#i remember crying and wanting to go back so badly as i didnt want to live through that again. it felt so real

[thebleedingeffect]

Okay sadly probably no writing for tonight the phil lore is making my brain spin so hard and I only have the mental capacity to play minecraft smh

[anzulvr]

May I request how would Karma react when Asano is interested in Karma's s/o? Like here's the story, Asano and reader have been classmates and really good friends but the reader had to be transfered to E-class cause she beat someone up while trying to protect the other student and things like that, and Asano still being interested in reader even if they started dating Karma. Now how would Karma react when he finds it out??

Karma x Reader where Asano has a one sided crush!

(the first part is more explaining the backstory and then the second half of ur main request!!)

Omg I’m gonna cry I wrote this once and it didn’t save😭😭

TYSM for requesting!! I can’t tell you how fun this was this is like my favorite request I’ve ever gotten

First half ♡ the basis of your friendship with Asano!

Your thoughts on Kunugigaokas academic hierarchy had always aligned with Karmas rather than Asano’s, people were so much more than grades and the popularity came with it.

Asano saw you both in two different lights even if you clashed in opinions with him. You were too kind for your own good and were just seeing the best in people while Karma was, simply put, immature and impulsive in his eyes.

Even if you agreed with Karma on this one you were nothing alike, you couldn’t be.

Whenever you’d hear The Big 5 talk badly of any lower class student you’d tell them to quit it, the rest of the group would call you a buzz kill and reply with something along the lines of “People like them don’t deserve respect”.

(The big 5 is Asano and his main friend group and at the time yours too. They’re more like minions or henchmen to him but ya know)

This was the one type of occasion Asano would tell them to shut it.

“[Name] is right, don’t be so immature Seo, even if Eclass does deserve it.”

“Oh cmon you can’t seriously be taking [Name]’s side right no-“

“Didnt i tell you to shut up.”

“… ”

His favoritism towards you was very obvious (not that he was trying to be).

There were rumors going around saying you were dating and whatnot. His fan club was filled to the brim of pissed off girls who would kill to be in your place.

You’d been classmates with Karma before either of you were bumped down to end class but you were nothing more than desk mates, since he’d always ditch class early and never really talked to anyone other than Nagisa at the time.

Asano had advised you more than once to stay away from Karma, he’d tell you what were practically horror stories about Karmas insane fights and slightly (?) Criminal record.

Safe to say it kinda worked, you were intimidated.

“Really? ? He’s the reason Ren had a black eye last week??”

“Yeah, I’ve told you before- Akabane is more than insane.”

When you learned about further accounts from people other than Asano you’d realized Karma had only been standing up for people who’d been bullied. Your perspective on it all shifted. You had gained respect and admiration for Karma. What he was doing was kind in its own way and pretty chivalrous of him.

Even though you and Asano didn’t agree on much your friendship wasn’t something either of you we’re willing to throw away you’d been inseparable for years now, there wasn’t anything that could come between you, or so you thought.

When you got transferred to End Class for defending Hinano from an A class bully, Asano was surprised- he didn’t realize you’d be willing to take a hit to your record for something like this.

(I should add his fan club was over the moon when you got suspended they threw a little celebratory get together.)

Asano still texted you once in a while. It wasn’t the same as hanging out all the time like you used to.

Asano was having a dilemma, he liked hanging out with you but he told himself he couldn’t. He had an image to uphold for everyone in the main campus (and for himself in a way).

His text’s would be things like:

“Do good on the upcoming exams and they’ll want you right back in the main building. Goodluck!”

“Remember to study for next week [name]! unless you’d rather stay in end class.”

♡

— second half:

When Karma first met you he thought you were dating Asano and so did the rest of E class. You had to make it clear Asano and you are nothing more than friends, if you could even call him a friend anymore.

When they find out the reason you got suspended was the same as Karmas they opened up, It was hard having the entire school and faculty against them so it was nice seeing you give up on your main campus status like that in order to help someone else.

This was what first got Karma interested in getting to know you, you weren’t the type to get into fights yet you still did for someone else’s sake. You had maintained a perfect record all throughout school up until now.

Once you start dating, you literally mean the world to him because he feels like you’re the only person he can be completely open with.

WHEN ASANO FINDS OUT YOURE DATING he’s appalled.

Asano: Okay I just heard the craziest rumor you’re dating the Eclass psycho?? Text back asap

[name] : it’s true wdym

Asano: ??? Is he threatening you???

[name]: No??😭

(Omg wtf did I just enter my text fic era(the answer is no))

He genuinely thinks you’re trolling until he accidentally sees you hanging out together somewhere.

when Karma finds out Asano likes you even though you’re very much taken he’s very annoyed but he very quickly turns the annoyance into smugness when realizes he has the upper hand in the situation.

Okay his rival likes you, and HES dating you?? That’s literally the biggest win. It’s Jackpot.

100% rubs it in Asanos face during argument he has with him. He does it casually so Asano doesn’t see it as annoying or stupid but more truthful and hurtful.

“Try not to fail the exams this time around, I know it’s difficult for people as cocky as you to put effort in.”

“Oh don’t worry about my scores Asano, [name]’s helping me study so I’m sure I’ll do great!”

He’s doesn’t usually initiate PDA but the second Asano is in sight Karma will be draped all over you.

He doesn’t really like you talking to Asano because he doesn’t trust Asano to not be a douche but he won’t outright tell you not to because he doesn’t want to sound controlling or needy to you.

If he sees Asano texted you he’ll reply with a selfie of himself

“We’re busy right now☺️.”

Asano is more confused than anything, why would anyone want to go out with that guy out of everyone in the world.

They’ve definitely argued about it

“They only reason [Name] is dating you is out of pity I don’t know why you flaunt it around every chance you get.”

“How would you know? Does she tell you? Oh right you guys barely talk nowadays.”

It won’t escalate to a full on fist fight unless Asano actually tries flirting with you (which I don’t know if he’d be dumb or cocky enough to do 😭)

Like the second something out of line comes out of that dudes mouth Karma is swinging.

Karma makes sure to prove to you he can one up Asano on anything.

Oh Asano got all A’s on his report card? Karma asked Korosensei to make sure the + was added next to his.

Asano can cook really well? Call Karma Gordon Ramsey because he’s now a culinary professional.

Asano made it on the cover of Kunugigaokas student paper?

Karma literally just tutored a bunch of near failing students and helped them achieve perfect scores getting him front cover on next week’s paper. (He stopped right after he secured the spot on the paper he wasn’t about to actually help people like that for FREE 😭.)

♡ ♡ (that one audio just played in my head while writing this “damn… someone took my bitch..😔”)

[bonnibuckets]

Love your work!😍Can i have the will to request a Roxto X reader where he feels like he isn’t good enough, kinda like comparing himself to the other guys in the village esspecily Aonung. The muscle mass, their hunting skills, riding ilus. You didnt know at first, because you found him perfect in every way, his smile, his comforting words and touch, his eyes, hes also very good making braclets out off sheels, so he often makes you cute gifts you love so much. One day you find him crying on the other side of the island when you were out picking some fruits to him and yourself, you rush over to him and comfort him, hugging him and stroke his back. You ask what is wrong but he stays quiet clinging himself on you.

But of course er love Roxto so we tell hil that, but he dosen’t fully believe you so you have to show him a few tricks😏✋

*cough… TOP!READER✋

I prob already requested this but i dont remember who i requested it to🤔💭

hello babes! i will write everything up until the smut because rotxo is a teenager in the movies, i’m sorry if that upsets you but i have plenty of other smuts you can read :)

— antics | rotxo

pairings: fem x rotxo

warnings: angst & fluff, mentions of insecurities

synopsis: rotxo compares himself to every guy you come into contact with— even his own best friend ao’nung.

wc: 700+

note: i was unaware this had been requested before to other authors but i assure that this is 100% my work and i was not inspired by anyone else i only took from the text in the request (no hate to anyone though!)

