#i love suho way to much

[proudahgase-exol]

Just friends and nothing else right?

(Updated)

Junmyeon x reader

Summary: Your friends have been with Junmyeon since you were kids. Now that you guys are adults, you guys are inseparable, but you don’t act like friends do. Friends don’t hold hands when you go out, friends don’t give forehead kisses, friends don’t go on dates every two weeks, and friends don’t have sex on a Sunday after a night for a party with your other friends, do they?

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People always ask me if Junmyeon and I are a couple, which we always deny, but of course, they don’t believe us.

One thing about Junmyeon and I is that we have been friends since we were five years old. We met at a family party; his parents are good friends with mine, so after that night we saw each other more often, but then it became more often when my parents told me we were moving. We moved four hours away from our old house to be right next to the Kim family, so I saw Junmyeon on a daily basis. We went to the same school and had the same classes together.

When we were in high school, we did everything together; he was my prom date. On every school trip, we sat together. When we found out we were accepted into the same college, we were over the moon. We had some of the same classes, and we still did everything together. That’s why a lot of people think Junmyeon and I are dating.

(Fast forward to the future.)

"Hey, where's your boyfriend?” my best friend Sofia asked.

“What boyfriend? I don’t have one,”I said, laughing.

“Kim Junmyeon, isn’t he your boyfriend?” She tease

"Nope, he’s my best friend, him and I go way back." I replied, smiling at the thought of him.

"Yeah, sure, whatever, so are we still going to the party this Saturday? You can bring your boyfriend,” she said, looking at her phone.

“I don’t think so, the guys and I are going to Meyeon’s cabin,” I said, sitting on my bed.

“You’re living me all alone then,” she faked cry.

“Jun said you can tag along so I don’t have to be the only girl,” I said, looking up.

“To be the third wheel, no thank you,” she replied.

“Come on, it will be fun. There’s a lake. The cabin is really big, so there’s enough space for all of us."I said, whining.

“Are we sharing a room?” She asked, looking up from her phone.

“I don’t know. I might share a room with Myeon, but if I do, we can as one of the guys to give you their room I bet the Beagle Line won't mind sleepingthe the same room,” I said, laughing

“What you can't make them all three where a room." She said worry.

“Come on, they love spending time together plus Baekhyun would be over the moon to where a room with his best friends" I said, smiling.

“Well as long as they are okay with it than I can go” she replied

“Don't worry I'll ask Baekhyun he knows what to do to convince them,” I said, smiling

“Okay than,” she asked, happily.

"By the way, but just so you know, friends don’t share a room or a bed, so keep denying that you and Junmyeon aren’t a couple,” she said, getting up from the bed and making her way out of my bedroom.

After Sofia left, I got a text message from Junmyeon asking if I was still up for our weekly dinner.

Jun 💕: hey love Are we still up for tonight’s dinner?

Me: Hey, Junmay, of course! Where are we going this time?

Jun 💕: We are going to our favorite Italian restaurant,so wear the pastel pink dress I got you last week

Me: Okay, then see you at 6?

Jun 💕: yes love I'll pick you up, okay? See you soon.😙

Me: see ya 🥰

I looked at the time, and it was 3:30, so I turned the phone off and ran to my closet to pull the dress out and some other stuff to go with the dress. Then I went to take a shower.

After I got out, I did my hair and did my make-up, then I put on the dress Junmyeon ask me to wear. After I was done, Sofia walked in and sat down on my vanity chair.

“Going to your weekly dinner date with your man?” Sofia asked as she snacked on some chips

"Yes, we are going to the Italian restaurant I told you about,” I said as I put on my earnings.

“How much money does he have anyway? He always takes you to fancy, expensive restaurants and buys you expensive stuff. She asked curiously.

“A lot, his parents own a businesses, and his major is business; he wants to start his own,” I said proudly.

“How did you guys meet? She asked interested

“His mom and mine were high school best friends; they went to the same college, but after graduation, they lost contact until a few years later, when they met at the daycare, where they reconnected and found out they both were married and had children,” I said, smiling.

“Does he have any more siblings, or is he an only child like you?” She asked, looking at me and smiling.

“He has an older brother,” I said, sitting down on my bed.

After chatting for a few minutes, I heard the doorbell ring and knew it was Junmyeonn, so I got up. I grabbed my phone and wallet and walked to the door where he was waiting for me.

"Hey, you look really lovely ready to go love,?" He asked as he took my hand

“Hey Myeon, thank you. You look handsome as always, and yes, let's go,” I said as I closed the door.

On our way to the restaurant, we caught up and updated each other on what we had been doing. He told me he visited his parents, and they asked for me, saying they missed me. He also told me how the guys were excited about our trip this weekend. Then we arrived at the restaurant and took our usual spot.

“What are you getting today?” Junmyeon asked as he looked at his menu.

“I don't know. Can you choose for me? I asked, smiling at him.

"Sure, are we also getting white or red wine?” He asked, looking up at me.

“I have been craving red wine for the longest time." I said, laughing.

“Red it is,” Junmyeon said, closing the menus.

After a while, the waitress arrived and asked for our order. Junmyeon told the waiter what we wanted, then he left to get our order done. We talked as we waited for our food to arrive. He told me how existed he was for this weekend and asked if Sofia was coming as well. After a few minutes, our food arrived, and we continued talking.

-

“And Sehun was hiding from Kyungsoo; the boy has been getting on Kyungsoo’s nerves a lot lately,” he said as he took a sip of his wine.

“I would too if I were kyung. I can't believe the audacity of Sehun. You have been raising a brat,” I replied, smiling.

“I know, but he’s just so cute, especially when he makes his puppy face,” Jun said, laughing.

"Yeah, he’s so good at making you feel guilty for scolding him,” I said, laughing.

“I’m jealous of you though, he seems to behave and respect you more than any of us,” he said, smiling.

"Well, I’m his favorite noona, and he better respect me or I’ll punch him," I said giggling.

"Hey, how did you convince him to pay for you?” He asked curiously.

“What do you mean?” I asked confused.

“Remember when you both went to get bubble tea? Or the time you went out to eat at his favorite restaurant, he said that he paid for you both,” Junmyeon said, smiling.

"Oh, at the time of the bubble tea, none of you guys wanted to take him, so I did, and at the time of the restaurant, we went because he was sad. You remembered the girl he was talking to? She turned out to be a bitch and a gold digger, so he needed a distraction, but he did pay for those two occasions. He said he wanted to treat me that time since I “spoiled him.” He also paid for some other stuff,” I said, giggling at the thought.

"Wow, I wish I got the treatment. He seems to like you a lot, but I mean, all of the boys do as well,” he said.

"Yeah, I guess they do, especially Bakehyun. He calls me all the time, asking me all sorts of questions. He told me to teach him about menstruation,” I said, rolling my eyes and laughing.

"Really, he’s weird. I’m sorry about him." He said he was looking at me with a small smile.

“It’s alright, I had fun. He was consterned about women’s well-being, asking if we could dye out of blood loss from our period,” I said, laughing.

"He's an idiot, I swear” Junmyeon said, laughing along.

-

After dinner, we walked for a while until it got late, then he took me home and made sure I walked in the apartment building safely before driving off.

The next day I woke up to go to school. My roommate woke up and got ready as well. Then we both headed to school, where we met up with our group of friends. We talked until we arrived at our destination. Then we parted ways. Sofia and I had the same class, so we walked into our class and took our seats.

After that class we had a few more classes but since it was Friday they were short and we got to go home early.

After our last class, I went home to start packing for our trip since we were leaving tonight. As I was packing, my friend walked in, asking if it was going to be cold or hot at night and other stuff to make sure she was prepared for the trip. After an hour of packing, we were all done and waiting for the boys when I got a message from Junmyeon.

Jun 💕:Hey, are you girls ready

Me: Yes, we are.

Jun 💕:Alright, I’ll be there in a few minutes

Jun 💕:By theway, your friend will be raiding with Minseok,Chanyeol, and Jongin.

Me: What about me?

Jun 💕: with me duh, also Kyungso and Sehun will be with us.

Me: What about the others? They are still coming, right?

Jun 💕:Yes, they will be in anothercar,r so don't worry

Me: Okay

Jun 💕: I'll be there in about 20 minutes.

Me: All right, see you soon, then.

After I finished texting him, we brought our stuff to the door and waited for Junmyeon to tell us that they were there.

When the guys arrived, they sent me a

Text telling me They were waiting for us downstairs, so we got our stuff and made our way to where the boys had parked.

I got in the passenger seat with Junmyeon, and Sofia went and got in Minseok's car, then we drove to our destination.

-

After two hours on the ground, we finally arrived at Junmyeon’s cabin. We all got out of the car and started to unload everything and take it inside the house.

As soon as everything was inside, the guys started to joke around, but soon got cut short because Minseok forced them to take everything to their bedrooms. As I was getting my stuff, when Sofia came up to me.

"Hey, so are we shearing a room?” She asked nervously.

“Let me ask-." I was about to finish my sentence when Baekhyun interrupted me.

“So I convince the guys to share a room with me they agree well prank Kyungsoo at night,” Baekhyun said.

"Okay than sound good and please don't get killed by Kyung” I replied laughing “alright Sofia you'll take Chanyeols room now that he and Jongdae are glad to Ng with Bakheyun”

“Okay than I'll go take my stuff there,” she said taking her stuff to the room

When Sofia left, Iwent to place my stuff in Junmyeosn and my shared room, which was the biggest one. When I got there Junmyeon was already there putting his stuff away.

As we unpacked we chatted and joke around than made our way down stairs were the everyone rady was.

Kyungsoo and Junmyeon went to the kitchen to cook dinner well the rest of us hung out in the living room waiting for dinner. After dinner was done we all went to eat. After we all eate we made plans for tomorrow, Junmyeon said there was a club in the town near by that we could go to, and we all agreed.

After dinner, we cleaned up, and we all went to our rooms to rest.

The next day, I was woken up by Junmyeon poking my cheeks and telling me to get up. When I did, he was already dressed up and ready for the day. He told me to get ready and come to the kitchen for breakfast. He got closer to me and kissed my forehead and told me he was going to help kyungsoo make breakfast.

When I walked into the kitchen, all the guys were there. I sat between Sofia and Jongin, and we chatted about the plan for today.

We all decided to go to the lake for a bit until it was time to get ready to hit the club, so we all got ready to go to the lake.

When we got there, we all ran to the water, where we began a water fight. We were having a good time for a few hours until it was time to head back to get ready.

When we got to the cabin, we all went to get ready for the club. When I was doing my hair, Sofia kicked Junmyeon out of the room so we could get ready together.

When Junmyeon left Sofia and I began to get ready. We helped each other with our makeup and then chose each other’s outfits. When we were done, we met the guys downstairs, who were waiting for us. Then we got in the cars and made our way to the club.

-

At the club, we found a table and sat down while Beakhyun and Sehun went to get the drinks. I was sitting next to Kyungsoo and Jongdae, and we were all having a good time. Kai asked if I wanted to dance with him, so I agreed.

After a few hours and a few songs and more shots, I was drunk and dancing against Junmyeon, who was surprisingly drunk as well. We were having a good time, but everything’s become a blur, and I don’t remember anything else.

The next day, I woke up next to Junmyeon naked. I turned around to look at him, and he was looking up at the ceiling. Then he turned to me.

“I think we should not talk about this now, so let’s get dressed and head down for breakfast,” Junmyeon said as he got up in a rush to get dressed.

"Oh, okay, yeah, you got ahead. I need a shower." I said I was not trying to make eye contact.

"Okay, than,” he said as he finished getting dressed.

After he left, I went to take a shower, and I broke down crying. I felt rejected, like I didn’t matter to him, and I started to think the worst.

Did he regret having sex with me? Or did he not find me pretty? or was he not sexually attracted to me? Was I bad at sex?

It made me feel even worse when he didn’t give me a forehead kiss like he usually did. I was so heartbroken because, deep down, I loved Junmyeon more than a friend. I have been in love with him for a few years now, so this really crushed me.

After my shower, I got dressed and made my way down the stairs. Sehun and Jongin came running to me, telling me how much their heads hurt and how they never wanted to drink again. They asked if I could make them hung over soup, so I agreed and sent them off to the living room.

As I was making the soup, Jongdae walked in and started to help, then he asked me

"Hey, what’s up with you and Junmyeon Hyung?” He asked, as he got some vegetables.

“What do you mean?" I played dumb.

“I saw you two last night... You were dancing pretty close and then made out. I also know you guys had sex,” he said, turning to me.

"I don’t know; he just told me we were talking later, but he’s not acting like himself; he usually clings in the morning, and today he was distant." I said, letting tears flow.

"Oh, come here, it’s okay. You will talk it out with him, and you will continue like normal,” he said as he hugged me.

“I hope so,” I said, whipping my tears.

After Jongdae and I were done making breakfast, we called the boys over. I sat between Sofia and Lay and talked to them, asking who their night was.

After we ate, Sofia and I went out for a walk. It was relaxing. It was going great when I saw Sehun and Chanyeol, joking around and acting like toddlers. And I remember how Junmyeon and I used to chase each other like that when we were kids and I began to feel sad.

A little while after we arrived, we all went to watch some movies and chill for a bit, but then Baekhyun left the room and came back with a cooler full of beer, soju, and other alcoholic beverages and said we should play some games and drink, so we agreed.

We were all playing different games with some music in the background. I stepped out of the room to go get changed to something more comfortable, but what I didn’t know was that Junmyeon had followed me to the bedroom, where he closed the door and asked to talk to me.

"Y/N, can we talk?" he asked nervously.

"Sure, what do you want to talk about?" I said as I was walking to the closest to get my clothes.

“About last night... I know I was harsh and insensitive this morning; it was rude of me to walk away without taking this with you, and I’m sorry about that."Junmyeon said, looking sad.

