#ig ill just starve

[sweetsweetbumblebee]

m hungy

[elizakai]

little doodle for @swiftmitsu pookie🥰

[mirpkechi]

sgave me shoeagaze. save me shoehaze and self destriction. hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[sushisocks]

bro iv reread ur macsummers fanfic at least 7 times this week😼

KJHGVFHJKJHGB OH ANON that's like once a day!! I'm honored, and so glad you like it kjhbvbnjbhvn I hope to write a lot more oneshots dedicated to them once I finish Attentive Vigor!!! The longfic has a lot of focus on them too, but MAN do I aspire to properly fatten up the macsummers ao3 tag in the future!!!

MEANWHILE, to tide you over, if you've not read these already, I REALLY recommend:

Burn Like Whiskey Flames by Lysandra_Lewis aka @ithinkthiswasabadidea (frankie I'm sorry I always tag u for this but I will be repping this fic until the day I die and I must pay my dues!!) This is actually my favorite macsummers fic ever - not that there are a lot to pick from but Frankie set the bar HIGH with this one!! I've ranted about it here on tumblr, on discord, to literally anyone who will give me the time of day to talk abt macsummers fics, because I always come back to it! Comfort fic fr!!!

The Differences Between Words by Bradleybeautiful. I'll be frank and say that the formatting in this one isn't my favorite, but the writing itself makes me insane. It's a Sean POV with some very eloquent and beautiful prose, contrasting him consistently insisting on his own stupidity, and that alone has been DOING something to me since my very first read of it. Very much worth the read!!!

ANYWAY Thank you so much dear anon for your support!!! I understand too well the hunger for MacSummers content, and while I'm so so glad what I've got to share thus far has been so well received, I really do want to contribute more than what I've been doing, once I get the chance!!

[bones-n-bookles]

Re: my last reblog i kept trying to Not Ramble in the tags and failing bc im incapable of shutting up so. Venty ramble in these tags instead of my mutuals lol

[laikahh]

i wanna eat but there is someonw vacuuming in the kitchen rn

[madaracore]

[icefang111]

McDonalds all day breakfast doesn't include hashbrowns.... I have never been so betrayed

[tinylittlebab]

hmm.

[whimsidollie]

Started crying while laying on my back and got so weirded out by the feeling of a tear going in my ear that it snappd me out of my spiral

[alixlives]

i want food but my moms bf is here with his kids

i dont like to make or get food infront of people ive just met🧍

[youaremysunshine-court]

When you want breakfast but no ones home and there's only rasgulla rasmallai and soundesh in the fridge

[aurae-rori]

Wanna ask if you have any headcannons for aventio modern au

( cause I am obsessed with modern aus)

hellyeah brother i'm here to serve the masses

hcs about ratio:

still a doctor still has 8 phds

knows about student debt and hates it with a burning passion

has a duck keychain that he puts on his keychain with all of his keys like the keys to his house

once crushed a soda can in his hands during his student years bcs he was that fucking mad about the homework questions not being stated in a clear manner (he just like me fr)

has several duck plushies in his bed and theyre all named after either greek philosophers or roman politicians

can speak latin fluently and mutters curse words and creative expressions in latin during the classes that he teaches because he is that pissed off

used to be a full time doctor, but decided to turn to teaching instead after some time

hyper-empathy due to childhood neglect (he just like me fr)

eyebags that he covers up with makeup, he still has those from his student years and cant fucking get them to leave no matter how many hours he sleeps for

enjoys occasionally a rum & coke

really likes lattes and london fogs

had a british accent once because he travelled to the uk and picked up on it, when he came back he was mortified

fucking loves ducks so much he has a camera roll dedicated to duck photos

he got to pet a duck once he was happy for the rest of the week thats how much he loves them

massive nerd & dork

undiagnosed autism with a side of gifted child trauma

really likes jazz and lofi it calms him down fast and makes him happy

wrings his hands when he's really happy

touch starved

makes really good soup

hopeless romantic

more mentally unstable than you think he is. he is actually suffering from burnout but doesnt want to let people around him down.

doing his best. sometimes on the weekends he just nestles into a cocoon of blankets and refuses to leave. texture....

