#i went to bed at 4:55 tho

[blueookashi]

Rayman that Rayman this

WHAT ABOUT MY BOY!?!?!?!!

tw lots of blood but heres a clip of him in the show - (26) Captain Laserhawk: A Blood Dragon Remix | Bullfrog Assassin | Official Clip| Netflix - YouTube Bullfrog makes so many good expressions but I don't think anyone has posted them yet and I cannot take screenshots cause of Netflix's black screen thing so hopefully someone gets them for me LKJ;AS

I do have to say thank you to Rayman for reasons I shall not say (spoilers for the show yea) so I will have to watch his game on my phone (also holy shit Rayman in this show is so good my god)

BUT HIM HIM HIM HIM IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO MY ASSASSIN BOY (BULLFROG) I WILL CRY AND HOLY SHIT THIS SHOW IS SO GOOD IT ENDS ON SUCH A CLIFFHANGER THAT DESTROYED MY MIND, I have NOT had a show grab me like that especially in the end for a LOOOONG TIME and I HOPE I HOPE HOPE HOPE THIS GETS ANOTHER SEASON I'm not kidding you I actually got out of bed and was like "NO, NO WAY THATS NOT IT NOO, WHY, NO THERE HAS TO BE MORE!!" and I haven't had a show get that reaction from me its so good

For anyone who is seeing/hearing about this show for the first time please be aware- there is much blood and gore (lots of limbs get cut off) and there is? Some sexual content? you hear but don't see it, but there is nudity- thats mostly episode 2 and its the only episode that has sexual content, afterwards there is really none of it! timestamps for episode 2 on that stuff (sexual content/nudity) 00:48- literally right at the end of "The Ray of Hope" ad they play in the beginning, ends at 1:25 3:14 - directly after the shows intro there are some shots of nudity, happens really fast tho, ends at 3:18 11:55 - After Laserhawk jumps through the hatch/window! Ends at 12:54! AND IN EPISODE 3 20:00 - Nudity during the Rayman news report on a broken tv! And its the last scene of episode 3 so you can just pause and go to episode 4 and that should be it! Including timestamps AND a visual cue for ya! That really should be it, didn't notice or see any more of it afterwards as for the blood and gore, that is the entire series, it happens way too often that I would just tag the entire show with it LKAJS;G (sorry felt like I should include this just in case anyone sees my post about the LIL FROG GUY!! MY BELOVED!! and wants to see the show! :D)

BUT PLEASE GOD LET MY FROG BOY BE SAFE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE'S ALL I CARE ABOUT I will absolutely cry if he dies he is my favorite character Literally when he appeared/is introduced I went "is that a fucking frog!?!?" (/pos) and I STARTED LAUGHING CAUSE THE OTHER CHARACTERS WERE LIKE "THATS A FUCKING FROG." ITS SO GOOD ITS SO GOOD

[notthewriteryourelookingfor]

I am at my fucking limit so buckle up:

Because I have adhd and anxiety and depression, I need to take melatonin to get to sleep at a reasonable time otherwise I'll be lying in bed for literal hours until I can fall asleep, doubly so if I take my adhd meds that day.

So I live in Australia and if you live in Australia you can't buy melatonin over the counter if you're under 55 (idk why I'm too tired to look up why) and I'm 29 so fuck me I'd need to get a prescription and then a months supply is like $30.

So I've been ordering melatonin from this place in the US which is about 5 months supply for about the same price maybe a lil extra for shipping like $50 for 150 tablets.

So when I realised I was getting low on them I went to the sight and ordered again.

Easy-peasy right?

Well it turned out that I had enough to get me to the last day of their delivery window (about the 27th of Feb) and I was like " ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ they're usually pretty quick with delivery so I should be ok" but then the 27th rolled around and no delivery.

So I checked the tracking and it hadn't been scanned since the 17th. It was in my country, in my state, but hadn't moved in 10 days.

So I looked and the company was using a new 3rd party delivery company and they Sucked. It was a continuous problem that they just didn't deliver packages, lost them, took months and months and months to deliver something to next door the facility.

So I got in contact with the American company and they're gonna send me a refund (more on that in a sec) and til then i was like "dear God ill have to order from Amazon 🤮) so I did.

Shipping cost more than the product but the delivery time was about a week and I'd found 2 of my old diazepam that I could take if I really needed to.

To note: I usually only take my meds for work, I can generally get by without them when I'm not working but now not taking them for work makes me feel like I am not being as useful/productive/etc as I could be and as a supervisor who is often the one in charge I need to be on the ball.

Amazon package was meant to come today.

I did get an Amazon package today but was it my desperately needed melatonin? No it was a fucking Christian self-help book:

Like does this look like medication to you?!?!?!

I get that mistakes happen but this is the 2nd issue I've had with this 1 thing.

Also as a queer satanist/witch it feels a lil insulting even tho it wasn't probably wasnt intentional at all and some Christian who wanted a self help book has been sent sleep medication like oops.

But that is not the end of the saga.

Luckily Amazon is on the ball about refunds and I was able to reorder the item (& a 2nd brand so we'll see who comes first) and paid extra for fast shipping. Even then it will take another week for it to arrive.

I have my supervisor shift on the weekend, I cannot be unmedicated for it but I will be running on 2 hours of sleep if I'm lucky.

If I didn't take the adhd meds I'd be on maybe 4 hours sleep so it's not much difference tbh.

But on top of all that: the refund from the 1st company (that I will never be going back to after this) was pending in my bank account. It had the amount ($95 cuz I ordered 3 bottles of 2 different strengths plus shipping) with a "this is pending" label.

It has now vanished from my account.

It is no longer pending but I also do not have the money.

I am giving them the 10 business days they said it'll take and if it's not in my account I am raining hell.

I work retail minimum wage, I live paycheque to paycheque, I cannot be out $95 with nothing to show for it.

10 business days is the 15th

My new order is meant to arrive on the 14th

We'll see what I get first, a refund from the person I ordered from in January or the replacement items I ordered Wednesday last week.

(Also the express shipping isn't much faster I just need it literally as soon as possible I am so tired)

[bonesandthebees]

Gmmm bee!! I hope ur feeling more rested than i am 💪

Going to bed at 1 am was a mistake, idk how people do 5 hrs regularly 😭 i get 7 hrs and I struggle

Tho i have found that i function better on 6 hrs than 7 which is odd, but alas i will drink some black tea and hopefully the caffiene helps lmao

(Can't have straight coffee tho, im highly sensitive to it. Get headaches and the caffiene triggers my anxiety dhfjf so i have to be careful about the amount i drink)

I went to sleep around 1:30ish and I woke up naturally at 6:55 I hate my body. I literally wake up so early these days and it's not on purpose I don't have an alarm my body is just like "yeah 5 hours is enough" even when I'm like "IT'S REALLY NOT"

I function fine on 6 hours usually, but 7-8 can make me really groggy. 5 hours is usually just a bit shy of enough so I am sleepy on those days too but not terribly. 4 hours or less is hell

black tea is good!! I drink coffee every morning. I'm not that sensitive to it but I get a headache if I don't have at least one cup a day soooo here we are. weirdly enough I actually have more of a caffeine reaction to green tea?? I don't know why but I get the shakes if I drink a lot of green tea. still drink it sometimes though bc it's really good. black tea doesn't really do anything for me but it tastes nice

[therev28]

20 Fanfic Questions

Tagged by @bioticbooty (indirectly). Thank you!

Tagging @infiwrites, @ryqoshay and anyone else who feels so inclined!

How many works do you have on AO3?

99! Definitely hitting 100 by the end of the year ^_^

2. What's your total AO3 words count?

496,196

I'm 100% hitting half a mill by the end of the year, which is nuts to think about

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Lately it's been a lot of Project Sekai, but I still write some Love Live fic and the occasional one-off when a new fandom really grabs me.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Love Live! Nijigasaki Shipping Anthology - Exactly what it says on the tin. It's an anthology fic containing a single ~1000 word chapter for every possible Nijigasaki ship. I'm currently at 49/55 done!

Personal Choices - A Lycoris Recoil ChisaTaki fic. In fact, it was the third fic in the tag, written after episode 3 of the anime. The show went on to be fairly popular, and because I got in the tag early, it did some really good numbers.

