#i wont know for sure til tomorrow

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

I normally talk to harley when im alone in my room but shes hiding in the pantry rn

So ive started talking to vlad

Hes a good listener but hes not nearly as snuggly :\

[savethepinecones]

hm

[kurthorton-moving]

okay this morning i have to go to the library and make a cv and print some government documents and be full of anxiety lets go

[unhappycylinder]

Hellfire’s Newest Member (Eddie x fem!reader) Pt.7

warnings: smut...finally, 18+

Masterlist

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Eddie pulled up to your house, his hand resting on your thigh the entire short drive. He knew how to get to your place since you were Dustin's neighbor, and he had picked Dustin up for Hellfire more times than he could count. He hated to admit it, but he loved that little shit like a brother.

He hopped out of the van, which he had parked on the street across from your house, and walked around to open the door and help you out.

"Watch your step, gorgeous," he held your hand as you got out, grabbing your backpack.

He stood there, hands in his pockets, as you looked up at him. It was a little awkward, but you knew what you wanted, you knew you wanted to ask Eddie inside, and in another moment of bravery, you did just that.

"Would you uhhh, would you want to come inside?"

"Are you sure that'd be okay, aren't your parents home or something?"

"No, my dad works like constantly and he doesn't really give a shit what I do, he probably wont be back til tomorrow afternoon anyway"

"Oh okay, you sure though?"

"Of course Ed, I wouldn't have asked if I didn't want you to," you said as you moved a strand of hair out of his face

"Then I'd love to sweetheart," his hand snaked back around to the small of your back, and it remained there as you walked across the street to your front door.

You unlocked the door, looking up to lock eyes with Eddie in the process, making you smile.

"I'm never gonna get tired of that," he said

"Of what?"

"That smile you do, its adorable"

"You're adorable Eddie," you said as you opened the door, Eddie closing it behind him. He lingered by the door as you set your backpack down and tossed your keys onto the counter where you found a note and some money from your dad.

Doing some training at work for the weekend, probably wont be home. Be good.

You grabbed the note and turned to face Eddie, he stood propped against the door with his arms behind his back.

"What'd I tell you, no dad for the whole weekend," you said as you shook the note

"Best news I've ever heard" Eddie said as he walked towards you, his hands wrapping gently around your waist as he bent down to kiss you again. Electricity buzzed inside you as you grabbed the collar of his jacket and pulled him closer, a little rougher than you had imagined, making him let out a soft growl

"Keep doing that sweetheart and you might get more than you bargained for," he said through the kiss.

I need to know more about that, you thought.

Curious, you pulled him in tighter, this time grabbing the collar of his Hellfire shirt with his jacket.

"Good god," he whispered, "fuck it," he whispered as he lifted you up onto the counter by your waist. He stepped forward between your legs, which you tightened around him, locking your ankles behind him. Your hands explored his curls, scratching his scalp lightly every once in a while. His hands rested on your hips, pushing you down into the counter, making you go crazy with desire.

"Eddie" you moaned into his mouth, making him push you down tighter, his grip getting more intense around your hips.

You pulled away for a brief second, locking eyes with him. They were full of thirst...for you...and you were certain he saw the same in yours. Not a second later you snuck your hands under his jacket, running them down his arms as you ushered his jacket off of him to the floor, giving you a closer look at the tattoos on his arms and the ones on his chest barely visible under the white of his shirt.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked you, rubbing your lower back with his hands.

"Oh yeah, I'm more than sure" you said before sliding a hand under his hellfire shirt, feeling the warmth of his skin at your fingertips. His stomach shuttered as you ran your fingers over his ribs.

"Jesus christ sweetheart, you're killing me"

You slid off the counter without a word, he shot you a bewildered look. You liked taunting him, making him think that was the end of it, that you were just gonna stop there and show him the door. You picked up his jacket as he stood, still facing the counter, just gazing over his shoulder as he watched you. You slid your hand into his, leading him down the hallway behind the kitchen, towards your bedroom.

"Follow me lover boy," he walked slowly after you as you brought him and his jacket to your room at the end of the hallway. You opened the door, it was dark inside except for a small round lamp on your windowsill, gently illuminating the room in an orange glow. Eddie looked stunning in the light, and you knew his body would as well.

He closed the door behind him as you stopped in the middle of the room, facing him as you dropped his jacket to the ground. The sound of it smacking your carpet was like a shot, signaling him to come get you, to take you. He rushed towards you feverishly, grabbing your face with both hands, kissing you with more passion than ever before. You put both hands up his shirt, pulling it up until he pulled away so you could lift it over his head. His tattooed chest, as you presumed, looked beautiful in this light, and his pecks rose up and down as he breathed heavily. He watched you with lust as you grazed your hand over his tattoos, admiring your beauty as you admired the art on his body.

"You're stunning," you told him, finally looking up at him

"Coming from you," he chuckled as he pushed you onto your bed behind you. You giggled as you adjusted yourself on your elbows, watching him saunter towards you as he mounted the bed. He settled himself in between your legs and hovered over your face, the guitar pick on his necklace hitting your chin as he huffed. He kissed you gently, then more passionately, basically doing push ups on top of you while your hands held his back, feeling his muscles and shoulder blades flex with each motion.

He sat up, his hands gripping your waist, pulling your shirt up until it was just under your breasts.

"You sure this is okay?" He asked genuinely, not moving until he got the okay from you

"Just take my clothes off already Munson" you said, causing the same devilish smile he gave you at the Hellfire game to appear on his face. His hands brought your tshirt over your head, his eyes resting on your breasts, which were covered with a green lace bra...you looked hot...he thought so too.

"Jesus H Christ" he said as his hands gently grazed over your breasts and your chest, squeezing slightly as he got over the lace.

He glanced down to your belt, looking back up at you for reassurance before his hands started to go to work. He quickly pulled your belt off, unbuttoning and unzipping your jeans seconds later. You lifted yourself up as he took them off of you, leaving you in nothing but your panties and bra.

"Fuck me" he whispered as he looked you up and down

"If you insist," you said, catching him off guard as you sat up and pushed him down, swapping your positions. You straddled him as you took his belt and pants off even faster than he had yours. He just laid there in awe, hands above his head, as you undressed him.

"Eddie, you're the hottest person I know," you said as you looked down at his boxers, his erection extremely visible through them.

He reached up and rubbed your back until he got to your bra strap, unhooking it instantly and throwing your bra across the room, his hands returning to your breasts.

"Back at you, princess"

"Eddie, I have a question," you said, still straddling him, his hands acting as your bra now

"What's up gorgeous," he responded, his touch becoming lighter in case you were going to tell him you didn't want to go any further

"You have that um," you were embarrassed to ask, but you had to absolve your curiosity from earlier, "that handkerchief in your back pocket"

Eddie's eyes widened, his grip tightening slightly on your breasts

"And I was just wondering if that meant...what I think it meant?" You asked him, hands trailing down his stomach towards his boxers

He smirked, pulling you down so your face was hovering above his

"Wanna find out?" He asked

Before you had time to answer, he had flipped you around, he was on top again, and that's where he was gonna stay. He bent down so his face was between your legs, his tongue licking up your thigh towards your core. You shivered at his touch, and his hands immediately went to your waist to steady you

"Stay still" he said sternly

He hooked a finger into your panties, pulling them down slowly to reveal you to him.

"Fucking hell sweetheart, you're gonna be the death of me" he whispered into your core before his tongue and fingers went to work. His tongue went in fast circles over your bud, his fingers entering you and curling inside you, making you arch your back and grab his hair

"I said stay still baby" he pushed you down with his free hand, "do you understand?"

You moaned, his face pulled away from your core as his fingers curled more inside you, making you gasp.

"I asked you a question" he looked up at you from between your thighs, it was the hottest thing you'd ever seen.

"Yes Eddie, yes I understand. Please don't stop" you begged

"Good," he smiled as he returned to your core, sucking on your bud as his fingers slid in and out of you at a steady rhythm.

"Fuck Eddie, I'm close" you yelled, your hands flying to your forehead

Suddenly he stopped. You moved your hands to see him on his knees in between your legs, his boxers off and his member free, inches away from entering you. You reached for his arms, which were resting on your thighs, before he grabbed your wrists and forced them into the mattress on either side of you.

"What did I say about staying still?" He asked as he slid into you, making your body curl with pleasure.

"Eddie! Fuck!" You screamed, squirming under him as he thrusted his entire length deep into you

"Princess, I'm gonna need you to obey me, or there will be consequences" he said sternly, his grip tightening on your wrists. You nodded as you bit your lip

"Good," he said, pulling himself out of you slowly before thrusting back in. He kept up a steady rhythm as you tried to stay still, on the edge of your climax, but you couldn't contain it as you reached your breaking point

"Oh my god Eddie!" You yelled as your thighs shook slightly, your legs curling around his hips slightly

"That's it" he growled as he pulled out of you and hooked a hand under your back, spinning you around so you were on your stomach, "arch your back baby, if you're not gonna listen to me, I told you there would be consequences"

oh. hell. yes.

You did as he asked and he thrust into you immediately, hitting your cervix with each thrust, making you moan into your pillow. One of his hands steadied your hips while the other hand found your hair, pulling your head back, making you arch even more

"That's it princess," he said as he thrust harder, the two of you moaned together as you felt yourself about to climax a second time. Eddie's rhythm got more irregular as you came, and he pulled out of you, finishing on your back as he pulled you towards him by your hips with both hands

You were drained, and you just let yourself slump face down into your pillow. That was the best sex you'd ever had, granted you hadn't had a lot, but you knew this was good, and you knew you needed more.

