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[rpfisfine]

Hey guys

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so i’ve had a lot on my mind lately — the good, the bad, the ugly, you know the drill. i’m used to the bad and the ugly, but i think (and ofc by my therapist’s rec) i need to give a little credit to the good, too. not to mention the good is largely comprised of people, and those people deserve a sports stadium wave, yk? idk shit abt sports, whatever, but i know what the wave is and it’s like the grandest gesture i can think of, SO

listen, y’all. to get real here, i hate fandom. my time spent therein has been hit-or-miss, but the misses got me hard and contributed to some major self-loathing, etc etc. we’re not gonna get into the specifics, i don’t owe that to anyone, but suffice it to say things got Rough.

but so much of it can be so, so good. and rn i want to keep on my rose-colored glasses, and the rosiest parts for me have always been @kitten1618x and @mygutsforgarters

(quite a few others, too, but i no longer have everyone’s info. and some ppl are newer friends, or relationships that have moved more slowly. i have mad love for u guys too, obvs, but ik melissa and gus irl so we know each other More and they’re who this post is rly about atm. pls know i don’t want to harsh on anyone’s feelings)

the tl;dr version of events is i met them both via fanfic. i happened upon theirs like “bitch!!!! **i** wanna do this, they’re bomb as hell” and then i made them be friends w me. they’ll tell you they wanted to be friends w me first, but that’s not important bc **i** am the one making this post, so they can both like,, suck it.

ANYWAY.

@ melissa : so bitch listen. here’s the thing abt melissa…… i found her while browsing jonsa fic back when i cared abt GOT, and she brought me back to what i loved so much abt romance when i first started, way back in junior high, what’s up. i bad a fascination w historial romantic epics for a loooooong time — those formative yrs, amirite ladies??? — but girl i could never write it so well as melissa. immediately she struck this balance between the drama you expect from historicals and the levity of a good romance, and i was just like, “hand to god this woman must be published already, surely???”

(she’s not, but that’s ridiculous so we’re gonna skip that)

(also she’s busy?? we’ve been friends for like six years and i will never know how many kids she actually has, but the point is she’s a goddamn superhero and i’m obsessed w her, MOVING ON)

i just Had to be her friend for two reasons: 1) she’s too talented, and b) i have said that abt 2 ppl my entire life and she was the first, so i was like, “AH YES MY HOLY GRAIL”

so ofc i slid into her DMs just as effectively as that one guy i had a crush on when i was sixteen and he’s still shooting me texts every valentine’s day bc of the societal pressures i guess (it is Far Less Effective these days, he’s my age and therefore too young for me, gross, but i digress), except me and melissa go way stronger.

she reminded me of why, half a lifetime ago, i started writing romance — bc it’s fun, bc i want to. bc i can do absolutely anything i want, bc who else is gonna read it but me and whoever i share it with? it was all up to me what i wanted to do with it, and i could do anything. nothing really mattered but what i wanted, and i hadn’t felt that way abt anything in such a long time — let alone abt something i used to love so much.

melissa’s writing is so beautiful, it’s everything i wanted to achieve when i was fifteen and never got around to perfecting. and i’m totally okay w that now, bc what do i need to do myself that she’s not already doing/wants to do in the future? when i found melissa’s writing i found a missing part of me — a part i’d maybe lost, maybe i gave it up, idk, but it was totally gone until i found her fics and they fucking clicked. i had to reach out bc there was a part of me that was a part of her, and she helped me find that again w/o even knowing it.

so i found melissa via GOT, and from the start she’d been trying to get me to write some bethyl. years and years, she dropped not-so-subtle hints — and by “hints,” i mean legit directives that i watch just enough TWD to write her some beth/daryl fic. real crafty, she is.

eventually the stars aligned: i was bored w the same dynamics i’d been writing for years, i wanted smthn new, i was restless, i was line editing a bethyl fic she’d written, and — again — this shit clicked. her fic made me want to explore this dynamic i’d never done before, so i watched the prerequisite episodes (no more than that tho, i super hate the show and i’m begging y’all to not @ me abt it anymore). i found smthn that i’d been missing, smthn that challenged and excited me and brought me back around to why i love romance and, more importantly, why i want to write it myself.

so as i was starting to write bethyl, i was poking around the ao3 tag to get a feel for what had been done, what hadn’t, anything i might be missing. and goddamn BAM —

@ gus : this is where u enter dramatically thru a red velvet curtain that i don’t wanna touch (Metaphorically bc you do romance better than me and i’m cool w that bc your talent simply Cannot be touched, and Literally bc i hate velvet) — i was like, “please for the love of god let her want to write contemporary romance, i need some good fckin food”

i happened upon “doo wah diddy diddy” first. ofc the summary hooked me, forget my usual hard no against pregnancy fics (i have issues w pregnancy and that’s all anybody Needs to know, back off), but This Bitch !!!!!!! has a way with words and i wanted to be friends w her straightaway. lmao too bad for her, now she’s stuck w me

gus’s fics gave me what i wanted without having to write it myself. her style is so distinctive, she hits the notes between porn and Actual Affection that is missing from uhhhh, every romance i’ve tried?? (why is everyone so intent on the sex part?? fckin chill. at best it’s unrelatable and at worst u sound like u’d rather wear someone than fuck them, check urself)

she writes w such care, she wants you to know what she’s doing here, and what she’s doing here is combining the physical and emotional needs of both characters w/o infringing on anyone’s comfortability. you root for these characters bc they simply want to be together, no strings (and if there are strings, damn, they talk abt it).

gus makes you believe in love in the modern age. like, not to sound like one of those ppl who post fckin “no one in this generation knows how to love!!!1!!11!!” memes on facebook, those are dumb, but gus’s writing made me think “yeah man, love ain’t dead, it’s just abt how we approach it.”

(if y’all haven’t guessed yet, i have some hang-ups abt relationships. i’ve goddamn earned those. but melissa and gus both brought me back to where i needed to be — in this place where, yeah, we’ve got some shit to deal with, but we all still deserve the things we want, and those things are achievable. i could not have gotten here without them, so jot that down.)

gus is Real, she’s funny, she’s unapologetic in the way she writes. ofc she has her personal hurdles, but who doesn’t?? and tbh nobody writes a sex scene like gus does. physical, realistic, but balanced w the emotional depth that makes you root for these characters bc you can Feel how much they want each other — not just sexually, but in the less-erotic aftermath of that passion. it continues to blow my mind, bc i’ve never seen anyone do what she does. i can’t even pinpoint the specifics, bc she just… Does It. and you’re reading it like “yeah bitch that’s it,” and That’s It.

it’s fckin wild.

these two — my best friends, the lights of my life, both of whom always make me crave chicken tenders at THE most inconvenient hours bc somehow we always talk abt chicken or ice cream or ultimately DQ, but they're both so hot idec — have something special.

i really, really want them both to know that: it’s not just in how they’ve treated me as a friend, but who they are as people, in their creative pursuits. i’ve never known support the way they’ve shown me; i’ve never known this much enthusiasm or investment or belief that i can do what i want with my talent. i want them to know that i feel the same way abt them and their works.

sometimes, when i look back at their writing that completely kicked my ass, i still can’t believe that they’ve become two of my best friends. it’s totally bonkers. they’re This Talented, and they wanna be friends w my spastic ass? GIRL. i’m out.

i’m not always the best at being present, at giving people what they need when they need it. but with everything that melissa and gus have given me in the past few years, i need them to know this — honey!!! i need all y’all to know this, bc i know fandom shit is hard, but you should know some of these friendships are so, so worth all that bullshit, so —

they have so much to give, so much to say, so much to offer. i could not have kept going without them. i couldn’t believe in myself without the faith they’ve given to me. i hope that i can always give that same faith right back.

and that, babes, is what real soulmates are all about.

[moonlightsolo]

bête noire

summary: It’s been two weeks since the Resistance has made their new home on Ajar Kloss. You’ve disconnected yourself from everyone on the base, including Poe. Ever since Kylo Ren infiltrated your mind with dark thoughts, you’ve tried to steer clear of the Force. 

pairing: kylo ren x female reader

warnings: none. nada. zip. zero. zilch.

wc: 3.1k

note: here ya go. hope you enjoy. i worked rly hard on this. pls leave feedback thx.

CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN

The days go by slowly as you sit in your tiny room on the dormant ship. You’ve shut yourself off completely from the Resistance, ignoring the pull from the light and the dark.

Since the last time you spoke with Kylo Ren, he hasn’t been bothering you. Although his presence in the Force is still there but he has cut his ties from you for now. 

It’s time you focus on yourself and your children.

The only opportunity you get to you leave your little sanctuary is when you need to use the bathroom or get cleaned up. 

The droid has been fetching you food from the commissary and bringing it back for you. She also has gotten you books too so the time would go by quicker.

You’re reading about the galaxy when somebody knocks on the metal door, you can feel that it’s Rey. She has been bothering you ever since the incident in the jungle. She knows you’re pulling yourself away from the light purposely and she doesn’t want you to go astray too far.

“Fine. If you’re not going to open the door, I’ll leave it out here for you.” She sighs, her footsteps begin to stomp away.

Did she leave something for you?

You lay down your book and stand up from your spot on your bed to open the door and peek out. It’s a staff.

You quickly grab it and retreat back into your room like a hermit crab. Your fingers run over the smooth wood, seeing how the edges are singed and black. You grip the edges and smile. You lay it against the wall and sit back down, “What is that?” Mary beeps out.

“It’s a quarterstaff. I can train with it.” You nod, your eyes glancing at your babies. They’re reaching their tiny hands over the bassinet to grab their sibling. They’ve gotten so big. “I’ll sneak out tonight when everybody is asleep and go train. Will you watch them for me?” You look up at her and she nods.

You pick your book back and up and begin reading again.

-

With a quick motion, you bend down to tie your shoelaces. You tuck your utility pants into your boots then you adjust your tee shirt. Your fingers run over the embroidered Resistance emblem on the sleeve.

“I’ll be back soon.” You tie your hair up into a top knot before grabbing your staff. You open the door slowly, your head peeking out through the crack to look both ways down the hall.

There are a few people scattered in the hallways sleeping so you just creep past them and out of the ship.

You haven’t felt fresh air in a while, it feels like it has been almost a month. You take a deep breath and begin sprinting towards the exit of the cave, hoping your footsteps are quiet enough so nobody hears you.

You take a sharp turn into the trees, following the nature-made path Rey took you down once before. You dodge large rocks and skip over the branches that are laying in the way.

When you make it to the opening, the moonlight has replaced the sun in the night sky. You can vividly see the stars twinkling in space above you. Your mind drifts to Kylo, knowing he is somewhere out there. You shake your head and take a deep breath, you begin to swing your staff expertly. You use the trunk of a tree to practice.

Your feet twirl your body around with the staff in your hands, holding it in a striking position as you launch forward. You make sure not to hit the tree, stopping it inches away from the bark. You don’t want to cause unnecessary damage to nature.

You spin your body to do countless strikes, your teeth grit together as your grunt with every swift movement. Someone’s hand touches your shoulder, which is a bad idea on their part. You turn towards the body, sweeping the staff under their ankles to knock them to the ground.

They groan in pain as they lay back against the lush grass. You push the staff against their chest with your face full of anger. You instantly soften when you realize it’s Poe. “Oh, my stars. I’m so sorry.” You drop the staff to the ground as you bend down to his side.

He starts to laugh, holding his side as he did. Maybe he hit his head too hard.

“I can’t believe you knocked me down. Now I can see how good you handle yourself.” He chuckles and takes in a deep breath. You start to laugh with him, your eyes closing as you feel tears trying to leave your eyes. “I… was… so focused… I didn’t even hear you..” You say between laughs as you stand up and reach your hand out to help him up.

When he gets to his feet, he doesn’t let go of your hand and instead he pulls you into a hug. You’re stiff at first but you relax and almost go limp in his arms. You let out a relieved sigh, a small smile forms on your lips and your eyes close. “I missed you.” He said softly, his head rests on top of yours. “Me too, Poe. Me too…” You open your eyes to look up at him.

Poe’s brown eyes look down at you, his smile copies yours. “Why’d you pull yourself away from us? It was like you weren’t here again.” He shakes his head and hugs you tighter as the negative memories flood his head. “I’m scared, Poe. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to be tied up in this war anymore. It’s impossible for me to just pick up and leave.” You pull away slightly but he still keeps you close.

Before he could answer, something cracks a twig behind him. You summon the staff to your hand, turning your body so Poe is behind you. You get into a fighting stance but Poe puts his hand on your staff to stop you. “It’s just Rey…” He notices how scared and defensive you got. He feels sorry for you and it makes you sick that he does. Poe knows that you’re protective because of your past, he knows that it scarred you.

Rey’s body creeps out of the shadows, the light casting down on her features as she walks closer to you both “I noticed her running through the cave earlier. I was going to go after you but Poe saw you too. So I let him handle it…” Her eyes look at the staff and she smiles. “I’m glad you got it.” She nods and you smile, “Oh yeah... Thank you, Rey.” You sigh then bite your lip from being nervous. It’s silent for a moment before Rey speaks again, “Can I speak to her alone?“ She glances over at Poe.

Poe looks at you and back at Rey, his shoulders lift up into a shrug. He starts to walk back towards the base with his eyes watching his feet. “Remember when we were training here and I said you can use a saber pretty well?” Her accented voice speaks out excitedly. “I want to make my own one day and I was wondering if you would be open to making your own too?” Her smile is wide and your face shows pure shock. “Really? My own?” She grabs your hands and closes her eyes.

“I had a vision,” Her voice echoes in your head. A scene starts to flicker through your brain. You’re seeing it through Rey’s perspective. It feels like you’re watching a film. She’s piloting the Falcon with Chewie through hyperspace. Then your muffled voice appears behind her and she turns her head to look at you. You’re shocked by your appearance— You look so different.

Your hair is cut to your shoulders, two pieces are braided and secured back. You’re wearing tight black leather pants, boots and a gray tunic of some sort. You notice the belt around your waist with a clip that would hold a lightsaber hilt. You have a blaster connected to the other side in a holster. You notice how you’ve gotten more fit, you seem genuinely happy too. 

You can barely make out the conversation then the scene skips forward. The three of you are walking in a cave, it’s dark until you all stumble upon a cavern filled with glimmering crystals. They litter the floor and the ceiling. There is a large spiral stone ramp going up the side so anyone could reach the high ones. Rey bends down to touch a crystal and when her fingers graze the outside, the vision ends.

You gasp as you come back into reality, your chest is rising and falling quite quickly. “See? You are destined to be great. I know you’re scared right now but take your time. You’ll choose the right path.” She pulls your body into a hug.

When she pulls away, she notices the tears flooding in your eyes, “Are you happy or sad?” She asks, her hands are now resting on your shoulders.

You shrug and sniffle as you bring your hands up to wipe your tears away from your eyes. You don’t know if you’re happy for sad, you’re feeling so many emotions. “I should get going now. I hope I’ll see you tomorrow?” She asks as she pulls away. You nod with a smile on your face, wiping your tears away as you look up at the stars again.

You take a deep shaky breath as you watch them twinkle. You sit down in the grass, laying down on your back so you can stargaze for a few moments. Before you know it, you’re fast asleep.

-

The stars are still twinkling above you when you open your eyes but you can’t see your surroundings, it’s too dark. Not even the grass beneath you.

The sound of a lightsaber hums around you but you can’t seem to find it in the dark. Then you spot it, the beam of angry red light casts over your face. It’s not Kylo’s though, it’s a regular red saber with no cross-guard.