“Did you regret it? Or did you hate it?” I asked, feeling insecure.

"Of course no, you were great, and I love it, but I wish our first time would have been different,” he said nervously.

"Really, you're not joking, right? So does that mean... I asked, looking at him as I placed my clothes on the bed.

“I have loved you since we were 16, but since we were good friends, I didn’t want to ruin anything, and then you got a boyfriend, so I thought I would never get a chance with you,” he said with a small smile.

“Aww Junmyeon I liked you for so long, and I thought I messed up last night. I thought I ruined our friendship,” I said, walking up to hug him.

“It’s okay, let’s start over again, okay?” He asked as he pulled me for a kiss.

We continued kissing, and we slowly started to take our clothes off until I got on my knees, curled between his legs and took his dick into my mouth. His cock was sliding in and out of my mouth and my hand was stroking him.

"God that feels great!" was all Junmyeon could muster along with a moan.

And with that, I lowered my head and continued my sucking, bobbing and stroking.

Junmyeon began to moan louder and managed to get out an "I'm cum...” before he finished in my mouth. I stopped my head bobbing and slowly stroked and sucked all of the juices out of him.

Shortly thereafter, I moved up, still holding his hard cock in my hand and we kissed some more.

After we broke the kiss junmyeon slowly laide me down on the bed and lowered his lips and kissed me again. Then he slowly moved over to my neck and down my shoulder. He slowly started to make his way down my body, and got back up.

“Get on your knees I want to take you from behind this time” he said in a low deep voice

I got up from the bed and did as he said and got on my knees like he requested.

He walked over to me and grabbed my ass, pulling up closer to him and started to rubbing my wet pussy

“Look how wet you already are, you want it you dirty girl” he said with a chuckle “You like that? Yeah you fucking do” he said and spanked me

“Harder,” I said under my breath

He smiled and spanked me again, harder. Then he took my panties off the floor and shoved them into my mouth.

“Bite down on that, I don't want to hear you for now,” he said as he slipped three fingers into my wet opening. I let out a muffled groan and bit down on my lace panties.

He than began to finger fucked me, hitting my sweet spot every time he went deeper in. After a while I felt a warm tingle run through my body and my legs started to shake violently.

“Yes baby, cum on my hand you dirty slut” he said as I came He then removed the panties from my mouth and instead stuck his fingers into my mouth.

“Suck all your juices off baby” he said

I did as I was told and began to lick off my own cum, I loved the taste of myself in him.

He removed his hand and stuck the pnaties back into my mouth, then he grabbed my arms and pinned them behind my back.

“Do you want me to fuck your tight little pussy?” he said seductively

I nodded my haid to let him know I wanted him so than tookhis hard cock, rubbing it by my entrance, teasing my pussy. He kept rubbing it up and down my pussy, making me want him more and more.

I finally could take it anymore and thrust my hips back so that his cock could slip inside me. He was surprised by what I did and started thrusting in and out of me.

Junmueon pov:

I heard a whimper coming from y/n and started to rapidly side in and out of her

I than flip her on her back and took her panties of her mouth and I continued fucking her y/n’s nails gripped my shoulders.

I watched as pleasure raced across her face, her mouth open, moans exiting.

I thrusted a few times and felt my own eruption coming on again. My moans increased and this seemed to stir her on.

"Yes... yes... oh... cum...in...me..." she huffed and gasped.

I couldn't hold back anymore. It was too much.I felt my cock swell, my balls release.A loud moan from y/n as her nail dug in to my back. I exploded inside of her.

Y/n continued to grip me, breathing heavily and letting out small whimpers. I look down at her for a while than I Finlay pull of out her and I Laydown next to her

After a while of catching my breath, I got up and went to the bathroom to get a clean wet rag to clean y/n and I up.

After we cleaned ourselves up and got bad on the end with her and cuddled up to her. She places her head on my bear chest and I plaid with her hair.

We stayed like that for a while not talking or doing anything but being in each other's embrace.

After a few hours of staying in bed, we got up took a shower, and went downstairs hand in hand.

“Are y'all done fucking each othes brains out?" Sehun said, laughing.

“Look at the way she walks; something really went down in their room." Lay said, laughing.

“Are you sure you guys are just friends?” Minseok ask joining the game

“Just friends, right? Because last time I checked friends don’t fuck nor wear their friends clothes," Sofia said as she pointed to Junmyeons shirt I was wearing.

“I don’t fuck my girl's best friend... unlike Junmyeon Hyung here,” said Kai, laughing.

"Guys, we are just friends,” I said, playing along.

“We are only friends? But you said you loved me and that I made you feel good." Junmyeon said as he pretended to be offended.

"Oh, coming guys, are you seriously just going to fuck and pretend that you're only friends and don’t have feelings for each other?” Jongdae asked and disseminated

“Does this answer your question?" Junmyeon answered as he pulled me for a heated kiss.

"Okay, okay, we get it. You're dating now and just had sex a few hours ago. If You're going to act like that. Please go fuck again and come back when you're not horny any more." Chanyeol said it with a disgusted tone.

“Calm down, we’re all good. Let’s just watch a movie or something, okay?” I asked them.

They all agreed, and we took a seat and pulled up a movie to watch. The boys were on the couch or on the floor. Well, Junmyeon and I sat on one of the other couches cuddling up to each other as the guys argued back and forth about what movie we should watch first.

We had a good relaxing night and a good rest of the week with the boys. We went for a hike and for a swim at the lake with some delicious food that Kyungsoo made, but I was more excited that this trip to Junmyeon’s cabin got us closer in a way we never imagined.

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Okay, I rewrote this and I kind of like it way more I hope this is way better and I hope you enjoy sorry for the big change I just thought this would be a lot better 😅

[miramizar]

🩵 ~Happy KyungMyeonDay~ 🩵

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[venomgender]

stilllll thinking about greatest estate developer it becoming so good this late game (not that it was bad before it just was good for different reasons...) kinda gives me hope for fucking. crown prince sells medicine. since its the same author in the same universe and stuff while reading ive just been like This is literally the same thing with the characters shifted slightly to the left... but ive kept reading because its funny but with ged literally hitting on every single aspect that i enjoy and long for in transmigrator stories it gives me such hope for crown prince sells medicine...

[yioh]

i finished weak hero and it gave me quite the headache during the last 2-3 episodes help 😭

[shmooooo]

hi isa <3 really curious on what type of dom you think the exo members are 😻👀

The way you sent this while I was going through my exo album looking for a new profile pic-

exo as doms

pairing: exo x reader (no chen, read my guidelines for info)

genre: smut

warnings: reader has a hand kink (this is very self-indulgent), mentions of degradation, spanking, edging, overstimulation, (aftercare isn’t explicitly mentioned for most of them but just know that all of them would be adamant about taking good care of you after, especially if they were rough)

word count: 851

notes: special thanks to @rose-sereniteeth for helping me! ♡ funny how we struggled with minseok and then in typical fashion his part became one of the longest 💀 i'm not super happy with this but despite having stanned exo for the past seven years, i never quite embraced them like this until somewhat recently so there's still time to figure this out - also reblogs are always appreciated!

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Minseok (Xiumin)

Hard dom. He has rules in place and expects you to follow them. And while he’s sweet outside of the bedroom, during scenes he loves degrading you. He’s also a huge fan of teasing and sometimes he’ll just tease you with light touches (sometimes even with a feather) for hours until you get desperate enough. But if you dare to show your impatience by being a brat, he’ll scold you and either prolong your suffering or give you exactly what you wanted but tenfold until it’s almost too much. Cleanliness and tidiness are also very important to him so I feel like he would make you fold your clothes after undressing and be very adamant about cleaning you up afterwards.

Junmyeon (Suho)

Dom. Honestly ultimate daddy dom. Everything he does is to make you feel good. Whether that is making sure you eat and sleep enough or giving you what you need in the bedroom. He will absolutely spoil you in all aspects of life but in return he expects you to follow the rules you agreed on. And while he is sweet, he’s also very strict when it comes to the rules so you better not break them or he will put you over his knees and make you count.

Yixing (Lay)

Hard dom. Have you seen what he’s like when he’s working? All focused and hot? That’s how I imagine him as a dom. He’s more of a "master" type, especially during punishments. During scenes he acts cold and sometimes even angry with you. He doesn’t smile and when he does, that is absolutely not a good sign since it usually means he will edge or overstimulate you to heaven and back. But during aftercare he does a 180 and becomes very nurturing and caring. 

Baekhyun

Dom. He’s an experimentalist and probably the kinkiest out of the bunch. I absolutely see him owning a toy box with all kinds of stuff in there (mostly for you). He definitely enjoys giving directions and is generally very vocal about what he wants you to do (are we surprised). He will also tease you relentlessly, both verbally and physically - he’ll call you all kinds of degrading names (usually mixed with praise, like “my pretty little whore”) and first edge you until you beg him to let you cum and then overstimulate you until you beg him to stop. Will definitely play innocent after as if he just didn’t take your body apart at the seems. 

Chanyeol

Soft dom. I feel like unless you either fuck up or specifically ask him to be rough, he’ll generally be sweeter and less strict. That doesn’t mean he won’t tease the hell out of you though. He knows you love his hands and he’ll absolutely use that against you. Whether it’s with light touches anywhere but where you actually need him or by giving you orgasm after orgasm with only his fingers because “if you like my hands so much, surely you don’t need my cock” (bastard). But just because he isn’t usually rough with you (both verbally and physically), doesn’t mean you should underestimate him. Question his authority and he will put you in your place. 

Kyungsoo (D.O)

Dom. He’s a soft lover and that usually carries over into the bedroom. He loves spoiling you because he’s a simp at heart but he never lets you forget who’s in control when you’re doing a scene. He’s strict about you following the rules you two have established, and if you don’t, he will definitely make you pay for it. I also don't really see him as a toy guy? Like he has a vibrator and maybe one, two other things but he usually relies on his own body and the vibrator if he wants to make you squirm, something he generally enjoys but especially when he’s punishing you.

Jongin (Kai)

Soft dom. He will absolutely do anything to make you happy and praise non-stop (read: simp - affectionately). Buys you pretty lingerie but he’s too impatient to take it off before fucking you so he usually fucks you with it on. What he does have the patience for though is worshipping every part of your body. He almost has too much patience for that though, so you often end up whining for him to hurry up, which more often than not leads to him shushing you and pushing his fingers into your mouth to shut you up. 

Sehun

Dom. He’s a sweet guy and can absolutely be down for a more light-hearted dynamic with jokes and teasing but once he's in dom mode, he changes. He’s firm and expects you to obey but he also rewards you for listening with praise. I feel like he’s surprisingly vocal during sex. He tells you what he's going to do, what he expects of you, and he wants you to respond too, no matter how fucked out you are. It just brings him great enjoyment to see you struggle to form the words he wants to hear because lbr, he’s a brat even when he doms. 

[leaderwonim]

꒰ 사랑𝐒𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐆: 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐧. 🫀

002: she fell in front of her sunbaenim 🤓

It wasn’t until a week later that you met the other actors and actresses in the film.

Your manager, Hongseok, had cleared pretty much your entire schedule so the rest of PRISM was out promoting while you were waiting awkwardly at the film studio, straightening out your white skirt and thinking of what to say to Sunghoon.

After all, you did kind of audition for Belift as a joke. You were really into Enhypen and Newjeans, so you sent in your singing and dancing tape thinking you weren’t going to get picked anyway. You did, though.

“Hi, sorry I’m late!” The all too familiar Australian accent pops out of nowhere, and your breathing is 10 times rapid knowing exactly who it belonged to. Pham Hanni from Newjeans.

“No worries!” You say, almost choking on the piece of bread you were taking a bite out of. “Greetings sunbaenim!”

You bow but Hanni shakes her head quickly, “ah.. no need. I read your profile, you’re a year older than me, so if anything, I should be the one saying the formalities.”

You don’t get to say anything else before the Park Sunghoon and Kim Gyuvin walk in.

Oh my God. You internally think. You almost have to hold back from fainting because how the hell are you in the presence of Hanni, Gyuvin, and Sunghoon at the same time?!

“This is our main cast,” the director says, who your manager has told you to refer to as Director Jung. “We have a few more idols but they’ll be in and out between episodes.”

The four of you nod, you suddenly feeling so small when in the same room as your talented sunbaenims.

“Today is just introduction and get to know each other day since I know this was probably brought up upon you guys suddenly and it can seem overwhelming and uncomfortable.” Director Jung smiles, showing off his bright white teeth.

“The drama is a romance one, kind of like an American coming to age except Korean, you know? It’s called Parallel Love. The main character, Baek Yunhee is played by Yoon Y/N as you all know.” He then points towards your direction, making the other 3 idols all turn their attention to you. “Yunhee’s love interest is Min Suho, played by Park Sunghoon. The reason I chose the two of you was because you were exactly how I pictured Yunhee and Suho visually and I feel like you would astound me and the viewers with your acting.”

Your eyes subtly peek at Sunghoon, who looks absolutely glorious despite his messy hair and tired eyes. The engene inside of you screamed, but you masked it by biting the inside of your cheek.

“Now, the main female antagonist is Choi Sanghee, which will be played by Pham Hanni. The main male antagonist is Park Wooseok, played by Kim Gyuvin. Sanghee and Wooseok are somewhat love interests, but they’re also Yunhee and Suho’s biggest rivals.”

The rest of Director Jung’s words went from one of your ear and out another as he kept speaking, your vision instead focused on Park Sunghoon.

“Alright, that’s all I have to say! Any questions?”

There’s a few murmurs but no one says anything, so Director Jung hands the four of you individual scripts that were so thick you could slap a person with it.

“It’s time to take the poster photos so let’s get to work guys. Don’t disappoint me.”