Eddie leaned over to your nightstand and grabbed a tissue, wiping up your back before laying next to you, pulling you onto your side by your waist

"You're perfect," he said with a smile, looking you deep in your eyes

"Eddie...." you began to say breathlessly, struggling to keep your eyes open as he stroked your hair

"Are you okay? Was I too rough? I'm so sorry y/n" panic started to build in his voice and he started to prop himself up before you put a hand on his shoulder, pushing him back down into the bed

"Eddie, I swear to god if we don't do that every day, I'm gonna kill you," he laughed loudly

"That good, huh?"

"My handkerchief suspicions were confirmed," you began, "and then some" you laughed, putting your hand on his cheek, stroking him

"I definitely have a crush on you...like big time" you said, he blushed

Eddie tensed up a little bit, pulling a blanket over the two of you, holding you by your waist as he looked away from your eyes

"Y/n?"

"Yeah Eddie?"

"Is it too soon for me to ask you to be my girlfriend?"

You beamed, suddenly any ounce of sleepiness you felt was gone, all you could think about was Eddie. You sat up slightly, throwing yourself on top of him, attacking him with kisses.

"So....is that a yes?" He asked

"Oh yeah Munson, you bet its a yes" You kissed him gently

"You do realize what you're getting yourself into right? Dating the school freak?" He rubbed your back

"Honestly, I don't give a fuck what anyone thinks. Fuck Jason, fuck the 'balls in laundry baskets' guys..." Eddie smiled, knowing now you had been checking him out during lunch today, "fuck anyone who can't see how perfect you are. And I know I'm the luckiest girl in the world because I'm the only one that gets to call you mine"

He kissed you passionately, grabbing your cheeks and smushing them as he repeatedly attacked you with kisses all over your face.

"You're mine, you're my girl"

"That's me," you smiled,  "oh and you're sleeping over tonight...by the way...just thought I'd let you know"

"Was already planning on it sweetheart" he said as he pulled the blanket up over his shoulders, pretending to fall asleep in your bed. You laughed as you grabbed a pillow, hitting him in the face with it

"Hey! Not nice babe!" He yelled. You laughed, standing up off the bed, taking his blanket with him and wrapping it around you, leaving him naked and uncovered on your bed

"Oh! Y/n! So not cool! You're dead princess...so fucking dead!" He yelled as he jumped out of the bed, lunging toward you, making you scream and run around your room, Eddie chased you as you both laughed the night away.

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Part 8

This is the last one I’m posting tn, ya’ll will get morning Eddie tomorrow ;)

Taglist: @definitelynotecho @sadbitchfangirl @lfaewrites @tlclick73

[restforthe-burdenedsoul]

3 years ago we lost our little puppy on an out of state trip. So it would make sense that of all days in the Calendar year, today her leash would somehow un clip on a walk as she tried to run toward a dog.

My knees are pretty messed up and were dripping blood from diving to catch her but it didnt hit me til we were back inside.

And now i cant stop crying. I was so scared she was gonna get away. She’s so fast.

Pretty sure i finally wont forget to call the trainer tomorrow 😅

I dont know why her fear makes her want to charge dogs. She charges and then will run away when they dont move (or so we saw when we were living wirh our roommates and the neighbor dogs would try to come over and play)

I think I somehow unclipped her leash today tho? I saw the dog, she started barking and I was picking her up to go inside. I keep her on a short leash because of her lunging tendency and I had my hand where the harness and leash connect to pick her up and it came off as she was trying to run.

Im upset at myself because I usually have a good handle on her and I just didnt in that moment. We were outside training and doing desensitization work while hubby worked on his motorcycle. The other dog was a little too close for her current threshold.

She’s made a ton of improvement over the last year and I hope thus doesnt set her baxk. I accidentally stepped on her paw in the chaos ans she let out this awful screech. But thankfully she stopped trying to run.

I feel like a bad dog mom in these moments. I think she looks mean to other people, but she’s scared. She’s always scared. She shivers and hides herself in the bathroom in the mornings because of rhe trash truck, she pulls her ears together and tucks her tail and sometimes pees herself when a person walks by and startles her. She barks and lunges at dogs but runs away from them when they stand their ground.

I dont need her to be the type of dog that we take on trips or to the dog park. I just want hee to be able to potty outside without it being this scary experience every time.

She was enjoying today. She was happy and playful And then I fucking unclipped her leash somehow and that was the end. She was shaking as I was carrying her inside. Her ears are still pulled back 😞

[persephoneflouwers]

You know, sometimes I’m like ‘no Louis can’t really bring me so much comfort. You’re just a sucker for him’.

And well yes sure, but then he writes “you’ll be okay, we can talk tomorrow, i’m on my way, I’ll knock on your door it will save me from calling. I wont say a word, it can wait til the morning. Look at the horizon does it make you feel small?”

Like that shit is exactly what I need to hear when I’m on my low.

My Comfort person forever. Nobody can compare. They shouldn’t even try.

[socaito]

"The very cup of trembling"

Francis: Hey wait up, wont you!

Delilah: Oh god it's you again. What is it today, dude?

Francis: Someones pissy today. Not the usual response, but I just wanted to say hi. Better me than your ex though, right? Isn't that what you always look over your shoulder for in the halls?

Delilah: Dick move for real, but okay. Valid. I am okay, how are you?

Francis: See that wasn't so hard was it? I am also okay, been stressed with classes myself. How are you doing with classes?

Delilah: Ugh don't get me started I'll start yelling and I hate yelling at you specifically.

Francis: To be honest, seeing how hard you work I think you'll be fine. Did you plan on doing that extra credit?

Delilah: Well how are yours I hate talking about me, you're way more of a topic to discuss I do enjoy hearing your leisurely fears.

Francis: Haha, you're funny. I also have very real fears, and very real essays due next week, but I'm fine.

Delilah: Can I ask you a question?

Francis: Yeah of course, always.

Delilah: Do I look like shit? Like do I actively need to go home and hide under a blanket or do I just need a vibe check and probably a bowl?

Francis: The latter is for sure the answer you need to tell yourself. You always look good to me.

Delilah: Why is that true? To you? I mean I don't have my cute straight hair or cute girl clothes on.

Francis: You meet me halfway some days, and you run past me all days I mean I can never catch up to those curls of yours. You never need anything more than pants and a shirt on, and if those are gone I think I would give you my pair so the police wouldn't fine you for indecency.

Delilah: Maybe I like how you always have little stains on your pants.

Francis: Is that so? Well you are never supposed to wash denim unless they smell bad and have excessive stains to ensure pant longevity.

Delilah: Alright alright I learn something new every day. But I really meant I just like how you are the main character of our class, and I get to see a little more stains every time you wear those ones specifically. Maybe I notice more than most because I like to look at you.

Francis: What you really like to do is study me until I make eye contact with you. You're literally like a squirrel around me.

Delilah: Since when was that a bad thing?

Francis: Maybe I like feeding squirrels raisins and nuts.

Delilah: Stop yourself before you start and tell me why you really stopped me before I head to the library. Class at 6 so I'll be writing it til then.

Francis: I guess I didn't know how to ask you to go to the extra credit seminar with me. I think you would enjoy it.

Delilah: Maybe I'll like it more if you sit next to me and let me tell you the funny jokes I'm telling myself while I pick apart the speaker's arguments in real time.

Francis: So that's a yes?

Delilah: That is a "formally invite me actually.

Francis: Will you go to the seminar with me tomorrow?

Delilah: Uh fuck yeah. I mean sure. Sounds exciting

Francis: That makes me really happy. I'm looking forward to it.

Delilah: Haha, I am so glad I could put a smile on your face today. Now scram before I ask for a hug.

Francis: Can I give you a hug? I might need one too.

Delilah: Yeah of course. Thank you for asking.

[nilisntgreat]

Listen, because I’m tired of fighting about this. But you DID replace her. It doesn’t matter why or what the circumstances are, when you claim to love someone you don’t enter a new relationship within a week of the other person being gone. You did it to me too. And yes, I admit I focused on the bad a lot with you, but Nil, you did ALOT to me. Stuff that will take years for me to get over. And maybe I did the same to you too but I don’t have to forgive you. I don’t owe you that. You always made me feel second best and even right here at the end, when I was giving you a second chance, you betrayed my trust with her and acted like it was all okay because all you cared about was her. And it showed me that, it didn’t matter if I forgave you or not, you’d always make me second. A mistake Nil? Is forgetting a birthday. A mistake is something you only do once. What you did isn’t a mistake, it’s a pattern. That’s why I didn’t forgive you.

But, I will. Maybe not today. Or tomorrow but one day I will. And it’ll be for me. Hopefully you won’t treat Merc the same as you did with us because nobody deserves to feel like wasted effort.

I really do wish you the best.

P.S. just so you know, she was never done with you. I’m pretty positive she was forced into it/guilted into it but she never wanted to admit it. So, there’s that.