Mutual Fantasies - Another LycoReco ChisaTaki fic, and this was the first smut fic in the tag, lol. Similar to above, it's done numbers by dint of being there first. (I do think it's pretty good, but certainly not my best work.)

A Sellout Night - A Bocchi the Rock NijiBocchi fic. Another case of a fandom being much bigger than my normal ones and thus giving bigger stats than typical. Tho I wrote for a slightly smaller ship, which makes me happier that it did well. I'm also pretty proud of it.

Leo/need Shipping Week - 2022 - Again, exactly what it says on the tin, lol. Because there are 4 members of Leo/need, there are six possible ships. Add a free day (aka, poly ship), and you've got a whole week! This was my first real time writing Project Sekai fic, and Leo/need wasn't nearly as popular back then. (They're still not the most popular, but the whole fandom is bigger.) Very proud of how this one turned out!

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Absolutely! I love replying to comments. It just feels like the right thing to do? Like, someone took the time to leave a comment and tell me how my story made them feel! The least I could do is reply and let them know I saw it and that it was appreciated. And depending on the type of comment, I can sometimes talk about themes/motifs/motivations/etc. that I might not really get to talk about much otherwise.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Honestly, not many of my fics end ansty? I'm very much a proponent of angst with a happy ending. I don't mind making my characters sad, but I want them to eventually be ok.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Considering I live for fluff, happy endings are like 99% of my catalogue, lmao. But it's probably the 42k slow burn, Passion's Growth. The main leads spend years coming to understand the depths of their feelings for each other, and it was pretty satisfying to write them finally getting together.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Haven't yet, no. I've gotten some weird comments, but no hate.

9. Do you write smut. If so what kind?

I do, yeah. I'm incapable of writing "quick" smut. Almost all of mine has at least a few thousand words of build up. I tend to write couples (or polycules on occasion) experiencing something new in bed. Whether it's literally their first time together or they're deciding to try something new, I just like exploring how that might play out.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Not really, no. I wrote a short Love Live/Project Sekai fic, but that's about it.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Don't believe so.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I have! One in Spanish for sure (it's a related work on AO3), and I think two in Russian on a different site? (They asked for permission, I just never saw the end result.)

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

Once, with some friends over a decade ago (on ffnet (hi @bioticbooty, lol)). Honestly, it didn't get very far off the ground before we all kind of dropped it. It was really hard to juggle between the four of us, and while I did enjoy it at the end of the day, I don't think I'll ever do it again. Not really for me.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

God, this one's hard, lmao. Recency bias would have me say Setsuna/Ayumu from Love Live, but I think if I'm being truly honest with myself, I think it'd have to be Shepard/Garrus from Mass Effect.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

I guess I could say my old ME self-insert, but honestly, I don't even want to finish it anymore. That fic is well and truly dead. Besides that, I make it a point not to start a fic unless I feel confident I can finish it.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue and inner monologue.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Descriptive prose. I've been trying to get better at it, but it's a slow process.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Eh, no real thoughts. If it makes sense to do, do it. Otherwise I don't see much of a point.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Mass Effect.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

You're gonna make me pick just one???

I think I'll pick When Everything Changes. This was the first long fic I wrote after almost 10 years of not writing much at all. After a series of oneshots, writing (and finishing) this fic made me really feel like I was back. Not to mention that it has some of my favorite hurt/comfort, smut, and angst, all in a single chapter! And in that order, too! I often joke that it's my masterpiece, but taken in the traditional sense of "a work that proves one has the skills to become a master," it kind of fits.

[whatdoesshedotothem]

Thursday 18 October 1832

6 40

11 ½

rain in the night and lately – finish but dampish morning F59° at 7 ½ - out at 7 35 - along the walk - at Lidgate to breakfast at 8 10 - sat cozing as usual till Miss W-‘s dinner at 2 - Hepworth the joiner came before we had done breakfast about the frame-work for the green house to be made - Washington’s estimate 11.16.0 - 60ft glazing at ¼ = £4 masons’ work 10/. wood 40/. the rest for joiners’ work - allowing the same for masonry and glazing tho’ the panes were to be bigger (3 in a row of 14 by 10 in. + instead of 4 in. a row of 14 by 7 ½+) and bargaining to have 2 coats of paint on, got Hepworth’s estimate at 9.15.0 he charging only 20/. for the wood and engaging to his job for the sum estimated - it must seem to them all as if I had the ordering of the thing and as if my influence was paramount    she said she should like the greenhouse as it was the first thing we had a common interest in    talked of Shibden and Cliff hill and exactly as if all was settled     she was now convinced I loved her thought at first liked but not loved  and mere liking was not enough something more required for living together     she owned she loved me     I made strong love and really felt it she said she should not mind her cousin coming on while we were away   should not mind being ill if I was with her     I had right middle finger moderately and gently she making no resistance  but say[ing] how kind and gentle I was with her   she lay on my arm on the sofa as usual     no objection to my going tomorrow  in fact surely she has no thought but of taking me  at the wearing at 2 20 - had Pearson and George Robinson - gave orders about more wearing near the dam-stones at Mytholm and along GR-’s garden and had Dogson about some soughing he wants doing - then from about 2 ¾ to 6 with John planting out roses, Spanish chesnuts,  junipers, yews, violets, etc in the walk - home at 6 ¼ - almost ¾ hour talking to Marian - Dinner at 7 in ¾ hour - then came to my room and wrote all the above of today - from 8 ¼ to 9 ½ wrote 3 pages and ends and under the seal to M- to go tomorrow - went downstairs - read tonight’s courier - sat up talking to my aunt - of Miss W- told of her present to her cousin Atkinson and that it would have been double that is a thousand but for me – very fine day – F57 ½° at 10 55 at which hour came up to bed – Dick bearing grass off edge of west slope of walk this morning and jobbing at James Smiths’ for me in the afternoon

[lonelygamedev]

Ludum Dare 53 Devlog

So I decided to do the recent Ludum dare that was coming up sense i’ve haven’t done one in awhile. I practice a bit of coding before hand and while doing that I was trying to think of a solution to a typical problem I have in game jams where I get easily distracted by youtube or something, so I thought turning the internet off would help before hand I wrote out a few style’s and do and do not’s 1: No 3D unless if it involves simple models and textures 2: Have game finished on Saturday 3: Sunday be polish And Menus + sound and some graphics 4: Almost No writing 5: Little Music 6: NO COMPLICATED MENUS! UI CODE IS THE WORK OF THE DEVIL! 7: NO RPG'S I also had a few ideas of style’s I could do or gameplay types that I might be able to fit the theme into Idea 1: Temple OS style FPS Idea 2: City Builder Idea 3: NES Zelda Idea(Warning Too Big! most likely) The Jam eventually started at friday on 7 PM with the theme being Delivery The First Idea was A NES zelda where you deliver packages and I immediately had a bad feeling about it sense it’s like many of my other game jams “Oh I have this fantastic open world game idea!“ 7 days later: “oh shit I have 3 hours left and it’s nothing that I wanted!“ But in the end I couldn’t come up with a Idea and I wanted to get started so I went with the Zelda idea where you deliver packages to people I should also mention I will occasionally be using the internet but only for a hard problem and to have a change in Music considering I don’t have much on my computer

Chapter 1: Friday So the first thing I did was made a Sprite sheet for getting some basic graphics by 9:45 PM I got the camera and Movement sorta done On 10:21 PM I created the MapManager where it manages the world and each screen you move too. I also created some Gizmos to tell me where a area is Chapter 2: Saturday 1:21 AM. well it turns out the back end of the code was actually quite complicated. I had to find a way to convert a world position. To a location of a room. then that room as a 2D array with no negative int’s that I also have to convert it too. Made it Incredibly annoying. I needed to do this for enemy AI to move tile by tile so I used a method that was likely incredibly Inefficient and horribly complicated but only did it because it was what I was similar with I also created a Test AI that just Moved Randomly just to Move it can’t go out of a room and collide with walls. Tho some enemies spawn into walls due to the fact that unity’s tile colliders made it hard to tell what is and what isn’t a collider sometimes. I then went to bed 12:49 PM After a Incredibly long sleep I made the Health system like zelda where you have half hearts. Also created the Item interface so I can have a sword with a attack now 2:55 PM The Inventory system. My fucking god what a pain, like I said UI code is the devil. And in the end it didn’t even entirely work, just hard to just convert a 1D array to a 2D grid. Should’ve write it on MS paint or paper to help Now this is where thing’s get a bit Iffy sense I forgot to record alot of stuff I might’ve spend the rest of the day on a Quest sytem + some NPC’s and the entire map Chapter 3: Sunday 12:52 AM So Here I thought up some enemies and coded them. one of them being a Bull that charge’s at you until it crashes into a wall, the other is some kind of zombie that throws at you and the other is a Bear that charges at you. stops and slashes at you and I mostly added him as a excuse to add bear traps. sense while thinking of gameplay I thought of luring and trapping enemys as a gameplay thing 1:00 AM Added money and made enemy flash when you hit them 2:19 AM got the basic UI for the store. sense alot of it was just Reuse inventory code so it’s not too hard. alot of the hard stuff will be the buying code and such 2:44 PM finally made it able to buy items and also equip them

