Do you ever just think about how in Batman The Knight, Bruce mentions they promised to not use guns and yet Bruce is the first one to shoot Luka to protect Khoa? Especially considering his small flashes whenever he had to use guns even at inhuman targets? And he still did it?
YES!!! Yes, I do!!!
I went through this specific issue recently and i have so many thoughts, I hope you don't mind me using your ask as an excuse to ramble :)
Bruce was having such a bad time in this issue it's not even funny. Luka just decided to kill the only constant figure in his life at this point, his partner, his bestie, his boy crush, his only companion, and just expected him to sit and watch while he shot him right in front of his eyes, like, bro, right in front of the traumatized by loved ones being shot in front of him boy??? WHY
And of course that happened after months of him relieving this particular trauma repeatedly on account of having to use guns and interact daily with a guy who, bc of his past career, he couldn't help but compare to his parents' murderer. Why not, after all. Just marinate him a bit before going for the kill.
Obviously, Bruce couldn't let Luka just kill Khoa, so he takes the gun, and he doesn't even kill Luka, but taking that shot was such a difficult thing to do in such a stressful situation in which he's clearly relieving his biggest trauma. And like, sure, he made his promise to Luka, but more than that, guns are forever associated with his parents death and their murderer. Bruce very much can't use guns on real people without shaking, trembling, throwing up, yk, feeling like he's putting himself in the shoes of joe chill and feeling so intensely guilty. It’s really his last resort - if it was Bruce’s life that Luka was threatening, he might even have let himself be killed in order to not have to use the gun.
However, since the universe is not over with him yet, and still has some ideas about how to make his day worse, it decides instead to force his hand by making Minhkhoa be the one being held at gunpoint. Thus, Bruce does take the shot anyway in the worst way possible and in the worst situation ever, and literally the only thing that could've been worse would be making him kill someone, so of course,
THEN
MINHKHOA TAKES THE GUN
AND SHOOTS LUKA RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM
MAKING SO THAT BRUCE'S SHOT REALLY RESULTED IN SOMEONE'S DEATH
ONCE AGAIN
RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIS TRAUMATIZED EYES
and as if this wasn't enough
HE THEN POINTS THE GUN AT BRUCE
Honestly his biggest crime, I don't care about the murders and other felonies, this moment right here is the only thing he ever did wrong.
Like, can you imagine the level of brain damage bruce was receiving that day?
Khoa went from loved-one-about-to-be-killed to being the one walking on joe chill's shoes. His range, honestly. No wonder Bruce got so mad and then so heartbroken. Crying his eyes out, literally hugging himself. The saddest, most traumatized boy ever
Anyways, bruce still misses him, even after all khoa put him through. Or, as he says, he misses who he thought he was. After their first breakup khoa's image took a lot of damage - bruce really starts to wonder if khoa wasn't just a monster and he was the only one not seeing it. He thinks minhkhoa is sabotaging him, and that he might have killed alfred and his ex-girlfriend.
But of course nothing of this it's true and Khoa manages to undo some of the damage to bruce's opinion of him by trying to warn him about the guy actually sabotaging and trying to kill both of them (he also almost dies in the process, which i'm sure made him seem extra harmless and babygirly to bruce), so i guess that was enough to take away the thoughts of khoa being very likely to kill him one day.
He also offers a justification for the two murders he committed (Luka and master Ouahbi - honestly, what's the deal with all those criminals/ex criminals being both so good at diagnosing people with psychopathy and hating them so much????), and it was good enough for bruce, i guess? Tbh, he was mostly just trying to not think too deeply about it, 'cause he just wanted to have a little more time with him so badly. He would do so many things for khoa, and forgive him for so much stuff. HOW COULD KHOA FUMBLE HIM SO BADLY-
One thing I think about a lot is how in btk #7, bruce’s broken heart is addressed - he only references his trauma with his parents death in the issue, but the last issue ended with him saying his heart was broken bc of khoa so we can infer that he’s thinking about what happened between the two of them too. I find it interesting how this seems to be bruce’s way of dealing with khoa - he doesn't talk about him. Dick mentions it in Batman (2016) #104
And bruce never says a word about what happened between him and khoa to zatanna
I wonder if this is his way of keeping khoa with him. As he says, his heart never heals bc he doesn't let it - and so, he never talks about khoa, he only talks with zatanna about the loss of his parents, and he tells dick some of the bad khoa did to him, but doesn't delve into how important he was to him, or the good times they spent together, or how willing he was and still is to forgive him (tho he ends up showing him this part anyways when he goes to ghostmaker to ask him to coparent batman inc. with him when he first started it). He tells their story in a way that makes it seem like their separation didn't affect him negatively at all - dick only realizes bruce still misses him bc of his super powers of seeing right through bruce’s emotional barriers. But bruce keeps refusing to talk about khoa, or adress the ways in which he is still hurting, so he nevers gets better, and thus, khoa is still with him in a way, if only in wounds he left behind.