Look, i know when i am trying to replace some, sunstone. trust me, i've tried to do it and stop myself. i am not replacing Roxy or You I am going to pressume i don't have to forgive you as well, i don't owe you that. *chuckles* you even deleted what i said in that ask. You've always made me feel second, even if you put me first. i've put you first, told you and let you even hurt me, you forget every time. we've had repeative conversations. you put me first and i was the intruder, i am your regret. they are yours. dabi. cher. i made you second. i tried to be better, i've said sorry but only to get push aside. hell, i confronted you and only to be turned down i did it again with roxy got the same response Pretty sure you've forgotten all about it til i said something about. I honestly tried to change, but you anyways say i hurt you. you and that you are disappointed in me and than turn away. only to look back and tell me that i disappointed you even more. i honestly thought that once i've disappointed you three times, you'd stop biting at me for every little thing, i believe you've given up on me. i tell you what was going on at the time, but the deed still stays. i've said it so many time, i've told you again and again and you just stare and ask why. you even bring up the birthday bit even though you said it was silly and you shouldn't have done that fit you had. sunshine, you know once you said you forgave me, only for me to feel so betrayed that you hang it over my head again. you once offer to clean the slate. i highly doubt you could do that, alba. and i don't want a reply. i am just tried of this situation and done with all the emotional baggage that i know wont go away anytime soon Make no mistake, i am planning to do do much better on him. and leave him out of this mess. As for Roxy, she might've not wanted to give up on me but i can't do much, i am not throwing Merc away.

[hobblt]

Me watching the marvel movies for the first time: have I actually already seen this movie or did I just see gifs on tumblr?

[mueritos]

more about possible autism thoughts...

i didnt mention it til now but my last therapy appt went kind of weird. it was obvious that my therapist doesnt have a well rounded knowledge on autism, and her examples were of the “low functioning”, and she kept saying that I would be “high functioning” and therefore dont have autism/autistic traits. again, she was using very outdated terms and language that ive learned from autistic folks to be generally frowned upon. having functioning labels pushed on to me, along side not really getting a word in to what i was feeling, make me feel like there was no point in even trying to bring up the autistic traits i related to. im still struggling to understand myself and why now its all catching up to me, the anxiety and the sensory issues ive had, the social exhaustion and irritability...wouldn’t it have been more productive to talk about the reasons why i felt connected to autistic experiences rather than go through every way i dont? or, at the very least, why my therapist thinks I dont despite me feeling like the person i am in office is highly curated just for that social context.

sigh. either way, she gave me hw to keep track of my symptoms or things I notice to b more autistic but like. man that whole session really turned me off. now i dont even want to keep figuring this out with her if its just going to be weird. and im not even saying that i know for sure that i have autism! i just wanted a session that felt safe and welcoming to question myself based on my own experiences. and it just wasnt. which is weird because i never had an issue with her til now.

anyway. my classes started today but i didnt have any actual classes until tomorrow. and i like school, i really do, but now that im more aware of my sensory issues and my social needs, im starting to feel more anxiety than dread. like how loud will spaces be? will i let myself rock in public? will i have time to transition better between classes and social events? its just mostly anxiety about going outside and being seen. idk, it freaks me out. wear a mask and feel good that no ones looking at my face, or get stared at for wearing one when everyone else isnt. idk idk it all just sucks in my brain rn and maybe it wont be as bad. but i really dont like this limbo im in. I love being alone and i really crave it more than ever, but what if its more anxiety than social exhuastion? but i still get exhuasted even after being with people all day, especially if i dont have my low sensory hours. idk idk ughhh its just so frustrating trying to understand myself, especially because now i feel weird about going back to therapy. i wud appreciate any insight or tips for how to regulate better <3

[flockofdoves]

my day was like . awful stuff sandwiching a really nice time with friends

this was also after the frustration with medical care and trying to be able to hear normally again this morning

got in a car accident. id never done anything beyond bumping a car while parking before so that was really scary and i think will be shaking up me while im driving for a while. both me and the other person are totally fine and so does their car and mine just had my license plate have a bolt fall off so its crooked and bent a bit

but i just feel really awful and was so shakey earlier. my car has a bad transmission so sometimes if it gets stuck in a low gear when im merging onto a road or getting to speed after being stopped i have to really push on the gas for a second so i can make sure that cars behind me wont be at risk of hitting me

so i did that while turning right from my apartments driveway onto the one lane highway its right off of. but like 500 ft ahead of that there was a car and by the time i realized it was stopped and really pressed down on the breaks i still ended up hitting it (i also dont think my ABS started? which is a bit concerning i should look into that. but maybe my memory is being weird) and after getting out of the car i was like ‘oh my god im so sorry this is all my fault’ and also admitted fault when the cop came and gave the person my info but they didnt give me theirs.

and like. it definitely was the vast majority my fault i should have paid better attention and reacted quicker

but also the more i think about it like. this person said to the cop ‘i had my warning lights on to pick up food from the restaurant across the street’. in the moment hearing that i was like. oh my god how did i not see their warning lights and just think they were a moving car im so stupid’ but now i wonder like. maybe they didnt even have them on? literally no way to know and regardless i shouldve been more aware of my surroundings. but also like. regardless of if warning lights were on and that im responsible for the accident after the fact thinking about it im like. why the hell would you stop with your warning lights on in a one lane each direction road with a high speed limit just to pick up food when the restaurant to the left literally has a parking lot. wild choice to make.

also freaked out for a bit bc i didnt have my up to date insurance policy but ig its still the same i just had a print out from before it was renewed a couple months ago but nonetheless panicked in the moment

and then the cop said to go online to find the accident report so i did that right when i got home but it said it required a nonrefundable $20 fee to just search for a report with whatever info you filled out and no opportunity to give multiple options for what to search. and then after i promptly did that assuming hopefully since he told me to do it right after i got home its 90 day meant that it would update me over the next few months. but no lmao i got this email right after. feeling like the joker

ig time to either continually pay $20 to do this promptly or call the police departments office which is closed til tuesday and i bet has hours similar to when ill be in work

oh also after id eased a bit at driving by being with friends in the car on me and my gfs way back from dropping off a friend at night then a cop in a nearby town pulled me over on an empty road like ‘your plate is crooked also your license plate light on the back is burnt out’ and the second part is likw. literally im from out of state as you can see on my license plates can you even enforce that here i didnt think that was a thing in every state and no ones ever pulled me over for it before

i was planning on going to drive 2.5 hours to rhide island tonight and then 2.5 back tomorrow to go see family since i have a long weekend at work and my brother and mom just got back to rhode island but obvs not doing that tonight now. i wanted to sleep on it to feel less shaken up about everything. but now after i got pulled over im not even sure about tomorrow. i guess that was my warning so i might get a ticket or whatever if i dont find out how to fix all that stuff asap :(

[ellohcee]

Call Me

Okay so I want to throw this little bit out into the universe of one of my favorite instances of Jasper I've written. Context: He's a host for a dinky late night radio show and he has like... 10-15 listeners max and David is one of them, a college student who Can’t Sleep even between classes and his job, so he’s up late late listening to Jasper’s show. He calls in sometimes because Jasper is always offering advice and encouraging people to call in and chat, specifically about LGBTQ topics and David finds comfort and encouragement in their chats. They’ve been talking for a while but he still goes by the name Red. 

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“Alright you night owls, this next one goes out to my long lost buddy, Red.”

David looked up at the radio in surprise, his pencil stilling on the page.

“It’s been a while since we’ve heard from ya and we miss you dude. And I’m gonna get hella gay up in here, but that’s on brand for me, I miss you.”

David’s breath caught in his throat painfully, his heart hammering.

“So I hope you catch this, give us a call, let me know how you’re doing buddy I’m dyin’ here, don’t leave me hanging. Cause I’ve got a question for you and you wont know what until you gimme a ring. Yes I’m gonna be that guy. So call. Please.”

The music picked back up, and true to Jasper’s word, Blondie’s Call Me started playing.

The pencil had slipped from his fingers without realizing as David tried to decipher all of that, especially that last, sincere please. Jasper missed his calls? Maybe he was just worried because David had dropped off so suddenly. It had just been too nerve wracking once he realized he was crushing on the radio host. But what could Jasper possibly want to ask him? Was it good or bad?

He was still nervous and the idea of calling in downright terrified him now, but… he at least owed it to Jasper to let him know he was alive. It must have looked bad, for him to be consistently calling about once a week and then suddenly stop with no warning, going on nearly two months of silence now. Jasper was always so nice and seemingly happy to talk to him, he must be worried. Gosh, now he had to call, he felt terrible.

David had to take several steadying breaths and about twenty good minutes to work up the nerve, but he managed to eventually press call, hands shaking as he listened to the phone ring.

“What’s up caller you’re live, how’s it hangin?”

“Um, hi...” he said quietly.

He heard a soft intake of air and a shuffle. “That you Red?” Jasper asked, sounding hopeful, the excited smile evident in his voice.

“Y-yes, it’s me,” David replied.

“Aw, buddy, good to hear your voice again man, I was gettin’ worried bout you.”

“I’m so sorry I- just- life, you know?” David hedged, feeling even more guilty because he couldn’t give an honest explanation.

“I feel that, it’s cool dude, it’s just good to hear from ya. I assume you heard my call out?”

David’s heart started beating faster, so, so antsy. If it weren’t for the guilt of worrying Jasper he probably wouldn’t have had the guts to call, but he could still be a wreck about it, easily. “Yes, I did. You... had a question?”

“Yeah! You don’t mind me askin’ live?”

“Um, sure, that’s fine,” David said nervously. It couldn’t be too bad if it was something Jasper could ask on air. Right?

