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#i must confess though i would wear 100% of these outfits. especially the first two he is making it work so much
sneez · 2 years
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fairfax in 70s clothes because i think seventeenth-century men would love flares and incredibly loud shirts and questionable woollen tank tops. i don't have a better explanation than that i am afraid
#artwork#fairfax#puritan swag. the parliamentarian drip#i'm still mid-exams (which is why i havent answered my asks yet i am so sorry dear friends) so this has been my stress relief activity#it has been very effective! would highly recommend drawing historical figures in flares :-D#and belted jumpers for some ungodly reason. i looked at many 'top ten worst 70s outfits' articles in the process of drawing these#i must confess though i would wear 100% of these outfits. especially the first two he is making it work so much#to be honest i dont know if fairfax would actually wear any of these in reality but the whole cavalier/roundhead fashion divide is mostly#fake anyway (they pretty much wore the same clothes for the most part) so i like to think he would. he was a swanky guy#ALSO theres that one extant buff coat he owned which i have posted many times before which had pink silk sleeves so i am choosing to#believe that he would wear all of these. thats my opinion as a historian#anyway! i hope you are all doing well my dear friends :-D i miss you all very much#i am so close to being Fwee now..........i only have two more exams and my final one is on the last day of term so i am Almost There#i am absolutely exhausted though. i have five five-hour exams writing three essays for each and they are about as agonising as they sound#but this time next week i will be done!!! and then i will have time to draw more 70s fairfaxes (my purpose in life)#until then though i will continue crawling across the ground making horrible moaning noises until my final two exams are out of the way#eeueuuu. eueuuuuuuhh. eeeeuuuu. like that
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sepublic · 3 years
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           There’s so much to unpack here!
           Willow has little miniature Christmas ornaments in her hair… And she’s wearing stockings! The kind you hang over a fireplace and put stuff inside! I love it because it’s something that would seem very intuitive to someone unfamiliar with Christmas- They’re giant socks, why would you not wear them??? Luz would be 100% supportive because they look GREAT on Willow, and honestly I wouldn’t be surprised if she totally agrees- That she’s always wondered why people don’t wear the actual stockings, I can imagine a young Luz wearing them as a kid and Camila having to explain that’s not how it works, and Luz is frustrated because she wants some highly-decorative, poofy stockings to wear; So she’s got that vindication to wear them with Eda, and see Willow validate these ideas by intuitively reaching them on her own! Also… PONYTAIL WILLOW, with golden ring earrings!!! Winter Hexside outfits with winter trimmings!
           Speaking of which- We have Gus wearing an ornament as some sort of earring, which to be fair… That ornament looks like a really big version of Eda’s earrings, and she also did the same with those wire hangers back in Adventures in the Elements, which in itself was pretty winter-themed, so! He’s a bit concerned about Mattholomule’s fascination with that coal… Does he know or suspect the connotations behind them? Or does he just have reservations with Mattholomule being there in general? I love the idea of Luz specifically designating the coal as a gift for Mattholomule, knowing nobody will know about the implications- Except MAYBE Gus, who has it dawning on him the little trick that Luz has done! Oh Luz, you’re so mischievous…
           (Also, Mattholomule’s increasing cameos in both the show and Dana’s own art, in addition to her self-professed enjoyment of him, makes me think he’ll have a bigger role later down the line.)
           You have Emira and Edric all the way in the back… Which, the LAST time we saw them, chronologically speaking and in terms of any content whatsoever, it was the two being dejected over getting stood up at Grom, and for a while I languished over this… So it is VINDICATION, relief to see this most recent sighting replaced by something so wholesome! Emira and Edric, happy, cheered up by their favorite human Luz… Either splitting the hat and sweater, or else wearing it as assigned by Luz, because she knows they’re matching! Let me overanalyze the pairings by saying something about the hat going to Emira because it goes on the head and she’s the ‘brains’ while Edric wears the sweater over his chest because he’s the ‘heart’ of the duo… Not to mention, we have Ed wearing the wreath around his neck like a super-gaudy necklace/scarf, but I think he makes it work! He’s so “Oh!” and surprised but in a pleasant way and Emira’s just enjoying covering up her eyes because the hat is too big or she’s literally just feeling it out for fun.
           Love the idea of Luz initiating the introduction of human culture to the Boiling Isles… But with a distinctly Luz flavor to it, because of the way she chooses to interpret and explain it to others; Especially as she’s no doubt self-aware of the power she has and will TOTALLY abuse it to define some human things by what honestly makes way more sense to her, anyway! Not to mention Eda and Gus adding to the chaos with their own interpretations, which Luz either corrects, enables for fun, and/or replaces with her own even more ludicrous and weird explanations. Luz is a trend-setter and she’s going to revel in this power as much as she can, now all of the things everyone thought was weird about her are going to be mainstream in the Boiling Isles! Nobody can stop her!