So then I ran out of footage I know I wrote most of the quest. then created the character’s and graphics which took awhile. also the enemies. The Sound. by then it was Monday. I missed the combo deadline but I might be able to do the jam. so I just wanted to get it finished as soon as possible. I sorta felt like it was pointless considering you just deliver pointless packages to NPC’s. I wasn’t able to do the dungeons and I didn’t feel all that invested. Didn’t even did the soundtrack though luckily I didn’t forget the sound. The graphic looks alright. the Main menu was....lacking to say the least and I enter early on monday after spending all night on it. and went to sleep halfway though I came up with a Idea for a Pizza delivery Crazy taxi ripoff that I felt would’ve been better After the game jam I decided to watch a few streams of people playing games. one of them being someone called LittleDoctorGames. and while watching them I noticed that I was able to submit my game and I did just for the hell of it. Eventually I realized I had to create a twitch account and be in chat for them to play. Not really planning on using it much other then lurk and occasionally have fun in chat. I actually had a pretty good time in there with nack’s(I think that’s the person who run’s it). we enjoyed talking about metal, a few movie’s and was just a good place to have joke and chill. honestly too the point where I didn’t really mind that it took awhile for them to get to my game, next night actually. Was sorta worried sense i’m not exactly used to see people looking at my game’s and most of the time it’s a somewhat bland reaction. but it was actually really great somehow they enjoyed my 5 AM quickly slapped together dialogue where I stopped caring. and the gameplay didn’t turned out bad. It was actually fun for some people which is sorta a foreign concept to me. that people actually enjoyed it. I guess I was lucky to pick zelda sense I learnt from that game that even if the AI can be annoying with their random movement. it can be enjoyable from the choices you make and exploring. Which some people seem to enjoyed. being impressed by the size of the map for a game made in Ludum dare In all honestly the more I look back at my abandoned projects I was amazed by how well this came out. Even simple projects sometime can just be left in the dust but this one turned out fine despite it being ludum dare Which is often way too short for me. I guess the turning off the internet work amazingly and sorta made me sad I didn’t gave my all on the game by the end to resolve some of the issues making it a solid ludum dare entry. But I guess that’s more next time A few more fun fact: Most of the music are half recorded song’s for meme’s. 3 rammstein album’s. a tool album and 2 tear’s for fear’s album. and when I had the internet on I was really into Biting Elbows. I think on sunday and monday I listed to the elemental album 4 or 3 time’s alone another fun fact is the funny glitches. one of which happen after the game jam finished which was when I was showing a family member and realized bear traps where Infinite but yeah Ludum dare 53 was surprising fun. I’ll definitely be revisiting and I’ll definitely be using that no internet rule for more of my project so expect more progress soon here’s the game I made https://ldjam.com/events/ludum-dare/53/fetch-quest-simulator

[dissolving-mansion]

I posted 479 times in 2022

That's 340 more posts than 2021!

153 posts created (32%)

326 posts reblogged (68%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@dissolving-mansion

@elias-rights

@sofarraway

@lonelybeuys

@lazy-toad

I tagged 455 of my posts in 2022

Only 5% of my posts had no tags

#08 - 107 posts

#tma - 95 posts

#malevolent podcast - 56 posts

#dissolving chats - 55 posts

#rb 08 - 51 posts

#malevolent - 43 posts

#arthur lester - 33 posts

#strangers from hell - 29 posts

#mjjw - 29 posts

#08 malevolent - 28 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#additionally. im very worried. because i know for a fact arthur will survive and the amount of deaths he's mysteriously survived is getting-

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Wouldn't it be romantic? To be destroyed by the very monster you created?

227 notes - Posted July 23, 2022

#4

I love shipping Jon in the TMA fandom because his potential love interests are this:

Guy who was only marginally worse at his Job than Jon was at his own (because he let an animal into the archives). Whenever he sees something he doesn't like he embodies the "I do not see it" meme. Man who is against crime until he personally dislikes the person the crime is being committed against, then it's fine. Bonded with Jon via shared trauma. Thinks Jon is incapable of making his own decisions. Spent most of his life lonely and bitter and without any 0 external or supernatural causes for this. Makes nice tea tho.

Guy who hates Jon because hating Elias would be even more pointless. Was stalked by Jon. Went from expressing fair negative criticisms and Jon not listening to expressing unfair negative criticisms and Jon listening too much. Lost the people he cared about to the thing that eventually destroyed him. More qualified for archival work than the rest of the team and simply because his publishing career gave him the mystical ability to spot errors. Only interaction with cops was sleeping with them for information so he took one look at Jon and Basira and was like "getting a lot of sleeping with cops for information vibes here". Heartbreaking last line before he went on his kayaking trip.

Girl who tried to murder him even after he thought he had tried to talk her out of it. Spent like a year looking at him and thinking "prey". Knife. Was a cop. In the camp of "Jon shouldn't have an opinion, actually, he should shit up." Often held up in comparison to Jon to make him look bad but she just honestly wants to do better. Has traumatic things on common with Jon. Werewolf. Presumably hot tho.

Not-a-guy that has stabbed Jon. Gives good advice in extremely cryptic ways like some kind of fortune teller. Has the skin texture of leather, apparently. A liar but honest about it. Has saved Jon and company on multiple occasions but did so in the creepiest and most villainous ways possible. Wanted to kill Jon. Had revenge fantasies that only involved Jon because he was Alive and There. Also wanted to be Known by Jon, a factor that may have contributed to its death. Died for wanting something clearly and without deceit.

Man who is way more dramatic and evil than he pretends to be. Makes puns that are only funny weeks later when you finally get them. Owns evil contracts. Hired the two people he knew would be most incompetent at archival work for archival work. Gave Jon a bed?? When Jon is stressed he concludes that the solution is More Work. Thinks being human is overrated. So terrified of being a victim that he victimized literally everybody else. "Grinning freak". Lying liar man. Same sense of humor and communication style as Jon tho.

Goth who comes across like a protagonist. Burns cursed books. Could have esaily been a bad person but chose to be good instead. Loathes saving people but begrudgingly does it anyway. Spent his entire life following the orders of old women who scare people. A book appraiser who would be shocked and upset by Jonathan "I only ever read a book once" Sims. Deserves a nap. Unfortunately, he died before Jon could meet him.

Jon is suffering.

389 notes - Posted August 13, 2022

#3

Things to compare your eldritch horror love to:

Static in your ears and at the back of your eyes

Ice-cream pain, a pain digging inside you and spreading out

A mouth that tastes like blood

Seeing something move out of the corner of your eye but it's gone by the time you check

Deja vu, the feeling that this is a memory on repeat

A bruise you don't remember how you got

A live wire

The smell of ozone

The dreamy isolation of being at a gas station at night, where the rest of the world seems to fall away, as if swallowed by the darkness

That lurch in your whole body when you lose your footing

Machines that behave like vital organs; pump fluid like a heart; pull in air like a diaphragm and a set of lungs.

The smell of sulphur

Walking into a room that is far too hot and wondering where the heat is coming from

The way the sky lingers on your skin after it has rained

Dust motes floating in the sun spots

The feeling of being in a large underground pool, all alone

407 notes - Posted August 28, 2022

#2

Melanie: why are girls so hot?

Martin: why are boys so hot?

Tim: why is everybody so hot?

[tape recorder clicks on]

Archivist: global warming

460 notes - Posted August 13, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I love how the cosmic horror genre contains works like 'The King in Yellow' and 'Uzumaki'... And then we have things like 'The Lego Movie' and 'Horton Hears a Who'.

