#i wanna say pre-2019? maybe

[utopiasbrood]

[jselorekeeper]

Hey, im tryna find that one Ego video where it starts off with Sean playing a horror game where he has to do some stuff and uses a math to light the way, the ego stuff is at the end with Chase and Anti, where Chase has the match and its got red lighting, and Anti is in the doorway and Chase says "What do you want from me??" And Anti says nothing but turns, with a glowing green eye and smiles (creepily) and then walks towards Chase.

I dont remember the name but i hope that helps ^-^ i really wanna watch the vid, i know it was like pre 2020 maybe early 2019 or in 2018, im not sure-

I do believe you’re speaking of “Dark Silence” my friend! That is the only one with a red hallway besides IRIS

That title has been changed to “What Do You Want From Me?”

[shzmluvrs]

this is so random but i feel like i need to share the mental image of 2019 freddy eating cornflakes

~ Star✨️

Freddy's Frosted Flakes

Prompt: Just your average teenage boy eating cereal. Nothing crazy going on here🥱. Well, besides saving the world. At the butt-crack of dawn. Again. Why can't the poor boy just be left to eat his cereal in peace🥲?

Timeline: Post Shazam! Pre S!:FOTG

TW/Content: None⚡️Well, probably some cursing⚡️Frosted Flakes (if you don't like Tony the Tiger, should you really even be here🤨?)⚡️Freddy being silly lol⚡️Reader is mentioned like, once, maybe twice

Reader: Non-Specified! Any Pronouns! Knows the secret!

Requested By: @anon-2019

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I wanna say this first real quick, if you don't know what Frosted Flakes even, are, here...

Corny, yes, but at least now you know🤷🏽‍♀️.

Anyways...

I'm not saying Frosted Flakes are his fave (yesIam), but when he requests for them every time Victor goes to the store and is one of the first to be searching through the bags the second he gets home specifically for them, it's hard to believe otherwise.

Personally, I don't think Freddy is the biggest morning person. Will he wake up? Sure. But don't expect him to be his "normal" self, all talkative and head running a mile per minute. He's probably the opposite.

Head empty, no thoughts, quiet mouth. Very much ghost activity, just wandering around his room in a daze looking for clothes that aren't just his boxers, and then downstairs with only the click of his crutch hitting the floor to be heard.

He rubs his eyes, and he finds the house empty, Rosa out shopping, Victor at work, his siblings? Who knows. Who cares. He's hungry.

He's stumbling into the kitchen, murmuring to himself about early-monring nonsense while opening the fridge door and scanning its contents.

Oh, sweet. Juice.

Knowing he shouldn't, having been told many times before, he drinks straight from the carton. He waterfalls it, at the very least, and then he spots the milk. Milk goes in a bowl along with a spoon and-

"Cereal." He mumbles again because he's still hungry💀.

I imagine he's the type to be very unconventional with his eating utensils if he has to be. If there are no clean spoons, he's eating that shit with a fork. Better yet, a small ladel because A) he'll be damned if he's gonna be washing any dishes this early in the day. And B) better for scooping anyway. If there's no clean bowls? He'll eat his cereal out of some tupperware🤷🏽‍♀️.

Also, sorry to disappoint, but he's a "milk first, then cereal" kinda guy. It severely threw you and Billy off when you first watched him do this, Mary said it was "illogical" and Pedro and Eugene make fun of him every time he does it.

You know what? On second thought, he's kind of glad no one's home to see him eat his cereal💀✋🏽.

Speaking of you...

"Mor-nin-g ... an-gel-....cake ... kissy sign..." He spells out under his breath, sending off the message with a smug feeling about him before placing his phone back down and scarfing down more of his cereal.

He's definitely a messy eater, milk all down his chin, food barely in his mouth because he's shoved in so much. At least he has the decency not to smack (because that drives even him, one of the messiest of eaters, nuts).

I also think he's definitely the type to have more than one bowl. Especially if there's milk left behind from the first one? He's not drinking that, he's using it for another helping💀. And he'll repeat the process until it's all gone.

But, if you didn't stop him, and you let him re-pour as much as he wanted, he'd eat (I'd say) 4-6 bowls max, depending on how hungry he is that day.

He's also the type to, when he's hungry but doesn't feel like fully cooking something for himself, or just try too hard in the kitchen in general (lazy ass😒), there he goes for those Frosted Flakes. He's convinced it's versatile, a breakfast, lunch, snack, dinner, and/or dessert food. Rosa has had to stop him from proving this point on several occasions; she will not let any son of hers live off of and eat up an entire box of cereal🥴💀.

ESPECIALLY IF ITS JUST BEEN OPENED OMG!! She gets salty if a box of cereal has just been opened and it's already half gone within a day. Like, she understands she lives with seven other people, but goddamn, there's no excuse for that😭.

'Vzz-Vzz!'

Freddy smiles to himself, mouth still full, but he can't help it because he's excited to see what flirty little morning response you had come up w-

'Hey dude idk if u kno this but the world needs saving so get ur captain i-have-all-powers ass up and come help'

"Mncht..." He clicked his tongue against the roof of his mouth. Leave it to Billy to kill his early morning groove...

He set his spoon down in order to use both hands/thumbs, fully indulging himself in having attitude with his mocking tone while he typed.

"I'm actually referred to as Captain Everypower, so get it right and maybe I'll come help."

Billy's response?

'🤓☝🏻'

Freddy groaned to himself, wanting- No, wishing nothing more than to just be able to finish his bowl of cereal. Normally, he'd be at least on his second bowl by now, but nope. Now he's gotta deal with some catastrophe on a half-empty stomach.

'Vzz-Vzz!'

"What now...?!"

'Morning Freds♡'

'Saw the news...'

Oh. It was you again. His frustration subsided for a moment, shoveling as much as he could into his mouth as he quickly sent, '🙄 so did I. Do I have to??'.

Not that he knew, but you had giggled on the other end.

Not that you knew, but upon seeing your response, he giggled, too, and the butterflies in his chest made this whole ordeal a little less miserable...

'Go save the world, Superman😘.'

This was silly, thank you sm for this lmao😭😻.

~ Star✨️

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@anon-2019

[struggle-but-its-all-ocean-floor]

I was asking if you're a jikooker?

Anyways, the question is as you're jungkook biased whom do you think was closest it jungkook back then and now. See why I'm asking is for me it was very clear that he was very much closest to jimin like i know he was close to V in the early years but later it seemed he became close to jimin and we all know the ITS talk happened which made it clear that jungkook and taehyung has not been same from soe time although now it seems they're close again

Idk where jikook stand as a friends right now like close? Yes they are but like closest? Idk anymore.

The question I'm asking is because for me he seemed pretty closest to jm than other members then why does so many people in this fandom does not think like that? More importantly why the jk biased people are mostly taekookers and hates jm? Like if you're a jk biased can't you see he's close to jm the most?

I wanted to write more but my mind is not working currently so that is all i wanna ask that why do mostly jk biased are tkkrs and hates jm. I wanted an opinion of jk biased or just an ot7 and not a jikooker that's why asked you if you're a jikooker.

Sorry, I didn't think you were talking about Jikook... I'm a Jikooker, but Jinkook is tied with Jikook as my favorite dynamic - a platonic one. I'm not a shipper. I only believe in Jikook, though that makes me sound like a shipper to a lot of people haha. I'm probably not who you wanted to answer this question, but I'll give it a shot anyway!

V and Jungkook are the most popular members and Taekook the most popular ship, so it makes sense that statistically there are more Taekookers who are Jungkook biased than Jikookers... And a lot of Tkkrs hate Jimin because of the competitiveness between the ships.

I also think, as a Jungkook biased Army, that it's beyond obvious that Jikook are extremely close. You could argue that in the early days, and maybe in chapter 2, Vkook are closer - because there's so much content between them, - but, like you said, ITS showed they weren't as close as they could've been until recently. Given Jungkook's history with Jimin and V, and all the little Jikook moments we still get (such as Jungkook mentioning and interacting with Jimin, watching his videos, singing his songs, etc.) it's clear as day that Jungkook adores Jimin. But I get that Vkook are besties now, which is great. However, Jimin and Jungkook are very private and have really different schedules right now. It doesn't mean they're any less close.

I don't know. It's just so obvious that I don't know what to say? Anyone who's watched BTS content should know Jikook are attached at the hip, and that there are always periods of no content, followed by a flood of Jikook content, upon which we suddenly realize Jikook were attached at the hip all along but we didn't see it. Memories 2020 and 2021 come to mind.

My mind isn't working right now either, sorry, but, yeah, Jikook are still the closest imo, although Vkook are much closer now - which is great!!

In the past, do you mean before 2015? From at least 2016 onward Jikook seem extremely close. I became Army in 2019 so there's a lot I don't know. But even in their pre-debut and rookie days Jikook were close. They've told so many stories about hanging out together while everyone else slept, being late night buddies, sharing their struggles, etc.. I mean, Jimin convinced Jungkook to stay in the group when he came back from the US and wanted to dance. And Jungkook has always really admired Jimin's work ethic and now he devoted himself in his trainee days. Jimin has adored Jungkook from day 1. Their early v-logs are almost embarrassing. Jimin was besotted.

I don't know if this was helpful lmao. Thanks for the ask!

