#if anyone deserves to have a happy ending it’s aislinn

[wonder-falcon]

i finished loa 2 and it was very good <3 better than the first one even i loved it!!!

[scottishhellhound]

Drakon - God of fire, death, transitions, and battle.

A bit of back ground on why my salty boy is the way he is, and why an ancient God ( though still young by the other Olympians standards) would be in the mortal world to begin with.

Drake never used to care for mortals. He always saw them as something beneath him, lesser. He was a God, what use did he have for them other than something to fight or fuck, depending on his mood. And sure he did his duty, when he felt like it, if the human seeking favour deserved it. Or if he was bored.

It wasn't until he was banished to the mortal realm, powers bound, for this attitude, that he started to get even a hint that humans weren't the useless creations he believed them to be.

Seeing them, in their day to day, living it himself, gave him a new appreciation for their tenacity and drive to live. Their ability to carry on despite great adversity and horror is also a trait he learns to admire.

When he finally started seeing them as actual people though, with thoughts and emotions, instead of particularly clever animals, was when he came across a young Celt. He a victim of the recently ended Gallic War, his family either dead or enslaved, the rest of his tribe scattered across what was once Gaul, and was now Rome. He had found a small strip of arable land and had gained permission to till and work the land from the local lord, for a portion of his produce and meat. Despite the suffering he had obviously suffered - if the still raised scars on his back, chest, and arms were any indication - he seemed happy enough in his new life as a farmer, instead of a warrior.

The Celts had always been interesting to Drakon, for humans. They were warriors, excellent ones, they honoured their dead, whether or not they died in battle. They also honoured their gods...or their versions of his relatives, which of course gained them favour with other members of his family.

So he was left to wonder how a member of a once proud race of warriors was...content with being a farmer. He watched him and observed for several months, trying to see if there was any falsehood in his new found happiness and agricultural lifestyle.

Seeing nothing at a distance Drake decided to get closer. Disguising himself as a weary traveller, Drakon sought entrance into the former warriors small home.

He was unsurprised at the welcome he received, knowing the views on hospitality in the region.  What he did find surprising, over the several weeks he stayed, was that the man was genuinely happy in his new life.  Not to say that he didn’t become melancholy from time to time, remembering his past, and his family and friends.  He still mourned for what he had lost, but he was not going to let it hinder him from living out the rest of his life.  However long that may be.

The Celt, who was called Keithan, discovered what Drakon was near the end of the fourth week. While Drake had tried to seem impartial and curious in his questions, the phrasing of many was off for what a mortal would have asked. Keithan never called him on his deception, even once he realized Drakon knew he had discovered his secret. Drakon liked not being pressured to be anything other than who he was. And it wasn't until 5 months into his stay, that Drakon realized that he filled that same role for Keithan.

Drakon ended up staying a year and a day with Keithan and loved him as much as he was capable of loving those outside of his family. He was the first mortal that Drakon mourned for, not just as a friend, but as a lover, and family as well.

While he never quite held the same contempt for mortals after Keithan, as he once did, he never let another get that close to him.

That was, until Aislinn entered his life. Who earned his respect by not just the virtue of being Kin, but by also having the ball's, at 13 years old, to punch Ares in the face. But he still held back parts of himself. Then Diana entered their lives and he knew that she was special. This kind-hearted, selfless girl who, like Keithan, never pressured him to be anyone but who he was. It was with her that he started to let himself believe again, that people with souls like Keithan weren't as rare a feat as he thought they were.

It was Diana that thawed his heart, though he would never give it to another.

[winged-gabriel-blog]

Task 4

1.       Describe yourself in a few words. Confused, patient, kindhearted – or I like to think so. Um. Uncertain, out of place, and, uh, possibly – I don’t know, trying. I’m trying. (Also see: innovative, thoughtful, intelligent but doesn’t show it, helpful, compassionate, genuine, honest, heart of gold.)

2.       What are your major flaws? I, I guess I try too hard to see other perspectives of something? I, I don’t like judging people, and I don’t think that’s a flaw, but I guess it means that if someone did something that everyone else thought was really bad, I’d still try to understand. And I guess that could cause issues with the people they did wrong by. I don’t know. And, uh. I’m never, never really sure if – I don’t know, I’m not really comfortable interacting with people still. But I’m working on it. And I ramble when I’m nervous. Which probably gets annoying.

3.       What would you give your life for? I’d prefer not to if I had the choice, but I would probably give my life to protect another person. I mean if – if Jaz or Aislinn or Janey were in trouble, I’d be at their side in an instant. They deserve all the support, and need to know they have it. And other people, too – Flynn and Kayleigh and Courtney and... a lot of people, I guess.

4.       What is your greatest asset? Probably my wings? I don’t really do enough to have any other assets. (It’s his heart. Gabriel Austin Rowland has a heart of gold, and he’d help anyone if they needed it. Even if they tell him they don’t want him around, he’ll still do what he can to help them out.)

5.       What would completely break you? Umm. I don’t know, I’m, I don’t think I’m really the sort to be completely broken? If that’s even possible? I try too hard to see the best in everything, but if, if I see all sides of it, like I try to do, I don’t think I could be caught off guard and broken. But. I guess – I guess the loss of people? I don’t know, if Grimstone failed I’d end up alone again, wouldn’t I. If I didn’t have my parents to go home to, if everyone was gone at once, maybe that would do it? I’m bad at being a people person, but that doesn’t mean I want to be alone.

6.       How does the image you try to project differ from the image you actually project? Uhh. I don’t know. I, I try to come across as happy, I guess, or calm. Like I know what I’m doing, sometimes, or like I’m not – not really worried about things? And I think I fail at that? Because I’m, you know. Too nervous and fidgety while I talk. But hopefully it still comes across that I, I dunno, mean well.

7.       What are you afraid of? I’m not afraid of heights – but I’m afraid of falling. I’d guess most things that fly are, especially if it’s ‘cause the wings are damaged. And, I don’t know, I guess I’m kinda afraid of disappointing people? I don’t know what would happen if I that happened.

8.       Where would you fall on a politeness/rudeness scale? I, I like to think I’m quite polite. I mean, I know I try to be, sort of. Usually. Sometimes I can get stuck on honesty instead and I’m always worried I’ll offend people then, I tend to get less polite then. But I’d always apologize later.

9.       If you could choose a different identity, who would you pick? I – I don’t know. I like who I am. Mostly. Sometimes I’d like to be less anxious but I guess that’s more of a contribution to a whole lot of other parts of me, isn’t it? If that changed then am I still me?

10.   In what or whom is your greatest faith in? Um. I have faith in people in general. I don’t know who I have the most faith in. I guess – maybe Jaz, or Janey? I know they won’t ever let me down, if they can help it, and that’s – that means a lot. Or, I don’t know, mom and dad, probably. They – they always have the answers I need.

11.   What was the best thing in your life? Before Grimstone? Um, probably the freedom to fly around whenever, wherever? Or, you know. I really liked online games. They were fun. I miss doing that.

12.   What was the worst thing in your life? Umm. Probably the – uh. In hindsight it’s the isolation? I, I guess it’d be nice to have experienced more. But I know it was necessary so...probably the chickens. On the farm, I mean. Ranch. Whatever it’s called.

13.   What is your biggest nightmare? Umm. I’m. I’m just – l’m heading for the ground headfirst and my wings won’t open to catch the wind, and the closer I get the more of the people I care about I can see looking up at me like I’ve, you know, managed to completely fail them, and I just. Yeah. It’s, uh. It’s something.

14.   What seemingly insignificant memories stuck with you? Umm. When I was about four I remember my mom reading dads comics to me. Dad complained about her smudging the pictures with her soapy fingers – I guess it was just after dinner so she’d just done the dishes? And she laughed at him. I don’t know what happened with them after – I just remember looking at the pictures, and it was this, this X-Men comic. Angel, you know, Archangel. He was just like me. And I, I guess it stuck with me, because I still have that copy of X-Men volume 1. I guess dad gave it to me. Or maybe I took it. I should – I should apologize for that.

15.   What is your secret wish? Um, that I knew what I was doing? Ever? That I could be sure of myself? It’d be nice not being a nervous mess sometimes.

16.   What is your greatest achievement? I, uh, I guess it’s – it was probably befriending Aislinn way back when? Or, or rather catching her attention. She’s – I love Jazmine, and Janey’s like a sister, and it’s important that I, you know, remember that, obviously, as if I can forget it. But I owe Aislinn so much and I just, yeah. Her befriending me is probably the best thing that could’ve happened when I first arrived.  

