#i keep looking for content for my ship and new stuff doesn't come often

[winter-spark]

Being a fan of a rare pair that's not technically a rare pair but also isn't very popular is hard. You see that people generally seem to enjoy/love it but new content does not come frequently.

[kazoosandfannypacks]

"Wildflowers" by kazoosandfannypacks

Pairing: Beauty and the Puppet (Belle/August) Rating: General Word Count: (5K) Summary: August gives a wildflower to Belle, and upon seeing her smile at this token starts getting a flower for her every day from the nearby flower shop, which he is unaware is run by Belle's father, Moe. Moe has never met his daughter's friend August before, but is sure that he's no good. However, he grows quite fond of the stranger who comes in to buy a flower for his girl every day, unaware that his new favorite customer is his deeply despised August. Tags: au, fluff, beauty and the puppet, flower shop au, oneshot, the shuttle, flowers Author's notes: What's this? Kazzy's posting another fic today? And she's referring to herself in the third person and asking rhetorical questions again? Is she trying to communicate effectively but also so terribly rambly? It's more likely than you think! Happy Valentine's Day to my readers! I've honestly been blown away by the amount of support this ship I'm 'pioneering' has gotten, and I hope to see many more fics someday! I couldn't let the day go by without posting something for this little ship we have here, so I've decided to share this completed oneshot I've been hanging onto! This one was written as in such away that if you've never seen ouat, you wouldn't be confused by any of the content in it (and as such, it doesn't include any fairy tale stuff,) but I also haven't contradicted the canon in any way other than the obvious. I also was also initially going to post it as a chaptered work, but felt like the chapters were too short and went with a oneshot instead. I loved my chapter titles though, so I've decided to leave them in it :) Happy Valentine's (or whenever you're reading this) day! Taglist: @zahara  @kmomof4  @jonesfandomfanatic  @booksteaandtoomuchtv  @jrob64  @tiganasummertree  @anmylica  @teamhook  @undercaffinatednightmare  @gingerchangeling  @lonelyspectator  @caught-in-the-filter  @ultraluckycatnd  @cs-rylie @silver-the-phoenix @kanerallels @accidental-spice @poptart-cat-78 [if you’d like to be added to or removed from this list, hmu in my dms or askbox!] Also on Ao3!

Daisies

 One of the best things about a small town like Storybrooke was having a library within walking distance. August had started going to the library for research for the book he was working on, but he soon found other reasons to stop in- picking up a book on woodworking for his dad, helping a friend's kid with a school project, surrounding himself with books for inspiration, volunteering with programs at the library- or, more often, just to say "good morning" to the lovely librarian, Belle, and to keep her company on slower business days. He'd spent many an afternoon discussing favorite literary themes and authors together.

 August was on his way to the library, typewriter in hand, taking in the fresh Storybrooke air. The sun was shining, the sky was a perfect shade of blue- one that almost reminded him of Belle's eyes- and was spotted with clouds.

 August looked down at a crack in the sidewalk and noticed a daisy growing. He picked it, almost without thinking. He twirled it between his fingertips, almost feeling inspired by the daisy, like a plucked wildflower was some kind of poem in and of itself.

 And as he walked into the library, he almost wondered what he should do with the little flower, but when he saw Belle working at her desk, clearly frazzled by something and not having the best day- he knew what to do with it.

 "Good morning, Belle." He leaned on the counter.

 She barely looked up from her computer. "Oh, hey August."

 He handed her the daisy.

 "Aww, what's this?" Belle asked.

 "Picked it on the way over." August said. "It, uh, made me smile, and you look like you needed a smile today too."

 "I did."

 "It was a good thing she needed a smile,"

August thought, noticing that one crept across her face as she placed the daisy in the water bottle on her desk. What he hadn't accounted for was that her smile did what he'd done just done for her- it gave him a smile too.

 So when August walked away from her desk and went to his usual back room to study, he stopped first in the natural sciences section to take a peek at a flower field guide or two.

Sweetpeas

 Belle walked into the Game of Thorns flower shop with a book for her father tucked under her arm.

 Moe looked up from the bouquet he was arranging. "There's my little sweetpea. To what do I owe the pleasure?"

 "Hi, dad." Belle gave Moe a hug, then handed him the book she'd brought in with her. "I figured you might wanna peruse this new flower guide we got in, before I log it in the system and you only get two weeks to read it."

 "That's very thoughtful of you." Moe said, looking over the cover and flipping through a few of the pages. "I'll have to leaf through it later."

 "How's business?" Belle asked.

 "Oh, you know how it goes here," her father set the book down on the counter, "business is blooming."

 Belle rolled her eyes at her dad's joke.

 "How are things going at the library?" Moe asked.

 "Great." Belle said, "we've been getting a lot of traffic recently. August's really come up with a lot of cool new programs that get people involved…."

 At the mention of August's name, her father groaned.

 "August?" Moe asked. "That freeloader still hanging around?"

 "Not freeloader," Belle tried to reason, despite having this same dead end conversation with her father many times, "freelance writer."

 "Doesn't change the fact that he's in his late thirties and still lives with his dad, so what's the difference?"

 Her father was skeptical of any guy she mentioned, especially after her recent breakup, but he seemed to have a particular animosity toward August, remembering only the worst details of her accounts of him.

 "Besides, he's just a friend." Belle pointed out. It wasn't that she didn't want there to be something between her and August, but she was still waiting on him to make the first move- though the daisy he'd given her that morning was a good sign.

 "He's just nice guy who volunteers at the library," Belle continued, "while working on his latest novel."

 "Just like the last one was just…"

 "This is different." Belle sighed with a smile. "I think you'd really like him, once you got to know him. You might find you have a lot in common."

 "With motorcycles and black leather jackets?" Moe scoffed.

 "Everyone in town wears leather jackets these days, dad."

 "Well, I don't." Moe said.

 Belle shook her head and changed the topic, knowing that there were a lot of things more important than discussing their compatibility with a guy who, for now, was just a friend.

Crocuses

 Moe leafed through the book Belle had brought him last night- a simple guidebook on local wildflowers, every other page beautifully illustrated with the flowers its opposite mentioned.  It really had been thoughtful of Belle to let him look through it before she logged it. He had raised a thoughtful and loving daughter- now if only she could find a guy who was thoughtful and loving enough to compliment that!

 He was in the middle of reading about lady slipper orchids when he heard the door open, and saw a young man walk in, in the apparently normal-these-days attire of a leather jacket. He wasn't one of Moe's usual customers, but new business was always welcome.

 "What can I do for you?" Moe asked.

 "I'm looking to buy a flower." The stranger said.

 Moe looked around. "You came to the right place. Just one flower?"

 "For now." The man sighed. "There's this girl..."

 "Ah." Moe smiled, knowing young love was a great source of income for his shop.

 "We're not, like, a thing or anything," the customer started perusing the flowers on display. "I do like spending time with her a lot though. Do you have any flowers that don't look like they came from a flower shop?"

 Florists, like any expert, are used to hearing weird and unintelligent questions from those less experienced in the subject matter- but this question still caught Moe off guard.

 "You'll have to be a bit more specific."

 The young man laughed a little. "Yesterday she was having a bad day, and I'd picked a daisy on the way to see her, and it brightened her day. I wanna do that again for her- but subtly. Start with something small, like daisies and dandelions, work my way up to something bigger."

