#if you have a tumblr i apologize i couldnt find it-

[playingonedchess]

characters: lets live together

people on tumblr: this of course means theyre canonically having sex, no what are you talking about i dont do headcanons my blog is all stuff based on canon

[iratusmus]

so bizarre to me when people give fiona a redemption arc like making her evil wasnt literally like the fundamental core of making her an actually interesting character. like . ok actually i was mostly planning on just leaving the post as this but im going to make a proper post whining about this because ive seen it far too often for my liking.

it appears to me that a lot of people do this because they dislike fiona/scourge which is like. sure i get it. but you could literally just... break them up . and have her continue being awful on her own. like scourge is not the reason she switched sides and i find the idea. 1) a bit misogynistic frankly but thats more of a personal gripe than anything else like god forbid a woman make bad choices of her own volition and not because a man forced her hand into doing it (YES i am aware that abuse makes this more complicated than that but also we .... already have a relationship in archie sonic that fits this exact bill. yes it wasnt written well but the wonder of fan works is that you can always make it better. so why are we repeating it again 1:1) and 2) demeaning to the point of her character.

like. ok. lets go over the facts real quick. as a kid fiona got put in robotnik's salt mines and got accidentally left behind bc sonic & co couldnt find her. she realized that nobody was going make the effort to go save her, so she dug herself out and started life on the run as a treasure hunter/thief. she didnt ever really accept the fact that sonic and mighty not saving her wasnt really their fault, and even after becoming a freedom fighter, nobody ever said anything or apologized or said "hey wow that kind of sucks you went through all that". she never really made any actual friends within the ff or formed any meaningful bonds. she starts dating sonic, but its pretty clear that the only reason they're dating is that she's his rebound post The Slap. the moment her history with bean & bark came up - after she used that knowledge to save everybody - sally immediately turns on her and sonic is the only person to try to stick up for her. as bark and bean leave, bean also insinuates that fiona isnt really a freedom fighter, and that she's still basically one of them.

fiona is a "bad" trauma survivor. when i say "bad" i mean in opposition to the ideal tumblr trauma survivor - the sad poor uwu bean whose trauma only inclines them hurt themselves and they become more sympathetic kind etc. as a result. fiona, on the other hand, blames sonic (whose fault this is, frankly, not) for her experiences, and becomes more jaded and mean. she has no real support system and people repeatedly tell her that she hasnt changed and that she wont change and she cant change. shes already got all this baggage by the time her relationship with scourge starts carrying actual weight - he's offering her a way out. if none of them are ever going to really accept her being "good", then she might as well just give into her worst impulses and join hands with scourge, who, notably, has no stake in this - he doesnt have any obligation to be her friend like the freedom fighters, and more than that he likes her specifically because of the part of her that everybody else hates. the important part here is that he encouraged her to switch sides, he didnt make her switch sides.

id say fiona's character in a writing sense is an exploration of the failings of the freedom fighters to support a trauma victim, and how those failings, while unintentional, lead that victim to specifically turn against them. she says "ok actually screw all of you guys" and gives up on trying to be good because nobody ever gave her any real encouragement and decides to put herself on a path of self-destructive revenge and inflicting her misery onto the general population. we can also recall at this point that this motivation is entirely removed from scourge and you can literally break them up and still keep her evil.

the other important point here is that she purposefully chose that path of turning evil as opposed to leaving the freedom fighters or going somewhere else or like literally doing anything else. she literally could have just left but she did not and thats what makes her Interesting. prompted by her unhealed trauma and personal baggage she made those bad choices for herself, and frankly i cannot for the life of me understand why people think that walking back that character development (and yes i mean character development. character development can also mean getting worse) for ..... what. snarky but with a heart of gold generic protagonist girl? come on guys

[exocynraku]

would you mind sharing how you go about drawing the anatomy (body/legs/tail in relation to head) of a cat? its like the main thing i struggle with that i cant seem to find all too many tutorials for. apologies if youve answered something similar you just draw really good cat bodies & poses

i have NO idea how to put my thought process into words but i do have this image which has helped me very much (its a pic of a cat i saw here on tumblr that i just drew lines over) and also one simple rule that ive been trying to follow lately: the cats head (w/o ears) should be able to fit into the cats chest area and if it does not your head is too big

heres an example i drew quickly !! i also want to say that this is if you want your cats to be relatively anatomically correct (or at least how my brain says it should be) if your style says otherwise that is OK!!!!!!!!!!! do whatever you want idc . i also do break this rule and make heads too big occasionally (usually on kits cuz its funny looking) head size compared to tail doesnt really matter (to me) tails are very silly fun to draw and i like to have fun with it and leg size i usually base off of whether or not i think this cat would be able to stand up (ex: i wouldnt give a cat like the one at the bottom on the pic above skinny thin tall legs their legs would be chubbier and thicker) i also often draw necks too thin because well thats just how i draw them which doesnt matter too much the only rule with that i put in place for myself is the body has to be at least a LITTLE thicker than the neck er i dont think i have anything else to say the only other thing i think i could give you is breaking down the different body parts (like i did on the first image) for some of my designs which could maybe help ? if you want that then just send an ask! actually with that breaking down different body parts if you want to learn good anatomy id reccomened just finding images of cats online (preferably ones with different body types & simple poses) and then segmenting off their body parts like i did in the first pic it helped me alot when i used to reference images (now most of my poses just come from my head) because then i had a structure to draw off of (think of how some people draw human bodies with boxes and circles and triangles) ok im done for realsies now sorry i couldnt helpp too much im bad at explaining my though processes lawl

[randys-ranch]

A whole slew of Nothing ahead. Proceed with caution. Or if you want juicy lore.