Their stature almost matches his; Tall and dark. A cape billows out behind their broad frame, they twirl the saber expertly in their one hand.

Are they a Sith?

A crackly heavy breathing sound comes from the helmet they’re wearing. The light casts over the helmet and his armor.

The black surface shines under the red glow. A vent covers the person's mouth, the beady black eye covers look into your soul. They continue to breathe heavily while looking at you.

You’re drawn to this person, almost like you’re put in a trance. You’re certain that he could definitely harm you if you get too close but their presence comforts you in away.

You slowly creep towards them, your hand lifts up hesitatingly to touch the helmet. You want to see if he’s real if they’re standing in front of you.

His gloved hand comes up and grabs your wrist, “Enough.” His deep voice crackles through the modulator.

Light swirls around you like hyperspace, your breath was taken from your chest. Wind howls in your ears then you’re dropped onto the sand.

Your hands grip the gritty texture, it falls right through your fingers. The environment around you is hot. So hot. Sweat almost instantly begins to pool on your forehead. You inhale sharply as the air returns to your lungs, tears sting your eyes as you try to focus.

A blurry hand reaches into your vision, they’re standing in front of you. You warily take their hand and they hoist you up to your feet. “Hey, are you okay?” The man asks you.

You blink away your tears, looking at him with wide eyes when your vision focuses on his face. He’s young, most likely a teenager or a man with a baby face. You can’t help but notice a scar that travels across his features; It’s like Kylo.

His skin is sun-kissed most likely from the double suns behind him, his outfit resembles the old Jedi garb. You look around and notice the sandy huts around you. You’re on Tattooine.

“I know why you’re here.” He speaks to you. Your head whips around to face him again, “I don’t even know why I’m here. How did I get here?” You breathe out in panic.

“It’s okay. Let’s speak somewhere more private.” He leads you into a hut, it’s quite nice inside. He sits you down at a table that has a bowl of odd looking fruit in the middle.

“My name is Anakin Skywalker.” The name takes your breath away. Your hand grips the edge of the table as you try to steady yourself.

“Kylo’s grandfather? As in the Darth Vader?” You barely croak out. He seems a bit troubled by your words.

“Yes. I can feel your pain through the Force. I once was in your shoes. I was torn between the light and the dark.” His eyes flicker down for a moment then he looks back up at you. “I lost my family by choosing the wrong path. My grandson, Ben Solo, lost his family by choosing the wrong path. Choose your own path. Take care of your children.” His hand reaches across to grab yours before you could respond. His touch sends tingles across your skin, he smiles then you drop through the floor.

It’s like you’re being teleported to a different realm once again. Images swirl around you in a cyclone, your hair is blowing everywhere from the insane amount of wind. Your hands reach out to try and grab something to stop yourself. All of the air has left your body and it feels like you’re going to be falling for eternity.

The grass suddenly appears beneath you, your fight or flight kicks in. As you get closer to it, your hands go up to shield your face then you hit the ground. Everything goes dark.

-

The bright light around you is what wakes you up, surprisingly not the humid air. Your eyes open and for a moment, you still think you’re in your dream. Then you realize that you’re laying on your side in the grass and dirt. Sweat is soaked into your clothing, your hair is sticking to your damp forehead. You shoot up from the spot, your vision gets a bit fuzzy from standing up too quickly. You take a sharp breath through your nose as you grab your staff and head out of the jungle. 

As you get closer to the base, you see that people are walking everywhere. Anxiety settles in your chest, you wonder what people will think when they see you in this state. Especially because you’ve been a little bit of an introvert lately.

You slide out of the tree-line into view, walking back towards the cave so you can get cleaned up. You keep your head down in an attempt to not make eye contact with anyone. 

Rey spots you walking, she waves then her face scrunches up when she sees the state you’re in. You instantly make a beeline towards her, walking with purpose.

“What happened to you?” She questions, looking at your dirty clothes and face.

“I fell asleep out there,” Your hand goes up to itch your arm and you feel bumps under your fingers. You grimace from the pain, “Ouch.” You look down and see pink bites, most likely from bugs.

“I don’t know what happened last night. I remember being visited by Anakin. Anakin fucking Skywalker, Rey.” Your voice hushes down so people wouldn’t notice but they were already looking.

Her eyes go wide and she looks around nervously, her hand goes to your shoulder. “We need to talk to Leia about this.” She leads you to the command center where Leia is talking to Poe and other officials.

Poe’s face lights up when he sees you, then his eyes look at your dirty outfit and his eyebrows furrow. “What happened? Are you okay?” He interrupts Leia who was in the middle of speaking to him. He slides past her and meets you, his hands go to cup your cheeks.

“Hi, Poe.” You smile, “I’m okay. I just need to talk to Leia.” Rey scoffs as you guys hold eye contact for a little too long.

“Come on. This is urgent.” Rey tugs on your arm like a parent, “I’ll talk to you after okay?” You look back at Poe as she leads you away.

Leia has already turned herself around and was staring at the three of you. “What’s going on?” Her voice is soft but still concerned.

“She had a vision.” Rey says with a shaky voice, “From Anakin, your father.” You quip in. Rey glances at you in the corner of her eyes then looks back at Leia to see her reaction.

Her face is still, maybe she’s in shock. “Why would he visit you...” She breathes out as she thinks. “Do you remember anything he said to you? Even if it’s just one word.” She asks as she moves closer to you.

“He told me to choose my own path. He compared himself to... Ben... By how he left his own family for power.” Your head falls to look at your feet.

“Force ghosts visit you to give you guidance during a hard time. Usually only if you’re a Jedi... But, I guess he made an exception for you.. Unless he knows something we don’t.” Leia sighs, her hand goes to your chin to lift up your face.

“Follow his advice. Do what you think feels right, okay? Do not let anyone else persuade you to do anything other than that.” She is stern, she wants you to follow her advice too.

“Of course, Leia. Thank you.” You smile as she pulls you into a quick hug, “Now go get cleaned up. You’re dirty.” She laughs along with you.

When you walk away from the command center, your steps feel lighter like a weight has been lifted off of your shoulders.

Poe stops you, “I want to talk.” He’s serious but right now, you smell like sweat and wilderness so you need to get cleaned up first. “Of course. After I shower though, is that okay?” You ask with a small smile. He nods, then of course, he returns it but adds a kiss to your cheek which makes you blush.

“Come to my room when you’re done.” He walks away quickly to go finish whatever he needed to as commander. 

You quickly grab your shower supplies from your room, you give your babies a kiss before leaving again. 

You make your way to the communal showers, hopefully nobody is in there already since you’d like some privacy.

Thankfully, there is closed off sections where a shower is but it’s kind of awkward showering when there’s another person in the same room with you.

When you pull off your boots to get undressed, golden sand falls out onto the tile floor. You bend down to touch it, “What?” You breathe out in surprise.

You attempt to forget about it but as you take the rest of your clothes off of your body, more sand falls out from hidden crevices. 

You just push your clothes to the side and step into the stream of water. With your soapy cloth, you scrub at your body to get all the residue of the dirt off of your skin. 

You don’t want to believe you were actually teleported to Tattooine to talk to Anakin. It was just a vision. Nothing else.

-

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[lexicals]

Okay okay okay (penumbra spoilers below):

RITA REDACTED I LOVE YOU

I WAS EXPECTING BUDDY HONESTLY BUT RITA REDACTED I LOVE YOU X2 COMBO

I love the setup here so much. Everyone is fine, physically at least, the ship is getting repaired and progress is being made. It's all chill (well, kind of). Kabert thank you for my life this is everything I didn’t know I needed

They always manage to really surprise me with these episode concepts tbh it's always something different and I love that

Jet is so protective of the ruby? Amazing subtlety of voice acting there tbh, the difference in tone when jet is talking about not letting the ruby go/not having let it get this damaged before is only barely noticeable but there's a lot of emotion behind it

Speaking of which what the Hale is up with it?? I did wonder at the end of last ep whether it would have been able to save everyone while still tied down and it seems like?? Maybe it did?? Somehow???

Idk if this ties in with what rita was talking about with the book being the closest thing humanity has to a true AI cause like the ruby is definitely not Just A Car

Vespa doesn't seem to be doing okay huh ;; I had hoped that maybe she'd be feeling a bit better about herself after the end of last ep but this makes sense, I still hope she manages to work through this soon though....... I hope buddy is doing okay too oh god she must be hurting

Peter like "yes come in! Oh..... you're not juno ):"

Is he playing an instrument like the one from the square on new kinshasa do you think..... oof. Love that though. Rita calling it his depressing instrument made me snort out loud

I'm SO GLAD that the dynamic between rita & nureyev is this one. I rbed a post last week talking about that dynamic of a character who's obviously an idiot (not that I would ever rly call rita an idiot) and one who seems sane, but is actually just as bad and joked that this was the forbidden dynamic but LITTLE DID I KNOW

Anyway they're both terrible and I love them

"Here's the lady of the hour" I am healed. I have ascended to a higher plane, forever.

Juno like :>!!! No I can help what do you need!!! God BLESS

I love him so much every line is music to my ears he's doing so WELL

Rita being like I love you and I'm glad you love each other but please god you're such a technophobe please this is not the mission for you

Jupeter excessive pda confirmed? Anyway cute

COMPUTER CAVE......

Idiot squad is on the CASE. Mama buddy is gonna be so mad when she finds out though fhsgfjfhd

DRIFT COMPATIBILITY

I mean not really but god that would've been fun though

I have one single complaint about this episode and that is that I found the robot voices really hard to understand/listen to...... I had to turn my audio all the way up to make out what anyone was saying and at that point the volume was making my ears hurt ):

Anyway I love this concept though & it's so fucking funny

I had been wondering about rita's episode, specifically what flaw of hers her episode would be addressing? Seeing as that seems to be the pattern here, with nureyev's self-isolation, jet's struggling with/repressing his past, and vespa's struggle to trust people/come to terms with her new way of life. So far it seems like the issue is that she's just straight up out of touch with the others and maybe a little selfish? She's more focused on how she thinks things should go than on what would be practical as evidenced with the robots in particular, idk maybe these eps rly are gonna be just pure comedy relief but I'm interested to see how that develops

Especially with her saying it's better to ask forgiveness than permission, idk I think maybe rita knows how smart she is perhaps a little too much? I love her but they've kind of gone in half-cocked here

I wonder if this ties back to her mother in any way, too..... cause we know rita's mother was, if nothing else, someone who used to make homemade bombs, idk what kind of lessons she was teaching her kid lmao

Dark matters back again oh boy..... and isn't agent g the same one that was in charge when they killed m'tendere? Interesting that they seem to be going after the same marks here

Anyway this ep was such a nice change of pace I loved it I'm so excited for the next one although I'm more than a little worried about what buddy is going to have to say about this when it's all over lmao

Second listen:

Okay SERIOUSLY though what the hell is up with the ruby 7. What is she!!!

Buddy talking about how catastrophising means you put yourself through a thousand disasters..... after last ep & considering how vespa thinks..... oh dear

"Not /supposed/ to know much about mistah ransom" RITA?? HELLO??? What does she KNOW....... is this gonna come up next ep aaaa

"Juno.... dear......" I LOVE THEM THOUGH

Also though I was talking abt this w a couple of people but I rly hope we haven't missed All of the canon development for juno & peter....... after 2 seasons of build-up having the emotional climax to their relationship arc happen offscreen would be a little frustrating so I hope they're saving some stuff,,,

Anyway this whole concept is so ridiculous but so good...... the robots.... the Names........ I love it sm. Rita redacted I LOVE YOU

[dr-habitual]

iM very emotional anyway here’s the letter i wrote its personal and dumb but im rly happy about the epilogue

I love you all SO much! It's been really hard lately, today especially has been kind of terrible. Bad things are happening, I can't do anything about it, I'm running out of money and im really scared. This means so much to me, to be able to see you're happy. I know this is just a game, but this made my day.

I'm a really sad and lonely person, and I don't like myself much. I've made some friends through the Smile For Me community, and I'm just disappointed I didn't play the game sooner and get into all of this when it first came out. I think I missed a bunch of potential friends...

To Yugo and Gabe: thank you for such a wonderful game. It is beautiful and I feel like I've made friends with the characters, and when I get sad or don't want to take care of myself, it helps to think of flower kid or Kamal or Mirphy or anyone wanting/pushing me to do better... And to be honest, I haven't made this much art/writing in years. Smile For Me has made me want to make art again... I was ready to sell my tablet and just give up... I've been ready to just give up in general, lately, but it's nice, and rare, to have something that makes me excited and happy again. I've missed it.

It's also been the final push for making me realize I'm trans. I know you guys didn't write anything specific into the game, and it's mostly fanon that Habit/Kamal/others are trans, but... it's nice . And it's really helped. So so much. Thank you.

I feel a bit silly writing a message to characters from a video game... But I do love them so much. They're all so funny and kind and just feel very real. I care about them and I'm so happy that we had the option to make them all happy in return.

Habit means a lot to me, as does Kamal, and Wallus and Putunia, and just- everyone really, but Habit's story and ... everything just means so much to me. I'm glad for some confirmation that he gets to be happy.

I guess If they can read this I just want them to know that I love them, and thank you. I hope they're doing okay, and I just want them all to be happy, forever and ever. And to know that people love them a lot, and are sending them lots of hugs and kisses and love.

I don't know what else to say. Thank you so much for the game, YugoLimbo team. :,-) I'm legit crying, this was really sweet and nice. Thank you for the game. Thank you for another reason for me to keep going. To not give up. Thank you for helping me realize some things about myself, and helping me make friends.

Really though, thank you. Today was horrible and scary and this

this was really nice.

I hope you're all well and staying safe, and are happy. Thank you so so much. This game means a lot to me, thank you for making something for the anniversary.

Thank you <3

[guns-n-zeppelin]

Never Say Die - 1989-1997

@lauravic asked: Hey! I just binged Never Say Die and loved it and it’s really unfortunate that it’s discontinued. Could you maybe tie it up for me and everyone else and maybe tell us just key events of what was gonna happen? Like did Axl and Amy ever figure things out and end up together? Or what you meant in the beginning of the series when Axl said that “Amy died in 1997”. Just key points to rest our minds? If not, then it’s completely fine, I just had to try and ask. I love your stuff btw

Masterlist - Never Say Die

A/N: Sure thing, love. I’ve been meant to do this actually for a long time but lmao i’m lazy af. Also, sorry i took so long to answer haha. Hope i’ll let y’all out of your sufferings now. It would have been great to finish this honestly but i’m too unmotivated to do anything pfft. Also don’t have time but uhuh. ALSO i haven’t updated this legit in 2 years probably and still i get almost every day notes to this story and the chapters, i thought at this point this would have been long forgotten or something. Wild. I’m really glad and flattered how many of you have liked my story, it always brightens my day a lot to hear positive comments :’) But i think this has atleast some of the main / biggest key events that would happen. I’m not sure if i forgot couple of them or something, but here’s some atleast. I mean, 8 years is quite a long time but khgjlh. These are just like, the biggest probs. This is reallyy shortly explained but i hope you’ll get some kind of picture of the future events.  I’m rly bad at summarising (is that a word) things, but let me know what you think for the last time ahah. But thank you again, everyone, for reading my stories :’) I truly appreciate it! Hugs <3

Quick Summary

Dave and Amy weren’t dating and neither were Axl and Erin, even though some time later Axl would end up back together with Erin again for a while. Amy and Axl took distance to each other, though Amy still kept seeing with the other guys. Some weeks passed and Amy and Axl went back to being friends, both of them managing to pretend that nothing had happened.

