#if yall had to deal with the people i deal with on a daily basis youd do hard drugs too believe me

[slutdge]

think its fitting i relapsed on new years day lmao

[rzyraffek]

Eddie gluskin alphabet? 👀 That's a whole ass husband right there

Its been in my inbox for a week now😩😩 I didnt know what to put in some letters cuz all 'fluff alphabet ideas' had some weird ideas so I had to use my own brain. Scary Request open

She/her, sfw fluff, eddie gluskin is a bit of warning himself, kinda yandere-ish?

Eddie Gluskin fluff alphabet

Affection (how cuddly and how touchy they are with their partner)

Guy lives for night cuddles and hand holding while walking thrue hospital corridors. He doenst see good relationships without often touches

Body(favorite body part in their lover)

For sake of keeping it sfw im going to write that he really likes her hair and hands! Ooh and if s/o happens to be thick/chubby he gonna flew away

Comfort(how would he comfort his lover)

He would take whole situation very seriously and be straightforward about his opinion. Would grab her hand and lisen to her problems

Dating(are you guys doing on dates? Where and how)

Bestie the only 'outside world' you gonna see is hospital abandoned garden

But he sometimes tries to make atmosphere in one of rooms! Set candles prep some lil meal!

Emotions(how emotionally vulnerable he becomes?)

He never really shows his 'weak' side untill long time in relationship, he simply believes he has no issues regarding his emotional state

Future(what plans they have with their lover)

Definitely big house with a lot of kids, very old school marriage, he works she takes care of home

Gifts(do they give gifts? And how they react to receiving gifts too)

Would give her whole world if he could, if she is very close to him, he gonna spoil her so much

Also he treats any gift he receives like its the most precious thing ever! 'Oh honey you shouldn't give me this you are way to sweet'

Honesty(how sincerely and honest he is)

Even though eggie uses way too much smart words and complements he is rather straightforward about his plans and worries

Injury (how would he react to her getting hurt?)

Angy. Very angy acually. Who? When? Where? How? You stay there while he gets rid of any degenerate tha- you just fell down?? Awww you little silly you are so cute he should spend way more time with you then, if you are so so clumsy

Jealousy (how easly he gets Jealous and what triggers it)

Everyone and everything. He is a good husband and he takes good care of his wife mental health he cant let some disgusting joke of a person ruin their relationship! I mean none will break bond they have, right? Noone

Kiss(where and how they kiss)

Kisses everyday everytime they see eachother. Morning smooches and goodnight ones are must have. Also he loves when she kisses his neck and cheeks

Loyalty (would they cheat?)

No. Shes one and only he would never!

Marriage(do they want to get married)

His whole thing his marriage, he wants it as soon as yall meet! He is her perfect groom and she is his perfect bride

No(what is complete deadbreaker for them)

Also for sake of keeping it sfw imma say: Angry people. He can deal with people who are sad or shy. But when somone attacks him or yells? Rip. Litteraly rip.

Odd(do they have little odd behaviours in relationship)

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ObBVILUSLY HES FUCKING EDDIE GLUSKIN

Baby if you arent into some weird doctor-patient roleplays or weird misogynistic vibe I recoment turning around. Also he finds scared people cute so yeah he gonna spook her on purpose

Personality (what he finds attractive personality wise)

Shy people, submissive, but he doesnt mind extroverts too. As far as they aren't annoying he's in love

Quality time (what they do in free time with them)

Probably reading, dancing, planning their future, having lil dates

Romantic (how Romantic they are?)

Guy litteraly wears suit every day, he also calls her honey/wifey/dear on daily basis. He is the undead romantic and he won't change, cliché stuff is his favourite

Secrets(what they are hiding)

A LOT, again its EGGIE FUCKING GLUSKIN guy has probably his all ex gf dead in his basement or some other fucked up stuff. Like idk, his biggest secret is that once he saw her in ugly outfit and lied and said that its pretty idk

Trust(how much they trust his other half)

Guy needs good few months if not years to trust her. But if he does omg Lady you could stab him, say it was accident and he would believe her. Its not that he's dumb, he is just mentally ill and kinda delusional (noway)

Understanding

Guy lacks empathy, but he can understand certain issues that she is facing, he will 10p% give her weird protip

Value(how much they value their lover)

Alot. Like his whole plot is looking for perfect love. When he finally finds the one (you) and hes 100% sure that it is it. The one(you). He gonna do anything to keep her alive happy and as lovley as ever. She's the most valuable thing he ever had and he won't just drop her? She is staying in his hand forever

Wildcard(random stuff about them)

Guy finds caring people hot. Please take care of him like he is alittle boy that just fell of swing please do it. Tell him how worried you are and please treat his wounds

X-ray(how much they can read emotions and thoughts of their lover)

Guy totaly isn't and empath but he totaly can read their feelings by expressions and body language.

Yes(how would he propose to her)

Yall seen the game?? Guy is straightforward with it. Just pick her up and "you gonna be my wife you know"

Zzz(sleep habits)

If wife no in bed? Why sleep?

He needs her laying next to him for him to acually relax and fall asleep

[frickinsleepdeprived]

Some personal work, might delete later idk

So like I said earlier, I was thinking about posting some completely original content for yall to devour while Ride or Die is being completed.

So enjoy some witch and artificer fuckery under the cut hehehe-

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Prologue:

“If not for country, then what the fuck are you doing in office?” Questioned the girl sitting across from her father. “What do you even stand for as a politician anyways? You barely do anything for the people, other than keeping the artificers at bay. Which I genuinely can’t blame you for because they’re homicidal pigs already.” She stated, lighting her herbal cigarette and sitting back in the plush velvet chairs that adorned the study. Her father could only smile, knowing that she knew nothing about being a politician but she does her damn hardest anyways. His daughter is a diplomat at best, not a politician. She doesn’t deal with what he does on a near daily basis.

“Well, Lilith, what I’m doing is for the greater good. And it’s not like you’d know anything about being a politician anyway. Your formal title is ambassador to Ellowyn, not savior of the fucking world.” He started, moving his hair out of his face to better see the papers in front of him. “But right now, I won’t get into that. Right now we need to discuss this meeting we’re about to attend.” Lilith choked on the cigarette she was having, the smoke getting caught in her lungs and throat.

“I’m sorry you said what? Why wasn’t I told about this a week ago?!” Lilith exclaimed, putting her cigarette in the ashtray after putting it out. Her father sighed, knowing that he would have to have this conversation with her yet again.

“Lilith you must understand that sometimes in this industry you must be on your toes at all times, like now.” Like lightning, he picks his daughter up by the collar without even touching her, and slams her into a nearby wall. She screamed a murderous screech, the pain in her arm seething like hot iron as she got up stumbling. “Stay on your toes.” He finalized.

“Yeah…” Lilith breathed, dusting herself off and cracking her neck. “And you should know to do the same.” Her father gave her a questioning look, wondering what she could possibly mean. Lilith, swifter than the wind picked up the various books that rattled off the bookshelves with a power that one could only assume is of worlds other than Elysium, and launched them at her father, effectively hitting him. “You fucked with the wrong one. Remember that.” Lilith raged in what seemed to be the calmest way she could muster. “Now if you’ll excuse me, I saw on your papers this is scheduled for an hour from now. I will get myself cleaned up so as to not appear harmed. I will dismiss myself.” Lilith ended the conversation, leaving the room to go to her bedchambers. Maids and butlers were waiting for her outside, worried from the scream she had let out not even five minutes ago.

“Lilith, what happened in there? You look beat up.” A maid asked, following her with a warm rag to wash the blood coming out of the nasty gash Lilith now adorned on her arm. “Oh gods this looks bad…”

“What’s bad is that I have a meeting in less than an hour. I need to get ready. Please, excuse me…” Lilith dismissed the maid as she called for a nurse to follow her to her bedchambers. “Gods the things I’d do to that man if I could…” Lilith muttered, opening her door to her room and allowing the nurse to enter. “How about you Akira, what would you do in my shoes?” The older woman looked at her, premature gray hairs starting to show as she cleaned her wound and applied ointment to make sure it won’t become infected. “I’m sure there’s something you can say to make sure this doesn’t happen again.” Lilith sighed as she sat down on the edge of her bed while Akira was still working on the wound.

“Firstly Lilith, I need you to stop moving. Secondly, I’ve been working for your father for the last twelve years. I’ve known you since you were six. But from what I know just by working with your father, there isn’t a way to get whatever he’s got going on in his head out of it.” Akira sighed, knowing that there was genuinely nothing she could do to help Lilith out of this. She wrapped her arm with medical bandage and put a sleeve over it for further protection. “Get dressed, also, that wound of yours will bleed pretty badly. You’ll want to leave that bandage on for a few weeks. I’ll obviously help you change it when needed.” Akira gave her the go ahead to get ready, to which Lilith sprang up to get dressed, do her make up and hair, and gather herself mentally within forty-five minutes. 

“I know there isn’t a way to get what he’s got going on out of him, that’s evident enough. Maybe some counseling would do, he hasn’t been to a therapist since mom died.” Lilith commented, throwing on a long sleeve black dress that was modest enough to meet her father’s dress standards. Akira shook her head and sighed, pinching the bridge of her nose knowing that this is going to be no easy feat.

“Lilith, your father is too prideful to even consider going to a regular doctor. He’s a very traditional Elysian.” Akira mentioned, pulling her hair back and covering it with a bandana as a way to veil. Lilith slipped on a pair of nude closed toe heels and a blazer. Stepping into the bathroom she took a brush and water to slick it down into a low bun. “And by the way, I’d suggest a ponytail, looks more casual and less tense. Remember, your father wants you to appear relaxed, never hostile.” Akira adjusted Lilith’s hair. All Lilith could do was sigh as she put on minimal makeup, just enough to cover a few healing scars that have by now scabbed over, and those scabs had fallen off that day.

“I getcha, either way I have fifteen minutes to get downstairs before father yells at me again… or launches me into yet another bookshelf.” Muttering under her breath, Lilith proceeded to grab her documents and make her way out of her room. Her footsteps booming on the cherrywood floors almost as if to knock on wood. “Florana, where’s father?” Lilith asked, rounding the corner as the maid swiftly followed her to answer her question.

“O-oh, you’re right on time actually. He just got downstairs and is waiting for you at the door. You better be quick though, a butler is distracting him to buy time…” With Florana’s statement, Lilith quickened her pace and made her way down a grand gold and moldavite staircase. She approached her father with Akira following behind closely.

“All I’m saying is-” Her father turned and saw Lilith standing there, in all of her wounded glory. Her breath was heavy as she struggled to stand in the heels she adorned and her makeup was almost pristine. She didn’t care though, what she cared about was not getting slammed into another hard surface. “Oh grand, you’re here… and on time for once.” Lilith rolled her eyes and smacked the papers into her father’s chest.

“Save it, let’s get this over with.” She spat, grabbing a coat and making her way to the black SUV that she’s always taken trips in. Her father closely followed Akira, talking about the wound on her arm.

“I can assure you sir that Mister Delcoure and his son won’t be able to suspect a thing. It’s patched up nicely and she’s wearing a dark long sleeve should any blood come through the bandage.” Akira stated, giving her father some false peace of mind if only for the moment. But Lilith knew that she was being two-faced, she’s been like that since she first started working for her father. “Should you need anything, know that you have me on speed dial. I’ll see you both when you return.” Akira sighed, closing Lilith’s door as the eighteen year old crawled into the backseat.

