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#idk i just feel super insecure and not good enough for a relationship plus a whole bunch of other shit
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fluffytriceratops · 3 years
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Dating Headcannons - Raphael
Note: If there are any grammar or spelling errors, please ignore them as I am far too lazy to edit this, and I really don't care. B) Someone asked for Raph next- you ask you shall receive! And again, not a specific version, just kinda all of them smushed into one. You may visualize this Raphael as any Raphael. Idk why I struggled with writing this one so much, I just did lmao. Raph's usually pretty easy for me to write for too. Mikey is next! (honestly, saved the best for last in my personal opinion, his headcannons are by far my favorite!) May or may not make a Casey one. If someone wants it, I probably will, if not- I still might but idk--- that may be too much work for me lol. LASTLY- Raph's moodboard is my favorite so far- I relate to it so much haha.(No I didn't make it, found it on google-) Thanks for reading! <3
Warnings: mature/sexual themes, nsfw mentions, mature language,
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- He is a dom, do not test him he will dominate the absolute fuck out of you. If you're really insistent on topping him, or taking control, he will let you do so, but only for a little while before he takes control again. Likes it when you're top but prefers to see you're on bottom.
- 100% into couple workouts or training. And even if you didn't like working out, he'd still like it if you watched/were in the room with him.
- A sucker for physical contact. Enjoys PDA, he doesn't care if you kiss/touch in front of his brother's/others.
- Wants your relationship to be private, he doesn't want to share you with his brothers. He'll get super jealous if you hang out with them too much. Raph's super protective over you, but he wouldn't control you. He respects you, he just has a hard time not being around you.
- Needs reassuring. He is very insecure of himself and never feels like he's good enough. Especially when it comes to you.
- Takes his frustration and anger out with sex, even if it doesn't have anything to do with you. This means he can be a little rough and selfish in bed, but he can also be gentle and sweet too. Sex after care would be a lot of cuddles and kisses. He'd treat you like a queen.
- Secretly enjoys romance movies, though he pretends like he doesn't. Plus he gives the most amusing critiques.
- Raphael can be a bit of a dick/inconsiderate sometimes. But he will always apologize to you once he realizes he's done something wrong/hurt you. He get's flustered when apologizing, sometimes it's super cute.
-  He loves to watch you try on clothes/see your outfits. Mini fashion show only for him? Hell yes.
- He'd probably be into spanking and maybe even a little degrading. Wouldn't mind be called Daddy but he LOVES it when you call him by his name. Especially during the sexy sexy times or accompanied by an I love you.
- Prefers phone calls and likes to talk mostly as night because he's usually with you during the day when you both have time.
- More independent, if you're busy than he'll leave you alone.
- Hates nicknames, but he'd have one for you he'd use in private. He'd call you babe/baby in front of other's but that's about it.
- Definitely does those push-ups where you're laying underneath him and every time he comes down you reward him with a kiss. ;)
- He'd love for you to sit on top of his shell while he's doing push-ups too. You can read or do your own thing, and this way he gets to spend more time with you. Raph totally plays it off cool by asking you to help him, "i need the challenge" and all that bullshit, but he really just wants to spend time with you. He just doesn't want to see clingy. Plus he's the cool macho brother, he has a reputation to keep up.
- loves your bum. Big, smol, flat, etc. He loves them all. Like I mentioned before, very into spanking but he never would want to hurt you. So I dont think he'd do it too hard, to the point where it HURTS, yknow? Likes to catch you off guard with it too. If you bend over you're practically asking for it.
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fbfh · 4 years
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magnus chase relationship and intimacy hcs
I genuinely found zero magnus hcs and it made me really sad
Also might not be as in character as my hoo posts cause I haven’t finished the series my library is closed don’t come for me-
As with all steamy/nsfw works, all characters are aged up to 18+
Warnings: moderate descriptions of ptsd symptoms and emotional recovery,, also like boinking and dicks obvs
1.6k words uwu
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So he absolutely definitely has ptsd 
I don’t remember norse demigods being mentioned as having adhd and dyslexia so correct me if I’m wrong lol
I mean his mom was brutally murdered, he was fucking homeless, then he was killed and taken to valhalla
So yeah
Ptsd
He’s really defensive and jumpy at physical contact for a while
But he’s also incredibly touch starved
He’s super whipped for you
So it makes him really frustrated when he wants to be affectionate and vulnerable with you but he just,,, can’t
He has a lot of emotional walls up too for obvious reasons
You have to have really clear communication with him 
Which you do,, and he appreciates it a lot
You baby step into affection and intimacy
And let him take the lead a lot
It takes a while
But after a bit he gets these bursts of affection where he’ll cuddle and make out with you for like
Five minutes or less
Then it starts to feel weird again
You try to do small stuff like hand holding or blowing him a kiss or putting your head on his shoulder to help melt that ice
And it works
It goes from feeling weird, to weird but nice, to nice but kind of weird, to nice enough to ignore the weird part
As soon as he can be,,, he is an affectionate fiend
He likes to bear hug you a lot
He keeps a hand on your cheek or jaw line or the back of your neck when you kiss a lot
He still gets a little weird about his back or stomach or neck being touched which you totally understand 
So you kiss his shoulders and collarbones and run your hands over his chest and arms a lot
Once he had a really bad dream and couldn’t sleep cause he didn’t feel safe bc
~‧₊˚; *‧.₊˚ flashbacks fucking suuuuuuck ~‧₊˚; *‧.₊˚
So you played some home renovation show and spooned him and whispered
“It’s okay, I’ve got your back”
He didn’t have anymore nightmares that night
He really likes back hugs after that, as long as he knows it’s you behind him
He gives really nice kisses
It’s like a big full kiss
Idk how else to describe it but it’s very unique to him
He’s super protective over you still in a healthy way
He’s super fuckin pansexual and you can pry that from my cold dead hands
So he has a lot of hoodies and denim jackets
And bracelet stacks and weird dad thrift store shirts
And you can get him more of these things no matter how many he has and he will love it an equal amount 
Which is a lot
He gets kind of insecure and feels bad about all his weird symptoms bc he minimizes what he’s been through a lot
It’s kind of a why can’t I just get over it and be normal feeling
You remind him a lot that it’s okay and his feelings and experiences are valid and he’s safe now
He needs to hear that a lot
Once a lot of that ice has been broken he gets really touchy really fast
You two were just like
Chilling on the couch watching a movie or something
And he nuzzles into your side to cuddle
So you lay down a little more and he rests his head on your chest
You keep watching the movie like that for a while 
He props himself up and just kind of looks at you for a minute
He can’t remember feeling this warm before he met you
And now he feels really really warm 
And tingly
You’re about to look over and ask if he’s alright when he just 
Presses his face into your neck and starts kissing you
You let out this breathy flustred little laugh he’s never heard before and he wants to make you make that sound again
He kisses up to your face and his hair is all in his eyes
So you brush it out of the way and tuck it behind his ear and his face nuzzles into your hand
He bites back a moan
You end up making out a lot
Which leads to,, other things
You don’t question it or ask where that came from
You just give him a lot of love and reassurance
Once he feels comfortable,,,, I hope you’re ready bitch
Cause you’ll be under him
And on top of him
A lot
Like a lot lot
He doesn’t have a lot of experience so he likes it when you take the lead
Big fan of showering together
I almost fucking forgot
He thinks you look hot in everthing obvs
But if you wear his boxers 
He goes apeshit
If you wear bras he likes the unlined sheer ones best on you
He also thinks you look really nice in boyshorts and cheekies
Esp the invisible microfiber ones
He likes how soft they are and how they just kind of seamlessly glide over your hips
If you play with his hair he practically starts purring
If you tug it really gently he moans
Just thought you should know that
Things get really intense in a good way with him
He gets very caught up in the heat of the moment
Has broken the bed before
And would do it again
Blitz and hearth almost walked in on you two cause they heard a loud crack and thought someone broke in
It was a very very close call
You laughed about it a lot later
He also likes things to be really soft and fluffy
So sleepy morning sex is definitely in his vocabulary
When he gets more comfortable he loves when you rest your head on his tummy and he can play with your hair and touch your shoulders
He also likes when you have your hand resting on his lower back
He finds it really grounding
Gives a lot of back hugs
Sometimes his head is resting on your head or shoulders
Sometimes he’s sucking on your neck
Just kinda depends yk
Really really likes it when you straddle him
Esp when you play with the hem of his clothes
You really really like to straddle him too
It’s a nice seat if you get what I’m sayin
Kind of wants to have shower sex with you but is also really scared of slipping and getting hurt
Settles for romantic bubble baths instead
Kind of stubbly, esp in the morning
It’s really cute
But kind of ouchie on more,,, sensitive areas
He’s usually fine staying a little stubbly, unless he’s planning to surprise you
You get a little excited when you see him shaving extra carefully
He sees you staring and just kind of looks you up and down and winks
Alksdjafskfja 
He likes having his hair longer
So do you
So you show him different ways to do little buns and stuff to keep it out of his face and stop it from getting tangled when he sleeps
Ngl you haven’t lived until you’ve seen magnus hard in his boxers kneeling over you hastily throwing up his hair so you can have some fun
That image is thankfully burned into your retinas for all eternity 
You get palpitations thinking about it
You’re the only one allowed to play with his hair or call him maggie/mags
He sometimes borrows your scrunchies and it’s really really cute
You end up with this little routine of swapping them when they stop smelling like the other person
If you don’t wear scrunchies you get him some and he thinks it’s adorable
You also steal them and swap them out when they don’t smell like him anymore
He loves having picnics outside with you
Especially to go stargazing
Yeah rooftop picnics are a thing
Plus people can’t really see what you’re doing and no one really goes up there so uh
As long as you can stay quiet you’re never bored
Sometimes when you’re stargazing his hand will just kind of gradually go from resting on your hip to wrapping his arms around you and having you lean against his chest
You sometimes raid the fridge together in the middle of the night
You took him to mcdonalds at like 2am once
It was not the last time that happened
Totally the type to love getting matching pj bottoms with you
Really loves it when you hold his hand with both of yours
It makes him feel really loved and masculine in a good healthy way and generally good
On days when he just Needs a Distraction you try any hobby or activity you can get your hands on
His favorites so far are painting each others nails, random online flash games like papa’s, finding the best climbing trees (weather permitting), and binge watching and reviewing the weirdest shows and movies you can find
Including but not limited to flava of love, josie and the pussycats in outer space, lightning point, and clone high
The movies are usually really low budget, or questionable teen romance movies like twilight, sierra burgess is a loser, the kissing booth etc. 
You still quote clone high to this day
He’s very excited for the reboot me too, magnus, me too
Doesn’t stop clowning on TJ bc of it
TJ has no fucking idea what he’s talking about 
“For the last time Magnus, I’m just named after him. I’m not a clone. I don’t know John Kennedy or Abraham Lincoln, and how could I possibly know Cleopatra??? Where are you getting this from, you understood this like a week ago-”
He really likes just kind of hugging you from behind and smooching wherever he can and swaying back and forth
Tells you he loves you a lot
Really really grateful you’re in his life
Does everything he possibly can to be the best boyfriend
Cause you deserve it
Did i mention he loves you a lot lot lot
Cause he really does
Treat him right, give him a lot of love 
He also blushes really easily shhh
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fanficmaniatic · 3 years
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The Bumbleblades Playlist!
Are you tired of having no content? Do you want Songs that remind you of ships you love? 
If you ship Bumblebee/Blades you shall look no further! may I present to you, songs that give me BeeBlades vibes and why.
here is the link to the actual Playlist on yt: Team BeeBlades 
and here on Spotify.
1- Animals, By Neon Trees. There are many reasons but to sum it up, BeeBaldes is a ship that I see as two really good (cute) friends, that are obliviously in love, and well the song says “I kinda wanna be more Than friends.” and the song talks about how  the person wants more from the other. So imagine the 1st one (prolly blades) realizing that their feelings are romantic while blasting this song.
2- Everybody Talks, By Neon Trees. Well, do I have to point out the irony considering Bee is half of this ship? but besides that, I imagine Blades understanding his feelings with “Animals” now... Bumblebees realization comes in the form of this song. “It started with a whisper and then is when I kissed her” idk that things screams BeeBlades for me.
3- Electric Love, by BORNS. well, they are robots, they have electric wires inside of them, right? besides the song is just super sweet and so are they. 
4- Line without a hook, Rick Montgomery. First of is super sweet, and I see BeeBlades as a super sweet paring. “She is Lady, and I am just a boy” I think this reflects how Blades feels besides Bee. Because Bumblebee is a warrior and is well known and he some times feels like a nobody. So is like, for him, Bee is something that is so big he is scared he will never reach it. BUT HE DOES CUZ IS MY SHIP, OK?
5- Rather be, Clean Bandit. This is basically from Bee’s perspective. Blades is really insecure, and Bee knows this, and because he loves him very much, he wants to remind Blades that he loves him. This song give me the vibes for that, and if I could I would go deep into why (but is really long), so imma sum up it up into one sentence “Know with all of your heart, you can't shame me, When I am with you, there's no place I rather be” 
7- Rude, by MAGIC. Okey... I don’t want to go so deep into my own head cannons, but Blades asking Bee’s parental figure (as I hc Ratchetor Optimus)  for permission to become Conjux Endura. Idk, think about it.