17.   What is your deepest regret? Probably – probably it’s, it’s that Jaz and I breaking up was based entirely on us not talking properly? If we’d just actually talked, we’d – we’d have saved each other a lot of hurt, probably. It. I guess it’s difficult.

18.   What is your deepest disappointment? Hmm. I don’t – I don’t know. I guess – pizza. Pizza from, from that restaurant in town. I don’t. I’ve heard pizza hyped all my life, on forums and dad being nostalgic and then talking to people while playing. And then the real thing was kind of burned? And the – I dunno, I guess it wasn’t cooked properly? Burned on the bottom, cold in the middle, and just. Chewy all round.

19.   What are you reluctant to tell people? Uh, that – that sometimes I don’t, you know, I don’t feel like this optimistic, naive kid. Sometimes I feel like I know too much or too much has happened or I’ve read too much not to doubt what I see or be wary of motives. And I don’t – I’m never going to tell people that I’m not totally trusting of them. Sometimes people need to feel trusted, yeah? And I can give that to people pretty easily. They don’t – they don’t need to know I’m not opening up to them. They, they really jus t- don’t need to know that I might have more going on than they guess, I guess.

[paranoidfever]

30 Things People Don’t Realize You’re Doing Because Of Your Depression

I laugh, so that I don’t cry. Unfortunately, it’s all too true. 02/28/2017 05:15 pm ET | Updated 2 hours ago

Written by Sarah Schuster

While most people imagine depression equals “really sad,” unless you’ve experienced depression yourself, you might not know it goes so much deeper than that. Depression expresses itself in many different ways, some more obvious than others. While some people have a hard time getting out of bed, others might get to work just fine — it’s different for everyone. To find out how depression shows itself in ways other people can’t see, we asked our mental health community to share one thing people don’t realize they’re doing because they have depression. Here’s what they had to say:

1. “In social situations, some people don’t realize I withdraw or don’t speak much because of depression. Instead, they think I’m being rude or purposefully antisocial.” — Laura B.

2. “I struggle to get out of bed, sometimes for hours. Then just the thought of taking a shower is exhausting. If I manage to do that, I am ready for a nap. People don’t understand, but anxiety and depression is exhausting, much like an actual physical fight with a professional boxer.” — Juli J.

3. “Agreeing to social plans but canceling last minute. Using an excuse but really you just chickened out. It makes you think your friends don’t actually want to see you, they just feel bad. Obligation.” — Brynne L.

4. “Hiding in my phone. Yes, I am addicted to it, but not like other people. I don’t socialize, I play games or browse online stores to distract myself from my negative thoughts. It’s my safe bubble.” — Eveline L.

5. “Going to bed at 9 p.m. and sleeping throughout the night until 10 or 11 a.m.” — Karissa D.

6. “Isolating myself, not living up to my potential at work due to lack of interest in anything, making self-deprecating jokes. I’ve said many times before, ‘I laugh, so that I don’t cry.’ Unfortunately, it’s all too true.” — Kelly K. The excessive drinking. Most people assume I’m trying to be the ‘life of the party’. But my issues are much deeper than that.

7. “When I reach out when I’m depressed it’s ’cause I am wanting to have someone to tell me I’m not alone. Not because I want attention.” — Tina B.

8. “I don’t like talking on the phone. I prefer to text. Less pressure there. Also being anti-social. Not because I don’t like being around people, but because I’m pretty sure everyone can’t stand me.” — Meghan B.

9. “I overcompensate in my work environment… and I work front line at a Fitness Centre, so I feel the need to portray an ‘extra happy, bubbly personality.’ As soon as I walk out the doors at the end of the day, I feel myself ‘fall.’ It’s exhausting… I am a professional at hiding it.” — Lynda H.

10. “The excessive drinking. Most people assume I’m trying to be the ‘life of the party’ or just like drinking in general. I often get praised for it. But my issues are much deeper than that.” — Teresa A.

11. “Hiding out in my room for hours at a time watching Netflix or Hulu to distract my mind or taking frequent trips to the bathroom or into another room at social gatherings because social situations sometimes get to me.” — Kelci F.

12. “Saying I’m tired or don’t feel good… they don’t realize how much depression can affect you physically as well as emotionally.” — Lauren G.

13. “Answering slowly. It makes my brain run slower, and I can’t think of the answers to the questions as quickly. Especially when someone is asking what I want to do – I don’t really want anything. I isolate myself so I don’t have to be forced into a situation where I have to respond because it’s exhausting.” — Erin W.

14. “Sometimes I’ll forget to eat all day. I can feel my stomach growling but don’t have the willpower to get up and make something to eat.” — Kenzi I.

15. “I don’t talk much in large groups of people, especially when I first meet them. I withdraw because of my anxiety and depression. People think I’m ‘stuck up.’ I’m actually scared out of my mind worrying they don’t like me, or that they think I’m ‘crazy’ by just looking at me…” — Hanni W.

16. “Not keeping in touch with anyone, bad personal hygiene and extremely bad reactions to seemingly trivial things.” — Jenny B.

17. “Being angry, mean or rude to people I love without realizing it in the moment. I realize my actions and words later and feel awful I had taken out my anger on people who don’t deserve it.” — Christie C.

18. “Purposely working on the holidays so I can avoid spending time with family. It’s overwhelming to be around them and to talk about the future and life so I avoid it.” — Aislinn G.

19. “My house is a huge mess.” — Cynthia H.

20. “I volunteer for everything, from going to PTO meetings to baby sitting to cleaning someone else’s house for them. I surround myself with situations and obligations that force me to get out of bed and get out of the house because if I’m not needed, I won’t be wanted.” — Carleigh W.

21. “Overthinking everything and over-planning. The need to make everything perfect and everyone happy, even if it’s taking all my energy. As if validation from someone else will make it all better. Sometimes I start out on high power, then just crash and don’t even enjoy what I’ve spent weeks/months planning. And no one will see me for months after, as I retreat into my safe bubble.” — Vicki G.

22. “I smile all the time even though I don’t really want to, but I do it because I don’t feel like I’m allowed to be sad when I’m with other people. I also do whatever it takes to make someone else happy because since I don’t feel happy most of the time, it just makes me feel a little better seeing someone else happy. I also isolate myself even though sometimes I really just want someone around.” — Wendy E.

23. “People don’t realize I say sorry before I even think about expressing any opinions because that’s how worthless I feel. I’m apologizing for feeling anything about anything because that’s how little I feel I matter. They don’t just know I feel like apologizing for even breathing in their general direction. I even say I’m sorry before asking to use the bathroom no matter how long I’ve held it. I feel like a burden for biological needs I have no control over.” — Amy Y.

24. “Neglecting to do basic things like laundry, not wanting to cook a meal or eat. They think I’m being lazy.” — Rebecca R.

25. “Sometimes I’ll go days without speaking to anybody. People tend to believe I’m ignoring them on purpose when really I am just lost within myself. I don’t mean to seem like I’m pushing people away. Some days it’s hard when my thoughts consume me and when I can’t find the motivation to do simple things that others do on a daily basis.” — Alyssa A.

26. “People don’t realize I can’t say no without feeling guilty. I have to have a good enough reason for everything I do. I guess it’s customary to try and convince someone to change their answer, but people have no idea how much it takes for me to say no in the first place. I feel worthless so much that I feel guilty for even thinking of putting my needs or wants first. Then I just feel like a doormat when I cave into the pressure. It’s a never-ending cycle.” — Amy Y.

27. “I push away/cut off everyone who I care about because I can’t bear to be hurt by them! Everyone just thinks I’m mean and anti-social.” — Tina R.

28. “Going for late night walks by myself. My depression keeps me awake at night and my thoughts can get so overwhelming I feel physically crowded inside. Late night walks help me quiet the screaming in my head.” — Lynnie L.

29. “I have often been accused of having ‘no sense of humor.’ So wrong. Before depression took over my life I smiled and laughed as much as the next person. Now, having lived with depression for over 15 years, the humor I find in a joke or situation is rarely visible on my face or heard in my laugh. I feel humor, but it’s just too much effort to express it. I don’t have the energy.” — Martha W.

30. “Keeping the house dark is a comfort thing for me. People always point it out, like, ‘No wonder you’re so depressed. You need to let some light in.’ Darkness in my living space makes me feel comfortable, almost like I’m not alone. Good days, I’m all about the sunshine!” — Michelle T.