Amy had done some studies about journalism for some time, also before her death in her ‘original life’, and in 1989 went all the way to London for one year to try to finish them. So she ended up moving there, saying it was just one year. They would still keep in touch somewhat regularly, although it was pretty hard. After her studies, Amy got an offer of a permanent job as a journalist in London, which she took and ended up staying there much longer.

In 1990 Amy started dating a man named Adam, a young police officer, who she would later marry and have a child with as well in 1994.

Also, in the beginning of 1991, Amy met Randy again, the same man who she had met a few years ago at the record store. Though now, he was in London with Amy’s mother. At that moment, she finally found out who her father was. Randy Castillo, who would die in 2002 while future Amy had just turned 5 years old.

The next time Steven, Izzy, Duff, Slash and Axl met Amy, was in 1991 at their gig in London. They spent all time together they possibly were able to during that short time, catching up and all that. Axl had met Stephanie and Amy told the five of them about Adam as well. Steven and Scarlet were still together and Steven told Amy, that he was planning to propose her, but hadn’t told anyone else yet.

Adam and Amy had a daughter in summer of 1994, but only after two months since their child Amber was born, Adam died – he was shot on his chest. After 3 months since they had kept his funeral, Amy decided to return back to the USA, not being able to stay in England any longer. Needing to get back to her friends.

Amy was still friends with Jon as well, even after the past years and their broke up. She met with him too and chatted together catching up, her introducing him to Amber too. Amy hadn’t informed anyone else except Scarlet, that she would be coming back there, so it was a surprise to all of them. But things had changed a lot since Amy left, new faces coming up and down the stages and couple of familiar ones missing. Izzy and Steven had been replaced already, so she wasn’t able to meet with Izzy again at that time atleast. Izzy would meet Amber as well later though of course.

Matt Sorum and Dizzy Reed had already heard a lot about Amy and were eager to meet her personally. Both of them had heard about Axl and Amy’s quick affair together, but decided not to mention it to either of them.

Amy and Axl were now both single and during time both of them felt old feelings getting back up again, but refused to confess them to even themselves. But they would still get back together eventually in the 1996, when Amy was ready to date anyone again after Adam had died and when it didn’t feel like cheating on him anymore.

And Axl knew, that he would propose Amy some day, and so he did after a year and they got married for a short moment in June 1997.

But everything changed in autumn 1997, right on the day of Amy’s birthday. Unfortunately Amy died from a heart attack. She wouldn’t be able to be alive at two different places at the same time and at that exact moment she would be born elsewhere to her parents, in a hospital just a few hour drive away. Scarlet, Amber’s aunt, raised Amber, who had just lost both her mother and father by the age of 3.

It took a long time for Axl to move on from Amy, but the last time he would ever see the girl he once loved, would be in 2013 when a 16 year old girl with a Led Zeppelin t-shirt on walked past him on the streets of Los Angeles with her friends Leo and Amelie.

(A/N2: I basically obviously ignored some parts how some of their lives went like idk Steven’s especially but doesn’t matter lmao spare me with that)

[ofphcenixes]

BLUE & LIBBY - text thread 001

texts from 3:55pm to 7:01pm

blue

hey lib. (: havent talked today. just wanted to drop in and see if u were doin alright i have memes if u need them

libby

i mean, technically we did talk. i reminded you of the moment the world stood still: when valentine and you made contact (1) time. are you okay though? you seem a little, weird

blue

i maintain that valentine was an alien in a spider suit that wanted to destroy me but u know what I mean djdjdjd just chats between us. the gc has been a june holden fest lately lmao hope it works out for them tho anyways i am always weird in ur eyes djdjhd. but im fine. shit was crazy that night and we never really got to talk about what happenedand if u wanted to talk i just want u to kno im here ABOUT NADIA bc yeah kdjdjjd

libby

don't talk to me or my son ever again yeah, wow, okay so holden stayed over the night. i only know that because i saw his stuff in her room? i think she mentioned that like, it was a one time thing but i feel like... he might be coming over again which.. is Interesting oh. yeah, no i think i'm okay. i guess just in shock. june is very broken up over it, so i'm doing my best to be a good pal, and bring loads of ice cream and kisses. /: do you wanna talk? about nadia? i know that she like, meant something to you

blue

ok good luck getting me to stop talkin to u but as for valentine? bye Felecia! is that right. hmm well he doesn’t seem like much is goin on so maybe they were just,, hanging out. bringing a bag over is pretty damning tho. and if he does come over and u see him tell that bih he owes me $ bc he ate my fucking chorizo salad ): r u proud lib?? I ate a salad by choice well I would have if Holden wasn’t a lil birch bitch DONT CENSOR ME fuck. im sorry. ): i actually wanted to see june today tbh. but if u need anyone pls let me know alright? id skip practice if u needed me, lib WELL. i mean ok i was sorta close with her in middle school and she’s always been a friend and I just. I’m just fucking numb tbh. I really can’t believe it

libby

i'll have you know that valentine died shortly after my 18th birthday so ): idk idk, why would they hang out in her room if they were "hanging out"? like they have history. i feel like thats, a little too ... suspicious given the context. in a good way though. like i hope it works out theyre both so miserable without each other. oh my god!! look at you go! so proud of you, dude! ( even if you never got to it lmao ) no, no, it's okay. june needs all the support she can get, and i don't wanna impede. i'm really fine, i just sort of need to accept it and i guess reflect on how terrible it is. she was a really sweet person and fuck i really cant believe any of it i guess

blue

fuck what kdjdjdnd I thought valentine just yeeted shit that’s not a good way to put it fuck but. im sorry lib ): ok I take it back Valentine was alright. still scared the fuck out of me tho all i know is that if i loved someone as much as holden loves june, i wouldn’t let you go **THEM fuck Damn phone Typos Djdjhdi can’t believe u make me eat green stuff its truly CRUEL whomst? I only know nadia just didn’t fucking deserve any of this. shit even daisey didn’t. i just want to protect everyone and i don’t know HOW it goes without saying that im happy to be ur uber driver for the indefinite future

libby

no omg, i took good care of my boy. idk what happened, they can live up to like 15 years so i was pretty bummed tbh. i was a bad mom he appreciates your support from the grave though i mean, i guess. but not everyone you love is going to love you back, i think that's where holden's at. not everyone wants to be clung to, and june seems reluctant besides, you know all about that. holden, the love of your life, loves june. how sad it's good for you!!! i'm helping i ... feel so badly for both of them. i can't imagine how their families must be feeling, fuck. i hate this. i'm moving to spain ah, dude you don't have to do all that. you probably are busy with practice, and holden, and work. thank you tho

blue

im sure ur a great mother. ): but still valentine was lucky to have u. and im sure he misses u in his weird spider heaven web of flies and whatever it is spiders like idk ill dm peter parker and find out i mean... guess that’s true. I suppose I dont get to see how june feels most of the time. i just wish they’d talk about it and sort it out at least. they both deserve to be happy holden is the loml that is true aksjjsjd. holden has enough room for both me and june in his heart. so i mean technically i can love someone else too?? but enough about that lmfao you definitely are helping. even coach has noticed dkdjd. making me better without even trying u can’t move without me who’s gonna get me free popcorn ): you’re just as important as practise and holden to me, lib.

libby

god, i miss him. you think the girls would be mad if i bought another one? like, to keep in my room.  i know! they're both obviously still in love, you can tell. i can't wait for them to overcome this and get to be together. also, im grateful for the amount of sleep i'm able to get now that... the room next to mine is less loud welp, i hope you find someone who is willing to share you with holden lol oMG, REALLY? IDK WHY THAT MADE ME IRRATIONALLY HAPPY LOL. WE CAN GET SALAD LATER let's go, we'll go to spain and take on a new identity. we can live along the coast and work in a bakery or something. get a puppy don't show holden that text he might cry. but dsjflk thank you, you're very important to me too. kinda my best pal

blue

u would have to ask. but if you did get another what would u call it? thanksgiving? funnily enough valentine is only a few weeks away. a sign?? i mean fuck ive known holden for years and can confirm he is happiest when he’s with june. when she’s not roasting him at least lmfao. and if my MasterPlan works im afraid things will get bad again djdjdj. I can take one for the team and try to get them to come over here tho - u don’t need to deal with that shit i hope i do too tbh. and who would I want it to be u ask? that’s right. danny devito. LETS NOT GET TOO CRAZY IVE ALREADY HAD THREE VEGETABLES THIS WERK AND ITS ONLY TUESDAY. I think it’s popcorn time 8) bold of u to assume i know where Spain is dkdjdjdjdj well he’s gonna catch on soon enough we spend every day together at this point lol

libby

i was gonna name this one patrick, after st patricks day actually lol. yes you know what's also approaching that is more important? your birthday! i know, it doesnt take a rocket scientist to figure that out. he's v much a relationship kinda dude, actually bc he's also kinda slutty lol. but even june is sad and its just, SO HARD. i hate when people are clearly, happiest together are like, nO IM GOING TO PROLONG THE MISERY. i feel like we're in a rom-com. how do we get them back together? i'll let him know. my v-day gift from me to you oooo, should i get the skittles ready too then? popcorn is kinda of a veggie if you think abt it omg, okay well now you can't come with me. offer rescinded. im going with the hot cop lslsfkjdjkldfs i mean its not like we're doing anything weird, so its okay, right?

blue

ur so cute wtf. although if u did do this i hope u know im calling him patrick star. also how the fuck do u tell if its a female or a male spider theyre so small and gross. fuck it is too lol. i dont have any money so im gonna let ppl down on the party front lmao. ud still come tho, right? how can he be both slutty and relationshippy. like not to be weird bc i know hes ur cousin and all dkfjgg but he doesnt.. have people over anymore. unless hes someone learned not to stomp around the house WHICH I DONT BELIEVE. and ha hA im already on plan 384 to get them back together get on my level lmao.  we just gotta force them to spend time together tbh. does that mean i have to give u the hot cop for valentines bc i mean. i would if that's what u wanted but im sure u can do much better than him OH FUCK UR RIGHT OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP HAS BEEN A LIE TO CONVERT ME TO VEGGIES HASNT IT r u breaking up with me? well fine, ill take the dog ): it's... it's not weird unless we make it weird. and we haven't. have we?

libby

fdsjfjdsl shhhhh, back at you. Patrick Star will be his full name, i promise you this much. as for gender idfk, i am honestly assuming its pronouns lol. i'd be sued by the LGBT community if they knew. also dude, of course. i'll make you cupcakes. plus i know what i wanna buy you! i  can't wait dude what? really?? i thought he was seeing people this whole time, holy shit. dude he's really messed up over this huh? wow, okay, we need to kick this into high gear and have them get back together. tell me your plans. omg, no you clown. i don't even like him that much, he's just pretty. i do like... some personality and he has 0 GOD MY PLAN HAS BEEN FOILED. I CANT BELIEVE IT like i'd ever let you take the dog. she's mine sdfjlkdsfjlk iDK DUDE. I MAY HAVE MADE IT WEIRD BUT WE'RE BAD AT TALKING ABT STUFF, SO WE DONT HAVE TO LOL.

blue

do spiders even have gender i thought they were just the minions of evil lmfao lib u rly dont have to get me anything, really. altho now im curious tbh. but get ready for me to get a lit gift in june >:) ill even wrap it myself which says a lot bc i cant wrap for shit but i want it to be personal lmao not many that im aware of atm. will give u info is this changes. huh we r spies lib. >:) but i dont have any current plans except trying to force them to go in a photo booth together or something when we eventually go to the arcade djsjdh omg how did u know. but idk everyone speaks about him like hes gOD he’s just a dude. eyebrows on fleek tho I will say that IM SO HURT UD USE ME LIKE THIS LIB. ALL THIS TIME WE WERE GETTING CLOSE AND U WERE ONLY HERE FOR THE VEGGIES so u get Spain AND the dog. what do I get, sadness ???? you haven’t made it weird lib, i promise. not to me, anyway. maybe we both wanted the same thing. maybe. oR MAYBE NOT LMFAO but yeah we can talk about whatever lol

libby

don't talk about nate like that omg! i want to, plus its a surprise so no asking what it is. also wow i cant believe you remember my birthday, lol. you dont have to get me anything. you can buy me an ice cream though oh my gOD THAT'S BRILLIANT! aw, what if they take one of those cute kiss pictures in the photobooth like in the movies? i can't wait for them to love each other again, they're so cute. are you jealous that no one is talking about your eyebrows? you have nice eyebrows and nothing to be jealous abt GOD, IM SO SORRY. ROY HIRED ME. HE WAS WORRIED ABT YOUR HEALTH. IM SORRY YOU HAD TO FIND OUT THIS WAY. I THOUGHT YOU NEVER WOULD /: you get the memory of what we were to keep you warm right, cool. noted

blue

why do u talk about the string bean all the time i know u grew up with him but seriously he's like a pale pipe cleaner that i dont need in my life ofc i remeber ur birthday lib. dont u remember ur 10th?? probably the best day of my life lmao. and if u get me something i get u something thats how this works as long as june doesnt say anything mean and holden say anything stupid, its a pretty solid plan tbh. im not jealous HOW DARE ROY PLAY ME LIKE THIS. cant believe u betrayed me lib, after all we've been through ;-; but what if i want something to sell off now that u took the house oh fuck lib i didn't mean it like that. just... pretend i said nothing ok and. yeah talk about something else

libby

hey sorry, i gotta go. talk tomorrow.

blue

oh is everything ok? but alright talk tomorrow then i guess bye lib

libby

night

blue

its 6pm lib but okay night

blue

lib if i did something u dont have to tell me but pls know i didnt mean it, whatever it was. i hope youre okay. but i wont bother u again i promise. just. yeah

libby

it's okay, dude. i'm fine. it's honestly my own fault, it's not you. you're always great. i'm sorry. it's fine

blue

i dont understand what ur talking about but i can tell u dont want to so ill just... leave this. but you're always great too lib. the greatest, in fact. just let me know if ur still coming to the arcade later or not yeah

libby

i guess i'll go. i like pacman.

blue

if u... if u change ur mind i understand. but i really hope u can make it.

[riskeith]

hi again!!

shooting games huh? i’m a big softie i mostly play among us, animal crossing, zelda and sims.. shooting games are way to hectic for me i tried and nope! didn’t work lmao. (i know but gaming on the phone can be bleh but if you recommend it i’d happily check it out!)

my winter break is gonna be until january 2nd. i have to study and write an essay during the break so not rly a break, sigh. still, no classes so i’m not complaining. wbu? hopefully you get a longer break. and it does usually snow but climate change has been fucking insane it’s like fall weather here still..? not to sound stalkerish but i think you live in aus, right? you must have warm weather now hehe lucky u ):

AW smart girl, congrats! celebratory hug mwah!! i do love true crime a lot i mainly chose this path bc of that. idk if u know the anime case closed but i used to watch it a lot as a child and it just made me fall in love with solving crimes.