I also think bruce focuses a lot on everything bad khoa did to him and tries so hard to not even think about the good parts of their relationship bc the truth is, in his heart, the good outweighs the bad by a lot. Which is the reason why khoa barely has to do anything to win him back every time he comes back - bc despite everything, bruce has always been way too willing to forgive him for everything, and all he really has to do is to come back, and be willing to stay for a little while longer.
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Brotherhood
A Thomas Costa Backstory, as told by himself.
Happy Day-before-Labor Day for US residents, and to everyone else, happy day before the beginning of your week! Let’s complete this backstory!
Full collection of Thomas Costa Backstories here
TW/CW: military whump, dysfunctional family relationships, allusion to neglected childhood, death of a minor character, whumpee turned whumper (whumper, former whumpee), slave whump, suicidal insinuation (at the very end, but honestly you could skip it and it would still make sense)
2002
“Gentlemen, this is the group we will be working with on the joint operation,” Sgt. Robinson announced. “Get to know each other…”
The rest of the introductions faded into the background noise as Thomas stared at a familiar face amongst the new squad. A pair of dark brown eyes that looked nothing like his own stared back with apprehension, despite the placid little smile on his slim face. A nerve twitched as Thomas clenched his jaw. Though it had been six years since he’d left home in the foolish hopes of something better, he would recognize his own brother’s face when he saw it.
“Costa, is there a problem?” his sergeant asked him.
Thomas remembered where he was as several pairs of eyes landed on him. Interestingly, the squad they would work with all zeroed in on Tony with the same intense curiosity. “No, Sergeant,” he replied as he reflexively straightened his posture.
“Care to explain why you’re glaring daggers at the new squad’s private first class?” And here he thought he was being subtle. Sgt. Robinson looked at Tony, then back at Thomas, and finally put it together. “Wait, you’re both Costa.” The man groaned. “Don’t tell me you’re related or something?”
“This is my little brother, Sergeant,” Thomas explained as he willed his tone to stay as neutral as possible. “And last I checked, we weren’t desperate enough to take high schoolers in the US military-”
“Hey, I’m twenty years old!” Tony protested.
Some brief murmurs floated from his guys and Tony’s, but they were quickly shut down by the sergeant’s cold glare as he loudly cleared his throat. “Well, shit. It would have been preferable to avoid putting family on the same mission, but we can’t operate two units at less than half-capacity, so we’re just gonna have to deal with what we’ve got,” Robinson sighed. “So, dickhead 1 and dickhead 2,” he addressed, referring to Tom as ‘1,’ “you unfuck your family bullshit and make friendly in twenty. The rest of you, make sure those dumbasses don’t do the Taliban’s work for them and off themselves.” He threw in the last part so casually, as if he were reminding these soldiers to pick up a gallon of milk. Once he’d gotten a satisfactory amount of “yes Sergeant,” the commander left them to their own devices.
As soon as he left, Thomas immediately jumped on his younger brother. Yet, unlike the times when they were kids, Tony now had enough muscle on his bones to fight back. Both brothers pushed against the other as they tried to take advantage of any weak spot their opponent had.
