#i know that technically the parade ep is s5 which is after s3 BUT im using it as a jumping off point

[thequeenofcarvenstone]

Thinking about the parade episode and Eddie and Hen being a paramedic Team and how at the hospital she says "you did good out there" and he says "well war zones are kind of my thing" and how war and conflic have defined his life and how during conflict is the only time he's ever felt secure in himself and because of that he had embroiled himself in Conflict his whole life, internally or externally and how the reason he doesn't "panic" is because he's taught his body to be so used to such high levels of internal conflict through his repression that it's normal for him to run on high stress every moment of the day. And as soon as he starts to let himself examine that conflict and anger and internal war zone in season 3 it CRUMBLES. His body can't take it anymore, and it takes him years to figure out how to reregulate himself. And now we're getting to see him HAPPY and GOOFY and not just admitting that he has/had panic attacks but helping to guide someone else through one. He's come so far. SO FAR.