#i qas like wait no else im the one

[dare-g]

Went to a film tonight and I told the guy at the counter that I had bought my ticket online and he said "so you're the one ticket" and just told me to go in

[rottingcompost]

Okay so I only really jokingly call it tacogate with my friends, but its just such a surreal and kinda stupid experience.

Basically, I used to have a friend who was extremely christian, and he would try several times to get me to admit that god is real and that christianity is right and basically he wanted to try to convert me into being a oerfect little christian, and would often times tell me i was going to hell for not believing in god and all that stuff. Anyways.

He somehow managed to get me to agree to come to his church (I dont even know why I agreed to it but whatever), because they were having tacos and he basically said that we were just having tacos and then leaving. So I went there with him, because I was hungry and I hadnt eaten anything all day because school lunch was bad.

So we get there, and we have tacos. And I sit down at a table kinda close to the door, and he comes over, and two other people from the church sat down at our table as well. So my friend leaves the table to get some tacos, and one of the girls, who i think was one of the main leaders of the group, asks me how long i have been a christian and whatever.

I just casually said that I am an atheist, and just kinda left it at that, mentioned that I went there to support my friend (which also was true because I was doing it for him as well), and the girl just. Goes entirely silent. And stops entirely engaging with me at all. Basically like she was trying to pretend i wasnt there at all.

My friend comes back and starts talking with them, and I am basically not even participating in the comversation because I really had nothing to say, since it was religion related. And I finished my tacos and just wanted to leave then and there, since it was getting really awkward, and I felt like the two other people at the table were judging me a lot.

And then when my friend was done, he said that we could wait a little so he could talk to the other pwople at the church. And I just think whatever, it will be quick. And then they basically start having one of the leaders preach at the front of the room, and my friend just goes and sits down to listen to it, and im just tired at that point, and I want to get the hell out of there. It was just regular church stuff, not something that interests me in the slightest. But since my friend sat down, and everyone else also sat down, and nobody at all left, I just sat at the back because yeah whatever, dont want them to ask any more questions really.

The entire thing took like an hour. An hour more than I had even expected to be there. I qas honestly just regretting even agreeing to going, because I was getting tired of it and just wanted to go outside and like leave.

We eventually do leave, and I am honestly so fucking happy about it at that point. I was considering just going home instantly, but I had went out specifically to hang out with my friend so it just didnt feel right to just leave. I think I also had left my stuff at his place.

A few weeks later my friend mentions that his church is doing like some thing where the girls hang out and basically talk and stuff, and the guys hang out and talk and stuff. Im like: okay? And this guy says that he thinks I should go to the girl ones? Knowing fully well that I am not religious and im also not really too much for hanging out with people I dont know unless I have a friend with me, and since it was all divided based on gender (or sex really because I doubt these people would recougnize trans people) and I only really had guys as friends, except for one who was often times not even at school, so we didnt really hang out a lot either way. So im just kinda like: no? I dont know them?

And this guy basically tells me that I should go to the church more often. Knowing fully well that I am not religious, because he had told me i would go to hell several times before this, and I had even told him i really didnt want to go to the church anymore, since it wasnt something that interested me, and I just felt really misplaced at that moment.

Anyways, that is just a small sample of all the religion related shit he would try to get me to agree with, that me and my other friends now jokingly just call tacogate.

[bertyose]

i cant wait for the war 2.0

i think the great thing about the og l’manberg vs dream smp war was that it was a little more balanced, well kind of. it was like 5 vs 4 people, even though one side has more heavily armoured than the other, they still had close equal numbers of people and it qas just a great war.

for the new pogtopia vs manberg war i think/hope it may go like this:

- techno will probably be the traior, so its dream, techno and schlatt vs the world, but dream and techno could literally murder everyone, so even though its like a 10 vs 3 its still quite fair..?

- mr schlatt pulls out another uno reverse card, like he does e v e r y s i n g l e s t r e a m. so that for some part of the war odds seems to be heavily im his favour.

- wilbur tries to blow things up like always but things go wrong like always, maybe someone stops him? maybe he really does have a change of heart? maybe he’s so broken by betrayal he cant press the button? but someone else presses it. someone unexpected. someone else uses the opotunity of when wilbur cannot being himself to press it and does it themself. idk who would but i think that would be quite interesting.