── ⋅ ⋅ ── ✩ ── ⋅ ⋅ ──

You can rotxo have been together for quite some time, but that never stopped his overthinking mind. He constantly thought badly of himself unintentionally whenever you were around. He thought you were too good for him and that he didn’t deserve you, his head would fill with horrible thoughts every time you talked to a boy.

He thought his his hunting skills weren’t good, his ability to ride ilus and even physical physique. Rotxo compared himself to his best friend all the time, ao’nung is naturally bigger in muscle mass and that got to him.

He tried to never show this because he knew it was a problem within himself and not anyone else's.

Until one day you were laughing at ao’nung’s stupid jokes and unaware of the pair of eyes on you both. Rotxo clutched the bracelet he made you out of shells and started sobbing as he ran away, he thought he was pathetic and he wanted to crawl in a hole.

He made his way to the beach and he plopped down and hugged his knees as hot tears rolled down his face.

—

You waved ao’nung bye to go pick some fruit for rotxo as a little surprise. You hummed as you carefully inspected each fruit with love. You gathered enough in your basket as you walked to find your boyfriend.

You pressed the basket to your hip as you looked around and then you spotted him on the beach. You smiled as your heart starting beating a little faster and your tail swayed.

“Rotxo!” you smiled and waved as he jumped and looked up with teary eyes and tear-stained cheeks. You immediately went to his side and put down the fruit as you cupped his cheeks.

“What’s wrong dear?” you questioned worried. He sniffed and wiped away his tears as he tried to speak with a shaky voice but nothing came out except more tears. Your heart sank and you pulled him into your chest as he clung to you.

You shushed him and scratched his back. “It’s okay darling,” you said kissing the top of his head. His breathing had calmed down a little and he pulled away and you wiped his tears away as he sniffled, “talk to me” you said cupping his cheek.

He looked into your eyes and took a deep breath and exhaled “i’m just scared…that i’m not good enough” he said. Your heart sank even more and you immediately pulled him back into you “no no no” you said holding onto him tightly. “Don’t say that it’s not true” you said into the crook of his neck.

“I know but,” he said pushing you away to talk to you “it’s just i feel…like everyone is better than me, every guy i see you talk to i can’t help but think about how they’re better than me. Even ao’nung is better than me! He knows how to hunt, swim, ride his ilu perfectly, and he is so much stronger than-” you cut him off with a kiss.

“Shush i don’t believe any of that for a second” you smiled with teary eyes “i just can’t imagine a life without you rotxo, you’re amazing and perfect i love everything about you! I love your smile, your laugh, your words, your touch, your eyes everything,” you said chuckling as tears rolled down your face.

Rotxo immediately panicked and wiped away your tears as he cried too “i’m sorry i really am i tried to not let get to me, but thank you” he smiled and held your face “i love everything about you too” you both smiled and pressed your foreheads against one another’s as your tails intertwined.

Rotxo popped up “i completely forgot! I made you a bracelet” he smiled as he showed you a beautiful shell bracelet. “Oh honey” your heart swooned “it must’ve taken you hours,” you said as he put it on you “i love it rotxo” you smiled. “I also got you something but not as good” you chuckled and handed him the basket of fruit and his face lit up immediately.

“Oh my favorite!” he smiled and immediately bit into it smiling like a kid “i’m happy you like it” you giggled and wiped away the juice that got on his cheek. He smiled and swallowed his food before kissing you quickly and going back to eating as you lovingly watched him without a care in the world.

— [fin]

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[mrscarmenbearzatto]

okay everyone welcome back to another episode of: mae has angsty(??) thoughts at 5:42 in the morning. carmen berzatto edition. i wrote this in my notes app for aaron hotchner but shh it applies:

carmen berzatto never knew he loved you until you left. he remembers telling you he wanted a chance to be with you, and you told him that you didn’t want that because coworkers leave. they leave when you date them, it never ends well.

naturally when you told carmy this, he questioned, “what makes you think I’d leave you?”

you laughed. “if every workplace fling i had didn’t end, i wouldn’t be entertaining the idea of you and i having anything. carm, they always end. one way or another, they leave.”

and he tried to not be that. he didn’t want to be another bad story of some workplace fling leaving you. for two reasons:

he was more then a fling. he would be more then a fling.

he knew what it felt like for someone to leave. he wouldn’t do that to you.

but! he gave you space because of course he did, he’s carmy berzatto, he cant take space for himself but he’ll give it (intentionally or not) if you need it. and you gave him a chance.

he blew it. you know how he knows he blew it? because he’s standing on your doorstep in the pouring rain, prepared to beg you to take him back. hand raised, about to knock, when he hears you giggling and a male voice.

he would beg you to take him back. to hear him out for treating you so poorly, to give you a thousand reasons or how ever many it took for you to understand. he’d listen if you told him to go fuck himself, he’d listen if you told him you never wanted to see him again.

he prepared a speech. well, at least half of one. you made him watch grey’s anatomy and burke’s vows for cristina? “i am a heart man. So this I am sure, you are my partner, my lover, my very best friend, my heart, my heart beats for you … i promise you this: i promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands, I promise you me”?? they’re him. that’s how he feels for you. he may not be a heart man but he tries to lead with it for you.

he tried. he wanted so badly to not screw it up and look where it got him. he’s the one begging you for another chance, he’d get on his knees and beg if you asked him to or even if you didn’t.

but instead, there’s someone else in his spot. making you laugh.

it hurts to think he isn’t with you. when he was yours, when you were his, not being with you was the fucking worst. he wanted to be with you for as long as he could. everytime you weren’t with him, no matter how clingy it made him sound, he felt like he could cry (that isnt to say he didnt before).

yet now? now he can cry for a different reason. he can cry because he doesn’t get to be the one you kiss tonight. he isn’t the one who gets to kiss that spot behind your ear that makes you giggle, to touch you places he knows make you squirmish. he isn’t the one you say good night and good morning to, other then being friendly. he isn’t the one you’ll say “i love you” to anymore because maybe you don’t love him anymore. can love vanish? his can’t.

he lowers his fist, forced to accept two things:

he’s drenched and cold

he’s losing you. he’s lost you.

past tense. that’s all he gets to be to you, and that’s all you get to be to him. a past memory, the ex-boyfriend.

he was the workplace fling that left.

[simplygyuu]

Teddy Bear - 11 : i wont ever forget, okay?

*⁀➷synopsis ! : on your birthday one of your best friends, soobin, gifts you an adorable teddy bear. you keep it all day once he gave it to you, carrying the adorable thing around for your entire birthday day and going to sleep with it that night. the next morning you wake up with.. a man in the place of your precious bear?! he doesn't have a name and he looks at you like you hung all the stars and.. did he just say he WAS the bear?

wc (0.6k)

From the second you got home, you noticed something was off about Beomgyu. He wasnt being anywhere near as energetic as he used to be and he was doing a lot of zoning out. He would stare at the wall with a pouty, almost frowning, look before picking up his phone and typing furiously.

Honestly you didnt know what to think. You assumed it was just him still upset about his game even though it had been hours since then. You dont know why he would still even be upset with it.

You were gonna just leave it alone and let the boy sleep it off until you heard soft sniffles coming from Beomgyus direction. Almost immediately, your head snapped up at the sound to see the most pitiful sight youd ever laid eyes on.

There Beomgyu was sitting on the small, single chair while crying. He tried to wipe at his eyes, looking honestly confused and just upset. He didnt seem to understand what was going on, he might not even know what tears were. Yet there he was, crying in your living room.

“Beom?! Whats wrong? What are you crying?” You were quick to jump up and approach him once the initial shock wore off. He looked up at you, still hiccuping as he cried before shaking his head.