[apsbicepstraining]

30 acts beings don’t recognise you’re doing because of your feeling.

This story was originally published on The Mighty .

Most people see depression peers “really sad, ” and unless you’ve known sadnes yourself, you are able to not know it croaks so much deeper than that. Feeling utters itself in many different ways, some more obvious than others. While some people have a hard time get out of couch, others might get to work just fine — it’s different for everyone.

To find out how feeling shows itself in ways other people can’t find, we requested The Mighty mental health community to share one thing beings don’t recognize they’re doing because they have depression.

Here’s what they had to say :

1. “In social places, some people don’t realize I move or don’t speak much because of feeling. Instead, they make I’m being inconsiderate or purposefully antisocial.” — Laura B.

2. “I struggle to get out of bed, sometimes for hours. Then simply the believed to be taking a rain is exhausting. If I manage to do that, I am ready for a catnap. People don’t understand, but anxiety and hollow is exhausting, often like an actual physical fight with a professional boxer.” — Juli J.

3. “Agreeing to social schemes but canceling last minute. Exploiting an excuse but truly you simply chickened out. It moves you think your friends don’t actually want to see you, they just feel bad. Obligation.” — Brynne L.

4. “Hiding in my phone. Yes, I am addicted to it, but not like other beings. I don’t socialize, I play games or browse online supermarkets to confuse myself from my negative ponders. It’s my safe bubble.” — Eveline L.

5. “Going to bed at 9 p. m. and sleeping throughout the darknes until 10 or 11 a.m.” — Karissa D.

6. “Isolating myself , not living up to my potential at work due to lack of interest in anything, seeing self-deprecating puns. I’ve said many times before,’ I laugh, so that I don’t cry.’ Regrettably, it’s all too true.” — Kelly K.

7. “When I reach out when I’m depressed it’s ’cause I am wanting to have someone to tell me I’m not alone. Not because I want attention.” — Tina B.

8. “I don’t like talking on the phone. I prefer to text. Less pressing there. Also being anti-social. Not because I don’t like being around people, but because I’m pretty sure everyone can’t put me.” — Meghan B.

9. “I overcompensate in my work environment … and I act front line at a Fitness Centre, so I find the need to portray an’ extra happy, bubbly personality.’ As soon as I walk out the doors at the end of the day, I experience myself’ fall.’ It’s exhausting … I am a professional at disguising it.” — Lynda H.

10. “The undue booze. Most beings acquire I’m trying to be the’ life of the party’ or just like boozing in general. I often get praised for it. But my issues are much deeper than that.” — Teresa A.

11. “Hiding out in my room for hours at a time watching Netflix or Hulu to confuse my knowledge or taking frequent trip-ups to the bathroom or into another chamber at social gatherings because social places sometimes get to me.” — Kelci F.

12. “Saying I’m tired or don’t feel better … they don’t realise how much depression can impact you physically as well as emotionally.” — Lauren G.

13. “Answering gradually. It obliges my brain run slower, and I can’t think of the answers to the questions as quickly. Specially when someone is asking what I want to do — I don’t really want anything. I isolate myself so I don’t have to be forced into a situation where I have to respond because it’s exhausting.” — Erin W.

14. “Sometimes I’ll forget to eat all day. I can feel my belly snarling but don’t have the willpower to get up and manufacture something to eat.” — Kenzi I.

15. “I don’t talk much in a large number of parties, specially when I first meet them. I recede because of my anxiety and depression. Beings consider I’m’ stuck up.’ I’m actually frightened out of my psyche annoying they don’t like me, or that they fantasize I’m’ crazy’ by i look at me…” — Hanni W.

16. “Not keeping in contact with anyone, bad personal hygiene and terribly bad reactions to seemingly trivial things.” — Jenny B.

17. “Being indignant, aim or rude to people I enjoy without realizing it in the moment. I realize my actions and terms afterward and feel nasty I had taken out my indignation on people who don’t deserve it.” — Christie C.

18. “Purposely working on the holidays so I can evade spending time with household. It’s overwhelming to be around them and to talk about the future and life so I avoid it.” — Aislinn G.

19. “My house is a huge mess.” — Cynthia H.

20. “I voluntary for everything, from going to PTO meetings to babysitting to scavenging someone else’s house for them. I smothered myself with the status and obligations that action me to get out of plot and get out of the members of this house because if I’m not needed, I won’t be wanted.” — Carleigh W.

21. “Overthinking everything and over-planning. The need to shape everything perfect and everyone glad, even if it’s taking all my vigor. As if validation from someone else will make it all better. Sometimes I start out on high dominance, then exactly disintegrate and don’t even experience what I’ve expended weeks/ months scheming. And no one will see me for months after, as I retreat into my safe bubble.” — Vicki G.

22. “I smile all the time although there are I don’t truly wishes to, but I do it because I don’t feel like I’m allowed to be sad when I’m with other beings. I also do whatever it required in order to constitute someone else glad because since I don’t feel happy the majority of cases, it just realizes “i m feeling” a little better seeing someone else joyous. I also isolate myself even though sometimes I certainly precisely require person around.” — Wendy E.

23. “People don’t realize I say sorry before I even should be considered conveying any minds because that’s how worthless I feel. I’m apologizing for detecting anything about anything because that’s how little I seem I material. They don’t just know I feel like rationalizing for even breathing in their general tendency. I even say I’m sorry before asking to use the bathroom no matter how long I’ve impounded it. I feel like additional burdens for biological wants I have no dominance over.” — Amy Y.

24. “Neglecting to do basic happenings like laundry , not wanting to cook a meal or devour. They feel I’m being lazy.” — Rebecca R.

25. “Sometimes I’ll run epoches without want me talking to anybody. Parties tend to believe I’m neglecting them on purpose when actually I am just lost within myself. I don’t mean to seem like I’m pushing beings away. Some periods it’s hard when my judgments spend me and when I can’t find the motivation to do simple-minded happenings that others do on a daily basis.” — Alyssa A.

26. “People don’t realize I can’t say no without feeling guilty. I have to have a good enough ground for everything I do. I guess it’s customary to try and persuasion someone to change their reaction, but people have no notion how much it takes for me to say no in the first place. I feel worthless so much that I feel guilty for even thinking of putting my necessitates or misses firstly. Then I just feel like a doormat when I cave into the pressure. It’s a never-ending cycle.” — Amy Y.

27. “I push away/ lop off all persons who I care about because I can’t bear to be hurt by them! Everyone just thinks I’m mean and anti-social.” — Tina R.

28. “Going for late darknes marches by myself. My hollow remains me awake at night and my thinks can get so overwhelming I feel physically crowded inside. Late darknes moves facilitate me serene the screaming in my head.” — Lynnie L.

29. “I have often been accused of having’ no sense of humor.’ So incorrect. Before depression took over “peoples lives”, I smiled and chuckled as much as the next being. Now, having lived with depression for over 15 times, the humor I find in a pun or situation is rarely visible on my face or hear in my laugh. I experience humor, but it’s exactly too much effort to express it. I don’t have the energy.” — Martha W.

30. “Keeping the house dark is a comfort thing for me. People always time it out, like,’ No amazement you’re so depressed. You need to let some light-colored in.’ Darkness in my living space moves “i m feeling” comfy, almost like I’m not alone. Good periods, I’m all about the sunshine! ” — Michelle T.

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30 things people don't realize you're doing because of your depression.

Do any of these speak to you?

This story was originally published on The Mighty.

Most people imagine depression equals “really sad,” and unless you’ve experienced depression yourself, you might not know it goes so much deeper than that. Depression expresses itself in many different ways, some more obvious than others. While some people have a hard time getting out of bed, others might get to work just fine — it’s different for everyone.

To find out how depression shows itself in ways other people can’t see, we asked The Mighty mental health community to share one thing people don’t realize they’re doing because they have depression.

Here’s what they had to say:

1. “In social situations, some people don’t realize I withdraw or don’t speak much because of depression. Instead, they think I’m being rude or purposefully antisocial.” — Laura B.

2. “I struggle to get out of bed, sometimes for hours. Then just the thought of taking a shower is exhausting. If I manage to do that, I am ready for a nap. People don’t understand, but anxiety and depression is exhausting, much like an actual physical fight with a professional boxer.” — Juli J.

3. “Agreeing to social plans but canceling last minute. Using an excuse but really you just chickened out. It makes you think your friends don’t actually want to see you, they just feel bad. Obligation.” — Brynne L.

