#if I could have the same energy for making my own original illustrations that would be great đ
Redraw of one of Oda's illustrations in my style because I saw Sage do it and it inspired me to try as well, this is such a fun exercise!
Here's the original illustration
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I heard from someone that Azul is actually very strong although he's not very athletic because he's an octo merman he's mostly muscle they said that Floyd has talked about it in bean fest I wanted to know if Azul being insanely strong was just a headcannon or cannon cause its kinda funny to me azul could carry professor vargas that one event on his own when prof vargas is pure muscle
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Yes yes! The first information we receive about Azul being stronger than he looks is from Floyd during Beanfest, who explains,
"Who said anything about Azul bein' weak without his magic? He's real strong. He's slow on land and in water, and he's got lousy athletic reflexes, but that doesn't mean he's weak."
"Azul's bigger than me in the water, and he's got eight huge, heavy limbs. His submission holds are bad news, and he's got crazy grip strength. If he so much as snags you, he can snare you with your arms pinned.
Octopi are, like, all muscle. Seems to me like that wouldn't go poof just 'cause he took a potion to turn himself human.
I'm just spitballin' here, obviously. But all I'm saying is that writing Azul off is a bad idea."
(All of the above dialogue is 100% accurate to the original game! Floyd's "I'm just spitballin' here" line might make it seems like he is just guessing and doesn't actually know, but his original line is closer to, "I don't know all the details," and sounds more like he knows this information is fact, he just can't give a physiology lesson on how it all works.)
But Floyd's information is a little vague: he says Azul has "crazy grip strength" and his "submission holds are bad news," but that is the same line where he talks about Azul in his merform--so is he talking about mer-Azul or human-Azul? Or is he not making a distinction because there isn't one?
Can Azul snare people and pin them down on land, or was Floyd half-relating an anecdote from when they lived underwater?
But then came Book 6 and a line from Azul himself saying that his "arms are quite powerful," unlike Riddle's.
This seems to confirm that Azul is physically stronger than most people, but then comes the thunder spear:
Riddle asks for help lifting it and Azul struggles under its weight, despite how this would have been the ideal opportunity to illustrate how physically capable Azul really is.
But maybe the thunder spears are a tall order for anyone to lift? They're weapons from the age of the gods--maybe they just weren't designed for humans (or creatures in human form) to lift on their own?
Except:
There is Leona, who both lifts and wields the thunder spear entirely on his own, twice (he gets help from Jamil the third time).
But the rules of the thunder spears are unclear: after Team-OctaHearts' spear goes into energy-saving mode Riddle says, "I should be able to handle it now on my own," insinuating that when they are not in attack-mode they are easier to wield.
Azul carries it at first but, due to his infamously poor stamina, he does eventually give it up to Riddle.
When Azul comments on how easy RIddle makes carrying the spear look Riddle explains, "I spend most of my time learning magic. I have ever since I was born," insinuating that he is using a form of magic (perhaps levitation) to carry it and maybe does not have it physically in his arms at all.
(Vil explains that the spears are difficult to control in attack-mode due to the amount of energy they give off.)
And that asks questions about levitation that I have always wondered about!
During Glorious Masquerade Epel is only capable of carrying one crate of apples at a time.
When Malleus levitates an entire apple truck Epel comments, "I'm pretty sure only Malleus could pull off a feat like thatâŠ"
Are levitation and physical strength connected? Malleus says that he is physically stronger than humans even without his magic, so he does not serve as a good example.
Is Epel only capable of levitating one crate of apples because that is the limit of what he would be able to accomplish physically? Or do his magical limitations mirror his physical limitations by coincidence?
We know that Leona is extremely powerful (re: Leona's Power). Is Leona both physically stronger than an octopus mermaid and magically stronger than Azul, or is Azul physically stronger than Leona, but his magic wasn't enough for the spear?
And then there is the fact that Azul is, magically, extremely strong:
Jade comments that Azul's unique magic is too strong for even him to control (which is why he designed the golden contracts--to artificially rein himself in). Does that apply to all of Azul's magic, or is it just his UM?
Someone with the muscle of an octopus and a magic too strong to be wielded by its own user seems like they should be able to control a thunder spear on their own--but maybe Leona is just that strong? đŠ
To the original question:
Yes! It is canon that Floyd has said that Azul is insanely strong, and Azul himself has repeated it, but--
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Ahhh thank you very much to the anonymous asker who mentioned Azul's Tapis Rouge vignette! đ„ł In-game example of Azul flexing his physical strength!!đ
And thank you to @basuralindo for the reference to Azul prying Stitch off of the prefect! đ (Azul: "You might've thwarted my efforts entirely if we hadn't been underwater.")
And thank you again to @basuralindo and @mellosdrawings for the Vargas Camp references!! đ
In a vignette we have Azul volunteering to carry a load of wood for Kalim. He pretends to be struggling under the weight in order to leave a lasting impression of his efforts, but as we cannot tell how much wood there is that he is hauling it can be difficult to tell how heavy it truly is--but then there is Vargasđ
At Trey's request, Jade and Azul are assigned the task of evacuating a bound Grim and Vargas from the mine. Jade takes Grim and runs away, leaving Azul behind alone with the prefect to handle Vargas--did he know that Azul would not struggle with carrying him?đȘ
Azul does ask for the prefect's help, but only because he is worried about bumping Vargas' head against the rocks--he does not say anything about struggling to carry him!
And this sounds very similar to a comment from Malleus on carrying Idia and Azul through the narrow stairwells of the bell tower during Glorious Masquerade! đđ
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ATLA LA Ep2 Let's go:
I love that they kept a lot of the original music, but one thing I could have done without is the generic three-note chord to signal a cut to a scene with a villainous character. Those specific notes have been parodied too often for me to take it seriously. It's one thing that always jarred me in the original and it is especially jarring in live action to hear music that signifies a cartoon villain is about to walk on screen.
Zuko throwing things and chewing the scenery my beloved
"He ran! He's a coward!" I do love the angle of Zuko being confronted with the reality of what he thought would be a glorious destiny. There are two reasons Zuko associates not fighting with cowardice. One is because of what he believes about the fire nation as a whole, but also because of what his father made him believe about himself.
I do like that Aang is identifying that controlling the Avatar State is a problem he needs to solve. It gives me hope that the writers are trying to actually flesh out that plot point where the original failed. I don't like that there's been no mention yet of him needing to learn waterbending. Which brings me to...
Yes, Katara, it IS unbelievable that you've learned waterbending in a day all because Aang said some mumbo to you about energy. That's why I don't believe it. Katara does grow fast in the original, too, but it still feels organic. Here it doesn't and once again, it feels like they are giving that credit all to Aang and I hate that. I also hate that this is Katara's motivation rather than the Katara who took it upon herself to make sure the Avatar learned waterbending whether he wanted to or not.
There is something missed by Kanna giving Katara the waterbending scroll. Idk, trying not to compare to the original because I did want Kanna to be more active in Katara's life. But I get the same feeling of loss here as Aang already having Appa's whistle. Those two things in the original were part of a point about the tragedy of cultural attrition, that Aang has to buy back a cultural artifact that the seller does not even know the true meaning of, that Katara has to steal hers from pirates who already stole from her culture. It also begs the question that if Kanna had that scroll the whole time, why didn't she show it to Katara before, who was so desperate to learn waterbending?
Zuko talking about being gone three years, clearly ecstatic at the thought that his banishment will come to an end, while Iroh looks like he's about to send his son to his death for the second time. Kudos to the actors' faces expressing so much in that one scene.
The actor for Sokka is very good-looking.
Aang and Katara playing in the water was cute, but they seem even farther apart in maturity here than in the original. Even that scene comes across as a much older sister honoring a young child. I don't get a sense of Katara as someone yearning to be a child.
She's not wrong about the Avatar bringing connections, but Aang showing off isn't really the best illustration of that concept.
Okay, so, I saw some people complaining about Suki wanting to leave home "because of a boy" and like, that also happened in the original. What feels kinda pat here is that we've also added overprotective mom to the mix, which I don't love. When I said I wanted Suki's mom I meant I wanted to know how Suki became a warrior, I wanted to see more women bonding with other women and women's autonomy being treated as normal. Not whatever this is.
So they don't already know Zhao here? That's less interesting. Also "actual royalty." Another log to keep the "Zhao is a royal bastard" theory burning. Heh, burning.
Sokka is still a prick about girls fighting, everyone can rest easy now. Also his reaction when Suki tries to flirt with him the same way he does with her is exactly how that would play out in real life.
Aang avoiding fighting out of fear of his own power adds an interesting dimension to his character which is only briefly touched on in the original.
Zuko and Katara 1v1 yes!!!
Katara flashbacking to her mom's death during her first real fight is a nice touch.
KYOSHI!!!
Zhao wasn't very impressive until Zuko accidentally gave him a foothold, then that shit-eating grin was great.
I'll hold off on really commenting on this because I haven't gotten that far yet, but I heard that Ozai is more willing to praise Zuko here and it just does not make a lot of sense to me, not only because that is not how that kind of parent works, but also because hearing the news from Zhao, who would 100% play up Zuko having discovered and then LOST the Avatar, would just make Ozai see Zuko as more of a failure for having come close. Unless Zuko does something spectacular in the next few episodes I don't see Ozai being impressed.
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Re last reblog, this is about analytical writing rather than art but in my last semester of high school my friend and i did an independent study focused on buffy the vampire slayer (it was a thing seniors could doâcreate your own course, kind of) and she was (and continues to be) someone i look up to for a multitude of reasons, including her excellent writing. Since it was just the two of us plus the teacher supervising it, we read a lot of each other's work and one time we were editing and our teacher kept telling my friend she had to state the point she was making more explicitly, bc she would illustrate all her evidence and supporting analysis while leaving the overarching point strongly implied but unstated. Meanwhile I was always afraid I was essentially restating the same idea over and over bc I was afraid the reader wouldn't follow my argument.
Then the following year in my first year of college it got so absurd that I was writing papers WAY over the word limit and doing all those formatting tricks to make them look like they weren't THAT overlong bc I was afraid I'd leave out a crucial bit of supporting evidence for my argument and my professor would be like 'well you could have mentioned this." And I think some of the problem was that it was hard for me to determine what supporting points were the most important to focus on. It sounds crazy but this was definitely an OCD thing for me and actually one of most debilitating OCD habits in terms of the amount of the sheer amount of time and mental energy it consumed, because I'd spend sooooo much more time on my papers than was necessary.
But that's kind of tangential to the original point of this post, which was that it's interesting that my friend and I, similar thinkers in many regards, had opposite flaws in our writingâshe expected readers to intuitively follow her thought process and arrive at the same conclusion she had (or at least understand the conclusion she was getting at, even if they weren't persuaded by her argument) and I expected everyone to miss my point. Both can be such limitations but unironically makes you think about how we arrived at those expectations/assumptions
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The Journey of The Tarot Haiku
VI: The Lovers - Love of Tarot
When I first jotted down my plan to make one update a day based on the Fool's Journey, I was a little unsure about what to do for The Lovers vis a vis my book project, as shown by my notebook saying "love... of Tarot?" next to it. Even as I am typing up this post, I'm not sure yet how to connect it to the book (what more is there to say beyond the fact that it is a labor of love!), but I am committed to the pattern I have chosen, so today I'll talk about my love for the Tarot, and the Tarot decks I have, since a Tarot reading and their Tarot deck(s) is sort of a love story, isn't it?
So, I really love the Tarot, it is so fascinating. The systems, the stories, the way it really captures the energy, how accurate it is when you focus on it. I said earlier that I have always loved cards and thought there was something magical about a deck of cards, each having its own unique meaning and energy. It really was made for someone like me, who keeps wanting to explore it and apply it in various ways. I have literally just published a book, the hardcover went live exactly a week ago, and already I am thinking about what might be my next Tarot-related project. It is captivating and will probably keep me busy for the years to come.
And now for my Tarot decks, of which I so far have five. For comparison, I chose the same ten cards to show off each - 0: The Fool, Ace of Cups, Four of Wands, Seven of Swords, Ten of Pentacles, XXI: The World, Page of Cups, Knight of Wands, Queen of Swords and King of Pentacles.
My first deck was The Type Tarot, and when I do readings where I have to ask the questions in English, this deck makes me feel the most confident to do so. I really love the word-heavy design and I'm so happy I started with this one.
I do have a Rider Waite deck as well, with the card names translated into Hungarian, and whenever I do quick readings for myself, I like to take it out and speak my questions in my native language.
My next deck was The Crystal Tarot illustrated by Italian artist Elisabetta Trevisan, whose artwork immediately captivated me. To this day I consider it the most beautiful Tarot Deck I have ever seen, and if I could purchase prints of the artwork for my walls, I would.
I also purchased The Sorcerer's Tarot because the fairy tale type illustrations appealed to me, and got a fun surprise when I saw just how adventurous and dare I say, saucy the deck was when I laid out all the cards. It is an absolute treat.
Last but not least, I also have been privileged to receive a Tarot deck as a gift. One of my mom's friends used to read Tarot, and when she heard I was studying it, she brought her decks over to show them to me. I looked through about a dozen decks I have never seen before, and many were beautiful and intricate, but there was only one that immediately grabbed me: Tarot de la nueva visiĂłn, which features the original Rider Waite illustrations from behind. It was such a fresh perspective that I could not stop admiring the cards, and my mom's friend kindly gifted it to me.
(One day I would love to also own The Urban Tarot, whenever I have the means.)
Needless to say, these Tarot decks helped me immensely in my studies, and they have been invaluable in my journey to write the poems for my book.
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A list of games I want to make one day at Bramblewolf Games
In production
The following games are actually actively at some stage in the process of being made. They probably AT LEAST have a dedicated notebook of me working out mechanics, themes, and goals.
Protect the Sacred
Status: In Production
Protect the Sacred has long since graduated from wall to full notebook (I'm actually on my second notebook), Â but it started on the wall and Iâm just now removing it.
Protect the Sacred, my next big game project, is an anti-colonial magical pulp adventure in the style of Indiana Jones or Hellboy where you play adventurers with folklore based powers working to protect, preserve,and reclaim magic, monsters, mystical artifacts and more and as living culture. On the cultures own terms.