           But, back to the art- We’ve got a Hooty Jack-in-the-Box sort of surprise… Amity must’ve had a heart attack, but the fact that it’s not demolished means she didn’t destroy it on first sight. In fact, she might keep it- Because it’s a gift from Luz… With a note saying it’s from Luz! And Amity must be so flattered and touched and flustered by these gifts, is this normal amongst friends? Probably, Luz sent the gifts to EVERONE, so… She’s wearing the snowman sweater and is utterly puzzled by the hat? She has no idea what to make of it, but she also clearly appreciates the gesture at the same time? Luz didn’t really bother putting in much of an explanation, if at all… Maybe she wanted her friends to form their own conclusions to see what chaos they came up with, before saying “You’re right all along!” Or something mischievous like that. The twins would approve.
           Also, if the hat was specifically designated for Amity, then… I’ve seen people point out that it has holly on it, but it can also be misinterpreted as mistletoe- Especially since I’ve heard about the two being confused a lot in media and by mainstream audiences, myself included! I’m just saying, it’s not out of the question for Dana to have intended for that to be mistletoe… And if so, then Luz is saying A LOT by adding it there- Though imagine if it was meant to be just holly, but Amity gets it mixed up with mistletoe… Or Luz realizes it could be misinterpreted as such and freaks out, before realizing her own feelings because she has to actually ask herself- DO I have a crush on Amity or not? But even if I did, it’s not like I’m ready to tell her about it…! If Luz is basically telling Mattholomule that he’s a jerk through the coal and hiding behind the cultural barrier, then… What if she was confessing her crush to Amity in that same sort of way? You never know… Well, I imagine Dana herself does, but you get the idea.
           This was a wonderful Christmas gift by the creator herself to the fandom, and it helps to fill the void of no content for this show these past few months, especially with more of the hiatus coming up- We don’t really know how much longer we have left to wait, especially with covid being a thing! I’ve heard some people suggest that we might get a second piece involving Luz, Eda, King, and hopefully Lilith and Hooty and Owlbert… If so, crossing my fingers!
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Just a lil much-needed queer youth joy - we need to talk about these students and allies in Hawai'i!
Students from Campbell- Kapolei Complex Schools used funding from one of our 50 States 50 Grants to give SO much support to their queer communities.
They bolstered their GSA clubs, held community based education events like a Halloween party and craft day, and even got to attend Honolulu Pride - where Hawai'i-raised Bretman Rock showed up for a surprise visit and marched alongside the students to honor them and their work, having attended the same schools themself growing up!
So proud of these students for recognizing what they need in their own communities.
And lucky for y'all...apps are open for the 3rd season of 50 States, 50 Grants right now through April 1, 2024 - if you're a high schooler or middle schooler in the US/DC/territories and have an idea for how you'd use the funds at your own school, don't miss out on applying: 50states50grants.org
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unmanageable-day · 5 years
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The nickname 'stone face' wasn't earned by Hwang Minhyun for nothing. Yet with such a handsome face, the cold image was still lingering all over him because he was well-known to be very quiet. This didn't stop Jung Yesoo from confessing to him 2 years ago. Standing before Yesoo, who was anxious waiting for his answer, Minhyun still maintained the facial expression that makes everyone reluctant to approach him. But slowly he showed his little smile. Great amount of shyness was unexpectedly oozed from that little smile that slowly got wider. Yes, he accepted her.
Both Minhyun and Yesoo were a shy couple in the first 100 days. It felt like riding a roller coaster for children. No big, scary, nerve racking ups and downs, but the excited feeling was there. Aside from that, Yesoo's friends could tell that she was genuinely happy. A fresh smile was always attached on her face. She barely had a bad day. Because seeing Minhyun itself had become her main source of happiness, although Minhyun didn't talk much or do sweet things to her.
And so the days went on. The ride had changed to merry go round. The happiness was still there, but it just went round and round with constant speed although the view was beautiful. Minhyun still had his usual smile. Yesoo still smiled, yet she felt different. The fond feeling of Minhyun didn't change. Yet she couldn't help thinking that something was a bit off.
Yesoo was too afraid to spill it on Minhyun.
"Chuseok holiday is coming. Do you want to go somewhere?" Yesoo asked. They were enjoying a lunch date in Hongdae. Lunch date is a must on the weekend since that's the only time they have to see each other.
Minhyun nodded. But Yesoo couldn't tell if he was excited, if he was anticipating about it, or maybe if he was at least interested. They were going to one year and 9 months together, and Yesoo couldn't believe herself that she didn't know much about Minhyun. She can't even read his mind or his expression. She wouldn't know if Minhyun probably was the opposite who knows everything about her since he never really talked about it. "Where do you want to go?" he asked back.
"I was thinking about Deukryang Island. But that would be too far, I guess."
"Well, we can make option list."
Yesoo nodded.
After paying the bills, they were ready to go outside when Yesoo almost reached out her arm to hold Minhyun's hand. Suddenly her mind was full of thoughts of her relationship. She just remembered, after all this time, she was the one who did the moves first. Confession, first date, second date, third date, and even holding hands.
"Yesoo?" he called, already several steps ahead.