8- Wild Young Hearts, By The Noisettes. Okey, the name. But that is not enough, Bumblebee and Blades are really young, and still have much to learn, and good relationships need growing too, and some times that is not so easy. I hope that makes sense. 
10- Put Your Head On My Shoulder, by Paul Anka. Again, BEE. AND . BLADES. ARE. SOFT. BOYS. And overall I just imagine them dancing to this. Plus I just think that “Old music but make it Tik Tok Friendly” is their vibe. fight me.
There are more songs in the Playlist that go with the vibes of the previous songs, and the reason why I am not explaining them is cuz I either would a)Go to deep into my own head cannons, or b) Repeat explanations I already gave.
I hope you like the playlist! If you have any suggestions please feel free to add! 
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nyerus · 4 years
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Hi....how are you? If you don't mind me asking, who is your favorite love interest in MXTX three novels (luo binghe, lan wanji, or hua cheng)? And why?
And who is your favorite protagonist in MXTX three novels (shen qingqiu, wei wuxian or xie lian)? And why?
Sorry if you've answered this question before....
Hello again, and thank you very much for sending in another ask!~ I love answering these as a little break from work, so no worries! <3
I think I mentioned before that Hualian are my fave characters and my fave couple, so I guess that answers both questions haha. But I do always love a chance to talk about why I love them so much, soooo....
As for some of the reasons why Hua Cheng is my fave love interest:
He is very extreme in his devotion. He doesn't just love Xie Lian, he is 100% comprised of his love for Xie Lian. It's incredibly intense, and I really like seeing this type of impossible intensity in fiction. I have a very pragmatic view of real-world relationships, but this type of all-encompassing and unconditional love is super fun to read!
His aura is unmatched! Not only is he sexy as hell, but he's also a sweetheart and sometimes like a spoiled brat vying for gege's attention! It's not even two sides of him -- he's both at once, and it's really wonderful to see that duality. Towards Xie Lian, he is a stalwart sword and shield; towards others, he's a dangerous threat.
He's not afraid to be affectionate towards Xie Lian. He is supportive, caring, and just so open with how happy he is to be around his beloved. Plus, he is mindful of Xie Lian's boundaries, and if he ever oversteps, is quick to apologize. He has his moments of insecurity, but they are never about how he feels, but rather what he thinks he deserves/doesn't deserve. He is always sincere in his actions.
Even though we don't get much of it, I really like his backstory. What we do have is enough to piece together something very concrete and heartbreaking. And despite the hardships he faced, Hua Cheng didn't let that define him -- though it is indeed something that will be with him forever. He took matters into his own hands, and decided to carve out a path for himself, and no one could stand in his way. If I had even 1/10th of his conviction, in anything, I think I'd be rich lmfaoooo!
And then coming to darling Xie Lian as my fave main:
I tend to adore calm and sweet characters in most media. (Actually if I don't like the main character in a story, I don't tend to really get into the thing!) Xie Lian is also reckless in his good deeds, which is wonderful. At first I was afraid that he would be a bit of a doormat, or a damsel, etc -- but he's not! He's very cognizant of his choices. He's not perfect, but nor does he try to be. He just wants to do good. There are times where he doesn't even want to do certain things/gets annoyed/has reservations/etc, but he does so anyway because he decides it's the Right thing to do. And I think making those choices, while still being true to yourself (even the ugly parts), is incredible. You can't have perfect thoughts all the time, but you can decide what you're going to do/react to a given situation.
He's actually very snarky and funny -- and I looooove him for it! At the same time, you can tell there is a lot of repressed trauma lurking behind every corner in his present-timeline inner narration, and it's... idk? Realistically heartbreaking? In a way that doesn't feel forced, I mean. Xie Lian ignores a lot of his own stuff because he knows there is nothing else he can do about it. Normally we'd say that it's unhealthy to do that, but the trauma in his past is in fact *so* bad that he really doesn't have a choice, does he? And it's less that he hasn't confronted it, but more that he's decided there is no point for him to dwell on it. "Why would I think about how I was horribly butchered when I can instead think about the delicious meat bun I had for dinner?" His attitude of looking for the small pleasures in life, amidst all the sorrow and anguish, is as inspiring as it is heartbreaking in all the right ways. He's just incredibly well-written.
His character progression is pretty amazing. He learns a lot -- maybe even too much -- over the course of his story. He starts out as a noble but naive prince, raised in the lap of luxury, not understanding of the true plight of the common people he wants to help. And he ends up knowing what it really means to save someone, to help others, and why it's personally important to do so. His biggest failing was that he was too young, and too inexperienced to understand how the world worked. Xie Lian's heart was ALWAYS in the right place (he was even abnormally progressive, even daring to challenge heaven -- which may seem par for the course for us readers, but is like... assassination-worthy for his time), and proved that he was not all talk. He genuinely believed in what he said, unafraid to defy the powers that be, and was ready to face whatever consequences resulted.
As someone who gets easily flustered and doesn't know how to handle overt affection too, I relate to him a lot hahaha!
These are super disorganized thoughts, but I hope they make sense! I just love these two to bits, and don't see myself getting off the Hualian train anytime soon~
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jawritter · 4 years
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Dean Winchester One Shots
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Happy Birthday Dean pt. 1
It’s Dean’s birthday, and you realize something about yourself you never knew before… Until now…                                
30 Minutes til Midnight (Happy Birthday Dean pt. 2!)
Sequel ot Happy Birthday Dean, will you finally tell him how you feel?
Middle of the road
Can you keep pretending your just friends, or will it all come out in the middle of the road.
Lonely as the grave
Dean struggles with his reality visiting the graveyard in his hometown of Lawrance, Kansas
The Fool
The reader comfronts Lisa, based on the song The Fool by Leanne Walmack
The Meeting
A secret releationship getts heated during a meet up
Waiting…
Waiting on your hero hunter to come home can be one of the harderst things you ever do.
Finally Yours
Alpha!Dean is in Rut, and only one Omega can help him through it!
Home
Six years ago Christmas Eve Dean made the biggest mistake of his life under influence of the Mark of Cane.
It Was Fifteen Years Ago Today
Haunted by the past tramas even Dean needs a little comfort sometimes.
I Did It Because I Love You
Dean’s been a complete and total asshole, what happenes when the reader finally has all she can take.
Happy Valenties Day Sweetheart
Dean shows the reader a little bit of his softer side….
I Kinda Like The Disease…
Your search for your demon boyfriend takes you to New Orleans during mardi grag…
Challenge Accepted..
Requested: ok so here is a request(idk if you do these)(also it’s smut) so dean talks about how good he is in the bedroom and the reader says something along the lines like “i bet you can’t make me come” Dean challenges this. In the bedroom and you know they doing the dirty or whatever. Dean edges her and edges her and just when the reader had enough of the teasing Dean finally takes her over her edge and the reader is left with the most hot shaking orgasm ever. I hope this makes sense! ❤️ur stories!!
Your Perfect
Request: the reader is always willing to go down on Dean but when Dean goes to return the favor the reader stops him and always finds an excuse. No one has ever offered to go down on her before so she’s insecure about it and doesn’t want to look weird in from of dean. i Hope this makes sense!
Curves
Requested: Can I request a Dean Winchester x plus size reader, where she really shy and dorky but believes that she really bad at sex because she is bigger? And dean shows her that she not 😊💕 I hope this make sense haha! I know this sound awkward turtle 🐢
You Deserve Better Than Me
Requested: Dean winchester x pregnant Reader. Dean feels the reader deserves better than what he can give her in his life, what will he do when he finds out that she’s expecting his baby?
Quarantine
Summery: Everyone is stuck in quarantine right now everywhere, and your stuck alone with Dean, who really needs to blow off steam… Oh what has your big mouth gotten you into now…
My Best Friend
Request: hiii i have dean x reader request! the reader and dean are friends with benefits but recently she’s just been down in the dumps and just wants some platonic affection and not sex. as the writer you can do what u want but could you add Dean playing with the readers hair? i have a weakness for it lol thanks!
Just A Dream…
Part 1
Part 2
Winchesters Fantasies 1000 follower Challenge…
Daddy’s Home
Request: Hey I know this is odd, but I really enjoy your writing and I was wondering if you could possibly do a little smutty Dean thing? Maybe using the name Lyn, and really anything is on the table, I mean, it’s Dean Winchester. (Or if you want, some daddy kink and maybe just rough stuff :o) Thank you dear!! You don’t have to if ya don’t want to, no pressure 💕💕
Like Pulling Teeth
Request: Okay, so I was just watching few recent spn episode and saw Garth episode. Which gave me an curious idea, can you write dentist reader x dean? They’re in a relationship, one day when dean eats something, it pains and reader has to look into it? and then reader says wisdom tooth extraction? Also the fear of dentist which dean already has (shown in the episode, I found it very funny) I know it’s a weird request but I also think it would be very funny🙈
Little Details…
Request: Could I maybe request a Chubby!Reader x Dean story? She’s super sweet and kind of laid back, just going along with the boys as a research partner, but she’s also super artsy and loves to draw Dean while she researches. Maybe some sweet and soft smut, oh! And maybe he plays with her hair? :) Thanks dear!! 🌻💛
Age Is Just A Number…
Request Hello :) How do feel about an age difference, post sex one-shot? Alternate universe (no hunting), consensual, not underage but quite a big age difference (like at least 10years) where Dean is like freaking out because he’s Dean and doesn’t want to destroy the girl’s life?
Mine…
Request: Could you do a one shot where the reader lives with Sam and dean they are best friends. The reader and dean have a secret relationship and dean gets jealous of the reader and Sam hanging out all day. So dean shows the reader who she belongs too in the bedroom.
Right In Front Of You…
Request: Dean x Reader. Reader is hunting with Sam and Dean, and she is constantly getting annoyed at every single thing that Dean does. And she always acts very bad with Dean with this making dean think that she hates him. And that makes mr very sad because he has feelings for her but when Dean save her sacrificing himself from a hunting gone wrong. She stars to develop feelings for him.
Jealous Of My Demons...
Requested: Dean get’s jealous of the reader’s former boyfriend Brady, who is now posses by a demon and working as a stable boy for the horseman pestilence. Who will they work this out?
Princess...
Request: Thank you for answering my question love!💕 can I request a Dean x plus size reader where she is super shy and it drives dean crazy? Fluff, smut? I’m sorry to bother you hahah and that this sounds awkward turtle 🐢 🖤😻
My Girl...
Requested: Hola! request for dean x reader: the readers current boyfriend always puts her down and one day threatens to breakup with her if she doesn’t lose weight, even though she’s not even plus sized or anything. She constantly pushes her body to the limit to lose the weight and dean notices. it ends all fluffy and protective!dean comes out and has a “talk” with the boyfriend. side note for anyone reader this: YOUR BODY IS BEAUTIFUL MAMA 💗🥺
Your Dean...
Request: Heyy! I'm sorry to be a bother. I was wondering if you can do a one shot where the reader is prone to severe panic attacks and her husband Dean is the only one who knows how to calm her down? She gets a really bad attack but Dean for some reason ain't there, and no one is able to help her but eventually he comes back and takes care of her. Sorry if this is a lot haha.
Safe. Warm. His...
Request: Are you taking requests? If so would you possibly write a one shot with Dean where the reader is in little space and just wants to cuddle and nuzzle her head in his neck and give him lots of little kisses and play with his hands? It’s just superrrr fluffy 🥺🥺🖤
One Hell Of A Thank You...
Request: Can I request a Dean Winchester x plus size reader, where the reader is really quirky and dorky and goes on a date but turns out her date is a vampire and kidnapped her and dean saves her and falls in love with her, maybe some angst, fluff and smut 💕
Voices..
Request: Can I request? Dean x reader were she has an Eating Disorder and she’s recovering but today was an off day for her and starts to go back to her old habits and Dean notices and helps her through it.
His Girl...
Request: May I request a Dean Winchester x plus size reader where the reader is very shy and she at a bar and some dirt bags are picking on her about her shortness and weight and dean stands up for her? Some smut and fluff ?? Also want to say you are a bop of a writer my love! ✨💕🥰❤️
Happily Ever After...
Request: Hey beautiful! May I request a Dean Winchester x plus size reader where the reader does all the research for the boys and she is very shy,she a huge Disney fan, one day demons get in the bunker and make fun of her and dean stand up for her and confess his love for her (smut)? And after they cuddle and watch lady and tramp? Fluff and smut you are a gem my dear! 💕
His New Toy...
Request: Hai can I request dean x reader smut with breast bondage and nipple play?? plot (if there is any) is up to you ;)
His Heaven...
Request: Heyy I love your ABO fics and I have a request for you. You can always say no to this if you’re uncomfortable. I’ll completely understand and I’m very sorry. Can you do one with Alpha!Dean x Omega!reader. Where the reader is on a supply run and she gets assaulted and tortured by a monster and when she gets back to the bunker somehow, she only allows her Alpha anywhere near her and refuses help from anyone else. Dean takes care of her and helps her heal.
Something Worth Fighting For
Request: Hi love! Your writing is amazing and I was wondering if you could do a Dean x depressed!reader? Like dean finds the reader about to jump off the roof of the bunker after reading the note she left him and sam saying goodbye. He had never suspected anything cause she hid it so well. Dean saves her and tells her his feelings for her? You can also add any details you want or anything like that! There is no rush! Thank you!