Two or Three years ago when i was kicked from the EPTG community i became severely isolated and started to wither more then i already have. I was already at my lowest point mentally because of school, personal relationship conflict, parental conflict and other such things- EPTG/Plainview were subsequently becoming huge pieces of comfort media and my biggest hyperfixations to date, you could say its "on me" for putting all my eggs in one basket, because i was bound to trip, fall and break all the shells.

Now, i do admit fault. I was a weird, horny kid- but from what i recall an enviroment was fostered briefly where that was a thing, i observed passively suggestive conversation and i had friends who encouraged it in private, one of them being a moderator. Its been years though, you dont need to know who it was.

I behaved abnormally, i would talk innapropriately, all sorts of weird shitty things. I deserved to get banned, but the subsequent fallout affected me poorly. I was okay with it for a long time but im beginning to realize this was kind of fucked up.

During "the purge" i believe only two people were banned.. me and Stella, i was never close with them but we spoke briefly- i eventually would distance myself from them however.. sorry Stella.

I was in the 'Gandhi Server' briefly, i was civil, tranquill(not quite), i tried to avoid the wrongs i had done in the past, i sat on my hands like this for awhile-dont know how long, but the damage was already done, i left of my own accord.

And i'd be isolated and tolerated by mutuals for about a year or so..

Some kindly folks would indulge me in conversation. If i were the one to initiate it. It was hard establishing relationships again, they were polite, very sweet, but not interested in conversation, thats fine.

People were allowed to not want to talk to me after all of that, but those folks seemed more sympathetic towards me.

I've largely been on twitter- before and after my first tumblr account was suspended because i beefed with who i believe to have had been the CEO or a tumblr mod on a private side blog during the Avery debocle- vehicles, smashing tools and combustion.

Im still alone. You'd be surprised to hear that feeling interest in Garten of Banban didnt get me very far, i only talk to a couple people weekly, im not in bustling communities, i can only try to find something akin to the past and hope i dont fuck it up this time.

Gyro is as good as dead, Gyro was my best friend. I loved them deeply. I miss them like a motherfucker but i cant have them back.

When what they've been doing came to light, i saw some people huddling together, discussing it in hushed whispers..

You recognized you were going isolate them, kick them to the curb- that it maybe wasnt a good idea. But you couldnt change their mind, we couldnt change their mind.

They were dead set on this pedophilic incestuos fantasy.

Im trying to move on from it, but i bring this up because People recognized what was happening, what treatment they were getting.

Frankly Gyros shunning was deserved and we couldnt feasibly keep them around-that much is true. But there is a selfish thought at the back of my head "did you learn this from the past?"

But Gyro has Mallory. They mutually enable this perversion, this sickening disease between them. Its going to be the death of the two of them. I dont want to think about them any more. I will brew in grief and regret and sadness for awhile, this is fine, im allowed to be angry and dissapointed. Im allowed to love something im not allowed to have.

I feel like im allowed to boil in anger right now. Kaz was exposed to be a self serving bastard- just before he was 'cancelled' i sent him an anonymous apology letter. I regret it. Frankly he doesnt need to forgive me nor do i need to continue to respect him.

I'd like to return to the media he produced that spoke to me so much, maybe the rose tinted glasses would come off and i'd see the stories for what they were? Maybe they werent that great? Haha i doubt it.

But due to general human decency..i think that approach to it is immoral. I promised myself to respect his wishes for me to promptly fuck off the second this all started, to stray from interracting with the media he produced and i'd even go as far as to stay from engaging with who he engaged with.

I respected the man for a long time, stayed away, thats good, i can pat myself on the back for that.

But i dont respect him anymore. I've seen claims this is all a smear campaign. Im not going to pick sides. The well of well wishes has dried up for me long ago.

Im trying to process everything, im trying to hold myself accountable for my past actions, i was a teenager now im a adult, but im also beginning to see the underbelly of the situation.

I think i deserve to be sour about the ordeal, its been long enough, and as people have said, Kaz is a bad person.

Maybe im being one sided. Maybe im being self serving in talking about it like that. Maybe people from the past with reemerge and remind me of my wrong doings.