“I d-dont know..” Beomgyus words trailed off into another sob, making your eyes widen. You were never the best at comfort like this, it really wasnt your forte. But you couldnt just do nothing!

“Shh shh, It's okay Beomie.. I'm here okay? C'mere give me a hug.” You lowered your tone into that of a soft whisper, hoping it would ease him more. The hybrid was quick to take up your offer, practically diving into your waiting arms.

You just rubbed his back gently, whispering any comforting words you could think of as you let him cry onto your shoulder. What could have made him so upset? From all that you know he hasnt been doing much that could get him this upset.

“..Beomie? Are you feeling better?” You finally whispered gently a few minutes later once Beomgyus sobs lowered into soft sniffles. He had yet to look up from where he was cuddled up against you, just nodding softly.

“Do you want to talk about it?” You added along, bringing up a hand to run your fingers through his hair. He melted into the touch, making the corners of your lips quirk up into a small smile.

“You..you texted me and said you didnt remember how we met and I got.. sad. Even though you said it was Yunjin I worried and-and then I thought what if you really did forget even though i'd never forget cause thats the more important day of my life but youve lived such a long, human life and-”

“Oh, Beomie..” You gently cut off his long, panicked ramble. You didnt want him to work himself up again. Carefully, as if you were touching glass, you cupped his cheeks and brought his face up so that he could make eye contact with you.

“I wont ever forget, okay? Never. You're important to me and that day changed my life forever in a good way. Im sorry that my friend upset you this badly. Ill talk to her, okay? But I promise you i'll never, ever forget the day we met.” You rubbed his cheek with your thumb as you spoke, making sure to maintain eye contact to hopefully get across the point of how serious you were.

“..Okay. Thank you, yn.” Beomgyu finally replied after a few seconds before smiling a small smile and leaning forward to hug you again.

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Static Downpour

fanfiction

ao3

word count: 1106

Danny has a strong fear of lightning. @tourettesdog

this is a no one knows au but i didnt find anywhere to put that info in the fic

Dash remembered when he and Danny used to be friends.

They were the best of friends. They used to play together all the time. They’d play with legos at Dash’s house, and then they’d build space rockets when they were at Danny’s. They spent so much time together that their parents joked about how they were inseparable. 

One of their favorite things they used to do was watch as the thunderstorm clouds would roll in. They liked watching as the sky turned colors and how it got so dark even while it was still the middle of the day. They’d listen to the thunder and try to guess how far away it was when it boomed in the air throughout the city.

But the lightning was their favorite part. They loved watching it shoot down to wherever it would land. The way it would branch out from its main course, covering a good chunk of the sky before it immediately disappeared. They loved all of it. They thought it was so cool. 

So what happened to make Danny so afraid of lightning? 

They were sitting on the comfy couch in the library. Neither of them wanted to forfeit their half of the couch and so they wordlessly decided to share it. Dash could see Danny watching the rain hit the window quietly. But then Dash saw a flash of lightning out of the corner of his eye.

Danny jumped out of his seat, nearly falling onto the floor. When Dash looked at him in confusion, Danny was holding a hand to his chest, his eyes wide as he stared out the window. He looked like he was pretty close to hyperventilating. 

What had happened to make him jump like that? Dash had wondered. There wasn’t anything particularly scary happening right now. Maybe if the wind was going a little faster and the tornado sirens went off, that’d be kind of scary. But today was just an average, ghost free day. 

Another flash of lightning lit up the clouds outside and Danny jumped again. He was definitely hyperventilating now. 

It must be the lightning, he had thought. But why? What changed about it? 

Danny had left after that. Dash didn’t know where he went. Maybe he went to go find a spot to sit in that wasn’t right next to the windows. Or maybe he was cutting school again just like he always seemed to be doing these days. 

Dash thought it was his fault. Maybe Danny hated watching thunderstorms now. Maybe it just reminded him of his best friend turned bully. 

But that still seemed like it was such a strong reaction, to be so badly afraid of something just because it was associated with someone he didn’t like anymore. 

It wasn’t until Dash had seen Phantom one night that he understood. 

Phantom was sitting in an alleyway on his own. Dash had stumbled across him just to find the ghost crying on the ground as he tried to nurse his own wound. His head shot up when he heard the sound of gravel under Dash’s shoes, a panicked look in his eyes. 

A bright flash lit up the alley and a ring appeared around Phantom’s waist. This wasn’t a move he had ever seen Phantom use before. It wasn’t ever used in battles against the other ghosts. It split just a little bit, revealing a white tshirt between two rings before they melded back to one. Whatever it was, it looked like Phantom was struggling to hold it back. He didn’t want it to happen.

Dash walked further into the alley and knelt on the ground next to Phantom. He told him how he’d do anything to help, whatever he needed.

Phantom’s expression seemed to change. It went from fear to something that looked sort of like resignation and relief. He stopped struggling and finally let the rings pass over him. 

Danny Fenton sat there on the ground in front of Dash, holding the wound on his stomach. It started to seep through the white fabric of his tshirt. 

He decided right there that it didn’t matter what had happened between him and Danny. Sitting right there in front of him was both his hero and his childhood best friend. He needed help right now and Dash was the only one around to give it. 

Dash gingerly picked Danny up and held him to his chest. He was going to take Danny to his house to get him patched up. Dash had a pretty big first aid kit in his room. He should have enough in there to help Danny.

He started jogging down the streets. He didn’t want to run too fast with Danny injured, but he had to hurry. He didn’t know how long it took to bleed out but Danny didn’t seem to be doing too great already. 

That was when the first drops of rain started falling. They landed in Dash’s hair and hit him in the face. It helped to cool him down, but it was getting hard to see when it quickly turned into a downpour. 

They were almost to Dash’s house when the first bolt of lightning flashed across the sky right above their heads. He could feel Danny jump in his arms even before the thunder boomed in the sky. Danny clutched a hand in the fabric of Dash’s shirt and flinched again when another bolt of lightning appeared. 

Dash finally reached his house. He struggled to get his key out of his pocket while holding Danny but finally managed to jab it into the doorknob. 

He quietly opened up the door and crept up their stairs, listening to make sure the snoring that came from the living didn’t stop. He made it up to his room and shut the door behind him and locked it. He set Danny down on his bed and pulled the first aid kit out from underneath it. 

He started cleaning the wound and applying disinfectant to it. Danny didn’t flinch as he cleaned it, but he did flinch every time a flash of lightning shone through Dash’s curtains. 

After wrapping gauze around Danny’s stomach, he sat back and took a deep breath. He was still immensely curious about what happened that made Danny so afraid of lightning. There’d be no better time than now to ask.

“You used to love watching the lightning when we were kids. What happened?”

Danny took a deep breath and held up his hand. The faint remnants of a lichtenberg scar ran from his hand up his arm and under his shirt.

“It’s how I died.”

[lavender-at-heart]

could u do dating bella swan as a werewolf!fem!reader?<33 loved your galadriel headcanons

𝐵𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑎 𝐷𝑎��𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎 𝑊𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑤𝑜𝑙𝑓:

Pairing: Bella Swan x fem!werewolf!reader

Warnings: a bit angsty

Notes: tysm for the request your so sweet! Sorry this took a little while to get out btw. Requests are open and feedback is welcomed and encouraged!

- Coco ❤️

You were Jacobs cousin but spent most of your time with him and Billy rather than your family.

You had seen/met Bella once or twice but you were very little and don't remember much

But you have met Charlie Swan, he always seemed like a nice man and often invited you and your family over to watch a baseball game.

When news of the infamous Bellas moving to Forks you were relatively unfazed.

But Jacob was chomping at the bit to get to know her.

You met her the same time jacob did and it was hard to watch the two interact, but she seemed sweet(and very pretty).

Unlike your cousin you actually attended Forks high-school, it was closer to home.

You noticed Bella was a bit shy and socially awkward so you invited her into your friend group and hit it off well.