943 notes - Posted May 27, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

[yippeeepenid]

the only thing stopping me from becoming fully nocturnal is school and the fact my best friend has to go to bed at 10 pm most nights

[yournotsolocalcryptid]

Hiya! Please could you do 15, 21, 53 from your prompt list for four/Billy? Thank you 💙

There were a few things I could’ve done with this and trust me when I say I explored them all to some extent. I hope you like what I landed on! oh and sorry it's taken so long *cringes*

Prompt list: 55 dialogue prompts

Prompt(s): 15. “I know you” “oh baby and I know you”, 21. “Did you just moan?”, 53. “Stop looking at me like that” “like what?” “Like you’ve seen me naked”

Pairing(s): Four/Billy x afab!Reader

Warnings: Swearing, flirty four?, light smut & implied smut so 18+, poor writing skills, barely edited or proofread so I apologize in advance for any mistakes.

Word Count: 1.3k

About 3 weeks ago a tall attractive man who called himself “One” had shown up at your apartment with a proposal of sorts. He had asked you to fake your death and join his vigilante squad or whatever he had called it. You were hesitant to join and who wouldn’t be? But in the end, you agreed. The man - One - had told you that you would now be known as 8 and that your life as YN YLN was over. A few days later he had helped you fake your death and after that, the two of you watched your funeral from a safe distance. The funeral was a week and a half ago, and One had yet to introduce you to your new team members. He had stashed you in a decent hotel room which he paid for in cash and told you that he’d be back for you in a few days after they finished the short easy recon mission the rest of them were in the middle of.

You were getting restless stuck in the hotel room and the cash one had left you to pay for the room and food was running out. You estimated that if you only bought the cheapest things on the room service menu you could stay for two more nights.

The next day there was a knock at the door. You grabbed the knife from the nightstand just in case and peeked through the peephole. You saw a man you hadn’t seen before standing there and you started to panic. The man knocked again and You stepped back from the door a few steps and held your knife at the ready. You heard a muffled woman’s voice and the man responded but you couldn’t make out what either of them had said, just that his companion was definitely a woman and that they both had accents. The man knocked again and then more muffled voices. You estimated approximately 3-4 people outside your door.

Your eyes flicked around the room looking for escape routes or possible weapons.

Then you heard the man say loudly and clearly “We know you’re there. Open up”

When you still didn’t respond he said “oh fuck this” and shot the locking mechanism on the door which he then shoved open. As he entered the room you lunged, caught him off guard as hoped and within moments you had him on the ground with your knife at his throat and his gun pointed at the others.

“Woah-ly crap” one appeared in the doorway his eyes surveying the scene. “Three I told you not to bring a gun. Even two left hers behind”

Three started to say something but One cut him off “8 would you drop the gun, put the knife away and get off him please?”

You slowly handed the gun to One and took the knife off the man you now knew as Three’s throat. Before you could stand on your own a hand appeared in front of you. You paused for a moment but then took it mumbling a soft “thank you”. Once you were up you looked at the man attached to the hand.

“I know you” you said

“oh baby and I know you” he replied with a deep British accent.

“How-” three started still on the floor but once again, One cut him off.

“Eight, this is Three, Four and Two. the rest are already back at home base” he pointed at each of them in turn but your eyes were glued to the man who had helped you up. Your hand still in his. “Everybody meet Eight.”

With that, you snapped out of whatever trance you were in and greeted Two while One helped Three off the floor then, you greeted Three and apologized for the knife to his throat thing which he just laughed off.

“Eight, grab your things and we’ll be on our way.” said One. You just nodded in response and went to get your things. Three, Two and One all went downstairs but Four stayed behind to help you with your bags even tho you assured him you could handle it.

Once all of you returned to headquarters and you had met Five and Seven, One showed you where you’d be staying and left you to get settled. You didn't have a lot of space but it was enough and you started unpacking a few things. As you set a small stack of books on the shelf on the wall you heard a soft knock.

“Come in” you said grabbing more things for the shelf

You turned around to find Four staring at you

“Stop looking at me like that” you said placing the objects next to the books and turning back to your bag sitting on your bed.

“like what?”

“Like you’ve seen me naked”

“But I have seen you naked, love” he said coming up being you. His arms wrapping around you and you had to bite back a moan as his lips barely grazed over the sweet spot on your neck. Never had you been so turned on by so little.

“Billy?” You whispered

“Yeah, love?” He asked his lips still grazing Over that spot as he spoke.

“What are you doing?”

“Well I’m trying to get a repeat of the last time we were alone with a bed” you could feel his hard-on behind you “but if you’d rather not” he backed away and you almost groaned at the loss of contact “I’ll just be on my way”

And with that, he left and you stopped unpacking to take a cold shower in your attached bathroom.

A few days later you were sparring with Four by request of one. Five and Two were sparring not far from you. Four may not be the best and hand-to-hand combat but the boy had some moves. You lost your balance ever so slightly for a moment and he took the opportunity to take you down. He had your arms pinned on either side of your head and you let out a small involuntary moan.

“Did you just moan?” He asked cockily yet quietly so the women grabbing their things to leave wouldn’t hear

You flipped him over so you were straddling his waist and his hands were pinned. This action caused some friction in your pelvic regions and this time he let out a moan. Luckily for the two of you, the door had just swung shut behind Two and Five as they left because he moaned much louder than you had.

“Did you?”

A second later his lips were on yours in a hungry heated kiss and while your tongues battled for dominance, He made no move to flip you back over. His hands started wandering your body and yours found the hem of his shirt which you pulled at hoping he’d get the hint, which he did. He sat up with you still straddling him and pulled his shirt off. The second it was off his lips reconnected with yours in a bruising kiss. His hands groped at your ass, kneading the flesh in his palms as you ground your hips into his. You moaned needily into his mouth at the friction of his hard cock against your aching pussy. You repeated the last swivel of your hips and he groaned out a loud “fuck”.

The sound of the gym door closing made you both look around to find One getting ready for his workout. After a moment of you two staring he turns and says “Oh don't mind me.” then with a wave of his hand “by all means continue”

You turned your head back to Four “race you to my room?” and with a cheeky grin off you ran with Billy at your heels.

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[the-deeds-to-shibden]

Saturday 25 July 1840

[up at] 4

[to bed at] 11 1/2

[written on] Sunday 26 July breakfast at 4 35/.. excellent milk as last night – Reaumur 19 1/2°at 4 1/2 a.m. – gave as before 1/. silver for the poor (a great many blind there) and 1 abasse to the baker who baked the bread for us and 1 abasse to the kelossan and off at 6 40/.. from the monastery of Djirootchi – at 7 20/.. fine view down over gorge and hill beyond monastery and high table grassy corny woody land – our magnificent line of high mountain beyond, not seen before, – and now almost like cloud tho’ the haze – at cascade at 7 55/.. and at 10 all our horses dead tired and afterwards get on as we could – at 10 35/.. 1st peeps at snow mountains – back at the village of Shkĭmmārĕe (page 317) at 11 35/.. – went to the place where we had been before – the man cross – it seemed Adam had not paid for our horses feeding – I would pay if he would give us hay again – 1 abasse for before and now – he would not give us any more till he was paid for what we had on Thursday – I got cross at the man’s doubting my word, and rode off to the Khelossan – all went there – I paid the 1 abasse for the horses feeding and gave the sister 1 abasse for a little milk and the mother 1 abasse for 1 trout for Ann and a child without a hand 2 paras – asleep – dinner over at 2 5/.. bowel complaint off again at 3 10/.. – at 4 we had ascended, and just left (on our right) the pretty little ecluse of the little river that falls into the Rion thro’ the high valley we were entering and passed the last little stream on the hill – no more water till we reach the 1st village – and at 4 p.m. hot and rather hazy – cannot see all the high summits as before – but about an hour after clear and fine view of our snow mountains – Adam’s horse could hardly get on at all before dinner and is not much better now – Ann and I have walked a great deal to ease the poor animals that have hardish work and little or nothing to eat – the 3 towered castle (right) picturesque among the wood, and at the high road at 6 51/.. – Ann took the Cossack and rode off at a trot home to sketch   I kept George and staid to get Adam home – he had walked almost all the way and was now tired – just as we came to the river Djed  .  .  . It began to rain and before we got home at 8 1/4 it rained heavily with vivid flashes of forked lightning and loud near thunder   I literally drove on Adam’s horse from the bridge or know not when we should have arrived – tea over at 9 40/.. fine day till near 8 p.m. then the rain and thunder and lightning –

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[eternalmx]

anon requested : Hello, can u please make a part 2 of comfort? It’s really nice and cute I need more fluff :(((( it would be nice if His s/o feel terrible Caus she was cheated on and it makes her feel terrible and Changkyun comforts her

🦋a/n : thank you for requesting angel🥺💕 I had fun writing this! I hope you enjoy it! >part 1<

Comfort (Pt. 2)

{4:00𝖕𝖒} "What time should I come over?" you asked him through the phone. You were sat on your bed, scrolling through your computer at all you assignments you had just turned in.

