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#i think if you look up my 'draw later' tag then itll be there
griba · 3 years
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ok i know i already take a long time to draw but i started a Big Project and im using that as an excuse now <3 /hj
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franeridart · 3 years
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Anon said: Would you draw SukuFushi? (Sukuna x Fushiguro)
maybe? *thinking face* if I ever got an idea for it, why not. I find sukuna’s obsession with fushiguro entertaining so I don’t count fanarts for it as impossible haha
Anon said: I looked and I couldn't find if you've answered this already, so apologies if you did, but how do you draw your faces? I always struggle with face shape and yours are always super good with really expressive features! Anyway, thanks so much I love your art <3
HMMMMMMMM how do I do that indeed, the basics are honestly what you’d find on any basic tutorial about drawing a face (circle, cross in the middle of it, build the face around that - I really still can’t avoid that step and probably never will). As for the expressions, to be honest with you my way of going about them is thinking them up in emoji/kaomoji form first and then go from there. Emojis and kaomojis have to simplify expressions to the max since it’s such a simple format, right? But they’re still super expressive and convey exactly what they’re trying to say with one single glance, so using them as some kind of reference sheet has helped me a lot in figuring out what’s essential to express what I’m trying to say - still working on it though! I’m rarely satisfied with my expressions, they really do make or break a drawing don’t they............ you never stop learning, I guess!
Anon said:  Ahhhhhhh I just spent like hrs scrolling thru ur oc tag and they’re all amazing I love them so much but I keep confusing the everloving SHIT out of myself cuz I too have a child who is Leo and he’s literally so different from ur Leo lol. Anyway tho ur art is amazing and it honestly just makes me so happy so ty and hope have a good day!!
OHHHHHHHHHHHH MY LEO! It’d been forever since I’ve last drawn him, I kind of miss him............... glad you like my stuff, by the way! Especially about you liking my ocs, that means the world to me!
Anon said: hi there !!! i was wondering if i had ur permission to ur ur itafushi art in one of my edits ! i wanted to be sure before using it <3 total respect if its a no !! thankyouuuu
Sorry but I’d prefer if you didn’t do that!
Anon said:THERES A OCTOPATH TRAVELER LIGHT NOVEL AND ITS SO COOL BUT ITS ONLY IN JAPANEESE ! ;^;There's four stories with centered around pairs of characters and alfion is one of them !Idk if itll be transleted but i hope itll be cuz it sound awesome
OH I KNOW!!!!!!! I saw the art for the alfion one a while back, it looks so soft!!!! ;;;;; 8path is kinda niche as a game though, so who knows.............. let’s cross our fingers!!
Anon said:  hello, i am here to recc Skeletons by New Years Day because i think it might fit a few of your ships<3
Thanks anon now I’m emo ;;;;;
Anon said: bakubro gives the best hugs. kirishima is the only one who knows this. everyone is absolutely incredulous when the question "who gives the best hugs" goes around and kirishima answers bakugo. (bakugo thinks kirishima is the best but he benefits from kirishima bodily hugging him and he's biased)
Definitely!! He’s strong and warm after all, bet hugging him would feel the best.... the only one who shall ever know is kiri though, as I bet his hugs are only that nice when he really likes the person he’s hugging hahaha
Anon said: Hi! Just wanted to say that I absolutely love your JJK art! The colors and style are absolutely stunning.
Thank you so much!!!!!!! I feel like I’m mostly drawing for myself lately ngl hahaha so knowing you like it means a lot!!
Anon said: Hi!! This isn't a request I just really like your art! I found you from Pinterest on a kiribaku thing you drew! Your art is so cool! I wish I could draw like that!!! I'll keep looking for new art you've made :D
Aw pinterest.......................... glad you could find your way back here though!! And thank you!!
Anon said: This happened a while ago, but i wanted to say it anyway. I remember when I started watching jujutsu kaisen and I was looking for content arter finishing the first 10 episodes in less than a day and I found your first jujutsu kaisen post (it was posted that dame day) and i was like ???? One of my favorite artists got into jk at the same time than me!!! I just thought it was a neat coincedence to share! I really love your art too, you're amazing!! Happy New Year!!
It’s!!!!!!!!!!!! a pretty dang neat coincidence for me too, since it’s always nice to know at least some of my followers are still into the stuff I make hahahaha
Anon said: i think a lot abt ur art and how ive been seeing u since middle school and now im graduating highschool and we're still in the same fandoms, i hope this doesnt make u feel old but rather VERY cherished qwq
No anon this makes me feel amazing you’ve been around so long!!!!!!! I can’t believe you’re still here with my thank you so much for that!!!!!! I think I’m gonna cry a little here.......... ;;;
Anon said: Hi! I love your art so much!! 🥰 Have you read a KiriBaku fic called The Pit??
Probably not, haven’t been reading krbk fics in a while by now! I’ll add it to my for-later list, thank you so much for the rec!!
Anon said: can u believe that (sans sero) the entire bakusquad can be put into some form of punk/goth fashion? the realization was a galaxy brain moment for me. also realizing that tokoyami, kirishima, and tamaki are all varying levels of goth/emo (some more concerning than others)
Sero’s the hippie friend every punk friend group needs, he balances things out and that’s why he’s very cherished and necessary!!!!
Anon said: your bakugo drawings convinced me to finally start stretching my ears and tbh i'm extremely excited (i've had off and on thoughts of stretching my ears (again) before this so it's not as impulsive as it sounds haha)
Anon that’s so cool!!!!!!! I love gauges so much.....................glad I could give you the last push for it!!