 Moe smiled. If only his daughter could find someone as thoughtful as this young man! Either way, it was nice to see that old fashioned romance wasn't dead yet in her generation.

 "I think I have just the thing." Moe walked over to a nearby bouquet and pulled out a crocus. "Crocuses are one of the first flowers that crop up in the spring- a sign of hope, and new beginnings. They can also represent cheerfulness, especially that of a young love."

 "Sounds perfect." The other man said, reaching for his wallet. "How much will that cost me?"

 Moe smiled and handed it to him. "First one's on the house."

 "Sir-"

 "I didn't like how that one looked in that arrangement anyways." Moe said. "Besides, I'm sure I'll be seeing more of you, if that girl knows what's good for her."

 But the guest still didn't put his wallet away.

 "I can't give this to her for nothing." He said. "This one didn't even cost me the effort of bending down to pick it. Diminishing the value of the gift cheapens the value of the recipient."

 His fancy words were compelling, as well as noble, and he could already tell he was going to get along great with this soon-to-be regular customer.

 "I'll tell you what," Moe said, "I'll charge you for an assorted dozen today, and then we'll be squared away for the next eleven you come in for."

 The stranger smiled. "Sounds like a deal."

Violets

 August took a second to stop and smell the crocus before entering the library. Belle sat at her computer again, seemingly having a better day than yesterday. She definitely didn't look as frazzled, to say that much.

 And as August got closer, he noticed the daisy still sat in the bottle by her computer.

 August hid the new flower behind his back, then approached her desk.

 "Good morning, August." Belle said.

 "Morning, Belle." August handed her the flower. "Brought a friend for the daisy."

 Her face brightened up in a way he wished he could find words to describe.

 "Thank you." She arranged it next to the daisy in the bottle. "Really brightens up the place."

 "You have no idea." August thought, trying to capture her smile in a word in his mind, but finding himself unable to come up with a single combination of words that did it justice.

 "You're welcome." August said.

 He found himself staring at her a moment longer as she turned to her computer, but when she turned back to him, he pretended to be reading a poster on the wall, then nodded at it and walked away to get back to work on his latest novel.

 But before he disappeared down the hallway, he glanced back at Belle, who was smiling at the flowers in the water bottle. August was suddenly even more thankful he'd paid ahead for the whole dozen from the florist that morning, because he couldn't wait to see eleven more of those priceless smiles from her.

 In fact, he would've wished he bought a hundred more dozens of flowers for her, if it meant he'd get to see that smile a hundred dozen more times.

Bluebells

 With every day that August brought in a new flower for her, Belle started feeling more and more appreciated by him- but she also grew all the more suspicious.

 A daisy growing in a crack in the sidewalk? Sure, it happens all the time. A crocus? Those ones grew all over the place in Storybrooke, as did the violet he brought her the next day and the terragon he brought in the day after that. It was when August brought in a couple sprigs of sage, followed by a delicate pink lotus that Belle realized what was going on. Either August had stolen them from unsuspecting gardens- which, despite her father's ungrounded suspicions, was highly unlikely- or he had bought them from a local florist- possibly even from her father's own shop.

 But that really was the puzzle. Her father couldn't stand the mention of August's name, let alone the thought of his presence. Certainly, he wouldn't entertain any scheme like this- whether August's intentions were to win her affections or to just be a good friend to her- unless he wasn't aware she was the girl August was buying flowers for- or perhaps he didn't know this was August, least of all the same August he'd been so adamantly opposed to.

 Belle didn't have time to ponder much more on her hunch, because who should enter at that moment other than her favorite visitor.

 "Good morning, Belle." August said, hands behind his back.

 "Good morning, August." Belle smiled. She could tell there was some air between them, some mutual feeling, a feeling that not only did she know he was going to give her a flower today, but also that he knew she knew he had a flower for her today.

 He pulled a plucked bluebell stalk out from behind his back and handed it to her.

 "For me?" Belle asked, half jokingly, "what a surprise." 

 With a smug smile, he replied with "You're welcome."

 She took the flower from him and smelled it, then tried to place it in her now very full water bottle.

 "Looks like I'm running out of room here," Belle said, "not that that's necessarily a bad problem to have."

 "These bluebells are best kept underwater anyways, or so I hear." August said.

 "Oh?" Belle smiled. "And why's that?"

 "If the bluebells were really underwater," August said, "they might begin to compare with the blueness of your eyes."

 Belle blushed a little, not just because of his compliment, but because she recognized "bluebells underwater" as an obscure literary allusion.

 "So I take it you're a fan of Burnett's less popularized works?" Belle asked.

 August smiled in the charming way he often did when Belle said something smart, when he seemed impressed with her.

 "'Hers were the colour of the sea," August quoted, "on a day when the sun shines on it, and there are large fleece-white clouds floating in the blue above."

 "They sparkled." Belle finished the quote, "and were often like bluebells underwater."

 August's own bluebells-under-water eyes sparkled at hers.

 "It's rare that I've met someone who's even heard of The Shuttle." Belle said.

 "Had to read it for school." August said, still not looking away from her, "But I've been thinking about that phrase a lot recently."

 "Yeah." Belle found herself entangled in his gaze, "I've always loved that description."

 "I like it a lot more, as of recent." August said.

 Belle nodded. "Me too."

 Having been temporarily lost in whatever had just happened, Belle quickly shook herself back to reality.

 "I'd better get back to this indexing." Belle said, placing her hand on a pile of books.

 "Need any help?" August asked.

 "No, I think I got it." Belle said. "I can't have you doing all my work for me."

 "Well, I'm around if you need me." August said.

 "I know where to find you." Belle said.

 "Always." August walked away to his regular back room, and Belle looked at her almost overflowing bottle of flowers, wondering if her suspicions of where he got them from could be true, if her father really could've sponsored that moment between herself and the man he claimed so ardently to despise.

Tulips

 After the bluebell had come a dahlia for beauty and dignity,  followed by a hydrangea, which represented gratitude at being understood, and then a purple lily for admiration and a zinnia for his daily remembrance of her. Yesterday August had given her a yellow tulip, which Moe had told him meant "there is sunshine in your smile,"  and August was excited to see what Moe had come up with for today. He was always so helpful in picking just the right next flower, almost like he was as excited about and invested in this as August was.

 It made sense though- to work in a flower shop, you probably have to be at least a little bit of a matchmaker, if not a busybody. Flower shops were at the heart of so many stories- of falling in love, of slowing the fall out of it, of anniversaries, and funerals, and weddings. No one had ever walked into a flower store for casual reasons- not even August when he'd first purchased that crocus almost two weeks ago. If this relationship did work out, he'd have Moe the Flower Shop Guy to thank for it.

 August smiled as he walked into the flower shop, the mixed floral scents in the air almost familiar by now. Though he never stayed long, it had become routine for him to stop in and pick up each day's flower, and it was starting to feel all the more regular to him.

 "Ah, there's my favorite customer." Moe called from behind the counter.

 "I must be doing something right," August said, "if I can come in here ten days straight without buying anything and still be your favorite."

 "Familiarity makes the heart grow fonder." Moe said.

 August squinted, then corrected, "That's distance. Familiarity breeds contempt."

 Moe squinted, clearly a bit confused, but then broke into a laugh.

 "What've you got for me today?" August asked.

 "For your twelfth flower- thirteenth if you count the daisy-" Moe pulled a red flower out from behind the counter, "a carnation."

 "Magnificent." August said, as he took the flower. "It's beautiful; she'll love it."