“Very well then, you are dismissed. Chauffeur, we’re ready whenever you are.” Lilith’s father spoke as he got into the backseat next to his daughter. He sighed and brought out his flask to sip on whatever ungodly concoction was in there. “And Lilith…” Lilith turned her head to face her father “If they ask about how things are in Elysium-”

“Tell them that it’s confidential matters. It’s the same drill every meeting, Ellowynians aren’t entitled to that information.” Lilith concluded. It was frustrating to her father that she could read his mind so easily. But in a weird way, it brought him some sort of comfort. “Also, don’t bring up any suitor business. Now’s not the time.” Her father sighed at the comment, she needed to marry. In his eyes, because she missed the timeframe to get married, she should find a husband as soon as she can. But that wasn’t on Lilith’s agenda.

“Lilith, it is tradition the minute you turn eighteen you marry. You signed an oath in high school pledging you’d do so.” Her father spoke, an air of exasperation lacing his voice.

“While I may have signed an oath at an impressionable fifteen years old pledging to some ludicrous decree, I have an amazing team of lawyers and attorneys who have helped me put that contract in void. So no, I don’t have to marry.” She declared, looking over the files once more before the car sped off to the embassy. “Don’t make me regret coming to this meeting, father. It will only make national relations worse.”

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Not sure how I really feel about it tbh, might delete this later but enjoy this while it lasts lol

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

I honestly wouldn't be complaining about Europeans so much if it weren't for the fact that I've been drowning in European hypocrisy nearly on a daily basis for more than half a decade now.

But most of my classmates are from mainland European countries like France, Belgium, Germany, Poland, or Sweden, and then there's the Icelanders I work with. And half the time when I say I'm from the U.S. they immediately make some really inappropriate remark like "haha at least I'm not from bang bang shooty gun land, I'm from a REAL country that has healthcare and gun control 🤣" with no regard for how rude and deranged that is to say to someone they barely know.

And I always get the feeling that they expect me to start self flagellating and going "haha yes you're so right!! I'm from the country of inbred hillbillies and we all willfully choose to go without healthcare and to die in school shootings because we're such dumb backwards hillbillies! 😌" Because they always look a little shocked when I don't do that and actually push back or even tell them they're being rude.

And the thing is I've spoken with other Americans who live in Northern or Western Europe, and they've all had similar experiences.

And often the same exact Europeans who do this will later say the most nauseatingly racist/xenophobic/ECT. remarks and expect me to still see them as superior and more progressive.

I would be very happy to stay in my own lane and not say a word on European racism and xenophobia. But the hypocrisy I drown in every day is driving me insane and if I stay quiet I'll fucking lose it.

ah i see maybe i misunderstood. it was about how europeans talk about the usa, not about others? to be fair as a german when i was meeting foreigners from the uk or australia for example they would make nazi/hitler jokes to me as well sometimes. didnt find it appropriate or liked it either but i think thats just different levels of sensitivity. i wouldnt think its racist/xenophobic because westerners joking about westerners even if its bad/insensitive/inappropriate jokes is not kicking downwards (the hitler jokes are often mocking the holocaust though which is blatantly antisemitic). but i understand where you are coming from now.

generally i think that usamericans are the most adament about political correctness, and that yall dont deal well with bluntness. i agree though its very inappropriate to mock someone for their countries lack of healthcare or gun violence. i think it has kind of become a „meme“ online as well to slam school shootings into any usamerican persons face. thats not okay. i think many are sick of usamerican hegemony and falsely think its okay to attack usamericans for it when you are also suffering from usamerican politics. so yeah i wouldnt say europeans have more (or less) issues with xenophobia and racism than the usa and canada but its possible some people are more blatant and blunt with it here.

also, the european union (which is not all of europe) is self-advertising as this progressive and peaceful organisation when they spend billions to let people drown in the ocean who just want a better life, for example, and people who are either centrist or apolitical believe this shit, and think they live in progressiveland without reflecting on their own biases. the right-wing is very critical of the european union and want it gone, and theyre the most unhinged when it comes to racism. and i think the european left is just very usa-critical, which i could see leading to misguided comments.

[cheesus-doodles]

Yandere toman rn are all prob pissed off knowing that more ppl are trying to get at the reader (the brothers and inui, koko) can't wait till Senju and Waka find Abt the reader and then there's this whole mess and then the reader is just Sandwich in-between these crazy people. Do you ever wonder if the reader breaks one day and has enough of everyone and wants to have alone time? How would all these yanderes feel Abt it? - brain rot🐢

too real right here 🐢 anon - somedays reality just hits me hard and i kinda wish to take a break from it all ya know. not in the best mental state right now, can't imagine being reader and dealing with all the shit they go through on a daily basis. but enough rambling, going to write a short standalone drabble for this, though recommend that yall read some of my other fics for relationship context (if you haven't) :)

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Recommended Readings: A Friend In Me Part 1 ; Leaving You ; High Heels

Masterlist

tw: yandere, afab reader

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Breaking Point

Yandere Platonic Toman Boys

You didn't feel like yourself anymore these days. Time flowed past you while you watched on, more so an observer just watching the world go by, trapped behind the glass of your eyes. Nothing seemed to light that spark in your chest anymore, the happiness that once shined from the depth of your eyes no longer there when you stared at yourself in the mirror, willing yourself to just feel something, anything besides emptiness and hopelessness.

It was hard to pinpoint when exactly the fun and color of your days, spent laughing and playing with your Toman friends, started to dull and lose its luster, or when your genuine smile became a fake strained one that you struggled to keep up. The same cityscape that once held so much life and vibrancy, that brought you hope and joy when you flung your front door open in the morning, only seemed more tiring and depressing the more you walked its streets.

Exhausted. Drained past your breaking point, your friends were all too busy between bathing in the attention and affection you showered freely on them, and fighting off and intimidating any of the other friends you tried to make when they thought you weren't looking, to notice your ever-growing weariness.

Maybe it was just the nature of being a delinquent, to be as possessive and overprotective as Mikey and the others were, or maybe it was your new found delinquent friends who were just so stubborn, unwilling to give in to the other's demands - but in the midst of the three way tug of war you had accidentally found yourself in, stuck between your Toman friends, Ran and Rindou, and Koko and Inupi, they seemed to have all but forgotten about you.

That you were just like them - an out-of-place kid looking for acceptance in a lonely and uncaring world.

You weren't home. You weren't home when Kazutora had swung round in the wee hours of the morning, like he always did every other day. The sinking feeling had already settled into the bottom of his gut when he padded into an unusually neat and silent room, your unused covers still neatly folded up, quickly turned into all-out panic when the boy had thrown back the covers to reveal a cold and empty bed. A small note resting on your pillow, where your head should be, addressed directly to him, lightly informing him that you were taking a break, and that you would be back soon.

The crooked smiley face at the end of the letter was a steep contrast to the horror that quickly washed over the boys upon receiving Kazutora's hysterical call, and even though they were barely able to make out what he stammered out between whimpers and tears, it was enough to have them leaping out of bed.

"Gone? What do you mean gone?" Ran all but demanded, metal baton clutched tightly in one white-knuckled hand, the other trembling fist hidden behind his back. The sunlight rarely reached down this alley, yet the shadows that reigned here didn't hide the fury that burned in the eyes of the Toman President.

"You haven't seen her?" Mikey demanded again, aggressive tone betraying his emotions despite his face still wearing that normal blank look.

But all Rindou had to respond with was a curse muttered loudly under his breath, quickly plunging one gloved hand into his pocket and pulling out a small mobile phone. Even if the Haitani brothers almost always worked alone, there were enough in the underworld that owned them favours, strings that they were all but ready to pull - to get you back by their side.

Across town, the exact same scenario was repeated in Black Dragon territory, though Koko's face paling to an ashen white at the thought of you up and leaving him without even a goodbye would have been amusing in any other scenario. Stumbling to pull out his phone from his pristine white uniform, even the usually stoic Inupi could barely hold his composure in front of a raging Draken, as Koko barked out orders, mobilizing every available men in search of you.

Huddled up into yourself, skirt neatly folded underneath you, the fresh, cool wind that blew across the otherwise empty grass field was a refreshing change from the normal drone of the concrete jungle, one that took your troubles with it as it ruffled your hair. Turning back, the distant tall skyscrapers and glass towers of Tokyo City glittered in the afternoon sun, looking almost as if it was being consumed in the harsh light - no doubt the city was all but going down in flames with your friends scrambling to look for you. But for today, you thought, your gaze once more turned to look over the open ocean, the vibrant blue seas and distant horizon a siren's call to you, just for today, maybe you could be alone.

You could be yourself once more, and let the light and color seep back into your life.

[futuregws]

DON'T READ THIS IF YOU GET OFFENDED EASILY LOL (bc I'm not about to deal with your tantrums)

You can tell the shippers are becoming desperate for content when they grab the bloopers of the forest scene that was only 2 seconds and only showed the back of her head, and use it to start some shit, I'm not even kidding I just saw one of them saying how after watching the bloopers that they are certain now that in the forest scene it wasn't Eddie flirting with Chrissy it was actually Joe who just so happened to be dressed as Eddie and on camera flirting with Grace who also just so happened to be dressed as Chrissy, so if you didn't understand they are basically saying that first of all the forest scene was flirty which is a whole other topic for another post, but they are saying that he wasn't in character at all and he was just flirting with Grace and I- seriously I have no words. First of all the scene they use from the bloopers he looks crazy how can you say he looks in love or like he was flirting, and second of all how old are are you bc if that for you is flirting then a lot of people are doing a whole lot of flirting on a daily basis, and I don't think I need to bring on the fact once again that this whole shipping real people think is fucking weird and the fact that yall will grab a scene from a character and make it the actor just to ship them its so creepy, and the person that made the post also mentioned that they want a romcom from the two which honestly I had to give my biggest eye roll to that, like it's so clear to me that they have some sort of fantasy going on and that's why they ship ed*ssy so much and why they also ship the actors AND now want them on another movie, fucking weird, and the final thing mentioned, the one thing that they love to close their eyes when someone points out how that also happened with other characters/actors, the chemistry, it's always chemistry this chemistry that bro you learned one word and ran with it, is that all you know how to say, the chemistry they wanna hold onto so badly is a chemistry that he literally had with everyone.

This is what I hate so much about this ship its how they will ALWAYS involve the actors and make the most ridiculous claims, and will also claim something as canon when that only came from your head nowhere else and then they get mad when this is brought up to them or when their "rival ship" does the same to prove a point and they just get mad bc they can reach further than the moon when saying this stuff but let a steddie shipper say something a little bold and all of a sudden there's chaos

[rosecoloredwriting]

Best Friend Tings~

A/N: This idea came to me and then boom! This might be a whole series of headcanons i got so many ideas bro!!!! 

Summary: Sometimes in life having a best friend is better than getting a s/o 

Pairings: Izuku Midorya x GN!Reader(Platonic), Katsuki Bakugou x GN!Reader(Platonic), Shoto Todoroki x GN!Reader(Platonic), Hitoshi Shinso x GN!Reader(Platonic)

Izuku Midoriya

We can see from the show he didn’t have any friends before u.a(katsuki doesn’t really count)

So boy must have been lonely before ua like todoroki

He nerded out by himself, no one else to talk to other than mama inko

So meeting you made his life better

he’s up to date on meme culture too

You slide in one vine reference during a convo ONCE when you met and he responds back subconsciously with his own

Instant connection

Like lightning strikes and you both just do the spiderman pointing at each other meme

Vine might be dead but that won’t stop you

Both of you start turning into beams of light

He gets sparkle eyes when you both don’t stop with the vine references

Numbers exchanged and you both find out to be major nerds for certain shows

Late nights are spent sending each other memes/videos and the next day you both are holding in fits of giggles

When the dorms are put in place pure chaos

Yall are inseparable 

There’s a lot of sneaking around because guess what you’re doing instead of sleeping 

watching✨✨TikToks✨✨

Or watching those Russian car crash videos

You go into a youtube deep dive at 3 am together

One brain cell is shared between you two ok

Deku squad are the vibes ok

Ilida can’t believe how 2 of some of the smartest people he knows can turn the exact opposite

“Ilida can you do us a favor? Would you be willing to run while holding us like balloons?”