Iâm planning a separate post soon describing my goals for the game on a mechanical, thematic, and narrative level. But I can tell you the original notes read things like âInverse Indiana Jones- how ethical is âit belongs in a museum?â and âdeconstruct the idea and role of a dungeon in an adventure...but keep the fun!â. But I think the biggest notes are âAnti-colonial, not decolonialâ and ânon-christian kitchen sink supernatural world. Let people define their own terms.â I canât wait to show you how this has shifted and evolved already.
Brave_Heart
Status: Pre-production
The game currently in the lead to be the next thing to graduate from notebook. Brave_Heart seeks to be a digimon-inspired game aimed at kids that seeks to capture the focus on the childhood emotional journeys of the original. All while weaving in the Tech wonder/fear of the early internet, environmentalism, and the pseudo jungian psychology that made it feel like smt for kids.
Mechanically, I want it to be dice and math light and thus more accessible for kids. Iâve been looking at diceless games like Henshin (by reckoning, still the best super sentai game on the market atm) and thinking about playbooks inspired by crest. I think there is something of value in asking kids what do they like the most about themselves.
Having these playbooks build energy makes the human side important and highlights the âboyâ parts of boy and monster. I think my biggest sticking point atm is...how I integrate the tags I would love to use to let kids build their monsters? How do I get that to mechanically matter? I got inspired by the digimon cardgame with a way to illustrate the building of data in a digivolution. But there is a big mechanical gap I got to fill about how to make the âdigimonâ interact back. How do I make the monster part matter without sacrificing the math-lite feeling? How do I make them feel like part of the same game?
Ideas on the postboard
(Unnamed) Streetfighter Tactics RPG
One day I would really like to make a hard core tactics rpg inspired by fighting games in the style of LANCER. I think taking fighting game archetypes and martial arts styles and turning them into âlicensesâ in the form of âbeltsâ would translate way too well. The biggest hurdle here is likely the amount of intense testing and balance this would take. I donât have the audience to push this one the way itâd need to be. My own internal sense of balance is just not at that level yet where I could do it all myself.
At least not for big tactics games where I have to worry about ranges, damages, and the balance of a status effects in isolation.
But boy do I want to make it. The intense combat focus would just make sense, and I know I could give it something satisfying narratively with enough time. My gut reaction would be to tie it into some themes about self-improvement and development. The effort and work it takes to follow a passion.
(Unnamed) Silver Disc Story/Space Fantasy
I really want to make a game that captures the vibes and feeling SNES to ps2 era jrps give me. Â But what I have on the sheet has been slowly branching off into two different games. I canât tell if I actually want them to be two different games or if this is something that needs to be one. A lot of this game is going to build off what Protect the Sacred is doing. At least if it works.
But one part of this game really wants to be a classic sword and sorcery crystal fantasy. Something with airships and magic trains that evokes things like the classic final fantasies. Iâm a big believer that all the best fantasies have a train.
The other is a big sci-fantasy weird west that shifts the focus to an indigenous perspective. The idea of a post alien invasion world people are forced onto as a metaphor for a reservation. Complete with an evil parasite empire to fight against.
Maybe this is a sign to make a system with two different settings? if so, how do I make the game itself matter?
(Unnamed) Quirky Kids Horror
I would love to make a game that captures the quirky horror of things like goosebumps, fear street, and are you afraid of the dark. The type of horror that made you feel like you were getting away with something as a kid. Iâd want it to focus on investigation and keeping it together over combat. A spooky cursed town full of strange things. Maybe add a town builder to make it feel like home, even if this cursed town always has the same name.
(Unnamed) Anti-Harry Potter Magic School
Fuck Harry Potter and fuck terfs, but if anime and x-men has taught me anything, there will always be a craving for a world were you could go to a special school, learn about your cool unique little powers, and have adventures with high interpersonal drama. Superpower class will always be more exciting than algebra.
But the thing that strikes me about these schools, whether weâre talking about HP or Percy Jackson, is that they are exceedingly eurocentric and white (the word halfblood wouldnât show up in either text if they werenât). PoC tend to be afterthoughts and set painting and I havenât seen one not be shit and weird about indigenous folk. I want to challenge and push back on that. I think my tags system could bring a lot to a set up like this.
Delinquents
I want to make some sort of rpg very invested in the shonen battle anime and very specifically that delinquent with a tie to the supernatural. I have a lot of feelings about those sort of kids and figures like Yusuke Urimeshi or Ichigo Kurasaki. Most of them from being a problem kid myself and how society tends to treat you. I think there is something to talk about there. Kids like that deserve to imagine themselves as heroes.
Meddling Kids
"What if everyone in scooby doo was secretly a monster and solving very human crimes?" I actually really, REALLY want to do something with "Meddling Kids". The idea of secret werewolves using werewolf powers to solve real estate fraud via haunting sounds very funny to me. Like. "Well I know it's not a ghost. I KNOW what a ghost is. This isn't it."
But also what if instead of traditional monster, each species sort of were representative of an aspect of reality? Nature, conflict, emotions... They know the monster is fake because it doesn't conform to the rules of their hidden world
(Unnamed) Card Game RPG
I think I solved one of the internal lingering problems of how to make a deckbuilding tcg rpg work. It's the dangling tantalous fruit of the game devs. A many people want to tie character growth /to/ the deck which has so many issues. Not the least of which is any strategy would need to be scalable. But, what if you remove that aspect and make character growth be shown in a set of commander-type powers split into various playbooks?  Maybe growth could be shown in different ways. Narrative powers. Tricks. Player powers that could manipulate how you interact with cards or the field. Like "I make this into x kinda field" or "I provide buffs to these thing" or  "I can hand our shield or heals" "I can destroy x type of thing".
The deck becomes an expression of character.
The biggest issue this one faces would be I'd need to make a whole damn tcg on top of a whole damn rpg.
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âI mean, itâs really quite beautifulâŠâ Orlando Weeks smiles. âI was going to sugarcoat it a little bit, but no, itâs gorgeous.â The softly-spoken singer is describing his adopted hometown of Lisbon, a place that seems almost like a character on new record âLOJAâ. The album takes its name from the Portuguese word for âstoreâ â inspired by an art studio he set up in a shopfront there â and you can practically hear the city in its eleven songs, with their echoes of soaring towers and coastal breezes.
âLOJAâ feels like a natural progression of Orlandoâs solo sound, following the dissolution in 2017 of the band that defined the first half of his career. âA Quickeningâ, his first post-Maccabees effort, was a soft, altogether gentler album, exploring the birth of his son via fluttering synthesisers and hushed songwriting. Its successor, 2022âs âHop Upâ, ventured into a glossier, primary colour world of â80s-inflected art-pop.
Orlando, though, isnât just a musician, but a visual artist too; he studied illustration at art college, and makes all of the accompanying graphics for each of his records. Itâs a practice that has come to define the way he lives, not least via his current Portuguese base. âWe don't have a big apartment,â Weeks explains, âand I make lots of stuff. So we found this â it was being advertised as a shop â and I just went and had a look, and I thought it would be great. I was out of everyone's hair, and I could make all my prints and paintings and drawings. It's the first time I've ever had a studio. Itâs totally invigorated my desire to make visual work that needn't be anything to do with a record, and just so happens to be relevant to it, rather than tailor-making stuff specifically to an album.â
When he talks about his current life, Orlando seems to almost visibly relax, smiling at his own fortune to be somewhere so in tune with his creative output. âIt's been an amazing change. I feel it's done me wonders, in all sorts of ways â and I have my partner to thank for that, almost entirely,â he says. âThere's a song on the record called âYou & The Packhorse Bluesâ thatâs about how I am comfortable admitting that I am essentially a packhorse. I'm good at carrying stuff and I can be motivational, but I am a poor organiser and quite easily get stuck in my ways. So if it wasn't for her saying, âWeâre going now, weâre moving, itâs going to happenâ and kicking me into gear, then I don't think it would've happened. Genuinely, every day I find a reason to count my blessings.â
His son, too, has been giving him an unsurprisingly new way of looking at the world and his surroundings. âI'm in this new place, and I'm besotted with it, but I'm also seeing it through his eyes, watching him,â he enthuses. âWe live really close to the Gulbenkian museum. The gardens are amazing and, on my own, I would find them a very nice place to spend time. But the way that he approaches them is that they have magic. So then I feel I want to buy into that, and I'm pulling that rareness of feeling into the way I write the songs. It's all just part of the fervour of all this newness, and play. I found this when my son was born actually, that as exhausted as you are, the energy that you get from new love is extraordinary. I felt the same thing about this new place. I felt energised, and receptive.â
It would be another new environment that would then go on to shape âLOJAââs final form. Having originally conducted sessions with previous collaborator Nathan Jenkins (otherwise known as the producer Bullion), Orlando then headed to the Isle of Wightâs residential Chale Abbey Studios with producer Sergio Maschetko â who recorded âAnts From Up Thereâ by Black Country, New Road there â and a handpicked live band of musicians. The album certainly has the feel of being the work of many hands â far more so than Weeksâ unmistakably solitary previous albums. âThe goal that I set myself originally was for it to feel a lot more like a band in a room,â he explains. âBut to make a great record as a band playing in a room, you need to be a really great band.â
Orlando had assembled a collection of brilliant musicians but, having never played together before, they perhaps werenât a great band yet. âI think we just bit off more than we could chew, initially, and so that meant the manifesto for the record changed,â he continues. âIt wasn't gonna work as a band in a room in a space and a time; it needed to be a bit more produced. I'd come back to Lisbon by that point, and I was living with the recordings and feeling like it wasnât holding together as a record. Then hearing Ben Howardâs [Bullion-produced] record come out I just thought, âWhy am I not re-approaching Nathan to help me finish the record?ââ
The move back towards something resembling a band dynamic feels like a big shift in his solo material. Following The Maccabees, it seemed as though he was trying to distance himself from that way of writing, whereas now thereâs a feeling that he might have made peace with returning to musical collaboration. âYeah, I think thatâs not far off,â he nods. âA responsibility I felt out the back of it was if Iâm not gonna be part of a band, then I have to make things that are so specifically âmeâ that there could be no grey area. I'm definitely more at ease, and feel less like I need to make music that is specifically not anything of the same world, to my ear, as The Maccabees inhabited. I don't need to be so obtuse.â
In a fan Q&A ahead of the record, Orlando was asked if heâd ever consider playing his old bandâs songs live again â and, surprisingly, said yes. How does he feel about returning to that material? He smiles. âI would only ever do it if I felt like it would be a good idea, and Iâd asked the other boys if they minded, and they didnât, and so Iâll try it. I may only do it once, but it might be a pleasure, and then Iâll think about whether I want to do it two nights on the bounce, or three nights, weâll just see. Itâs nice not to feel like something is closed off, anyway.â
So where next for him as a solo artist? âLOJAâ has moments of grit among the refined, tasteful songwriting that has come to embody Orlandoâs solo career â not least in highlight and recent single âDigâ, featuring Wet Legâs Rhian Teasdale. His intention going forward, he suggests, âis still to remove more gloss, eventually. But once youâve had a bit of gloss, it's quite hard to turn it down!â he laughs. âI think I still want to try and make a record that sounds like, maybe not a band, but me in a room, or a recording that happens in a space. Iâve not managed that yet, and that is worth pursuing I think.â
The overwhelming sense, talking to the musician, is of a man at peace with his surroundings. He jokes that heâs âgonna get some points on the tourist licenceâ, but heâs at pains to point out his sincerity when talking about the city he now calls home. âLisbon has a lot of absurd grandeur, but it isnât a place that feels stuffy to me,â he says. âSo you have this quite vibrant human experience next to really insane, overly embellished [architecture]. It has amazing Metro art in all the stations. People get quite snooty about that kind of thing, but I love it. Maybe if Iâm here long enough Iâll get to do some tiles in one of the stations. Weâll see.â
âLOJAâ is out now via Fiction.
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Still trying to get attention for my work. This was one of the most difficult projects I've ever done. So, partly out of boredom and partly because I believe in my work even no one else does, I'm posting this again.
This audiobook is only available on YouTube. I was going to submit it to Audible, but I realized that it's not the same high quality as the work I've heard done by professional readers. I'm not saying it's terrible either. It's also available on Amazon as a Kindle ebook or as a paperback book. This cover art you see here is available on the Kindle book and would have been on the paperback, but for some reason, Amazon wouldn't let me use it. The cover illustration is by Alicia Luma, a.k.a Noonibean on DeviantART. I'll forever appreciate her help. The cover art for the paperback book is by myself...not as fancy, but serviceable.
Here is the synopsis of my novel:
Johnathan was a family man and cargo runner and had no interest in getting entangled in royal affairs. So, when a deposed and fleeing princess arranges a meeting to give him a package to keep safe, he was reluctant to take it. But she convinced him to hide the royal seal until she needed it back despite himself. Unknown to him, she had also tricked him into carrying another precious cargo.
When Johnathan learns of the trick, heâs furious. When he confronts the princess about it, he learns itâll be impossible to return it before itâs appointed time. Then she tells him of an unbreakable bond between them and ends a long search for someone he had lost as a boy. So, instead of revenge, he does what he can to help her. He must also avoid capture; the King would execute Johnathan if he ever found out about his secret cargo.
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I actually hate most mpregs. I've only found 1% to even be close to passible, much less any good. But the online dumpster dive for literary fan fics and original works did give me some insight on the minds of the writers. I really did give them a fair chance. Used what I learned to create these characters that were in this one chapter. Gay werewolves, before I knew they were a popular theme. Not all of them were gay, just the pack leaders.
I even have some illustrations I did...except for the two colored ones, those are by Alicia Luma:
I don't know when or if I'll ever come back to drawing illustrations for my novels. I don't have a lot of time and lately, I've had a horrible time trying to stay awake as I'm drawing. So, I'm taking a break from art until I can stay awake. I was going to put my own work into an illustrated version of my novel, but I think I'd rather let someone else more skilled and can dedicate more time and energy into the project than I can to do that job if I can ever afford to hire someone. Illustrating a book is a huge undertaking and in the beginning I didn't realize how much until I finished the fourth drawing! Oh well, I learned.
