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uncanny-tranny · 9 months

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Also, in response to the "testosterone making people angrier" myth, I've found that, personally, testosterone has given me the self-respect to recognize and call out when my boundaries are being overstepped in ways that I wouldn't have had the courage (or, frankly even liking of myself) to have done before. This is in addition to me working on my trauma responses, but testosterone was the spark that gave me the will to do this in the first place. When I see people sae that as anger and thus is a "bad thing," I wonder how much of that is just people being uncomfortable with us... having boundaries or enforcing them, and that the response to that overstepping is labeled as aggressive anger.

Frankly, I now actually respect myself enough to care when I am being mistreated. It seems that people sometimes take that as a personal failure on my end because I don't think I deserve mistreatment.

Caveat: Anger is a fine emotion, and it is a worthy thing to recognize and honour. I find that the accusation of trans men* and trans masc* people "being angry" on testosterone is a moot point simply because it is often a false accusation which uses anger as a punishment. My issue isn't that we're "angry," but that our perceived anger is used, often, as a transphobic bludgeon to punish those who either want to transition with testosterone or who currently are, and everything in-between.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #transphobia #transphobia tw #unpopular opinion i guess but: trans man* and transmasc* anger is a fine thing and more people ought to express it without fear #basically i want to start a punk band with some other trans guys/trans guys+ who are Angry and Will Express It #like not going to lie but i had no boundaries before because i HATED myself...#...so it's pretty weird when people almost... miss that they could have taken advantage of me had i not realized my worth #like why does my Testosterone Anger say something bad about me when you MISS that you could have taken advantage of my self-hatred. like. hm #anyway. i let myself be angry now because i have realized that i deserve to express my full range of emotions #i notice that many trans people start asserting themselves way more when they transition gow they want/need to...#...and i think part of it is that many of us start to get out of the rut of feeling Horrible 24/7/365...#...so when people express they 'miss the old [you]' to me that's a red flag...#...because... do you miss that person pre-transition or do you miss their abject misery and passivity?#this might be a generalization because of tumblr's tag character limit #but i have noticed this with a few trans people when they are openly/currently transitioning #this isn't me saying that this is universal but just... something i have Taken Notice Of #and it seems weird to me that this hasn't only just happened to me because. it just feels...... gross

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indigopoptart · 5 days

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Stop.

Stop it.

(CW for partial nudity(?), depictions of depression, a gun, and just general mental distress down below vv))

Plus another one!

ugh i still love these two So much but man😭 theyre So old i shoulda posted em when my girlfriend said to fr

Ricky (oc by @/akemima) is here! the lore for these two is Insane

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rainee-chu · 3 months

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Scorp and bunbee my favs…

#ypc5 #artists on tumblr #yes precure 5 #scorp #bunbee #yes pretty cure 5 gogo #yes pretty cure 5 #yes precure 5 gogo #old man yaoi #pls.. someone tell me they care about these two I’ve been going insane thinking about them #I miss scorp so bad

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sillysarahsthings · 1 month

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Younger me wrote weird things. (Nothing gross ofc)

I realize how much I improved and on the last fanfic I'll illustrate, I'm getting rid of the spelling mistakes the ridiculous amount of the use "and" and just get rid of the cringy parts (imo)

#artists on tumblr #it was so cringe to a Wattpad level #back when Miss Black was a Mary sue oc #i honestly feel like I'm overreacting #since it ain't that bad but eugh I don't like old stuff of mine from a few years ago #and am i talking about buds in toyland? yup the lore back then was butchered by me

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ashorterurl · 3 months

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Kai and Aoi's tweets 11-14 June

#the gazette #I CANT BELIEVE AOI USED THE _(:3 ｣ ∠)_ KAOMOJI I LITERALLY SCREAMED??#I've been having a Moment going through super old tweets and remembered that he loved tweeting this stupid thing so much. and i love it #its funny and also bad. its so aoi #maybe he's been feeling nostalgic as well #btw when he tweeted that its hot? sis it was like 38 degrees here when you tweeted that :3 #anyway also hi kai.#i cant believe aoi tweets literally every day i love him.#unironically worried about ruki tho #man i hope he's okay #ALSO I FUCKING HATE THAT I MISS OUT ON AOI'S TWEETS BECAUSE I HATE TWITTER? I WAS JUST PROCRASTINATING SLEEP #AND THOUGHT HUH MAYBE AOI TWEETED SOMETHING. AND HE JUST NEVER STOPPED TWEETING?? hate it here why does no one post their tweets on tumblr.#guess I'll fucking do that then. gotta do everything myself in this house #gazette tw #the gazette twitter #aoi twitter #kai twitter