“What are you talking about!?”

“Ilida me and (Y/N) thought of having Uraraka join us by making us float and have a rope tied around us with you running around!”

“As your class president I will not allow you to do such a thing-!” Cutting him off you turn to Izuku

“I told he wasn’t gonna say yes.” Sighing in disappoint.

“Should we try Kacchan?” 

“I’ll do the talking got it!” You leave behind a dumbfounded Ilida wondering why his friends can be so smart yet do such stupid actions.

Do not be fooled though

You call out izuku when necessary, you both may be chaotic with one another but like hell!!!! you’ll let him slip up because you’re besties and actually have brain cells(sometimes)

From the glare you’re sending him he feels like a disappointment because he caused his bestie trouble and worry

In conclusion: Yall are ride or die

Were talking the strength of the pillars of those temples in Greece

Katsuki Bakugo

It kinda just happened before the classes eyes

Like no one gets how bakugo manages not to blast your eardrums everyday

He just somehow sees you’re genuinely trying to be friends with him and get to know him

At first, he thought you were some extra following him like the rest of Baku squad at first and somehow saw that you don’t see him godly or anything you just really enjoyed being around him

Slowly you both understand one another

He’s kinda scared cause I don’t think bakugo has ever been like close close with someone before

So it’s slow like his friendship with Kiri

Speaking of Kiri cause this is a package deal if your friends with bakugo

You both will just watch him when someone pisses him off 

“Someone tried to test him right,” you said while passing Kirishima a water bottle. Coming back from the vending machine.

“Yeah he did” he replies deadpanning at Bakugou’s antics

You may be mostly a duo but its also a trio sometimes

So when he gets captured there’s a 50/50 chance that he will come to you

you managed to get knocked out during the attack so seeing one another safe really just lifts the blanket of fear off

So when the dorms come in he will barge into your room and start up your console and play

This distraction won’t last long cause at some point he just sits there stuck in his head

He holds back tears but you just help him through

Really just strengthens your bond

From then on he comes to you and he’s very vague on details but you just comfort him

somehow you both from this experience learn how to read what the other is feeling

If you have something going on the perceptive as ever bakugo will see and somehow do the thing that just gives you a boost, he’s not either an intimate or verbal guy

He’s trying his best alright

The same goes for you in bakugo accept your just a tad slower and use your words instead 

Best friend soulmate ✨✨tings✨✨

One of your past times is either playing fighting games or just relaxing in his room

Like you both will lay on the ground, speaker blasting, taking turns putting on songs

Feeling the vibrations 

Its how the aggressive boy cools down/relaxes

Being angry all the time is tiring

One time you were in a room with someone as they insulted bakugou

Right in your face not only did you defend your best friend but you also whooped some ass that day

Conclusion: the best friends that just get each other 

Shoto Todoroki

(If you’re an endeavor stan I don’t know what to tell you for this one)

Now hear me out on this

You find Endeavor hilarious

He is just the funniest person to you

Like just looking at him makes you cackle

So when todoroki fights midoriya and he used his fireside everyone was shocked because no one has seen him use it yet!!

But when you see endeavor on the other side of the stadium scream “SHOTOOOOO!” you burst out full-on laughing!!! WHEEZING IF YOU MAY!! Like do you not see his face

When he came back to the stands you just turned to him holding in a laugh

“Hey, Todoroki how are you so serious all the time with your dad looking like that all the time?”

“I beg your pardon?”

Don’t get me wrong he was pissed because like baby just had a mental breakdown but this type of comment is new to him

“Don’t you see how ridiculous he looks with those flames of him like damn. Of all the places! Why his fckin calves!!!!! Like what kind of egotistical man does that”

Todoroki hates his dad so you bashing him really opens up doors for you

Now to me, I think todoroki throws insults at everyone without even knowing himself

Like under his breath he will say a comment you will catch it and hold in a laugh

So you bashing his father made you an a+ in his book

And so the duo begins

Since todoroki does insult people without knowing you are there to be his audience

You will stifle and hold in giggles and laughs as you stand right next or behind him

Once he realized this he subtly increases the amount he says on the daily(These arent basic insults either but they aren’t harmful, plain fun ok)

One time your laughing got to the point Aizawa threatened to separate you two

But still, you helped cracked the boy’s frozen heart

Lots of hugs though cause the boy needs it

Once you’re close enough in the friendship you jump and hug the boy in surprise

Gets a little startled but loves the gesture cause guess what yall are besties

Opening his door, Todoroki meets the sight of you holding a pile of food. Ready for movie night. Quickly placing it down on the coffee table you jump and give him a hug. He stumbles a moment before he wraps his arms around your waist.

“Why are you hugging me? We saw each other all day.”

“Just thought you needed it.” Mumbling a thank you you go to the coffee table. The surface spilling with bags of snacks.

“I have my soba and more if you want any. I even got those candies you like.”

“Really! Thanks Sho-kun! I also got those chips you really enjoyed the last time. So you ready?” With a hum you both sit down opening the food you'll be eating for the rest of the night. Grabbing the remote Shoto hits play, the screen lights up to show the Disney logo.

Many movie marathons and binge-watching nights because you need to show him so much

When these hangouts happen you have hardcore munches together

You both will have a buffet of food because boy does he love his soba and you love to do to bring an entire pile and bag full of food

Just appreciates you and all you do for him

Will definitely sneak in really expensive gifts to you

Loves to watch Disney movies with you 

Conclusion: you are the best friend he needs, he wouldn’t have you any other way

Hitoshi Shinso 

Both of you met in gen studies class

At this point, everyone in the class knew one another names and stuff and when word got to you of his quirk oh boy

He was minding his business sitting in his desk

Slightly wishing he was dead or wanting to vibe at home

But here you come strutting on over and say hi to him

He was kinda nervous cause everyone knew his quirk and just got all those villain comments

You just talk and say how cool his quirk is and he’s like ‘aw shit here we go again’

Instead, you just ask why he isn’t in the hero course

Like his quirk amazing for that shit

He’s shocked alright

So you both just stick together

You are his wild friend taking him on adventures as he complains saying he would rather watch a movie or do something

Low key in on your plans 

He trusts you with his life so don’t take advantage of that

Teases you on a regular basis

Is the type of friend where if he makes fun of or teases you 

You’re his friend

at the sports festival, you treat him to lunch because he deserves it!!!!

He made it to the last round

And fought MIDORIYA!!!

“You don’t have to do this you know.” Dragging Hitoshi around the food stands he tries his best to stop you from doing this. Even if it’s your treat he rather pay himself.

“Hitoshi I swear if you don’t just pick what you want for lunch I’m fighting you.”

“I’m being serious you don’t have too. I didn’t even win against him.” You come to a halt both hands on his shoulders. Looking him in the eye you reassure him.

“You may not have won but you made it to the 3rd round. Do you know how amazing that is! A general studies student made it that far! You did that! You showed everyone we might as well be just as good as the hero course students! As your best friend to, I must treat you for this accomplishment.” This time he grabs your wrist. Pulling you around until he sees a food stand that peaks his interest. A soft smile on his face happy to call you his friend and to have someone care for him like you do.

He is the reason why you're an insomniac now

When you blame him for your sleeping schedule he just says in the deepest and seductive voice “it was part of the plan”

Makes you want to punch that handsome face of his(but you wouldn’t you love the boy too much)

Sometimes you guys sneak cats in like your dorms just somehow manage to have cats in them

The fur is everywhere but their you fur babies

You both spend your time playing board games and sometimes inviting the deku squad cause Hitoshi has a pretty chill relationship with Izuku(plus their too social for their own good)

So things become waaaaaaaay more lively

Both of your social batteries though are completely empty

There is late-night cuddling though as weird as it sounds

when you take turns slipping in one another’s dorm you both manage to hug like it’s super platonic and just find it comforting waking up to one another

the bond so strong that you protect one another even when you sleep

Conclusion: the besties that mess around one another but are like this🤞

[oikawas-toris]

To all the lovely people I've met this year and the old friends I've had (´∩｡• ᵕ •｡∩`):

Well first of all to anyone reading this:

2020 had been quite a journey, for most of us, or atleast hadn't been the best of the years. Well, congratulations! You made it through! I'm very proud of you!!! (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ Now we can only hope and wish 2021 will be rewarding for making it through this tough year.

Wishing everyone a very Happy New Year! 🥳🥰♥️

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Now then, coming to some people I hold very dear to myself:

@dazai-kinnie-blog ZAI!!!(=｀ェ´=): When will ya ever listen to me???😟 Take better care of yourself!😾 Moving on~ you were my very first friend on Tumblr and were/are so so sweet and funny😆 I know we don't talk as often now but, every conversation with you is always so fun and never fails to make me smile. Being your Kunikida kinnie is so fun now only if you listened ...I hope this delightful friendship will continue on into the next year. Love ya lots and T-A-K-E C-A-R-E!😡♥️

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@masked-buffoon AI-CHAN!!!<(￣︶￣)>: Omg you're so funnnnn!!! Our chats always ALWAYS makes me so happy! Talking to you on an almost a daily basis really did make it a lot easier to get through the last and worst months of this year. Ranting to you about anything or describing our daily events is really very relaxing and it feels like I've known you for years(≧▽≦)! Let's hope there'll be much more for us to talk/rant about in the future! Lots and lots of wuv (*˘︶˘*).｡*♡

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@keeijiakaashi CLIOOO!!!!(✿^‿^): Though I only recently bunched up the courage to message you, we've already found so many similarities! I feel so comfortable talking to you, somehow it's just so easy! X3 <3 Hopefully our common love for the Akaashi Keiji will help grow this friendship XD

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@velvetfireworks RACHELLLL!!!✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧: can I call you that? 🥺👉👈 I've not exactly had a proper conversation with you (that's my bad, I have poor conversational skills...(٥↼_↼)), I've still had lots of fun interacting with you! I've probably sent you quite a few anon asks cause I'm shy 🥺👉👈 hopefully I've done a proper job as your osamu anon 😖 But I must say your writing gives me joy (the irony ಥ‿ಥ) anywho~ hopefully one day I'll get the courage to start a proper conversation... One day...