Way to not pressure an idol who’s life is already hectic, you think.

synopsis. you’re a newly debuted girl group under belift, and in order for your group to gain more popularity, your ceo offered you the lead role in a new romance kdrama. this all seems great, so what’s the problem? well, for starters, your co star is your senior, park sunghoon from enhypen, and he doesn’t seem too happy about being in a romance drama. especially when your fans have started to ship the two of you!

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[lynn-tged-posting]

so i've been working through the tged webnovel (really, really slowly) (but im getting there!) (it's been REALLY fun i love their banter so so much i wish there was more of it in the webtoon)

and i keep thinking back to chapter 43, where lloyd is surveying the wetlands and arcos comes with him

i don't really have much new insight, i just think about their interaction in this chapter a lot, especially since it's one that doesn't show up in the webtoon adaptation

arcos going out of his way to spend time with his son, and making him a lunch that he knows his son loved, all as an unspoken apology

because "how could he", right? how could a father hate his son and only start to love him again when success has been found? that's so haunting to realize; that someone you loved so much, someone you raised and nurtured, someone you knew the favorite foods of and why, could become someone you hate. and then, the son you once raised, the son who became a stranger, went and grew up without you.

did i give up too soon? did i abandon my own son? ... what kind of father does that? ... right?

and so he does what he can to offer repentance. he takes time out of his day to engage with what his son is doing. he shows that he still remembers his son, the boy who would rather eat boiled eggs and tomatoes over any other dish. he offers it all in a basket, carrying the love he feels he should've given to lloyd a long, long time ago.

... and it's not even the original lloyd frontera who receives it.

we don't get to know what suho is thinking in this moment, but i think his silence speaks volumes.

... because "how could he", right? how could this fraud in another man's body accept this silent apology that isn't truly owed to him? this man, this baron, this father, is asking for forgiveness when he had every right to be angry with the original owner of this body. and he doesn't even realize, because how would he possibly know his original fate? only you do.

this wasn't meant for me ... right?

but suho doesn't reject him, either. he doesn't interrupt arcos, he doesn't leave. they sit together and eat boiled eggs with honeyed tomatoes in silence.

it makes me wonder what suho is thinking about, what he's feeling, what he's remembering...

because (and call me crazy, call me speculative) heaven knows the love language of an asian parent.

here's some cut fruit. here's your favorite snack. here's dinner. i've brought it here to you.

you're working so, so hard. i'll support you, i'll be here. don't worry about anything else, just keep growing.

i love you, i love you, i love you, attached to every plate.

"this was your favorite food when you were young. ... i should have given you as many boiled eggs and tomatoes as you wanted."

and again, it's a little bit of speculation from me, but i think that's why suho doesn't say no, why he lets arcos make this apology. it's a piece of what he misses most.

and so they both leave a little bit healed. "the basket was lighter on the way home. and albeit very slightly, their steps became lighter as well." it might not have been between the right souls, but it's a weight lifted nonetheless.

... all this to say that i am absolutely MOURNING that this didn't make it into the adaptation!!!

i understand that with comic adaptations, there are going to be some cuts to ensure pacing and workload stays reasonable, but this would've been absolutely devastatingly emotional (/pos) to witness visually,

because what would lloyd's (suho's) face look like? what expression would he make, can we visually see how he feels? and arcos, what does he see when he looks at his son? fatherly love and solemn regret, painted all over his face, what does that look like to the adapter? to the artist? to us?

and in general too, we lost the characterization and relationship of arcos to suho; i really, really wish it made it in :(

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[wandering-tides]

TNE Fandom where are you?

Sujin shippers where are you?

I have Fics to Rec

I don't really go out of my way to rec fics (and I dunno why I have never done this before on tumblr), but BY GOD, have these two fics taken a special place in my heart.

I ADORE everything about them.

They are both Suho x Hajin ships

But the ship aside, I am so incredibly grateful for the authors to have brought them to life and allowed us to read these absolute GEMS of a fic in this little, little fandom of The Novel's Extra.

Really, y'guys have no idea how giddy and excited I get at every update.

Now, the fic in question?

1. Flowers of Agápē by DescendedGaia (Not sure if the author has a tumblr or any other social media... but lemme know if you want me to tag you :) )

Kim Hajin is a failure. There's no two ways to look at that objective truth. It's a truth that resonates through how others look at and ridicule him. It's a truth that echoes infinitely inside his head, compounding and doubling down on his inadequacies. It's a truth, despite the unconditional love of two parents that soothe but cannot dispel those haunting doubts. Kim Suho is simply perfection. The desperate vessel and ideal of Hajin's "ifs" and wishes. Because Kim Suho, the protagonist of Hajin's novel, is everything Hajin wants to be for his parents and more. But, that same story falls apart at the seams the same way Hajin has lost faith in himself. Yet, as the common narrative dictates, everything begins anew with an innocuous email requesting to remake Hajin's novel, his desperation and desire incarnate.

*** Alternatively, the extremes of Korean culture break Kim Hajin into someone who feels much more acutely, and everything shifts to the left.

This is such a MASTERPIECE. Hajin's characterisation in here is just *chefs kiss*. For me, thats one of the biggest plus points in this fic. Hajin is so much more emotionally sensitive in here and feels far more acutely than in the orignal, as should have been.

This fic has been adressing almost all the points that made me frown at or dislike in the orignal novel and manhwa (and from what I can notice, almost every one too).

This fic is kinda a rewrite of the orignal novel, (tho the author follows the manhwa flow of the story) with added Suho interactions, and such good characterization of Hajin, I fell in love at first read LMAO.

So far, there aren't any major spoilers (unless you read the author end note, where they give their own tid-bits of the chap, which sometimes contain spoilers too, or go to the comment section which may sometimes give you spoilers to the novel lol) If you are caught up with the manhwa, or atleast the season 1 of manhwa, then so far there won't be any spoilers for you!

And I think i'll stop talking about it here cuz if I keep going, I think i'll end up giving in-fic spoilers Lmao

(Oh, btw, this updates every other thursday! So far, it's been consistent in its updates ^^)

So onto the next fic!

2. Mountain To No one by @thek1ngtalks (as k1ng0fn0b0dy on ao3)

There's a number on his smartwatch that leads to nowhere. Suho's gotten in the habit of texting it throughout his day. Today, it texted back.

_ Or, in a world missing Kim Hajin, everyone is worse off. Fixing this starts with (a lot of) text messages between a protagonist and his missing piece.

And Man.... where do I begin? I have SO MUCH to say about this fic but I think i'll end up spoiling the whole fic if I start lmao. It's just so good dammit. Just gonna say that this fic takes after the end of the novel, after the conclusion. Only couple few remembers Hajin in the orignl right? Well, in this fic, nobody does. But Suho is probably (???) Going to be the first to remember... I dunno tbh, the fic is only 2 chaps in (and yes, I really adore it already)

I love what the author did with Suhos character and how he is dealing with the aftermath of... everything. Same goes for Hajin, and I love where they seems to be taking this fic. How they characterizes these two main characters and everything.

Listen, I have a LOT to say but i'll just end up giving spoilers so really go read it for yourself. This is another MASTERPIECE of a fic and I am so grateful for its presence in this little TNE fandom TT

Really, thankyou for such amazing fics authors!!

And that's all from me!! Lol I was so excited while writing this XD (could you tell? Lol)

(I edited this post twice because of all the typos I ended up making in excitement LMAO)

[mins-fins]

a motherfuckin' trainwreck — yeon sieun

yeon sieun x gender neutral!reader

requested : !

warnings : might be a little ooc (?)

sieun is literally the awkwardest of awkward people

he doesn't even know how he actually got into a relationship is he’s being honest

he's weird about affection too

not like in a "oh i'll kill you if you touch me" kinda way but in a "oh my god your hugging me what do i do?" kinda way

whenever you give him hugs he kinda just stands there, confused

but he loves holding hands

and linking arms probably

your basically the only one who can distract him from studying too much and he pretends to hate it but can't hide how grateful he is

sieun struggles to voice his feelings and he's grateful with how patient you are with him

he probably sometimes still uses platonic words to address you and you just go "wow, friendzoning me after all we've been through?" he would roll his eyes, but he still loves you

your probably on his mind all day

while he's in class he's probably wondering "oh how's [name] doing?", "is [name] alright?", "is [name] happy?"

will literally always sleep on you if he's tired

laying on your shoulder or lap

he's SOOO clingy but then he'll deny it???

"sieun you know your super clingy right?" "stop lying, [name]".

your love language is physical touch and sieun's is probably words of affirmation

oh he LOOVES complimenting you

he just finds everything about you admiring and can't resist the urge to compliment you whenever he gets

"you have nice eyes, [name]", "you know your super pretty right?", "i can't believe how i'm dating such an amazing person".

sometimes he does it without even realizing

and you go so red which he laughs at

despite that sieun isn't the greatest at taking compliments himself

whenever you compliment him he freezes and goes red, not being able to respond

"sieun, your so smart, i can't even begin to rant about how great you are".

"uh huh" sieun.exe.has stopped working

sieun is so confident about the relationship despite how quiet he is??

like he'll hear someone talking bad about you in front of him and he'll say something like "that's my partner, watch your mouth".

he probably gets jealous so easily too

like he just loves your attention and when it's on someone else whose so random

he'll glare from afar

and then you'll ask him later like- "why were you glaring earlier?"

he would probably lie but then say, "fine i was jealous".

then you'd laugh and tease him about it as long as possible

sieun probably helps you study too

he gets so annoyed by you doing everything but listening to him so he literally has to force you to

"[name] can you pay attention?", "no, i'm too busy staring at your pretty face", "shut up".

your literally always at his house

his parents are barely home so you basically live there at this point

"sieun, your beds so comfy", "don't mess up my pillows, [name]".

you probably sleep on him too

like- you'll be laying on his shoulder as he finishes his math work for the night

and you'll have to force him to stop so he could get at least 5 hours of sleep

your probably one of the only people whose made sieun smile more than once in a day (sorry suho)

he hates your stupid jokes but smiles anyway because he loves you so much it's hard not to

he has a habit of running his finger up and down your arm, it's basically become a routine for him

HIS EYES OH MY GOD HIS EYES- he always stares at you with this majestic look

they're always on you if not on that damn paper all the time

he could simply go on and on about you and your interests and how amazing you are and how much he loves you

AND he's such an AMAZING LISTENER too like he remembers all of your interests, pet peeves, what you like, what you hate, your icks, everything

you guys probably listen to music together <333

your the only person who knows the music in his playlist

you read together too

whenever you guys read dramatic books you always give an over-the-top reaction whilst he just stares at you like your insane

"OH MY GOD SHE KILLED HIM!?", "yeah.. that's what it says, [name]".

he's probably just super calm and your super overdramatic

you guys are like the jumpy extrovert x calm introvert trope

you'll be jumping around and full of energy whilst he holds onto you so you don't get lost

he lets you clean his scars and treat his wounds since he likes when you do it

on rare occasions he likes to ramble about just random things and he's so cute when he does it too

like- he'll be going on about his interests and you just sit there staring at him lovingly

you guys are literally opposites attract

sieun being the "grumpy" and reserved introvert whilst your the jumpy and energetic extrovert

i love grumpy x sunshine tropes can you tell??

you always buy him food

making sure to feed him too

you always struggle with that though

"sieun you have to eat", "no i have to study [name]".

he still will eat for you though

sometimes he just likes to lean on his hand and admire you

just stare at you

probably thinking about how pretty you are in his head

he sometimes unconsciously smiles while thinking about you

he just loves you very very much

[paintingwhiteceilings]

can you make exo members as your childhood best friend? and with fem reader please! love your writing <3

❃EXO members as your childhood best friend❃

A/N: Hiii thank you so much for this ask! I am so sorry that it has taken me months to finally respond to it :’)  I spent the last few months birthing a 35.000-word, 65-page thesis so I didn’t have any time/energy left to do any creative writing. Regardless, thank you for this cute ask! It was fun reminiscing over my memories with my childhood friend that I have known since I was four months old. Thank you for being so patient with me the very long wait, hopefully, this makes up for it!

Xiumin/Minseok:

✾ Xiumin and you became friends during recess in primary school. He noticed your classmates constantly picked you last whenever you played a game together during recess. Thus, whenever he was chosen to be a team captain, he made sure to pick you first, resulting in you two becoming close friends.

✾ Your mom adores him; heck, she prefers him over you. Xiumin has always been the perfect son; he got perfect grades, is polite, is handsome, cleans up after himself, etc. Whenever you call her, she asks whether you can pass the phone to him so she can ask her favourite child how he is doing.

✾ He is a very consistent friend. Regardless of how busy his schedule is, he makes sure to drop by your place regularly. If he can't visit you in person, he will have a four-hour phone call with you instead, where you two talk about everything and anything happening in your lives.

✾ At some point during your friendship, he had a massive crush on you. He never told you -and you might not have noticed it- but it was incredibly obvious to everyone around you as they watched him follow you with puppy dog eyes. Your mother still holds out hope that you will end up together.

Suho/Junmyeon:

✾ You guys became friends all the way back in pre-school when Suho noticed you were having trouble learning how to tie your shoelaces. Five-year-old Suho wasted no time and offered to help you out, patiently teaching you how to do it. You have stuck together ever since, remaining close throughout your teenage years.

✾ Suho dragged you through secondary school; if it hadn't been for him functioning as your tutor throughout your educational career, you would not have had the grades you ended up graduating with. Nowadays, he mostly gives you advice on work and will look over contract details with you when needed.

✾ He was 1000% your wealthy, rich best friend growing up. His childhood birthday parties were incredibly lavish; he would take all his friends to theme parks when he was younger, his parents paying for every expense. Even nowadays, he never misses a chance to spoil you rotten, taking you on already-paid-for trips whenever he is able to.

✾ You guys have stayed at each other's places so often that you call each other's parents mom and dad. It is not unusual for one of you to have dinner with the other's parents without the other present.  