[munsonology]

almost getting kicked out of a museum???!!!?! bestie you can’t say that AND NOT ELABORATE I NEED THE STORY (only if you wanna share, obviously)

YES OMG

Ok so this happened pre pandemic, i think maybe 2018/2019. Me and my friends like going to museums and taking pics and looking cute so we went to this really fancy museum in the city

I had my mini backpack with me and the KAREN security guard told me I couldn’t have my backpack like that (this was after she followed us around) meanwhile there’s a bunch of other people with bigger backpacks and kids running around she didn’t talk to

So a bit later I was taking a pic with this painting and right after I took it she came over telling me that if I didn’t step away from the painting I’d be escorted out

we got followed the rest of the day 😭 they were on my ass with the walkies giving my location to each other 🫠

So I have a selfie of me and some 18th century tits. It’s one of my fav pics

👁️👅👁️

[btsmakesmehappy]

C-drama recommendation (part 2)

Helloo! I’m back with another post about how Chinese drama stole my heart. I randomly watched my favorite c-drama of all time: falling into your smile for the nth time. followed by reading fanfics in Ao3 because I just couldn’t get enough of it. I just feel I want more, more fluff and love.

soo I looked for another title I can binge watch (whilst I’m depressed because of my thesis lmao, procrastinating FTW)

1. Go Go Squid! (2019)

the story is about a girl, Tong nian, (genius, written in the official synopsis, but not really portrayed well in the drama) who fell in love with cool, hot-looking, older guy, Han, who happened to be famous. (It’s so lame how the girl just blindly followed the guy and not do her research first. I almost died from second embarrassment in the earlier episodes.) they started fake dating, and date for real.

what I love

the guy is hot, the K&K members also hot. (WUBAI my love)

the topic CTF looks fun and anti-mainstream

how tsundere Han is

the friendship portrayed nicely

how the drama literally focuses on the hugs, pats, (kisses in the latter episode), first kiss done abruptly which is so cute and real

10-year difference - kinda hot

the other characters are impactful

the misunderstandings in the earlier episodes are so funny

THE KISSES ARE SUPER HOT (cdrama classics)

What I hate

CTF looks fun, it’s shame that the competition just so fast, suddenly winning.

the flashbacks are so damn long

How Han is just so childish and mad all of the time

I just hope the awkward Han shown longer than the loving Han, because I felt it would portray Han’s character more (I know love can change people, but I hope for some dramatic and gradual changes)

I would rate 7,5/10.

I’d recommend but I don’t think I will watch it again when I’m bored

2. Go Go Squid 2: Dt. Appledog’s time (2021)

it’s like a spinoff of the first season, maybe you can say it’s in different universe. The story tells about the man, Wubai, who fell in love with Aiqing and joined robotics because of her (as she’s like goddess in robotics). she eventually fell in love when she met him for a competition. but suddenly Wubai gone missing.

this story is like Fluff, mutual pining, slow burn in one. 

What I love

the main characters Wu bai and Ai qing are so damn beautiful

robotics looks fun, they showed the robotic combat very nicely

THE FLUFF oh my god. my heart was beating so fast, I screamed silently everytime they interact. SO FLUFFY I WANNA DIE

mutual pining and slowburn, it’s just like I want to push both of them together.

I love how he respect and care about her, his dedication to love and pursue her, portrayed beautifully in the drama.

just LOVE how he announce his love, especially the one when he changed the name of the competition for her, and how he showed everyone who were against of their relationship that he fell deeply in love with her and inspired him for 10 years by telling people what DT stands for

THEIR LOVING GAZES for each other like the world in only theirs

The pre-ending scenes in most of the episode, are so beautiful. they show how the progress of their love

It’s funnier than the first season.

how mature the couple is. no major misunderstanding.

IT REALLY SHOWS HOW PURE THEIR LOVE

THE KISSES OMG

it didn’t focus on the friendship, just their love, second couple’s love, with a some of robotics

What I hate

some of the other characters are not impactful. the face, and the acting are just meh

the head count for the K&K team is annoying (because they want to include Han, but he rarely showed up in the drama)

the settings look like studio

I would rate 9/10 because of the beautiful love story. nice plot. although cliche love story (but I just love it). (I’m just hopeless romantic)

This drama made me questioned myself, “where can I find someone like Wu bai?” he’s so pretty and unreal, and how he loves her so deeply made me drool in envy.

definitely recommend, and definitely watch it again whenever I want to watch some lovey dovey, fluffy, romance

That’s all for now. I must stop watching because I have to study lmao. C-dramas are so underrated while they have interesting plots and hot kisses. But I also hate how they have like 30++ episodes. it’s tiring and addicting to watch at the same time.

Bye for now!!

[radioblonde]

so I'm starting this here

I'm just some other happy, free, confused, and lonely junior in college who didn't understand how perfectly aligned those four words were back in 2012 when Red (OG and ONLY version) was released.

So, I'm taking a rhetoric of pop culture class (pop cultural analysis thru the lens of Taylor Swift AAH!) that has inspired me to finally join Tumblr after the literal decade I've spent taking influence, in every single way, from this damn site.

Like, why haven't I been blogging my life down forever? What the fuck is the use of a journal anyway? jk #diaries4ever

I write a lot about the things that I'm blessed to experience. and I'd love to share for whoever might relate or love it themselves.

I spoke to professor Proulx about this last week. I used to get insecure when speaking up about my opinion sometimes, like I wouldn't say the right things or hurt the wrong feelings. She told me that sometimes--people forget that we're all going through the same shit. some are more scared than others, but only because the others were once just as scared too. we all move past it someday. So as it turns out, all those ppl were actually right when they said comparison is the thief of joy. we've all got things to say and do, whether independently or with ppl alongside. if it's in words, it's in the world. Why tuck it away in your own world, when nothing's as it seems even in the real world? We learn best when put into practice. So fuck it.

separate thought, but remember needing to put "Tumblr" when searching up anything online? it was literally the only way. why did Tumblr even fall off like that. I feel like it's so creatively unique. I get the surface-level mainstream community online kinda giving up on it, but how abt the writers, creatives, and artsy girls of our generation? are they on it, and I'm just late af??

I used to have one of those Tumblr summer bucket list accounts with my best friend growing up...without actually using Tumblr. in all fairness, we were literally on the internet at like 10 years old. a pre-teen can only learn so much at once LOL.

I started stanning Taylor Swift when her and I stopped being friends. In like 2014. iconic ass time. even tho I was literally 11, I'm so nostalgic over it lol. I wanted to be a teenager then so bad. I wonder how I'll feel about high school in 2019-2022 in the future--If that nostalgia could ever beat Tumblr nostalgia (and that's coming from someone who lived vicariously thru it on IG!)

her and I were besties for like all of high school. but our second breakup, end of senior year, was the realest. everything and everyone was embarrassing. especially me. Lowkey depressing. So, I left Miami for college, excited to meet new people or new vibes... until I eventually realized that I've never comfortably fit in anywhere just yet. Maybe I should just blame Florida. or maybe it's cause I've been made to believe I'm not Latina enough (that's bs. Ik where I come from). maybe it's all bs, and I just need to finally move to NYC with Chan, my childhood bestie. all I know is that it doesn't really matter what city I'm in if I know where I wanna go.

Third year now. Still got Taylor. and I've come to love those random experiences and memories that once felt like blades puncturing my lungs. the bright side of every situation is actually, really cute. cause fr, apart from irl limits or calamity, what you see is what you get.

Anyways, I'm bringing back Tumblr, if it's even as dead as it seems rn.

[hedjblogr]

so i gotta make a full ass post about my last reblog because i would be doing the situation a disservice if i posted it only in the tags.

puts my grubby little pizza hands together and takes a deep breath

so.

around 2019-2020, so pre-pandemic, i was working for a small startup business. this was through a scheme that my local council was paying for, to get people into employment and to help local small businesses. great stuff on paper! fantastic stuff even!

this business was uh. well. the guy running it was maybe not the best personality match for me when it comes to a boss, but that's something better demonstrated than plainly stated. i don't wanna say he was a bad guy because that'd be unfair, but i was not the only person who struggled with dealing with him. i won't go too much into his personality either because this isn't about making a smear piece, this is about processing my struggles with illness in the workplace.

so, yeah. i'm a chronic migraine sufferer. it varies from headache and dizziness severity to "i'm having spots in my vision, i feel like throwing up and i literally can't do anything but sit with my head in my hands and my eyes closed tight and make pathetic noises". i'm still not entirely sure what my triggers are for it, but right now i'm thinking it's linked to drastic weather changes, hydration, stress and poor sleep.

i also have moderate to severe depression and anxiety. this ebbs and flows, it always impacts me at a certain baseline but a lot of the time it's background noise. my anxiety tends to flare up more than my depression, admittedly, but hoo boy do they both hit me bad when they hit me.

these were going unmedicated at the time for various reasons.

so, by the very nature of a startup business with less than 10 employees, a lot of us had to do a lot of different kinds of work. that's fine, i'm multiskilled, i don't mind doing a variety of things. but i was definitely more of dog's body than whatever the hell i originally signed up to be, which was more of an administerial/clerical position. aight, fine, i've worked in retail, i can do sales. i'm a computer nerd, i can do social media marketing and graphics. you want me to train people? uhhh sure i guess. and learn UX? fine okay. wait you want me to learn to code as well??? i'm not getting paid enough for this.

so it was a very stressful job. very anxiety-inducing job too. i was told both that i had a lot of responsibility and i was NEEDED, and that the company would simply keep going without me and it didn't matter if i quit or was let go.

oh! fun fact by the way. remember i mentioned my local council was paying for me to be on this scheme? they were paying him. he was getting my work for free, technically. granted, i was getting paid a wage, but he was not the one paying it. yeah. it's great on paper until you consider the way things went in practice.

on one instance i recall that i had my entire evening monopolised, because unbeknownst to me i had apparently agreed to run a live training with someone who was using our product and using it during the evening hours. and i was apparently required to field phone calls from them all evening. i didn't sign up for this, i didn't get paid for these extra hours.

on another instance, i recall we got locked in the building we worked in because we stayed too long (as it was not a privately owned building, we were renting space in a public college), and i was literally in tears with panic about getting out. graciously i was given the next day off work to decompress, but i should never have been put in that situation to begin with. this was due to a bad call on my boss' part.

i'm getting a little distracted here, my apologies, but this thing happens when i start digging up old grievances and trauma that i remember tangential things and it just kind of goes from there.

but yeah. i actually discovered through this job that i suffered anxiety attacks and what they felt like, and that my anxiety was a liability, and i began to suspect through this job as well that my frequent headaches that often led to me feeling like throwing up were not in fact just regular ass headaches.

i didn't feel like i could get sick notes in this situation. i felt like my employer would turn them down or simply fire me.

oh, but you know the time i HAVE used sick notes?

universal credit. good ol' department for work and pensions. rule britannia and all that.

fuck off with that shit actually, they refused my last sick note even though it was ongoing because it listed my depression and anxiety, and they decided that i was actually entirely fine even though they told me i could work on reduced hours to still be eligible for benefits because of my health conditions, and the job search has - to no one's surprise - been making my health conditions WORSE.