BIOMED!! you’re so smart that’s so intimidating haha... 😳 also taking japanese sounds so fun, what are your skills like? congratulations on finishing ur first year, what did you think of the uni life? (did you get to fully enjoy it despite covid and everything?)

now i’m interested, when did you get into tdbk? 🥺

dude!!!!!!!!!!! amaya and janai are my fucking life!!! i think about them all the time and the potential they have. they give us that juicy enemies to forced companionship to friends to lovers and it makes me CRY. 😭 as far as the boomerang scene, i think it was jack de sena and the writers that wanted to pay homage to atla? they worked together before on alta so 🥺 there’s some end credit art too that’s literally callum doing sokka’s poses 🥺 SOREN BEST BOY!! yes yes yes his redemption arc was well deserved. his father has always treated him like shit bc he wasn’t magically included like claudia and it makes me glad to see him realize that now. if you want more content there are some graphic novels out. especially through the moon which takes place between season 3 and 4... <3

thank you for the reassurance.. 🥺 it means a lot hearing that come from you. as long as you’ll have me i’ll keep talking to you. who knows maybe if i’m brave enough someday i’ll just direct message you... <3 hope you’re keeping well too angel! <3

henlo~!

aw nice!! among us scares me AHAHHA anything with like.. having to lie or deduction (mafia, werewolf, spyfall) i’m just like nope. could never be an actor ahahah. (honestly i recommend genshin to everyone. you, whoever you are reading this go play genshin! that being said marriage anon i haven’t tried it on mobile so i’m not sure how it feels, and i’ve heard it gets people’s phones running super hot so be careful of that! i wouldn’t fault you for not trying it out idk that i would either if mobile was my only option lmao)

noooo that’s such a short break that sucks! is it more of a mid semester break then? since you still have work to do. but yes i agree 1000% that no classes is worth it ahah. and i have a 3 month break woo!! 🥳 icb i get this at the end of every uni school year but at the same time is it worth all the suffering i must go through before that comes fhdjcnks

:o!! autumn weather isn’t bad right, at least it’s not cold? (unless you like that—i for one hate the cold brr) and noooo not stalkerish at all! i’ve got that listed in my bios and mention it now and again so it’s ‘common’ knowledge :) it is definitely warm! it was pretty hot earlier this week but it’s cooled down now~

AHH thank u 😭💘 ooo is that also called detective conan? i’ve never watched it but ik it’s very popular! if you’re interested, there’s a true crime podcast called casefile that i highly recommend, it’s very good!

HFKSNFKS no need to be intimidated pls rest assured i’m very Dumb in other areas fjjdsjsn. and japanese is fun! i think my skills are okay it’s kinda my bludge subject tbh so i lowkey neglect it and don’t memorise all the vocab i should lolll でも大丈夫です！(but that’s alright!) ((tho i would argue it isn’t ha)

fun fact, i had one (1) day on campus this entire year! so i don’t think i’ve got much to say about what uni life is like, bc i didn’t get to experience it 😔 (i even missed orientation AKA free food and goodies, so sad) online learning was an Experience to say the least. hbu? has uni been impacted a lot?

i believe i got into tdbk in the break between s3 and s4, from a manga chapter! all it did was show the two of them together and instantly i was like “they shall be my everything from now” 😆 i don’t even think there was anything that spurred it on, they really just snatched me up by looking good wow

when amaya and janai held hands in front of the dragon queen i was like omg?? are they??? and when i asked my cousin she said amaya had signed “[janai] thinks i’m cute but won’t admit it” earlier and i was like ohhhhhhhhhmg 🥺

i love that!!! will def have to go watch the credits for those references heheh. ngl sometimes when callum spoke i was just thinking about sokka lollll. exactly!! so good of soren to stand up for himself and also apologise to callum and recognising the fault and reasons behind his behaviour.. legend! and oooo i’ll give the graphic novels a look!

of course!! this is the highlight of my tumblr experience rn and i have you to thank for that 💗 whether you end up DMing me some day or not i’ll still always be here through asks 😩 so don’t stress! if anyone has a problem w it i’ll fight LOL. hope you have a great day~ 🤗

[theyrejustbehindtheveil]

ML Secret Santa

Merry (belated) Christmas @nayawata it is I, your gifter for the @mlsecretsanta with a fic about the OTP

Paris, France | July

She graduates. One day, she is at université, and the next, she is not. The morning after her final exam, she slips downstairs for breakfast and instead finds an envelope.   

Her parents' latest attempt to stop her from being so easily scared is three months in a city she doesn't know with a language she barely speaks. All expenses paid. She leaves in three months. Merde. 

Sydney, Australia | October 

It’s a jarringly young city. Everywhere Mylène looks she expects to see historic architecture and instead sees nothing beyond the nineteenth century. Her auntie chatters good-naturedly from the drivers seat which is on the wrong side of the car. Everything is strange and it feels a little like she can’t breathe and she cant make a sound and she is so so glad when the car stops and she can get inside the house and play her song and feel like she is still at home. 

The first two weeks she only leaves the house with one of her cousins or aunts, too scared to venture outside without some kind of security net. They take her on outings every few days, doing the tourist shtick at what is probably their attempt to make her feel welcome. The multiple trips to the city aren’t too bad, but when they head anywhere else she feels off kilter. The ocean is too big and the countryside is too foreign. The suburbs are too sprawling and quite frankly she doesn’t even know where to start with the birds. 

November

She goes for a walk alone the first week of November. Three pictures of the waterfront reflecting the clear blue sky later and she realises she is lost. Very lost. She isn’t even sure which way is home. She would like to say she was brave enough to find her own way home but the truth is that pedestrian’s hassle her along until she crashes into something large and solid with an eep of surprise. 

The large and solid something responds with a grunt that shocks her into leaping back. And looks up. And up a little more to find the something’s face shuffled into a terrifyingly grumpy glare. She shrieks and cowers a little before the glare retreats into something a little closer to concern.   

She’s fumbling out an apology as best she can manage and trying desperately not to give in to the urge to flee when the man in front of her guides her gently to a bench. “Are you okay?” he asks and she can’t help but suck in a breath at his accent because it is wonderfully, blessedly French. 

“T’es Français?” She hopes he understands what she is trying to say. 

He starts in surprise. “Oui.” She can’t help the wave of relief that sweeps over her and switches to French for a more coherent apology. 

The guy’s name is Ivan and he doesn’t know how to get back to her aunts’ place, but his english is much better than hers and he is brave enough to ask for help and big enough to hide behind when the strangers get to be too much. Mylène thinks she quite likes this arrangement. It takes a full hour to find home, and she is glad for Ivan’s company.

He slips her his phone number moments before she shuts the door. Merde.

Three days pass before she even has the courage to save the string of numbers to her phone. Two more before she sends through a safe, neutral, hi this is mylene :) 

Ivan replies twenty-seven anxious minutes later.  hey mylene good to hear frm u  glad u hadnt lost my no

sorry, she replies 

dw i was jst disappted i might not get to see u again

oh i d like that

me too this wknd?

Deep breath.  yeah i d like that

sat 1pm we can try tht walk again?

yes please

He arrives at the front door at five minutes to the hour. She’s been ready for the past ten minutes, but she still jumps at the sound of the doorbell. 

This second walk is far better than the first, even if there are more people out on the weekend. They find their way to a market near a library and Mylène can’t help but feel a little nervous but Ivan is quietly reassuring. He buys her a little pin for her bandana and his face when she pins it straight to the fabric is something she really wants so see again.

She learns a lot about Ivan that day. He likes heavy metal, hates the heat, tries to be gruff and intimidating but cares too much to pull it off convincingly.   

She tells him about Paris, how scared she is of just about everything because so much of it is just too much a lot of the time, that she likes cats better than dogs, about her dad’s job, and that her deepest desire is to be brave.   

Ivan returns her confidences with the slightly ashamed admission that he is really not a cat person and Mylène giggles at his despondency before rushing to reassure him that she doesn't hold it against him. 

Later, she texts him. the cat thing is mostly because they re quieter  also because of the superhero he was kinda sweet

hte who

chat noir the paris superhero a couple years back in the news a lot both him and his partner total badasses in spandex

oh that superhero

i met him a few times he was at our school on superhero business n stuff he was really kind little dorky

that school that was awlays in the papers was urs?francis dupain or smth i almost went there

francois dupont yeah that was a crazy time scary too wait what dieu we might have been classmates thats so weird i was turned into one of the monsters one time

oh no

there was this mean girl she teased me and i ended up a monster

you could never be a monster mylene

no like an actual monster type creature monstrous from a horror movie pink jelly thing horrificater i scared people and kidnapped them i don t remember what happened much but everyone was really nice to me for a while after

wait the first time that was u in there

yeah that was me

wow working through that must have been hard

i had help chat noir came and talked to me a few times my parents really helped im glad u had that

December

There is no snow for Christmas this year. She gets a second summer instead, of the kind that Paris rarely sees. Ivan texts her every other day to complain about the heat. Her aunt takes her to the beach, and Ivan shows up in a pair of stupidly bright shorts that apparently were a gift from his sister. They make her laugh, and he grins. 

 you re really easy to talk to ivan um thanyk u no really it s really nice i like it

…

sorry if i made it weird i just mean t like we re friends i like talking to you

mylene its fine im sorry i dont take compliments v well it means a lot that u can say that thank u

He hands her a parcel a few days before Christmas. Inside is a pin she recognises from - oh. Its Ivan’s. From his favourite band. “You’re giving me this? Haven’t you had it since you were a teenager?” 

“I… I want you to have it, to remind you that you can be brave.” 

“Zombie Skull Crushers is going to remind me to be brave?” She hates the plaintive note that her voice holds.

“Yeah, doesn’t it just sound brave and badass, just like I know you can be?” 

She hugs him, tight and grateful.

“Thankyou, Ivan,” she chokes out. “It’s the best present anyone’s ever given me.” He hugs her back, gentle and easy as breathing. 

She almost forgets the parcel tucked into her bag but presses it into his hands right before she leaves. “Joyeux Noël, Ivan." 

Her parents fly in for Christmas itself. She goes to meet them at the airport and the moment she sees them both she runs for them. Her dad catches her as she leaps and her mum folds into the both of them and she burrows in between both of them and doesn't leave their side if she can help it from that point on.

Paris, France | January

She leaves for home with her parents. The plane lands and she gets off and everything is so wonderfully familiar but she feels strangely untethered. Her home is still much as it was when she left, and her room is identical save for more dust than normal. 

And she can’t quite work out what is missing until her phone buzzes insistently and she drops her unpacking to fumble for her phone and check the screen. 

They’re all from Ivan, and she realises as she reads through them it’s him she’s missing. He’s worked his way under her skin, going form imposing to reassuring too easily. 

miss u already mylene

Oh, merde 

i rly had a great time with you when i go back home to chatres in abt a month can i see u on the way thru

What?

Two months and it had never come up how close he lived to Paris. To her. And she want’s to see him again and isn't that incredible. Mylène doesnt know what she ever did to deserve such a gift but there’s only one thing she can do 

of course i want to see you too i didn t know you lived so close

His response is almost immediate  yeah crazy huh

A month of of texting back and forth follows. Ivan is beautifully poetic when he tries, and Mylène learns ever more about her new friend. When Ivan returns to France, he knocks on her door when she’s the only one home. 

“Hey,” he says, like. a month of separation hasn't stood between them like anticipation. She stretches her arms around his waist as far as she can and laughs with joy at the tidal wave of affection swamping her chest. He curls his much longer arms carefully, fondly, around her back.   

“I missed you. Please don’t ever stay away that long ever again,” she mutters earnestly into his chest. His arms tighten a fraction, before he shifts one hand to tilt her chin up so he can look her straight in the eye.   

“Never. I promise, Mylène, I won’t ever stay away from you for very long anymore. I don’t think I could.” 

She believes him when he looks at her like that, like he wants to see right through her eyes into her soul and know it intimately. Three days later he asks her on a date. 

She says yes 

They go for a walk.   

She tucks her hand in his and the world feels a little less terrifying when she does.

[electricitytrick]

hey so figured I’d let y’all know how I’m doing

so firstly I’m still going to uni, finishing my third year and starting my fourth and last year there. I’m also gonna be working in TWO productions next spring, as wardrobe intern in a TV production and as wardrobe assistant in a film production and I’m super excited about them both because the TV production is my first job in a modern setting and the film, well, an assistant is a definite step up from an intern. I’m climbing up the career ladder, guys!! and I haven’t even graduated yet!! do you understand how incredibly this is!! do you understand how far I can go!!!!!!!!

sorry I’m gushing but I’m honestly living my dream and it can only get bigger because I’m an ambitious bastard, but if you’d told me in fall 2013 when I was fresh off the vocational school, unemployed, lonely and unwanted, that this is where I’d be in life, I wouldn’t have believed you

secondly, I don’t think anyone’s noticed but I’ve deleted any mentions of my orientation because all of a sudden I’m not so sure about that anymore, and questioning it is a whole can of worms I’m not sure I want to open. do I latch onto any possibilities, no matter how slim, that I might not die alone after all?? am I actually right to question, but can’t admit to myself that someone somewhere could actually be interested in me and so I hold myself back so I don’t have to be disappointed???? and I can’t even say who I’d be interested in, and I’m kind of terrified to discover that, so for now I’m just sitting under the “questioning” label and hoping that issue will sort itself out in time. it’s a shame, though, that everyone around me has accepted my possible asexuality and aromanticity and I’m too uncomfortable with my current status to really correct anyone when it comes up.

(for the record, being aro/ace might’ve been a phase, but it was definitely real and not me being up to my neck in internalized whatever-this-is-phobia, thankyouverymuch)

oh yeah, thirdly!! I visited a doctor for the first time in like. ever. to get an explanation who my left leg has almost ten years old bruises and bulging veins (I know, gross) and shit and turns out it’s.... well fucked up. a little broken (that happened somewhere around 2004 and the doc thinks that might be the root of all the issues) and also some of the major veins don’t work properly. I’m also apparently hypermobile and have bad circulation, which I didn’t know before. I’m now wearing a support hose on my left leg every day and waiting to get a surgery on my ankle maybe next year. I also had a talk with mom about feeling neglected ‘cause I’ve complained about my ankle and the odd bruises that won’t go away for 13 years and nobody’s taken it seriously, and she apologized. that was nice, and I understand she had her own problems at the time and I don’t blame her.

oh and I started a low-carb diet!! I’d put on almost 10 kg compared to how little much I weighed back in 2015 when I’d just moved here. then again, I couldn’t rly cook and as a result was very very anemic back then, but I still wanted to drop a few kilograms. so I decided to give a low-carb diet a go since apparently half of the actors in Unknown Soldier followed that diet and their food always looked so delicious. so yeah I’m going pretty low-carb nowadays, exercising 4-5 times a week (I’ve taken up dancing and it’s awesome!! I’ve always wanted to be able to dance) and managed to drop 3 kilos during my first month so it’s going swimmingly!! although at first I struggled with eating because I have a tendency to go big or go home and for the record, I don’t do “go home” and in any case I’ve always been secretly a little bad with eating because I tend to restrict my eating when I feel bad about myself, deny myself food and such, but now that I know that I’m getting results, I don’t feel any need to do that any longer. hopefully. I know it’s bad to latch too much onto eating and not eating and feeling bad about eating and feeling good about not eating and skipping meals and -- yeah, you get the point.

what else, what else. apart from that internal orientation crisis, I’m doing well. mixing school and work is a challenge, but I’m managing ‘cause that’s what I do. I manage. still playing dnd, still doing cosplays (albeit less often now that I’m busy with work and away from home).

also I might’ve just come up with an idea for a thesis which I gotta write next year. I’d love to study costume design in Hamilton: The Musical, compare it to actual 18th century fashion and how it’s made to work in a Broadway setting and maybe recreate one of the costumes. but we’ll see; gotta talk to the teachers about it first.

props to you if you read through all this shit. but hey how are all of you doing?? what have I missed?