Unlikely Places
Trigger Warning: Non-Con
Request: Hi! I love your work! Can you do a ABO? One where the reader is Beta, and Dean Alpha, and she’s his true mate/soulmate, but they don’t know it, and he gets possessive and goes into almost a feral rut where he tries to claim, and it almost kills her but Sam and Rowena save her and give Dean his Omega back? You come up with the plot because you’re amazing at that!! Please! I’d be forever in your debt!
I Hurt Too
Request: hi there! I have seen loads of fics and one shots where Dean is sleeping around/having a one night stand and the reader gets jealous and upset, but I was wondering if I could request one with the other way around? or maybe one where they sleep around equally? as smutty, fluffy, or angst as you want!!
What’s Left Of Me
Summary: Who know one little woman could have turned his whole world upside down? He had done so good alone for so long. Then here you come along, and ruin everything
Elf
Summary: Maybe being stuck at home alone with Dean for Christmas isn’t so bad after all.
Save Me
Summary: It’s not always easy being the hero, especially when no one is ever there to save you.
Saving Grace
Summary:  Some things are worth fighting for, even when they think they’re not. You can either roll over and die, or you can pick yourself up off the ground and go get what you want. That’s the place Y/N now finds herself in.
Living With Regret
Summary: Death can be hard to deal with in any aspect, but when you’re in the life, it's something you deal with all to often, and carry with you until it's your turn to burn.
Happy Halloween
Summary: It’s Daddy’s favorite holiday. So what’s a good girl gonna do, but let him blow off some steam after a successful hunt?
I’ll Wait For You
Summary:  Sometimes when we’re angry, hurt, or scared we say things wrong. Say things that hurt the ones we love. When Dean takes things a step to far can you find it in your heart to forgive him?
An Alpha And His Omega
Summary:  Sometimes Alpha’s aren’t the assholes, sometimes words Omegas say things that can hurt too. 
No, Screw You Sweetheart
Summary: You HATE Dean Winchester, I mean you really, REALLY hate Dean Winchester.
30 Minutes In Heaven
Summary: Your life, like many hunters before you, was cut short. You had no idea at the time the Fates that were at play in the universe were really those of dick angles and egotistical assholes with massive god complexes. And you also had no idea that they were really the reason you lost your life, and you had no idea why… Until around 30 minutes after you made it to Heaven.
The Devil And I
Pt. 1   Pt. 2   Pt. 3
Summary: What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, right? You survived after you thought your mate had died, but how will you survive finding out he's alive, only different.
Don’t Let It Show...
Summary: She’s had enough of him, just like every other woman always seems to, and normally, he doesn’t care, but this time...this time it hurts.
Don’t Fear The Reaper
Summary: They took him from her, her knit, her king, her Dean, “cured” him, and now she’s going to get him back, she’s going to set him free.
Scars And All
Summary:  You and Dean have a strange, mutual relationship, but that’s all it is, physical. Until an almost bar fight brings some things to light that you thought you’d never hear.
I Almost Lost You
Summary:   Sometimes, monsters aren't always monsters...sometimes they're people.
Touch Starved
Summary: Sometimes when the hunt is hard, and his mind is loud, Dean just wants to be close to someone he loves, but is to scared to say it out loud. Thankfully, she knows him better than he knows himself.
I Wanna Be Your Everything
Summary:  After a huge fight, and a week away from Dean, he’s finally decided it was okay to have the ending he’d always wanted.
One More Sunset
Summary: Dean just wants the pain to go away...
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Hey! No one cares but I started rewatching the second season of Young Justice and I’m gonna talk about it. For those who don’t know, Young Justice is a cartoon show about DC hero “sidekicks” (for lack of a better term). You can find it on HBO Max is you’re interested. Spoilers for s1 ahead.
Alright, so right off the bat I was a little taken aback by the five year time skip. What happened to the characters I knew and loved? Why is there a new Robin? Where is Kidflash? Aqualad?
And I still miss them but some of the new characters are super cool. I love the new Robin(Tim Drake) so far. He’s adorable and insecure and I love how Nightwing tries to build his confidence. Beast Boy is amazing and funny and I love the depth they gave his character. A lot of times the funny goofy character is pretty flat and f only there for comic relief. But I love the relationship they gave him with Miss Martian and seeing how his mom’s death affected him. Also Blue Beetle! He’s great. One problem I do kinda have with him though is that, to my knowledge, he is the only hispanic person on the show. Which is fine. But they kind of stereotype him a little? It’s clear that spanish is his first language but he’s very fluent in english and is the main language he speaks in the show. Yet they feel the need to have him add small bits of spanish in his average speaking. Like they have him say “ese” or “hermano” in sentences for no reason. Now, english is my first language and spanish is my second and I’m not hispanic so I can’t speak too much on this subject but I just felt that needed to be addressed. Other than that though I love his character.
Okay, I hate La’gaan. And I know that we’re supposed to hate him. Ya know. Causing tension and making us ship Superboy and Miss Martian more. But honestly I’ve kinda lost some respect for Megan. I’m not sure what happened in the five years but she’s gone down hill. I honestly don’t know what happened between Conner and Megan and the one episode they really address it in so far doesn’t do a very good job of explaining it but it’s clear that they still have feelings for each other. And I feel like Conner just gets her on a different level than La’gaan would. That could be just me though. And what made her start...idk what to call it but like putting her enemies in catatonic state as a way of interrogation? She did that once kind of in s1 with Psimon but I figured that was a one time thing and it was in the moment kind of thing.she was scared of him exposing her secret and just acted quickly. But I never would have suspected it to become a regular thing. It’s clear that at least Superboy opposes to this but nobody is calling her out on it. So idk what’s up with that.
I miss Wally. I respect his decision to be “done with the hero game” but please I love you. I love the small little insight of him and Artemis on Valentines Day but please I need more. I love that he’s still there for Roy even after Roy has gone off the deep end. And speaking of Roy(clone Roy), when did he and Cheshire get married? They had some chemistry in s1. A little enemies to lovers. We love that. But after s1 I was under the impression that Roy kind of shut everyone out and had a five year long existential crisis. As one does when they find out their entire life was a lie. Was getting married to her like a spur of the moment thing? Or was there a long term relationship? If so, they were clearly together long enough to have a child. I just find that timeline to be a bit confusing.
HOW COME WHEN THE KIDS WERE ALL SAYING GOODBYE TO THE BIG SIX(plus Icon) AND EVERYONE WAS WITH THEIR LOVED ONES, WHY WAS CAPTAIN ATOM SAYING BYE TO JOHN STEWART(one of the many green lanterns)? ARE THEY IN A RELATIONSHIP? PLEASE GIVE ME A CONFIRMED GAY SHIP
Okay, this will probably be my last point because this is long enough already. But. Let’s talk about Aqualad. I’m 90% sure that he’s a spy and not really working for his father. But when did this start? I have a feeling that at least Nightwing is in on it but they still leave it pretty vague. And I know that’s on purpose to build suspense and keep interest. But I can still complain, damnit!
I think I’m halfway through s2? I left off where Roy found “the real Roy Harper” so who knows. I might make a follow up about how I feel once I finish it. I really do love this show though.
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- What your fav Haikyuu!! Character says about you│Karasuno edition -
Obviously these aren’t meant to be taken too seriously lol. I’ll probably make this into a series at some point where I include the other teams idk this took me way too long to do JWIDJQENWKJQFN WE’LL SEE. ENJOY! <3
2D men are infinitely superior I said what I said.
Hinata: 
A sucker for motivational speeches or quotes and they always get you hyped up.
Very ambitious and positive despite frequently getting lost in life
Not as innocent as you seem but still a cinnamon roll lololol
You probably eat fruit as a regular snack n ppl judge you for it
Highkey a dumbass but in a very endearing way so people can’t help but like you
Summer is probs ur fave season
Definitely own several plushies and definitely get defensive about it
The friend people go to when they need cheering up.
You either go to bed at 8pm or 3am no in between.
Your texting style consists of several messages as opposed to one paragraph/sentence with the use of MANY emojis.
You 100% fuck with pineapple on pizza. 
Got your head stuck in a cat flap that one time.
Have a hella low alcohol tolerance or don’t drink at all.
Hella clueless when it comes to people flirting with you, they have to hold a neon sign in front of you for you to get the message
“Oh you were flirting with me?” “I was every day for 5 months but thanks for finally noticing”
Definition of a tab hoarder, your pc/laptop frequently crashes because it can’t handle that many but you refuse to get rid of any.
Always get toothpaste stains on your shirt no matter how careful you are.
“Wait we had homework???”
Nishinoya:
You often get random bursts of energy outta nowhere or at 2am and have no clue how to handle it 
You can’t help but head bang and scream the lyrics to your fav songs.
Probably have a hella diverse music taste.
Likely an active/outdoorsy person who either does sports or wants to.
Vvv loyal, type of friend you can call in the middle of the night and you’ll be there.
Chaotic good or Chaotic neutral.
You’re either one of the most responsible people in the room or one of the most fuckin chaotic and irresponsible lmao no in between it just depends on your mood.
Frequently pull all nighter’s and doesn’t even feel guilty about it
Chug soda like it’s water.
An extrovert or one of those introverts that are bat-shit once you actually get to know them.
You have zero shame, can and will run across the street stark naked for a cheeseburger and a can of sprite.
Like fuck yeah who wouldn’t for a burger and some sprite y’know??
Despite being a whirlwind you are actually a hella chill person to have as company.
You own a skateboard or want to.
Own at least one pair of converses or vans.
Probably have a bucket list or tons of future plans for travelling/adventures stored in your head.
You really want a dog and would call it something like Dexter or Human Destroyer 9000.
Likely have had several hair colour phases.
A slut for doritos.
You ate glue once as a kid and it was kinda okay and that fact still haunts you.
Tanaka:
Listen to rap more than any other genre and ur playlist is fire
Punched dry wall that one time
Probably have several piercings and plan on getting more
Prefer sports bras to regular ones.
Intimidates outsiders but your friends don’t take you seriously in the slightest lmaoaoaooa
Ppl find it hard to approach you but you’re actually super chill so you get sad 
Definition of that Kanye meme “before you talk to me” >:( “after you talk to me” :)
Probably don’t trust people easily
Type of person that once you’re challenged/dared to do something they WILL do it regardless of how stupid bc you hate being called a pussy.
Went through a phase where you only listened to Eminem.
Probably is/was the class clown or wished they were.
You have virtually no patience and a pretty short temper lmao.
You’re a go-getter and hate being told you can’t do something
Definitely snuck out the house several times as a teen.
Walks barefoot outside a lot bc fuck shoes lol
The pairs of shoes you do own are mostly worn down sneakers you refuse to swap out.
You’re that asshole that wears socks with holes in for the sport of it and it doesn’t phase you in the slightest. (dw I do too lmaooao)
Could probably bench press someone’s dad
Enjoy’s drinking coffee.
Kageyama:
Such a picky eater bitch god damn.
Usually hella hydrated and judge people that don’t drink enough water.
Eats spoonfuls of chocolate nesquik powder when no one is looking I said what I said
You like stoic and Tsundere guys who have the outer emotional capacity of a brick wall.
You’re probably the same in that sense and don’t enjoy letting people know what you’re thinking/feeling
Poker face 90% of the time
Type of person to pretend not to find a joke funny but then crumble and start crying with laughter.
Probs an introvert
Once when someone asked you what you wanted for Christmas you responded “to be left the fuck alone” and it still applies to this day.
like fr you just wanna be left alone man but ppl keep bothering you.
You HATE it when people tell you to smile and quite literally take it as an insult.
Your bedtime is 9pm and you stick by it religiously 
Always smell really good like damn what you got on??
The most you do with your hair if it’s long enough is throw it in a pony tail and call it a day.
Either have really nicely manicured nails or you’v chewed them down to the nub no in between.
You hate to admit it but you doubt yourself a lot and it really frustrates you.
Probably wet the bed a lot as a kid and you’re still salty about it.
lololol bed-wetter Kags lover
Audibly snorted typing that I’m sorry.
Probably had a ._. face reading that since ur usually hella unamused.
Cute awkward dork though behind that facade it’s just most people don’t see it.
So critical of yourself like chill
An earth sign or an Aquarius idc.
Do not know how to reciprocate a hug but desperately need one
When people flirt with you you somehow manage to make them intimidated with your responses and scare them off.
You called your teacher “mum/dad” once and you get Vietnam flashbacks to this day.
Daichi:
You probably have a daddy kink and lowkey daddy issues with it
Very supportive friend who has a lotta patience
Hella determined and humble.
Mostly wear black because it’s just much easier than colour coordinating and plus you just prefer the simplicity, but you’re pretty vibrant as a person.
The one who stays sober at parties to drive the others home.
Probably haven’t been in many relationships but still do enjoy romance.
seems stern but is actually very friendly and enjoy company bc you don’t like spending too much time by yourself.
Honestly just wants to chill out, go to bed and read a book.
A coffee connessieur but mostly just drinks instant bc ur too lazy to make it properly and just drink it black.
Very reliable.
Often get stuck with most of the work during group projects lololol
People frequently ask you for the answers to the homework/assignment and it really depends on your mood and how charitable you’re feeling as to whether you’ll lend it to them
Low-key a sadist.