✾ Compared to the other members, he is less consistent with meetups, not minding it too much when a lot of time passes between phone calls. You can go months without talking to each other before sending the other a random TikTok or stopping by each other's place unannounced.

Baekhyun:

✾ The two of you have a crazy story of how you met. You met Baekyhun shortly after moving into the same street. At the time, you were convinced mermaids were real, so you decided it was perfectly reasonable to dive into the river running next to your house to introduce yourself to them without actually being able to swim. Luckily for you, Baekyhun happened to be playing nearby and jumped in after you without a second thought, rescuing you from drowning. He still holds it over you whenever he needs a favour.  

✾ You have so many weird stories of when you were growing up together. You two would constantly get into trouble, most of it initiated by Baekyhun. It got to the point where your teachers decided to put you in different classes to prevent you two from pulling pranks during class.

✾ Your place is his place, and vice versa. On one occasion, you accidentally switched apartments; Baekyhun had gone over to yours whilst you had visited him. You still complain that he should cover your grocery bills as he tends to eat most of the food in your fridge whenever he is over.

✾ Baekyhun is such a loyal friend; he will always have your back and drop everything to come running when you tell him you need him. Baekyhun has friends he has known for over 20 years; he is a friend for life.

Chen/Jongdae:

✾ Your dad and his dad were best friends, introducing you to one another when you were two years old in the hopes you would become best friends, too. At first, you two were painfully shy, hiding behind your fathers to stare at the other strange kid, but after leaving you two alone for an hour, you two became quick friends.

✾ He acts very much like a brother. Chen can be super annoying, teasing you whenever he gets a chance, but he will drop everything and anything when you call him. He will not let anyone else -not even his members- tease you; it is only okay if he does it.

✾ You two give each other the best advice. You guys regularly call each other to talk about whatever problems and hardships you are going through. 

✾ Chen wasted no time in asking you to be one of the bridesmaids at his wedding. God knows how much you contributed to the two getting together and how much time you spent helping Chen plan the proposal. 

✾ Chen and his wife immediately called you to ask whether you wanted to be the godmother the moment they discovered she was pregnant. He cannot wait for you to have a child of your own so they can become best friends, too.

Chanyeol:

✾ You two met in primary school when you were six, and your teacher decided to have you sit together. Chanyeol got super competitive when he discovered you had gotten a higher grade than him on a spelling test, resulting in a friendly rivalry. To this day, you two get along perfectly well, but the moment that grades or board games are involved, a war will break out.

✾ He 1000% bullied you into playing video games with him. Chanyeol even bought you a gaming laptop, trying to convince you to join him. Regardless of his schedule or location, you have a regular game night where you play random multiplayer games, affectionately yelling at each other.

✾ You developed a tiny crush on Chanyeol when you first saw him after he got his growth spurt. It did not last very long, however; you remembered he was the same Chayeol who once ate a crayon on a dare and puked the contents of his stomach all over your shoes.

✾ Chanyeol is the worst wingman. He is very protective over you, and, according to his opinion, nobody is good enough to date you. Whenever you go out drinking, he will lurk behind you, attempting to intimidate whoever dares to come up to you. This man might be secretly in love with you and absolutely in denial about his feelings.

✾ Chanyeol once wrote a song about your friendship, but he has not yet made up his mind on whether he wants to release it. Part of him feels he should save it for a solo album.

D.O./Kyungsoo:

✾ You met Kyungsoo as he is the son of your mother's best friend. His mother had asked yours to introduce you two as Kyungsoo was a painfully shy child, and she wanted him to have more friends his age. Initially, he was quiet around you, hiding behind his mother whenever she brought him over. However, he slowly came out of his shell the more you played together.  

✾ You two didn’t attend the same schools but remained good friends nonetheless. Whenever school would end, you would rush to meet up underneath a big old tree in the park near your house. You would sit there for hours, talking about your day or doing your homework together, until it got dark.

✾ Kyungsoo never told you, but you were the main reason why he pursued a career in acting and singing. You never failed to hype him up, giving him the confidence to put himself out there. He fondly remembers the countless karaoke nights where you would be his biggest fan, praising his skills when the song would end.

✾ He definitely developed a crush on you somewhere during your teenage years. Kyungsoo never felt the need to act on it, finding your friendship too precious to risk anything. His friends were very aware of it, though, teasing him whenever he would rush out the moment school ended to meet up with you.

Kai/Jongin:

✾ You two met on a playground when you were three years old. Someone had pushed you off the wigwam, and Kai, seeing you cry, stood up for you as much as a three-year-old can stand up for someone else. He refused to leave your side after, playing with you until it was time to go home. You two have been close friends ever since.

✾ He insisted on you taking dance classes with him, thinking it was fun to have something to do together. It became your regular weekly meetup point, enabling you to stay connected even when you went to different schools. You would show up an hour before class would start, just so you could talk without being scolded by the teacher, and would take your sweet time walking home, squeezing out as much time as you could.  

✾ You recognize that Kai is incredibly handsome whenever you see him perform, but all you are able to see when he thrusts his hips is the same kid who once fell into a pond when he was collecting a bunch of rocks because he thought they were pretty and cried over a feather because he felt bad for the bird that lost it. Having so many embarrassing childhood memories of him is why you are still sane and not drooling over him.

✾ Kai bombards you with messages throughout the day; you once had over fifty notifications from him as he sent you every video and photo of a dog or cat he stumbled upon.

Sehun:

✾ You and Sehun met during daycare and initially did not get along whatsoever. You two got into a fight when Sehun stole the stuffed animal you were playing with, resulting in the caretaker putting the both of you in time-out. Weirdly enough, you bonded over your time in toddler jail, becoming inseparable after you were set free.

✾ Sehun and you constantly bicker with one another, having no problem calling the other one out or, as you like to put it, keeping the other person humble. To those who know you well, they liken your dynamic to that of an old married couple. However, people who do not know your friendship tend to assume you hate each other.

✾ Sehun gets insanely jealous when you hang out with his members or other friends of his. You are his friend, and as much as he likes his friends getting along, the bratty part of him hates when you do not have time for him. He will become incredibly whiny when too much time has passed between meetups and when he feels like you are ditching him for your friends.

✾ Sehun is your favourite gossip buddy. He will randomly call you to tell you whatever drama he witnessed or caught wind of. If calling is not an option, he will instead send you a thirty-minute voice note explaining the situation in full detail. Your chat is basically a podcast where you update one another about people you do not know and drama that does not concern you.

Masterlist

[jongbross]

Exo reaction making their s/o cry??

xiumin: i think he doesn't care at first. like, when he looks at you and sees your eyes tearing up he wouldn't be that fazed. he would bother though as the tears starts to fall, the expression on your face telling him he had gone too far. his heart falters, and he sighs because he knows he screw up. minseok might not apologize right away, but he'll do it the next morning or something, just give him time to also process his feelings.

suho: this is kinda tricky. junmyeon can either react by giving you the cold shoulder and letting you cry because you also hurted him (and he might cry himself), or by pulling you to his chest as soon as the tears starts falling and apologizing straight away. i think it depends on what's the reason why he made you cry - was it something stupid he said? he will apologize in a heartbeat. was it because of an argument that you two had and he still thinks you're being unreasonable? he will let you cry, sorry.

lay: "please, stop crying" is the first thing ypu hear once your eyes get wet - not because yixing is mad at you or anything, but because he can't stand the sight of you crying. it doesn't matter the reason, if you two were fighting, even if he's right about the argument; he hates seeing you cry, and the moment he does, it's all gone for him. he even forgets what he was going to say, what his point was, whatever. can't tell which one is hurting the most, you (who are crying) or yixing (who has the saddest eyes ever as he watches your tears roll down your face).

baekhyun: he has a soft, soooft heart. baekhyun can't stand seeing people cry, it breaks him too, so it wouldn't be different with you. let's say you two had an argument, and things escalated kinda quickly; firstly, baekhyun is the one to start crying, even though he tries to hold back as much as he can. secondly, the moment you start crying as well, he shuts up and reaches for you. he uses his thumbs to caress your tears away, not saying a damn word and fighting the urge to kiss you to make you calm down.

chen: another tricky one. jongdae can be kind of a fucker and not care if you're crying IF what you said back at him hurt him too. as he doesn't cry so often, maybe you won't know that you've hurted him, but if you did... you can cry all you want, he thinks it's only fair (as you don't know the damage you did inside him). but if not, if he messed up something "small" but that it still mattered to you, jongdae will sit beside you and talk about what he can do to show you how sorry he is (and he really is).

chanyeol: actually you're the one who's making him cry, shame on you (because i honestly think chanyeol is the most sentimental one out of all the members and he tries to be careful with his words because he knows the damage they can make).

d.o: kyungsoo is very logical about things, i think. i picture him as being the type of person to let you cry as you need to put it all out of your chest, but once you're done he will approach you and hold your hand as he apologizes, probably not for what he said/done but for hurting you, and say that if he's hurting you then maybe you two should think about your relationship because "i love you and it isn't supposed to be this way. are you sure i'm good for you? am i not doing the opposite of what i should?".

kai: it will all depend on what happened, to be honest. jongin is very soft hearted, but he will stomp his feet and not give in if he believes he's right about something. if he's not, then he will try to hug you and apologize, bu he won't like if you push him away because it's eating him up the fact that he was the one who got you messed up like that. jongin will pout and say things like "please, don't do that, i'm really sorry". i don't think it's that healthy, but that's something he has to work on.

sehun: he doesn't know how to react. sehun doesn't know if he should reach for you and take you into his arms, or if he should give you some space to deal with your own feelings. some emotions can make him uncomfortable, and it's not necessarily his fault, he just doesn't know what to do. but sehun is a mature guy - more than we think, actually -, so he will find by himself the balance between respecting your space and trying to apologize, which is actually learning how to read you and your body language. if you're crying silently, then he knows you might want him to make it up for you asap; if you're crying and swearing, not at him, but at the world in general, then he knows that you're just trying to settle your emotions down and that maybe it's better if you two don't speak for the rest of the day.

[anqelified]

✶𓏲ּ𐀔.ᐟ ⠀⠀⠀JULIETTE⠀ ( 🐰 ) relationships ! ───── sm family 𖤛

features : boa, tvxq, super junior, snsd, shinee, exo, red velvet, nct— 127, dream, wayv, wish —, aespa, riize

▶︎ FAMILIAL FIGURES

⠀⠀ boA ( 보아 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

when boa debuted, juliette was just getting to be born

with the fourteen year age gap, boa essentially took juliette under her wing like everyone else.

told her the hardships and challenges as a soloist but managed to be her first confidant.

fans LOVE their interactions sm like always point out juliet is boa’s baby 😭 😔

mother & daughter type of duo!!

⠀⠀ TVXQ ( 동방신기 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀80%

just like the rest of the 1980 - 1994 artists, juliette has more of a familial relationship with them

changmin & juliet had have collaborated in the past before and he’s always regarded her as a talented artist

just like changmin, u-know respects juliet for her hardwork as an idol and is always open to hearing out her troubles

⠀⠀ SUPER JUNIOR ( 슈퍼주니어 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀75%

to be honest, juliet only fw a few of the suju members. donghae & eunhyuck and probably leeteuk

although she’s more closer to the d&e duo, she puts suju in high regard as her seniors and their level as 2nd gen stars

she does talk to them occasionally tho

⠀⠀ SNSD ( 소녀시대 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

mothers and their daughter i fear

besties w tiffany and their bond is to die for

snsd > 2ne1 srry

juliet FOUGHT on the forums for them

it’s like sisterhood but also motherhood in a way so like… idk they just love juliet and they baby her whenever they get the chance to

⠀⠀ SHINee ( 샤이니 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

shinee took juliet under their wing once they met the 10 year old. when they were introduced to the pre-teen, they were in definite shock and became her older brothers

one of the core memories she has with them are the way the members would help her with her homework. since taemin had debuted awfully young as well, the pair would often be seen helping each other in their respective studies (with jonghyun stressing bc now he had to take care of TWO kids.)

key made it his responsibility to protect juliet throughout his life. of course she wasn’t the youngest person in sm, but at the time, she was just a mere ten-year-old girl who wanted to follow her dreams

⠀⠀ EXO ( 엑소 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀85%

just like shinee, most of exo (especially suho) took juliet as their daughter

often coined as the mini baekhyun w her massive amounts of energy

talking abt baekhyun, the vocal line is the reason why juliet manages to a “voice pocket” in her dimple. they always manage to teach her new ways to either sing or hit a note

but definitely older brother(s) & younger sister energy

⠀⠀ RED VELVET ( 레드벨벳 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

juliet was originally supposed to be in red velvet as she appeared in the ‘happiness’ mv but the idea was later scrapped

she trained with them and formed a sisterhood bond

out of all of the members, she’s super close w yeri and they have their own little girl dates together

irene is just a single mom who works two jobs, who loves her kids (wendy, joy, yeri, & juliet) and never stops

▶︎ FRIENDS

⠀⠀ NCT 127 ( 엔시티 127 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

if u asked juliet about what she thought about 127, she would tell u that they r her fav group

juliet is a SUCKER for noise music and who invented noise in kpop? nct ofc

out of all of the members, she’s super close w taeyong, johnny, jungwoo, mark & haechan

their bond as a whole leans in the middle of siblings & friends. its def more sibling towards the older members tho

big jungwoo fan. like everytime she sees him, a smile on her face 100%

⠀⠀ NCT DREAM ( 엔시티 드림 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀100%

since all of them are more closer in age to juliette, they all feel more connected

oh she loves the dreamies a little too much i fear

juliet always gets caught talking to them on camera or online which leaves fans super supportive of their interactions

she trained with the dreamies and basically grew up together

when asked about her favorite member in the group, she stays quiet and says jisung (to jaemin’s disbelief)

they always hang out together which has led to weird rumors but fans LIVE for their annually karaoke nights

⠀⠀ WAYV ( 웨이V ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀90%

just like the rest of nct, she fw them heavy 💚

she only goes to their door for ten’s cats and manages to unsucessfully kidnap his cats

tho she occasionally yaps with yang2, hendery, and xiaojun

at the beginning, she found it hard to communicate with them due to language barriers but after she took it upon herself to learn mandarin, she’s been talking shit w them :p

⠀⠀ AESPA ( 에스파 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀100%

just like dream, she’s more closer in age w aespa

she bonds more with giselle and they have such a tight friendship, u would think she’s dating giselle and not jaem 😒

as aespa goes to more award shows now, she’s seen tagging along with them and often coined as the hidden member.

when juliet found out that aespa was going to debut, she cheered bc she finally had more girls her age in the sm building 🙏

▶︎ GETTING TO KNOW

⠀⠀ RIIZE ( 라이즈 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀89%

when she found out shotaro and sungchan were leaving nct but debuting in riize, she cried…

YET she still truly has to make friends with the rest of the riize members. like yes she will film a challenge w them but afterwards it gets quiet…

bias in riize? probably sohee. she finds him so adorable (another complaint from jaemin)

THO she LOVEEEESSS their music.. like play talk saxy and she will SING.