 "I take it she'd love it if it weren't beautiful too." Moe said.

 "Why?"

 "Because it comes from you." He said. "From the heart."

 "I don't know if she cares that much," August said, "they're just flowers."

 "That's the funny thing about flowers," Moe said, "If that girl had seen the daisy on the sidewalk, she wouldn't have cared about it. But you cared enough to give it to her, and what happened?"

 August smiled. "It's wilting in the same jar as the rest of them."

 "The gift doesn't matter as much as the gifter." Moe said. "That's where the value comes from."

 Just the idea that Belle didn't just like his flowers because they were flowers- but because he was the one who gave them to her- warmed his heart. August almost laughed as he thought about how much he'd treasure it if Belle picked a daisy and gave it to him too. He'd want that gift to last forever, and though he didn't know how Belle really felt, he had a feeling she felt the same about his flowers.

 And as August said goodbye and left the flower shop, he started thinking about what flowers to get her tomorrow.

Carnations

 Moe was beginning to wonder if his new friend would stop by the flower shop today. He'd picked up his last flower of the dozen yesterday, and was later than usual this morning.

 But he'd come in every day up until then, dedicated and committed to getting a new flower for this girl every day. Moe didn't have time to wonder about every one of his customers or every one of their recipients, but he'd taken a shine to this one in particular.

 "If only my daughter could find someone like him!" Moe thought. He hadn't seen Belle since she'd dropped off his book, but he was sure right now that that obnoxious freeloading August whom she spoke so highly of was trying to weasel his way closer and closer to her.

 But Moe smiled when he saw his favorite customer walk in anyways.

 "Wasn't sure I'd see you back today, friend!" he told the young man.

 "Came to pick up another dozen." He shrugged with a smile.

 "Another daily assorted pick?" Moe asked.

 "Not quite." August said. "A dozen roses- red ones, if you've got them. I'm gonna ask her out for a date tonight."

 "That's wonderful, my boy!" Moe wasn't just happy about the expensive bouquet he was about to sell, but was excited for this customer, feeling an almost fatherly pride towards him.

 "Yeah," the customer scratched the back of his neck, "I don't know if she'll say yes, but there's always hope."

 "Atta boy," Moe said, "and if she doesn't, I could always set you up with my daughter."

 The younger man laughed. "I appreciate the offer, but I don't think she could hold a candle to my girl."

 "I'd doubt that." Moe smiled. "My daughter is the most intelligent, selfless, and beautiful young lady alive."

 The customer shrugged, "I'll have to agree to disagree on that one."

 As offended as Moe's fatherly pride could've been, he understood the euphoria of blossoming love that this man must be feeling- it almost reminded him of himself, of how he felt when he first met his now-late wife, and the other man's remark was endearing.

 "Well then," Moe said, "I'll ring up those roses for you- on one condition."

 "What's that?"

 "Stop by on your way out tonight, if you can," Moe said, "I'd love to meet this girl of yours."

 "You got it," He said. "I'm sure she'd love to meet you as well."

Roses

 August crossed the street to the library, holding the bouquet behind his back. Maybe it was too much, maybe it was too soon, but maybe he couldn't stand falling in love with her for another moment, not without knowing if she felt the same way.

 He walked into the library and tried to act normal.

 "Good morning, August." Belle smiled.

 "Morning, Belle." August said. He leaned on her desk, because, quite frankly, he almost felt too nervous to stand upright.

 "I take it you've got another flower today?" Belle asked.

 "Close, but not quite." August took a deep breath. He pulled the bouquet of roses from behind his back as he asked, "Would you like to go out tonight?"

 Belle looked at the roses with a shocked expression, which almost made August wonder if he shouldn't've even considered this in the first place.

 "Oh, August," Belle bit her lip in a futile attempt to hold back a smile. "I'd love to."

 "Great," he handed her the bouquet.

 Now that she'd said yes to his invitation, he expected his heart to start beating at a regular rate again, instead of this rush he'd been feeling since he laid eyes on her that morning. But even then he couldn't shake that feeling, not while she got up and took the flowers from him, her hands grazing against his, her eyes getting lost in his.

 August reasoned that she didn't need both hands to take the roses from him, and as her hand brushed past his, his pursued hers. He wrapped his fingers around her hand and felt her fingers cling to his thumb.

 She gently laid the roses on her desk, and, without breaking the eye contact they were locked in, took his other hand in hers.

 And so they both stood there for more than a moment, holding both of each others' hands across the desk. August wasn't sure if he wanted to thank her or lean forward and kiss her, or maybe some combination of the two. But instead, for a moment, he just stared into her eyes, hoping he could communicate with a look what he'd never been able to put into words.

 Only after that moment did he lean forward and kiss her cheek, the only thing more wonderful than the feeling of her face under his lips being her flustered smile in response to it.

 "I'll pick you up here at seven?" August confirmed.

 "Sounds perfect." Belle nodded.

 August squeezed Belle's hands before he let them go, then left the library, walking backwards so he wouldn't have to take his eyes off her until he was out the door.

 But as soon as he was outside, he pumped his fist in excitement and let an unrestrainably whispered "Yes!" slip out of his mouth.

Lilies

 Belle had closed the library a little early that night to get ready for her date, and now sat at a chair in front of her mirror, giving her makeup its finishing touches. She glanced down at the vase of roses she'd put on her dresser.

 She was almost sure August had bought them from her father's shop- the arrangement had his personal touch written all over them, as did the cellophane August had given them to her wrapped in.

 Her father must not have known that his newest regular customer was her favorite regular visitor from the library- otherwise she would've been sent quite a few disgruntled text messages from her dad about it.

 She almost considered asking August or her father if either of them knew, but at the same time, she appreciated the poetry of the whole ordeal. Perhaps, in his attempts to further woo Belle, he'd taken great strides in winning over her father as well.

 And besides, it would be exciting to see how this story played out. How long would it take August to realize that he'd bought two dozen flowers from her father? How long until her father realized August had already begun to work his charm on him? How long until she inevitably spilled the beans- and there were so many ways she could do it too!

 Belle smiled a smile so wide she was almost laughing as she looked in the mirror. She'd been told she was beautiful all her life, but it was moments like these where she truly believed it- moments where she felt almost loved by someone she almost loved in return.

 She wasn't going to kid herself into saying she didn't have feelings for August, or that these feelings might be the early stages of falling in love again, but she reminded herself to fall slowly, not to give her whole heart to someone until she was sure he was ready to protect it.

 She heard the motorcycle outside and checked her watch- six minutes to seven- and looked out her window to see August on his motorcycle, holding his helmet under his arm. She leaned out the window and waved to him, and he looked up and waved at her as well. She grabbed her jacket and her purse and was out the door faster than you can say "young love."

 "You look great tonight." August said, holding out a helmet to her.

 "So do you," Belle said, taking the helmet, "but that's nothing new."

 He smiled and let out a sheepish "thanks" as they put on their motorcycle helmets and she got on the bike behind him.

 She wrapped her arms around him, and he looked back at her over his shoulder, then started the motorbike. She'd taken a ride from him once or twice, but this time was definitely more exciting.

They stopped much sooner than Belle expected- right outside the Game of Thorns. August took off his helmet and got off the motorcycle, and helped Belle do the same.

 "What are we doing here?" Belle asked.

 "I've picked out two dozen flowers for you," August said, still holding her hand, "it's your turn to pick one."