And when she started taking a interest in a certain blood sucking freak you were sure to steer her in the right direction.

And she listened to your advice

For three days.

She had said some bs about how you wouldn't be able to change her mind about seeing him so it's not worth the fight. And you gave up because you rlly wanted things to work between the two of you.

And you didn't really mind, I mean yes it was dangerous but Bella could take care of herself[and the fact that you had a real big crush on her]. You didn't mind that is until she started ditching you.

"Oh sorry y/n I can't tonight... I'm going to the movies with Edward"

Or "I promised Edward I'd study with him, can't jacob help you?"

It hurt you to say the least and Bella was so blinded by her crush for Edward she didnt even notice.

By Bellas birthday your relationship had practically withered away but you still got her a present. A handmade booksleeve in her favorite colour.

And then...the accident happened. The Cullens left Forks abruptly leaving a heartbroken Bella and a confused town.

You didn't really know what happened but according to Billy, nothing good.

And as selfish as it sounds you were glad you got to get back in touch with her.

You helped her get over her stupid breakup, reminding her that Edward didn't deserve her whatsoever.

You comforted her and let her cry in your arms

You made sure she ate well and got enough sleep

And you even made a bonfire with Jacob and your friends to burn all of Bellas photos, clothing and memories of Edward.

Things were going great until you started distancing yourself.

Making up illnesses and just flat our ignoring her seemed better than the truth, I mean you just couldn't tell her.

She thought that you were ignoring her because of how she treated you before. She felt like a jerk.

So of course when she shows up to Jacobs and demands to see you, things don't go swimmingly.

She finds out and she's...honestly not as shocked as she should have been

" look Bella I understand if you don't wanna talk to me anymore, I'm surprised you can even look at me-"

"Y/n I've already been through the whole my friend is a mythical creature thing. Besides who will I complain about the rain to?"

And then she realized she really did eff up pretty badly with you when she was dating Edward and it wasn't ok.

You were studying- or at least trying to study when you were interrupted by bella throwing rocks at your window.

You looked down onto the yard where she was standing and holding up a sign that read "I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE SAID THIS SOONER BUT WILL YOU GO OUT WITH ME? p.s im sorry for being a jerk :(" And a bouquet of your favorite flowers to top it off.

You excitedly nodded and quickly got ready for a impromptu date.

You guys went to a drive in movie, sat in the back of her truck and kissed under the stars~

Ok but Bella would be really good with dates

Like hiking to some obscure spot just cuz there's pretty flowers? It's a no brainer for her

You help her cook for her dad and Charlie loves you like a seccond daughter

You read and stargaze together on her roof

You make picture albums with the camera her dad got her for her birthday.

And she constantly finds she keeps "misplacing" her sweaters and flannels

You guys are really the power couple of Forks no matter what the creepy homophobic old guys say🏋‍♂️

Your families already get along great with each other so there's really no fuss when it comes to that.

Jacob is a little miffed that you "stole" Bella from him but she reassures him that he'd never stand a chance.

You get engaged 2 years after high-school, which seems pretty early but you know you'll never ever find someone as great as bells in Forks

The wedding is small but that's the way you both wanted it

It's in her backyard, in the forest and the reception is at her house.

Ok I lokey hate her wedding dress(no shade if you like it tho!) So let's say she wore this one, it's close enough but much better(in my opinion)!

And ofc u wear whatever u want!

Bella lokey loves wolf version of you, I mean the piggyback rides are insane.

And your just so fluffy, great cuddle material.

You guys have a quiet simple life but it's never boring.

If you decide to have children I'm thanking the God's it won't be named Renesme.

You guys love to cook together and try new recipes

She eventually gets used to the rain and gloom of Forks. It seems to be growing on her tbh

Sometimes you'll be sitting on your bed watching a old movie and both of you will just sit and laugh about what life would gave been like if Edward had stayed in Forks.

[gothicafish]

WWDITS S5 SPOILERS

I feel like a lot of post I've seen about guillermo choosing to be human have never been in a situation where theyve wanted something so bad that they not only lose sight of why they wanted it but become so absorbed in not having it that they do something stupid about getting it. And that sounds like a very specific thing to feel but it happens in real life with in the most ordinary circumstances. And then when you finally have The Thing you realize it's not what you want or that you wanted it for the wrong reasons or weren't ready for it or all of the above. And I can't explain how normal it is to make such a sharp turn towards giving it up because it doesn't work for you/feel like you.

Just to put that feeling in a real life, non vampire sense, when I was in high school I really wanted a job. It seemed like all my friends had jobs and the idea of having my own money sounded fantastic, especially coming from a low income home where I hesitated to ask for things because I didn't feel they were immediately necessary or necessary at all in the light of our finances. So I applied several places (literally any place that was hiring) and every time I got a rejection email I felt so deflated and so brushed off and more importantly I felt like I wasn't worth anyone's time. So you can imagine how ecstatic I was when I got a call back from this hot dog place. I never really at there much but a job is a job. That's how viewed it and I wanted it so bad because I felt like I had so many things to prove, as a student, as a worker and as a functional person. So I go to the interview and I get the job. It was in the summer so I didn't have school and I worked in the mornings and evenings part time. And immediately it was not what I thought it was going to be. But I figured that was part of it yaknow getting to know a new place can be rough. But on the second or third day the owner dude of the restaraunt (who literally does nothing but come in and tell the workers shit) he comes in while I was doing dishes and keep in mind this is one of the first times I've done dishes in a restaurant environment (and if you've ever worked in food service you know there's a very specific way to wash dishes) so the dude comes in sees I'm doing it wrong and yells at my manager for not properly teaching me how to do something. The manager then tells me to ask if I don't know how to do something (I thought I was doing it right) and there were several incidences where he would come in and yell at somebody (and I'm talking have a full out burst) for something mediocre.

I remember this one time he came in and yelled at us because we left the back door open a Crack because the air conditioner wasn't working (it didn't work the whole Two months I was there). He said it was a hazard as someone random could come in and cause problems. And I would agree if it was sumer, over 100 degrees EVERYDAY EVEN AFTER THE SUN GOES DOWN AND IF WE DIDNT HAVE TWO STOVES TWO FRIERS AND A BOILING WATER STATION TO KEEP THINGS HOT. I literally went home every day dehydrated from sweating so much and that not an exaggeration AND WE WERENT ALLOWED TO HAVE DRINKS ALL WE HAD WAS A LIL CUP TO GET SOFT DRINKS FROM. So yeah I didn't work there very long. So not only was the boss a total freak wad (the managers were cool tho), I just felt so horrible at everything I was doing there. I would get told how not to do things on the daily and I would beat myself up about it. There were times were I would try not to cry because how badly I felt about myself and the job I was doing because of how many times I had to be told how to do things. I felt stupid, and the fact that my friends and people my age could do this everyday with out problems ONTOP of school made me feel worse. I would literally come home and cry because of how horrible being there made me feel. It bothered me so much that I've hesitated getting another job after that and now that I'm looking for a job to pay for college I feel so much anxiety about it being like that again. And I've sworn off food service cause fuck that. Everyone who works a food service/customer service jobs everyday of their lives deserves a metal of Valor bc goddam idk how you do it. So when it got to much for me I made an impulsive decision to quit and I did and I never went back. But I felt like shit afterwords about being so vocal about getting a job and then not being able to handle it, but it was a lot better than being there.

That was a very long winded way if saying I sympathize with guillermo and I understand him completely and how humiliating it can feel to be in that position. And I'm glad nandor and the crew was nice about it cause I felt it in my soul.

[cerealmonster15]

a bit of both- I was too scared to go off anon cuz I would've been embarrassed if I was wrong 😭

They INVENTED divorce. You get it.