(edit: i should clarify, they DID accept sick notes for a time, but eventually i needed to undergo a work capability assessment, and this is when they decided that i still had capacity for work - which i do agree with, there are things i can do! - and then proceeded to ignore the part about it being for reduced hours.)

guess who's been crying themselves to sleep more nights than not, and struggling to sleep, and having erratic schedule, due to scraping to even get an interview only to be NOT EVEN TOLD that i didn't get the job! and that's if i even get a reply back from the first application!

yeah. there's a lot of shit wrong with healthcare and a lot of shit wrong with employment right now. and as it turns out there's a lot of shit wrong with me.

i'm probably gonna delete this post after a while because i always feel bad dumping shit like this on main, especially when it feels like it's old news and i just haven't processed it because i know i'll never get closure. but sometimes i just have to let myself write, and maybe if i post it someone else will come to a realisation and it'll help them. i dunno.

[marumafan]

Hello! If it's not asking too much, could you explain 'Duel at MA Noon' and what's your take on it? I struggled to follow the thread of the story and I don't get what the message is supposed to be. To clarify, I have listened to the first part on the drama CD. Maybe I just have a reading comprehension problem lol. Besides, is this considered canon since Yuuri breaking off the engagement is never acknowledged again?

Thanks in advance if you reply.

Hi there!

I've just realized that I've never made an analysis on it! Duel at MA Noon is so important, as it sets precedent on how much Yuuri likes Wolf. I'm glad you brought it up. Sensei wrote this story specifically to address the haters of this couple. Let's get to it!

But before I start with the analysis and 'my take' on the story, let's address some of the other points you mentioned.

Timeline: Duel at MA Noon (2005) takes place chronologically after novel 5, before the Caloria arc. Their engagement is very much still on, according to every novel, every manga, every cd and every material that has been released by the author in every canon for the past 17 years.

Marriage: Not only are they very much engaged, but in the future that the author wrote for the canon story (continued in 2019), they're very much married. Legally. So yeah, they're engaged in the 'novel present' and the author already let everyone know they will be legally married in the future.

Homophobia: Yuuri and Wolf also live as a family with Greta in every iteration of maruma? If they were a cis guy and a cis girl living the exact same story, no one would doubt their relationship. The only reason why people get stuck on stuff like this is due to homophobia. Conscious or unconscious.

Like I've said many times, if you need a translation of this story, I made one here: https://marumafan.tumblr.com/post/163985363669/english-version-of-kyou-kara-maou

Current manga: Kyou Kara Maou S, the current manga (2022), written by Takabayashi-sensei has Wolf's description set as Yuuri's fiancé. It's info from this year.

"Never addressed again": You said the breaking off of the engagement was never addressed again. I think the explanation is in the story that you inquire about.

Now, onto my analysis and opinion of Duel at MA Noon! (spoilers below)

1) Setup

The story begins with Yuuri waking up from a 'sexy dream', that involved sexy time with Wolf and Conrad watching them go at it . Yuuri takes a shower while exposing himself constantly to Wolf, then when he leaves the shower Conrad shows up to wrap a towel around him. As they have breakfast, a photograph of Yuuri and Wolf that was taken while they were having a stroll, was published on a newspaper and Yuuri gets upset. Then Wolf starts imagining what their wedding would be like. He's childish, he's thinking about Yuuri's wedding dress and party.

(Let's remember this was pre-Caloria arc Wolf. The Wolf that hadn't almost lost Yuuri, the Wolf that hadn't insulted Shinou's Priestess and almost burned down the shrine. The Wolf that hadn't yet gone to the ends of the Earth to find Yuuri on human land, defying Gwen. This was childish Wolf, learning how to live with a fiancé and a newly adopted daughter. )

Yuuri, upset about the dream, the photo, and Wolf's insistence on the wedding and putting him in a dress, blows up and says that he wants to 'break off the engagement'.

My opinion : 16 year old teen doesn't wanna get married yet! Shocker! He's struggling with his own sexuality, confused about the sexy dreams, and the photos! He's being pressure into a 'wedding' and he snaps.

Says he wants to break off the engagement so that they leave him alone and give him time. Again, if you've met anyone struggling with their sexuality, you'll see how much they fight the idea that they 'might not be straight'.

This is my interpretation. Why? Why not interpret it as "well, he actually doesn't like Wolf?" BECAUSE HE SLEEPS WITH WOLF! XD Forever! And never actually breaks the engagement. They're forever a couple! He calls Wolf "daddy", please! He's naked in front of Wolf as much as he can "practicing naked baseball" whatever that means every night! XDD Do you roam around naked in front of your 'friend' that you sleep with? No! XD

2) Confrontation

Yuuri needs to get away for a while. Ends up talking with Gwen and Gunter about what happened. They say that Yuuri's sexy dream was a "bad omen" and to save the country they all have to cross-dress and Yuuri needs to be in a 'duel', according to Anissina's dream premonitions book.

Then off they go, and while walking in the forest, Yuuri encounters Wolf.

They're going to have a 'duel' again. One just like the duel in novel 1 that Wolf (who wanted to challenge the engagement as to cancel it) lost and Yuuri won (keeping the engagement in place). Well, here they are, having a re-match. Will they stay engaged or not?

Before the match Yuuri says: "…… Win or lose, let's have dinner tonight" to Wolf.

Their 'rematch' however, gets cancelled by Conrad's traps, that gets them hanging upside down from trees, touching noses and realizing how stupid the entire thing was.

My opinion: The grown ups involved here know the kids are being dumb and stop them from getting hurt, while helping them realize their feelings.

The "necessary" cross-dressing here continues for me, the idea that 'Yuuri is struggling with his sexuality' in general. Was it only due to comedic relief? They could have worn giant bear suits instead… why girl clothes?

Cutest moment: Yuuri verbalizes to Wolf how he feels. Regardless of what happens, he wants to continue being with Wolf.

3) Resolution

The story ends up with Yuuri and Wolf enjoying their evening together, chatting happily, continuing their life as usual. Not caring what people will say. Yuuri says that "titles don't matter", that only what you feel for the other person matters.

My opinion: So "whether or not someone has the title of fiancé means nothing; love is all there is". Sensei is addressing the haters here directly. To all of the haters who kept saying that "Yuuri and Wolf's engagement isn't real because Yuuri didn't know about the slap" , sensei says: "They're still in love and living together whether you consider their engagement real or not."

Sensei has dropped other stuff like this as well. She has also 'complained' about BL pairing order. In a conversation between Gunter and Badwik, she says that the 'pair order doesn't matter' (I'm paraphrasing, but this is in the drama cd about Gunters love diary (24), track 6)

Takabayashi-sensei has been fighting stereotypes and haters for a while. If people would actually read what she writes they'd understand it a little better.

So are they still ENGAGeD oh mah Gah!?!

Yeah, they are. But if they weren't, it wouldn't make a difference. They're in love. That's the story.

That's Duel at MA Noon. Ps. Also Wolfram slaps Yuuri’s cheek back in Caloria arc. If their engagement was somehow ‘off’ it was back on after that.

[tobesolonely]

grammy night

A/n: like most of you, watching harry perform WS did something to me. i rushed to my computer to write this IMMEDIATELY... not proofread but i hope u all enjoy nonetheless! Thanks @nationalharryleague​ for looking this over and hyping me up.

summary: y/n wants to show her grammy winning boyfriend just how proud she is of him💕

warnings: smut, mentions of the pandemic!

word count: ~3k

my ko-fi! thank you :)

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You decided that “Harry Styles, Grammy-nominated artist!” had a lovely ring to it.

Harry knew how proud you were of him; you had been making it known to him in the days leading up to his big night. You fretted over him more than you usually did, showered him in an obnoxious amount of compliments, and were the most intimate you’d ever been with him–– but who was he to complain? 

Obviously, he knew you could care less whether he won or lost, and quite frankly, he didn’t care either. Just being able to perform at the Grammy’s, much less open it, was the opportunity of a lifetime. The fact that he was hitting such a big professional milestone with you by his side just made it that much better. You were both buzzing.

It had been months since Harry had performed. You knew how much he missed being in front of a live audience and hearing people scream his name, conceited as he was. He had been spending so much time rehearsing the one song he was performing, wanting it to be absolutely perfect. Your boyfriend was a perfectionist, after all! If he was going to do something, he either did it one hundred and ten percent, or he didn’t do it at all.

Although you were used to your boyfriend’s pre-performance jitters, it still wasn’t an easy sight to see. He would pace so much that beads of sweat would collect in his hairline; he’d shake, tremble, and have to be reminded to breathe. You’d think after ten years of doing this he would be a pro, but he was only human, after all. 

“Been so long since I performed in front of people,” Harry muttered to you, examining his reflection in his make-shift dressing room. “‘M nervous.”

“Don’t be nervous,” you reply, coming up behind him to rub his shoulders. He shoots you a look in the mirror. “I know it’s easier said than done but you have nothing to worry about. It’s “Watermelon Sugar” honey–– you’ve got nothing to worry about. You’ve performed this one dozens of times.”

“Things are jus’ so different now,” his voice drops an octave. “What if people are tired of the song?”

“I don’t think people are tired of the song.”

“It played on the radio a lot. Came out in 2019––”

“...And you’ve been busy with other things. No one’s gonna be upset that you haven’t released new music in the middle of a pandemic H, I promise you.”

Harry’s gaze meets yours again in the mirror briefly before he tilts his head back, silently asking for a kiss. You plant one on his lips before grabbing a tissue from a small table beside him, dabbing at his hairline.