 "Alright." Belle hadn't expected her dad to find out about August yet, but it was probably for the better. 

 "Besides," August said, "the guy who runs this store was impressed that I got flowers for a dozen days, and wanted proof that whoever I was buying them for was worth it."

 Boy, would this show him!

 Belle followed August inside, holding onto his arm and trying to keep a straight face as he introduced her to her father.

 "Moe, I'd like you to meet my date." August said.

 "Ah, there's my best…" Her dad turned around to see them, and Belle laughed watching his excitement shift into confusion with a shade of disapproval, "Belle?"

 She saw out of the corner of her eye that August was trying to fit the pieces of the puzzle together, as she stepped forward and gave him a hint.

 "Hi, dad." She smiled at her father.

 "Dad?" August asked her.

 Belle turned back to him, trying to act natural. "Oh yeah. I didn't tell you my dad works here, August?"

 "August?" Her dad asked, disapproval shifting into disappointment.

 Belle almost wished she'd brought popcorn, though, because as scared as she was of her father's disapproval of August, this was the most entertaining thing she'd seen in a long time.

Edelweiss

 August had planned out every detail for that night. He made sure he had cash on hand in case of an emergency. He'd put gas in the bike, he'd brought an extra helmet, even brought a favorite poetry book with him, just in case. He'd accounted for everything- except the florist being Belle's dad- how was he supposed to plan on something like that anyways?

 From what he knew from his interactions with Moe, he was a generally agreeable man, seeming to be good natured and thoughtful- though perhaps that was just because August was his customer.

 From what he knew based on Belle's descriptions of her dad, he could be disagreeable, sometimes set in his ways, and hard to please- and judging by the frown spread across his face as he walked over, he didn't seem too pleased today.

 "So you're the 'August' I've heard so much about." Moe said. "The freeloader with the motorcycle and the leather jackets."

 As flattered as he was that Belle evidently had been talking about him a lot, August wished that she could've shared at least something better about him. He stood as tall as he could and gulped back his nerves.

 "Yes, sir." August said.

 "And what's this about anyways?" Moe cut him off. "Did you think you could win me over with pleasantries while trying to woo my daughter behind my back?"

 "What? I can assure you, I had no idea Belle was your daughter. I suppose I should've, though," August took a look at Belle, who almost looked a bit worried now, and held his hand out to her, "when you told me your daughter was the smartest, most selfless, most beautiful young lady I'd ever lay my eyes on."

 He took comfort in the reassurance he saw in Belle's eyes as she held his hand in both of hers, then turned back to her father.

 "Is that so?" He asked.

 "Sir, if I had known you were Belle's father, I wouldn't've just bought your flowers- I'd've asked for your blessing as well."

 "My blessing?" Moe asked.

 "Of course," August said, "I know we don't need your permission, and we don't know where this is going- but just to know that you approve of me, that if this relationship continues it won't drive a wedge between you two-" he glanced back at Belle, then looked back at her father, "that would mean more to me than you know."

 Moe looked at him sternly, quiet for longer than anyone would've felt comfortable in. August mustered up all the courage he had to look him in the eyes and swallow the lump in his throat. Moe reached out his hand, and almost looked like he was about to punch him in the gut- but instead this was a handshake.

 August shook his hand, firmly, trying to make the best second first impression he could.

 "Be true," Moe smiled, "and I'm sure my daughter couldn't be in better hands."

 "Thank you, sir," August said, almost surprised but definitely relieved her father had approved, "and I promise you, I will be."

 "You'd better." Moe said, and he turned back to his work, but noticed August and Belle hadn't left.

 "What're you still standing around here for?" Moe asked.

 "After you and I picked out two dozen flowers for Belle," August said, "I told her it's her turn to pick one out, if that's alright."

 "Be my guest." Moe said.

 "Do you have any sweetpeas in stock?" Belle asked.

 Moe smiled, "I thought you might ask for that." He pulled one out of a nearby bouquet. "This one's on the house."

 "Sir," August said, "with all due respect, we've talked about this."

 "Alright," Moe said, as he walked over to the cash register. August handed him a five dollar bill, and Moe gave him back his change, but more than the price listed implied.

 August double counted the money in his hand, then double checked the sign behind him, then looked back at Moe.

 "I think you gave me too much change." August said.

 "Not at all." Moe said, and in his next phrase he dispelled any doubt August had about where he now stood in Belle's father's eyes.

 "From now on, you get the family discount."

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Intro ➯|  Hi hello, if you’re looking to give the icon a name, I go by Jude. I am 26 years old and live in the Midwest (CST) I would say that I’m a fairly laid back writing partner with a wide arrange of interests. However, if you’re looking for someone to write slice of life, I may not fall exactly into that category. I have been writing for well over 13 years, and love diving into new and expansive stories! Content I enjoy/prefer ➯ | I feel as though it is important to put the content I prefer above writing preferences just so it is clear and I don't waste anyone's time ♡ I will always, always, always prefer writing dark content above anything else. This means mature themes such as addictions, crime, toxic relationships, gangs, angst and drama will always come first. HOWEVER, that doesn't mean I don't writing anything other than that. I've written and enjoyed celebrity and small town plots before but preferred them if they involved some of the themes I have listed above ( I almost never deny them! ) I have almost no major triggers but would prefer to discuss any you may have as to respect those boundaries  ♡ As for smut, I would prefer it not to be the main focus of our stories. It can be involved, just not majorly. I feel like every other day I'm gaining new inspiration for characters and plots, whether its from movies, tv shows or games -- there's always something new.   Right here is my navigation link that can take you to all the fcs and stuff that i'm currently into! What I enjoy in a writing partner  ➯ |

  I would say that my writing style could be defined as strictly literate. Which means when I send a reply, it should be expected that I will send multiple paragraphs in response. This doesn't necessarily mean that I expect the same in return either! I would much rather have quality over quantity as long as we are both having fun and enjoying ourselves ♡ Nothing makes me happier than world building as well!~ If world building is ever an option, I always much prefer it! I believe that the more characters are involved, the more chances there are for character development and various obstacles to create. I think always having extra characters to stir the pot makes things SO interesting. I also prefer not be the one to only write the male roles and prefer if you’re upfront and honest when it comes to playing male roles. Please do not be open to doubling if its just a means to getting a ship that you’ve been wanting. I will more than likely notice. That means not favoring and only responding to roles where I play male and neglecting the roles where I play a female. Keep it fair.  Partners also must be 21+ and understand that replies will not always be quick and fast. I work often and am working on my personal art business which means I may be online and responding when it comes to just having fun and chatting, plotting, head-canoning and sending ideas -- but I could be working on art on the side as well! Nothing makes me happier than having a partner where we both respect when each other is busy or when we are taking a moment for either personal reasons or mental health. Helpful info ➯ |  If you have any triggers, anything that is off limits, anything that makes you uncomfortable PLEASE do not feel shy to let me know ahead of time. Even during, before, or after a reply. DO NOT HESITATE. It does not matter at all the time, what matters to me is your comfort and your boundaries. I will not be upset, and I will completely understand. As for my triggers and my boundaries, I have not found any yet. If you are hoping for a major choice to be made, please feel free to do it if you feel this would add to the story – HOWEVER, if it involves something extreme being said or done to my character, I would prefer this to be discussed with me beforehand. Thank you! I look forward to writing and making some cool stuff with you <3   Feel free to like this post or DM me and I will get back to you! ♡