Anon said: uhhhh, i love the style of that top left goge drawing dude!!
THANK YOU I LOVE DRAWING IN THAT STYLE THIS ASK MEANS THE UNIVERSE TO ME
Anon said: i sent the dragon!kiri and bakugo tug-of-waring over a piece of meat and honestly your response is exactly what i thought
Great minds!!!!!!! hahaha
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thiscatiscreepy · 2 years
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I posted 7 641 times in 2021
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[ID: a digital drawing of Drumbot Brian and Gunpowder Tim from chest up. Brian in on the right side, taking up a half of the image due to his big chest. He is looking down and talking. Tim is standing beside him, looking at Brian's chest. End ID]
Titbot Brian
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One thing about UDaD that I find absolutely hilarious is how Jonny's like "I bet you want to know Ulysses looks like? Well tough luck bud we don't know how they looked like ourselves" and then gives arguably the most detailed description of any characters in all the albums.
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[ID: a digital drawing of the Toy Soldier as a centaur against a blank background. On the top of the image is text reading "If the Toy Soldier were a centaur", below it are two separate texts reading, from the left one to the right one "would it look like this?" / "or like this?". Under the left text is a drawing of the Toy Soldier as a centaur with black wooden horse body, painted with red, gold and white ornaments, and with visible gold screws where its joints are. It has a braid and one front leg raised, as if posing. Under the right text is another centaur Toy Soldier, this time smaller and with a lower half of a wooden rocking horse, in the same colors. It is t-posing and staring blankly in front of itself.
Do you ever have dumb jokes you can't get out of your head? Yeah.
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Get your Tumblr 2021 Year in Review →huh
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meruz · 4 years
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some asks - sorry some of these are kind of old. I only get around to answering stuff once in a blue moon.
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I do not! Nothing against it but I just don’t personally enjoy the process so I don’t use it in my personal work. Too much transforming and filtering.. too little actual drawing. I have however used it for professional work and sometimes I will sketch things individually and collage them together to make it easier for me to work depending on the scale. But yeah, no photobashing normally.
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Thank you! (post in reference) I didn’t use any perspective grids for that drawing but occasionally for bigger pieces that require a stronger adherence to perspective I’ll use the Perspective Tools extension by Sergey Kritsky which is ABSOULTELY worth the price here on gumroad if you’re a photoshop-user - makes grids very easy to set up. You can actually see some of the grids in my process work if you’re looking for it lol
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I used to be such a square abt it like “bluh perspective is just a bunch of lines i dont need a tool to do it for me like a DUMB BABY. I can just draw the grids myself and itll be good enough!!! :\” dont be like that LOL, I started using perspective tools for work last year and ported it over to my personal work so damn fast its like one of the best artistic decisions ive made. If you can make less work for yourself, PLEASE make less work for yourself.
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I don’t remember what post this is but I’m like 90% its these brushes because these are like all the brushes I use LOL
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hi yes thank you i LOVE grookey.
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Thank you! They’re the best family!! KAROL IS MY FAVE........
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you’re SO welcome. I recently watched Last Evolution Kizuna and [spoiler] WILLIS WAS IN ONE (1) SHOT...  [/spoiler] so whoever was in my comments section telling me toei would never bring willis back, I think you owe me like $20
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Yep! My Instagram, Twitter... I don’t have a patreon because I’m too lazy to set up tiers but I have a ko-fi if you want to drop a lil tip in my metaphorical buskers hat
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You’re probably done by the game by now given how old this ask is but I’m flattered my art got you to play!! And I’m glad you love Akechi though I’m curious to know if your feelings on him have changed since sending this LOL. His latter act character stuff is one of those things that can really turn an opinion one way or another.
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Thank you! Though I want to preface this by saying I don’t take requests but you can always contact me for commissions at [email protected].
I will probably draw naruto again because like every 4 years of my life I go through a naruto phase. I have drawn dangan ronpa before many many years ago and I gotta say the only time I will ever draw it again will be if I’m commissioned to lol...Nothing against it personally, it’s just not really my thing. Kiritetsu+Colossus.... I would but honestly I don’t even know what I’d draw, I feel like I covered it with that one drawing. But if you’ve got an idea... you can always commission me!!! And I’d be happy to.
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Uhhhh they’re good! I like them! Yusuke’s character arc is maybe like my favorite or second favorite in the game and I love Ryuji first and foremost for max mittlemans voice acting and secondly because he is just so...so much better than P4 Yosuke who I truly could not stand.
I’m not big on Mishima but I think he’s an incredibly well written depiction of like. that dude in class who you didn’t really mean to talk to but ended up talking to and now its a little weird. I really like that event where you run into shinya while hanging out with mishima and shinyas like “whos this your friend” and ren is like “no, king, hes no one” LOL this is mostly because I just really like shinya. 
ships.... I like yusuke/ryuji a lot, just aesthetically and personality wise its an interesting dynamic. I like ryuji/ann bc theyre good friends. I like ann/yusuke if I close my eyes to all the early plot stuff and just pretend theyre like.....fujiko and goemon from lupin III LMAO. ryuji/makoto? kinda woke?? I mean I feel lesbian makoto deep in my bones but also their showtime opened my eyes a lil. I think they could bond over action movies. mishima/protag is kind of fun in like a sad pathetic way.. I’m a little interested in mishima/JOKER actually bc i like identity porn plotlines lol.
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YEP GO AHEAD I’ve been getting a lot of messages like this lately so I want to lay it out here and I’ll probably copy paste it into a FAQ later lol.