- another imposter ;)) either someone else is the traitor apart from techno or they are with him, i feel like techno is the obvious choice of being a traitor and might seem too predictable, but hes kind of pogtopias “weapon” so without techno would be interesting to see how theh cope. i also hope there is a sort of 2nd traitor though who is much more shocking, like tubbo or niki or maybe tommy? fundy? quackity, although i doubt its him. i reallllly hope its niki because that would be such a fun story. or tubbo maybe.

- neither pogtopia/l’manberg or manberg will win i think, i hope a new country is built through the midst of war or its just all complete rubble. either way i pray for quackity president. quackity as president will be amazing, he would acc do a great job and he has proven how much he truly cares about the country. i just want quackity president ;(

all of these points probably are like “well dih, ofcs that will happen idiot” but its just fun to express and talk and make brain go brrrrrrrrrrrrreereerrrr

also before i leave, epic nether chase on the ice bridge to mr sams abode. ;););)

[shytiff]

Jan 2021 Wins

ive “journaled” for 6 months now. it started as small ___ wins because when you feel rly empty, even doing the bare minimum feels like a win. written down some of the wins. i think until now i’d like to keep the “win” part. a win against my shadow sometimes. a win in life. some things to be grateful for. a win for remembering it later in the future. i know some days im just basically doing nothing.  there are a lot of wars not won by me. but im still tryna ✨manifest✨

1 - woke up. watched bts’ 2021 seasons greetings. read trap city. afternoon nap. pupuy’s mbah passed away. i got DOMS in my body even though i did the barest of exercise yesterday (frail, i know). shower, matcha latte.

2 - the x banner atikah and i sent for racil post thesis defense has arrived lmaoo. mom made delicious (and sweet) fried banana. did some studying (more than usual, bcs the bar is on the floor)

3 - ate muesli, 3 risols. Kopsus coklat at flavola. Stayed there from 12-ish to 17:30 lmaooo. weekly bahas soal w/ fi. Rapat nemo

4 - first day of collab module. Barely cicil ukmppd. My mood is normal-ish but i hardly have the will to study. Dinner is fried fish with mentai sauce, potato wedges, and saladdd by mom

5 - collab module, qa presentation for rsui reps. finished reviewing tryout 2 solid. did padi pretest (got 66,5). ate chicken porridge, a bit of muesli and vsoy, tan ek tjoan bread, matcha latte, fish and chicken and potato wedges and salad, fried banana. i ate well today lol.

6 - slept during collab webinar, went to clara’s place to study osce and attended padi together. i ate well at clara’s placeee lol. ate nastar, kusuka, white kwetiaw with soup (?), and lele goreng. went back home @ 9 pm. i feel refreshed. even though we’ve half studied half mukbang all day. human interaction rly does heal me. i need human interaction more than i think. at night i dreamed about going to bali, to waterparks, seeing sea creatures, watching a movie displayed on a concert-like stage and screen at the front row. 

7 - woke up at 07:55, finished my part for collab group work. felt a bit tired today. the rest of fam went to DM, and when they were on the way back i HURRIED my way out, not even taking a shower lmaoo. got pistachio matcha latte at starbucks dm. now im more skilled in searching the best spot in a cafe to distance myself from people lmao. the matcha latte is served with some sort of pistachio cream and sprinkled with nuts on top. its like when sbux had taro matcha latte and it had purple cream on top. the pistachio taste is quite strong. reviewed TO 1 padi, sent proposals for nemo sponsorship.

8 - did syndrome try out and padi 2 web try out. studied for osce and padi @ clara’s place. wanted to order pizza since clara bought me food before, but she insisted in ordering lmaoo. so dinner is pizza hut

9 - woke up at 11.00 lmao. havent had breakfast. lunch is muesli with the brand new delishhh chocolate granola and cimory banana milk. did one shot try out, got 71. had a google meet with Prof Agus (that ethics book ghostwriting job from a year ago is not finished until now huaaa) that went from 20.00ish and finished at 22.30,,,,, reviewed syndrome try out along the way. havent made my collab self reflection hhhh. i also need to study for osce. also havent edited article for bukang solid. and there goes my saturday nooo