[akookminsupporter]

ok dumb question and i am embarrassed to ask but the thought occurred to me, there is so much jikook on youtube, twitter and other social media (yay). we see all the jikook moments that are true and not faked with edits and slo-mo because we can watch original content and see the truth and know 99% it must be real. but someone like us who focus on jikook all the time we might not be exposed to any taekook or jihope or v-hope or other...i know there are ‘cute moments’ between all of them but...

are there not some equivalent ‘moments’ with other pairs and i just don’t see it because algorithms only show me jikook?

i have not seen any evidence or heard anyone speak of equivalent moments but i was wondering if its because they are shielded from me. i am truly curious how these other people think there are any other real couples in BTS but i thought, maybe i just don’t see the stuff they see.

no evidence of other pairs who wait for each other after rehearsal? or ride together often? or go out together when not working? or stick their hands down the other’s shirt to keep them warm?  i am just curious and afraid to search because i don’t want my youtube filled with taekook but i thought maybe asking might satisfy my curiosity if you happen to know?

i find it hard to believe people blindly think what they think is true if there is another couple in bts besides jikook. and if they do that is sad for them.

i believe in watching complete original content and so far i have not come across anything other than what looks like jungkook and jimin being so so close but i am only 2 year old army so still a little new. there is so much to watch even from other countries where they do shows and stuff i know i am missing watching a lot. thanks and i hope i didn't make anyone mad.

Anon I'm a bit confused. If you really watch original content shouldn't your question already be answered? In fact, if you really watch original content it doesn't make much sense for you to ask those questions.

There are other ships that have cute moments but they lack what for me Jimin and Jungkook have plenty of: carnal attraction, desire. The way they look at each other is just different. The way they treat each other, the intimate familiarity there seems to be between them. And that just their relationship screams more, at least to me. That's something that in all the BTS content that I've watched since September 2020, I haven't seen in other pairs. And I think at this point I've seen almost all of it.

It's easy to list "suspect" moments between other pairs or flirty moments between them but one thing they don't have is consistency. And that's a key part of what differentiates Jimin and Jungkook's dynamic from other pairs and their dynamics with other members. Plus the context in which many of those moments happen make those moments make sense and that makes them not an indicator of anything, at least to me. Something that I don't think is mentioned much and which also makes a difference is the reaction of the other members. Not for nothing many of us always say 'poor Joon' or say that Hobi knows things and that he should share it with us.

This fandom or this part of the fandom has something and that is that it has to magnify everything that the ships within BTS do. And that goes for shippers of all ships without exception. So for other ships, the most common thing like a hug is a sign of a relationship but they don't see or don't want to see the difference in those hugs, for example. And it's because of things like that that for many people other ships are real. The funny thing is that for the fandom, with the exception of jikookers, the only ship that isn't real or has no chance of being real is jikook.

This fandom in general I think, celebrates almost everything other ships do or say. They laugh, joke about it etc., but when it comes to jikook? 98% of the fandom is silent, except for jikookers of course, and those non-jikookers who dare to say something, are almost always bullied into retracting or deleting what they posted. It sounds dramatic but sadly it is not.

But at the end of the day, everything I said above is the opinions I formed from what I have seen. I recommend you not to look for anything on youtube, definitely not video analysis, you better look for original content and pay maybe a little more attention to the other pairs, I guarantee you you will answer all the questions you have.

[captainkurosolaire]

~ Mass Update ~

Mainly going into future plans and intents alongside ideas below cut.

Ton's of things I've in store this will prove difficult to vent it all out. But here we go... First off rehashing and appropriately learning to tag and organize things better on my blog. Each category will have their own corresponding content, I seek to bring or share. [Tales of Goldbrand] -- I intend this to carry a Compendium of all my writes soon that'll have everything neatly in-order including a glossary, so it'll have highlights of stories that even matter or the best stuff. I've written here for a very, long time, there's been many shifts. I want to make it more accessible. While coloring what matters for people who want to learn Captain or his Crew with less chapters. While also giving choice to find it all easily. This is essentially a step-above master-lists. I'll be doing that after the Saga I have going on, right now is done. [Captain] -- Will provide you strictly with Captain screenshots, gifs, photo-sets. This is still his blog despite the Crew thing's will sort of make this a scuffed Multi-Muse blog. I've few more things to edit and tag fix to get all his stuff though. [The Wild Crew] -- Afterwards this story is done Immortal Age Saga, It's something that I mainly wrote as a passion project within three days to get my warm-up process fixed. It's to allow me to get a feel for all his Crewmates and casts, in combat, in-general, to feel their presences. While also giving a bit of their backstories. At any point, I can go back and polish or tweak things in. They're NPC's but... not entirely. All will have their own 'Dreams' and their own 'Disapproval's' they have their own missions even. These things will factor eventually, they might set seeds, to betray or disagree with something, but that's all angst and more stories to be created, but overall, they'll probably always be Crew, eventually. -- I plan on making character-profile sheets of them and putting them in this Tab, it'll have their screenshots, their likes/dislikes. Some RP partners or people can also be shipped with them, but they'll all be monogamous and originally start off probably Pan. This allows them to figure out what they like on their own stories. I've always been someone who likes organic-flow. Although this one story contain all 16 characters or more, the rest will probably be shortened to a Squad of 4 and dispersed when on adventuring missions. Until I do a War Arc, that's my main goal to build too. [Roster] -- Will contain this Crew in just screen-sets dedicated to them, I'll probably randomly produce those. I've PC players among this Crew too. I may not be done either adding more, but this Crew is mainly built around Quality. Most pirate crew's mainly, have hundreds, thousands. Even Fleets. This Crew has personalities, monsters, people who are living life's that exist with piracy. He's an particular leader that had PC players the same way, he's had split-personality serial killers aboard, tribal chieftains, succubus, all sorts of various people once on a Crew. It's often an outcast style, pirates default are chaotic in nature, so this really isn't any different, it's a Fantasy version of it. There's humanization characters aboard too though, so this cast is really decked, everything and person is vital, they matter because they remind or covet something that others can draw upon. If ever played (Three Houses or Mass Effect / Dragon Age Origins) A lot of things like that are relatable too this structure and format. Which, Is something I want to be able to give when RPing. I want a genuine feel of this new world someone else's muse will be the main-character too. Depending on what's interacting everything they'll be scale appropriately to follow the genre they're in and environment even. [Aesthetics] -- Already explainable what you'll find here. [Asks] -- Same thing. [Prompts] -- Trivial things I was tagged too, I plan on compiling later. [Writing] -- Another alternatively to randomly go-down and it works right now. [Logs] -- Will have more individualistic master-lists and posts there, my poems from Sheik Sphere the Bard, etc.