"Um.. maybe a little later than six. I have a few things I need to get done and it's piling up on me" he says, he sounded distracted on the phone and it made you feel nervous.

"Oh okay.. Is eight good?" you asked, Thinking about all the things he possibly needed to do. It made you feel uneasy since you last relationship you were cheated on and Changkyun never brushed off your movie nights.

"Yeah, that's fine. I have to go. See you later, babe. Love you!" he said, before the line went silent.

☼☼☼☼

{6:15𝖕𝖒} "Your call has been forwarded to an au-" you threw you phone on you bed. That was the sixth time you called him. He kept sending you to voicemail. What could he be doing? He wouldn't chest. He just wouldn't. But if he is? Then what. You decided to bake a cake to pass time until eight.

☼☼☼☼

{7:55𝖕𝖒} "I thought I was gonna take a taxi over?" you asked, opening the door to see Changkyun waiting for you.

"I finished what I had to do so why not come pick you up?" he said, smiling and softly pushing past you to walk into your dorm.

"Well are we going?" you asked, you were a bit nervous. He looked the same. Nothing weird. He was a bit off but you couldn't tell what was up. You tried pushing the uneasy feeling creeping up on you as you began putting your shoes on.

"Aren't you gonna pack a bag?" he asked, noticing you didn't have the bag you normally bring when you have movie nights and sleep over.

"Oh... I wasn't sure you still wanted me to stay the night. " you replied, softly making your way to your closet and stuffing random pieces of clothes into the bag. He came up behind you hands wrapping around your waist and head resting on your shoulder as you searched through the closet.

"Are you okay baby?" he asked, his nose ticking your neck.

"Mmmhhh, Why do you ask?" you say, hoping you don't ruin the evening.

"You asked if I was sure I wanted you to stay the night so I was just wondering why." he said, smiling to you a bit. His smile making you heart run wild. He was perfect.

"You seemed busy earlier, I was just making sure you didn't have any other things you needed to do." you said, before turning to face him.

"Even if I did. Our date nights are more important, everything comes after" he says winking and kissing your nose. You giggled as he grabbed you hand and you both left to go to his dorm.

☼☼☼☼

{8:25𝖕𝖒} "Okay, so before we go in, I have to tell you something." he says, shutting off the car as you both sat in the semi empty parking lot.

"I'm okay" you said, playing with your hands in your lap. This was it. Everything you were thinking today, he's about to tell you. You were overcome with so many emotions. You closed your eyes as he began to speak.

"The dorm looks a bit different..." he said, looking at you and you looked up.

"W-what?" you asked. That's all he had to say?

"Well I'm not good with suprises and this is also my first time having a serious girlfriend. So I'll show you, c'mon." he said, running to open the door for you and slinging your night bag over his shoulder.

Once you reached the door of his dorm, his hands wrapped around your eyes.

"Promise you won't hate it?" he asked, you smiled a little and nodded. You heard his keys open the door and he leads you in, hands still on your eyes.

"Can I look now?!" you asked eagerly.

"Surprise! Happy 1 month!" he shouts, as his hands drop. The room decorated with fairy lights string across the ceiling. A little blanket fort and a projector in the middle of the room with dvds stacked on top. A box of pizza in the middle of the fort. Your eyes started to fill with tears and you sighed loudly. A sigh of relief.

"Oh....you hate it don't you? It's too much right? I'm-" you cut him off by pushing your lips against his. His arms squeezing you tightly.

"No no.. that's not it. I just thought. I tho- nevermind. This is beautiful, babe" you say, pressing you head in his chest when you feel his fingers press against you chin and lift your head up.

"Tell me," he says, hand running up and down your back.

"I just thought something else was going on all day. I thought you were with someone else and now saying it I see how ridiculous I sound and I'm sorry I thought of you that way even for a second. I'm just still scared of this. I don't want to feel any of that ever again" you say, crying into his chest. His arms grip you harder.

"Hey, it's okay babe. I know why you would be scared. I get it but I won't ever hurt you in that way. I only have eyes for you. I'm sorry i didn't explain more I just don't know how to talk to you without giving it away I was so excited for you to see it" he says, pushing your hair back and kissing your forehead.

"It looks beautiful. Happy One Month!" you said, trying to sniffle the remaining tears. He laughed at your attempt and kissed you nose again.

"Want pizza?" he asked, wiggling his eyebrows and you laugh and kick your shoes off and make you way into the small blanket fort.

[woogurl]

since someone brought it up, and someone made a mini compilation of woosan moments in wanted i wanted to finish this analysis(more like comp of moments) i started a month ago. lol. 

WANTED 1 @ 7:30

san saw something and wanted to immediately show wooyoung.

just starin. @ 10:20

just touchin’, @ 12:20 

woo has his arms interlocked with san’s @ 13:03.

honestly they were all over each other around the 13 minute mark. 

i mean literally all over each other that leg tho woo. 

we love to see it.

@ 15:30 he planned on hugging san, you can tell by the way his body is turned and you can see him turn around to hug the others lol. san was too focused on being the hype man. 

WANTED 2

@ 6:30 san hugs wooyoung for being polite and sharing bread with staff. he’s so sweet. i also wanna highlight that san’s favorite quality about woo is that he’s so polite to his elders. yes he said that in a vlive they did together once. lmfao.

@ 14:10 san and mingi went on a mission to pick out clothes for an interview and when they cam back woo was looking san up and down.

WANTED 3

@ 1:30 yunho and seonghwa left for a mission and woo made his way back to sit next to san. 

@ 7:35 woo has his hand placed on san’s knee, at first i wasn’t sure if it was on the arm rest or not, but you can see it clearly at 7:40. 

WANTED 4

hugs @ 0:31 

san and woo literally hugged each other for no reason @ 3:00. yunho got the furthest and the members celebrated for him. while woosan just decided it was time for a hug. lol.

@ 4:30 they’re discussing room arrangements. there are two rooms and yunho won so he decides to go 4:4 to each room. so they’re all trying to win him over and hj does aegyo and san literally flicks his bottle cap off the table. which leads to woo laughing his ass off. woo wasn’t kidding when he said san makes him laugh.  

@ 6:10 they’ve chosen the roommates. yunho has chosen woo, hwa, and hj to room with him. while san, jongho, yeo and mingi share the smaller room. they tease woo ‘cause he’s with the older members and prob gonna have to sleep early. lol.    

neck touch at  @ 12:15

hand holding  @ 14:30.

more touching @ 16:05.

WANTED 5

linked arms @ 4:09.

they stayed like this for a while because it’s now @ 4:55.

they were just being so cute  @ 6:40 okay. ;c

around 15:50 you can see everyone getting ready to sleep. but woo’s not in the winning room with yunho, hj and seonghwa. on the other side you can see mingi, jongho, and yeosang. san is standing, i guess he’s the turning off the camera. woo’s nowhere to be seen.

WANTED 6

AND here lies woosan and one of their iconic moments. they ended up sleeping together. mind u everyone else has their own bedding, and woo could have had his own as well, but he chose to sleep with san.

cuddling @ 3:30 till 3:40.

WANTED 7

of course has more iconic moments such as 

@ 4:59 

and 

@ 5:55 

san’s legs are on top of woo’s  @ 9:59.

feet touching  @ 11:50

@ 14:20 woo’s hand is around san and before that, san’s hand was around woo. his chin is also on san, so his literally just hanging off him. lmfao. they’re just so touchy with each other. it’s so cute and domestic.

WANTED 8

JUST THEM BEING DOMESTIC AS HELL @ 1:20.