8Tracks and Spotify Playlists: Go ahead! please credit me either meruz.tumblr.com twitter@automeru or ig@automeruz -  AND SEND ME THE PLAYLIST this is not a requirement really but I would love to listen to it.
Twitter/Tumblr Layouts/Headers: Good by me! but again PLEASE credit me somewhere VISIBLE on the layout. If it’s a twitter header/icon credit my twitter @automeru and if its tumblr credit my tumblr @meruz​
Phone BGs, Desktop Wallpapers: definitely ok!! Any personal and non-commercial use of this nature, I’m cool with. If you ask me, I may even send you a hi-res version of the file but you have to promise to not scam me and sell it lol...
Instagram Reposts: A lot of artists would say no but I’m gonna say go ahead as long as you credit and tag me in the post, again my ig is @automeruz - if you don’t, and I find it, I will bug you about it in the comments and possibly even report you. Nothing personal, its just standard procedure.
Twitter/Tumblr Re-posts: Don’t?? Just RT or RB it from me?? whats wrong with you? I will report this.
Other site re-posts: I’ll probably say yes but again please credit and for this one PLEASE ask me first. It’s nothing personal really, I just want to know where my work shows up.
Video edits/fancams/comic dubs: Yes! Absolutely go ahead! And please send me a link I especially love to see this stuff!!
I also reserve all rights have you take it down if I do not agree with the usage or context, especially association with politics on the webpage/app/etc. 
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Thank you!!!!!!!! ;-; These are all so nice.. tucks them into a little pocket near my heart. I love drawing and I will keep trying my best to make art...! Hope you guys can look forward to it...!
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Poor Little Anxious Crybaby (Pt.4)
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Patton had decided that it was in Virgil's best interest to spend a week or two with Janus and Logan, saying that it would be best to keep his mind off the 'divorce'.
Virgil, of course, didnt mind in the slightest, Janus' new house had a lot more stuff to mess with, and the neighborhood had a lot more kids his age, that didn't know him from the sleepaway school.
"I'm sure dad's alright Virgil, just busy, theres a fair going on tomorrow, maybe we could go to that, itll help you feel better," Janus said, setting down a plate with a sandwich on it for Virgil.
"You really think it'll help?" Virgil asked, tilting his head.
"Distractions usually are considered beneficial when dealing with traumatic experiences," Logan said, leaning his head up slightly as Janus placed a kiss on his cheek. Virgil let out a disgusted noise, he hadnt been sure why, but he supposed it was just sibling reflex.
"If you say so," Virgil said, stuffing the sandwich in his mouth.
He spent most of his time in the guest room, watching birds fly from the window. He helped Janus out with business plans, which mostly consisted of bringing him coffee and asking about trees. Virgil thought this was much better than the alternative of looking at graphs and prices.
The next day Virgil could hardly contain his excitement, he'd spent an hour or two getting ready for the fair, checking with Logan every ten seconds to see if anything about the days schedule had changed.
"Well someones excited," Janus said, wrapping his arms around Virgil's waist and hoisting him into the air. Virgil let out a laugh, shaking his head slightly so his hair hit Janus' face and he let go.
"Well yeah I'm excited! Its fun!" He said when he landed back on the ground.
It was another few hours before they were finally ready to leave, they purchased their tickets at the door, Logan subsequently taking off after Virgil when he decided to run off once they got inside the grounds.
"Woah there Vi, dont go speeding off like that," Logan said once he caught up with him.
"But the lines are gonna get long!" Virgil said, watching the rides with intrigue.
"And we can wait!" Janus said, laughing.
Virgil spent most of the day with Logan and Janus, so he hadnt been exactly sure when he'd lost them, yet there he was on the carousel, neither of them in sight.
"Finally ditched your parents huh?" Said a voice next to Virgil. He looked around, hands still clinging to the horse. The boy next to him was smirking, he had striking white hair with a blue streak, and light green eyes.
"Oh they're not my parents, ones my brother and ones probably my in-law," Virgil said, grinning.
"Oh, well either way they seemed a little stifling," said the boy, sneering.
"Oh they arent that bad, theres just been a few uh, issues, and they're worried about me," Virgil responded.
"But you can handle yourself cant you? You dont need them," the boy said.
The two of them were getting off of the carousel, Virgil didnt even realize he was moving.
"I mean they arent always like that," Virgil responded.
"I'm Brennan by the way," said the boy, flashing another smug grin in Virgil's direction.
"Virgil!" Virgil responded.
Brennan smiled, "Hey Virgil, how are you with challenges?" He said.
"Depends on the challenge," Virgil responded. Brennan, rather than say anything, took off through the fair ground, a piece of paper falling out of his pocket. Virgil picked it up, a series of numbers were etched across it, along with the words 'Call Me'. Virgil stuffed the paper in his pocket and took off after Brennan.
There were several other papers scattered across the fairground, some with pick up lines, some with information like addresses and emails.
Until finally, Virgil found Brennan standing outside of the water log ride, smirking.
"Finally found me huh? You're good at this game," Brennan said, taking Virgil hand and flashing his ticket at the ride operator before sitting the two of them in one of the logs.
Virgil spent the whole of the ride pressed up against him, he was terrified of heights, but especially heights that involved water, the water itself reminded him to much of crying.
"Hey are you alright? I didnt mean for it to frighten you," Brennan said when they finally got off, Virgil still attached to his arm.
"J-just not a big fan of heights- or- water-" Virgil replied, shaking, once again biting his lip to prevent any tears.
"Oh dear. . ." Brennan looked even more worried, running his thumbs across the sides of Virgil's eyes.
"I-Im sorry- it just- I cant control-" the ground seemed like it was getting farther away.