cannot not wear socks he will die without them

cat magnet for some reason??? all neighbourhood cats are at his doorstep even when he and aven already have three. ig hes just cat dad now

aventurine hcs:

still has those glasses, his eyes are more sensitive to light too

really fucking likes fluffy stuff he loves the fluffy he loves the fluffy he-

big fan of sheep and peacocks

eternally terrified that ratio secretly hates him even when they start dating

bpd & adhd & probably autism (ALL BPD HAVERS FUCKING WIN WITH THIS ONE!!!!! I SEE YALL)

masks so often its insane

used to smoke and drink heavily, but has started to lay off ever since he met ratio

still an adrenaline junkie and still has his stupidly good good luck

really likes coffee too, coffee addict, has horrible eyebags, a shitty sleep schedule, and overworks himself half to death

cant fucking cook what the hell is a kitchen

very fond of stelle/caelus and sees them as his surrogate younger siblings. stelle taught him how to play video games and now he plays with them whenever his thoughts get really bitchy to him

horrible at relying on other people but is slowly unlearning that

can do a backflip (why? idk)

high pain tolerance

has a collection of sheep plushies that his friends bought for him

numby and him get along really well. he and topaz still have that sibling esque relationship.

i think he still works for the ipc in this au but its not as bad as it is in canon

starved of touch and does not really know what a healthy relationship is before ratio comes along

loves blankets he has like ten blankets on his bed at once idk why

once poured monster energy into coffee and then drank it. he suffered the consequences. even good luck can't save you from that

listens to generic pop (lie. he actually loves indie guitar)

MENTAL ILLNESS REP IN THIS MAN

accidentally big brothered some kids. help how does he deal with affection

buys stuff for stelle and caelus too. he buys them sheep plushies. they will defend said sheep plushies with their lives. they buy him racoon plushie in return. he does not cry.

his fingers shake so bad sometimes (PTSD goes hard)

motor skills can and will die on him occasionally

unhealthy coping mechanisms but hes getting better guys

he does relapse occasionally but hes putting in effort. finally got his ass to therapy thanks to ratio :)

second cat dad. he loves his cat children he will die for his cat children.

the cats like laying next to him as he eeps if ratio isnt there. they purr and help him with his nightmares.

(ily people w bpd you deserve this rep!!! enjoy :3)

them together hcs!!!!

ratio already had background information on bpd due to his psych degree beforehand but did more researching into it when he realized that aven had bpd because he wanted to support his partner as much as he could :)

ratio is big on physical touch but aven needed some time to get used to it and he was very big on it

aven really likes spoiling the absolute shit out of ratio and likes getting him gifts because sometimes he doesn't know how to word how much he appreciates ratio

aven likes to wash ratios hair for him and visa versa, non sexual intimacy always fucking wins

ratio still worries about aven and doesn't like him gambling all the time, aven makes an active effort to better himself for him even if it's really hard

at the start it was really fucking shitty between the two of them but eventually aven started to learn how to properly and safely communicate with ratio and ratio learned how to phrase his thoughts in a way that wouldn't trigger something, and although they both make mistakes they are doing their best for one another and generally have a good impact on one another's stages of healing (im not projecting im not projecting i-)

aven will hold ratio in his arms and tell him that he's good enough when the thoughts get really bad

they love cuddling, who's big spoon and small spoon switches regularly because they both like being held and holding the other

aven will stop by ratio after his classes and take him home when hes too tired

ratio shuts down sometimes and aven messes with his hair and just stays with him until he reboots

they kiss <33333333333

they cuddle so much they hold one another going to bed

ratio likes giving aven little headkisses and peppers his face with them

they are gay and in love and healthy actually

they were never toxic yaoi never will they be. they are healthy.

they get married <333

this is so much more than what you asked for probably but here you go.