[skgway]

1823 Aug., Fri. 29

6

10 55/60

Very comfortable bed, and slept well till 5 20/60, at which time it was raining heavily downstairs and in the stable at 7 1/4 everything ready, but it rained so much (began at 3 1/2 they said and was incessant till after 9) I determined to stay breakfast, and set off at 9 or 10 – 

Took upMog’s edition of Patterson’s roads published London 1822. Saw Shibden hall inserted according to the letter I wrote mentioning its situation – Then took up volume 1 Miss Benger’s life of Mary Queen of Scots and read the first 50 pages. 

Sat down to breakfast (boiled milk and hot rolls) at 8 1/2 – It just then occurred to me that the last time I was in this room (the ground floor parlour on the left entering the Bridgewater) was with M– [Mariana] on the night of the 9th of March 1816. 

A host of reflections crowded on me – I felt the tear starting and my heart grow sick. ‘How foolish,’ said I, then sank into the thought that my knowing her had perhaps been the ruin of my health and happiness. She has not the heart to suit me. Perhaps I should not be happy with [her], yet almost foolish, [w/c]ould not be so without. I had almost said, ‘Oh, that I had not a heart,’ but God be merciful to me a sinner, and enable me to fix it. Here alone true joys are to be found. 

How very little π [Mariana] guesses what passes within me. I do not blame her. Heaven has not given her that sweet sensibilit soul of the soul after which my spirit panteth, likes the hart after the water brook and than which nothing less can satisfy a romantic and the enthusiastic mind like mine. To π [Mariana], if I shewed myself more openly I should be an enigma. She could not understand. We have not much fellowship in feeling, yet am I attached to her. Alas, I see more and more plainly, too deeply for my own happiness. 

Were I to tell her the effect of this three step business, she could not comprehend it. She would think it perhaps unforgivingness of temper rather than that wound at heart which festers unseen. It has taught me that tho she loves me, it is without that beautiful romance of sentiment that all my soul desires. But mine are not affections to be returned in this world. Oh that I could turn them with virtuous enthusiasm to that being who gave them. 

O Mary, Mary! You have enticed me with the glimpse of happiness and my heart has pursued the ignis fatuus till retreat is impossible or vain – But no more –

Left Manchester at 9 25/60 (the roads very heavy with the rain) and stopt at the Wellington Inn, Rochdale, at 11 35/60 – Fair the 1st 7 miles but rained the last 4 (of the 11 Manchester to Rochdale) – Went into the stable for a minute or 2, then sat down and mused and wrote all the above of today which took me till 12 3/4 (Shibden). Took a little nap – Had ordered George to let us be off in 2 hours but he was out, and 25 minutes beyond his time, and we were not off till 2 –

From 2 55/60 to 3 1/2 walked, and made George lead Caradoc, from the mound and while rails across the valley (perhaps 1/2 mile on this side of Littlebro’) to the Inn at the top of Blackstone edge – Stopt there 5 minutes and gave Caradoc some oatmeal and water – Then pursued our journey, and got home in 3 3/4 hours at 5 3/4, i.e. just before it struck 6 by the kitchen clock –

It rained pretty smartly all the time we were at Rochdale till about the last 1/2 hour when it cleared up and we had no rain afterwards – A fine evening too – My father and Marian called after tea and staid about an hour –

Told my uncle and aunt Mr. Simmons thought he could cure me, but could answer for it better if I was in Manchester under his own eye for 2 or 3 weeks – My aunt wanted me to give up going to Scarbro’ and York, and go to Manchester immediately – This I, of course, decline, saying I may perhaps be able to do without going to M– [Mariana] at all –

Barometer at changeable or rather above Fahrenheit 57º at 9 p.m. at which hour came up to bed – Put by my things etc. and wrote the last 9 lines of today – 4 letters waited my arrival –

Nothing can be better done than the new road from Littlebro’ to the top of Blackstone edge – From the very foot of the hill to about 100 yards from the Inn at the top are 15 white-painted black-capped stone posts as guides, I suppose, when the road is covered with snow – They were 149 strides apart (supposing them to be as as they look, at equal distances) perhaps these 149 strides might be about 100 yards or not much more –

It was at the 14th stone that I met M– [Mariana] last Tuesday week – This struck me forcibly – I had been thinking of the thing before – Indeed not a day scarcely an hour has passed since it happened, without its occuring to me in 1 shape or other – Oh! that I could forget it altogether – But I know and feel this cannot be – My memory is too obstinate for me –

3 of the letters came yesterday from M– [Mariana] (York); from Miss Vallance (Sittingbourne) and from Radford the Tailor (“ 27 Piccadilly removed from 188 Fleet street London”) the other letter (from Radford acknowledging the receipt of the draft) came this morning –

M– [Mariana]’s letter (2 1/4 pages hurried) written the very day (Wednesday) my letter to her would get to Scarbro’, on which day she seems to have been setting off for that place, having waited to take her father and mother within the carriage Eliza and Lou on the box and the 2 little Whites and her and Watson her servants in a hack chaise – Mrs. B– [Belcombe] seized with Cholera morbus on Sunday “which alarmed us much for a few hours, but it soon subsided”.... “however she is quite well” – Dr. B– [Belcombe] 

“in very low spirits about himself and I really think there is much cause even now to feel alarmed about him – His mind seems to have suffered, and when there is anything to be done he seems quite bewildered” –

M – [Mariana] not quite so well as she was – The moorgame arrived safe on Sunday – Dr. B– [Belcombe] appeared pleased with the attention – M– [Mariana] was to have written on Tuesday “but Bell came over and nothing could be done” –

3 pages crossed and the ends from Miss V– [Vallance] I must write to her very soon – She says my last is dated 14 February –

“Does your remembrance of your confiding friend ever cross your mind? Has her fate ceased to interest? Is her form forgotten? Her faults and sorrows faded from from your heart?” …. 

I must write – She is still in a very bad state of health – Gives a high character of her brother William’s bride – vide the latter 1/2 the crossing of page 2 and the former 1/2 of page 1 vide page 2 

“Memory often carried me to Langton – and recalls our wandering to Birdsall, the wold etc. etc. ...... those steps so well remembered, so fondly recorded in my bosom”.... 

Flll [full] well i remember my style of conversations. Does she too? Is it not evident she will listen again and grant all I ask as before? – At page 3

 “I hope to see Langton at no very distant time and I hope most earnestly to see you there” –

Surely the crossing above referred intelli[gi]bly marks her preference towards me and might warrant my taking gently any liberties I chose. She says, or strongly insinuates, that she and I think and feel more in unison than I suppose. Surely this is no cold water on anything that has passed between us – I have always maintained a lady cannot love sufficiently a second time. It is respecting this she owns my opinion, “founded on a knowledge of human nature in general” but consider herself an exception –

Radford’s 1st letter is to acknowledge the receipt of my 1st…. 

“as our business is conducted solely on the principle of ready money we cannot send goods to strangers in the country without 1st receiving a remittance to amount of ordered goods” … 

Strangers is in the original, strange ladies in the country – Referred to their “order book” and found my measure etc. etc. I could not help laughing –

The 2nd letter a respectful acknowledgment of the draft – The coat to be sent by “the York coach that leaves the Golden and Saturday morning at six” that I am expected to have it early on Sunday morning –

vide line 23 the last page the weather, what kept me up so long etc. – E [two dots, treating venereal complaint] O [one dot, signifying little discharge] A lit[t]le not much –

[sideways in margin] Rochdale

[whatdoesshedotothem]

Saturday 11 July 1840

8 10/..

11 5/..