“Stop sweating everything off, Harry,” you playfully scold your boyfriend. “Make-up artist has already been by to touch you up three times already, she’s probably running out of product.”

Your boyfriend lightly chuckles at this, causing you to smile. “I’ll just tell my body to cut it out. How’s tha’ sound?”

“Sounds good,” you reply, leaning down to kiss his nose. “You alright?”

You notice Harry deeply inhale. “I think so. How do I look?”

“Like a Grammy-nominated, soon-to-be Grammy-winning, artist.” 

Harry’s skin flushes. “Stop it…” The sound of three short knocks on the door of his dressing room causes panic to flood his features.

“Hey, look at me,” you gently grab your boyfriend’s chin, turning his gaze up towards yours. “It’s my job to believe in you when you don’t believe in yourself. If you get nervous just know I’ll be sitting as close to the stage as they’ll let me.”

“Promise?”

“Promise. Now, go make me proud.”

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“Breathe me in, breathe me out…”

If you didn’t know any better, you would’ve thought Harry’s nerves in his dressing room were all theatrics. He was so in his element on stage, you were one hundred percent sure no one knew he was so nervous twenty minutes prior that he was turning green. He kept looking out into the small crowd, searching for you, and flashing you a dimpled grin once he did. 

You were enjoying watching him prance around the stage while trying to keep up with the band on stage, looking a bit too proud of himself when he was able to stay on the beat while rhythmically snapping his hips along to the song. As the song came to an end and the dimmed lights started coming back on, you were led back to Harry’s dressing room by one of his guards as you heard the next performer being introduced.

“How did I do?” Harry asks loudly, adrenaline still coursing through his veins.

His voice causes you to jump. “You scared the shit out of me! How’d you get off stage so quickly?”

Harry grabs your arm and pulls you off the couch, wrapping you in a tight, sweaty hug. “Don’t know. I basically ran to ya.”

“You did incredibly,” you tell him, lips ghosting over his. “Just like I knew you would. I don’t wanna say you were nervous for nothing, but you kinda were.”

“Don’t wanna hear your teasin’.”

“Did you see how everyone was looking at you?”

“I only saw how you were lookin’ at me. I was only lookin’ at you.”

Your body heats up at Harry’s admission, causing you to look away. “You’re so cheesy, H.”

“I think I would’ve been about fifty times more nervous if you weren’t here with me,” he presses his nose against yours. “Thank you for bein’ here, Y/N. You make this whole thing so much more doable.” Harry places one… two… three wet kisses to your cheek before pulling away, walking back over to close the door he left open during his excitement to re-join you.

“Changing?”

“Yeah,” Harry turns to look at you as he pulls off his jacket. The sight of his bare chest causes you to thickly swallow. “‘M gonna put what I was wearin’ on the red carpet back on. We’re gonna move outside.”

You simply hum in response to what Harry said, sitting back on the couch to scroll through your phone as you wait for him to finish changing. Everyone was congratulating Harry on his performance and wishing him luck on his nominations. You read all the good luck texts for him that were sent to you out loud, watching as his smile grows bigger and bigger from all the love he was being showered in.

After helping Harry powder his T-zone you let him lead you out of the small room and out into an area with spaced-out circular tables, most of them with just two or three seats at them. The Grammy’s in the middle of a pandemic was unlike anything you had ever seen before, and you were pleasantly surprised at how smoothly things were running. Jeff is already sat at the table when you and Harry join him and you can visibly see him let out the breath he was holding.

“Your boyfriend ran off stage so quickly I thought I was gonna have to set up a search party to find him,” Jeff tells you, a slight hint of annoyance present in his voice. He then turns to Harry and says, “Fix your mask, please.”

“It is fixed,” Harry grumbles but adjusts it nonetheless, causing you to giggle. 

Even though it was obvious your boyfriend was enjoying himself, you could still tell he was extremely nervous the closer it became to announcing the winner of the category he was nominated in. His grip on your thigh kept growing tighter and tighter and although you didn’t hate it, you worried he might cut off your circulation soon if he didn’t let go of you soon.

“H, take a deep breath,” you lean over to whisper in his ear. “You’re gonna make my thigh fall off.”

“Sorry, love,” if you could see his mouth under his mask, you’d see him biting his plump lips. “I don’t think I’ve ever been this nervous in my fuckin’ life.”

“Never?”

“Have I?”

“I dunno. I’m asking you.”

You see Harry’s eyes crinkle. “Maybe when I asked you out for the first time.”

“You are seriously so cheesy.”

Harry doesn’t respond, just takes your hand in his and directs his attention back to the stage. His palm is sweaty in yours but you don’t release his grip on your hand, wanting to offer him as much comfort as you possibly could.

When they start naming the nominees for Best Pop Solo Performance, you literally have to remind Harry to control his breathing. Although he won’t be upset if he doesn’t win, you know it would still mean quite a bit to him if he did.

“And the winner for Best Pop Solo Performance is… Harry Styles!”

Your mouth falls open in shock as you turn to fully face your boyfriend who was looking down at your intertwined hands, eyes wide in surprise. He genuinely wasn’t expecting to win and that made this victory that much sweeter. 

“Harry!” You yell to be heard above the cheers and applause of his colleagues in the crowd. Jeff stands and grabs Harry’s hand, pulling him out of his seat and into a tight hug. You stand up and clap loudly in admiration for your boyfriend, willing the tears not to fall from your eyes. He removes himself from Jeff and pulls you into him, your head pressed against his chest.

“I won a fuckin’ Grammy!” Harry shouts.

“I know!” You shout back, probably more excited than he was. “Get up there!”

Your boyfriend quickly removes his mask and hands it to you before hurrying to the makeshift stage, hugging the presenter before touching his Grammy in awe. He picks it up and then slowly sets it back down, shaking his head in disbelief. 

“To everyone who made this record with me, thank you so much…” 

You can’t stop the few tears that spill over your waterline–– you were so unbelievably proud of him. You’re not even paying attention to his acceptance speech as you’re too preoccupied with looking at everyone staring at your boyfriend in admiration. 

“Lastly, I want to thank my girlfriend who’s sitting right there next to my manager, Jeffrey. She’s my number one fan, always believes in me when I don’t believe in myself,” he looks down at his shoes bashfully. “Wouldn’t be half the man I am today if it weren’t for her. This is our Grammy, love.”

You blow kisses to your boyfriend, ignoring the feeling of everyone’s eyes on you. As far as you were concerned, you and Harry were the only two people around at that moment. Your heart couldn’t have been any more full.

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To absolutely no one's surprise, you and Harry couldn’t keep your hands off each other for the remainder of the night. You were relieved there were no after parties being held that Harry would be expected to attend due to the pandemic because you could not get him alone fast enough.

“Slow down, Y/N,” Harry sets his Grammy on the foyer table as he kicks off his shoes. “Just us, innit? We’ve got all night, haven’t we?”

“I’m just so proud,” you tell him breathlessly, sucking on the underside of his jaw. “Let me show you.”

“You have been showin’ me. A lot, actually,” Harry leans his head back and closes his eyes in pleasure as you lick tantalizingly slow against his veiny neck. “Guess one more time wouldn’t hurt, though.”

“Do you want me to blow you or not?”

“Oh, so that’s what’s gonna happen here?”

“If you’re gonna be annoying, then no.”

“Kiiiding,” Harry rolls his eyes, pressing a gentle kiss to your nose. “C’mon, let me get you upstairs.”

”You’re the one that won a Grammy, not me,” you remind him. “Let me make you feel good.”

Harry lets out a quiet hum, guiding you towards the couch. “Exactly–– I’m the winner. Doesn’t that mean I should get what I want tonight?” He falls backward onto the couch, pulling you atop his lap. His hand roams down the front of your dress and he squeezes your breasts roughly, clearly delighted that you decided to forgo a bra tonight.

“I suppose,” you answer, biting back a moan. 

“You suppose? Not in the mood for it tonight?” He starts to retract his hand but you grab his wrist, stopping him.

“I am!” You don’t even try to hide how desperate you are for your boyfriend.

“Gonna let me taste you, hmm?” As Harry asks his question he slowly slides off the couch and onto his knees in front of you, bunching your dress up around your hips. He leans in close to your already dripping center and inhales deeply, a blissed-out look on his face. “Smell fuckin’ incredible. I gotta taste ya.”

You spread your legs wider without even thinking about it, almost as if it’s on instinct. Harry easily moves your underwear to the side and immediately connects his lips with your clit, not giving you time to adjust to the sensation before he’s just going at it.

“Oh, Harry…”

“Rings on or off?” His voice is muffled due to your thighs being clamped around his head, but you can still understand what he’s saying.

“On!”

Harry chuckles against your cunt before sliding his index finger in with ease, loving the way you immediately clenched around the digit. “Y’like that, lovie? Wanna take another one?”

“Please.” Your boyfriend already has you breathless despite the fact that he was just getting started.

Harry slips his middle finger into you along with his index finger and starts curling it up in the way he knew you liked, trying his hardest to stimulate your g-spot. He looks extremely focused; leave it to Harry to make a night that was supposed to be all about him, not.

“S’fuckin’ tight,” he says, more so to himself. “You’d think with all the shags we’ve been ‘avin lately you’d be used to my fingers by now.”

You let out a loud groan at your boyfriend’s dirty talk. He knew that it was one of your biggest kinks so he usually overdid it just a tad bit. It’s not like you were complaining, though.

“Guess that means you’re not fuckin’ me hard enough, huh?”

Harry stops his movements and looks up at you through slightly hooded eyes, an amused (but not really) look on his face. “Not fuckin’ you hard enough? Well, why didn’t you just say so?”

You can tell by the tone of Harry’s voice that he has it out for you now, but there’s no use in recanting your statement. He was about to make sweet, primal, love to you and god were you ready. Harry goes back to mercilessly fucking into you with his thick fingers, speeding up or slowing down his pace based on how you clench around him.

”Fuck, H.”