And I DONT MIND YOUR THOUGHRS ARE SO SILLY!! pls invitation to come back on stage and scream about the guys ever 🥺

ksjdlfdsklfj I Understand 🙏 i hope it is ok that i took this message as an excuse to Continue Going Wild

head empty only tiny guy doodles now

while i was doodling i remembered ruggie and silver both have a vignette with jade where Food Is Involved... im obsessed w/the one where jade gives his mushrooms to the cafeteria bc azul and floyd banished them, and silver has them the next day and is like This Is The Best Risotto Ive Ever Had In My Life. and jades just watching him like 👁️👁️ and theres the one where ruggie accidentally takes jades ingredients and is like OH SHIT DONT KILL ME here i'll teach you a cool recipe!!!! i love how often these boys bond over food actually.... ruggie helped kalim cook in another vignette... jade and kalim talked about tea [and then jade died bc kalim uses too much sugar LOL]

more rambling and screen shots i have to go bonkers or i will die

oh my god and the second tsum event. theres the cutest little rythmatic of jamil kalim floyd and azul in the kitchen with tsums 😭😭😭 i want the second years to have a potluck........

ALSO i love in the first volume of the twst anthology, chapter 13 where it basically turns into the second years coming together and trying to help silver stay awake and hanging out EXCEPT THE FISH ARE NNNNOT INVITED!!! or like. theyre just not in that story fdslkjfds and jamil just shows up at the end..

KALIM'S SO CUTE HE'S SOOOO EXCITED He just JUMPS IN like OH DID SOMEONE SAY FRIENDSHIP STUDY GROUP???????

also

why did he do that. he was talking about riddle and they literally got riddle involved bc ruggie suggested it but here's the thing!!! silver is the one that needed notes bc he fell asleep. kalim joined up and was like lets study together and have a feast!! so ruggies like oh hell yea im in it for the food. why did he decide riddle needed to be there 🤔 i mean maybe he did actually want to study and/or didnt wanna be the one suckered into leading the study session LOL but. i think it kinda just looks like he wants to hang out with riddle jflsjeklkj like he literally later says "but im here for the feast" so WHY did you get RULES ABIDING RIDDLE involved HMMM??? watching you ruggie bucchi.

theyre literally SO cute i LOVE the anthology mangas SO MUCH and i really wish they'd make a third one!!!

god i actually. forgot a lot about this one LOL there's a lot of cute moments w/them 😭

ALSO now that im at my computer i could search better and i FOUND THE POST where i talked endlessly about riddle/floyd. i still stand by all of that. and theres cute anthology moments in there too.

third year divorce jumpscare while im in the anthologies

i love them theyre so fucking funny. also why are there So Many Times in game where vil basically says "yeah leona is extremely physically attractive HOWEVER his personality sucks and i hate him." like okay. why do you have to keep telling us that leona has a "pretty face" or "only good for his looks" or whatever it is he says fjsdkljekl. that's nice vil.

pushing them back out of the way back to the second years

and trey. im still trapped in the anthologies since thats whats in front of me klfjlewjsdfjkls god the way this one takes place after jamils meltdown and hes like "omg trey senpai....... and jade 😒........" Get His Ass sdfdsfg god i dont have a screenshot rn but another top 10 moments of twst for me that made me cry laughing was when i was reading cater's union bday card and jamil asks him that interview question "which dorm would you pick if you werent in heartslabyul" and god the TIMING with cater saying octavinelle INSTANTLY making jamil SCOWL IN DISAPPROVAL at the SHEER MENTION OF THE FISH BITCH DORM is SO funny to me. EW. GROSS. DISGUSTING!!! i so badly want riddle and jamil to bond over their mutual fish hading sjdklfe theyre SO FUNNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

and yet in masquerade event. jamil bullies azul. azul buillies him back. they DANCE TOGETHER IN BOTH OF THE RHYTHM GAMES. theyre DUO PARTNERS to azuls ssr. riddle and jamil compliment [more or less LOL] azul's singing performance at the end. i think once or twice riddle and jamil also share a few 😑😑 moments over azul... being azul jdkslfjkdsljf and it's EVERYTHING TO ME it was so validating bc i think those three should hang out forever.

OK THAT'S ENOUGH DISORGANIZED RAMBLES FOR NOW I GOTTA CONTAIN MYSELF!!!

[opal-owl-flight]

alright i know it a bit off topic to what you are doing right now. but is angst really necessary for a character. all it does it make me feel so horrible for them. just saying

This is tumblr, the rule for this is to block me/the angst arc tags and move on. If you are who I think you are, Im going to take the step myself for both our sakes.

This is my story. Youre not obligated to read it, youre not obligated to keep up. If the content upsets you, you dont force the writer to change the story they want to write. You leave for the sake of your emotional state. I wont take offense to that as we all have our tolerance for upsetting topics/stories. (God knows I have my own.)

As for angst being necessary?

Have you seen the shit these characters go through in canon?

You can make the argument for everything being cartoon violence but DO REMEMBER that Hal Labs themself has made final bosses scream in pain while youre in the process of giving them a soul-smashing beatdown. And in the case of True Arena for Mags -- you can hear him begging for help in the bg as you fight. (Epilogue also has a lot of angst. Fucks sake one of Mags' "taunt" animations has him crying.)

Im not exactly adding angst where there isnt. It is simply an extension of canon.

Or do you speak of my more painful arcs, like False Paradise or Back to Zero?

Again, they are simply extensions (in my interp) of whats given in canon. I take the canon stuff seriously in my writing, thats just how I do. Those events have lasting effects on the characters. You cant say someone gets possessed and theyre all hunky dory the next time you see em. Wasnt Dedede implied -- no. Straight up SAID by Hal --- to have had trauma from Fecto Forgo? So for my way of writing things, Whos to say the others didnt as well?

In terms of the relationships for those two arcs. (+Nova Incident too what the hell.) Magolor wasnt the best person. He still isnt, sometimes. Healing from what hes done while he was lashing out, for all parties involved, is not going to be smooth sailing. Sometimes things start to look up but and then go nasty in the middle. Thats just the way things are.

BtZ's basis is touching on how puppy love/crushes tend to die the longer you know a person. You find things you dont like about the fellow you admired. And that breaks them apart. Its very fortunate in rhe end of this arc though that both parties see their mistakes/flaws and learn to accept and grow with them, and thats why they got back together.

Angst makes good payoff.

And about excessive angst? Thats subjective. And I always resolve them in the end. (Hell, even Legacy has a good ending now...mostly bc I nuked it after the rewrites). Im not really good with ending things badly, so my stuff always wraps up on a happy note. (I should probably post more of the fluff stuff tbh, but its impact is heavily reduced without the angstier context.)

Tldr, in my interp/writing style, angst is indeed necessary for the character. One, a lot of it is already canon anyway. Two, this is my way of exploring/extending the character and their themes (Mags leans heavy on trust and forgiveness). Three, all of this makes for more satisfying closure/payoff.

[screachogreilige]

I'm so normal over 3d life desert duo tbh

like. just feel like, in my humble opinion, everything in one way or another went down from there (in a way kind of sort of)

Like in 3d life Scar & Grian were. well. u know. they

were 3d life Scar & Grian (aka inseparable doomed by the narrative a tragedy from the start duo. I want to put them in a jar and shake them) like tahts when everything STARTED too. that's the roots where it all began.......

in last life (I DONT REMEMBER THIS ONE VERY MUCH..😔) the southlanders fell apart, and Scar was alone, but in one way or another those 2 were like. circling each other kinda?

In. err. In double life... fate and destiny did it's thing, but it was like crazy. cus they were stuck together but also hurting each other kinda, like the Scar snow powder thing, and the Grian bigB thing.....