Kothévi [Kothevi].

slept very tolerably on my rickety table – one of our baggage covers (feutre) and my burca for bed, and my chelat for couverture – finish but dullish morning which turned to rain about 9 and till about (after) noon – the fine but the mist hanging lowish down the hills – breakfast over at 10 ½ - and at that hour F19° - the rain has cooled the air and now at 12 20/.. p.m. R17 ¾° and I have just written the last 8 lines of p. 289 and so far – a boy brought some time ago a plate of cherries and ditto of mulberries – about 1lb. of each – gave him ./10 copper – très content – 10 nice trout one abasse boiled for breakfasted of which A- ate 5 – I did not take any – wish to get my bowels right first  no motion since Wednesday morning took a little cream of tartar in a glass of tea last night on finishing dinner an hour rubbing out pencil of rough book – then reading Dubois // at 2 ¼ rain and very heavy now at 2 35/.. and pouring thro’ the pretty 8tagon dome of our salon in 3 places, and into the little room the rain entering in 3 places – Thunder at 3 5/.. and the rain heavy as ever and then obliged to move all my things (burca-bed etc.) from off my table the rain reaching that too – just fair at 3 55/.. – raining again at 3 55/.. sat reading and making notes for our route from here to Oni till 4 ¼ when the princess  our neighbour in one of the small houses (the one close by and owner of the cuisine) sent to ask us to tea – the samovar it seems is hers – the water was just boiling for our own tea – sent it home and promised to go to tea in 10 minutes – went at 4 ¾ and came away at 5 25/.. sat 10 minutes before tea came – 2 small glasses each – nothing to eat – the prince not at home but an intelligent employé (Georgian) who takes the duties of his place when away, interpreted for us – the princess and her friend (Georgian – wife of another employé) speak nothing but Georgian – she is 2nd wife – 1st wife was an English woman, wife! of an Englishman who came from Tabriz when the Russians took it, and, in passing thro’ Tiflis, left his wife there who married our prince and died 7 years ago leaving a son and daughter – the latter dead – the former aet. 11 at the école des cadets à St. P- the employé wrote the name Prince Josuf (Joseph) Dimitrief Djavakoff – Ratchinskii natchalnik commandant here tho’ according to George of a military rank below Captain – has only been here about 6 months – their house not yet quite montée – all their things not arrived – but la princesse has another samovar besides the one lent to us – pretty her son aet. 5 a pretty boy – asked names of principal mountains – all called after the villages they are nearest to – 2 roads from here to Baragone - - one to the right – the other to the left – we to take that to the right to see Kŏo-ăr-rast-sīk-hé 10v. from here the old chateau of the Kings of Imeretia – the widow of the last still living at St. P- and Krepost now and 6 pieces of cannon there – the palais was at Koutaīs – Kothévi [Kothevi] the capital containing 4,000 houses and 101 villages at district beginning and including Nikortsminda and the villages of Ghébi and Glola – mineral springs at the latter – a stone like a diamond that one can light a pipe by, found at the mountain of Outsèré 10v. from Oni the iron mines are at Tzédissé 15v. from Oni where good cheese and butter and barley bread etc. can be bought – nothing to be bought here without addressing oneself to the princess – the people only make what they want for themselves – she civilly asked if we wanted anything – much obliged – thought not – would ask her for whatever we might want – she has sent to seek

SH:7/ML/E/24/0149

strawberries in the woods – none to be found – at least the employé had sent, and he offered us (gladly accepted) a guide du pays for tomorrow, - to shew us the glacier, the perte de la rivière and the chateau de Kuaratsikhé – at the Selenia Sak-kāh-ow  Dubois ii. 398. 6v. from Oni, is the highest mountain – not far from Outsèré – and in this mountain a cavern that none knows the extent of – an Eristaf 100 years spent a week in exploring it but could not succeed in finding the bottom of i t- took fright and came away – our princess glad to see us – the only travellers she had seen – a very poor little place that our princess lives in – a sort of hall anteroom, and then the little salon, and a little room opening into with a carpeted divan for sleeping and on this the man made the tea – fair when we came away at 5 25/.. – sauntered to the huge walnut tree 8 yards circumference a foot from the ground? 3 or 4 great trunks 1 prink from the principal one at 8 or 9ft. from the ground or more – never saw such a walnut tree before – meant to have gone to the old ruined castle perhaps about a verst off but it began to rain again at 5 ¾ and came in – then till now 7 ½ wrote all but the 1st 9 p. 288 lines of the last page and so far of this – the older brother of our prince of Thursday died in prison at Tiflis was taken by Pasquévitch in Turkey, in the rebellion – the brother (our prince) was sent to Siberia for 10 years (according to Georges’ interpretation) but being found to have had nothing to do with the rebellion was allowed to return home – dinner at 8 ¾ to 9 ¾ tea and bread and butter and part of the rice the Cuisinier cooked and that A- boiled up afterwards and finished the plate of mulberries of this morning and ate 2 figs – copy the following  4 p.m.  from slip of paper A- so impatient when I say the least thing promised her to do my best to utter no more about anything   I simply said I would not send out a large lump piece of sugar to the cuisinier  it was sso tempting   “if I am to have the management   do pray let me”  said she crossly   I will try not to speak again unless you ask me  “well I shall be very much obliged to you”  

remember [crossed line]  Rainy day – then read a little till now 10 25/.. at which hour R17 ½° and F71° -

[awhilesince]

Wednesday, 22 August 1827 (travel journals)

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Breakfast at 8 (could not sleep well last night 1/2 devoured by bugs – our rooms merely good coachmen’s rooms) –

off from Martigny at 8 50/60 at 8 55/60 wooden bridge over the tuffy river Rhone, tuffy from the moment we saw it –

at 9 22/60 wood bridge over the Trient – at 9 35/60 Pissevache (left) – falls 300 feet – but the perpendicular fall seen from the road only 100 feet – finer cascades off the Rhine in the Rheinthal (in or near the via mala 2 vide) that of the Acqua fraggia near Chiavenna finer – alighted to see it nearer and returned to the carriage thro’ the niceish village of Miville – Plums drying on planks out of doors – some cut open down the middle some not – at 10 25/60 2 small wood bridges over dry rough beds of debacle – the torrents must be wide-spreading in winter –

at 10 40/60 wooden bridge over little stream –

at 10 50/60 very picturesque town of St. Maurice – at 11 pass the bridge, and shew passports – 2 good old Gothic churches goodish town, – very much better than Martigny – the Union a pretty good looking house – shops pretty good – nobody in them, but a bell that rings upstairs to call the people down when wanted – valley very fine about here – hermitage and church of notre dame du Sex, (left) before entering St. Maurice, very striking –

St. Maurice (1782)

at 11 5/60 crossed the wooden bridge over the Rhone, and stopt at the douane to shew our passports – Jane fancied the Mackenzies had passed us – She was mistaken – valley very fine here, more liveable –

Bex, CC BY-SA 4.0

Alighted at the Union at Bex at 11 40/60 – Jane and I off in a char-à-banc to the families Salines at 12 – soon left the high road and turned along a romantic little lane – at Davens at 12 35/60 – Monsieur Favre the directeur, lives there – niceish house – 1st see the 2 great chaudières perpetually letting fresh salt water in – take salt out every day at 5 A.m. and 4 p.m. – the greater the heat, plus mince the salt salt; but the quality rather less good – but all thrown Together into the same magazine or cellar close to the chaudières – 2 large furnaces which heat these 2 large chaudières (placed underneath them) the spare heat conveyed in pipes to underneath 2 other chaudières where (of course) the grain of the salt is rather larger from the heat being (tho’ sufficient) less intense – this is the ‘sage économie qu’on fait de la chaleur’ (Ebel page 63) – observed the whiteness of the salt of the 1st Chaudière – yes! it was only 4 days since the chaudière was cleaned out – cleaned out every 15 days – the salt was a little more rougeâtre towards the end of the time – the 2 furnaces Examined and repaired every June – burn 50 toises (of 7 feet 4 inches de Berne par toise) of wood a month – make from 50 to 60 quintals of salt per day – Government sells the salt at 3 sols a lb. [pound] and it costs them 1 sol a lb. pound (French money) – 6 men Explained here – 3 attend the furnaces from noon to midnight, and the other 3 then take their place from midnight till noon – wages per man 24 sols a day, and 50 lbs of salt a year –