4. “Hiding in my phone. Yes, I am addicted to it, but not like other people. I don’t socialize, I play games or browse online stores to distract myself from my negative thoughts. It’s my safe bubble.” — Eveline L.

5. “Going to bed at 9 p.m. and sleeping throughout the night until 10 or 11 a.m.” — Karissa D.

6. “Isolating myself, not living up to my potential at work due to lack of interest in anything, making self-deprecating jokes. I’ve said many times before, ‘I laugh, so that I don’t cry.’ Unfortunately, it’s all too true.” — Kelly K.

7. “When I reach out when I’m depressed it’s ’cause I am wanting to have someone to tell me I’m not alone. Not because I want attention.” — Tina B.

8. “I don’t like talking on the phone. I prefer to text. Less pressure there. Also being anti-social. Not because I don’t like being around people, but because I’m pretty sure everyone can’t stand me.” — Meghan B.

9. “I overcompensate in my work environment… and I work front line at a Fitness Centre, so I feel the need to portray an ‘extra happy, bubbly personality.’ As soon as I walk out the doors at the end of the day, I feel myself ‘fall.’ It’s exhausting… I am a professional at hiding it.” — Lynda H.

10. “The excessive drinking. Most people assume I’m trying to be the ‘life of the party’ or just like drinking in general. I often get praised for it. But my issues are much deeper than that.” — Teresa A.

11. “Hiding out in my room for hours at a time watching Netflix or Hulu to distract my mind or taking frequent trips to the bathroom or into another room at social gatherings because social situations sometimes get to me.” — Kelci F.

12. “Saying I’m tired or don’t feel good… they don’t realize how much depression can affect you physically as well as emotionally.” — Lauren G.

13. “Answering slowly. It makes my brain run slower, and I can’t think of the answers to the questions as quickly. Especially when someone is asking what I want to do — I don’t really want anything. I isolate myself so I don’t have to be forced into a situation where I have to respond because it’s exhausting.” — Erin W.

14. “Sometimes I’ll forget to eat all day. I can feel my stomach growling but don’t have the willpower to get up and make something to eat.” — Kenzi I.

15. “I don’t talk much in large groups of people, especially when I first meet them. I withdraw because of my anxiety and depression. People think I’m ‘stuck up.’ I’m actually scared out of my mind worrying they don’t like me, or that they think I’m ‘crazy’ by just looking at me…” — Hanni W.

16. “Not keeping in touch with anyone, bad personal hygiene and extremely bad reactions to seemingly trivial things.” — Jenny B.

17. “Being angry, mean or rude to people I love without realizing it in the moment. I realize my actions and words later and feel awful I had taken out my anger on people who don’t deserve it.” — Christie C.

18. “Purposely working on the holidays so I can avoid spending time with family. It’s overwhelming to be around them and to talk about the future and life so I avoid it.” — Aislinn G.

19. “My house is a huge mess.” — Cynthia H.

20. “I volunteer for everything, from going to PTO meetings to babysitting to cleaning someone else’s house for them. I surround myself with situations and obligations that force me to get out of bed and get out of the house because if I’m not needed, I won’t be wanted.” — Carleigh W.

21. “Overthinking everything and over-planning. The need to make everything perfect and everyone happy, even if it’s taking all my energy. As if validation from someone else will make it all better. Sometimes I start out on high power, then just crash and don’t even enjoy what I’ve spent weeks/months planning. And no one will see me for months after, as I retreat into my safe bubble.” — Vicki G.

22. “I smile all the time even though I don’t really want to, but I do it because I don’t feel like I’m allowed to be sad when I’m with other people. I also do whatever it takes to make someone else happy because since I don’t feel happy most of the time, it just makes me feel a little better seeing someone else happy. I also isolate myself even though sometimes I really just want someone around.” — Wendy E.

23. “People don’t realize I say sorry before I even think about expressing any opinions because that’s how worthless I feel. I’m apologizing for feeling anything about anything because that’s how little I feel I matter. They don’t just know I feel like apologizing for even breathing in their general direction. I even say I’m sorry before asking to use the bathroom no matter how long I’ve held it. I feel like a burden for biological needs I have no control over.” — Amy Y.

24. “Neglecting to do basic things like laundry, not wanting to cook a meal or eat. They think I’m being lazy.” — Rebecca R.

25. “Sometimes I’ll go days without speaking to anybody. People tend to believe I’m ignoring them on purpose when really I am just lost within myself. I don’t mean to seem like I’m pushing people away. Some days it’s hard when my thoughts consume me and when I can’t find the motivation to do simple things that others do on a daily basis.” — Alyssa A.

26. “People don’t realize I can’t say no without feeling guilty. I have to have a good enough reason for everything I do. I guess it’s customary to try and convince someone to change their answer, but people have no idea how much it takes for me to say no in the first place. I feel worthless so much that I feel guilty for even thinking of putting my needs or wants first. Then I just feel like a doormat when I cave into the pressure. It’s a never-ending cycle.” — Amy Y.

27. “I push away/cut off everyone who I care about because I can’t bear to be hurt by them! Everyone just thinks I’m mean and anti-social.” — Tina R.

28. “Going for late night walks by myself. My depression keeps me awake at night and my thoughts can get so overwhelming I feel physically crowded inside. Late night walks help me quiet the screaming in my head.” — Lynnie L.

29. “I have often been accused of having ‘no sense of humor.’ So wrong. Before depression took over my life, I smiled and laughed as much as the next person. Now, having lived with depression for over 15 years, the humor I find in a joke or situation is rarely visible on my face or heard in my laugh. I feel humor, but it’s just too much effort to express it. I don’t have the energy.” — Martha W.

30. “Keeping the house dark is a comfort thing for me. People always point it out, like, ‘No wonder you’re so depressed. You need to let some light in.’ Darkness in my living space makes me feel comfortable, almost like I’m not alone. Good days, I’m all about the sunshine!” — Michelle T.

This story was originally published on The Mighty and is republished here with permission. The Mighty is a platform for people facing health challenges to share their stories and connect. Enter your email here, and they’ll send you their best stories each week.

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30 things people don't realize you're doing because of your depression.

Do any of these speak to you?

This story was originally published on The Mighty.

Most people imagine depression equals “really sad,” and unless you’ve experienced depression yourself, you might not know it goes so much deeper than that. Depression expresses itself in many different ways, some more obvious than others. While some people have a hard time getting out of bed, others might get to work just fine — it’s different for everyone.

To find out how depression shows itself in ways other people can’t see, we asked The Mighty mental health community to share one thing people don’t realize they’re doing because they have depression.

Here’s what they had to say:

1. “In social situations, some people don’t realize I withdraw or don’t speak much because of depression. Instead, they think I’m being rude or purposefully antisocial.” — Laura B.

2. “I struggle to get out of bed, sometimes for hours. Then just the thought of taking a shower is exhausting. If I manage to do that, I am ready for a nap. People don’t understand, but anxiety and depression is exhausting, much like an actual physical fight with a professional boxer.” — Juli J.

3. “Agreeing to social plans but canceling last minute. Using an excuse but really you just chickened out. It makes you think your friends don’t actually want to see you, they just feel bad. Obligation.” — Brynne L.

4. “Hiding in my phone. Yes, I am addicted to it, but not like other people. I don’t socialize, I play games or browse online stores to distract myself from my negative thoughts. It’s my safe bubble.” — Eveline L.

5. “Going to bed at 9 p.m. and sleeping throughout the night until 10 or 11 a.m.” — Karissa D.

6. “Isolating myself, not living up to my potential at work due to lack of interest in anything, making self-deprecating jokes. I’ve said many times before, ‘I laugh, so that I don’t cry.’ Unfortunately, it’s all too true.” — Kelly K.

7. “When I reach out when I’m depressed it’s ’cause I am wanting to have someone to tell me I’m not alone. Not because I want attention.” — Tina B.

8. “I don’t like talking on the phone. I prefer to text. Less pressure there. Also being anti-social. Not because I don’t like being around people, but because I’m pretty sure everyone can’t stand me.” — Meghan B.

9. “I overcompensate in my work environment… and I work front line at a Fitness Centre, so I feel the need to portray an ‘extra happy, bubbly personality.’ As soon as I walk out the doors at the end of the day, I feel myself ‘fall.’ It’s exhausting… I am a professional at hiding it.” — Lynda H.