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@orphic-osamu YUEEEE!!!♪ \(^ω^\ ): Hehehe my wonderful “also suffering with online classes” buddy; how are youuuuu??? Why am I losing touch with so many people (╥﹏╥) tis a curse!😰 (So! How's the heartbreak from assclass treating you??? XD) Ahahaha anywho~ you seem to be such a cool person, I'm rather surprised and honoured to be your friend! Ever since I started talking to you, you always made it seem like we're old friends! We should talk more often X3 <333

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Now then, two very, very special people; who I've know for a great deal of my life (◕ᴗ◕✿):

@a-normal-dreamer NESSSSS(＾∇＾)ﾉ♪: From our fangirling to our random “hi”s and “hello”s it's so so fun to talk to you! I can tell you about my bad days or brag about the decent ones and you never mind X3 you make such cute and lovely poems honestly I support you all the way! Lend me some of your optimism Now then we can only hope and wish our dreams come true 😔✋ much love for you:D ♥️

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@genshin-impact-simp WIFYYYYY(≧▽≦): Though our chats are... Questionable... I'd never trade em for anything!( ꈍᴗꈍ) We can stay up till 4 in the morning on call going on about absolute nonsense or just enjoy the quiet company of one another and still not cut the call😆 You've always cheered me up when I've felt down and never have you ever failed to make me laugh with your random messages XD Even though we've not gotten to meet in the past months it feels like we've only grown to be much more closer as friends, love ya(◍•ᴗ•◍)♥️

I love every single one of you and to the people I've mentioned above: I genuinely cherish our friendship. Thank you so much for taking the the time and effort to get to know me; love yall (◍•ᴗ•◍)✧*。

(side note: please forgive me for any spelling/grammar mistakes)

[sortagaysortahigh]

no don’t try to justice this both bestestbenn and heybarzy still post about him. you bullied girls of this app because they wrote fics for him so don’t try me. it’s not okey to be mad at one for doing it and then defend your friends when they do exactly the same.

tbh i don’t know what happened because i just saw another blog talk about this but apparently barzysthighs defended a hockey player that voted for trump on her blog. again i did not see this happen but i read about it

I literally haven’t been active on this fucking hellsite since the AM34 thing. I didn’t bully ANYONE off of this hellsite-lets get that straight. I don’t even fucking know who wrote fics about him. I spoke up in that specific situation because as a bipoc when I see a grown ass woman coming at a 17 year old-who is also a bipoc-sideways then trying to discredit their experiences with racism by stating that they’re a child-there’s something wrong with that.

Lets get this straight, I spoke to Nikki before making my post, AND ON TOP OF THAT my post was not just directed at her, she literally deactivated before even finishing the conversation with me. I never once called nikki out of her name, I never came at her sideways, and I have nothing to do with her deactivating-considering she didn’t even finish the convo with me. Don’t accuse me of bullying anyone because I didn’t bully her in any way shape or fucking form. 

Now onto @bestestbenn and @heybarzy (im @ing them because i actually believe that if someone is mentioned then they should be MENTIONED). I have ZERO control over what anyone posts about AM34, I haven’t had a single conversation with Abby or Katie since prior to the fucking AM34 situation, I’ve been on a literal hiatus, I have no idea what the fuck happens on this dash and it’s not my fucking problem if anyone wants to post about him because they find him attractive. Especially when they’ve spoken about the shitty fucking things he’s done and the entire time that ive known abby on this fucking hellsite she’s constantly backed me in things when I’ve spoken out about them. I don’t give a fuck who finds who attractive, i give a fuck about people pretending theres nothing wrong and ignoring issues and OPENLY BRUSHING THEM OFF AS NOT THAT SERIOUS when they impact marginalized communities.

If you don’t know shit about what happened with @barzysthighs why are you sitting here bringing it up to me? I’ve literally been working my ass off constantly and I haven’t been on the dash nor have i been talking to the himbos on a daily basis, I literally wasn’t in the goddamn groupchat for like two fucking weeks because guess what dearest anon, I was MOURNING, as in someone in my FAMILY DIED and i had to deal with that. I haven’t been on the dash, i don’t know what the fuck is going on and the last thing i have time for is a half assed version of an accusation. 

I’m not speaking on thsi shit again after this post, and any stupid fucking anons sent my way are getting blocked. I don’t have time for this shit. I literally came on the dash to have a fucking BLURB NIGHT for valentines day and i made a singular joke about not writing for draco malfoy, because i don’t write for fucking draco malfoy. I turn on anons and yall are quick to start coming at me sideways as if you’ve just been fucking WAITING for this moment. 

[bleuberries-and-video-games]

Wow apparently theres discourse around my politics!

congrats yall, youve managed to guesstimate a persons political leanings from near anonymous posting on tumblr and find their behavior to extreme!

I dont give a rats ass about the orientation of nationalists sexualities, I do not care how well written they are, I do not give a damn whether or not you like them. I don't. I do not like nations, states, borders, or countries. I di not like how the nation of Japan, no matter how oppressed it is by the west, oppresses or marginalizes the Ainu peoples, or how the west frames Japan as monoethnic for that historic reason. I don't like imperialism, and I certainly do not like nationalism. If that seems "neo socialist" to you, or whatever buzzword you know, congrats, you dont know, nor have met me. I dont like the right wing, I dont like the center right, I do not like right wingers.

Does that mean I cant coexist, discuss, interact with, or talk to right wingers? Fuck no. I live in the midwest, I have to on a daily basis. But I also know that if given the reigns of power and systemic organization, if push comes to shove, they will implement policies and ideas that I do not think function. If my opposition to partisan politics, to the capitalist state, to nationalism, and to right wing politics in general makes you think I am extreme, then GOOD. I dont want you on my blog. I dont want to talk to you. I reslect your right to have an opinion, but take it elsewhere, because its not welcome here. It just isnt.

If you think a mans sexual orientation defines his politics, and counters his nationalism, congrats, youve managed to stereotype, and not have nuance. If youre a gay nationalist, GREAT, be gay, fuck your nationalism. Hell I'm pansexual, itd be hypocritical of me to hate gay people, itd be downright illogical for me to hate gay people. It aint inconsistent to despise nationalism, because no matter how many nations you build, the problem that pervades them is the same; and until we actively build a better world FOR ALL people, the issues will continue as they stand.

And for those of you still skeptical:

America shouldnt have nuked Japan, it was a power move that costed millions of lives for the sake of intimidation. Repeated pacific island testing should have also not ever happened, just like the Cold War shouldnt have happened. American occupation of Japan probably wasnt a good idea either, but neither was pretty much giving them the arms and abilities to be imperialist in the first place. The solution to that aint fuckin nationalism though, as mainland Japanese people arent the only ethnic groups in japan. There are indigenous and foreign groups, and catalyzing a nationalost fervor that would idealize a specific persona of Japan, and that would alienate the other groups in it, would REPEAT the prior decades conflicts, that STILL ARE NOT RESOLVED TO THIS DAY.

Pretty poetry to build a nations image, beautiful stories to idealize a national concept, LITERATURE MEANT TO CONSTRUCT A SPECIFIC IDEA, that was influenced by decades of imperial ideology, fascist iconography and propaganda, galvanized by an oppressive foreign power, is not beautiful to me. Its bullshit.

If that upsets you cause you like his work, then Im sorry. I dont care that you like it. You can like it. You can like this feel good story about a most likely "real" r/thathappened moment on 4chan, and use it to reinforce your beliefs as much as you want. I dont want to. If that upsets you, then be upset. Kick, scream, cry, rant, try and argue. Thats your choice. I dont feel obligated to enjoy the theocratic bullshit I had pushed upon me by my upbringing. The Lutheran Church Missouri Synod is bullshit protestant performativist crap that fixes nothing and upholds current colonial powers in Africa by otherizing it, it funds domestic policy that seeks to abolish Abortion and pro-choice as a political ideology, it seeks to demonize pleasure and human feelings, it does nothing to further a relationship with god, and harms or dusillusions most people. Its existence, and its ideological validity and influence, doesnt concurrently imply I should respect the ideology it upholds or practices.

Yukio Mishima is a nationalist. Center-Right or not, I dont tolerate his politics and he probably wouldve hated mine. If that pisses you off because a bunch of now defunct blogs shared and debated my humanity or my intelligence, whilst proudly lauding nazis, antifeminists, or general hegemonic dominance in the west, then maybe ask yourself why it does.

I dont like feel good 4chan stories cause they seem ingenuine. Given that 4chan has always had a white supremacy issue, and/or a nationalism issue, which only accelarated in recent years, I dont like those feel good stories being tinged with nationalist authors, because its meant to aid in normalizing and radicalizing.

No amount of asks, discourse, tagging, aggravated rants, and so on will make me change that opinion. Enjoy your fucking author, clearly you do and thats fine.

I dont have to. Either let it die with the fash blogs that made it a big deal, or die mad about it. I am not your friend. I am not tolerant of nationalism. End of discussion.

[boat-dock]

Freya

part 4 of my Mikaelson family oneshots... honestly I could turn this into a whole fic... let me know if that’s something yall would be interested in

set after 2x06 Josie and Freya come back to Mystic Falls together and bring back everyones memories and then go to find her. while Hope deals with her own fears of being forgotten and learns what it truly means to be a Mikaelson

The preparations for Commonwealth day were in full swing as Lizzie pulled Hope away so they could talk privately. It was strange having someone to talk to again, someone who knew everything, especially since that person was Lizzie. They had never had the best relationship, it was on the mend when Hope went into the pit but still, the irony of this situation wasn’t lost on her. 

Hope glanced around nervously as Lizzie dragged her away from the crowd of people, “ I don’t know how long I can keep this up Hope,” she groaned, “I’m terrible at keeping secrets.” 

“We talked about this,” Hope responded trying to keep her voice level. “People can’t know, not yet,” it’s not that she didn’t want people to know, of course, she does, more than anything. She misses her old life and her friends and family, but the fear of how they will react is overwhelming, everyone seems happy now and she can’t bring herself to disrupt that, no matter how much Lizzie says she should. “Besides Josie’s out of town it should be easier right now,” 

“Josie not being here isn’t the point,” the blonde snapped but she is cut off before she can continue by a wave of powerful magic sweeping through the city. The townies were none the wiser but it hit Hope like a ton of bricks, making her light-headed and confused. Lizzie cocks her head, she felt the surge but it didn’t affect her like it did Hope - like it did dozens of people throughout the town. “What the hell was that?” 

“I have no idea but I’m going to find out,” Hope growls, pushing their argument into the past and grabbing Lizzie by the arm to go find the problem. She scans the crowd, searching for anything out of the ordinary or dangerous that could be a threat.

Despite all her efforts, she misses the one thing that definitely should have caught her attention, Lizzie, however, stopped dead in her tracks. “Shit,” she hissed and yanked Hope back and behind a tree so they were hidden from view, “Oh my god.” a shocked Hope pulled away but Lizzie was stronger than she looked and Hope found that she couldn’t get away. 

“What is it?” Hope asked. But Lizzie shushed as she peered around the corner, trying to make sure her eyes weren’t playing tricks on her. 

“So um-” Lizzie starts, “I think we have a little problem,” Hope finally managed to catch a glimpse at what Lizzie is staring at and she stops dead in her tracks. Across the park just close enough for Hope to make out are Josie and Freya, walking side by side with a  purpose, scanning the crowd of people. She stumbled back shocked and confused, Freya has no reason to be here, in fact, Hope’s entire ability to live this strange new life she was trapped in banked on Freya not being here. 

Lizzie started talking again but she couldn’t hear her over the rushing in her ears. She was getting odd looks from some of the people around her and she desperately tried to pull herself together. Could Freya have had something to do with the surge of magic just a moment ago and if so what did she do? 

The two were talking to each other like familiars as they searched the crowd and Hope found this odd. As far as she knew Josie and Freya had never met each other. What could they be doing together? The only link between the two was Hope except now they didn’t even have that.

Standing there and staring was where she made her mistake. They spotted her, or Josie did as she gripped Freya’s arm and directed her attention toward where she stood shocked. Suddenly she found herself unable to move. Their faces were unreadable as they beelined toward her, pushing and shoving through the dense crowd. 