[littleleelee]

Drabbles-?

uhm so.. first post ig-? These are just things i personally love in fics so imma just- put this here bc it'll most likely contain a ieawhat kinds of fics ill post xd

anyway,, GN reader bc yaahhh

For now im only doing one piece bc its my current hyperfixation x-x

i love reversal comfort fics, especially when its for naturally grump af characters like Law and Mihawk for examples, however i usually keep the opinion to myself because.. i always HC the grumpy characters to be so overly clingy when their with that One person they trust... like cuddly, lovey, messes.

like here me out rq

Mihawk just came back from doing fuck all nothing, for like 3 weeks. Hes Tired and annoyed af. Like even PERONA, aint bugging him bc she can tell hes just PISSED. His posture is fuck all off, like hes slump walking thro the castle. He stumbles his lank self into the bedroom you and him would share, that inconviently does NOT, have you.

~ so, He grumply groans around the castle trynna find you. He ends up finding you in the libery doing one of your hobbies, like reading or writing, whatever you can imagin, just chillin on a lounge sofa in there.

~ This 44 yr old man is puffing out his cheeks with a pout, taking whatever is in your hands and tossing it to the floor, IGNOREING, ALL protests, an plopping RIGHT on you. whether its your chest, lap, back, whatever he lands on is where hes staying.

~ "M-Mihawk?! dearest-" is all you can honestly say- your emotions are everywhere.

~ Eventually you just take it, not questioning him at all. Letting him rest.

~ You ARE, 10000%, teasting him later about it.

Law, is a tad bit different. Hes a touch starved workaholic of all things, pushing himself and isolating 100% of the time. So i do believe you'd have to be the one to break him open, and when you do he is just a babbling gloop.

~ Hes been in his office for however much hours again, for the umpthten time. You've had, frankly enough. Your not really his lover yet, but you are a decent-mounts close to him. So surely you can ineed, get something out of him right?

~ After storming in his office, you can see him with his head in his hands at his desk, as he slowly meets your gaze, he just melts into his desk. You walk over and speak like prolly 5 words, somth like

~ "is everything alright, law, youve been-" is probably all you get out before your shambled into some form of bedroom, and law just putting all his weight into you.

~this weight tumbles you both into the bed behind you. He aint even hugging you hes just, SINKING into you with his weight.

~Your 100% falling asleep like this, and law isnt letting you believe it happened.

probably gonna.. make a rule/masterlist post eventually. idk when, 4 now just comment smth or any reqs ya got! thanks for reading ~

[falllenstarr]

FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCKITY FUCK

whats with my mom and forcing me to eat????? i literally was slightly above 100 cals and was FINE but she insisted on making me dinner and eating as a family so i had no fucking choice

i’m literally gonna kms what the fuck i fucking hate eating. i lowk wanna purge but i am incapable of making myself throw up plus i don’t wanna start down that road

ig ill just have to walk even longer tonight to work it off. i feel sick.

and i hate to be like dramatic or making this something its not but it honestly feels almost,, violating??? when she forces me to eat??? like i am by no means comparing it to being like physically violated but its her taking my choice away and not respecting my denials and forcing me to eat with her. like ik she’s looking out for me and wants what’s best for me but what about what i want? i don’t want to stuff my face. i don’t want to be fat. i want to be thin. i want to skip meals. i want to starve.

[mercurydraak]

i downloaded I Was A Teenage Exocolonist the other day and. ow. i feel ill. it's so good. who decided to make a roguelike deckbuilding visual novel management sim with political elements. im going to kiss them with tongue. it does an incredible job of fucking with my feelings consistently like the first playthrough felt insane and then the second playthrough was also insane but in areas that i didnt even get to in the first one. spoilers ahead ig

sym is a fucking insane character to add ngl. his job is to wipe you off the face of the planet and he doesn't because he dreams about you to the point that he can convince his boss to consider keeping humans alive as an exhibit. he dies in front of you and then walks back up like "what are you talking about".

Tammy dying in the first year is SO effective at setting the tone. and then people KEEP DYING. and then they tell you at the end 'yeah you could've saved them. dipshit' like ok I have to replay this whole fucking thing now so I don't cry over my mum starving to death.

and then the reveal where sym just tells you oops yeah that was us we tried to kill you with fungi and starvation and manticores sorry xx. and I made out with him anyway. twice, even. ffs

AND you can also just END the game by transcending time?????? like come on what is thatttt

and then you get into the politics. like the IMMEDIATE thrust into fascism from Lum in the second half and the talking about colonialism with Dys and Sym. I'm going to go crazy. anyway this game has consumed me for now I think 😁