it's been a while since i've been here, a long while. i dont know where to begin, i dont even know what i'm looking for, other than to get this out of my system.
i just found out about omad, and it's changed my life. although i can't take all the credit, i'm not strong enough to actually harm myself on purpose, but this doesn't actually feel like harming. i started a new medicine that took my appetite away, and who am i to turn away such a gift. i stopped taking it because of other issues, but i'm hoping it was enough to keep me going.
it's been two weeks, I believe, and I stepped on a scale for the first time to find out i've lost around 13 pounds, i think a little more. and i am? so so proud of myself, i can't explain it. i... genuinely feel like i'm being healthy. i don't restrict calories, i just restrict myself to once a day. on the medicine, i didn't miss it, now i'm starting to get cravings and it's getting difficult. i have to learn how to focus on other things, i don't want to be controlled by food anymore.
anyway, i wanted to get that out. i feel alone, and i want friends, i want people to talk to, but at the same time i don't want to be seen. i'm not getting better, but in some sick twist of events, i'm getting happier.
remember when chat blanc aired and chat noir almost cataclysming his dad was a big deal. like all the fans were shocked and some were even upset at him for even considering/bluffing to do something so awful to someone, even though he didn't go through with it
anyway. remember when bug noire straight up just cataclysms her boyfriend's dad for real, no hesitation, no bluffing, with a big smile on her face
AND EVERYONE CLAPPED (INCLUDING ME) (GOOD FOR HER) (I SUPPORT WOMEN'S WRONGS) (HE DESERVED IT) (WISH HE DIDNT HAVE THE OX) (DO IT AGAIN)
hey remember when i actually remembered to post art here when it was current. yeah me neither. anyway here's laurent/halsin we're on that bg3 train babeyyyyyyyyyyy