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arcanegifs · 18 days
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Caitvi Scenes: 30/? ↳ "You've got a good heart. Don't ever lose it. No matter how the world tries to break you. Protect the family."
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genericpuff · 8 months
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#and before anyone who hates my shit says “yeah because you ARE a loser way to have self awareness for once”#i promise you this would be me with or without the LO fandom LMAO#anxiety is a hell of a thing#and as much as i internally guilt myself into thinking it would be better if i just shut up and hid away forever#i also know that's the trauma speaking because the adults around me always told me to shut up#and even as an adult i still encounter people who talk over me and make me feel like i'm not allowed to be outspoken#but the pen is mightier than the sword and all those years i've spent being spoken over i've been honing my penmanship#i have fun talking about the things i talk about and i don't have any less right than anyone else to do it#i am cringe and i am free#self post#vent post#altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read#too many of my favorites have turned to shit and it's taken its toll#i KNOW there are better comics out there that are genuinely well made#i already have a few that i'm reading that i love but i need to balance out the good with the bad more lol#i just need to take the time to go find good stuff instead of pouring so much of my attention into the bullshit that doesn't deserve my tim#i think both things can be true#i can have a lot of fun dissecting and writing about series i don't like#while also nourishing myself with good works that restore my faith in this medium#“perfectly balanced as all things should be”
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echojedis · 1 year
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How do people do OCs, I can never get them to click properly
#i think i’m holding back too much the idea is there in my head#but when i’m drawing i’m conscious that i might want to share this stuff at some point so the whole time i’m thinking#about making a good design and i don’t want to give them anything vaguely similar to anyone else’s oc because i don’t want to step on toes#so they end up barely a visage of what i want to be creating#idkkk#the idea i have in my head is an oc who’s a horse girl LMAO their companion is a fathier who they have a very strong inseparable bond with#i am a lifelong horse person and i grew up reading pony club secrets and watching stuff like flicka so i feel like i can bring#something personal to that concept#but i don’t want them to be a mando. i don’t know much about mando culture and i cba to learn so that was the one i did not want hem to be#and yet. i can only imagine them with mandalorian armour#they’re the same species as dryden vos. there’s next to no lore on his species and they’re non human in a way that’s easy to draw#so i can just make stuff up and not be constrained by canon#them being near human is also relevant to their story. they spent a lot of time around humans and they’re close enough to human to get by#but not human enough that there’s something off. they don’t quite fit in and they always felt on the outside looking in#hence why they prefer the company of animals#maybe i’ll have them formerly working in fathier racing but that might be too projecty#this is so rambly i apologise i’ve been very talkative on here recently#ohh this is very off the cuff but maybe they’re the child of loyal mandalorians but never really subscribed to it themselves#having spent a lot of time around fathiers also meant they spent less time around mandalorians. so despite technically being mando#and wearing the armour they don’t really identify very strongly as a mandalorian
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humanimalgam · 4 months
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finished my next drawing yay i'll post it tomorrow <3
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skyeateyourdonuts · 1 year
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weeoo
#this is gonna be me talking in tags today#ive been rather sleep deprived lately trying to keep up with everything around me#and its been taking a toll on my health like#if i go too long like this i tend to feel more lethargic and my allergies kick in#i got a sore throat bc my room has been Freezing and then i get headaches way way easier#often times my face will flush but its just my nose and idk why#well anyways lmao i just aint feelin great due to lack of sleep#so i emailed my teachers and stayed home and others might say this wasnt it#but i can barely get to sleep at all these days and just bed ridding myself#seemed like the only way for my body to be like#'fine 🙄 u can sleep' lmao#thats actually one of the worst symptoms is im restless i just Cant grt to sleep no matter how hard i try#ive had a couple days where i was running on 2-3 hours bc i spent even longer Laying there#anyways i hope this makes a difference im tired of feeling tired and shitty#luckily my mood has weirdly been high#its just my sleep and health that are low#i think when the sleepiest soldiers are unable to get sleep thats when u know smths wrong#i think also so much is happening and me trying to keep up is taking more outta me than i expected#im a gal who gets overwhelmed easily even if im happy w whats happening lmao#tho im not Happy im more In a Good Mood lmao#side tangent but i HATE being an adult who doesnt have like idk Help lmao#like my dad was so nice to me sometimes and helped me sometimes#i could go a whole day sleeping bc id be fucking exhausted#and hed qake me up and ask me when i last ate and if i couldnt decide but itd been too long#hed make smth for the both pf us or hed make it For me and id just be able to like recover lmao#ah adulthood is hard lmao#alright im done#gata#no need to read <3 yall
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dutybcrne · 3 months
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Kaeya might stress tf out of Luc whenever he pops by the Angels Share, but lbr Luc gets him back tenfold whenever they’d cooperate on missions bc Luc will NOT hesitate to fucken Leroy Jenkins and practically make Kae go grey early in the process-
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coridallasmultipass · 4 months
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Personal vent post, how I tag things, apologies for this probably showing up in search results because I'm not censoring words (do not have the spoons rn)
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So I'm getting really frustrated (at the situation, not at individual people! Sorry to vague right after getting a request, I was gonna make this post like a week ago) that multiple people have asked me not to tag Bro/Cal reblogs as Stridercest.