"Oh nononono it's ok, people have stuff they cant control, it's alright, let's get you some tissues ok?" Brennan said, Virgil could've sworn he sounded happy, but the worried expression on Brennan's face pushed the thought away immediately.
"Virgil! Virgil where are you!" Janus' voice sounded from further away. Virgil heard footsteps across the grass.
"Hes alright," Brennan said simply, letting Virgil go when Janus reached them.
"And who are you?." Logan said when he caught up with them, glaring in Brennan's direction. Janus was to busy trying to stop Virgil from crying, draping a towel over him to dry the water off as well.
"Brennan, hes been hanging out with me," Brennan replied, Virgil gave a small nod and showed them the paper strips.
Logan and Janus exchanged looks before turning back to Virgil.
"We've got to get home, you can call each other tomorrow," Janus said, looking between the two younger boys.
"See you later Brennan," Virgil said, grinning excitedly.
"I wouldnt have it any other way," Brennan responded as Virgil Janus and Logan walked away, a faint blush creeping up Virgil's cheeks.
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im standing in the middle of a gravel road, it’s a dead end. my extended family lives here in the woods, half an hour drive from civilization. my cousins are playing in the with road some of the neighbour girls that live down the street, i’m 6 years old. i’m wearing a striped shirt i really like, with frills at the bottom. 
she runs up to me and shoves my arm and runs away shrieking and laughing “you have cooties!” this is a game of tag, which i am no good at. in hindsight i wonder if the “cooties” tag game was a reference to avoiding people who have STDs. i wonder what “cooties” are, but based on the context i figure it must not be good, because everyone’s running away from me before i’ve even started chasing back. her name is n*cole ev*rett. she’s 8. i’ll see her every summer vacation until i turn 12 or so. she’ll be my best friend away from my best friend, both of which will abuse me. she will be the lesser of two evils.
she stays the night with me at my aunts house, i stay the night with her at her parents house. she has one older sister and one younger sister, the latter of which is adopted and is very socially awkward. my cousins sleep in a pair of bunk beds. josh on the top, me on the bottom, porsche on the top of the other bunk, and mack on the bottom. they will all bully me and make me hate myself before i turn 10. we start playing things like truth or dare. no one ever suggests a dare because everyone knows this game is for revealing who you have a crush on. no one wants to tell. the noise of the box fan in the doorway lulls me to sleep night after night, it’s too hot to breathe. my stomach churns with anxiety. i don’t like anyone. i am afraid. i am afraid of everyone.
we stay up too late giggling and get in trouble a hundred times. they separate us a hundred times, and we sulk a hundred times. she’s funny and she makes me so happy. she kisses me with cherry chapstick on, the pressure of someone else’s lips strange on mine at 6 years old. no one knows, and she knows i wont tell, because she knows im afraid of everyone. she doesnt want me to be afraid of her.
summers pass. her parents are never home at night because they’re both overnight p*lice officers, and they sleep all day, krista and autumn are always out with their friends. she rubs her hands up under my shirt and brushes over my chest. my heart is in my throat.and i feel sick with anxiety and i don’t know what to call anxiety yet so my head swims and im terrified. i feel uncomfortable because i dont think you’re supposed to touch other people there. she rubs my stomach and moves her hand between my legs and feels around. she kisses me again with cherry chapstick, pushing her warm wet tongue between my lips.i would be frozen with fear if i werent shaking so much. she tells me not to be afraid, its just practice. practice for what, i cant imagine at 10 years old, but she wants to help me. she’s funny and makes me so happy. i try to stay inside my body but i know this isnt right. i say nothing. she knows i wont tell, because she knows im afraid of everyone. she doesnt want me to be afraid of her.
another school year passes, another summer comes. she tells me to touch her, too. it’s just practice. she moves my hand over her chest until i learn to do it on my own. she pushes my hand between her legs until i learn to do it on my own. she tells me im improving. despite the terror churning in my belly that someone will come in, or her parents will wake up, and they’ll call me disgusting and tell me its my fault and tell my mother im doing bad things, i feel like i want to keep improving at whatever it is im supposed to be getting better at. night, after night, after night, summer after summer after summer, i want to get better. i want to be told that the fear is worth it.
she moves away. i don’t get to say goodbye. year after year passes, a hollow forming slowly in my stomach like a black hole, eating away at the edges of my mind. did it really happen? was i making a big deal out of nothing? is that something everyone does? is everyone else not afraid when they do it? i cant ask. i cant risk my mother finding out i did something bad, she’ll hit me. i dont want to be hit.  in fact, i dont want to be touched at all, ever again. long pants it is. long jackets in summer it is. i try to stay inside my body. im empty.
year after year, again and again, more doubt seeps in, slowly dripping into my memories, obscuring them. maybe it wasnt that bad and im overreacting. maybe itll pay off somehow, even though no one  else has initiated that kind of thing with me all this time. pants turn into the same pair of jeans i wear every day for 3 years. my grey sweater becomes my safe space, so much so that my friends always draw me wearing it. some part of me feels like i’m naked all the time, no matter how much i’m wearing. people can see the shape of my body and its so, so ugly, couldnt be uglier. i cant hide nearly as much as i want to. i cant stop being in the body i have as much as i want to. it was so long ago, it shouldnt matter to me anymore, i try to stop worrying about it. relief by forgetting almost comes. 
