#i hope you like her 👉🏼👈🏼 really proud of this one

[yourdemiurge]

hello mady i am extremely late i just finished reading erik's chapter! this week's been so busy! I saw that you had updated and i was ripping my hair out because i couldn't find time to read but i finally did it today. I am proud to say that reading it has only made me rip out more of my hair I am confused, terrified, heartbroken, angry, gobsmacked, jumping out of the balcony because WHAT IS GOING ONNN AAAAA

the scene about the bird really had me screaming wtf!!!  I was so confused why wille told erik he didnt love simon that one day and now it makes sense oh my god- (i really hope im not clowning) i had to go read chapter 4 again and the way wilhelm asked erik "why did you do that" makes sense nowwww I love how the everything's coming together this is so exciting MADY

THE CONVERSATION BETWEEN ERIK AND SARA TOOO OH MY GOD (again hope im not clowning that'll be very embarrassing when the fic comes to and end)

getting more insight about the characters is so interesting, loved the part about erik's hillerska days. I hate him now but that's okay he deserves it.

I legit wasn't suspicious of erik as much as i was in august but good lord you've just plucked my pea brain out and tossed it into an endless pit. i literally sat still staring at the wall for like 5 minutes after reading the chapter. I already had trust issues they are multiplied now.

the conversation of a royal wedding made me cry btw that was very heart wrenching i did not want that today (do it again i love sadness)

almost forgot to mention that i absolutely am in love with the chess metaphor! your writing is so freaking goooood

as usual, can't wait for more mady! i can't even imagine how good it'll feel to re-read the whole fic again once it's finished and find that the clues were there all along! 

i also did a little something because i had time today 👉🏼👈🏼 I've been thinking about doing this for a while because i really love tdlp and i so badly wanted to make a cover! im not good but i tried! there's two with only a tiny difference, im leaving both of them here because i am extremely indesicive. they are really choppy tho rip my butter fingers (i legit had to give sara rhinoplasty because I accidentally erased half of her nose and noticed it a little too late💀) i also didn't add marcus i swear i thought about it i just couldn't bring myself to do it- anyways, hope you like them hehe💜 take care of yourself!

Hello, it's so nice to see you back in my asks! Your message has me 😭

I don't really know how to thank you enough for all the love you've shown for my works, especially TDLP. I mean, just look at this reaction! And those wonderful edits! You're amazing and very talented. I wonder if you have Twitter? I was hoping to share this.

But seriously, thank you so much 💜💜💜

Your interpretation of Erik is right so far, and I'm glad you read his very first POV chapter because it all relates to each other. Brace yourself for the next chapters, we've just gone up the rollercoaster and we're about to take the plunge soon.

[merry-the-cookie]

teresa would you like to talk about any of your wips please 🥺🤲 some crumbs for your humble friend

omg maya absolutely <3 (the fact that my last actual irl sleepover was spent recounting my wip in great detail 💀)

im puttin it under a cut cus 👉🏼👈🏼 im rambly

ask me stuff my dudes we’re having a sleepover

sleepover post

so im back on my time travel weird au bullshit, and one of the greatest things about it is i can describe just about any version of them i want. red hair ash? yes. black hair ash? also yes. long hair? short hair? curly? slicked back? black hair mike? pink hair mike? the answer is yes

anyway i dont rlly know what to say about it, i feel like im always talking about the same story fjdjjsd but theres these couple lines im so proud of, and so many moments i hope will touch people! Recounting the whole story to my friend the other day was so gratifying cus i got to see her reactions live gjfksjf

Here’s a couple lines i really love from a part in the uuuh second act out of three perhaps

He’s wearing a leather jacket and tight pants, a few rings on his fingers, nails painted black. He looks—different. A bit harsher than Michael’s ever seen him. Michael’s always thought of him as soft, before now.

and this one

"You’ve been so sad lately. Or maybe you’ve always been sad, and I just never realized. I’m sorry I didn’t realize."

anyways thank u for asking <3 sorry im always talking about this specific au fjdjskf i cant focus on many aus at a time 💀

also if u were actually asking about drawing wip! heres. a boy <3

[writerfae]

Hello 👉🏼👈🏼

I have two requests.

I would like a villain dump please and thank you. What are these babes motives?