100% Old soul
Despite this you are a fuckin dork and have quite an immature but really funny sense of humour.
You have a thigh kink. 
Def grew up reading wattpad smut and most of ur sexual knowledge stems from that
probably prefer manga to animated versions
Absolute pro at winged eyeliner and looks v good in it.
Probably give lectures even without realising it.
Shamelessly watches the nature channel for hours on end and what of it.
Honestly just done with everyone’s shit lmao
Sugawara:
Either are the mom friend or the one the mom friend has to look after.
You vibe with pastel colours
Your fav season is either spring or autumn.
oversized hoodies and knitted sweaters are your vibe.
Enjoy drinking herbal tea
Likes the smell of rain and will purposely step outside after a storm and S N O R T the smell of damp concrete. (srry if ur from some dry ass place like nevada lmao it rains alot in the UK soooOOOoO)
Quiet but have a really creative imagination and has one HELL of a loud voice when they’re pissed off
like,, I wouldn’t dare get on ur nerves ion want my ear drums bursting damn.
Hoards flavoured chapsticks and scented lip gloss
Either did or still have your Harry Potter house in your bio and it was probably Hufflepuff.
Gives people advice that they are fully aware also applies to themselves but doesn’t follow it LMAO.
Listens to K-pop and several Korean and Japanese genres.
Played a dating sim once and you enjoyed it but ur still ashamed and refuse to ever talk about it.
Smells like lavender or something hella floral
Probably reads a lot of Yaoi and no one else knows but you.
Would 100% own a chinchilla
Read Killing Stalking and it messed you up for weeks.
Asahi:
The one who was trying to flirt for months and the other person never got the hint
Probably a really pretty crier and vibe with the mascara running aesthetic.
You tear up easily lol.
Probably a water sign.
Low-key a bad bitch though 
Looks really good in red lipstick
That one person who’s v attractive but completely unaware and v insecure.
That one friend who seems so soft and innocent but can turn into a banshee when need be.
Crying is your therapy.
You overthink a LOT and it often stops you from achieving what you want.
Actually have a lot of willpower despite ur sensitivity.
Was def a pushover as a kid and still have a chip on your shoulder about it.
Hella artsy and day dreams a lot.
You attract broken souls and often get turned to when people’s problems need fixing yet you’re a total mess yourself
Listens to Girl in red while questioning your sexuality
which you do a lot.
You hate being put in a box or labelled.
Gave up on that hobby that one time and you really wanna get back into it.
Always have at least one hair tie on your wrist that’s basically an accessory at this point.
Own a phat ass fish tank with hella pretty fishes bro it’s such a vibe say hi to Nemo for me.
Yamaguchi:
Too scared to ask for extra ketchup packets so you get your friend to ask instead.
Probably have anxiety.
The time you stuttered once when introducing yourself frequently gives you cringe attacks.
Major animal lover and prefers them to people.
Talked to a tree once and it was a pretty cool experience.
Wear a lot of pink or cute colours and radiate babi energy.
Likely wear skirts 
Wear those aesthetic planets necklaces and your tumblr is filled with space related art and themes.
Enjoy staring up at the clouds and figuring out what animal they are.
Has a lot of secrets that they probably tell to their cat.
dw ur cat isn’t a snitch they got you covered.
“meow”
yeah they definitely didn’t just try to reveal ur deepest traumas to your cousin.
If you don’t have a cat you probably would want one and would call it Mittens or sumn.
You’re whipped for freckles and anyone that has them instantly becomes 1000x more attractive to you
Either like 5′2″ or 5′10″ no middle ground
Definitely own a turtle or rabbit and if you don’t then you should.
Forgets your assignments but the professor lets you off because you’re so nervous they can’t scold you.
Oversleeps at least 2 times a week
Will not get up before 1pm on a weekend
Wall flower at parties but people still approach you bc you are so friendly and kind.
Social anxiety intensifies.
Always get’s called on in class when you haven’t been paying attention and it really troubles you.
Has a minimum of 3 blankets on your bed that you cocoon yourself in.
Tsukishima:
Your attracted to snarky assholes.
Sarcasm and insults are your form of flirtation and you get immediately turned off if they can’t take it or get upset.
Probably shy away from your feelings
Random flashbacks to embarrassing events frequently keep you up at night
Judge peoples fashion choices as they walk past you but actually have a really good eye for what works and what doesn’t.
You look like you have your shit together and you kinda do for the most part.
The quiet kid in class that’s listening to some loud ass screamo or rock n roll’ but ppl have no idea.
Definition of the glinting anime glasses pushed up your nose bridge cliche.
When you make a mistake you question all your knowledge and abilities but no one else knows that about you
Refuses to cry since you view your emotions as a personal weakness
If someone hugged you you’d get VERY uncomfortable.
Physical contact is not your forte
Probably a 5′0″ demon.
Would peg a man to assert dominance but you’re actually a lil bitch.
Knows the answer to the question they can’t solve.
Doesn’t study as much as they should but somehow still gets good grades.
Really likes french fries and the taste of strawberries.
Just wants to be left alone
Ennoshita:
The one friend that gets talked over and it really pisses you off but you’re too nice to say anything.
Seems really passive but can actually be hella confrontational when they wanna be
No tolerance for peoples bullshit 
Really stable and just an overall reliable person.
People often forget you’re in the room lmao but it’s okay you’d rather listen anyway.
Actually has a really interesting mind and a lot to say but mostly keep it to yourself unless they’re your friend
Answered for someone else in attendance a few years ago and it still bothers you.
People often come to you to vent and you’re chill with it
Don’t stand out much but honestly it doesn’t bother you
Can and will get through an entire book/series in a matter of 3 days.
Quite a minimalist and organised for the most part
You look like you have your shit together and you def do.
Have a controversial taste in pizza.
You have more acquaintances than friends but the ones you do are a v tight knit circle.
Will re take a quiz several times till you get the character you wanted
Radiate Virgo and Libra energy.
Kiyoko:
Type of person to say “step on me” as a way of complimenting and you mean it literally.
Both a sadist and masochist
When someone tells you their not interested it just makes you want them 100x more and it frustrates you why are you like this.
Doesn’t compliment often but when you do it’s really heartfelt.
Looks like your silently judging people but in reality you really couldn’t care.
Just kidding you low-key judge them anyway.
Very picky when it comes to partners.
Independent but has random hella clingy moments.
Despite being quiet, you are capable of roasting a bitch alive if they test your patience.
Like I would NOT wanna get on your bad side
You could deadass send them to therapy, their emotions fenna need some aloe vera for that burn.
Just really calm and relaxed tbh so people enjoy being in your company even though you don’t talk much.
When you do though it’s usually something really interesting or funny.
You just don’t see the point in talking if what your saying doesn’t hold any value??
You hate small talk and would rather slingshot yourself off a skyscraper than partake in it.
Your face is easy to read and you make no effort to hide it.
If your in a bad mood they WILL know.
Look like your plotting someones demise or questioning life’s theories but in reality you’re really just thinking bout what you want for dinner.
Honestly just a sweetheart tbh.
Low-key have a staring problem.
Has really neat and cursive handwriting like who tf taught you that.
Yachi:
Frequently says something then panics that it could be misinterpreted 
You overthink literally everything you have ever said and the actions you haven’t even committed yet
Really likes the taste of sherbet 
Could cut a bitch if they needed to
You spend most of your money at Urban Outfitters and don’t regret it.
have an assortment of colouring pencils that ppl always try and borrow and never give them back.
You highlight the shit outta your papers and never read them again.
Really like the smell of peaches
Probably have a v interesting earring collection.
Hoard water bottles in your room and you feel majorly guilty about it.
The taste of honey disgusts you but you eat it anyway for some reason.
Somehow managed to burn rice and solidify soup.
You shouldn’t be trusted in the kitchen but you try your best regardless.
I feel like that applies to most things in your life
Like yeah you fucked it up but like you’re trying your best lol cmon
V tolerant of people but have zero time for fuckboys and shut them down instantly.
You frequently get the shakes from caffeine or anxiety
Or both.
You give really encouraging hugs.
Have no clue what you wanna do in life but it’s ok bby it’ll work out.
Takeda:
You’re a very underappreciated and underrated person and I love u
Probably an English/languages major
Really kind and outgoing but high-key mysterious
Actually has a phat fucking temper like damn where did that come from.
Won’t take no for an answer when you want to achieve something.
That one person people don’t realise is there listening to your conversations but you definitely are and now know Becky’s deepest darkest secret.
Fuck you, becky.
Wore contacts once and forgot to take them out for 3 days.
You wondered why your eyes were so itchy.
Your music taste does not match your appearance.
Probably watch a lot of crime shows and imagine you’re an investigator
Aced physics and chemistry.
More than likely an introvert with extrovert tendencies when you feel like it.
Actually quite temperamental but it’s okay since you’re a v genuine person.
Often debate getting a sugar daddy bc that income looking real tempting rn.
Honest to a fault at times but it’s something people come to appreciate about you.
Just really wanna sleep for 15 hours and sit in front of your laptop with some hot coco.
Ukai:
You like older men
The smell of tobacco and coffee low-key comforts you for some reason.
Peed in a bottle that one time while on a road trip and forgot to throw it out until you found it a week later.
You’re a slut for dyed hair and dudes with piercings.
You once got drunk and passed out on a spinning round-a-bout in a park and your friend still has pictures that you refuse to acknowledge.
Bi-curious and just radiate big Bi energy
Would experiment but you’re too hesitant.
Hates the taste of beer but drinks it anyway.
Just wants to be loved man I stg is that too much to ask.
Often wonder if your friends actually like you then realise you don’t really care anyway lmao.
You still love them though.
Tired of working over time and just wanna catch a break.
Amazon Prime is your best friend.
Random ass parcels comin thru’ each day and it feels like Christmas.
A very lonely and one-man party Christmas.
Stop spending your fucking paycheck.
Have a pretty dark/cynical but really funny sense of humour and you often make people laugh.
Have a big ass temper and people KNOW it.
Often fantasised about dropping out and becoming a stripper bc your patience was being TESTED.
Really likes money but who doesn’t tbh.
You radiate Chaotic Evil but keep it under wraps.
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I had a nasty fight with my former bff. This was long ago. She did the whole 'boycotting me' thing at school and afterwards had a mutual friend pass her msg to me, saying "tell her [me] to get it into her skull that she's not the center of the world, who does she think she is? Stop acting like a #" Im simplifying the words, her actual words were nastier
I got thinking today abt this fight, and her comment abt me that is still way too fresh in my mind even tho I hadn't recalled it in 2-3 yrs!, and I actually decided to use the law to revise my friendship to feel better as what happened after the fight was shameful on my part. But before I knew it, I started rmmbring my relationship with her. How I became a total victim. Got so stuck on her validation, begged her to be friends with me (after I got the degrading msg. 🤕 silly me w/o a backbone lol) and stayed her 'bestie' for way too long. Only after it's all over im noticing smth messed up abt out 'feiendship'. It wasnf that normal I think. She would get so pissed if I did anything that went against her thoughts/beliefs/way (which is why she called me a selfish # that major fight). It was so subtle the way she showed her disapproval. To her, if I did anything not aligned with her, or even makih decisions on my own which didn't involve her, it was wrong. And had consequences like her beinf distant for days etc, or getting angry if I didn't mind read her bla bla, I just had to keep her at the top 24/7 and she expected everyone else to do the same... which I thought was normal... It wasnt. And what would be even more crazy is she never realized how that meant she always wanted the attention. That she always wanted it her way! It just makes me feel... Sad.... When I look back. How couldn't I have notived it before? I used to be strong headed, opinionated before I became 'besties' with her.. That all has changed. I wonder why -_-
It may be dumb on my part but with the weak mind and insecurity I had then, I took that fight/her reaction to the heart and internalisef this stupidiy (DENY MYSELF if the other alternative was denying HER. I didn't think it was wrong. For the oldme, it really wasn't wrong smh). Aaah I'm so sorry old me :(
This fight started bcoz she asked me for smth and I refused, instead of relenting like I always would, and I see now that her reaction (to me not being an obedient # to her ig?🤢) was basically her setting rules. It was wrong of me to refuse, yes, but why did she react that way? Why did this pattern continue? That everyone was selfish if they didn't think of her ;_; like how do u deal with this? And the icing is when I too started to defend her and make excuses for her all the time. And ik I'm making her out to be so strong, don't worry... I accept the strong only rule when the weak submit. And I was weak as hell, so its understandable this whole thing. I think 😅
Idk. I seen your posts abt eyipo with other anons so i hope u can tell me figure out what this was. Its clear to me she was projecting smth about me, and mb throughout our whole friendship she was projecting me. And I would think it was her hurting me, that she was right and I was wrong or maybe I did smth wrong. Mb I thought I deserved being punished that way?!