“Sweet. So. Last we talked your rough waves from the coming out thing were settling. You found a boyfriend yet?” the radio host asked casually.

David eyebrows shot up in surprise, his face going so very red and he was so very grateful this was a phone call, not in person because that would make it ten times worse. “Um- n-no, I- I haven’t… um, no,” he stammered uselessly. Why was this the topic??

“Awesome!” Jasper said in delight, leading to an awkward pause. “Wow fuck that sounded hella mean I am so sorry, I didn’t mean it like that. Cheese and crackers, foot in mouth Jasp, good one. Anyway! I just meant because- like, stop me if this is too weird, or hang up on me, but I was wondering if I could like… take ya on a date?”

David’s heart stopped in surprise, the blush that had just started receding coming back full force. His stomach whirled in a mix of dread and excitement, trying to go one way or the other as his brain stalled for a good long moment-

“Red?”

David sucked in a breath. “Is- are you- are you serious?” he asked softly, trying to keep his voice from shaking.

“Course dude!! I wouldn’t fuck around with you like that, hell no! I’m for super serious!”

“But… we’ve- you- you don’t even know what I look like,” David stammered, trying to find reason to turn him down, but so, so desperately wanting to say yes. He felt stupid for saying it the second it left his mouth, Jasper didn’t seem at all the type to place a lot of importance on appearances.

“I don’t need to! I’m sure you’re rad as hell, but I’m not a looks guy, okay? I like your personality, and I love shootin the shit with you, and you’re super nice. That’s the kinda stuff I’m into, and if you’re hella cute, which I’m sure you are, that’s a bonus!”

David stared down at his desk for a long moment, his thoughts a mess, one hand over his mouth as he took this all in. He had to take a moment to pinch the soft skin on the inside of his arm to decide that this was really happening and he hadn’t passed out at his desk into some dream where his crush happened to reciprocate-

“Reeeddd?” Jasper teased softly after another long pause, bringing him out of his panic spiral. “No pressure my dude, you can say no.”

“Yes,” David blurted shakily.

“Yeah??” Jasper asked, his voice picking up in obvious excitement and relief, despite his apparent brace for a rejection. “For real?”

“Y-yes, I’d… I’d like to,” David said softly, his face still red.

“Aw man, awesome, shit. Okay uh- no PI on air so uh- I go off air at 3, you’re usually up pretty late, yeah? Think you’ll be around?”

“Yes, I should be.”

“Supes, call back when you hear me sign off and we’ll hash stuff out, okay? Or at least do personal numbers to talk during the day.”

“O-okay,” David stammered, his mind whirling. “I’ll do that.”

“Sweet. Okay man, you sound a little wigged out so I’ll let you get back, and I will be counting the minutes til sign off,” Jasper teased.

“Okay, um, talk to you later? Bye.”

“Ta-ta for now!” Jasper sung.

David disconnected the call, his pulse still racing as he listened to Jasper on the radio once more, turning the volume back up just in time to hear.

“Oh my god, wack, holy shit you guys he said yes- fuck he’s probably listening and I sound like a giant goober- hi Red! Okay, anymore callers before we go back to music? Holy shitballs.”

A quick, incredulous laugh escaped his mouth before David could stifle it, his chest swirling with fear and elation. Jasper- Jasper had asked him on a date- and he sounded just as rattled as David felt. That helped a little to know it wasn’t just him- Jasper had just been loads better keeping a cap on his nerves while they were talking.

“You’re up caller!”

David came back from his thoughts when he heard a familiar voice, one of Jasper’s other regular callers.

“Oooooh Jasper asked a boy on a daaatteee~” she teased in delight.

“I know oh my god dude I’m still weak from it, I didn’t wanna mess up with Red but I like… really want to meet him and take him out, especially once he stopped calling? And no offense Red if you’re still there it’s TOTALLY cool cause that woke my ass up! Holy shit I still can’t believe he said yes.”

David listened all throughout the rest of Jasper’s show, all thoughts of homework lost as he leaned his elbows on the desk, hands clasped in front of his mouth. Anticipation made his nerves spike again while sitting through Jasper’s familiar sign off, where he bid goodnight to his listeners and started the after hours playlist. David waited a minute before taking a deep, deep breath and pressing the call button.

It rang only once before the line picked up, and a hopeful voice answered. “Red?”

“H-hi Jasper,” he replied.

“Hey dude! Hey, sorry to put you on the spot like that but- y’know, I figured it would be less creepy to everyone to just be upfront and ask you, instead of being like ‘hey call me after hours hoohoo wink wink,’ ya dig?”

David stifled a giggle, smiling. “I understand. It probably would’ve made me more nervous to have to wait that long, wondering what your question was,” he admitted.

“That too! I wanted to just… put it out there, figured it’d be best. So! You’re really cool with going on a date?”

“Yes, I… I’d like that. To meet you,” he added softly, flushed.

“Rad, okay, nice. So let’s just exchange numbers for tonight? I know you might not sleep anyway but it’s friggen late and I don’t want to keep either of us up too long.”

“That sounds good, I don’t want to keep you up either,” David replied. He gave his number first when Jasper gave the go-ahead, listening to the other man hum as he typed it into his phone, and a few moments later David heard a buzz near his ear.

“I just shot you a text so you have my number and can add me.”

“Got it,” David replied, pulling the phone away briefly to see a text notification at the top of the screen, a short string of peace sign emojis that made him smile.

“Awesome sauce. Well- shit, I’m really excited but again, we can talk later. Try to get some sleep, okay dude?” he asked, sounding genuinely concerned and losing his usual casual tone. “I worry bout you.”

David smiled, touched by the thought. “I’ll try.”

“Okay, I’ll text you sometime tomorrow- today, whatever, much later. Give you a chance to snooze. Night Red, and thanks for- you know. Thanks. Night!”

“Goodnight Jasper, and thank you too,” he replied softly.

“No prob, catch ya later.”

David pulled the phone away and ended the call, his heart still hammering as he tried to comprehend everything. But he decided to pack it away for later, turning off the radio and closing the long abandoned textbook. Hopefully he could get a few hours of sleep and be a tiny bit more composed when he next spoke with Jasper.

Doubtful, but it was a nice thought.

[booksfromblackwood]

Is anyone still around in this fandom? If so, I thought I’d post the first chapter of an old fic that I re-wrote last year! Let me know if anyone’s still around, and if you’d be interested in reading more! Hope everyone reading this has a great day! :)

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Three Days Before The Disappearance

.Sam.Giddings. added josh_wash, ashleeeeey, xXGamerChrisXx, TheOriginalMatt, HanButterfly, BethWash, Mike_Munroe, EmilyD_, and _Jess.Riley_ to the chat.

.Sam.Giddings. named the chat Info For Tomorrow.

.Sam.Giddings.: Hey guys! Just to keep everyone updated on our travel plans for tomorrow! I know it's going to be a long day for everyone so it's vital we stick to the plan and stay in our groups where possible!

ashleeeeey: Okie-doodle!!

TheOriginalMatt: How are you so organised, Sam? You're a lifesaver!

HanButterfly: Hi!!

BethWash: trust sam to be more prepared than those of us organising the trip lol

xXGamerChrisXx: Since when was 'okie-doodle' a thing?

EmilyD_: Thanks Sam x

xXGamerChrisXx: And thanks so much, sam!

.Sam.Giddings.: So quick reminder of everyone's groups:

_Jess.Riley_: I'm stoked!!

ashleeeeey: That's rich coming from someone whose username is xXGamerChrisXx! :P

.Sam.Giddings.: Ash, Chris, Matt, and myself will start the journey first tomorrow morning.

xXGamerChrisXx: You wound me!

Mike_Munroe: Thanks for the plan, Sam!

TheOriginalMatt: Excited to see everyone tomorrow! This is going to be a killer weekend for sure!!

.Sam.Giddings.: Em, Mike, and Jess, you guys are next.

ashleeeeey: You're so dramatic!! XD

Mike_Munroe: Team Two here we go!!

xXGamerChrisXx: Made you smile, though! ;-)

josh_wash: what about us

.Sam.Giddings.: I'm just getting to that!

ashleeeeey: True :)

xXGamerChrisXx: You guys are already there and are therefore irrelevant! :P

.Sam.Giddings.: Han, Beth, and Josh, you guys are there already!

josh_wash: thanks cochise i feel so appreciated

BethWash: lol thanks chris

Mike_Munroe: So, what are we all up to?

BethWash: i found cake

xXGamerChrisXx: Browsing reddit like a nerd XD

ashleeeeey: Listening to Sam's rundown of tomorrow unlike sOmE pEoPlE *coughcoughChris*

EmilyD_: Honestly just packing my final things with Jess. Mike's mostly watching the TV.

xXGamerChrisXx: :-(

.Sam.Giddings.: So, tonight we should all make sure our bags are packed and that we have our passports and tickets ready!! Set your alarms for the right times (depending on your group) and make sure to sleep early too (especially if you're in my group since tomorrow will be an early start for us)!

ashleeeeey: :)

TheOriginalMatt: 5am gang where we AT?

HanButterfly: Beth where are you rn? Because I want some of that cake!!

.Sam.Giddings.: So Team One (myself, Chris, Ash, and Matt), we need to be up by 5:00am and be ready by 5:30am for the taxi to the airport!! Matt and Chris, yours is going to be at Chris' place at 5:24 for some reason so make sure to be ready!!