10 - i swear i keep waking up late lmao. Flavola w atikah, racheel later came with wawa. Kopsus coklat and ukmppd class w dr yudo. After class i just talked at flavola (and ended not studying osce at all for sunday). Went to racheel's to pray and talk some more. Hurriedly went back for booty call with fi, watched konser dies natalis first. Tryout and sum study with fi and clar that went from 20:30 to 00:10. Powered by left over kopsus and 2 snackit pia. Rip my sleeping schedule

11 - woke up at 10:30 ish, the lack of meal and horrible sleep pattern (for my standard) produced stuffy nose during the day and a bit of headache that went away for a bit after i ate. Late bfast is muesli, drank protein, ate tan ek tjoan, plus 2 brownies in the evening. Tht coaching w dr niken. Did self reflection for collab. Had dinner without rice, as usual. Ukmppd class w dr ayu. Finished reflection at 21:30 lmao (deadline is 23:55). Tryna sleep and my nose is still itchy and i sneeze a more often. i hope it goes away 2mrw

12 - DV coaching, scele tryout, took a nap before padi cause my head kind of hurts. Les padi while drinking matcha with vsoy less sugar and no added sugar. I can withstand the horrible sugarless cy matcha taste bcs theres a taste of soy. Didnt do anything else. Havent studied osce on my own until now. Astagfirullah

13 - my head still kind of aches. Its goes away when im eating. im eating so well during the weekdays that i gained 2kgs lmao. lazed around the first half of the day. padi. finally tried saint matcha and damnn its an amazing upgrade from Cy matcha. the green color is super different yall. Cy’s green looks sick and tired compared to saint matcha. the taste? immaculate (although coco deli is more fragrant). caffeine? hits. awake and feel normal? yes. messaged an ao3 author and got replied and turns out she’s making a sequel for my fav fic of hers. yay

14 - osce practice w ara ren ness. bedah and anak osce coaching. had 3 of mom’s cinnamon rolls and matcha latte for the afternoon. cicil osce DV. edited some pld articles. did nothing else basically

15 - wasted my day, didnt have the courage to study osce (i feel like i procrastinate on it bcs it feels overwhelming to me), TO FKUI 2, hurriedly reviewed to 1 before, les padi. i feel like this is the least focused im being in a les. maybe its the too few matcha powder.

16 - woke up at 9 am. breakfast is muesli. reviewed to 2 fkui w apa salahku (finished at 12 pm, there goes half of my saturday). tried fried chicken master. its good and tender but i still prefer moon chicken. 

17 - breakfast is muesli, banana and 2 martabak tahu. snack is keripik pisang aduuu wenak (and picking bits of meat cooked by mom). went to devi’s place w/ racheel silvi. brought RJ to be wrapped. we watched okay madam and its super fun, hilarious and full of twists anddd a bit of cutesy romance. just the right balance to enjoy and let the stress out. late lunch is moon chicken yay!! went home after maghrib, did to padi 6 w/ fi and matcha latte. talked about a senior’s wedding and eating healthier til 22:30

18 - To fkui 3, wasted my afternoon playing my phone, finally mustered some will to study after ashar. My progress is rly slow today. Watched hilarious jessi interview with eric, heechul. Im telling u, i thought tiktok is the funniest internet content but i was wronggg. Seeing heechul flustered is hilarious. Tried to study again at night but only learned 1 disease hiks

19 - had no idea what i did before dzuhur lmao. went to racheel’s to surprise atikah. actually napped at her place lmaoo why do i feel so sleepy. gifted rj to atikah. we ate fried chicken master and pempek on a small green table and talked. its like korean movie lmao. we talked while im simultaneously listening to padi lol.

20 - woke up at 8, chicken porridge + muesli and low sugar vsoy for breakfast. arrived at clara’s @10am. to fkui 4. reviewed it. reviewed general physical exam. finished up to padi 7. tried bombo donut. studied osce. i felt sooo dumb in osce (and clara is already super smart). superrr motivated to learn after going back home (arrived at 7) but i ended up opening youtube and drinking protein lmaooo and its suddenly 9 pm

21 - matcha latte at starbucks dm. Studied osce. Obgyn coaching w the super kind dr ilham. Les padi. Read angel buddy and played with my phone til 12 pm

22 - to fkui. padi as usual. had low motivation, so i did the tryout that day close to the actual course.