“Feels nice?” He goes from moving his fingers in a ‘come hither’ motion to a scissoring motion which feels just as good if not better.

“Yeah, really nice,” your fingers are tangled in Harry’s hair and you know he’ll give you hell later for getting it all knotted. “I’m close.”

“Already? Haven’t even properly fucked you yet,” Harry removes his fingers from you aching cunt agonizingly slow, wiping them on his expensive Gucci trousers. “Guess I’ll jus’ have to fix that, yeah?”

“I guess so.”

“You’ve got a mouth on you tonight, pet. Is that really any way to treat your Grammy-winning boyfriend-”

“Harry, come off it!” You exclaim, letting out a loud laugh as you watch him stand up and unbutton his pants. “You’re insufferable, I swear.”

Harry shoots you one of his blindingly bright smiles, wiggling his eyebrows as his pants pool around his feet. “Hey, ‘m just statin’ facts.”

He collapses onto the couch and pats his lap, giving his leaking cock two quick tugs. “Ride me.”

“Just because you won a Grammy doesn’t mean you don’t have to ask nicely anymore.”

“Y/N, my beautiful, dazzling, elegant girlfriend, will you please do me the honors of riding––”

“Why do you make everything so weird?” You groan as Harry laughs and pulls you into his lap with ease, wincing when your thigh brushes against his cock. Wordlessly, he places his hands on your hips and helps you sink down onto him, taking his lip in between his teeth to keep from yelling out.

”Fuck me…”

“I’m about to,” you reply, resting your head on his shoulder as you adjust to his size. His hands roam the expanse of your back as he waits for you to get used to the feeling on him, wanting to feel every part of your body all at once. Without warning, you begin sluggishly rolling your hips. You were in no rush anymore; you had him inside of you, and that was all you wanted from the start.

“S’that all you got in ya?” His tone is cheeky, almost mocking. “I think you can give me more than tha’.”

“I dunno if I can.”

“Why’s that?” Harry bucks his hips upward slightly causing you to let out a loud gasp.

“I just want you to fuck me. I don’t wanna do any work.”

At this, Harry quickly flips you over so your sweaty body is now below his. You moan at the sensation the new angle immediately brought you. “Want me on top like this? This is how you wanna have me, angel?”

You nod. 

“Answer me.”

“Yes, Harry,” your eyes squeeze shut as Harry begins quickly thrusting into you. “God, yes. That feels amazing.”

“Yeah? Do you like it when I fuck you like this?” Harry reaches his hand down to thumb at you clit and raises an eyebrow while awaiting your answer.

“God,” you grab onto your breasts to prevent them from bouncing around as Harry’s thrusting into you but he rips your hand away.

“Wanna see ‘em.”

“Right there,” you moan, no longer trying to bite back your sounds of pleasure. Between Harry eating you out, fingering you, and now fucking you harder than he has in ages, you were a few sloppy thrusts away from coming all over his cock. “I’m gonna cum–”

“...Already?”

You know he’s teasing but you still reach between your sweaty bodies to swat at his bare chest. “Don’t tease!”

“‘M messin’ with ya, puppy,” Harry pushes his curls out of his eyes. “I’m almost there- you first. Cum for me, Y/N.”

Harry doesn’t have to tell you twice. You spasm around his cock as soon as he tells you to, lifting your hips up to meet him as you could tell he was growing tired. Harry pulls out moments later, muttering a quick, “Where do you want it?” before finishing on your chest.

The silence that fills the room is comforting but of course, it’s cut short by your pest of a boyfriend.

“If that's what I got just for winning one Grammy, what would I get if I won the others?”

[mishasminions]

The Last Time I’ll Write a Long Post About Supernatural (15x18-15x20)

15 YEARS OF WATCHING THIS SHOW. 11 YEARS OF RUNNING A BLOG ABOUT IT. IT’S BEEN QUITE A RIDE.

[15x20 Speculation + evidence at the bottom]

First off, I just wanna come clean and say, after all these years, I still think they should’ve ended at Season 5.

If you’re going to come at me with “Then why’d you stick around to watch it if you didn’t like it?”, your question is immature, and the answer is simple: I just want to know what happens next (I also love the main characters and their actors too). You can watch a show and still think it’s shit.

Call me a clown, but despite all the disappointment and trust issues that this show has given me, I would still look forward to the day where it might just turn itself around and bring back the quality it once had, or realize the potential of each story it was trying to tell, or at the very least, do justice by my favorite ship.

Never happened.

They’ve had a few good episodes here and there. I can’t imagine the SPN Universe without The Man Who Would Be King, The French Mistake, and Scoobynatural. Seasons 6-10 were enjoyable at times. I blocked out most of 7 & 11-15. 

If you’ve been following this blog since its heydays in 2010-2014, you’d know I’d try my best to defend Destiel and this show’s decisions regarding it no matter what.

Because you know what, as a CONCEPT, this show is good. If you take a look at all the worlds its storylines have birthed in fanfiction/fanworks, you’d see how much Supernatural has wasted its own story arcs. The writing got shittier as each season progressed, and they’ve obviously given up in production as well because the quality in the execution has noticeably gone down too, but if you take a step back and take a look at the bigger picture, you’ll see that this show still tries to make sense of itself.

[If you’re still following this post, please bear with me, I know this is long, but I just want you to understand how jaded and pessimistic I am with regards to this show, so maybe you can buy into whatever hopeful thing I’m about to say later on.]

SO LET’S TALK ABOUT DESTIEL

Never in my wildest dreams did I think that they would give us Castiel’s “I love you” speech. To the point where, if I weren’t so desperate for it, I would argue that it was completely out of character for him to word vomit the way he did (but I’m not gonna diss on that right now because I’ll take what I can get).

I’ve valued every meaningful and obscure exchange that Dean and Cas have had in the earlier seasons, and I was willing to accept their relationship as just that--undefined, without any clear boundaries as to what they really are. And I think that was beautiful on its own.

But now, they’ve chosen to define it.

After they’ve driven every possible wedge between Dean and Castiel in seasons 11-15, to try to explain away their feelings as something they offer to a collective.

Dean can’t mourn and pray for JUST Cas, he has to mourn and pray for EVERYBODY--even Crowley, even some chick he just met, because god forbid he cries about just the guy who has given up everything for him--that would be “too homo”.

They’ve even set Cas on a path to abrupt fatherhood just so he can care about something other than Dean. Make it seem as if Dean wasn’t his purpose through and through.

And after all these years of this stupid show trying to deny it, they choose to acknowledge it at the worst possible circumstance, at a time where they’ve been so far apart, that it seems so foreign for them to suddenly come together.

But here we are. And they’ve chosen to tell us.

Chosen to tell us that everything that Castiel has done leading up to his death, he has done it because he was IN LOVE WITH DEAN WINCHESTER.

Chosen to tell us that the ONE THING THAT WOULD MAKE CAS HAPPY IS DEAN WINCHESTER.

Chosen to tell us that BEING WITH DEAN WINCHESTER is something that CAS WANTS BUT KNOWS HE CAN’T HAVE.

And they’ve also chosen to tell us nothing about how Dean feels.

Sure, finding out your angel made a deal, the stipulations of said deal, his newfound happiness philosophy, his long-winded monologue of why he loves you and why you’re worthy of his love, and to top it all off he tells you that being in love with you is enough to make him happy while he subtly hints that he’s always wanted to be WITH you romantically, was a lot to process in the 5 minutes after you’ve just had an existential crisis.

It’s whatever, right? Let’s culminate 11 years worth of tension and feelings in 5 minutes. Let’s waste the entire episode with cringey expository dialogue, and irrelevant sequences. The whole season was a waste anyway.

You know what Supernatural? FUCK YOU FOR THAT. They deserved better. WE deserve better.

And I would love nothing more than to hurl every possible insult your way,

But for the last time, I’m going to HOPE that you’re finally going to try to make it better for the fans that stuck by you all these years.

No more baiting new viewers, no more placating casual viewers, no more excuses. 15 years. Bring it home for the people who have actually been around.

SO HERE’S HOW I THINK 15x20 IS GONNA GO

There’s two ways this series is gonna end. Horribly or Spectacularly.

First let’s all take into consideration what Andrew Dabb says about it:

So, let’s start with

ENDING HORRIBLY

In this scenario, Misha is telling the truth about his last day of filming being 15x18. His “camping trip” during the last few days of filming 15x20, was actually a camping trip. He doesn’t go to Vancouver to shoot.

Jensen wasn’t “being careful” during the zoom interviews that it was just him and Jared quarantining for the shoot, it really was just him and Jared (althought most of these were done pre 15x19) Supernatural isn’t smart enough to do misleading PR, and they’re once again oblivious to the potential of their own story.

Misha hasn’t posted a “Goodbye Castiel” tweet because he’s probably saving it for last episode or he forgot because it was overshadowed by the Destiel trend that night.

So what we get is:

Sam and Dean are on the road again, up against the monster of the week. Only their world no longer has actual Supernatural beings anymore, so the monsters they’re fighting are humans.

Humans end up killing the Winchesters (despite having gone up against literally every powerful being imaginable INCLUDING God himself). Dean and Sam end up in heaven and relive their greatest hits.

Meanwhile, Castiel rots in The Empty because he died after realizing that he was happy and gay. Jack doesn’t bother rescuing him—his surrogate dad, the guy who made this specific deal to spare him—even though it was so easy for him get Cas in and out of The Empty when he had a fraction of the power that he has now.

Dean never speaks of Castiel’s confession because despite all the hints of a profound bond in the earlier seasons, and the fact that Dean has never cared for anyone (who isn’t his actual brother) as immensely as he does Cas, Supernatural just can’t have its main macho character be “suddenly bisexual” because that would hurt the male ego or some shit.

His heaven would probably be living happily ever after with his family. “Family” meaning Mary and John Winchester--two of the shittiest parents ever (but they’re not going to include them in this episode like they were supposed to because of Covid) and Sam.

Sam also gets a dog. As usual.