"Yeah, coming up." She finally grabbed her beloved boyfriend's hand.
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Yesoo stomped her steps as she finished her work early. Her colleagues already bid her good bye. The time showed that it was only 2 PM. Suddenly it crossed her mind that Minhyun's office was nearby. A visit once in a while would be harmless, right?
She tried to call him but no answer. Her lips pouted as she redialled her phone. This time he picked up, which enlightened her expression.
"Hey, I'm near your office. You know, that cafe across your office building."
"Oh, yeah."
Yesoo's smile slowly faded. She could imagine how Minhyun was on the phone, with his plain, expressionless face, and his attention all over to his computer screen, working on anything he was working on. She continued speaking, "I was thinking if we could meet for a minute, or two. I'm buying you coffee and some snack."
"Sorry, it's not that I don't want to meet you, but work is piling up right now."
The smile was completely gone on her face. She just faked one when talking. "Oh, okay. It's alright. Let's meet once you're not busy."
"Mm-hmm. I'll text you later."
"Sure."
"I'm hanging up."
"Okay." She glanced at the coffee and bread she had bought. Fortunately, she only bought what she liked, so she could have them later.
 Meanwhile at the same time, Minhyun who was concentrating on his new project got startled by Jisoo who suddenly popped up out of nowhere. "Was it your girlfriend?" he asked with excitement oozing out of his eyes.
The word 'girlfriend' successfully attracted everyone's attention and they started to cheer. Because who would have a thought that this stone-face actually has a girlfriend?
"What? Hwang Minhyun? Girlfriend?"
"Really? Heol, daebak."
Thanks to Jisoo, now Minhyun couldn't focus on his work.
The chattering went on until his supervisor showed up and joined the crowd. "Your girlfriend is here? Then you should come down and meet her. I suppose you haven't had your lunch break."
"No, Raina noona, it's fine. I'm almost finished."
"Hwang Minhyun, do you want me to turn off your computer this very moment?" Raina bend her body and put her thumb on Minhyun's computer's power button. She didn't seem to play around, especially recalling how eccentric she was. "Then go down this instant. Your work can wait for a while."
"Yes, Ma'am." He quickly stood up before Raina started rambling again, or worse.
Minhyun stopped by in rest room to wash his face. His face and body muscles got stiff from not moving from his workspace. He massaged his wet face before he got tissues to dry it.
His eyes landed at the mirror before him, gazing at his own reflection for a moment. Fair skin, not so thick eyebrows, squinted monolid eyes, fine nose, and thin lips. Not to mention a sharp jaw. Stone face, huh? Well, he always put a serious expression that he never realized. His sense of fashion also matched the 'stone face' concept, as his closet was full of plain black, grey, white or brown colored outfit. Whenever he went out with Yesoo, whose clothes were mostly colorful or have patterns, the contrast of their outfit was very clear.
Before leaving the rest room, he once again took a look at himself who was wearing black shirt and grey trousers. He gave himself some pats on his shoulder and chest, probably to brush off some dust sticking on his clothes.
He dialed Yesoo's number as he speeded up his steps to go after her girlfriend, who he assumed was still in the restaurant she mentioned. Or at least if she had left, she wouldn't be very far. Yesoo not picking up his call finally made him run through emergency stairs from the 5th floor instead of using elevator. He headed to the restaurant across the street right away.
At least Minhyun was right about his girlfriend not leaving the restaurant yet. But who she was with there apparently poked his curiosity.
"Yesoo!" he called her. Yet she didn't even flinch. Minhyun could tell that Yesoo finally recognized him after given signs from her 'friend'.
At last, Yesoo turned her head to where Hui's eyes stopped. An instant smile grew on her face and she immediately got up approaching the tall guy. She reached her arm to link to him. "Did you have lunch? Do you want me to order something for you? Coffee?"
Minhyun, smiling and looking at his girl in the eyes, shook his head. "I'm good. But coffee would be great."
Yesoo smiled back. She escorted him to her seat, where Hui awkwardly waited for his friend to come back. "I'll be right back," she said as she patted Minhyun's back when he sat across Hui. "By the way, this is my friend, Hwitaek, or Hui for short. Hui, this is boyfriend, Minhyun."
Both guys bowed their heads and said hi. Once Yesoo left to the cashier, only awkward silence lingered around them. Thank goodness she didn't go away for long.
"Here's your coffee." She handed the tall cup to Minhyun and took a seat between the guys.
"So, I assume we work in the same building." Hui started conversation when he noticed the same access card hanging on Minhyun's neck.
"Yeah, I'm on the fifth floor."
"Oh, cool. Seonho and Guanlin are there too, right? Anyway, I'm on the second floor."
"Yeah." Minhyun calmly sipped his coffee. Then he didn't say any single word.
Having finished all the food, Hui finally excused himself leaving the couple. Just because. "Anyway.. It's nice to meet you guys, but I have to go back." He continued, "Yesoo, it's great to see you again. I'll talk to you later, okay?"