23 - left home at 06:30 to study together in capitol. had breakfast in mcd first. thank god i ate rice + chicken and breakfast wrap cuzzzz. studied osce together w ara, ical, kelvyn, dio and kak ilonka til about 2 pm. WALKED to bk bcs my parents are there. apparently simply driving to capitol is too much for them. immediately ate muesli at 4 pm cause i didnt eat anything in capitol. did nothing else after that. did not pray maghrib together lmao somehow mom had mercy on me and let me sleep som more. mom bought sate padang but i didnt eat it. i cried in bed because as yoongi said, “this is the real you and this is the real me”. did not shower/wash my face at night bcs i felt like shit lmao rip my face (its a week before bukang photoshoot)

24 - i feel tired, lazy, and just wanted some sleep. like all that’s in me is drained. ate muesli with strawberry milk. tried fitmee beef. its better than i thought. because the noodle is chewy you spend more time to chew. also ate fried chicken and daun singkong. usually i cant wait to go to flavola but even at 12 pm i just feel like laying down. finally mustered the will to shower and go out. its raining a bit on the way. colddd. 

25 - to fkui 6, osce briefing, covid lecture (that was actually for ppds), padi

26 - spaghetti for brekkie, coaching neuro and ophthalmology, cicil osce

27 - cicil osce, the second to the last padi omg. the fastest padi ever

28 - obgyn osce practice at kak ilonka’s place (that nice kosan at forkabi) with ara, ren ness, kelvyn, dio with mannequins from og dept, tried meokja salemba that serves bulgogi rice. quite good. after arriving at home, studied neuro together with menno til about 20:45 an and i just dont have the energy lmaooo so i gave up and slept

29 - today is bukang photoshoot at bintaro. put base make up on the way. even put glue on my eyebrow. got eyebrow, eyeshadow and blush done by renata. took lots of photos. nebeng om coro afterwards to bxc to meet mom. we ate at genki sushi (renata ara kris mendel oca regan geordie eka). i missss road trips hua. did tryout fkui on the way back home. after shower and prayer proceeded to review TO with apa salahku. Last padi (havent done the questions beforehand so i sprinted it out while on the actual course). Muhasabah osce with kak widia afterwards lmao. Studied osce with clara

30 - studied osce with ara ren ness @ merra. I ate eatlah, moms muffin, kemplang, tango. I ate so welll. Its a productive sesh, neuro and infectious disease. At home i studied osce w clara til abt 22:15 ish. I feel like i miss my me time lmao its been 3 days. I can still go on w clara but i dont wanna get myself sick

31 - simul osce in the morning. Osce study with clara almira. Cicil osce alone. Played my phone at 10 pm even though i still have mental clarity post matcha latte -___-

[gumdecay]

hPpy f*fhers d*y we RLLY put here locin out worst possoble life bc of those ficlers n they get a wjple DAY k. celebratipm of ruoning their kids lives. lol. wjeres my voctom of parentla abise day?? im waiting ,, i wld also like a meaningless card n esp.money 4 all the shit o gave up 2 b a kod of some asshole when. o dodnt even ASK 4 5his shit .. those "x of they were aborted" posts r all abt me my mom had like 4 abortions b4 the 1s she lept n OTHR than the 1 that got adopted ? we all wish we were dead lol; lol! mb. not my youngest brother bc he qas luckie enf 2 licherally black out EVRYTHIGN that jappened b4 my dad left n also Nvr lived w him bc our mom Actually Loves Him Lol but like.. me ny older brother? oth attempted suicide multiple yimes. both can't cope w life w/9 substance abuce. both have felusions abt being Umable 2 Die bc webe aytempted suicide AO.MNAY times n none have taken. like. lol. FUCL dad's even n esp the hood ones sinc i dodnt get 1. lol. FUCL ppl who whavr healthy relatipnships 2 their pRents. whT did they do that i dodnt?? y do they get in onditip nal love when. i don't?? y do I hrt some1 who Genuonrly wNts me dead n has troed 2 kill em 2x?? lol. lol. fuck fayhets day fuck fathers I hope they ALL rrop dead but zEsp mine lol. lol im logon off now but lile. WOW. wow. wow. truly hate thonkin abt nything that haape ded b4 o turned 2p lol :') lol :') if u rb thos i WOLLanifedt on it house n murder u n eru1 else there I swear 2 fucking good lol :')

[hopoo]

RoR2 Q&A 12/2/17

Since we got a million asks, I’ll collapse all the answers periodically into one giant QA so it doesn’t ruin your tumblr feed. I tried to answer every question - if yours isnt there, someone else might’ve asked the same question. Expand below to read!