⠀⠀ NCT WISH ( 엔시티 위시 ) ⠀⠀ ─── ⠀⠀75%

to her disbelief.. she didn’t know they could get younger..

like ur telling me she has to say hello to a CHILD. like she probably felt like everyone when she first debuted.. oh man it’s like deja vu

she’s definitely trying to get to know them but she finds it hard… to do that

but she’s an nctzen before human so ofc yk she’s going to support 🗣️

as for ex members, taeil & lucas aren’t rlly gonna be mentioned for obvious reasons. as for lucas, idc if the allegations were fake or real, i just dont fw that guy and so he won’t be mentioned at all other than here. ty and have a good day

[jeonstellate]

in the dark: dusk

you ask the moon for an impossible before your inevitable marriage to an utter stranger.

๑彡 hong jisoo x afab!reader

๑彡 strangers-to-lovers!au, arranged marriage!au — angst(?), fluff

๑彡 paragraph format — 1.8K words

masterlist | in the dark: dawn

[gif’s full credit belongs solely to its owner]

๑彡 title is taken from bobby’s in the dark.

๑彡 this is the first half of the two-shot, in the dark. you can find the link to the next part above :]

You had always known your marriage would be arranged by your parents. In a time where marriages were used as a form alliance between clans rather than a form of union between lovers, you never dared to hope that your marriage would be bound by love.

However, that particular knowledge didn’t prevent you from craving to experience how genuine romantic love feels like.

Hence your decision to sit by a tree just behind your village long after the sun had set. You weren’t waiting for a miracle, but you’d be lying if you say you weren’t hoping for one.

Under the pale moonlight, the cloak of darkness concealed the tears that the sun could not shine upon. Under the pale moonlight, you wordlessly wish for something that can never be.

But never did you expect for the moon to answer.

"May I know the reason for your tears, my lady?" A voice, soft and careful, suddenly filled the silence of the night. Although its appearance was unexpected, it miraculously didn’t startle you — as though, somehow, you had known.

You kept facing the moon as you answer, almost as if you were conversing with her rather than whoever just arrived. "Just trivial matters."

"Perhaps so, but you obviously care about it a great deal." The presence behind you felt closer, but still remained at a respectable distance.

"But I shouldn’t," you sighed. "There are dangers in dwelling on matters that are out of my control."

"But there are also dangers in bottling your feelings in, my lady," the person gently reminded you.

Silence then engulfed the two of you — which felt comfortable despite not knowing who exactly you were conversing with. The voiced words settled between the two of you, gradually creating something that could either build or destroy any relation that might form.

"I don’t know if I should trust you with my thoughts," you thoughtfully said after a while. "I don’t know who you are."

Your companion hummed in acknowledgment, "You can think of me as a shadow, if you wish."

"Why so?"

"You cannot confirm my existence until you look at me."

You started laughing. "I can very well just turn and confirm it promptly, my lord."

"Respectfully, my lady, but I advice against it," he replied almost immediately. "Please take comfort in knowing I am a stranger that cannot judge you based on anything you do not personally share — as I will with you."

You thought his advice through. Although you were concerned about revealing too much to an utter stranger, you couldn’t deny that he had a point. You live in a small village, after all — one way or another, everyone always hear about one family’s business and discuss them freely like it’s their own.

Every family in your village has their own reputation — which ultimately decides the esteem people regard each family with. If he doesn’t know how you look like, nor what your name is, then he can’t judge you based on the reputation of your family — nor can you have the fear of tainting your family’s reputation with each information you choose to disclose.

"Perhaps you are right," you agreed after a few moments of silence. "Though I do think you should just address me as Night from here on forward."

"Wonderful. Then, you can call me Suho."

You and Suho continued conversing the night away. Although he eventually chose to situate himself near you (after asking for consent), neither of you faced each other. You remained facing the sky, with your left arm millimeters away from the tree trunk and your back facing your village. Him, on the other hand, had his back against the tree trunk, his body facing your village, with his left arm inches away from yours.

"So what brings you in the dark like this?" Suho started the conversation after having enough of the silence.

"I wanted to make a wish to the moon," you replied eventually after pondering upon how you should indulge his inquiry.

"You must’ve wished so earnestly that tears spilled down your cheeks."

His comment earned an almost soundless chuckle from you. "On the contrary," you started, "those were desperate tears from wishing the impossible."

"I’m afraid I don’t follow, my lady," you heard him shift his position, but the sound of his voice remained in the same distance.

"My parents have found me someone to marry," you said slowly as you thought about whether or not saying so would give away your identity, "but I wanted to experience having a lover first before I’m bounded to someone I have yet to meet."

Suho, in contrast to your obvious hesitancy, was quick to react. "I can be your lover, my lady, if you will allow me."

"I beg your pardon?" You stuttered in disbelief. "You shouldn’t utter words you don’t mean, my lord."

"I do mean them," he quickly insisted.

"How can you?" You expressed your doubt, "Surely there must already be a lady waiting for you back home?"

"I assure you, my lady, you shall be my only one."

You couldn’t reply right away — not because you were thinking his reply over, but because his response made you flustered. "Then, I suppose you would not mind courting me?"

Just like he had been doing throughout the night, Suho’s response came almost immediately. "I would court you as long as you wish."

You and Suho continued to meet with the moon being your only witness. During those nights, you would converse about anything your hearts desired. Slowly, but surely, then, you both learned parts of what composed each other’s constellations.

True to his word, Suho did court you every night that you met. He would alternate between telling you compliments, giving you flowers, writing you some poetry, or a combination of acts.

In return, to show your appreciation, you reciprocated his efforts in ways you knew how.

"Yes," you agreed out of the blue on the night of a full moon.

"Pardon?"

"Yes," you repeated, "I am now accepting you as my beau."

You and Suho had an agreement, beginning that first night when your peculiar arrangement was made. You both agreed, under no circumstances, would you try to catch a glimpse of each other’s faces. Thus, whenever you two met, you both ensured that you two were positioned in such a way that no one wouldn’t see the other’s face.

And somehow, you two still found a way to bask in each other’s warmth without breaking your agreement. "Thank you," you heard him murmur by your ear. "Thank you for trusting me."

You shook your head in denial, a smile ghosting your lips. "Thank you for coming into my life."

The word ‘bliss’ wouldn’t be enough to describe how you felt the following nights. Suho had always been sweet, but he became even sweeter after he became your beau.

Like he had already done, Suho had brought you flowers, written you poetry, and showered you with words of affirmation. On top of all of those, he occasionally brought you handmade gifts as well.

Despite already being your significant other, Suho still went out of his way to court you — even after you told him that he could stop. He claimed that it made him happy, as it never failed to make you happy, so you just let him do what he pleased.

"Have you ever thought about children?" You asked Suho one night as you lie on his chest, facing the moon.

Even with your improved status, you and Suho came to a consensus that you should uphold your previous agreement of keeping your true identities a secret from one another. Especially with your deepening relationship, it was crucial not to display any awkwardness nor unusual behavior if ever you two meet under the sun — to keep the eagle-eyed gossipers of your village from talking.

"Well, I am now," he answered before resting his hand on your hip, by your stomach. "Why?"

You two often talked about whatever came to mind, especially if you had finished filling each other about any shareable events that happened during the day. Albeit you both had nothing against silence, you liked to spend your limited time getting to know each other instead.

"As I look into the sky, I suddenly remembered how I took inspiration from it when I was unentertained enough to think of baby names."

You heard Suho let out an intrigued sound, "Let’s hear them, then."

"Hyewol for a girl, Hyeseong for a boy," you answered nonchalantly. "I also thought Chaewol, Seonghwa, and Haneul could be good to use as well."

Suho started murmuring to himself. Despite your proximity, you still couldn’t quite catch the entirety of what he was saying. However, you could’ve sworn that you heard the names you just mentioned being mixed in.

"What are you—?"

"Just testing how the names sound with my last name," he replied as nonchalant as you were then. However, with such simple words, you couldn’t help but to feel your cheeks flush. "So, five kids?"

"I," you stopped, suddenly not trusting yourself to speak. Nevertheless, after a moment, you managed to collect yourself. "Only if it’s with you."

You both knew, with your looming engagement, that that was a future out of your reach. It was a someday that could only exist under the cloak of the moon’s light, never to be touched by the sun’s rays.

And yet, despite that, you and Suho still dared to dream.

You knew this day would come, even before you crossed paths with Suho. In retrospect, this day was literally the reason why you met Suho in the first place. Had you not been crying that pivotal night about this particular day, you probably wouldn’t have him by your side at all.

Unfortunately, even your set up with Suho did nothing for the dreaded day.

"[First name], dear, come here for a minute," your mother called you over from your little corner with your cousins.

Today was her birthday and, to celebrate, she held a banquet in her honor — only inviting those that she truly got along with to keep the event drama-free. Not even her side of the family was in complete attendance, as some — if not most — of them clashed with one another over trivial matters.

It was your mother’s day, so you never thought it would double as the day you finally met your fiancé.

"[First name], this is Joshua," you mother started with an abnormally large smile etched on her face, "your fiancé."

You tried not to visibly freeze. As much as Suho was supposed to assist you to get ready for your married life, you weren’t ready to meet the person you were expected to spend the rest of your life with. Especially not when you already began wishing that your husband-to-be was Suho instead.

Joshua reached for your hand and kissed the back. "It’s my pleasure to be your acquaintance, my lady. I am Joshua Hong."

[lagoonalake]

pleaseeeee can I get exo ideal type ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

EXO IDEAL TYPE

XIUMIN

Personality: justice, 10 of coins, 3 of swords

He wants someone very reliable and loyal, someone grounded and balanced, no nonsense, someone with whom he can build a family and a secure future with. Well established and stable. Someone who can be a bit cautious at first, a bit cold even, who only opens up to a selected few. Probably he is like this too, and values trust and believes that this is a sign that the person is not playing with him. He wants someone disciplined, fair, kind. He would treat his partner as an equal and values the give and take a lot.  libra, saturn, capricorn, taurus, aquarius

Appearance: 10 of wands, 8 of wands, temperance

Someone athletic, very strong, with a lot of stamina. Even their expression is of someone who has a lot of control over themselves, very disciplined, very active. A more sporty or simple style, flexible body, calm face. Features could be a bit sharp. Lean, muscular. Someone who looks like they have seen a lot in life as well, he needs to see experience and depth in their eyes. aries, mars, capricorn

Turn offs: 4 of swords, 6 of pentacles, knight of cups

People who don’t think long term. Overly kind and giving, a bit naive. Sappy, too emotional or romantic, people who play the victim or who see victims everywhere, the type you’re always gonna hear say “oh poor you ;_;”. People who are not thinking with their brain, people led by their emotions instead of their logic. People who always expect others to save them.  pisces, cancer

SUHO

Personality: 6 of wands, the sun, queen of cups

Someone very proud and dignified, who he would be proud to show off as well. Someone prestigious. Most likely a celebrity. Someone who shines brightly. Very joyful, funny and warm, very open with their emotions and desires. Could like to party quite a lot or have fun. Quite bold, confident and playful, in touch with their inner child. Could be a stage performer. Someone who likes to laugh a lot. Someone who can take charge but also someone who can be very kind and nurturing with him, intuitive, motherly. Someone open with their feelings and emotions, who follow their heart.  leo, cancer, sagittarius

Appearance: 8 of pentacles, 10 of cups, 2 of wands

Maybe someone who looks like him a little. Someone who works hard on their appearance, that he can tell is making an effort. Someone who works out, who is paying attention to the details, a very neat hairstyle for example, and features are very pretty in a detailed sort of way, in this very clean, detailed oriented way that Korea loves. Someone who also gives of a nurturing aura, quite soft. Not too tall. Pale skin. Someone who has a bit of an artistic quality to their style. Expressive and warm, eyes bright with passion.  virgo, cancer, leo

Turn offs: page of swords, the empress, the devil

I think Suho may not trust women too much, especially beautiful women. So he’s a bit turned off by smooth talkers, very beautiful seductive women who are owning their femininity and charm a bit too much for his taste. Manipulative people. People who are a bit too chatty, ask too many questions, are gossipy and nosy. People who have a scattered brain. venus, pluto, gemini

LAY

Personality: 4 of swords, knight of pentacles, 7 of cups

He’s attracted to very chill sort of people, I’m kinda seeing someone who almost seems a bit high, although that’s not it. XD But it’s someone who would be naturally like that, just very easy going, calm, relaxed, who doesn’t stress too much about anything, who is actually quite positive, optimistic, and can see the good things around them. Someone focused on doing their thing, who likes to take their time. Someone who can see all the possibilities in life. Someone who probably could help him ease his stress a bit. Slow kind of energy. Sensual. Creative and with a lot of imagination, most likely an artist. Hippie vibes.  taurus, pisces, jupiter

Appearance: the hierophant, the tower, knight of cups

A traditional asian beauty but at the same time this person needs to stand out enough for him to fall head over heels for them. Someone with a romantic quality, soft features, who doesn’t have to make too much effort to be pretty. Maybe taller than average or looks tall. A sort of fiery, a bit explosive aura. He may prefer a beauty that is a bit more natural like not overly bleached skin or too much plastic surgery. Simple style. taurus, virgo, pisces, scorpio, aries

Turn offs: the sun, the hermit, 2 of swords

It’s a bit specific, but I think it’s about balancing private and public life, between inner self work, a more isolated spiritual life style, and being out there in the world. I think he wants some spirituality in his life but also be able to still live with everyone else and not isolate himself. He wants that balance so he needs someone like that too. Therefore what turns him off is someone who is either too public, or on the opposite end too private. And in general unbalanced personalities, like people who are either too arrogant or too modest, too noisy or too quiet…etc.