But i'd like to make peace with it. There is a desire to return to EPTG and Plainview though..i think its been abandoned by everyone and noone cares anymore. But i do. I want to reread both, because i still love those stories, what they had to say, the characters within.

But i'd have to get his Good Graces in order to do that. I'd have to ask someone to let me speak to the man himself.

Thats not a favorable solution. Especially with the general perception that he is Bad.

Well atleast you still have people who love you, Diego. Someone to rally for you and advocate for you at your worst.

You, Gyro, have your new friends to worry about, pedophiles, zoophiles, "incest sexuals", yourself and Mallory. You disgusting, abhorrent bunch. You atleast have yourselves, in your endless digging of your own pit of despair. You will never crawl out. You will never be normal again. You chose a twisted perversion, you chose illegal porn over your friends. But you still have friends to call your own.

I hope you both can appreciate that.

[intimidating-fettuccine]

Don’t know if you still follow this but this post exists

https://at.tumblr.com/intimidating-fettuccine/are-these-accepted-even-thought-request-is-closed/fd18f170or4z

-🧶

I hope you have a good day! I’m sorry if that post doesn’t apply to canon anymore.

I TRIED SEARCHING TO SEE IF ID DONE FAVORITE COLORS BEFORE AND I COULDNT FIND THAT?????

Well thank you for sending my own post to me, but yes those favorite colors still would align with my canon. Cant believe I’d done it before and tumblr wouldn’t show it to me.

Anyone curious can click here so they don’t have to copy for the creeps favorite colors which I just forgot existed I apologize to that anon that asked me their favorite colors

[pixlpxie]

hello pix!! i hope youre doing great. i have been going through a weird turmoil with myself this past week and i literally dont know anyone who i can tell this.

turns out that after some intense self-reflection i managed to come to the conclusion that im a lesbian. pretty much bc i couldnt imagine myself in anyway living in the same space with a man or dedicating my life with him, contrary to a woman. however here comes the problem, i feel like an imposter bc i still regularly have sexual fantasies abt male celebrities such as ateez. i have and keep reading smut stories on both ao3 and tumblr involving them and after finishing i end up feeling guilty bc i feel like im just in denial with the fact that deep down im attracted to men.

maybe i will get told "you dont have to prove urself to anyone, you know your own sexuality better than a third person" but i honest to god dont have idea of whats happening inside my brain. i dont know if anyone else is experiencing this or has before, but how does one cope with this? if theres even a way. i apologize for the long rant, im sure that this is a handful.

This is a super valid thing to feel and let me tell you, sexuality is complex. Its not an easy thing to find out, its not easy to live it. Unlike what most people believe, sexuality is extremely fluid and can fluctuate a lot. And i understand you so much, yes ppl will tell you you don't have to prove your sexuality or that you don't need labels but at the end of the day you do need labels to not feel lost. That's why there are hundreds of them, because everyone has different experiences with their sexuality but if you cant really 'name' them its just most probably going to make you confused and feel excluded. You dont need labels, that's true, but let me give you an idea how it might be going for you right now. Romantic and sexual attractions arent necessarily mutually inclusive all the time. This is something many people tend to miss. You can be sexually attracted to multiple genders while romantically being attracted to women. So maybe it can be like being bisexual and homoromantic. This is extremely normal and you don't have to feel guilty about it. Although its debated whether celebrities really qualify for an attraction as they are almost fictional for us. But that's another topic and i don't want to confuse you more. So the best thing I can tell you rn is that don't be ashamed of what you're feeling, and give yourself time. Trust me you will figure out or your desires will become more clear to you. And don't try to limit yourself, experiment with and live your sexuality. Like i said, sexuality is fluid so please don't expect yours to have clearcut lines (although you probably want it to have bc its just safer that way). I hope I was able to help you. I'm not a lesbian so our lovely lesbian bloggers can help you as well🥹 pls don't be hard on yourself ily <3

[djdangerlove]

i will have you know - first of all, you changed your username and i couldnt find you for a moment and i had a near panic attack SECOND OF ALL

If this isnt you I apologize but im like 90% sure it was you who put Eddie into like. Every tumblr ad and ILL HAVE YOU KNOW THAT YOUVE RUINED ME I SEE ANY TUMBLR AD NOW AND IM LIKE ACTUALLY LOOKING FOR EDDIE IN IT. WHATG HAVE YOU DONE.

Oh no!! I’m sorry! But I need to be Eddie coded for a while 😂 and I have no idea what you’re talking about with the ads

[captainaikus]

NO cause I wanna say thank you for tagging me in that Bachira gif 🥹🥹. I was literally just minding my own business 2 days ago and then BOOM that one specific Bachira clip start looping in my head and I became deceased on the spot 💀💀😭. AND I SERIOUSLY COULDNT FIND IT ANYWHERE I was so upset and then you being the angel you are just proceed to casually tag me with the exact post 😭😭😭. The way I wanted to tackle you in hugs at that moment asdfjkgffghjjhn ❤️❤️❤️. ALSO see there’s a reason I specifically avoid talking abt yandere Bachira because I know once I do then I’m just going to go phoosh and perish. Like I cannot even begin to think abt yandere Bachira or else I’d never leave that rabbit hole. That is too strong a concept for me to handle💀💀😭.