Today I suddenly had an aha moment and I realised... this is how a victim thinks. I didn't know I was a victim when I was living that stoey aka thought I was powerless. When in fact I really wasn't?! Haha still accepting I 555% created ALL that. The law can knock you out haha
Enough old story I just want to ask, what du u think the msg she sent to me was? Did I really deserve such a reaction (did I mention she included other girls in the boycot? 🤢) just for standing up for myself? What about the whole 'fight' aka showcase of power? And the entire yrs of being friends why did I never realize I was only hurting myself so much by putting her before me? And also, with the everyone pushed out thing, how did it fit in? Like why the hell did I give her too much power in validating me by giving in after the fight in the first place?, and while I did have some fun times (saying this so anyone else who reads this doesn't think it was pure torture lol. We had some common interests tyat no one else in the class shared when we first became 'friends'), deep down I was so unhappy so why didn't this reflect on her? I mean why didn't she ever sense just how much she'd hurt me, why didn't she see how much I put on the back burner coz of her?! Was it as she saw it as her right? I'm just so confused
This is still a bitter pill to swallow tbh but I have to face this in order to move on. This person and my life with her has left me wit many scars and I got to understand how I did this so I never attract such a person in my life again. Its not even abt bejnf a victim. As I said, these victimy things were subtle and I only noted them when it was too late and I was a shell, like she getting super pissed and disapproving if I had a differing opinion and me blowijg it out of proportion and tailoring my views or not expressing them so as to not feel the disapproval...thanks boycott conditioning ig? 😭 Aaaah even talking agaunst her rn is making me uncomfortable. Which makes me think I still am scared of her subconsciously even tho she's no longer in my life. Like, what in me made me choose her? I haven't healed, obviously by this ask as u can tell, but idk what is it in my self concept that had this whole thing in my past even happen
My friend, I also want to say I think you're a beautiful soul 🥺. And im sorry for the long ask lol. And I pray you'll always have all your desires. And plz, was it hard for u at first when u learned about u creating everything? The good, the bad, and the repulsive (like this story)? How did u get over old stories? Ty ty ty 😭
To begin with you're being really harsh on yourself. Like, I know it's hard, but it's never that serious. And trust me, this is something I have to remind myself of regularly. Because there have definitely been moments in life where I look back on myself in that moment, and I feel like I was pathetic and would slap myself if I could. But the truth is, there's just no need for any of that. We always did the best we could. We always did, period. We couldn't have done anything differently and this will continue to be true our entire lives. Looking back on the past with such overwhelming feelings, is really not needed. I get looking back to learn from it, but practice coming from a place of love and acceptance instead. It will help you grow, rather than get stuck back in this cycle of self-hate and confusion. Plus, you actually never need to analyze the past to grow but that's beyond the point right now.
To me, by reading your ask, the message she sent to you was clear. You feel you deserve less in life, you feel you're not good enough, you feel like a victim to life and others, you feel like you're not empowered or the operant power of your reality. It's not about her being wrong and you being right, and I get this is one of the hardest pills to swallow. Everyone is you pushed out. Therefore, there's simply no such thing as who is right and who is wrong anymore. It was only ever you.
When it comes to everyone is you pushed out, you have to understand this person isn't this way because that's who they are. They were that way because that's who you were. Inside of you, you brought their character to life. Therefore, the same way you are not stuck to such an undesirable self concept, neither is that person. It's not that you chose her and attracted her in. You were just dealing with yourself. That's what I hope you walk away from this response understanding. Because by thinking she was outside of you, you're missing the mark. And this is such an important concept to understand when it comes to the law of assumption, because it's really at the forefront of everything. People play such a huge role in our lives, whether it's relationships, jobs, opportunities, etc etc. So understanding how everyone is you pushed out actually works is extremely important.
So instead of putting all this blame on her or even putting the blame on yourself, all these memories really do is give you a glimpse into who you were at the time. It shows you the beliefs you held about yourself. It shows you what your self concept was. That's all it's doing. So in that way, there's actually no one to blame at all. I know it feels good to put blame, even when it's on yourself, but the truth is there's no room for blame when you learn about the law. You simply take responsibility and become empowered by the power you have held this entire time. And you practice making it work in your favor.
If you want to see how something was apart of your self concept, all you have to do is pay attention to what you are thinking/feeling. Shame, not being good enough, etc etc is all just stories you once held onto. Now you don't have to hold onto those stories anymore. Now that you know the power you hold, you get to make a new decision for yourself. Rather than ruminating of the painful past, allow it to be and know how that's not your story anymore.
Was it difficult for me to accept how I created everything? Yes and no. It's been a journey. While I could accept it logically, emotionally it was still very painful. Many times I wanted to cry and lash out when I felt alone and felt upset that no one was there for me. Although, I knew deep down it appeared that way because of my own concept of self. So yeah, it's been a journey. And it's honestly not always delightful. But this is the journey we have to take for the rest of our lives, so we might as well get used to practicing and applying these concepts. Instead of continuing to hold ourselves in such painful lights. I got through old stories, and I continue to get through old stories, by feeling all the pain that came up. By allowing myself to cry and feel however I felt like during those times. And in the back of my mind I knew I was getting stronger in my power. I knew how I would keep persisting once the pain subsided. And little by little, old stories fade more and more. That persistence to continue choosing better for yourself, is truly more powerful than it may seem in a difficult moment. Have trust in how it's all working out for you regardless.
Hopefully this is helpful! Thank you for your kind words. 💖
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Yeosang “Boyfriend Headcanons”
Hongjoong version// Seonghwa Version // Yunho version // Yeosang version // San Version // Mingi version // Wooyoung version // Jongho version //
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- my main bias wrecker
- like he’s totally not my usual type
- but I have a huge soft spot for him
- let’s gO
- He’s so shy when it comes to dating
- it’s so wholesome
- very gentle and soft
- Yeosang is just incredibly cautious too
- Okay so first date
- I feel like Yeosang would prefer if you were friends before going out on a date
- like I feel like he would be more the type to fall for someone he knows
- Plus he’d be wayyyy more likely to ask you out if you are already friends
- So I feel like first date would be a little bit awkward
- because well you’ve been friends 
- now you’re out as trying to start a relationship
- so
- it’s a little awkward
- until you guys really get into it and start talking as you would on a day to day basis
- but this is what he wants
- he wants a friend and a partner
- not just a partner
- so you guys would probably get some ice cream or milkshakes
- sit down in the ice cream place and just talk
- Now Yeosang might be awkward and carefull
- but he would definitely want to kiss you
- but he’d ask in the sweetest way
- avoiding eye contact and playing with his fingers 
- he’s so gentle
- his lips are so light against yours that you barely feel them 
- but it’s his hand on your cheek that holds more weight
- just so carefull and sweet 
- afterwards he would have a hard time not smiling 
- so much so that the members would be concerned lmao
- He probably wouldn’t tell the members you were dating right away 
- But they’d probably know about it because you started coming over a lot more
- they all love you because they know you make yeosang very happy
- speaking of happy yeosang
- praise him 
- dear god praise him 
- he needs to hear it
- give him all the compliments
- he needs more positivity and hearing it from you makes him almost want to cry sometimes
- he values your compliments so much it makes him emotional
- sit him down
- pet his hair
- trace over his birthmarks
- tell him he’s doing a good job 
- tell him he’s beautiful
- this is how you cuddle too
- his head on your chest as you pet his hair
- talking
- these are the moments you get to the deep stuff when talking
- like Yeosang doesn’t open up all too much 
- when he’s kind of tired and in the mood too you kinda ease him into talking about stuff
- Because he doesn’t like opening up much, you pushing him will spark arguments
- he doesn’t like feeling pressure like that
- so give him time to open up to you more
- it’ll take a little work 
- but Yeosang is worth it
- When Yeosang is mad 
- he can get kinda bitchy if he’s upset with you
- I say bitchy because he can be so passive agressive it’s crazy 
- but he always feels bad afterwards
- If he’s the one in the wrong
- he apologizes and gets emotional when he does
- he’s always scared of losing you for some reason
- so when he apologizes he’s practically in tears
- it’s really hard to watch actually
- Now when you’re in the wrong and need to apologize
- you’re already forgiven
- he has a hard time staying mad
- but you don’t need to know that
- not until you apologize
- then it’s a total mood switch
- When he’s just sad or upset
- his favorite place is your chest
- It’s not that noticeable when he’s upset 
- which makes it hard to gage how to act around him sometimes
- but you can tell
- after a while of being with him 
- you can pick up on the cues
- the door slams a little harder than usual
- he showers a little longer than usual
- he’s more quiet
- but for comfort
- loves it when you play with his hair which i mentioned already
- but he just really really loves it
- especially when his hair is longer
- he just loves feeling your fingers threading through his hair
- When you’re upset
- Yeosang will do literally anything to cheer you up
- if you are missing someone
- he’ll set up a video call with that person if he can 
- sometimes you think he doesn’t listen to what you say 
- or at least doesn’t remember these things
- but he does
- when you’re upset he really shows that
- “You mentioned that you really liked the cupcakes from that store. So I brought you some.” 
- stuff along those lines
- Yeosang has an odd sense of humor
- we all know the ponytail song
- You need to have a similar sense humor
- like I feel like Yeosang is the type to text you in the middle of the night with odd life questions
- they make you laugh but they also make you think
- he’ll send you weird funny videos 
- he’s the type to Jenna Marbles scream/cry laugh at funny tiktoks
- i’m just convinced he’s like that
- he can laugh at the same video over and over
- it’s amusing to watch
- He also likes taking you out skating
- Yeosang would love to teach you how to skate if you don’t know how
- he’d think it’s really fun and hope you’d get your own
- so you can go skating together 
- he’d probably have a pic of you on his skateboard as his wallpaper just saying
- he’d also love to teach you how to fly drones
- it’s a huge hobby of his 
- he’d love to be able to enjoy these things together with you 
- he also likes it when you wear his beanies 
- he thinks you look super cute in them 
- just loves it so much 
- okay so dating Yeosang
- You gain a Wooyoung
- Wooyoung is your best friend now
- you don’t have a choice lmao
- no but you love it
- because Wooyoung has known Yeosang so long
- Wooyoung can help give you insight sometimes
- it’s just nice
- Though Yeosang wants to punch him sometimes when he teases too much 
- you’re always there to laugh about it
- which in turn makes Yeosang laugh about it
- He gets kinda jealous 
- he doesn’t hide it very well
- doesn’t get jealous of his members being near you 
- but other guys 
- he doesn’t like it
- but he doesn’t get mad at you for it
- he trusts you 
-it’s Yeosang’s own insecurities that make him think this way
- he knows that 
- So he holds it back 
- but does vent to you while you’re running your fingers through his hair
- Adult-y stuff no kids allowed 😤😤
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- okay so a lot of people call Yeosang a sub 
- i disagree
- he’s no dom either
- he’s a switch 
- like most of Ateez  (in my opinion)
- very shy the first few times you have sex
- well shy?
- nervous and careful
- he’s so gentle and sweet though
- feather light touches and kisses over your body
- along with sweet praise
- however he can tease
- waits with giving you what you want
- wants to hear you beg for it just a little
- but you tend to do the same with him
- you like to hear him beg too
- you like teasing him with light touches and kisses
- only to compliment him with praise
- he really likes it when you mark him 
- especially on his neck 
- he gets goosebumps when your lips touch his adams apple
- it makes him stutter
- moan
- it’s all very equal in the bedroom when it comes to dominance
- he likes using his hands a great deal too
- because he knows you find them attractive
- He has a slight thing for watching you 
- watch you touching yourself
- he finds it so beautiful 
- pair that with some nice red lingerie 
- he has the mental image of a life time
- He likes the visuals of it all
- the mental images are everything to him 
- great at giving oral 
- kind of awkward when receiving
- doesn’t really know what to do with himself
- give him a bit to get used to it
- once he’s more comfortable 
- he’d be interested in some things like 
- tying eachother up and such 
- but that’s the extent of what he’s into
- he’s just so sweet when it come to sex really 
-Aftercare
- quiet
- very quiet after sex 
- not awkward silence
- just a peacefull silence
- your fingers drawing over the veins in his arms 
- tracing his birthmarks
- all as he holds you
- trying to hold back his smile
- he’s very thoughtfull in this moment
- he just loves you 
- doesn’t want to ruin that feeling by stumbling over his words
- so he stays quiet
- kissing your forehead gently
- like every few seconds actually
- Yeosang feels like there are no words good enough
- so you whisper soft praises
- making him hold you close
- and hide his face in your neck
- because he can’t stop smiling 
- that’s the aftercare
- the quiet moment after sex where you make sure your both okay
- emotionally and physically
- A relationship with Yeosang requires a lot of understanding
- a lot of give and take
- but it’s worth it
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A/N: I got lost in this one. idk why but I’m so emo when it comes to Yeosang so if this is so sappy i apologize
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who do you think is the most dateable dark matter thief?? i know you have an opinion and i need to hear it
sorry for the late response anon i honestly had to think abt this one for a few days lmao, but yeah i have opinions. below the cut bc fr i have opinions, all of them have major pros and cons (based on my characterization at least) and really i just have to break it down for u
Boros, everyones obvious first choice, but certainly not mine.