Salines de Bex, CC BY-SA 3.0

thence to the bâtimens de graduation – 2 stories – the water very weak at 1st – could scarcely perceive any salt taste at all – pumped up and suffered to sipe thro’ the thorns several times, – during 3 or 4 months before the remaining brine is strong enough to be passed into the chadières – these thorns last 20 to 25 years, when rotting under incrustation (tuff – not at all saline) they begin to fall away – they are then all removed, and new thorns put in their stead – we saw some that had been there only 4 years – incrustation hardly beginning to appear whereas some just about to be removed looked like corals – then saw the master or great wheel which works the pumps – 8 bras or radii, crossing one another 4 from edge of the wide circumference, and 4 from the other edge –

off from Devens at 1 25/60 and at 2 20/60 stopt at the little Inn – ‘Liberté and patrie’ over the door, very commonly here over the doors of auberges and public offices, douanes etc – in 5 minutes set off with our guide from here who carried lamps and jackets – after walking about 1/2 hour up a narrow, steep lane (chars à banc never go along it, only travelled carts laden with wood – but on a hot day, to prevent being overheated before entering the mine, it might be well to take one of these carts) came to the door of the mine – put on our jackets – each took our greasy iron lamp, and entered the gallery about 2 55/60 – greater part of the way lined with wood to prevent the falling of the rock – passed 2 or 3 halls which they fill to about 2/3 of their height with the salt-stone broken into small pieces, and then turn water over it which remains perhaps 3 weeks before it is sufficiently impregnated with the saline particulars – went beneath the apertum at the top – the light seemed about the size of a pin’s head – then went to where the men (6) were working (only 32 (as I understood our guide) Employed here) – nothing on but their trousers – each of them had his little candle stuck (in clay?) against the rock – all working with chisel and hammer, preparing for blasting – the salt rock very hard – I could not even chip a bit off with their tools – then descended 770 deep steps – 10 inches if not a foot deep – a very fatiguing descent – here we saw the great wheel that draws up the water from the salt spring – then got into the long gallery (Gallery des Invalides?) at the end of which the light (as soon as we could catch the doorway at all, seemed like a very small – very distant star – some part of the gallery cased with wood – almost all more or less supported on wood-work – en passant, saw the 2 great halls or reservoirs in which to keep the superfluous salt water – the first supported on pillars cut out of the rock, and a little wooden gallery seeming all round it – Marie Louise was here, and a band of music – then went to the other salle remarkable for its Echo – I really think the reverberation lasted a minute – a foot or 2 deep of salt water in it – and no gallery round it, so could not go in –

came out today again (very near to the little auberge whence we had started) at 4 10/60 – It is by this passage or gallery that those, who do not wish to see as much as we did, enter, go as far as the above named 2 salles, and then return – over the door is a long inscription purporting that the gallery was begun 1 April 1726 under John James Simners (?) director and by John James Gan .. de Roncvea [Isaac Gamaliel de Rovéréa] –

got into our char à banc, and off home at 4 20/60 – Just went on to look at the baths – very nice ones – nice Establishment – one should be lodged and boarded at 5/. a day –

got back at 5 – Dinner from 5 3/4 to 7 40/60 rain all last night, and very rainy morning, which prevented our going to the baths of Leuk and to the top of the Gemmi – fair at 9 A.m., and sunshine at 1 1/2, and fine afternoon Till a little while after getting back from the salines when rain again –

left margin: Ruins of 1818 still in front of our Inn at Martigny – Salines de Bex

reference number: SH:7/ML/TR/2/0011, SH:7/ML/TR/2/0012

[tylerwritez]

Hey guys its uhhh Saturday July 3rd 2021 9:53 a.m.

I literally got 1-2 hours of sleep •_• because I was up into the earliest hours of the morning talking to Jay and Ariel.

... Its homophobic that Jay was away /j :P and not in my room that night because... how do I say this without saying too much... he turns me on, simple. He's in LEDUC. DUDE. COME BACK I WANT TO FUCK YOU /HJ

I told him this before you guys, but my brain does this thing where it randomly sends me back to some memory and I have to live through the feelings yknow? And I twitch a bit. Well my brain has been sending me back to almost entirely memories of him now. And it's. Not even funny. My crush on him grows...

Oh well, I'm patient.

The forums last night were as usual, unhelpful. My dad looks at me as if I'm a tragedy, as if my skin is a crime scene, and we have a total of *drumroll* TWO COMMENTS! One of them was okay in helpfulness. They mostly just wanted to write about their tattoo cover up of their scars but. They were right about how you are the only person who gets to decide what you think about your scars.

If he thinks of me like that... doesnt mean I HAVE to think of my own self that same way.

So true.

Next person said maybe he doesnt think I'm damaged, maybe hes just gawking at the damage done to me?? And how he couldnt stop it?

And like isnt that the same thing honestly.

Oh hey, yeah I gotta tell you about TODAY. not yesterday or last night.

Well uhm I just woke up on my BEDFRAMELESS BED Cos they packed it and left me with the MATRESS xD (I wonder if this is their way of cockblocking me /j)

I got ready and uh I was told like, GET THE FUCK UP DUDE WE R GOING TO THE LAKE RIGHT FUCKING NOWWW

So I'm rushing 2 get ready... well not really rushing. I don't rush. I was getting ready. I go to brush my hair and theres NO BRUSH. ITS BEEN PACKED???? WHAT???

I did my best with what I had on hand and then we left

I'm in the car with my friend and annoying ass sister right now and I got music on

We got Tim Hortons (muffin + ice capp) for breakfast (already over my cal limit... •_• as if that's getting followed nowadays)

lol I dont usually eat breakfast tho so I'll try to skip lunch or have a light lunch, so it doesn't mess me up.

Right now as we are driving to the lake... it's mostly canola fields. Theres lots of canola grown where I'm from lol, just drive a little bit out and you'll see the fields and fields of bright yellow like millions of little highlighters sticking up from the grass. I cant make them out individually though... still waiting on those contact lenses.

Again, I'm patient.

I don't think we're super far out... I mean theres still lots of cars, signs, farms, roadside ads, trees, uh, shrubs, and if we WERE further out the land would be more bare... #grassland #praries #Alberta

Also the sun just makes everyhting look more alive.

Oh NOO IM DESCRIBING THE SCENERY... boring!

Idk. There isn't much to discuss, I'm just listening to music because I'm content with just that. If I come up with anything funny/Insightful(?) I'm gonna make a twitter draft.

10:17 a.m, signing off temporarily,

Judas/Jude Shepard.

4:25 p.m.

We got to the lake, talked, got ice cream, talked, went in the #water... lake stuff.

My friend was gushing over this guy and like...  DILF. IF YOU SAW HIM... xD of course I'm just looking though. He just had big pecs which is attractive to me, and the overall build with these broad shoulders XD.

Tbh? I know me and Jay are TECHNICALLY not dating, but I feel like I'm dedicated to him. That's probably because of my crush on him but oh well.

I just keep thinking horny thoughts it's a plague within my brainnnnn and I know its his fault

I did end up asking him but by then he had already logged off so.... he'll respond soon and I gotta be ready. It appears that my mom is signing up for a Christian dating app... we'll see how that goes.

As for Jay's responding, I'll just tell him nevermind.

Anwyays we are headed back, possibly to the bookstore, possibly home.

I KNOW I talk a lot about the same things but that's because I'm infatuated with them.

I'm infatuated with... him.

I think of him in my mind and bam instant horny

I'll try to think of soemthing else,,, this is. Uh. Inconvenient right now.

I'll keep updating you though lol.

Hope I'm not annoying talking about Jay all the time.

I AM doing other stuff, I have a life. I just... I guess I unintentionally highlight certain parts a lot.

11:55 p.m.

IM EXHAUSTED GODDAMNIT MY DAD WAS MAD AT me...

... I wanted to ask to go to my friends house tommorowbut my dad is pissed at me for... closing my door??? dude omg hes like “what were you doing for two hours with the door closed” uhm reading? on my phone? jacking off? im a normal person lol. i said reading and on my phone which IS true and he said”sure...” all  sarcastic WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY?? YEAH I JACKED OFF???? stfu

hes not even mad at me hes mad cos my mom is goign on a date lolDONT TAKE IT OUT ON ME STFU

I'm dead.

So I didnt ask cos I was scared shitless lmaooo but I have an appointment anwyays so it works out.

I just read a bunch of this comic called outcast. That's it really. Now I'm gonna sleep after I post to twitter a bit...

ALSO I asked Jay finally about uh. Yeah. Scarring. and he said beauty is in the eye of the beholder. He said I was hot but then he said that on the other hand it feels weird when he runs his hands over them, but in general, he loves me.

So he said "I don't care if you have scars or not, you're still you"

I love him honestly hes so supportive.

I admit I'm a bit sad thinking they feel weird but honestly? Yeah. They do. I felt up my leg where the scars are to check and it feels like hard ribs/ridges to the touch of a hand but he still thinks I'm pretty so I'm not gonna let the scars get me down. Cos I'm still me. It's just scars. Doesn't affect anything.

:,)

Also erin found a hagstone!!!

Gn,

Jude Shepard