10. “The excessive drinking. Most people assume I’m trying to be the ‘life of the party’ or just like drinking in general. I often get praised for it. But my issues are much deeper than that.” — Teresa A.

11. “Hiding out in my room for hours at a time watching Netflix or Hulu to distract my mind or taking frequent trips to the bathroom or into another room at social gatherings because social situations sometimes get to me.” — Kelci F.

12. “Saying I’m tired or don’t feel good… they don’t realize how much depression can affect you physically as well as emotionally.” — Lauren G.

13. “Answering slowly. It makes my brain run slower, and I can’t think of the answers to the questions as quickly. Especially when someone is asking what I want to do — I don’t really want anything. I isolate myself so I don’t have to be forced into a situation where I have to respond because it’s exhausting.” — Erin W.

14. “Sometimes I’ll forget to eat all day. I can feel my stomach growling but don’t have the willpower to get up and make something to eat.” — Kenzi I.

15. “I don’t talk much in large groups of people, especially when I first meet them. I withdraw because of my anxiety and depression. People think I’m ‘stuck up.’ I’m actually scared out of my mind worrying they don’t like me, or that they think I’m ‘crazy’ by just looking at me…” — Hanni W.

16. “Not keeping in touch with anyone, bad personal hygiene and extremely bad reactions to seemingly trivial things.” — Jenny B.

17. “Being angry, mean or rude to people I love without realizing it in the moment. I realize my actions and words later and feel awful I had taken out my anger on people who don’t deserve it.” — Christie C.

18. “Purposely working on the holidays so I can avoid spending time with family. It’s overwhelming to be around them and to talk about the future and life so I avoid it.” — Aislinn G.

19. “My house is a huge mess.” — Cynthia H.

20. “I volunteer for everything, from going to PTO meetings to babysitting to cleaning someone else’s house for them. I surround myself with situations and obligations that force me to get out of bed and get out of the house because if I’m not needed, I won’t be wanted.” — Carleigh W.

21. “Overthinking everything and over-planning. The need to make everything perfect and everyone happy, even if it’s taking all my energy. As if validation from someone else will make it all better. Sometimes I start out on high power, then just crash and don’t even enjoy what I’ve spent weeks/months planning. And no one will see me for months after, as I retreat into my safe bubble.” — Vicki G.

22. “I smile all the time even though I don’t really want to, but I do it because I don’t feel like I’m allowed to be sad when I’m with other people. I also do whatever it takes to make someone else happy because since I don’t feel happy most of the time, it just makes me feel a little better seeing someone else happy. I also isolate myself even though sometimes I really just want someone around.” — Wendy E.

23. “People don’t realize I say sorry before I even think about expressing any opinions because that’s how worthless I feel. I’m apologizing for feeling anything about anything because that’s how little I feel I matter. They don’t just know I feel like apologizing for even breathing in their general direction. I even say I’m sorry before asking to use the bathroom no matter how long I’ve held it. I feel like a burden for biological needs I have no control over.” — Amy Y.

24. “Neglecting to do basic things like laundry, not wanting to cook a meal or eat. They think I’m being lazy.” — Rebecca R.

25. “Sometimes I’ll go days without speaking to anybody. People tend to believe I’m ignoring them on purpose when really I am just lost within myself. I don’t mean to seem like I’m pushing people away. Some days it’s hard when my thoughts consume me and when I can’t find the motivation to do simple things that others do on a daily basis.” — Alyssa A.

26. “People don’t realize I can’t say no without feeling guilty. I have to have a good enough reason for everything I do. I guess it’s customary to try and convince someone to change their answer, but people have no idea how much it takes for me to say no in the first place. I feel worthless so much that I feel guilty for even thinking of putting my needs or wants first. Then I just feel like a doormat when I cave into the pressure. It’s a never-ending cycle.” — Amy Y.

27. “I push away/cut off everyone who I care about because I can’t bear to be hurt by them! Everyone just thinks I’m mean and anti-social.” — Tina R.

28. “Going for late night walks by myself. My depression keeps me awake at night and my thoughts can get so overwhelming I feel physically crowded inside. Late night walks help me quiet the screaming in my head.” — Lynnie L.

29. “I have often been accused of having ‘no sense of humor.’ So wrong. Before depression took over my life, I smiled and laughed as much as the next person. Now, having lived with depression for over 15 years, the humor I find in a joke or situation is rarely visible on my face or heard in my laugh. I feel humor, but it’s just too much effort to express it. I don’t have the energy.” — Martha W.

30. “Keeping the house dark is a comfort thing for me. People always point it out, like, ‘No wonder you’re so depressed. You need to let some light in.’ Darkness in my living space makes me feel comfortable, almost like I’m not alone. Good days, I’m all about the sunshine!” — Michelle T.

This story was originally published on The Mighty and is republished here with permission. The Mighty is a platform for people facing health challenges to share their stories and connect. Enter your email here, and they’ll send you their best stories each week.

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30 Things People Don't Realize You're Doing Because Of Your Depression

Written by Sarah Schuster

While most people imagine depression equals “really sad,” unless you’ve experienced depression yourself, you might not know it goes so much deeper than that. Depression expresses itself in many different ways, some more obvious than others. While some people have a hard time getting out of bed, others might get to work just fine — it’s different for everyone.

To find out how depression shows itself in ways other people can’t see, we asked our mental health community to share one thing people don’t realize they’re doing because they have depression.

Here’s what they had to say:

1. “In social situations, some people don’t realize I withdraw or don’t speak much because of depression. Instead, they think I’m being rude or purposefully antisocial.” — Laura B.

2. “I struggle to get out of bed, sometimes for hours. Then just the thought of taking a shower is exhausting. If I manage to do that, I am ready for a nap. People don’t understand, but anxiety and depression is exhausting, much like an actual physical fight with a professional boxer.” — Juli J.

3. “Agreeing to social plans but canceling last minute. Using an excuse but really you just chickened out. It makes you think your friends don’t actually want to see you, they just feel bad. Obligation.” — Brynne L.

4. “Hiding in my phone. Yes, I am addicted to it, but not like other people. I don’t socialize, I play games or browse online stores to distract myself from my negative thoughts. It’s my safe bubble.” — Eveline L.

5. “Going to bed at 9 p.m. and sleeping throughout the night until 10 or 11 a.m.” — Karissa D.

6. “Isolating myself, not living up to my potential at work due to lack of interest in anything, making self-deprecating jokes. I’ve said many times before, ‘I laugh, so that I don’t cry.’ Unfortunately, it’s all too true.” — Kelly K.

The excessive drinking. Most people assume I’m trying to be the ‘life of the party’. But my issues are much deeper than that.

7. “When I reach out when I’m depressed it’s ’cause I am wanting to have someone to tell me I’m not alone. Not because I want attention.” — Tina B.

8. “I don’t like talking on the phone. I prefer to text. Less pressure there. Also being anti-social. Not because I don’t like being around people, but because I’m pretty sure everyone can’t stand me.” — Meghan B.

9. “I overcompensate in my work environment… and I work front line at a Fitness Centre, so I feel the need to portray an ‘extra happy, bubbly personality.’ As soon as I walk out the doors at the end of the day, I feel myself ‘fall.’ It’s exhausting… I am a professional at hiding it.” — Lynda H.

10. “The excessive drinking. Most people assume I’m trying to be the ‘life of the party’ or just like drinking in general. I often get praised for it. But my issues are much deeper than that.” — Teresa A.

11. “Hiding out in my room for hours at a time watching Netflix or Hulu to distract my mind or taking frequent trips to the bathroom or into another room at social gatherings because social situations sometimes get to me.” — Kelci F.

12. “Saying I’m tired or don’t feel good… they don’t realize how much depression can affect you physically as well as emotionally.” — Lauren G.

13. “Answering slowly. It makes my brain run slower, and I can’t think of the answers to the questions as quickly. Especially when someone is asking what I want to do – I don’t really want anything. I isolate myself so I don’t have to be forced into a situation where I have to respond because it’s exhausting.” — Erin W.

14. “Sometimes I’ll forget to eat all day. I can feel my stomach growling but don’t have the willpower to get up and make something to eat.” — Kenzi I.

15. “I don’t talk much in large groups of people, especially when I first meet them. I withdraw because of my anxiety and depression. People think I’m ‘stuck up.’ I’m actually scared out of my mind worrying they don’t like me, or that they think I’m ‘crazy’ by just looking at me…” — Hanni W.

16. “Not keeping in touch with anyone, bad personal hygiene and extremely bad reactions to seemingly trivial things.” — Jenny B.