Pros: rich, tall, pretty, fun af, passionate, will kill for you np, give you anything you want, literally anything.
cons: has a god complex, doesnt respect you, not his number one priority at all, will forget about you once its not interesting for him anymore, probably argumentative/combative af, is very very smart and has no problem manipulating you in all the worst ways, is very entitled so he will never feel bad about anything, cant win arguments either bc he’ll want to settle it with combat, will get offended over little things just to argue bc he thinks thats fun
this is a relationship you’d get into if you literally have nothing to lose and dont care about your mental health. like hes hot but this shit would be toxic af and he will ruin your life and leave you to go fuck around and fight someone on the other side of the universe. this will be the best of times and the worst of times for you and you will never be the same afterward mentally or emotionally. the only way i would even consider it is if i lost my damn mind. The only way a relationship with him would ever work long term is if you were physically stronger than him and were capable of putting him in his place OR you were smart enough, suicidal enough, and interesting enough to him to engage in some psychological warfare and reject him if he asked you. Make him chase you for years, say yes, then decide that /he’s/ boring /you/ and leave him for another member of the squad to just destroy their established hierarchy and humble him to the point that he’s obsessed with you.
i dont have the energy for all that, so i’ll just smash and pass.
0/10 completely undateable
Geryuganshoop, also a probable second choice for many:
pros: cute, nice, tentacle alien (obviously), will respect you np, will also give you anything you want, not antagonistic at all, telepathic communication so no risk of miscommunication, emotionally intelligent and available, loyal to a fault,
cons: horrible boss/best friend that you will have to listen to him vent about for at least 3 hours a day, complete yes man as well so he will not tell boros no or cut him off and you will be stuck dealing with this no matter what, severely mentally ill and wont go to therapy bc he thinks hes handling it well, workaholic, needs a lot, and i mean A LOT of attention
this relationship would be great if not for boros lol. boros sabotages his social and romantic life but geryu has been friends with him too long to either cut him off or establish boundaries. he has no backbone (figuratively and literally) and wouldnt even consider it. he’ll ignore you in favor of his job too, to a massive degree. also i think that while the telepathic communication would be a major plus in most cases, here i feel like i’d have no less than 16 different, never before seen on earth, mental illnesses projected right into my brain just from being within a certain radius of him.
im already fucked up enough in that sense so pass unfortunately.
it would be a yes without boros in the picture tho lmao
so prob like 4/10 iffy datablillity, 1 level increase with each decade of therapy he gets tho so a lot of potential :D
Groribas, my fav girl:
pros: straightforward, realistic, very clear expectations, will not fuck around with you whatsoever like there is no mind games or anything here, will kill for you, rich and non materialistic so she’ll basically just let you do whatever with her money since she doesn t care about it, cares about her job but like...a normal amount. she absolutely has a good work/life balance, highly organized so she will not forget important dates, loyal af and will defend your honor under any circumstances, mean but in a funny way, a ton of fun to hang out with if you’re into that, no eyes so i dont have to worry abt eye contact ever
cons: extremely high expectations, like exhaustingly high, and not even a bit of flexibility there, if you dont meet the cut its a no, she’ll let you know and leave same day, she will also bully you, you need a thick skin and great sense of humor to survive, bad at feelings if you need emotional support???? go elsewhere, shes mega emotionally unavailable, will probably want to share bodies as a form of intimacy
overall its a solid 6.5/10 dateability for me i love the directness and no bs approach, we would def get along well. however, while im not sensitive, shes def gonna hit on some insecurities at some point and it will cause an argument lol. but i mean whatever. it happens. the body sharing would be an issue though, same reason i wouldnt be chill with having a symbiote despite being a major venom fucker. i need my space i cant deal with that. so thats a possible deal breaker if she couldnt get over that lol. and she wont, so we wouldnt work out. i wish it fuckin would tho😭😭😭 i would take whatever crumbs of attention she would be willing to give me
Melzalgald, my fav they/them bastard:
pros: amorphous and shapeshifting aka extremely attractive according to my taste in monsters, tall af but could chose to be a more reasonable survivable size lol, self contained and self-entertaining so they dont need a ton of attention to be happy, funny af, rich, will give you whatever you want and probably a bunch of shit you didnt know you wanted, very fun, built in friend group if you didnt already have friends, extremely emotionally intelligent and great people skills due to living in a collective, stupid af by choice, like some of em are very smart, but they dont claim that, will say fuck work and tell boros to eat shit to spend time with you, will kill for you as well, but only if you ask them to bc their first inclination is to just bother someone to death, very loyal, once they like you they like you really forever, it would take some pretty extreme circumstances to make them dislike you
cons: annoying af and its unavoidable, will talk over you, all of them at once will talk over you and do so loudly, no respect for personal space, they dont even know what that is, will probably accidentally manhandle you, they act stupid but arent so they can be manipulative, even if it isnt bad and they dont really mean to be, impulsive, forgetful of the needs of organic creatures so they will bother you at all hours of the day and night if you arent firm with boundaries, disgustingly extroverted and will bring randoms to your place without asking, or just...make new cluster members and you have to roll with it, will eat or absorb literally anything you have, will antagonize and bother you for fun, major jump scare risk since sometimes the forms are....fleshy
this ones hard for me like theyre hot af and i feel like they’d be super fun and good partners, but god....the noise. idk how long i could deal with that lol i dont like people in my house. it would drive me up the wall, but then again...i can simply kick them out when ive had enough. they arent projecting mental illness directly into my brain or requiring me to share a body sintelligento major plus. creepy thing/symbiote style hot monster without any of the invasiveness so tbh 8/10 dateability
some people date loud annoying extroverts who dont understand personal space that /arent/ rich, loyal, or emotionally intellegent so i’d be winning on a few different fronts lmao
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cloveroctobers · 4 years
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ELLADINE SARABI
IG info/bio: @/ellasardineabi | 18.5k followers | Artist | i was born with glass bones and paper skin♡
25 years old
Born & raised in Cardiff, Wales 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿
Father was in the n*vy and moved his family around a few times until he and his wife came to a agreement that it would be best for the family to grow up in one solid place
whereas he would leave for months at a time living elsewhere
Which was hard on the family at times since he is viewed as the rock of the family
He eventually left the n*vy after serving 20 years & was so thankful to, he hated it and how it messed with him mentally
He’s also of Iranian heritage
Her mother is of German heritage
Has her own restaurant that serves authentic German food
Both of her parents instilled hard work, discipline, generosity, and how to be practical in their children
Elladine is the middle child
Has a brother that is ten years older than her and then a younger sister who is seven years behind her
Canon: there is currently a discussion going on if they are going to bring their (maternal) nan/mam-gu home since the nursing home isn’t providing the proper care their nan needs
Her mother has a rocky relationship with her mother that she doesn’t like to discuss with her children but her husband knows all about it
Her nan has Alzheimer's and is becoming violent
it has become difficult seeing her most days
Elladine came into glassblowing after being involved in many classes in secondary such as workshop class
which became her fav since she was able to manipulate many materials such as metal, wood, and glass
She also took a auto body class which was interesting but she wasn’t too thrilled about it. Got away with a B- but knew she could do better if she really wanted to but she didn’t need the class to graduate so allow it
Currently works in a glass studio where her work is displayed/sold and she’s one of the main ones that makes great profit
has bought her own space for her own studio and is slowly making it to her liking with her assistant, yes she’s got one!
Hopes to be in that space within the next 6 months...it would have been a little sooner if we weren’t dealing with a global p*ndemic!!! but ya know life f*cking sucks sometimes!!!1!!:) especially if people don’t gaf
Moved back in with her parents so that she could not only help with her nan but get her studio ready, her parents approved since she was working towards something and realized her talent
I definitely see elladine going through a grunge phase and it probably still slips out every now and then lol
Her childhood room is still in shades of raspberry, gray, and a deep purple
always been plus-sized/fuller than the rest but it’s literally hereditary since her mom is built the same way who got it from her dad
Her family never made her feel ashamed as they shouldn’t and none of her true friends made her feel different since they were all of different sizes!!! besides who’s really friends with someone because of their bodies? Ur really ugly if that’s how u roll js
Always a respectful student and not too afraid to spark up a convo with you but can be a little nervous if the person is more of a “I have to warm up to you first” since she’ll feel like she’s annoying you if she carries the convo at first
Takes her time in relationships because she’s scared of getting hurt, cause breakups are not fun! Especially if theyre your friend on top of that
Although Friendship breakups are much worse let’s be honest here!!!
Has noticed that a few of her exes like to bring up that she’s controlling or too bossy in relationships and that makes her a little insecure since she doesn’t view it that way??
She knows what she wants and likes things a certain way, and she can see how it can kinda come off that way based on how she approaches/says things and tries to be better at toning it down and not being offensive to her significant others
Always has a plan and likes to follow it, she definitely keeps to-do lists on a daily
Takes trips to see Nicky often and vice-versa, every moment they spend together feels like it’s meant to be, even when it’s them just simply chilling in each other’s spaces, he’s truly one of her best friends and he feels like the missing part of her life
He offered for her to move in with him but elladine didn’t accept it since she wanted to be there to help with her nan and in fact—she wanted to be the one to ask HIM to move in with her
but if they make it long enough, they’ll go house hunting together...maybe
I get Shawn/Angela relationship vibes from them (boy meets world for those who aren’t aware of this couple and I’m not just saying this because they’re interracial as well lol) did I say this already about someone else? Brain fart lol
everyone relationship has their flaws so when they hit a bump in the road...elladine immediately wants to fix it but it comes off as more critiquing, moodiness/blaming the other
while Nicky can be defensive/argumentive/a little condescending on his end
To get through it, they normally go on a walk together in complete silence until they’re ready to speak again or they take a break from each other
I think words of affirmation is her love language
Taurus sun + Virgo moon + Capricorn rising?
“The girl on the motorcycle” is one of her fav films — no this is not metaphoric to her love life
Loves watching things with captions on since she always finds herself doing something else while watching anything (which irks Nicky a little bit but that’s just the way elladine is and he loves her so he deals with it)
Will rewind something if she missed it too
Canon: never had morning sex before
but can now say she has ;) & understands the pros people say about it and it outweighs the cons in her book
Will start the whole song over too if she missed her fav part in it
She also enjoys billiards since her brother used to work in a pool hall and when he had to watch her because she was “too young” in her words to stay home by herself he would take her there even tho technically she wasn’t supposed to be there but he was screwing his boss’s daughter so it was quite fine
her sister has a crush on Gary & ships elladine with him, which they joke about every now and then + he doesn’t follow her back, which is okay! Not a big deal but her sister keeps sliding in his dms (he’s now single)
She NEVER thought she would be on THE love island and wasn’t that confident that she’d find a real love that carried on outside of the show but Nicky has proven her wrong 🥲
She’s 5’5–5’6
Probably shops at Zara & top shop and has no issue picking pieces that flatter her “pear” figure, she loves all that is of her body: the pudge, love handles, cellulite and all (she’s very confident and won’t let anyone see her moments of doubt when it comes to her frame)
Loves mythology but will tell bill stfu if he comes near her trying to argue about anything in that subject
Very competitive and will rush through certain things, leaving one to think that she’ll fail somewhere but rarely does
If she’s not near or away from the mountains or the sea for long period of time she gets very moody!!! Guess that’s the Welsh in her huh?
Loves fireplaces, they’re super cozy and very romantic if you catch ella’s drift 😏
Probably smells like jasmine & pink pepper idk
Wants to travel to Iceland one day
Knows her way around a car but dreads having to get it fixed or fixing it herself?
Loves driving until her road rage kicks in? Oh you’re gonna go around her to get in front of her? Never that. She’ll always be in front of you and will break check you if you try her “Drewgi” she mutters
Early riser and goes to bed early too lol
She’s the crying drunk lmao
Automatically vieve has become one of her best friends from the villa but it deff didn’t feel forced like it normally would have just because their bfs have a podcast together, they talk about everything together. EVERYTHING! It feels like she’s the big sister she never had, yet they’re only a year apart lol
They have ft sleepovers and man is it fun!
Forgave lily but at the same time can’t fully see herself being friends with her like vieve tried to encourage before they went on the yacht...sorry everything can’t be Kumbaya over here sis
It sucks to say but it was easier? She doesn’t know if that’s the right term or not... for her to forgive rafi than it was lily and it’s fucked up but that’s the way it is. It’s not like she contacts him on seperate messages or anything like that! She’ll talk to him via group chat and that’s pretty much it. She knows it was all part of the show and production’s bs for ratings but that doesn’t mean it still didn’t hurt
Wishes him success on his shows/movies but doesn’t engage/watch them
What does she post? I feel like she posts maybe three times a month and a lot are outfit pics but tends to go live more so to chat with the people! She’ll also show all what glassblowing entails while chatting away! She loves that part and is pretty open about things but knows how to keep some things private
Personally wasn’t the biggest fan of season 1 but admits she wishes she had mc’s balls in terms of what she would have done if she was in elladine’s place when lily picked Nicky, “ugh! I wish I had her strength rising through my veins in that moment. Absolute riot. Adore her.”
‘“Licky” is a ugly ass ship name anyways so who’s really winning here?!’