she moves back. i’m in high school, still wearing jeans, even to bed, but sporting tshirts these days. my grandmother says i should go say hello. the same sickness churns in my stomach, i dont think i can see her again, but there’s so many questions i want answered. i knock, the floor of the trailer is still warped. the wallpaper is the same. her parents are still cops and are still gone 12 hours of the day. i sit on her floor and she flops onto her bed, turning on the t.v. she starts telling me about all the relationships she’s had and the boys she’s fucked. everything in her room seems to have cherries on it. she still smells like cherry chapstick. my mouth is bone dry and i cant look at her. 
we’re sitting on my cousins trampoline, the same night, a cherry lollipop in her mouth. i ask her, if she remembers, What We Did, before. this is the only question i manage to ask. a long beat of silence, my heart slowly suffocating me sitting still in my throat, hammering hard. “yeah,” she says, “i’m sorry” i anticipate all of the anxiety and fear and self loathing to disappear into the aether because she’s sorry, i cant believe it, ive wanted this for so long,but my heart sinks back into my chest, and down into my stomach, and out my feet, into the earth, into the core of the earth, melting into the core. “thank you,” i say. i don’t feel better. i don’t feel better at all. i never see her again. 
a year or two later, i’m in my moms car that i’m driving, and i hear a song start on the radio. it sounds like a boy singing, but for some reason the theme is about kissing a girl and it being a really weird thing to do, and i figure a woman must be singing. the chorus starts, “the taste of her cherry chapstick” sinks into my ears and melts inside my skull, im swimming, swimming. “you’re my experimental game”, my body is copying itself, there’s me in the driver seat, me in the middle ,me in the passenger seat, me outside the car, repeating, repeating. everywhere i go afterward this pop sensation seems to be playing. i figure there must be a thousand of me by now, creeping outside my body, getting further and further from the epicenter of my pain.
“i kissed a girl”, or rather, a girl kissed me, and i didnt like it. why didnt i like it? maybe im broken after all.
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dykecassidy · 5 years
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1 9 10 12 17 18 19 20 27 30 for the writing ask meme! pick and choose tho if u dont wanna do all/any of em!
writer asks
1.  Do you listen to music when you write?
yes! it cant be new stuff, though. it has to be well listened to, familiar, bc otherwise i start paying attention to the lyrics and thinking of stuff other than what im writing.
9.    Current WIP
like as in open right now, is chapter 17 of wyw. i got like 5 paragraphs.
10. Do you set yourself deadlines?
i try to? i dont have much success with that. i need to have the outside expectation, like i told someone i would write it for them and i said i could do it in a certain time frame. i do pretty good with the twbb and twrpzine deadlines, tho i am still usually crunched at the end.
12 answered!!
17.  What writing habits or rituals do you have?
i outline so so so much. i love it. i do it when i dont want to commit to starting an idea, when i feel i cant write it fully, when i just want it down and out as quick as possible. its just bullet points and “so like”. its just spitballing with myself. i can [whatever] the perfect word until later, i can “so he was like ‘lmao’” bc i know what that dialogue feels like, i can commentate about how wild it is, and note about how i need to fix it.
18. If you could collaborate with anyone, who would it be, and what would you write about?
funnily enough i was searching my blog for archie and i found a post i tagged them in about a kind of challenge where you alternate chapters and try to write completely different genres, wrestling the story from one another.
i also constantly want to collab with all my friends that write; me, foleh, and lula are almost kind of constantly working collaboratively and very rarely “formally writing”. i wanna do comedy action with emma, where sung shrieks and everyone stares. i wanna do Weird fuckshit with cleo where havve is.... havve and phobos is phogoin’.
19. How do you keep yourself motivated?
i get excited about what im making! i get excited about making a story and seeing the end, and sharing that snippet of a world with other people.
20. How many WIPs and story ideas do you have?
ddont do this to me
in terms of like, pure outlines? things i have plotted out? like. im gonna low ball and say at least a dozen. even things i have no intentions of actually finishing, things that are like parts of a larger series (wyw and next big au). 
i have many many story ideas; i have a folder of notes on my phone thats just ‘fic’ and its inspiration, seeds, drawings for things. a lot of them are vague ideas, dialogue snippets, even just lyrics. idk what ill do with them, but theyre there.
27. Favourite line/scene
ohh.
okay i scrolled down gdocs and picked something at random. i picked a fic from the v creatively named ‘angel au’. 
A mop of golden brown hair, curls sticking up, bedhead. Big dark eyes looking at Rob, on a face covered with freckles, almost glowing, almost glittery. Rob’s hand on their face, his skin looking light and rosy next to theirs. Their mouth moved, the same shapes over and over, head shaking. 
“It’s okay,” [Josh] could hear Rob say, “just go slow. I’m here.”
30. Favourite idea you haven’t started on yet
my next human au!!! im keeping to kind of the same theme, where only one (1) member of tarp is actually a human, and this time around itll be phobos. Sung is his dog, who is still perfectly named doctor sung bc cmon thats a rly good dog name and hes like a corgie/retriever/mutt mix. i have 3 chapters outline at least partially, the first one half started, and im deliberately being tight lipped on it.
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8:57pm, Wednesday, December 18th of 2019.
How did today go?
Things I did today:
I woke up bright and early and took two buses in the rain to my hair appointment, where I had to deal with a stupid receptionist that never picked up the phone when I tried to call several times hours before my appointment was scheduled, had never gave me a courtesy call the day before to remind me of the time to meet them at, and just had a stuck up ass attitude. (Thanks for telling me there was no chance of having an appointment at 10:30, telling me that its scheduled it for 12:30, and then waiting a whole week to tell me that, upon me arriving at 11am, that i had already missed my appointment.... after doing the same shit a week before, and cancelling my appointment abruptly since you casually forgot every single hair stylist was graduating the exact same day.)