Things of that nature, I'll probably add still. It's where a lot of my creative writing is summed. [Gems of Hydaelyn] -- My main #tag for other characters and artists, creationist. Lot of amazing people easily to find their zones or follow them optionally if you like. Ton's I intend to support and bolster, be a lot less unspoken. I'm never the type who's been strictly inclusive. But I'll do that when I've time to even explore the dash, I'm always still planning ahead with things and projects. [CKS] My original character-sheet it's outdated on something's but not too terrible. I'll give him polishing someday, I swear? [21+F-List] -- Just purely degenerate stuff of Captain. I'm a pirate blog. I will represent that with openness and furthermore. I'm never projecting you some false-image. I started off a smut-writer by stripping that, I no-longer represent the same aura and identity. But those are strictly his stuff and kinks, I'm effective in executing them but they're not all relatable to me OOC. This blog will always be 18+ containing crude or dark material sometimes, romantic things, this Captain is blunt, will literally put his cock on the table in conversations. Swearing and being censored would be too uncommon and displace most of him, but there's more about him then all this. [Other] -- I pay homage to a lot of characters, I originally am a Concept Designer. Which mean's I make characters and ideas like my addiction. Bad characters / villains or other little things I like to share in designs, I'll put there. Some villains might get little photo-sets, even if they died. Just cause I like their design, or maybe I'll give them an AU, where they won. When I've wrapped up things. [Collabs + Ships] -- Is a new project idea. This isn't going to be something limited too romantic only ships. It'll contain, platonic, romantic, friendships, rivals, frenemies, family, PC Crew, all ships. I am desperately working on improving my gif, screenshot, posing game so I can supply 'Screen Stories' this is not only a way to RP that's accessible with even people who are upon time-crunches from work, It gives visual-representation. To impactful stories shared with others and establish bonds. That are all-valid and impactful matter. Lot of people take a lot of their characters attributes into them and are them dialed up, I work with that and bit more, differently. I'm disconnected from my characters and they'll get hurt and injured and killed by me, that's my duty as their Author to give them conflicts and struggles. I'm their major antagonist, but that doesn't mean at-all, it's always SET that way. The characters I like to make have their own life, they live in this setting and are abide by it, they're often nothing, nobodies, and by the interacting with others, they slowly gradually building, more... Through emotional impacts, they alter, these are REAL people by all their beliefs. Each person they come in-contact with are legitimate and treated like that too. They've always impacted or given them insights to grow, or represent more. Otherwise it'd be criminally disrespectful if I allowed any emotional I felt OOC be the grudge to something IC. Captain in-particular is set on defying me. I cannot have that. ...But I can't stop him. He's met and encountered so many people and lived so many scenarios based on the actions of others, he's giving a chance right now to actually do things a lot further than impossible. The more people he meets and encounters, experiences, the more I lose. These stories are emotionally interactive where everything is a factor and adds to the dice, where the other people are the one who get to roll the dice for him, not me. That's something I want to color in. People range in emotions, they have their down's, ups, their own wholesome-grounding people, spending time with your favorite people, there's nothing more cherishing than that, being in your own comfort-zone or 'safe-space' these are all treasures that we live under, today. Contrary if what people assume of me, I'm not another 'blogger' that's came

before, who's wanting to force a harem, then constantly is bewildered when that falls to pieces cause of selfishness or a lack of communication, or the skeletons they have in their closets and beliefs they hid behind and swindled fooled everyone. I'm not looking to be popular or anything really, I just create stories and want to share in those, and I want to also boost others included, upward with me, especially those who make me. There's no ego in anything I do, this is purely love. I've never cared about being replicated or duplicated, I've had stalkers, I've gone through more then anyone would imagine, I've been used OOC and abused, just for my writing and cold-harshly told, i'd never amount to anything other then that or vice-versa. --------------------------------------------------------------------- Passion. That's all I got and am anymore. --------------------------------------------------------------------- Passion is the hardest thing to keep. It's something that can be stolen, quite effortlessly. Few words of discouragement, a bad negative representation, a lack of confidence, or small amount of time, there's many thing's that can put that flame out. Once you lose it. The difficulty to reattain is hundred-times harder than climbing any mountain for real. I've watched the greatest creators crumble from under the pressure, from beaten down by others. I watched many of them do it to themselves because they put a grand vision of needing validation of another and once lost, felt uncompelling to press onward. But passion also can be given BACK and drawn. It can be shown and encourage others, with a soft-triggering, that pushes them. That motivates, that constantly sticks to it. There are many that fuel me. If I ever quit, I let them down, I spit in the faces of people who're better than me in every-way. Or people who've came and given me their precious Time. That have given their character's or dedication to the abundant stories and community-driven things I've done. There's ONLY things you can do, create, give and provide. It cannot ever come to life without YOU. This is a fact. ...I swear, If you let your creativity soar, you'll be amazed by the heights you get. Constantly polish and learn and hone the best you, challenge yourself day after painstaking day, to draw better improvement on something, no matter how trivial or unfamiliar you are. You'll find a confidence only you can give yourself. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Future Plans --------------------------------------------------------------------- For me, I've got so much more stories to give and also explore, I might be taking up soon some other artists and more skilled people from community and hire them for some of my future writes, to up my game or cause something thing's can't be done in-game cause no background carries it. I also got a lot of-set up things and more angst stuff I want to practice, plus I'm adamantly on that grind to produce screen-sets with the intent's to some sort of improving daily. Additionally more people I'll be reaching out too soon for these collab's ideas and things. I look forward to shaking your hands, giving some hugs, show you my respect and admiration, then creating some enchanting stories and giving plots light. Feel free to reach out to me, I get scattered-brain but I'm working on getting better about it. Eventually will get to you though, my goals, if uninterested just say so when I poke, no bites, unless you kinky. Anyways, cheers hearties.

[evilvarric666-archive]

This is gonna be long, so sorry in advance, but as someone who enjoys long fics here are my two cents:

I get why some ppl may not want 75 tags in fics, but this is gonna hurt long fic writers. On a long fic there are probably gonna be more relationships that are central to the plot that aren't the main ship. And side pairings that may be a squick to some ppl. Not to mention trigger warnings and tone tags.

For example: a long fic with the pairing Y x Z. Z had an abusive relationship, and that's gonna be explored. So the author tags abusive relationship, bc that's a trigger, but an explanation next tag saying "not current ship" or smth.

Then Y has very important friendships with some of the cast. These are central to the plot so they're tagged too.

Turns out, character W is controversial in the fandom, but they're central to the fic too. The author is gonna tag after the character tag W positive/negative; so ppl who don't wanna see positive/negative things about W can skip this.

And guess what? Ship A x B appears in this fic too. Maybe it's not that central, but this ship is also disliked by some people, so the author will tag it, so ppl can filter through.

Another problem is with media that has different mediums, like, the media Y, Z, etc are from has movies, and books, and games and a tv show. All these things actually have different stories, different enough at least that ppl may only want to see fics written for the movies! But the author wants to take plot from the movies and the books. So instead of just tagging the all media tag for that media, they also tag media (movies) and media (books)

These tags end up accumulating. And especially in long fics. The author could make the first chapter a list of tws and stuff that they keep updating, but that destroys the purpose of ao3 tags: you can't filter content like that, you can only filter tags.

I honestly think they should just find a way to delete the fics with the trolling tags, or make a readmore thing so it doesn't hurt the browsing. At the very least make the tag limit longer.

sorry in advance that this is going to be rambly and weird. I have a lot of thoughts.

I get where you're coming from but I also still disagree. Like it's definitely going to change the way longfic writers tag, but I really don't think it's going to hurt them. I think it's going to encourage more effective tagging and that that's going to be better for everybody in the long run. If anything, I think that overtagging is what's hurting longfic writers, it makes their works look unappealing, and actually important information gets buried in a wall of text.

i will admit though that I do understand better now why less room for trigger tagging is going to be an issue. My preferred tagging style is "General/umbrella warnings in the tags, with whatever elaboration/specifics the author deems necessary in an author's note/author's notes at the beginning of each chapter" (example: "animal death" in the tags, so that the filters catch it + people who can't handle the subject At All know to keep scrolling, and then the author's note specifying that its in the context of game hunting & not a pet death, so that people who were uncertain and needed more info could click in and get the specifics.) and I thought that preference was pretty universal? But apparently a lot of people use the tags as an exhaustive list of warnings, which I didn't know because when I see a work with more than, well with more than 75 tags, I just start scrolling until it's gone.