Q: Are you thinking about putting out a beta version to test or are you just waiting for the game to be fully released A: Not sure exactly how we want to do it – we HAVE to have some way of getting the game out to testers, especially for networking/matchmaking testing. It will most likely be some form of closed/limited beta, but we really haven’t though too much about it.

Q: Any ideas on what the system requirements could be? Will they be high or playable on most machines? Also will it work with integrated graphics? A: Most likely the game will be pretty light for GPU with our graphical style, but CPU intensive. What that actually translates to won’t be until the game is closer to launch, where we start optimizing.

Q: ROR1 most loved thing me and my friends liked to do is ruining the framerate with all the items that we had. we had lots of fun crashing the game for whoever hosted the game. might this still be able to happen? I'm looking forward to the release anyway and so are my friends especialy with peer to peer now we can connect better. A: Uhh hopefuly you won’t be able to crash the game, but the game will still scale infinitely like it did previously

Q: Could you make it so that when you use Unstable Watch and timestop, all colors in the game become inverted for the duration? And if you want to go all the way with a certain reference, have only Chef's cleavers stop in midair at the edge of a radius from an enemy, and when the timestop ends the cleavers hit at the same time. A: No memes

Q: Super excites for risk of rain 2. Im real glad i found it in a steam summer sale, bought then and after that bought it for my ps4. Are we going to see any new characters? (Bandit will always be fav so as long as hes good im happy) A: Yes, definitely new characters!

Q: can you make one of the new death messages be "HOST WHEN?" A: No memes!!!!

Q: While Vita's out of the question, what about the Switch, which basically seems to have slotted itself in the 'more powerful handheld device' niche? A: We’d obviously love to be on the switch, but that ultimately depends on A. can we optimize the game to run on the Switch, and B. do we have the technical know-how to actually get it running? Porting to consoles tends to be a much more dramatic change than people expect, even if the engine natively exports to it.

Q: Hi. I’ve been a fan of risk of rain for the past few years. I just want to ask: in risk of rain, some mechanics like heaven cracker can pierce a line of enemies and the huntress’ ability to hit and run. With the change from 2D to 3D  environment, how will they work? There are many other abilities and mechanics that i also want to ask about, but these two were the first ones that i could remember immediately. A: We’re not going to bring back any mechanics that don’t fit just for the sake of continuity – however, the Heaven Cracker I can see being actually more fun in 3D since you have to actually align yourself with the enemies. Since everyone can shoot and run in the 3D version, Huntress’ niche is sorta gone, but we have some clever ideas to make that back

Q: In DevBlog #8 you explain some of the steam integration going into Risk of Rain 2 which will make a lot of people happy but will RoR2 also be available without steam for those who prefer? For example will I be able to buy it on GOG like I did RoR1, and play LAN games without steam? A: Right now we’re focusing on making it work via Steam P2P, but (I believe) that we haven’t done anything to explicity lock out connections via IP. You just won’t get the same Nat punchthrough benefits (I’ll have to ask Jeff, our network dude about it to make sure this is correct, but afaik I think that’s right)

Q: Would you guys happen to have an idea of when you think the game would be realeased? A: Nope! Hopefully not too long!

Q: Hello! I loved Risk of Rain 1 and it is great to play with friends. I have two questions (technically three, I'm cheating). 1. I am assuming you're going to release it on steam, so that said will there be steam multiplayer integration? Like... Invite via steam, games are created with the help of steam peer-to-peer. It was a pain to get 4 people playing on one server without port forwarding. 2. Will there be a better way to keep track of items? 3. Can you add a menu to see what items you have? A: Yes, steam invites and all that are the goal. I know we talked about holding TAB to expand the item menu so you could see more at once, but we haven’t actually done that yet. I know it was a bit silly for it to be uncropped and expanding off the screen.

Q: Is this still in development? A: No we’re just pretending

Q: Are you gonna have the same soundtrack from the first game? A different soundtrack? A mix of both? (Don't get rid of the Dried Lake or Sunken Tombs songs). A: That’ll ultimately be up to Chris, but I’m sure he’s in the same boat as us and doesn’t want to cover the same ground that we did previously.