BAEKHYUN

Personality: 7 of pentacles, the hanged man, 4 of pentacles

Someone very patient and calm, very stable. Someone with a good sense of timing, who doesn’t rush into things blindly. Quite mature, grounded, almost meditative in a way. A bit possessive. Someone quite even, whose mood doesn't change much, rather quiet. Just very very calm! XD Could be into yoga or things of a more spiritual nature, but especially yoga and meditation. Someone who could introduce him to a more serene lifestyle, maybe outside of the industry, give him a new perspective. A bit of a teacher vibe. Also someone quite good at managing money and the household. Someone who also has built a stable material life for themselves.  taurus, pisces, capricorn, jupiter

Appearance: queen of pentacles, knight of pentacles, knight of wands

Very sensual and comfortable in their own skin. Not shy about revealing some skin. Sexy and sensual. Slow movements and energy, some curves especially around the hips, butt and thighs. Fit and healthy. Could prefer a simpler style, a bit outdoorsy. Not overly dolled up. Could like darker skin tone, people from different ethnicities. Youthful round face with confident expression.  aries, taurus, sagittarius

Turn offs: 5 of swords, the star, the fool

Argumentative people who always want to have the last words, overly critical, nitpicky. People who try to provoke change, I think he likes his stability and doesn’t mind it if his days look alike, but some people need a fresh start all the time, are always focused on the future, what could be improved, changed, are always looking for novelty. He finds it tiring and a bit useless, he prefers to focus on the present moment and enjoy things as they are.  aquarius, gemini, virgo, scorpio

CHEN

Personality: 9 of wands, 3 of cups, 8 of swords

He likes people who are a bit on the defensive or cautious at first, hard to get to know or to approach, possibly because they have been betrayed or wounded in the past, he wants to befriend them first and take care of them. A healing relationship. He has this ability to help people who are a bit hard around the edges to soften and open up. Help them navigate to a calmer, more peaceful, more serene place, and restore their trust in life and relationships. He definitely wants friendship with his partner and for them to know each other well and share a lot of interests and good times. An intimate, softly transformative relationship with genuine interest in each other.  scorpio, aries, pluto, pisces

Appearance: 9 of cups, the empress, judgment

Someone very feminine, who smells good, who looks "fertile". With a beautiful, gentle, warm smile. Someone who also has a certain intensity. Like a ray of sunshine or someone who has this inner light, this bright aura. Beautiful smile, soft skin, very sensual. More traditional beauty. Warm and loving expression. Gold, white, burgundy, pink colors.  taurus, libra, pisces, scorpio

Turn offs: 5 of wands, 3 of swords, king of swords

Competitive people who are always looking for a fight or to dominate others. People who don’t care about other people’s emotions, who are detached and cold, overly logical. People who would be unable to trust him, too distant, never letting their guard down. Cheaters and people who betray his trust, talk behind his back, gossipers. negative aries, gemini, aquarius, saturn

CHANYEOL

Personality: the lovers, ace of pentacles, 2 of pentacles

He wants to be the provider. A more traditional relationship. He’s attracted to someone very partnership oriented, romantic, giving, loving, he wants to do things with his partner, to be able to rely on them and for them to rely on him, he wants to share a lot. Someone who cares about keeping the harmony in the relationship, someone diplomatic, measured, balanced, also someone quite “useful” lol, someone who is always here to help or who is good at finding solutions, it can be for everyday things, little details. Someone good at managing money and quite practical and crafty. libra, virgo

Appearance: 4 of cups, the hanged man, death

More traditional asian beauty, pale skin, long black hair. Round face. Can look quite intense and magnetic, a bit dark, a bit pouty and withdrawn, austere even, or in their little corner. More petite body. Beautiful high quality sophisticated clothes. He likes jewelry. Feminine style. Dresses.  scorpio, capricorn, cancer

Turn offs: knight of swords, 8 of pentacles, the hermit

Someone rude, blunt, impulsive, who never chills, too focused on work, someone who is always negative and never seems to have luck in life, someone who wants to be alone all the time and doesn’t invest in the relationship enough. Someone isolated, unable to adapt to other people around them. Always trying to provoke others. A misfit.  negative scorpio, aquarius, saturn

D.O

Personality: 9 of pentacles, the empress, king of pentacles

Someone stable who has worked hard enough that they can enjoy an abundant and peaceful lifestyle with him. Someone who enjoys the present moment. Definitely a very sensual lover, very physical,who likes to eat, cook, smell flowers, someone who smells good themselves, who enjoys nature, gardening maybe, who likes to focus on their home. A good mother material. Very warm, giving, affectionate. There is just this very luxurious and abundant energy coming from his spread. It’s not necessarily about money, actually he’d like to be the provider most likely and to pamper his partner while they would focus on creating this beautiful, flowery, cozy home. Could be someone who is into home decor as well. Also someone who would like to be stuck with him pretty much all the time. XD taurus, venus, cancer, virgo

Appearance: king of cups, 3 of cups, justice

In addition to all the sensuality that was picked up on in the personality section, he likes someone who is quite magnetic, very deep and beautiful hypnotic eyes especially, sometimes eyes could look a bit fierce and intense, but overall a friendly aura, soft kind smile, a reassuring energy. Symmetrical features, balanced appearance, nothing too extreme, too flashy or gaudy. Blue, black and white colors.  scorpio, pisces, libra

Turn offs: 2 of swords, the fool, page of wands

Immaturity, people who don’t know what they want, who don’t know themselves well yet, people who are gullible, wishy washy, who believe everything they hear, people who have no sense of direction, who are easily influenced by others, who are run by their instincts, people who are too adventurous and always want to explore, cannot settle anywhere.  sagittarius, uranus, cancer, neptune

KAI

Personality: 10 of swords, queen of pentacles, king of pentacles

He is often attracted to wounded souls, people who maybe suffer from anxiety or could be a bit guarded and shy, and can appreciate his trustworthy, protective, patient energy. A humble, dignified partner, service oriented, altruistic and with high morals. We have the king and queen of pentacles here, a rather traditional couple, so he wants someone who is similar to him, very earthy, logical, grounded, practical, mature and who values caution and trust in relationships. Crafty, artistic and creative. A sensual lover, the physical connection is important and he wants to be close to his partner. He wants to build something long lasting and sturdy.  virgo, capricorn, taurus

Appearance: the moon, the hermit, 2 of pentacles

Someone a bit mysterious, dreamy, who looks more reserved. He likes to observe someone at work, working out, or just focused on their task. Someone physically strong, active with a lot of stamina. Calm and quiet. Long hair. Sensual. Can have a stubborn look on their face. Artistic style although nothing too flashy. Dark eyes, earthy colors, brown, green, beige. Balanced and symmetrical features, natural beauty, soft velvety skin. pisces, virgo, taurus, libra

Turn offs: the moon, the wheel of fortune, 8 of wands

Someone vague, changeable, impulsive, someone who has no stability in life, no structure, who changes their mind all the time, who makes hasty decisions and judgments. Someone blunt or loud, noisy. A "tiring" energy. Someone who cannot sit still, is always looking for novelty. Someone is too self involved, and self sabotages or sabotages relationships, doesn’t take it seriously or respect their partner enough to commit. negative pisces, sagittarius, gemini, aquarius, aries

SEHUN

Personality: the lovers, page of wands, 7 of coins

A romantic person who likes to have fun. Someone very loving, playful, adventurous, energetic. A child at heart. Still behind this more youthful facade, someone who is able to be very patient with him. A long lasting relationship where both people are equals. Someone who values harmony, balance, joy, would know how to keep the passion alive and enjoy a lot of activities with him. Probably someone sporty, and/or who has a lot of interest, I could see them go skiing, travel together…etc. Energetic, smiley, very friendly and sociable. Popular. Someone who laughs a lot. Good sense of humor. Someone who appreciates life at the fullest but knows when to stop and enjoy a calmer more quiet moment too. Funny partners in crime kind of vibe.  libra, gemini, sagittarius, taurus

Appearance: knight of cups, page of coins, the hierophant

Someone with a romantic, soft appearance, cute features, smiley. More traditionally beautiful too (well, this group has a pattern XD). Round youthful face, soft skin, kind with animals and children. Higher pitched, warm, pleasant voice. Contagious laugh. A ray of sunshine. The colors blue, green, turquoise. Rosy cheeks. Pretty eyes. Wavy hair. Just very cute overall appearance!  pisces, libra, taurus, gemini

Turn offs: queen of wands, 6 of swords, the sun

A diva, someone bossy and high maintenance who wants to dominate the relationship, make all the decisions, a narcissist who is mostly interested in him because of his fame and wants to show him off. People who always need attention, always need to be in the public eye. People who want to force change on him, transform his life even though he doesn’t want to. People who don’t listen to him and are unwilling to see their own flaws. negative leo, aries, aquarius

[dazz-linglight]

Hello love, I have a request for sehun we’re reader is younger than him and plus size, and She gets jealous of sehun friendship with sejeong and they get in a fight we’re sehun say he likes sejeong more than her. With a bit of angst and a happy ending.

It’s alright if you don’t want to take this request I totally understand. I love you and you’re writing 🤍🤍🤍

Another Chance.

(idol!Sehun x non-idol!Reader) feat. EXO and Kim Sejeong.

Sehun and you were the type of couple that radiated warmth and affection, laughter often echoed through your small apartment. Sehun, at thirty, had a quiet confidence that complemented your vibrant, effervescent personality. You, younger by five years, a plus-size woman who carried yourself with grace and an infectious smile. Despite the strong bond built in one year of your relationship, insecurities sometimes crept in, often spurred by your own self-doubts.

One sunny Saturday, you were both invited to Suho's barbecue in his new house, along with the rest EXO members and a few other friends. The backyard was filled with people chatting, laughing, and savoring the delicious aroma of grilled food. You stayed close to Sehun, enjoying the social gathering but feeling a bit out of place. It wasn't long before Sejeong, a friend of them joined the gathering.

Sejeong is slim and carried herself with a sophisticated air. She and Sehun had an easygoing friendship and their conversation flowed effortlessly. As they laughed and reminisced about their idol antics, you felt a knot of jealousy in her stomach. Trying to mask the discomfort, you joined the conversation as you could, but couldn't shake the feeling of being an outsider around them. Sehun’s attention seemed more focused on Sejeong, and each shared joke and burst of laughter between them felt like a small cut to your heart.

After a while, you excused yourself to grab a drink, trying to collect your thoughts. From a distance, you watched Sehun and Sejeong close together in deep conversation. It felt like watching your worst fears play out in front of your eyes. Unable to contain her emotions any longer, you marched back to the table.

“Hey, Sehun,” you called for him, your voice sharper than intended, “can we talk for a minute?”Sehun looked surprised but nodded, excusing himself from Sejeong. You walked in front of him to a corner where nobody would listen and turned to him, the sounds of the barbecue fading slightly.

“What’s wrong, love?” Sehun asked, concern etched on his face. You took a deep breath, trying to steady your voice.

“Look, I don’t really like the way you’re acting around Sejeong. You’re so wrapped up in her that you’re ignoring me.” Sehun’s eyebrow furrowed in confusion.

“Love, Sejeong is my colleague . There’s nothing more to it.” He tried reasoning, not understanding where you're coming from.

“But it feels like there is!” You snapped, the insecurities boiling over your head. “You’re being much more attentive to her than you are to me. Do you even realize how that makes me feel?”

Sehun sighed, clearly frustrated. “_______, you’re overreacting. Sejeong is just easy to talk to. We have things in common from work, that’s all.”

You got a bit overwhelmed and a few tears filled your eyes, voice trembling. “Maybe she’s more likable than me then, huh? Is that it?”

Sehun’s patience got thin. “Yeah, maybe she is! At least she doesn’t get jealous over nothing!” The words hung in the air, heavy and painful in your heart. Your face got sour and you immediately turned to walk away from him, quickly going towards Suho's house.

Sehun soon regretted his outburst, but his pride held him back from following you. The rest of the barbecue was a blur for Sehun. He stayed, but his mind was with you, replaying the argument over and over. He hated himself for the ridiculous words he had said, knowing they stemmed from his own frustration and not the truth. While you spent the rest of the afternoon in the living room and away from everyone, tears streaming down your face. You felt humiliated, hurt, and worst of all, you believed Sehun’s words. Maybe Sejeong really was more likable. Maybe you were the problem.

Two hours later, Sehun came in to find and drove you home in silence, the tension between you palpable. When you got home, you went straight to shower and then to bed, curling up on your side, back to Sehun. He watched for a moment, wanting to reach out, but unsure how to bridge the gap he had created.