BethWash: the lodge kitchen bcos where else would there be cake han lol

.Sam.Giddings.: We'll meet up at the airport when we arrive! Once we re-group, we'll check in, probably eat some breakfast whilst we wait, and then catch the 8:30 plane!!

TheOriginalMatt: Sweet!

ashleeeeey: Can't wait! :)

josh_wash: yo matt you surviving the puns

.Sam.Giddings.: Team Two - you guys don't have to be up until around 9:00am since your taxi is at 9:20 and then your plane is at 11:30!

HanButterfly: Josh would you like me to save you some cake before we eat it all? :)

EmilyD_: We'll need a little longer than 20 minutes to all get ready but sure x

TheOriginalMatt: Just about! Myself and Chris have mostly been playing on his PS4 so I've been distracting myself with that! XD

josh_wash: yes please!

josh_wash: i feel for ya bro, a whole evening with chris' puns can prove fatal

josh_wash: you die of cringe

Mike_Munroe: Poor ol' Chris XD

.Sam.Giddings.: Once we arrive and get our bags, we need to catch the 2:30pm train and then the 4:20 bus! After that we have to take the 5:40 bus (I sent you guys screenshots of the route yesterday) and get off at Blackwood Pines ready for our hike up the mountain (with a little help from the cable car, of course)!

xXGamerChrisXx: I'm being BULLIED guys :(

ashleeeeey: Aw, poor Chris! :P

josh_wash: jk XD

TheOriginalMatt: I like how Sam's still here typing all we need to know whilst we're talking about cake and puns XD

.Sam.Giddings.: Team Two, you guys need to catch either the 5:30pm or the 6:00pm train depending on when your stuff arrives. After that you'll need to get the 7:50 bus and then the 8:40 bus to Blackwood Pines (you have to specify you want it to stop there or the driver won't stop) before you head up. Remember to lock the cable car station once you get in, Mike!

josh_wash: oh gosh tHE CAKE

Mike_Munroe: Gotcha' Sam!

HanButterfly: No worries, Josh! I managed to save most of it from Beth!

BethWash: rip my chance at a third slice of cake

_Jess.Riley_: Really, thanks Sam! We're all packed and ready to go! Xx

HanButterfly: It's really going to be such an awesome weekend! I can't wait :D

ashleeeeey: Thank you so much for inviting me! I've never been on something like this before!! :D

TheOriginalMatt: Yeah, thank you so much guys! I can't wait either, Han!!

.Sam.Giddings.: Have we got rooms sorted out for the lodge, guys?

BethWash: ash take the plans away from sam so she can have time to relax lol

EmilyD_: I'm with Mike in the room away from everyone like agreed right x

ashleeeeey: I'm trying but she won't let me! XD

HanButterfly: I mean if needs be we can sort out rooms once we're here! If not maybe we just sort out the first night rooms since it'll be fairly late when everyone arrives and then we can adjust them as needed as the trip goes on!

BethWash: lol poor sam will be up all night organising at this rate

.Sam.Giddings.: Sounds good, Han!

Mike_Munroe: Great idea, Hannah!

BethWash: em, yours and mike's room (upstairs guest) may not be ready first night so is it possible for you to share a room with jess til we get a chance to sort it out tomorrow?

EmilyD_: That's fine, hon. Thank you again for the trip and for letting us use the upstairs guest room x

josh_wash: how about for the first night emily and jess share beth's room and then beth sam and han go in hannah's room

josh_wash: mike can go to the small room downstairs if he's alright w/ that and matt can room w/ me

xXGamerChrisXx: Yo dude you forgot ash

ashleeeeey: It's alright, Chris! I can find somewhere!

EmilyD_: Ash you're honestly lovely but I'd kinda' like to be with either Jess or Mike if that's alright xx

ashleeeeey: No problem, Emily! I wouldn't want to intrude! :)

EmilyD_: Knew you'd understand xx

josh_wash: why dont you and ash share a room cochise

xXGamerChrisXx: I thought I was rooming with you and matt?

josh_wash: bro please just think for a minute here

ashleeeeey: I'm not sure.

xXGamerChrisXx: Beth, han, and sam, is there any room with you guys?

ashleeeeey: I'm really sorry to be a bother!!

.Sam.Giddings.: Of course you can room with us, Ash! We'd love to have you with us! :)

BethWash: im with sam

HanButterfly: Of course!!

xXGamerChrisXx: Thank you to the only valid washington kids right now!

josh_wash: -_-

xXGamerChrisXx: I see what you're doing, josh. ha ha, we've had our laugh, now please stop before this weekend.

Mike_Munroe: Rough subject, huh?

josh_wash: bro chill you know i was just joking

ashleeeeey: I'm really sorry!! Please don't get upset with each other!

xXGamerChrisXx: No ash it's alright! i promise i'm not actually mad! :-)

josh_wash: he acts mad over text to get his point across but he literally just sits there with a blank expression irl XD

TheOriginalMatt: Is Sam still there, Ash? Haven't heard from her in a while!

TheOriginalMatt: Gotta check up on my plane buddy for tomorrow!!

_Jess.Riley_: Did you guys get window seats or middle isle seats? I got a middle isle and the others got a window!

BethWash: she hasn't drowned in her notes has she lol

TheOriginalMatt: We got two sets of window seats! Though I don't know which of us is actually going to be at the window and which one will be window isle!

ashleeeeey: She's just brushing her teeth! Her mom came in and brought us a load of vegan snacks for the trip tomorrow and now I'm even more excited!!

ashleeeeey: Speaking of which, I'm probably going to head to sleep in a minute! Though I'm not sure how much I'll actually get since I'm so excited!!! :)

xXGamerChrisXx: Sleep well, ash. see you in the morning :-)

ashleeeeey: Night, Chris :)

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_Jess.Riley_: Well that was cute!

xXGamerChrisXx: People say goodnight to eachother! that's a normal human interaction!

_Jess.Riley_: You know full well it's cute when it's you two

.Sam.Giddings.: Ash told me she logged out so I came to say goodnight!

josh_wash: w/ jess on this one bro

HanButterfly: Goodnight, Sam!

BethWash: night sam!

josh_wash: dont let the bedbugs bite!

TheOriginalMatt: See you bright and early tomorrow!!

.Sam.Giddings.: See you at the airport/lodge, guys!

xXGamerChrisXx: Night!

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BethWash: its cute because you like eachother chris

xXGamerChrisXx has left the chat.

HanButterfly: Aww, don't tease the poor guy!

TheOriginalMatt: Chris says goodnight, as do I! Can't wait to see you all tomorrow!

BethWash: night guys!

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josh_wash: night!

Mike_Munroe: Make sure to save me a slice of that cake, Han! I gtg!

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HanButterfly: Goodnight Mike :)

EmilyD_: We'd best be off too. See you all in the morning.

_Jess.Riley_: Night x

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BethWash: night

HanButterfly: Goodnight x

josh_wash: night xxxxxxyzqvp

_Jess.Riley_: Ha ha, very funny. Get that one from Chris?

josh_wash: lol night

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BethWash: PLEASE can i have some more cake, han?

josh_wash: you guys can literally just talk if you wanted

HanButterfly: Nope! Gotta' save some for Mike~

BethWash: you wont shut up about that for the rest of the evening now, will you?

BethWash: lol

HanButterfly: :P

josh_wash: you guys gossip in the kitchen

josh_wash: imma head to bed

BethWash: night bro

HanButterfly: Sleep well!

josh_wash has left the chat.

BethWash: please?

HanButterfly: No :P

BethWash: ugh night sis

HanButterfly: Night, Beth! XD

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[ivyuns]

love me in a year ✰❆♣♞

bang chan

genre: angst, fluff 

word count: 2.4k

warnings: kidnapping, restraints, y/n gets pregnant, grinding, drowning, weapons, a bit suggestive. if i missed anything lol oops

A/N: another shet show + from 365 dni (the ending isnt exactly like the movie btw)

for my gurlieeeee + happy birthday to @stanstraykidswoo​ <3

masterlist

mafialeader!bangchan x fem!reader

enjoying the summer breeze on the islands of hawaii, next to your friend made you feel relaxed. from all the work and stress you did, you finally earned yourself a vacation.

“babe!”

opening your eyes, you see your boyfriend (in a unhappy relationship) walks towards you. taking off your glasses and sitting up next to the pool, waiting what your boyfriend had to tell you. “i just got back from seeing the volcanoes babe! you shouldve seen it-” “we were supposed to go look at it together, dumbass” you cut your boyfriend off.

“w-wait y/n-” running away before he said anything, you got lost in a dark area. wasnt just sunny? seeing a group of guys look at you while trying to come closer. damn these outfits. your outfit consist of a short flowy, off the shoulder dress with heels. running with shaky legs, you looked around and saw everything get dark.

“are you lost babygirl?”

waking up in a soft bed, you look over and look at the unfamiliar room youre in. “where am i?” you whispered softly. walking towards a door to the hallway, the door wont budge open. shaking the door knob, it still wont burst open. giving up, you go lay back down on the bed.

closing your eyes to relax, you hear the door unlocking. quickly putting on your heels, you open the door and see nobody. following to which ever door took you, it seem endless. the endless numbers of stairs and doors you went though, you came across to a massive painting of a portrait of yourself hanging on the dinning room’s wall.

“oh my god”

continuing to follow where your legs take you, you were yanked away from seeking to your freedom. “are you lost babygirl?”. feeling someones presence behind you, you see a man. someone who you never seen.