Celeb crushes? Iwan Rheon, Henry Zaga, Anthony Welsh, jason derulo, & LaRoyce Hawkins
Listens to: soleima, Marisa Maino, Ava Max, poppy, Caroline polachek, Donny Hathaway, Phil Good, & SAINt JHN
Anthem — M.I.A. “Bad Girls”
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reyesstrand · 4 years
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Idk if you’ve been asked this yet but for the characters who you want to have begins episodes for on lone star, what would you want the plot line and/or backstory to be that is covered in the episodes? So far you said you want Carlos, Judd and Paul begins episodes first and then maybe marjan and Mateo later on. So if you could write up plot lines for these begins episodes, what would you want to see for these characters?
ooh okay so i sat on this for a couple days to let my ideas come together, and since it might get long i’ve put my response under the cut!
carlos begins: 
- just....more exploration into who he is! we’ve gotten glimpses through the past few episodes, like how he clearly has a close relationship with his parents and extended family though he still feels some distance because they don’t talk about his sexuality. i feel like someone else mentioned this in their spec post about possible begins episodes, but i think seeing carlos hurt or having a super intense call and dealing with the after-effects of it would be really insightful into his character and his past. like, there are so many possibilities—maybe his reasoning behind following his father’s footsteps in terms of his career path, his inner turmoil as a gay poc cop? i just really want a scene kind of like in 2x04 where we saw that pure vulnerability and insecurity from carlos for, really, the first time in the show’s history. you know there’s more bubbling under the surface, and it could give way to some excellent whump and emotional hurt/comfort. 
- also, this is pure speculation, but i’ve always been super intrigued by the look he gives the ackermans in 1x08 when they’re reunited in the scene just before tk gets shot. it’s just...sad? i guess? maybe it’s just me and i’m making something out of nothing askdjfnaksd, but coming from someone who’s had dementia/alzheimer's in the family, i feel like carlos felt a deeper connection to the ackermans’ story than the episode really explored. and i think delving into his history would be really eye-opening for him as a character, especially if it coincides with a current-day traumatic event or something! 
judd begins: 
- at-risk youth judd? it’s something i never really considered for him but he clearly has a history with a difficult childhood as hinted at in the crossover, and i think seeing him deal with a current-day situation with some kids again while going into his past would be really interesting. plus, we know paul observed the hell out of that interaction between judd and jj, and definitely has questions about it that could get us more of judd’s backstory. 
- maybe hesitations around himself becoming a father? we saw in...1x09, i believe? when papa ryder asked about a grandbaby and grace sided with him, judd was playfully making up excuses. while that could’ve just been in the moment, i think he might have some serious worry about his own capabilities as a parent—maybe stemming from his own experiences as kid, especially with his ptsd now and the job he’s in being fairly risky. so maybe a judd begins could explore that, his relationship with his brothers and dealing with a call about a kid that’ll lead him into realizing ‘hey, maybe i could do this for real,’ and we get a sweet moment between him and grace about starting a family.
paul begins: 
- i think exploring the transition from chicago to texas could be really interesting for paul, as well as going more into his observation skills. we know for the synopsis to 2x06 that he’ll be getting an unexpected visit from his mother and “estranged” sister, so i think we’ll be inching toward more of his relationship with his family this season, and that could be a perfect gateway into his backstory! 
- also...why’d he become a firefighter? we have a good enough idea for tk and owen—and even judd and mateo—but paul and marjan are kind of mysteries in that regard, and i’d love to know what sparked that urge within him to help people. that history was explored in several of the begins episodes in 911, and i’d love to see that moment for paul!! 
marjan and mateo begins: 
- so we know that her parents support her and that she has a reckless streak, and likes going viral. i’d love to know what sparked that for her (whether as a child or maybe finding that later in life). i’d love to see her going through various firehouses—like she said, she’s allergic to poor leadership—and eventually finding true family in the 126. and, same as paul, why become a firefighter? what were the struggles in getting as far as she has? 
- as for mateo, we know he’s a dreamer and that he’s pretty big-hearted and is like the firehouse’s little brother, but we know so little about his actual family life that i think that’d be the best way to learn more about him! 
realistically, i feel like judd begins would come first, since they’ve started planting those seeds in the story regarding his past. then i could see us getting a paul begins or maybe a marjan begins, before eventually getting to carlos if only because the show does tend to be more fire-focused, so i feel like there would have to be a pretty big call that impacts all the characters to really bring the focus onto carlos, no matter how badly i want to see it. we’ll eventually get a tk begins too, i’m sure, exploring his childhood with a dad who survived 9/11 and likely going into his addiction and his impulse in following owen’s footsteps, but i hope we get to explore some of the other characters first!! 
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hi i am that anon from like 29th Dec (last dang year) who said i read ur tsuki no hime and loved it and that u understand Aizou. i have read more of ur stuff since then and now i NEED to ask you for writing advice, on both characterization and general writing tips since I didnt mention it before. Sorry about that! i just forgot i sent an ask and i do not get notifs at all (or does anon asks not get notifs?) Also, ART STUDENT! That's why the nice art and art leaning!! I feel smart for sensing it
oh yup, tumblr doesn't send notifs for anon asks! but i'm glad you did see the answer anyway
this post is hideously long, so answer under the cut!
so, on characterization: it is mostly a matter of what would they say, rather than what you want them to say. the joke about "the characters do what they want to" instead of what the writer wants is pretty much true if you want them to be in character lol (that's why sometimes a little bit of OoC isn't too bad)
checking the source material is the most important thing: look at prior similar interactions the characters have had and how they reacted
this is kind of hard with LIPxLIP, as there aren't that many translated texts about them but with honeyworks the most canon and reliable thing to use as reference are the mvs. the mvs are drawn in a way that can pretty much be understood even if you don't have the lyrics, and sometimes it's even better if you can't read them, to properly focus on the images better
look at their expressions closely: while aizou is always explosive in his anger, yuujirou often has a more indifferent expression. so, when they fight, aizou is probably the one to blow up first while yuujirou maintains his composure better. it's kind of the classic "this was only a brief passing panel but i am going to expand on it" www
but the thing about fanfiction is that it's always a bit of a character analysis in itself. you don't start writing having already a color-coded folder of possible situations and reactions a character would have for each setting. you just throw the characters in a scenario and then think from there onwards, and eventually you'll be able to have the folder of situations and what you think their reactions would be like. (though, this links back to the prior point, if the characters have gone through a similar situation in canon, use that as guide! plus, finding little references to canon when reading is always fun)
for general writing, i'm going to mostly talk about my own experiences and process! i'm in no way a professional though
the basic is reading a lot. not just books but also fanfic. in fact, since you're writing fanfic, i Encourage you to read fanfic. even if your story ends up novel length, the way of treating the story is different from that of an actual novel. for example, because you're working under the premise that everyone knows the characters already. the general style of fics is different as well.
in fact, the style is the main reason i'm saying this slfkslfkslkf
read a lot of stuff and find a style you like. think of it as sewing together pieces from here and there to make a frankenstein amalgamation: this person's metaphors, the comparisons from here, the descriptions from there
personally, i adore the "long one-shot with a long title formatted (like this)" fics that are mostly feelings and descriptions and as little dialogue as possible, and some that occasionally play with the "show don't tell" rule, and some months ago i read a book whose descriptions amazed me because you could feel what the character was focusing on the most, rather than being general descriptions of the situation (i actually have a lot of thoughts about descriptions but that's a post for another day). but also i really like dialogue and plot-driven stories, descriptions can get boring and before trying to break rules, you have to be really good at following them
but, let's go step by step: developing an idea
for this i'm going to mostly reference the multichap i finished a while ago as an example
i started with just a few vague concepts in mind: non-idol au with aizou who does some sport and likes music but is insecure about his singing and yuujirou who does some music related thing and encourages him to sing in a way that's somehow related to the hozier song to noisemaking (sing), because it's what inspired me to write in the first place
then, from then onwards i wrote down what would happen in the first chapter of the story bullet-point-list-style, including things like the roommates part or the clubs the boys were in (at first yuujirou was in the choir club lol the change was a last second decision that idk why i took) and then bits of dialogue here and there that would be The Turning Points. those first dialogues were for the fight at the end of ch 1, the apology-date in ch 3 and then some vaguely unused ones for the "yuujirou encourages aizou" part, as those were the first key moments i thought of
because, since it's enemies to friends to lovers, an important aspect was character development
not all fics have character development bc not all of them are long enough (if you're aiming for short and sweet then there's no need). but if they do, i recommend you write down how the character was at the beginning of the story and then how they were at the end and then fill in the middle later, think of what those key turning points that made the character change were (the more little things you add, the more gradual it'll be)
samishigariya illustrates this very nicely: the song starts and finishes with the same lines, but the ending ones feel more light-hearted. the beginning has pre-arisa ken and pre-getting-along-with-yuujirou aizou, when they were the lonely people the title mentioned, and the ending, when they're not lonely anymore. the in between can be seen in depth during the other songs: ken before arisa was a playboy who didn't take love seriously, but after meeting her he realized that games were not all there was to love; and aizou used to be quite cranky and high-key a loner, but then he "meets precious things and knows of love". i will not elaborate on that because this isn't an aiyuu post but Oh You Know
for the fic, aizou would go through that same process, more or less: someone who doesn't really form meaningful connections with people but who, in the end, would end up having quite a bunch of people who care about him as his relationship with yuujirou advances too
since the relationship was the main focus, i wrote a very simple outline for how it would develop throughout 5 hypothetical chapters that was just: 1. civil w each other but mostly bad > 2. bad > 3. half friends > 4. pining > 5. date
and then with that in mind and the bullet point list, the final basic outline ended up like this:
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there were scraped ideas and ideas that made it in later, but i believe having a simple outline, a bare skeleton to add things to, is important. stories need continuity, development requires a prior buildup
it's especially important in multichapter fics where you post as you write, you need to have a more or less clear idea of what's going to happen because you can't ignore scenes you've already posted
shorter stories don't need it as much, you can think as you go, but it's still helpful to know where you're going with things to avoid getting stuck
and, on getting stuck: don't be afraid of deleting things. if you can't figure out how to continue things, then delete the situation and start again. it might feel like you'd be wasting time but in the end, it is so much better than being stuck on the same scene for weeks
in fact, you don't have to write in order. jump to the next scene and you'll figure it out later. you Can write the scene you want to write and then build everything else around it
it's normal to write a scene and then realize it would make more sense later in the story, or that it would be better if you added another scene earlier, or sometimes you just find it easier to jump from one part of the story to another. rely on your outline to keep track of what you've written, what you have left to write and what's the best way to arrange your story. make your story understandable
which bring us to editing
there's a lot of much better posts on editing stories, but yeah ctrl+f is your best friend: don't repeat yourself too much. and be sure to vary sentence and paragraph length, as well as sentence structure, to give dynamism to the writing
now, i've mentioned before the show, don't tell rule, but i'm going to talk a bit more about it because it's quite important
once again there's a lot of posts that explain more in depth what it is, so i'm not going to expand too much on that, but, very basically, try to avoid things like "then some time passed and they became friends". explain it: what happened exactly? how did they become friends? if it's important, show it to us, instead of summarizing
since things like these make the story longer, it also gives room for more development and proper explanation for things that happen
for example, the fic was originally going to start with them already in the room, and the whole situation would have been explained in a single paragraph somewhere, but by actually adding the scene where they first arrive to the dorms and argue with the lady at the main desk, the story flows better and it let me actually describe their first meeting
and uuuhhh i think that's all? this took super long to write i hope i didn't forget any super basic stuff lol
i want to add that for enemies to lovers i greatly recommend this post bc it's super good but yeah i think that's basically it, if you have any more specific questions just shoot me an ask
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HAI BABES-
I'm immediately going to jump in cause hehe I'm a sucker for matchups.
Can I have a Truffle for Fairy tail (male) please?
Appearance and style:
I'm a female, 5'1ft and 110lbs (154 cm and 50 - 52Kg). I have short black hair and dark brown eyes. I'm also baby faced which can be annoying at times. I'm slight on the chubby side as well but a lot of people tell me I have an avarage body. My body type is rectangle. I'm in between pale and light brown skinned and my skin is littered with moles and scars. I'm a pure Filipino and I have prescription glasses but I can see fine without them. I've often been called a "soft girl" but I really don't have a certain styles. My clothes are often t-shirts, off-shoulders, (of multiple color and style) and any type jeans. But skinny jeans are my favorite! Hoodies and jackets are a must in winter season. Cause my skin is quite temperature sensitive.
Personality:
I'm often described as a chaotic motherly type of person. But really, it depends per person. I love to tease others but it's not often. And I won't tease them if they are sensitive or short tempered. I can be loud and obnoxious at times but I prefer to stay quiet. But with people I'm very close with, I'm just naturally loud. I can also be such a flirt if I wanted too but I only reserve those skills when needed. It's kinda rusty now but I think I still got it! My patience is very long and I don't get annoyed easily. Though push the right buttons, it won't be pretty.
Affection, teasing, and words are my love language. I tend to get just a tad bit grumpy when I don't get affection. I'm a really observant person, so I'm able to pick up emotional cues, habits, and body language. Though it's does take me a while to get the hang of it. I use that to check on people I care about. I try to act tough and strong so I would be a role model, since I'm the oldest child. I also tend to suppress my emotions and even fake them just so no one would be burden of me. I do share them if I trust you enough. I have the habit of subconsciously changing how I act depending on the people I'm with. I can changed from tye baby of the group to the mature mother to the trouble maker and to the quiet child. It usually depends with the group of people I hang out with.