Stridercest does not mean incest, it means Strider/Strider relationship. I'm tagging it for followers who don't want to see Strider/Strider at all (or for those who do, too, I guess). On MY blog, it has NO bearing on whether or not something is incest. Lil Cal has been a Strider since Day 1 to me, way before any of the events after Act 6, as a pure vanilla puppet. A Strider by marriage, in my opinion. But I'm not opposed to calculating the amount of Strider that got put in Lil Cal, as I've done before. You also have Dirk/Hal which is also Stridercest, but not incest (at least in canon, sometimes it is incest in fan depictions). Or Guardiancest, which I don't think counts as incest in canon either (but usually always is in fan depictions). Even selfcest between one Strider (beta!Dave/beta!Dave in a time travel situation, for example) is still gonna be Stridercest to me.
The ONLY Stridercest I add the specific ship tag for is Bro/Cal, because that's otp5eva for me, separate from any other Strider stuff (Stridercest probably doesn't even make top 3 HS ships for me). Everything else only gets the blanket Stridercest in reblogs, because I already tag a lot, I don't have the energy to add nuanced tags for weird Strider situations, and whether or not that constitutes incest, or which version of a character it is, especially when the artist/authors don't usually make the difference explicitly stated in their own caption/tags, and sometimes it's vague on purpose! (I'm currently writing a fic where Bro and Dirk are the same person! I'm not gonna make the distinction a big deal.)
It's mostly frustrating because then I have to decide if untagging the relationship as Stridercest is going to make someone else following me uncomfortable who will then see it untagged.
Going forth, I am going to delete whatever reblog I made if I get this request from someone else again. I'm trying to remember names, so I don't reblog any future content that would conflict with their requests, but this has already happened with three people in like the past two weeks. Had to block one person for telling me to die because I tagged "Stridercest" on the post preventatively, as usual, because I care about tagging for my followers. (I literally checked their blog like 3 times to make sure they didn't have a DNI pinned, and I still got told to die for my efforts lmao.)
Literally, please just DM me privately (thank you to the other people who did, sorry for the trouble!), and I will either delete the reblog, or block you if you request that. I'm not TRYING to make people uncomfortable, which is the whole reason why I tag it to begin with.
So, I'm not un-tagging shit anymore, it's delete only from now on. I'm not going against my own blog rules I set both to try and accommodate my followers, and to make searching my blog easier for myself. (Used to not tag anything from like 2011-2016 or later, and I'm still in the process of back-tagging everything, since it's been so frustrating to find old fandom posts.)