Yesoo nodded, waving her friend a good bye, alongside Minhyun who was bowing to him.
"Yesoo, I think I should go back too."
She pouted. "Already?" She was not usually clingy. But there were times when she wanted to be that clingy girlfriend. She never tried it though. It would be weird if she was being clingy out of the blue, especially to the stone-face guy like Minhyun, who was her own boyfriend, who didn't seem to be able to spoil his own girlfriend. "But I want to stay longer," she mumbled.
"Sorry," he replied. His expression didn't change a bit. "I'll call you later." With that, he got up after patting her head twice. He threw a little smile at her before leaving.
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 Fall season was approaching very soon. Yesoo couldn't wait for the falling leaves all over the street. Autumn was Yesoo's favorite season, and Minhyun's too. This year was going to be their second time enjoying autumn together. Last autumn they went to Han river almost every weekend, having a picnic. Sometimes they went for a hike too in nearby mountains.
Yesoo had finished putting her summer clothes in a box after taking out all her autumn clothes. She had spared a few pieces for the last days of summer. Just in time when she had to find her cocktail midi dress and her only one high heels. She was getting ready for accompanying Minhyun to his company dinner, which allowed the workers to bring their plus one. As for Minhyun's case, his colleagues were the one who encouraged him to bring Yesoo. They seemed to be very enthusiastic to meet Hwang Minhyun's girlfriend.
It was rare for Yesoo to attend those fancy events. Her outfits were mostly smart casual. Or just casual. She didn't have much make up kit and tools too. She only had basic skin care, some BB cream or CC cream, foundation, and mascara. And, of course, some lipstick or lip tints. That day was going to be her very first time dolling herself up for Minhyun. By dolling up, it meant that after doing her base, she was just going to add blush and eye shadows using lipstick she had. That should be enough to give some colors.
She decided to leave her hair untied after she tried curling it a little. She brushed her hair with her fingers for the finishing touch. Just in time when Minhyun called, saying he was already in the apartment lobby. She quickly put on her heels and grabbed a coat lying on the couch.
Minhyun greeted with a warm smile. Without words they just set off and headed to the dinner venue. As usual, there were not much conversation on the road. Yesoo used to like every moment with Minhyun, including that long silence moment between them. But now, this silence had a different feel. Yesoo couldn't even look at him the way she used to when they were drowned in their own moment of silence. One-hour trip from her apartment to the restaurant felt like one year and somehow it was killing her inside.
Finally they arrived and dropped off Minhyun's car. That Minhyun didn't take Yesoo's hands hadn't changed. Yesoo had to reach his. So she could walk by his side, not behind his back. Wearing their best smiles, they headed straight to the venue and were jolly welcomed by Minhyun's coworkers. They were so delighted to see Minhyun's girlfriend, who they found her a bit odd for having Hwang Minhyun the stone face as boyfriend.
"Yesoo, thank you for today," said Minhyun when they were on their way home.
"It's okay. I had fun. You have nice friends. I'm sure the office environment is good."
"Yeah." Minhyun paused for a quite long time. He pretended to search for songs on the radio. "Actually, there is something I've wanted to say."
As much as Yesoo got flustered, she wouldn't show it. She knew sooner or later this time was going to come. She had no idea what it is he was going to say. But she had feelings. "What is it?" she asked, smiling.
"What do you think about us?"
Still maintaining her smile, she asked back. "What do you mean?" She tried hard to combine words that scattered in her head. "I like us. I like that you are with me the past 2 years." Her voice was getting softer and a little bit shakier, as she continued, "And I wish we can stay together for... more years to come?"
"I see." He looked at Yesoo, who just turned her head and kept her eyes to the front.
"What about you?"
"I..." Minhyun forced a smile. "I like it too."
This time Yesoo forced a smile as well. She knew Minhyun buried his honest feelings deep inside. Although he had his infamous stone-face, she could easily tell that the smile wasn't genuine. Why he wouldn't say it out loud was still a question to Yesoo. Frankly, it bothered her. But she didn't want to push him to tell the truth.
As the time passed, Yesoo's behavior towards Minhyun started to change. She no longer reached her hand to hold his. She no longer asked where they were going to go on weekends. She no longer gave suggestions on where they should go on weekends. She also no longer had that genuine happy smile when with him. The smile she wore mostly was forced. And no one really knew if Minhyun was aware of this. If this continued, fall probably would just pass without any good memories between them.
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deactivated337 · 7 years
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What’s bothering you right now?
Feeling of boredom. I need a lot to remain mentally stimulated so I feel kind of turned *off* right now.
What would you call your aesthetic?
Hmm…Whether it’s light or darkeness, it better be chic.
Is there a part of yourself that you’re especially insecure about?
Hmm…probably my need to connect with people sometimes. There are wonderful people that I find out there, and with ease, but a lot of times when I’m trying to find them, I get mixed up with negative people and it makes me feel very reclusive until I can get over the weird turbulence.
When was your first kiss?