17. “Being angry, mean or rude to people I love without realizing it in the moment. I realize my actions and words later and feel awful I had taken out my anger on people who don’t deserve it.” — Christie C.

18. “Purposely working on the holidays so I can avoid spending time with family. It’s overwhelming to be around them and to talk about the future and life so I avoid it.” — Aislinn G.

19. “My house is a huge mess.” — Cynthia H.

I smile all the time even though I don’t really want to, but I do it because I don’t feel like I’m allowed to be sad when I’m with other people.

20. “I volunteer for everything, from going to PTO meetings to baby sitting to cleaning someone else’s house for them. I surround myself with situations and obligations that force me to get out of bed and get out of the house because if I’m not needed, I won’t be wanted.” — Carleigh W.

21. “Overthinking everything and over-planning. The need to make everything perfect and everyone happy, even if it’s taking all my energy. As if validation from someone else will make it all better. Sometimes I start out on high power, then just crash and don’t even enjoy what I’ve spent weeks/months planning. And no one will see me for months after, as I retreat into my safe bubble.” — Vicki G.

22. “I smile all the time even though I don’t really want to, but I do it because I don’t feel like I’m allowed to be sad when I’m with other people. I also do whatever it takes to make someone else happy because since I don’t feel happy most of the time, it just makes me feel a little better seeing someone else happy. I also isolate myself even though sometimes I really just want someone around.” — Wendy E.

23. “People don’t realize I say sorry before I even think about expressing any opinions because that’s how worthless I feel. I’m apologizing for feeling anything about anything because that’s how little I feel I matter. They don’t just know I feel like apologizing for even breathing in their general direction. I even say I’m sorry before asking to use the bathroom no matter how long I’ve held it. I feel like a burden for biological needs I have no control over.” — Amy Y.

24. “Neglecting to do basic things like laundry, not wanting to cook a meal or eat. They think I’m being lazy.” — Rebecca R.

25. “Sometimes I’ll go days without speaking to anybody. People tend to believe I’m ignoring them on purpose when really I am just lost within myself. I don’t mean to seem like I’m pushing people away. Some days it’s hard when my thoughts consume me and when I can’t find the motivation to do simple things that others do on a daily basis.” — Alyssa A.

26. “People don’t realize I can’t say no without feeling guilty. I have to have a good enough reason for everything I do. I guess it’s customary to try and convince someone to change their answer, but people have no idea how much it takes for me to say no in the first place. I feel worthless so much that I feel guilty for even thinking of putting my needs or wants first. Then I just feel like a doormat when I cave into the pressure. It’s a never-ending cycle.” — Amy Y.

27. “I push away/cut off everyone who I care about because I can’t bear to be hurt by them! Everyone just thinks I’m mean and anti-social.” — Tina R.

28. “Going for late night walks by myself. My depression keeps me awake at night and my thoughts can get so overwhelming I feel physically crowded inside. Late night walks help me quiet the screaming in my head.” — Lynnie L.

29. “I have often been accused of having ‘no sense of humor.’ So wrong. Before depression took over my life I smiled and laughed as much as the next person. Now, having lived with depression for over 15 years, the humor I find in a joke or situation is rarely visible on my face or heard in my laugh. I feel humor, but it’s just too much effort to express it. I don’t have the energy.” — Martha W.

30. “Keeping the house dark is a comfort thing for me. People always point it out, like, ‘No wonder you’re so depressed. You need to let some light in.’ Darkness in my living space makes me feel comfortable, almost like I’m not alone. Good days, I’m all about the sunshine!” — Michelle T.

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30 Things People Don't Realize You're Doing Because Of Your Depression

Written by Sarah Schuster

While most people imagine depression equals “really sad,” unless you’ve experienced depression yourself, you might not know it goes so much deeper than that. Depression expresses itself in many different ways, some more obvious than others. While some people have a hard time getting out of bed, others might get to work just fine — it’s different for everyone.

To find out how depression shows itself in ways other people can’t see, we asked our mental health community to share one thing people don’t realize they’re doing because they have depression.

Here’s what they had to say:

1. “In social situations, some people don’t realize I withdraw or don’t speak much because of depression. Instead, they think I’m being rude or purposefully antisocial.” — Laura B.

2. “I struggle to get out of bed, sometimes for hours. Then just the thought of taking a shower is exhausting. If I manage to do that, I am ready for a nap. People don’t understand, but anxiety and depression is exhausting, much like an actual physical fight with a professional boxer.” — Juli J.

3. “Agreeing to social plans but canceling last minute. Using an excuse but really you just chickened out. It makes you think your friends don’t actually want to see you, they just feel bad. Obligation.” — Brynne L.

4. “Hiding in my phone. Yes, I am addicted to it, but not like other people. I don’t socialize, I play games or browse online stores to distract myself from my negative thoughts. It’s my safe bubble.” — Eveline L.

5. “Going to bed at 9 p.m. and sleeping throughout the night until 10 or 11 a.m.” — Karissa D.

6. “Isolating myself, not living up to my potential at work due to lack of interest in anything, making self-deprecating jokes. I’ve said many times before, ‘I laugh, so that I don’t cry.’ Unfortunately, it’s all too true.” — Kelly K.

The excessive drinking. Most people assume I’m trying to be the ‘life of the party’. But my issues are much deeper than that.

7. “When I reach out when I’m depressed it’s ’cause I am wanting to have someone to tell me I’m not alone. Not because I want attention.” — Tina B.

8. “I don’t like talking on the phone. I prefer to text. Less pressure there. Also being anti-social. Not because I don’t like being around people, but because I’m pretty sure everyone can’t stand me.” — Meghan B.

9. “I overcompensate in my work environment… and I work front line at a Fitness Centre, so I feel the need to portray an ‘extra happy, bubbly personality.’ As soon as I walk out the doors at the end of the day, I feel myself ‘fall.’ It’s exhausting… I am a professional at hiding it.” — Lynda H.

10. “The excessive drinking. Most people assume I’m trying to be the ‘life of the party’ or just like drinking in general. I often get praised for it. But my issues are much deeper than that.” — Teresa A.

11. “Hiding out in my room for hours at a time watching Netflix or Hulu to distract my mind or taking frequent trips to the bathroom or into another room at social gatherings because social situations sometimes get to me.” — Kelci F.

12. “Saying I’m tired or don’t feel good… they don’t realize how much depression can affect you physically as well as emotionally.” — Lauren G.

13. “Answering slowly. It makes my brain run slower, and I can’t think of the answers to the questions as quickly. Especially when someone is asking what I want to do – I don’t really want anything. I isolate myself so I don’t have to be forced into a situation where I have to respond because it’s exhausting.” — Erin W.

14. “Sometimes I’ll forget to eat all day. I can feel my stomach growling but don’t have the willpower to get up and make something to eat.” — Kenzi I.

15. “I don’t talk much in large groups of people, especially when I first meet them. I withdraw because of my anxiety and depression. People think I’m ‘stuck up.’ I’m actually scared out of my mind worrying they don’t like me, or that they think I’m ‘crazy’ by just looking at me…” — Hanni W.

16. “Not keeping in touch with anyone, bad personal hygiene and extremely bad reactions to seemingly trivial things.” — Jenny B.

17. “Being angry, mean or rude to people I love without realizing it in the moment. I realize my actions and words later and feel awful I had taken out my anger on people who don’t deserve it.” — Christie C.

18. “Purposely working on the holidays so I can avoid spending time with family. It’s overwhelming to be around them and to talk about the future and life so I avoid it.” — Aislinn G.

19. “My house is a huge mess.” — Cynthia H.

I smile all the time even though I don’t really want to, but I do it because I don’t feel like I’m allowed to be sad when I’m with other people.

20. “I volunteer for everything, from going to PTO meetings to baby sitting to cleaning someone else’s house for them. I surround myself with situations and obligations that force me to get out of bed and get out of the house because if I’m not needed, I won’t be wanted.” — Carleigh W.

21. “Overthinking everything and over-planning. The need to make everything perfect and everyone happy, even if it’s taking all my energy. As if validation from someone else will make it all better. Sometimes I start out on high power, then just crash and don’t even enjoy what I’ve spent weeks/months planning. And no one will see me for months after, as I retreat into my safe bubble.” — Vicki G.