#unrelated but if you need me to tag something else ill try and accommodate it#im just not differentiating all the stridercest ships in tags its not possible the artists dont always make the distinction known#im still tagging shit ppl asked me to in 2012 and i dont think ive seen them interact with me in years lmao#if i miss a tag on something u can dm me sometimes i forget to tag hs on things bc in trying to tag all the characters in a group#id rather over-tag something than under-tag it since this function is available on this site#i should make a pinned post or something explaining my other tags honestly but i dont think enough people care#its just ughhh its prob gonna take pc use to navigate my official about me page. which is an ordeal because i cant click to it...#...without using a mouse and my mouse doesnt reach to my couch where i usually use my pc#i hate that about mes have been made obsolete by pinned posts and the inability to see blog themes on mobile or by the share link#wouldve been nice if they made the option to put a button to the about me page accessible to mobile users#havent been able to update mine in a while ider whats on there besides highlights of my blogs#anyway i got irl shit to do rn i spent way too much time explaining all this ugh it takes me so long to type anything#Cori.exe#Post.exe#im about to have like the worst week of my life btw pls send prayers that i can physically attend all the appointments i have this week#i can hardly lift a cup of water to my mouth im in so much fucking pain and its humiliating and miserable#its not even the endo this time its my back and idk what triggered it. must have been built up bc of all the stress i put on it...#...over the past like 3 weeks of doing backbreaking activities that needed to be done. i hate this so much lol
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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year
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#i spend so mad god damn time bitching on this website. its bc i dont talk to ppl. whens the last time i had a non functional conversation?#uuuuhhh last weekend or maybe the weekend before that? so like i gotta complain somewhere. so if i stop complaining u can assume i made#friends lmao. ugh. its just. im worried. im worried abt how this semester is gonna go. how this phd program is gonna go#bc i spent the last 2 years destroying myself. realized ive gotta stop doing that. haven't figured out how to stop and now im gonna triple#the amount of pressure im under while trying to do things in a more healthy way. its just like. it objectively doesnt seem like a formula#for good things to happen. im more worried for how catastrophic its gonna b on my brain than i am abt the things i think most ppl would b#concerned abt. like im not worried abt planning and executing a project or teaching beyond fear of the unknown#its like. ive done these things before. theyre difficult but u make due and tackle the problems. but when it comes to: how to maintain a#healthy school/life balance? i dont even kno where to start with that. i just dont bc when u have a learning disability things just take#more time but like how much time is too much? where does it end? i dont kno how to manage it and i dont wanna hate my project by the end#of this. i want to b excited and not paralyzed bc im afraid i cant change my behavior and its gonna kill me#and im worried bc im meeting with my advisor for the 1st time since march before i agreed to join thr lab and have i prepared for this#project which is almost complete unrelated to what i did in my last lab? no bc ive been managing data and im still not done managing data#bc i cant focus bc i collected that data in a way that was actively self destructive. and i mean i kno itll b fine. thr guy seems nice i#just hate that im showing up devoid of enthusiasm bc its all been drowned out by the fear. and thats also gonna make teaching a problem#bc its hard to b excited abt things when there's a hole in your chest and ur desperate for someone to tell u how to fix it. but idk helping#ppl does usually make me feel better so maybe itll b a good thing. forgot how much i feel like im dying when i sit in meetings and#classroom tho lol. god its been 2yrs since i was a student. classes feel like such bullshit now. and yet if i dont get all As i might die#my students better b good. i have the 1st lab section bc thr lead ta couldnt do that time. so im the trial lab and i start fucking Monday#who tf does labs the 1st week of class? ugh. also its an intro bio so like 2/3 of thr class r freshman. lil bby 18yos and some r non bio#majors. and ive been warned that sometimes there r problems with ppl who don't believe in evolution and cause problems. pls let my classes#b good. im not that worried. its just gonna b annoying as fuck. im not good at being authoritative#ugh. i should b reading papers so i dont look like too much of an idiot tomorrow. itll b fine im just an anxious freak. a lil over a week#until i can try to find a therapist. probably seek medication bc i dont kno how else to stop this bullshit. annoying. i grew up with a dad#who gets anxious abt the idea of taking too much medication when he tskes a single ibuprofen. in this household we feel pain and then we#die miserable. this is all his fault. we have the same brain.im just a lil more irradidic than him#its so funny i say that bc im like the least irradic person ever. i do the same things every god damn day. im just irradic in terms of#sometimes i feel like my brain is on fire and im a cry bby lol#whatever. enough bitching. ive got papers to read. or maybe ill just go to bed and read them tomorrow 🙄#unrelated
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byanyan · 1 year
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being friends with byan is so weird bc they say they want you to have the balls to be bluntly honest with them, but then the very moment you're honest about something they don't like, they're peacing out, all "lmao ok friendship ended byeeeee"
#honesty is great until you're addressing their insecurities or anything they're currently in denial over#they have a... weird relationship with honesty lmao#they'll be harshly honest about almost anything and not pull a single damn punch#they will tell you easily that their biological mother didn't want them and that they've lived on the street#they'll tell you that they haven't had a foster home last more than 10 months & that one of their foster parents almost killed them#but they won't tell you about the misery these events caused & how its shaped them as a person#and then there's the way they can dish it but can't take it#they'll tell you to your face everything that's wrong with you (in their opinion)#but the moment you do the same back.... lmao fuck you what the hell kinda bullshit#they're so SO sensitive. so much more so than they let on. and they don't tolerate being called on their shit well.#but I think part of that is bc they spent a lot of their life being belittled rather than built up#and they ended up feeling like every time they were abandoned it was bc of their flaws#so if ur pointing them out........ it's only a matter of time before ur leaving too. so they better leave first.#but also they just hate being Seen. they hate when someone can see behind their facade.#if someone else can see ur pain that means it's really there or something :)#idk I have way more thoughts about this than I realized when I started typing and now the tags are gonna be longer than the post oops#might....... have to make a note to get into all this in a more in depth headcanon at some point#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ OOC ⋮ DON’T @ ME.