“who are you and what do you want from me” you say and slowly back away from him. “chris is the name. you see, five years ago, i saw you on a beach. then suddenly i got shot and all i could think was you. these pass five years, ive been trying to find you and now” chris pauses his sentence and walks to a cup of ice, making you suck on it. “now i have you”

spitting the ice out, you got angry. “so what? you think kidnapping me is some kind of way to have me?” chris gets angry after your tone of your voice you gave him. he pushes you on a chair and chokes you lightly.

“i will give you 365 days to make you fall in love with me. and if that doesnt work, i will release you.” chris slowly lets go of your neck and continues talking. “i promise i will not touch you without your permission.”

chris gets interrupt by his phone. reaching his pocket, he sees his mafia friend who works with him calling him for help in the front. running to where to meet him at, you gave a few minutes before running on your feet again, trying to escape.

finally outside with a big open field in front of you, where you will be free. running, you stop midway as you see chris kill a man. witnessing what happened, you pass out due to pressure from everything.

-

the next morning, you wake up in the same room before but a whole different dress on you and a shirtless chris sitting in a chair in front of you. “let me out of here now” you shouted at him. “i need to get back to my family, my boyfriend!”. “you really think he still loves you? take a look at this” chris says and throws a small stack of pictures. pictures of him fucking another girl.

“a-are you serious?”

“yes im serious. oh and we’ll be leaving this place tomorrow. be ready” chris says and exits the room. “where are we going?” you quickly grab his wrist and stops. “to australia”

landing and going to the hotel. chris stops you and gives you the keycard to your room. “my room is next to yours if you need me”. nodding your head a yes, you enter your room and place your bags down and sighed. what is happening right now.

chris walks out of his room to see you look like a goddess. “y/n” chris calls out. turning around, chris grins with his dimples showing and grabbing your hand to head to the place you two are meeting with. chris opens the passenger door for you and makes his way to the drivers seat after youre in. while driving, he places his hands on your thigh, making you want more of him. avoiding his hand, you close your eyes.

arriving at your destination, it turns out to a bar. entering the bar, chris leads you to a room. seeing people, you hide behind chris bc youre antisocial as fuck

“y/n, this is aeyeong. ayeong meet-” “y/n. yes i know her name” aeyeong says, looking at you then back to chris, seducing him. “you know y/n, me and chris used to talk.” walking up to you. “and fucked each other” aeyeongs whispers into your ear. feeling chris wrap his hands around yours, you push him away and left the room.

“this happened a long time ago-” feeling tense, chris was about to turn and find you til aeyeong grabbed his wrist. “i thought you said we would last forever hm? took you long enough to find her. even of all our messages.” aeyeong grabs her phone and pulls up their naked bodies in photos. sexting.

“enough aeyeong.” chris grabs her phone and throws it onto the floor. running out of the room to look for you, leaving aeyeong to laugh.

-

“mr bang!”

chris turns around and sees his partner running to him. “y-y/n. shes with aeyeongs boss. i just got a call from him-” “shut the fuck up and tell me which room” “room 325.”

chris runs to room 325 and sees you grind on the boss. “y/n” chris growls. not paying attention to chris, you feel aeyeong’s boss grope your ass and suddenly putting a knife towards your neck.

suddenly feeling someone pull you away from the man and unable seeing things, chris and the rest of his members pulls out their weapon.

opening your eyes and see yourself on a yacht, you walk around and find chris. seeing chris talk shit about you to his other partner. “she just really had to run away-”

“im sorry chris” you spoke out. chris turns around and tells his partner to leave for a moment. “this is all your fault. youre the one who left the room and potentially tried to seduce him. do you not know what he couldve done?”

arguing on the boat and heading to the railings, you slip off and fall into the water. panicking, chris falls into the water and saves you. taking you out of the water and goes to lay you down on the bed and stands by your side.

a few minutes later, you wake up with water coming out of your mouth, coughing. chris turns around and goes to you with worried eyes. “y/n, i-im sorry. please dont leave me, i need you” chris softly says and strokes your hair with tears starting to fall down his cheeks.

lifting your weak hands up to caress his cheeks, you pushed him down and began kissing him roughly. regretting as soon as you saw the red in his eyes. “so now you want it?” chris growls and begins to attack you with kisses and hickies. feeling your clothes ripped away from you.

a few weeks later, youre back in korea. chris leaves you for the day, saying he has business to attend to and will call you later. but hours flew by and still didnt have any calls. sighing, you call your best friend, minyeong who yells at you though the speakers after the first ring.

“are you kidding me y/n? you cant just leave me behind at hawaii?!”

“i know i know, ill explain if you come over”

after she hears you say the sentence, she hangs up and runs to your place. opening the door for her, she starts speaking nonsense and you just laughing at her.

“y/n, this is serious. stop laughing and tell me what happened.”

sitting down next to her, you tell her everything. even when you love him back. minyeong at first didnt like what chris did to you and what his job it, but you beg her for you to have happiness atlas. with minyeong wanting you to be the happiest, you two go to the bar.

feeling someones eyes on you, you told minyeong you were going to the restrooms as she continues dancing. almost at the door, someone slams you onto the wall. “y/n, baby. i missed you so much. im sorry-” feeling tears streaming as you remember the past events and pictures. you forced him to let go of you and run back to your place.

he follows you back to your apartment without you noticing and as you take a seat with his loud voice scares you. “baby please” he goes closer to you and tries to kiss you until a voice rang.

“im pretty sure she wants you to leave”

he looks at chris then back to you then slaps you. “you fucking whore. youve been cheating on me when you left me didnt you” shaking your head a no and the tears uncontrollably falling as you try to shield yourself from another slap.

receiving nothing, you look up and see chris holding his wrist to prevent him from hitting you. “if theres someone else who was cheating is you. now leave you fucker” chris whispers in his ears and runs away.

chris looks down and sees your shaking figure. he goes next to you and wraps his arms around you so you can start feel calm. reaching to that point, chris picks you up and lays you on the bed.

slowly kissing you from your lips to your chest. chris begins undressing you til you stop him. unbuttoning his top, you see the semi open wound from his business. grazing your fingers over it as you hear chris slightly whimper.

“chris, im in love with you”

chris smiles widely. “im in love with you too”. you two continue the heavy make out which turns into a passionate sex for you both.

waking up with you on chris’ chest, you feel him showing a smile. he turns to the nightstand and grabs something small but worthy.

“y/n l/n, would you please marry me?”

nodding your head yes a bunch of times, you kiss chris on the lips.

-

heading back to hawaii, youre back into the palace where chris kept you in. waking up from your slumber, you go outside and talk to chris. chris sees you and tells his partner that he’ll be right back.

“hey hey babygirl, what happened? you alright?” chris leaves his seat to go to you as you start feeling shitty. “chris, i dont feel goo-” your eyes are shut closed and almost falls on the hard concrete til chris caught you.

“c-changbin! help!” chris yells out to whoever is out. your lips are slowly turning pale. changbin runs to chris with a blanket to cover your cold body and helps him carry you to the car. changbin speeds to the hospital with chris’ tears falling onto you, holding your hands and kissing the back of it. “please be okay, please please” chris whispers.

changbin parks at the emergency lot and chris grabs your body and puts you on the stretcher as the nurses sees you two. “please save her” the nurses all nodded their head and disappeared into the doors with a chris on the floor, sobbing his heart out, praying for you to be okay.

-

finally hours passed by and chris was left alone as he told changbin to go back to the palace. eyes all red and puffy with his legs shaking, full of anxiety. “mr bang?” the doctors call out chris. he stands up too quickly, making him almost loose his balance but the doctor helps him balance for a few seconds. thanking him, he follows the doctor to your room.

chris runs to your side as he sees your eyes open, with all type of wires attached to you. “y/n baby are you okay?”. nodding yes with a small smile, chris looks at the doctor.

“it looks like miss y/n was 1 month pregnant. and also looks like she wasnt taking care of herself either so mr bang, do y/n a favor and help not only her, but the baby”

you and chris nod your head, understanding as the doctor leaves you two. chris turns into his soft self. “i love you” he giggles. “i love you too chris”. scooting further away from him, you pat on the empty spot on the bed for him. chris smiles widely and goes to lay down next to you. you fall asleep from the warmth of your fiance as he hugs you. “and i love you too baby” he whispers and puts his free hand on your growing stomach. kissing your head and falling asleep next to the love of his life.

END <3

[yesmooshoe]

hii! could you do #34 "please don't do this" from the angst/fluff list for ironhusbands? 💖

Whoops, this was supposed to be short but then I wrote 3000 words. WARNING - THERE’S SOME SMUT AT THE END.

Also, you can read it on ao3! Double also, feel free to send me a prompt if you want.

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“Please don’t do this.” Rhodey said through gritted teeth as Tony inched closer and closer to him.

“Do what?” He asked nonchalantly as their shoulders touched.

Rhodey took a deep breath and took a step away from Tony while scanning the crowded Officer’s Mess, hoping that no one saw that. “Touch me.”

“I thought you liked it when I touched you.” Tony said, cocking his head and flashing a smile.

Rhodey could feel his blood pressure rise as he locked eyes with Tony.

He hated this.