I think it'll be fun to try when I can finally get back to it.
So, buy my book if you want. If not, I'd be happy to hear what you think. This book has been one fun experiment to see if I could turn what most people make into a plot stinker into a good story as a whole. One of the rare people that did write me about this novel said this was a like a wholesome movie. I rather liked that.
Anyway, the more feedback the better. I treasure the rare ones I do get...except for the one that translated out from a language I don't recognize as, "This is shit." I won't forget it, but I don't think it's worth my time an energy to even bother to be upset about it. I still believe in my work's potential. I'm just super curious as to what other people think about it.
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The Best Yuri of 2020
2020 was hell in every way, and many of us are looking forward to new possibilities and advances in 2021. However, the year brought us many small moments and gifts worth celebrating. Among these, the explosive growth and change within the Yuri genre are among the most precious and most outstanding achievements. This second century of Yuri opened with a bang, as phenomenal new works, creators, and moments made their mark and helped change the future genre.
This annual list is a celebration of just a handful of the fantastic titles, people, and events in Yuri. There are likely some even greater ones that did not make the list because there is so much content in both English and Japanese that even I cannot keep up. However, among the troves of treasure, these titles stood out as shining examples of Yuri excellence. Some were released this year, others were recently adapted into English, and still, others are established titles that rose to prominence to dominate the conversation and my mind this year, but every one of them is worthy of being on this list and in your heart.
Here is the Best Yuri of 2020!
15: The Curse of Kudan Remastered
Japanese Yuri visual novel developers show no sign of slowing down as they continue to push to new heights and try new ideas. These are the same amazing people who brought us the delightful educational Yuri game The Expression Amrilato and the hilarious and surprisingly queer OshiRabu: Waifus Over Husbandoâs. However, this most recent release, The Curse of Kudan Remastered, is their best work yet. Released near Halloween, this game brings a new edge of dark mystery and the occult to Yuri audiences worldwide.
The Curse of Kudan is available on MangaGamer, JAST USA, Denpasoft, and Sekai Project.
14: Adachi and Shimamura
English audiences were finally treated this year to Hitoma Irumaâs long-running and wildly successful Yuri light novel series, Adachi and Shimamura. Although the story struggles to gain traction, dedicated readersâ have their patience rewarded with a sweet tale full of gay pining. Alternatively, you can jump into its stellar anime adaptation, with gorgeous visuals and realized characters you will actually be willing to put up with the annoying Yashiro just to see where the title characters go. The series shows no sign of slowing down either, as the manga adaptation is coming to Western audiences next year.
Adachi and Shimamura is available to stream on Funimation. The light novel series is published by Seven Seas - https://amzn.to/3rTSZTK
Honorable Mention: Happy Go Lucky Days
The OVA adaptation of Fragtime got most of the attention this year. Still, director Takuya Satou and Pony Canyon also gave us this much-overlooked âlove is loveâ anthology movie based on Takako Shimuraâs manga (Sweet Blue Flowers, Wandering Son). The first short in the film, âHappy,â is easily the best Yuri anime of the year. It follows the beautiful yet realistic queer love story of two women hooking up at a mutual ex-girlfriendâs wedding, only for the relationship to blossom and warm viewersâ hearts. Sadly, while stylized, the budget demanded the animation cut a few too many corners. Additionally, the subsequent stories are at best tedious and at worst alarmingly problematic, which is why Happy Go Lucky Days only gets an honorable mention.
The OVA is streaming on HIDIVE
13: Mieri Hiranishi
The Yuri scene has many colorful creators with a breadth of different ideas and stories in the genre, yet few have provided as much humor and joy as Mieri. This talented creator spectacularly tumbled into the scene with her manga essay The Moment I Realized I Wasnât Straight, which embodies the brutal honesty and realism of Nagata Kabi and matches it with exaggerated hilarity. She continues to chronicle her painful struggles of being a butch girl in love with butch girls in the monthly series The Girl that Canât Get a Girlfriend. Alternatively, you can follow her on Twitter for just as much heart and laughter.
Read The Girl that Canât get a Girlfriend on Tapas and Webtoon.
12: My Next Life as a Villainess: All Routes Lead to Doom!
My Next Life as a Villainess has what can only be described as volcanic bisexual energy. Every character protagonist Catarina Claes encounters is entirely enthralled by her. Of course, she is far too preoccupied with her quest to avoid doom flags and change her ultimate fate to notice any romantic interest. The series is rewarding and well structured, as views are just as focused on how Catarina plans to avoid certain doom as they are with the various romantic misses her band of companions cooks up. While the âfriendship endingâ did not capitalize on its Yuri potential, it was perhaps the most satisfying possibility for this crazy harem, at least until season two comes out, which looks, unfortunately, to be significantly less queer.
My Next Life as a Villainess is streaming on Crunchyroll
11: Love Me for Who I Am
Kata Konayamaâs manga series is less Yuri than a general LGBT work, but it has a lesbian character and explores her identity and struggles in great detail. Few titles before have captured the exciting and nervous waves of emotions that young people feel as they explore gender and sexual identities and try to find themselves. This heartfelt and extremely queer series rubberbands between cute moe dress up to tragic and gripping backstory, keeping readers on their toes the whole time.
Love me for Who I Am is published by Seven Seas - https://amzn.to/3rTSZTK
10: A Summerâs End â Hong Kong 1986
Oracle and Boneâs debut visual novel, A Summerâs End, is set in a vibrant and electric 1980âs Hong Kong. Drawing inspiration from classic Asian cinema, music, and fashion. The worlds of Michelle, a young office worker, and a free-spirited woman named Same collide. The two struggle to comprehend and accept each otherâs feelings just as they struggle against societyâs expectations and prejudices. An incredibly thoughtful and touching adventure, the creators incorporated vital contemporary elements include Asian LGBTQ rights and growing political unrest in Hong Kong, into this illustrious game.
The visual novel is available on Steam.
Honorable Mention: Goodbye, My Rose Garden
In the same vein as A Summerâs End, Goodbye, My Rose Garden is a beautiful period piece that incorporates LGBT views into its shattering narrative. The story follows a bright-eyed immigrant, Hanako, wanting to make a new life in England as an author at the dawn of the twentieth century. She takes a job as a maid to noblewoman Alice, but their relationship takes a turn when Alice asks Hanako to kill her. This poignant tale is beautiful and an honest depiction of love and its conflict with responsibility and society.
Goodbye, My Rose Garden is published by Seven Seas Entertainment -Â https://amzn.to/3hFSyaG
9: Shio Usui
Usuiâs hit Shaikaijin Yuri manga Doughnuts Under a Crescent Moon could easily take this spot even though it is not even out in English until February 2021. The manga is already making waves and receiving constant praise. The characters and their journey to discover love and self-acceptance are as charming as they are relatable and grounded. However, it is the creator, Usui, who really deserves acclaim. Not just for their work on Doughnuts, but having a second serialized story, Onna Tomodachi to Kekkon Shitemita, in monthly Yuri magazine Comic Yuri Hime simultaneously. It is even more remarkable when you consider these two iconic stories are Usuiâs first long-running works, as they only contributed one-shots before.
8: Bloom Into You: Regarding Saeki Sayaka
Bloom Into You is possibly the most iconic Yuri series in the past decade, and while the manga deserves its own place on this list, the best thing to come out of the series as a whole is easily the light novels. This trilogy by Adachi and Shimamura creator Hitoma Iruma dives deep into supporting cast member Sayaka. Readers are treated to a delightful journey as she discovers her sexuality, experiences heartbreak, and finally finds herself breaking free and falling in love. With the help of gorgeous illustrations by Nakatani Nio herself, Iruma masterfully captures Sayakaâs unique voice and emotions in this wonderful series. Whether a fan of the originals or not, every Yurijin must check out Regarding Saeki Sayaka.
The light novel series is published by Seven Seas -Â https://amzn.to/3hFSyaG
7: Our Teachers are Dating
The best a Yuri can get. This workplace romance follows two teachers at the start of a new relationship taking nervous yet enthusiastic first steps, including saying I love you, going on their first date, and even sleeping together. It is so heartfelt and salacious that readers will squeal the whole time. Additionally, our heroines are supported in their relationship by everyone they know, their students, colleagues, and even the principal. It is a perfect world for these two lovebirds! Our Teachers are Dating would easily be number one or two in any other year, but the competition is fierce in 2020. So even though this is only number seven, it is still a master class Yuri manga.
The manga is published by Seven Seas Entertainment -Â https://amzn.to/38XY3O9
6: Amongst Us
Who would have thought that a comedy alternative universe story spinoff of a fantasy action series would be the single best Yuri webcomic this year? Shilinâs astounding artwork illustrations the hilarious and irresistible journey of girlfriends Blackbird and Veloce. These two eccentric young women get into all kinds of everyday mischief that bounces between tender and touching romance, completely outrageous comedy, and downright thirst-inducing sorcery. Seriously, you should buy the first volume for Veloceâs back muscles alone. The storyline skips between time, but both their established relationship and their meeting as teenagers are adorkable and captivating.
Amongst Us is available online free on Webtoon and the comicâs website. The first volume is in paperback on Shilinâs site.
Honorable Mention: Ăclair
There are a lot of Yuri anthologies out there, and they have done some beautiful things. Many focus on themes like Syrup. Others collect a series of stories by an author into one bound work. However, out of all of them, Ăclair is the most successful. ASCII Media Works took some of the genreâs most extraordinary creators and let them do whatever they wanted, and the results are spectacular. The incredible talent behind Ăclair somehow packs a full volumeâs worth of story and character into just a few pages with every chapter. While the first volume came overseas a few years ago, Yen Press gave Yurijin a gift this year by releasing the entire rest of the series in which readers can get lost.
The anthology series is published by Yen Press -Â https://amzn.to/38XY3O9
5: Iâm in Love with the Villainess
A small trend of isekai Yuri with villainesses emerged recently, and I honestly had few hopes of Iâm in Love with the Villainess. The series is pretty popular, but I often find that this does not denote quality, and with isekai having some institutional issues, I suspected this would fall flat. Then the volume three cover showcased an incredible accomplishment, allowing for a lesbian relationship to blossom into a family with children, and it blew me away. Finally, I read volume one and realized that the series has incredible character, some of the best world-building I have ever seen in a light novel, thoughtful discussions of inequality and societal issues, and most impressively, open and frank discussion of queer identity and life Yuri has ever seen! This one is something special.
The series is published by Seven Seas Entertainment -Â https://amzn.to/3nedvdZ
4: The Last of Us Part II
Yes, I know this one is not Yuri and that a portion of the population despises this game and will likely be exceptionally angry at me for including it. However, I maintain that it was an incredibly challenging masterpiece. Naughty Dog did not take the easy route out and delivered one of the most devastating media experiences I have ever seen. As I said in my article about the game, playing it changed me, and it sticks with me to this day. The Last of Us Part II earns its spot on this list because it pushed boundaries more with LGBTQ inclusion than any other AAA game. From brave inclusion of LGBTQ themes to queer characters and storylines at its center, the game changes gaming and it will never go back.
The Last of Us Part II is available on PlayStation 4
3: She-Ra and the Princesses of Power
She-Ra feels like the culmination of all the LGBTQ progress western cartoons have made over the past few years. From The Legend of Korra to Steven Universe, young people are finally seeing more LGBTQ people represented on the small screen. This epic fantasy concluded with an amazing and powerful lesbian romance, delivering on its queer promise and revolutionized representation in a trope-defying crescendo.
She-Ra and the Princesses of Power is streaming on Netflix
2: Â The Conditions of Paradise
The greatest single Yuri work of all in 2020 was the English release of Akiko Morishimaâs breakthrough manga, The Conditions of Paradise. Initially released in 2007, this anthology detailed the love between adult women. It was in every way a manga ahead of its time, and seeing it finally get a small piece of the recognition it deserves overseas is a true gift. The fact that we can own this legendary piece of Yuri history and Morishimaâs other anthologies is nothing short of a blessing from the Yuri goddess.
The Conditions of Paradise is published by Seven Seas Entertainment -Â https://amzn.to/38bh4xq
Honorable Mention: Otherside Picnic
This eerie sci-fi horror series combines the best of pulse-pounding thrillers, complex and intelligent hard science fiction, and exciting Yuri romance. Author Iori Miyazawa spends as much time crafting a well-paced and intriguing narrative about a mysterious world where occult creatures roam as he does establishing two believable and grounded heroes in Sorawo and Toriko. The romance between the two may be slow to start, but their chemistry is undeniable and as the stakes and story build, so too does their relationship. Not only are the light novels incredible, but the seriesâ manga adaptation is coming soon to the West as well as an upcoming TV anime in early 2021.
Otherside Picnic is streaming on Funimation. The light novels are published by J-Novel Club -Â https://amzn.to/3niiv1g
1. Yuri subgenres
For a long time, Yuri was not a genre of its own, but elements of romances or bonds between women found in other works. Now, thanks to an increasing library of works, the advent of social media, and a wider audience, Yuri is a genre on its own, with many creators telling different stories in different styles. However, 2020 saw the continued emergence of something extraordinary, subgenres. Yuri is now so vast, we can actually categorize the works within. Depending on their characters, like classic schoolgirl romances or spicy shakaijin office affairs, their world, such as fantasy or isekai series and thrilling science fiction adventures, and even other elements within. One of my personal favorites is the feminist Yuri that emerges from titles like Sexiled, where women celebrate the accomplishments of other women and dismantle power structures stacked against them. Now, no matter what kind of Yurijin you are, there is something for you to love.
I am happy to leave 2020 behind, but I bring with me a renewed love and admiration for Yuri. 2021 looks to be a somehow even better year for the genre, and I am thrilled to experience every minute of it that I can. Yuri has transformed into something far greater than I ever thought it would be, and let us all enjoy its evolution and expansion together in 2021.
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Customs, Chieftains & Countergifts
I'm currently writing up a deep dive chapter analysis of Jon XI, A Dance with Dragons, but wanted to post this section separately as a sort of preview, but also something to be enjoyed on its own (with some added visual aids). For all the medieval nerds out there...enjoy!