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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#social interactions w irl ppl makes me so anxious #bc like some ppl u talk to on tumblr and twitter have a bigger understanding of like beinf different and stuff #but irl ppl are different and i have to mask sm #my old friend replied.. and then i replied and now i have new messages from him T-T #and the thing is that bc of our past #i have sm anxiety abt not replying fast enough or being too depressing or saying no bc he always #got bad abt it and even ghosted me 🤙#so now i feel sm anxiety bc im like omg i gotta reply fast but idk what to say and i secondguess and overthink every single word #:'))) dont get me wrong i am suprised he replied and also said he had missed me and wanted to write me a letter and thanked me for hanging #out w him during highschool bc he didnt know how he wouldve survived without that #and im like woah???? i actually exist to ppl? ppl actually think of me :o #it's smth i struggle with a lot bc of avpd and smth that i sabotage connection with :(((#but yeah i was like ok damn?? cool!!!!#(then tbh i feel so depressed and numb so i honestly dont *feel* that much like i feel emotionally shut off)#but i still think it's prettyyy neat :3 idk emotionally im a wreck #i dont wanna sound like an asshole when i say 'i dont feel anything' but i just... dont #anyway i still did miss him so i would never lie or be dishonest or disgenuine #but it is anxious that i need to mask a bit bc im scared of him not wanting to talk to me if im too honest or too weird or whatever #still i will keep trying to reply even if i dont know what to say until he might stop replying lol who knows T-T #sry im negative but im rlly trying but i dont want to do anything and i dont.. feel anything

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front-facing-pokemon · 1 year

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#RIP to the legacy post editor. you will be missed. while queueing this post and the last one it's removed the option for me to switch to the #old one and is making me use the new one. which is like not bad. it's not a bad editor. i just don't like change as most tumblr users don't #it also just appends the post you make directly to the top of the currently-displayed posts behind it even if it's not meant to go there #which is a little bit scary when i'm on the queue page and i click “add to queue” for a post that's supposed to go up on august 18th #to see it immediately appear above mega metagross. the legacy post editor didn't do that. it made you refresh the page if you wanted to see #your own new post on the dashboard. which i think was better!! honestly!! i've never Made a post using the new editor to see how it behaves #only ever queued up FFP using this thang. but that's also bc i feel like i don't post very much. i need smth Interesting to say when i post #on my main blog i mean. i don't make extraneous posts on here (usually) unless i'm answering an ask or something. which. still have yet to #miss one to this day. going strong #bibarel #can you tell idk what to say about this guy. what are they‚ water-type? big chance i'm fucking wrong and they're just pure normal #OKAY i was right. normal/water. semi-interesting typing and i get why they're a water-type. but. i never use. bibarel. even as a kid who #didn't understand or care about competitive. i knew bibarel was not very strong. it's a route 1 normal-type fucker. and maybe it's like #better than i think or something but tbqh it's a sinnoh 'mon and i already have another sinnoh water-type that has my heart. buizel #so bibarel was not so much in the cards for me. bro i should do like. a mono-type run of a pokémon game one day. that would be fu #do folks do that? is that a challenge run that actually exists? nuzlockes exist so i don't see why not. okay i'm doing it. my next replay o #any pokémon game is hereby decreed to be a water-type mono-type run. i may or may not liveblog it on my main blog #and it may or may not be nuzlocke. we shall see #hell maybe i'll stream it. maybe that could be fun. i don't know of *anyone* who would be interested in that but it tends to help me #actually go about completing games when i have someone there like. waiting for me to do so

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httpiastri · 11 months

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Jackieeee 🥺🥺🥺 IM ON DISCORD FINALLLYYYY 🥹🥹 was a very sudden decision to download and renewing my account but I DID IT 🥰

Since you crested a server for Oscar fans/F1 fans to join, I’d like to be part of too 🤭🤭🤭

ALSO, it’s been a while I’ve heard anything about you! I hope you’re doing AMAZING 🥰🥰🥰 ily

love!!!! awe i’m happy, you’re very welcome to join the server 🥹🥹 it lowkey sometimes turns into a max chat but- putting the link here for anyone who wants to join !!

i’ve had a horrible last couple of days, my mood really crashed out of nowhere…. but i woke up today feeling so much better 🥰 thank you tho! hope you’re doing amazing too!!! and let’s get some good rest this weekend <3333

#missed talking to youuuu but i really haven’t had the energy to go onto tumblr #mood swings are so crazy because #yesterday i broke down on the subway when i found out that my practice was cancelled #like i didn’t even wanna go to practice and cancelled practice meant i could go home and rest instead but i still cried and felt so bad #because i was already on the way :(#and then in comparison: today i spilled a bunch of my caffeine drink on my laptop…. like straight down on the keyboard #and i didn’t even care hah i was still in a good mood #and then as i was leaving the gym i spilled my water bottle down into my bag and onto all of my stuff but it didn’t matter #but osc content today made up for my last days being horrible 🫶🫶🫶🫶#really in the mood to rewatch some old races this weekend #just for some quick happiness #qatar?? 🤭🤭🤭#love u lola!! hope u have a good weekend <3<3 #lola lola lola! 💘#asks!