Finally, Hope snapped out of it and stumbled backward, she’s actively trying to move away when Lizzie once again grabs her and holds her in place till the two women can reach them. “Breath Hope,” she muttered, doing her best to calm the tribrid so she doesn’t lose it in front of the entire town, Hope makes a mental note to thank her for that later. “You have to do this.” 

No. Nope. Not going to happen. 

This was one thing that she could not handle.

Facing her family was not an option, she’s attempted to go back to New Orleans many times since she came back but she’d never been able to make herself do it. Josie and Freya broke through the crowd and suddenly Freya was running full speed at her. Hope swears her heart dropped to her stomach and she pulls wildly against Lizzie. With a surge of her supernatural strength, she yanks her arm away and sinks back curling into herself and her aunt comes to a halt a few feet from her, and Josie was not far behind. 

Her breath was coming out in heaves, she felt like everything was being ripped from her all over again, “Hope,” Freya whispers like she trying to calm a spooked animal. Her voice is soft and familiar, like warm honey and for the first time, the thought occurred to Hope that she recognizes her. Her aunt’s face is filled with love and despair and worry and not the blank uninterest that Hope had feared. 

She stayed frightfully still as Freya inched her way forward, “It’s ok,” she muttered, reaching her hand out, “ You’re ok.” “Aunt Freya,” Hope gasped as her aunt’s hand came to rest on her cheek, but it came out more like a whimper. Her vision blurred with tears and her throat tightened as she fought back her emotions, “Do you know who I am?” she asked

“Of course,” Freya chuckled tears in her eyes also. They crash into each other like planets colliding and Hope feels safe and loved again after so long alone in the darkness. Her attitude shifted quickly, however, “ Hope what on earth were you thinking? You foolish girl, you should have come home the second you got back and we could have fixed this.” 

Guilt washed over her, “ I know I should have,” she mumbled, lowering her eyes to the ground, “ I just couldn’t. I’m sorry, I wasn’t strong enough,” the words slipped out before she could stop them. She’d never admitted that not even to herself, she prided herself on her strength and ability to handle difficult situations. 

“What do you mean?” Freya asked, pulling back to look into her eyes. The twins' eyes bore into her as she struggled to find her words. 

“I couldn’t handle you looking at me and not recognizing me -any of you,” she said softly, like admitting this shortcoming was an actual physical fault that she had and not a completely reasonable fear. She shivered in the cool evening air, “ I didn’t think I could survive it. What’s a Mikaelson without her family?” that question had been in the back of her mind since Clarke told her that she’d been erased. It rolled around like a stone in her head shattering her mental stability on a daily basis. 

Freya softened and brought her hand softly to tuck Hope’s hair behind her ear, “Darling, you may have been gone but you were never forgotten. There was a hole in our family and we may not have been able to place it but we knew something was wrong.” 

“I know, I know,” Hope stumbled, angry at herself for not trusting her family enough to go to them and fight for herself. 

“I’m not angry Hope, “ she said trying desperately to comfort the distraught young girl, “none of us are angry, I promise, we just want you safe.” 

Hope took a shaky breath, “ I’m ok,” it wasn’t a believable answer but it was a necessary lie that she had been telling herself for a long time now. 

Freya kept talking and Hope found comfort in the cadence and slight drawl of her voice,” We’ve fought for you your entire life and that doesn’t stop just because you manage to get yourself erased from existence - which might I add is quite incredible- but that isn’t how always and forever works.” 

Hope sinks back into her aunt’s arms, letting herself just be held, “ I love you aunt Freya, “ she mumbled, “ Always and forever.” 

“Always and forever darling.” 

She wished that moment could have lasted forever, but sadly all perfect peaceful moments must come to an end. She hears Josie gasp behind her and she pulls back to see Landon and Rafael approaching from the direction of the school. Landon was fed in the face and puffed up like a pufferfish as he stomped toward them. 

Her face turned a dark shade of red as Josie sunk back wrapping her arms around herself. Landon froze when he noticed who all was in the group he was heading to and then after a moment of contemplation he turned and walked the other direction. 

Hope releases a shaky breath, but whether it was relief or sadness she couldn’t tell. Josie seemed to have the same idea. Despite everything that had happened since they got here the two girls still hadn’t spoken to each other, Hope didn’t know what to say. Josie was one of the main reasons she’d kept her identity a secret, she didn’t want to hurt the younger girl, she was more than content to step back and let the two of them continue their relationship - well maybe not more than content but she had made her peace with it. Josie turned and fled the scene in the opposite direction of Landon, “Josie,” Hope called after her. She had no claim to comfort her, they were barely friends before everything and now things were worse than ever. 

Lizzie followed after her twin in a blonde flash and relief washed over her. Josie needed her sister right now. She didn’t need Hope. 

“I think I’m missing something here,” Freya commented, mildly cutting a strange look at her niece. 

“Please don’t ask,” Hope said, not willing to rehash all this just yet. Maybe soon she could talk about it but right now she just needed something stable. “Aunt Freya how long will you be in town?” she asked.

“However long you need me to,” Freya answered, slipping her hand into Hope’s and giving it a soft squeeze. 

She tried to force the storm brewing inside her to calm, she laid her head on Freya’s shoulder,” Do you have a place to stay? Do you have a hotel room?” The questions were odd but they were necessary.

“Not yet but I can get one. Why do you ask?” 

“Can I stay with you there please?” she asked meekly and once again averted eyes. She knew Freya wouldn’t say no but the shocked hesitation before her answer caused Hope to keep talking without thinking,” I mean I don’t mind the woods but it gets lonely out there you know.” she didn’t think about how she had been living the past few months would be a big deal if anything it was fairly obvious. She wasn’t living at the school anymore and with no money or compulsion powers, sleeping in the forest was the only option that would get her caught.

Her aunt’s eyes widened as she realized this, “ Hope Andrea have you been homeless in this godforsaken town?” a dark angry power radiated from Freya, and Hope worried that this town might pay the price for not keeping her safe. 

“Wolfed out in the woods is not the same as homeless,” she argued. Sadly that did nothing to placate her vengeful aunt.

She grabbed Hope’s hand and began to pull them away from the town square, “Come on Hope,” she nearly growls,” Let’s get you a room and I will sort this whole thing out.” 

[dolphin-enthusiast]

my beloved, hello darling!! how are you today? i hope you've been sleeping well, since i know you have insomnia,, i find it funny since i have the exact opposite problem, it seems as though opposites really do attract hehe ✨ all of these anons responses to our interactions really amaze me!! these dreams people have, or the happiness they feel when we talk, or all of the ideas/art/ect that has come out of this really astounds me,, (1/4)

"i never knew we could make such an impact on others!! and judging by the sweet comments you make about me, i can't believe i could have such an effect on you hahaha,, i'd be lying if i said that you didn't affect me in any way; talking to you is bliss 💗 ahhh,, i hope that doesn't sound cheesy!! i'm never used to flirting since i'm always the one getting flustered by others 😅 (2/4)

oh, and i saw that lovely anon's picrew!! it was so adorable!! i showed my sister and she loved it!! and i saw that another anon suggested writing actual letters... which i am not opposed to 😉 letter writing is actually a hobby of mine hehe 💕 (3/4)

my final news of the day is that i got a promotion at goth ihop!! now i'll be able to earn more money to contribute to our upcoming wedding!! to celebrate, i'm taking us to dinner in the 4th dimension, and buying a bottle of some fine [CORRUPTED] wine for us 😊 - con amore, waifu xoxo 🌹💌🌸✨🔥😍💋💘"

My beloved once again u take my wig😔😔😔 today has been kinda wacky bc of severe lack of motivation once more but what can u do djchdjdjd i wont lie i too am utterly amazed at how EVERYONE here literally spams me on a daily basis screaming (and simping) abt our dynamic and im loving every single bit of it skfkckkx

As for the letters it really do b one hell of a concept ngl👁️👁️ and u dont have to worry abt flirting bc even tho i myself dont have that much experience w it i just love teasing ppl in general so yall gotta deal w it😳😳😳 and the fact that u admit that i had an effect on u too...W I L D😍😍😍😤😤

As always i look forward to the [CORRUPTED] wine and i am extremely happy to hear u got a promotion go queen give us E V E R Y T H I N G

[abloomingperiod]

junmyeon as a bf

the softest of the softies

kim junmyeon is an old-fashioned guy

and i’m not saying that in terms of being conservative or anything, ‘cuz i really hope he isn’t

i mean in the sense of love

like you know that kind of person who dreams the whole picture

like

he dates for a reason

unlike other members, junmyeon isn’t the type to not think about the future

being a leader makes you like that

but this gets less harsh on him when u arrive in his life

yk that whole romantic comedy movie where a guy runs into someone and it’s this beautiful woman with the biggest smile and they fall for each other and shit

well.......not exactly your case

he indeed ran into you with an iced tea in hands

except you didn’t smile at him

you basically screamed “SHIT IM SORRY ILL PAY U BACK”

he got so flustered w your reaction like

this really pretty girl just offered me some iced tea”

he was all like nonononononoooo don’t say that it’s fine don’t worry aha

you kept insisting but were late for work so you made him promise to come back to that bakery the day after bcs he WOULD be paid back no matter wHAT

he didn’t feel the need butyou were cute and he wasn’t with a thick schedule so why not right

so yeah ofc prince suho showed up

the next day he entered the place and saw you

you were so pretty watching you crinkling your nose over the hot coffee in your hands was already a payback

a cute one

cmon he’s cringey give him a chance

you bowed at each other and he realized you didn’t mention for Once between the whole minute after the accident and his arrival abt his name or profession as an idol

which for him

was nice

not a big deal, but nice

after you gave him his iced tea he was so polite you actually smiled bcs ajshskjsks cute ?

and then you started talking for a while

you introduced yourself, told him abt your dream to become a writer someday and he !!!!!

okay junmyeon easy on the hearbeats you got it

he just thought of this as such a COOL dream

writing for a living

now he was like this pretty girl... is a poet

i know

lame

but he’s adorable so who cares tbh

he talked to u abt being an idol and how was the position of the leader

you listened to every word and even though you lost a fee of them along with the honey like voice and puffy cheeks of his, you loved hearing abt it

after like 2 hours he had to go bcs schedule

but before you parted your way you had to go to the bathroom

when you went pay for your payback iced tea, you hear a waiter asking “mrs y/n? i believe that for you”

no shit there was the waiter holding a cappuccino

you got like Dude. there must’ve been a mist-

you turn the cup and there it is:

“for y/n

i loved the iced tea but since my goodbyes were a little earlier i most definitely own you a payback too. how abt sushi? xx” and the waiter hands you a note with his name and number

and that’s how you started seeing each other

jun is a quiet person so he won’t be like vocal abt developing a crush on you more and more

it would b like

you guys would hang out sometimes

and little by little he would catch himself getting the heart eyes

like you’re at a coffe shop

you would get passionate talking about some movie or song and suddenly there’s a drop of coffee on the side of your lip. you didn’t notice but he did but he thought you looked so cute popping off about ur favorite music he would just sit there like,,, 💖nvm💖

and with those little stuff he would catch himself thinking yup they’re gonna b mine

so one day he went like soooo maybe i’m catching feelings i didn’t know this was happening sorry??? so i think u should know that bcs it’s abt u... i’m fancied by u i didn’t mean it to happen

like straight up he APOLOGIZED

FOR LIKING U

you were like goshkjsjksj so cute

and decided to play w him a little

“so you don’t want to like me” “NONONOOO THATS NOT WHAT I MEA-” “jk i got it i really like you too and maybe we could kiss to see what happens”

he combusted

so yeah you’re dating that’s what happened

so caring literally sO CARING

calls you on a daily basis when he’s away to talk abt the weather the boys his breakfast how much he misses you how he saw those flowers outside and it reminded of you or how he will bring you to that country when it’s vacations

he’s such a husband material fuck me

keeps notes of things you like so he can hit the high score on important dates

talking abt dates

fancy

i mean he’s bourgeoisie ofc it’s fancy

such a lovely boyfriend i’m actually sad

jun is restaurants with low lights, candles, roses and holding your hand while talking about how he never seemed to figure out the food app to find a cool place to go to so he just asked chanyeol with a pout on his lips