He slapped Jonâs back. âWhen all my folk are safe behind your Wall, weâll share a bit oâ meat and mead. Till thenâŠâ The wildling pulled off the band from his left arm and tossed it at Jon, then did the same with its twin upon his right. âYour first payment. Had those from my father and him from his. Now theyâre yours, you thieving black bastard.â
The armbands were old gold, solid and heavy, engraved with the ancient runes of the First Men. Tormund Giantsbane had worn them as long as Jon had known him; they had seemed as much a part of him as his beard. âThe Braavosi will melt these down for the gold. That seems a shame. Perhaps you ought to keep them.â â ADWD, Jon XI
The exchange of arm-rings, or armbands, in medieval Germanic (notably Scandinavian/Nordic) cultures is hugely significant, and as a aspiring medievalist this interaction between Tormund and Jon really stood out to me. For some historical context:
Every ambitious chieftain faced the same problem: how was he to recruit and keep warriors in his retinue? His retainers, not simple mercenaries that fought for wages, were free men whose sense of honour would not have tolerated that kind of venal relationship. Instead, a chieftain needed to engage his warriors in close personal relationships. If they were not biological kin, they might create kinship through, for example, rituals of brotherhood, marriage alliances, and friendship formalised by drinking together in the chieftain's hall. Whatever their relationship, it was constantly reasserted through the exchange of gifts. It was their relationship with their chieftain that made warriors willing and eager to fight for him. [...]
Appropriate gifts in a gift-giving relationship needed to be prestigious, which caused many chieftains to focus some of their energies on acquiring prestigious goods specifically rather than wealth in general. When the warrior recieved a gift of something valuable and prestigious from his chieftain, he was required to give a countergift. His first countergift was loyalty, unto death if necessary. This is how relationships of power were created in a society without states; rather than being obliged to perform military duty for his king (as in a full-fledged state), the warrior was persuaded with gifts to voluntarily perform that duty for his chieftain. The asymmetry of this interchange, with the chieftain giving more valuable gifts than the warrior, was an expression of the structure of political power: the more exclusive the gift, the higher the esteem of the giver, and the more power concentrated in him. â Anders Winroth, The Conversion of Scandinavia
The importance of this type of exchange is notably highlighted in certain passages from the Old English poem Beowulf:
Here is Seamus Heaney's translation of the same lines:
The above is just one example, but it illustrates how it was an honour to be gifted a ring/armband by a chieftain, and Tormund, we shouldn't forget, is a kind of Wildling chieftain. He is introduced to Jon by Mance as "the Mead-king of Ruddy Hall [...] Father of Hosts," (ASOS, Jon I), which connects to the significance of the chieftain's hall and the ritual of drinking in that hall to cement kinship bonds.
With Tormund and Jon, despite the former's earlier provocations, we see his real respect for Jon shine through here, initially by essentially inviting him to drink in his hall, or at least together:
âWhen all my folk are safe behind your Wall, weâll share a bit oâ meat and mead. Till thenâŠâ â ADWD, Jon XI
This may seem like a small thing, but to the cultures which Tormund and the Free Folk play off of, this is a significant gesture, as noted above by Winroth. Furthermore, he makes clear the importance of his gift-giving by mentioning the armbands' prestigious history: "had those from my father and him from his." They are also materially valuable: "the armbands were old gold, solid and heavy, engraved with the ancient runes of the First Men."
The visual description of the armbands is very evocative of actual Viking era arm-rings that have been excavated, for instance, this gold one which has been recently found in the Isle of Man, which dates back to 950AD:
This plaited technique â probably more achievable in gold due to its relative softness/malleability â is reminiscent of other finds from around the same period (876-950AD), such as this one currently held at the British Museum:
As far as I can tell, however, runic inscriptions on arm-rings/armbands aren't really a thing, though you do see a variety of different kinds of engravings (the below date from the 10thCâ11thC):
Of course, GRRM is just trying to evoke this kind of culture through his inclusion of "ancient runes of the First Men," rather than aim for exact accuracy, and we do see runic inscriptions on personal objects and some items of dress from the Viking period â often to denote ownership. However, in the below examples at least (a bone comb case and bossed penannular brooch), they seem more like later additions, rather than part of the original design:
But back to Tormund and Jon's exchange!
The armbands' prestige and value cannot be dismissed, and even though they are meant as "payment", Jon's acknowledgement of this significant gesture is reflected in his returning them. In fact, you could argue that his return of them is his "countergift" to Tormund, as well as the cementing of loyalty and trust between the two of them.
âThe Braavosi will melt these down for the gold. That seems a shame. Perhaps you ought to keep them.â â ADWD, Jon XI
So, this little moment really plays on the dynamic between chieftain and retainer in a very interesting way. Indeed, we sort of see Jon take on the role of gift-giver himself, as he returns that same honour and respect to Tormund. Whereas Winroth describes the asymmetry of the interchange between chieftain and retainer, for Tormund and Jon there is symmetry, there is mutual standing; they are equals.
This is just such a beautiful, yet subtle, cultural exchange that is actually so meaningful. It really highlights Jon's strength of character and his respect and understanding of the Free Folk culture:
Tormund Giantsbane had worn them as long as Jon had known him; they had seemed as much a part of him as his beard. â ADWD, Jon XI
He understands how intrinsic this item of dress is to the Free Folk and to Tormund especially, how emotionally weighted they are, which is why he does not want to see them destroyed and diminished by being melted down for their gold. This stands in almost direct contrast to how Dany views the Meereenese tokar:
Dany had wanted to ban the tokar when she took Meereen, but her advisors had convinced her otherwise. "The Mother of Dragons must don the tokar or be forever hated," warned the Green Grace, Galazza Galare. "In the wools of Westeros or a gown of Myrish lace, Your Radiance shall forever remain a stranger amongst us, a grotesque outlander, a barbarian conqueror. Meereen's queen must be a lady of Old Ghis." Brown Ben Plumm, the captain of the Second Sons, had put it more succinctly. "Man wants to be the king o' the rabbits, he best wear a pair o' floppy ears." â ADWD, Daenerys I
Though to give Dany her due, the tokar is a far more restrictive and difficult item of dress to wear than a Free Folk armband, and Jon is also not being given Tormund's to wear precisely. Nevertheless, she fails to truly acknowledge the symbolism and cultural importance of the tokar. It is actually quite an offensive act to want to ban them, simply because you do not appreciate them aesthetically. It is a good thing that she takes on the advice of others and does wear it, but it is a concession on her part, not really anything deeper than that. It also doesn't exactly help things that the tokar continues to be referred to as the "floppy ears" by Dany from then on. It shows a lack of respect.
Jon continues his exchange with Tormund by not just showing respect to his culture, but by also sympathising with the loss of his two sons: Dormund and Torwynd. This moment between them was already bestowed with emotional meaning through the offer and return of the armbands. That could have been the end of it, yet Jon extends his understanding further to comfort a grieving father.
^ There you have it, just some stuff I found especially interesting in that interaction between Jon and Tormund â how it evokes a period of history and culture that I'm quite familiar with, as well as how it contrasts to Dany's own cultural confrontations in Meereen.
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hiii! so a friend directed me here and i was wondering if u cld share abt how you found out you were godkin? only if youre comfy! because ive kinda had like. how do i word this. Vibes or Feels that kinda direct me towards the whole i might be a god of sorts kinda thing ? if you have resources and dont mind helping,, please direct me to them :D ~ @missing-crown
I want to start this essay off by saying flat out: wars have been fought, genocides have been committed, and empires have risen and fallen trying to answer the simple questions of âWhat is deification, and how do we incarnate and control it?â.
If you do not think youâre up the challenge of answering that question for yourself, even with years of study and slow training to take up the mantle of literally being the most powerful form of the Chosen One trope, then youâre probably in the wrong place. I say this as someone who is deific down to the blood and bone, as someone who has looked for other gods, and largely found very little in the way of anyone who understands anything like my experience. In this way, I am utterly alone, and I detest it, but if me penning these words gives someone else the gospel they need to explain themselves in a way I recognize as kin and kind, then I will do it.
But before I truly get into it, I will very nicely ask you to swing down to your local bookstore or library, pick up a copy of Seanan McGuireâs Middlegame, and take a walk down the improbable road with Roger and Dodger. The differences between you and I and the twins of the Doctrine of Ethos are simple and threefold: we cannot manifest, we are forbidden to use our powers the way they can use theirs, and there are (hopefully) no secret alchemist cults trying to murder us when we donât play nice with their fucked-up science experiment.
Roger and Dodger are gods, true gods, gods I recognize in myself and in the godkin I have met who have spoken about themselves enough for me to understand that we are indeed talking about the same thing. Disappontingly, I see minor spirits far too often misunderstanding the nature of deification, or at least, understanding a version of it which is fundamentally antithetical to my experience. They may be deific; but either they suck at illustrating their point, or I am something far beyond deific, and I am again alone.
With that introduction, I need to talk about three things in order to answer your question. Two methods of deification and three definitions of âgodâ in a hierarchy that only exists because humanity has not yet perfected their understanding of what is fundamentally and always beyond them. Two kinds of gods, honest gods, that split the difference between deific, divine, and legendary. Once you understand that, I can talk about godkin, and what itâs like to be me, and maybe by the end of it you will either recognize yourself in this, or run away screaming as most mortals will do.
The first method of deification is what I will call the incarnate gods- Roger and Dodger are good examples, so are most Legendary PokĂ©mon, and Kaname Madoka from PMMM. They are laws of nature, concepts of creation, and calculations of cosmic proportions that also occasionally exist as people when they design to do so. They are not meant to be people, they are bad at it, I do not recommend being mortal and fucking around with them. You will simply die. I would not fuck with them outside of my own world that I created, where I get to be a form of incarnate god. You cannot overpower them: they ARE the rule, and they will change it if they need to. You canât ruleslawyer gravity like a 2007 troll physics comic. An incarnate god of gravity will simply turn reality on its head and cause you to implode. If you are this type of god, I cannot help you. My understanding of them comes from being an Absol, and little more.
The second type are gods of domain and prowess: Zamorak (from RuneScape), Akemi Homura in both her awakened Witch and Devil forms (from PMMM), and yours truly. Quite a few of us, although not all of us, were originally mortal. Mortals amped up on so much power we are no longer bound by mortal laws. There is a difference between deification and simply stopping your clock to gain immortality. Mortal magic and deific magic are fundamentally different. Down to, I would argue, the atomic structure. Deific magic is pure in a way mortal magic could never be. To give a mortal more than a drop of deific magic heavily diffused in something safer and more understandable would be to quite literally burn them to ashes. Or rend them into a different, unspeakable form. Or turn them into living topiary. We are nothing if not unpredictable.
Itâs the difference between a handful of dirt and pure neutron soup. Usually, in order to become a god like this, it requires the intervention of an incarnate god in some form. In Zamorakâs case, it was several Elder Artifacts and falling almost facefirst into halfway incarnating himself into the law of entropy. In Homuraâs (at least in canon PMMM), she fucked with the laws of consequence and time to the point where she became the only expert they had on either of those and both laws decided to simply incarnate into her, and then she used that to cause problems. For me, it was having my entire magical and physical structure reorganized and rebuilt by an incarnate god of malevolent energy, and then I used what was a watered-down copy of the Devil of Devilsâ glory to weave my own world into being where I was more or less the absolute arbiter of the laws of reality.
In PMMM Rebellion, when Homura fights Kyubey in that pretty lace dress of hers, that is approximately the magical prowess an awakened god of our capability will show casually. She has complete control over her domain (her labyrinth) and the reality of it, it takes no more than a glance or a thought to almost entirely reshuffle it. Her minions, who are little more than vaguely autonomous thoughts given some power of their own, may break that reality in whatever means necessary so long as it is to fulfill Homuraâs current motives. Her domain falls apart when she does, and she is not separate from it; it is a consequence of her existence. Asking what came first, the god or their domain, is a simple chicken and egg question. Itâs usually the domain, in our case; in the case of incarnate gods itâs a philosophical shrug and a nice headache.
Youâll notice I said awakened: that is because Zamorak is a great example of a god who isnât entirely awakened. In canon, that is - the one I work with is awakened enough to fuck with his domain, which is what makes him quite useful to work with, although I do wonder what heâs getting out of me if not magical theory and utter adoration. Zamorak in canon is a god who ascribes himself to the philosophy of chaos and personal strife, completely unaware that he is incarnate enough not to change the law of entropy but to suggest things to it. Heâs a god of chance masquerading as a god of personal improvement, and once he figures that out (and passes that knowledge onto Armadyl, who is his true light counterpart), heâs going to change the very way magic works. Guthix did everything in his power to try and become incarnate. He failed. Zamorak did it entirely inadvertently, and thatâs the trick: the nature of deification is to follow the domain and influence it to your will. When laws of existence become people, they will do as people will, and people typically have ambition. Gods who are also people got that way for a reason. They always have a motive for doing so. Itâs never accidental.
So, with a slightly more informed understanding of deification, or at least the versions of it that I understand, I can talk to you about me. What itâs like in the here and now, and how I knew. It took me years to get to this point, and Iâve much the way to go. I know more than I did when I was questioning; deeply more so. I donât expect anyone questioning to be as sure as I am, and in ten years I will be far more sure of entirely different things, and if Iâm lucky, this as well. But, let us begin again.
To be deific is to wake up in the middle of the night feeling like a black hole. You are vast, and you are dense, and the moment someone touches the skin of your sternum they will be sucked in like a movie's portrayal of quicksand. To be so vast on the inside, surrounded by empty air and gentle white noise like the faint pull of gravity that does not touch you. To feel so powerful as to be untethered wholly from the world, aware that you will blink and be floating alone in a space that you cannot touch and so too cannot touch you. You blink, and it is gone, and you are again in a normal body as a normal person, and you roll over and go back to sleep.