[nbsilvally]

getting some thoughts because it’s getting closer to my birthday, about myself, about my birthday, and the past few years in my current developments

it’s a... really long post so please if you’re reading it, like it or just take the time to read it.

cw serious depression? maybe suicide talk

it’s another holiday season approaching me and last year i managed to have a birthday i could enjoy with friends.  but this year, i really don’t have anyone here in person to celebrate with and it sucks a bit.  I have my mom and I could go to the game shop for a bit, but rly i don’t have any friends i could just call up and say “hey, let’s hang” at this moment.  a lot of folks are going out of town for my birthday or with family and it leaves me in a point where i’ve also had my birthday forgotten by everyone in a near sixteen candles experience on my 21st and been told to shut up about it and how it’s not that special when i was 19 and excited about it (yes, i remember it.)

i’ve always been feeling outcast and i don’t know if it’s me or majority of people just act cautiously around me because like i feel like no one knew how to really talk to me without treating me like i’m inexperienced or stupid and it just, i get it.  At times, i’m hard to talk or i can make things feel forced but it’s not like i mean to (i still apologize if i ever put you in a position like that and please understand if i message you that you can just get back to me whenever).  It’s hard to feel included in friend groups or circles and i guess i always been sort of a group hopper w/ a set of friends who i just stick to between groups or interests.  I don’t feel comfortable sticking my foot in just one circle i guess.  It’s hard to describe,

It’s just weird because 23 is my first real adult birthday i feel.  I’m out of school, i’m out of a job temporarily, all i’m doing is stressing over bills and work, i’m still planning how i’m gonna start saving money with the new job, and there’s a lot incoming in the next few weeks that I don’t know how i’ll handle tbh.  I’ve been forced to be on my own working w/ Walmart (well until i got fired). So I realized how cut off from people in person I’ve become.

This year is also closing too so I guess 2017 + 22 has been... an experience of itself.  There’s a lot I wanna say to specific people and I can’t fully express my emotions right now because my head is a jumble but i also had no background noise.  

Let’s start with just myself.  Self discovery was a huge thing.  I’ve really neglected my own health and old habits really kept me in spots along with struggling w/ depression and i guess separation anxiety. There’s another thing I’ve always wondered if I had but I can’t say until I check w/ a professional.   However, let’s focus on the positives....?  I’ve learned to finally cope with being alone, sort of.  It’s been a couple of years where Zan finally been focusing on school and I haven’t fully had a chance to just grow on my own when he and I constantly talked.  So when he’s been busy, I’ve been forced to let go of Codependency.  I had to learn to take care of myself and stop pitpatting my feet around and buckle down.  The issue was when I was school, I feel like there was a level of things I could focus and buckle down on, while now on my own, I couldn’t really not focus.  Now I’m focusing trying to break out of doing things dependent on others.  It’s not easy but I was talking with Ven and I’m half considering taking long walks/jogs every now and then up to Walmart and back (~3 hours just walking).  I’m unfortunately really picky but I... really need to work on eating better.  I just haven’t been able to escape these mindsets but I will get to it when I build the courage the take the step.

I still have a lot to work on but I’m going to be 23.  I have time.  I will work on my goals and buckle down this year and hopefully by next year this time, I’ll be out of South Carolina.

Now, to people who just helped me through it out.

Zan, my boyfriend and my love and light, you’ve done a lot, just working hard on your own.  We haven’t had time to do many dates because you’re busy with school or with Addy and your life outside the computer, but it’s okay.  I know you’re working hard and we’re trying to find little things to do together and talk about again recently.  I’ve missed moments where we could call and sleep together, whispering sweet things to each other and just say I love you, but it’s good we’re independent because if we’re as dependent as we were on another, it’d fall me back into codependency and I can’t afford to just live based off what you’re doing.  I’m going to grow and when we see each other again, I will show you I’m doing my best, and I can’t wait to see you again.

Ven, 2017 was the year we really did become best friends.  I met you vaguely 2 years ago and really, I couldn’t ask for anyone better.  Meeting you in person?  It really showed me good things do happen to those who wait in a year of disasters and messes.  I couldn’t be prouder of you too.  You’ve grown stronger, even through the hardships and struggles you’ve been through yourself.  We’ve talked about my feelings a lot and you’ve always been so considerate and even if you thought you said something that sounded wrong with problems, it wasn’t a problem because I knew you wouldn’t mean it in a bad way.  There’s just a level of even if I’m constantly apologizing or freaking out, I feel like I can do it comfortably around you because you’re just really comfortable to be around.  You’ve also helped me out in tight money spots and I wish I could pay you back in triple.  When you visited, I just got too excited to do everything, even if we couldn’t and if you happen to swing by again or whenever I’m there, I hope you know I’m going to be excited to travel around and explore, and that’s mainly because it’s with you.  I really appreciate you Ven and you’re one of most trusted, caring, and real friends I could ever ask for, and you honestly just... really taught me what a friend really feels like.

Seren, PokeRP on twitter was fun and you as Silvally and me as Lusamine crack rping was one of the best things i’ve had for a while we laughed and got together.  There was a level of my anxiety after discord’s stuff and i fled after the bot incident but I really do enjoy talking with you and learning your opinion on stuff, even if i might not agree (but YOU WAS RIGHT ABOUT USUM!!!!).  Your cosplay and art are really good and I admire your hardwork and effort a lot. I’m glad I decided to do pokerp, cause i met you.

Mix, you’re a pretty fantastic person to just talk with about visual novels and anime and learning a LOT about all the general topics you know.  Sure, you speak a lot and it can be hard to keep up sometimes, but I still try because you do provide a lot of helpful/interesting stuff and if there’s anything I can do too, I can go to you and you can be real.  Even if we clash heads a bit.  However, we have to just clash a bit to meet an understanding.  You’ve been through a long journey of learning and growing yourself and I can say you’ve changed from the Mix I’ve knew in 2011-2012.  

Emma, between meeting you w/ Total Drama and having similar interests, I think Tanboards is where I got to know you best honestly and between learning more about you and you tbh helping me learn about topics in general, it really has helped me grow.  I really appreciate you helping me out too a lot where I’ve been in tight spots, between signal boosting and money.  You’ve been a good friend and you really do deserve the best (so does all of Tanboards).

Appmon community, I never really got to know you until part 2 honestly, but I really felt welcomed into a fandom that was small but easy to talk with about the show.  We all really connected and it was amazing to watch w/ you guys weekly and experience the show, theorizing, talking, gushing over it.  Appmon movie when?

Fei, we don’t get to talk often but I appreciate you.  Really.  Sorry I don’t have much to say but I just really enjoy talking with you and getting to know you over the past few years has been one of the best friendships i’ve had. I really love your art too.

Free, same thing about not having been rly talking recently but your friendship means a lot to me and I really hope I can see you again.  I miss hanging w/ you in person. 

I have a lot more I can say but I’m tired but... If we’ve interacted, no matter how small its been, you’ve made a difference somehow,

even through the near suicide attempts I’ve made and the hard times where nothing seem positive and I’ve just wanted to just die or stop, you all made it an easier year to go through and here’s to 23 years, with every all of you there with me.  Thank you.  

Thank you so much.  I couldn’t get through this without all of you, no matter how much you’ve interacted with me.  It’s because of y’all that I’m still here.  Honestly.

[even-lovers-drown]

DO YOUR WORST

tagged by @blunts182​ (I need you to imagine a row of sparkly heart emojis bc I’m on my laptop so I can’t type them in)

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Haven’t smoked one yet, hope I never do 2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? Very single 3: What if I told you that you were pretty?  Ahhhh, I’d probably be really awkward about it and compliment you back 
4: Ever been told it’s not me it’s you?  Nope 5: Are you interested in anyone right now?  Yes, but idk I think I’m starting to give up on it 
6: What are you looking forward to in the next week? New episode of Riverdale?? Also hearing back from a job interview I had 7: Do you want to be single?  I like my independence and I appreciate my quiet me time, but I think I’ve been single for a fair while, done my share of figuring out who I am and all that, think I’d like to be in a relationship tbh 
8: Did you go out or stay in last night?  Stayed in, I was finishing my Riverdale binge 
9: How late did you stay up last night? Probably til a little past midnight? 
10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?  Yeah, it was a few weeks ago on my uni trip. This girl who I kinda thought was a bit vacant and bitchy is actually incredibly sweet and intelligent, really lovely girl. 
11: Last three things you had to drink? A cup of spicy tea this morning, I had a lil glass of mixed whiskey last night, and probably a cup of hojicha tea 
 12: Have you pretended to like someone?  Hm, to a point. Like I’m friendly with everyone even if I don’t like them. I don’t think I’ve ever pretended to like anyone, I’m usually pretty straightforward unless it would be rude or unprofessional in the context 13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?  I hate to say it, but yes. 
14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? Oh absolutely. I live with two girls and we’re all pretty comfortable with eachother. 
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?  Hm, yes. I think the main thing is that I tend to struggle with the principle of it, I tend to use it as an excuse to put myself down. So I’m working on that. 
16: Think back five months ago, were you single?  yessir 
17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?  Cooking 18: Hold hands with anyone this week? I think so?  
19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? I barely drink it now, I reckon I could give it a good bash  
20: What would you name your future daughter? I love really classic names like Alice, Lucy and Emma that remind me of books I love.  
21: Do you miss anyone? My best friend lives ages away, and my other best friend is halfway across the world, so I miss them both tons 
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?  Nope 23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?  Nope 
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?  AHH YES? NO? Idk dude. Like I’m pretty good at putting my emotions aside for a certain time and putting on a smile, but like...if I can’t be bothered, it’s all over my face. I’m so transparent, it’s so not in my nature to hide anything 
25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?  AGH YES. Definitely 
26: Who did you last see in person?  I think it was my friend Emma? 27: Are you listening to music right now?  Yeah boiii  
28: What is something you currently want right now? My dang flatmate to come home so I’m not alone in this house 
29: What is the last thing you said out loud?  “These taste stale” - on the gingerbread stars I bought from Coles 
30: How is your heart lately?  I eat pretty healthy, apart from the terrible addiction to sugar, so probably fine. Listen, it’s still beating so if it stops, that’s a problem for future Jess 31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?  I literally only own one hoodie and I mostly just sleep in it, so nah 32: Are you wearing socks?  Not currently 
33: What do people call you?  Jess, Jessica, Jeh, Giuseppina, my younger sister and cousins can call me ‘Jessie’, and they’re pretty much the only ones I let call me that.   
35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?  The state of being alive 36: Who did you last share a bed with?  A drunk friend 
37: Did you do something bad today? I ate a rly unhealthy breakfast  
38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? Like, a week ago? 
39: Do you get stressed out easily?  :))))))) yes 41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?  constantly 
42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? My mum, or I just hold it inside 
43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? God not since I was a child, and never in an ambulance 
44: What are you listening to right now?  Mustang Kids by Zella Day  
45: What is wrong with you right now?  My knee is totally stuffed and I probably need to go to a doctor tbh 46: What is on your wrists right now? Nothing, usually a hairband 47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? The Netball championship in Sydney a few years back 
48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?  Ahhh depends how good the hot chocolate is. Usually apple cider, but if it’s like that hot chocolate in italy and france and stuff, the rly thick stuff? Well a bitch might change her mind 49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?  My birthday is 11/11, of course I make wishes at 11:11 50: Are you a good artist? I think I’m okay, I haven’t been drawing that much lately, although I did draw the characters from riverdale the other night when I couldn’t sleep 52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago? Nah m8  
53: Ever been on a golf cart?  I have not, I’ll add it to my bucket list 
54: Do you have trust issues? Ahhhhh yes and no. I kind of open up to people, but without really trusting them? If that makes sense? Like I’m always waiting for the other shoe to drop, and I expect them to turn on me in some way, but I still open up to them and stuff? 56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?  If I lived in America, almost undoubtedly. But no, I do not. 
57: Do you use chap stick?  Always. Ya girl LIVES off burt’s bees 58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face? Only on a stage my friend 59: Do you have a little sister? Yep! She’s 12, and her name is Olivia and she would kick my ass in a fight 
60: Have you ever been to New York?  Does it count if someone I know with the same full name as me has been? (No I haven’t) 61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?  Yep 62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?  Almost definitely 
63: What were you doing at midnight last night?  checking my clock and closing my eyes 
64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?  Boy howdy you bet I have 
65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?  Nope 
66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?  I don’t think so 
67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?  Nope  
68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?  Depends on my mood and how big the bed is and how hot it is 
69: Will next Friday be a good one? I’m either gonna be working, or I’m gonna be going to a party, we gon see I’m gonna tag @relatablealien @moonum @forestexplorer

[fallen-imagine-angel]

Give Us A Try

Notes: Hey guys! I’ve been working on this for a while and I finally finished it so here it is! Thanks for all the support recently :) You guys are awesome. Requests are still open, by the way! I’m always happy to write a request :)

Summary: Read the request :)

Give Us A Try

Sebastian Smythe x Reader

Word Count: 2,705 (wow this is rly long sry)

Character Count: 14,363

Warnings: none :)

“Are you excited to go back to Ohio, (y/n)?” Your twin brother asks you, obviously excited himself.

“Yeah, I guess. I mean, I miss Blaine.” You don’t look over at him since you’re driving.

“Hey, (y/n)?” He asks suddenly. You glance over at him.

“Yeah?” You ask.

“Well...I was wondering...do you ever miss mom and dad?” He asks, completely out of the blue. Both your parents had died a year ago in a car crash when you were sixteen.

Instead of answering your brother, who’s only younger than you by seven minutes, you turn up the radio. He takes this as your answer.

“We’re here.” You announce, stepping out of the car two hours later. You hadn’t said another word during that car ride after he asked about your parents. You don’t like to talk about them.

“Sweet! We’re back home to our old house!” He runs into the house. You sigh, looking up at the huge house towering over you. You never liked this house. It reminded you of everything you had to live up to. The standards. The expectations.

“Come on! I think my old Xbox is hooked up!” He calls you over. You smile slightly. He always knew how to lighten your mood.

“I can’t. Not right now. I’ve got to go fill out some papers for the house and to get us enrolled in Dalton again.” You tell him, closing the front door behind you. You go to your office space and spread out all the papers as you sit down.

“You’ve got to do all of that?” His eyes widen at the stack of paperwork in front of you.

“Yup. That’s what happens when you own both your deceased parents’ businesses, squirt.” You smile tiredly at him. Squirt was your nickname for him that you used all the time.

“I’m sorry. I wish I could help you with some.” He frowns. You can see the pity he feels for you in his eyes.

“It’s okay. Some things have to be handled alone.’ You nod and get to work on the papers.

~the next day~

“Hey, squirt, are you ready? We’re going to be late on our first day!” You call up the stairs. Another con about this house. It’s so big it’s hard to tell where anyone is or if they can even hear you.

“Yeah! Coming!” He slides down the railing of the stairs, bagel in hand.

“Well, I’m glad you got breakfast because if you hadn’t, there wouldn’t be time to get it now. Let’s go.” You all but push him out of the house and into the car.

Upon your arrival to Dalton, you grin. Dalton was one of the only places you actually enjoyed yourself. Sure, it was supposed to be an all boys school, but you were the one exception. The one girl in the whole school. It made you a target for many boys. But not all of them.

“Are you ready for school?” You smirk at your brother. He was never big on school, but you could tell he was excited to be back at Dalton where all his friends are.

“Yup! You?” He asks.

“Ready as I’ll ever be.” You nod, walking in.

“Ah, Mr. and Miss (y/l/n). How very nice to see you again. Here are your class schedules, and I assume you know your way around.” The principal hands you your schedule and ushers you out. Must have a meeting or something.

“Well, I’ll see you later, bro.” You mess up his hair and walk off, grinning. You walk straight towards where you hear singing voices.

“Well, look who it is!” You hear voices greet you.

“(y/n)! Guys, it’s (y/n)!” Jeff runs up to you and hugs you. You laugh and hug back.