Half of the team was trying to break up the impromptu wrestling match, and the other half of the team cheered on their respective Costa. Eventually, Thomas took advantage of his naturally bulkier frame to pin Tony’s smaller body to the floor, grabbing him by the front of his uniform and slamming his head into the dirt. Tony’s springy legs snaked their way from between where his older brother straddled him to curl up knees to chest, finally expelling Thomas from on top of him with a well-placed kick to the stomach. Thomas lurched upwards and landed ass-first on the ground. Tony tackled him, inverting their previous position, and got a few punches in until their audience finally decided to put an end to it. The two were forcibly separated for the rest of the day as their squads formed a protective ring around them, ensuring neither Thomas nor Tony could get within arm’s reach of each other until sundown.
Thomas had gone up late at night to the balcony of the watch tower to clear his head. He pulled out his cigarettes, then cursed under his breath as he realized he forgot the lighter. Just before he resigned himself to climb down the metal stairs and go back to the bunks to fetch it, a shadowed figure stepped into view. Tony stood on the balcony too, his own cigarette glowing dimly in hand as he held out a lighter like an olive branch. Thomas muttered his thanks as he plucked it from his brother’s hand and ignited his own cigarette before he passed it back. They stared out onto the endless desert plains with nothing but the moonlight behind them, until Tony finally broke the silence between the brothers. “I’m sorry I punched you.”
“No you’re not,” Thomas retorted.
Tony muttered his own curse under his breath before he tried his apology again. “I’m sorry I ratted on you all those times when we were kids,” he murmured, his tone sincere.
Thomas shook his head, dispelling the cigarette smoke around his head as it moved. “Don’t be sorry, I would’ve done the same thing.” As if he could imagine straight-laced little Tony openly rebelling against their grandpa. The very thought wrung a wry chuckle from his lips.
“Yeah right,” Tony argued. “You might’ve been the more rebellious of the two of us, but at least you were always loyal. If anything, you probably would’ve snuck out alongside me.”
“Probably.” Thomas took a puff of his cigarette. He turned around and leaned onto the railing of the balcony, facing his brother who was copying the action. “So, why did you always rat on me? I actually want to know.”
“Well, it wasn’t out of any malice, surprising as that may sound,” Tony answered.
“So, you really were that much of a kiss-ass?”
Tony lightly punched his older brother’s arm and threw what could only be described as a pout at him. What was once an adorable little pout on a child now looked ridiculous on a grown man wearing desert camo. “If you really must know, I wanted praise and validation, just like you did, even if you were too prideful to show it,” Tony answered.
“When had I ever wanted Grandpa Tony’s praise?” Thomas asked incredulously. “Did we even grow up in the same house?”
The younger Tony crossed his arms and leaned against the railing too as he leveled him a flat stare. “I remember more than you think I do,” he said. “I remember when you used to spend several hours with the tutor to get your grades up. I remember you training so hard and going all out on those judo competitions. And in sixth grade, it finally paid off. You finally got an A in at least one subject and a gold medal at the youth competition. Yet it was never enough, was it?” His brother’s eyes softened into an expression that made Thomas uncomfortable. “No matter how hard you tried, it was never enough for Grandpa Tony, or for Mom, was it, Tom?”
What was that look, one of pity? Thomas met his brother’s eyes with a glare of his own. “It was much easier for you,” he muttered, taking a drag of his cigarette. “You had all the brains, and the talent, and a failure of a big brother you could always exceed.”
Tony’s brow wrinkled. “You don’t really think you’re a failure, do you?” Thomas’ silence as he exhaled his smoke was a reply in and of itself. “Bro! You’re not a fail-”
“Don’t. Pity. Me,” the older brother growled. He fixed his glare out onto the desert in front of them, huffing an annoyed little plume of smoke into the night.
Tony shook his head. “We had such a fucked-up childhood, didn’t we?” The way he said it didn’t sound like a question.
The brothers stared out over the horizon. “Things are gonna be different, when we come back,” Tony said decisively. He took a drag of his cigarette, holding it thoughtfully between his lips as he stared out at a future only he could see. “You’ll come home with me-”
“I’d rather eat shit,” Thomas deadpanned.
“You’ll come home with me,” Tony insisted, “and I will argue for leniency from the boss. Then, when I take over the Costa family one day –you’re not interested in becoming the boss anymore, are you?” he interrupted himself.
Thomas shook his head. To hell with the Costa family.
