the power you have when you realize that out of every single city, or every single county, of every single state, of every single country, of every single region, of every single PLANET, and of every single GALAXY, there will NEVER be another YOU.
What Trans Masculine means to me...
This is discussing specifically how the term "trans masc" relates to my experience alone. Others may use this term for very different reasons and I celebrate that <3
My mental voice has always felt masculine to me. Growing up, I'd prepare jokes in my head, excited to share and relate with my dad and brother, but it never came out or was received the same. When I was among groups of cishet women, my opinion never felt like it came from the same place as theirs. And I still feel that way today.
But when I tried to do all of the things I've seen binary trans men do, I felt foreign to myself. Masculine makeup makes me feel off-center. I don't want a packer. I don't want to be jacked or grow a beard. I don't want to be a masculine man because that is not me.
It sent me into a gender crisis to think... How can I feel that I'm masculine but not want to BE a manly man? This is what Trans men should want. This is what Trans men should do, right? The goal is to be cis and hetero normative... Right?
That is not my goal! That is not me! Look around at all of the beautiful, wonderful, feminine men in the world! I DON'T have to be the daughter my mother always wanted! I DON'T have to be the macho man I pressured myself to be! I can be the soft, androgynous or even feminine presenting, person with a masculine core that I always have been. My identity is complex, but not convoluted and I CAN be me!
I am trans masc, and that does not stop me from having feminine aspects. My center is masculine, even if my outside doesn't seem like it. I'm a nonbinary trans masculine person. I use they/them pronouns, and one day I might transition. I want top surgery. I might want hrt. I want to wear makeup and I speak in a feminine way. So I guess as my friends say, I'm the gay boy of your dreams XD
This is what "trans masc" means for me.
♱ of course they choose you, duh. it’s just basic logic. ♱
i mean, who else could they possibly pick?
there is not even a correct answer for that question. it literally doesn’t get better than you. you are perfect and you know it. your features are to die for. your aura is alluring and your beauty is completely hypnotic. everyone falls under your spell, and you don’t even have to try. you are the one individual that people never forget when you pass them by. all people can think is “who was that?” in awe.
you are way better than anyone else with way less effort. the world is in the palm of your hands. anything you say goes and no one else has any power to alter your outcome. no matter what it seems like, you know life will always conform to your every desire. i mean, of course it will. you’re you.
Just got back from (W)hole Foods and the state store.
Went swimming today for the first time truly shirtless. What a lovely, euphoric experience. I love that I’ve been able to make my body my own. Trans joy is resistance.