#i was watching the &team reaction vid for their mv

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maki is so cute what if he becomes my bias

[ateez-amanda]

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a/n: inspired by the wonderful @skzfairies

lyrics

about

the song/vid was posted april 7th 2020 aka her birthday

this song holds a special place in amanda’s heart for many different reasons

it's the first song she every compose/produce fully on her own

it’s the first time she really spoke out to the public about her inner struggles with her mental health

it was also the first time she ever rap & ofc she KILLED IT

upon listening to the song, the melody is upbeat, fun and catchy but if you listen to the lyrics you notice it has a much deeper hidden meaning to it

similar to how she used masked her sadness with a smile

the lyrics express the feeling of putting so much effort into something but inevitably nothing ends up being achieved, making frustration buildup inside us and becoming overall exhausted. so you just want to run away and escape from it all

she wrote these lyrics thinking about all the time she had put into what others thought of her, tirelessly trying to be perfect for others even though it was always useless and how she just wanted to disappear from the criticizing world

promo

she gave a little hint about the song during her birthday vlive where she revealed to the public about her previous hiatus to take care of her mental health (a/n: i’m thinking about making a scenario of this, let me know if you want it)

she said “thank you guys for all the birthday wishes and presents. i have a little present for our atinys too. you will know about it soon. i hope you like it.”

at that point atinys were freaking out

like MA'AM YOU CAN"T JUST DROP A BOMB LIKE THAT OUT OF THE BLUE AND GO SILENT

this girl loves watching the chaos she causes

anyways the song was also teased later that day when kq released her 1day vlog where she was secretly recording the song and mention how none of the members knew of it yet

kq released the song and mv a few hours before the end of her birthday, much to her surprise, as she was told it wouldn't be released for another week

the reason kq released it was to remind her that they were grateful for her being born

gotta love kq’s love for their idols

and the promo team really be killing it

she trended on twitter for like 3 days in a row

MV

the video is an animation of a baby elephant (which many atinys often use as amanda's representative icon), who is feeling left out of it's herd, gets distracted by a butterfly and follows it away from its herd on this adventure

as the baby elephants goes on this adventure, it's see different places and meets different unique creatures (8 specifically ;))

she actually made the art design of all the characters

like is there anything this girl can't do

by the end of the video the elephant begins to feel a sense of belonging and confidence

amanda also included a note for atinys in the description:

“Hi ATINYS! It's Amanda! Here is my surprise present I promise you guys! This song is very special to me as I wrote it when I was going through a difficult time in my life where I was probably at my most vulnerable point. Which is why I had been hesitant to release it for a long time. But I wanted give this to ATINYS because I believe that everyone can relate to experiencing hard times and you just want a break. My members and of course our lovely ATINYS have always been able to comfort me and help alleviate my hardship. So I hope that when you listen to this song you get a sense of relief and escape from your own adversities. I love you guys so much!"

boys reactions

so once the song was finalize for lovely perfectionist amanda, she went to hongjoong first to get his reaction

she wanted to see hist reaction first bc he has been the one teaching her how to produce and wanted to hear his thoughts

the girl was so nervous that she couldn't be in the same room as him so she stood behind the close door of the studio room

when she came back in, the boy was balling his eyes out

the two ended up crying together, eating fried chicken and had some deep conversation that night

now when she played it for the others members together, it took some of them yeosang/wooyoung/san/mingi a minute to actually hear the lyrics

they were so caught up in the cheerful melody that the lyrics went over their head

but once they focused on the lyrics, all of them cried

all of them

period

but then they heard her rap and freaked out again

while still teared up

by the end of it they were all engulfing her in hugs and they just wouldn't let her go

once the mv came out these boys got into a heat discussion in the dorm about which creature in the vid represented them

amanda kept deny it wasn't any of them even though we all know that ain't true

but she never revealed and left it up to their imaginations much to the boys dismay

bonus: amanda later got a small tattoo above her right ankle of the baby elephant and butterfly in the thumbnail pic

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