Jinhee as she struts over to the bar and orders a few drinks while you scan the area, appreciating the chill vibe in the bar. People are generally huddled in their groups all erupting in laughter and talks. The girls look stunning in their outfits and the guys look clean and fit.

“Y/N. Here,” You turn your head to Jinhee while she hands you two drinks, “Gin and tonic. That’s your favourite, right?” 

You smirk and nod before you notice another two drinks in her hands. Why do we have so ma- 

“We’re starting off strong tonight, I want to be wasted when we get into the club.” She smirks. 

You scoff in disbelief, “You mean to say that these two will be all you need tonight, right? Lightweight.”

“Oh, shut up.” she retorts, “Come on, my friends are sitting on the other side.”

You follow her without a word and mentally prepare yourself for all the names you’re gonna have to remember for the night. Thankfully, the drinks kicked in faster than it usually did, allowing your social skills to skyrocket. The girls were all so nice and looked amazing in their outfits and the guys were really sweet as well. So many different conversations filled the circle and it was absolutely chaotic, but you didn’t mind it for some reason. 

“Hey guys, we should head to the other bar in the next block for another round. Heard it was really nice there.” One of the guys shouted. Taejun, was it?

“You really want to see those dancers, huh?” one shouted back, throwing his arm over his shoulders, instantly going for the choke-hold, “Taehyung, you horny motherfucker.” Oh fuck, wrong name. I must be drunk.

You pay no mind to it as the need to freshen yourself suddenly overcomes you as you stand from the stool. You decide to sober up a bit before you leave and grab onto Jinhee while everyone starts heading off.

“Jinhee, I’ll be in the bathroom. Wait for me before we leave, okay?” You ask.

She throws the okay sign while stumbling towards the entrance to catch up to everyone else.

“That bitch better not ditch me like last time.” You mumble to yourself, doubtful of Jinhee due to her intolerance to alcohol. 

Well, at least I’m having a good time. I haven’t had this much fun in awhile. You’re glad you came out and met some new people; you could really use some time to lighten yourself up from all that torture in the last semester. 

You step out of the bar, expecting Jinhee to jump out at you, nagging you for being too slow but she’s nowhere to be seen. You sigh in disappointment. Figured. You pull out your phone to call Jinhee but is stopped by a sudden invasion of personal space.

“Y/N, right? Let’s go, Jinhee said that everyone will be waiting at the next place.”

You look up at his face in confusion before you realise that he was one of Jinhee’s friends. 

“Oh shit, uhh, Taehyuk, right?” You ask while stumbling. Jesus, my tolerance must’ve gotten lower too, I can’t think straight.

“Hahaha, close. My name is Taehyung. Good try though.” He snickers.

Motherfu- 

“God dammit, I’m so sorry. I’m really bad with names,” You stammer, “especially when I’m drunk.”

“Don’t sweat it,” he smiles, “We’re all like that when we’re a bit tipsy.”

Wow, cute smile.

“We should probably start heading over to where everyone else is.”

You nod in approval and begin walking through the busy streets. The two of you maintain a good conversation along the way, getting to know each other and finding similar interests. Throughout the ten minute walk. You couldn’t get over how good looking this guy was. His sharp, dark eyes were so mesmerising. There was a cute mole on his tall nose and his lips were of a pretty pink. Not to mention his freaking hair. It looked like black silk shining against the lights. It was luscious and so soft-looking. I would do anything to run my hand through his hair right now. 

Unfortunately, your alone time with Taehyung came to an end as you finally met up with the rest of the group. You see Jinhee with her two bottles of soju, giving you the dirtiest look while being barely able to stand. You immediately walk over to her without much thought or any more exchange with Taehyung, feeling slightly embarrassed.

“This is for me, I assume?” You say with a glare, snatching the bottle out of her hand.

She ignores you and looks over your shoulder at Taehyung, which your eyes naturally follow.

“Already getting a hot one, huh?” She snickers.

“This wouldn’t have happened if you didn’t ditch me in the first place.” You grumble back.

“Your welcome.”

You sigh once again while downing a bit of the soju you stole from Jinhee and occasionally glance over to Taehyung. You two make eye contact from time to time and give a friendly smile but you don’t push for more. That small ten minute conversation was enough for you to constantly sneak glances at him. You’re not complaining though, he is really pleasing to look at. You feel like a child staring at a really expensive toy at the display window.