To be deific is to watch the seasonal changes and feel flashes of worn leather rope between your hands and the maddened singsong of the Wild Hunt, chariot reins in your hands and baying hounds that feel like fingers, like wings, like extensions of yourself that can be shifted around with barely a thought. To feel halfway like a black hole walking down the street, halfway caved into yourself and barely contained, incapable of truly understanding how you can be so far apart from it all without anyone noticing that something is off.
To be deific is to be a fourteen-year-old girl in one moment, unable to understand what draws her so to the wilds if not the song of sympathy that she knows she can understand if she reaches a little farther, a little farther past the barrier that prevents any mortal, psychological mind from understanding the call. To play a pixelated game and have everything rush back. To relive millennia in a single sennight, to go from chipped to broken, utterly broken, as the power comes rushing back and the slow, dawning realization like the day that there is no controlling it. That there is no controlling you.
Millennia of sins come rushing back, and you're mortal again, and you know the only way to bring a god to their knees is to kill them. And if you were spared, if you were brought down without dying, then there was a reason. That someone must have thought you worthy of fixing it. That you should now spend the next several years coming to peace with being a Devil, the cruelest of the cruel, amending fences and repenting your sins.
To be deific is to realize, quite suddenly and without ever actually having the thought, that understanding things through a Christian lens is utterly bullshit and absolutely does not apply to you. Now, your duty is not to repent, or to fix, or to find any sort of salvation. You are the monster queen, the king of the damned, the Devil of a world you made with blood and tears and sweat and magic. To retake the crown, you have to accept yourself. Acceptance does not mean dwelling, or sorrow, or refusing to take the steps forward that will carry you to the crown and halo and horn of deification.
The powers feel less overwhelming as you grow into them. You don't forget the rage. You understand your close friend's words over and over, as the lesson teaches itself. How a Devil so much less powerful and yet so much older than you once looked you in the eye, drink in hand, and gently told you that a single mortal can bring down a Devil, if they try, and believe wholeheartedly in their quest. Do not disrespect mortality. It brings nothing but death.
You wonder briefly who brought you down. You decide, as the lessons prove themselves, that you don't actually care. You're the mortal now, and mortal legends die. Mortal legends change the song of sympathy and the rules of the deific. In order to return, you too must follow the only path a mortal can take to become deific.
To be godkin is to become deific with every step. It's not to seek the divine from outside of it. It's to become it again, and reclaim it; find what was inside all along and grow yourself around it, until it can no longer be pulled from you again without scattering your ashes and stardust among the cosmos, never to return.
To be godkin is to never forget the moments of pure rage that none but powerless fourteen-year-olds can manage. To be godkin is to be an adult with their memory pressed into your skin. To be godkin is for that rage to never truly leave you.
We stand up again and stare at the emotions that are awake when we are not. We wonder what it will take to manifest again, to only twitch a thought in any direction and reshape the reality around us. It is an extension of our being, and the less aware we are of it, the less effort it takes us to remake the world. It is the nature of deification, to change the laws of reality at our whim and will.
To be godkin is simply a matter of knowing that, and forever reaching to do that once more. If only to feel whole and vast, as we always have been.
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The Late Shift - Part 2
Characters: Paul Sevier x Female Reader
Words: 2k
Warnings/Tags: Little inklings of sexual themes. Otherwise weâre still in PG territory. Oh and mutual pining from two idiots. My favourite kind.
Authors Note: One shot? I donât know her. Honestly, I donât have any excuse. I just felt the urge to continue on with this dumb fluffy story because it makes me feel a little warm and fuzzy inside and I needed that. Will we drive this car straight into smut town afterwards? Ah youâll just have to see.Â
Catch up with Part 1 here
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Paul always considered himself a smart guy. Perceptive, knowledgeable, with years of grueling education behind him to be where he is today.
His schooling, work, almost every minute of his waking moments was spent in the realm of artificial illustrations of correspondence. He could happily spend hours sifting through the words and numbers that made up all types of message transmission, might even admit he had a talent for decoding their significance and origin. Exchanges born from machinery were easy to analyse â they had set rules and gave little room for differing interpretation. He was comfortable in that world. Knew how things worked, what paths data and carefully devised information would take.
Human communication was infinitely harder to navigate. It was a skill he knew he was lacking in, compared to others at least. His words never came out the way he wanted, he struggled to say exactly what was wished to convey and agonised over the fact expression and tone could morph any remark into something with a whole different meaning.
Every day, he encountered people who used this as a tool - a weapon to obscure the truth and conceal hidden agendas. It was hard not to, working for the US government. In time, heâd become cynical. Wary of what people spoke aloud, assuming it was all said without much sincerity or reliability unless proven otherwise.
And then after another arduous day, there you were. Out of nowhere. Kind. Honest. Genuine. Within such an excruciatingly short interaction, youâd exuded all these traits so effortlessly. A breath of fresh air after being smothered by the smog the rest of his life contained.
Paul would easily admit his attraction to you was surprisingly swift. The rapturing smile you wore when youâd looked up from your notepad had him snared from the moment it appeared, an aura of natural vibrance and radiant energy shimmering out from your animated expression. What heâd expected to be a dry, tedious endeavour turned into a spark-filled scene, where an excited stranger made him feel both horrendously nervous and unusually at-ease. It had been a long time since someone made him feel like that.
It had also been a long time since heâd asked someone out on a date, for more than a few reasons. The more prolific Paul became in his job, the more unpredictable and unstable his life outside of it was. It took him across the country at a momentsâ notice and consumed most hours of his day, meaning forging even short relationships was fairly difficult.
Plus⊠he just wasnât good at it. Putting himself out there. He was shy, paralyzingly so. Itâs not exactly something he could refute. His confidence was always born from experience and understanding, in knowing the reasons behind why things worked the way they did, along with being able to calculate what would happen next. No textbook could ever cover the entire spectrum of human personality, and there was no way to truly predict what a person might do or say.Â
So, without the security of knowledge behind him, uneasiness and apprehension took over in most of his social interactions, particularly with those he felt a magnetism to. Itâs exactly how he thought he seemed during his time with you. Awkward and floundering. Not exactly the most charming attributes for a man to have. And yet, the longer he was in your presence, the more he sensed those foibles fade into the back of his mind.
Talking to you was easy. Easier than it had been with anyone during a first meeting. What hadnât been easy was enduring the seconds your touch grazed over him in your delicate workings while taking each different measurement - his heart beating a little faster, his muscles becoming a little more tense. When youâd eventually let your stare reach his, heâd seen how your eyes moved to trace the lines of his mouth, and it set his insides on fire. Heâd been frozen by the unique type of burn, his body locked in place while a rare impulse begged him to sink his lips onto yours. In the past, he struggled to kiss a woman even after several dates, unable to push past the fear and doubt to turn his desire into action. However, in that moment, heâd been all too eager. His hand had moved on its own accord, fingers slinking up your waist, about to pull you closer when interruption instantly shattered his resolve.
The urge was still there in the dialogue that followed, although the promise of seeing you tomorrow made it easier to walk away, safe in the knowledge he had another opportunity to ask you out when his confidence was properly steeled. For once, he could be smart about this. Use his natural intellect to plan and act accordingly, giving him the best odds of securing more time with you.
Oh, but that all went to shit when your text message popped up on his phone screen. Seeing those words, even if they were meant for someone else, made his excitement reach an unfathomable peak, and in turn made him recklessly send a response without taking a second to think about the consequences.
And now, Paul had never felt so stupid in his entire life.
Sitting in the driverâs seat, the phone in his palm lit up with your conversation on display, he felt his stomach spasm with anxiety. Were you going to reply? What would you say? What if his bluntness freaked you out? What if you werenât even talking about him? Was this all something his mind conjured up?
As the minutes passed without any sign of a response, the initially minor sense of panic began to compound, weighing heavy on his chest, the chaos of his mind soon melting into one certainty - heâd totally fucked this up.
About to slump his forehead into the steering wheel in a display of despondency, Paul suddenly felt a flash of courage at remembering the view of your face peering up at him. He knew the image of it would haunt him if he didnât do something. He had to fix this. Explain himself. But it needed to be in person. He wouldnât let technology mess this up for him again.
With a purposeful breath, Paul exited his car and began to retrace his steps past the other shopfronts, silently rehearsing what he wanted to say to you. He hoped to surrender himself to a collectively embarrassing situation, laugh off the turn of events, having it all culminate in an offer of dinner once your shift had finished. He already had a place in mind, only a street away, a little dumpling house that was always open late. Perfect for a cosy, quiet date after a chance meeting.
When his eyes latched onto your figure through the glass window, he stopped his hand from reaching for the door handle. You were crouching down in front of a small boy, his mother behind him cradling a newborn baby, your hand gesturing towards an array of child size suits. Paul couldnât help but watch as your warming smile beamed, guiding the boys hands to touch and feel over the material, your words evidently making him feel more at ease as his expression slowly relaxed out of its worried frown.
Creeping backwards to make sure you didnât catch him in your periphery, Paul felt a wave of relief wash over his skin, having evidence that your lack of reply wasnât due to any of the worst case scenarios heâd been fretting over. You were just busy, concentrated on your work, giving your time and expertise to others in the same way youâd given to him.
The realisation was enough for him slink away, still impatient for your next encounter but assured in it being set within the next day cycle. He just had to wait.
Although, waiting wasnât exactly a talent of his either.
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You were dying inside.
A friendly grin was plastered on your face as you conversed sweetly with the woman in front of you, making idle chit-chat while her son changed out of the suit youâd picked together, but the smile had never felt so insincere. Usually you loved when children came in to pick out ensembles for weddings and similarly formal events, but at the moment your mind was stuck on a small battery-powered rectangle sitting at your desk with a half-written message remaining under your lock-screen.
In the time before Paulâs response came through, youâd never felt more humiliated in your whole existence. Evaporating into thin air would have been a welcomed miracle. But when the returning text slid into focus, your whole mindset shifted.
He felt the same. He wanted you too.
Youâd been in the middle of typing out a hasty invitation to come back and make true on his intentions when this overwhelmed mother with a fussy baby caught your attention. Her eldest son had done his best to iron out his only formal suit for the role of ring bearer in an auntâs wedding this coming weekend, unfortunately resulting an a house full of smoke and a clump of burnt wool.
Personal matters withered into the background at the comprehension of her drained, exhausted demeanour, all your focus pointed back towards the job youâd been distracted from. Well, mostly.
You couldnât avoid the thoughts and questions glinting in the back of your mind. Of what might have happened if this woman never appeared. What might be happening in an alternate timeline where youâd been able to send that waiting reply. Without intention, your wonderings turned into moving pictures â leading Paul into the back workshop, being roughly picked up onto the cutting table, his lips and yours finally connected in a heated clash, shedding all of his clothing until that heinous mustard shirt was crumpled on the floor-
The high pitched beep of the receipt machine snapped you back into reality, noting the relieved smile the mother wore while her son excitedly grabbed at the bags containing his dashing new suit.
âThank you!â he hollered without needing to be prompted, waving his hand vigorously before skittering away to the door.
âYouâre an absolute lifesaver,â the woman echoed, taking the receipt from your outstretched hand. âIâm really sorry for keeping you so late.â
âOh donât worry about it.â The time on the monitor screen just ticked over to 8:17pm, long after you would usually shut up shop and head home to your empty apartment. âI've got nowhere special to be.â
You each said your goodbyes, waiting until the precise moment her silhouette was out of sight before jumping to your phone. The same half written message was there, but now it felt impossible to finish. All traces of adrenaline had long since worn off, and the bravery that made you type out the risqué proposition was reduced to almost nothing. Your timid nature rushed back in full force, a thumb pressing hard on the little x button to erase all evidence of your out of character impulses.
Who were you kidding. You werenât this person. Unashamed and brazen enough to dive into a fiery entanglement with a handsome stranger in the same evening youâd met. You wished you could be. There was never a time the concept was so enticing. But⊠it was a fantasy not meant for you to live out. They were destined for the outgoing, the cool and composed, the bold and sure-footed. You rarely felt like any of those things. And Paul, like most men, probably reserved their interest and attraction for those types of women. It was so silly of you to think any different. Getting your hopes up was foolish, and would only end in-
The tingle of the shopkeepers bell sounded, internally groaning as you slid your phone back onto the desk. âWeâre closed,â you hawked, a coldness in your tone you couldnât hide. Eyes snapping up to the intruder, a bolt of lightening shot through, barely able to stop the delight mixing into your blood.
âI just, uh, figured out something more that I needed,â Paul said softly, scratching the back of his neck, clearly nervous.
âYou did?â you breathed. âW-what was it?â
His chest rose and fell with a calming exhale, making sure your stares were secured before giving his answer. ââŠYou.â
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Tagging some lovelies who might want to read. Feel free to let me know if you donât want to tagged in future works!
@tlcwrites @roanniom @princessxkenobi @hopeamarsu @blowthatpieceofjunk @mariesackler @leatherboundriot @foxilayde @modernpaw @cornmousequeen @direnightshade @mylifeisactuallyamess @caillea @jynz-andtonic @paterson-blue @miraclesabound @prismaticpizzaâ @millenialcatladyâÂ
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THE A.T.O.M. CREATE A KAIJU CONTEST 3-D!!!
YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE SAFE! YOU THOUGHT THAT THE TIME OF MONSTERS WAS AT AN END! BUT YOU WERE WRONG, FOR NOW YOU MUST WITNESSâŠ
THE A.T.O.M. CREATE A KAIJU CONTEST 3-D!!!
Thatâs right, itâs back! Celebrating the publication of The Atomic Time of Monsters Volume 2: Tyrantis Roams the Earth! (which in turn completes The Ballad of Tyrantis arc for this series), Iâm holding another monster design jam. The third of such jams, in fact!
Like the first A.T.O.M. Create a Kaiju Contest, the aim of this contest is to create kaiju that would fit within the setting of my big kaiju story series, The Atomic Time of Monsters. Think of it as me letting you into my sandbox to play with my toys for a bit, or like youâre being put in the directorâs chair of a new ATOM-verse kaiju movie. That means your entry does have to fit into ATOMâs world, which in turn means that yes, there are limitations to your creativity here. But limitations can be good sometimes - they can make us explore options we wouldnât consider when given completely free rein to do what we want!