OH HO HO yandere one-shots you say?? 👀👀 I look forward to it 😌😌. Also you don’t have to apologize abt taking a bit to get to asks especially not mine it’s okay love I know you’ve been busy get to asks when you can. Rest and don’t overwork yourself okay? NO because the way Reo would actually be the worst/best yandere out of all of them. And that’s REALLY saying something considering the show is literally abt yandere soccer players 😭😭🤚🏼. Itoshi brothers are in no question yanderes literally both would be insane abt you.

Is figuring out ao3 going well? I adore ao3 so much everything so chill there and it’s super easy to navigate and the way I’ve found almost all my favorite fics on there *eyes the 500+ tabs I have open simply for ao3* Thevisername sounds very interesting. Did you make it up on the spot or is there a meaning behind it? I’m just curious.

How’s the second part of the Oliver coming along? Don’t push yourself into writing more than you can handle alright? Short and sweet is great too. Extending it to 7 parts sounds like a great idea. It’ll allow you to take your time and fresh out everything more. No cause I’m scared now that you said you cried writing part 2 😭💀💀. ALSO!!! YESSS A PLAYLIST OR SONGS FOR EACH CHAPTER TO SET THE MOOD WOULD BE AMAZING. I always love it when writers go out of their way to choose a song for their fic it just makes it a whole experience and I adore finding new songs through it.

How are you? How’s uni? Did you finish getting through those ancient textbooks? OH AND HAVE YOU SEEN THE COVER FOR VOLUME 31 FOR TR????? I tagged you in a post freaking out abt it but I don’t think you saw it 😭😭. Tumblr enough is enough 😐😐. Also I might have a solution for the tagging problem. I turned on tumblr notifications on my phone and I’ve been getting the activity and tags and messages and stuff now so maybe you could try that. Anyways. I hope you’re having a great day and that you sleep well!! *sends many tackle virtual hugs*

- ✨ anon

*me sees Bachira gif* *clicks like* *tags you cause I knew you were gonna like it* Bachira just hits different when he... looks like that. *is getting ideas to write*

Ego made them yandere footballers. I can imagine if they are that passionate behind a ball, how passionate they would be behind a person... it would be terrifying but the yandere impulses are just. 🤌🏻✨ I- I have tabs open cause of fics that I like reading on ao3; still figuring it out, gotta wait like a week or something to change the username again and by that time i should be able to finish writing part 2 and a yandere oneshot - The username is actually gonna away spoilers for part 3 to Oliver's series based on a song that I grew up with. So you'll find out when the time comes As for the second part to the Aiku series... its going the way i want to... and it got emotional for me; you're gonna see why too *doesn't want to spoil part 2 cause there are so many things coming* And then while I was writing, there was more routes open in my head so i plan on keeping the actual plot upto less than 10 parts - but the number of chapters shows '?' on ao3 cause then I can make spinoffs on the series the title of the chapters for the series is based on songs- that remind me of the chapter and describes the plot of it in a rhythm and lyrics. I'm doing good! Binging childhood movies and series, uni's been annoying *has to do a secret santa and i managed to get the guy that no one likes - for good reasons too cause i gave him enough of chances and he wasted them. and i think he's being nice to me cause he wants me to get him what he wants for christmas... his present is coal. Santa told me to do it.* i took a break from the dusty books. didn't touch em for 3 days now oh... you tagged me? I'll take a look into it. Tumblr sent me a congrats post of getting 50 likes. me - tags post : # tumblr stfu, # i've done better than this, # rubbing it in my face first thing in the morning. *clicks post*, *receives* - oops, something must have goofed up. ao3 here i come *sending funny mood panels and big hugs*

Oliver, this is us about you - ಠ_ಠ

[minniepetals]

hi!!! so funny story

i remember reading rose&throns like 2 years ago? during pandemic (i think?) i couldnt stop and finished at around 2/3 am (it becomes my core memories for some reason)

fast forward i didn't keep up with the fic and i lost the fic, and yesterday i remember reading your fic and i have the urge to find your account and reading rose and throns, I WAS SCAVENGING THE WHOLE TUMBLR AND GOOGLE TRYNA FIND YOUR ACCOUNT, THE HAPPINES I FELT WHEN I FINALLY FOUND YOUR ACCOUNT

thankyou for making one my core memories!! <3

sorry for the bad english!!

damn, it's been that long since rose and thorns came out?? i hope the search didn't take too long lol, i wonder if one were to search on google something like "tumblr bts poly dragon fic" my page would show up. don't think there's a lot of dragon fics out there, much less poly versions of it.

i'm glad i was about to create a core memory for you tho!! rose and thorns helped me get through the boredom that came with quarantining so i'm happy i created good memories for you to look back on 💗

also don't apologize for bad english!! it's perfect!