22. “I smile all the time even though I don’t really want to, but I do it because I don’t feel like I’m allowed to be sad when I’m with other people. I also do whatever it takes to make someone else happy because since I don’t feel happy most of the time, it just makes me feel a little better seeing someone else happy. I also isolate myself even though sometimes I really just want someone around.” — Wendy E.

23. “People don’t realize I say sorry before I even think about expressing any opinions because that’s how worthless I feel. I’m apologizing for feeling anything about anything because that’s how little I feel I matter. They don’t just know I feel like apologizing for even breathing in their general direction. I even say I’m sorry before asking to use the bathroom no matter how long I’ve held it. I feel like a burden for biological needs I have no control over.” — Amy Y.

24. “Neglecting to do basic things like laundry, not wanting to cook a meal or eat. They think I’m being lazy.” — Rebecca R.

25. “Sometimes I’ll go days without speaking to anybody. People tend to believe I’m ignoring them on purpose when really I am just lost within myself. I don’t mean to seem like I’m pushing people away. Some days it’s hard when my thoughts consume me and when I can’t find the motivation to do simple things that others do on a daily basis.” — Alyssa A.

26. “People don’t realize I can’t say no without feeling guilty. I have to have a good enough reason for everything I do. I guess it’s customary to try and convince someone to change their answer, but people have no idea how much it takes for me to say no in the first place. I feel worthless so much that I feel guilty for even thinking of putting my needs or wants first. Then I just feel like a doormat when I cave into the pressure. It’s a never-ending cycle.” — Amy Y.

27. “I push away/cut off everyone who I care about because I can’t bear to be hurt by them! Everyone just thinks I’m mean and anti-social.” — Tina R.

28. “Going for late night walks by myself. My depression keeps me awake at night and my thoughts can get so overwhelming I feel physically crowded inside. Late night walks help me quiet the screaming in my head.” — Lynnie L.

29. “I have often been accused of having ‘no sense of humor.’ So wrong. Before depression took over my life I smiled and laughed as much as the next person. Now, having lived with depression for over 15 years, the humor I find in a joke or situation is rarely visible on my face or heard in my laugh. I feel humor, but it’s just too much effort to express it. I don’t have the energy.” — Martha W.

30. “Keeping the house dark is a comfort thing for me. People always point it out, like, ‘No wonder you’re so depressed. You need to let some light in.’ Darkness in my living space makes me feel comfortable, almost like I’m not alone. Good days, I’m all about the sunshine!” — Michelle T.

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30 acts beings don’t recognise you’re doing because of your feeling.

This story was originally published on The Mighty .

Most people see depression peers “really sad, ” and unless you’ve known sadnes yourself, you are able to not know it croaks so much deeper than that. Feeling utters itself in many different ways, some more obvious than others. While some people have a hard time get out of couch, others might get to work just fine — it’s different for everyone.

To find out how feeling shows itself in ways other people can’t find, we requested The Mighty mental health community to share one thing beings don’t recognize they’re doing because they have depression.

Here’s what they had to say :

1. “In social places, some people don’t realize I move or don’t speak much because of feeling. Instead, they make I’m being inconsiderate or purposefully antisocial.” — Laura B.

2. “I struggle to get out of bed, sometimes for hours. Then simply the believed to be taking a rain is exhausting. If I manage to do that, I am ready for a catnap. People don’t understand, but anxiety and hollow is exhausting, often like an actual physical fight with a professional boxer.” — Juli J.

3. “Agreeing to social schemes but canceling last minute. Exploiting an excuse but truly you simply chickened out. It moves you think your friends don’t actually want to see you, they just feel bad. Obligation.” — Brynne L.

4. “Hiding in my phone. Yes, I am addicted to it, but not like other beings. I don’t socialize, I play games or browse online supermarkets to confuse myself from my negative ponders. It’s my safe bubble.” — Eveline L.

5. “Going to bed at 9 p. m. and sleeping throughout the darknes until 10 or 11 a.m.” — Karissa D.

6. “Isolating myself , not living up to my potential at work due to lack of interest in anything, seeing self-deprecating puns. I’ve said many times before,’ I laugh, so that I don’t cry.’ Regrettably, it’s all too true.” — Kelly K.

7. “When I reach out when I’m depressed it’s ’cause I am wanting to have someone to tell me I’m not alone. Not because I want attention.” — Tina B.

8. “I don’t like talking on the phone. I prefer to text. Less pressing there. Also being anti-social. Not because I don’t like being around people, but because I’m pretty sure everyone can’t put me.” — Meghan B.

9. “I overcompensate in my work environment … and I act front line at a Fitness Centre, so I find the need to portray an’ extra happy, bubbly personality.’ As soon as I walk out the doors at the end of the day, I experience myself’ fall.’ It’s exhausting … I am a professional at disguising it.” — Lynda H.

10. “The undue booze. Most beings acquire I’m trying to be the’ life of the party’ or just like boozing in general. I often get praised for it. But my issues are much deeper than that.” — Teresa A.

11. “Hiding out in my room for hours at a time watching Netflix or Hulu to confuse my knowledge or taking frequent trip-ups to the bathroom or into another chamber at social gatherings because social places sometimes get to me.” — Kelci F.

12. “Saying I’m tired or don’t feel better … they don’t realise how much depression can impact you physically as well as emotionally.” — Lauren G.

13. “Answering gradually. It obliges my brain run slower, and I can’t think of the answers to the questions as quickly. Specially when someone is asking what I want to do — I don’t really want anything. I isolate myself so I don’t have to be forced into a situation where I have to respond because it’s exhausting.” — Erin W.

14. “Sometimes I’ll forget to eat all day. I can feel my belly snarling but don’t have the willpower to get up and manufacture something to eat.” — Kenzi I.

15. “I don’t talk much in a large number of parties, specially when I first meet them. I recede because of my anxiety and depression. Beings consider I’m’ stuck up.’ I’m actually frightened out of my psyche annoying they don’t like me, or that they fantasize I’m’ crazy’ by i look at me…” — Hanni W.

16. “Not keeping in contact with anyone, bad personal hygiene and terribly bad reactions to seemingly trivial things.” — Jenny B.

17. “Being indignant, aim or rude to people I enjoy without realizing it in the moment. I realize my actions and terms afterward and feel nasty I had taken out my indignation on people who don’t deserve it.” — Christie C.

18. “Purposely working on the holidays so I can evade spending time with household. It’s overwhelming to be around them and to talk about the future and life so I avoid it.” — Aislinn G.

19. “My house is a huge mess.” — Cynthia H.

20. “I voluntary for everything, from going to PTO meetings to babysitting to scavenging someone else’s house for them. I smothered myself with the status and obligations that action me to get out of plot and get out of the members of this house because if I’m not needed, I won’t be wanted.” — Carleigh W.

21. “Overthinking everything and over-planning. The need to shape everything perfect and everyone glad, even if it’s taking all my vigor. As if validation from someone else will make it all better. Sometimes I start out on high dominance, then exactly disintegrate and don’t even experience what I’ve expended weeks/ months scheming. And no one will see me for months after, as I retreat into my safe bubble.” — Vicki G.

22. “I smile all the time although there are I don’t truly wishes to, but I do it because I don’t feel like I’m allowed to be sad when I’m with other beings. I also do whatever it required in order to constitute someone else glad because since I don’t feel happy the majority of cases, it just realizes “i m feeling” a little better seeing someone else joyous. I also isolate myself even though sometimes I certainly precisely require person around.” — Wendy E.

23. “People don’t realize I say sorry before I even should be considered conveying any minds because that’s how worthless I feel. I’m apologizing for detecting anything about anything because that’s how little I seem I material. They don’t just know I feel like rationalizing for even breathing in their general tendency. I even say I’m sorry before asking to use the bathroom no matter how long I’ve impounded it. I feel like additional burdens for biological wants I have no dominance over.” — Amy Y.

24. “Neglecting to do basic happenings like laundry , not wanting to cook a meal or devour. They feel I’m being lazy.” — Rebecca R.

25. “Sometimes I’ll run epoches without want me talking to anybody. Parties tend to believe I’m neglecting them on purpose when actually I am just lost within myself. I don’t mean to seem like I’m pushing beings away. Some periods it’s hard when my judgments spend me and when I can’t find the motivation to do simple-minded happenings that others do on a daily basis.” — Alyssa A.

26. “People don’t realize I can’t say no without feeling guilty. I have to have a good enough ground for everything I do. I guess it’s customary to try and persuasion someone to change their reaction, but people have no notion how much it takes for me to say no in the first place. I feel worthless so much that I feel guilty for even thinking of putting my necessitates or misses firstly. Then I just feel like a doormat when I cave into the pressure. It’s a never-ending cycle.” — Amy Y.