“Whoa, whoa, whoa! Guys, I can only hug so many people at one time!” You laugh as they all dog pile you. Once they’re finished, you get up and dust yourself off.

“We were just about to perform Uptown Girl, you in? I’m sure you’ll catch on within seconds.” David grins.

“Sure, I’m down.” You laugh. You notice someone staring at you out of the corner of your eye. Someone you don’t recognize. Someone who wasn’t here when you left. They start singing and you jump in, fitting at the front and singing lead. You always sing lead.

Uptown Girl

She’s been living in her white bread world

As long as anyone with hot blood can

And now she’s looking for a downtown man

That’s what I am

You grin and sing, everyone nodding. You knew they were thinking, she’s still got it. You were one of the best singers at Dalton until you left. You see some people, including the guy who was staring at you earlier, smile and look at the entrance but you don’t let that distract you. You keep singing.

And when she knows what she wants from her time

And when she wakes up and makes up her mind

The new guy who was staring at you starts singing lead. You see everyone waving and pointing to the entrance, so you decide to turn around and see what’s going on. The guy you don’t recognize is walking towards...Blaine!? You have to refrain from shouting “BLAINE!” at the top of your lungs.

She’ll see I’m not so tough just because I’m in love with an

Blaine grins at you and gives you a friendly wink.

The new guy pulls Blaine into the group and he starts singing and dancing with the rest of you.

Uptown girl

You know I can’t afford to buy her pearls

But maybe someday when my ship comes in

She’ll understand what kind of guy I’ve been

And then I’ll win

A teacher walks past and tries to shush you guys, but you just walk towards her with the rest of the group and sing louder. The guys wink and try to be flirtatious, but you just sing normally. You weren’t into girls, thank you very much.

And when she’s walking

She’s lookin’ so fi-i-ine

The new guy butts in and starts singing lead for a line again.

And when she’s talking

She’ll say that she’s mi-i-ine

You start to sing lead again, glancing over at the other guy.

She’ll say I’m not so tough, just because I’m in love with an

Uptown girl

Everyone throws their hands in the air along with the teacher, except she’s pointing for you all to go back into the classroom. Everyone runs back to the classroom except for you. You, instead, are walking backwards as you sing.

She’s been living in her white bread world

As long as anyone with hot blood can

And now she’s looking for a downtown man

That’s what I am

You jokingly wink at her before heading back into the classroom with everyone else.

You’re singing a chorus of “Whoa”s when the new guy you’re not familiar with walking into the center of the semi-circle and spins before dropping to the floor and doing a kip-up. You’re pretty impressed, you have to admit. Then, another guy jumps, does a weird side flip thing, and lands. Then, your personal favorite, someone just swings their arm back and forth as if doing the robot or something.

Then, as if on cue, everyone starts to form back into their lines and Blaine’s on the side, clapping to the beat. You’re in the front and center.

Uptown Girl

She’s my uptown girl

You know I’m in love with an

Uptown girl

Everyone goes rigid and still except for you, putting their hands behind their backs and standing straighter.

You, on the other hand, are putting your hands out in front of you and getting into the song.

My uptown girl

You know I’m in love

You walk out of the group and up in front of them before you slow it down a little bit, dragging out the last few words.

With an uptown girl

Blaine claps once you’ve finished, grinning. He goes up and hugs you. You hug back just as tightly.

“I’ve missed you.” Blaine mumbles.

“I’ve missed you too, Blaine. How come you’re not at Dalton anymore?” You ask, your smile faltering a little bit.

“I’ve moved to McKinley. But, might I ask, why are you back here? I thought you moved?” He asks, smiling a little.

“Well, I did. I just...moved back recently.” You smile.

“We’ll have to catch up sometime. But for now, I’ve gotta get back to class. By the way, I got a new phone. Here’s my number.” He hands you a slip of paper he just hurriedly wrote on.

“Oh, uh, okay! Bye, Blaine!” You wave, smiling slightly as he walks off.

“What, let me guess, you like him?” The new guy of the group scoffs as he walks up next to you. The others are minding their own business, talking amongst each other.

“Me? Like Blaine? Sorry, no. He’s gay, has a boyfriend, and isn’t my type anyways.” You shake your head.

“Who is your type?” He asks, raising his eyebrows skeptically.

“None of your business. What’s your name, anyways? I haven’t seen you around before.” You muse.

“Sebastian Smythe. What’s yours?” He returns the question.

“(y/n) (y/l/n). Nice to meet you.” You fake curtsy and smile.

“Okay, (y/n) (y/l/n). I think I’ve already got you figured out.” He chuckles and smirks.

“Oh, really now? I’d love to hear what you think I am, Smythe.” You hum.

“I think you’re the goody-two-shoes. You’re nerdy, quirky, kind-hearted, and the type of person who’s all ‘violence is only for self-defense!’ and stuff.” He guesses.

“Well, I’ll let you figure out yourself if that’s really what I am. Anyways, I’ve got to go. I only have half the classes you do because I also have to run two businesses on the side so the school decided to let me have four classes instead of eight like the rest of you. Ta-ta.” You wave daintily before walking off.

~that night~

“Ugh, stupid business!” You yell, tempted to punch your computer.

“What’s wrong, sis?” Your brother pops his head into the office room. You quickly compose yourself, hoping he hadn’t seen you like that.

“Nothing, it’s nothing. Just...someone trying to steal the business from under me. But don’t worry, I won’t let that happen. Everything’s fine.” You shake your head and fake a smile.

“Oh, okay. Well, I’m gonna go to bed. Night.” He smiles and goes to bed. You sigh frustratedly. This was going to be a long and stressful night for you.

~a couple weeks later~

“Hey, (y/n).” Sebastian slides up next to you, grinning smugly.

“What’d you do this time?” You smile slightly. You had taken a bit of a liking to Sebastian, but you noticed that he’s taken a liking to you, too.

“Threw a rock salt slushie into Blaine’s face.” He shrugs. Your eyes widen.

“Seb!” You smack his arm, concerned for Blaine.

“What? I want to win!” He holds his hands up in defense.

“That’s not cool Seb! He could be seriously hurt!” You frown, thinking of Blaine. He’s your best friend, besides Sebastian. You couldn’t bear seeing him hurt.

“He’s not that hurt. He’ll be fine. Plus, I was totally right.” Sebastian smirks.

“Right? What do you mean? Right about what?” You narrow your eyes at him.

“You are the ‘violence is for self-defense only’ type of person!” He pokes your shoulder playfully. You roll your eyes and playfully shove his arm.

“Whatever. Hey, I’ll catch you later, ‘kay? I’m gonna go outside and clear my head.” You smile at him.

“Yeah, ‘course. See you later.” He grins and walks off. You go outside and sit down on the trunk of your favorite willow tree.

“Stupid businesses ruining my stupid life.” You sigh and lean your head against the willow tree. Little did you know, Sebastian was watching you from afar. He knew you’d been acting weird the past couple of days and he wanted to find out what’s wrong. But, he knew you, and he knew that if he asked what was wrong you weren’t going to say a thing.

“I just want some peace and quiet! I want some time where I don’t think I’m a piece of crap because I can barely run my businesses that got handed down to me from my stupid crap parents! Their genius thought was ‘hey, if we die early, let’s hand the business over to our seventeen-year-old daughter who should be learning calculus and chemistry, not how to run a freaking business!’ I can’t be normal now!” You growl, growing more frustrated by the second. You’re on the verge of tears now. You can’t seem to calm down.

So, to help yourself calm down, you take out a cigarette. Lighting it, you’re about to put it in your mouth when something stops you. Well, more like someone.

“Cigarettes kill people, you know.” Someone plucks the cigarette from your hand and throws it on the ground, stepping on it with their foot to put it out.

“Sebastian now is not the time.” You shake your head and try to get up and walk away, but he puts his hand on your shoulder. You look up at him and sit back down again.

“Please, tell me what’s wrong. I want to help you.” He pleads you.

“You can’t help me, Seb. It’s business stuff. You wouldn’t get it.” You roll your eyes, trying to get another cigarette out. Instead of answering, Sebastian just takes your packet of cigarettes and stands up.

“What are you doing, Sebastian?” You ask him, getting annoyed with him. He throws the packet of cigarettes next to his feet and stomps on them before picking them up again and throwing them into a pond near you.

“I was doing that.” He sits down next to you again.

“Great. Thanks.” You roll your eyes and cross your arms, huffing in annoyance.

“Now, how can I help you?” He asks.

“You can’t. I’m a hopeless cause.” You growl. He takes a moment to look at you. Really look at you.

“What are you staring at, Smythe?” You sneer at him.

“You’re beautiful.” He blurts out.

“What?” You ask, eyes widening in surprise. You turn your body to look at him.

“Like I said. You’re beautiful. You’re the most gorgeous girl I’ve ever laid my eyes on.” He repeats himself.

“You’re joking, right? Seb, you can’t like me. I’m a mess. I can’t do anything right. I’m pathetic.” You shake your head.

“But I like you anyway, don’t I? Look, (y/n), you’re amazing and I don’t care that you’re a mess. So am I. We can help each other.” He looks deep into your eyes.

“Seb…” You trail off, but your eyes can’t help but flicker to his lips for a second.

“I know you like me too, (y/n).” He lets his eyes flicker down to your lips, too. You gulp.

“But, I...we can’t...the businesses…” You trail off, leaning in slightly. Sebastian leans in, too. Eventually, your lips meet in the middle and you feel sparks fly in between the two of you.

As soon as your lips meet, your hands fly up to Sebastian’s head. You run your fingers through his hair, messing it up. His hands find your face and cup your cheeks, bringing you closer to him.

“We can make this work. Please.” He pleads once you broke the kiss and leaned back a little bit. You weren’t going to lie, you liked Sebastian a lot. You just didn’t know if you could have a relationship and run the businesses and have school at the same time.

But you wanted to give it a try anyways.

“Seb, I want to try this. I want to try us. I want to try and have a relationship with you.” You nod, fiddling with your fingers nervously.

“So do I.” He nods, waiting for you to continue.

“So let’s give us a try.” You smile slightly.

“(y/n) (y/l/n), will you be my girlfriend?” He asks, grinning widely.

“I’d love to.” You smile and kiss him, making him kiss back eagerly. This could either be the best or worst decision of your life.

A/N: Hey guys! Hope you liked this request! Once again, requests are open so don’t be afraid to drop in there and ask away! (It doesn’t even have to be a request, you can just ask me some questions if you want ^-^) Until next time~

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for all 3 of my fans

i live for ur wit and sass

thx n same

Dont fuck with the best! Kate works hard to get the craziest anons to post in her yard, and I've got nothing but respect. There's no fan in the fandom as genuine and earnest as she is. Wishing her and her cats a long and healthy life!

lmao yall need to quit

you've probably answered this already but what do you think will give vm the best shot at the OG?

a good short dance + a good free dance + gui missing the catch-foot on his twizzle again

Are you taking the bar exam this summer?

no i just finished my first yr

I will cry if T&S end up together, They would be a horrible match. Surely I'm not the only one who sees this??

i am ashamed that this is the level of trollin i get. step up ur game!!

"i hope tessa marries semple so i can see all the shippers cry tbh" Poor Alex! Marrying him would probably restore his self confidence and prompt a return to the cfl! Still holding out hope!

honestly alex was the hottest of all her bfs. fedor is balding, has a dad bod n is wearing khakis on the beach now. and semple was always fug. also rl talk i didnt know canada had its own football league until this guy came around. thats so cute for canada

"i hope tessa marries semple so i can see all the shippers cry tbh" I want her with the Bitove guy. His family looks like the type that will post tons about them on sm afterward.

lmao yall know his grandfather started the toronto raptors?? i knew this brodie’s last name sounded familiar. also apparenty he and his fam golf at trump’s resort @ mar-a-lago VOM. tessa is 500% going to end up with a smarmy, filthy rich trust fund kid like him like its not even a question

Hey now. I want shippers to get overthemselves, too, but Tessa marrying Semple, god no. Basically, Tessa, open your eyes and save yourself.

lol i actually wish she was still dating him so all this mindless speculation rn would stop

Bitter and hateful is what I come here for. Anons should just fuck off and go to the Disney website if that's what they want.

vm fans are so damn soft n sensitive about everything lol, i rly wish some of yall would stop taking everything i say so seriously

Please come back, without your snark the fandom is controlled by the most delusional shippers.

i’ll post more when there r actually things 2 talk about. being around here when nothing is happening and ur all screaming into a vacuum about the same things over and over is like being institutionalized in a loony bin

why are you always up so late?

nhf for this east coast bias, it is a perfectly reasonable time in california

Which of the current/rising juniors do you see making tbe most impact next quad?

carreira/ponomarenko are going to win a olympic medal in 2022. even if the shibs, h/d and bock don’t retire, i see them easily rising through the pack - they just have the Look and aren’t without talent. i’m iffy on the rest - mcnamara/carpenter are too creepy and weird, parsons have no height difference and are siblings, both are coached by an unproven staff, everyone else are varying levels of mediocre. hawayek/baker will go to worlds 2018 if they’re lucky and prob never again if no one else retires.

i wouldn't take h/d's music choices as an indicator of what vm will have. they are the c team and vm are the a team in that camp. look at last season... h/d got stuck with marie-france's lame ass idea of the evolution of music and vm got prince.

true..... altho i think personal taste is important too. tessa would die b4 she ever approved an ‘evolution of dance’ sd

I want Tessa to steal Fedor back from Meryl. All that drama would be hilarious. Fedor lost his looks and is butt ugly now so he is exactly Tessa's type, even more so than in 2009.

i nvr thought he was that cute but he literally looks like he goes door to door selling pool cleaner now

I noticed that when Tessa shakes hands or kisses someone on the cheek (like during medal ceremony or interviews) Scott often puts a hand on her lower back even though there had not been any physical contact between the two of them before said handshake or kiss. It just always surprises me and I'm not sure I understand why he'd do this. What's your take on it ?

lmao ik u want me 2 say its bc his subconscious is screaming out in jealousy and he wants to covertly claim her and show the world she still belongs to him but i rly think they r just touchy ppl who like to touch. or hes makin sure she doesnt lose balance and fall off the podium as she’s leanin over

moulin rouge would've been a much cooler choice in 11/12 for their musical fd instead of funny face, but i don't see them doing it for their olympic fd. it's a bit tacky and overdone. i figure they'd want to do something that's a little bit more special and unique then that.

ia it wouldnt have been a bad filler fd for an off year. i just dont see it doing it for their Last Ever and for the olympics. its such a warhorse - what could they possibly say with it thats original? and its such a character piece - they r such overly emo, earnest ppl, i dont think they’d want to do something that different from themselves for their Last Ever. 

huh what, vm don't stand a chance against moonlight sonata?? Pls... that would be a flop, such an overused piece of music everywhere, it's like Für Elise - hearing the first notes of it makes me vomit in my mouth a little

ya bc no one’s ever won a gold medal skating to a warhorse before

it sounds more believable to me than vm and moulin rouge tho

What interpretation? PC will just float around. They can do that in any key and judges will eat it up.

true, gui gui is a demon

No way. The judges will think they're watching Gordeeva/Grinkov again and just hand the gold to them immediately.

remember when pc said they didnt even know who torvill and dean and g/g were lmao

If scott doesn't cut his disgusting gutter frat boy hair I'm renouncing my Canadian citizenship and moving 2 Peru

was legit lookin @ pics from autumn classic n skate canada and i cant believe how short his hair was then, i can not believe i was complainin so much. i am honestly such a whiny bitch lmao this is my punishment

i have mixed feelings because Prince is the best short dance of VM's career so far but then Latch was one of the worst lol. It dragged in a lot of areas, especially the middle, and it never felt complete. I don't hate it by any means but considering we only had 2 free dances left and that was one of them... :| so I'm torn between trusting MF, and then thinking she's one misguided song choice away from ruining VM's swan song.