He hadn’t seen Tony in 13 months, 12 days, and 41 minutes...not that he was counting. Tony had begged him on multiple occasions to take some time off and come meet him somewhere, even just for a night, but Rhodey hadn’t wanted to risk it. Tony was famous. Someone would have noticed that he was in Frankfurt, someone would have noticed that Rhodey was off-base, someone would have snapped a photo of them buying lube. It was too risky, way too risky.

But this? This was way worse.

Yes, Stark Industries was the main manufacturer of planes for the US Air Force. And yes, there was a brand new cargo plane making its’ debut tomorrow. So in theory, Tony being at Ramstein made perfect sense. Plus, everyone knew that they were friends. But no one, other than maybe Pepper, knew the rest. If anyone found out that he was gay, his entire military career would be over.

“Fine, no touching. Can we at least eat lunch together? I promise I wont fellate you in between bites of powdered mashed potatoes.” Tony teased under his breath.

Of course he wanted to touch him, wanted to hold him, wanted to kiss him. But he also just wanted to talk to him. They were always careful while communicating, knowing that Rhodey’s email and phone conversations weren’t necessarily private. They never said I love you, but they’d found other ways to say and show that over the years. Tony always sent really elaborate and thoughtful care packages whenever Rhodey was overseas, and Rhodey always sent Tony weird souvenirs and postcards whenever he could. Rhodey always closed his letters by reminding Tony to water his plants, and Tony always ended his saying that he hadn’t forgotten. Rhodey didn’t even have any plants, but that was their little way of saying I love you with no one noticing.

“I have a meeting.” Rhodey lied, worried that spending too much time together would raise suspicion. “Just...just come over tonight, ok? After 7.”

Tony looked annoyed, but nodded. It was the same expression he had every time Rhodey signed up for another 4 years, or whenever he told him that he was being transferred or deployed again. They both hated this, but they loved each other and Rhodey loved his job. And Tony never once asked him to stop, so all they could do was hope that one day they’d get rid of that stupid law.

“Fine. See you tonight, Captain.” Tony said as he walked away, heading toward the group of SI employees at the opposite end of the room.

--

Rhodey’s heart was racing again as the clock struck 7, and a million different scenarios started running through his head. What if Tony had done something stupid like buy condoms at the PX? What if someone saw him coming up here? Even worse, what if someone noticed him leaving in the morning? They were friends though, best friends. Everyone knew that they were friends and knew that they’d been roommates for several years at MIT. There was nothing wrong with him coming over and spending the night, right? He’d just tell everyone that they had a few beers and then Tony passed out on the couch. It’d be fine, right?

Suddenly, a knock at the door pulled him from his thoughts. He jumped right up and smoothed his pants out, not wanting to look like a complete mess, and then quickly crossed to the front door of his apartment, which he pulled open to reveal Tony. In one hand he was holding a pizza, and in the other a 12-pack of beer and a shopping bag.

Rhodey smiled at him as he stepped aside and let him in. He stuck his head out in the hallway to see if anyone was around, and once he was confident that the coast was clear he closed the door. Before he knew what was happening, Tony grabbed him, slammed him against the door, and started kissing him. Rhodey gave in immediately, running his hands up Tony’s back and tangling them in his hair.

When they finally broke apart, both breathless, they just stood there for a moment with their foreheads resting against each other.

“Hi.” Tony panted out as his arms settled around Rhodey’s waist.

“Hi. Missed you.” Rhodey said before giving him another peck on the lips.

“Yeah, I’ve missed you too. This has been a long one.”

“Just a few more months ‘til I’m back at Edwards, I promise.”

“Don’t make promises you can’t keep.” Tony said as he pulled away and walked over to the counter where he’d dropped everything.

Rhodey came up behind and wrapped his arms around him, just so happy to be able to hold him again. “Well, we’ve got tonight, ok? I can promise you that.” He said in between pressing soft kisses to Tony’s neck.

Tony turned around and smiled at him, knowing that it would have to do for now. “And it’s going to be a good night indeed, Captain Rhodes.”

“You really like saying that, huh?”

“It’s hot.”

“Mmhmm.” Rhodey chuckled as he nuzzled against him. It’d only been a few weeks since his promotion.

“Oh Captain, my Captain, our night is just beginning, and I promise you it’ll be a wild one.”

“Not too wild, these walls are very thin.”

“Not to worry.” Tony said as he slipped out of his grip and grabbed the plastic bag. “Fear not, for I have rented several movies with lots of explosions that’ll certainly drown out all of your incomprehensible babbling while my tongue is buried deep in your ass in about 15 minutes.”

Rhodey could feel his cheeks getting hot as he looked down at the floor, always getting a bit flustered when Tony said stuff like that to him. “Did anyone see you at the video store? Does anyone know you’re here?”

Tony sighed as he played around with the VCR, which answered Rhodey’s question for him.

“Christ, Tony, who?” Rhodey asked, suddenly feeling anxious again.

“Calm down, ok? Look...Colonel Moore and Major Kirkland wanted to take me out to dinner, but I told them that I was coming over here to get you drunk and maybe beat your ass in Mario Kart a few times.”

“Moore and Kirkland? Tony, I work with them every day you can’t just go around telling everyone - “ Before Rhodey could finish his rant, Tony shut him up with another kiss.

“It’s fine. I promise you it’s fine. No one cares that I’m here, no one is suspicious, ok?” He said softly in between kisses. “I got pizza and shitty beer and even shittier action movies and as far as anyone knows we’re over here like a couple of perfectly normal straight dudes talking about tits and cheering when things explode, ok?”

Rhodey took a deep breath and nodded. That was certainly easy for Tony to say - it wasn’t his career and everything he’d worked for on the line - but he trusted him. “Well hey, I bet you’ll be cheering later when I explode in your ass, so I’m sure we’ll be fine.”

Tony laughed and shook his head while playfully shoving Rhodey towards the bedroom. “That’s the spirit. Now go on, I want you completely naked by the time I’m done putting on this movie to appease your neighbors.”

Rhodey just smiled at him and pulled his shirt off as he rushed into his room. By the time he flopped onto his bed he was completely naked, though he hadn’t been wearing much to begin with. Still, it had to be a record.

He propped himself up on his elbows while laying on his back, and a huge smile spread across his face when Tony finally joined him. They took a moment to just look at each other, and even though the sound of rapid gun fire from whatever movie Tony had put on kept it from being super romantic, much like everything else, it’d do for now.

Tony’s hair was a bit longer than the last time he’d seen him, and it seemed like the goatee was here to stay. He hadn’t been sure about the facial hair at first, missing the baby-faced boy he’d fallen in love with back at school, but it really suited him. “Your hair’s wet, was it raining?” He asked, breaking the silence.

“No, I took a shower. I’m not an animal.” Tony answered while pulling his shirt off and climbing onto the bed and onto Rhodey. He leaned down and kissed him again, though this time it was more soft and more loving.

They spent a while just kissing and letting their hands get reacquainted with each other. Rhodey’s cock was hard now, and pressed up against the annoyingly still-clothed Tony. He wanted more, but he also didn’t want to stop whatever this was. He’d been so starved for attention like this for so long, so he did his best to just enjoy the gentle caresses and the way Tony’s tongue seemed to be exploring every single inch of his mouth, even though he desperately wanted Tony buried inside of him.

Eventually Tony sat up, and Rhodey just smiled as he noticed how red and puffy his lips were from all of the action so far.

“Have you...been with anyone? Since...since last time?” Tony asked quietly while slowly circling around Rhodey’s nipples with his thumbs. They had a sort of open thing, but neither really cashed in on it too much.

“No. Have you?”

“No.”

Rhodey smiled. “I love you, Tony.”

“I love you too. Roll over.” Tony instructed as he shifted to the edge of the bed.

“Yes sir.” Rhodey said as Tony pulled off his pants and boxers, finally releasing his cock.

“Mm, I like when you call me sir.” Tony said as he straddled Rhodey again. “God your ass is amazing. I feel like people don’t tell you that enough, but it really is perfect.”

Rhodey smiled at the compliment, but he was also focused on the gunfire and motorcycles coming from the TV in the next room. For a moment he worried that maybe it was too loud and that the neighbors would complain. That’s all he needed, having to run to the door mid-sex while trying to pull his sweatpants on. He considered stopping to turn it down, but all of the thoughts left his head as he felt Tony spread his ass cheeks apart and slowly run his tongue up his crack.

“Oh fuck.” Rhodey moaned while tightening his grip on the blankets he was clutching. Luckily his bed was against an exterior wall, so he wasn’t worried about being too loud in here. As Tony continued to explore, slowly circling his tongue around the rim and prodding at the hole, Rhodey became painfully aware of how desperate his cock was for attention. It was pinned between his stomach and the bed and he tried to move a bit, but it was impossible with how Tony was holding him down. “Tony please…” He cried out quietly.

“Please what?” Tony asked smugly as he pulled away. He slowly crawled up on top of Rhodey and started grinding his cock against Rhodey’s eager ass. “Come on, what do you want, Sourpatch?”

“I want you.”

“Want me to what?”

“I want you to fuck me. I need you to fuck me.” Rhodey moaned again before Tony pressed a kiss to his cheek.

“Good boy.” He said as he sat up. “Lube?”

“Night stand. Bottom drawer.” Rhodey replied breathlessly, still not quite believing that they were together again.

“Do you want me to use a condom?” He asked as he found all of the supplies.

“No, I trust you.”

“Okay. I trust you too. Ooh, Astroglide! How retro.” Tony almost giggled as he climbed back onto the bed.