I liked the German songs and the one about depression was really good. Decided it fits Lao, my oc. The others were super cool too, and I am very interested in what lyrics you associate with your characters.

Anyway. Those are my two thoughts with worldbuilding. And I hope you feel better!!

Hello! And thank you ☺️

Ohh yesss let’s talk about villains!

Though technically I have a whole villain group, if we are being honest there’s more or less two main villains. Morena and the Alderking. And Cameron, if you wanna count him, but he’s not really on a level with these two.

So let’s focus on the first two right now. One is a direct villain, causing the trouble but the other is an indirect one, a bad influence if you will. But the thing is, none of those two were really bad people. They were both corrupted.

Rook, the Alderking, was originally a good and committed husband, brother and king. But he was proud and overambitious. He wanted an ideal world, but as we all know everyone has a different picture of an ideal world in mind, so of course his ideas weren’t always approved of by his siblings.

In all his ambition to form the world like he thought it should be, he brought great changes to his kingdom (some good, some bad) but his own kingdom didn’t seem to be enough. With his siblings refusing to accept some of his ideas, he grew slightly unsatisfied with his life.

He just wanted to help them, to create a better world for them all, so why wouldn’t they understand? (Nevermind that he thought this can only be achieved if he takes over their reign / helps them with it because what’s so bad about this right? Win-win)

Of course The Shadow (the dark ancient force) saw its chance to jump on this unsatisfied king immediately and under its bad influence, the good intentions he started out with turned into greed. And that’s how he became the villain. Good intentions turned sour.

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Morena, too, was always ambitious. Her goal wasn’t a better world though, it was a better life for herself. As youngest of four daughters of a man whose family used to be quite estimated but lost that status, her chances for that weren’t really that great.

They weren’t exactly a poor family, they had just enough for a comfortable life - and wine for her father to drown his sorrows in it. But for Morena, her life made her unhappy still.

So she got out. Worked hard to get a good education, to become a court lady, to befriend the queen, to catch the interest of a high lord. And then she got it, her better life. And for a while, it seemed to be enough.

But she grew restless again, as if she wasn’t done yet. And then she found out that her descendant was the Alderking. That her family is supposed to be royalty but was unjustly robbed of it.

And from then on she knew why she was so restless all the time. She set a new goal: to give her family back what they had lost, a life as royal family. And with the influence of her descendant whispering promises into her ear, she set up her plan to bring back the Alderking, for the family’s honor.

You see, the two are pretty similar. Both thought they were wronged by the world. Both wanted to fight for a good cause (a good world, a good life for your family - what we all dream of) but their selfishness and some dark forces got in the way.

I’m glad to hear you liked the songs! And you could even apply one to your oc? That’s so cool!

I gotta put this part under a cut, or this will be too long ^^

Now to the lyrics! I also added my fave lyrics of those songs as a bonus, haha.

Okay so I add a picture of each lyric (fave on the left, oc one on the right, click to see the whole thing xD) and loosely translate them for those who need it. Hope that’s not too confusing ^^

Tanz für mich - Provinz

Line that really speaks to me: “Who loves freedom loves loneliness”

Line that fits an oc: “And baby look after you, it’s way too easy. Don’t get into me, baby, or you might break.”

actually this doesn’t fit any canon oc but it does fit Talon and Aiden from the au I have for them that was sparked entirely by this song

it fits Talon telling Aiden that he’ll only end up breaking his heart to which Aiden responds that he can’t break what’s already shattered but oh well let’s not talk about this

Das Mädchen und der Tod - Oonagh

Line that really speaks to me: “Look at me and go ahead, my friend, I’ve lived long on this earth. Look at me and take me up with you, my friend. And so the girl goes with death.”

Line that fits an oc: “And as weak as her heart was beating, as strong was her courage to face life”

this is quite literally Aiden because he, too, was born with a weak heart but his will to life was so unyielding he survived even when no one thought he could

Mauern - LOTTE

Line that really speaks to me: “I stay with you. Because I know behind this loneliness, there’s someone I’ve loved since day one.”

Line that fits an oc: “You are trapped inside your skin, have build thousands of walls. It’s a labyrinth only you know. Every way leads in but not one out.”

this is Talon and his repressed feelings also the very first bit (trapped inside your own skin) is quite literally what happens to the Alderking so technically…

Sommer, Sonne, Depression - Madeline Juno

Line that really speaks to me: “It’s finally season to feel even more out of place then usual.”