I was 11, It was 2004, the golden year. Felt pretty good J
Honestly, do you give a shit?
Yes. If I have something to lose, which is a lot, I care. I don’t care about being odd, strange, or unusual though. I’m definitely a cautious, self-protective individual though.
What type of guys do you like?
I don’t exactly have a type, but I’m very attracted to a guy that has a certain sliver of darkness, aggression and masculinity about him.. Spunky, the ability to be mean to people who need a lesson, must be some type of funny, must love and respect females, I really enjoy a guy that makes me feel feminine and womanly. Must be compassionate for people in unfortunate situations, like sweet little homeless women. I like a guy who loves animals, a guy who isn’t afraid to cry with me, I like a guy that will tell me a very personal confession or a secret that that he feels uncomfortable about, totally must bond over secrets and pain. I love a guy that understands an interest in true crime, or what is taboo or unaccepted, I like when he has an eye for life’s mysteries. I like people who give off an aura of power.
Do you have a deep, dark secret?
There are some things that I will take to the grave.
. How would you like to be remembered? Someone who embraced every feeling, heart wrenching or loving, and found a way to grow through it, or love more through it.
Are you afraid of dying? Tbh, yes. It haunts me a lot. No one has come back yet letting us know what really happens, or how our consequences affect us. It’s such a mystery, and I want very much to please my creator. I sometimes worry that I’m not behaving the way they want me to.
 Are you happy with who you are? Yes. I’m not perfect, but I’m extremely comfortable with myself, I believe in myself, my mind power, my abilities. I feel pretty grateful for this living experience.
Have you changed at all in the last year?
Yeah. 23 is a year that no one is going to warn you about, but it’s a year where you’ll shed many skins and will feel like a stranger from who you once were. I’ve learned a lot about myself, I’m a little more serious, but I also feel younger in some ways… I appreciate what money can’t buy, true compassion, and other human beings..especially in their most fragile state. I really appreciate honest dispositions..Someone who can share something with me that may typically be seen as embarrassing or shameful.
Is there someone you can tell everything to without fear of judgment? Unless it was @dandecat or one of my beloved hand chosen friends, no. I’ve never really felt understood or accepted, and I don’t really know what I would do if I was.
What makes you uncomfortable? Bigotry, labels, stereotypes, pessimism, people who feel the need to undermine, or one-up someone else, negativity, impoliteness, callousness, unfriendly people, people who are holier-than-thou, judgement, it all makes me recoil and draw away.
Do you like girls or boys? i.e. what is your sexuality? I like guys. I like dominant people in general.  Physically girls are the crème de la crème but I don’t really romantically connect with them. This town ain’t big enough for the two of us. I’d probably become extremely jealous over another girl ha.
What are your worst traits, and features?
Let’s see…I worry too much. I can become insanely disconnected, cold, and detached from groups, people, activities while they are going on. I sometimes allow people to rub me the wrong way until I become very aggravated, and then overreact. I’m drawn to crazy people. From reading details of so many tragic events, I legit can become too paranoid or suspicious of strangers in public places. I’m hypersensitive to people’s thoughts and their motives so I always feel a little at war with what they want me to know, and what I do know about how they really feel about me deep down. It’s like one crazy mindgame/ mindfuck.  Sometimes I’ll be in a large group of people who are socially interacting, but I have nothing to say, so I’ll just remain quiet…It casts a weird light on me and can sometimes come off as cold, rude, & unfriendly, when in reality I wish that I had the ability to small talk and fit in without everyone else. Tbh I’ve never been able to fit in. I tend to self-isolate.
.What does your outfit consist of today?
A black sweater, pink panties, and kitty socks
What body attracts you the most, men or women? Men, I like sinewy bodies with definition and interesting, arms, wrists, hands
4) Ever kissed a girl? Ha yeah
What do you think you look the sexiest in?
Hmm..Anything femme like skirts, tights, a bikini, beachy wear, sporty wear, I like a tomboy look if it’s complimented with some femininity..boy short panties, high socks, school girl chic, librarian chic, I like to wear anything that gives me a rush.
What’s your most favorite part of your personality? Spontaneity/Innocence
What are some of your favorite physical characteristics for your crush to have?
Nice hands, strong body, piercing eyes. I really don’t discriminate though. I’m very attracted to the mind, so pretty much anyone can look very sexy to me depending on their brains. I really like interesting arms, maybe a little bit of chest hair lol, veins in the arms. Just…masculine?
Do you think that you’re a good kisser? Yes!
What’s something that always turns you on? People who like what is not socially acceptable
Have you ever been someone’s secret admirer? The secret admirer is typically always me
If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? I’d find a way to let everyone know that we are all not so different from one another…Most of our insecurities, someone else can relate to..deeply. There is no reason to feel unworthy, nobody really knows exactly what they’re doing. We’re all strangers to this world. Don’t feel incompetent.
