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parasocialdnp · 10 months

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my heart can’t take this

#dan and phil #amazingphil #phil lester #seal #why is he so cute #and pretty #i’m going to have a melt down

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grocerystoreanxiety · 15 days

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Being a hater towards the ed today, shit’s super fucking dumb. What am I planning to achieve with this???? Literally like it doesn’t even go the way your ed-brain wants you to think, like you get to ur ugw and suddenly everyone is jealous & wants to look lik you. Like nah, you’ll just get pity & weird looks from strangers bc everyone can see you’re not doing well and they’ll treat you as if you’re dumber than you are (the infantilization of ed ppl is so real out there (whole another topic but in short: I hate it)), what the actual fuck am I doing this for ?????

#like I already have issues with ’’ppl don’t take me serious bc i’m a woman in stem’’-disease and like pair that up with looking #non-adult?? like that’s fucking not it #and obv my brain doesn't work the way it should when I'm restricting and that's the only thing I need truly #like I used to be smart and able to focus well and all that why tf would I take away the only thing I have going for me #but I also don't want to fucking stop so like goddamnit & fuck I can feel my brain melting a lil bit more each day <3 #and I keep thinking like some weeks ago there was a clearly sick/anorexic (skinny like very much so) person out and it wasn't the ''everyon #started to look in envy as they elegantly daintily made their way past'' like it was ppl giving pitiful looks and that fucking sucks but #that's just the reality bc no one ever minds their own business #I remember in my lw (was like bmi 16) my coworkers still kept giving me that same look and the ''r u okay''s like it's not all #fun and games like you'd think it is; good for internet but not sure how it'd work in everyday ''trying to pretend to be a real life #adult who has their shit together''-way; it waters that pretension down quite a bit and I can't afford that; I'm already scrambling #so like could I stop thinking abt going to the seriously underweight bmi; a lil bit is fine bc some ppl just look like that but like ugh #i don't even know what the point is; I'm just mad at myself here like why did I get myself into this like I can't seem to get out #bc I want to but I rly don't;#I want to get worse and that fucks me up like wHY when I know I also don't want to like jesus christ ppl weren't kidding abt it feeling lik #ur brain has two diff sides fighting all the time #i hate this with all my might today yay and ironically enough I'm going to starve abt it <3 logic !!!! we love it !!!!!!!!!#this too should stay as a draft but alas send post

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sonadow4life · 5 months

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The first one was Violets original design. She was supposed to be 17, light blue with purple markings (like classic sonic), abandoned in the woods by Sonic cause he didn’t know how to parent and that’s what his parents did, Shadow didn’t even know about her until she confronted him looking for Sonic, knowing that Shadow was her dad and thinking he did too and is basically on a revenge quest after Sonic and finds Shadow along the way. Sonic explains himself and while Violet doesn’t forgive him she give him a chance to prove himself and they are very happy. They end up more like best friends than father and daughter tho. Also Sonic is 29 and she was a fusion of him and Shadow from when Sonic was 12. G.U.N basically took his DNA, took Shadows DNA and merged them before they’d even met.

She is now 7 years old with 2 loving (yet kinda shit) parents who are trying their best and a brother named Shock, autistic and overall just a fairly stable kid.

Idk what happened

#sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sth #sonadow #sonadow fankid #sonadow fanchild #original design #vs #new design #the first one had potential but the story had too many loopholes that I couldn’t find a way around #and I really wanted Shadow and Somic to attempt to parent #even though they are horrible at it #Sonic let’s them get away with too much #Shadow let’s them get away with nothing #ok they aren’t horrible #their kids just aren’t very good at regulating their emotions #and I wanted to project cause my parents are like that #and also one of them is autistic (just like me fr fr)#and even though Shadow is also autistic they are both undiagnosed and don’t understand each other #for the most part #like they relate and Shadow is definitely better at handling some of it #but he shuts down #she melts down #it just doesn’t go very well #just like me and my mother :)#they are trying their best and working with what they’ve got #and they aren’t the worst #they could use a bit of improvement though #and I’m tempted to have them get wayyy better at it #and don’t even get me started in Shock lol. I probably won’t make content in them tho

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criticalrolo · 1 year

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i have done approximately 3000% more things per day every day for the past three weeks than I have for a solid year and I feel as though I May Die but I really start a new job the same week I get back

#some people go on vacation to relax. not in this family #I am gonna have. a melt down #I’m so normal. so normal. about being in this country again