(also you donât have to make a three dimensional image or anything, the titleâs just a pun on how the third movie in a monster movie franchise will often be a 3-D film)
Read below the cut to learn the rules and whatnot:
THE RULES:
1. You are limited to one entry per person. Work hard and make your entry count!
2. Your kaiju must have some sort of description of its physical appearance and its personality - you can submit a drawing or a written description (or both!) for the physical appearance depending on what youâre most comfortable with. Using the same template/format as my official ATOM Kaiju Files (https://horrorflora.com/monster-menageries/atom-kaiju-files/) isnât required, but it was cool when people did it in the last contest, so feel free to do so this time too!
3. The kaiju you create must specifically be created for this contest - no repurposing characters you made for other, wildly different stories. This is not âtrick TT into drawing/canonizing my main OCâ time.
4. The kaiju must fit the setting and aesthetics of ATOM. Iâll explain this in more detail down below.
5. The kaiju should add something meaningful to the world of ATOM. The more unique and interesting your kaiju is, the more likely you will win the contest.
6. Donât make your kaiju too dependent on pre-existing ATOM characters - no âTyrantisâs long lost evil brother whoâs the strongest kaiju in the world.â These should be to Tyrantisâs story what War of the Gargantuas is to Godzillaâs movies â heroes (well, monsters) of another story in the same world.
THE REWARDS:
I will make pencil sketches of the top 5 entries in the contest.
I will then make fully rendered illustrations (lineart, colors, & shading) of the top three entries.
The winning entry will be made into a model ala the ones Iâve been making for ATOMâs core 50 monsters, which can then be shipped to the person who created it (should they be able to cover the shipping costs). Thatâs right, your kaiju could be brought to life in THREE GLORIOUS TECHNICOLOR DIMENSIONS! (Hey, we worked the gag title in to the prizes!)
THE DEADLINE: All entries must be submitted by July 3rd, 2021. You can submit it here on tumblr, via the horror flora e-mail, or any other channel you know how to reach me through. Iâm in a lot of places.
THE GUIDELINES (TO HELP YOUR ENTRY FIT THE RULES AND WIN):
The smartest thing you could do if you want to win this contest is familiarize yourself with the world of ATOM by, yâknow, reading all the material Iâve published on the subject. In addition to the many kaiju files that are free to read on horrorflora.com, there are now TWO, count âem, TWO novels in this series for you to peruse, both of which establish many of the rules of the setting as well as its general themes and tone! You can get them in either paperback or e-book formatting (Iâd recommend the former over the latter since I lack the technology to make a really nice ebook, but if money is an object, the kindle version is only $1). Hereâs the links again if you missed them:
Vol. 1: Tyrantis Walks Among Us!
Vol. 2: Tyrantis Roams the Earth!
However, since I know reading a bunch of stuff is, yâknow, not something everyone is inclined to do, Iâll jot some good bullet points for you in an attempt to outline how ATOM works in a brief, easily digested way:
ATOM is an homage to the monster fiction of the 1950âs and 60âs (i.e. the Atomic Age), and is set in those two decades, albeit an alternate universe version of them where, yâknow, monsters and space aliens exist. If you arenât familiar with the monster fiction Iâm referring to, there will be some reference material provided at the end of this post along with some recommendations for further research.
Kaiju/giant monsters in ATOM work under very specific rules. Thereâs a full description of those rules at this link, but hereâs the jist:
ATOM Kaiju are created created by the radiation of a mineral called Yamaneon, which naturally converts harmful radiation into its own unique energy. In natural circumstances, it takes hundreds of years of exposure to Yamaneon radiation for a creature to become fully transform into a kaiju (luckily, Yamaneon radiation slows the aging process while speeding up the healing process). However, an explosive burst of energy - such as the geothermal and kinetic energy released by an earthquake, or the blast of a nuclear weapon - can speed up the process, turning a normal animal into a kaiju within a matter of seconds. Â
All ATOM kaiju can heal grievous wounds within minutes or even seconds, are supernaturally strong and durable, and can convert harmful radiation to harmless energy that they then feed off of. Kaiju do not have an equivalent of old age, and can theoretically live forever (though their violent lifestyle means that few do).
ATOM Kaiju generally donât need to eat unless they are severely injured, getting most of the energy they need from solar or geothermal radiation - but many still have instincts that drive them to seek out food from time to time.
Most ATOM kaiju stand roughly 100 feet tall (depending on their body shape), i.e. smaller than the original 1954 Godzilla. There are exceptions to this rule - younger kaiju can be smaller, while exceedingly old kaiju can be significantly larger, but these are rare.
In general, ATOM kaiju are significantly more intelligent and emotionally complex than people expect animals to be, though most are incapable of speech or complex tool use. Thereâs a reason ATOM Kaiju Files have a âpersonalityâ section.
Most ATOM Kaiju are tooth and claw fighters - ranged weapons are a rarity in this setting.
While the terrestrial monsters in ATOM look strange, they are intended to fit within the taxonomy of animals in reality - reptiles, mammals, fish, arthropods, molluscs, etc.
ATOMâs mesozoic era was dominated by a fictional clade of crocodile-relatives called retrosaurs, which are based on the outdated paleoart that one would find in the 1950âs/60âs fiction - i.e. when dinosaurs were viewed as trail dragging lizards instead of strange birds. You can learn more about retrosaurs here (https://horrorflora.com/2016/11/15/atom-kaiju-file-bonus-a-guide-to-retrosaurs/).
Kaiju appear on every continent in ATOM, but certain areas tend to be dominated by different types.
North America is mainly besieged by retrosaur kaiju and giant arthropods.
East Asia is technically also mainly plagued by retrosaurs and big arthropods, though they tend to look more fantastical and mythic - and, often, oddly well suited to being portrayed by a person wearing a monster suit.
Russia is beset by prehistoric monsters that seem to come from the Cenozoic, particularly the Ice Age.
Western Europe is plagued by creatures that vaguely resemble creatures from myth, if they were also prehistoric. Dragon-y lizards, fiery birds, etc.
Towards the mid-way point of ATOMâs timeline, earth is invaded by a coalition of aliens from different solar systems called the Beyonder Alliance, and as a result a bunch of alien monsters can be found on earth.
Mars and Venus both host (or hosted in Marsâs case) animal life. The surviving Martians colonized Venus, and sent some of their kaiju guardians to earth to help us fend off the Beyonders (who are responsible for the destruction of Marsâs ecosystem). Martian and Venusian kaiju have specific anatomical quirks, which you can see by looking at these kaiju files:
Venusians:
https://horrorflora.com/2017/01/03/atom-kaiju-file-29-karamtor/
Martians:
https://horrorflora.com/2017/01/17/atom-kaiju-file-39-kemlasulla/
https://horrorflora.com/2017/01/17/atom-kaiju-file-40-podritak/
https://horrorflora.com/2017/01/17/atom-kaiju-file-41-sombarvot/
https://horrorflora.com/2017/01/17/atom-kaiju-file-38-ullawdra/
Giant robots exist in ATOM, but are big, bulky, and incredibly expensive. Fancy beam weapons also exist, but are similarly clunky - there are no sleek, elegant machines in ATOM.
Since the fiction ATOM takes inspiration from was made at a time when interplanetary travel was only just beginning to be possible, its scope is significantly smaller than modern sci-fi. Alternate universes/dimensions were pretty uncommon because the idea of alien planets still held a lot of wonder to it. So, as a general rule, donât try to go farther than the one galaxy.
ATOM is a setting for stories that are focused on humanity learning to coexist with monsters, rather than humanity destroying them. A certain level of sympathy is put into almost every creature of its canon, even the ones that are meant to be villains.
REFERENCE MATERIAL
Here is a playlist of 1950âČs monster movie trailers. Â
Here is some reference material from various monster comics of the 50âČs and 60âČs.Â
Good movies to track down to understand ATOMâs inspiration and tone include Ghidorah the 3 Headed Monster, Son of Godzilla, Destroy All Monsters, Them!, The Black Scorpion, 20 Million Miles to Earth, Gamera, The Giant Claw, and The Lost Skeleton of Cadavra.
And hereâs the intro cutscenes for all the different giant monsters in the PS2 videogame War of the Monsters.
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Mike Milligram: The Lost Killjoy
Edit: On July 21st 2020, a Mike Milligram comic by Gerard Way and Shaun Simon was officially announced. However, Iâll leave this post as it is for future reference.
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In 2009, while My Chemical Romance fans were eagerly awaiting news on their upcoming album, Gerard Way had another surprise in store: the announcement of a new comic series called âKilljoys.â
Co-written by Shaun Simon and illustrated by Becky Cloonan, Gerard told CBR that the series would âdeal with much more mature and controversial themes, such as hate crimes and homophobia, the homogenization of American culture and American life.â Unlike âThe Umbrella Academy,â which was set in a fantasy world, âKilljoysâ was set in modern-day America.
But what nobody realized was that even after an album, two music videos, and a six-issue comic series, Gerardâs original conception would never see the light of day.
In 2008, Gerard Way and Shaun Simon developed the Killjoys universe in a frenzy of inspiration. Gerardâs original sketch features Mike Milligram on the leftânamed after Gerardâs brother Mikey Wayâwith a host of other characters that accompanied Mike on his journey. The comic was announced a year later at San Diego Comic Con, with a release planned in 2010.
With My Chemical Romance wrapping up their fourth album, Gerard and Shaun were ready to start writing. Becky Cloonan drew concept art for Mike Milligram, as well as promotional artwork that they planned to use at the Comic Con announcement. However, the Mike Milligram art was scrapped and replaced with a simple image of the Killjoy spiderâa move that could later be seen as prophetic.
In 2009, âKilljoysâ was an entirely different concept. There was no Party Poison, no Dr. Death Defying, no Battery City, no girl with special powers. The original comic involved a surreal road trip through America that reunited offbeat characters and confronted harsh realities along the way. In 2013, Shaun Simon offered this description in the introduction to the special hardcover edition of the comics:
The old version of the story focused on Mike Milligram, a late-twenty-something living in a desert trailer park and working a crappy job at a supermarket. Mikeâs teenage years were a blur. He couldnât tell if the things he remembered had actually happened or not. Part of him believed he was part of a gang called the Killjoys who fought fictional things in the real world. The other part of him believed it was all just a dream. Music was the only thing that kept Mike going, so when the music was erased from his Ramones tape, it sent him over the edge. He went out and got his old teenage gang, who were now living normal lives, back together because, yes, it was all real. Other members of his gang included Ani-Max, now a high school history teacher; Code Blue, a rabble-rouser who was a working girl in Vegas; Monster, a new young member they met on the road; and Kyle 100%, who was a B-list actor now. They all had strange powers based on objects. Halloween masks and costume accessories, puffy jackets, toy ray guns. It was a story about a group of old friends getting together and discovering what America really was. Reaching deep inside its pretty facade and pulling out the ugly guts. (It was semiautobiographical. I toured with Gerard and his band for a couple of years before realizing I needed to find my own path.) The gang would have found out that another former gang had now become the largest health care corporation in the country and were hell bent on making the world a safe and clean place by removing all that was dirty, like the Ramones. It would have been a great story, and Iâm sure parts will end up in Gerardâs and myâs future work.
Of course, we all know what happened after that announcement. After Gerard took a fateful week-long trip to the desert, MCR decided to scrap âConventional Weaponsâ and fueled their energy into writing âDanger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys.â But even as Gerard delved into this new post-apocalyptic version of the Killjoy universe, the comics remained the same. As late as 2011, Gerard claimed in an interview with Artrocker that the comics hadnât changed at all:
No, none of the characters, even our characters, are in it. It is a completely separate thing, even almost a separate setting. It shares all the ideals behind the record and the theories and the commentary but it is nothing like the videos you have seen. I think the car is probably the only thing thatâs the same!
But as the band took on more responsibilitiesâfilming music videos, promoting the album, going on tourâthe comics kept getting pushed back. First the release planned for 2010; then it was pushed back to 2011. And while the era had kicked off without a hitch, MCR eventually hit one of the first of many roadblocks: they didnât have enough money to film the third video. So as Shaun Simon told CBR, the original story featuring Mike Milligram was scrapped, and replaced with the story of the girl and the Ultra Vs:
[A]fter the record, Gerard had built this whole world around the Killjoys. When it came time for the comic, Gerard called me up and said, âWe ran out of money. We wanted to make the third video, but we donât have the money. So do you want to make the idea for that video into a comic?â We started talking about ideas, and we had so many that it turned into this whole series.
In an interview with Paste (2013), Gerard went into more detail about the process:
The deal is that I had written three videos (âNa Na Na,â âSing,â and âThe Only Hope For Me Is Youâ), and the third video had never gotten made. By the time we had completed the second video, we just ran out of budget money. At the time, somebody was managing us and not keeping an eye on this stuff. Long story short, there was no budget. So I wrote a video, and of course it ends up being the most expensive one, as the last part would usually be. But we couldnât make it!
Killjoys started its life as a very different comic. It was heavily-rooted in nineties Vertigo post-modernism. Thereâs a lot of very cool, abstract ideas in it; I wouldnât even call it a superhero book. That (comic) was a visual and thematic inspiration on what would become the album Danger Days. It was pretty loose, though. This was going to be my interpretation of the story, so thereâs way more science fiction involved. And what I need to say to the world needed to be a little more direct, so I boiled it down to something thatâs still very smart and challenging, but I thought was definitely easier to understand through song or visual.
Then (Killjoys artist) Becky Cloonan drew a 7-inch for âThe Only Hope For Me Is You,â which was going to be the last video single. I realized I was out of budget, so I said âjust make this the girl from the first and second video at 15. And have her shave her head or chop her hair off like in The Legend of Billie Jean, because thatâs how the video was supposed to start.â So (Cloonan) sends this drawing over and Iâm on tour with Blink 182 in a hotel on an off day. I get this drawing and Iâm so immediately blown away by it. I call Shaun, my co-writer and co-creator, and I say âopen your email, Iâm going to send you something.â I ask him âhow does this image make you feel?â We talked for two hours. By the end of the conversation we both realized that that image was the comic, and the third video was basically the comic. So we figured how we were going to make this interesting and exciting for six issues and complete the story. And that was the final direction. It was pretty obvious to us.