I wouldn’t put it past Supernatural to do this. After everything they’ve pulled, this would be right up their alley. I actually expect this ending.

Anyway, onto the next possible ending

ENDING SPECTACULARLY

In this scenario, Supernatural tries to stick the landing, and Jensen’s whole “It didn’t sit well with me at first, but then I took a step back after talking to Kripke, and realized that I had to view it from an audience perspective, I am now really excited about it” (DC Con 2019) anecdote about his thoughts on the final episodes, were actually about Dean potentially ending up with Cas. (Which would totally make sense because Jensen at first didn’t see Dean as anything but hetero, but as of late, he has been throwing in Destiel jokes of his own, so he seems to have warmed up to the idea)

Backed with Misha’s tidbit (DLConline 2020) that he and Jensen had conversations about Destiel, and that they wouldn’t have gone through with it if Jensen wasn’t onboard with it, but Jensen didn’t push back at all. (Why would they need to check with Jensen if it was just Cas going all in?)

Robert Berens (writer of 15x18) also wrote the script at the beginning of Season 15, but made Misha privy to the concept a year prior (Season 14), so they went into this season knowing about Destiel going canon.

This one’s a reach, but this scenario also supposes that Misha was lying about his whereabouts during the filming of the final episode, and him saying that 15x18 was his last episode is part of the diversion to avoid taking away from the weight of Castiel’s death.

And that Supernatural is actually self-aware of its own material (similar to how they have wrapped things up in the past—lots of expository dialogue, poor execution, but fulfills the story arc)

Since Season 15 is basically a Meta Season (Chuck/God as a writer, pretentiously calling out how he created the worlds, its characters, and basically invalidating the past 14 seasons), and 15x19 is supposedly the finale for Season 15, written by two of the worst Supernatural writers, Brad Buckner and Eugenie Ross-Leming (Bob Singer’s wife), then we can assume that 15x19 is where the shitty writers kill themselves--as Chuck, of course.

So we get a badly written episode that produces a bad ending, or as Becky put it, “All action, and no Cas”

So we get the bad writers season ending at 15x19.

And 15x20 is where Sam and Dean write their own stories, and where the cast had a hand in pitching ideas for it.

Dabb has mentioned that 15x20 (Act Two) is a SERIES finale, where they try to resolve the characters’ journeys.

Because as everyone has acknowledged, Supernatural isn’t about the story, it’s about the characters.

So here’s what we can get out of it:

With no more Supernatural beings left to fight, Sam and Dean are in a stalemate. They’ve resigned themselves to fighting to the bitter end, but the “end” has passed, and they’re still standing.

So they try to figure out who they are now, and what they want out of the life they still have.

Sam still wants a normal apple pie life. Before Dean dragged him out of college to go hunting with him, he had a whole life planned out for him. Become a lawyer, settle down with a nice girl, and get a dog. He gave all that up because they had work to do, but now the work is finished, he can finally go back to wanting that for himself again.

Dean finally realizes his self-worth after Cas saves him again. His prayer to Cas in purgatory may have helped him come to terms with his anger, but the whole “you’ve done everything you did for love” speech finally put him in his place, and he learns not to hate himself anymore.

But of course, he cannot fully reconcile with himself if he doesn’t get Cas back, and tell him how he feels.

Because Dean actually wants something for himself this time. Something he knows he can finally have if he can just salvage it.

So maybe this time around, with the help of Jack (off-screen), Dean saves Cas. Grips him tight and raises him from perdition.

They bypass The Empty deal by turning Cas human, and he lives the rest of his days with Dean.

Dean and Cas know they deserve to be saved, and they know that they deserve to be happy.

(Wishful thinking, maybe they kiss a little)

Anyway...

I’m just saying, there’s NO WAY that they’d have Cas go through that whole rushed speech, if they weren’t going to do anything about it later on.

But again, after 10 years of disappointment, I wouldn’t put it past Supernatural to pat themselves on the back and say, “Okay, we sort of gave them what they wanted. We’re good now”

If that’s the case, Supernatural, I’m sorry I wasted my time on you.

Here’s to hoping 🤡

[hereliesbeetlejuice]

wait why do you not want a proshot of this show? just wanna know cause you’re the only blog whose beetlejuice opinions i trust

oof ok. i didn’t wanna get into it cause i know it’s gonna be an unpopular opinion but like this is so kind?? so i’ll share for you beloved anon <3

(obligatory these-are-my-personal-feelings-and-opinions-based-on-my-own-experiences-with-the-show-and-not-objective-facts-that-i-expect-everyone-to-agree-with disclaimer !!!)

first off just wanna clarify if we do end up getting a proshot (and i have VERY strong suspicions that we will) i won’t be upset or anything i just really, really wish they had been able to film it before the shutdown like they’d planned, for a lot of reasons.

the show of course is a little different now, not so much in terms of the book or songs just small little updates made here and there in terms of the jokes, performances, etc. and 2019-2020 was this show’s peak in popularity, when it was huge on tiktok and selling at 103% capacity. a lot of us fans stuck around for re-opening but for the general public two whole years had passed by so they kinda moved onto other things (as shown in the difference in ticket sales). so for those that aren’t avid longtime fans to get excited about the pro-shot it would probably have to be the same exact show everyone was excited about in 2019, but it won’t be to them

and that’s not necessarily a bad thing, i think some evolvement is good to keep the show fresh. but the way i see it they could’ve either totally revamped and revitalized it or kept it the exact same and instead they went with this weird noncommittal in-between? where yea it’s different but nothing was really added to it. just enough for old fans to say a few “hey that’s new”s but nothing that made it better for new fans. and imo the show since re-opening has seemed to be very much aimed towards the old fans that stuck around from the Before Times. i feel like they relied too heavily on the show’s pre-pandemic popularity and assumed the exact same audience would be the ones coming back post-pandemic. it’s hard to explain but a lot of the small changes, line deliveries, how jokes play out, it feels like they’re switching it up to keep them new and fresh so it’s fun to hear it differently if you know the show but if it’s your first time it’s maybe not,, the best way? sorta feels like they had it right the first time and then felt like they had to switch it up to keep it from getting repetitive to the returning fans (that probably makes no sense it’s hard to put into words idk)

but ANYWAY there’s also of course the sad fact that a lot of the more casual fans will inevitably be disappointed that it’s not the entire OBC, there’s gonna be a lot of unfair comparisons to the actors that originated the roles because the songs won’t sound exactly like the cast album which is what people are used to, i worry that it won’t be received very well by a lot of people.

all this along with other nitpicky things. i think the new makeup design is literally horrid and it’ll look even worse in HD. alex’s character voice has shifted with all of the voiceover work he’s done since the shutdown. i have my personal casting preferences that don’t perfectly align with the current cast though i don’t mind it it’s just not my favorite cast we’ve ever had and not the one i would’ve preferred to be filmed (but i still love and adore them ALL)

tldr; i don’t think a proshot of the current show would be received as well as it would’ve been if it had been filmed when it was originally supposed to and i worry that a negative reception will impact ticket sales (like the dear evan hansen movie), which we can’t afford. although i love the current show it’s definitely not my favorite version so it’s not how i’d ideally like it to be memorialized, and it’s not the version i’d choose to be a lot of people’s first introduction to the show when imo it used to be better BUT i won’t complain either way, this show will still always be my whole damn heart and soul 💜

[scribblerreviews]

Top 25 Christmas Films (25-16)

25. The Ice Harvest (2005)

Harold Ramis’ off-beat Christmas heist movie is not his best work, but its quirky & dark humour make it worth a watch, even if just for John Cusack and Billy Bob Thornton.

24. Kiss Kiss Bang Bang (2005)

Another in the list of black comedy Christmas crime movies? Maybe 2005 was just an odd year. Shane Black’s directorial debut is sharp, entertaining, and like most of his movies, set during Christmas. It’s an enjoyable neo-noir romp with great performances from both Robert Downey Jr. and Val Kilmer.

23. Black Christmas (1974)

If you’re the type that loves Halloween and wishes that it would just continue, Black Christmas may be up your alley. Pre-dating John Carpenter’s Halloween (1978) and often considered one of the first slash films, this Canadian Christmas ho-ho-horror is smarter than expected. Not a creature was stirring… but a killer was.

22. A Christmas Story (1983)

It’s hard not to escape the cultural influence of this movie. Less a single movie, more a series of vignettes, but it captures relatable moments of childhood, especially as it relates to the holiday season. From snowsuit problems to wishing for presents parents say that they’ll never buy, there’s a universal feeling to this movie. Which is why it’s played year after year.

21. National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation (1989)

The third of National Lampoon’s Vacation films is still a reliable laugh-fest of the Griswold family’s misfortunes. Like A Christmas Story, there’s a relatability to trying to celebrate Christmas, put up lights, and deal with relatives. Between the two, my preference leans towards this one from the memories of watching it. But there’s still a relatable-ness to when Christmas goes wrong, but eventually right.

20. The Polar Express (2004)

Robert Zemeckis’ career has been long and varied. The Back to the Future film trilogy (1985—90) and Who Framed Roger Rabbit (1988) are childhood favourites, while Death Becomes Her (1992) and Forrest Gump (1994) are excellent for older audiences. His 2004 CGI/mo-cap film definitely dips into the Uncanny Valley and shows its age, but the heart of the story is strong. Ebert said the film has a “haunting, magical quality” (I think partially due to Alan Silvestri’s score) but that ineffable quality is part of its Christmas magic.

19. Little Women (2019)

There have been many adaptations of Louisa May Alcott’s classic novel, but Greta Gerwig’s adaptation is perhaps the best. An incredible cast each give their all with a tight script that focuses on family love and the bonds we share. Oh, this is not a Christmas movie? Not only do some of the most pivotal points happen during Christmas, but the themes of struggle, grief, and coming together are resonant during the holidays. This will not be the last movie where Christmas provides something of a thematic through-line.