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arvoze · 11 months

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the power i will receive in a matter of days will be astounding. watch out

#i am making this post to ramble. idk if it will actually change anything but i am trying 2 be hopeful .#ive been very. Rough all month thus far both physically and mentally and occasionally both at the same time #i am just hoping tht wat i am getting soon will help me do things bc ive rly had no energy to do anything at alllllll #and i rly dont want to like. Explode i would like to get things done #i have things i owe to people!!! i just dont have the spoons to do it Ever and it piles iup and up in my head #it fucking blows dude i have been stuck in a horrendous loop for like almost 6 months #i just want 2 be normal u know . i am hoping something will change soon #if it does not change in the nesxt few days when my shit arrives i think im like. Done For in general #like if im unable to get anything done in the next few days then i am going to very seriously have to reconsider #literally everything i do online i think. its a bit fucked up #ik it sounds like an exaggeration bu there is noooo way in hell i am Surviving like tihs !!!!!!! slash srs #i wish twitter circles did not die so i cold blow up in there bu back to ye olde norm of tumblr tags will have to do #also it feels less invasive so like. win for me ig. i do miss rambling nonstop in tags #i miss tumblr!! i miss a lot of old stuff. reminiscing for reasons both good and bad. the tumblr stuff is the good side tho #anyways i have been slowly chipping away at writing thigns this month and ik its like. not a lot at all.#but its a lot to *me* and when youre someone whos only capable of doing so mch its like. a big deal #(im writing pmdnd stuff finally getting back into gear nd stuff i have been trying to slowly draw the npcs #that ive made whilst trying to recover in other areas bu rghghrghgrgr i dont ewant to draw #i havent wanted to draw in a long long time blows up)#i shuld. stop typing actually i am rambling too much i jsujt have nowhere to mindlessly ramble anymore technicaly #i dont want to bug my friends w me being unwell all the time DFJKGHDFKGFG #mayne i will try to ccontinue with the npcs. we will see based on if i post again in the next 30 minutes

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userkuromi · 4 months

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so what are y'all's fav image hosting sites for gif packs? 🤔

#rph #textpost #currently ditching imgbb b/c it gives me too many issues/lags so bad for me #and am mid switching to tumblr but if there are alternatives.......#that don't cut me off at fucking 250 gifs per day.......#the future is bleak i miss old tumblr

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im2tired4usernames · 4 months

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Ugh I was excited for today until I found out I'd have to spend it with people that actively make me hate being alive hate the future and drain me off all energy physically mentally spiritually like a vampire I can't stand to be around her she is the definition of stupidity and even then that's generous as fuck this bitch has filled her brain with so much garbage I watch her brain cells die at alarming rates every single time she uses her vocal cords her giggles make me want to jam a sewing needle into my ear repeatedly so I can never have to hear it again its a friendly reminder that my parents decisions this time my dad's constantly makes me want to die