[chogiwow]

dude so i saw ur reply last night but i was in desperate need of sleep but also didn't sleep bc i was just engrossed in a book IVDSNS BUT this morning i opened up my inbox and couldnt find ur reply and was so confused and as i continued to be unable to find it in my inbox i got sadder and then i realised im stupid bc the reply wouldn't be in my inbox 🧍‍♂️anyways semi-long reply sorry hehe (semi-long bc ive defs sent longer ones)

ahh i see i see @ substack. reminds me of medium, which i've come across before... i did debate exploring medium as another writing platform, but never got around to it vsjnvks so its nice that u bring substack to my attention bc now i can compare 🤩 well. maybe not now now but yknow. whenever i decide to/can get around to it NVJDKNSK

100% agree w and have had the same thoughts as you about fics/continuing to write/the pub industry (which i really should give much more thought to, given that one of my degrees is in writing🧍‍♂️) and yeah no it DOES serve as a good incentive to build a portfolio (if anyone asked me for a portfolio, i would simply hand over my uni work bc i have nothing else rn LMAO) but tbh i think even if it is a hobby, it's a good way to kinda explore and set your ??? idk like foundations or whatever so you get an idea of what you wanna write about and if you actually wanna take it seriously (which isn't to say you aren't - we can 100% take hobbies seriously - just that different contexts/intents would call for different. things. wow i love words.)

and also related but unrelated, i think its fun/nice to. uh. idk how to say it but for us (as in literally you and me, but also other mutuals and people in fandom who made friends in the context of fandom) to see eachother write or talk about things outside of the uniting factor or common denominator or whatever? though yeah that does kinda potentially extend the relationship beyond what some people are comfy w. i'm kinda just rambling rn sorry AHHA

OH BUT BUT sorry back to the publishing/career thing. Even if you don't use the substack writings for like. writing/publishing careers, it can still help with other career things? like, you run a blog and hav experience writing about diverse topics, communicating ideas etcetc. so no losses 🤩

do not feel guilty about the chan fic 🙂‍↔️ yes i love/d it and i think about it and yes i would love to read more BUT im so happy to have just been eble to experience it at all. i hope you've never felt pressured by my responses to it KNVDSKJNVDSK sincerest of apologies if you have.

tbh i havent been up to much, i don't think. shits kinda hit the fan tbh but i'm hoping (always hoping) the only other place for the shit to go is down, now. (ie. i hope this is the part where things start getting easier etc). it is what it is, even if it shouldn't be, and we'll somehow get through it because. well, we have so far, right? BUT ANYWAYS

"anything you wanna yap about-" BOY do i have things to yap about. that book^^ i was so engrossed in? jesus CHRIST i sent my friend 10mins worth of voicemsgs JNCDKSNDSK (it may have been 10mins because i simply i can't articulate properly and kept repeating myself and going off on tangents.. but it probably would have been 10mins anyways if i'd planned and scripted it all before hand anyways. it was only 10mins because i got tired and realised i should probably see how much ive spammed 💀) ("kat... 10 whole minutes? 😭" babes thats not even the worst of it-)

i also like to 'yap' about the stuff i learn in class (my other degree/major is in media and cultural studies) and i just 🤩 have so much to say about some things that i find so so interesting but me talking as much as i do/want to is also just. i find it interesting and really wanna share and talk about it KJNVDSKJVNSK so like yeah, to bring this full circle, is why i've vaguely thought about using medium/substack,,, tbh i thought about just making a sideblog here AHAHA but i cant take myself on tumblr seriously LOL + 'fresh' start on new platform sounds neat mhm mhm but also hehehe (evil) maybe instead of spamming my friend about stuff, i can just write blog posts and she can read it whenever hMMMM thinking thinking,,,

anyways 🧍‍♂️sorry, i was expectin this to be long but it ended up longer than i thought it would HAHA wait no im rereading my ask/reply rn and substack just sounds great bc i can do informal reviews about things i've watched/read aswell AHHHH and yeah like just ??? more personal though explorations/'journaling' kinda vibes as well? HMMM AND and even mini writing pieces--- i literally do not have the time to be considering this rn but here i am wHOOPS okay i'll stop now before this gets even longer 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️

hi katttt, i'm so sorry for the late reply :'D apparently i'm in the phase of my life where i can only type out articulated replies on my laptop and not my phone, also week's been sooo hectic i hate being a corporate slave fml <3

lmfao not you tryna find my reply in your inbox sdjskd all's good tho hehe :3ooh medium is ... something, i couldn't really figure it out all that well and also the few times i've tried to read on medium, it's asked me to subsribe or sign up to continue to read? and i just don't ... vibe with that lol

yes yes, tryna write about real life stuff really makes me pause once in a while and just think (?) it through bc writing fiction is gen easier than trying to string together the raw ideas relating irl issues/stuff (for me at least). like it really makes me stop midway and rethink my choice of phrasing stuff or even putting forward an opinion thinking about how its gonna make people percieve me? well, not that its not sumn that doesn't apply to fiction as well bc i kinda think that the way one writes always just brings about some sort of perception of their character and personal views through their words, no matter how subtle ... am i making sense? but fictional writing just lets you cloak it into a 'what-if' situation where any judgement of your story/character(s) is not a direct discernment of your personal opinions whereas talking about irl stuff always comes with that concious load of having your opinions/thoughts being obligated to a verdict (positive/negative/both).