39. What is your purpose in life? To spread empathy
3. What are 3 traits that you like about yourself and what are three that you dislike about yourself? Personality wise.
I like my ability to be open, ability to be friendly, ability to comfort other people
Dislike: I’m so restless. I wish I could be just..100% confident, no fucks given, I also wish that I had the ability to be more tough on rude people who like to test my trigger finger. I’m working on that one.
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maggiehanhamgrad701 · 3 years
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All About Annie
MY LOVES
Its about time we become straight up and just say what we are all thinking right (lol)? So here I go, here at the most annoying, frustrating and honest things that float to my brain when I think of Endometriosis.
HERE ARE THE CONFESSIONS OF AN ENDOMETRIOSIS SUFFERER\
Yeah, sorry to get straight into it with the gorey details. However the amount of underwear ive had to handwash in the shower, or are to far gone and had to be thrown in the bin is so high I have lost count. Might I add it really sucks when I treat myself to a beautful sexy matching bra and undies set and after the first wear I have to bin them.
2. Constant STI/STD Checks
OK this one for me is a serious annoyance. The fact that I have probably had more check-ups than a sex worker (no hate) is absolutley ridiculous. Its even more frustrating when I explain that ‘I was literally tested a month or 2 ago and havnt had sex since then’ and still get poked and proded amazes me. Even more crazy is the fact me and my boyfriend were given pills to take for an STD even though we both tested negative more than ten times, but just in case we had to take them. I have endo, not a STD mate.
3. “OMG I get really bad period pains toooooo”
Look, I know you trying to be supportive or whatever by saying this however this one one of the most offensive things you can say to an endo sufferer. You may get severe period pains and that sucks, but the fact that you think endo is just period pains is frustraing. When you can hardly get out of bed for weeks on end, talk to me.
4. Greasy Hair and Hairy Legs
You know you are having a bad episode when even the thought of showering is draining let alone actually completing this task. So to say I literally get in and out would be quite a good description. My poor boyfriend putting up with my hairy body and my poor, poor cute outfits being let down by a greasy bun. Oh the joys of fatigue.
5. Paying for Pads and Tampons
This stuff is expensive, espically when you bleed for 6 weeks straight. Goverment listen up, fund ’em!
6. When everyone you meet suddenly has the ‘answer to my prayers’
Im just not even gonna…….
7. “My Aunty had a baby and thats how she cured her Endometriosis”…..
First of all, CURE – LOL, second of all, whatever rock you live under, please remove yourself from it and educate yourself, Pregnancy doesn’t help everyone people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8. When the Staff in the Emergency Department think your a Drug addict
We all must have been here right? The funny looks, the whispers and stares, the “are you sure your really in pain hunny” chats. A common complaint from a lot of woman who deal with Endometriosis is they are made to feel like drug seekers. Seriously? Do you think I want to be lying in a cold, loud hospital wing on a Tuesday night at 1:13am instead of my warm cosy bed fast asleep? Do you really think if I had a choice I would like to be hooked up to a morphine drip filling myself with pharmaceutical crap?? NO I AM NOT SEEKING DRUGS! But I would really like them to help get rid of this pain so please come to your senses and realise I am in desperate need of your help and assist me in getting sane and comfortable enough to head home, thanks 🙂
9. The wheat bag is just never hot enough
Ok, how many of us have literally nearly burnt ourselves from frying our skin with an extra hot wheaty? (I imagine you are all raising your hands at this point) When the pains are so bad it is literally impossible to get your heat device hot enough to even slightly make the cramps bearable, there is so no saving you lol.
10. “Does like, that mean you can’t ever have babies?”
Firstly, sit down you insensitive human. Secondly, my chances do become slimmer then normal, thanks for reminding me 🙂 isn’t it actually the worst when people don’t even think about how this question is going to make you feel? So cut throat it hurts.
11. Painsomina
100% is a thing. 100%. You are so sore, that you can’t even sleep. But you are so tired and exhausted from being in pain all day and you just wanna sleep. But you can’t, cos your in pain still and you cannot get comfortable no matter how hard you try or how many painkillers you take. You are just awake, dying a slow death whilst watching time slowllllllly tick by.
12. Explaining to your new partner what is wrong with you
Isn’t the “it sometimes hurts to have sex” convo literally the worst? Explaining to a male who has it drilled in his head that periods are even more taboo to talk about then the devil, that what Endometriosis is and how it effects you, ughhhhhh such a drag. I actually have now decided we should get like gold medals after having this conversation?
13. The initial convincing the doctors theres something wrong with you saga
Omg how did I nearly forget this one? THE ABSOLUTE WORST! Trying to convince a medical professional that your BODY HATESSSSSSS YOUUUUU and them not believing you for idk, like 8 years (using that number as its the average time a girl has to wait for a diagnosis) is so horrible. I remember the “take some pandadol, its just a bad period” chats like it was yesterday. You leave feeling so deflated and so mental
14. The after surgery gas
Haha k, I’m sorry, we have to discuss it. The first few days after surgery, and all that gas that they have pumped your tummy with is leaving your body, so embarrassing lol. You feel so un feminine and its so unacceptable. With no choice in the matter, “Pardon me” becomes your new favourite saying
15. When tired really, reallllly means TIRED
I literally hate it when I get to this point. When you actually have to put thought into picking up each leg when you walk. When simple tasks such as the dishes, folding the washing or brushing your goddam teeth feel like an olympic race. Once the fatigue takes over, the only thought I can concentrate on properly is getting myself to bed.