In a way, Mike Milligramâs spirit lived on, as fans noticed the similarities between Mike Milligram and Party Poison. But itâs inaccurate to say that Mike Milligram became Party Poison, though âParty Poisonâs real name is Mike Milligramâ became a persistent rumor in the fandom. Mikeâs story was not Poisonâs; he wasnât a post-apocalyptic rebel, but a teenager searching for his identity in modern America.
Will Mike Milligramâs story ever be told? At this point, itâs not likely. But his tale offers a glimpse into the creative minds of Gerard Way and Shaun Simon, and makes us ponder the fact that with a few changesâthe comics being released earlier, for instance, or MCR having the money to fund the third videoâthe comics could have been entirely different.
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unremarkable days.
summary: sirius black is trying to be a good man, a good brother, a good person. Sirius has a steady job designing book covers for a publishing house, a flat he never leaves, and a traumatized brother who was just removed from the custody of his parents. All in all, it's wildly unremarkable.
chapter:Â 4/?
characters: sirius black, regulus black, wolfstar, background marauders
tags: tw: canon compliant abuse, child abuse, social services, abuse
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Sirius knew that work was going to be high stress all day. He felt sick to his stomach, thinking about the way he would continuously have to talk to people, when all he wanted was some peace. He wanted downtime. Time when he didnât have to think about how he needed his paycheck to put food on the table, clothes on his brotherâs back, pay bills to keep his lights on, wifi for homework. Regulus occupied his thoughts at all times, protecting him was Siriusâs only priority these days. He didnât have time for anything else. Not his friends, not his interests, not music. Nothing could come between his focus and his brotherâs wellbeing, because if it did, Sirius would never forgive himself. The consequences were too dire. So instead, he just wished for downtime that wouldnât come, and prayed for the weekend to approach even faster.Â
The weekend, when he could finally sleep again, albeit not well. The weekend, when he had the time to take a breath, even if it was only brief. Because his weekends were also spent finding ways to better equip his apartment for his younger brother, going to long grocery runs so Regulus had lunch to take to school, meal prepping all of the things he couldnât bring himself to eat for dinner. He was definitely tired of all of the ways his mind was spiraling out, he didnât have the time. He didnât fault Regulus for it, it wasnât the teen's presence in his life that was causing all this stress. It really was his own fault. A bit of crying at that first hearing had given Walburga and Orion the satisfaction of a victory over him at that first hearing, and they seemed to crave more of that chaos. They wanted to watch their children suffer, and this was how they chose to do that. So instead he spiraled in the privacy of his own home, because he could practically hear the words they burned into his mind whenever he saw them, and feel the ache of old beatings.Â
But it was only Thursday, and that meant he still had to do this all day, and then get berated by the rest of the team for not attending their weekly bonding happy hour. If he was lucky, no one would ask him to go. He knew he should be less terrified of them asking, most of the people on his team were his friends. There was simply the question of Remus, and Sirius didnât have the time to be thinking about him in the first place.Â
He didnât have time to think about the way his hair curled just the right way to fall into his eyes when he slept, or the way his caramel freckles made him look sunkist. He didnât have time to think about the pink scars that ran down Remusâs face or how they got there. He definitely didn;ât have time to think of the comfort of his hand combing through Siriusâs own mop of unruly curls. So instead, he needs to put all of that out of his mind. It wasnât going to help him do well at work. It wasnât going to solve his problems. He didnât have the time for this, nor did he have the emotional bandwidth. Perhaps that was why Sirius was conveniently avoiding the idea that he had asked Remus on a date. With some luck, Remus would think he was just an asshole who ghosted him. That was definitely complicated by the fact that they worked together, that he couldnât just disappear. He wanted to, he really did, because there was simply no time.Â
He set up his deliverables as though he had made tons of them, because his employment in this company rode on it. Just two months ago, he was pegged to be promoted within the next two cycles, and now he could barely hold on to his sanity enough to handle his workload. He was so fucking tired, and he had so much on his plate. He needed to mentally prepare himself for the long day of meetings ahead of him. He had no true motivation to do his job right now, all he knew was that his exhaustion was no excuse. He knew that his boss, Alice, was giving him a whole lot of leeway right now. She was probably doing more than she should to help him. Being a mentor on the senior design team didnât mean she needed to keep tabs on his personal life and pick up his slack.Â
âSiriusââÂ
When Sirius focused back into the meeting he was calling into, it occurred to him that theyâre talking to him. So he did what he always did, blamed it on a shoddy connection.Â
âOh, sorry, can you repeat that? My audio cut out.âÂ
âRemus was saying that some of the poems could probably use illustrations, and he was wondering if you had any ideas on which ones needed it.âÂ
âThanks, Peter.â Sirius was glad that he knew the people on this team, that Peter and James were as close to him as anyone could be. Because otherwise, heâd probably be fucked.Â
âSo I was looking through them, and I was thinking Bite, Magick, and Love I could probably use larger scale illustrations. But at the same time, we donât want to crowd the book. How attached are you to the current order or page arrangement?âÂ
It felt too close, but he was lucky that he had at least read the titles of some of the poems in the first half of the book. Sirius knew Remus didnât actually know what his level of involvement was. He thought it was just doodles, but Sirius would be responsible for presenting everything from kearning and font choice within the pages, to illustration and cover art to the design team. He was integral to the success of this book as a product, and he needed to start acting like it.Â
âIâm pretty attached.â Remus sounded cold to Sirius, and he wondered what exactly he had done wrong in this meeting. And yet, he didnât have time to think on it. He needed to keep things moving, keep getting valuable information out of the author. Hook up be damned, Sirius needed this book to actually get off the ground.Â
 âOkay, well we should get a meeting on the calender to discuss. What poems and what scale of illustrations you wantââÂ
âShouldnât you be deciding what the illustrations look like and the logistics of those. Isnât that what you get paid for?â Remus really wasnât making this easy on Sirius. But he had dealt with bigger demons and divas then whatever this attitude was. So he put on a light and airy smile, one theyâd never know didnât reach his eyes over the low quality webcam and nodded.Â
âIf youâd like to take a hands off approach with the design work, that can absolutely be arranged. But in the case of a fledgling project with a new author, the design team, myself included, really hope to prioritize your artistic license so that we can get a better sense of your vision for your literature, should Quill move forward with other publications in the future. We can provide a completely in-house service, with as much input as you feel necessary during the design process, and deliver collateral towards the end of the project when final edits are done, if you would prefer, Mister Lupin.âÂ
Sirius practically wanted to scream. He needed Remus to stop fucking with his job, with his livelihood. He couldnât lose this project. He needed all of the billable hours he could get if he was going to justify the overtime he needed in order to provide for his brother. This was ridiculous. But his clinical and polite answer must have thrown Remus, because he didnât get much more attitude out of him. The back and forth had ended. So instead, Sirius pulled up his deliverables for the week, which included new iterations for the covers, and twelve illustrations for the three poems he had mentioned.Â
He noticed the way Remus looked at his drawings, like he was pained by whatever his thoughts were, and Sirius wants to scream that heâs under no obligation to think that theyâre good. But then he remembers that Remus seemed to be nitpicking on purpose, based on his critique of the design system itself. Sirius didnât have the time to deal with that level of petty, just because he hadnât been answering. He was too busy. He had too much on his plate. So instead he continues his presentation.Â
âI donât like any of these. Maybe you should start over.â Remus sounded vindictive, even mean. Like he was doing this out of spite. Sirius could feel his heart drop in that moment. He didnât want to start over. He didnât have the time.Â
âWhat do you not like about them?â Sirius is trying to salvage his work while he can.Â
âThe vibe is off.â
âOh, is there something specific that throws it off or...â Sirius trailed off, wondering what exactly he needed to change.Â
âNo, itâs the whole thing. All of them are just off.âÂ
Sirius needed to think quick on his feet. He didnât have the time to start from scratch, so he pulled up his original thumbnails that he had discussed with Remus.Â
âThese are the original sketches we discussed. I moved forward with the ones we talked about. Iâm happy to rework those sketches,â no, he wasnât. âBut if thereâs another sketch that you think would fit your vision better, please let me know.â He felt like he was pleading with Remus not to hate his artwork. Heâd be a liar if he said it wasnât a blow to his self esteem to hear that everything that he did was bad.Â
âNo, I would suggest you start over.âÂ
Sirius nodded, his mind immediately whirring with ways he could start over and re-design this project. He really didnât want to do it. He didnât want to do hundreds of thumbnails to get set on thirty, only to be destroyed in a meeting again. Especially when Remus seemed so excited about all of his illustrations before the meetings. It felt like too much. He didnât have the energy for this kind of behavior.Â
Luckily, Marlene directed the conversation away from Siriusâs work. The rest of the call went on without a hitch, like the only person whoâs work Remus had a problem with was Siriusâs. He knew that it was more likely for Remus to have a problem with him, because design work was usually something an artist thought of as easy; however, this felt calculated and cold. If Sirius had been avoiding Remus before, it definitely wasnât about to get better. So instead, he listened to the end of the meeting, and started the project all over again. He could do this. It was an unremarkable critique. It didnât matter.
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Chapter 24: âSeeing is Believingâ of âpride is not the word Iâm looking forâ random favorite lines and commentary. Not a full list or full commentary, but longer commentary than usual to talk about quest construction.Â
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AN: This was... a weird chapter to write. When I started outlining, I had... the conversation with Shen Qingqiu planned... the conversation with Shen Yuan planned... the fact that SQH, SY, LQG, and LFL was the quest party... and the fact that they get the Eye at the end of it. That was everything.Â
The entire rest of this chapter came together FRIDAY LAST WEEK.Â
Huan Hua Palace wasnât going to be there. The Weeper didnât exist. The Eye or its previous owner wasnât at all connected to the Garden Master. The Shadow Cave Wolf Spiders didnât exist. The murder plant didnât exist. The mysterious monster showing up at the end wasnât originally planned either.Â
I mean, I had a lot of pre-existing plot threads to tie in and weave with, but ohhh boy! Picture someone lying facedown on a floor like, âI forgot to plan the contents of the super important quest...âÂ
I was originally going to have the Eye quest a lot simpler, but given the weight âDeath of the Authorâ had when I finally reached this part of the story, that wasnât really going to do! It had to be bigger than that! It needed oomph! This also felt like a good opportunity to really establish the new SQH-SY dynamic. To explore SY fumbling to find a place in this world without strict character role, especially in relation to settled and well-supported SQH.Â
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âOne attempts to remain dignified,â Shen Qingqiu agrees. âAs there is little point in kicking and screaming about how such ignobility isnât fair.â
âHa! Is there ever?â
âNot in my experience.â
âYeah, itâs definitely not cute when I do it,â Shang Qinghua jokes.
Shen Qingqiuâs lips actually twitch at that.
Success?!
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AN: I wasnât going into this fic with the intention of writing any Shang Qinghua and Original Shen Qingqiu almost friendship! But it started developing and it seemed a shame not to explore Shang Qinghua developing a real relationship with Shen Qingqiu (though not a particularly close one) when the man is suppose to be the scum villain (and the readers know that the man might get replaced by Shen Yuan).Â
I can see myself writing more Shang Qinghua and Original Shen Qingqiu content in the future. Someone dropped a particularly nice prompt for them in my inbox that Iâm looking forward to exploring at some point.Â
(I mean, not to say that Shang Qinghua has a type, but Shang Qinghua has a type and itâs handsome, deadly, intimidating, frosty men with a villainous character design and trust/abandonment and communication issues. I could make it work.)
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âAh, well, two âidealâ situations come to mind: severing the personal relationship for good⊠or, ah, talking about how to do better and trying that. You donât have to forget or even forgive if you donât want to! But, ah⊠thereâs got to be a difference between totally swallowing your anger and cutting ties forever, right?â Shang Qinghua says awkwardly. âIf thereâs⊠ever going to be anything good afterwardsâŠâ
Shen Qingqiu stares at him for a sweat-inducing length of time.
 âAh, fuck,â Shang Qinghua thinks.
âSorry,â he says. âAhhh, Iâm just⊠thinking about something someone told me⊠in⊠in regards to some of my own problems. Never mind! Never mind!â
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AN: Luo Jiahui really is out here making Moshang and Qijiu get their fucking act together just by setting a better example.Â
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âShizun, my apologies for the interruption, but I came to ask Shizun if he would be willing to join our music lesson today? The disciples have missed his playing and are eager to present their improvements.â
â...Very well, unless anyone here would disagreeâŠ?â Shen Qingqiu looks directly at the Qian Cao Peak cultivator, as though daring her to object and die.
âItâs an excellent suggestion!â the Qian Cao Peak cultivator says quickly.
The young woman smiles. âAnd perhaps Shizun could sit in on the calligraphy lesson afterwards? In order to offer his opinion on my progress as a teacher?â
âFishing for compliments is unbecoming,â Shen Qingqiu says dryly.
âWait, what?â Shang Qinghua thinks.
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AN: So, this has all been happening in the background, but Shen Qingqiu accepted this House of Rejuvenation woman onto his Peak about... 6-ish years ago now? This is kind of meant to parallel Shang Qinghuaâs once-secret relationship with Luo Jiahui.Â
Shang Qinghua was out here trying to be a better person and Shen Qingqiu noticed; now Shen Qingqiu has his own positive (platonic) relationship with a nameless background character who was meant to die for plot reasons. What a thing, huh? If the story was saved because Shang Qinghua started a domino effect of saving random people who went on to change things?Â
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After all, as Shang Qinghua said to the kid, besides Peerless Cucumberâs apparent talent for cultivation, he knows that his fellow transmigrator has three very important skills that will serve him well on An Ding Peak! 1) An encyclopedia knowledge for even seemingly pointless bullshit (which is kind of flattering, honestly). 2) The willingness to fight total strangers over seemingly pointless bullshit. And 3) a sharp enough tongue to win.
Peerless Cucumber didnât find these points as funny as Shang Qinghua did.