To make a long story short, I promptly just calmly lifted up a vase full of pens sitting on their desk, admired it fondly, then walked out holding it.
"So you're just gonna leave with my pe--SO YOU'RE JUST GONNA LEAVE WITH MY PENS???? -- BITCH, YOU'RE HELLA FUCKIN WEEEEIRD!", said the angry gentleman, as i left out.
Then I had a laughing fit when I actually ran away from the salon and into a coffee shop; it was only funny, because 1) out of all the petty things to take, why an ENTIRE VASE of pens???? And 2), why was he so furious OVER PENS THAN COST LESS THAN FIVE DOLLARS ALTOGETHER AAAAA.
I think I did something else, but my memory is doing that thing where it wont allow me to remember what.... All I know is, I got some angry phone calls as if i was gonna just return with a vase full of shitty 5.99 bulk buy BIC pens, aaaand I'm probably banned from there.
Moral of the story: feel free to take the entire vase of pens from an establishment if they lack proper management, courtesy, and already have another entire vase of pens to use.
They had a second vase of pens, which makes it even funnier. They were hoarding the pens, oh my. I am RoPen Hood, i steal pens from the bitch and give them to the poor.... (get it? Its a bad pun.)
And yeah.
I have too many pens now. Black and blue only... how dull and boring to try and even draw with.
Apparently I asked my ex questions at 1am, forgot I did that until I got a text back. Not anything huge really.
We talked today, it was fine.
I was all angsty over a lot of things recently, and how bad all the things I looked forward to ended up turning out, (spending the holidays alone, my favorite ex turning out to be a lusty douchebag, and of course, my hair being super fucked up.... all because fate really wants me to suffer this week, huh????)
Almost had some really bad things go down.
Picked myself up.
Went home.
Recorded myself singing.
Sounded good.
And now?
Just kind of vibing right now.
.....yeah.
A little lonely, but not dramatically. I just tend to enjoy anywhere else that isn't inherently inside my household.
At least it's lonely on the level of, "Can't wait till I get to go to this party Saturday", and not "laying face down in bed for the entire weekend, with left hand cramps, and puffy eyes."
I invited Patrick. (BP.) If he comes, itll be cool. I notice that I'm more prone to be social, if there's someone less social than me that tags along. Then, i instantly want to be their guide on something im only slightly more knowledgeable about.
Me alone: hggggg fuck i am going to die, thats it, fuck this im leaving, idc if its been 8 minutes, the vibe is off! someone looked at me weird!!! i feel like im dying
Slightly more, or just as equally anxious individual: *exists*
Me: oh hello! New to this, are you? :) here, lets grab some drinks and dance! Fuck it, lifes too short.... and i bet you wanna have yourself a good time, right? :) dont regret it later!!!!
......
I'll leave it up to them I suppose, but they seem relatively receptive to having conversations I suppose.
If they're gonna be emotional waiting in a car for me before a party or something, itll just be a little off. (I dunno.... Hell, i get emotional even taking a bus anywhere remotely close to their neighborhood. Emotions happen randomly, and i doubt he'd break down into tears being unable to kiss me before a party or something, but, thats still a risk that i wouldnt want to potentially cause by making someone feel pressured to hang out with me....)
Wouldnt want to make them uncomfortable.
I dunno.
.............
Going alone could still work out.
I'd see people I know, and hope they remember me back; maybe dance a bit, start networking, have fun.
I guess it just feels nice bringing someone else with me.
Then its like, "Hey, here's a glimpse into the futuristic world of art students I dive into from time to time! Isnt it fascinating?", and it feels sorta dope that way.
Plus the confidence in reverse of "Hey look, strangers, i brought a friend! I am also quite cool like you, to be having friends at events, and not showing up doe eyed and solo, yes?"
......
Impressing people i dont know by showing up with another cool fellow + impressing my friend whos tagging along by introducing them to other more distant friends = oh look, a good ass night.
Worst case scenario: I get stabbed by a stranger. Or i get side eyed the whole night. Or a race riot happens. Or I get decked in the face. Or drugged. Or mocked by other creative lgbt folks. Or isolated! Or I do bring company, and then they end up having a much worse time than me....
Best case scenario: i make more chill friends, meet some people to finally collaborate with, and end up dancing hella hard, laughing hella hard, and feeling good... and, if company is brought along too, then i also get to let someone else have a nice time too.
Nice.
I wonder what I'll wear?
Since some art parties are the "show up in a choker and hoodie and youll be the most overdressed person there" type events.
And others are the "everyone else has on neon clothing, painted jeans, and avant garde makeup with colorful ass dreadlocks or their natural hair...... lol, and ur permed ass is wearing a beanie and boot cut jeans as if thats The Look".
(Ouch.)
I'm sure I'll find something good. Just will bust out a good wig or something, stay warm, and have enough room to still dance in if possible.
...
Not sure how open he will be about going to a party with his ex, but oh well.
Potentials:
Will I be followed around all night?
What if I see someone cute?
What if I get jealous or some shit?
What if one wants to leave before the other?
Answers:
Probably, but thats not a problem, since it just means I'll still have a buddy even if other people aren't socializing with me.
Then I seperate myself peacefully, and do my thing. (I doubt i will, but flaunting in front of someone i used to date isnt in the stars for me.... Excluding that one time with Calvin, but i didnt expect that prick to show up lol.)
Then I seperate myself peacefully, and do my thing. (Jealousy is a disease, but I'd probably just distance and give some space if I even somehow got that way I guess.)
Uber exists.