The night slowly moves on as you meet more and more people, all the while involuntarily having your eyes drawn to Taehyung, wherever he is; as if you have a radar on him this whole time. However, you don’t dwell on him for much longer than two seconds, allowing yourself to fully enjoy your night with your newly found friends.

The night was finally about to get started when Taehyung caught you glancing over at him once again. Reflexively, you smile but he doesn’t return the smile like he usually does. It throws you off guard and you freeze in shock before quickly turning your head back to the current conversation. You can feel your face and ears getting rapidly warmer. Shortly after, you feel a presence behind you and hear a deep voice call out your name.

“Y/N?” It’s Taehyung. You turn around. “We’re heading off to the club now, you wanna join us?”

“Uhh-” You immediately look towards Jinhee to ask if everyone was ready to leave before you get cut off by her loud voice.

“C’mon everyone! It’s time to hit the club, let’s go!!” Jinhee exclains to group while shuffling everyone towards the exit and gives you a small wink. That sly fox. You think in amusement.

“Alright, shall we head?” Taehyung asks while he cocks his head to the side.

You simply nod and follow him. Maybe it’s because of the alcohol in your system but you can’t seem to control your excitement at the possible opportunities that could follow tonight.

[shima-draws]

How about a Soul Eater au where Eugeo is the Weapon and Kirito is the Meister? Any thoughts? Any headcanons?

!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS REAL GOOD OKAY LET’S SEE

Eugeo is a sword ofc, probably some hybrid between his rose sword and the one he transforms into while fighting Administrator!

He did not like being paired up with Kirito much at first, because Kirito’s so carefree and kinda irresponsible lol and Eugeo, being from a poor family, wanted to get paired with a more high class meister and someone who defined the word capable in hopes of making a name for himself. Still tho, he realizes that their soul wavelengths are super in sync from the start, which rarely happens!

They bicker a lot ofc but they do end up getting along super well after a while! The first time they battled for real they were really compatible and in sync with each other and pulled it off without too much hassle, which earned them a lot of praise–and their first soul! (Kirito likes watching Eugeo eat them, he thinks it’s interesting lol and asks him all sorts of questions, “Do they taste good? I kinda wanna try one” and Eugeo’s like “You’re such a weirdo lol”)

Eventually they start getting really protective of each other–and Eugeo starts gaining that self-sacrificing personality where he’d rather get hurt than see that happen to Kirito–causing him to get injured in a lot of fights due to just being reckless and throwing himself into the fray to protect Kirito, who can protect himself just fine. Sadly this causes a rift between them because they fight over who gets to take more blows in battles–Eugeo obviously brings up the point that it’s a weapon’s job to protect their meister and should be the one to take most of the hits, while Kirito’s like “Well I can’t just let you keep getting hurt because I’m careless, it’ll seem like I’m only using you as a shield that way”, and eventually their soul link falls apart and they have a hard time fighting together anymore :’(

They do make up ofc but this is after Eugeo realizes that the reason why he wants to protect Kirito so much is because well. ;) He’s fallen in love with him haha–so he basically just becomes real Soft around Kirito and apologizes and Kirito notices smth is definitely up. But he’s a dense moron so it takes him a while to figure it out LMAO but after that, they get together (cause OBVIOUSLY Kirito likes him too!) and become an even stronger meister weapon pair for it!!

When they do Soul Resonance, Eugeo extends and becomes a larger sword, while also getting that big pair of wings that lets him move around on his own in battle! He’s also able to “clone” himself so Kirito gets dual wielding abilities lol–so one sword is Eugeo, and the other is like, a “phantom” version of him! This phantom sword has the ice power capabilities, so while Eugeo flies around on his own in sword form with his wings, Kirito uses the phantom sword to make those huge tendrils of ice and trap enemies within them! It’s a very useful tactic :’D

As for the rest of the crew–

Asuna and Alice are a pair, tho I’m not sure which one of them would be the meister tbh;; I can see it being Alice since out of the two of them she seems more battle fit I guess? And as a weapon, Asuna would either be a rapier or another sword!

Liz and Silica are a pair (Silica being the weapon), Sinon and Leafa are a pair (Leafa being the weapon), Klein and Agil are a pair (Agil being the weapon…probably?), and honestly Yuuki and Yui would be a really cute pair haha (with Yui being the weapon in this case), so yeah!!

Definitely a fun AU idea for sure lol