the thought of mf picking out the music for vm’s last ever fd makes me kind of sad. like yall have no ideas? at all?? ur relying on instagram suggestions and mf’s adult lite fm spotify playlists for inspiration? im surprised n disappointed tbh, like they arent kids anymore, i thought they would take more ownership of their careers. 

but idk we’ll see. whenever i complain a lot, i usually like their material later lol

why do i feel like vm are gonna come out in their sd with despacito... the justin bieber version...

ok who is this person who keeps sending me despacito questions?? you sound like you want it to happen more than anyone else and are trying to will it into existence

It's funny because Tessa is SO cautious about everything she/they say, that she comes off/is rehearsed--I don't understand why she cares so much. They are not politicians or even super famous. Plus most people who watch (excluding Tumblr fans bc they're all extra) watch during high times like Worlds and Olympics. Most people don't watch interviews and press conferences. If they do watch one, it's usually only the fun "game" interviews or the mainstream ones like etalk which they are not tons of

idk what this is in reference to but ok lol. it prob matters to her bc its her life and she cares bc its happening to her? just spitballin here

Oh no what has Max Trankov said I'm scared to know now. If he's a Trump fan I might have to #nopeout lol he’s russian and a male chauvinist pig. he once said he wouldnt do a quad with tati until she had a baby for him...”and then maybe we try”

still gonna stan his trash ass to the end of time tho

Speaking of bad music cuts I could not stand the way HD's music was cut this year. Like I like all the songs they used individually but it just felt so weirdly put together like the songs didn't flow well into the next. The only part I liked was the last part with earned it.

really? i thought earned it was the part that seemed completely out of step with the first 2 pieces of music. the transition was way off and the tempo was so much faster than the other 2

The Facebook q&a is the first time I felt vm are actually compatible enough to be a couple.

should’ve published this steaming hot take when u sent it a month ago bc i have no idea what this is in reference to now

what do you look like?

tired mostly

haha funny how we went from vm are in a relationship to they hate each other.

dont ‘we’ me bitch i have nothing to do with this fandom’s daily emotional yo-yo-ing

Can you explain the Tessa/Kaitlyn Weaver friendship? Are they really friends? Kaitlyn seems like the kind of girl Tessa would make fun of behind her back.

more like kaitlyn weaver is tracy flick and is trying to bring down everyone in her path tbh

I get a bit of a superiority, cold vibe with Tessa, don't you?

no but i dont have self esteem issues

I think people who find Tessa cold and snobby do not get her at all. Yes, she is far from perfect and her feminism is all (...) but to call her cold and unfeeling means you haven't been paying attention at all. Like get off her dick and/or stop following her career.

i dont think shes cold either. standoffish maybe, but i dont feel like thats from superiority or aloofness. some ppl just want to mind their own business and chill?? not everyone’s a chatty cathy like scott

Music stresses me out. The only thing I've gathered from all of the various discussions is they should be exciting but not too exciting because it's an Olympic season. But they shouldn't also be too safe. Like I know you have mentioned various choices that would be good but what would be in your mind the ideal program, both SD and FD. It's their third Olympics, so how do they build on the past while still being fresh but also them. Or do they just not and give the audience what they want?

something original thats not a warhorse but is also audience friendly and is instantly musically palatable to a lot of ppl

so basically mahler

Which songs from moulin rouge should they use?

if they were doing mr (which i doubt), the orchestral score is 500x better than the cheesy ass nonsense from the soundtrack. like come what may with nicole kidman’s tremulous bird vocals and ewan mcgregor literally straining not to pop a vein would almost be too dramatic and Too Much. i think that kind of thing only works for a v specific kitschy, performative kind of team (a la russians) and wouldnt vibe with vm’s super earnest approach at all. but the orchestral score is genuinely moving and effective in a less garish way

but i dont think they’re doing moulin rouge lol

"the movies honestly made it hard 4 me to interpret hermione’s undying loyalty and devotion to harry as anything other than latent sexual attraction tbh lmao" Hahaha, pretty much. Plus, the whole Harry and Ginny thing, even more so in the movies, seemed to come out of nowhere and was cliche as fuck.

is bonnie wright still acting? i’ve seen dead fish more alive than her on screen

LMAO someone posted a clip from VM's show when they were having dinner with WP and they were talking about how WP live together and they ask VM how they deal with one another and LOL I stg I started loling cause their reactions were #priceless. S literally just had a WTF look on his face while he said something hella awkward & T looked like she wanted to slap him. Her follow up that she doesn't think they could ever spend all their time together just cements why they'll never date for me.

lmao that whole scene is so stupid. kaitlyn n andrew r such good friends i swear

Thanks for setting that anon straight. Set some boundaries so that they don't egg on shippers?? WTF. They're fine with doing what they're doing, and if they're dating others, those others are obviously fine with it too. Besides, it's not like they're filming porn or something. If you can't handle it, stop watching them.

idek what these r in reference to anymore but it sounds dumb as hell lmao

Wow I cannot believe that people actually think VM owe fans any explanation for their relationship/partnership. Like we don't know them, we're never going to know them or be friends with them? Why the fuck do they owe fans a detailed explanation of their personal business? I stg these shippers have lost their damn minds. As long as VM continue to put out good programs and do well I couldn't care less what they're doing off ice. Whatever it is it's clearly working for them. You do you VM.

the entitlement of some fans is insane. its STILL happening now with tessa’s ig now too. why dont yall just let her live n let her white-girl post to her hearts content. she is literally doing nothing differently to what every other skater does, idg this absurd criticism

Fr tho both of them have such nice teeth and I've never seen pics of them with braces, like how??!?!

tessa’s r so nice i cant believe she’s never had braces. and they r such a natural white? like u can tell w most skaters that they get it professionally whitened but hers dont have that artificial look at all

Are you in college? Your bio says 23 but it said that last year too.

i actually turned 24 a while ago im just 2 lazy to change it. im in law school currently

I just read an ancient interview with vm where they said Mahler was about getting married or something... WHAT

ya i cant remember if it was them that said or marina that said it tho. i remember a story about a guy who wrote them saying he and his gf were watching mahler at the olympics and once it was over, he was so moved he got down on one knee and proposed to her and marina was like ‘thats what that program is meant to do’ lol

Do you think Zach is a good skater and partner? I keep changing my mind on him.....

he is such a bland, wet noodle - no taste, no flavor, just empty white carbs. its up to madi to add any spark to the team bc she’s the real star, he just stands there and is tall and can lift her

Why the fuck are so many people freaking out because Tessa did not attend a wedding with Scott. 1. They are not dating so there are no reason for Scott to bring her. 2. She has people visiting 3. I bet they don't even hang out off ice 4. I think Scott has a secret girl in Ilderton. 5. TS not dating. I wish people would claim down.

this is so far back in my inbox i have no idea whats happening

I love it that whenever Tessa posts an IG story the fandom goes crazy analyzing and speculating about Scott what there even when he is clearly not Then there there are talks about TS wedding. WTF Soon it will be TS having babies. I am wondering if maybe the fandom (new fans) are mixing reality with those fanfics.

honestly no clue

I know this has been discussed before but I don't get how Scott and Jess even communicated. Jess could barely seem to understand English back then and Scott couldn't speak French. I wonder if them not being able to speak to each other is part of why they lasted so long actually

lol bryce davison actually learned french so he could communicate w/ her. not scott tho lol

I don't think T cares too much about fs friendships the way other skaters do. Of course she's friendly with a lot of them but she's not really close with anyone except her partner, which doesn't really count lol. She has her own friend group outside of skating and that's what she seems to stick to. It's funny you mention Meryl, Brooke, Tanith, and Lauren because they're all still really good friends.

honestly i think skating stressed (stresses?) her out so much back then that she really hated being in that world for too long. i dont blame her for wanting to disconnect and not having to hang out with skaters who just talk about other skaters and skating 24/7

I don't mean this in a mean way. Watching Avatar.  If you paint Meryl's face blue she could be in the movie 

it kills me when ppl say she looks like a disney princess? ya the ant queen from a bugs life maybe

I think Tessa sometimes forget that Scott is a huge part of why they are successful and she wouldn't have all of these deals w amazing brands if they weren't so strong+didn't win everything. it's easy to put her on the pedestal bc she's gorg and can dance, but he should get/deserves just as much credit-- i mean he is the one lifting her and she could not do any of this by herself. sometimes i get the vibe that she thinks she's too good for him. maybe he's not as fancy, but he has a heart of gold

i’ve literally never gotten that she thinks she’s too good for him...? they go out of their way to pay each other compliments all the time and dont even jokingly diss on each other. its actually kind of weird that after knowing each other so long their relationship isnt just one long roast section where they talk shit about each other bc thats what my relationship w/ all my lifelong friends r like....but then again im a flinty bitch and they’re super earnest and emo like all the time. like i bet they both cry during sex

i find it kinda gross, disturbing and a bit pathetic that so many people feel the need to write erotic fan fiction about Tessa and Scott--like they are real people not characters, and it's kinda creepy that people spend so much time writing and reading them. Also, i would pay a million dollars to have someone show TS what people write about them--they would literally die and so would i--some fans are kinda extreme crazy

u know how on graham norton when he’s always showing celebs really erotic fanfic and fanart of themselves and they’re just dying of embarrassment?? i would literally pay everything in my bank account (so like....twenty dollars) for someone to do that to vm

omg it's gonna be so awk when tessa and scott have to see klawes...poor klawes, she just could not hold a candle to tessa. still don't know why klawes still follows tessa's insta--like i would unfollow and would not wanna see some of the pics t posts of TS giving each other lovey looks/touchy regardless of whether ts are together or not. also, it's never like t and klawes would actually be friends bc they're polar opposites

v disappointed that the olympic summit did not deliver on this #drama

tessa and kl were real friends tho, i think its sweet. and its nice they still keep in touch even tho scott is a dog

Are you a fan of tessa's style? She wears so much expensive yet ugly shit in my opinion.

lmao no. i think some of her casual wear is cute, but she wears some of the most hideous high fashion shit ever when she’s going out. like that blue carpet jumpsuit? yall know wht im talking about. those hideous trousers??? also she wears an unbelievable amount of boring black dresses

also gf needs to do smth with her hair. tired of her high bun and slick pony. she looks way cuter w/ her hair down imo

Do you think Tessa pays for all the Adidas stuff she wears?

no she def gets it for free. i was a walk-on my freshman yr of college for half a second and even i got a bunch of free shit from nike

How do u as an ed sheeran unstanner feel about ts doing these songs their obviously using him for the sd next season and i wouldnt be suprised if they use him for the fd as well

reading this made my cholesterol go up

really hope they're exhausting all the ed sheeran options now so they won't actually use it for comps lol

ngl i do kind of dig that embarrassing white boy rapping galway girl song but that cld prob just be my girl saorise ronan hypnotizing me like she always does

Minus the horrific man bun, do you think Scott's hot? Also, do you think Tessa finds him attractive?

no and probably yes now that hes so fug

Do you think Scott's attractive?? Also, do you think Tessa being told she's beautiful constantly on sm has made her get a big head--she often comes across as a bit cold and stuck up prancing around in her $1000 + outfits? Love her and she's gorgeous but...

some of yall need to stop projecting your shit onto tessa for real 

Power plays of the figure skating journalists. Inside Skating does a very literal interview and article with P/C which blows up and then they go to Jackie Wong so he can basically write up a damage control press release. Kind of fascinating to see both journalists doing their thing with the same content. Hard to believe Inside Skating didn't think their article would create a storm. Interesting.

speaking of jackie, skaters r really going to him for their exclusives now huh? dying that ashley gave him her big la la land fluff piece instead of tsl. pays 2 be nice and kiss ass

Doesn't look like KH/JLB will have much of a chance to advance cuzis so crowded with the current seniors not retiring and juniors moving up. KH/JLB needs to work on their twizzles, thier lines, skating skills, chemistry looks promising. Some of those junior and senior teams should consider representingif they want a chance at aCanada doesn't have any promising teams once VM-WP retire. I feel like CB, SS, HD ain't retiring till they win Wch or OG which may never with PC around.

hawayek/baker could prob skate for gb because jean-luc has citizenship and carreira/ponomarenko could prob skate for canada bc she’s from montreal but i doubt the us fed is letting either of them go. they’ve invested way too much at this point. i don’t think c/p need to move tho, i think they’re talented to rise organically through the ranks. i think they’re more likely to be us #1 instead of not tbh

I don't understand the whole David and Tessa affair; like some people say it happened after he was separated and others talk like it was a full blown affair. The only thing I do know is that her being called a "homewrecker" or anything else of that nature makes me want to punch something because it's disgusting, and it's society go-to response. Be cruel to the woman and basically give the man a free pass. But maybe he received shit, too? I just never heard about it.

i think he was basically separated but not divorced when it happened

Do you think if TS and Cappelini and Lanotte switched partners they would be a good team?

lol no. anna’s not a great skater and luca looks like he’s shorter than tessa

Wait is that Tessa's ex Semple in that photo you posted of her pre and post nose job? Cause if so damn does she lowball herself. Like she could have such better looking guys I do not understand. Girl is very pretty she needs someone to help her pick better guys.

~we accept the love we think we deserve~~

I think T is cringeworthy as a speaker bc she's sooo gd rehearsed. Not a things she says comes across like she didn't practice it in the bathroom mirror 75 times that morning. She would be pretty good if she could lose even half the pretension in her delivery and tossed out the eye rolly words she keeps littering the sentences with like privilege and journey.

they honestly both suck. she’s worse than he is, but they’re both super stiff. and they always do this forced banter bit at the start which just seems so awkward lol

That one anon pointing that some have denied the nose surgery - this is exactly what annoys me about those shipper blogs, not that they are shippers (you can want them two to be together- that by itself doesn't bother me), but their ways and how they always have to insist on vm's perfect image - they all get so upset and aggressive when you point some issue out, like why would you deny Tessa has done a nose job... so out of touch! vm are interesting exactly cause they're real people with flaws

i can not believe ppl r denying her nose job. like yo its right there. it does lend credence to my theory that all shipprs r just hallucinating n seeing things that arent there tho

If Tessa and Scott did hook up while officially with SOs I have a feeling they wouldn't consider it cheating.

ok lmao??? im sure something extremely profound i said provoked this

how rich do u think scott and tessa are???

prob millionaires by the time 2018 comes around if they get their sponsorships

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i might do part 2 later if i can be bothered... but nothing really makes sense out of context lol, its like watching charlie kaufman do slam poetry

[mrsjugheadjonesthethird]

The Best Revenge Plan (Jughead x Reader)

Prompt: Heyyy. Could u do a rly angsty Jughead x Reader where the reader catches Archie (her bf) making out with Betty or something and she goes to Jughead, her best friend, and asks him to help her make a revenge plan? They start acting all lovey-dovey to make Archie jealous of what he lost and they make sure he finds them in 'compromising situations'? I think it'd be really cute and funny. Thx!!!!

A/N: I'm going to do that so the reader finds out about Archie and Miss Grundy instead of Jughead as she's walking past the classroom. Hope you like it! (Sorry I’m not the best with angsty stuff ugh) Requests are welcome!

Warnings: Archie x Reader (in the beginning), Cheating, Underage relationship (stupid Miss Grundy), Small amount of swearing,

Masterlist

The Best Revenge Plan (Jughead x Reader)

You had a bad feeling in your gut. Your boyfriend of a few months had been canceling dates and avoiding both you and your best friend Jug.