......option 2 or 3 shouldn't even be mentioned, shut up.
So yeah.
10:43pm, hoping that the party goes well! Speaking it into existence; it will be a good ass event happening.
I just wanna have a good time out. It's been a rough ass week, with not only awkward rejections, but then fighting with someone I used to be head over heels with, the rain soaking through all of my clothes today, and my hair looking a hot ass mess....
All I can do is say, "Life is freaking hilarious", slap on one of my wigs, and hope that things finally start to work themselves out, one way or another.
Alright, thats all i had to say for now. Peace out loves. Bye. Laters. :)
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odd numbers for the lesbian asks! (if it's too many just do every 4th one maybe?)
1. Femme or butch? 
for type, im vry easily wooed by butches tbh
as for myself, im genderfluid + heavily lean towards butch-ish for one gender + have been gettin more comf w that term for myself. the 3 genders i switch between, ive described as sharp, dainty and tired, for reason of not really being comf w gender labels aside from nonbinary. sharp/tired r kinda butchish, moreso sharp. like leather jackets, ripped jeans, dress pants/shirts, defs flannels (which r a given for any mood im in tbh) while tired is like mb softer, more focused on flannels + loose tank tops/shirts, shorts + certain skirts, comfy clothes, and the like   
ive found that i’m leaning more towards butch lately too, like i’ve been a lot more comfortable with pants and a nice top than i have w dresses or most skirts + im wondering if i was just hanging on to femininity for sake of society, so those r things 2 think abt. i still feel comf in them sometimes, but it’s getting much less often. gender’s weird, i still cant cling to one bc of how pressuring that is so genderfluidity is still smth for me + it shifting to different percentages is okay (im thinking out loud @ this point, but its helping so i hope its interesting to read)
3. Plaid button-ups or leather jackets?
both, but primarily flannels/plaid buttion-ups
5. Describe your aesthetic
aaahh theres a lot of diff aesthetics i could go into, but i have a tag if ur interested in a visual representation? basically, cosy homes, forests, wooden steps and bridges, cats, girls/nbs, water, plants, and old video game stuff, and clouds/skies. i’m sure there’s more in there, but for a good rule of thumb !! as for like dressing aesthetic, i like to look rly gay + attractive and a lil showy? like my shorts r Short and i love crop tops + a lot of my shirts show my bra thru them, + i like showing it when i can, like sports bra + a tank top is a fav look of mine bc i can make it look like my bra is a trim on the shirt + it’s cute. i’ve been wearing dresses less often, but occasionally, i like to rock one. id love a pair of combat boots but i have like size 11/12 feet + most stores dont carry that size + im hesitant to buy some online. 
7. Favorite pair of shoes?
its rly hard to find any, i have like walmart converse knockoffs atm + theyre a beige/grey color im not that huge on, it kinda reminds me of sandalwood but depressed
9. Any haircut goals for the future? 
there was the undercut!! and i have that down now c: next step is to dye it blue and mb some purple. i wanna bleach it if i’m gonna dye it, but im hesitant to do that bc of how damaging it is, but since my hair’s been cut a cpl time almost all the color is out now, so i think itll b ok if i take good care of it. 
11. Describe the worst date you’ve been on
i went to a cafe w someone (i think they were nb but i cant remember, it was like 2 yrs ago about ) and they were impossible to talk to bc they just kept saying “im awkward sorry” @ everything and like any conversations i tried to maintain were all one-shot responses, and like that was a lil frustrating. like i dont hold it against them or anything, more in a sense of i was rly tryin 2 carry it and just couldnt 
13. If taken, talk about your girlfriend/wife!
whooh i wish i was taken, i need affection + to b cute w someone 
15. Describe your dream wedding
hmmmm i havent thought much about it !! i know when i was younger i wanted to wear a black wedding dress but now im thinkin mb a suit that switches to dress @ the bottom?? that could b cool. I’d be happy w anything tbh, if im getting married, i’d just b happy to be w my wife/spouse. mb somewhere in a forest or on a boat would b cool, defs lots of good food and colorful flowers. I’d like a lot of color, most weddings ive been to are just b/w and bland for my taste (they’ve also all been straight tho so theres that.) it’s kind of wild to think that i might b married someday, but it’d b rly nice. i just haven’t thought much abt the planning of one. it’d b rly gay tho, probs give out tiny gay flags at each seat, and the cake could b lesbian flag colors. im rly drawing a blank on this, but i know id want all my friends around the country + world to be there. 
17. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
i definitely want to live in a port town at some point !! idk where i’d like to settle down, ideally somewhere that doesnt get much hotter than 90 degrees + has lots of parks + is big enough for some events, like pride stuff, little festivals, a farmer’s market, and places to do things, such as a movie theater, bowling alley, mb an aquarium, if not one in a nearby town. hiking trails r also good. 
19. Favorite lesbian novel/story?
on a sunbeam!!! its a huge inspiration for me, and i love it so much. it always puts me in such a good mindset when i read it, and the artist is my age, so it makes me feel like I can also accomplish great things if i rly put my heart into it!! which is such a good feeling, and it has great representation + characters that i love, and its rly gay, and in space and theres ships shaped like fish + its gorgeous : D i could go on for hrs abt it + how important it is to me. theres an nb character too, and like the aspect of found families is one that rly hits home and it helped me get thru a rough time of my life + better accept myself as queer/gay. 
21. Favorite lesbian musician?
adult mom (tho i think they’re bi but still gay), or hayley kiyoko
23. Ever been assumed to be nothing more than a gal pal?
i think so, but i can’t place when, it’s been a bit. 