Line that fits an oc: “The irony of being sad on the beach. You see the sun, I see the sunburn.”

again, sort of Talon. But also Maya when her anxiety hits

And finally there’d be Augen sind rot by Provinz, but since it has no fitting of lines and my fave lines are like… all of them I offer you a different song of theirs I recommended someone:

Neonlicht - Provinz (aka my fave German song)

Line that really speaks to me: “With all these lights and all these lights I can’t see the stars anymore.” (also later on: “With all this noise, how am I supposed to hear?)

Line that fits an oc: “With an open mouth I hang on your lips. Start believing all the nonsense, all of the nonsense.”

that’s definitely Morena. She started to believe what the ghost of the Alderking whispered to her, believe he was the only one who could help her

Oh that was lord of fun! I’m sorry it got so long but I hope you’ll like it. Thanks for your ask! :)

[littlesniggy]

Heyy! Can i request a headcanons where female/reader is an ex slave and the Whitebeards Pirates save her, she's super shy and dont talk much and one day someone from the crew scare her so bad that she panic and how Marco, Ace and Thatch confort her please?

Tank you love ❤️

Sorry for my english too 👉🏼👈🏼

Hello Anon, thank you for requesting! I have no idea how Thatch would react cause I don't really know anything about him (other than he's dead) so I hope you like it! Also, call me old fashioned but I don't think a pirate ship is a place where someone who easily panics or gets scared should spend the majority of their time at...but that's just my opinion. Tried to not let the headcanons to be too influenced by it. I just went with the notion that the reader stayed after the Whitebeard Pirates saved her. Hope you enjoy it!

Characters: Marco, Ace, Thatch

Word count: 1.3k

Marco

The moment you joined the crew, Marco felt protective over you. Your quiet and shy behavior triggered him to always look out for you like a little sister. He was the one talking to you the most and he felt a little bit proud when you finally opened up to him a little. He made it pretty easy to open up to anyway, honestly. You never felt pressured to talk about things you weren’t comfortable with and told him personal things out of your own free will because you wanted to tell him.

So, when there is a big party on board and everyone’s drunk, Marco notices immediately when you’re suddenly missing. Before you went missing, he heard a loud gun shot and laughter afterwards so he put two and two together. You’ve told him about something that happened to you in the past so he is quick to look for you.

When he finds you away from the others in the front of the ship, looking off into the distance, body shaking and your hands clawing at the railing he sighs and slowly walks towards you, not getting too close though out of respect. “Y/n?” he will call you in a quiet tone as to not startle you too much. “Are you okay?”

When he sees your terrified face, he shakes his head internally at the whole situation. He’s not really mad at his crew mates since they are allowed to behave the way they always do but at the same time they should be a little more considerate. Maybe they should give you a little more time to adjust to the crew and hold themselves back before going all out but he won’t tell them to stop. But knowing his friends they will feel incredibly sorry for scaring you so badly.

He will lean against the railing next to you and look into the distance, keeping quiet and letting you decide if you want to talk to him. Eventually you do and he will put an arm around you to comfort you and tell you that everything’s going to be fine, you’re out of danger and the crew won’t hurt you. Sure, those are just words but he will make sure you’re feeling as comfortable as possible.

When he gets you to calm down he will stay by your side and talk to you about God knows what to keep you distracted and make you feel safe again. He just can’t help but smile when you eventually start talking to him again about small things that make you happy. Maybe he will talk to pops about the triggering in the near future but he also thinks that it’s not his place to tell people. Though, he knows that you’re too shy to tell Whitebeard. So, maybe he will ask you if it’s okay if he does, but not today.

Ace

Ace’s devil’s fruit is quite scary but his whole personality nullifies the fact that he’s a fire human altogether and you feel safe around him. He has this aura around him that makes you forget all your worries and simply feel at ease. Maybe it’s because of the fact that his body is made of fire that you feel warm and cozy around him.