so anywayyy sjhdj, yes it's fun to just write and pursue as a hobby bc its fun communiatingideas and realise that it might not be all that irrelevant as you thought haha :>

and noooo, i absolutely love love LOVE reading yout tags on my fics, like i legit go back to my old writings and read the rb tags and it always makes me so happy :( i do want to continue writing fiction bc its always been a comfort to me to be able to weave stories my way, but i suppose everything has its own time to unfold and settle ... sometimes inspiration hits so bad but the will to write it out is just not there :/ but anyway ! i'm glad that you've enjoyed my writing so far <3

yeah, things don't don't need to work out all the time. i'm realising this the hard way, through adulting. really makes me wanna go back and give my younger self a good whooping on the ass to have ever wanted to grow up fast so desperately. but yeah, hope your shit works out man (✿◡‿◡)

lmaoooo no bc ! its so fun to just simply yap about stuff , that's like writing but ... verbally ,,, you could litch rally make a yap blog and i'd read it alllllll :3 also what book is this, drop the nameeeee :'D no but like i get you not being able to take tumblr seriously bc i was like ! i can't talk about this shit on tumblr ! tumblr's supposed to be for my clownery ! all the grownup stuff needs a different platform altogether sjsdksjd but if you ever consider making a blog, i think i'll read it fo the vibes itself. and the words ofc and opinions and stuff. like that's important too gaaaahhhhh what i'm saying is ,, i think you'd make a really amusing and entertaining blog - in a good way !!

anyway ! i think i needed a medium to unscramble the crap in my brain so the blog served well (even though it was an impulsive decision lol) but yeah ! go for it, you won't regret it. nobody really gaf's in the beginning, like readership is low babes, unless you have friends who will actively read your shit but that's a big comfort to me lololol. not sicouraging you in anyway, but its a point to consider if you're looking for a chill sesh with your own writing haha <3

[al1fers-haven]

UPDATE ON ALIFER ❤️

Hello, I know it’s been awhile since I posted. Months actually sheesh lol. But I’m here to give some updates

MY WRITING.

Sadly, I do not have it in me to love Hazbin hotel anymore, during the time Hazbin came out and I loved it I was with my ex who I now associate it with. And I just can’t find the love I once had for it :(.

I thank you all so much for the love and encouragement throughout my journey as a writer and I will continue my writing, just not for Hazbin hotel or helluva boss. I’ve been writing small things to try and bring up my motivation and I now finally have it :) no thanks to all of the night comments and asks I got while I was away and writing. I thank you all for becoming the beacon that called me back to writing.

MY LIFE

Life ever since the breakup has been hard. I’ll ramble a bit on this one so please forgive me.

Awhile back me and my boyfriend had an ugly breakup in April, the relationship was not kind to me or the things I love and overall tore apart anything I had to call my own. It was toxic and I now see that for all that it is. While inside of this relationship, when I started writing on tumblr again. My boyfriend at the time thought I was weird, and would tell me over and over again how weird I was to be writing to people online, how ‘chronically online’ it was to find an outlet for something i found so endearing. i tried so hard after he bashed me for it to find it in myself to write, but i couldnt. and i say sorry to everyone who didnt get their requests like i had promised.

i've been working around my personal blocks and on myself as well and reconnected with my family and friends that he had pushed me away from, i now talk to my mother a bit more often than i used to and i apologized to the friends i had pushed away while i thought he was the one. ive been staying on and off at my older brothers house and found myself realizing how alike the two of us are XD.

all in all, it was rough, but now im getting better. im not happy but i am content with how my life is now without him :)

MY ACCOUNT

i will be switching acounts i believe, i am focusing more on the writing I want to do and focusing on that instead :) I found out that I put everyone before me a good majority of the time…and I think I need to create a safe place in writing where I can be appreciated based off of my writing and ideas and not others . So forgive me for that, this account will still be open for everyone to look back on, but I can’t find it in me to keep it because of the memories. I hope you all understand, and if you’d like to read more of my stuff my new account will be posted soon ;)

[jenosdaemi]

hi, i am a new follower and i have been looking for your (before i had you) renjun fic for weeks because i suddenly couldnt find it anymore. i just discovered what happened and i am really sorry you went through this. i also really miss your fics but i still understand why you made this choice. please take care of yourself and i hope you always be happy. and if one day you decide to write again we will be waiting for you

This really warms up my heart by a thousand times 😭 I have been very angry when I found out about my stories being stolen, but since they’re all deleted now and this person apologized profusely (i do know this person personally outside tumblr and all) i am more comfortable being around here. For a moment I see all of you (IM SO SORRY) for stabbing me behind my back. But I am done being angry. Thank you so much for you kind kind words 🥺🤍 And I’m sorry for hiding your favorite story. I will bring them back once I’ve gotten time.