Then in LIMITED LIFE.. both of them had a stable home basically, Grian the bad boys and Scar, the clockers. But. But. They were still, AGAIN, in one way or another still, like always, circling each other (I KNOW I ALREADY SAID THAT PHRASE BUT IDK WHAT ELSE TO SAY 😭) in the burning down the mansion, becoming cousins, GRIAN KILLING SCAR, the whole thing is just a mess, really

Then u look back at 3rd life. In 3rd life, they were "perfect", in that sad, sad way. Like 3rd life was the beginning of it all and it never really let them go. Like it was always like afterwards, Grian was afraid of really really trusting people (coughScarcough) and never got too close, and when he DID get close it ended badly. Like he knew it’d end badly, so he was trying to stay kind of away from everywhere he thought he could hurt, so it wouldn’t be as painful when it ended badly. And after 3d life, Scar seemed to like… not be vengeful really, I can’t explain it but after 3rd life he always seemed to have like; some sorta essence of 3rd life? Like it rubbed off on him and changed him kinda?????? God that man is too much for me to dissect UGHH (but I hope u get what I mean at least a little. ..)

verdict. They are a Greek tragedy mixed with ballroom dancing mixed with poisoning each others drinks mixed with more Greek tragedy

(btw.:. So sorry for the rant I just went crazy for a little and idrk anyone else Normal about desert duo /pos so I had to tell u.. hope u understand 😔 if u want me to stop tho pls pls pls pls pls pls tell me!!!!!!!!!! Alsoo if u want to add anything onto this PLEASE DO… I don’t analysis gtws enough to know The Things about him and I can’t rewatch the life series or I cry(

im gonna throw up (in an insane way)

god yeah no yeah erm yeah this is my thoughts as well gheughiagorjdghnnnkm THEY SUCK! WHY DO YTHEY DOOOO THIS......... Anyways... Yeah.......

it feel s like TO ME... scar really wants that moment back, like all of the things they had in the desert, even if it was just the 2 of them really it didnt feel that lonely and they were happy w/ each other !!!!! and he is sad. and sad..... he just wants his buddy back he has no hard feelings (of the cactus r [explodes])

but grian is MISERABLE he's suffered severe emotional damage after . yknow.. and he just keeps killing scar over and over and over again and each time hes so so sorry but he keeps doing it! the way it happened in limited life though is so very interesting to me because he really didn't have to there were plenty of other people and yeah maybe scar was easy pickings for having his back turned and being so vulnerable but also why. maybe so it didnt hurt as bad the longer it went on with the 2 of them alive hahahahahhaha anyways what are we talking about

[kevin6942069]

human// eddie munson x suicidal reader

READ BEFORE READING!!!!! MASSIVE TW’S!!

PLEASE TAKE THESE SEROIUS BEFORE READING!! this contains HEAVY topics of suicide and the aftermaths of suicide.

if you relate to this at all or are struggling with selfharm or suicidal thoughts, please dont ever be afraid to reach out to someone. if you need you can vent to me or talk to me. just please be safe and remember to eat.

summary: reader gives in and stabs themself, after they bleed out and die eddie munson deals with the after effects of his bestfriends death.

songs were playing in the background, i barely could even listen to them anymore. the only thing i could think of was how badly i wanted to fucking kill myself. days, weeks, months, years, almost a DECADE has passed and nothing has ever changed, my life was terrible and i couldnt fix it. ive tried everything yet, nothing worked.

so, whats stopping me from ending it once and for all? nothing.

i got up from my bed with a blank facial expression.

walking towards the kitchen i walked past eddie

“heya sweetie, bit late isnt it?” he said, but i didnt reply i just stared at him

“well- uh- sleep well” he said awkwardly while walking away to the living room

walking to the kitchen that held the knifes, i grabbed one and hid it under my shirt. 

once i got back to my room i just, sat there. on my bed with the knife up right in my hands. my hands were sweaty and i could feel tears pricking at my eyes. my hands and legs begain to shake as i imagined plunging the knife into my chest or stomach. the feeling of my blood dripping and flooding out of my body. the feeling of the cold blade inside my warm -- soon to be cold -- guts. the feeling of my vision going blurry and my brain going fuzzy. the feeling of my feet and hands becoming numb due to the amount of pain. i imagined it all. how it would all feel.

i sat up straight lifting my shirt up so i could bite onto it and expose my stomach

i aimed the blade to the side of my stomach. pulling my arms over my head with the blade in my hands.

the knife was inside of me now. the cold blade was cutting and ripping my insides. i couldnt even muster up a scream or a cry, nothing came out other then blood from both my mouth and gut.

after minutes passed by of me bleeding out, my vision started to go out on me. the music that i had forgot i was even playing started to sound like it was across the house, it was so quiet. i heard so much ringing in my ears. my throat was dry. my vision had a white filter around it and objects started to look the same way when my eyes were filled with tears, all weird and shiny but my eyes were dry. i took my last breath and-

eddie was sat on the couch watching tv. he was getting ready for bed since he felt pretty tired, he turned the tv off and the lights. putting away some dishes and trash he starts to walk down the hall to his shared room with you. his stomach feels uneasy for some reason. like something bad was about to happened but he just assumed he was just tired or something

but he was wrong.

knocking on the door lightly. he heard no reply and guessed you were either already or almost asleep so he just let himself inside since you usually fall asleep before him

there eddie was. staring at a body leaning against the wooden bed frame with a knife on the floor, painted a new red. 

he saw the body of his best friend. you. you were life-less with blood pouring out onto the sheets and blankets.

“y/n...?” he said, knowing it was useless to even try to call for you.

“h-hey this-- this isnt fu-fucking funny dude.” he said running to you and shaking your shoulders. his voice cracked and whined

“HEY, I SAID THIS ISNT FUNNY. PLEASE, WAKE UP.” 

but nothing happened. you stayed still. laying there. dead. his crawled onto bed next to your dead body and just hugged you. he cried while pressing his face into your shoulder. still trying to shake you up

“please wake up, pleasepleasepleas.....” he said trailing off into a fit of “please”-s

“y/n.. i love you....”

after getting the er to get rid of the body and clean everything up the next day, he was listening to the radio to try and get rid of the thought of his now dead bestfriend when he hear the same song that was playing when he found you. 

he cant listen to that song anymore without breaking down and crying. he spent hours listening to that song in your bedroom. crying. he would look at all your nice drawings and the dnd die you gave him, the literally rings you gave him. he got a small box and put all of the gifts you made for him in there and would look at that box every god damn day. he would keep a picture of you in his wallet and whenever he needed a boost or courge, he would look at your picture. 

soon his grades went down even more then they already were, he was failing in every class because he would start not even going anymore, he would just stay home or go to his secret forest area and get high to forget what happened. but even then, all the places he knew of, you use to be there. you use to sit next to him at the bench in the forest. you use to sit on the living room couch and cuddle with eddie. you use to be in his class, right next to him. you use to sit next to him in hellfire and at lunch. you were always there. and now, those spots were all empty.

whenever he did hang out with other people like dustin and steve, he wasnt the same. he seemed more dull and didnt crack as many jokes as he usually did. he never brought up why but, they knew.

dustin would catch eddie crying in the bathrooms whenever he did go to school.

eddie could never forget you. he loved you and you were the first person to ever treat him human.

later that day. after soon. eddie went to the forest and sat there. he didnt get high he didnt smoke, just just sat there. thinking.

it was 6:35pm and eddie was ontop of a cliff. he found from a friend where a large cliff was saying he wanted to get a new smoking area. but that was all a lie. eddie stepped to the very tip of the cliff while looking down at a over  a hundred feet pit. he took the photo he had of you in his wallet and held it.

“..y/n...”

“ill see you soon.”

a/n sorry for spelling mistakes or mixed up words or if it doesnt make sense its literally 3am and im crying so fucking bad right now.

i just got out of a really bad suicidal episode and so this kinda really was self projecting but yes i am okay! but god i am not after writing this. eat up angst lovers..