16. The bloating
You don’t know bloat until you have meet the Endo belly bloat right? Being that bloated sucks, especially when it means you can no longer eat your favourite chocolate unless you want to deal with the 4 month pregnant belly look. Even worse, looking pregnant when you run the possibility of never actually being able to be pregnant – can suck it.
17. Having your period, like all the time
SO many of us have been here – the never ending period. The waiting for it to finish and it never does. The loosing count of how long it has been since you didn’t have to change a tampon. The “OMG WHY WONT YOU GO AWAY” tears whilst sitting on the toilet unwrapping yet another night pad that will only last an hour because the flow is so heavy. Lets all have a moment of silence for all those who have been there, we deserve it.
18. You become your friends and families pharamcist
“So, can I take these two medications together?”
“You know that thing I got off you that time I felt nauseas, can I take some home with me?”
“I have a headache, do you have anything that will help?”
“Will I be fine if I take this without food?”
“How many of these can I take at once?”
19. Cramps
Its an obvious one, yet one that still needs to be addressed. How flipping sore are those cramps though? Cramps in your belly, cramps in your back, in your legs, in your actual vagina! Like enough is enough. However your body doesn’t understand that saying and just keeps throwing you cramps on cramps.
20. Calling in sick for work
Having to try and explain that periods are not an easy task for you and that you need to stay home in bed to your manager is not a fun or ideal task. Having them believe the severity of it can be so hard. Especially when you did this last week, and now you have the same problem and they can’t quite get their head around how you have your period again in such a small amount of time? Like when is ” I have my period and I have Endometriosis so leave me be” going to be an acceptable reason for a sick day? I vote it should be now.
Guys, honestly lol – I could sit up all night typing because the list seems to be never ending. Feel free to add “the confession you wanna make but never say” into the comments below – I can’t wait to see what you all have to add and what I’ve missed!
Hope you had a lil laugh relating to the above.
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wanderlust225 · 7 years
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More temples and noodles? You betcha!
If I could, I would have stayed in Kyoto for another day but it wasn't in the cards this time so I crammed a lot into the last 1.5 days I had in what I've decided is the heart of Japan. (I realize that is a bit unfair to say, as I've only been in a few different places so far!) I woke up early (for my current travel lifestyle, not my normal work lifestyle) and headed to Arashiyama which is what is more commonly referred to as the Bamboo forest. Though it was fairly modest in depth, it was really magical walking below the canopy of these mightly bamboo trees, with sunlight jetting through at even the smallest holes between leaves. Just next to the bamboo forest is the Tenryu-Ji temple, built in 1339 after the emporer had a dream that a dragon had risen from a nearby river, hence the name tenryu ("heavenly dragon"). Like most of the Kyoto temples I visited, the original grounds / buildings had been burned down a number of times in the past few hundred years - though it does seem like Kyoto was mostly spared during WWII. The coolest part of this temple was the garden which was remarkable, designed in a classic style of shakkei ("borrowed scenery"), set with the beautiful Arashiyama mountains in the background. I also booked at shigetsu to sample Buddhist vegetarian cuisine. To many, I'm sure this sounds terrible. To me, it was a welcome respite from constantly having to worry about what animal parts I might stumble upon in my food. Before I sat down I met a really cool couple from Santa Barbara, who had just spent a year in HK. The boyfriend was a chef, which I decided made my meal very legitimate. It was delicious; tofu and wasabi, pickled vegetables, squash soup (Ok, the only thing I did not love), vegetables in a sesame sauce -- and then they brought more; eggplant with a sesame-miso paste and delicious honeydew melon. So good. To make it even more legit it was served in a traditional dining hall and we removed our shoes and sat on a red mat on the floor. One thing I'm not down with in Japanese culture is so much sitting on the floor - it's so uncomforable and westerners bodies are just not accustomed to it - no matter how much yoga we do! Then I decided to test my navigational skills and took the train then a bus (!) to Kinkaku-ji Temple / Ryoan-ji Temple or, for the non-Japanese speakers, the Golden Pavilion, named for the gold leaf-coverd main hall. It was by far the most packed temple I went to the whole day - but since everyone basically snapped a few pics, it was a pretty quick blob of tourist pandamonium to move through. The pavilion was on a beautiful little pond, with mountains in the background and Japanese maples surrounding the water. The leaves of a few of the maples were just starting to turn a burnt red and amber themselves, which gave me a glimpse of what it might look like in the Fall. Just gorgeous. After the Golden Pavilion is had the choice to stop at my hotel first to freshen up (the weather report was still scattered clouds and feels like 100+ degrees) but with it getting later in the afternoon, and because many temples close between 4-5pm, I decided to trek on to Fushimi Inari Temple. This is one of the most famous temples in Kyoto, for the thousands of red shrines that envelope the walkways. I had no real comprehension of what that meant, until I spent almost 2 hours hiking