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clownsnake · 4 months

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I don’t think hyeonseong needed to remember dokja’s order to think about him if something goes wrong. I think he’s just always thinking abt dokja

and I love him for that

#Loyal puppy man #going post #Orv #‘Hey can you hit me again? and do it really hard’ kinky #‘no wait. just kill me right now’ UM. I RESCIND THAT LAST STATEMENT.#I don’t remember what his new attribute is how is dokja gonna cheat death this time #HYEONSEONG CHARACTER PROGRESSION FUCKING FINALLY #I’ve missed him…. deprogram your military propaganda boy itll be good for you #‘There is no third option this time’ ok my first instinct was to take him at face value but dokja is always planning and scheming so #maybe he’s just saying that so hyeonseong will make his own third option out of determination.#to teach him to like… not rely on dokja so much #maybe not the best phrasing but I think u get my point #next episode and I’m immediately confirmed right. AWESOME but also #Would have been nice to have delayed that gratification for a bit #let me step into a side character’s pov for a moment instead of having dokja tell me everything #‘I thought you considered me the standard you should strive for. If so then do as I say!’ ‘That’s not the kind of book I want to go by!’#YEAHHHHH HYEONSEONG!!!! MAKE YOUR OWN BOOK! GET THAT CHARACTER GROWTH #‘I see. Well done.’ Dokja you want to be a constellation so bad #It’s already been confirmed tht that’s his goal but it’s been so obvious for a while #Like he keeps putting himself in mentor roles all the time. n constellations aren’t necessarily as close mentors as dokja has been #But they’re still essentially That #WAH HIS HANDS?? HUH???#yeah yeah uh huh I was right dokja was helping hyeonseong learn his lesson on his own also HIS HANDS?????#*HIS ARMS???* GUYS.#‘until the scenario reaches an apocalypse’ bestie ur already in an apocalypse #Ofmy god he has to melt and then cool down a thousand times? what the hell #HUIWON CHARACTER PROGRESSION TOO?? YIPPEE!!!!!#aww a hug……. Even though he must be fucking scorching hot…. How sweet ^_^#and hyeonseong was so polite too he’s such a sweetie #oh I was confused for a second but he literally snuffed the flame! smart

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rinhaler · 1 year

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So I haven’t written anything BUT I started a new show and now I’m making dinner and plan on watching tonight’s Hollyoaks while I eat 🥰

#🧚🏽‍♀️ — luxe chit chat #cooking is making me so warm btw #like.. I am MELTING #im sitting down while I wait so I’m cooking down a little #as soon as I go anywhere near to oven it’s actually like I’ve just landed on the sun #anyway!!#i hope ur all having lovely days and nights and what have u #I am actually gonna try and write after dinner and Hollyoaks #but the show im watching is a lil addictive so we’ll see hehe

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graciehart · 5 months

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help

#I hate the limited time shit. like the library thing?#I am not very emotionally regulated rn because mental illness + grief #so I am melting down over feeling like I don’t want to regret not going #but I am barely hanging on #I literally work such long days today-Thursday #and idk if I have the energy to drive to the grove and then deal with the crowd that I know will be there #like I know this should only cause joy but I don’t know what to do #plus I’m overall in a weird space about this so I just #idk I HATE the fomo of it all because that’s what I’m feeling #but every day after work I just want to come home and cry #idk if I can manage making an extra stop #but I’m scared I’ll regret #help I am spiraling so bad

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shatterthefragments · 7 months

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Fuck. The biggest highs always have the hardest comedowns. This isn’t fucking worth it. Except it is. It has to be.

#the fucking socks on the table that broke the camels back #but honestly I don’t really have time to have another dish that broke the camel’s back crisis #vent #I’m standing outside trying to determine if I’m going to cry or not.a #and shit I already gave dad the money I want to exchange for a $50 #so I’ll have to talk to him again #and it’s cold outside.#and I am. not dressed for it. but at least I have a hoodie or I wouldn’t be able to stand it at all #and then I’ll try to forget and move on #it’s my one fucking day off #and let’s be honest. I planned to masturbate the entire fucking day. and I didn’t. and I still did some stuff. and I get it the table is a m #a mess #but there are worse things in the world than a sock on the table #unless we’re all autistic and our rules just all conflict in the worst fucking ways bc that is a possibility (except I think he’s NT)#bc I melt down and shut down over stuff being where it shouldn’t too (prefaced by I don’t think I’m autistic. I just have sensory issues and #scored an average of 161 in the raadsr #but like. it makes sense for our family to have it.#I’m just. fucking upset now #and my sister (who tbh had Meltdowns before masking it really well) helps me when I shut down. but fuck #none of this is good none of this could’ve been as bad as it is if somebody went and got a diagnosis and we could’ve had support #except this fucking ableist society we live in sucks and just #and anxious and wanted to kill myself so badly what good would a diagnosis be if I wasn’t around #…I should go back inside and eat dinner #but still #a few socks on the table where we don’t even eat off of that part #yells my name ‘what now?’ the socks on the table. I just. walked out of the house. and honestly good for me.#bury me back to what we came from where I belong where we came from we belong we belong #if the back tire of the bike was inflated I’d probably be going for an ill advised ride rn tbh #but alas

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boomerang109 · 1 year

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GUYS THE NOISE CANCELLING HEADPHONES PEOPLE WEAR FOR CONSTRUCTION AND STUFF ARE LIKE TEN DOLLARS AND THEY COME IN COLORS

#no I’m not having a melt down and about to go to a store rn #but if I was #you can’t stop me #blocks 23 decibels of sound?#plus my 27 decibels of sound blocked by my loops I’ll finally be able to function!!