Like with Marco, it is easy to talk to Ace, maybe even easier than talking to Marco but it’s a close call. He knows what has happened to you before you joined the crew but he honestly didn’t pay it too much mind since he thinks that, now that you’re with pops and the crew, you feel safe (still shy but safe). So, it kind of takes him by surprise when one of his crew mates jokingly screams in your face to demonstrate something and your face suddenly turns white, eyes growing white and your breath is flat and chopped.

He will chuckle at his crew mate but then slowly realize that you’re not too amused about it. His expression will change and he looks at you worried. “Are you okay?” he asks, making the others around you quiet down and look at you confused since they don’t know what’s suddenly gotten into you for looking like a deer in headlight.

You don’t excuse yourself; you simply get up and run away, tears forming in the corners of your eyes. Your heart is racing and you feel like throwing up and choking at the same time. You simply want to get away as far as possible which is quite difficult on a ship in the middle of the ocean.

Ace finds you not soon after, trying to approach you slowly. Of course, he knows something is wrong with you but he doesn’t know what happened since the whole situation earlier was a normal interaction for him. He will ask you if you’re okay, not daring to touch you due to your distraught state but he won’t leave you alone until you tell him what happened.

When you eventually tell him, he won’t quite understand why exactly you’ve just had a panic attack but he knows that it has something to do with your past and that’s enough for him to understand that maybe you don’t feel as safe on the ship as he has thought and he will feel somewhat guilty.

Starting from then, he will try and understand what scares / triggers you and keep an eye out for those things though, honestly, as much as he likes you and sees you as his little sister he is not a babysitter so he wants to find a way for you to handle things that trigger you better so you can enjoy your time on ship as much as possible.

Thatch

You and Thatch bond over food. When you first enter the kitchen in the middle of the night, thinking nobody will be in there, you’re surprised by the cook. He laughs at your shocked expression and asks you if you’re hungry as well. He offers to cook something for you and you shyly agree, laying the foundation for your friendship. Almost every night the two of you meet in the kitchen and you slowly open up to him, telling him some things that have happened to you (not everything).

He knows that trauma is a bitch and he feels like he needs to protect you from harm’s way but at the same time wants to help you overcome your trauma and help you live your best life. He anticipated that it’d take a while but he didn’t expect you to have a panic attack when one of your crew mates starts throwing food around as a joke to start a food fight and most of the others joining in. The noise seemed to startle you so much that you were gone from one moment to the other.

Thatch, knowing one of your triggers, rolled his eyes at his friends and hit the one who started it over the head, telling him to not waste food and to not behave like a child before he follows you. He knows where to find you and leans against the kitchen door frame, watching you have a panic attack. He feels bad for you and he knows only one way to comfort you.

He walks towards the huge fridge and start preparing something sweet for you (your favorite dessert) and silently puts it down in front of you before taking a seat across from you. While he was preparing your food, you looked up from time to time, the sound of dishware clacking against each other kind of soothing and by the time he’s done you’ve calmed down so much that you could thank him.

Silently, you start eating, the sweet taste of the food soothing your senses. Thatch watches you with a somewhat sad smile and waits until you are ready to speak. He won’t push you and if you won’t say anything that’s fine too but he needs to know that you’re feeling better and that the panic attack has faded away.

[antisociallilbrat]

Could i request hanbrough bill centric angst 👉🏼👈🏼🥺

Ngl I struggled to write this so I’m sorry it’s kinda on the short side :( I hope you like it though, I really did try ! It’s also my first attempt at writing angst so bare with me 

Read on Ao3 or below 

Warnings: Mild cussing and mentions of NSFW content

“Bill please just stay a little longer.”

“Mikey, I can’t, you know that,” Bill said while pulling his shirt back on.

“It won’t hurt for you to just stay for a few more minutes, you don’t always have to rush out of here,” Mike was silent for a moment before finishing, “It’s not gonna hurt her anymore if you stayed longer.”

That stung. Bill turned around from where he was sitting on the edge of the bed pulling his shoes on to look Mike in the eyes. Mike was perched up on his elbows, laying down still naked under the covers, radiating in a post sex glow.

“Mikey, please don’t start this again. I’ll be back next week, yeah?” Bill reaches out squeezes Mike’s hand, a gesture he hopes reassures the man.

They’ve been doing this for a while now, sleeping together. Despite the fact that Bill’s married to Audra, or the fact that Bill knows Mike loves him, something he’s too scared to return.