Q: I was telling a friend how excited I was for this, and he expressed a concern I’d like to ask you guys about. He said that, being 3D, the game might end up either not as hectic as the first, or too hectic, what with the hoards coming from all around you. What’s your take on this? (I’m not actually too worried about it, but I still wanna hear your take on the matter.) A: Currently, we’re using SFX as a tool to present not only how close an enemy is, but what state they’re in and how many there are. Since I’ve also been playing the game for like a million hours I’ve also developed the ability to recognize which enemy by the frequency of their screenshake… but that won’t be relevant to most players. We’re really hoping to avoid radars or anything like that for awareness.

Q: Just wanted to say, RoR2 is looking to be coming along fantastically. I really love that you are constantly taking things in unexpected directions-- I never expected to see the game translated to 3D but you have done it and I can imagine many hundreds of hours spent playing. Will Chris Christodoulou be working on the music this game as well? A: Yes, he will be back!

Q: Have you considered calling the second Risk of Rain "Risk of Twain"? A: Not until now

Q: This is kind of a question and a half. How big will the RoR2 maps be and will all the RoR1 maps return in 3D with the additions of new maps or just overall new maps? A: Overall we’re not really looking at the previous maps for the inspiration for our new ones – we’re not making RoR 3D, but a sequel, so we don’t really want to recreate too much old stuff!

Q: Since RoR2 is moving to more dynamic network model, how will people with screwy NATs be affected? NAT Punchthrough is great and all, but if implemented incorrectly can lead to multiple users on the same NAT being unable to join servers outside of the NAT (See Rainbow Six Siege). Will users still be able to host dedicated servers like the old game? What does this mean for users buying the game through GOG/Humble Bundle? Really hope everything goes swimmingly because port forwarding sucks. A: This is the exact reason that we will have to have some form of limited beta, because this is something that we can’t recreate in office. I honestly don’t know enough to respond accurately on what would happen in that particular situation, but thanks for the heads up

Q: Relative to the first one, will Risk of Rain 2 be a sequel, prequel, completely unrelated, or even have story at all? A: Sequel!

Q: How were you going to implement artifacts this time around? Is it going to be based around areas that are randomly generated and you sometimes have access, or multiple spawn locations, etc. A:  Dunno, we haven’t implemented really any form of map permutations yet. The artifacts also ended up taking a much more important role in the game than we initially expected – not sure if the old way of unlocking is strange if it’s to be a core feature.

Q: (Big fan) I just had some curious questions; How many characters do you intend there to be in RoR2?, How differently do you plan on changing the previous characters?, Any hints on the final boss? pls, What is the estimated price of the game? and will their be any chance of PvP? Cannot wait, super hyped and keep up the great work :D A: We’re aiming for 10 characters on launch. No spoilers or hints! Definitely not PvP in any official capacity since the networking structure wasn’t designed for a good PvP experience.

Q: I've got three questions : 1) Will it be called RoR2 or will you find / have you found something else ? 2) Why the hell is there one more 'o' in the tumblr URL than in the actual 'Hopoo' name ? 3) What's the average of the team's favorite meals ? thx xoxo <3 A: I think it’ll just be RoR2. The hopoo tumblr was taken on creation of this tumblr, so we had to make it hopooo instead ☹

Q: Will RoR2 reveal why the Contact Light was carrying a teleporter linked to a planet crammed with hostile lifeforms? A: I’d like to explore what the heck is up with the humans in this game, but I sorta wish I had a better avenue that’s not just item logs and monster logs.

Q: I'm going to ask the real questions, is Sniper a man or woman? This is important because reasons. A:

Q: Theres something that confuses me alot about risk of rain 2. It's the lore. If the characters have left the planet, why would they come back? A: Canonically, the returning characters were never on the Contact Light to begin with (and presumably there could totally be like, a bunch of engineers and commando suits.)