[angelmyspace]

soo its been a while...

hey guys.

firstly i would like to apologize for leaving without saying much! a lot happened that ill get into later but im ok! well as ok as everyone else on this website （　´∀｀）(do people still use those idk...) it was wrong of me to leave yall for so long without a little explaination but i just couldnt find one to give. i would like to thank you all for the kind words and the continued checking up on me even long after i stopped responding. you all were always so kind to me.

ok ig to the reason i left. my mom tried to kill herself. it was my dads birthday and coming up to their wedding anniversary and ig it just got too much for her. ive spent the last year and a half helping her back on her feet. i got a job to help pay for things and we have moved into a smaller house closer to school. for a while when she was in the hospital i stayed with ##### shes really nice and her family had a spare room from when her sister went to uni! it was so nice to stay in their house! they treated me like the world wasnt falling apart without ignore that it totally was! they understand things in a way i dont think ill ever. they are also so kind to my mom and every week we have dinner together! im glad my mom is doing better but ill also always look back at that time in their house with joy. ##### said she loved living with me and it was like a "peak into our future" (we're going to go to the same university! and get the same jobs! and get married together! and everything! we made a vow!). i want to be with her forever. my mom back on her feet she goes to therapy once a week and says shes never do anything like that to me again. i love her so much. i dont want her to ever die. if i could create one thing as a scientist itd be to make mothers everywhere immortal!! and happy!! we're all doing much better! im so excited for the future!

for things on here i did see taylor live and she was AMAZTASTIC i got sooo many photos ill post them all in a seperate post!! ill get back to doing my dairy/blog thing weekly but the oc story thing i have is probably dead now... sorry i just dont have any ideas or motivation for them anymore but that doesnt mean im dont creating!! i have soo many more ocs i want to introduce to you! as well as so many fandoms i want to get into and so many old fandoms i want to catch up with (ive been watching supernatural what did we all think of that final 👀)! ive missed you all soooo much!! im excited to be back and to hear about everything i missed out on!

sorry for the messy post ig tumblr is not like riding a bike haha!

[squid-with-five-eyes]

hi!! i was perusing the Marxist feminism tag and came across one of your posts about why there arent many non-terfs in the anti-porn tag. anti-porn/anti-sw is a very popular "terfy"/radfem viewpoint but i promise there are marxist and intersectional feminists who are anti-porn. i just don't think you'll find them on tumblr due to the vast amount of transphobic radfems on here. you might have better luck finding inclusive readings outside of tumblr. i do have some articles to recommend if I'm not being too forward here. also apologies for resurrecting a two month old post.

im totally confident there are plenty of anti-porn non-radfem feminists, i was just kinda expressing frustration that i couldnt really find their viewpoints on here easily. please send articles!! tysm

[bridgyrose]

I know you said you're not used to the style of the NATO AU, but how about a part 2 for it

(And somehow Tumblr is refusing to let me type a question mark)

(I made an attempt at part 2. I... have no idea where I really want to go with this, so I apologize.)

“How are you not freaking out right now?” Weiss asked as she watched Yang continue to train with her weights. “Ruby practically teleported us miles from where we were supposed to be, you punched a hole into solid brick and I created some sort of… magic glyph that kept us safe.” 

Yang grunted and sat her weights down. “And you… worry too much.” 

“Well I dont think you worry enough!” 

“And what exactly do you want us to do? We’ve already been to the infirmary, its been a week since any of that has happened and none of us have been able to do anything like that again. Maybe we were seeing things.” 

“Ruby got shot and her wound healed like it was nothing! Something is wrong with us!” 

“Or we got lucky that she wasnt shot as bad as we thought.” 

Weiss sighed and sat down, her body trembling in anger that she tried to keep back. “Dont… dont you want to know what happened? Why we were able to do amazing feats without breaking a sweat? What those… powers were?” 

“Apparently not as much as you do.” Yang stood up and stretched as she moved to the next machine and adjusted the weights. “We took Ruby to the infirmary and there was nothing that showed she was shot. We spent a couple days running tests and getting our blood drawn with nothing that showed there was anything out of the ordinary with us. Why does it matter this much to you?” 

“Because we can actually help people!” Weiss took a deep breath and sighed. “Not that we’re not helping people right now, but we can help more and keep people safe. We just need to figure out how these powers work and train with them-” 

“And then be used as weapons.” Yang sat down and grabbed the pull down bar, adjusting her grip. “Do you really think anyone is going to see us use anything like that and just… not send us out as super weapons? That… glyph as you called it, saved us from getting blown up. If you can show that you can do that over and over again, what makes you think they wont keep sending you out to dismantle weapon storages? Or to send you into an active warzone to evacuate any battalions pinned down with no regards to your limits? Having powers like these will give us more to risk our lives with.” 