#i cant even shes just so dangerously stupid #she thinks energy drinks with natural caffeine are safe to give people who have been told by doctor doing take caffeine with thia meds #ahe thinks of a child is CHOCKING to lie them face down n rub their back #she has the evangelical woman voice worse then women I've met n that cult ahe giggles constantly and behaves like the stereotype lil german #boy just got a lollipop over.... everyone and everything whe acts likw an 11 year old I just got the first boyfriend and all they could talk #is how perfect their boyfriend is and they're so pretty good for that I pulled a boyfriend is and it's like a God thing that they met how #SOOOOOOOOOO in love while constantly nonstop touching ahe has to be touching him her hand on his thigh her atm linked with his her heaf on #his chest she has to be in her lap they make out all over the place IT'S DISGUSTING AND EMBARRASSING STOP SWAPPING SPIT #she started a i. hwr words 'love diary of their love journey' they hadn't been dateing 2 months her kids are spoiled fake Instagram bitches #with such shitty views on politics SHE'S A TRUMP FAN GIRL SHENLOVES TRUMP MY DAD BROUGHT IN A TRUMPIE #there's so much i cant even say because even admitting it on tumblr is too embarrassing i wanted.to.likw her i liked her the first day but #THE MORE I GET TO KNOW GET THE MORE N MORE N MISS RED FKAGS #she threw away all my siblings clothes school books toys uniforms for sports their in toys i bought them that week make up jewelry #in the disguise of helping clean house #while i was at the hospital the kids call me in tears i call her beg her to wait and nope.ahe didn't i found the bags by the curb i brought #my dad sided with hwr because 'she didn't mean any harm she didn't know sje was throwing them away'#my mom hasn't bsen dead a year he started dating right after ahe died #hes talking about marrying this woman this woman who has never had an honest educated thought once in her life #WHO ASLO SPEMDA MONEY LIKE A DRUNKEN SAILOR AHE CAME FROM A WITCH FAMILY HER LAST TWO HUSBANDA WERE TOUCH SHE HAS NO KNOWLEDGE OF THE COMMON #SHE SPENDS LIKE SHE STILL HAS MONEY WHEN SHE DOSE NOT AND IT'S LIKE YOU DID NOT JUST SPEND OVER 180 DOLLARS N PASTRIES GOD #SHES SO FUCKIN STUPID AND EVERY HOLIDAY SINCE MY MOM DIED WVERY FAMILY GWT TOGETHER BECAUSE WE DON'T TALK OR.DO ANYTHING WITH MOM'S SIDE #OF THE FAMILY ANYMORE SHE'S THERE EVERY WINGLE MOTHER FUCKIN WEEKEND SHES HERE I'M EXHAUSTED SHES PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY DRAINING TO BE ARO #OUND SHES LIKE IF SOMEONE TOOK A GOLDEN RETRIEVER ON A DIET OF JUST FUCKIN COCAINE LITTLE GERMAN BOY WITH LOLLY AND CRUELLA DEVILLE AND FUSE #THEN TOOK A STRAW AND DRANK ALL THE SMARTS OUT OF THAT BEING #UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGH MY DADS GOIN TO NARRY RHIA BITCH SHES GOIN TO TRY TO BE A MOTHER TO ME AND MY SIBLINGS AND THEY'RE GOIN TO #be so fucked up because her kids are not ok SHE FUCKED THEM OVER BAD SHE HAS FOUR KIDS ALL ADULTS THEY'RE JUST WOW #I HATE MY LIFE I HATE WHAY FUTURE MY FAMILY IS GOIN TO BE THE GOOD THINGS IS I WON'T HAVE TO STAY I CAN GO N MAKE A NEW ONE WITH MY WIFE #FOR ME BUT MY SIBLINGS ARE FUCKED AND ANYTIME I WANT TO VISIT MY FAMILY YANDERE GOLDEN RETRIEVER BITCH WILL BE THERE WORMING HWR WAY IN #SHES CONSTANTLY CALLING N TEXTING MY DAD NONSTOP OF SHE'S NOT NEXT TO HIM AND IF HE CAN'T RESPOND INSTANT SHE FREAKS OUT N BUGS ME

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sunnibits · 5 months

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#just realized it’s been almost an entire year since one of my most beloved tumblr moots just disappeared :((((#I miss them so bad :( come back :(((#I was just scrolling through old convo screenshots and FUCK it’s been a while since I’ve had a really good moot convo #no offense to any of my current moots obviously I’ve had great convos with y’all!!!#I just remember like. literally staying up until 1am on my phone texting them about izzy kicking my feet and giggling #like we were kids at a sleepover. just screaming over that old man for hours #fuck those were good fucking times #internet friends disappearing sucks ass so bad :(#I’m emo now

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b-e-e-h-o-p · 2 years

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Found another character that I think has the potential to be a Tumblr Sexyman and I’m thankful is not.

The villain from Robots. I forget his name but I’m surprised I haven’t seen anyone foam at the mouth for him.

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ryuunosenshi · 7 months

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so tempted to break my hiatus just to reblog everything halsin I come across

#i don't love what tumblr has become.. i miss the good old days #but also just miss coming on here and vomiting my newest hyperfixation all over my blog without warning - confusing my followers #then immediately feel bad cause I'm not a tokusatsu blog anymore and letting down people who to this day still like and reblog my old gifs #guess this in itself counts as breaking hiatus so maybe expect an influx of halsin/bg3 and other stuff soon idk

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disdaidal · 2 years

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Sorry for coming to you for this. A mutual I've been following for years posted "If you still like harry potter in 2023 you deserve the electric chair" and tbh it's...scary. Tumblr is more hostile everyday. First the withhaunt for Billy fans now even HP. Can't one enjoy anything anymore in this world???? I don't follow JKR. I Don't support JKR. Demonizing a whole fandom and franchise though wishing death upon fans is going too far imho. Everyday I'm thinking on leaving tumblr for good.