[anime-for-the-sleepless]

To all ends part 3

Aizawa x you

☆☆☆☆☆☆☆

It didn't take long for Aizawa's resources to track the IP address down. What he didn't expect, though, was that you'd go as far as leaving the country to get away from him. His heart ached to the point he clutched his chest, trying to keep his breathing under control as his thoughts raced. You went to obviously great lengths to put so much distance between you and him, but the one thing he realized most was that since you left, he's been a mess. He loves you, and without you in his life, he feels incomplete. He went home, shower, shaved a bit, completely cleaning himself up before he made preparations to fly to the States to you. If when he got there and you told him you no longer loved him, he would leavSqpe you alone so you could move on and be happy, but hoped that you wouldn't turn him away.

It wasn't long till he was in the air, leg bouncing nervously.

---

Over the weekend, you completely forgot about the email you had left minimized on the work computer, unknowing that your co-worker hit send for you. Your weekend was uneventful, just restocking your groceries, doing chores around your apartment, and binge watching true crime shows.

The weekend seemed to drag since you moved out here, without work to distract you from your thoughts and the painful hole in your heart where Aizawa was. You couldn't help but ache thinking about him and how much you missed him, wondering if he's moved on? What you never would have guessed he was up to is searching for you.

Monday arrived, and you were back at the lab when one of the other assistants told you that you had a visitor. Curious who could it be, you didnt know anyone outside your job here. So you quickly made your way down to the lobby.

--

The elevator dinged, and the doors opened. There at the desk he stood waiting for you. Hair pulled back in a bun, he hated wearing a suit and tie, but wanted to look his best for you, still wearing his capture scarf as always. In his hand, a bouquet of sunflowers and roses. His nervousness skyrocketed as he watched you step off the elevator, freezing in your tracks when your eyes landed on him.

To him, you were as gorgeous as ever. Even though he could tell you were exhausted, you were still radiant. His feet carried him to you before he could even figure out what he would say.

"Y/N.." Aizawa whispered, afraid if he spoke too loud, you'd fade away, the way you always did in his dreams.

---

Tears pricked your eyes. You couldn't believe he was here. How did he find you? Your thoughts swirled, but you couldn't stop yourself from throwing your arms around his neck and start crying into his chest. You had missed him so badly, and thought he must hate you for leaving, but here he was.. looking for you.

---

As soon as you threw yourself against him, he wrapped his arms around you tightly, kissing the crown of your head. You two stayed like this for a few moments before you led him to an empty conference room to talk. He kept your hand in his, even after you both sat down.

Both of you tried to talk at the same time, chuckling nervously.

"Please, Y/N. Let me say what I came to say, and then I'll go if you want me to." He pleaded, silently waiting till you nodded shyly.

" I am so sorry for making you feel uncared about, unloved, so badly you fled this far without telling anyone. That you felt like you couldn't even tell those close to you.. I am sorry for neglecting you and our relationship. I was just trying to earn money picking up extra shifts and jobs so that i could give you your dream wedding down to even the slightest detail. I wanted it to be a day you would remember as the happiest day of your life because I didn't want to wait too long before marrying you, and i wanted to surprise you. I should have told you what i was planning." He paused to try to calm his pounding heart.

---

You looked at him with more tears threatening to spill from your eyes.

"Shouta.." You breathed. "My dream wedding is you being at the end of the asile, waiting for me. I didn't need a big fancy wedding or an expensive dress. I just needed you. I would have told you this had I known all the added missions and patrols you were doing were for that. I thought you were picking up jobs to avoid coming home..to me." You couldn't stop the sob from escaping you before you carried on.

"I felt so alone, like i had become a buden to you. I missed you, i missed us. But it felt like all that was gone. I couldn't.. i couldn't keep living there feeling that way. And i knew that the best thing for both of us was for me to leave because if there was a chance, I'd run into you, and if i did, it would hurt too much. I didn't want you to feel like you had to be with me, so i came out here where there was zero chance of that happening. Or at least that's what i thought. But how did you find me?"

Silence, other than the clock on the wall that kept ticking.

---

He reached up and cupped your cheek, brushing away the tears that slid down it.

"Baby, you are not a burden. You never have been, never will be. I am sorry I was so preoccupied that i failed to notice how much you were hurting and how much you needed me to be there. How I let you down.. I love you and have been searching for you since the day you left. I would still be looking. Had you not sent that email." He smiled softly, thinking about the email that led him back to you.

---

You blinked in confusion for a moment before realizing that your co-worker must have hit send before leaving that night.

Before you could open your mouth to say something, a knock at the door stopped you.

The receptionist poked her head in and informed you that you were needed back in the lab.

You stood up immediately and thanked her, trying to figure out what to say to Aizawa.

---

He beat you to it.

"Let me take you to dinner tonight."

---

You nodded, agreeing to meet him back in the lobby at seven o'clock.

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[feral-cockroach]

to the boy who i met in the mental hospital

i don't even remember your name anymore. it was 3 years ago now since i met you. i went by lukas back then. i dont know if you are even still alive, let alone if you remember me, and if you do, if you think about me nearly as often as i do you.

i hope that you got the help you deserved. you were there longer than anyone and you deserved the inpatient care you asked for over and over. you were so clear in what you needed at 17. i can only imagine how clear and emotionally intelligent you are now at 20.

i hope so, so much that you made it to 20.

i hope that some day you get to go on the Voice, like you told all of us that you wanted. you had such a beautiful voice. i still remember you singing that ed sheeran song to our little friend group day after day. you sang with such beautiful emotion a song about a mother loved and lost when you yourself were so open about having a mother that did not love you.

the day that i was released, i had gotten the instagram handles of everyone but you. you didnt have an instagram. i dont remember most of your names anymore but you were all such wonderful friends to me.

we would all periodically message each other, asking if anyone had heard from you. had you been released? stayed? did you get the help you needed and deserved? did an adult finally, finally care and listen? i really hope so.

i dont have contact with any of my old friends from that hospital but we all ended on good terms. i think about all of you pretty regularly.

i hope that jeremiah got custody of his little brother. i hope that tara graduated high school. i hope your best friend from the hospital, whose name i have long since forgotten, i hope that his son was born healthy and strong. i hope that you got to meet his son.

i graduated. like you had encouraged me so strongly to do. something you hadn't had the opportunity to do. i hope you have gotten that opportunity since and i hope you have taken it.

my last memory of you was the day that i was released. sitting out in that fenced in kiddie playground, me and you and tara and jeremiah and your best friend and rain all crammed into some little plastic box of an outdoor playset, all of us listening to you sing that ed sheeran song for the third time that day, all of us as enraptured as we were our first times hearing it. we all cried every single time that you sang for us.

i got pulled out for my exit evaluation after your song and i remember being so glad that i had gotten to hear you finish it. i was so glad i was going home and i remember as my mom was pulling out of the parking lot with me in tow, she asked me about my stay and i remember you were the first name i mentioned. about your singing. your voice. how much i hoped you got the help you deserved. how unfair it was they had tried to transfer me to longterm inpatient instead of you, who was actively begging the doctors and nurses to listen. you, who told them if you did not get help, if they discharged you at the end of the week, you would go kill yourself. that you had a plan. that your mother would find you and she would not cry.

i cry over your memory often. i do not know if you are dead. in my heart i want so badly to believe that you are alive. that you got the care you needed and deserved and that you were discharged six months later to a support system that loves and cares about you, and you got in contact with your best friend from that hospital and you are his son's godfather or uncle now. i wish that i'd had a way to contact you. i would have offered you a place to stay with me and my mom, and a fresh start.

we all would have, actually. jeremiah, tara, rain, me. all of us would have. because even in the week that we knew you, we loved you.

your name has long since left my mind and your face is beginning to fade, but you and your friends have left such a lasting impression on me. i entered that hospital alone and terrified and you all gave me a space where i was supported, even when the staff was against us.