The next morning, Sehun woke up early, determined to make things right. He slipped out quietly and headed to the nearest florist, buying the most beautiful bouquet of sunflowers. When he returned, he found you in the kitchen, staring blankly at your coffee cup.

“Love...” he said softly, approaching you with the flowers. “I’m so sorry for yesterday. I was a jerk and I said things I didn’t mean. Sejeong isn’t more likable than you. No one is. You're the woman I love. You’re the most important person in my life.”

You turned to face him and looked up, eyes still red from crying. You accepted the flowers, holding them close to your chest. “It really hurt me, Sehun. I’ve always felt insecure about my weight and how I look. Seeing you with her just brought all those fears to the surface.”

Sehun stepped closer, taking your face in his hands. “I apologize. I should've been more considerate of your feelings. You’re beautiful to me, in every way. I don’t want anyone else. I love you just the way you are.”

You stared back at him, eyes filled with tears again, but this time they were tears of relief.

“I love you too, Sehun. I just need to feel that you’re with me, that you see me.”

“I do,” He said with the earnest voice. “And I’ll make sure you always know that.” The two of you stood there in the kitchen, holding each other tightly, the flowers pressed between them.

The tension and hurt melted away, replaced by the warmth of their love. From that day on, Sehun made a conscious effort to show you how much he cared. He never let a day go by without reminding you how beautiful you are to him, inside and out. You too worked on her insecurities, learning to trust more in Sehun’s love and your relationship.

[shadowynn]

| in love and lore | two |

pairing: ateez x fem reader

genre: fantasy/daemon/soulmate au

warnings: none really for this part, but overarching yandere behavior

summary: the daemon king and his seven black generals. names and faces of these eight had changed over the years as each new king was crowned, but their reputation as the most powerful daemons always remained the same. upon hearing the rumors one of the seven led the charge of the nearby battle, you should have stayed close to the encampment. you should have never wandered out on your own. but you did, and your life would never be the same again. good or bad, you would just have to wait to find out.

“There’s no need to be afraid, angel.” His words were a breath against the side of your neck. “You’ve done so much for us, let your king now return the favor.”

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a/n: i made very minor changes in the preview to update it, but none of them are significant enough to really warrant rereading, so you're good to just continue on here. thanks to all the love you showed on the preview, it gave me lots of inspiration to keep writing this story as well as give me the courage to put it out there for people other than myself to read. :)

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You awoke with a start, hands clasping at your throat. The ghost of his fangs sinking into the juncture between your neck and shoulder haunted you, followed by the rush of fire that had flooded your veins as they made impact. The flames had burned their way through your body, so terribly hot that you had thought you were actually burning from the inside out. And as the fire centered around your core, you had thought for sure you were dying, the searing heat threatening to consume you whole.

And then everything had gone dark.

Your eyes snapped open, breath heavy as the events replayed in your now conscious mind. You only managed to keep them open for a brief second, the midmorning sunlight that bathed your body nearly blinding you, and you were forced to close them until you managed to shield them. To your surprise, you found yourself back in the cot you had left the night before, directly inside the encampment’s infirmary. The blanket that had covered you was now tangled around your legs and damp with the sweat that coated your body.

The memory of the night before weighed heavily on your mind, and the familiar setting did little to calm your racing heart. The sharp sting of his fangs piercing your skin was still fresh, but when your fingers prodded against the spot he had bit, no sign of any wound appeared. The skin was smooth and unblemished, which was only unusual only in the fact you held no memory of healing it. In fact, you had little memory of anything that had happened after that moment, let alone how you ended up here. While you had a fairly solid grasp on the events that had occurred, everything had become slightly hazy in your mind, making you wonder if it had really happened or had just been a hyper realistic dream.

“y/n, what are you still doing in bed?”

You were brought back to reality at the voice calling out to you, but in your still groggy haze, you did little more than stare dumbly at the man now frowning at you from above your cot. It took a few seconds for you to recognize him as your superior, Suho. Whether it had all been a dream or not, you found yourself struggling to focus on the current events.

“What the hell happened to you?” Suho’s gaze lightened when he saw the state you were in. “You look awful, n/n.”

“I feel awful,” you replied, rubbing at the headache throbbing at your temples.

It wasn’t just your head. As you slowly became more aware of your surroundings, you began to become more aware of your current state as well. You felt shaky and unstable. Your head was pounding, and there was a strange sort of tightness inside your chest, directly between your breasts. This one wasn’t quite painful, more so just uncomfortable. It left you with a sort of emptiness, as though the fire that had raged through your body the night before had burned a very part of you away, leaving you hollow. You did your best to try and shake it off, but it was like an itch you couldn't scratch and strayed at the forefront of your mind.

“I wish I could say you could sleep it off, but we’re already in over our heads out here. Stock is running low and you’re the only one out here that can replenish it.” Suho’s gaze was sympathetic as he assessed you. “I’ll go see if we have any pep-up potions left while you get ready. Maybe that’ll help.”

You nodded, mumbling your gratitude as you did your best to detangle yourself from your blanket. As much as you wanted to roll over and sleep it off, you knew Suho was right. There wasn’t any time for that.

It took a few seconds for you to steady yourself, head rolling when you clambered to your feet. Once you were steady, you made your way over to the privacy screens to change your clothes and get ready for work. As you went, you did your best to sort out the events that had occurred, once again pondering the idea it had all been a dream. But as much as you wished it was just some crazy, fever dream, fueled by the rumors of the Black General you had heard from the soldiers, you knew that was just wishful thinking. The events may have grown hazy and half-forgotten, but the parts you did remember felt too real and poignant in your mind. You had been certain he was going to kill you, and yet, here you were. Not only still alive, but safely back at the encampment too. What he might have done to you or how you ended up back here was a complete mystery. And while a part of you was curious, you had no major inclination to figuring it out. After your brush with one of the Seven, you had a deep, burning desire to stay as far away from him and the other daemons as possible.

But even if you did want to figure it out, you didn’t have the time or the resources. Suho was right when he said the two of you were in over your heads in work. The pull out of Binna only added to the work you had on your plate already. Stocks needed to be gone through, supplies needed to be replenished, and soldiers still needed attended to. The majority of each of these falling on to you. As terrified and confused as you were at the moment, you simply didn’t have the time or energy to sit and figure it all out. You were at a loss when it came to what had happened to you - because something had definitely happened - but there was nothing you could do about it now. At least nothing that wouldn’t get you in more trouble than you already were. If word about what you had done last night got out, you would be dead without a second thought. The humans were already growing suspicious of your actions, the only thing keeping you safe was their obliviousness to the fact you were no longer partial to whom you saved. The best course of action would be to act like nothing had happened and just pray nothing else would come to you because of it.

And while the situation already left you feeling stressed and anxious, it was nothing compared to the following revelation you made as you changed.

You almost didn’t notice it at first.

In your rush to change your clothes, you hadn’t noticed the trace of gold lining your abdomen until you were fastening the clasp of your pants. Thinking it nothing more than a trace of sunlight peeking through one of the cracks, you paid it little mind as you made to grab your shirt, barely catching the way the gold followed your movements out of the corner of your eye. Confused, you tilted your head to get a closer look, running your fingers against your stomach, finally noticing the way it traced upwards along your chest.

The trace of gold was fashioned into the outline of a sword, the pommel starting at the top of your chest with the tip of the blade resting just above your belly button. The guard was composed of a pair of golden wings, outstretched just below your breasts with a crooked crown hanging around the hilt.

Any sort of peace you might have found that morning left as you quickly pieced the pattern together. The fear that had haunted you the night before returning in full force as you matched the symbol now etched upon your chest to the symbol of the daemon king himself.

You struggled to maintain your footing, having to grab hold of the bench beside you to keep yourself from falling as your brain attempted to process the situation. If you had thought you were in trouble before, it was nothing compared to the state you found yourself in now.

What had they done to you?

Your mind scrambled over the conversation you had with the Black General, trying hard to piece back together what he had said to you in the hopes of figuring out what he had done to you. He had asked what was to be done with you, mentioning something along the lines of wanting to return the favor of saving his life, but what sort of gratitude was a bit to the neck and a mark of the enemy? You had saved their men, saved one of the generals against your better judgment, and in return, they had all but branded you as a traitor to your own people. He had said he wanted to know who you were so they could keep you safe, but how the hell was this mark supposed to keep you safe? If anyone saw the symbol on your chest, you would be hanged in the gallows without a second thought.

It had to have all been a lie. Every promise of showing you no harm and keeping you safe had to have been nothing more than a gentle lie to lull you in and convince you to save him. They hadn’t really intended to do either of those things. They had just wanted to make sure you were someone on the enemy’s side to make sure you wouldn’t talk. The humans would be curious if you started spouting any of the information you had unwillingly obtained in the night, and if the mark didn’t seal your fate for you, the knowledge you had saved one of the Seven would.

“y/n, I laid the potion with the restock lists on your bed. Just go ahead and start brewing when you get out. I’ll take care of the rest for now.”

Once again Suho startled you from your thoughts, giving a slight knock on the screen beside you to notify you of his presence. You were thankful it was him and not any of the other human healers who had been sent out with you. Out of all the ones you had worked with before, Suho was the most lenient with you, and would be less likely to report you for any strange behavior. What he saw as nothing more than the culmination of exhaustion from being overworked, the others might have taken as a sign of suspicious activity.

“Thanks, Suho.” You quickly tugged your shirt on, making sure any and every trace of the mark was tucked and hidden away as you wrapped a belt around your waist. The mere sight of it was making you sick to your stomach, and though hiding it didn’t alleviate the stress if caused, it did help to ease your mind a bit. “I’ll get started on those right away.”

While the situation you had landed yourself in put you on high alert, you did your best to push away any thoughts on the matter away for now, putting your full body and mind into your work. It was easier done than you imagined it to be; the current status of the war giving you plenty to occupy your mind with. You had attended to the majority of the injured soldiers the night before, leaving you with plenty of brewing to do to restock the supplies. With Binna now a lost cause, all time and effort would be poured into defending the last two cities still standing under human control. The majority of the soldiers still alive at Binna would be moving to Yuchae to help defend it; its location putting it directly in between Binna and the capital. You, on the other hand, would be moving back to Maehwa in the upcoming days. None of the council members or higher officials would outwardly declare it, but your talent for potions and healing made you invaluable to them, and they were not willing to lose you in Yuchae. Instead, they would just run you dry over the next few days making potions to stock the city for as long as possible.

The amount of work they had stacked up for you was nearly impossible to achieve in the time you had, especially at the rate supplies had been coming in, but it did allow you some privacy for the time being. Unable to brew any of the potions on his own, Suho took over the rest of the responsibilities for the time being, allowing you to put all your time and focus into restocking supplies, and only ever bothering you every now and again when there was an injury he needed your help with or for a potion they had run out of..

Even if you had wanted to worry about what had happened to you or what the mark that now branded your chest meant, you didn’t have the time to. Your workload left you with barely any time to eat as it was. You were only able to sneak bites here and there, and you were so exhausted by the time nightfall came, you had fallen asleep almost as quickly as your head had hit the pillow.

It was only once your journey back to Maehwa had begun that you had the time to think once again. You had originally thought the forced break of traveling would help with your exhaustion, but you soon found yourself itching for work after the first few hours on horseback. With Suho and the soldiers riding near you silent, you were left with nothing more than your own thoughts to occupy yourself for the following days. None of which helped to calm you down. Even after two days of thinking it all through and trying to understand what might have happened, you were left just as confused as you were before. No matter which way you looked at the situation, you always came back to the same conclusion. You were in deep trouble, and if you weren’t careful over these next few weeks, you could very well get yourself killed.

When the walls of Maehwa came into view on the dawn of the third day, you were surprised to feel the wave of relief the sight caused. Under normal circumstances, you usually despised the city you had grown up in, its high walls and obstinate people leaving you feeling like a prisoner more often than not. But this time, you found yourself relaxing upon your entrance into the city. Your days in the encampment and on the road had left you feeling exposed more often than not, and you couldn’t shake the feeling you were being watched. By whom or from where, you weren’t sure, but the way your chest thrummed throughout the day was beginning to make you paranoid. You weren’t sure what final scenario would be worse. The humans finding out about the brand on your chest, or the daemons deciding they had changed their minds and they didn’t actually want to let you go.

You were sent to work directly upon your arrival, the work left to you having piled up in your nearly two week absence. But just as before, you didn’t mind the work, needing something else besides daemons to occupy your mind for the time being. You might have felt physically refreshed after the journey back, but the weight in your chest had yet to alleviate, making you wonder if it was somehow tied to the golden mark. The idea had seemed ridiculous at first, chalking up the aching emptiness nothing more than a personification of the stress and anxiety building up inside you, but it had appeared with the mark and the way it had kept coming and going throughout the journey began to convince you otherwise. You might have been a half-daemon yourself, but you knew very little of the true extent of power that half of your lineage held. The daemons held their magic close to them, and little about it was known outside their people.

“y/n!” You were swiftly greeted by your elder sister when you entered the small house you shared with her and your brother. “You’re back!” Her face spread with relief as she smiled at you from the kitchen. Despite your continuous reassurances you were kept far away from the fighting, she still worried about you each time you were called away. Though you both knew this wasn’t what truly worried her, but rather the fact you kept sneaking out at night each time you went away. “How’d the new cloak work out for you?”

“It worked just as you had hoped it would,” you replied, hanging it next to the doorway as you slipped off your shoes. “I just may or may not have accidentally torn it when I was out one night.” You knew she would be frustrated at the news, it was a brand new cloak after all, but figured it would be best to tell her when her relief for having you back home was at its highest. “I know, I know, but it’s not all that bad. Just a few cuts around the neck.” You attempted to defend yourself at the exasperated look she sent in your direction at the news, but quickly realized your mistake when her eyes suddenly narrowed.

“And why, pray tell, did it get torn there?”

