#i shouldve just posted the entirety of youre on your own kid

[shakinblindandhazy]

my favourite midnights lyrics!

this is purely self indulgent

lavender haze

"Staring at the ceiling with you

Oh, you don't ever say too much

And you don't really read into

My melancholia"

maroon

"When the silence came

We were shaking, blind and hazy

How the hell did we lose sight of us again?

Sobbing with your head in your hands

Ain't that the way shit always ends?

You were standing hollow-eyed in the hallway

Carnations you had thought were roses, that's us"

☆

"The rust that grew between telephones

The lips I used to call home

So scarlet, it was maroon"

anti-hero

"I should not be left to my own devices

They come with prices and vices

I end up in crisis"

☆

"I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror

It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero"

☆

"Did you hear my covert narcissism I disguise as altruism

Like some kind of congressman?"

snow on the beach

"Life is emotionally abusive

And time can't stop me quite like you did"

☆

"This scene feels like what I once saw on a screen

I searched "aurora borealis green"

I've never seen someone lit from within

Blurring out my periphery"

☆

"My smile is like I won a contest

And to hide that would be so dishonest

And it's fine to fake it 'til you make it

'Til you do, 'til it's true"

you're on your own kid

"I search the party of better bodies

Just to learn that my dreams aren't rare"

☆

"The jokes weren't funny, I took the money

My friends from home don't know what to say

I looked around in a blood-soaked gown

And I saw something they can't take away

'Cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned

Everything you lose is a step you take

So, make the friendship bracelets, take the moment and taste it

You've got no reason to be afraid"

☆

"You're on your own, kid

Yeah, you can face this

You're on your own, kid

You always have been"

midnight rain

"I broke his heart 'cause he was nice

He was sunshine, I was midnight rain"

☆

"All the love we unravel

And the life I gave away

'Cause he was sunshine, I was midnight rain"

question...?

"Can I ask you a question?

Did you ever have someone kiss you in a crowded room?"

☆

"Does it feel like everything's just like

Second best after that meteor strike?"

vigilante shit

"Draw the cat eye sharp enough to kill a man

You did some bad things, but I'm the worst of them

Sometimes I wonder which one'll be your last lie

They say looks can kill and I might try

I don't dress for women

I don't dress for men

Lately, I've been dressin' for revenge"

☆

"Ladies always rise above

Ladies know what people want

Someone sweet and kind and fun

The lady simply had enough"

bejeweled

"Familiarity breeds contempt

Don't put me in the basement

When I want the penthouse of your heart"

☆

"Baby boy, I think I've been too good of a girl

Did all the extra credit, then got graded on a curve"

labyrinth

"You know how scared I am of elevators

Never trust it if it rises fast

It can't last"

☆

"Uh-oh, I'm fallin' in love

Oh no, I'm fallin' in love again

Oh, I'm fallin' in love

I thought the plane was goin' down

How'd you turn it right around?"

karma

"You're terrified to look down

'Cause if you dare, you'll see the glare

Of everyone you burned just to get there

It's coming back around"

☆

"Spiderboy, king of thieves

Weave your little webs of opacity

My pennies made your crown"

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"Karma's a relaxing thought

Aren't you envious that for you it's not?"

sweet nothing

"Outside, they're push and shovin'

You're in the kitchen hummin'

All that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothin'"

☆

"On the way home

I wrote a poem

You say, "What a mind"

This happens all the time"

☆

"Industry disruptors and soul deconstructors

And smooth-talking hucksters out glad-handing each other

And the voices that implore, "You should be doing more"

To you, I can admit that I'm just too soft for all of it"

mastermind

"And the touch of a hand lit the fuse

Of a chain reaction of countermoves

To assess the equation of you

Checkmate, I couldn't lose"

☆

"You see, all the wisest women

Had to do it this way

'Cause we were born to be the pawn

In every lover's game"

☆

"No one wanted to play with me as a little kid

So I've been scheming like a criminal ever since

To make them love me and make it seem effortless

This is the first time I've felt the need to confess

And I swear

I'm only cryptic and Machiavellian

'Cause I care"

the great war

"You drew up some good faith treaties

I drew curtains closed, drank my poison all alone

You said I have to trust more freely

But diesel is desire, you were playing with fire"

☆

"And maybe it's the past that's talking

Screaming from the crypt

Telling me to punish you for things you never did

So I justified it"

☆

"It turned into something bigger

Somewhere in the haze, got a sense I'd been betrayed

Your finger on my hairpin triggers

Soldier down on that icy ground

Looked up at me with honor and truth

Broken and blue, so I called off the troops

That was the night I nearly lost you

I really thought I'd lost you"

bigger than the whole sky

"No words appear before me in the aftermath

Salt streams out my eyes and into my ears

Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness

'Cause it's all over now, all out to sea"

☆

"Every single thing to come has turned into ashes

'Cause it's all over, it's not meant to be

So I'll say words I don't believe"

☆

"Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You were bigger than the whole sky

You were more than just a short time

And I've got a lot to pine about

I've got a lot to live without

I'm never gonna meet

What could've been, would've been

What should've been you"

paris

"Romance is not dead if you keep it just yours"

☆

"I wanna transport you

To somewhere the culture's clever

Confess my truth

In swooping, sloping, cursive letters"

high infidelity

"Lock broken, slur spoken

Wound open, game token

I didn't know you were keeping count"

☆

"Do you really want to know where I was April 29th?

Do I really have to chart the constellations in his eyes?

You know there's many different ways that you can kill the one you love

The slowest way is never loving them enough"

☆

"Oh, there's many different ways that you can kill the one you love

And it's never enough, it's never enough"

glitch

"I think there's been a glitch, oh, yeah

Five seconds later, I'm fastening myself to you with a stitch, oh, yeah"

☆

"I was supposed to sweat you out

In search of glorious happenings of happenstance on someone else's playground

But it's been two-thousand one-hundred ninety days of our love blackout"

would've could've should've

"I would've stayed on my knees

And I damn sure never would've danced with the devil

At nineteen

And the God's honest truth is that the pain was heaven

And now that I'm grown, I'm scared of ghosts

Memories feel like weapons

And now that I know, I wish you'd left me wondering"

"And if you never saved me from boredom

☆

I could've gone on as I was

But, Lord, you made me feel important

And then you tried to erase us"

☆

"God rest my soul

I miss who I used to be

The tomb won't close

Stained glass windows in my mind

I regret you all the time

I can't let this go

I fight with you in my sleep

The wound won't close

I keep on waiting for a sign

I regret you all the time"

☆

"If clarity's in death, then why won't this die?

Years of tearing down our banners, you and I

Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts

Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first"

dear reader

"Dear reader, burn all the files

Desert all your past lives

And if you don't recognize yourself

That means you did it right"

☆

"So I wander through these nights

I prefer hiding in plain sight

My fourth drink in my hand

These desperate prayers of a cursed man

Spilling out to you for free

But darling, darling, please

You wouldn't take my word for it if you knew who was talking

If you knew where I was walking

To a house, not a home, all alone 'cause nobody's there

Where I pace in my pen and my friends found friends who care

No one sees when you lose when you're playing solitaire"

the end.