through a never ending stream of red shrines. There was a map at the entrance of the temple which showed that you could walk up the mountain through the lined gates - there was no scale to the map and I thought, 'how hard can this be?' Now it wasn't anything close to Mt Batur in Bali, but I also wasn't prepared for a hike! The first few walkways were crawling with tourists. As the path continued on, and especially as it got steeper, the tourists started to thin out until when I got much closer to the top I spent quite a bit of time hiking to myself. In addition to the red shrines there were tons of little foxes everywhere - these are considered the messenger of Inari, the god of cereals or harvest. The Japanese also see the fox as a sacred figure capable of "possessing" humans - all of it reminded me of Jack. From signs on the path of how much each type of shrine costs, my best guess is that patrons of this temple can purchase them and (I think) put their family name on the legs of the shrine. For all the silent griping I did about this surprise hike, there were stunning views and it felt like a huge accomplishment getting to the top. On the way down there were 2 men installing a new shrine and I noticed as I went by that they were burning incense. I wondered, is it because this shrine installation is a semi-religious act - or is it because a few tourists I passed had absolutely terribly BO. Maybe both. Given the number of tourist attractions I visited I had a lot of time to think about the matchig outfits that were almost as prevalant as people wearing kimonos or outfits with cats on them. If anyone has any experience in this Japanese / Asian matching outfit phenomenon, I would love to know more, like: - Do you pack matching outfits for the whole trip or just one special day? - Is it typically one person's idea and they purchase the pair? - Are there stores that specialize in this - especially the cross gender outfit matching? - For couples, do Asian guys really get into this, or is it something to appease their girlfriends /wives? - For parents, do people judge you if your kids aren't coordinated? Better yet, if you're not coordinated with your friends? I can barely figure out someting I like enough to wear myself... After I freshened up a bit back at the hotel and had my last free evening drink, I headed to the bustling downtown Kyoto scene. Surprise surprise, it was really cool. I had dinner at Omen Shijo which is an udon noodle place off of the famed Panto Cho alley, supposedly where the modern day geishas roam. I wasn't quite sure how to order but wanted to try udon and tempura and fpund a set that included just that. They brought out the tempura first and a rice bowl topped with beef, all which looked fantastic. I dove in, wondering how I had missed ordering the udon, but it looked like plenty of food. As I dove into the tempura they brought 4 more plates - udon noodles, broth, sesame seeds and veggies and I almost regretted ordering my beer which I realized would take up precious stomach real estate. (Not quite though as it helped me cement the fact that I like Sapporo over Asai - very improtant to know.) The waitress taught me the udon procedure: add some sesame seeds, veggies and noodles to the broth and let them all soak for awhile. It was so delicious. (So good, I got almost the same meal the next day for lunch!) After dinner I wandered around Panto Cho "geisha hunting," as they say. I saw a number of women in kimonos, but they were all tourists. On a positive side I had a lovely stroll along a very lively riverway and then found a cool beer bar, where I chatted for a few hours with a nice Italian woman and two super fun gay guys from NYC. The guys told me about their one-day hike up Mt Fuji (which they said looked like another planet and I thought sounded horrifying). The Italian woman confessed that she has not really enjoyed traveling alone as there is no one to talk to -- which made me think to myself, 'huh, I guess that would be a normal reaction.' On the contrary though, I've enjoyed every second of solo travel - I guess there is more innovert in me than I thought! This morning I was a bit slow to get moving (which I will blame on all the beers last night!) but I packed up and headed out to the last temple on my list, Sanjusangen-do Temple. It was first built in 1164, but in the 13th century they added the defining charicteristic, 1,000 wooden and gold-plated, life-size kannons that flank one huge kannon in the middle. Each kannon had 42 arms and each looked a little different; the shape of the eyes, way the robes fell and the size of their mouths. It was an amazing sight, 10 rows with 100 kannons in each and all of this great hall protected by 28 statues of deities which had the creepiest marble eyes. After the temple I set off to buy some ceramics, which Kyoto is famous for. Lindsay bought me a set of two beautiful Japanese plates last time she was here so I bought vivid blue, smaller plates and bowls to match. Then I found anaother store that had super fancy matcha blending bowls, and I also bought two of those. WIth that, and after another quick udon lunch (pretty similar to the night before!) I had too much to carry to shop anymore, so I headed to the train station. Now I'm on the bullet train back to Tokyo for the night and I leave in the late afternoon tomorrow. Trying to decide what to eat tonight is going to be a BIG challenge and I realize that after 4 days in HK and even a week in healthy Bali, I couldn't wait to abandon their cuisines. In Japan though, I have had tons of different meals (all sans seafood) and I have enjoyed every different preparation procedure and every taste. ...though I must confess that when I get back to SF, I will be very happy on a diet of salads and pizza!
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