(this is a tangent and I get that my experiences are not universal. but I genuinely dislike full warning lists in the tags because, for me at least, it makes it harder for me to figure out if the story is something I can/want to read. The things I Really Do Not Want To Read about are rare, and rarely tagged the same way twice, so the exclusion filter isn't really helpful for me. I have to actually read the full list of warnings and if the things I'm looking for are sandwiched inbetween a bunch of trope/character tags in a big wall o text I am going to miss it. This has happened to me multiple times.)

I think that that's an ineffective tagging style, basically. Lots of tags is kind of the opposite of useful tags, imo. Short, to the point and consistently worded warnings are better and I think having less space will encourage people to do that. I understand why people do this other style, though, and also why it would frustrate them that they can no longer do that. I think it really sucks that ao3 let everyone wild west their website for so long that it managed to spawn like three distinct groups of people who all use the website in completely incompatible ways, and now it's at the point where any new rule implemented is going to screw a lot of people over no matter what. But I digress.

Anyways, as long as someone isn't putting Revolutionary Girl Utena levels of warnings in their tags (and if your fic needs that much... maybe you should just put yur top 10 biggest warnings on there and slap a Dead Dove Do Not Eat on the end there, yknow?), I think that 75 tags will fully accommodate them. I get that tags start adding up, but also I think a lot of people are underestimating how many tags 75 tags is.

Like to just add up how many tags are used in your example: three / pairing tags, lets go crazy and say three more & pairing tags, tag every character tag in those pairings that's twelve, #abusive relationship + #not main pairing tags, three fandom tags bc multiple source mediums, a #[controversial character] positive tag... that's 24 tags. Like all the necessary character & pairing tags are handled in less than a third of the space given (and personally I consider this slightly over tagged. I think the only character tags you should put on a fic are the very mainest/pov characters, but yknow) and honestly if you can't then figure out a way to communicate the rest of the necessary information about your fic in 51 tags and a 1250 character summary then I really don't know how to help you. I personally would have to really push myself to figure out how to put more than 75 tags on one fic, regardless of the length of the fic. And I can't help but notice that a lot of the fics I could find with over 75 tags while searching last night had a lot of... unnecessary duplicate tags, often for information that could've been easily otherwise intuited (tagging #mandolorian #mandolore #mandolorian character and #mandolorian culture on a Jango Fett pre-series fic, for example)

I do have some criticisms about the current change though. I think it would've been better to have individual tag number limits for each individual field (x number of fandom tags, x number of character tags, etc.) instead of a 75 tags over all limit (or make a "warning tags" field that's separate from "additional tags" but that's a separate essay and would... probably mean overhauling the whole site. so not very practical.) A readmore option would be good too, and I'm not sure why they didn't go for that? I also think that this change will be most effective if done in combination with other changes. Like posting very loosely or not at all enforced official tagging/style guides for the site. I really think that even a tepid attempt at standardization will increase the site's usability like, A Lot.

I'm not sure how cohesive that was. TL;DR I appreciate hearing your thoughts, mine are that I still think this is a step in the right direction. And that cutting back on overtagging will lead to more concise, effective tagging which will make browsing and filtering easier in the long run.

[tokugou]

i feel you so much, i become so extremly neatpicky (sometimes I feel like its better to only follow jpn artist man) but you still will see stuff. i don't follow any enabler but the shippers I follow often get attacked by the other shippers and defend themself, its so disheartning to see. Doesn't help we currently mostly only have like, our favs, comfort ship and the premis of the show (Im, ignoring canon currently, not very fun to read at all for a while now) Im kidn aglad I have a second twt i follow more jpn artist and for other stuff so I can just avoid the stuff a bit more easily. I also reacently started watching a more cartoon show with a bit of a story, sure writting aint the best but I promised myself to not be as hypercritcal for it and enjoy it as it is and I do. it helps cause now I actully have something to look forward too comming out (so I also care less about the manga right now) and kinda ironically helps keeping my intested for my fav charas and ships in bnha alive too (along side specefic artist and writers I follow) doesn't work for anyone but yeah. This ship wars are the most stupid things fandom ever came up with. Were around the same age so I don't think I can give much advices you probaly don't already know yourself but hey, maybe worth checking the todobaku tag for yourself on a03 again?

Here I am replying waaaay too late again. One day I gonna pay more attention to my mailbox, yeah I am still not used to the fact there is anything there.

Dont ever get me started with twt it is ridiculus how bad the non-existencial blacklist system there is, like you cant have safe time there even if twt has huge amount of good stuff when it comes to art. pity

I am actually pretty good nowdays, like I avoid everything that can tilt me, the blacklist is so full and I usually block people who are dumb or spread hate and I have never been a part of any ship war, yay me. Maybe cuz of that when something happens (like last time) it is huge and mindfucking more, or maybe it is just canon fucking with everyone brains, we have literally no good content in canon so people will stick to anything non-existencial and try to create something out of nowehre and say it is the way.

I cant belive I had a hope, each week checking leaks hoping for good exciting content and here we are with today's chapter that hope prolly died. I cant, how worse it can be?

I am glad tho you manged to find something to take your mind off b/nha in general no matter what it is as long as you enjoy it I think it is valid! I still try to find a new anime/manga I could get into, but this is my problem I cant have more than one obsession at a time. And I am stuck here in b/nha but it is fine at least I have bk/td which makes me happy. Tho I admit that there is less and less new content for them even on ao3 (or maybe it is me thing since i have too many filters on there....)

but thank you so much for sticking with me for that time, i hope you are having a great day and once again i am sorry for such a late reply. also sorry for lame reply

[minblush]

Leave mimi alone. If you could get over your jealousy for one second you would see would a sweet person she is. I follow her because she doesn't look for fights unlike blogs like yours. Yet there are fights on her blog cause of people who don't have anything better to do like you.

so it’s been a while and i finally worked up any sort of courage to address all of this and i will do it under this one ask because out of all the ones mimi’s “fans” sent me, this one was the most civil

i’m still shocked that i got so many people attacking me over rightfully calling mimi out, and ofc there is no jealousy involved, i guess i just don’t understand why she is the blog that anyone would want defend, like let me summarize

she only gets notes because she is fast with her updates, why is she fast? she just takes updates from twitter and twitter translators a lot of the time without crediting and without any factchecking herself

she spreads unverified information and rumours because of it and got into trouble because of it more than once

she posts sasaeng information and photos taken outside of official schedules in the boys’ private time despite being criticized for it (like the jikook vacation)

she also still has the fact that she “stalks” the boys in her bio, even though i know for a fact people told her many times it’s inappropriate in the context of the fan culture in korea

she is very ignorant about mental illness (the post where she claims that jimin suffers from depression and was saved from it by jin as a fact is still up btw), the entertainment business in korea, colorism and racism (she thinks “reverse racism” is an actual thing lol) and she spreads her harmful opinions by writing essays about it to her large following

what bothers me personally a lot as a gay person, she is one of those obnoxious delusional shippers and normalizes that behaviour to her followers and also fetishizes gay men to a really ugly extent (i’m not talking here about normal shipping BTW I SHIP LOWKEY TOO, it’s about boundaries though, i’m talking about writing conspiracy theories and fetishizing, FETISHIZING, treating sexuality as a joke and treating it like a commodity, direct quote from one of her very “funny” posts: “BTS is gay ! Shippers : Of course. Why would I stan straight boys ? Who does that ?”)