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irrolyphant · 1 year

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#tw death #[.]#it’s weird the things you find yourself obsessing over and prioritising when you’re given the chance to prepare for when a loved one dies #like i’m big into christmas. it’s my security blanket & i have an ‘emergency christmas’ playlist on my phone for when i’m melting down etc #& with dad’s health being what it is. i’ve become obsessed with the need to create a playlist for mum to listen to after he’s gone #i’ve spent countless hours creating a christmas playlist which doesn’t include any songs about loss or missing loved ones #please come home for christmas. lonely this christmas.#even have yourself a merry little christmas isn’t okay #so yeah. i don’t know if it’s normal to be prioritising christmas music in august when you know time’s running out but #when it happens. his absence will be everywhere.#the last thing i want is for her to not even be able to listen to music without it rubbing it in her face #idk #that’s what i’ve been up to lately 🤷🏻‍♀️#sorry. i’m rambling at 3am #also #i lost my uncle and a family friend in the last two weeks and my mind’s been fixating even harder on christmas since then #the effort i had to put into NOT making gifs of tim in a santa hat in ‘go’ because it’s fucking august & not everyone is insane like me 🙈

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whimsyprinx · 1 year

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#whimsy whispers #I do believe one of these is the wrong answer but I’m not gonna go ‘answer (wrong)’ ‘answer (right)’#I will say here that I hate when people put ice in the pitcher because then the ice melts and makes your tea all watered down #and now you have a whole pitcher of watery tea #if your cup of tea gets watered down it’s not as bad + you can add more tea to fix that #there is no see results option you choose one or the other #I somehow kept writing ‘twat’ instead of tea it happened twice how

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disorentedfae · 1 year

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Me: ‘alright time to go to bed’

The birds: squawk squawk idiot it’s past 4 am

#weird thing is I’m not even tired at all #like at no point did I have to go through the ‘hey I’m reallly tired laying down and melting into the bed would feel really good rn’ period #of the night #Honkai as consumed me #has**

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cryptid-crawly · 1 year

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your crack stories are goddamned delightful and even if you are "too much" in person you have to trust that your friends like you enough that your presence is still going to be a net positive for them. it's ok.

anon coming into my house (my tumblr blog) and making me cry (pos) ;n; thank you ;n;

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comfycozycrossfox · 1 year

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the way my mother didn’t bother to learn how to parent until i was fully an adult

#i was having a meltdown while unpacking #so she like. gave me fewer options and calmed me down #and that was nice but hey brenda #why couldn’t you do that. for 18 YEARSSSSS #YEARS of her just like yelling at me whenever i was melting down #and not bothering to try and help #or even ask how she could #like i wouldn’t expect her to just know automatically right #but at no point did she bother to go ‘hey you get really stressed for seemingly no reason sometimes is there a way i can help with that’#NOPE #but now that i’m OUT OF HER HOUSE #and ALREADY TRAUMATIZED #🙄

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yellowsubiesdance · 2 years

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i hate that weird food textures make me want to throw up. i hate it, bc there are so many foods i would love to enjoy if i just wasn’t so turned off by them

#also certain flavors + textures #i’m (trying to) eat eggplant parmesan and got like a chunk of melted cheese and i nearly vomited #so now i have to separate the goddamn cheese #but the texture of the eggplant is weird too #i’m eating so carefully so that if i did hit a weird texture spit it won’t immediately turn my stomach #it just sucks that i have to eat this way #i wish i could just wolf it down and move on w my day #but no #my neuro spicy ass can’t handle too much texture all in one go #stupid

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rose-tinted-nostalgia · 2 years

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mortified as a parent because my son just dropped his crayons in the car, and upon being unable to locate them, said: “I’m really about to have a panic attack right now.”

#because I’m always saying that :(#because im always stressed and on the verge of panic #he’s also been saying I’m gonna be honest with you #lately which cracks me up #and he’s great at communicating because he loves today mommy I’m getting really frustrated right now etc #instead of just having a melt down #but a 5 year old communicating the beginning of a panic attack becsuse his mom has so many is mortifying #I’m an awful parent #and for the record I tend to say that when I start getting overstimulated to the point of feeling like I’m going to have a meltdown #as I preface my need to walk away and unwind but yeah #:(

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