18. The Snowman (1982)

An animated short (25 min), The Snowman is a touching piece about Christmas and the feeling of magic that comes from the holidays. A boy goes on a magical adventure with a snowman, shown with beautiful storybook illustrations and without dialogue. The only words come from the hauntingly beautiful “Walking in the Air”. This is basically the superior Frosty.

17. Tangerine (2015)

Set in the streets of L.A., Tangerine is the story of two transgender sex workers on Christmas eve having a journey about sisterhood, growth, and dealing with struggles. Similar to Little Women, the spirit of Christmas is in the themes of connection and redemptive acts, even without the snow. Filmed with iPhones, this film is raw but stylistic and engaging with fantastic performances. It’s also one of the few Christmas movies that explicitly features people in the LGBTQA community. It’s an unconventional pick but a worthy addition to your Christmas list.

16. Home Alone (1990)

Sometimes family is a lot to deal with. Sometimes you just wanna be alone. And that’s what Kevin gets on Christmas, a house all to himself. John Hughes’ script has a great mix of sweet and sardonic, mixing Christmas feels with a criminal caper. Chris Columbus’ filmmaking is fine, but Macaulay Culkin’s performance is what elevates this movie into a Christmas classic. There’s laughs, there’s feels, and there’s some good old-fashioned Christmas chaos.

[white-tulips]

Hello. I have a question. I saw a post you made a while ago about queerbaiting in Omori, and I've been driving myself crazy trying to think of any instance of it in the game itself. Maybe I'm blind and I missed it? Or was it something Omocat said that I'm not privy to? Could you explain?

 ah, yes, of course! sorry in advance if this ends up seeming a bit jumbled, I’m not very awake right now aha,, I’m also planning on making a much more fleshed out post about it at some point.

I’ll put this under a read more because this might end up getting a little long (spoilers ahead)

(edit: I just finished typing up this post and,, it’s pretty long)

[disclaimer: this is mostly going to be about Basil and Sunny, but none of the facts/opinions I talk about are me trying to say people have to ship them. or any ship I mention in this post]

[EDIT: 6/14; despite writing this all the way back in february, I started getting so much flack for this post recently and I just wanna say you don’t have to agree with anything I say or give this post any attention if you don’t like it bc the amount of harassment I got for one post I typed up while half asleep is absurd. this post barely had 100 notes at the time and it only has like 150 now and yet people were really acting like it was some huge deal. this is merely my own thoughts, opinion, and analysis of something I’m personally passionate about and I don’t care if you don’t care. don’t read or comment on my post then if you’re not going to be civil about it. if you weren’t baited by OMORI, that’s great! I’m glad you didn’t have such a negative experience like me and other people I know! this is just my own experience that I wanted to analyze and put into words so other people could relate to, or at least see where I’m coming from]

I think before talking about the game itself, it’s important to look at things from a pre-release perspective, and consider promotional stuff along with OMOCAT’s general content over the years.

along the time of production, Basil has always been presented as a plot-important character, especially in regards to his relationship with Sunny.

(2013)

(2014)

(2016)

and the 2020 release trailer was really highlighting it too-

anyone that watches the trailer would know that these two characters are connected somehow. obviously that doesn’t necessarily mean romantically, and there’s a lot more depth to it than that, but I think the framing of everything is still really important. (the thumbnail is two boys holding hands!!)

now I’ll be fair, I can’t deny that a lot of promotional art is also of Omori and Aubrey, but much more explicitly with romantic undertones.

(2014)

I have a lot of thoughts about this though, my main one being that I never thought much of it, or thought it meant anything. of course, it’s an opinion, but I’ll explain why I feel that way.

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with presenting child Aubrey as being attached to, and even having a small crush on, Omori. it’s fine, and it can be cute, but in promotional art, and even the game itself, it always came across to me as being one-sided, and just a bit superficial. I’ll try to go more in depth on that later.

[EDIT: 6/3; looking back I didn’t mention some things I wanted to (I didn’t edit this post very well) anyways. there actually is a fair bit of older OMORI promo art/concept art of SunnyAubrey which is fine! they’re OMOCAT’s characters and she can ship her ocs as she pleases, but what grinds my gears about it is that when you look at all of these old concepts that show that these two were probably going to be a Thing, it makes it 100% worse that at the last minute all of the promotional framing was about Sunny and Basil. only for everything in the game to become about SunnyAubrey in the end out of nowhere. hmmm smells like queerbait, OMOCAT!]

still on the topic of Aubrey though, yes there was a lot of art of her with Omori. but then there’s also these-

(2014)

(2019)

OMOCAT, how do you expect me to look at these and not think this is supposed to be gay.

and actually, I’ll throw this in here too in case I can’t find a place for it later-

(2012)

I would love an explanation. 

[EDIT: 6/14; I keep coming back to edit this post for some reason. anyways my point here is that if OMOCAT wants to draw ship art of her own characters that’s all fine and dandy, but why draw gay art of your characters and then not have any explicit gay rep in your game?? why set the expectation of “oh so some of these characters might be gay” and then not have anyone be gay I just don’t get it]

I think anyone that’s followed OMOCAT for a while knows that she isn’t a stranger to making queer content. I don’t feel like looking for every tiny example bc it’s mostly irrelevant, but what is relevant is the general knowledge that OMOCAT makes gay things, sometimes. hell, one of her most well known characters is Pretty Boy-

(2013)

(it’s pretty easy to find Pretty Boy content so I won’t link it all)

[EDIT: 8/9-8/13; with Pretty Boy I think it’s also worth noting that at the time it got popular, OMOCAT was profiting off of their fujoshi/fudanshi merch, and generally had cultivated an audience that was made up of a lot of fujoshi. something that’s interesting to me is how in this interview, OMOCAT states they don’t read BL manga because they find smut “distracting” (presumably from the plot). the interesting thing about that to me is that OMOCAT has said that one of their inspirations for OMORI was Oyasumi Pun Pun, which from the 60 odd chapters I’ve read, is a plot heavily revolving around sex and sexual discovery. idk, I can’t help but feel like the thought process here is “media about sex is okay, but nono not if it’s about gay people” or that media about gay people is inherently sexual. and treating gay people like they’re dirty and only focused on sex is homophobic rhetoric that’s been around for fucking ever... when I read this interview it sounds like someone saying “I’m going to make a gay story that’s Better because it’s going to be Pure and Romantic, because No One has Ever done That before.” it’s just weird to me. and, idk, when I think about how OMOCAT’s content tended to cater to fujoshi it’s just. kind of strange]

so to round out what I’m saying so far, we have OMOCAT, a creator who sometimes makes queer content, making a video game where the plot seemingly revolves around two boys and their relationship with each other, and also drawing some wishy-washy gay art of the characters in the game. not to mention it being an EarthBound inspired game (EarthBound having an explicitly gay character, and other EarthBound inspired games also being very LGBT positive, and generally attracting large gay audiences). maybe it was just me, but all of this together already gave me expectations that OMORI was in some way, going to be at least a little gay.

and throughout most of the game, I was actually pleasantly surprised because it felt like it was. the entire game’s plot revolved on their importance to each other, to the point that it even describes it’s own narrative as a string of fate-

and the game spent so long hammering in how close they were, and how important they are to each other, to a degree that wasn’t done with any other character.

I don’t even have screenshots of everything I could add, but, my second point here is that going through this game where the most important relationship is between two male characters, while also keeping in mind my point from before, it feels safe to say that thinking it was going to end at least ambiguously gay, or not having any confirmed relationships at all, isn’t much of a stretch.

however, there was so. so much gay-coding with Basil. I don’t think my words can explain how apparent his crush is better than the game itself so-

this doesn’t even come close to the amount of stuff I could put in, which really goes to show how much this game was pushing Basil’s feelings. his entire character can be summed up with “I’m gay and willing to risk it all” which. he quite literally did do everything because he cared about Sunny so much. ofc it’s normal to care about your friends, but can anyone say that a straight person with platonic feelings would do/say half the things Basil does.

[EDIT: 6/3; to add to Basil’s gay-coding, he’s also a very quaint, effeminate boy who has a lot of non-masculine hobbies. obviously not every gay man is like that, and there are plenty of non-masculine men in real life who aren’t gay, but please think about how gay men are usually presented in media to begin with. Also literally exactly how OMOCAT made Pretty Boy. there’s a pattern there. it’s also a kind of painful coincidence that both Pretty Boy and Basil are bully victims. OMOCAT are you trying to say something here]

[EDIT: 6/9; coming back to this specifically because I’ve gotten a couple comments on it and people seem to not know how to read properly and I guess I have to spell everything out. there are existing gay stereotypes in media. OMOCAT uses these tropes with her gay/gay-coded characters. I see this, and I immediately assume Basil is also going to be a canonically gay character. I’ve said before in other posts that I wouldn’t have an issue if things were left ambiguous, however, there Are existing romantic subplots in this game, and all of them are heterosexual. that’s what upsets me, and you don’t have to share my feelings]

another point I want to add here, going back to EarthBound for a second, is something a friend of mine brought up to me when we were talking about queerbaiting a while ago. she was telling me about the gay character in EarthBound (Tony), and how Basil reminded her of him. she then did some deep diving and found-

(2011)

so then our gut reaction was “okay so Basil is based off of this canonically gay character, right? right?” not to mention, the other character in this drawing looking very suspiciously like Omori. (the Omori Boy blog was originally created in 2011)

... but that is just a theory.

in any case, Basil is a clearly gay-coded character. and I wouldn’t have a problem at all with him and Sunny not getting together in the end, because that’s fine. if the game was left ambiguous with no one getting together I wouldn’t mind all that much because all of that gay-coding would still be there. but, I wouldn’t call this game queerbait if that’s all that it was, because unfortunately there came a point where there was a switch.

I really did not like this.

I said before, I didn’t mind if child Aubrey had a little crush on Omori/Sunny. I also said I never even got that big of an impression in the game itself that she did, let alone that Sunny had any kind of feelings for her. at the very least it felt more one-sided.

getting through this entire game, where we have a string of fate narrative between two boys where at least one of them is heavily gay-coded, only to be met at the very end by the gay-coded character asking his crush if he has a crush on their female friend, all coming out of seemingly nowhere, felt like the biggest punch in the gut.

