#i kept thinking about lana and eve babitz's essays while i was writing it lol

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i've been thinking about a literal interpretation of if you're too shy, like having a spicy relationship with matty over the phone ("i've been wearing nothing every time i call you") and on insta and then you finally meet somewhere -> "i found a motel" = those aesthetically pleasing "love" motel rooms with the heart shaped beds and bathtubs. ♡ almost a little lana del rey coded.....

you are speaking my LANGUAGE with the lana thing that woman has been my idol lifestyle coach and ride or die since i was prepubescent <3

ok so maybe you meet once at the bar in the chateau marmont (really leaning into the lana thing), and although you chat the whole night and properly hit it off and the sexual tension is just sizzling between you the most you guys share are kisses and numbers and social medias because he's off on tour literally the following day. it starts with liking on instagram and whatnot, but neither of you can get the other off your mind, so you start talking on the phone (and like i mean talk like chat get to know each other) and it soon turns... flirty, to say the least, and you get to a point where you don't bother dressing before he calls because you know it'll end with you at least semi naked and him talking you into orgasm. and then once you tell him that, phone sex becomes facetime sex, which happens maybe twice before matty's like "fuck this i really need you here's where i am where are you and where can we meet". and you fly somewhere and he flies somewhere and you guys drive around for a minute trying to find somewhere you can get a bed (this is the ride/robbers driving moment of my dreams), and then you come across this motel just straight out of the 60s, all pink and red and heart shaped and EXACTLY what you need right now. and the tension has been building and building since you guys met, so you know the sex is just FILTHY good and total release for you both. and then, honestly, the first post-sex cig you and matty share is the best post-sex cig of your life <3