(and yes as someone said in the tags, apparently she also did make racial jokes and jokes about north korea etc, but i haven’t seen those myself, only saw people mention it second hand so since i don’t have receipts i wasn’t going to include it initially)

and that is all before the jonghyun issue, which i feel like is kind of a culmination of a lot of what i dislike about her blog

she didn’t wait for an official confirmation from SM and immediately started posting about his death, all actual fanbases of jonghyun and shinee waited until after the confirmation to actually post about it, because can you imagine if it wasn’t true (no matter how real it may seem?), just like other actual bts fanbases most of these serious blogs wait for official confirmations for anything, unlike mimi who just jumps on any opportunity for notes and for her to be the news bearer. you could see people asking her to wait until the confirmation in the notes of her first posts, BUT SHE DIDN’T LISTEN, instead she let her posts spread and only added confirmation much later when it came out (which is what she does in general, spreads rumours / unconfirmed info, then when confirmation or denial comes out she edits the post and apologizes in some extremely lowkey way, despite her getting the heat for it she keeps repeating the same pattern)

her posts were made from the point of view of a bts fan instead of a human being, she was extremely tribal by saying things like that “as a bts fan, as an army” i offer my hand to shawol etc, “jonghyun took care of bts”

then she made her post about saying how we should be grateful the boys are under BigHit and not SM, because bighit supports the boys in expressing themselves about mental illness and provides help for them, blaming the company and the entertainment business for jonghyun’s death, showing her complete ignorance, not only do we not know what bighit is actually like behind the scenes (do people not remember the scandal where one of the managers hit jungkook on camera?), but the issue is that this didn’t apply to sm anyway… because…jonghyun was very outspoken about his issues with mental illness, so were other sm artists like taeyeon or leeteuk, there was/is even a support group for idols under sm that these guys as well as others like onew or yoona were a part of

and depression isn’t that simple, jonghyun had friends and outlets, but if anyone has ever been depressed or suicidal, then you as i would understand that sometimes that doesn’t matter, depression is a serious illness and the illness just won in this case, this is an opportunity to spread awareness about the illness, to urge people to seek treatment as well (jonghyun sought it himself) not try to analyze and pin it on any company or any circumstance

yet mimi linked jonghyun’s death to being oppressed by his company, by having to hold things on the inside, as if he didn’t talk about it candidly and didn’t express himself in his music

what i also found distasteful but i also can’t prove anything and people grieve differently, i still raised my eyebrows because when she lashed out at people who got rightfully angry for her for using this opportunity for notes and to make it about bts and bighit, she revealed that she was upset and cried because she thought about how it could’ve been “one of her idols” that this happened to and that she didn’t even know shinee that well… she was very coherent up until that point, but when people called her out she started to cry and be very emotional and started to talk about how she had liked shinee since debut and jonghyun was her favourite (so she has been following them for like 10 years? that is longer than i have been into kpop and i am OLD and have liked shinee since 2009.. so she’s been a fan that long and doesn’t even know the basics of what jjong was like and what he dealt with?) and then went onto analyze his lyrics and talk about how she should’ve known, and her blog transformed into other people consoling her despite her being the person that upset so many people with what she had done… that stuff doesn’t add up for me, but that is just speculation since grief is different for everyone etc, it’s just something i personally can’t buy considering how she behaves online a lot of the time

she said she was sorry without actually acknowledging what she did wrong and after people defended her vehemently she actually changed her tune and started to say things like how it was a misunderstanding and even asked her followers to approach any people who were still “misunderstanding” and let them know, which,,, what even? i suppose i’m party this to thank for all the people that told me i was an ugly/jealous loser that should delete and/or die

and despite her being like this, despite her never learning from her mistakes, people still keep defending her and attacking people that call her out, and why? 

i would agree if it were one mistake, everyone always says.. let’s educate her instead of attacking her, let her learn from her mistakes, that’s what life is all about, right? i agree, people grow from their mistakes

but.. SHE NEVER LEARNS! she keeps repeating the same things, no matter how many times she gets in trouble, and you guys keep enabling her, i think it’s this culture of fans stanning other fans that creates toxic behaviour like this, why would she change? why would she learn? why would she start and mature, why? when she has so many people telling her that it’s okay, that she is right and everybody else is wrong everytime she messes up? i think people that send me those messages are complicit really

i just wonder, what will she have to do for you guys to see that she isn’t someone worth sticking up to to this extent, because due to this environment, she won’t learn?

is she the hill you guys want to die on?

i often see people saying that she does a lot for the fandom, but? she doesn’t actually do anything special, she basically takes from others and profits from them, if you follow actual update blogs that do their homework, like allforbts, ktaebwi, sweaterpawsjimin, or vlissful on twitter, you will see the difference right away.. those are the people that do work for the fandom, she redistributes and doesn’t even thank those that did the work, there are people that spend dozens of hours translating and researching, books worth of content, people that paid for japanese tv subcriptions so they can record those shows for you, those are the people that do a lot, reposting tweets, anyone can do that (and a lot of people do, which is fine as long as due credit is given, what i’m saying is… it isn’t special and doesn’t require any effort at all, so why worship someone for like… doing the bare minimum? and sometimes not even that?)

why would you guys go to such an extent to then attack people that called her out, and rightfully, you guys would tell me a person with depression and an actual fan of jonghyun, that “if you care about jonghyun so much why don’t you join him”

over mimi? over someone who acts like all that i described? is that worth it… i don’t understand this cult-like mentality, even if she were an actual angel that did save the fandom, what in the world would make this okay?

i now have anxiety every time i try to get on tumblr and will have to work to overcome it because you people told me to die over calling HER out while going to her and telling her how everyone else sucks and she is a lovely angel…

and why she doesn’t pick fights? i talked to her in the past and let me tell you… she is stubborn and won’t change her mind and when she sees she can’t out-argue and manipulate the person SHE BLOCKS THEM and doesn’t let them express their views on her blog, no she only lets views that paint her as a victim there, she doesn’t let her followers see any validand CONSTRUCTIVE criticism

that’s why she seems like she is above it, like she is only nice and the angel and people like me are scum for ever saying anything, she is very smart about that aspect of things. but she isn’t above criticism (and neither am i), she is a human being like me or you :/.

i’m not telling you to hate her or attack her, don’t please.., i’m just asking you to see her for what she is, someone who is notes and attention hungry, someone who refuses to learn from her mistakes and someone who actually flaunts her ignorance, please give your time and attention and thankfulness to people in the fandom that aren’t like that :( and mostly, don’t go around telling people that call her (or anyone) out to die like.. please?

if she wanted to defend herself she could always talk to me, or anyone, or address it in a constructive manner, instead of relying on her followers to do that for her while publishing dozens asks on her blog that praise her and tell her how everybody else is wrong

she isn’t a celebrity, she can speak for herself

the fact that she chooses to deal with things the way she does says it all, right?

just…please reconsider stanning other fans, it creates all this toxicity, nothing good comes out of it, that is mostly what i wanted to say

and she specifically isn’t worth all the hurt

thanks