“you’re such an old man” “i’m simple it’s different”

on your 1 year anniversary he took you to a boat ride on a lake witha guy playing violin and wine and cheese waiting for you

simple my ass

keeps bringing coffee and flowers for you every friday night you get together bcs it’s your “tiny vacations” as he calls it

on weekends with you the only ppl he answers is either manager or a serious question from the boys/his family

and it’s always a short “yes” or “no” or “👍🏻”

fuck it he’s with his baby leave him alone

loves cooking with you

like fuck it if it’s not that tasty he just LUUUVES doing it with you

probably because he gets to hug you a lot

like you’re in the stove and he had already placed everything in its own place so he goes behind your figure, hugs your waist and places his lips on your shoulder to give you tiny pecks and praise your cooking

“junmy this is practically burnt” “you’re the best cooker i know”

once you guys were enjoying a whole ass week together and the last time you were together for more than a day were like 6 months before

you were so all over each other he went to do the same thing and you guys ended up making out in front of a precooked pan of french fries

long story short, your toasted it and only saw that coming bcs jun went to embrace your waist and his fingers touched the hot pan

“that happened bcs of you and your teenager behavior” “YOU COULD’VE MOVED” “I WAS TRAPPED”

so guess what you did after you applied some salve om his fingers

he was staring @ u all 💖💖💖💖💖

you were like ,,,what

he just shrugged and murmured “you’re beautiful”

that’s right

you fucked

not fucked in a Fucked way

yall made love

kim junmyeon is all about luv

i remember someone posting here that he probably fucked like white people and i-

that person ruined it for me

i hate yall

i will defend him till the end of time my boi DOES NOT fuck like a white person

takes it very seriously as he sees it as an opportunity to shower u with the love u deserve

on that day you actually convinced him you should do the hard work

HELL YEAH YOU RODE THAT BITCH

jun seems like soft dom for me like just bcs he’s in charge for most of the time doesn’t mean youon get to do a thing

that time as you rode him you got very like Very excited but you saw in his eyes how desperate he was to touch you entirely so you catch his hand and kiss his fingertips slowly

he kept smiling for you saying “god you are so beautiful” “i love you so much”

but you’re a little shit and always tries and bring his rough side out

so you open your mouth and lick his two burnt finger from the knuckles to the tips

he got so !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

not really a vocal guy

heavy sighs and low groans are it for junmyeon

very into dirty talk

but a fancy one

“does my baby likes it when i make her beg?” “look at me, love. do you want it from where i can kiss your back or your breasts?” “you’re mine to take and no one else”

we don’t support women treated as objects but this is a sexual environment and you’ve always consented him to say things like that in bed

he’s a gentlemen fuck it

once you were so horny you straight up said “i don’t give a fuck about formality just make me cum at least three times”

he got 😳 for a sec but got your point

not a rough lover but once you get in a fight

bitch

you’re both pretty mature ppl so every rare time you fight it’s very Very serious

will kiss you until your both breathless just so you can not even catch your breath bcs he will be kissing your neck and liking your skin

slaps your butt?

absolutely

a fucking lot

“funny how you turn shut the fuck up as soon as i lay my hands on you”

makes you strip for him

has a thing for watching where your bodies connect

call him baby and he’s got a 3 secs tops soft jun

like a little grin with puffy cheeks

and he’s back with the restless pounding

bathtub aftercare is a must

massages your feet as you talk sweet nothings for him

if you’re feeling feisty might get a romantic round two

loves doing it slowly so he can drag it to the point you get so hot and bothered you beg

“oh god- just please- jun, faster”

likes it when you rub his back after

get a shot of soft myeonie post-sex

lays in his stomach and quietly asks “can you”

you lay there also on your stomach and rubbing his back drawing circles and talking about life

once he got so full of idk emotion?? love?? idk never been there

he just poured a whole “marry me”

like dude.

“WHAT” “not today, like... in a few years maybe idk forget it”

he closed his eyes to dismiss your reaction and just felt a warm peck on his naked shoulder

“of course i’ll marry you a few years”

his eyes shot open like This woman. the loml. dead ass said yes to my hypothetical proposal”

he actually got emotional

“kajsksjsksjsk really?????????v

“yes really”

and there was a teardrop

you felt like dying

i mean I feel like dying rn

doesn’t say it but thinks abt having kids someday

and u know that bcs honestly it’s suho everybody just Knows that

his parents? ofc they know you

exo? absolutely sure they know you

“one day we’re gonna have a dinner on like christmas with my family and yours” “baby they don’t even live in korea” “i don’t care we’ll pay” “STOP”

really treasures your relationship like i’m not here to play games i’m past mid-20’s this is Serious

and because he’s so worried and serious he nevers seems to let loose

which is probably normal since he’s a leader

but it makes him so !! all the time u get worried

once he actually CRIED out of stress

and you ofc were there

you kept hugging him tightly and slowly rocking his body with yours kissing his tears away as he kept softly saying “i’m fine, don’t worry”

you didn’t stop worrying

you said “if you’re fine then i can stay here hugging my boyfriend”

he nodded and kept sobbing for a little while

his head was pounding so you literally laid him down and cuddled him in your arms, fingers between his locks and hot breath on his neck

he once said the sound of your breath calmed him

so that’s what you did

you calmed him

and that’s everything he ever wanted

someone to be there for him on tough times like he’s always there for everyone

he loves the fact you’re always so calm and ready to solve any problem that appears

he loves the calmness and ““““normal”””” atmosphere you bring to him

after all those years of hardship and responsability

you showed him he could be a leader and have more fun on a daily basis

he deadass thinks abt your marriage

like it’s barely 6am, he wakes up and sees you sleeping next to him, hair everywhere on the pillow and mouth open

his heart goes 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

his arms goes to your sleeping body

& his mind “i’m gonna marry this girl someday”

idk i feel like i could write a whole ass fanfiction of 50 chapters on suho and id still have 100 scenarios of him in mind

i honestly love him sm

such a nice boy

he deserves so much more

give lota of love to him he’s perfect

that’s it i’m done

[peachymhaechan]

“Trust me, it isn’t just for the camera.”

Genre: fluff, babey !! nothin like a good ol idol au, am I rite, laid ease??

Warnings: bad words (like everything else I've written ever lol)

Pairing: Taeyong X female idol reader

A/N: junior year is almost over, thank god. I am so tired. writing this was such a good break from studying for my ap exams and cramming for finals. thank u, Taeyong. also, im working on something for the superhuman comeback, stay tuned, yall :)

you had been a model for sm for a few years now

well within your first year you had gained so much popularity that you became the company’s most hired model and had received a nickname from your employers and fans

you were their Golden Girl (hhhhhffk listen,,, we been knew I ain’t creative), and everyone was dying to work with their Golden Girl

most notable for your bubbly personality and striking looks, every employer was fascinated by your ability to pull off any look 

very similar is lee Taeyong, another artist signed to your company

with his stark beauty, it was no understatement to say that you would not have minded working with someone as pretty as him

so, when your manager told you about an upcoming project where you’d be working with Taeyong and a few of the other nct boys you were #sh00k to say the least

“wait..... WHAT?!” was all you could say in response to your manager telling you the good news

“Yeah, I know. I know how long you’ve wanted to work with him. Well, get ready. For this photoshoot they need you to have bubblegum pink hair, and.....” 

for the next few days, you tried to mentally prepare yourself for what was about to happen

yeah, you guys were signed to the same company but that doesn't mean you saw him all the time

you had only seen him once, and that was when you had just become a trainee and were walking through the halls to try and find the recording studio on the third floor

you accidentally went into the dance studio and found yourself interrupting a dance practice for nct u

“Sorry, I have to find someone in the recording studio, where-” 

“You’re fine, don't worry about it! If you go out this hallway, make the next left turn and it should be the second door on the right,” Taeyong said, giving you a small smile 

that was the ONLY interaction you had with him, but boy even when covered in sweat was he gorgeous

and you got to WORK WITH THAT 

the day finally came where you got to work with him yayayay

you woke up at 4 am after having only 1 hour of sleep, thriving

you got up and took a quick shower, did your skincare routine, and changed into comfy clothes for the day

on your way to meeting your manager you grabbed a few coffees for the staff as a thank you for the opportunity

you met your manager at the company building and it started to hit that 

//ohmygod this is really about to happen//

your manager tried her best to calm your nerves but damn, you were not having any of that

scrolling through Instagram, you anxiously awaited the company van that would take you to the photoshoot set

when it pulled up after about twenty minutes of waiting, you and your crew piled in and then you heard your manager tell the driver to hold the van for a few more minutes, seeing as Taeyong and his people were running a little behind

that only made your heart beat even faster

hgjaonfnwnw anxious from waiting, you just wanted to get it over with and rip it off like a bandaid

five minutes later, you saw three people walking over to the van

one of which was wearing sweats, sneakers, a hoodie, and a mask

you automatically recognized who that was despite the baggy clothing and half hidden face

oh fuck oh shit

one of the other two men talked to your manager, who had gotten out to speak to taeyong’s manager and the other person there

Taeyong climbed into the van and made eye contact with you in the back row, spotting the empty seat beside you

“Is this seat taken?” he asked, nodding to the spot right next to you

you felt a blush creep into your cheeks and your throat started getting closed up from nerves

so all you could do was shake your head no

he sat down and gave you a small smile, then started yawning and stretching out his arms

you had one extra coffee left from earlier and you figured it’d be a great ice breaker maybe 

“I have an extra coffee from a coffee run I went on earlier, do you want it? It’s not super hot or anything, but its still a little warm, and its caffeine,” you said and his eyes immediately lit up

“Oh, yes please!!” 

you grabbed the last cup from the drink carrier and gave it to him, and he thanked you right away

“How did you have enough time to go on a coffee run this morning?” Taeyong asked in shock

“I got up at four and am running on one hour of sleep,” you explained, not even trying to seem like you have it together

that's what its like being a hot mess, babey !!1

“That’s not good, you need to get more sleep. Were you out late last night with your schedule or something?” 

concerned mom? yes

“I was out until about eleven pm, yeah, but in all honesty... I couldn’t sleep because I was very nervous to meet you.” 

bro you need to get some sleep and get your filter back in place

bc when you get no sleep?? a bitch has NO filter whatsoever

Taeyong was genuinely surprised that you were nervous to meet him

“Really?? You were nervous to meet me?? Why, am I really that scary or something??” 