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princekirijo · 1 year
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Istg I actually need to sit down and write a proper bio for Riku because even I get confused af as to what his personality is sometimes.
#oc tag#“but prince he's your oc how tf did this happen” he has a mind of his own trust me#i mean this is literally one of the parts of his character he is literally so good at adapting his personality#because he felt he needed to as a kid both in school and in the business world#that barely anyone knows what he's actually like#like one minute he's a suave overconfident guy who can take on anything#but hes also the quiet dude in class who never participates is probably asleep but somehow gets everything right and is top of the grade#he loves to flirt but will absolutely blue screen if anyone flirts back because despite the fact he flaunts himself-#he doesn't think hes attractive LMAO#his biggest motivation is spite and he doesn't know when to quit#this boy has so many fucking issues istg#def one of those characters who has so many masks that he hardly knows himself#i have a fear that he's nearly too complex to the point where he's a confusing character and i personally dont think thats a good thing#so i really hope that's not the case for you guys 😬#over my break ive really spent time trying to iron out his character and just make him into soemthing im even more proud of you know#the good thing is that at least his story now has a clear arc and theme which im really proud of#so im gonna use that to build off and iron him out even more#the way i put more work into this funky dude i came up with than like my entire uni work#i love him so much sorry to be mentally ill about a guy i made because i liked a ship too much (and crossover i was having fun with too)#one day i will have a proper post for him with references and everything for him his outfits his personas the lot#one of these days
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iamacolor · 4 months
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my nervous system whenever I go to a protest: oh we love supporting the cause but btw we hate crowds. and loud noises (yes, even if we're singing along). and bumping into people. and people bumping into us. and just being in contact with strangers. and the smell of cigarettes. and having to breathe that in. and too much noises. and too much things to see at once. and the sun in our eyes. we want to go home. right now. oh and when we feel overstimulated it will feel like anger so that you genuinely can't stand staying in this place
(safe to say I would not be fit to lead a revolution)
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won’t call what i’m doing “relapsing” bc that feels incredibly disingenuous but i am definitely backsliding again <3 why do i always wanna force myself back somewhere i don’t fit anymore. there’s nothing else for me there, nothing to accomplish by waiting or feeling this way, and yet.
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tiktaaliker · 2 months
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full mortally coiled timeline so far
excluding worldbuilding events/non directly plot related events and/or events without a concrete point in the timeline. this is already extremely fucking long. order of events subject to change
hark, lythe, and sar'kai decide to create a domain together. this is the mortal coil (start of creation era)
hark makes the sun + stars
lythe and sar'kai make khetzal. sar'kai gives khetzal hunger
khetzal eats the sun. stars can now die. hark blames sar'kai
lythe forms planets from energy released from dead stars, including the mortal soil
hark creates life on the mortal soil, sar'kai creates death. hark holds a grudge
khetzal settles on mortal soil, lives among mortals as a prophet before withdrawing from society completely
hark tricks sar'kai, who is trapped in and corrupted by the mortal coil
sar'kai breaks shit. mortals call the trapped sar'kai noxa krov (destruction era begins)
noxa krov rampages, levels cities, empires and civilizations collapse
noxa krov destroys a town near a novice mage's hometown
the novice mage researches experimental magic, creates a spell to rend noxa krov asunder
spell goes wrong. noxa krov's soul is torn in two, novice is unmade, fallout levels surrounding area (including the novice's hometown)
novice looses most of their identity, coalesces as an almost-formless demon
sundogs begin to form due to power vacuum
trees are planet in formed crater, creating a monoculture forest
the two halves of noxa krov reform. one half forms underground (null) one half forms in the monoculture forest (nil)