[findingoblivion]

I got tagged by @slipknots 

what was your last…

1. drink; 7 up

2. phone call; i called my dad to pick me up

3. message sent; C which was for rogers data top up

4. song you listened to; i’m listening to shit right now but the last song was porter robinson - divinity

5. time you cried; 2 or 3 days ago i think

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice; no

7. kissed someone and regretted it; no

8. been cheated on; no

9. lost someone special; if you mean they died no, not really, if you mean they left then yes

10. been depressed; yes

11. gotten drunk and thrown up; yeah

— favourite colours…

12. Pink

13. Blue

14. Purple

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends; yeah

16. fallen out of love; mmmm not really

17. laughed until you cried; no

18. found out someone was talking about you; i dont think so but i dont remember

19. met someone who changed you; yeah sorta? i dunno if i would say that person has but their actions have

20. found out who your friends are; i’ve found out who my friends aren’t

21. kissed someone on your Facebook friends list; nope

— general

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know irl; like 99%

23. do you have any pets; my cat named rascal

24. do you want to change your name; yeah 

25. what did you do for your last birthday; nothing, played video games

26. what time did you wake up today; technically 9 am but i went back to sleep

27. what were you doing at midnight last night; pretty sure i was either in vc with friends or playing video games

28. what’s something you can’t wait for; moving to florida and seeing my gf

29. what’s your favourite animal; cats, sharks, dogs

30. what are you listening to rn; a playlist with a lot of madeon/porter robinson/marshmellow etc on it

31. have you ever talked to a person named Tom; probably but im not friends with anyone

32. something that’s getting on your nerves; how all my friends inevitably leave me

33. most visited website; tumblr

34. hair colour; black

35. long or short; hair? Long

36. do you have a crush on someone; always

37. what do you like about yourself; my hair, my personality...dunno

38. want any piercings; maybe idk

39. blood type; dunno

40. nicknames; none really although some people call me ditto, but mostly it’s just anna

41. relationship status; in fucking LOVE with my gf

42. Sign; virgo/leo cusp but i self identify as a leo tyvm

43. pronouns; she/her

44. fave tv show; i don’t really watch much but whose line is it anyways (the old version) or miraculous ladybug or white collar

45. tattoos; i don’t have any right now but i want a yorha symbol tattoo and maybe sth else

46. right or left handed; ?? right

47. ever had surgery; yeah a couple times

48. piercings; none

49. sport; i used to play hockey and basketball

50. vacation; i’d like to go to japan some day

51. trainers; sneakers? uhhhh i think they’re just generic brown skater shoes

52. eating;i ate some pepperoni sticks just now

53. drinking; 7up

54. about to watch; well no one wants to watch anythng with me and idk what i want so probably nothing

55. waiting for; my happy pills to kick in

56. want; my fucking gf

57. get married; maybe someday

58. career; mmmm fuck if i knew i’d be going for that...maybe video game tester or qa tho

— which is better…

59. hugs or kisses; mmmm close but hugs probs

60. lips or eyes; eyes for sure

61. taller or shorter; short like me but tall is also good as long as i can jetpack

62. older or younger; younger

63. nice arms or stomach; arms

64. hookups or relationships; i only love my gf and i wanna have a relationship with her the rest of my life i hope

65. troublemaker or hesitant; hesitant is cuter

66.  kissed a stranger; nope

67. drank hard liquor; yeah it’s all i drink

68. turned someone down; i guess yeah

69. sex on first date; lmao

70. broken someone’s heart; probably but god i hope not

71. had your heart broken; oh yes 

72. been arrested; nope

73. cried when someone died; i think so...i don’t remember that well

74. fallen for a friend; it’s all i do

— do you believe in…

75. yourself; mmm kind of yeah

76. miracles; yes

77. love at first sight; yeah

78. Santa Claus; no

79. angels; yeah because @shogas and @peachyydeer exist and so does my gf

— misc…

80. eye colour; hazel

81. best friends name; serena

82. Favourite movie: mmmm idk...maybe revenge of the sith or gladiator

83. favourite actor; fuck u and ur male centric question...but ellen page is the shit

84. favourite cartoon; damn idk...miraculous ladybug maybe

i’ll tag @righteoussness @spacebikergang @enby-weeb @me-and-my-railgun @meloetta @tsunderrated @howls and anyone else who wants to i wanna keep this short

[chaisoo]

(1) cAMARA SJXSKDL i need to tell you the dream i had w chany and the rest of the boys but ya know he was the main. dude (may i call you dude? my apologies in advance) I swear I cried the entire dream I don’t even know why I guess I was emotional or somethin Idk (this is gonna be long gurl so I’m sorry) okay so it started out that I was walking towards a van the boys were supposed to ride in and when I opened the door yeol was with a female

(dskjflkajd okay so since this dream is SO LONG I decided to put the rest under the cut lmaoooo. It’s great lol you guys should really give it a read)

(2) and let’s just say the tempature was v hot lmao so as one can imagine they were surprise @ my c*ckblocking lmao so I just apologized quickly and ran for my life. While I ran some of the boys were exiting the building they were in to get to the van and go home. Chen sees me running so he goes after me and asks if I was okay cause I looked weird plus I never ran so Ijust said yeah so instead of questioning my answer he decided he’d ask me later and also asked if he could ride w me instead. 