“Its not that you’re scary, exactly, but... I have wanted to work with you for a very long time, and it still hasn’t fully set in that this is my reality.” 

he nodded after you spoke, and it seemed to both impress and confuse him

no matter how popular him and his group got, he never got used to having people look up to him

and to hear it from someone as successful as you, someone he has constantly seen in the media for so long?? mind boggling

it kind of made him nervous tbh

before he could reply, the managers and everyone piled in and the van started moving to the photoshoot set

as soon as you guys left the company building, your head leaned onto the window and you passed tf out

when you woke up, Taeyong was tapping you on the shoulder and telling you that yall got to the set finally

taeyong’s face greeting you when you woke up? shocking, but not an unwelcome sight

“Alright, we need to get you guys into hair and makeup, then we will send you both over to wardrobe and they'll make any last minute touchups and then you can get to work. Sound good?” your manager told you two, and when you both nodded, she immediately directed you to the makeup studio

your artists were very excited to work with you, which made everything much more pleasant

“The feel we are going for with this shoot will perfectly fit your aesthetic and your features, I’m so excited!!” and “You’re naturally this pretty? And after only one hour of sleep? Oh my god, my under eye bags are permanent and it looks like you don’t have any at all!” or the occasional “I wish I could be as stunning as you without even trying...” 

it sounded like Taeyong was going through the same thing, as you could hear some of the other makeup artists gushing about his sharp features

“Wow, your eyes are so beautiful!” and “Your smile is stunning!” and “I wish I was half as pretty as you are!” 

you could tell it made him a bit uncomfortable because he sat there with a :} face 

(unrelated but: that face looks like the grinch lowkey, ok sorry for interrupting lol, back to the fic)

you two made eye contact in the mirror and you could practically read his mind

I want this to stop, they’re making me uncomfortable, oh my god. 

to which your eyes said, Same here, and I am used to dealing with this on a daily basis.  

luckily, they finished putting shadows and liner on your eyelids, and then they sent you to the hair department

for hair, they teased and curled your hair, giving you a tired and just woken up look

well, a styled just woken up kind of look

Taeyong came in halfway through your hair and all they had to do for him was throw some gel in his and make it a little messy and he was good to go

by the time you made it to wardrobe Taeyong was already on set and getting individual pictures for the concept

they threw you in clothes, and by clothes you mean a men’s oversized white button up, short shorts, and a bright red bra

and before you could even leave to head to the set, they made sure that the first few buttons were undone on the shirt

to say you felt a lil bit exposed and cold was an understatement

the second he saw you, Taeyong had a glint in his eye and he couldn't stop staring at you

naturally, that made you blush and get really self conscious

?? wot

“Hello, I am your photographer for the day. This shoot is supposed to be sort of a couple, romantic fashion shoot, so I hope you two know each other very well and are comfortable with being close to one another. Do you two have any issues with that?”  

you both looked at each other, 

and then lee Taeyong, 

while staring dead in your eyes, 

said

“No, sounds perfect!” 

bitch

what the fuck was that supposed to mean ?! 

“sounds perfect” uhhhhhhhhhhh lemme get a mcfuckin explanation 

he gave you a small smile before you managed to get out, “No issues here.” 

that only made him smile more

njsdncvcaehcfabcafcb bitch!! you were whipped for him already

“Great! Let’s get started, then. Y/N, I will have you stand over here, and...” 

let’s just say that the photographer had you two start with basic stuff, like you two standing next to one another with Taeyong putting his hand on your shoulder and things like that

it quickly escalated though, and he had you doing things like laying your legs across his lap and running your hands through his hair

“Sorry if this is a little too intimate for you,” you whispered into his ear during another shot, where you were draped over his sitting form and your hand caressed his cheek

“Don’t apologize, it’s not. If anything, I’m a little flustered to have someone as pretty as you staring at me the way you are, Y/N, even if it is just for the camera,” he told you, shifting so that you were turned with your back to the camera and chest flush to his, your hands delicately placed on his upper arms, his hand resting on your lower back and you staring up at him

faintly you could hear the photographer say,  “THIS IS IT, THIS IS THE ONE!”

“Trust me, it isn’t just for the camera,” you mumbled, not able to filter yourself due to sleep deprivation

you thought he didn’t hear you, but then a smirk formed on his face and you knew you #fucked up

the end of the shoot was arriving, and there were a few more pictures the photographer had in mind, but he wanted to let you guys do your own thing and see where it ended up

“You guys can do what you want for these next few pictures, just do what feels naturally and I’ll angle it well.” very encouraging, right

making use of the pieces of furniture on the set, you decided to lay on the bright red couch and Taeyong looked down at you from behind it

“I couldn’t hear what you said earlier, can you say it again please?” he asked, trying to fish a confession out of you

Oh, Mr. Lee Taeyong, it won’t be that easy. 

“Hmmm, what do you mean?” you asked, purposefully trying to be as close to him as you could, so you sat on your hips to the side more and pulled him down so your hand rested on his cheek and your face was //right there, you could feel his breath on your lips//

(the photographer would have fainted there if he could get away with technical time theft while on the job)

taeyong’s breath hitched and a blush crept onto his cheeks and you knew you got him

ladies and gentlemen.... we got ‘im

even still, he tried to get it out of you

“Well, I thought I heard you say something under your breath before the photographer spoke to us,” he coyly explained, sitting down and pulling you onto his lap

at that point it became a game of who could get the other to blush more

and lemme just say, mama didn’t raise no lil bitch, so you were NOT about to lose

grabbing both sides of his face in your small hands, you leaned in and whispered, “I hope it’s okay that I’m going to kiss you now.” 

his eyes went wide, and then he said, “MORE than okay.” 

and the next thing you know, your lips were planted on his and the photographer was sobbing genuine tears

“THIS IS PEAK PROFESSIONALISM, OH MY GOD, IT’S BEEN YEARS SINCE I’VE WORKED WITH MODELS AS GOOD AS YOU TWO, OH MY, THIS IS THE SHOT THAT WILL MAKE IT BIG, I’M-” 

of course his enthusiasm made you start giggling, and you could feel Taeyong smiling into the kiss

when you two broke apart you leaned your forehead on his and stared into his eyes

“I think we both know what I said earlier,” you told him, throwing your arms around his neck

“Good, because I hope we are both on the same page,” he said, smirking slightly

“And that is?” 

and all he did in response was kiss you again, but this time not smiling from the photographer’ s goofy remarks

the photographer gave the okay after he got that shot and told you two that he wish he’d gotten to work with you sooner

the ironic thing here is that you and Taeyong wished the same thing

you headed back to the dressing rooms, hand in hand, getting stares from the staff but not caring much

or at all, really

#bad bitch club: RISE

“I hope you know that as soon as those pictures get released, people will assume we are dating, right?” you said, wiping the makeup off and combing through your hair

you quickly ducked into changing room, throwing on the clothes you were wearing when you arrived

you heard him chuckle from the other little makeshift room

you exited your changing room and found him waiting for you

“Why let them assume when we could tell them the truth ourselves?” 

and somehow, despite the crazy hectic schedules you both had, 

and all the crazy ups and downs of being in the public spotlight,

a few months later, when the magazine finally hit the shelves and the cover image was you two kissing each other and looking like the happiest couple in the world,

when you got invited to an interview to discuss the inspiration for the images and the experience of working with each other, 

you two walked in hand in hand, smiling brightly and looking like your average couple that was in love

and when asked if you two were dating, 

you replied, “Yes, and it has been the best few months of my life so far.” 

:) uwu

[dolansmith]

Thoughts on the “Trisha Drama”

I’m going to preface this with my previous thoughts of both sides. I didn’t know who Trisha was until after I found out about the vlog squad about a year ago. I didn’t mind her, i thought she brought out an interesting perspective to the group. Then I thought she was literally off her rocker. 

I loved the vlog squad bc I found them in a really difficult time in my life and they kept me from getting too deep into a depression. While I saw some of their mistakes, I saw the best in them all and hoped for change or at least some kind of accountability. 

This is gonna be really long and idk if anyone is even gonna read this/care lol but Im just so frustrated with a lot of the people that are into the vs. Like after really looking into everything that happened, I felt kind of ashamed to be backing the vs bc they’re doing some fucked up stuff tbh. 

So lets do a basic rundown of mistakes made. 

Mistakes in their public relationship:    -Trisha: made sexual jokes about jason’s friends, started arguments about her insecurities instead of starting a conversation.     -Jason: made sexual jokes about girl’s a decade younger than trisha (and 2 and a half decades younger than him), would complain about having to go do things trisha liked doing and would pout the whole time  (i.e. disneyland and a couple of the hamilton viewings), would egg on trishas insecurities, literally dumped her on a daily basis and call her crazy when she voiced said insecurities and then would basically get back together within an hour and practically give everyone whiplash, also talked about her weight and eating habits CONSTANTLY (fucking dick)    -David: inputted himself in their relationship, recorded their fights and encouraged their toxic behavior to both his friends and his audience

Mistakes in the “official” breakup:    -Trisha: talking about jason’s ex and kids, comparing david to ted bundy (a lil wild but tbh not that big of a deal bc no one actually believed thats what she meant but anyway), the brandon thing (we’ll come back to this)    -Jason: continuing to make jokes about fucking a 19/20 year old despite his gf saying she didn’t like it, not putting an end to David “pressuring him” to making said jokes, the brandon thing    -David: ignoring his “friend” when she said not to put something in his vlog, putting his image and career first

Mistakes after:    -Trisha: constantly going on rants about david and Jason.    -Jason: staying in contact with trisha secretly. (ill get back to this too)    -David: putting his image above all else. 

Now we’re going to get into some uncomfortable hot takes. I’m gonna get a whole lotta hate from stans but tbh idc anymore

The Brandon Thing (I’ve done some digging since her video exploding at Jeff): 

   -Brandon began a relationship with a high schooler. She was underage the first time they had sex. There’s receipts and timelines set up. I’d recommend Petty Paige’s Youtube video on it for specifics.     -Lot’s of vs fans say she only brought it up when her and Jason ended so that meant she didn’t really care, but I’d like to point out that she has stated (on more than one occasion) that she voiced her thoughts on this multiple times to the group in Private and no one cared. Y’all are always going on about how she should say whatever she has to say in private but when she does and is ignored, what then? Just a thought.     -Let’s also bring the rest of the vs up in this. How come none of them ever said anything? They’re the ones still out here tolerating him. Pretty hypocritical. I’m not gonna aim anything at the girls bc none of them have Brandon in their videos but the guys? Jeff, Jason, David, Todd and I think Scott too, have all had Brandon in at least one video. They’re out here talking shit about Trisha amongst each other but are friends with a predator? Lmao Okay, cool. 

Jason Keeping in Contact for months: 

   -This was dumb.     -As someone who has suffered from mental health issues and has been in a mental hospital and suffered from attachment AND abandonment issues, Trisha would’ve been better off had Jason ended things and kept them that way. Instead, he ended their public relationship and friendship. He kept her a secret from even his “friends” and then dragged on their “friendship” for months. For what? He should’ve just given her her things and closure and kept it pushing.     -On that, why did he keep her belongings for so long and refuse to give it back until she said something public about it? He ignored her calls and texts about her very expensive things for weeks. Then she made a video calling him out on it, and she got her stuff back.    -I’m seeing a pattern here, aren’t you?