some sundogs get word of the duo's possible existance, plans start to manipulate one of the halves in order to gain favor from sar'kai when restored
roach learns The Secret. fane and roach fight. roach seals self in creation-era crypt
panik + tyto find young nil, and tell nil that they need to find and kill their other half
the monoculture forest + cave system beneath floods. nil is driven from the forest, null is driven from the caves (start of cycle 1)
fane + bang find null. they do not tell null about being half of a god, but do tell null that nil and co are hunting them down
fane + bang + null go sight seeing. fane and bang obscure their whereabouts, sending nil and co on a wild goose chase
null eventually learns of their origins, tells fane + bang to stop hiding their movements
nil confronts null on a cliff overhanging the now-flooded crater where noxa krov died
after meeting their other half face to face, nil gets cold feet. tyto plans on supporting the decision, but panik causes nil to fall off the cliff and die
null is petrified into stone, and sar'kai is restored (end of cycle 1, start of balance era)
fane abandons duties of a sundog, decides to stand guard over null's petrified corpse. bang moves on
temple of rest-no-longer is built around fane and null. fane considered gaurdian of rest-no-longer and the bog of the lost
mooncats begin to form due to new imbalance - oskar is one of the first, with lovelace and capgras formed as his angels
irregulars start appearing via hark - people who do not fit in the four iid archetypes
civilization advances - major technological and magical breakthroughs
young rasputin takes pilgrimage to rest-no-longer, speaks with fane
rasputin begins working for + rises in the ranks of a major magical institute
gar begins research into eclecto-mechanics
rasputin learns more of sundogs, eternals, etc. starts plotting to ascend into godhood
rasputin pulls a hostile takeover, is now in charge of the institute
rasputin restructures institute- splits institute into the broken chain + children of the unseeing eye
rasputin recruits gar, DIRE is established
the first eclecto-mechanical unit is completed (lockjaw), project is abandoned by DIRE due to funding concerns. Lockjaw temporarily deactivated
rasputin meets and recruits young gazer (start of cycle 2)
Gigo joins DIRE
second eclecto-mechanical unit is mostly completed (talos), project abandoned by DIRE while still in prototype stage due to failure to meet goals in expected timefrane. Talos temporarily deactivated
third eclecto-mechanical unit is completed (sidequest) and successfully implemented to automate research and testing. Lockjaw and Talos reactivated to provide manual labor in automated lab
rasputin returns to rest-no-longer to consult with fane- enters the lost bog in secret, finds corpse of nil, takes stinger from tail
rasputin forges the godkiller knife from nil's tail stinger
rasputin has the children of the unseeing eye hunt down sundogs. one is captured and rasputin successfully kills it with the gk knife
rasputin stabs self with gk knife, becomes a dragon from transfered eternal energy
fourth eclecto-mechanical unit is completed (ransom), determined too dangerous to continue testing/research, contained in single quarentined computer. DIRE shifts focus from eclecto-mechanics to eclecto-biology
DIRE begins the Living Handsome project
rasputin continues hunting sundogs
young doc deadly is orphaned and greviously injured, taken in and experimented on by DIRE
rasputin declares start of the third infinite empire as emperor
rasputin starts conquering cities
Judge is created from one of rasputin's massacres
LH becomes only semi-successful product of the Living Handsome project. project is terminated, LH becomes a lab assistant/test subject, doc deadly promoted from test subject to experimenter
rasputin uses knife to ritualistically kill and revive gazer as a dragon
gazer becomes rasputin's attack dog, kept at his side, sicced on dissenters
gar leaves DIRE, DIRE is effectively gutted of funds, given no new projects
rasputin and gazer returns to rest-no-longer, rasputin intending on killing fane
gazer steals the gk knife and kills rasputin, leaves fane be
gazer becomes new emperor of the third infinite empire
continues conquoring
kakisto + hellkite created from one of gazer's massacres, taken in as judge's angels
gigo downloads ransom onto a flash drive and leaves DIRE to track down gar
morris makes contact with sidequest
gazer asks doc deadly to revive the living handsome project, and wants LH to be used as a weapon
LH + doc deadly escape DIRE
sidequest, lockjaw, and talos escape DIRE
Gazer returns to rest-no-longer intending to kill fane
