#i wanna lose weight

[sweetestsugarxoxo]

Hot girl summer or fat girl summer?

[addicted2skinny]

I can feel myself spiraling deeper into my ed and I genuinely love it.

[luvana444444]

Every taste adds to the waist

(I need to remember that ^)

[el3gantpeach]

you can prove them wrong.

[wintergirl-mdna]

i want to get so much worse.

[imamonstr]

i wanna cvt myself to de@th

i hate myself so much

why do i sh?

it's the only way to keep calm and don't feel that pain. i have to lose so much weight until i look like my perfect th1nspo

[angelfaie]

how to prevent binges / overeating 🤍

(reminder : these are things that work for me!!! some may not be suited for you :> )

1) i thought high restriction (1200-1300) would help prevent binges. it did not!

i was just maintaining / gaining because i never felt i was getting anywhere with my weight.

i may have been losing, but the impact of water weight fluctuations are harder to see when you’re not losing as much everyday, so i could never really tell.

i need to go ‘all in’ when it comes to restriction, so 0-800cals otherwise the day doesn’t feel ‘worth it’ and i’ll overeat, or have a maintenance day

and then you get into the cycle of having maintenance days EVERY day

(if high restriction is working for you please keep at it though, this is just subjective for me)

2) ‘i’ll exercise it off tomorrow’

ok, so some people can and will exercise off the excess calories! but it’s a LOT more effort that restricting for me.

i used to pace a lot to burn calories, but realistically 180ish cals for a 2 hour walk isn’t worth it for me.

plus it’s also very easy to start overeating everyday, saying you’ll exercise it off, and never actually burning the cals.

also i found the weight drops off quicker when i’m just restricting properly, which motivates me more.

(however if you manage to, srsly well done gosh, and ignore this)

3) SAVE UR CALS for later

i tend to get real hungry / my willpower fades at nighttime

so i save my calories for dinner and have it as late as possible

i find it easier to basically fast throughout the day (maybe have a few apricots / dates for blood sugar) and then have my meal later

PLUS having something carby before bed sends me to sleep, which helps with the anorexia insomnia

4) you’ll be sad either way BUT…

you’ll be miserable being hungry. you’ll be miserable after binging. but you won’t be miserable once you’ve lost the weight.

binging has only negatives whereas starving has the pro of being skinny.

[lilasnow22xoxo]

oh how i love seeing stars and black spots when i stand up 🥰

[g1rlunb0thered]

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!! 🎉

also thank you guys sm for 1,000 followers <3

[emmaismyana]

If youre not watching the calories

Then the calories sure will watch you.

[sweetestsugarxoxo]

Your actually vile to look at xoxo

[s1lly-sk1nny-dreams-6]

"A new emotion, wow!"

Emotion: desire to disappear

[el3gantpeach]

emo thinsp0 ˙𓆩♪⛧₊˚🎧 ﾟ₊⛧♪ 𓆪˙

[wintergirl-mdna]

i don't care how long it will take or how many times i will fail.

i will reach my goal someday.

[relentlessly-tired]

I hate the person I am now.

I have like no personality. My only hobbies/passions/obsessions are just ALL ed related (cooking, baking, counting cals, making meal plans, nutrition books/videos) and fitness (gym, cardio, walking).

And it's not like I can even talk ab any of this to ppl irl bc I don't want ppl to get suspicious of me. So I'm afraid I just come off as... Bland. I am such a shell of a person.

Like. Who would I be if I didn't have food/weight on my mind 24/7???? What could I use that energy for?? I think about the person I used to be. I used to read loads and watch movies/shows and be in fandoms and do sports and now I am just like waiting for the day I get skinny to live again.

I hate who I've become. Moreso, I hate who I haven't become. I'm not me. And I don't even have anything to show for it. I'm not skinny yet.

Anyways, that's why I've been so inactive recently. I am so exhausted of living like this stuck in such a loop. But I don't know how to get out.

[angelfaie]

side effects i love from my ed

~ skinny *_*

~ frail and delicate

~ wear clothes nd just look dainty and kinda mysterious ✨(i am delusional)

the ones i hate

~ brain fog

~ permanently tired

~ cold cold cold

~ tired looking face + grey hands

~ SUNKEN EYESSSS