“Then… we can quit.” Weiss paused for a moment as she realized what she had said, her father’s words running in the back of her mind. “We… we can quit and find something else to do. Another way to help.” 

“Show me that we can still-” 

“Guys! I think I figured it out!” Ruby yelled out as she ran into the gym followed by a flurry of rose petals. 

“-do… that…” Yang sighed and let the weights drop. “Ruby, arent you supposed to be on bed rest?” 

“Yeah, but I couldnt sit still and had to get up and go for a run and then it hit me: what were we thinking about when these… powers first manifested?” 

Weiss paused for a moment as she tried to think back to the moment she and her friends were in trouble, her hands shaking for a moment as she swore she could see the explosion right in front of her. Her fingers twitched as she moved her fingers around in a circle, drawing out the small sigils she had watched Winter make when they were younger. She stopped as she watched a white glyph appear in front of her, almost spinning in the air as she watched it. The glyph seemed to break as she lost focus, shattering and disappearing in front of her as she pulled back. 

Ruby smiled. “See? We can still do it!” 

Weiss nodded and a smile crossed her lips as she stared at her fingertips, watching a faint glow shimmer around them as the glyph broke. “Then we need to start training.” 

Yang slowly got up and shook her head. “You guys can do this without me. I’m just going to continue doing what I do best until I can retire.” 

“Fine, but when you’re ready, there’ll be a spot for you.”

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[hibikinumberonefan]

I’ve been somewhat present throughout both situations, with this account and the one they mentioned. Here’s what I have to say. I will admit that I am a biased party,

1. I will not argue the definition of proship or anti-ship here.

2. From what I understand, the account in question made the post, and then saw that the post was screenshotted to @/anti-anti-otonokoji-twins, and then panicked and asked for the post to be removed. @/anti-anti-otonokoji-twins refused, and the user then ended up taking a break from tumblr. I would also like to note that those screenshots are still in @/proship-yuuki’s pinned post.

3. That is true, however I was told that @/catgirl-izuru did tell you in private that @anti-anti-otonokji-twins was blocked by @cat-girl-izuru and then (I’m calling the account “otonokoji twins” for simplicity”) derailed the conversation, so he ended it.

4. That is true and I’m not going to pretend that @catgirl-izuru was doing the right thing here. I personally think mistakes were made on both sides, and was caused from anxiety and stress. Privately, I encouraged people to remove the posts mentioning otonokokji-twins, and to not make more.

5. Again, I am not denying this or saying they were in the right here. I do want to say however, that the people that otonokji-twins is addressing here are minors who aren’t completely equipped to make the best decisions. This isn’t completely an excuse, however, and I do disagree with these threats. Otonokoji-twins did not deserve those threats, and does not for trying to clear things up here.

6. I would like to thank @/proship-Yuuki for not continuing this situation or not sending that anon. I am not sure exactly where @/alloftheworldknowsmebynowsheep came from or who it was, and I will not speculate on that.

7. Some of the anons directly referred to the situation at large, and thus can only be in at least some way, aware of the situation. I will admit however, that I don’t have direct screenshots of this. I can say however, that this situation spurred them on, but whether or not they were your followers is something I cannot say. I personally believe the same goes for @/alloftheworldknowsmebynowsheep.

8. Sadly that’s the issue with anons. You can never know where they came from. Should @catgirl-izuru be assuming they’re from you? Probably not, but I won’t fault him for a knee-jerk reaction. I appreciate @/proship-yuuki saying however that he didn’t deserve the mess that @/allyhewprldknowsmebynowsheep, or any of the hateful anons.

As a short bonus, @/isthatafuckingcorpse was one of the ones to say things against otonokoji-twins, however they do not post uncensored gore fics, or at least in my opinion. The post otonokoji-twins cites as evidence was not exactly, gore in my opinion. However, this accusation comes from this anon that otonokoji-twins received

The first paragraph is addressing a fic that I wrote. People were assuming it was gore for some reason, when it was not. All of my posts with gore have written content warnings before the content itself. And that also is if I didn’t make a mistake, like I did with one of my posts. However, I’ve since fixed that and have not been informed of any more.

However, they’re not addressing @/isthatafuckingcorpse here not outside of the mention at the beginning, me. They’re addressing someone else. The user they are addressing however has gone back and added more appropriate content warnings to those writings.

Finally, to @/proship-yuuki because I want to make myself clear. The comment I made under that anon was not meant to be directed at you specifically. It was meant to express my intent to not put up with stuff like @/alloftheworldknowsmebynowsheep did. My apologies if it did not come off that way.

so first f all i should say i blokced Corpse after he sent me a long list of name n said 'why r u following these people they're bad', and when i looked into the accounts i couldnt find nything bad on them so idfk

im not sure still wht to think about this whole situation, i think ill have to do reserch of my own