i have that ed sheeran song downloaded onto my phone. i listen to it sometimes. each and every time i do, i think of you. i think of you, singing in group therapy, singing on that playground, i think of you begging the nurses to let you stay. i think of those same nurses telling you to your face that you're fine and being dramatic and i want to scream.

i want to scream on your behalf and my own and everyone else's. none of what happened to us was okay. that fucking little rock hospital has failed every single one of us. i just hope that they did not fail you as bad as they were trying to.

nobody wanted to listen to you. nobody wanted to care. i remember that nurse calling jeremiah a faggot and i remember the nurse that cornered me and constantly and intentionally misgendered me. and i think about how scary your outside life must have been if the better alternative was that hospital.

this is all over the place but this is just to say that i love you and i think about you genuinely at least once a week. i advocate for myself and you. i hope you are all right. i dont check obituaries for your name anymore because i dont remember your name anymore. but also because i want to believe that you are elsewhere in the world, having gotten your big break on the voice by singing that ed sheeran song.

the last i heard of you was when rain got discharged four days after me , where you had threatened to kill yourself to the staff and then called as high up as you could go in the hospital. i hope someone listened. i hope so badly that someone finally fucking listened.

this post has gotten much longer and messier than i wanted but. i love you. we all loved you. i hope that your 20s are treating you well and i hope that you graduated and i love you. i love you. i love you.

-formerly, lukas

[suburbanlegnd]

Call Out My Name

“abel im home!!!!! where are u sugar nipples?????” leland tyler wayne says as he walks into the appartment 

“LEAVE ME ALONE METRO BOOMIN.” abel tesfaye yells while crying. 

leland looks hurt. abel only uses his stage name when theyre performing. or when hes angry with him. and right now he seems angry AND sad. 

“I KNOW WHAT YOU DID WITH DRAKE.” abel screams, crying even more. 

“WE DIDNT DO ANYTHING I SWEAR!!!” leland lies. 

“I SAW THE VIDEO. YOU LEFT THE SECURITY CAMERAS IN THE STUDIO ON. I SAW EVERYTHING.” abel screams again, storming off and slamming the door to his and leland’s bedroom and sliding down the wall.

leland follows him up the stairs and knocks on the door. “abel?? abel im really sorry…” 

“NO YOURE NOT. PACK YOUR SHIT AND LEAVE.”  abel screams. 

“abel please. just one chance. i promise i’ll make it up to you.” leland says, tearing up. he knew he fucked up, badly. but he didnt think things would end like this.

“NO. GO FUCK DRAKE AGAIN. SEE IF I CARE. FUCK YOU, METRO BOOMIN.” abel gets a box and starts packing leland’s things in it. 

“ABEL, BABANUGGET PLEASE.” leland screams, sobbing. 

“I CANT BELIEVE YOU’D CHEAT ON ME. AND WITH MY EX BOYFRIEND OF ALL PEOPLE.” abel yells, crying even more. 

“ABEL I SAID I’M SORRY.” 

“I DON’T FORGIVE YOU. YOU RUINED IT ALL. I HOPE YOU’RE HAPPY.” 

leland is heartbroken. he knows this is all his fault. he knows. and he hates to think about it. he hates knowing he’s ruined everything he had. he hates knowing he’s broken abel’s heart. 

he knows what he has to do. 

he makes sure that he remembers drake’s address. and then he grabs a knife.

he has to kill drake. 

he runs out to the car and drives to drake's house. on his way he thinks about all the times with abel. he feels so guilty. he has to fix this. he has to kill drake. its the only way. 

he's finally there. finally at drake’s house. so, he walks to the door and knocks. 

drake opens the door.

“hello icing dick, what do you need today?” he asks, smiling.

but leland doesn't smile. 

“i’m sorry.” he says, stabbing drake in the neck. 

drake falls to the ground, and leland runs back to the car. then he speeds home. 

“ABEL, WHERE ARE YOU. I DID SOMETHING TO MAKE IT BETTER.” leland yells. 

“KILL YOURSELF.” abel screams from the bathroom. he’s crying in the shower. 

leland walks to the bathroom. “abel, can i come in??? i have something to say to you.” he asks.

“fine. but then LEAVE.” abel replies.

he walks in, and abel turns off the shower so he can hear what leland has to say. 

“abel, i have something to tell you.” 

“jfc” 

“i killed drake. i stabbed him and now he’s dead. i regret cheating on you. this is how i wanted to make it up to you. d-do you forgive me?” leland says, tearing up.

“did you really?” abel asks.

“i wouldn’t lie to you again, abel.” 

“then i do forgive you, leland.” abel says, smiling a little. 

and then they all lived happily ever after in a world without drake <33

the end 🩷🩷🩷

damn the script of the new episode of the idol just got leaked

[tiwtdafs]

Call Out My Name

“abel im home!!!!! where are u sugar nipples?????” leland tyler wayne says as he walks into the appartment

“LEAVE ME ALONE METRO BOOMIN.” abel tesfaye yells while crying.

leland looks hurt. abel only uses his stage name when theyre performing. or when hes angry with him. and right now he seems angry AND sad.

“I KNOW WHAT YOU DID WITH DRAKE.” abel screams, crying even more.

“WE DIDNT DO ANYTHING I SWEAR!!!” leland lies.

“I SAW THE VIDEO. YOU LEFT THE SECURITY CAMERAS IN THE STUDIO ON. I SAW EVERYTHING.” abel screams again, storming off and slamming the door to his and leland’s bedroom and sliding down the wall.

leland follows him up the stairs and knocks on the door. “abel?? abel im really sorry…”

“NO YOURE NOT. PACK YOUR SHIT AND LEAVE.” abel screams.

“abel please. just one chance. i promise i’ll make it up to you.” leland says, tearing up. he knew he fucked up, badly. but he didnt think things would end like this.

“NO. GO FUCK DRAKE AGAIN. SEE IF I CARE. FUCK YOU, METRO BOOMIN.” abel gets a box and starts packing leland’s things in it.

“ABEL, BABANUGGET PLEASE.” leland screams, sobbing.

“I CANT BELIEVE YOU’D CHEAT ON ME. AND WITH MY EX BOYFRIEND OF ALL PEOPLE.” abel yells, crying even more.

“ABEL I SAID I’M SORRY.”

“I DON’T FORGIVE YOU. YOU RUINED IT ALL. I HOPE YOU’RE HAPPY.”

leland is heartbroken. he knows this is all his fault. he knows. and he hates to think about it. he hates knowing he’s ruined everything he had. he hates knowing he’s broken abel’s heart.

he knows what he has to do.

he makes sure that he remembers drake’s address. and then he grabs a knife.

he has to kill drake.

he runs out to the car and drives to drake's house. on his way he thinks about all the times with abel. he feels so guilty. he has to fix this. he has to kill drake. its the only way.

he's finally there. finally at drake’s house. so, he walks to the door and knocks.

drake opens the door.

“hello icing dick, what do you need today?” he asks, smiling.

but leland doesn't smile.

“i’m sorry.” he says, stabbing drake in the neck.

drake falls to the ground, and leland runs back to the car. then he speeds home.

“ABEL, WHERE ARE YOU. I DID SOMETHING TO MAKE IT BETTER.” leland yells.

“KILL YOURSELF.” abel screams from the bathroom. he’s crying in the shower.

leland walks to the bathroom. “abel, can i come in??? i have something to say to you.” he asks.

“fine. but then LEAVE.” abel replies.

he walks in, and abel turns off the shower so he can hear what leland has to say.

“abel, i have something to tell you.”

“jfc”

“i killed drake. i stabbed him and now he’s dead. i regret cheating on you. this is how i wanted to make it up to you. d-do you forgive me?” leland says, tearing up.

“did you really?” abel asks.

“i wouldn’t lie to you again, abel.”

“then i do forgive you, leland.” abel says, smiling a little.

and then they all lived happily ever after in a world without drake <33

the end 🩷🩷🩷

archer