25. Be positive! What do you like most about being a lesbian?
talking abt being gay w other girls/nbs is lovely and cathartic, i never got to growing up bc i lived in a homophobic town + i was like dealing heavily with internalized homophobia and body/gender dysphoria so i was ace for a bit. talking more abt like sexual attraction + aesthetic attraction is new to me, and that’s been a process to get to, but it’s nice that I can now do so w/o being belittled or barraged by insult. i also just love the thought of being w someone, and daydreaming abt when that happens is really nice. also,, girls + nbs r a blessing and brighten my day and im so glad im attracted 2 them 
27. Turn ons?
absolutely communication, that’s a need. i had a bad experience w someone bc she wasn’t communicative at all, and failed to tell me that we weren’t dating despite us going on several dates + kissing??? like i wont go too into it, but hatchi matchi it was a mess. so yeah, communication, affection, and like reassurance that they actually want to be with me, and that my presence is wanted and enjoyed. I got a lot of “i dont care”s for answers last sort-of relationship, and that was rly discouraging. another turn on is for them to initiate talking and things, like holding hands or planning to hang out + such. consent is another big one. 
29. Do you usually ask other women out or do you wait for them to ask you?
i usually tend to ask them out, but im still dealing w internalized junk, so its difficult. i also havent any situations in which they liked me back, which is frustrating. like i got lead on earlier summer for abt a month until i asked what we were doing + didnt rly get an answer, and it was this whole mess. i generally try to make the first move tho, bc i know firsthand how difficult it is, but that being said, it’s still hard for me to know for sure if theyre interested + i dont wanna make things uncomf w them, so i’ll wait until i think there might b attraction. that being said, once that’s all out of the way, i like to consider myself a good flirt when im trying. 
31. Talk about your interests or hobbies!
i have lots of interests!! im obsessed w steven universe, its my fav show (and if u ever have time, we should totally watch it together sometime, i rly think you’d love it, it’s super gay + heartwarming.) i really love playing music and learning new songs, which im rly great at memorizing. talking to friends + gettin 2 know them better is always nice and fun. i like to draw new things + see the different ways ppl draw, so seeing art on here is always fun for me. i’m also rly into polygon videos (it’s a youtube channel, not like videos abt polygon haha) and this podcast called the adventure zone. season one just ended, so i might start listening to another one called friends at the table. i rly wanna start a podcast w someone, but can never find anyone to start it with. idk what I’d talk abt but if i could find a partner for it, i think it’d be a lot of fun. mb smth abt games or books/queer representation in media. doing a dnd podcast would also b rly fun, but a lot of work + editing so mb later down the road !! im blanking on other interests atm, but animations and cartoons r lovely and i aim to make something in that field one day, if not just a comic.
my hobbies r mostlyyyy drawing, dnd things now every thursday, hanging w my friends, playing video games, sometimes writing (i rly wanna start a comic, and im tryin to get my butt into gear on it), goin to parks, listening to music, and goin 2 events w roe + cesar, two of my friends. sometimes ill play music!! i need to get more than the keyboard i’m lending, but i love performing. ill also watch leg birds on youtube, theyre a lesbian couple that plays gams + theyre rly sweet. 
33. Do you love easily or does it take time for you to warm up to someone?
its easy for me to love friends, doesnt usu take me more than a few months of knowing them if were talking a lot. as for falling in love, that takes me a lot longer. ive never rly been in love w someone. i thought i was once, but rly it was just my first gay experience w someone and i wanted it to be perfect so i projected a lot of things + made it better than it seemed to myself for the duration of it, which wasn’t healthy, so i wanna avoid doing that again, + take things slower next time. or at least for what they are. 
35. Ever fallen for a straight girl?
a few times, they were just crushes tho, so it wasnt too too bad
37. Favorite comfort food?
hot cocoa or tea. as for food food, i dont think i have one. mb french toast or cinnamon rolls. 
39. Vegetarian? Vegan? None of the above?
i used to be a vegetarian!! for like a yr, but it was difficult for me to eat and feel full, and i was pretty underweight, so i stopped. 
41. Early-riser or night-owl?
both, i tend to stay up, but getting up early can be nice if i dont have to do anything. like just gently waking + making some tea and a nice breakfast + sittin around for a bit. 
43. What is your Myers-Briggs type?
enfp-a 
45. At what age did you know you were a lesbian?
i think like 16-17? it took me a bit to get words for identity, like lesbian/nonbinary and the like, but i always knew, like id call myself an individual as opposed to gendered terms that i was referred to, and always felt rly yucky w deadname + the wrong pronouns
47. Are you crushing on anyone at the moment (celebrity or otherwise)?
ive got one crush atm !! and another person who seems nice, but i wanna hang out w before like thinking abt a crush (im poly, which perhaps goes w/o saying, but i always like to state it when talking abt these things, jic )
49. Talk about your dreams/aspirations for the future
i’d like a partner or two, to get some bongos- i got to play some a couple weeks ago, and it was the most fun i’ve had playing anything!! having smth with an instant response that i could make up rhythms with was really rewarding and so much fun. i know i want a cat at some point, to go on cute dates + cuddle and kiss a lot w someone, to visit my friends in other places, dye my hair, get a better job, to travel a bit, make a comic, go to college for animation and storyboarding, mb go to camp at some point, and I’d like to make some more friends here, i’m already making some, which i’m super happy about, but it’s always nice meeting new ppl 
thank u for asking!! this was relaxing + fun, and a lot of the topics were cathartic to talk about, and i needed it. so thanks for listening too kinda
also im queen of commas, i’ve discovered while typing this
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