Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.
His grey hairs are so earned
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being so honest I don’t understand how people can expect you to be doing things constantly every single day. I’m supposed to be on summer break but my university expects me to send in 80 sources for my senior thesis by next week
the very thought of doing school work right now makes me want to cry. I can’t even open a blank document and start writing for my own fics. I can’t even engage in my own hobby right now because I’m so mentally exhausted. how can you expect me to do thesis work? I’ve hardly had a break since finals
my personal life has been an ongoing shitshow since last summer. and has only gotten worse in recent months. how can you expect someone to function in society when you throw one thing after another at them?
I’m so tired and done. but I have no choice other than pushing through it because that’s what’s expected of me! that’s exhausting
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I love regional differences on what “good weather” is defined as. Spent all my life living in a country in the Middle East with lots of Wadis. Good weather is rain, great weather is thunderstorms. The streets are flooded, school is cancelled, children are playing tag on the beach outside our house and my cousins and I are dancing in the garden. I’m singing to the wind on my balcony, the little corner just beneath the full floor where no one can see me. The trees are shaking so hard I joke that they might be the ones causing the wind themselves. It’s such an intense thing that to this day I refuse to sing “rain rain go away” whenever it comes about. We didn’t do that; I rewrote the song so that I could sing “rain rain stay today” y’all it’s fr so real. If you are experiencing a lot of rain rn or live somewhere where rain is very common, y’all, enjoy it for me
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Wondering if I should focus on getting more followers or drawing stuff I actually want to, not scared of how ppl or my mutuals will like it?
Idk just want to draw some really self indulgent shit rn, but like what’s the point of doing it when I don’t get dopamine from ppl interacting with my posts? Might as well save the dopamine for like other things that ppl actually want to see
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I feel so happy rn y’all have NO idea!
Just ended stream a bit ago and this year has been making me feel so HAPPY and EXCITED to share my OCs to people!!
I wasn’t ashamed of making them, I just kinda thought no one would care.
But you DO care! It’s a small number of y’all but I DON’T CARE ABOUT NUMBERS!!! It’s the vibes, the joy, just the SEROTONIN I GET SEEING YALL LIKE AND REBLOG AND TELL ME TO POST MORE ABOUT IT!!!!
I’m just so happy and grateful to have such an amazing community! Just…thank you! 💜
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