It had started back when they were teenagers, Mike had always just had this pull-on Bill. As if Mike was the radiant sun, and Bill a lonely planet, helpless to his gravitational force. From sharing secret kisses under the covers at sleepovers during their teen years, to hooking up in the dark during college, to right now, still meeting together in secret.

No matter how enamored by Mike Bill was, Bill was terrified of their relationship coming to the light of day. The leader of the self-proclaimed losers club was nothing but a coward, and he was ashamed. He saw the strife that Eddie and Richie had went through when they came out, and Bill just didn’t think he was as strong as they were. He couldn’t face the disappoint he would see in his parent’s eyes; he couldn’t deal with the public that was sure to backlash.

Bill was the one who always discouraged Mike when he would try to tell Bill that they could be together in the open, they just had to want it bad enough. In his cowardly ways he was always able to convince Mike that their relationship was better in secret; they could protect it that way. In truth, Bill was just too scared of what he had with Mike.

Mike on the other hand, Mike was proud to be who he was. It was Mike that had lead all the firsts with them, Bill helpless to follow. Mike who brave enough to come out when he saw that two of his closest friends also had the courage. Mike’s only fault in Bill’s opinion was Mike falling in love with him.

Mike knew Bill would date girls, which he would convince Mike in secret that it was just to keep up appearances. “It would be suspicious if we’re both single and hanging out as often as we do. Especially now that you’ve came out,” He had told him.

The line had been drawn at Audra though. Bill liked her, he knows he lies to himself when he tries to himself that he loves her, but she’s nice enough. Even when her and Bill was starting to get serious, Bill never stayed away from Mike. Mike never would ask about her when he came over, and Bill never brought her up. It was an unspoken agreement between them.

When Bill had deemed enough time had passed dating her, he moved on to the next logical step. He proposed to her, which she had gleefully accepted. That’s when Mike had lost it.

Bill had head over to Mike’s apartment after a celebratory engagement party with the losers, one Mike had made some piss poor excuse about not attending. When Bill had arrived at his apartment, he found a very distraught and very drunk Mike. He had never once heard Mike yelled, he always such a gentle giant, but he practically screamed at Bill that night. “I love you! I have fucking loved you since we were kids! I thought that if I just kept giving you time, that you would finally grow some fucking balls and admit you felt the same!”

Not knowing what to say, Bill had just left. He did love Mike, but it wasn’t right for them to be together. Bill hated what he did to Mike, he didn’t deserve Mike’s love. After that night Bill made a promise to himself that he would leave Mike alone, that it was better for Mike for him to stay away. He ended up breaking that promise a month after the wedding.

The other losers knew something was up during that time, but they knew better to push the matter. They were upset when Mike didn’t attend the wedding, Richie even yelled at him for it, but Bill told them to back off, to which they did. Besides Mike’s blaring absence, the wedding went off without a hitch. The tabloids had called it a fairy-tale wedding, if only they knew that the groom had been getting fucked by a tall handsome man up until the engagement.

Bill missed Mike during that time, he ached for him. He heard from Stan that Mike was doing okay, even had some steady new boyfriend. Bill tried to ignore the pain in his chest when he heard that, he was a newlywed, he had no damn right to be upset. That didn’t stop Bill from finally relenting and calling Mike up not too long after that conversation.

Mike and Bill easily fell back together after that. Mike even cut ties with his then boyfriend, he wasn’t a cheater like Bill. It wasn’t the same now. Bill was married now, and Mike’s confession of love still hung in the air when they would undress each other. Bill was smart now though, he doesn’t give them a chance to talk, fearing that if they did, he could lose Mike again.

Sometimes though, like right now, as Bill was getting dressed Mike would try to convince him just stay a little longer. It made Bill feel as sick as he did when Mike told him he loved him, and Bill had just walked out. It was worst now, because now not only was he hurting Mike, he was hurting an unknowing Audra. Neither of them deserved it, but Bill can’t help himself. He can’t keep himself away from Mike, and he needs Audra so that people don’t start to suspect things. Bill thinks he’s the worst fucking person alive.

Mike broke Bill out his contemplation, “Okay Bill,” he squeezes Bill’s hand back.

Bill smiles at Mike as he heads out the door and ignores the look of pain on Mike’s face. He’ll be back next week, he always is.