“It got caught on some branches…?”

You attempted a shrug and a sheepish smile, but neither one seemed to convince her. Her eyes were sharp and clear as she assessed you standing at the doorway and it was impossible for you to match her gaze for more than a few seconds. Your only saving grace was the sound of the door opening back up behind you as your brother returned home.

“n/n, you’re home!” Hyunwoo’s eyes lit up when he saw your figure before him and he didn’t bother with removing his shoes before pulling you in a tight embrace.

“Hey, Woo,” you replied, burying yourself in the familiar touch of your twin.

You hadn’t been gone but a few weeks this time around, but you were more relieved than ever to be back home. The familiar presence of your family filling you with a warmth you hadn’t felt since that night. It didn’t quite fill the hole that had haunted you since then, but their presence did help alleviate it a bit. For the first time in nearly a week, you found the fears and worries that had plagued you just a bit farther away.

“So, n/n, tell me. Were the rumors true?” Hyunwoo asked once Soomin had finished dinner and the three of you settled down at the table to eat. “Was there really a Black General leading the charge at Binna?”

You couldn’t keep your face from blanching at the question, nearly spitting out the bite you had just taken. For just a brief moment you had been able to forget what had happened that night, wrapped up in the familiar jests and groove of being back home. For just a moment you had forgotten the golden mark still gleaming against your chest. But one mention of the man who had turned your world upside down and it all came tumbling back in full force.

“God, really?” Able to read you like a book, Hyunwoo was easily able to take your reaction as confirmation to his question. “I guess that means the other sightings they’ve been talking about are just as true.” His face fell as the realization of what her confirmation actually meant hit. “I would like to say that means they’re starting to get desperate, but I’d say it’s most likely the opposite. The war has dragged on for so long, they’re probably just eager for it to be over now that Yuchae’s all that’s left between us and them.”

“They’ve already started evacuating the city,” you replied, having only taken a few bites before losing your appetite to the direction the conversation had taken. “We made a short detour there on the way back. Most of the soldiers left from Binna were stationed there in preparation for an attack.”

“Do you think it will hold?”

“Perhaps for a few weeks, but…” you sighed, dropping the chopsticks you had been fiddling with in the meantime. Yuchae was a bit larger and more fortified than Binna had been, but you had seen the destruction of Binna with your own eyes. And they had accomplished that much damage in just a few days with only one of the Seven. “No one will outright say it, but it’s a mess out there. You should have seen Binna. Barely a shadow remains of it now, and that was only in a few days. This new king, he’s… different from his father. We could keep the daemons at bay before, but I fear his death was a blow to us rather than the victory we always thought it to be. In just a few years, he’s managed to obtain twice the land his father ever had. And with the rumors of the Seven becoming more frequent, I’m afraid this war will be ending sooner rather than later. And not in the way we would wish it to.”

“Shit,” Hyunwoo cursed, dropping his own chopsticks as the mood came to sour his own appetite.

Ever since the war had started to swing in the direction of the daemons, the council was strangely quiet when it came to the status of the war, not wanting to admit to their people how badly they had begun to lose. They still clung to the victory they had achieved nearly three years ago, when the former king was killed. If it wasn’t for the fact you often traveled outside Maehwa’s walls, you would have been oblivious to what was actually happening. But you had seen first hand the destruction this new king had obtained, and knew the council could only keep up the facade of a victory for so long. Yuchae was all that was left between you, and those walls would only hold for so long. Sooner or later, they would have to accept the truth.

“What do you think will happen?”

Our deaths.

“I don’t know,” you replied, unable to say the words that had immediately popped into your head at his question, but despite the pessimism the situation brought, your mind still went reeling back to the conversation you had had with the Black General.

He had claimed he wanted to know your identity in order to keep you safe from what was to come, but what exactly had he meant by that? While you had long come to doubt the promises from that night, perhaps their intentions had held some truth to them. Maybe he truly had wanted to return the favor and save your own life in return for saving his and the mark had been put in place to keep them from killing you when the inevitable came and Maehwa was attacked. But even if that was true, which you doubted, he was playing a dangerous game. If any of the humans found out about it or just what you had done before the war was over, well, you would be dead before they could think to return the favor. They weren’t the only ones they had to protect you from. The humans could be just as deadly when it came to your life.

“Well, there’s no use in worrying about something that isn’t set in stone. They haven’t won the war yet,” Soomin spoke up in an attempt to alleviate the dark mood that had overtaken their joyful reunion, but you could see your words had affected her just as much as Hyunwoo. “What concerns me the most at the moment is how y/n knew one of the Seven was in Binna.”

“Soldiers talk, Minnie.” You attempted to dodge the question, hating the way her eyes bore into you once more, especially with the way you struggled to hide the way your body betrayed you each time he was mentioned. And this time, there was no Hyunwoo to come in and distract her, who seemed just as keen to hear your explanation as she did. “Rumors were flying around the infirmary and it was just too many coincidences for me to not think they might be true.”

“And yet, despite this knowledge, you still decided to go out and wander the streets at night?”

“I had to! They were going to just leave them there! I couldn’t just let them abandon their own men, not after they risked their lives trying to take back a city the council was well aware was already lost.” You attempted to defend your actions, but even you knew she was right. You had known how risky it was going out at night, and yet, you had still gone. And if you had known what was going to happen to you, you would have never left your bed, dying soldiers or not. “And does it really matter, anyways? I made it back in one piece, didn’t I?”

“What happened out there?”

“What makes you think something happened, Min?” But it was obvious she had long since seen past the charade you had attempted to keep up, her pushiness to get you to talk was starting to choke you up.

“Out of all the nights you’ve gone out, I’ve never seen you like this upon your return. Not even after that first night, n/n. That means something happened out there, something that has you scared.” Soomin’s eyes lightened as she spoke, reaching across the table to take hold of your hands that had unknowingly started to shake.

“I ran into the Black General.” The words were out of your mouth before you could stop them, the want to bear the truth and release the weight it held on you overcoming you in that moment. You couldn’t keep it bottled up anymore. You needed to get it out. “Or rather, his men took me to him.”

“Holy shit, y/n.” Hyunwoo was the first to respond, eyes wide at the sudden revelation you had just dropped on them. Whatever they had been expecting, it hadn’t been this. “How the hell did you get away?”

“Well, I wasn’t exactly dragged there against my wishes. I may or may not have gone willingly, but I would have never agreed to go with them if I had known the one they wanted me to save was one of the Seven.”

“He was injured?”

“You might be happy to learn your newest creation was indeed a success, Woo. A weapon powerful enough to take down a Black General, himself.” You sighed, now realizing how stupid you had been that night now that you were forced to relive it. Even without knowing it was one of the Seven you had been sought out to heal, you should have never gone with them to their hideout. That was just asking for trouble and you knew it. “Or at least, it would have been if I hadn’t stepped in and saved him from it before it was too late.”

“You healed a Black General?” Soomin’s eyes had also grown large, the shock of the situation and fear for your own wellbeing overtaking any need she might have felt to chastise you for your actions. “My god, y/n, what the hell were you thinking? Or were you even thinking at all?”

“I know, I know, but what was I supposed to do, Min? Just let him die?” At the resounding yes that followed your question, you couldn’t help but cringe. “Perhaps you’re right. Maybe I should have just let him die, but I just couldn’t do it. I’m not a killer, and I would have had to live with his blood on my hands for the rest of my life if I had just turned my back and left him there. And even if it wasn’t for the guilt I would have felt, who’s to say they would have even let me go if I had refused? They might have just held me prisoner or threatened my own life if I had.”

“She’s got a point, Min. As stupid as it may have been, she probably made the right choice. Who knows what they would have done to her if she had refused to help them.” Hyunwoo replied, sinking back in his chair. “But none of this explains how you got away. There’s no way they would just let you go after that, especially if they knew about your ability. If they were smart, they would have kept you and used you for themselves.”

“I don’t know,” you shrugged, Hyunwoo’s question one of the same ones you had been asking yourself for days now. “I’m not quite sure how I got away. I think they may have just let me go, but everything’s become sort of hazy now.” Your fingers rubbed at your temples, another headache beginning to bloom as you forced yourself to try and remember what had happened that night. “The last thing I remember is his fangs on my neck. I thought for sure he was going to kill me, but then I was back at the infirmary the following morning as though nothing had even happened. If it wasn’t for the mark on my chest, I would almost believe it had been nothing more than a bad-”

“Wait,” Soomin interrupted. “Mark? What mark?”

“I don’t know how or why, but somehow I’ve been marked with the daemon king’s sigil and nothing I’ve tried has gotten rid of it.” Your fingers fiddled with the belt around your waist before flipping up the bottom of your shirt and exposing the portion of the mark that resided beneath your breasts.

Hyunwoo cursed once more, brown eyes wandering across the gold shining in the lamp light.

“God, if anyone finds out about this, n/n.”

“You don’t think I know that, Min?” You let go of your shirt, burying your head in your hands as the situation you had landed yourself in hit you full force once again. You had thought telling them would help alleviate some of the weight, but now you realized all you had succeeded in doing was pulling them in it with you. “If anyone finds out about it or what happened that night, I’m dead. They’ll hang me at the gallows with the other prisoners of war.”

Your hands unconsciously went to your neck, wondering what it would feel like. Would your death be merciful and end with a quick snap of your neck or would you be forced to hang there for minutes until you finally choked to death.

“And you don’t know why they did this or what it might mean?”

“I’ve been asking myself those same questions for days now, but I still can’t explain any of it.” You shook your head, forcing your hands back at your side. “The general said they had heard about what I had been doing these past few years and that my kindness towards them would not be forgotten. He mentioned something about wanting to save me from what’s to come, but if that was true, why did he attack me in the end? Why did he brand me with a mark that would only kill me if anyone were to see it.”

You paused, trying your hardest to fight the emotions swirling inside you. You had done your best to push them aside the past week, burying yourself in your work instead, but you had known that would only work for so long. Sooner of later you would have to come to terms with the mess you had gotten yourself into. Sooner or later you had to come to terms with the fact you may or may not have signed your own death sentence that night. For it the humans didn’t hang you as a traitor, the daemons might very well simply kill you for your mere existence when the war was eventually lost.

The reality of your death was beginning to close down around you, nearly as suffocating as the noose they would wrap around your neck.

Was this what the soldiers felt like before you found them? But unlike them, no one would be coming to your rescue.

Don’t worry, angel. We won’t let anything happen to you. Anyone who so much as touches you will face the full wrath of the daemon king.

“Did you hear that?”

You jumped at the voice that rang inside your head, unsure if you had just imagined it or not. It hadn’t been either of your siblings, having sounded like it had originated inside your mind instead. Which was absolutely insane and you knew it, but even if it hadn’t been, the voice was foreign and unfamiliar. It hadn’t been either of your siblings.

“Hear what?” Hyunwoo asked, eyeing you closely.

“I… I thought.”

Your words trailed off, waiting to see if you would hear it again, but everything was silent. Had you just imagined it? You must have, but you couldn’t shake the feeling that you hadn’t. The words rang through your head, repeating themselves. They hadn’t been your own. You hadn’t said them, let alone have thought them, and yet they had run through your head as clearly as though someone had spoken them out loud.

But if it wasn’t you, then who?

And though you knew the answer to your question long before you even asked yourself it, you couldn’t stop the new wave of terror that flew through you. It didn’t matter that the words had seemed to come through with the intention of comforting you, the thought of them doing something else to you once again hitting you full force.

“y/n, are you okay?” Soomin spoke once more, reaching for your hands.

No, you weren’t okay. You were the farthest from okay that you could possibly be. But you couldn’t tell them that. They were worried enough as it was, you couldn’t stand to worry them anymore.

“I- I’m fine. I think it’s just my exhaustion catching up on me. Between the daemons and work, I haven’t really slept much this past week.”

Sure, you were exhausted, but this wasn’t your exhaustion coming through. The voice had been real, and nothing about it had been comforting. Were they spying on you? Was this what the mark had been for? As a way to use you as a vessel for them to spy on the human forces?

The thought left you shivering, more afraid by the thought of them reading your mind or using you as an unwilling spy than the words that had been spoken or the threat that had been placed against anyone who threatened your life.

“Why don’t you go get some rest, then?” Soomin’s eyes were soft when she squeezed your hands. “I know that’s easier said than done, but try not to worry about what happened too much, will you? We’ll figure this out together, okay? I’ll start experimenting in my free time and see if I can’t come up with a rune that’ll hide the mark for the time being. But for now, you are home and you are safe, and that’s what truly matters.”

You nodded, giving her hand a slight squeeze in return before following through with her suggestion and heading to their shared bedroom to sleep.

It took a while, the amount of thoughts going through your mind combined with the hushed whispers your siblings thought you couldn’t hear making it difficult to actually fall asleep. Your ears caught on to each of their words, straining to hear what they were saying in your absence and how they truly felt about the situation you had landed yourself in.

They were scared for you. Not only were they scared for your well-being and safety, but for your mental state as well. Your current state could be brushed aside for exhaustion now, but they knew you and they knew how much it was weighing on you and how badly you would tear yourself up because of it. It all made worse from the fact that there was very little they could do for you.

Their fears weighed on you, adding to your own, and you curled yourself up into a tight ball to try and alleviate some of the shame and disappointment you felt at dragging them into this mess with you. If your mistake ended up killing you, then so be it. You could live with that. But you couldn’t live with it if it hurt either of your siblings. You didn’t know what you would do if your mistakes got either of your siblings killed.

You laid awake for hours into the night, mind still reeling far past the time Soomin joined you in bed. But eventually, your exhaustion finally caught up with you fully, and no matter how much your mind reeled, you found yourself struggling to focus on the thoughts running through your head. And eventually, you found yourself slowly sinking into unconsciousness, the fears that had haunted you for weeks finally slipping away, if only for a brief moment.

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