LH, doc deadly, gigo, ransom, lockjaw, talos, and sidequest all end up at rest-no-longer when gazer arrives
gazer is overpowered and killed
fane stabs self with gk knife. null is unpetrified, fane and null are permanently bound together as dragons (end of cycle 2)
gk knife returned to nil's corpse
fane and null leave rest-no-longer. temple is left in disrepair
nil's corpse and boghast are raised from the dead due to extreme amounts of eternal energy in the area now that fane is gone. bog inhabited by whisps, ghost cranberries begin growing
Lure, an Eternal, takes interest in mortal coil, leaves a cutting, and begins parasitizing the domain in secret. Psychologically tortures a few mortals just for funzies
amounts of bog cranberries are found outside of the bog. discovered to be effectively magic-batteries, allowing for extremely powerful spellcasting
rumors about magic bog is spread- cranberries effectively magic-batteries for mages, allow for extremely powerful spellcasting
smuggler(s) find bog, attempt to steal cranberries to sell, killed by boghast
blacktar is formed in the bog from the dead smugglers
brutus is raised in temple alongside close friend (start of cycle 3)
judge takes up task to create new mooncats. has kakisto and hellkite manipulate mortal to cause the deaths of almost everyone in temple. brutus and friend are mortally wounded but still alive
judge kills brutus's friend directly, Sanctuary is formed
novice approaches brutus, offers deal to save brutus's life- brutus is brought back to life as demon
judge punishes hellkite + kakisto for "failure". h+k rebell, become fallen angels
Lunker, an Eternal, takes interest in the mortal coil. Leaves a cutting, starts a research project in secret to see if mortals can create their own domains. Poses as a nature deity when interacting with mortals
judge forms new angel, de jure
judge attempts to kill brutus + the novice while brutus learns how to live as a demon
h+k blame each other for becoming fallen- join opposite sides of a conflict, try to kill each other
Lunker takes Sebastian in as a priest. Seb realizes almost immediately that Lunker is lying, but plays along anyways
robber kills bystander, takes hostage, and flees. end up in lost bog. robber kills hostage, robber killed by blacktar, both resurrected as roupgaruke
Lunker and Sebastian start dating
brutus and the novice meet k+h, team up to confront judge + de jure
judge is demoted, k+h become mooncats (in name alone) in judge's absence
brutus and the novice fuck off to go live in relative peace (end of cycle 3)
roupgaruke lures a lost wanderer into the bog and kills them in a (failed) attempt to impress boghast. wanderer is ressurected as lungfish
Moonshine, a sundog, begins to harass Garte, a retired fisherfolk turned lighthouse keeper
Pedal is created by Lythe to act as an acolyte of balance
Khetzal begins getting regular nightmares of the consumed sun
Bailey + Razar meet at a digsite, start dating, and work together regularly
Lucky Shot is sold a gun by a traveling charlatan.
B+R discover an unnaturally pristine crypt from the creation era (start of cycle 4)
Bailey opens a sealed room, containing Roach
Built up entropic energy destroys the crypt, kills Bailey, and injures Razar
Razar looks into necromancy to bring Bailey back
Lungfish leaves the bog, but is still bound to it + to boghast
Lucky Shot is driven out of town
Pedal becomes intrigued by Roupgaruke specifically and keeps trying to interview the undead murderous wolf-horse-thing
Razar tries to ressurect bailey, which technically fails, but does directly prompt reformation of roach + bailey
Bailey and Roach are bound together as Dragons
Bailey learns The Secret
Bailey + Roach begin killing people for reasons related to The Secret
Razar, Lungfish, and Lucky Shot each seperately track down Khetzal to ask for advice
Khetzal, at this point convinced that the world is ending, has a bit of a breakdown and/or midlife crisis and suggests that the best course of action is for the four of them to go on a roadtrip together
they go on a roadtrip together
Lucky Shot realizes that the gun he was sold was a prop gun. It is revealed that the entire time, he was technically a mage, and using the prop gun as a magic focus. The only spell they know how to use is "bullet"
Lungfish learns they can break the bond with boghast + the bog by binding themself to someone else. Lungfish willingly binds themself to Lucky Shot
Razar confronts Bailey and convinces her that indiscriminate murder is not the answer. Roach isnt as quickly convinced but is actually kind of sick of the whole death and entropy thing so goes along it eventually
Khetzal confronts the whalefall-esque corpse of the sun they ate.