He was supposed to go on a roadtrip with Jug on July 4th but instead you and him sat in Pop’s trying to figure out why Archie canceled on the boy.

“It doesn’t make sense, Jug. He told me yesterday that you guys were leaving early?” You sigh and frown at your melting milkshake.

“I don’t know, (y/n)...”

“Do you think he got into some sort of trouble?” You push the basket of fries towards your best friend. The thought of your boyfriend lying to both you and him made your appetite disappear.

You glance out the window of Pop’s.

Why were you even dating Arch?

Everyone thought Betty was a better fit but you knew the blonde was more confused about everything.

You had talked to the blonde before saying yes to Archie. You knew she liked him and didn’t want to go against one of your best friends.

You were surprised when she told you that she was starting to question her sexuality anyways so she didn’t want to date Archie when she was trying to figure herself out.

Your parents and Arch’s Dad were happy when you two announced the relationship.

Sometimes you felt the relationship was making everyone else happy instead of you and him.

It’s not that Archie wasn’t a great boyfriend. No, He was a gentleman and did everything right.

Or at least up until summer started.

It was into the first week of school when you found out.

You were walking along the halls during your free period when you walked past the music room.

There he was.

Your heart drops as you watch Miss Grundy, the music teacher, step a little closer to your boyfriend.

He puts an arm around her waist and glances down with that charming smile.

Was he cheating on you? With the damn music teacher?!

“I don’t think so, Andrews.” You mutter and rush to find your best friend. Your blood boiling at this point.

“JONES.” You almost screech when you see the famous gray beanie.

He jumps and turns to you with a glare, but drops it with concern when he sees your face. “What happened?”

You grab his arm and drag him into an empty classroom.

He rubs his arm when you let go. “(Y/n) what-”

“Archie’s cheating on me.” Your voice breaks a little as you interrupt him.

His face changes. “What? With who?”

“The fucking music teacher, Juggie! Out of all the people, a fucking older woman is the one who he cheats on me with!” Tears gather as your voice raises a little.

Jug instantly wraps his arms around you. “I’ll kill him.” He growls as he holds you.

“I have to break up with him, Jug.” You mutter against your best friend’s chest.

“Okay. Do you want me to punch him for you?” You let out a giggle at the thought. “I’ll do it. He shouldn’t get away with this. With hurting you.”

You pull away slightly and grin up at the angry boy. “Thanks Jug… Actually I have a plan.”

Your eyes meet his. “Will you help me, Jug?”

Step 1: Break up with Archie Andrews.

“Archie!” You call out when you see his bright red hair on his porch.

“Sup, (Y/n).” He looks up at you, making your stomach turn.

“Can we talk?” You keep your voice soft. Not wanting to show him just how angry you were with your childhood friend and soon to be ex.

“Of course.” He shrugs and places the guitar down behind him.

“Listen, Arch.” You sit down in the chair next to his. “I think we should break up.”

“What? Why?” He frowns, immediately questioning you.

“Arch, You’re never around anymore.” You remind yourself to use your words carefully. “I barely saw you all summer and you won’t answer my texts.”

“I went on that roadtrip with Jughead! You know that.” You glare at the ginger.

“I’m not stupid, Andrews.” Screw this step, this boy is getting your fury. “I was with Juggie all summer! Hell, He took me to see the fireworks instead of my boyfriend!”

“(Y/n).” His voice gets lower.

“No. I’m cutting this off. You weren’t into me and I wasn’t that into you. Simple choice, we break up.” You stand up. “Oh, and have fun with that cougar of yours.” Your voice sharpens with every word.

Instantly, He grabs your arm hard. “What? (Y/n), what do you know?!” He harshly whispers at you.

You shake out of his grip. “You know when you’re cheating on your girlfriend with the damn music teacher, maybe not do it in the music room during school hours?”

He grabs your arm again. “You can’t tell anyone, (Y/n).”

You shove him away from you. “Screw you, Archie. You don’t even deny it! And why shouldn’t I tell everyone in town?! You hurt me, Arch!” Your voice getting louder.

Before he could say anything, Jug came around the corner.

“(Y/n)? You alright?” His voice laced with concern.

“Yeah. I’m just leaving. Walk me home, Juggie?” You make it down the steps when Archie goes after you.

“You can’t say anything, (Y/n). Or…”

“Or what, Archie?” Jug interrupts, glaring at him.

“It’s a little late for that bud.” You step towards Jughead.

Jug puts his arm around you. “Come on, You look like you need a milkshake.”

The ginger boy watches as you and your best friend walk away, one holding the other.

“So, You broke up with him?” Betty and Veronica both frown when you told them about the break up.

“Yeah. He was never around and he cheated on me so yeah. But I’m more hurt that he cheated rather than him not being that into me. Our relationship was more of a label than anything else.” You shrug as Jug glances at you. “Plus, Juggie here is excellent at cheering me up.”

He rolls his eyes and pats your head. “Anything for the princess.”

“Woah, wait a minute. Princess?” V raises a brow.

“What about it?” He shrugs, taking a bite out of the burger in front of him.

“Since when did you call her princess?” V crosses her arms as Betty giggles.

“Ronnie, He’s called her princess since we were in like third grade.” Betty leans into Veronica side.

“Yeah. I got jealous that he was always wearing a crown so He made me a paper one and crowned me ‘Princess’.” You grin at the memory.

“You know I’m surprised you haven’t punched Archie for cheating on (Y/n), Juggie.” Betty changes the subject back.

“I wanted to but Princess here has a different plan.” All eyes turn to you.

“Oh god. Another plan. What is it this time?” Betty groans and V claps her hands.

I grin at Jug. “Well like I said, Jug has an excellent way of cheering me up.”

“I absolutely approve. Oh My God.” V smirks at you two.

Step 2: Have Archie catch You and Jug in Compromising Positions.

“Juggie, You don’t have to do this. I can find someone else to help me.” You tangle your hands in his black locks.

“I don’t mind. Plus do you really trust another guy to keep his hands to himself in these situations?” He smirks and nods to the position you guys were in.

You had Jug push you up against the wall in the back of the library and you had your arms wrapped around his neck.

“True.” You giggle. “But You’d break their hands if they touched me the wrong way.” You kiss his nose, making his face turn red.

“Stop.” He tries to keep a stern face. “I still hate you for knocking my beanie on the floor.”

“It had to happen Jug! He won’t believe it if we don’t pay attention to detail.” You roll your eyes at him.

“So what are we doing again?” He keeps his voice down so no one can over him.

“Betty invited him to study with Her, V and Kevin. Kevin is going to point us out to him when he sits down. Before that, You’re going to have to kiss me. One more chance to get out of this, Juggie.” You brush a strand of hair out of his face.

He shakes his head. “I told you. I don’t mind helping you. Plus It’s not like we haven’t kissed before.”

Both of you blush at the memory.

It was before Archie asked you out. You had been dating one of the guys on the football team.

He broke your heart and Jug broke his nose.

Then later that night, Jug climbed in your window and held you while you cried.

“Why am I not good enough for them?” You had voiced your insecurities to him.

“What are you talking about, Princess? You are beautiful and deserve way more than him or any stupid guy like him.” He had kissed you a few moments after.

You simply replied with a smile and a “Thank you for being my knight in shining armor, Juggie.”

You turn your gaze to a flash of red and varsity jacket. “He’s-”

Jug gently presses his soft chapped lips on yours. Your heart speeds up.

You kiss him back with a bit of force and grip at his hair.

He places his hands on your waist and tugs you closer to him.

You faintly hear Kevin say something but Jug bites at your bottom lip and you lose all thoughts.

A chair slams against the floor, scaring you both apart.

You glance back to see the group all staring in shock as Archie storms out.

“You know..” Jug clears his throat, trying to hide the creeping grin. “The best revenge plan would be if we somehow started dating..” A faint blush makes its way up his neck.

You lean in and kiss him again. “How about we just date because we like each other?”

“I love you.” He sighed.

“Gross. Why?” You giggle as he captures your lips again.

Step 3: Scrap the plan and Realize the only one for you is Jughead Jones the Third.

A/N: Ahhhhh It’s not as angsty as you requested but I hope you still liked it!

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[porphyrophiliac]

i dare u to answer every single question

o   h(well here we go)

1.Who was the last person you held hands with?my ex

2. Are you outgoing or shy?a bit of both?? like, it completely depends on the environment; i’ve been in the same music class for 2 years and i only spoke to the person who sat next to me for the entirety of that year for the first time today, but i was on a residential at the national film school with 64 other people and i sought out and had a full conversation with each and every one of them

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?my boyfriend!!

4. Are you easy to get along with?i hope so? i think people get along with me if they’re respectful, bc if they aren’t i don’t particularly try to get along with them

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?i feel like max would yeah fdsahjfbasd

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?who the fuck even knows, i just go with the current gfdbhjsgd

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?i think so c:

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?my boyfriend max fggfdgkfdhsngfndkghjs

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?uhhh, it depends on who with? and whether or not it’s personal experience, bc i can talk about it as a concept but my own experiences are reserved for people i’m in relationships with and extremely close friends

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?my boyfriend hgfhdg (look i am Not that sociable)

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?“i love you too, max!” (can u tell that i lov my bf)

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?What THe Fuck Is A Song Who Even Music What the F

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?yES

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?my bf is a miracle

15. What good thing happened this summer?i got into a relationship last summer! with my bf! who i love!

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?no.

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?i mean, like, probably

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?i do not

19. Do you like bubble baths?dude who doesn’t

20. Do you like your neighbors?what the fuck is a neighbour

21. What are you bad habits?existing

22. Where would you like to travel?canada, to see my bf dasfbjhskfdagsh

23. Do you have trust issues?yea

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?talking to my bf, or maybe sleeping

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?the part that’s, uh. the bit that’s like, covered in skin? all of it? yeah, all of it

26. What do you do when you wake up?think about my bf and then go back to sleep dfshjbak

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?i wouldn’t mind being a bit paler??

28. Who are you most comfortable around?my bf dfbhkjasfhas

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?nah, i don’t think so

30. Do you ever want to get married?i think so!

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?nah dfhbjsakf

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?what the fuck is a celebrity

33. Spell your name with your chin.swam

34. Do you play sports? What sports?WHAT THE FUCK IS A SPORT

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?dont do this to me

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?i have only told like, two people i ever liked that i did

37. What do you say during awkward silences?nothing

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?uhh, he’s about 5′3″, shaped like a friend, has a cute canadian accent & short hair, a Real Soft Boy, likes cartoons and makes great art and is v kissable. not that u could ever find a guy that perfect in the real world oh wait i dID HE’S MY BOYFRIEND AND I LOVE HIM

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?if it sells fizzy drinks and chocolate, i’m satisfied

40. What do you want to do after high school?sleep

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?absolutely not. or, like, i think people deserve a second chance, but that doesn’t mean you personally have to give it to them. they can find it somewhere else

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?that im tired, usually

43. Do you smile at strangers?if they’re pretty sometimes

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?trip to canada

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?my alarm

46. What are you paranoid about?everything

47. Have you ever been high?almost

48. Have you ever been drunk?yea

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?i don’t think so?

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?mint green

51. Ever wished you were someone else?all the time

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?id like to have boobs

53. Favourite makeup brand?uhhhhhhhhhhh

54. Favourite store?uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

55. Favourite blog?@maxjo​

56. Favourite colour?pink!

57. Favourite food? pasta!

58. Last thing you ate?a croissant, its the only thing i ate today fdbhasjkfbdasfha

59. First thing you ate this morning?a croissant, its still the only thing i ate today

60. Ever won a competition? For what?being the Worst fshbkadnlsat i was one of 12 cinematographers under 19 from across the UK chosen for a specialist residential at the national film school, does that count??

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?nope

62. Been arrested? For what?nope

63. Ever been in love? yep!

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?nope

65. Are you hungry right now?always

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?my tumblr friends are my real friends and i love all of them

67. Facebook or Twitter?facebook

68. Twitter or Tumblr?tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?nah

70. Names of your bestfriends? max (obvs), fearghal, sarah, takeshi, dovydas

71. Craving something? What?love and affection frm my bf dfabhsjk

72. What colour are your towels?purple!

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?four!

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?i have a teddy named max dfbhkajdnkf (hes a soft boi)

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?A Lot

75. Favourite animal?hedgehogs

76. What colour is your underwear?my pyjama bottoms are blue, i’m not wearing underwear currently bc of that

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?chocolate, no hesitation

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?either chocolate or mint chocolate :00

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?light grey! it has pokemon on it

80. What colour pants?blue

81. Favourite tv show?uhhhhhhhhhhh

82. Favourite movie?uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (im a film student i know too many)

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?haven’t seen either

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?haven’t seen either

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?haven’t seen it

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?bruce!

87. First person you talked to today?i have no idea

88. Last person you talked to today?my boyfriend fdsajbhkf

89. Name a person you hate?this one asshole from my school who i won’t name here

90. Name a person you love?max dfhaskjbfsfnasd

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?me

92. In a fight with someone?me

93. How many sweatpants do you have?none :00

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?at least 11

95. Last movie you watched?Moon

96. Favourite actress?i don’t rly have one fbfjhkgsd

97. Favourite actor?i don’t really have one gdfhdfkbjfssfdghkdjs

98. Do you tan a lot?a little

99. Have any pets?i have a cat :000

100. How are you feeling?tired gdhgdfk

101. Do you type fast?yea

102. Do you regret anything from your past?yea

103. Can you spell well?yeas

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?yea

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?no

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?maybe??

107. Have you ever been on a horse?no

108. What should you be doing?sleeping fgsdhbkjFSD

109. Is something irritating you right now?me

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?MAX

111. Do you have trust issues?see question 23

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?uhhhhh???? who knows, i cry a lot gfgfhkdjsnjglsdf

113. What was your childhood nickname?I Dont Wanna Get Into That

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?yea :00

115. Do you play the Wii?i used to??

116. Are you listening to music right now?nah

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?nah

118. Do you like Chinese food?not rly gfsdjkhfg

119. Favourite book?The Book of Lost Things, by john connolly

120. Are you afraid of the dark?yes fdashbkjfasdf

121. Are you mean?if people are mean to me, yeah

122. Is cheating ever okay?absolutely not

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?nope fbhasdjkfadsfas

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?yes, i’m certain that it happens all the time

125. Do you believe in true love?i think so c:

126. Are you currently bored?nope fdsjabhfkdsf

127. What makes you happy?my bf fhadskbjsad

128. Would you change your name?i already have once, but if i found something i liked more maybe??

129. What your zodiac sign?aries

130. Do you like subway?nah

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?reject them but stay friends

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?still my bf

133. Favourite lyrics right now?If there’s a line I’ll cross it,No lesson will I learn;Even if I’m standing on itNo bridge that I won’t burn

134. Can you count to one million?i didn’t get a D in maths for nothing

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?for 17 years i tried to convince people i was a guy

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?CLOSED, WHY THE FUCK WOUDL YOU HAVE THEAM OPNE JOH MYG OD

137. How tall are you?6′1″

138. Curly or Straight hair?curly

139. Brunette or Blonde?brunette

140. Summer or Winter?summer

141. Night or Day?night

142. Favourite month?july

143. Are you a vegetarian?nah

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?milk

145. Tea or Coffee?coffe dfhbksjafads

146. Was today a good day?i guess?

147. Mars or Snickers?mars

148. What’s your favourite quote?’coffe burns’

149. Do you believe in ghosts?who even knows

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line‘mattered. I had all these plans about getting in and reprogramming’