(3) The thing is in the beggining I walked to the van looking 4 one of the boys so I could vent bc I was feeling super crappy but instead I found myself with the god of fire just tryna get some lmao. The car ride was kind of silent so I turned the radio to ignore my thoughts. When the radio goes on the saddest fricking song starts playing (미안해 by jonghyun) so I just burst into tears and chen tries to calm me down

(4) We made it to their house/apartment idk and chen immediately left the car bc if it was okay w me he wanted to look for clothes so he could stay w me so I wouldn’t be lonely im cry I lvoe him shjd I stayed in the car because I knew if someone asked me if I was okay I’d probably just cry again so I just waited in the car instead. Minutes after we arrived so did the boys (chany, baek, hunnie &xiumin)

(5) While I waited 4 jongdae, chanyeol gets in the back sit and starts apologizing for what happened and how he never meant that to happen but things got out of hand. The thing is apparently we were close and he noticed how my vibe was different today so he asked if I was okay

(6) The car was silent after his question and when I dedcide to answer him and tell him how I actually felt baekhyun just busts the passenger door open and sehun joins chanyeol in the back so the air just felt awkward and baek goes “did we interrupt somethin?” chanyeol was abt to say yea but I said no and quickly exited the car. When I left baek was like “I think we interrupted them.” chanyeol just gave him a look.

(7) When I entered the house/apt kyungsoo & xiumin tried greeting me but instead I ran to the bathroom bc I was going to cry so I locked myself in and they start knocking “aryn. Aryn. Are u okay?” so I sat in the toilet and cried and I hear someone go “aryn? Aryn? This is suho! What are u guys talking abt?” when I notice I’m not alone suho popS his head from the shower curtain and I swear he screamed but like a whisper

(8) And then he asks if I could hand him the towel and his clothes and I do but we haven’t really seen our faces so when he finished he opens the curtain and asks me if I could turn around so he can look at me and I just move my head like a no but asks me again and says “please look at me” (he was sO GENTLE IM sFHJVSKCDFBF

(9) So I turned around and he asks me “did they hurt you? which one? I will end them!!” and when I respond it wasn’t them I was just sad he calms down and opens the door and all of the boys were starring w concerned faces and I couldn’t bring myself to look at any of them so I was going to leave

(10) But chen said it started to rain and the rain was v heavy and it would be bad to drive in my condition so suho insisted I should stay and if I didm’t want to and the heavy rain calmed then someone can accompany me when I leave

(11) then I felt someone hug me and it qas yixing (I lov him and trust him w my heart) so after this everyone settled in their rooms except chanyeol and sehun so I went to jongin;s since he was already sleepin when I got there and he woke up when he felt me lay in bed so hee asks me if I was okay and we cuddled and we both fell asleep but I woke up

(12) and didn’t wanted to disturb him so I left the room and went to the living room. I gues chanyeol was waiting for me cause he approched me really fast and w a calm and concerned voice asked if we could talk so he again and he sat beside me and looked at me. His face was glowy and warm but he looked worried so I spoke and said “I’m just not sure okay” so with a confused face he asked notsure about what? And

(13) I sswear I called him dude and went like I DON’T KNOW IF I LIKE YOU OKAY aND HIS FACE WAS PRICELESS AND ASGHDJKSF somebody woke me up :-( 

ldkfhldkfh I CANNOTTTT! This is so great oldshfdkljskh cuddly Jongin and protective Chen/Suho?? I’m really dying. But I feel like that’s totally something that would happen to Chanyeol like have someone walk in on him and someone else lmaooooo with his luck! anyway, I can’t believe you said “god of fire just tryna get some” I’m really screaming sddakjfksjdh this entire thing is hilarious man I wish I had dreams like that