As a long-time (unapologetic) Harry Potter fan and a fan of Billy, I feel ya there. I've had to unfollow and block people for posts like that because guess what: I don't come here to be judged over a fictional thing that I happen to like. 😒 Nor do I actually care about JK Rowling, so my bad I guess.

Wanting to leave Tumblr (or Twitter etc. etc.) under these circumstances is understandable. Fandoms and being a fan should be fun. Not an excuse to bully other people online or tell them to kill themselves because they disagree with you. 🤷‍♀️ Your own comfort and well-being should always come first.

#replies #anon #discourse #thanks for sending me this. please don't apologize #because truthfully i've been having similar thoughts lately #i don't think i'll ever quit my tumblr because i've been here forever #but i've definitely spent less time here since october #hardly participating in any of my fandoms (besides letting my queue run daily)#and not even feeling that guilty about it #i guess it was my path to finally understanding that I need to look better after myself and doing stuff that actually matters irl #and right now it feels good #i miss interacting with certain tumblr ppl ofc #but at the same time what i really don't miss is coming here every day just to see the same old billy discourse repeat every few days #or reading these posts on my dash saying that liking hp makes me a degenerate or a supporter of the Current Bad Thing™#i just don't have the energy or even interest in these complex pretentious woke mental gymnastics. because it's fucking pointless #so i've tried to focus on my real life instead and i've managed to get stuff done and it actually feels good for a change

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pepprs · 2 years

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idk how to reconcile my new self with my old self. also i fucking hate waiting. GRAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#delete later #im getting a taste of my own medicine bc when im overwhelmed depressed etc i don’t even open emails or dms or whatever and then ifeel guilty #and let them build up and run away from them and literally do not reply for years. but ive been waiting for like 5 different but related #replies for 3ish days at this point and im soooooo impatient omg i want to bash my head into the wall.. and afaik no one i messaged has #opened the message despite being active online elsewhere which is EXACTLY what i do so i have no right to complain at all. but still. omggg #i just have a simple question (me and the ps5 voice) reply to my message boy #purrs #also.. ok yeah im gonna be honest about it even if there are consequences lol. idk why im on such a mission to get back all my old #characters but if i don’t i can and will go crazy. i don’t even do that kind of thing anymore and d*viantart is an irreversibly warped #landscape due in part to capitalism and in part to own mistakes and selfish actions. and i truly feel like my tumblr mutuals are the only #ones who understand me and feel safe and cozy on here. but i miss my old internet home. and i really miss my old internet friends and seeing #all the jokes we had and how we were all like interconnected w the same adopt groups and stuff and now we don’t even talk… it makes me so #sad and i feel weird messaging them just for the purpose of asking if they can give me back characters i gave them 4 years ago like a) you j #just don’t do that kind of thing i don’t think but b) it feels so transactional and would make the part of saying hey our friendship was #important to me when i was a teenager and even though we don’t talk anymore i think of you fondly and wish you well. like lollllll. and i #feel cringe even tracking them down / messaging them bc we are all jn our 20s now… embarrassing. but i am so mad at myself for letting those #friendships wither (not that i have the spoons to sustain them these days anyway but still) and for not keeping bettr track of my characters #when i sold them and for giving them up in the first place and for letting my old internet life just fall apart due to neglect bc it puts me #in a bind to try to piece it together again no matter how i try it and i shouldn’t try anyway. but i am so tempted to rn. lol #* itd make saying stuff abt appreciating friendship weird bc there’s a transaction tied in (source: i did this and feel weird and bad)#like the way i want to SCREAM seeing that dA ate all of the journals i made when i was a 14 year old and turned them into glitched polls. th #the way the wayback machine has terrible unreliable records of everything and i can never get some stuff back / track some stuff down. pain #anyways it’s stupid bc i feel cozy and listened to and as connected as i have the energy to be to all of u guys so why am i doing this. but #i miss the dA stuff too and i wish it wasn’t cringe and i wish i could have everything that’s ever been part of me all in one place. lol #also this doesn’t even take into account my poetry community on dA on my other account who i also felt so safe and cozy with and i abandoned #that too and lost touch with basically everyone even though we all knew each others deepest secrets for years.. the heartsickness of it all #anyways mutuals who knew me on deviantart i am clutching both your hands with impassioned urgency and kissing u on the cheeks. that’s all

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