Tony continued. “-so when I take over for Grandpa Tony one day, I’ll bring you back into the family, and you can be my enforcer. That’s only if you want to, of course, don’t want to force you or nothing, but you’d be great at it.” He stubbed his cigarette out on the railing before casually flicking the extinguished butt into the sand below. “I just miss you, bro,” he admitted.
In that moment, it was all too easy for Thomas to see not the young man thrown straight into war, but the little boy whom he grew up with, still holding onto a childlike optimism that Thomas envied. “Yeah, I missed you too, bro.” His lips quirked into a small smile. “I’m sorry for leaving you alone with that asshole for so long,” he replied sincerely.
“You better be,” Tony groused. “It wasn’t easy being the sole focus of Grandpa’s hopes and dreams all these years!”
“But things will be different when we come back,” Thomas repeated. He stubbed his own cigarette out and tossed it. “If you’re serious about it, then I am too. Things will be different, and you and I will be brothers like we should’ve been.”
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2020
It was a bright and sunny autumn day when Thomas finally made it out to the cemetery. He stooped over the grass before he folded his legs underneath him to kneel in the sun-warmed patch of earth. He faced the granite headstone that bore his brother’s name.
“Sorry I couldn’t come out for your birthday,” he apologized under his breath. “This ‘running the family business’ shit is hard work sometimes!” He dug his fingers into the dirt to pluck out the dandelions and bitter cress that grew around Tony’s grave, all while filling him in on the latest news.
“Master? Who are you talking to?”
Thomas had forgotten that he didn’t come to the cemetery alone. He stopped his murmurings and turned to look over his shoulder. “Khaled, come here,” he called, waving the slave over to him. The young man set the bucket and jug of water down as he knelt alongside his master. Thomas made the posthumous introduction. “This is Tony, my brother. Tony, this is Khaled, the boy I keep telling you about.”
Khaled, to his credit, respectfully canted his head in greeting to the gravestone in front of him. “Is this where you go on Memorial Day and anniversaries when you don’t tell me where you’re going, Master?” he asked.
“Yeah.” Thomas fished out a flask from the inside of his coat and unscrewed the cap. Unlike most times he carried a flask with him, this one just held water inside. He poured it reverently over the gravestone’s top, letting it flow down the engraved granite as he instructed Khaled to pass him a sponge from inside the bucket.
“We thought we hated each other, Tony and I, and for a long while we did,” he reminisced as he cleaned away the dust and debris. “But that doesn’t change the fact he was my brother.”
A thoughtful look passed over Khaled’s face as he lowered his hand into the bucket and procured the second sponge, wetting it with water from the jug before he began scrubbing the gravestone too. They scrubbed and rinsed the tombstone in peace, with the occasional odd quips from Thomas as he recalled old memories and fresh regrets. Khaled pulled him away from the latest train of thought as he lowered the sponge and focused on the headstone to the left of them. “Luciano Antonio Costa?” he read aloud.
Thomas briefly glanced at the shabbier, much more neglected headstone. “Oh yeah, Grandpa Tony. That was the last boss, before me, and buried next to him is his wife, Augusta Francesca. And his father and mother are buried somewhere close to here.” He made a small sweeping motion around the Costa family burial plot. “And as for me, I’ll be buried here, next to my brother one day,” he said, patting the earth to the right of Tony’s grave. His right-hand man, just like we’d planned, he thought.
“And where will I be buried, Master?”
The morbid question snapped Thomas out of his thoughts as he stared curiously at his slave. “Aren’t you a little young to be worried about that yet?” he asked. Khaled stared silently back at him, his face set in a completely serious expression. The master dropped the now dirtied sponge to awkwardly rub at his neck. “Honestly, I hadn’t thought about it until just now,” he admitted, “though I guess you’ll be buried here with me one day.” He caught a glimpse of something broken and defeated in the depths of Khaled’s dark eyes. “You’d better tell me what your burial customs are if we’re already talking about something like this,” he suggested. Privately, he made a note to monitor Khaled’s actions more closely from now on. If his one and only very expensive pet was feeling suicidal, the last thing he needed was to leave any razors or pills out in the open.
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