The Jeff Thing (did some digging on him too...by digging i mean google):

   -This one makes my blood boil for several reasons. ESPECIALLY AFTER TODAYS VIDEO. It rlly put everything into perspective omg.     -The starbucks story that Trisha told was the same everywhere: ‘I saw Jeff at Starbucks and said hey. He ignored me and was such a pussy he left his order at the counter after having paid.’ His masculinity is SO FRAGILE that he twisted it into ‘I’m not gonna be fake with someone who fucked over my friend. Can’t fuck them up either tho lol’ and ‘i’m not gonna make shit easy on you, i’m gonna make them feel weird’. What a baby lmfao    -His assault joke rubbed me the wrong way. I know Jeff’s schtick is the whole “I was in jail for a few months and I was a drug dealer I’m big and scary” blah blah blah. Listen, I’ve met men that have been in jail longer (he was in for only 4 months he once said I think) and had worse upbringings than he did and HAD to do some of the shit Jeff was doing (which lemme remind yall, was on his own accord). The men that I know that have lived similar and worse lifestyles than Jeff, would never and I REPEAT NEVER, make a joke about assaulting a Woman over “fucking my friend over”, when the situation was what it was. Which was: an exposé, basically. That’s some petty shit, it’s for the birds. (Also, Todd and Jay’s jokes about the assault joke? Ain’t it. They were just as bad as Jeff’s original joke.)    -Do y’all know what Jeff’s been to jail for? He tried to assault someone that worked at a 7-Eleven after he and his dumbass friends were fucking around in the store and got yelled at and ended up assaulting a woman walking by.     -He also talked about her mental health issues. Maybe he wasn’t talking about her specifically, but it was REAL specific. He said that it was crazy that a “psychopath” that’s been in a mental hospital still had a platform on youtube. That they shouldn’t have one. Trisha made a really good point of, “some could say the same about your time in jail.” Because they could. And mental health can be managed. So can your outrageous anger issues, Jeff. This was really ignorant on his part.     -I also want to remind everyone about the time he said he didn’t understand how men could be sexually harassed. That all you had to do was say no.    -He says he likes to “make things awkward” and make everything a joke when really he’s just being ignorant and doesn’t want to get real hate when he gets inevitably called out

Trisha’s “Dirt”:

   -Trisha doesn’t know anything that the rest of us don’t. We’re just all IGNORING it. Why? Bc David’s charming and Todd and Jeff are pretty? Ridiculous. This is the last vlog squad post i’m going to make because I’m done. So the following is going to be a rundown on the “dirt” on them that made me come to the decision that I wouldn’t be supporting them anymore. I’ll also put my own thoughts and comments underneath in case y’all are curious. Staying silent about these situations is the same as complacency.     -Brandon Calvillo: Covered this but to reiterate, he dated a high schooler and slept with her/dated her knowing her age. He then lied about it in a video to cover his tracks.           *I am well aware that she was months from being 18. This doesn’t make it okay. What does a 26 year old have in common with a 17 year old? And just because this is the first girl we know about, doesn’t mean she’s the first at all or even the last.     -Durte Dom: He was accused of assault at vidcon.            *This hasn’t been confirmed. But it also hasn’t even been discussed. This girl is getting hate from vs stans and the vs have stayed silent. I can understand not wanting to show attention to people who make accusations for clout, but assault is serious and should at the Very Least be acknowledged privately or legally bc it could be considered slander. Don’t let your fans (or your friend’s fans) do your dirty work.      -Jeff Wittek: He has major anger issues. Makes jokes about assaulting women after actually having assaulted one in the past (accidentally but doesnt take away from what he did) and has made jokes about sexual harassment against men not being viable             *tbh he has a “pretty white boy complex”. Meaning he knows that he can say and do what he wants and most people will let it slide bc he’s a pretty white boy. No education needed.     -Jason Nash: Is friend’s with a predator, is quite possibly setting an awful example to his kids, namely his daughter.          *Listen. I’m a feminist, a woman should be able to decide what to do with her body after she turns 18. But being groomed and hit on by grown ass men when you’re barely legal, ain’t it. If you want to and feel ready, there’s nothing anyone can do to stop it BUT 9.9 times out of 10, that fucks a woman up in the future. One day, she is going to see her dad hitting on a 19/20 year old Tana and see that her dad’s  26 year old best friend dated a 17/18 year old and lied about specifics and might think that’s normal and how men should treat her. I won’t support that shit.

And as for all the other member’s of the vs, they either don’t care enough about what their friends or friends’ friends are doing, or they’re not bothering to even consider it’s happening and that isn’t cool either. 

Be better. 

As for Trisha, she’s had her own faults and fuckups, no doubt about it. I’m not a big fan of her content but i FELT for her. Her name has been dragged through the mud because of this more than anything else and it doesn’t sit right with me when her only real fuckup in THIS situation was bringing the ex and kids into it the way she did. Everything else either could have been avoided or she had a right to say to the public since they put everything about the relationship out in the open as much as she did. If Jason and David had reached out and admitted their own mistakes and asked her to stop talking about them online the way she was, she probably would’ve chilled out. What happened, what they and their fans (us) have done has been nothing short of traumatizing, no doubt. The way these 30 year old boys (Jeff, Todd, Scott and Jay) are reacting to her? They’re the real joke if we’re being honest.

Note: I’d also like to say that if you do still support them and have differing views than I do, I’ll respect you and your views no matter what. Everyones entitled to their opinion and thoughts. These are just mine. 

[tyrus-time]

my perspective on TJ’s story (as of 3.13)

Over the past few days, I’ve gone back and forth several times about whether to post my response to, yknow, the Gay Angst. OBVIOUSLY I’m heartbroken, as a Tyrus shipper and someone who is deeply invested in their characters as individuals, to see the two of them hurting. But I know this drama is a plot device and that Tyrus, one way or another, will be endgame. 

Currently, I am feeling anxious about how much development we will actually get to see for them... but that’s in the future, and I’m trying to focus on the now.

No, there’s some other stuff that made me feel angry and disappointed and honestly, foolish when I first watched the episode.... I wrote out a rant on my phone, and then I added to it later, and now I’m trying to make some sense out of it... now that I’m calmer (but still sad) about it. 

This is a pretty long, critical post, so feel free to keep scrollin! 

(I reallyjust need to get this out of my system so I can move on.)

I know some people are actually glad that TJ’s storyline is addressing homophobia, but I gotta be honest with yall: I, personally, am not. I’m honestly devastated that this is the route they took, especially since it still seems the gay themes are mostly subtextual. 

As of now, there is a LOT of room for interpretation regarding what is going through TJ’s mind and what Kira’s implied threat was actually implying. I don’t interact with children, like, at all... so I really have no idea how much they’d be picking up on.

And I feel kinda uncomfortable with the show using themes of homophobia/the threat of being outed/etc... just to create drama and conflict between characters? Using homophobia as a plot device in this way, without even beginning to deconstruct homophobia, comes off as semi-exploitative to me?? Which is probably because I’m just so tired of Gayngst, which is really my main issue with this storyline...

I am exhausted of the pattern of gay characters struggling with homophobia (internalized or otherwise) and this then causing them to hurt/betray their (gay) love interests. 

Being gay and having relationship angst is one thing. But always having angst related to being gay? It is a well-worn trope that I am do not like.

It’s “realistic,” yes, but it’s frequently been done before — hence the TV tropes page on it.

While it is important to portray the affects of homophobia upon LGBT+ and questioning individuals, there must be a balance! 

When Gayngst-y representation is the main representation you see, it feels like that’s the ONLY narrative. You are left with the idea that being LGBT+ means you WILL suffer, that you NEED to struggle with your sexuality/gender because that’s how the identity development process is ‘supposed’ to go. And it shouldn’t have to be that way.

(I speak from personal experience)

This is why I’m so passionate about studying LGBT+ media representation. Media informs us of social norms, scripts, expectations; what is acceptable and what is appropriate; how we’re supposed to think and feel and behave. It’s often very subtle, but all of those images and narratives become internalized and affect how you understand yourself, the world around you, and how you fit in to that world.

Media images shouldn’t just reflect society as it is today; it should offer images of a brighter future.

There’s this resonant quote from the musical Hadestown:

“He could make you see how the world could be, in spite of the way that it is.”

And that’s what I so dearly want to see in LGBT+ representation. 

It breaks my heart whenever people say things like, “it’s unrealistic for a young gay teen to be comfortable with their identity.” It truly breaks my heart and makes me want to change the narrative.

We should have stories that should how the world CAN be, not just how it often ‘realistically’ is. 

I want to see worlds that AREN’T heteronormative, because I’m hopeful for a future in which we truly do dismantle heterosexism. 

I want to see queer relationships that go through the “normal” difficulties of dating someone, such as dealing with typical awkwardness and learning to communicate better... instead of dealing with external and internalized homophobia. 

Perhaps I’m asking too much, and shouldn’t be this hopeful in 2019, but I will continue to assert the need for joyful, celebratory queer stories that diverge from the trend of queer tragedy.

And I really was hoping that Andi Mack could show this radical possibility that gay people can just be HAPPY sometimes, but.... this is Disney channel.... So I guess I’m not really surprised, but I am still disappointed.

Disappointed not just because I was hoping for an unashamedly gay character, but also because I could see TJ realistically having little conflict over his gayness. (I made a post about this months ago, and I’ll probably be repeating those points now.)

TJ’s concern about how people perceive him has been well-established, re: the dyscalculia storyline. However, I’ve always had an affinity for the concept that because he cares about Cyrus so deeply, he is able to come to terms with his gayness without as much turmoil as one might expect. I think this concept is even more valid after the gun incident, with TJ standing up to his previous friends in order to do the right thing, and admitting that Cyrus is the best thing in his life.

“But ash, this is just you being a hopeless romantic!” you might say. But wait! I have more evidence!

I now realize just how much I was projecting myself onto TJ in regards to his insecurities, and it really had nothing to do with romance:

I have always had this complex duality of “I don’t care what people think!! I gotta be true to myself” and “Oh my god, I care so much and I’m so socially anxious.” (I bet some of you can relate.) 

The thing is... while I feel self-conscious about my transness on a near-daily basis... I’ve been pretty unapologetically queer since I realized that I actually had a gay crush. 

Granted, I was already a big ‘ally’ with several LGB friends in a fairly liberal area, and this gay awakening was in high school (not middle school). So TJ wouldn’t have all of that going for him.

But my thought processes (regarding my insecurities) has always been: 

If people don’t like me for who I am, then they’re not worth my time... 

But if people negatively judge me for my abilities? Game over, I’m an insecure mess. THAT’S what I’m most insecure about: seeming dumb or weak or incapable. 

And again, maybe this is just self-indulgent projection, but I think this fits TJ, too.

In S2, TJ clearly is so insecure because he thinks he’s stupid since he struggles with math. And since he’s a jock, perhaps at first he can play off his bad grades with the whole “Oh, I’m a athlete, and getting good grades is for nerds, and I’m cooool” (or whatever rhetoric is used nowadays but middle school boys). BUT having a learning disability is far scarier, because it solidifies (in HIS mind) that there is something inherently wrong with his brain.

I could go on and on, analyzing TJ’s inner psyche, but the point is: 

I could see him being insecure about his physical and mental skills such as basketball and math, yet being self-assured of his sexuality. 

This would also be a realistic option for his character — in my opinion at least, because my own life experiences align well with this interpretation, and well, that’s gotta count for something because I’m pretty sure I’m a real person, even if my experiences aren’t widely shared?

TLDR; The way that they ended taking TJ’s character is a “realistic” option, but it’s not the option that I would’ve chose — both for personal reasons (personally relating to TJ, and wanting to see Tyrus be happy) AND social reasons (believing that children should be able to see a character who isn’t show to struggle with self-acceptance, especially since we already saw Cyrus be scared of himself for being gay).

This isn’t to take away the validity of anyone who DOES relate to/support TJ’s current arc! This is me just sharing my own perspective (and trying to get the sad feelings out of my system). 

My whole approach to media representation is challenging the “good representation” vs “bad representation” binary, because doing so is incredibly counterproductive and oversimplified. Instead, we should be constantly asking “What is the context for this representation? What is valuable about it? What are it’s flaws? How could be possibly do better in the future?” So I can see advantages of this particular storyline, but I also have some criticisms that I believe to be substantiated.