The Sun tells khetzal [REDACTED] (end of cycle 4)
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adore-gregor · 3 months
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my perception of grades totally changed since i started uni
#in school i just did the bare minimum a pass was fine and a 3 great#it's insane to think about it how little i did like for a lot of subjects not at all and if i did i'd study like 2 hrs the day before 😭#and i thought this was studying hard or if i studied 3 hrs at least whaaat#well for some subjects i did a bit more#but like it is no comparrison#at uni i also did study the day before a few times but then i did an 8hr session#(i might just need to do that tmrw but the thing is the exam is one you can't study for so literary idk what i'd study so long for??)#(or how to study... it's translation but how tf do you study translation it's highly subjective and there are no practice exercises)#(i will probably just look at the notes)#but anyway for my last exam i spent 5 hrs in the library a day and i already started 2 weeks before (altough just in smaller bits)#but bumped it up exam week i did like 2-3hrs on average a day#even if i start too late like i did for one of the hardest test of my studies i only studied for 2 days but like all day or 10hrs sth a day#it by far exceeds the 2hrs lmao and even that was very little for this exam many studied 2 weeks but like i got a good grade so it's okay#but my point is now that i get better grades good one's a C is a massive disappointment for me 😅#unless it was a really difficult one then i'd take it but like it upsets me#a teacher once told me when i got a c on an exam quite a few failed that many would be happy to have that grade well true tbh but i can't#and once i almost cried because i got a C because i thought it was an easy course but it was an oral exam and i'm worse in these#(because in written i often remember the answer later in the exam and then go back but in oral i can't do that)#well that was embarrassing😭 i'm trying to never do that again so if i get asked how i feel abt it say it's okay ig#but sometimes even a B is meh 😅 especially if an A was possible and it was an easy course/exam#i want more A's less B's tbh B's also because i really want to go abroad and raise my grade average for that#i want to go from a B average to an A something average to improve my chances#but yeah younger me wouldn't believe this 😂#i really want to study harder to make that step up to more A's than B's like uni does come quite easy to me#and while i study way more compared to others i still get away with less effort and good results but i could have excellent grades#on the one hand it's good that i improved so much on the other those expectations might not be because i'm almost never satisfied anymore 😅#and i know it's kind of really unimportant because there are real problems and also many uni students struggle to pass their classes#it's maybe even a bit disrespectful because they'd be happy to have these grades and i should be more grateful#but i swear i don't look down on anyone with worse grades i know how difficult it can be and also how outside factors play a role#some have it more difficult some have to work a lot next to uni or really suffer from mental illness besides no one's brain is the same
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anaalnathrakhs · 6 months
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i WILL show up to the trial day for the preparatory class tomorrow no matter how much i dont want to and after that i guarantee NOTHING
#broadcasting my misery#vent#this is a lie i guarantee i will keep tumbling through life appearing functional and melting down in the privacy of my own home afterwards#<- trying to jinx my naturally contrarian ass into taking care of myself for once#god i'm tired#i am. slightly peeved.#around 11am i was like ''i think i'm going to go home'' and my friend was like WHAT nooooooo what are you going to do at home anyway#and we ended up hanging out w another friend until fucking 4pm#and she was like oooooh guys i think i'm gonna go else i wont have energy tomorrow#haha bitch where was this mindset when i told you i was going to go home#i don't know why i keep like. telling people stuff like ''i'm [emotion] i'm going to [thing]''#and they just plan stuff w me anyway#and like. i can't decide for them what's important or not to them. so i make an effort and i participate to the best of my ability.#but it KEEPS HAPPENING#OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN#it does not stop#i can barely keep the violent impulses down tbh i act like im on crack in public#bc if i dont walk around and spasm like an epileptic stray cat im gonna start giving in to the urge to dive under a bus or punch someone#i have nearly uncontrollable fits of hitting my head against walls when my entire life i was too chicken to do it despite trying to#i gained about fifteen to twenty fucking kilograms in the last three months#because i cannot fucking stop binging and EVERYBODY'S LIFE seems to revolve around food#my friends are incapable of hanging out without going to buy smth no matter at which time we get out of school#my other friends seem incapable of not checking calories VERY LOUDLY and calculating how much they lost walking around#my mom and i are home and awake at the same time abt two hours a day and one and a half of that is spent making/eating dinner lmao#im making the effort holy shit i am but i'm going to start being violent soon#i've started trying to strangle my cat twice in the past week i think#i'll show up tomorrow bc it's an opportunity and im not stupid enough to miss that by lack of self esteem#but really what is it good for#my friend isnt very delicate in her way to say it but she's right. i'm not cut out for being normal like that#i can sorta seem functional but you very quickly start seeing i don't know how to dress
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jvzebel-x · 1 year
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