#i wanted to post again today🧍🏽‍♂️

[fizzytoo]

he's got the dad squint down pat

[mysticwiki]

i know, I KNOW the push to not think of oneself as a burden is something i should keep reminding myself, and i know that the people who love me choose to do so and want me in their lives. but why is it so hard to unlearn any and all negative feelings i have about myself, and how i'm still here at 26 years old and feeling like i'm like 16 again and thinking how everything is too much all the time and nobody actually loves me?🧍🏽‍♂️

i wrote this last night in the cusp of a breakdown and i'm still feeling the effects of it today. i didn't want to post how i was feeling on the off chance of feeling like i'm being stupid or attention grabby, but i think it's safe to say that i don't think many of the feelings i had as a teenager are actually gone, if anything they've evolved into different cases in adulthood but nevertheless still things that, when built up over time since i tend to internalize all of my feelings, ultimately break me in one full sweep.

i am Okay, or at least i think i am, but just very tired and not sure how to cope with mine own feelings at the moment smh