Flaws and strengths:
I can be really insecure and really clingy. My insecurities are usually my body and my abilities. Not only that, I can also be moody, especially on that time of the month. I overthink things a lot. I sometimes even wonder if my friends actually are my friends or they are just tolerating/pity me. Some say I have trust issues (but honestly I don't think I have trust issues I just overthink things). I'm not afraid of material things or the supernatural. I'm afraid of being judged and left alone or abandoned. I also have a slight fear of falling, both literally and metaphorically. I hate the feeling the loneliness.
But I do give good advice, that's what alot of people tell me. My optimism and energy almost always lifts the mood up. I'm great with talking to people. May it be comforting them, persuading, I can do that. I'm also quite good at reading people. Especially if they are close to me and I've been through things alot with them.
Significant other:
Whenever I like someone, it usually ain't obvious to anyone else, since I'm known to be clingy. But, I would be in TOTAL denial of my own feelings and theirs. It takes me about a month or so to realize my feelings WITH help. My closest friend always has to tell me that I like the guy before I would actually realize it for myself. However, towards them, it seems as if I'm normal. But whenever they are gone, my fan girl self comes out and I'll squeal.
In terms of WHAT I want in a significant other. One of the things that is needed is that they don't mind me being clingy. They should also be willing to put up with me in general. As I can be moody and an overthinker, they just have to be able to either deal or tolerate it. However, in terms of their personality, I don't really mind how they would act. As long as they are morally good. Possessive? Sure just don't go over board. Protective? Same as the last one, no over board. I know that relationships aren't perfect so whatever flaws they have. I don't care. Being mean for no reason, not open minded, inconsiderate all the time, are an immediate turn off though.
Random facts:
I usually listen to pop or ballad but I like almostvall types of music. Songs like IDK you yet by Alexander23 or This is gospel by Panic at the disco are some of my favorite. My star sign is Cancer but I don't really believe it but I love learning about it. I'm an INFP-T (The dreamer) and my Hogwarts house is Ravenclaw! I love learning and doing new things. Science is my favorite subject, specifically Biology/Zoology. I sing and write stories as a hobby.
Thanks! 💕💕 If you need any info please don't hesitate to ask me :DD
HAIIII TYSM okay so this one took a bit of thought since you could work well with a lot of people! But I eventually decided you’d mesh best with...
Natsu Dragneel!
«────── « ⋅ʚ♡ɞ⋅ » ──────»
Yep, the big fireball of power himself :D but really he’s the opposite of intimidating, and ngl you’re gonna have to end up playing mother to him a lot, but when you’re in your loud and chaotic moods you’re the b a n e of the whole guild and an unstoppable force of mischief!
Some of the things that’ll put you on his radar are your optimism and your ability to act strong even when you’re struggling, both of which he’d deeply admire, but he also thinks all your little marks are cool as hell! He calls them your own personal dragon scales >:D
You want someone with good morals? This slayers got the strongest moral compass around. Able to handle your clinginess? He’s already super affectionate maybe to the point of forgetting personal space is a thing so there’s no worry there! Plus he’s got his own temper, so he wouldn’t judge you for being moody, and though he might come off as close-minded sometimes, he’s really just hard-headed. Once you explain something to him he’s on board with anything and everything!
Though, with you being oblivious when it comes to love and him being oblivious..... period, it’d take a while for your relationship to start up, and likely some extra intervention from your friends too. But once y’all are together, trust, you’re practically inseparable.
Natsu thinks you’re the cutest thing around, yea he’d have a bad habit of teasing you for your size, but he’d make up for it with his constant blind protectiveness, and the way he’d pick you up and carry you around all the time uwu. It’s actually a really good balance, since you overthink and he doesn’t think enough (have fun with the braincell custody), but he simplifies things for you so you don’t get too caught up in your doubts, and you make him more conscious of others by example. (also just.... you getting cold in the winter and him warming you up or EVEN WRAPPING HIS SCARF AROUND YOU gosh... good stuff sorcerer weekly eats yalls shit up)
Honestly it’s a bit of an odd pair with you two being so different, but Natsu’s always going to support you, whether it’s relieving you of your insecurities or helping you with your science stuff whenever he can (he won’t get it but boy will he help)! And one thing’s for sure, his loyalty is like no other, so you never have to worry about him leaving you alone.
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heya!! tysm again fr the ikesen matchup, i loved it sm ♡ sooo now could i pls get a matchup for ikevamp, if its ok? 💞 (ps i hope ur doin ok!!) here’s the info again!!
bi girl, i prefer guys! ambiverted intp, gryffindor or ravenclaw, neutral good, scorpio. i have an older twin sis n i love/hate her sm!!
medium-length straight-ish black hair (side bang to the right) & dark brown eyes!! 5'5-ish, filipina! im getting glasses soon~
complex daydreamer- i crave affirmation/praise!! anxiety, i overthink sm! quiet w/ others cause idk what to say. im like half funny/playful & half deep/awkward- easily annoyed but guilty after cause im soft-hearted. i have a way w/ words, poetic? hopeless romantic! i tend to be quite chaotic? sorta socially anxious-
not innocent/naive but ppl think so at 1st! i look fine but im a big mess. superiority complex, insecure- smart n knowledgeable. passionate! a kid w/ my twin but w/ others, mature. its hard to friend ppl! dramatic but rather closed off. its hard for me to ask fr help- opinionated but i try to understand. i need lots of space,,,
i like to have fun n loosen up but would also just cuddle n have long convos. forgive but never forget- realist but rather optimistic. good w/ technology! imaginative/creative. near-sighted! rather selfish, i put myself 1st. love language is words of affirmation/quality time- stubborn! observant- sensitive.
a habit- i tend to drift away n just think? i care a lot abt how i look! i like bein the best so i get competitive. keyboard smashes!! i swear quite often. i like bein organised! i like makin faces!!
fun fact: math/history r my faves. sometimes im rlly hyper n say the most random things? i fear judgement, future, unknown, n failure. bilingual, learnin french! fr pda only hand-holding?
likes: gaming, affection, jokes (stupid/puns), space (stars), weapons (swords/guns), music, instruments (piano), animals, movies, books, philosophy, psychology, writing, exhilirating stuff, astronomy, mythology, etc.
dislikes: heat, presentations, naivety, stupidity, blind faith, stereotypes, being pressured, etc.
tysm!! shjsjsjs i changed it a bit- anyway, stay safe!! dont forget to take care of urself 💞
Hehe, you are most welcome dear!🥰❤🌻 I’m so happy you sent in another request! You are honestly so sweet! ❤🥰Soz for taking sooo long! I hope you enjoy this dear and I hope you are looking after yourself! Sending lots o hugs! 🌻❤ @x-joie-x
So I match you with………….. Napoleon
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The first time Napoleon meets you was when he legit grabbed your hand and pulled you along with him, as he tried to get you out of the mansion. It was not safe for a human in a mansion full of vampire, and this soldier wanted to get you out before it was too late. But alas it was just that, too late. By the time the two of you had arrived at the door from whence u came, it was sealed shut, and no amount of tugging or pulling could get it to open.
Comte, who had heard the commotion, stepped into the hallway to see you and Napoleon trying to open the door. He strode over to you and placed a gentle hand on your shoulder as he led you and the soldier to his study so he could explain. After a lengthy explanation about your current situation he named Napoleon as your personal bodyguard to help you navigate, the Paris of the past
To say you were starting to overthink and get anxious would be an understatement. Napo looked over at your quiet demeanour and scanned your face to find a glimpse of anxiety. After the conversation with Comte was over, Sabastion came to escort you to your room for the night.
The next few days you spent cooped up in your room. Too anxious to leave, u needed time and space to sort through your feelings. 
Your stomach started grumbling, but you just ignored it, cause honesty you were just too stubborn to go downstairs and ask for help. Napo had been pacing outside your door, trying to figure out the best way to coax you from your room. That’s when he heard the rumble coming from your stomach. He gently opens the door and strode into your room, “come nunuche, I made too many pancakes this morning, And I need some help finishing them.” Just as you were about to refuse your stomach gave another loud growl, cue Napoleon bursting out into laughter, “I think its best we feed that little bear before it gets angry.”
You couldn’t help but chuckle at Napo, as the soldier went from scary and intimidating to boyish and playful in 0.2 seconds. You smiled as you watch the former Emporer of France try to catch his breath through his full body laughter fit. He finally calmed down and grabbed your hand, pulling you towards the dining room. A new fit of laughter erupted from the man as you couldn’t help but crack a joke on your way there. The rest of the afternoon was spent cracking jokes and eating pancakes.
Napo found you incredibly amusing, especially how you could go from funny and playful, to awkward in 2 seconds flat. He loved to joke along with you and then tease you whenever you would turn into an awkward mess the second one of the other residents entered into the room. 
Especially Arthur, you would often get annoyed at his flirty comments and pick up lines, you absolutely left Napo in stitches when you made a sarcastically awkward comment back to Arthur on afternoon. Napo had learned by now that you were actually rather soft-hearted so the minute he saw the guilt flash across your eyes for being annoyed at Arthur’s comments, he squeezed your hand in reassurance, “don’t feel guilty nunuche, trust me he deserves it. Plus if you don’t believe me, just ask Isaac.”
Napoleon would invite you with him every day to help teach the children at his makeshift school. At first, you were somewhat socially awkward, but thanks to Napoleon and Isaac’s encouragement, you actually started teaching a class of your own. Napo loved how smart and passionate you were. You gave your all in teaching the children various topics, and honestly, Napo couldn’t help but fall in love with you. You taught them everything from maths to history, and the children absolutely adored you. So did Napoleon tbh, the man would take sneaky glances just watching you in your element. When stealing these little glances of you, a lovestruck foolish smile would dance across his face, which most certainly didn’t go unnoticed by Isaac or the children.
After class, Isaac would go off to his second job as a professor of the University, leaving you and Napoleon up to your own devices. Napoleon seemed to bring out that playful side of you, as the two of you goofballs would grab lunch at a nearby cafe. Or have a little picnic in the park, and just spend the entire time quick-firing stupid puns and jokes at each other. You sometimes get super hyper and start saying random words, which leads the two of you to have loads of random conversations. And TBH the two of you are always pulling silly faces at each other just for laughs. You live for those moments when u make a joke or pull a face, and monsieur de Whaha starts erupting with laughter. It is a true sight to behold, the way his whole body shakes, and the sight alone is enough to prompt you into your own laughing fit.
The day Napoleon knew you were the one and only woman for him, was the day he found you in the training hall. You loved swords and weapons so when you were helping Sebastian with housework one day, and you came across a vast display of swords, you were absolutely ecstatic. You wasted no time in picking up one of the swords and swishing it around. Napoleon walked into the room just as you pick up one of the swords and his eyes went wide, “pfft what in the world are you doing?” You narrowed your eyes at the man, as he chuckled, “practising, obviously.” 
Napoleon’s eyes lit up as he strode past you to pick up a sword of his own, “then I shall be your partner.” You smiled a broad smile as you went on the offensive and attacked Napoleon. The two of you spent the next few hours smack-talking each other as you fought. Napoleon enjoyed every moment of your fight and the way you were determined to win. He found that competitive side of you rather sexy, so much so that he decided to confess his feelings.
After you had beaten him, he proposed a rematch, but this time he raised the stakes. He went on the offensive, and just before delivering the final blow, he dropped his sword and grabbed hold of you. Smouldering jade blue eyes met your brown ones questioningly, and once he found his answer, he leaned down to kiss you.
The former emperor of France was utterly head over heels for your stubborn optimistic, competitive personality. He absolutely adored what a walking contradiction you were, being both a realist and optimistic, being organized yet messy at the same time. Napoleon had noticed early on in your relationship that you were rather closed off and slowly, but surely he managed to get you to open up to him. The two of you have had many a deep conversation while cuddling. 
He found that whenever you were snuggled in his arm, it was easy to pry information out of you. Especially when he would tickle you. He found out a lot during his cuddle interrogation sessions like how you feared judgement, the unknown future and failure, like how you actually care about your appearance and that you have a superiority complex. None of which scared him off, if anything he loved you more for it! Being sure to curb and banish all your insecurities with the sweetest words of affirmation and praise.
Napo like you, is also a bit of a romantic so this dork will 100% plan dates under the stars, especially after he found out about your love for astronomy and space/stars. He will definitely plan small quiet dates for the two of you, away from the loudness of the mansion. This boi will burst into your room in the afternoon, drag you to the stables, plonk you on top of a hose and before you know it you are sitting in his arms reading or chatting about anything from philosophy to psychology under the shade of a willow tree, surrounded by flowers.
Napo loves your writing, and this boi will insist you read him your fics whenever you finish them. He will spend the next ten days bragging about how amazing your writing skills are to everyone, even going as far as to say your a much better writer than Arthur. 
Knows you need space and alone time and will give you as much as it as you need. He knows you will come and find him once you want some company again. And once you do seek him out, he will crush you in a warm embarrass and whisk you off on some exhilarating adventure.
Mornings between the two of you sweethearts consist of soft, heart-melting moments. Naturally, the first thing Napo does when he wakes up is, plant a loving kiss on your lips. He will tighten his embrace around you as he cracks open his eyes to wish you a good morning all while nuzzling your neck. He knows you are a sucker for sweet words so he will be whispering the sweetest of endearments to you, in between lazy morning kisses. Best be sure this boy will complement and praise you every single day of your life.
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I hope you enjoyed this dear! 🌞🌻and I hope you have a super good day! ❤❤🌻
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