27. “I push away/ lop off all persons who I care about because I can’t bear to be hurt by them! Everyone just thinks I’m mean and anti-social.” — Tina R.

28. “Going for late darknes marches by myself. My hollow remains me awake at night and my thinks can get so overwhelming I feel physically crowded inside. Late darknes moves facilitate me serene the screaming in my head.” — Lynnie L.

29. “I have often been accused of having’ no sense of humor.’ So incorrect. Before depression took over “peoples lives”, I smiled and chuckled as much as the next being. Now, having lived with depression for over 15 times, the humor I find in a pun or situation is rarely visible on my face or hear in my laugh. I experience humor, but it’s exactly too much effort to express it. I don’t have the energy.” — Martha W.

30. “Keeping the house dark is a comfort thing for me. People always time it out, like,’ No amazement you’re so depressed. You need to let some light-colored in.’ Darkness in my living space moves “i m feeling” comfy, almost like I’m not alone. Good periods, I’m all about the sunshine! ” — Michelle T.

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[apsbicepstraining]

30 acts beings don’t recognise you’re doing because of your feeling.

This story was originally published on The Mighty .

Most people see depression peers “really sad, ” and unless you’ve known sadnes yourself, you are able to not know it croaks so much deeper than that. Feeling utters itself in many different ways, some more obvious than others. While some people have a hard time get out of couch, others might get to work just fine — it’s different for everyone.

To find out how feeling shows itself in ways other people can’t find, we requested The Mighty mental health community to share one thing beings don’t recognize they’re doing because they have depression.

Here’s what they had to say :

1. “In social places, some people don’t realize I move or don’t speak much because of feeling. Instead, they make I’m being inconsiderate or purposefully antisocial.” — Laura B.

2. “I struggle to get out of bed, sometimes for hours. Then simply the believed to be taking a rain is exhausting. If I manage to do that, I am ready for a catnap. People don’t understand, but anxiety and hollow is exhausting, often like an actual physical fight with a professional boxer.” — Juli J.

3. “Agreeing to social schemes but canceling last minute. Exploiting an excuse but truly you simply chickened out. It moves you think your friends don’t actually want to see you, they just feel bad. Obligation.” — Brynne L.

4. “Hiding in my phone. Yes, I am addicted to it, but not like other beings. I don’t socialize, I play games or browse online supermarkets to confuse myself from my negative ponders. It’s my safe bubble.” — Eveline L.

5. “Going to bed at 9 p. m. and sleeping throughout the darknes until 10 or 11 a.m.” — Karissa D.

6. “Isolating myself , not living up to my potential at work due to lack of interest in anything, seeing self-deprecating puns. I’ve said many times before,’ I laugh, so that I don’t cry.’ Regrettably, it’s all too true.” — Kelly K.

7. “When I reach out when I’m depressed it’s ’cause I am wanting to have someone to tell me I’m not alone. Not because I want attention.” — Tina B.

8. “I don’t like talking on the phone. I prefer to text. Less pressing there. Also being anti-social. Not because I don’t like being around people, but because I’m pretty sure everyone can’t put me.” — Meghan B.

9. “I overcompensate in my work environment … and I act front line at a Fitness Centre, so I find the need to portray an’ extra happy, bubbly personality.’ As soon as I walk out the doors at the end of the day, I experience myself’ fall.’ It’s exhausting … I am a professional at disguising it.” — Lynda H.

10. “The undue booze. Most beings acquire I’m trying to be the’ life of the party’ or just like boozing in general. I often get praised for it. But my issues are much deeper than that.” — Teresa A.

11. “Hiding out in my room for hours at a time watching Netflix or Hulu to confuse my knowledge or taking frequent trip-ups to the bathroom or into another chamber at social gatherings because social places sometimes get to me.” — Kelci F.

12. “Saying I’m tired or don’t feel better … they don’t realise how much depression can impact you physically as well as emotionally.” — Lauren G.

13. “Answering gradually. It obliges my brain run slower, and I can’t think of the answers to the questions as quickly. Specially when someone is asking what I want to do — I don’t really want anything. I isolate myself so I don’t have to be forced into a situation where I have to respond because it’s exhausting.” — Erin W.

14. “Sometimes I’ll forget to eat all day. I can feel my belly snarling but don’t have the willpower to get up and manufacture something to eat.” — Kenzi I.

15. “I don’t talk much in a large number of parties, specially when I first meet them. I recede because of my anxiety and depression. Beings consider I’m’ stuck up.’ I’m actually frightened out of my psyche annoying they don’t like me, or that they fantasize I’m’ crazy’ by i look at me…” — Hanni W.

16. “Not keeping in contact with anyone, bad personal hygiene and terribly bad reactions to seemingly trivial things.” — Jenny B.

17. “Being indignant, aim or rude to people I enjoy without realizing it in the moment. I realize my actions and terms afterward and feel nasty I had taken out my indignation on people who don’t deserve it.” — Christie C.

18. “Purposely working on the holidays so I can evade spending time with household. It’s overwhelming to be around them and to talk about the future and life so I avoid it.” — Aislinn G.

19. “My house is a huge mess.” — Cynthia H.

20. “I voluntary for everything, from going to PTO meetings to babysitting to scavenging someone else’s house for them. I smothered myself with the status and obligations that action me to get out of plot and get out of the members of this house because if I’m not needed, I won’t be wanted.” — Carleigh W.

21. “Overthinking everything and over-planning. The need to shape everything perfect and everyone glad, even if it’s taking all my vigor. As if validation from someone else will make it all better. Sometimes I start out on high dominance, then exactly disintegrate and don’t even experience what I’ve expended weeks/ months scheming. And no one will see me for months after, as I retreat into my safe bubble.” — Vicki G.

22. “I smile all the time although there are I don’t truly wishes to, but I do it because I don’t feel like I’m allowed to be sad when I’m with other beings. I also do whatever it required in order to constitute someone else glad because since I don’t feel happy the majority of cases, it just realizes “i m feeling” a little better seeing someone else joyous. I also isolate myself even though sometimes I certainly precisely require person around.” — Wendy E.

23. “People don’t realize I say sorry before I even should be considered conveying any minds because that’s how worthless I feel. I’m apologizing for detecting anything about anything because that’s how little I seem I material. They don’t just know I feel like rationalizing for even breathing in their general tendency. I even say I’m sorry before asking to use the bathroom no matter how long I’ve impounded it. I feel like additional burdens for biological wants I have no dominance over.” — Amy Y.

24. “Neglecting to do basic happenings like laundry , not wanting to cook a meal or devour. They feel I’m being lazy.” — Rebecca R.

25. “Sometimes I’ll run epoches without want me talking to anybody. Parties tend to believe I’m neglecting them on purpose when actually I am just lost within myself. I don’t mean to seem like I’m pushing beings away. Some periods it’s hard when my judgments spend me and when I can’t find the motivation to do simple-minded happenings that others do on a daily basis.” — Alyssa A.

26. “People don’t realize I can’t say no without feeling guilty. I have to have a good enough ground for everything I do. I guess it’s customary to try and persuasion someone to change their reaction, but people have no notion how much it takes for me to say no in the first place. I feel worthless so much that I feel guilty for even thinking of putting my necessitates or misses firstly. Then I just feel like a doormat when I cave into the pressure. It’s a never-ending cycle.” — Amy Y.

27. “I push away/ lop off all persons who I care about because I can’t bear to be hurt by them! Everyone just thinks I’m mean and anti-social.” — Tina R.

28. “Going for late darknes marches by myself. My hollow remains me awake at night and my thinks can get so overwhelming I feel physically crowded inside. Late darknes moves facilitate me serene the screaming in my head.” — Lynnie L.

29. “I have often been accused of having’ no sense of humor.’ So incorrect. Before depression took over “peoples lives”, I smiled and chuckled as much as the next being. Now, having lived with depression for over 15 times, the humor I find in a pun or situation is rarely visible on my face or hear in my laugh. I experience humor, but it’s exactly too much effort to express it. I don’t have the energy.” — Martha W.

30. “Keeping the house dark is a comfort thing for me. People always time it out, like,’ No amazement you’re so depressed. You need to let some light-colored in.’ Darkness in my living space moves “i m feeling” comfy, almost like I’m not alone. Good periods, I’m all about the sunshine! ” — Michelle T.

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