#i've already mentioned that i find attempting to analyze and comprehend nico's homosexuality through a modern western lens is simply flawed

[arabnico]

nico is a tragic gay figure because homosexuality violently ruined his life and doomed him to being eternally nostalgic to the “before” in his existence—which he no longer remembers as it was forcefully ripped from him, further alienating him from his own ideal paradigm of what he believes he should and was meant to be—and to therefore yearn for it. there’s no possible way out for him. the last time you felt free was before, and you’ll never be free again so you’re doomed. you’re stuck forever rolling the boulder up the hill forever trying to redeem yourself. your definition of freedom is no longer something that is materially achievable for you. you were dead from the start.