Rhodey rolled onto his back and wrapped a hand around his cock, stroking himself slowly as Tony got settled again.

“Hey hey, none of that. I don’t want you cumming before I even get inside of you.” Tony teased as he opened up the bottle and squirted some of the clear liquid in his hand. “You want it like this?”

Rhodey nodded as he let go of his cock. “Yeah. I want to see you.”

Tony just smiled before leaning down to give him a kiss. “Good.”

Rhodey took a deep breath while Tony grabbed a pillow and put it under his back for easier access, and Rhodey just let his legs fall open for him. They locked eyes as Tony’s slick hand found Rhodey’s hole, and stayed that way as Tony worked a finger in and out of him. They kissed more as Tony fingered him slowly, and the sensation of their cocks trapped together between their stomachs was more than enough to make Rhodey start dribbling pre-cum.

“Someone’s excited.” Tony whispered between kisses.

“Just fuck me, please.”

“Aye aye, Captain.” Tony said with a little salute as he sat up and pulled his fingers out of Rhodey’s ass.

Rhodey watched as he grabbed the lube again and slicked himself up, and he braced himself for what was coming next. He sucked in a sharp breath as Tony lined himself up and pushed into his ass slowly, doing his best to relax and take it.

“Fuck!” Rhodey cried out as he arched his back, easily taking Tony’s cock deep inside of him.

“Shh shh.” Tony said as he bottomed out. “Don’t want the Joint Chiefs to hear you. You ok?”

“Yes Tony, this isn’t my first Rodeo. Just shut up and move.”

Tony laughed again as he guided Rhodey legs up to rest on his shoulders. Slowly, he started to move, thrusting in and out of and finding a good rhythm. Rhodey was letting out little gasps with each thrust at first, and as soon as Tony started to pick up the pace he wrapped his hand around his cock and started stroking in rhythm with the thrusts. He forced himself to open his eyes, and he smiled at the determined look on Tony’s face as he loomed over the top of him.

“God Tony, I’m so close. Faster.” He moaned again, gripping at the bad with his free hand. This was all happening a bit faster than Rhodey had hoped, but it had been a while and he was certain he’d last longer on the next round.

Tony started snapping his hips faster, losing his composure as he got closer and closer to the edge. “Fuck, I’ve missed this.” He managed to say before grabbing Rhodey’s hips and slamming him back down on his cock as they both chased release.

They fell silent for a while, but the room was filled with the sounds of skin slapping against skin and a huge series of explosions from the living room.

It was Rhodey who came first, spraying his stomach with an explosion of creamy, white liquid as Tony continued to ride him harder and faster. It was becoming too much for Rhodey, overwhelmed by his own own orgasm. “Fuck, come on Tony. Give me everything.” He chanted through gritted teeth, which seemed to be just enough to push him over.

Tony came with an indistinguishable string of syllables, which he quickly muffled as he continued to thrust, filling Rhodey with everything that he had. They were both panting as Tony finished up and let his cock slip out of him, but despite how out of it Rhodey felt, Tony seemed to have a bit more in mind for this first session.

As Tony caught his breath he leaned down and ran his tongue over Rhodey’s toned stomach, lapping up the streams of cum that were splattered all over him. Rhodey just relaxed as Tony cleaned him up, tugging on his shaggy brown hair as he did. When Tony was done he crawled up and gave Rhodey a kiss, allowing him to taste some of the salty substance that remained on his lips.

“Do you want pizza?” Tony asked after a few moments of silence, which just made both of them laugh.

“You’re ridiculous.” Rhodey said as he playfully shoved Tony off of him.

“What? I’m hungry. And we gotta keep up our stamina. We’ve got 12 hours to make up for 12 months.” Tony teased as he sat up and ran his hands through his hair.

“You need a haircut.”

“Yeah well, I wanted to give you something nice and long to grab onto later when we get really dirty.” Tony said as he stood up.

Rhodey just shook his head. “Fine. But I’m taking you to a barber before you leave. Also, it’s not been 12 months.”

“Hm?”

“It’s not been 12 months. It’s been 13 months, 12 days, 7 hours, and 38 minutes.” He said as another explosion rang out in the living room.

“Oh, and I’m the ridiculous one? Come on, pizza.”

“Tony?” Rhodey called out as he started to leave. He wanted to promise him that they wouldn't go 13 months without seeing each other again. He wanted to promise that he’d be back in California soon. He wanted to promise that he wouldn’t re-up again when the time came.

But he couldn’t, he just couldn’t. He shook his head, vowing to do his best to not dwell on any of that right now. They had tonight, and that was what was important.

Tony was just staring at him, confused by the silence. “Yes?”

“Nothing.  I’m just - I’m sorry.”

Tony walked back over to the bed and held out his hand. “Don’t be, I knew what I was signing up for, ok? Come on, pizza time. And if you’re lucky I’ll let you fuck me next round.” He said as he pulled him up and led him into the kitchen.

“Tell you what. Mario Kart. Loser has to bottom, all right?” Rhodey suggested with a huge smile on his face.

Tony just smiled. “Fine, but I hope you’re ready for me to ride your ass all night, Captain.” He said as he grabbed the box of pizza and headed for the living room.

Again, none of this was ideal. But right now, in this stupid apartment with thin walls in the middle of Germany, everything was perfect.

[kitten-mafiagang]

Beautiful In White [Sakusa x Reader] SongFic

(Sakusa's pov)

Not sure if you know this But when we first met~

At first i never know what 'love' really means,i always see couples in school or in streets and i see alot of physical affections is just- just nevermind aughh..

But it changed when i met (y/n) at the hospital,i met her because i came to my daily check-ups and i saw her walking at the halls with a hospital gown.

"Ms. (l/n),please go back to your room,you know how dangerous your situation is!" the nurse warned her.

"so what?!,do you expect me to be stuck at that stupid room forever?" she exclaimed.

"Please Ms. (l/n) i-" a doctor snuck in to their conversation.

"Nurse Miko,let (y/n) enjoy the outside word,it might help her you know? let her do this.." the doctor smiled.

"F-fine...Here bring this pills incase!" she said.

"Okay,okay" (y/n) said sarcastically.

I got so nervous I couldn't speak In that very moment~

I followed her to the hospital garden and sat beside her the bench.

"H-hey" i break the silence.

"hello...you saw it right?" she said.

I found the one and My life had found its missing piece~

"Why do you stay here in the hospital?" i asked.

"ived been here for 3 years....well how about you?" she asked.

"Oh i came to checked up myself..." i asnwered.

My phone ringed.

"Omi!! we have practice today where are you?!" the loud atsumu shouted through the other line.

"Yeah,yeah im comming!" i answered and ended the call.

"Im going now,nice meeting you" i bowed at her and walked away,and suddenly She pulled my arm.

"p-please visit again...i-i just want company" she said.

"Sure.." i smiled at her and walked away.

So as long as I live I love you Will have and hold you~

Day after day i visit her always having anything i could bring,flowers,food,or anything that can make her company and happy.

"Sakusa,you shouldt brought food,i might trouble you with these" she said.

"Nah,its fine...also here its from a friend i know who runs a store" i gave her an onigiri.

"Thanks!" she thanked.

"Hey,you never told me what your sickness really is...what was it?"

"w-well can we keep it a secret for awhile,i promise i will tell you~!" she said.

"Okay,i understand.."

You look so beautiful in white And from now 'til my very last breath~

Well days turns month and i developed feelings for her.Everyday i would visit her and she would tell me how lucky she is to meet me and company her.

She told me her stories were about how boring the hospital was before,white walls,monitor beeping,and drowning in pills every hour and quiet.

This day I'll cherish You look so beautiful in white~

"Hey,promise me something!" she excitedly asked.

"Okay,what is it?" i asked.

"Well...if i ever get out in this boring hospital...,show me the outside world~!" she said.

"sure i promise you..."

"Pinky promise?" she asked poutingly.

"Yeah,Pinky promise" i held my pinky finger up and connected to hers.

Tonight~

What we have is timeless~

Sometimes i wonder,that i hope this days wont end..

My love is endless~

Will i be able to tell her what i feel,well...ill just tell her when she can come out i guess..

And with this ring I Say to the world~

"Sakusa,what are you thinking?" she asked.

"Dont worry im fine..."

You're my every reason You're all that I believe in~

"Okay!,also ived heard your having a match tomorrow..." her voice turns sadder.

"Yeah..i wont be able to come and visit you.." i said.

With all my heart I mean every word~

"Can i come though?" she asked.

"No,just stay here at the hospital just to be safe.."

"Okay,but promise me you'll come back early as possible~! okay?" she said.

"I promise.."

So as long as I live I love you Will haven and hold you~

As soon as i left her at the hospital i sleep right away and waited for the next day.

I woke up with 26 miss calls from Miko her nurse.

"H-hello? what is it Miko- what?!"

I rush to the hospital and saw many doctors outside.

"Where is she?" i asked.

"Listen Sakusa...she has guillain barre syndrome,and she is at her limit now..."

'...I see..can i see her?"

"Hm" he hummed in angreement.

I walked inside the room and saw (Y/n) looking at the window.

"Hey..." i called.

You look so beautiful in white~

"Im sorry..." she began to tear up.

"Its okay.."

And from now 'til my very last breath This day I'll cherish~

"You look pretty today...rest now.." i sat on her bed and she leaned on me.

"Hm..." she hummed.

You look so beautiful in white Tonight~