[EDIT: 8/13; many people say things like “oh, you’re not supposed to take that line seriously! they’re kids!” and like. yeah, I can see if that’s the case, that we’re not supposed to think too hard about that kind of one-off line. but. that’s not... accurate to how most people tend to think. if you present a line like “you have a crush on her” then people are gonna take that and run with it. and they do. people use this kind of line to hold it over people’s heads whenever anyone tries to argue about the possibility of character’s being lgbt. whatever way it was intended to be read, it’s just straight up bigot fodder]

and then we’re supposed to continue and finish the game as if this was how it always was.

... where was this, exactly?

of course we know Sunny and Aubrey were close as kids, all of them were close with each other, but throwing this in when we haven’t seen that level of closeness at all between them in the entire game felt so superficial to me. I love Aubrey, and she and Sunny have a very good friendship, but this all felt like a huge disrespect to her, as well as gay people playing this game.

we’re meant to suddenly act as if this was her and Sunny’s relationship all along but......... this was him and Basil. since the beginning of the game, and for the entire way through, that was what their relationship was shown to be as.

I was just so shocked. Aubrey and Kel had more chemistry throughout the game than whatever this last minute pull was. this isn’t me trying to start shit with ships, I’m just looking at the game’s writing itself.

despite their bickering, Kel and Aubrey were shown to be extremely close friends, and then OMOCAT wants me to believe that her and Sunny were always the closest out of nowhere. okay, sure.

anyways, after I finished OMORI, it hit me that there are no explicitly gay characters, despite everything I talked about before. sure, Pretty Boy makes a cameo appearance, but it doesn’t really count for anything. and yes, Space Boyfriend is canonically trans, but he wasn’t even created by OMOCAT, and you could play the entire game without even knowing he’s trans, so it doesn’t really seem like it counts as good representation either (I am cis, so take that opinion with a grain of salt.)

[EDIT: 6/14; this is a bit of a tangent unrelated to queerbaiting, but I wanted to address it here. I got a lot of harassment for what I said about Space Boyfriend and I didn’t respond to any of it bc I didn’t want to argue with a bunch of teens on the internet but I’ll just say what I want to here. I’m not saying Space Boyfriend as a standalone character is bad rep, I think it’s great he’s canonically trans. what I mean here is that OMOCAT chose not to have any explicit LGBT rep in her game, including not representing an actual trans character that originally belonged to someone else. I never gave any opinion on how trans rep could have been done differently bc why would that be my place. I wouldn’t even have said it seems like poor rep in the first place if Jami Lynne didn’t say it was sad herself. but if even that is too out of turn an opinion to have as a cis person, then I’ll recognize that]

an entire EarthBound inspired RPG game, made by a creator known for her LGBT comic characters, that had a string of fate narrative between two boys, and in the end didn’t have a single explicitly gay character. it feels quite bad, frankly. 

and that why the queerbaiting makes me so upset. because even though Basil is so gay-coded, because of him asking Sunny if he has a crush on Aubrey, all of his feelings can be completely overlooked. this is why people can say “Basil isn’t gay” and it can’t be disproven with canon evidence. a game doesn’t need to have a character say “I’m gay” or “I love you” for them to be canonically queer, but. OMOCAT decided to use that line to write off any possibility of ambiguity.

and then. post-release art of them.

(2020)

(2021)

....that last drawing reminding me of-

(but maybe that’s a stretch?)

doing all of that after releasing your game... thanks for pretty much nothing, OMOCAT.

[EDIT: 6/9; about that last one in particular, I guess people don’t know kawoshin anymore which is wild so I really have to keep spelling things out for people. they’re a really influential gay pairing and have been at the forefront of “are they canonically gay?” debates for decades, but are generally accepted as being queer-coded. referencing them is like a flat out saying of “this is gay, but we’re not going to actually say it.” so for OMOCAT to de-canonize all of Basil’s implied feelings at the end of the game, only to draw sunnflower as kawoshin a few weeks after the game’s release, is the biiiiiiggest slap in the face]

anyways... I think that about covers most of my thoughts. this ended up being longer than I thought it would be ahhh,,, thank you for reading if you made it through this. I hope my thoughts make sense, and that you see where I’m coming from a bit more clearly now!

EDIT: a couple more thoughts here!

[EDIT: 3/3/22; might be a bit late to add things to this post again but w/e. here are some more thoughts here and here]

[EDIT: 6/3; also gonna slap this post here at the end because I hate OMOCAT and this is the cherry on top to all of the shit I just talked about. OMOCAT queen of heteronormativity]

[EDIT: 3/3/22; wow, how could I forget the ACTUAL cherry on top to this entire post:

every time I remember they said this I want to tear my hair out lol. it doesn’t make me feel any better to see LGBT teens on twitter finding this every few months and being like “omg gay people in OMORI is real” like. no. noooo nono. it makes me upset cuz OM*CAT knows exactly who their audience is lol. honestly more food for thought, bc I mentioned post-release art being a lot of Sunny/Basil, and it just. keeps happening. so much post release art is Sunny/Basil adjacent, even though the game pushed so hard for Sunny/Aubrey?? maybe there isn’t a real answer, but I don’t trust OM*CAT one bit. anyways thank you for reading all my tin foil hat ramblings]

[aftgficrec]

Omg the ask box is open ahh.

I’ve been rereading kings men and you know how in the book Alison keeps going ooo look at that hey when Andrew and Neil do anything cause she’s betting on them to be together- is there like any fics which kinda focus on this like the foxes betting on them to me together and then like them investigating leading up to Baltimore when they find out.

I hope this makes sense lol

Hmmm. This is tricky, anon. The first fic below is the closest. - A

4 Times the Foxes Didn’t Believe That Andrew and Neil Were Together and One Time They Had to. by back2beesness [Not Rated (we say T), 3482 Words, Complete, 2020]

A look at Neil and Andrew's relationship from the perspective of the Foxes, pre and post Baltimore. The Foxes don't find out about them after the Baltimore incident, so the bet stretches on longer, and Allison grows more and more desperate. Also, someone help poor Aaron, he can't unsee this.

tw: alcohol, tw: implied/referenced abuse, tw: violence, tw: nightmares, tw: involuntary outing

i wanna see you (be brave) by arkastadt, orphan_account [Rated T, 8632 words, Complete 2019]

“That’s just ridiculous,” Allison says, shaking her head. “Tell me they’re not getting it on.”

“No idea, but I’m gonna take a picture.” Dan lifts the camera that’s been hanging around her neck for the last hour or so and actually snaps a picture of the two of them like that. “Maybe if we hang it up, they’ll notice how it looks like from the outside.”

„Fellas,“ Allison says, voice dropping a few octaves lower, “is it gay if I stare deep into my homie's eyes for three minutes?”

— or, neil and andrew's evolution over the books but through matt's eyes

tw: implied/referenced torture

I felt your pain when you were gone by Itshellfo [Rated G (we say T) 3533 Words, Complete, 2017)

Another Soulmate AU where Neil and Andrew can feel each other's pain and how the Foxes find out.

Or: my take on the Baltimore incident because I can't seem to get enough of it.

tw: violence, tw: blood, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: involuntary outing

[dangerliesbeforeyou]

ok so since it’s apparently international nb day, i thought i’d make a lil post talking about how discovering my own nb identity has changed my life for the better over the past 2 odd years!

the thing is, i’ve always felt like my relationship to my gender never quite fitted into the norm... like, i never had a problem with being a girl or woman, per say, but the things that were expected of afab people from a young age did always rub me the wrong way, but i kinda just chalked that down to ‘patriarchal shit sucks’ rather than anything about me personally... (and don’t get me wrong, a lot of my issues w/ expectations on any gender does boil down to the patriarchy, but there was definitely something more personal going on too...)

but then, like a lot of people, 2 years ago the you-know-what happened and we were all in lockdown, and i began to contemplate my gender in a way that i hadn’t really considered before... i noted how i had tried for so long to ‘fit in’ to pre-conceived ideas of womanhood (i wore makeup, i had long hair, etc) , only to end up feeling empty and wrong when i never could quite be ‘girl’ enough... 

i also noticed how my relationship with things that were unnecessarily gendered made me not just frustrated (which i imagine a good portion of people feel when they see the kinda ‘blue is for boys/pink is for girls’ mentality) but genuinely and deeply angry! angry at these arbitrary boxes society tries to put us in when all we wanna fucking do is live lol...

and it’s not like i’d never heard of non-binary genders before this point, but much like before i knew i was bi, i always saw it as something other from me... 

other people were trans and nb and genderfluid and agender etcetc, but not me... i felt like by admitting it i would be invalidating my attraction to women (something i had already struggled with coming to terms with as it was), or that i’d be betraying women in some way (which i know is completely ridiculous lol...), so i just kept up the ‘girl’ façade, until i couldn’t do it any longer...

see, i cut my hair short for the first time in my life in 2019, and although i ofc don’t think short hair = unfeminine, there was something in that when i cut it for the first time i just felt so completely myself that i hadn’t felt for... maybe ever lol?? and there was something in me doing it myself (which i still do cos ain’t nobody got time or money to be going to the hairdressers every few weeks lol) that felt so freeing!! and even though at that point i hadn’t really started to question my gender fully, i think it was definitely the turning point where i realised that my body was my own to shape into what made me feel the most comfortable...

now i won’t bore u with all my other gender discovery moments, but just know that once i began to strip away the expectations of my assigned gender, i began to feel so much more at home in my body...

and like yeh, i still have days where i struggle with how i feel about my gender, i still have that shame and guilt that i know so many other queer people feel all the time... but i am proud of being nb and for finally being able to just be me, without those expectations and preconceived ideas!

and i have to say that i wouldn’t feel like this if it weren’t for the amazing fellow nb people on here who helped me over the past couple years as i was struggling with my gender identity so shout out to you guys <3