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AN: Shen Yuan was always going to end up on An Ding Peak. I thought about sending him to Qing Jing or Qian Cao or Qiong Ding... or any other Peak... but that would take him too far away from Shang Qinghua to really explore their relationship and to move him around conveniently in the story. And SY sticking to An Ding seemed to best illustrate the fact that SY is lost and doesnât know what to do except cling to SQH.Â
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âItâs not much, sure, but itâs yours,â Shang Qinghua says finally. âYouâll be joining the talisman classes soon, so donât try anything from a book and then need to request some home repairs.â
Peerless Cucumber nods and puts his stack of manuals down on the table.
âHowâs your tutorial mission going?â
âFine,â the kid says shortly. âHave you found anything for the other one yet?â
âAh, not yet.â
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AN:Â âAre you winning, son?â meme energy here.Â
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Ah, now Shang Qinghua recognizes his fellow transmigratorâs expression! Thatâs the same stunned expression one of his Huan Hua not-disciples, Yu Chaonan, made upon meeting the Bai Zhan Peak War God for the first time. Shang Qinghua assumes that Peerless Cucumber was expecting a man who looked more like a musclebound giant and less like a pop idol (if one with amazingly muscular arms), which is a super common and never-not-funny misconception people have about Liu Qingge. Â
âBrother of one of the most beautiful women in this world, bro,â Shang Qinghua reminds his fellow transmigrator, amused. Aha! Now Peerless Cucumberâs vehement disinterest in the harem stuff is making even more sense than before!
Shang Qinghuaâs assumption gets 100% confirmed when it comes time for Peerless Cucumber to fly with Liu Qingge for the next leg of the journey. The other transmigrator is so embarrassed and awkward about it that Shang Qinghuaâs super direct brother-in-law asks if the young man is alright.
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AN: This was so fun to write. Shang Qinghua really can use the Liu siblings to gauge peopleâs sexual/romantic orientation.Â
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The map (or rather, the copy Shang Qinghua made of the delicate original map) takes them to a green and grey landscape of leafy trees crawling over a wide network of tall cliffs and deep gorges. Gurgling rivers cut through twisting rock formations. Shang Qinghua canât see any of these rivers on the map. Or these deathly drop ravines. From the outside, the whole thing looks like a natural maze (holy shit, there could be so many monsters and death-traps in there!), and Shang Qinghua would know those golden robes flying low over the hanging trees anywhere.
âHuan Hua,â Liu Qingge mutters.
âDo you think theyâre looking for what weâre looking for?â Luo Fanli asks.
âThatâs usually how it goes,â Peerless Cucumber says, before Shang Qinghua can.
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AN: I came up with the skeleton idea first. Then I was like... âI should give it three eyes.â And then I was like... âBut who IS this dead author? A god? A spirit? What grander implications am I spinning here?âÂ
And THEN I remembered that I had some ambiguous powerful being force the Garden Master into exile due to a flood. This was because, in the Epic of Gilgamesh, the immortal man Gilgamesh meets in the abyss is the survivor of a great flood. So I was like, âReduce! Re-use! Recycle! Thereâs my skeleton!âÂ
So I wanted to relate the skeleton to water because of the flood angle. Water as a symbol of cleansing/reincarnation is a big thing throughout many cultures. I canât remember exactly how the crying aspect came up, but I knew there was going to be water in the temple now, so at some point my brain like was, âBro, this skeleton should totally be crying because mythology vibes.âÂ
So I built the surrounding land off the idea that there was water flowing from or around this temple. At this point, I had decided that Huan Hua Palace should also be looking for this artifact, so I had to come up with a way to hide the temple, yet have a way for SQHâs party to track it down.Â
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The damage to the doors is worse: someone once upon a time collapsed a part of the cliff face around the entrance, essentially leaving only the top fourth of the utterly smashed stone doors visible. Itâs a wall now and has been for ages. It looks like it would take days to dig through the rubble. Someone has even super helpfully carved, âThese doors will never open again,â just above the wreck.
âGuess weâll have to go in as intruders rather than guests!â Luo Fanli says.
âWhat would be welcoming us inside a lost temple exactly?â Shang Qinghua asks vaguely, inwardly cursing the fact that explosive mining techniques will definitely attract the Huan Hua Palace Sect cultivatorsâ attention and also probably collapse the whole cliff on them.
âWe only have to clear a passage for us, not the whole door,â Peerless Cucumber says optimistically. âIs there a special technique for this kind of thing?â
âAha, not really.â
âOh.â
âWhy donât we just keep following the water?â Luo Fanli says.
â...How so?â Shang Qinghua asks.
âSome of those waterfalls could be passages inside,â Liu Qingge explains, because he and the little sister-in-law apparently share the same brain. Heâs already eyeing the waterfall wearing down the giant statue on the left.
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AN: Temples in quests need to have traps and obstacles and monsters! Well, not ALL of the did, but this one did. I based the obstacles they faced as much as I could around the whole âDeath of the Authorâ theme, while using this whole quest to explore Shen Yuan, Shen Yuan and Shang Qinghua, Shang Qinghua and Liu Qingge and Luo Fanli, and so on.Â
The idea here with the door is that the âauthorâ is not going to let them inside the temple to take the interpretation of the narrative (the Eye) for themselves. The story is over (the temple is closed for business)! The author is dead! If they want to get inside, they have to break inside or slip inside as intruders.Â
This also creates a convenient obstacle to hold up the Huan Hua Palace Sect cultivators so that our party can be nearly caught later! And shows off Shang Qinghua, Liu Qingge, and Luo Fanliâs twisty lines of thinking.Â
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Luo Fanli is holding the light and Shang Qinghua passes the other transmigrator to her, while accepting Liu Qinggeâs hand for help getting out of the water.
âAhhh, that was fun,â Shang Qinghua mutters.
Then he notices that Liu Qingge has the Cheng Luan sword out and ready. Shang Qinghua looks through the surrounding darkness, but all he can see are columns and water. For a moment, he thinks he sees something, a prowling shadow at the other end of the cavernous room, but he wipes the water out of his eyes and itâs gone.
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AN: The water in Shang Qinghuaâs eyes briefly lets him see a flash of the invisible monsters who show up later! It helps up the tension.Â
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Another low growl rips through the darkness and Peerless Cucumber shuffles a little closer to Shang Qinghua. Because that sounded really fucking close and yet Shang Qinghua still canât see the thing thatâs making that sound.
He doesnât see Liu Qingge lunge at him either. He only feels his brother-in-law shove him into Peerless Cucumber, knocking them into the water, out of the way of something that howls when Liu Qingge slashes at it with his sword. Shang Qinghua rolls off Peerless Cucumber and looks up just in time to see dark blood splatter across the watery floor. Liu Qingge pursues the attacker with a second slash, but only seems to meet thin air this time.
âItâs invisible!â Luo Fanli cries. âFuck!â
âBehind you!â Liu Qingge snaps, and spins to slash at the thin air beside him. Dark droplets of blood hit the water again and something hisses at him.
Luo Fanli whirls and slashes, searching for an opponent.
âTheyâre reflected in the water!â Liu Qingge yells at her, standing guard over Shang Qinghua as he gets to his feet again. âListen for their footsteps and vocalizations! Feel the demonic energy and air displacement!â
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AN: I got this from a list of Dungeons and Dragons puzzles. The idea is that thereâs some puzzle that must be solved, but the truth of the room can only be seen in the reflection of the nearby water (or mirror or whatever).Â
Which felt fitting for a âDeath of the Authorâ quest! Whatever an authorâs intentions, the story is what they actually wrote, so the audience interprets a text without the context of the authorâs insight. The truth (of the story) is in the reflection (audience interpretation)! It felt like a fun idea.Â
It also allows Shen Yuan to actually contribute to the quest via monster lore and bring up his impaired vision problem. And to confront Shen Yuan with the reality of this world. And to show off Luo Fanliâs fighting skills. And to show off LIU QINGGEâS legendary fighting skills, instincts as a warrior who fights many dangerous beasts, and the fact that heâs clever and observant!Â
Liu Qingge is good at what he does! And this is what he does!Â
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Someone has⊠angrily⊠or desperately⊠carved a lopsided message into the wall.
 ââIf I go blind, so does the world,ââ Peerless Cucumber reads.
â...Thatâs probably not good,â Shang Qinghua says.
âNoooâŠâ Fanli agrees.
The messages continue as they climb, carved into the walls, the ceilings, the floors. Most of it is illegible. Some of it is just nonsense. Some of it looks like the same kind of historical records carved into the broken tablets. Some of it looks like someone attacked the walls after reading what was written there. There are deep gouges in the walls and cracked marks that would match a giantâs hands.
 ââThe water cleans the lies,ââ Peerless Cucumber reads. ââI am the only one who can see.â âLies everywhere, lies everywhere, lies everywhere.â âThe water cleans the evil.â âI do not have enough tears.â âEverything is nothing now. Everything in vain.ââ
âYou really donât need to read them!â Shang Qinghua tells the kid. âItâs fine. It's totally fine.â
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AN: This is mostly here to up the tension, but itâs also here to try and give insight into this being and relate them more to the âDeath of the Authorâ and the âSeeing is Believingâ themes.Â
I also saw the phrase âIf I go blind, so does the worldâ while I was browsing a list of riddles for D&D campaigns and I was like, âTHATâS SICK, IâM USING THAT.â Really brings the âan eye for an eyeâ and vengeance vibes. (The riddle was longer than that one phrase, but the answer was âthe sunâ.)Â
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The top of the temple reveals one massive room that looks like someone was alternatively scratching their insanity into the walls and tearing chunks out of the interior design with their bare hands. Overtop of the rubble is that eerie overgrowth. Thereâs a fine layer of water over the floor. At the center of it all is an incredibly enormous desk, cracked in half, with a robed skeleton sitting behind it, slumped over the top. Itâs a little too large to be an ordinary human.
Plus, its skull is a little too long, probably to accommodate the third eye socket in the forehead. Thereâs something gleaming softly yellow in the third eye socket.
âIs⊠there water dripping from its eyes?â Luo Fanli whispers.
âIt looks like itâŠâ Peerless Cucumber whispers back. âLike it's cryingâŠ?â
âStillâŠ? Is it dead or not?â
 âHoly shit,â Shang Qinghua thinks, slightly nauseated. âSystem, bro, the worst bro Iâve ever known, tell me that we have not been swimming in a three-eyed skeletonâs magical undead tears or something this whole time.â
The shitty, no-good System stays unsurprisingly silent.Â
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AN: Okay, so the idea here is that this being was someone who recorded history and shared their knowledge freely. This being had the ability to discern the truth of a person - they were extremely perceptive. (The Weeper is either female or doesnât have a gender, by the way.)Â
The Weeper met the Garden Master at some point. The Garden Master was an asshole, a liar, arrogant, etc.. The Weeper and the Garden Master clashed badly, until the Weeper sent the cleansing flood that nearly destroyed the sect and the Garden Master essentially had to flee to a personal abyss.Â
The Garden Master sent the plant as a final âfuck youâ to the Weeper. The plant caused the Weeper to slowly go mad. The smashed tablets and destroyed temple are the Weeperâs work. The Weeper (not in a great state of mind) had the temple closed themselves once they realized they and their work had been corrupted. This was a âyou destroy my (embellished) reputation, I destroy yours (and your entire life)â plot by the Garden Master.Â
The idea behind the tears is the whole âwater is cleansingâ thing. The Weeper tried to clean away the madness using their magical water-related abilities... and it actually worked for a long time. But eventually the madness began to overpower the effects of the magical water. The Weeperâs tears are from frustration and helplessness at losing control.Â
The water inside the temple combats the plantâs physical effects. Also stabbing the root killed the plant and essentially broke its mental/spiritual powers.Â
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Unfortunately, to get the fuck out of here, they have to go back through the temple. But hey! Thatâs still a lot better than an extended hike through an underground, haunted desert in darkness! The battle with the now-dead plant caused its growth to writhe around the temple. The vines need to be hacked through sometimes as they travel down through the rooms of broken shelves and shattered tablets.
âSo much history lostâŠâ Peerless Cucumber murmurs.
 âHe still thinks of himself as a reader - an observer, a visitor, separate from the flow of fate.â
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AN: This is... absolutely based on the Heart from the Dishonored franchise. But this sort of item didnât originate with Dishonored and I need it! Itâs a surprise/mystery tool that will help us later!Â
The Eye isnât exactly a mind-reading object. I mean, it kind of is, but it works in a very specific way that Iâm looking forward to getting into.Â
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From there, their path back out of the natural maze is even more careful and stressful than before, now that the Huan Hua Palace Sect cultivators are actively looking for them rather than the temple. Itâs slow-going and stressful and silent, except for when the Weeperâs Eye presses too close against his chest.
 âHe is afraid that if he starts screaming, he will never stop,â it tells him, when heâs looking at a pale-faced Peerless Cucumber, as they fly over a particularly deathly-looking drop.
 âOh, me too, bro!â Shang Qinghua thinks. âSeriously! Tell me something I donât know!â
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AN: Having Shang Qinghua be totally unimpressed by an object like this was very funny to me. Heâs the author! Heâs a transmigrator! He knows these people well! He already has insight into their situations.Â
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Shang Qinghua groans, but supposes that Peerless Cucumber would have at least been disguising Liu Qingge from the back. âYou tell them that you were tracking thieves who stole something from Cang Qiong Mountain Sect,â he says quickly. âRule of embarrassment! Admitting something that makes us look bad to a rival makes it sound true. Donât tell them what was stolen and act really offended if they try to poke into Cang Qiong business. Iâll come back as soon as I get these two out!â
Liu Qingge nods and launches forward into the fight.
âWeâre just leaving him?â Peerless Cucumber says, as they do exactly that.
âIâll get changed and come back âlooking for him for urgent sect businessâ as soon as Iâve dropped you two off in the last town,â Shang Qinghua says. âIâm really good at acting stressed and confused, and at desperately needing an unstoppable wandering Liu Qingge back at Cang Qiong Mountain Sect immediately. Now letâs go! Letâs go! Mission isnât over yet!â
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AN: Shang Qinghua is, at heart, a liar. I love him.Â
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